#terfs please know you are doing the bad guys' work for them and please know that these people will come for you

[naamahdarling]

And thiiiis is exactly what the moral panic over devil worship was like in the 80s as it started to ramp up.

Every book or show or song that made a MENTION of anything scary, that could POSSIBLY have been interpreted as Satanic, or that was rebellious and angry, was attacked. There were book and record burnings. Books were banned from libraries.

It's easy to laugh that off as silly now because the accusations of people summoning demons and sacrificing children was genuinely ridiculous as a narrative, but I beg you to remember all this:

Children WERE abused. Above all the other things that happened, the worst is that children were actually being abused.

By investigators.

They were abused by forcing them to have traumatic and humiliating exams. They were forced into interviews with no parent present and not allowed to leave until they had made an allegation, often being required to elaborate on them using leading questions, and make them worse enough to satisfy investigators. (Like actual witch hunts: name another victim, name another witch, and go free.) This happened to some kids many many times. Kids were forcibly removed from their homes and families. They were told their parents or family or friends' parents were criminals who has sexually abused other children and that they had also been abused whether they remembered or not. Some of these kids, even though they KNOW as adults that this did not happen still REMEMBER it happening because they were super young when the memories were implanted and reinforced over MANY evaluations. Unsurprisingly, they are really fucked up by it now.

There were trials and sentences over this shit.

And a lot of adults had their lives RUINED, permanently, over allegations of child abuse. Some had strained relationships with their kids sfterwards.

The investigations caused so much chaos actual victims of abuse were missed in the deluge of false allegations.

And the cop who started a big chunk of it STILL believes it was real. Because of course she does.

Like, I was alive for this. A little young, but keenly aware of it because I was into stuff like Dungeons and Dragons and books about monsters. And during the tail end, I was a tween-teen, and into dark subjects that I had to hide because my area was very regressive and held on to the paranoia for YEARS.

(A 15 year old student was accused by adults of hexing a teacher and being a witch, suspended, had her private writing confiscated, and rumors allowed to circulate and bullying ignored by school staff, ruining her school and social life completely, and to top it off a school ban on all non Christian imagery was enacted. Her family sued. This happened in my town in the year 2000. A decade after the peak moral panic over Satanism. A judge ruled two years later that her civil rights had not been violated, btw.)

So anyway yeah, this is how it starts, with kids in nonexistent danger, with books for kids. Being on a list for banning over a single word, an author's NAME, shows both how stupid this is and how dangerous.

We have to push back NOW.

What's going on in your community? Because it's maybe gonna affect your queer ass mighty damn quick.

Build solidarity with each other, speak up, refuse to stay silent. We will move past this, that's just how this shit works, but it's going to take all of us.

[agender-witchery]

On Project Moon

Hey, this is gonna be long, I'm putting most of it under the cut. This post is about the recent firing of VellMori from Project Moon, I know that it warrants some tags for triggers, but I have no idea what's commonly used, so if I miss something, please tell me.

Additionally, I have written this up in a way that if it escapes the target audience of Project Moon fans, it can still be understood, so with that in mind, there will be Library of Ruina spoilers.

The tl;dr for those who don't wanna read the full thing is that Project Moon was put in a very bad position with some violent extremists targeting them and that I'm not happy about any of what happened.

So, for those unaware, Project Moon has fired VellMori, the CG artist for Limbus Company. Now, a not inaccurate statement that can be made from this is "Project Moon fired a woman for being a feminist" but this is... somewhat reductive. Let's immediately get out of the way that VellMori did absolutely nothing wrong. Some people have said she is a TERF. I've seen no evidence of this. Some people have said she wished death on all men. I've seen no evidence of this.

What I HAVE seen is that VellMori thinks sexual abuse is bad. Now, why would this lead to a firing? The short answer is that a bunch of violent incels, one of which was literally dressed as a clown, came knocking at their office doors.

See, Limbus Company has a "beach" event coming up. In this event, we are getting a water themed outfit for two of the characters, one male and one female. For Sinclair, the guy, he has been given an EXTREMELY slutty mechanic's outfit. For Ishmael, the woman, she has been given a very skintight wet suit outfit. Now, I wanna take care to note that VellMori is the CG artist - she had no hand in these designs, a man made them. I would also like to mention that both outfit designs are amazing, and I will be including them at the end of this post for reference.

Now, upon revealing the wet suit design for Ishmael, a bunch of whiny incels on what is basically Korean 4chan got upset that Ishmael, instead of being in a bikini as is usual for gacha games, was wearing a wet suit. Nevermind that the designs in Limbus Company have always been conservative and that the Sinclair design is the most skin we've ever seen and it's just an open shirt. Again, the wet suit is still super revealing, it's skin tight and this is literally the first design of her that doesn't make her look flat chested. They're not rioting over the lack of sex appeal, they're specifically mad that it's not a bikini.

The incels come to the conclusion that the lack of any skin being shown on Ishmael's outfit is a result of evil feminism. No, I'm not exaggerating. They initially begin harassing the artist who is actually responsible for drawing the outfits, but upon learning that he is a man, set their sights on VellMori because she's a woman, and being an artist is good enough I guess. What they do from here is they start digging and digging and digging on VellMori's twitter, making use of archived pages because many of the "offensive" tweets had been deleted.

I'd like to take a moment to point out that VellMori never actually tweeted anything out here - it was all retweets from a 4-6 year old archive, and retweets that have been long deleted. These retweets contain such transgressive statements as "I'm sick of misogyny" and "If being against patriarchy makes me antisocial, then so be it" and just... mirroring back to men what those men were saying to women. Some people would like to have you think she was calling for death to all men. She wasn't. She ALSO retweeted all this stuff while she was a teenager and well before she worked for Project Moon.

Nonetheless, the incels had decided that feminism was the reason Ishmael had a wet suit and not a bikini and they had found a feminist working for Project Moon. It is at this point that we must take a brief detour and talk about Library of Ruina, Project Moon's previous game.

See, in Library of Ruina, one of the protagonists, Angela, has this whole arc about escaping her abuser and becoming a human. Yes, she is literally a robot, but Project Moon isn't exactly a stranger to symbolism in their stories and a feminist reading of Angela is ridiculously easy. The main antagonist in Library of Ruina is Argalia, the Blue Reverberation, and his crew is called the Reverberation Ensemble. Every member of the Reverberation Ensemble is a violent lunatic who each want to reinforce the status quo in their own unique shitty way. In addition to this, typically in order to reach the titular Library, you would need to be invited. The Reverb Ensemble are the "uninvited guests", the ones who managed to reach the Library and knock down the door without an invite.

Why am I talking about this? Well, the incels decided to start calling themselves the Reverb Ensemble, and referring to each other using names of the Reverb Ensemble members such as Pluto, Elena, and Oswald. Having taken on the moniker of the uninvited guests, they then showed up to Project Moon's office to protest. Over the lack of a bikini. Now, remember how I mentioned someone was dressed up as a clown? One of the Reverb Ensemble members, Oswald, is a clown with an extremely tenuous grip on reality. So much so, that his ideal world is one in which there is no meaning whatsoever. That is the character they chose to dress up as. This is either a case of extreme self awareness or extreme self unawareness.

Eventually, the incels were let into the office possibly as a form of damage mitigation to prevent the crowd of protestors from getting any bigger. This was a questionable decision, but they had a group of violent incels at their doorstep either way, and I don't exactly have full details on this. Regardless, Project Moon had on their hands a group of violent protesting incels, who they felt compelled to let into the building, and who had demands including the firing of their feminist employee. (7/28 update: a translation of the transcript posted to DCInside has surfaced. Please check the reblogs for it. Project Moon was verifiably threatened.)

So while "Project Moon fired a woman for being a feminist" isn't inaccurate it also isn't the full picture. More appropriately, it'd be "Project Moon fired a woman because a group of violent incels who weren't satisfied with a form fitting wet suit instead of a bikini showed up to their office demanding that an artist who did not make the wet suit design be fired because she retweeted some feminist stuff 5 years ago while she was a teenager".

I'm not happy with this. None of this is good. People are allowed to be feminists, and Project Moon stories have always presented progressive ideas to anyone with half a brain to do some basic literary analysis. I can understand why they would cave to the demands of people who were threatening them and showed up to their actual place of work, but at the same time, that's someone's livelihood gone and proof that in the future, the same sorts of people can use the same sorts of tactics to bully Project Moon into doing whatever they want. All of this sucks.

For those who would like to see the retweets in question alongside translations: https://twitter.com/danghwangs/status/1683884236888223744

And for people who would like reference as to what the artworks these incels were up in arms about, Ishmael in the wet suit and Sinclair in the mechanic's outfit.

[reveseke]

Spontaneous crossover / au time with Spiderverse and Criminal minds about Spiderverse! Reader within Criminal minds ( feat a arcade themed stim board bc i wanted to make one <- TW bright colors & lights + flickering { Glowcore popping balloons } )

(( CW Sooo ~ Rather dark themes, mentions of being a lab rat, kidnapping, possible paranoia at some point even | mention of Jumping spiders ( due to the powers ) | You have been warned, approach at your own risk :3 ( probably didn't get all of it down these were the ones I thought off, if you find more please lemme know! )

Au/tropes — Crossover of Spiderverse × Criminal minds | Sci-fi | scientific super powers | found family (mention/hinted) | Angst(hinted)

Random – concept headcanons | Arcade theme in play

About reader — Masc! Aligned; trans, nonbinary & masc ambiguous friendly ! | He him pronouns used | R instead of y/n or m/n used | teen! reader around sixteen fifteen y.o ? | Hinted to have small amounts of background & a dog! | Tech savvy reader !!

