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Saving Stardust - 5,174 Words
Set in a world where Omega has been rescued following her second capturing and no one dies! The Bad Batch takes on one final mission and are tasked with delivering the Erso family to safety. Omega, being the traumatised bean that she is, doesn't take too kindly to Imperial scientists being on the ship.
Or:
How Jyn Erso ended up with her Trooper Doll.
I love Rogue One and this was a lot of fun to write! In this, Jyn is about three years old and the Bad Batch are flying their new ship, the Firebird (named after one of my favourite pieces of music ever). I hope you enjoy!
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Thank you for reading!
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Initially, Hunter had refused to take the job, no matter how well it paid. Their days as delivery boys were over and they had no interest in ferrying anyone about, not even if it was to help them hide from the Empire. That had gotten Phee frustrated with him.
âYouâre not too different from this family, Hunter,â she tried to reason as they walked to the Archium. Hunter shook his head, adjusting his jacket as he did.Â
âWe donât pull jobs like that anymore, Phee,â he replied. He tried to keep his voice even, but he knew he just sounded annoyed. âEspecially not since our last run-in with the Empire. We stay where weâre safe.â
The pirate sighed, exasperated. She was definitely beginning to see what Tech had always meant about Hunter being stubborn.
âThis couple have a daughter,â she pulled as a last result. Hunter stopped in his tacks at that.Â
Bingo.
Phee knew it was cruel pulling the âthey have a child and theyâre on the run from the Empireâ card on Hunter, especially seeing as he had shifted the universe to find Omega on Tantiss, but this family deserved to be safe and deserved to be together.Â
âUghhhh,â Hunter groaned as he ran his hands over his face in defeat. Phee felt herself beginning to smile. âIâll talk to the others,â he agreed. âBut if any of them say no, weâre not doing it!â
He rounded the corner of the street and made his way back to the home he shared with his brothers and Omega, disappearing from sight.Â
Of course, Phee had neglected to mention that this family had history as Imperial scientists⌠not exactly the squadâs favourite type of people. Hopefully the team would be able to see past that, the pirate mused to herself as she reached for her comm and prepared to contact the family.
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Two hours later, the squad were waiting for Phee to return from collecting the family. Wrecker impatiently tapped his foot and complained every five minutes that this was taking too long only for Crosshair to tell him to stow it each time.Â
Hunter could feel himself getting more twitchy as time passed. They had been waiting for nearly thirty minutes now, and Phee was usually more punctual than that. He did his best not to let his concern show though, as he was painfully aware of Omega stood next to him, not wanting to let him out of her sight.
This was her first mission since her return from Tantiss for the second time; Hunter had tried to persuade her to stay on Pabu with Lyana and Shep, but she had shot him down quickly.Â
âIâm not leaving you!â she had practically yelled at him, fear in her eyes and her voice. Crosshair had taken over then, reassuring her that she wasnât going anywhere and that of course she could go with them. Hunter had only been trying to look out for her.
It was times like these that he caught himself trying to remember how heâd coped with Omegaâs outbursts before Crosshair had gotten back.
Out of the shadows, the telltale figure of Phee emerged. She was wearing a cloak with a large hood, and was being followed by three figures. As they appeared and realised that they were safe now, they removed their hoods and relaxed a little; Hunter had been about to introduce himself when he felt Omega go rigid next to him. He glanced at her, trying to figure out what was wrong when he realised she was staring at the man⌠Galen Erso? Hunter followed his daughterâs gaze only to scowl at what he saw.Â
Phee hadnât mentioned anything about the Erso family being Imperial scientists.Â
He had been about to turn and give the pirate a piece of his mind, but wasnât able to take the opportunity as she had disappeared back into the shadows as quickly as she had arrived. Hunter growled and made a mental note to talk to her when they got back. How could she be so senseless?Â
âThank you for rescuing our family,â the woman, Lyra, spoke first. She had kind eyes and a soft smile on her face as she spotted Omega clinging to Hunter. âIâm sure you understand more than most how important it is to keep your family safe.â
Crosshair, who had also clocked the uniform now, rolled his eyes and stalked back onto the ship He clearly wanted nothing to do with this mission then. Wrecker followed him, but took a seat in the cockpit to help get ready for takeoff. That left Hunter, Omega and the Erso family stood next to the Firebird. The little girl, Jyn was her name, skipped onto the ship, seemingly unaware of the situation unfolding around her.
Omega started trembling, something she hadnât done out of the blue in a long time. Hunter gently slung his arm around her and held her tight. He pulled a face and sniffed dismissively in the direction of Galen before turning and heading towards the ramp of the ship. The couple followed him in silence, their confusion clear. Hunter, quite frankly couldnât bring himself to care. They had a job to do and he would be glad when it was over and they could go back to their safe haven.
He sat in the pilotâs chair before glancing over at Omega; she was sat stock still in the co-pilotâs seat, re-living something that he didnât know about. Hunter sighed quietly before turning his attention back to the controls.
He was definitely going to have words with Phee when this was over.
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The sleep cycle came around, but Omega protested against sleep. âWhat if you need me?â she asked, her eyes full of worry. Hunter sighed, not for the first time that day, but this time it was full of affection for the girl heâd come to call his daughter. She had been sat in silence up until this point in their trip, just staring blankly out of the port window or eyeing up Galen Erso warily.Â
âWeâll be fine, adâika,â he soothed as he opened her arms. She went to him and wrapped her arms around his middle. She squeezed him tight before retreating to her room - unlike the Marauder, the Firebird had two bunk rooms, each with four beds. He and the boys shared one, and Omega by default had her own room. This was a little different today as she was sharing with the Erso child and her mother. The three year old had found Omegaâs string of lights fascinating and had giggled as they twinkled. She had also taken up an obsession with Omegaâs new trooper doll; the young clone hadnât gotten around to decorating this one.
Hunter was a hypocrite; he had already decided that until the Erso family were dropped off at their destination, he wasnât going to sleep. They were Imperials, even if they were ex-Imperials, and the panic on Omegaâs face as she saw the scientistsâ uniform had been the final nail in the coffin. Hunter needed to be on lookout so that his kid felt like she could have a full nightâs sleep without having to watch her back. The look of fear had gone unnoticed by Jyn, who had tried to surgically attach herself to Omega, had not been missed by Galen and his wife.
Once Hunter heard the door to his little girlâs room close, he sighed quietly and turned to the nav-computer.Â
Slowly, everyone began to settle down for the night. Wrecker had been the one to crash first, mumbling a âgânightâ to Hunter and Crosshair and nodding at Galen and Lyra. Lyra had been second, saying that she didnât want to disturb the girls any later than she had to. She had thanked Hunter and Crosshair one final time and bid her husband goodnight before creeping into the room currently being shared by Omega and Jyn.
Hunter had listened intently as the door opened, but noticed no change in the steady heartbeats and heavy breathing coming from the two children within. Good, he thought as he carried on his work.Â
Crosshair had retired an hour or so later; he had spent a minute having a silent conversation with Hunter.Â
Want me to stay?
No, sleep.Â
You sure?
Go, Crosshair.
The sniper had grumbled about getting a stiff back as he stood from his chair and moved towards the bunk room. As the door opened he glanced at Hunter one last time. His look said it all.Â
If he gives you shit, you come and get me.
