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sku11s1asher · 1 year ago

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Hi omg first time requesting from someone, but like soulmate aus?!?? Can you pretty please (if you can) make one of like arataki itto and the reader (male obvs) where its the first words of your soulmate and ittos first words are like something completely stupid??? Thabk you if you can but its alright if you dont wanna!!

itto x gn/male reader (soulmate au)

notes: i love itto, sorry this took so long bae; i had a fic already but my friends said it sucked so here’s this. i actually need to get a beta reader..i finish fics but i look into them too much and delete it without an actual reason. beta readers hmu frfr ;3

⊹ you always knew your soulmate was the brightest crayon in the box, you got a reminder of it every time you looked at your wrist, ‘worm’ was there.

⊹ though you won’t lie, you were very curious on who they were..who wouldn’t be?

⊹ you lived in liyue, you looked everywhere trying to find your soulmate, but there wasn’t anyone that dumb. at least not that you knew of..

⊹ you complained to your friend, kazuha, about it a lot. eventually he had enough and decided to take you with him on his next trip to inazuma.

⊹ once you arrived in inazuma, you kinda maybe forgot about your soulmate and explored the city looking for interesting things instead of your soulmate.

⊹ you were walking around town talking to kazuha, “what compels someone to do something so stupid?” you asked, “well if you knew him, you'd know he's the definition of stupid,” he responded. all you could think about was how and why a grown man would battle against children, with beetles. “what’s his name again?” “arataki itto.”

⊹ once you heard the man’s name, it immediately reminded you that you needed to look for your soulmate. “kazuha, you’re distracting me from my mission!” “your mission?” “finding my soulmate..?”

meet

⊹it’s been around 3 days, and still no soulmate. you were walking around the city, sulking to yourself about how you’d be alone for life since your soulmate obviously died. you didn’t see the person in front of you since you were too busy thinking about how you’d be alone for life.

⊹ bump. “what the..” it felt like you walked into a brick wall, but before you could fall you felt arms wrap around your waist. “you good, buddy?” the brick wall had a voice?

⊹ you looked up and felt your heart stop, “oh my god.” you were looking at the finest man you’ve ever seen in your life. once you snapped out your gaze you quickly composed yourself.

⊹ “ah, yeah, my apologies.” you took a step back, getting out of his grip. when you apologized, he let out a big smile, “it’s no big deal, im glad you’re okay.” while he was talking, you couldn’t help but take a look at his chest.

⊹ it was like his pecs were basically asking for you to touch them, but you decided to be a good man and not touch this strangers chest.

⊹ “you make me feel funny, like we have a deep connection even though we just met.” his words caught you off guard, “what?” “you must be my soulmate!” he said after a moment.

⊹ you looked at him like he was stupid, “how did you come to that conclusion? you know what, i don’t even want to know. what’s your name?” you asked him with a sigh.

⊹ “arataki itto!” he exclaimed with a huge smie. you immediately busted out laughing. you didn’t expect this guy who looks like he could pick up a house by himself, to be the guy who fought children with beetles.

⊹ you immediately apologized when you saw him pout, “i’m sorry, i didn’t mean to laugh. i just didn’t expect you to be the guy who does the beetle fights.”

⊹ “let me see your wrist.” he asked but he grabbed your wrist before you could answer. after a few moments of closely looking, he hugged you, “i knew it, you’re my soulmate!!”

⊹ you could barely move your arms to hug him back, he was sucking all the air out of your body with the tight hug.

⊹ “cmon, i need to show my soulmate to the gang!” “gang..?”

extra 1:

⊹ “please, just one touch.” you whined while leaning onto ittos chest, your hands slowly going up his stomach.

⊹ “why are you so obsessed with my chest?” he asked with a laugh, but allowed you to touch them.

extra 2:

⊹ “are you really that proud with yourself for beating children?” you asked unimpressed when he bragged about winning matches.

⊹ “you don’t understand! that kid normally beats me! this is a huge accomplishment, y/n!”

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ohdeerfully · 9 months ago

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Hello

I live

Well, barely

OMG ISTG I JUST REREAD LIKE ALL OF YOUR FICS I'M GOING SGSJDGDJHFJDY

Your writing. I swear. It's so good. Like when I read any other alastor x reader fic I have this nasty voice in the back of my head going 'He wouldn't do this'. THAT DOESN'T HAPPEN HERE

You are a genius. (Thabk you for speepy Alastor coming from an insomniac is good praise, no?)

My personal favourites are

a. Either of the sleepy Alastoe fics (obviously)

b. Dry bed. Istg the writing in that.. Augh

Could you do a part two to Dry bed? Maybe they just wake up (Together!!!) and awkwardly get their way down to breakfast. Then they simply avoid each other all day, not talking, but still stealing glances at each other when the other isn't looking. Then reader finds Alastor chilling on the hotel roof the following night and they TALK about it. And figure things out.

Omg thabk you for listening to my rant I hope you are doing well byeeee

~❤✨

P. S. You and your fics are my new hyperfixation

hello!!!!! in general sorry yall for my absence, finals are literally next week so it Will happen again

im so glad u like my depiction of alastor hes literally so annoying to write... a dry bed is honestly probably one of if not THE fave fic ive written (though might be a tie with mourning dove) so i hope part ii does it a bit of justice (,: i kind of deviated from ur request at the beginning (they dont wake up together >_<) but otherwise i hope u enjoy! hopefully its not too obvious i kind of rushed it

mwah! <3

A Warm Bed

(sequel to A Dry Bed)

Alastor x Reader (hurt/comfort, fluff) TW: none really, alastor is probs ooc but who cares

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It felt a little bit too cold when you woke up, but you couldn’t immediately find a reason why. Your eyes squinted open, facing the curtains that were drawn just enough to where a peek of the morning light rudely shone against your face. You turned over with a dissatisfied groan.

Peering at the empty bed beside you, you stared blankly as wheels began to turn in your mind. It only took a few seconds to remember the previous night, and your face quickly warned as you hissed in a breath through clenched teeth, wrists coming up and rubbing your eyes with a sense of dismay.

Man, what were you thinking. You felt a strong mixture of regret and embarrassment but also… you felt lonely. The strong, strange affection from Alastor the previous night directly compared to him disappearing and leaving you alone in the morning made you feel all the more cold. The room also had an uncomfortable silence to it, but at the same time too loud with the hum of your ceiling fan.

Whatever, you feigned indifference to yourself and lifted yourself from your mattress, legs dangling over the side of your bed for a few moments, allowing yourself to get a quick stretch in before sliding on some comfortable slippers while you went to your restroom, protecting your feet against the cold tile.

