#tdlr: usually its the other way around but i like antony as a historical figure but i just | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

attila-werther · 3 years ago

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oh my god I just realized I can say this here

in the framework as a character in a narrative I sometimes like to play around with, I just don’t care about antony after philippi! I don’t know how to! there’s just nothing there for me to work with because its a handful of people with aspirations of godhood and I can’t stop thinking about that stupid fucking yacht

like, he’s a neat and sympathetic and interesting figure in history

but as a character he’s serving me with nothing

#theres a reason i had consolidated all those AUs into one giant story. there's just! nothing there!#at my core ive always loved king killers and general menaces to rich people with more money than common sense #not even in a serious history sense: robin hood is my childhood favorite #and you can draw a line from that directly to a lot of themes in stories i enjoy telling or stories i hate watching #tdlr: usually its the other way around but i like antony as a historical figure but i just #do not care post philippi about him. every time i try im like. man i wish sextus pompey did kill all of you #the yacht thing is part of why i don't even bother trying to write c/eopatra i just. the way people write about her in texts #and the way marc/s family apologists write about the marc/s family? the same.#not literally the same but it's like. ugh. dont wanna.#anyway couldn't say it before because i went well over 1k followers from that summer of whatever the hell it was i was doing #but that's not the case here! ye haw #and it's like oh boy. how do i explain that antony post republic exists in a space of imperialistic colonial and dictatorship crimes #that makes my interest in him drop to the negatives #it feels wrong! it feels sad. sorry i stopped having fun! sorry i didn't know how to tell people i wasn't having fun #and all that stuff with the person that soft kinned antony killed all the fun for it too #laz.speaks #anyway none of that like. matters anymore! im vibing. im listening to the bebop soundtrack. im living life and writing nonsense again

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