That left Hunter and the scientist. Galen Erso. Hunter knew enough to know that the man wasnât in cahoots with Hemlock, and he hadnât had his hands on Project Necromancer⌠but that still didnât being him comfort.Â
It had been six months since Omegaâs second rescue and it was safe to say that she had been nothing short of traumatised. It had taken weeks of sleepless and tearful nights, screaming episodes and panic attacks before she began to show her true colours again. He was worried that something as small as Galenâs uniform would send her all the way back to square one, and he wasnât sure if he was prepared to deal with that.
âI noticed your little girl has an aversion to scientists.â It was as though Erso could read his mind. Hunter scowled, trying to look busy for a minute or two before realising that it was going to be no good. He swivelled in his chair to face the other man; for some reason Hunter had been expecting to see some kind go smugness in his eyes, but he saw nothing but curiosity and⌠sadness?
âYou've had dealings with the Empire before?â
Hunter snorted before he could help himself. Had they had dealings with the Empire? Of course they had. They were clones for crying out loud. They had been there when the Empire was born. Instead of saying anything, he simply nodded. He wasnât sure how much he could trust this man, regardless of his departure from the Empire. The squad had learned the hard way that sometimes giving up information was a dangerous game. Information was priceless, and deadly if left in the wrong hands.
âI donât expect you to trust me, sergeant,â Erso continued speaking when he realised that Hunter wasnât going to say anything. âHowever I can try to express just how far removed I am from the Empire. I have no desire to go back to them, not after the chaos and destruction they have caused.â
There was a pause as Hunter eyed the man, leaning back in his chair as he tried not to see the similarities between them. In reality, Galen was a man trying to protect his family as they went on the run from the Empire. He was trying to forge a life for Jyn and Lyra that didnât involve looking over their shoulders⌠Hunter could see a little bit of himself in the man, especially in the way he doted on his child.
âOmega has been experimented on since she was a toddler,â he conceded, his throat tightening at the thought. âShe⌠she was kidnapped by Hemlock about a year ago and held captive whilstâŚâ He couldnât carry on. The thought of Omega being trapped on Tantiss made him want to be sick. Galen nodded, a look of horrified recognition in his eyes at the mention of Royce Hemlock. It occurred to Hunter then that Erso must have had some contact with Hemlock, even if it was only in passing⌠even if it was only at conferences when all of the scientists updated the Empire on their progress.
âIâm sorry,â he replied eventually and even though Hunter would have scoffed at that normally, he could feel the weight behind those words. He nodded at the scientist once more; Galen Erso couldnât undo the past, but him leaving the Empire was a step in the right direction. A movement that would damage the vile dictatorship that sought to destroy all that was sacred.
âWeâre recoveringâŚâ he trailed off with a small huff. âSheâs recovering, but itâs been a long journey.âÂ
And it wasnât over yet, it the Bad Batch knew this to be true. Whilst Omega didnât wake up screaming as often, didnât shy away from going outside, she wasnât the cheerful little girl she had been before. She was more withdrawn and still favoured being glued to Hunterâs side on missions. He had heard her pacing her room at night more times than he could count, but didnât intervene; if she needed him, she would go to him. He knew that.
As if their conversation had triggered it all, he suddenly heard a change in Omegaâs heartbeat. Her breathing picked up, only loud enough for him to hear with his capabilities, but before he could stand and move towards her room, she let out a sharp cry.
Galenâs head snapped towards the door of the room, his guard immediately raised but Hunter waved him down. âItâs Omega,â he whispered before a light patter of feet could be heard and the door to her room hissed open.Â
Omega appeared in between the two rooms, her breathing still rapid as she trembled; Hunter put her out of her misery by leaving his chair and crossing the room to greet her. He crouched down so that he was in her line of sight.Â
âB-buir,â she started, shaking as she reached for him. He grasped her hands, running his thumbs over her knuckles in a gentle, soothing motion.
âIâm here, âMega,â he soothed, plastering a small (albeit fake) smile on his face. The little girlâs breaths came out in short, sharp huffs as she tried to gain control of herself. âJust breathe with me, adâika,â Hunter placed one of her small hands over his chest so that she could feel the rise and fall as he modelled the way she should try to breathe.
âI-I wasâŚâ Omega glanced at Galen, tears streaming down her cheeks. Her breathing was beginning to even out again, but she was clearly distraught. More distraught than Hunter had seen her in a while. Hunter hushed her, instead encouraging her to just focus on him. On her breathing. On staying calm.
When eventually her breathing had slowed to a sensible rate, Hunter opened his arms. Omega collapsed into them, trembling and sniffling. The sergeant carted his hand through her hair; it was brushing her shoulders now and hung loose on this particular evening. They said nothing as he scooped her up and carried her to one of the chairs in the cockpit, ignoring Galen (who had the presence of mind to take interest in his holo pad).
Omega was wearing her pyjamas, a short sleeved top and shorts that came to just above her knee. Hunter remembered when heâd found her on Tantiss, how her arms had been mottled with bruises and marks from when needles had pierced her skin. Now her arms were clear of bruises (save ones sheâd obtained from being clumsy) but the scars she bore from her time as an experiment remained. She had been hooked up to more machines, tested on over and over again more times that she could count and the abuse showed on her skin. She still bore a scar hidden under her hair from an attempt at implanting a chip to monitor her brain activity. Hunter had seen red when heâd first discovered it there.
Hunter rocked the child as he cradled her, swivelling the chair back and forth in slow, calculated movements. He remembered a time when he had done this for nights at a time, switching between rocking her and swivelling the chair to try and lull her into a slumber. When she had been much younger, he had paced back and forth with her in his arms on board the Marauder. He had been exhausted, falling asleep in the middle of the day a lot of the time, but he had never said no to her when she sought his comfort.Â
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(Six Months Ago, Just After Omegaâs Rescue)
It was relatively quiet on the Firebird, Hunter mused to himself⌠except for the crying child in his arms; he knew Crosshair and Wrecker had opted to go to the bunk room this time. They had all learned quite quickly that Omega didnât enjoy an audience when she was struggling.Â
This was the third night in a row that the girl in question had dissolved into tears at the mention of going to bed. They had tried everything, including setting up Hunterâs pillow and blanket in the bunk room with her. It hadnât worked.
Hunter knew that if Tech was there, or Echo to be fair, they would recommend sedating Omega. A light dose that would ease her into a dreamless sleep and allow Hunter to get some rest as well.
The sergeant was determined not to resort to that - Omega had spent enough time being prodded and poked by needles. The damage done whilst she was on Tantiss was there for all to see. Her arms were wrapped in gauze and plastered with bacta. She whimpered in his embrace, clinging to his shirt like it was a lifeline.
âIâm not going anywhere, adâika,â he soothed in a hushed tone, noting how the little girl nodded but still clung to him.
âYouâre safe now,â he continued. âHe canât hurt you anymore.â
Omega didnât respond verbally, she simply stared absently into the void, blinking slowly. She must have been exhausted but Hunter knew that she was plagued with horrible sights every time she closed her eyes. He didnât think sheâd actually slept since leaving Tantiss, which had been three days ago⌠she needed to rest.