Disclaimer – English is my second language and I'm Dyslexic, grammatical errors are more than going to happen. this is barely proof-read completely, it's just breezed through that's it lol.

DNI — Fudanashis/Fujodashis, fem-aligned, basic DNI criteria(ableists, racists, sexists etc), Maps(+other related terms), Pedophiles, transmeds, TERFS ( + other related terms ), antisemetics, proship/profic, kink/nude/18+ blogs, sh/pro-ana/Ed blogs, blank blogs

Gif ID. Three gifs in upper row; a gif showcasing the 90s arcade mat designs with varying colors and shapes, second gif of a bundle of cables with small flashing RGB lights in between the cables, third gif of cyan and magenta glitters being stirred.

three more gifts row down; a gif of glow in the dark stars if varying colors being thrown down, a gif of two balloons filled with green and orange glowing liquid Uber a black light being driven over by a car popping them, third gif of three arcade machines against a wall flashing lights and active. Gif ID end

Credits — 👑|👑|👑 — 👑|👑|👑

What if spiderman! Au, masc!reader being something similiar to Spider-Man, a teenager and gets to work for the government when he's caught. Of course suffering through the court etc -> as in assault charges that can be linked to him even if it was against bad guys. Y'know lol .

Also bad guys just being criminals most of the time. And actually being normal people. Ofc there can be an alternative of serums etc etc.

If they were serumed up then there would be more chaos tbh.

But I'm still thinking wether or not it be the known sci-fi type with differences to the actual Spider-Man powers. Also bc i personally love jumping spiders, i think the powers will circle them specifically. ( So the suit design descriped wouldn't be the one Spider-Man actually wears bc originality if i ever continue on this concept lol )

R just swinging around and avoiding cops and agents as he starts to realise he's being chased / targeted.

His powers are seen as something pricy and unique, one could say people may be interested in seeing him fighting in a rink.

I think he would be a lab rat if caught by anybody who has the proper or improper equipment and skill(s) to be used.

I think the first time he'd use his powers would be after being attacked or scared and having the fight or flight response activated.

Most likely panicked and absolutely bat shit scared.

At some point may have had something to do with a murder or being an accessory in it. Koff Koff. Or maybe just do something with a murder of somebody in general bc of not knowing how much power he actually has.

:0 Vigilante good guy misinterpreted to be a bad guy bc his powers went haywire.

Oh yeah heh mentioned jumping spiders above, think about ultraviolet vision as something R would be able to access.

Also bc of 15-16 y.o R he would be in highschool during these times. ( Think about it being the present)

Getting a dog for his own protection, company and to combat the possible paranoia the shit underneath may have caused and is spoke of.

Yes I'm kinda just portraying this origin of Reader to be close to the original spider-man origin. Thinking of ways he could get his powers; i don't like the origin how that ended, bc angst i need angst and the Reader being a full lab rat by being kidnapped for tests with other people. Either they survived it or died during the testing. ( I think he could have been a bit younger when this happened. )

Also kinda wanna include Survivalist intuition(link) to the mix in a way, not only for thee possible danger intuition that will be part of the myriad of things the testing may have given him.

Having a friend group that somewhat knows what's up with the reader and tries to help him as much as they can. Which includes possible not talking to the cops or FBI if being questioned at one point bc the fbi found possible lead to the reader after seeing him appearing around newspapers and the streets of Virginia mainly.

If the reader does have parents they are spoken with aswell, if he does not then he's basically taken in as the shared child of the BAU team in time lmao .

If he does not have parents as in they aren't really there in his life that much.

Finding out he's a student, a minor in general surprises them a little, especially after connecting dots and finding out what may or may not have happened to him when he was younger.

After being caught he's held accountable for the crimes he's committed. And doesn't exactly deny them either. But he's also offered a possible job bc they could actually use someone like him in the forces due to his powers.

Wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait wait what if more sci-fi type of shit is going on and the technology is a little more advanced from the 2000- 2018 (i think?) Technology evolution. And the reader was tech savvy and build his own equipment and instead of actual webs or chemically composed webs it's just wires?? Like grappling hooks but small and study as fuck ¿¿ Lmao

So like in a way he's not smart in chemistry way, but in technology & physics way if you will lol ??

And if the reader liked a more colorful arcade-ish designs ?? :0

The fanfiction would be a crossover obviously, but idk if there would a specific world to be put in. Bc spider verse! Reader sounds really cool. Especially arcade-aesthetic style/ tech savvy(kinda like Peni from Spiderverse, but not completely y'know?) version would be really cool.

AAAAAAAAAAA— just thinking about a case where spiderverse! Reader is already part of BAU and is sent to go undercover in a school campus bc there's a killer and nobody knows anything and he's the only one that could easily without raising any suspicious'

Also how he's secretive about being hurt and sucking it up to bandages himself home bc that's basically what he's been doing. The amount of scars and wounds he has and how's he not dead yet ?? The teams shook lol .

Oh also JJ's basic maternal instinct; he's basically if put to work with the BAU department under Hotch as a trainee also under her, Emily and Penny's gaze. Also Hotch and Derek lol imo would look after the reader a little if they're assigned with him.

Also Derek will absolutely if the Reader is energetic and speaks alot pretend to be annoyed before actually being annoyed bc he can't catch a break off of you ( in this situation he'd voice it out politely. Instead of ignoring R completely lol ) . Also teasing how much of a motor mouth R can be.

With Reid he can absolutely talk about the most random things that come to mind and if he doesn't know what R's on about R can actually educate him on it !

Also i actually think especially if the Reader is neurodivergent Reid would absolutely be the best person to talk about hyperfixations and specials interests. In other seriousness you could pour your interests and likes to him and you'd get a good conversation out of it :³ .

Also mama hen Rossi content. You cannot convince me this man does not hen over the team in general. I have seen too many headcanons and hints off of this, + the show let's it up as well in some episodes and I am headcanoning it myself lmao. He's really caring tbh.

Can you already tell I'm hip deep in found family trope content with the old BAU team lol ?

Absolutely think once Penny gets a sniff at something R's interested in she's going to get him something related to that to keep his mind off of the dark things the job forces him into. She's absolutely the one you could just pour out and she's ready to help, care and possible be doting ;; .

Also just randomly thinking about those roof-top chase scenes where reader would be the dominant one bc he could catch up faster with the target especially if it's jumping roof top to roof top. Bc naturally much stronger and longer leaps than a human can do and more stamina. ( Bc of having a jumping spider specific powers )

[painfullymeta]

I wrote this in June of '22 on the tweeters

and I'm going to rescue it because of reasons. The fact it was originally on the tweeters is why the syntax is what it is.

Me and queerness, as inextricable from theology, autism, and occasionally having throw-down arguments with people online:

(Please keep in mind that neurodivergent folks are known for being fucking unable to manage a linear narrative. This isn’t tidy. Life isn’t tidy. Making life look tidy when it isn't is super weird.)

My first Pride, I thought I was straight and cis. (I knew I was acespec but had never encountered terms.)

I was doing a study abroad in London and was invited to Brighton Pride by some friends from alt.polyamory. [waves]

It was unspeakably beautiful. A bright sunny day in a park filled with people who were, at least in that moment, free and unafraid. I wanted to be like that.

I didn’t even know what I was afraid of and I wanted that.

So there’s me, sharing a picnic blanket with a glorious tangled heap of bisexuals, one trans guy who seemed even more shy than me, and the femmest straight guy I’ve ever met, awkward, unknowingly autistic, and basking in this sense of a community that I was not part of.

I saw someone commenting in a discussion thread recently that she’d (just checked pronouns) felt the most welcome at Pride when she thought she was straight, and remembering Brighton makes me wonder.

My second Pride, I still thought I was straight and cis. I was helping staff a local polyamory booth, with a water bottle with a splash of vinegar in it because I am bad at hydration, and it wasn’t magical like Brighton. I don’t know why. It was still good.

Sometimes things are only magical the first time, mind, or magical like that: once you know the Mystery it’s hard to capture the thrill of learning the Mystery. It could’ve been that.

Time passed. I had a lot of ace arguments on usenet, with various people in predictable roles. (“All human interaction is fundamentally erotic, if you don’t perceive that in others, you’re dehumanizing them!” “Have you tried casual sex to get over this problem of yours?”)

I did manage to get somewhere by the point that I could articulate that just because someone is attractive to look at doesn’t mean anything more than “They’d make a nice wall hanging.”

(Years later I learned “demi”, in the context of people mocking it as worthless claptrap.)

Eventually my arguing on the internet migrated to the fringes of the feminist blogosphere, where I learned a lot about TERFs, SWERFs, and KERFs, who made me very tired.

And got me seriously gnawing on questions of identity.

(Thing I didn’t - couldn’t - talk about when it was going around the tweeters, how fucking devastating the Tiller murder was when heavily pregnant with Oldest. Knowing what that man did to balm the wounds of people who were suffering unbelievable pain.)

(Still not really capable of talking about it. I blogged it at the time.)

(He was the one who cared enough to make sure they could have a funeral.)

(Fuck.)

Anyway.