You quickly freshened up, pulling on some comfortable loungewear before leaving your hotel room and walking down the long corridor that led to the steps. Maybe it was just your current mood, but the ambience was too quiet and uncomfortable.

Your spirits slowly lifted as you made your way down the steps, and you could hear the faint clashing of kitchen tools being dropped and thrown, alongside unintelligible and arguing voices, one doubtlessly being Vaggie trying to tame—or, no, threaten—the chaos.

The air, at the very least, smelled good despite the racquet. Though you were in Hell, the food was still appetizing—even if you weren’t exactly sure what it was half the time.

You must’ve made it just in time, as right when you turned the corner you nearly hit your head against Charlie’s shoulder as she rounded the same corner. You tripped over each other for a moment before she ultimately steadied you with a hand and a breezy laugh.

"Good morning! I was just about to tell everyone breakfast was ready…” You smiled at her gesture. Every morning she tried to host some sort of typical continental style breakfast that was standard for most hotels—that is if Niffty’s behavior permitted a successful morning—and the quality was usually higher than what you remembered in your time alive. Of course, you were dealing with the Princess of Hell, who obviously wouldn’t want anything mediocre for her treasured guests.

“Thank you,” was all you could offer in return before she passed you, doubtlessly to gently announce the food to the other guests. There had been an increase in residents lately, so you weren’t shocked at the piles of delicious looking food that met your eyes when you stepped into the kitchen. You could practically imagine sparkles dancing around the fluffy pancakes and still sizzling pans of various breakfast meats.

You helped yourself to a meal, carefully stepping around the growing crowd of other guests, who all, for the most part, seemed a little aggravated at being woken up but nonetheless pleased at the free meal.

A brief hush filled the room as the air seemed to get just a bit heavier, more ominous, alongside the new presence of a prickling against your skin. You didn’t have to look up, nor did you even want to look up, to know who the culprit of such a suffocated atmosphere was; you knew him well enough.

The kitchen slowly came back to life, albeit a bit stiffer and with quieter conversation. You kept your eyes glued to your plate of food as you made your way towards the dining area. As you passed through the entrance, out of your peripheral you saw the large, looming figure of the demon you had become unnaturally attached to. You didn’t look up or even acknowledge him, pretending to just not notice, but you could swear you felt his red gaze burning a hole in your skin.

A few minutes passed after you sat down before Alastor joined you, sitting in his unofficial assigned seat. The only difference was he didn’t scoot his chair nearly as close as usual, as well as the way his body was turned just slightly so that his back was facing you. Not enough to be noticed by other people, but just enough for you—though, maybe you were just overanalyzing things?—to notice how he was pointedly uninviting you from any interactions with him.

Why even bother coming to breakfast, you thought coldly to yourself, deciding to just feel mad about it instead of stewing in your own self-hate and regret. You had already spent all morning feeling stupid for the night before. It’s not like you even eat this shit. Go eat a dead deer or something.

Your fork poked aggressively against the food on your plate, head propped up against a fist as you mindlessly scooted the food around in a pool of syrup. You hoped to convey some sense of hatred to the demon next to you as you jammed a fluffy bite of pancake into your mouth—oh, that’s so good, your spirits were lifted just a bit as the slightly sweet and buttery pancake touched your tongue.

A hand touched your back, and you jolted in surprise. Naturally your eyes first went to Alastor next to you, thinking maybe he was finally over himself, but he had his hands folded on the table in front of him as he watched another table argue over something probably meaningless. Maybe you’re crazy, but did you see his eyes flick to your just as you looked away? You shook off the idea.

Vaggie sat to your right, and was currently eyeing you with a hint of concern in her eye. You shrugged off her hand as politely as possible before smiling at her with a raised eyebrow, trying to play it off with an ‘I’m alright.’

“People that are ‘alright’ don’t usually have some personal vendetta against a plate of breakfast food,” She said in a low voice, trying to keep your conversation private, particularly from a certain set of prying, fluffy red ears. “You know you have friends here. Especially Charlie.”

“Really, I’m all good, just… long morning,” You did your best to wave away her worries again, suddenly feeling a little childish. From the way she spoke, you would think she was talking to someone going through something serious—you were just having some guy problems.

It seemed to work well enough, because after looking at you for a few more beats she raised her hand and turned away, picking up a conversation with her girlfriend. You sat in your spot for a few more minutes, but the growing anxiety from silently and awkwardly sitting next to Alastor, sifting through so many racing thoughts and doubts, gnawed at your stomach. You finally stood up and excused yourself with a thank you and left the room.

You had no specific place to be, so you just wandered into the lobby and slumped against a couch. You briefly wondered where Angel was; he was surprisingly good at listening to romantic troubles, though honestly you probably wouldn’t divulge your whole “thing” with Alastor. That would probably meet no welcomed response.

You must have dozed off, because the sudden sound of raised voices startled your eyes open. Arguments and general anger were commonplace here, so you weren’t particularly shocked to find Vaggie and Angel Dust going at it about something regarding his behavior and the Hotel—a recurring theme in their conversations. Vaggie’s words fell on deaf ears as Angel tutted at her words with a waving and dismissive hand.

“I’m sure ninety percent of these guests would love to have a piece’a me!” He said, taking long strides across the room as he fixed up his chest fluff with two hands. He leaned his hip against the large chair that, much to your dismay, sat Alastor, his grin tightening as Angel approached. His eyes narrowed suspiciously as the spider laid his torso across the head of the chair.

“Even this one…” Angel said with a pouty lilt in his voice, finger dragging up the embellishments as he tried to play flirty. Alastor clicked his tongue distastefully in response before he stood up, hands folding neatly across the top of his cane.

“Not quite to my taste, thank you!” He said, looking down at Angel with an ugly curl in his lip. Angel only huffed in response before slinking down the back of the chair and taking up the space where Alastor previously sat, leaving said demon just standing there.

Alastor’s eyes glanced at you, so brief that you honestly may have imagined it, before he simply hummed with closed eyes and melted into the ground, the shadow where he once stood inking across the carpet before finally coming to a rest… behind the couch where you were laying. You grimaced as you felt his presence manifest again, sending a ripple of that familiar prickle down your bare arms.

Was this going to be your eternity now? Playing some game of cat and mouse where you have to leave every room you’re in just because Alastor gets too close for comfort? You turned your head to try to get a look at him from the corner of your eye, but immediately looked away again when you saw he was already looking at you. You couldn’t read his expression.

You sat up and thought for a few moments. Honestly, it was probably best to just go spend a depression day alone in your room. As pushy as Alastor could be, he wasn’t typically the type to barge into rooms without invitation.