âI can hear you thinking,â she croaked. Her voice sounded void of emotion, not like her at all. Hunter swore that if Hemlock hadnât been killed by Crosshair, he would have taken joy in doing ti himself. The psychotic doctor had broken his kid. His little girl, who used to have the galaxy in her eyes.Â
âSorry,â he looked down at the child in his arms. âIâll try to think more quietly.â This got a small snort out of Omega, and Hunterâs heart skipped a beat. For a split second it was like she was back with him before she drifted away again, distant and remorseful.Â
âYouâre forgiven,â she replied, a ghost of a smile on her face as she glanced up at her Buir. âI know you think I need sleep,â she carried on, snuggling further into Hunterâs embrace.Â
The sergeant hummed in response, not committing to a verbal answer. There was a slight pause, neither of them breaking the restful silence.Â
âI just donât want to wake up and all of this be gone. That happened enough times when I was⌠there.âÂ
Hunter nodded, still looking down at the little girl. There were dark circles under her eyes and she was pale; telltale signs that she was running on empty.
âI know youâre worried, adâika,â he replied. âWant to run through it again?â A small nod and he smiled genuinely this time.Â
âWhat can you see, kid?âÂ
âThe stars.â
âWhat can you hear?â
âWrecker. Heâs snoring.â
Hunter snorted at that. âWhat can you feel?â
This exercise went on for a while; it was one they had rehearsed and whilst it had never been successful in easing Omega to sleep, it had definitely soothed her and reassured her that this was reality to start with.
This time, however, Hunter could feel her head slowly growing heavier on his chest. He could hear her heartbeat slowing down and her breathing beginning to even out. Had the exhaustion finally caught up with her? He wouldnât be surprised.Â
âDonât leave me,â came a tired whisper, Omega taking one final, feeble grasp at his shirt. He nodded, gently kissing her forehead.Â
âNever, adâika. I promise Iâll be here when you wake up.â
The little girl nodded the tiniest amount before she was no longer awake, falling into a deep (hopefully dreamless) sleep. Hunter could have cried in that moment; he had hoped that him refusing to sedate Omega would have paid off in the end, and here she was. Sleeping⌠it may not have been a completely sound sleep, and she might wake up screaming for him in an hour but for now she was safe. She was resting, asleep in his arms.Â
As slowly as he could, Hunter reclined his seat slightly and rested his head against the headrest. Knowing that she was resting meant that he felt as though he could do the same and before long, he too was was in a deep sleep.
When Wrecker and Crosshair found them later, they had slowly retreated back into the bunk room. They had, of course, taken a photo of them before they went.
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(Present Day)
Luckily, it hadnât taken long for Omega to be soothed into a light sleep this time; Hunter had whispered a quiet âI love you,â to her as sheâd dozed off again, tear tracks clear on her face and her breathing still a little stuttered from her crying. Resting his chin on top of her head, the sergeant glanced over at Galen. The scientist had a hard-set frown on his features as he watched the pair, his eyes glancing over the scars that littered Omegaâs arms.Â
âThe Empire did this?â he asked, his voice full of trepidation.
Hunter simply nodded, not needing to verbalise his response. He could see Erso mulling over this fact, clearly thinking of his own daughter.Â
Out of habit, Hunter tuned into the sounds coming from the bunk rooms - Crosshair and Wrecker both slept soundly, and he could hear two gentle heartbeats coming from Omegaâs room. Everyone was safe. He whispered as much to Galen, who nodded in thanks.Â
âSheâs been so brave,â Hunter said quietly, looking down at the child in his arms. âI donât know half of what they did to her, she doesnât like to talk about it, but I wonât let anyone lay a finger on her again.â
Another nod from Galen, whose eyes were still fixed on Omegaâs scars. Had she been awake, she would have glared at him and grabbed her jacket. She would be marked by the Empire for the rest of her life, and Hunter had to live with knowing that he hadnât been able to help his little girl.
âPlease,â he started after a long silence. âIf youâre foundâŚâ he trailed off, not wanting to think about Jyn being snatched by Imperials. âDonât tell them about us.â
It came out as more of a desperate plea than a stern request from a soldier. He didnât think Omega would cope if the Empire caught wind of her again. He certainly wouldnât cope if he had to search half of the galaxy for her. She was his kid and in the time theyâd been separated, heâd felt as though he couldnât breathe properly. He looked up at Galen Erso, his eyes tired and desperate. The scientist regarded the clone before nodding.
âYou have my word, theyâll never know of your involvement in this,â he stated. Hunter believed him.Â
Galen had stood and bid Hunter goodnight not long after that, suggesting that the sergeant should get sleep as well.Â
âI know what it is to love your child so much it hurts, Hunter,â Erso had said. âBut you need to be functioning to be able to look after her.â With that final statement, he headed into the bunk room that held Crosshair and Wrecker. Hunter was left alone with Omega, still swinging his chair gently. He supposed resting his eyes for a little while wouldnât hurt. Resting his head against the back of the chair, Hunter closed his eyes and allowed himself to join his daughter in sleep.
The following morning they were halfway through their time in hyperspace⌠and Jyn was bored. The little girl had never been on a long-haul flight before and it was safe to say that the novelty of it all had well and truly worn off. Galen and Lyra had tried their best, and in fairness they had come prepared for a long trip with a small child. Jyn had played with some small figures in her backpack, drawn multiple pictures of the Bad Batch and her family, and had tried playing a game with her father. She was now out of new things to do, and was making it the problem of everyone on board.Â
Crosshair had scarpered first, claiming that his rifle needed cleaning; this had made Hunter laugh. He had forgotten that even though his brother adored Omega, he was uncomfortable with smaller children. Especially excitable ones. Jyn had steered clear of Wrecker, slightly intimidated by the cloneâs height. Hunter had expected Wrecker to be more upset by that then he was, but he had busied himself elsewhere in the hold of the ship. Hunter was sat in the pilotâs seat, his feet propped up on the dashboard when he felt a small tug at his arm.
âAre you Omegaâs daddy?â A small, curious voice asked and Hunter turned to the tiny child with a small smile on his face. âI saw you cuddling her this morning. She looked happy.â
Slightly unsure of what to do, Hunter tried to recall what he had done when interacting with Cut and Suuâs children when they had been little. He clambered out of his chair and crouched down to make himself as close to Jynâs height as possible.
âI guess I am, yeah,â he replied with a nervous chuckle. Usually people just assumed that he was Omegaâs father. He wasnât used to inquisitive children asking him that question. Hunter glanced up at his kid; Omega was tapping at a data pad, pretending that she wasnât listening to the conversation. It made him smirk; the kid thought she was so sneaky.
Jyn nodded, taking this information on board. Hunter could practically feel her gearing up to ask more questions.Â
âOmegaâs daddy?â she started. âIs it okay if I play with Omega?â The question stumped him a little. Out of the corner of his eye he could see Omega glancing up from the data pad.
âWell thatâs not up to me, kid,â he started, his eyes flickering over to his daughter. She looked a little uncomfortable, but plastered a convincing smile on her face as Jyn approached her.
âOmega, can we play?â There must have been something about her pleading tone or the look on her face, because Omega crumbled and nodded. She allowed herself to be pulled by the hand to her room.