There’s a lot of intensely eggy flailing in that blog, in between snarking at the various flavors of ERF. Processing the massive dysphoria of pregnancy. Wondering if issues with gender were distinct from other forms of ‘I can’t figure out how this social shit works’.

Those people were exhausting, so full of furious categorization. Women Are And Must Be Like This. The Mysteries Of Shared Girlhood. That lot didn’t go in for a lot of The Spiritual Experience Of Menstruation but gods know as a pagan I didn’t need a supplement.

When I talked shared girlhood experiences through the person I had the most in common with was a trans woman.

And I can't separate the sexual violence I’ve experienced from being targeted for being autistic.

(That was also a whole thing: “But that abuser might be a socially awkward autistic guy!” “… what about the socially awkward women?” “They shouldn’t be abusing people either har har har.”)

(Thanks. That’s a big help.)

(I’m just gonna sit here trying to take my social cues from people who are ignoring what’s happening to me, because that’s what I gotta do to survive….)

(Masking sucks. Whatever my gender is it is also autistic.)

I came into the blogworld with “geek as gender” in my back pocket and a sort of complex ambivalence about a lot of conversations, as well as a habit of picking Discordian fights with homophobes in alt.sports on usenet. (Which did get me sent highly photoshopped dick pics.)

(Look, dudes, if you’re going to call people “cocksuckers” on the internet I’m absolutely there to ask you why you think that’s an insult if you like receiving oral sex.)

Anyway I came out of the blogworld with enough experience that I occasionally consider lapsing into a massive clickbait rant entitled, “I was transed by the TERFs.”

They defined “a woman is” at me so hard I realized I couldn’t be one.

Honestly, I probably wouldn’t have figured it out without them.

I don’t have a clean, categorizable experience of gender. I simultaneously had an intense spiritual/physical calling to bear children and found the experience at times so horrifyingly dysphoric that leaving the house was literally unmanageable.

A gay man in a Craft training group asked me if I was aware I had a lot of male energy, which I chalked up to my astral/energetic penis. It made my day and I had no idea why. I’m not sure I even believe in “male energy”.

Someone once told me that I was just butch because something and I spent a while going, “Am I butch? Am I fucking butch? I am pretty sure on the butch/femme axis I am definitely multiplied by i, and possibly ???”

When I stopped thinking of myself as female, I started learning about eyeshadow.

Literally never touched the stuff before aside from getting enthusiastically femmed by a friend of my mother’s for senior prom and this one time a Mary Kay lady came to the house.

The thing about cosmetics is when I was a woman I could do it wrong, and being autistic I was just fucking tired of all the things I was doing wrong, socially, so I included me out.

When I stopped trying to be a woman I could have fun.

(Pretty sure I’m not butch.)

(When I did a clothing purge I kept this one blue dress in case I’m ever man enough to wear it again.)

One of the most surreal days of my pandemic life:

Extra-super-epic dissociated from extensive mammography, got back to the car in my mask and Boston Flowers blaseball cap and the parking lot attendant said “You have a good day, sir” as I left.

My Craft training got hung up on a point of theology and focus at one point. My teacher corrected me and suddenly—suddenly I had a beautiful, intimate relationship with one of the gods.

An explicitly transmasc god.

The seeds sleep in the dark until the season of emergence.

There was also the time I was doing some reading on the nephilim and wound up with a visitation from a transmasc angel.

The nephilim gave weapons to humanity, you know. Swords and cosmetics both.

They’re weapons.

Never forget that the makeup palette is a weapon too.

Some people know that in their bones.

(It’s really all about the copper. Copper alloys, copper pigments, hello I’ve tripped over a Hetharu mystery while I’m trying to articulate something about queerness, thanks Mum.)

(Copper connectivity, copper electromagnetic, the attractive-repulsive powerhouse of life.)

I struggle a lot. I still struggle. I know now what I was afraid of that first Pride, that beautiful day in Brighton, and I am not yet free.

I am not yet legible even to myself.

A while back someone was doing a survey of women in public/online gaming spaces, and it made me angry. Not because it was trans-exclusive - it explicitly called out that anyone who was identifying as a woman was welcome to participate.

But I’m not a woman.

There was no space for me to talk about the experience of being perceived without being—of the Vent suddenly falling silent before the raid and someone whispering, “There are *girls* here,” a little too loud–of the rest of it.

Not without betraying myself.

The complexity of the narrative isn’t *there*. I wasn’t “always a man”, or even “always a pretty boy” (I am better with ‘pretty boy’, I don’t know that ‘man’ is what I am.) I’m a middle-aged whatever-I-am with a history and it’s not clean or tidily genderable—and it doesn’t, looking back, produce any “And now, it all makes sense!”

Okay, the autistic thing did that, but the gender thing? No. It’s always been a giant fucking mess. Best I’ve got is “ah, that’s why my attraction to men felt more like a similarity-thing than a difference-thing, I thought it was just that I only fancy geeks.”

I feel like what I have is an experience that exists, that has broader meaning, this complex interaction in which I have Done As Much Female As I Intend To and am now swirling into the arms of a different god, but my culture does not have words for this.

That is the thing that makes me angry, that this sacred queer liminal “I have been here, and that is not where I live, I am in motion, I am other than you expect” feeling is not something for which there are *words*.

There is no ceremony. There is no ritual.

I could make one, but that is just me, it is not the ceremony of the people who are like me.

I am not alone, but I’m also a white person on stolen land and my people mutilated away our spaces for sacred queerness a long time ago.

Things that have been built are not for me. Or… I cannot feel they are for me and whether that’s that I don’t fit or that neurodivergence makes me presume rejection or what, I don’t know.

I have built so much to house my spirit, but souls are a community work, damnit.

I talked to my minister at church a while back about this, awkwardly, not knowing how to articulate it.

I was glad to do so, to feel safe doing so. He retired, though.

Maybe I’ll join the relevant committee. Ha ha UUjoke.

I wind up muttering about wrasse a lot, helplessly, into the void.

Also, unrelated to personal stuff, but because I cannot resist a factoid, some varieties of slime molds have thirteen sexes (when calculated by mitochondrial inheritance). I believe others have more or less.

I need a new binder. I need to figure out hormones and my medical stew. I need to deal with being afraid of transition, because one thing I have neurodivergently learned is that change is extremely high-risk, even if there is a potential of good in it.

I need a nap.

When I was in my early twenties, I was on the pill, as is not uncommon. It fucked me up in many ways, also as not uncommon.

I got a new formulation that fucked me up much less.

It was a high-testosterone version.

What is a man? (A miserable pile of secrets.)

Someday maybe I will know a thing about this.

(Have at you.) /fin

Oh yeah I should add a note that I have a reasonably large pile of queer-affirming and queer-analysis Christian exegesis because, uh.

Well, I didn’t know why I wanted them when I got them.

Funny how that works.

[everestica]

hey!! so i saw your song event thing (i have no idea what to call it lmao) and decided to req!!

the songs called "paper crown" by alec benjamin and the lyrics are

"when all she is, when all she wants, when all she finds

when all she is and ever was is comprimised

cause theres no one to love her when you build your walls too high"

so i was thinking that this would go with either malleus or riddle (twst) but you dont have to!!

take your time!! thank you

'*•.¸♡ Riddle and Malleus x Reader: 200 Follower Event!♡¸.•*'

➳ Reader is Described as being in the same situation as Yuu, but not is not described as yuu. Reader is a first year in both the stories!<3

➳ Warnings: Angst <3

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ.───

It was your first time visiting your best friend, Caters, dorm. You had heard some safe to say less than ideal things about the Housewarden of Heartslabyul, but at this point you were hoping that he wasn’t as bad as people made him seem. You stood next to the entrance into the Dorm standing behind Cater as this was technically his “terf” and you were nothing but an outsider to this. He chuckled a little bit before leading you into the dorm and around to the outside where you could see a bunch of people standing along a really long table, you question Cater about this but he just left you with that fact that it was an “Unbirthday Party” which left you more confused then when you walked into this area. He waved to the others around the table while still dragging you behind him to said others. That’s when he pulled you out from behind you to introduce you to the others, you learned that the two first years were Ace and Deuce, and two second years where Cater(which you already knew) and Trey, and then the only third year, also known as the Housewarden, Riddle. Not even gonna lie you were a little nervous at first as he was so prim and proper sitting at the table unlike the rest of them who weren't allowed to sit down yet, suddenly when you turned to look for Cater, or your comfort in this situation, he was nowhere to be found, so now you were all alone. It was kinda your fault for getting to know the only guy that would leave a socially anxious person for a good selfie. While you were trying to figure out what to do without the selfie taking master, Riddle walked over to your worried figure, you weren’t facing towards where he was sitting when he had come up. Suddenly from behind you you heard somebody clear their throat, you turned around and were faced with the Housewarden. To say you were scared was an understatement, you immediately apologized for not noticing him sooner, which he was a little surprised about as normally he had a hard time even getting his first years to do anything let alone apologize for something that really didn’t need to be apologized for. He laughed a little bit before saying that it was okay, and that you had no reason to apologize as he had just walked up anyway. The two of you talked for a little before he looked up at the sun before saying he must excuse himself to start the Unbirthday party and that you were welcome to join in the celebration, and only because you started to get closer to him did you say yes, it was normally very rare for you to be seen outside your dorm besides in class, or maybe in the library looking for a way home.

“When all she is, when all she wants, when all she finds, when all she is and ever was is compromised.”