Slowly standing, you managed to avoid the attention of the couple of others in the room—though, realistically, none would care if they happened to see you leave; you were just on edge to everyone and everything. You quickly made your way up the stairs, frowning down at your feet as you walked. You shot a sideways glance at Alastor as you rounded a turn in the steps, finally meeting his gaze for a few seconds before your view was blocked by the wall.

You sighed as you found yourself in front of your hotel room, a heavy feeling making you suddenly choke up. You ushered yourself into the room before you embarrassed yourself by crying openly in the hallway, but the comforting solitude of your room as you leaned your back against the door to close it made it a bit easier to breathe.

After ensuring the door was locked, you went to stand at the edge of the bed, frowning down at the still unmade sheets. Thoughts of that tender night came to the front of your mind at full force, and you bit your lip anxiously. The warmth of his body against yours, the tangle of legs and soft touches of lips… was it all actually, in a cruel turn of reality, a fake expression of care from him? When you had finally begun to think you could read the affection on his face…

You settled into the soft mattress, uncomfortably aware of how big and cold it was. You were no stranger to sleeping alone by any means, but after finally experiencing the shared space with someone you loved, the contrast was stark and unwelcomed. You did your best to ignore it as you tucked yourself in, letting your eyes fall shut in a poor attempt to sleep away your worries.

Your attempts were unsuccessful, and an empty feeling of longing and despair in your stomach grew stronger with each hour that passed as you watched the red hue of the daylight sky turn darker. You felt both restless and tired at the same time, lacking any energy to actually do anything to pass the time.

It all proved to be counterintuitive to the whole “sleep your worries away” as the hours you spent just lying down only gave you ample opportunity to melt in your own thoughts as the memories of last night kept returning. Man, why did you have to kiss him? You unwittingly ignored the fact that he had also played a part in closing that gap between you; you were honestly just pinning the blame fully on yourself.

Finally sick of stewing in misery, you kicked off the heavy blanket and stood up. You needed some fresh air.

You tried to walk quickly with a fake sense of purpose so, in the odd chance you passed someone, they hopefully wouldn’t ask about your absence all day—you were typically more present and friendly with everybody as you would often help Charlie with event organization. Lucky enough for you, you passed nobody on your way to the door that opened to some stairs up to the roof of the Hotel.

After a quick pace up the echoey, metal steps, you pushed open the large doors and greeted with a pleasantly cool rush of wind. It was still warm, of course, being Hell and all, but cooler than usual. You quietly closed the heavy doors behind you.

There was a spot on the roof you typically sat at during long, restless nights, and you turned the corner of the door before promptly backtracking and pressing yourself up against the metal door once again, jaw clenched in a mix of shock and anger.

Why the Hell was Alastor on the roof at your spot with your blanket that you had left up here on some previous night? Was he doing all this on purpose? Constantly getting all too close to you while simultaneously acting cool and indifferent towards your existence? Was this all just some sick game to him? Well… it is Alastor.

You peeked over the edge from where you hid to get a better look at him. He sat serenely with his back towards you, legs hanging over the edge of the roof. You couldn’t see his expression, but his body waved just slightly, most likely to the tune of some song in his head. Despite all the frustration you felt in your soul towards him, looking at him under the blanket of a dark red sky with a sprinkling of stars… he still endeared you. Especially when he looked so harmless and relaxed.

Just as you were about to turn away again and find somewhere else to relax, he cleared his throat, stopping you before you could even move.

“It’s rude to stare,” He stated, projecting his voice just enough for you to hear the light humor in his voice. “You seem like a stalker, darling!”

You straightened your shoulders before walking out from behind the wall, a frown on your face. You didn’t walk any closer—God forbid you accidentally do anything to hurt your relationship anymore, if that was even possible.

“I didn’t mean to, I was just… surprised, that’s all,” You reasoned, tapping your foot impatiently. “You are kind of in my spot.”

He hummed, absently pointing at the surface around him. “I didn’t see your name on it.”

You couldn’t really think of a response quickly, so you just stayed quiet, continuing to just stand in place a few meters away from Alastor.

He briefly put his hand down on the space next to him, patting twice in a vague invitation for you to join him. You thought for a brief moment before cautiously walking towards him, steps growing slower with each foot you got closer. He made no move to send you away—in fact, he even started moving the blanket in a way to make the concrete just a bit more comfortable to sit on. He still didn’t look at you.

Embarrassingly your hands had started to shake, which you realized when you reached your hand down to support your body as you lowered it to sit. You just hoped Alastor didn’t notice. You let your legs fall over the ledge, swinging slightly next to Alastor’s. You didn’t notice how he shifted his knee a bit closer to yours.

The two of you sat in silence under the still-darkening sky, and you couldn’t decide if it was a comfortable or awkward silence. Alastor didn’t seem to mind, so you tried to convince yourself it was comfortable despite the itching anxiety in your chest.

“I’m really sorry about last night,” You blurted out, unable to contain it anymore. Was it a bad idea to even bring it up? Maybe. But you felt that your relationship was already irreparably damaged so it couldn’t hurt to at least apologize. You saw his eyes turn towards you out of your peripheral, and you were too ashamed to meet his look, instead opting to fiddle with a fray of the blanket edge.

“Whatever for?” He responded after an uncomfortably long pause—this stunned you. Fuck you mean ‘whatever for?’ Your head whipped up to look at him, brows furrowed.

You had spent all die scared that you ruined everything between you and Alastor, regretting everything that led up to last night’s events—it didn’t help that Alastor himself was also blatantly avoiding you. What the fuck is he acting so confused for?

Apparently you said that all out loud, as Alastor’s smile was growing more and more strained with each loud word that tumbled from your lips. You didn’t even realize until you were done and catching your breath, but at this point you couldn’t care less to apologize or feel bad about it. You folded your arms and fixated your eyes on some random pedestrian below as another long stretch of silence filled the air.

“You confuse me,” He finally said, with a voice that lacked its usual radio tone. You didn’t respond, so he continued. “I feel these alien emotions when I’m near you—you bewitch me. And I don’t like it. I hate you for it.”

You couldn’t control the slight slump in your shoulders and the sharp pang in your stomach that his words brought you. Hate.

“But… I kill the demons I hate,” He said, looking away from you and up at the sky. “And I can’t find myself wanting to kill you. That has to mean something, though I’m really no man to figure it out myself.”

You cautiously returned your eyes back to him, shoulders curled forward as if to protect yourself against the blow of any harsh words. But, as he spoke, you felt that anxiety slowly lighten as you pieced together what he was trying to convey in his own strange way. Although, you weren’t really sure what to say in response, filled with too many swarming emotions—both new and old.