In the back of his mind, Hunter held a small, nagging worry but he squashed it. They were on a ship in hyperspace for kriffâs sake! There was no way that anyone could get to Omega here. He really needed to relax.Â
Trying not to think about it too much, he busied himself checking the nav computer and the shipâs vitalsâŚ
⌠he stopped dead in his tracks when he heard something he hadnât heard in a long, long time.
Omega had laughed.Â
Not just a snort of laughter or a small chuckle, she had full on laughed. Laughed like she was the carefree child she should be. Hunterâs head shot up at the noise, and tears sprung to his eyes unbidden as he heard it again.Â
Galen and Lyra had been sat talking quietly to one another but stopped their conversation to glance at the sergeant.Â
âAre you okay?â Lyra asked, a small look of concern on her features. Galen, however, only had a look of understanding on his face.Â
âIâm okay,â Hunter managed after a few seconds. âI just⌠I just havenât heard her laughing like that in a long time.â He smiled, making it clear that he actually was okay. The couple nodded, Galen sharing Hunterâs knowing smile before going back to the conversation they had been having previously. Hunter allowed himself to tune into Jyn and Omegaâs game, smiling every time he heard his little girl laughing and playing along with whatever stories Jyn was making up as she went along.Â
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One day later, when the Firebird finally reached itâs destination, everyone had disembarked. Wrecker had been first, stretching and declaring loudly that he was happy to be back on solid ground; it was no secret that out of all of Hunterâs brothers, Wrecker was the one who liked flying the least. Jyn had been quick to follow him, her fear of the gentle giant no longer present.Â
Hunter stood on the ramp of the ship, watching as Lyra and Galen spoke to a local tradesperson⌠something to do with transport to a nearby farm. Wrecker was playing with Jyn and Crosshair was sat watching, teasing Wrecker as Jyn managed to evade his capture.
Light footsteps approached behind him and he turned to face Omega. She looked more relaxed than heâd seen in a while and it warmed him to see her smile at him. She came and stood next to him before fidgeting and wriggling so that his arm was wrapped around her.Â
âYou good, kid?â he asked softly and she nodded. Her hair was loose again and it bobbed as she nodded.
âJust⌠taking it all in,â she breathed. âIâm looking forward to going home.âÂ
Home. For a long time, Hunter was convinced that his family would never had a home, but Pabu had proven to be the sanctuary that they needed.
âIâve got a present for Jyn,â she carried on a moment later, fiddling with a small bundle in her arms. Hunter recognised one of Omegaâs card games and something else.
âYouâre giving away Trooper?â he asked, surprised. Admittedly, this trooper wasnât the same as her previous one, and it still hadnât been painted in Bad Batch colours. Omega nodded again, shrugging her shoulders lightly.Â
âI have Lula,â she started. âAnd besides, sometimes itâs the small things that comfort you when youâre living the life that sheâs gonna be living.â
Hunter had to blink away proud tears. Omega knew what sort of life the Erso family were in for and in typical Omega fashion, she wanted to help where she could. The child padded down the ramp and headed over to Jyn. She crouched down to the girlâs level and spoke to her softly; once she had presented the presents, Jyn had squealed and thrown her arms around Omega. She wobbled under the attack but recovered quickly and held her back. Galen and Lyra glanced over at the scene, warm smiles on their faces before they called Jyn to them.Â
It was time to go.
The squad had stayed, waving the family off as they travelled into the distance towards their new life. Then, one by one they had made their way back onto the Firebird.
It was time to go home.
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Long-Stories-Briefly-Summarized Life Update
(And why Iâve been socially radio silent for a bit)
⢠These last several weeks have fucking sucked, to put it mildly.
⢠Work has been fucking stressful. Despite dealing with a volitale server whom I had proven to be a thief to HR & management, she still has her jobâa money-handling jobâand is still insufferable as hell to work with. Like, no joke; I sometimes take an extra 50mg dosage of my Zoloft (I already take a 150mg nightly) when I know sheâll be working a shift tomorrow...
⢠On the same topic of work; although I was up for Employee of the Year, another coworker whom has been one of the tardiest whiniest cunts for 5 years won it... Despite my being here for 11 goddamn years and only having been late 3 times in my work-life here. Yes, Iâm salty as fuck.
⢠Management, in general, has been a neglectful shit show. And where the lazy servers lack in their cleaning duties, the actual hard working folks like us are expected to pull their weight, whilst management pussyfoots around the lazy fuckers.
⢠Guess how my December started? Having to deal with a super suspicious guest, traveling with a woman whom he may or may not have shot, and acting super creepy to staff. He kept approaching me (WAY TOO CLOSE in my personal space) while tucking around his belt line, and then proceeds to ask me about local gun ranges... at 6:15am while itâs still dark... This man doesnât look like a hunter in any shape or form. So guess who went home shortly after having a sobbing PTSD breakdown at work? :) [insert awkward laugh here...]
⢠Eric & I have been struggling to take care of our senior dog, Alice (our 11yr. old German Shep/black lab mix). Weâve had her since the beginning of our marriage, practically. She had a nasty infected cyst on her back for over a month and a half, and between our financial struggles with his jobs, we only now had the means to take her to the vet last weekend. The surgery went well and they had decided to keep her overnight on an IV to just get some rest and recover those fluids and we could pick ger up in the morning. Despite her pulling through the surgical removemal just fine, sadly, she passed away in her sleep. The vet told us it couldâve been a combination of small factors, plus her age... Happy 36th Birthday for my husband, yaâll :/
⢠It will have been 7 years ago that I lost one of the most loved & precious members of my family, my dad, on December 22nd. It has taken me a fucking ton of anguish struggling but also honest work to keep moving forward & continue healing. My mother, however... has gone in the absolute negative-opposite. Sheâs become an erratic bitter husk of her former self, whom is severly obsessive over painful past memories/slights, and sheâs only in her early/mid 60âs. She is already showing the beginning symptoms of dementia, senility, and/or alzheimers. And her bitterness is taking a toll on my sister & me, as far as how to manage and/or approach these staggering revelations to her and/or her doctors.
⢠My mother is the kind of person who stopped going to any therapist after one told her she wasnât improving. This woman will obsess & pick apart reasons over anyone who doesnât automatically like her or accept her upon first impressions, and sheâs always been constantly obsessive over what others think about her. You could be having the best day with her, but if anything is said remotely regarding a past (negative) memory, sheâll instantly bring it up and become hateful and passive aggressive towards you for the rest of the day. That is one hell of a constant mental minefield to emotionally navigate.
Also, @staff this fucking garbage app crashes every time I try to check my notifications, so trying to check for stuff Iâve been tagged in for more than 45 seconds has been a goddamned hassle.
đ If you took the time to read this, thank you for listening/reading through this bitch-fest of bullshit đ
So yeah, 2019 can go fuck itself with a spiked dildo in a sandpaper condom with poison ivy-laced lube.
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I Know Your Wife (She Wouldnât Mind) - Part Twenty-Two
Summary: Keeping the adoption a secret for so long comes back to bit you in the ass, and Jared has some age-related hang ups Words: 3.5k Jared x Reader x Gen, Jensen, Danneel, Zep, Tom, Shep Warnings: mild angst, bearded Jensen, shirtless Jared Beta: @blacksiren
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Everything had been going great until you woke to eight missed calls from your agent and three group emails from higher-ups at Supernatural.