That’s when Cater and Trey came out of the rose garden and came to sit down, just then there was a cry and the two first years came out of the Rose Maze with there looks all messed up before Cater got up and asked them what happened and that’s when they had explained that they were going to go take care of the flamingos like Riddle had asked but they didn’t wear pink when they were doing it and the flamingos were less than pleased about this, and so was Riddle. He looked like he was about to explode with how red his face was, and that’s when everything that you had just worked on with Riddle went to ashes. He started screaming at the boys about how they had already talked about this before and that they should know better before collaring them, once you saw this whole time go down, you were terrified and you now knew why you didn’t ever leave your dorm, people were horrible. Before Riddle could say anything you rushed out of the dorm with tears in your eyes. That’s when both Cater and Riddle looked at your running and crying figure, Riddle wanted to go after you but something stopped him as soon as he got up. So he let the second year chase after you instead. Cater returned a little later saying that you just needed time, he had a smile on his face but on the inside he just didn’t want Riddle to know that after all of that you were scared of him. Through the next couple days in school Riddle tried to talk to you on multiple occasions but alas, had no luck. He knew this was because he yelled at the two first years, even though it was normal to everybody in Heartslabyul, he should have remembered that you weren’t in Heartslabyul and that you didn’t have all these rules, and the yelling. He was really upset knowing this but decided that it was better if he had just slept on it instead and come up with another way tomorrow to say he was sorry, too bad he couldn’t sleep and didn’t see for a long time after that. The only time he ever saw you was around Cater and he only wished that was him you were with instead.. The walls that you had formed around you and Cater had closed again..

“Cause There’s No One to Love Her When You Build Your Walls Too High.”

You had heard the name Malleus ever since you had started to come to Night Raven, normally things about how powerful he was, his title, and his retainers that he had. Even though you had heard all these things about this man, its very unlikely that anybody has actually seen him, only spreading around things that others have heard or said, so you decided to think nothing of it. People were gonna talk no matter what dimension you were in, you learned that pretty fast. It was the end of the day and instead of heading back to your dorm like most students you went to the library in search of something that might give a clue on how to get you home. When you entered there weren't too many people but still you weren’t gonna take the chance and be around them so you started to search in the section that might have had a clue that was also the farthest away from the couple people. Soon after looking on every shelf and reading every book title you found one that looked promising so you found a table closest to where you were searching and sat down, opening the book and starting to read it. Normally most people wouldn't come to the back as there was nothing really back there that a student would need to read, so when you heard footsteps heading to where you were sitting it was a little confusing, that’s when you looked up from you book and saw the exact description of what the people who were talking about the Diasomnia Housewarden would look like. You made a quick squeak as you were being noticed by Malleus and tried to hide in your book, which unfortunately, didn’t work. You could tell because he let out a little chuckle before coming up to your table and taking the seat across from you, you slowly peaked out from behind the book where the 3rd year that you had just was now sitting right in front of you. Before you could hide back down in your book, he had asked you if you had seen a boy with silver hair, most likely asleep somewhere. You were a little confused but answered by shaking your head. The smile he just had dropped into a frown now, while he looked around the library and then getting up, he apologized for disturbing you and was about to leave before you got up and asked in a shy tone if maybe you could help him look. He looked a little shocked because normally people were scared of him, not wanting to look for the sleeping second year with him. He smiled back at you and briefly agreed and walked out of the library with you on his tail. You eventually caught up and questioned why he was looking for somebody that was sleeping and that’s when he explained about Silver, and how he had a sleeping curse. You “mhm” a couple times at what he was saying as a way for him to know that you were listening even if you weren’t the most talkative person.

“When all she is, when all she wants, when all she finds, when all she is and ever was is compromised.”

Eventually the two of you saw somebody laying next to a tree with his head resting on the tree roots and another group of around 3 boys standing next to the one resting. You looked up at Malleus and he looked a little confused at first before continuing to walk over to the group. From a little bit away you could hear them making fun of who you assumed was Silver, because most normal people couldn’t just fall asleep on a tree like that. You looked back at The 3rd year and now after hearing all those things the other boys said about Silver he was pissed. So he marched his way up to the group of boys and he started threatening them in one of the scariest tones you had ever heard, at this point Silver had woken up and immediately went to stop Malleus. A prince can’t threaten people! So while Silver went to stop Malleus, you with tears and being scared ran all the way back to your dorm. Through the next couple days the 4 main members of Diasomnia kept coming over to your dorm asking you to either hear Malleus out, or if it was Malleus then for him to apologize, but after a couple days of failures, they realized how scared you actually were of him. You weren't really sure why but for weeks and weeks after that it did nothing but rain and thunder..

“Cause There’s No One to Love Her When You Build Your Walls Too High.”

[wild-at-mind]

CN- mentions of fetishisation of gay and bi men

At some point we have to talk about the weird or maybe not so weird connection between CAFAB kids who maybe liked yaoi or BL a bit too much and then turned out to be trans........in a normal way that has compassion for all concerned. Becuase I remember when there was that blog on here that had several mods who were trans masc and directly credited a teenage interest in yaoi as being a stepping stone for figuring themselves out later down the line. However unfortunately they channeled this into ‘cis girls who are into yaoi and BL are horrible disgusting fetishists! Trans mlm who are into yaoi and BL are ok and harmless (but maybe should read something better quality)’. The whole blog was like that. It may still be but I’m not checking! I don’t think I need to explain what’s wrong here, right? For a start, today’s apparently cis girl is obviously tomorrow’s transmasc, depending on how the minds flow. Obviously. (Obligatory disclaimer that I’m NOT saying every cis girl into yaoi comes out as transmasc.) Secondly, I’m not claiming that no kid into yaoi has ever done anything harmful to people in real life because of their interest, e.g. asked innappropriate questions upon finding out a guy is gay/bi, making remarks or demands to a gay couple to ‘perform gayness’ for them, etc. I absolutely have witnessed this and it was gross, absolutely was fetishisation, and should not have happened. But also, the harm caused by a cis girl and a not yet out trans man who do these things are no different- the targets of the harrassment feel the same either way. So surely we should focus on the behaviour rather than whether the person doing it comes out as trans later down the line? Behaviour is far easier to talk about than the blog’s favourite nebulous question of ‘are you fetishising in your thoughts? Is certain media leading you astray? Are you a cis woman or nonbinary person who is not a man? Then yes it is, work on that!’ Followed by a cycle of self flaggelation and swearing off all M/M content just in case of fetishisation for like a decade (oh look, that one is me!). I don’t want to pick on one blog too much because a few years ago this line of thinking was very common on the trans positive but kinda sex negative section of the tumblr left. (Not judging anyone for being sex negative because I’ve been there are various points in my life due to my experiences. It’s not something that is tied to any particular set of politics/being a TERF or anything like that. If this is what describes how you feel at the moment, then that’s ok. You just need to leave other people’s sex stuff alone.) I won’t ramble on any more because I know the longer I go on the less likely anyone reads this, but please please let’s try and do better than the past, by being more nuanced and compassionate than ‘cis girls who like yaoi are all bad and creepy!’ Btw I generally agree with this kind of blog that yaoi can often have bad consent practices and unacknowledged sexual violence. I have no use for it any more and I assumed most people grew out of it but I do know an adult (trans) woman who regularly buys and reads it. I’m not judging anyone who likes it and maybe it is better quality now. I hope so!

[thebutchtheory]

i don't think anyone who read this post actually understood what i'm talking about when i said to read theory.

everyone is responding like 'where is the transmasc theory?' can you guys focus on anyone but yourselves for like 3 seconds please? i said in the original post that transmasc theory is in its infancy, what do you think that means? it means that we don't have a lot of transmasc specific theory compared to transfem theory because it's in its infancy. you have to BUILD your theory by reading OTHER theory.

you can't just hop into the theory-building discussion without having read anything else about transfeminism other than 'whipping girl'--which broadly does not apply to trans men because it's about trans women. serrano puts that in like the introduction/first chapter of the book, that it's about trans women and that she can't speak for the experiences of trans men.

there are so many books out there discussing theories of gender, gender essentialism, the patriarchy, toxic masculinity, etc. i know this because i HAVE them as PDFs on my computer.

not every single file in here is strictly 'theory', or 'theory' in an academic sense, but there are tons of things to look at in a lot of these books about how transmascs/men are treated and viewed throughout society. there's a lot of lesbian-oriented books here because there is significant overlap in how transmascs/men are treated and how lesbians, butches and studs are treated, just like the overlap between the treatment of trans women and drag queens.

i heavily recommend people read books about the treatment of lesbians, butches, studs and drag kings, ESPECIALLY transmasc ones, as often shown in feinberg's work, and there's some of that in s. bear bergman's work as well ("butch is a noun"), because that's going to be essential to understanding and explaining the misogyny that oppresses trans men.

i hardly ever see anyone talking about these connections, or getting to the root of the misogyny that oppresses trans men, especially without watching it go into TERF 'sex-based oppression' rhetoric that invalidates the experiences of trans women by implying things like 'AMABs get sexually abused less'--real rhetoric that i have seen recently.

so much of transandrophobia discourse that i've seen is so, so, SO focused on finding theory *specifically* about trans men, and while it's not inherently a bad thing, i feel like the theory ends up very two-dimensional when people don't bother discussing misogyny outside of saying something to the effect of 'society wants us to be submissive girls'. like yeah, that's true, but there's a lot more than that going on to build that rhetoric that is spewed at transmascs.