Suddenly you looked at the space between the two of you—was Alastor’s hand there just a minute ago? You looked up to try to get any hint of his goals; but, unsurprisingly, he remained unreadable. It was definitely safer to just ignore it.

Well, that got a lot harder when his pinkie finger stretched towards you just a bit, practically inviting you. You looked at his face one more time, swallowed your fear, and tenderly laid your hand down next to his. You moved it cautiously closer, just enough so that your pinkie touched his own. His lifted up and curled over yours, tightening in a way to bring the rest of your hand closer and enveloping it with his own. Your gaze was fixated on this exchange and you felt heat warm your cheeks and ears.

You both said nothing, but you thought the pounding in your ears would drown out any attempt.

Your attention finally broke from the hands that now clasped together between the two of you, turning up towards Alastor. You found that he had been looking at you with such an intensity it made you feel like an open book before him. His eyes had a slight glow to them now that the sky had fully darkened—eyes that were usually so malicious and secretive seemed to now burn with what you could only assume was affection.

“I can’t promise I’ll be a good man,” He finally broke the silence. His smile was small but strained, and his voice uncharacteristically quiet.

In response you shook your head with a breathless laugh, tightening your hand just slightly around his as you focused on the street below, watching the scattered presence of night owl demons.

“I probably couldn’t promise the same, either,” You admitted, leaning back and stretching out your legs in the open air over the ledge of the roof. You froze momentarily when Alastor shifted a bit closer, his knee now barely knocking against yours.

He reached his hand out, fingers curling gingerly but firm over your chin and pulling your face closer to his. He examined your face for a moment, red eyes trailing over every curve of your features before settling back to look into your eyes.

“But I can promise, cher,” The new name he referred to you as made the already present flush in your cheeks only intensify. “That as long as you own what’s left of my heart, no demon in Hell can keep you away from me. Not even you.”

His words were spoken almost like a threat in an ominously low tone, that heavy radio affliction dripping from his words. In his eyes was a sudden look of sinister intensity and devotion, something you had never even dreamed of seeing, especially from him and especially towards you. As menacing as the words seemed, you couldn’t stop the wry smirk that inched up your lips, slightly smushed between his fingers that still firmly held your head in place.

“I’d like to see anyone try,” You responded in an attempt to match his energy. This seemed good enough for him, as his smile lifted for a moment as he released you from his grasp and faced forward again.

You yawned and stretched out your arms above your head, popping a few bones in your back before you stood. He followed suit, deftly touching his clothes with one hand to smooth any wrinkles or crooked buttons—his other was still holding your own.

He stepped closer, nearly pressed against you, when suddenly the atmosphere around you seemed to melt in a swirl of black before being replaced with the familiar decor of your hotel room. He gave you a light nudge and you fell back onto the bed.

After recuperating and settling, you watched him from your spot on the bed as he draped off his coat and slacks before joining you in the sheets. His body language was tense and unsure, but to your own pleasure the stiffness in his shoulders lightened just a bit when your hands tenderly rubbed against his skin.

The bed that was only hours before too big and too cold was now inviting with the warmth of Alastor’s body against your own, his scent filling your nose with every inhale as his hair brushed against your cheek. Every movement was a shaky blur as you were still filled with a sense of disbelief and maybe a little bit of adrenaline from the unexpected switch-up from him. The mattress dipped and creaked as he tried to make himself comfortable, which took an awkward few seconds, but after finally settling in you found yourself laid against his chest, fingers trailing down his skin.

Alastor’s own clawed fingers trailed through your hair and he hummed the quietest tune, lulling you further into an exhaustion that you didn’t realize had been creeping up on you. You fell asleep to a comfort that you hoped you wouldn’t have to spend another day in eternity without.

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teshiee · 2 days ago

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HFVRN thank youu!!

i did not think this out much...at all, but drawing it was a lotta fun!

also i almost made lloyd veronica but i changed it to nya before i even started working on the. actual heather trio so yay!!

#NO CUZ U HAVE MO #IDEA OF HOW MANY TIMES I THOUGHT AB HESTHERS X NI JAGO SND DRAWING IT #JAJJAAJ I LOVE THIS YESS ZANE AS JD AND JYA AS VERONIA AND OFC KAI AND JAY AND COOENDIENELENDIE IM GOONG CRAZY THIS IS PERFECT #Ig Lloyd could be Veronica aka Nyas best friend?#was it Martha?#sorry lol it’s Been a while since I was into heathers so I can’t remember names properly 😭#<- prev. yes its Martha!! i was considering that too while drawing hhrrhe;#still considering it. i cannot decide #THABK YOU AGAIN #self rb

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dingledraw · 4 months ago

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Hey dingle random ask I know, but u have said before that u have autism, and I myself believe I have it as well, but im undiagnosed and no ine really believes me when I talk about the symptoms I share with people who are diagnosed but anyway

I think im having a shutdown? My body feels really weird like im not there. Some parts of my body is like , I domt know ut feels wlvery weird, when ppl speak to me I cant seem to open my mouth, and if I do ive been speaking really slow and soft? And im breathing really hard and ive been forcing myself to not stim, and stimming helped but it made me feel weird for neeeding to do so and im typing really fast for some reason and have been listening to the same song for like 80 times and covered myself with my blanket and locked myself in my room

I cant really get away from my trigger (its my parents fighting) so what shoyld I do? I feel so scared and on edge this never happens usually, ive been so off today ever since starting my account for the first time and im really panicking here do u have advice?

Thabk you. If you need to ignore this ask for whatever reason I understabd completely, take care ty for ur art

Oh gosh, that’s a hard question. Autism shutdowns can be triggered by many different things and the best way to deal with can differ from person to person. I’m sorry that you can away from your trigger that really sucks to hear.

In regards to feeling disconnected from your body I have a weighted blanket and a weighted plushie (I got the plushie form here) that helps me. You can use other heavy things (like a coffee table book) and try and put them your chest while you lying down and see if the weight helps you calm down. Soda can also help. That sounds odd, but the sensory input from the carbonation, the cold temperature and the flavor can also help focus on the body. Another thing that is also related to temperature, is taking something like a bag of frozen peas and again place it on your chest, which again forces your brain to connect to your body. I also find that moving my body helps, which ofc can be a big ask if you’re already exhausted, but maybe just walking around in your room while perhaps listening to something.

The most important thing to do is be kind to yourself. It sucks that you feel weird stimming, but it’s not weird that you need to do that. Autistic people don’t regulate their emotions by the same means that neurotypical people do, and there is nothing wrong with that. You don’t have to do it in front of others if you’re not comfortable, but don’t deny something that helps you and is completely harmless. You need to be kind to yourself, and give yourself what you need in order to function and be happy. If that includes stimming then you should use it. I wear headphones almost everywhere, I would rather not and wear cute earrings, but I have to do what is best for me and helps me function in a noisy environment.