The emails were evading the real issue, but the jist of them was that they wanted you and Jensen to arrange a time that you could Skype the team back in Vancouver.
You padded down to the kitchen of the Ackles house, making yourself a smoothie before calling your agent back.
She answered on the second ring.
âY/N, what the hell?â
You frowned, confused at her irritated tone.
âUh, you called me a hundred times while I was sleeping,â you reminded her, sitting up onto a stool, âAnd you didnât leave a message so I figured-â
âIâm not asking why you called,â she clarified, âIâm asking why the hell you didnât think to notify your agent that you were getting adopted by your co-star.â
âOh,â you nodded, smiling at Danneel as she came into the room, Zep on her hip. âI, uh, didnât think it was a big deal.â
Danneel walked over and kissed the top of your head before quietly making up a bottle for her son.
âItâs a big deal when Iâm getting emails and phone calls asking if youâre available for interviews about your new parents and I have no idea what theyâre talking about,â she insisted. âDo you know how unprofessional that makes me look?â
âShit,â you murmured, earning a chastising glance from Danneel as she motioned to Zep, âIâm sorry, I didnât think. And we- we donât wanna do any interviews.â
You could hear her sigh, the anger leaving her as she noticed the slight flicker of worry in your tone.
âYeah, no, I figured that much,â she told you. âWhen we signed you, you told me the topic of your family was off the table for you in interviews, so I just went with that response once I found out what everyone was talking about.â
It was your turn to sigh, with relief and gratitude that she hadnât thought any interview was worth the payday.
Even if it was about your Ackles family, the questions would go back to âwhyâ they adopted you and âwhat happenedâ with your biological family, and those were hard limits that you werenât willing to cross.
âThank you,â you told her, feeling bad for not thinking to contact her in the first place.
In reality, your mind hadnât been focused on much other than your family, your relationship, and your baby, so it wasnât just your agent that youâd neglected to inform. Though, she may have been the most important and necessary to contact.
âOne question,â she spoke up, and you hummed for her to continue as you took a drink. âDo I need to change your name on your resume? Are you professionally gonna be an Ackles now or are you sticking with-â
âAckles,â you confirmed, and Danneel raised an eyebrow. âItâs Ackles on my birth certificate, and passport, and if I get any more jobs after this baby is born and people hate me, Iâd want it to be Ackles on the credits, too.â
Both Danneel and your agent made small tutting noises when you said about people hating you, but you just shrugged.
âPeople arenât gonna hate you,â your agent told you. âIf anything, the controversy might land you more auditions. Itâd get you a bunch of money from interviews as well but-â
âWeâve talked about this,â you reminded her. âJared has a plan.â
âYeah, I know, I know,â she sighed. âLook, sorry for snapping but youâve gotta keep me in the loop or Iâll look unprofessional and then my boss will be mad.â
âI know, Iâm sorry, it all happened quite fast and we didnât tell any of our friends until it was finalised so I didnât think to tell anyone,â you explained.
âAlright, water under the bridge,â she assured you. âBut remember to tell me if youâre gonna make any more life changes.â
âI will,â you promised. âSorry again. Are we good?â
âWeâre good. Talk to you soon.â
You hummed your agreement as you hung up, sighing and putting your phone down on the counter.
âThree things,â Danneel told you, handing you Zep so that you could continue his feed while she made herself coffee. âNumber one, I donât mind you swearing because you know me and Jay are the worst with bad language sometimes, but try not to do it in front of the kids.â
You bit your lip, nodding apologetically.
âTwo,â she continued, âThe people that are gonna hate you for who your babyâs daddy is arenât the people that are gonna be able to offer you jobs. Theyâre irrelevant nobodies who donât understand that youâve done nothing wrong. You fell in love, now youâre having a baby with the guy you love, with a girl you both love to support you. Youâre a great actress and youâve still got Supernatural even after the CW found out about you and the Padaleckis. Iâve had controversy around me for my whole career, and the only reason Iâm not going for auditions now is that I decided to stop.â
You nodded, her words combined with what your agent had said making you more inclined to believe her.
Truthfully, you werenât sure how long you were going to be able to keep acting after you had your baby, but thatâs what season thirteen was for; to see how you could juggle being a mom and an actress.
You put the bottle down once Zep had stopped feeding, moving him against your chest and over your shoulder so that you could burp him.
âAnd third?â you asked, and Danneel nodded, swallowing her sip of coffee.
âOh, yeah, Jay said something about a Skype meeting?â she prompted.
âYeah,â you shrugged, âThe bosses want to talk to us about something. My guess is that they wanna cut hiatus short and fu- mess up all my moving plans.â
She smiled as you self-corrected your cursing, rolling her eyes at your words.
âIf they try to cut Jensenâs hiatus, they can think twice because that man needs time with his babies, and frankly I need a break,â she informed you and you laughed, turning your head to place a kiss to the top of Zepâs.
âIâd never need a break from you,â you told him quietly, earning you a gurgled smile and a scoff from Danneel.
âMy girl, Iâll remind you of that when youâre calling from âCouver and asking me and Gen to give you a break from Baby Dits,â she laughed. âGod, youâre lucky itâs just the one baby in your belly.â
You lifted Zep so that he was standing on your legs, smiling the cutest gummy smile at you.
âIf my babies were as gorgeous as you and your sister, Iâd be fine, wouldnât I?â you asked him, and he dribbled an accidental spit bubble while trying to reach for your hair.
You used a muslin to dab up his spittle, smoothing his gorgeous dark hair back.
âYeah, maybe not,â you murmured, letting him grab at your finger. âBut I can handle one, right? Iâm learning.â
âOf course you can,â Danneel assured you, relieving you of Zep so that you could finish your smoothie. âYou donât even cry when youâre making up a bottle anymore.â
You laughed, shaking your head as you looked down at the jar cradled in your palms.
âThat was⌠I was having a crisis,â you reminded her.
âHey, Iâm no stranger to a âHoly Crap Motherhood Is Hardâ crisis,â she smiled, kissing the top of your head again before making to leave the room, bouncing Zep on her hip to make him chuckle. âIâm gonna let this oneâs daddy know youâre up so you guys can get this weird, mysterious Skype thing out of the way.â
You nodded, draining the last of your smoothie and walking across to the sink.
âThatâs gonna be fun,â you murmured to yourself as you rinsed the jar, placing it on the rack to dry before running a hand over your bump. âWhat have we gotten ourselves into, huh?â
Jensen gave JJ strict instructions not to enter his office while the two of you were on Skype, with the promise that youâd play with her once your meeting was over.
She pouted but ultimately agreed, telling you that she was going to help Danneel give the twins a bath.
âNot sure sheâs gonna be much help,â Jensen murmured as the two of you sat at his desk and he started up his computer.
âSheâs gonna try her best,â you grinned, crossing your legs in the comfortable leather desk chair. âAnd itâll keep her busy.â
He nodded in agreement, opening up Skype and waiting for the call.
You studied his worried expression, focussing on the few grey hairs in his facial hair.