a good majority of transphobia and general anti-queer sentiment is massively, MASSIVELY rooted in misogyny (and transmisogyny), but i rarely ever see people exploring misogyny in-depth as a tool of transphobia, because so much of this discourse is specifically trying to focus on transmascs and surface-level theories/understandings of misogyny and transmisogyny without having done much further reading on the subject.

and then when people do try to bring up misogyny, *because* they have such surface level understandings, they end up parroting straight up TERF 'sex-based oppression' rhetoric completely uncritically. i've seen it multiple times.

many transmascs then go on and act as if they have no capacity for misogyny because they're transmasc, when i have actively watched close transmasc friends of mine go on to become incredibly misogynistic in the same way that many gay men go on to be. completely uncritically, believing they can identify out of being bigoted.

inb4 people say i'm hanging out with shitty people, i've watched this happen with friends, communities, fandoms, over and over. incredible amounts of misogyny and transmisogyny from transmascs, both ones i know and ones i don't, and i never see transmascs addressing it, unless they're also women in some form or another. crazy how time and time again, it's mostly women who care about misogyny and nobody else.

this turned into more of a rant than i'd have liked for it to be, but the ultimate point is that you cannot build theory without looking at other theory, and so much discourse about transandrophobia is *extremely* flat because so many people arguing and theorizing about transandrophobia have poorly developed understandings of misogyny. they feel like they don't need to read about it because they've experienced it, as if that makes you little more than an expert on your own experiences, not on misogyny in general.

i've said this before but it's utterly insane that i make a post telling people to read theory to build their own, and they tell me 'what transmasc theory?' or try to argue with me about why they shouldn't have to, or tell me 'but some people HAVE read theory'. just wow, lol.

the more i read about transandrophobia as a concept from 'transandrophobia truthers', the more i just end up feeling like these specific experiences are better explained under things like 'gender essentialism' or 'oppositional sexism', or that at the very least these terms need to be brought into discussion of transandrophobia more, but they aren't.

a lot of transandrobros end up coming off like MRAs because they're trying to describe experiences that they don't have proper wording for, and then go on to speak in ways that clearly shows they haven't unlearned [internalized] misogyny/toxic masculinity, gender essentialism and oppositional sexism themselves. often because they haven't read any theory on the subject, and because a lot of them outright refuse to read up on transfeminist theory or understand transmisogyny as a systemic force outside of 'misogyny that trans women experience' or 'transphobia that trans women experience'. then they go on to try and talk over trans women about transmisogyny, or speak about trans women discussing transmisogyny in some extremely bigoted ways because of it.

like, the amount of trans women discussing transmisogyny who have read or even written entire books about transmisogyny, transfeminism and feminism in general seems to be astronomical compared to the amount of trans men discussing transandrophobia that i KEEP seeing. i've seen trans men who have read theory, but they seem to be the bigger popular bloggers that others base their opinions off of, if that makes sense. as if other people in the community are trying to theorize on what people who have actually read theory are saying, without reading any theory themselves.

so much of what transmascs experience is related to misogyny, but it's also related to gender essentialism, oppositional sexism, and toxic masculinity--all things which the trans community has taken from cisgender heterosexual society and applied it to themselves in a way that is Queer Inclusive This Time, yet they never question it.

i'm BEGGING transandrophobia truthers to read books about trans oppression, and to bring this language into your vocabulary when discussing your experiences. when i started doing that with my experiences as a butch on T, it gave me a new perspective on all of it, and the queer community itself.

[twentytwentywhore]

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Hello Gamers!

It is nice to meet you all I am here to write silly things and headcanons about whatever I want whenever I want.

A little bit about me:

I am 21 I use they/them and it/its pronouns I have been writing for the past 10 years. Started out on an anime roleplay site. I unfortunately am so so good at hyperfixating on things and forgetting other things, including people, exist.

Important Notes:

While I do like x reader content, and that is primarily what I will post here, I also partake in shipping and multi shipping. I like my silly little fictional guys. I do not know anything about pros and anti's. I do not want to get involved. This is fiction and it should be engaged with as such, however you should never feel bad for being uncomfortable with anything covered even if it is fiction. At the same time you should also not make others feel bad about fictional things they enjoy. Terfs and Zionists have no place on this blog. Free Palestine and Trans Rights are Human Rights.

Requesting:

My brain hardly ever works and I made this blog because I love attention so if you want to see something written, please let me know. I may either do bulletpoints or ficlets, who knows. It depends on how the brain functions that day.

Please do not be afraid to send an ask with a request, you can find some things I am comfortable writing about below!

Fandoms:

Jujutsu Kaisen Touchstarved Ace Attorney More to be added in the future!

Though I cannot say I am experienced in writing every character in every fandom I enjoy, I can promise I will make an honest attempt for any character at least once.

Notes:

I focus primarily on Angst and Fluff! Though am not opposed to writing NSFW. I am Uncomfortable doing NSFW requests for characters that are minor in canon. While situational, I would be willing to do relationship requests however. Sometimes we all want to pretend we are teenagers again, and teenage romances are fun. I will never ever be rude about not wanting to do something. I am a massive sucker for toxic relationships. Only because they are fiction and do not actively impact real people. However, any and all potentially upsetting material will be clearly tagged as such. Please let me know if I fail to tag something that could cause distress.

[bunnypup-boy]

🔞 About 🔞

Hi! First and foremost: No one under 18! This is not the space for you

Transman (He/him pronouns only please). I go by Lychee

Pansexual

23 years old

I have a nonbinary partner (he/her/they pronouns). We are polyamorous. While they aren't on tumblr they are aware of this blog and fine with it

Heavily lean towards subbing

I don't kinkshame but please do not talk to me about kinks I list as a limit. Lets focus on the ones we have in common

Kinda shy at times and not the best at conversation but I'm happy to talk, make friends, etc. DMs and Asks heavily encouraged

Probably won't post pics. Especially because I'm pre-op and it makes me want to not perceive my body >.>

While I do not claim a label, if I had to I would be considered proship.

DNI: Homophobes, transphobes, terfs, bigots, etc

I won't block people for being cis but please keep in mind that cismen tend to make me nervous. I'm sorry, I've just had bad experiences ;-;

Kinks you'll probably see here, limits, etc: Work in progress. *These are NOT exhaustive lists

I'll do my best to tw tag all kinks in this format: nsft: petplay

Kinks:

Pet play

Noncon (or CNC? I'm unsure what the defining line is here since they're both fantasy. If anyone could help me figure this out I'd really appreciate it.)

Omorashi

Humiliation/Degradation

Knifeplay

Chastity

Size Kink

Cucking

Fear Play

Differences? I'm not sure if there's a name for this but differences in strength, intelligence, etc are fun to me. Generally, I'd like to be the one at a disadvantage.

Bullying (like wedgies and stuff >///>)

Praise

Bodyworship

DD/LB, MD/LB, etc. Basically Dom of any gender/LB. (Likely won't post but will Like stuff. If I do post/reblog it'll be tagged like anything else on this list)

Uncertain/Won't Post Even If I Interact Through Likes!:

* As mentioned above, I will not reblog these kinks but don't mind interacting and stuff. I'm listing them purely so those who want to entirely avoid people who like these things (or people who haven't decided if they like them or not) can more easily avoid me. No hard feelings 💞/genuine

Limits:

Misgendering/detrans

Trans sissies, primarily ftm (not cis sissies, sorry but you guys are usually mean or cause problems for trans women in my experience)

Some level of gore

Raceplay

Scat

Feederism

[My limits are NOT a DNI. Please just respect them.]

Other Information:

I do have BPD (Borderline Personality Disorder). I tend to be the type that internalizes stuff more. I don't really lash out/rage physically or anything. I'm not sure if I need to clarify that or not but I am just in case.

I am probably putting myself at risk by saying this, should the wrong person see, but I'm hoping the assumed positive benefits of being open about it will outweigh the bad.

Positives being:

If you want to avoid me all together you can. That's much better than forming a friendship that would crumble once that information is out. I don't know, I never thought about warning people of my diagnosis until I saw a specific subreddit. If you know, you know

Ideally this will help ease concerns about whether I'm ignoring you if I were to temporarily drop a conversation to regulate myself, stop socializing for a period of time, etc. I'll probably add more to this later. Not sure yet.

Terms I'm Okay With:

For My Chest: Chest

Genitalia: boypussy, cunt, boycunt, breeding hole, fuckhole, will add more as I figure it out

Terms I Dislike:

Chest: Breasts, tits, boobs, boobies

Genitalia: vagina

[trollkennel]

TrashWizzard's RP Blog Rules and Preferences

This is not an exhaustive list, but here are some guidelines before interacting with me. These are my personal preferences, not universal law nor judgment of anyone else's style of play. It's simply what I prefer for myself. Everyone enjoys their fiction differently, and that's ok :)

Firstly, I am an adult. I would prefer to rp with others who are 18+.

I am also 🏳️‍🌈very queer🏳️‍🌈, as are my characters. If you have questions about their identities, preferences, or my own please feel free to ask! My OOC pronouns are They/Them.

It goes without saying that bigots, homophobes, TERFs and assorted hate groups DNI. I'm literally Just A Guy who enjoys writing fictional things about made up people. Deal with it 🤙

I'm brand new to roleplaying in Tumblr format, so bear with me as I learn the ropes. I live on Discord, and depending on the circumstances I am also open to rp on there as well.