Again, it’s hard to give advice since autism varies from person to person, but try different things and see what works for you without judgement in regards to whether or not it is “weird”

Take care of yourself and stay strong 💪

#asks🗣️#also getting diagnosed helped me a lot #but I know that is not for everyone 🩷

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maybe-i-dreamt-u · 2 years ago

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Bsd as texts between me and my friends

Inspired by the wonderful @flower-of-darkness

Dazai: dude

Dazai: random question but

Dazai: what was the name of dexters sister

Dazai: like from dexters laboratory or whatever

Chuuya: uhh

Chuuya: didi, i think

Dazai: DIDIDEEZ NUTS AHDHAKDHAHSGAJDGAG

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Tecchou: what friends

Tecchou: you have other friends? 🤠

Jouno: …

Jouno: pot calling the kettle black

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Fyodor: no problem love<3

Nikolai: can I send the puppy eye emoji or is that cringe

Fyodor: idk

Fyodor: try

Fyodor: let me see if I cringe

Nikolai: 🥺🥺🥺 Thabk youuu🥺🥺🥺

Fyodor: disgusting

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Dazai: he looks like a pedo but maybe he‘s not

Dazai: he looks cool..

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Ranpo: in order to have a meaningful opinion

Ranpo: she beeds a double digit iq

Ranpo: just sayin…

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Atsushi: we have parted ways

Akutagawa: good

Akutagawa: never meet again

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Dazai: i slept so fucking hard

Dazai: it literally felt like i died

Dazai: it was very nice

Dazai: very cool

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Dazai: maybe I’m a sociopath but it’s not hard to manipulate someone into liking you

Dazai: ethical? Now idk

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Jouno: haha

Jouno: *xD

Jouno: *Lmao

Jouno: *aldjaldjsl

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Ranpo: well we had a test in romanian and i told him to copy from me but he didn’t do it

Ranpo: i saw where he made mistakes

Ranpo: and after he handed in his test i told him what he did wrong

Ranpo: ��

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Gin: idk why but I always feel so hot after a shower

Tachihara: your carbohydrates refresh and build new seggsy vibes

Tachihara: probably

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Ranpo: ok

Yosano: that was the most boring response you could have given me

Yosano: no „F“

Yosano: no „awh man I’m sorry“

Ranpo(answering to the above msg): CREEPER

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Jouno: I live in torment and pride

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Jouno: WHT THE FUCK DO YOU WANT STOP YELLING

Teruko: IM NOT YELLING

Tecchou: please calm down guys

Jouno: WHO HERE DO YOU THINK KNOWS HOW TO EDIT

Teruko: TECCHOU

Tecchou: who?

Jouno(answering to tecchous first msg): shut the fuck up or I will throw you over the balcony

Teruko: yeah come on

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Dazai: know your worth king🤞

Atsushi: damn

Atsushi: 57 cents

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Sigma: the bar is on the ground

Dazai: kinda digging my own grave rn

Dazai: takin the bar with me btw

…

BONUS for anyone who know german and/or romanian:

Atsushi: tbh dude

Atsushi: i think it’s not eventually

Atsushi: but eventuell..

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Chuuya: WA

Chuuya: IS ANYONE WATCHING ROMANII AU TALENT RN

Dazai, not 2 seconds later: kiss love beibi

Anyway.. part 2??

#i have an obscene amount of these so like #bsd #soukoku #bungou stray dogs #suegiku #fyolai #sskk

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ivy-loves-chocolate · 2 years ago

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HIIII!!!! I was wondering if you could do like a Jack Krauser x ex f!Reader and after reader and Jack broke up reader never saw krauser again until re4 when they were working with Leon and they end up meeting krauser there and it’s like angsty IM SORRY IF THIS DOSENT MAKE SENSE AND I LOVE YOUR WRITING IF YOU DONT WANT TO DO THIS JUST IGNORE THABK YOU-💕💕

Hi bestie, sure np! And how could I ignore such a nice request??

Warnings: mentions of death, and angst.

"What the hell's gotten into you!" you shouted at Krauser. "Faking your death, kidnapping the president's daughter?!"

You were assigned with Leon in the mission to rescue Ashley, and at some point, you met Krauser. You watched as Leon and Jack engaged in their knife fight while you were busy trying to keep Luis alive.

"Seems like they know each other," he said in a weakened voice.

"Yeah, it's-it's a long story...Leon trained under him."

"I see..but what about..." Luis began to cough, so he couldn't finish his sentence.

Hey, easy now, don't talk." You kept pressing over his wound, but the bleeding wouldn't stop.

"...what about you and him, huh?"

"I vaguely know him..." you said, but even on his deathbed, Luis knew you were lying.

"You don't look at someone you vaguely know like that..." He began to cough again, and then you watched the battle in silence.

"I'm...I'm so sorry for what he did to you..." you said, trying to comfort the dying man.

"It's ok, I kinda had it coming."

You continued to watch them fight, and from the looks of it, Leon was not going to last too long.

"You know you'll have to pull the trigger, right?" Or else Sancho will join me."

"You're right," you said with doubt in your voice, and with a shaky hand, you pointed the gun at Krauser. You shot the knife out of his hand, point when he turned to see you. He stared at you for a couple of seconds before jumping onto a platform above you.

"Playtime's over, rookie..."

Something was different about him. It's clear that he had some enhanced physical abilities, kinda like that Wesker guy, but he also seemed more gloomy. He was spiteful, angry, and merciless, traits that you didn't see in him while you two were together. He wasn't the man you knew.

After that, you, Leon, and Ashley got separated in the stupid castle.

"Who the fuck needs a castle? It's 2004. A penthouse would do just fine..." you whined as you crossed the castle's eerie halls. You've got to admit that for a bloodthirsty cult, the castle was pretty clean.

"Where are they...." There was no sign of life around you, which was weird. "Did all the bad guys go after Leon? If so, I don't wanna be in his place now."

The sound of distant footsteps caught your attention.

"Ashley?"

There was no response. You pulled out your gun and slowly approached the source of the noise.

"I hope Leon spared some bad guys for me, cuz it's getting boring here."

You kept walking into the end of the hallway, then you peeked over the edge to see if it was a monster or a human. In the distance, you saw Krauser, who was walking in the opposite direction.

"Krauser!" You shouted, but he ignored you. "Son of a bitch!" At that moment, you forgot everything about the mission and decided to chase Krauser. You were determined to confront him.

No matter how fast you were running after him, he was always very far away. You got so frustrated that you didn't realize he was playing with you. Krauser kept leading you to dead ends and making you run in circles, just to tire you, and it worked because he knew you'd chase him no matter what.