âYouâre getting old, Mr. Ackles,â you told him, and he looked offended until he realised you were looking at his beard.
âOh, shut up,â he laughed softly. âDee says itâs hot.â
âI didnât say itâs a bad thing,â you shrugged. âJust, you make fun of Jared for a couple silver hairs and youâve got your own hiding in your beard.â
âJared is four years younger than me,â he reminded you as the Skype ringtone started up. âItâs my job to tease him.â
You allowed a nod, and he sighed, looking at the screen as it asked if he wanted to accept the video call.
âReady, kiddo?â he asked, and you smiled tightly.
âAs Iâll ever be,â you murmured, resting your hands on your bump.
You remained silent through the forced greeting and catch-up for the first few minutes of the call, wishing theyâd just cut to the chase about what they needed to talk to you both for.
âAlright, Y/N is clearly getting bored,â Andrew noticed, and you shrugged.
âNo, I just wanna know what the big issue is,â you told them, earning a fond laugh from Jensen.
âYeah, sheâs got a point,â he agreed. âWhatâs so urgent? Because if youâre cutting our hiatus short, youâre gonna have to put up with Danneel in the fallout.â
âYour vacation isnât in jeopardy,â Eric assured you. âWe needed to talk to you about this adoption that you failed to let us know about.â
âAlright, hey, thatâs not our fault,â Jensen argued lightly. âIt was a rush decision for Y/N and her babyâs safety, and we didnât tell people about it so that her-â
âSo nobody could interfere and fuck it up,â you interrupted, not wanting Jensen to spill any of your family drama for everyone to see.
Things with your birth-mom were shared on a strictly need-to-know basis, and these men did not need to know.
âYeah,â Jensen murmured, smiling apologetically at you.
âWell, because we were kept out of the loop, this news has lead to some issues with our plans for season thirteen,â Andrew explained, and you frowned, opening your mouth to respond before Jensen cut in.
âWhat issues?â he asked. âJust change her name on the titles, itâs not a big deal.â
âYouâre aware that some episodes have already been conceptualised, yes?â
The two of you nodded, so he continued.
âOne of the episodes weâve started writing involves a dream sequence for Trinity,â he told you. âIn which would include a scene with Dean and Trinity. Intimately.â
âGross,â you murmured, at the same time as Jensen grumbled, âWhat the fuck?â
âTrinity would be in a dream-like state where she would be experiencing the things she wanted most in the world,â Eric expanded, and you pulled a face. âKind of like Dean with the Djinn in season two.â
âYou really think what Trinity wants most in the whole world is to fuck Dean Winchester?â you asked, completely unimpressed.
âTheir chemistry is palpable, a lot of fans have picked up on it.â
âA lot of fans also want Dean to fuck his brother but youâre not writing that into the script,â Jensen argued, clearly as irritated as you were.
âThatâs different,â Andrew told you, and you scoffed.
âEither way, itâs fucking a family member,â you told him, and they looked at Jensen for backup.
âSheâs not wrong,â he shrugged. âEven if the adoption hadnât happened, neither of us wouldâve wanted to film that.â
âIf the adoption hadnât happened, you wouldnât have gotten a choice,â Eric reminded you. âYouâre actors. Youâre getting paid. Youâd have filmed the scene.â
You bristled at his tone, ready to argue before Jensen laid a hand on your shoulder, letting you know heâd take it from here.
âWell, the adoption has happened. Y/N is my daughter, and no amount of money could make either of us agree to get it on for a stupid dream sequence,â he told them, firmly. âAnd sheâs right, you know? Trinity doesnât want to fuck Dean. She wants to be taken seriously as a hunter. If you added in that scene, if you let the fans run the show like that, youâd open the door for a relationship to form between the two of them outside of the dream, and thatâs not something I think you want to focus on.â
You nodded in agreement, grateful that he was able to articulate what you were thinking.
âSo⌠thatâs a firm ânoâ on that scene?â Andrew clarified, and Jensen nodded.
âA firm ânoâ on the scene that doesnât make sense and involves me making out with my daughter,â he confirmed, and you rolled your eyes.
âI canât believe this stupid dream was an idea that yâall were even entertaining, let alone writing,â you murmured.
âYou might want to remember who youâre talking to, Y/N,â Eric warned, and you raised an eyebrow, ready to snap back.
âAlright, okay,â Jensen intervened, shooting you a glance. âYou guys got the confirmation you were after. Sorry that youâre going to have to change that episode but we canât do anything about it now. Is there anything else you wanted to talk to us about?â
âNot at this point,â Andrew allowed while you narrowed your eyes at your lap, trying not to glare at the person who pretty much controlled your career. âJust⌠let us know before you make anymore life decisions that could affect the show.â
âOf course,â Jensen smiled tightly. âAlright, weâll see you in August.â
You tuned out again for the obligatory goodbyes, picking at the frayed hem of your jean shorts until Jensen hung up.
You sighed, getting to your feet and stretching.
âKiddo, you canât talk to Eric like that,â Jensen reminded you, and you shrugged.
âIt was a really shitty idea,â you told him. âIf they wanted Trinity to fuck a Winchester, they couldâve chosen Sam. Even if I wasnât your daughter now, Jared wouldnât have wanted that scene to happen, either.â
âYeah,â he allowed, standing up and making his way over to the door. âIt was pretty dumb.â
âAnd when he implied that without the adoption, theyâdâve forced us to film it?â you raised an eyebrow. âGross.â
âAlright, kid,â he sighed, ushering you out of the room. âItâs over now.â
You nodded, leaning into him as he wrapped an arm around your shoulders.
âTheyâre gonna kill me off, now,â you joked, and he laughed.
âNah,â he smirked. âYouâre not a love interest anymore.â
Youâd never been in a serious relationship over your partnerâs birthday before.
Youâd never had to think about what theyâd like, what theyâd appreciate as a gift, and honestly you didnât know where to start.
Jared was turning thirty-five and you had no idea what to get him.
It probably didnât help that heâd been avoiding the topic of his birthday all month.
âIt makes him feel old,â Gen explained when he changed the subject and left the room. âWhen you talk about his birthday it reminds him of the age gap.â
That was fucking stupid, but you let him mope in peace anyway.
He was fourteen years and three months older than you and you had both known that from the beginning. His birthday wasnât going to change anything.
Luckily, Genevieve didnât have the same age-crisis hang ups.
You came up with a plan together, and on Wednesday morning you found yourself on their doorstep with a card in your hands.
Jared opened the door in nothing but a pair of sweatpants, and you grinned at him as you stepped inside, closing the door behind you.
âHappy birthday, old man,â you teased, pulling him down into a kiss before he had a chance to react.
âY/N,â he murmured, a faint hint of protest in his tone.
âCanât believe Baby Dits is gonna have an old guy for a daddy,â you continued, unaware of the extent of his annoyance.
âThis is a shitty way to say âhappy birthdayâ,â he told you, and you shrugged, handing him his card.
âYou know I donât care how old you are,â you reminded him. âYouâre one of the good guys and thatâs all that matters.â
He didnât look convinced, so you sighed.
âAre you with me because Iâm twenty?â you asked, and he frowned.