Roleplaying preferences under the cut:

Yes

✅ Etiquette

Please be familiar with general roleplaying etiquette as well as common terms (such as Godmoding, Meta Knowledge, and IC / OOC). I am an adult with a full-time job and many interests. I will try to respond as often as I can, but please be patient if my replies are not immediate. Usually planning to reply at least once a day, sometimes more if our schedules line up well. I am a literate roleplayer, usually opting for and preferring paragraphs or descriptive posts; however I do enjoy rapid-fire script style as well.

✅ Original Characters Only

Show off your fantrolls, maybe even human ocs? No matter the fandom, I want to see your original characters only.

✅Canon-Adjacent

My characters are designed to flow well with MSPA (or the appropriate fandom's) canon as much as I can, but that isn't an unbreakable standard. Some things I have bent or changed because it's fun, straying just far enough to make unique and interesting divergences from canon. Nothing super crazy.

✅Character Arcs and Ongoing Plots

We love to see it!! It would be awesome to collaborate with other roleplayers I find I really vibe with. I would love nothing more than to create an expansive story with intertwined details among characters.

✅ Alliances and Rivalries

Plotting! Scheeeming! Sometimes this happens naturally, but I'm usually open to planning things ahead of time if it seems fun 👀 No worries about metagaming here, I'm generally very good at keeping OOC knowledge compartmentalized from my IC knowledge.

✅ Mature Themes

!! I do not mean smut, sex, erp, etc. !! I love darker themes and angst in my writing. Most of my characters are probably traumatized in one way or another, and some of those themes may be uncomfortable. I generally keep mentions to vague allusions, or don't go into great detail (especially if it's not private rp or with someone I know fairly well). This might include topics such as substance abuse, depression, mortality and other heavy subjects. Life is not always gentle. But the harder they fall, the more fulfilling the redemption.

✅ Slice of Life

As a lighter alternative, I do enjoy fluff, exposition, and slice of life scenarios. Well-placed comedy in rp is one of my favorite takeaways, and some of my characters can be very silly! This is also a great way to break the ice and get to know new friends/characters, and maybe work our way to bigger plots.

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Ask First

❕Shipping

I am unlikely to ship my characters with a stranger's OCs. I'd prefer to ship with friends, if anyone.

❕Character Harm or Death

Falls under mature themes as described above, but please get my consent before trying anything. I'm usually not opposed to letting my guys have a bad day, especially if it helps with growth or plot progression.

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No

❌ Writers under the age of 18

❌ Erotic roleplay

❌ Canon Characters

❌ Joke Characters

Short interactions with joke characters might be okay but that's not my preference overall. Part of my roleplay enjoyment comes from taking my fake people seriously.

❌ Fully Broken Lore or Unreasonable Selfmade Canon

(MSPA specific) If your glitterbloods and half cherubs bring you joy then I am happy for you; but they don't have a place in my cast's lore, I apologize :( My guys wouldn't know how to react.

[thorne1435]

Buddy...I love the idea, and I might do this because I love arguing with people who will never agree with me, but please understand:

Most trans people don't seem to like arguing with TERFs, and I think that's because it gets really mean, really fast. It's funny in theory, sure, but when you get into it, you have to have a thick enough skin to realize that their words don't have substance.

So, just in case someone else wants to get in on this little bad habit of mine, here's a list of tips to keep in mind:

1. Explicit transphobes, like TERFs, will forever be in the minority Most people actually do just want to grill and don't give a fuck about trans people at all, and that's if they don't realize it's a controversial issue and actively take the "I hate politics..." centrism side where they learn more about it unwillingly and decide that they are, out of spite, not going to take a side. That guy? Boomer Brown? He's certainly not gonna say trans rights. But he's probably not gonna (actively) restrict your transition either. Remember that. He's the majority here.

2. Whatever insult they pull out for you is completely fake. They don't believe it because they don't see you as a person, they see you as a target: an object and an obstacle. They want to cause you pain so you don't feel safe, and the easiest way to thwart them is to realize that they're desperate and their words mean nothing. They'll insult your appearance, and say that it's obvious, but they also say that about cis women. Like, all the time. It's kind of a meme at this point. So just don't buy it. It's meaningless.

3. They're usually lashing out from trauma or indoctrination. You aren't. This makes you, unironically, better than them. Don't be a dick about that, mind you, but also...just keep it in your back pocket. They're pathetic and sad and angry. Feel bad for them. You're more well-adjusted than them, and you always will be as long as you don't instantly jump to reactionary rhetoric when faced with things you don't understand. You're the adult here. They're just insecure middle-schoolers.

4. You will not change their mind. They're not the one you're debating. The right-wing seems to understand something that the left-wing does not. The point of arguing with someone who will never agree with you is not to convince the person you're arguing with, but rather to convince the onlooker. If the post gains traction somehow and people who are on the fence see it, you want them to see you being level-headed and unbothered by the RadFems. Be funnier than them, have more statistics than them and know the facts (because they won't), and ridicule them for disregarding the reality of the situation. That way, if someone finds you through something unrelated, they might join in on the dunk, through the power of peer-influence. In this way, your argument is not an argument at all, certainly not a debate. It's just a performance. Play your role well and lovably.

5. Hate means it's working. They'll never admit that they lost, but you'll know that they're mad when you start getting hate-anons. If they thought they could destroy your performance in the eye of the observer (see again: Tip 4) they would put their name behind it. Once I even got a hate anon who changed their mind after I responded to them, and thought that they could humiliate me, so they started reblogging it instead of sending a new anon ask, and we kept that chain going for like...a day or two, I think. So you can see, they really thought they'd turned the tables and that they could inspire the people on their blog based on the answer I gave. This means, hate-anons are the more personal attacks. They're a form of intimate bullying. Dunk on those too, this is the funny part, because it's always half-baked ramblings or ineffectual gotchas that don't make sense.

I imagine this will be competitive dog-piling when and if we really get started on it, so...I hope to dog-pile someone with you all.

Reblog to spread the word!

Image description in alt text. Feel free to screenshot and repost this image in case it gets taken down ;)

EDIT: The image says September. That is not correct. The right date is August.

[khizuo]

no fuck this. I'm not off of my "cc's really need to stop talking about hp" chair yet because this isn't something like a cc making a mistake and saying something insensitive in the past. this isn't that. I'm not trying to "cancel" any cc's for shit they said when they were teenagers, nor am I trying to guilt any of you if you guys watch them. I'm simply stating a fact.

These cc's, and I'm going to shout them out by name—Grian, Joel, and Impulse—are still actively mentioning HP in the here and now even though they are self-proclaimed LGBTQ+ allies (Grian and Joel were both in MCC Pride, for example.) They have huge audiences of millions of subscribers each, many of their fans being young children. We already know that jkr considers people enjoying her work to be support for her anti-trans agenda. jkr is using her power and influence to actively harm trans people in the UK, and by constantly bringing up hp in the here and now these cc's are contributing to her power.

You can not look me in the eyes and tell me that a cc with a platform of millions of followers supporting the work of a a TERF (Grian called the HP books some of his favorites in an audible ad, for fuck's sake) isn't a bad thing. Sure, here on mcytblr most of us are aware why jkr is the fucking worst and why you shouldn't support HP. But we are not the only audience of these cc's. Again. There are children in their audiences.

If these cc's want to be allies, they need to take responsibility and actually do research about LGBTQ+ issues. Simply building a Pride flag in Minecraft or donating some money to the Trevor Project is not enough. It doesn't take a heck of a lot of research to discover how jkr actively harms trans people in the UK.

I'm not saying that you are a horrible person for watching these cc's—hell, I have watched these cc's! That's why I know about this fuckery! But I am saying that their support of hp is irresponsible and harmful. They might be doing it out of ignorance, but that doesn't mean we as a fanbase should ignore the harm that their hp shoutouts to their audience of millions can cause.

Hermitblr and Empiresblr please. I am begging you at this point to maybe take notice of this. I've never seen anyone else on mcytblr bring this up before and I don't understand why more of you guys aren't bothered. If you've ever reblogged a piece of fanart of these cc's before, reblog this. I don't intend to just leave this as a blog post. I want to bring it directly to their attention, and I don't want to be the only one talking.

[96percentdone]

i'm sorry you guys can't be fucking serious. if i understand this drama correctly, a staff member got called out for having an interest in HP and AoT, both problematic stories with shitty authors, and....you think this is meaningful proof they're a bigot who must be destroyed? Has fandom utterly poisoned your brains?

Look. Fellas. I know that TERFs have taken harry potter as their own and are in loud support of it, and I also know that the alt-right is attached to AoT for similar reasons. Obviously, there are people with horrible political views latching onto works that adhere to their ideology. I'm not going to deny this. I also know there are people who know about the bigotry and loudly proclaim they don't care and are going to pay to watch the next movie seven times.

But. And I can't believe I have to say this. Bigots enjoying a bigoted work does not mean that everyone who enjoys the work is a bigot! That's not enough to prove anything! I'm sorry! That's not evidence of bigotry! Media, no matter how shitty and problematic it or its creator is, is not indicative of bigotry; doing or saying something bigoted, or willingly associated with other explicitly bigoted people is evidence of bigotry.

Look. You have every right to be wary of someone who likes these things, on a personal level. I would not choose to associate with someone who supports either of these works. But that's me, on a personal level, making up my own mind in my own head, and not making it everyone else's problem with literally nothing else to show for it other than "they like the bad media!" and expecting the world at large to get on board and destroy them!