Eventually, it seemed that he entered some sort of dining hall.

"I got you now..." you said, panting. You busted through the door and aimed your gun in all directions, looking frantically for Krauser.

"What, but I-" you said, disappointed, lowering your weapon. "I-"

"Looking for someone, love." A familiar, hoarse voice echoed behind you.

"Krauser!" You turned and aimed at him, but he quickly placed the knife at your throat.

"Didn't I teach you that knives are faster?" he said with a smirk.

You dropped your gun and raised your hands. He lowered his knife too and took a few steps back.

"You look like you've got something to say." He said that after seeing that you remained silent.

"What the hell's gotten into you!" you shouted at Krauser. "Faking your death, kidnapping the president's daughter?!"

"There it is."

Oh, drop the attitude! I have the right to be angry after all you've done."

"You don't understand, you're just as naive as that rookie-"

"What is it to understand? How have you turned your back to the country you once swore to protect? How have you turned your back to me?"

"You weren't with me in that jungle...if you were, you'd understand."

"Understand what?"

"How we are just some disposable pawns to them! They don't care about us, they don't care if we live or die. If we perish, they'll just recruit more people and dispose of those who can't get the job done anymore. That's what they did with me, and that will happen with you and Leon."

"That's bullshit..."

"Oh really? Do you think you'll get some sort of prize for bringing Ashley home safe? Do you think your effort will get recognized? Not a chance."

"And what should we do, huh? Find us some cults and join them to gain some power? You're insane!"

"And you're simply too naive to see the truth, but don't worry, it will come to you someday, hopefully not too late."

"Too late for what? Jack, you always had a choice..."

"That's why you don't get it...guys like me don't have a variety of options. You, on the other hand...."

"Jack, you led me here just to tell me this?" You approached him slowly, looking for the man you once trust and loved.

"I-I don't know... I just wanted to see you."

You looked into each other's eyes, waiting for the other to make a move.

"What have you done? ... You killed Luis, kidnapped Ashley...why?"

"I-I don't know what I'm doing... I needed some comfort, some sense of familiarity."

"You dumb blond..." You said before throwing yourself at him. Your lips touched his, and he wrapped his arms around your waist. The kiss was shy at first, but it became more and more intense.

If Hunnigan hadn't called, maybe the whole thing would've taken a steamy turn.

"Roost to (your nickname), are you there? Any sign of Baby Eagle or Condor One?"

"Negative, I'm still looking for them. Did you manage to contact them?" You were glued to Krauser the whole time, and his hands never left your body.

"Negative, they've been radio silent for one hour. I can't find their location either."

"I'll keep searching for them. I'll contact them as soon as I find them."

"Copy that. Roost out."

"Was that Hunnigan?" Krauser asked.

"Yeah. Missed her?"

"Nope. The only person I missed from that chaos was you."

"You made sure to show me that..." You put some distance between you once again, even if your body didn't want to. You knew that what your heart wanted was impossible. Krauser has already chosen his path. He wasn't the man you used to know.

"Join me," he suggested.

"Not my thing, sorry. I think this is where we go our separate ways."

Krauser lowered his gaze as a feeling of sadness and disappointment took over him.

A blunt "fine" came out of his mouth before leaving the room. You remained, fighting every urge to run to him and hold him tight. You had to repeat to yourself many times that he wasn't the man you knew anymore in an attempt to stop yourself from crying and regain focus on the mission.

"I don't have time for this sentimental crap."

With that, you continued your search for Ashley and Leon.

Ko-fi (SFW content) || Patreon (NSFW content)

#resident evil #resident evil 4 remake #jack krauser #krauser #angst

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praxieserver · 2 years ago

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This is a kind of silly one BUT like havd this cringe weird au where like cartman has another kid in post covid (I called her jane cuz she reminds me of rtc jane doe for her personality) and for some reason I see her sm with kyle's daughter (aubrey) kinda like menorah and eli and it would be so funny like cartman realizing that both of his kids are dating/have a crush on his rival's/enemie's kids but aside from that I see jane totally like freaking aubrey out and aubrey being kinda scared of her at first because she literally appeared out of nowhere all the time spooking everyone even if she doesn't mean to I feel she got curious about aubrey because observing a bit she realized they didn't seemed as bad as her dad told her,so she tries like get closer to her but accidentally spooks her a lot at first

Jane:"you know what I find kind of really super hurts?"

Aubrey:*turning around in fear* "maybe later thanks— SORRY—" *runs away*

/ref

But I see her slowly realizing that jane isn't actually as scary as she thought and slowly start spending more time together

Theres more I could say about these two but I am lazy and also dont know how to phrase everything so that's it for now!

op u need to share more rn and YOU NEED TO TELL ME IF SHE LOOKS LIKE JANE DOE FROM RID ETHE CYCLONE OR YOU HAVE DIFFERENT DRSIGN IN MIND.

I FUCK W THIS AU. I WILL DOODLE THIS AU ONCE IM NOT DEAD FROM SWIMMING TRAINING. THABK U SM FOR SHARING UR OWN SILLY AU IDEAS WITH MY SILLY AU IDEAS TO FORM A NEW, EVEN SILLIER AU IDEA.

akhdksjaja srry if this sounds rlly aggressive but wowzs!!!! im so very excited and very happy to hear more since i haven't really watched rtc in it's entirety (i just listen to the what the world needs and ballad of jane doe over and over again and watched a few funny conpilations on youtube 😭✌️), and im sure your jane's personality isnt a direct copy of jane doe rtc's personality so!!! please!!!! share!!!!

personally i see aubrey as being cautious towards jane bc her and moisha do not get along at all, and in gen the rivalry is a family wide thing, so while she's polite to the other members of the cartman family that don't bother her (totally on her own volition bc she's such a mature child and not bc her dad has severely reprimanded her for severely injuring moisha in multiple fights, no sir!) they're all on thin ice really.

so she's probably really jittery around her most of the time, but kind of has a revelation that. out of all the weird encounters she's had with jane. jane hasn't really. done anything. and decides to try talking to her and they become good friends and she adopts them into her friend group bc she's very extroverted in a female himbo kinda way. (not a bimbo. well actually ig, she's a bimbo but in a masc way. so like. girl himbo. listen she's just a dorkass kid sometimes that's all you need to know)

anyways thank u sm for sharing!!! hope to see u in my inbox again soon :DD

#south park #south park post covid #mail

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hiii thank u for your kind words :( yesterday i fell asleep hoping u would answer cause i really like reading ur responses so i fell asleep at like 2am and i have volleyball practice at 9AM on saturdays, so i was SO sleepy i put my alarm in the calculator 😐😐😐😐 not funny did not laugh, anyways R didn’t go to volleyball practice and hasn’t talked to J yet, she does speak to me so i guess me yelling at her didnf psis her off as much as i thought it would, M never texts in our gc 😒😒 but its okay we love her, A talks to me too, its just between J and R that things are kinda… tense.