âWhat? No,â he shook his head. âIâm with you in spite of that.â
âRight,â you agreed, raising an eyebrow and urging him to understand that it was the same for you. âThis age complex is getting ridiculous. Genâs older than you and you donât see her freaking out about it.â
He looked like he wanted to say something else, but you stopped him, nodding to the card.
âOpen it,â you told him. âIt explains your present.â
He peeled open the envelope, removing the generic card from inside.
âYou didnât have to get me anything,â he told you, and you laughed softly.
âI didnât,â you explained. âNot really.â
He frowned, opening the card as a small packet of lube fell out.
Jared laughed, picking it up from the floor in case one of the boys found it.
âThatâs more of a token,â you smiled, encouraging him to read what youâd written on the inside.
Jared, Itâs safe to say that a whole lot was different this time last year. In fact, we were only just about to meet for the very first time. While I wouldnât change anything about how this year has panned out (apart from maybe that time you told everyone about the pregnancy and neglected to inform me about your slip up), I know that everything can get a bit much at times. So, for your birthday, my gift to you is simple: A day like it used to be. Just you, Gen, and that big bed of yours. No kids. No dog. No girlfriend(? Baby mama? Junk food lover? Incredible sex partner?), no interruptions. Iâm taking Tom, Shep, and Arlo out for the day. Then this evening Iâm leaving the kids with J&D for the night and making the three of us dinner. Youâre welcome. Now stop reading and go sex up your wife. Y/N xxx
Jared laughed softly as he read, a blush rising from his chest.
He looked at you once heâd finished, his eyebrows pulling together in a slight frown.
âYouâre running away for the day?â he asked, and you laughed.
âNo, Iâm taking time to bond with my babyâs siblings while giving their daddy time to fuck his wife with no interruptions,â you expanded.
âAnd you think Gen and I wouldn't want you with us?â
âJare, I know you would,â you sighed, running a hand over your bump, âBut, in case youâve forgotten, Iâm a little bit pregnant and I don't have the energy to fool around all day. So Iâm gonna take your dog and sons to the park, leave them with their favourite uncle for the evening, then come and join you for the final round.â
He cracked a smile, leaning down and kissing you firmly.
âThank you,â he mumbled against your lips, hiatus scruff tickling your chin.
You kissed him once more, lingering a little longer before pulling back as Gen came round the corner in a tank top and a pair of Jaredâs boxers.
âHey, sweetie,â she smiled, the boys following her with Arlo already on his leash.
âGood morning,â you smiled back, kissing her chastely once she was close enough. âDid you get everyone ready?â
âWe have our shoes on,â Tom told you, âAnd snacks in our bags.â
âAnâ Arlo,â Shep added, and you laughed.
âI can see that, bud,â you smiled, ruffling his hair. âBut weâre not gonna need too many snacks because Iâm taking yâall out for lunch.â
âDo you want money for the boysâ food?â Gen asked, and you rolled your eyes.
âNo. Weâre good,â you assured her.
You kissed Gen again before leaning up to kiss Jared.
âHave fun,â you told them, opening the door and shepherding the boys out. âHappy birthday.â
You grabbed Arloâs leash as he tried to run past, his wagging tail hitting your legs as you followed the boys out of the house.
âHey, Y/N?â Jared called once you were halfway down the driveway.
The three of you turned back to face him, his arm thrown over Genâs shoulders as they stood on the doorstep.
âThanks,â he told you, and you laughed.
âNo problem,â you responded, waving at them as the boys did the same.
âWeâre gonna have fun,â Tom announced, and you smiled down at him as Shep took your free hand in his own.
âYeah, we are.â
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You used to be realy active and nice and freindly, and now it seems like you only reblog art and talk to your blogger freinds who you write MEL with. You ignor asks and you ignor fandom memes. What happened to suporting smaller bloggers? What hapened to you? Its like you got populer and just forgot about your old friends.
Hi Anon-
TBH, this message took me by surprise.
Let me try and unpack your Ask a bit because I feel likeperhaps I hurt feelings or did something wrong unintentionally. I also could gointo all the things happening in my life on the other side of this screen, butyou donât need a bio (and I donât think I should have to write one either).
First of all, I will say that I did actually make a postback in October about stepping back from the blog. This was a purposefuldecision of mine because I was spending a lot of my days in front of mycomputer during work, after work, andon the weekends scheduling and tagging posts. I was putting up 4 posts an hourfor 24 hours at the time, meaning I was tagging and scheduling nearly 100posts/day. I did this for several MONTHS. My social life took a dive, mysleeping schedule took a dive, and I wasnât doing anything but running theblog. I call(ed) DME my âsecond jobâ when I talked about it with myfriends. Thatâs how much time I was spending on it.
Until about 2-3 weeks ago, I had cut the schedule back to 2posts/hour with a small queue running for a few hours during the middle of thenight. Thatâs still a lot of work for me, but it allowed me some personalpursuits off of the computer which is what I need to recharge.
With the new Andromeda trailers dropping more frequently andfandom content going into overdrive, Iâve had to up my posting schedule againto even try and keep up. Even when Iâm âon topâ of things I find Iâmstill behind and Iâm not catching up.
This breaks my heart because I feel like Iâm letting peopledown. I am only one person though, so itâs important that itâs understood thatIâm doing the best that I can.
As for only reblogging art, I am sad to say that this istrue and I feel HUGELY guilty about it. The main reason why this happens isthat I want to read every piece of fiction I post and reading a story takes alot longer than looking at a work of fan art. I honestly have about 200 storiesfrom the fandom in my drafts that I want to read before I post. Itâs horribleand rude and terrible of me. I canât read it all like I want, I havenât readANYTHING for fun in months, actually, because Iâm too tired to when I finallyget to bed. Itâs an excuse, yes, but itâs the truth.
I try to talk to everyone that messages me. Sometimes Iâmable to reply right away and other times it can take me a week or two (ormore!) to answer. Iâve never been the best at conversations, even though I ambetter at written ones than verbal ones. (I am also terrible with replies because they take me forever to do.)
As for only talking to @omegastation and other MEL folks,thatâs blatantly untrue and Iâm not really sure where that assumption camefrom. I am sorry if it appears that way, but itâs definitely not the case. Yes,we talk, but those discussions of late are incredibly short and MEL business related andless of fun, âHey whatâs up and how are you doing?â convos.
In regards to Asks and memes, I actually try to answer asmany asks as I can and I often answer privately because thatâs whatâs warrantedby the message Iâm sent. As for other Asks, I put a lot of time and thoughtinto them and they can take me quite a while to answer. However, because ofyour message, Iâve tried to go through as many of them as I can because it wasa task I had been neglecting. There are a couple of them that I will take sometime to answer still, but for the most part, I hope Iâve caught up.
Memes are also something that take me awhile to do. HonestlyI love(d) doing them for quite a while, but I became overburdened with themquickly. I also stopped getting emails from Tumblr over a year ago, so I onlysee posts Iâm tagged in if I happen to see the tag in my notifications.Sometimes I do, sometimes I donât. Getting tagged in something is an honor andI am really happy that people think of me when they do them.Â
Itâs incrediblydifficult for me to do memes though because I want to do them right and notfast. I also get stressed and anxious about tagging other bloggers and doingchain messages because I always feel like Iâm leaving people out and I donâtwant others to have hurt feelings by not getting a message/tag. Itâs a funpractice, but it can also cause hurt unintentionally. I kinda unofficiallystopped doing them for this reason. I want to tag EVERYONE, but I canât, so Ijust donât do them.