You guys sound like children. Please grow up.

Also, @staff, if you're going to crack down at this pace against harassment when it's against one of your own, wholeheartedly commit to doing so across the entire platform. Get rid of hate speech and hate accounts. Don't enable this kind of bullshit from anyone, not just when one hits someone you associate with.

[uncanny-tranny]

Fingers crossed this is on anon!

Anyway. I think I'm in major denial. Figuring out labels has ways been hard for me and due to me knowing my family is not accepting of trans people, makes it harder.

I've always forced myself to be hyper feminine and it never felt right. Before a lot happened I was a very masc person. I'm learning to embrace that again. All my clothes are men's, I wear mens perfumes and deodorants, lotions, etc. Just those simple things make me beyond happy and euphoric. I dress very masc and it feels so me. I know clothing and such has no gender but you get what I mean. I feel like it's me. I grew out my body hair as I'm very hair for someone afab and I was ELATED because I looked like I had a Cis guys legs. I just want to be a guy. I found out recently that this terrible and sick feeling I get regarding my chest is the wonderful thing known as dysphoria/s. So I have chest dysphoria and I never knew it wasn't normal to get sick and have bad flutters when seeing your chest or knowing others see it...so there's that. I also have extreme dysphoria over periods and the idea of pregnancy horrifies me. Someone calling me a boy makes me have a rush of serotonin, but I'm too scared to use he/him pronouns. I got sad the other day knowing I could never be a biological dad because I'm afab...yeah anyway. I still am nervous to use the ftm label. What if I'm just a confused cis girl? I don't wanna be called a girl though. People saying stuff about how bad men are scares me too..I have a big worry of being a bad person and I've seen people especially terfs say shit like "don't become the enemy" and it hurts because I just wanna be myself and not be hated.

Sorry for the long ask. Any help is appreciated <3

It sounds like you're going through a lot in regards to this, and that can be very stressful to do (especially if you feel alone in it).

So, with regards to how you feel, I certainly empathize and really relate to everything you've said. For me, I was hyper-feminine in order to convince those (and by proxy myself) that everything was "normal" and that I was happy to be their little girl - even at my own expense. It was my tool and my shield, and it was really alienating. I truly disregarded how I felt in order to please the people around me and to keep them comfortable - I didn't want to rock the boat, after all. I get how you feel, friend, and honestly? All of my experiences taught me just how vital it is to live for yourself. And I think this is something you're starting to do. By doing the things that make you happy (such as wearing mens' clothing), I think you'll find that it's a little easier to accept who you want to be and who you are inside.

Something else I learned is that if you aren't comfortable in an identity, it most likely isn't who you are. If you're uncomfortable being seen/having to identify as a cis girl, that probably isn't the label for you! I get the paranoia surrounding this, though. I understand and empathize with how you feel, though I believe that you deserve to just let that fear go. If you find something that makes you happy, then that's more likely who you are! It made me so much more happy and calm and mentally well when I realized that I could just... be who I am instead of trying to force a round peg into a square hole by conforming to others' ideas of me.

And finally... nobody is "the enemy" with regards to being a man or being masculine-identified. That's a completely transphobic idea which honestly feels like a bad-faith interpretation of what it means to advocate for minorities' rights. Men aren't inherently predisposed to being awful people because that isn't how being an awful person works. Gender essentialism is not how we combat oppression, and it'll only come back to bite minorities. And it'll bite hard. We must advocate for each other, especially trans people. You aren't inherently a bad person because you recognize who you are. That is simply not how this works. You have a right to be you, and if that means you're a man, then that is okay.

And because I believe this is the same person who sent this anon:

I'm really proud of you! That's really special, and I hope this name is something that makes you happy! Never apologize for staying true to what makes you feel seen.

[pinksparklelps]

I really need to get this off my chest. Whether to just, inform, or give myself some kind of peace of mind. Because i think about this so frequently and sometimes it gets so overwhelming. Everything will be under the cut, so please, protect yourself if you do not like to read about discourse/drama.

First things first, im gonna do what i REALLY dont want to do, and thats ping who exactly im talking to. Even if they dont work at all. @velvet-sword @fluffnstuffq you two. You two are the main sources of my endless thoughts.

I want to start this off with how childish you were. Your “proof” is not proof. I am not, and never will be that stupid asshole terf Florence. I am just as much of a victim as all of you, and you have no right to say otherwise. I guess i could say its my fault for getting so close to popular people that are/are nearly adults when im STILL a kid. And when all of that shit went down i was, what, 14? And you expect me to act like the mature one.

Im so tired of thinking of this almost everyday because you caused me, AND MY GF so much pain and paranoia. Why, WHY on gods green earth would i EVER want to be florence? Tell me. Give me what you think are my thoughts. Because let me tell you, I HATE ATTENTION. Good, bad, neutral, ALL OF IT!! I do not like to be complimented because i feel like i dont deserve it, i dont like to be yelled at because i feel like a failure, i hate when people even LOOK at me because who KNOWS what on earth they could think about me? Even if its just polite eye contact, the thought of someone watching me makes me freeze.

I admit, i have used gacha back then, and I occasionally use it now because the minigames are fun. Character creators are good because i can make characters like that if im not feeling inspired. But SOOO many people use gacha life/club/whatever. Whos to say one of you didnt or did have it installed? I have no proof it was you, you have no proof it was me.

And the fact that you were harassing more people just solidifies the fact that i made a huge mistake in idolizing you back then. I was just a kid who like a silly game about music and shapes, and you basically ostracized me from the entire fandom. I havent played the game in like 2 years because of the terrible memories of you.

And Blitz!! Remember that one person you mentioned that you got us all against? I know them. Theyre actually a nice person. AND. You and gingy. You crossed the line, especially gingy. Stealing my characters after the fact, redesigning them EVER SO SLIGHTLY, and making a goddamn story with them? Even my spiritual oc’s that represent parts of me. You guys are supposed to be role models. You are popular, and older, and you do this to a fucking child? Ive been more mature than youve been in that situation. You all sent hate anons when i just walked away. I wanted to leave but you kept chasing me. Funny how i got no more hate after threatening to block them.

Speaking of which, “changing typing styles.” Only way i change my typing/writing is for fanfiction/stories and when i meet new people. I naturally incorporate others words and phrasing into my language. Hell, one of my new friends got “skill issue” from me haha. It seems to me like you couldve been projecting. Taking your actions and saying IVE done them so everyone looks at me instead of you. Funny, since you care so much about justice. Justice for everyone except the child who was also a victim of tracing and cyber bullying.

And i cant BELIEVE you would think i was abusing my gf. Shes smarter than that you know. If she were in a bad situation i know she would want to leave. If i knew i were hurting someone i would feel so guilty and push who i was hurting away. Well it seems my “loving and sweet gf” facade has worked for 2 years huh. Impressive of me isnt it? No. Me and my s/o are happy and we help each other grow every day. I do something wrong? They point it out, I apologize and do my best to fix it, and vice versa. Unlike you, i know that we are happy and in a really healthy relationship.

And since im talking about all this, rainb! Yes you! You were so incredibly uncomfortable to be around. Just seeing you type was enough for fight or flight to kick in. You were so harsh and not at all understanding and its a miracle you were allowed to be a mod. Sometimes i wonder how many people in that server got hurt and how much the server has fallen into disarray. I just hope people get out of toxic situations like i did.

And lastly, how dare you make fun of my fucking vents. You, you all are utterly amazing! I couldnt even begin to THINK of the possibility of someone doing that! You fucking assholes. I can be scared of my mom and still seek guidance from her. Shes my MOTHER! And i did NOT hide behind her, and it was only ONE TIME when you all were ganging up on me in a private chat. Its not my fault i froze and fucking broke down because you thought i could cause mass chaos in a community i loved. The second you start making fun of someones feelings that they trusted you with, you have become the monster.

No matter how much I despise each and every one of you, i do not wish for you to come to harm, even though you so obviously deserve it. I hate that i want you to be happy. But my mom told me it shows that im just a kind person. Sometimes i miss you, and i hate it because you were awful. I wholeheartedly believe in karma, but i also believe you can do better. I want, need, and deserve an apology, but i know you wont give it. And even if you do, im never ever going to forgive you for what you did to me. I once almost committed suic*de because i couldnt contact you and i didnt want to lose my friends. I couldve been sent to the mental institute back then because i cared so much about losing who i loved. But i see i put my life in the wrong hands.

I felt so hopeless in that server, but in my new group, i see so many talented people and know i trust them. I love them, and i dont feel sad knowing im not as good as them. They are talented, and even if i cant fully see it, i am too. I could never see myself as good enough with you all. But now im happier, and have good friends and family that i know care about me, even if i dont fully think i deserve it. Im happy with where i am. Im happy with how much ive grown.

And even though it hurt so much, im happy i met you guys because it was a learning experience that i never asked for.

I dont care what you have to say to or about me anymore.

Im happy.

[caker-baker]

Hi!! I hope your having a wonderful day or night! I was wondering if you could do another part to the speedster and telepath? No worries if you can’t!

Tracking a hero who theoretically ran faster than a bullet was proving difficult, especially when there was no longer a customized mental hold on said hero.

The villain didn’t give up, though, and they wouldn’t now, but their attention was being pulled away.