aw thank u so much :( im sorry if i don’t know how to take compliments bc i dont personally think im cute, but hearing u say it so many times makes it easier for me to be confident about it 🫶🏻🫶🏻 so thanks! i do find you to be really cute (and VERY funny) too !!!

also 2 week long holiday??? THATS GREAT im really happy for you!! how are you doing w school? any test or projects you’re working on? i still don’t understand this whole college thing… is it something u do during junior and senior year? or after you graduate?

also jisung is my bf and all but chenji overrated asf imo… people will focus on popular ships and turn their head away from a duo like markmin… i personally really like jaemin and hyuck’s dynamic too but anyways o did vote for markmin !! at least lqfiles appreciates them 🙏🏻

ps why does everyone think yn and mark are having sex??? 🤔

- 🐣 anon again…

HELLOOO i’m so happy to see you’re active here omg i hope you’re studying tho, DONT SPEND TOO MUCH TIME ON HERE

i’m sorry if my response was late i normally only reply when it’s 11 pm here because i post at 12 😣 i also never knew you did volleyball WTFFF that’s so cool, i wish i was talented in a sport.. i mean i can skate well but that isn’t rlly a sport. IM HAPPY THAT IT DOESNT SEEM TO BE TOO BAD WITH YOUR FRUENDS tho i hope those other two will come around and stop making things so awkward 😭

LOLLL i’m sorry if me calling you cute bothers you btw it’s just that i always awe at your messages so i instinctively call you cute </3 i’m so you tho because i truly don’t know how to take compliments either, i always get shy, especially when it’s irl lmao but thabk you for thinking i’m cute and funny IM VERY HAPPY RN!!!!:D

school is almost finishing and i just submitted my last coursework for the school year so rn my class is just kinda doing anything! idk about other colleges but since i go to college in the UK we don’t do junior stuff and all, instead we have levels and (level 1,2,3) and here you can apply based on how good your grades are (if they were really good you can immediately start in level 3, if not you start lower) i’m currently doing level 3 year 1 (level 3 has two years over here) but i’m still figuring out if i wanna do this next year or just apply for an apprenticeship (basically getting education while also getting work experience)

CHENJI ARE CUTE BUT SO OVERRATED LIKE they barely interact and if they do it’s so little (imo) i’m more of a markmin girl because of the way mark treats jaemin, like jaemin is the same age as 00 so he treats them like friends but with mark he literally becomes a baby and it’s so cute i fucking love it IM SUCH A HUGE MARKMINIST YOU DONT GET IT, ITS MY BRAND, i should do a dream pair ranking tbh. THANO YOU FOR VOTING MARKMIN i think they lost regardless because they went against chenji (WHICH ISNT FAIR….) i love a bit of nahyuck too, not my fave pair but they’re funny tgt!!

I WISH I LJEW WHY EVERYONE THINKS SO guys pls if they were i would insinuate it more but laughing around and her asking to hang and her directly saying they only kiss.. COME ON…

#asks.#from 🐣 anon #( pay the price )

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tsukasageorge · 2 years ago

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A TAG OMG THABK YOU MIKI I AM GOING TO CRY HAPPY TEAR

THANK YOU SANDWICH TOO

Are you named after anyone? Not really no

When was the last time you cried? Tbh I think it was like. A week or two ago because a teacher told me I did something wrong

Do you have kids? no

Do you use sarcasm a lot? Yes

What sports have you played? I've only ever really done cheerleading tbh, I did basketball for a minute but wasn't very good lol. I wanna try ice skating but I probably won't 💔 sad

First thing you notice about other people? Honestly I'd say face but I usually don't actually think about someone's features. I cannot for the life of me remember ANYONES eye color aside from like 2 people you all have brown eyes to me. Way of speaking I guess

Eye color? Targeted question. Brown

Scary movies or happy endings? Secret third option; bittersweet endings. Not a big fan of scary movies tbh, esp since a lot of them rely on jumpscares and dark lighting but then again I haven't watched a scary movie since I was like 10 and paranoid so I should really give them a try. Happy endings are good tho

Special talents? Im a good actor but idk if that counts as Special. I feel like I DO have a special or hidden talent but I always always forget about it forever. My special talent is that I am really good at forgetting pen caps go on the end of the pen

Where were you born? In the America

Hobbies? i draw, write, and watch the same 6 shows over and over again. tryna pick up parkour im such a scaredy cat about it lol

Do you have any pets? 1 dog. The meow meow ever. She's more nico's than mine tbh but we were talking about getting a big white fluffy dog far off in the future

How tall are you? I am not

Fav subject in school? Aside from electives I think math tbh. I don't really like language arts Class because. Yeah. I like numbers

Dream job? Ough idek.... kinda wanna give zookeeping or marine biology a try... or a therapist. something that pays well and i enjoy and gives me free time

I don't have 15 mutuals that would do this lol & most of my mutuals have already been tagged.... @clood @mook29 @ayzrules @lord-shitbox @cold-ramenn @extrat413 @voidcat-senket @hitoh1to sorry if you guys have already been tagged or don;t like being tagged and ALSO ANYONE ELSE WHO WANTS TO DO IT

was tagged by @tuisong to do this! tysm tūī!!! <33

15 questions for 15 mutuals

1. are you named after anyone? nope

2. when was the last time you cried? mmm one or two weeks ago maybe?

3. do you have kids? no and i dont want them either

4. do you use sarcasm a lot? a little bit sometimes? but not that much i think

5. what sports do you play/have you played? basketball, ice skating and dancing (if that counts)

6. what's the first thing you notice about other people? im terrible at noticing things so ummm their physical appearance ig. especially their face

7. eye color? brown!

8. scary movies or happy endings? happy endings!! besides i cant stand scary movies...

9. any special talents? uhhh idk really... writing maybe?

10. where were you born? spain

11. what are your hobbies? playing video games, reading, writing, drawing, watching anime

12. do you have any pets? unfortunately not but i really want to....

13. how tall are you? around 168 cm

14. fave subject in school? chemistry (liked it so much im actually a chemist now lol) and i also really liked art

15. dream job? honestly just something related to what ive studied, something i like doing, that pays me well enough, isnt too tiring and where there is a good working atmosphere

tagging: @sstrawbearies / @astralx / @raeyginageorge / @skijjiki / @hardboiledteacozy / @skinwalkerbehavior / @distant-snow / @cosmic-opossum / @peach-tia / @solarings / @solarshadow / @spikeyys / @seapasture / @lunarelly / (only if you want no pressure!!)