I support everyone and try to do so fairly. Iâve spent mostof my time in the tag now for the better part of a month, reblogging as much asI can. I know Iâm missing posts but thatâs basically because there is SO MUCHNEW CONTENT I cannot keep up. I try to reblog and showcase as many differentpeople and blogs as I can, but with the sheer amount of stuff going aroundright now, I am bound to miss some. I have considered opening my submissions tohelp with this, but in all honesty I prefer to reblog.
I havenât forgotten about anyone. In reality this franchisehas a huge fan base and our âlittleâ community that existed sixmonths ago has grown again as people have started coming back to Mass Effect asAndromeda approaches. Mass Effect 3 sold over 3.5 million copies on its own in itsFIRST MONTH OF RELEASE, which means that there are a TON of fans out there.Some of the fans werenât as vocal until the Andromeda hype machines startedfull blast, but theyâre back and excited now, and Iâm happy that everyone ishere.
The thing is that now the community feels bigger and lesscohesive than it did last year. Itâs not really, but it FEELS that way andthereâs so much content being produced daily that folks like me, who want toget as much Mass Effect in one spot, are having a hard time collating andorganizing it all. I physically canât keep up, even if I spend all my wakinghours doing it.
Yes, I realize that perhaps my break seemed like I wasturning my back on the community and thatâs definitely not the case. I had to step back for me and my mentalhealth. I miss the community and the friends I have here for sure. I misswriting! I miss talking to people about their Sheps. I miss lots of aspects ofTumblr that I was more active in 6 months ago. But I could not and cannot keepup with it all without it being detrimental to my life outside of the computerscreen.
Iâm trying. I really am. I am sorry if I somehow missed apost of yours and didnât reblog it. Iâm sorry if there are mutuals who feelthat Iâve not boosted them enough. Iâm sorry if Iâve left IM messagesunanswered. To be honest, I hardly feel âpopularâ and I kind of feelthe most hurt about that remark more than anything.
My goal has always been to make this blog a nice place forpeople to appreciate a game franchise they love and I hope Iâm still doingthat, even if Iâve been unable to be directly in the thick of things for awhile now.
This is already much longer than I intended (or than itshould be) but clearly this is a topic that should be addressed.
I can only apologize for my extended âsatelliteâ absence and ask for theunderstanding as to why I needed to and continue to do it.
Sincerely,Marina, AKA Dustie
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Lawrence Solomon: A guide for left-wingers to watching Fox News
Ever wonder why Donald Trump hasnât been impeached yet, given the mountains of evidence against him and all those convictions of his cronies? Maybe you were even surprised that he was elected president. And that the stock market immediately soared. And that manufacturing has come back to the United States. And that U.S. economic growth is again at levels many thought were a thing of the past.
Maybe you were also surprised that the Brits voted to exit the European Union, and that the citizens in other European countries are moving in the same direction. And that the Paris climate accord has led to the discord torching Paris streets. Maybe youâre wondering why peak oil never happened, and why you stopped hearing about all those Pacific Islands that were going to be submerged by global warming.
If so, donât blame yourself. Blame the mainstream media, which has misled you and so often left you clueless. But there is a way to recover your understanding of the world, so that current events donât keep throwing you for a loop. The cure isnât for everyone. But those who want to be in the know can take the medicine, strictly following instructions.
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The medicine is called Fox News. If you are a progressive for whom a low dose is required, you must never watch Sean Hannity, certainly not in the first year, before youâve developed antibodies. Heâll make your head explode. Also on the DO-NOT-WATCH list are Tucker Carlson and Laura Ingraham. If you do happen to stumble on one of them, the only antidote is switching to Shepard Smithâs 3 p.m. ET show at the earliest opportunity (maybe even TiVo him for use in an emergency). Shep will restore your equilibrium with some of TVâs finest Trump bashing, familiarly in the guise of presenting impartial news, just like they do on other networks.
For a fair and balanced Fox experience, start with Martha MacCallumâs 7 p.m. weekday show, The Story. Youâll be hard-pressed to notice any scent of ideology in her thoughtful questioning of brilliant guests, including many of the best legal minds in Democratic circles, such as Harvard Universityâs Alan Dershowitz and George Washington Universityâs Jonathan Turley. MacCallum has no rough edges, sheâs thoroughly likeable, thoroughly prepared and fearless in asking disarming questions that elicit unscripted answers from her guests.
Super-smart and super-nice also describe Shannon Bream in her 11 p.m. show, Fox News @ Night, a mix of hard news and interviews, typically also of top legal minds of both parties. Bream, a lawyer and formerly Foxâs Supreme Court correspondent, is so unbelievably nice, in fact, that her guests and colleagues spontaneously gush, live on-air, at her unbelievable niceness. Other shows that will impress left-leaners include Fox News Sunday, hosted by Chris Wallace, a tough interviewer whose pro-Democrat biases rarely show, and Bret Baierâs weekday 6 p.m. Special Report, which provides straight news and balanced analysis. Unlike hosts on other networks, who can be counted on to downplay or altogether ignore news embarrassing to Democrats, the poker-faced Baier provides no such cover for wrong-doers of either party.
Fox News provides opposing perspectives, often articulated by their most accomplished advocates in head-to-head debates, letting you judge for yourself whose arguments best stand up to scrutiny. Satisfyingly, these exchanges, and other interviews involving politics and law, also provide the civics lessons that schools today neglect. Crystal-clear explanations from the likes of passionate civil libertarians like Dershowitz are a treat to imbibe. With so much of the news these days involving complex process issues â the Mueller investigation into Trumpâs suspected Russian collusion, the Kavanaugh Supreme Court confirmation hearing, the rights of migrants to obtain refugee status â the need to understand the rule of law becomes paramount. By meeting that need, Fox makes its viewers smarter.
Because all viewers â Democrats, Republicans and Independents â feel empowered when they âget it,â Fox attracts viewers across the ideological spectrum, with the proportion of Democrat and Independent viewers outnumbering its Republican viewers and the Fox audience sometimes exceeding that of CNN and MSNBC combined. Thereâs a danger for those on the left who watch Fox, however: They may not stay on the left. According to a study last year in the American Economic Review, watching Fox News as little as an additional 2.5 minutes a week will make someone likelier to vote Republican, while watching MSNBC for that amount of time has negligible effect. The study further found that Fox News has been responsible for an increasing share of the Republican vote: âOur estimates imply increasing effects of FNC (Fox News Channel) on the Republican vote share in presidential elections over time, from 0.46 points in 2000 to 6.34 points in 2008.â That suggests that without Fox News, John Kerry would have obtained more votes than George W. Bush in the 2004 election, and Barack Obamaâs 53-46 per cent win over John McCain in 2008 would have looked more like a 60-40 landslide.
The existential question for those who lean left then becomes, âIs becoming knowledgeable on the issues worth the risk that I will lose my identification as a progressive?â In this era of identity politics, the answer wonât be obvious.
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