Normally, the villain would have put aside any crimes to find their hero, but this was also a matter of pride. Their intel told of some new villain, someone in their city, their terf.

They were ready, their mind warded to the brim if the other villain happened to be a telepath, and most other defenses didn’t stand against the villain’s mental strength.

Except super speed, apparently. They thought bitterly.

The villain wasn’t proud of their little tantrum a few months ago, but it gave them some perspective - how much they need the hero.

They had a contingency plan now, albeit a somewhat weak one. The villain had never been outsmarted like that before, even if it wasn’t so much about outsmarting, and more of the villain’s cuff going faulty.

Then the hero phasing through the cuff.

And predicting the villain’s moves.

And managing to avoid the villain’s mental grasp.

Maybe the hero was a tad more quick than the villain gave them credit for, quick in more ways than one.

With rolled up sleeves and an outfit they didn’t mind dirtying, the villain entered the supposed base of operations for this other villain, some run-of-the-mill dilapidated factory building, just outside the city.

It was a well educated guess, their intel could be wrong, but it looked too calm, something similar to when the villain just started.

“Hello.” The villain drawled in a mocking tone. “Surely you knew I was coming, wherever you are.”

The darkness wasn’t an issue, the villain could just extend a mental reach, what was an issue was the lack of thought to take hold of. There was just nothing.

“Hm.” The villain was resigned, and already back to focusing on the hero.

That’s when it hit them, this - this nothing felt a lot like something else.

“Hero?” The villain asked.

The answer was clear when the villain was knocked onto their back by a seemingly invisible force.

“Of course. You made it away from me once with knowledge of my telepathy, so why wouldn’t they send you back?” The villain stood and dusted themselves off. “Was the intel wrong as well? No new villains I need to take care of?”

All the questions were rhetorical, they both knew that, just like they both knew they were only building up to the inevitable.

The hero stopped. “You’ve...you’ve been quiet.”

Immediately the villain knew something was wrong, but they could play around this for as long as necessary.

“Yes, my plans have been otherwise put on hold until a certain pet finds it’s way back home.”

The two began a slow circle around each other.

“Why,” the hero staggered to the side, the villain raised an eyebrow. “Why don’t you just freeze me then?”

“Something’s different about you.” The villain acknowledged, almost sing-song “Since you’ve so kindly locked me out of that pretty head, I’ll have to figure it out the old fashioned way.”

With that, the hero zipped around, the villain very narrowly dodging their attacks. Once or twice, the hero would stumble again, slowing them down.

After another trip, the villain figured out the hero’s pattern: left to right, side to side. Knowing that, it was easy for the villain to shoot out their hand and snag the hero back by their collar.

They figured if the hero could phase through objects touching them, phasing through the villain would be no problem, hence grabbing the hero’s collar. The hero could always, however, phase through their own uniform, but the villain doubted they would want to be shirtless.

“Are you really so,” the hero stopped and panted, as strange as that was. “So hurt?” The words were supposed to be mocking, but the hero’s tiredness made it less so.

“Hurt? No, pet. This is all a matter of pride.” The villain didn’t hesitate, not wanting to give the hero a chance to run.

With their free hand, the villain placed their fingers on the hero’s temple, and plunged.

The villain could still vaguely sense what was happening in the outside world, but the hero’s mind was much more occupying.

It was chaotic.

The villain could feel any and all of the hero’s piece of mind torn to shreds, not gone, but broken. Then there were the surface level thoughts: Stop it. Get out of my head. You aren’t supposed to know how.

The villain went deeper.

It hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts it hurts.

Memories began to bubble up, memories the hero very much wanted to stay hidden.

“It’ll be ok,” a whitecoat promised. “It’s just so they can’t control you.”

The villain felt the hero’s pain as something sharp and quick took them over, felt the hero’s mind synch up with something not their own, felt barriers upon barriers, layers of pressure too heavy for one head.

Almost as if someone dragged them out, the villain was forced out of the now angry teared hero’s mind.

“Hero,” the villain spoke low and soft. “I want to help you, but I need you copoorate”

“No. No.” The hero tried to pull away, but the villain held fast.

“They tried to make your mind as fast as the rest of you, so fast I couldn’t touch it.” The villain snapped. “They did it poorly. It will kill you unless I find a way to undo that. Let me find a way to undo that.”

The hero wasn’t as frantic anymore, but their face was still red and tired, the occasional tear slipping down their cheek.

“I’m not going back with you, I don’t want to be under anyone’s control.”

The villain buckled after a swift kick to their shins, the hero released from their grasp.

“You-” they growled. “Stay still.”

“Screw you.” The hero said from somewhere in the building, too fast for the villain to tell.

“Was I really that bad to you?” Asked the villain, eyes searching frantically for a stumbling hero. “It doesn’t have to be compulsion, pet, it doesn’t have to be anything you don’t want it to be, just come back with me, let me fix whatever happened.” Contingency plan be damned.

The hero tripped over their own feet, tired and sweating.

“How often do you tire like that?” The villain asked, slowly walking to the hero. “You know it’s not normal, I know it’s not normal, so why pretend it is?”

This time around, the hero was predicatable, and before they could move, the villain tackled, pinning the hero on the ground.

With one hand on the hero’s head, the villain mustered all the command they could.

“Sleep.”

And the hero did, suddenly out like a light.

Truth be told, it probably wouldn’t take that much to put the hero to sleep, they were already exhausted.

“I promise, pet, I’m not trying to hurt you.” The villain whispered, before taking the plunge again.

They didn’t know if it would hurt the hero, going through their unconscious mind. This was something they had only done twice, both times were out of necessity, somewhat like this now.

There was the whitecoat again, whispering soothing words to the hero as something took root in the base of their neck.

Go back. The others urged the hero. You know how to finally beat villain.

The villain felt the hero’s humming head, the heaviness sinking in deeper. Wide eyed, the villain left the hero’s mind to flip them onto their stomach.

It was hardly noticeable at first, but the villain was good with gadgets, good at knowing what to look for.

The chip at the base of the hero’s neck was killing them slowly as it worked. Rewriting a prefrontal cortex through the spinal cord was horribly stupid, and something even the villain couldn’t do.

The villain needed total silence and a cleanlier place of work if they were going to detach the chip from the hero’s spine. And that’s just what they would get.

.

Every so often while working on the hero, the villain seriously questioned who the good guys were.

They didn’t delude themselves into thinking they were a good person, the villain knew they weren’t, but they wouldn’t try and rewrite someone on a mental level like this.

What the villain did was gentle, what the other heroes did was sloppy. The villain just urged the hero to stay, they didn’t try and force them to change completely.

It wasn’t right to do that to a fellow hero.

When the hero woke up, they would be angry, angry at the villain for taking them back, angry they had lost, but hopefully themselves again, that’s what mattered.

The villain watched the hero intently, wondering what their anger could afford them, and considering the fluttering eyelids, the villain would soon find out.

“Please don’t move too fast, pet. As hard as that is for you.”

The hero didn’t heed any warnings, a hand flying up to the base of their neck, legs already planted on the ground.

“Just hear me out!” The villain had raised their voice over the hero clattering throughout the small room.

The hero continued to zip about, almost to the door, but the villain was standing in front of it.

Now they were face to face.

“While I have no doubt in your abilities and think you could match your frequency with mine easily, I also don’t believe phasing through me and the door is a risk you want to take.”

The room was otherwise unhelpful to the hero, no windows, and there was no telling they would come through somewhere safe if they tried a wall.

“Surely you don’t expect me to be civil.” The hero spat.

“Well, I was hoping you would take into consideration that I saved your life.” The villain knew they were guilt tripping the hero, but they really needed to hero to comply, which they did.

Now sitting, the hero didn’t bother to look the villain in the eyes.

“Your hero friends,” The villain began, sitting opposite the hero. “Sent you to fight someone viewed as a psychopath, armed only with experimental technology and super speed.”

“Are you?”

“I’m sorry?”

“A psychopath.” The hero explained. “I never asked in the time we were together.”

“No.” The villain said slowly. “And that isn’t the point. You don’t want to get to the point, because then you would be forced to admit your hero friends are bad people.”

“Don’t read my-”

“I didn’t. I don’t need to anyway, you have confirmed my suspicions.”

“No!” The hero protested. “You’re just twisting around the situation!”

The villain tilted their head up. “Am I?”

At that, the hero stayed silent.

“I’m not going to make you stay, pet.” The villain said, much to the shock of them both. “I just have a favor to ask.”

The hero’s eyes narrowed. “And that would be?”

“Stay away from your hero friends, just a couple of days.”

There was silence, and for a second, the villain was worried the hero wouldn’t agree, but their thoughts told a different story.

“That’s all?”

“Scout’s honor.” The villain held up a hand in a mock pledge.

It was difficult for the hero to stifle a laugh. “For some reason, I can’t imagine you as a happy camper.”

“Ah,” the villain grinned. “Well, a budding telepath rooming with more loud children, you know how these things go.”

The hero stood again. “Will you be unlocking the door?”

“If I must.”

Then the villain was alone. “Goodbye, pet.” They whispered.

It was unfortunate the hero didn’t seem too angry at the other heroes, it would have made going after their reckless friends easier. Still, they didn’t need the hero’s approval, they would be doing it one way or another.

The new mental track was still in place, so the villain knew if the hero went back on their word to see those apparent friends.

Yes, it would all be a choice this time around, but the options would grow slim.

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A note: I hope you are having a wonderful day or night too.