#tag game #asks <3 #(not an ask but eh)

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aqqleshiqqing-archive · 3 years ago

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DONT WORRY

I GOTCHU FAM

NO YOU DIDNT HELL NAH YOU DIDNT NO YOU DI- UGLY CRYING

HSHJFJEHZH3HDJTBSD I APPRECIATE... 🙏🙏🙏🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺♥️♥️♥️♥️♥️

#DID YOU DECORATE HER BOW THABK YOU #I AM SEEING THESE SO LATE IM SO SORRY AGAIN BUT HNHKSNGS BE STILL MY HEART ILY #🍀 inbox #UEUEUEUEUEUEUE #lara tag #~ lovely gifts #♥️ tartaladon #curls hair might make it my wallpaper somewhere hm.

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I JJST FINISHED THE CHAPTER AND HOLY SHIT!!!! THE CLIFFHANGER

I AM SO HAPPY BUT SO TERRIFIED STILL KFJSKSJDJ (LIKE HOW IS THIS REUNION GONNA GO???!?! sobs)

THE CHAPTER WAS SO GOOD AND MY EMOTIONS THE WHOLE TIME

thabk you again for such a good chapter so well written, and i can’t wait for the next one <33 (i kinda want to draw something, so let’s see if i can gain the ability kfjskd)

NEW ART YOU SAY…..?

Im really happy you enjoyed the chapter & yeah…. sorry about that cliff hanger lol. I warned you!!

Thanks for swinging by & yelling about your feelings…. I LOVE IT SO MUCH!!!!!!!!!!

#I also LOVE YOUR ART #I know you like to draw snuggles #sooooo…..#I’m not saying there WILL be snuggles next chapter #but there MAY….. be some snuggling #the boys have been separated a long time #that’s the reunion you guys should be talking about!#forget hakoda!#it’s all about the ZUKKA WOOHHOOO #ok ok ok I’ll stop yelling in the tags #:):):):):):)#I’m just happy you enjoyed the chapter #jikitavazyjiri #my talented artist friend #liab #ria #ask

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Hi. Im sorry for bothering you. Can you please do bakugou, hawks, and aizawa where they buy a white noise machine to sleep better. But waje up one night to s/o crying saying '*insert name wont hurt me' over and over, because their abuser used white noise machines to purposefully keep them awake? Thabk youfkr your time

Sorry this took so damn long to write, I kinda forgot I even had this in the askbox, but here it is now. They’re adults and living together in the Baku and Hawks ones, I only did a scenario for Hawks and HCs for the other two since I couldn’t come up with scenarios.

~Aizawa Shouta~

•Aizawa has slept with a white noise machine for a long time and the first time you spent the night and he turned it on, it was an instant panic attack for you

•He knows how to deal with a panic attack, he has those from time to time too, so he knows how to calm you down

•When you’re calmer again, you open up to him about your past and he just listens

•He doesn’t really know what to tell you, but he is pretty sure sleep deprivation can be considered actual torture, but he figured it’s not really a good time to mention that

•You two stay up all night, talking and eating the ice cream Aizawa had in his freezer

•He tells you about his experience as a pro-hero, the good and the bad and you tell him more about yourself too

~Bakugou Katsuki~

•He got a white noise machine and from the moment he brought it into the bedroom he could see your discomfort

•You didn’t tell him why you were so upset, so he stopped prying after a while

•He came to bed later than you and you were still reading, but he fell asleep before you

•You stayed awake after Bakugou turned on the white noise machine, because you just couldn’t sleep

•The noise kept you awake for a while before you finally broke down in tears and woke up Bakugou

•He was pretty much like “what the fuck? Why are you crying in the middle of the night?”

•You explain to him about your past experience with white noise machines and he pretty much goes outside in his underwear and throws it in the garbage right then and there

•He then cuddles and comforts you for the rest of the night, telling you he’s never gonna let anything like that happen to you again

~Hawks/Takami Keigo~

“Babe, look what I bought” Hawks exclaimed as he entered the bedroom, holding a box.

You were already pretty much asleep when he barged into the room so you just decided to just turn in bed and keep sleeping. You were dead tired and you could see what he had bought later.

Sometime later you woke up to a familiar noise. Why were you hearing that noise again? It shouldn’t be possible, you nor Hawks owned a white noise machine. Even if Keigo knew about your past abuse, he wouldn’t do this to you. He wouldn’t hurt you like that, right?

No matter how much you tried to convince yourself you were just hearing things, the noise persisted. Eventually it just came to be too much, and you started sobbing, and repeating: “Keigo wouldn’t hurt me, he wouldn’t… he wouldn’t”

Hawks woke up in the middle of the night to a sadly familiar noise, your sobbing. He was wide awake pretty quickly since his instincts were yelling at him that something was wrong. He heard you repeating the same sentence over and over again and he could see you shaking under the covers.

“Babe? What is it, what’s wrong?” he asked and moved closer to you on the bed.

“I keep hearing it, it won’t go away” you cried and gripped the covers tighter.

“What, what won’t go away?”

“It-it’s like a-a white noise machine sound…”

“Oh, it is an actual white noise machine, I was trying to show it to you earlier and-”

“Turn it off, please, I-I can’t stand that sound”

“I will, would you please tell me what’s wrong, please?” Hawks sounded worried and you could hear it in his voice that he felt like he had done something wrong.

You turned to him and buried your face to the crook of his neck. He wrapped his wings around you like a cocoon and held you until you were coherent enough to talk again.

“Are you ready to talk? Wanna tell me why that particular noise caused such a bad reaction?” he asked and caressed your back.

“It’s just that, my ex… you know the asshole one… he used to keep me awake at night by using white noise machines and, I-I can’t stand the sound now” you hiccupped.

Hawks was a bit taken aback, because even though he knew your ex was a real ass, he didn’t expect him to actually torture you.

“That sounds really bad, I’m sorry that happened to you” Hawks said and wrapped his arms and wings around you tighter.

“It’s not your fault, so no need to apologize…” you sighed.

“I know that, but I just feel like you needed to hear it, even if it wasn’t coming from that asshole” he said.

“I appreciate it”

You snuggled closer to Hawks’ chest and after a while you fell back to sleep. Hawks didn’t though, he stayed up for a few hours, just holding you.

#bnha #mha #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #hawks #bnha hawks #mha hawks #katsuki bakugou #aizawa shouta #bnha scenarios #mha scenarios #bnha fanfiction #mha fanfiction #bnha angst #mha angst #bnha x reader #mha x reader

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