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[roisingrasby]

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CW: Mental health and suicide. Today's emotions can be summarised as a mix of defeat and rage. To set the tone, this is not share as a "woe is me" post. This is shared as a "This is the stuff I'm dealing with that I wanted to share with you, so you maybe feel less alone too" type of post. At the start of March I went for a Mental Health Assessment of sorts at my local practice, with the Community Mental Health Team. I was with that person for an hour (along with Dan to offer input if needed) and summarised my mental health as best I could. To do that briefly here, current diagnoses are Depression, Generalised Anxiety Disorder, OCD, Complex PTSD and Borderline Personality Disorder. I have had at least 6 different rounds of therapy, with different therapists, psychologists and psychiatrists, using a variety of methods. I am on my 4th different type of meds - Sertraline. I still struggle on a weekly basis with certain levels of passive suicidal ideation (Passive suicidal ideation is having suicidal thoughts come up, but not making plans/actions to die by suicide or hurt myself) and feel like I'll be working part time for the rest of my life as I kept burning myself out working full time. My drive is low unless it's helping others, which is familiar to a lot of us, right.

I am fed up of talking about myself. I am fed up of the guesswork of meds; are my conditions partly due to a lack of serotonin/dopamine/norepinephrine or not having them get sent to the right places at the right times? I wanted to see if I could be considered for Transcranial direct current stimulation (tDCS), which involves electrical stimulation of the brain by applying a weak direct current to the scalp. It is NOT Electroconvulsive therapy. It's taken me quite a while to build up the courage to request it, and I had to be quite firm with my GP to even be put forward to ask for it. I won't go into my reasons for wanting to try it, but it's safe to say after 22 years of being "officially" depressed, the drugs/therapy/myself is not working. Today I received the call from the assessor that "It's bad news" and after the team reviewed my case, I couldn't be considered for tDCS. That in itself was pretty disappointing, but when I asked them why - again, a bold step for me instead of just sadly going "OK" - they didn't know the reasons, which gives me nothing to work with. I asked them to get that information if possible, because otherwise it's not a very helpful "No". We agreed a follow-up phone call next week to see what alternative next steps I could take at this stage. Whew. So that's the rant over and no doubt I'll feel sheepish and like i could have explained myself better, but I think it's important to post whilst things are fresh (and when things have sunk in and been thought about, but now is not the time).

[phantom-of-the-memes]

Since I’ve been making posts about American/ British entitlement towards Ireland, I thought I’d talk about this video here.

I am a student at this college. It’s a big tourist attraction for many reasons, but the main one being that the book of Kells is kept here. I am also from Kells itself, but Dublin having the book and not Kells is a whole other issue.

So this protest that’s been happening over the the past few weeks is in response to the college once again raising rents for student accommodation to astronomical rates. That being when rent in Dublin (and Ireland as a whole) is already unliveable. You’d find cheaper rent off student accommodation, but it’s hardly easy to find places like this. As well as this, the majority of the student accommodation isn’t even on campus to begin with. Most are about a 45 minute luas journey away. So what the fuck are you paying for?

This protest is necessary. It’s been a long time coming. Time and time again they prioritise tourists over us. Buildings are old and falling apart, equipment isn’t functional, accessibility is god awful. I know this because I am disabled and use a rollator, but I can’t even use it on campus most days because there’s simply no ramps/ elevators in some buildings.

In one of my lectures last week we were in one of the old buildings. We had a lot of content to cover, but of course the projector wasn’t working. The professor spent fourty minutes trying to get the computer/ projector to work, but to no avail. So we have a whole lecture to catch up on! All of this while I was looking out the window at this atrocity:

A new building for tourists! Yay!

They’ve been building new school buildings for years, but of course instead of finishing them, they’ll spend their time and money on the tourists. I’m not even having an exam in one of my modules because they told the professor that there simply isn’t enough room to host our class for the exam. And it would be “too expensive” to book a venue… it’s only a class of about thirty. He had written a whole exam and we were under the impression we’d have one, but now it’s just continuous assessment I guess!

So you have to understand why we’re not exactly jumping for joy for the tourists. There are hundreds on campus everyday, just generally being annoying and entitled. And yes DISCLAIMER; not all tourists, not all Americans/ British people, blah, blah. But from my experience, you do encounter some obnoxious people everyday.

So that’s why they blocked entrance to the book of Kells. That’s why it’s disgusting for the tourists to be arguing with them and demanding entrance. For once we just want our college to prioritise us! So yeah we will revoke your entitlement, because we are the ones who study here, we are the ones who have to LIVE here.

[aresonist]

[isjasz]

He keeps holding Scar’s hand.

(What happens when Grian escapes the watchers and ends up in the Crafting Dead with Scar and everything that follows.) ——————————

CRACKS THE DOOR FRAME GUESS WHAT ITS MORE HSBB This one is my piece for @all54321's lovely fic series "Make Yourself at Home (Stay as Long as you Need)" again in @hermitshippingbigbang!! :D

This is for chapter 5 of the fic so GO BINGE IT NOW KASDAAHAJSD I love. how Allie writes their dynamic sm and the zombie apocalypse vibes and just the whole premise!!!! I swear I had sm brainrot over this fic for like a solid week after I read it

SO *hurls you like a brick straight at it* GO 👉👉👉👉👉

[tibby-art]

nonnomnom tcd scar art maybe perhaps :3 we love the silly zombie killer

sorry its messy im on a road trip o7

[hoziergifsdaily]

HOZIER — Someone New | TCD Jazz Soc Showcase @ Sweeney's Bar (22/05/13) [requested by anonymous]

4 months before Take Me To Church was released!

[jellitchi]

watched scars tcd.... i miss him

[stevesbipanic]

@steddieangstyaugust Day 11: Temporary Character Death

If you asked Eddie what happened after he ran out of that trailer he wouldn't be able to tell you much.

He'd tell you he faced hell and was scared shitless. He'd tell you that Steve must've had a high pain tolerance because those bats hurt like nothing else. He'd tell you he thought of Wayne in those last moments and that he never wanted to see that look on Dustin's face again.

Next thing he knew he was in the hospital, safe and sound.

If you asked Steve it would be a different story.

He'd tell you he's never heard Dustin scream like he did over the radio. He'd tell you he didn't even feel the bat bites as he ran back through the woods. He'd tell you about how Eddie's heart wasn't beating when they got there.

He'd tell you how he felt Eddie's ribs crack as he begged him to stay. He'd tell you how when they got to the hospital how pale Eddie was. He'd tell you how he's never heard a man cry like Wayne when they managed to call him.

He'd tell you how Eddie died on the operating table. He'd tell you how it was lucky Nancy had the same blood type. He'd tell you how he wasn't sure he was breathing until he saw Eddie alive in that bed.

He'd never tell Eddie all these horrible things, he'd keep all the guilt himself. As long as Eddie's lungs filled with air and his heart kept pumping Steve would take all that hurt to his grave, just as long as Eddie didn't join him there.

When Eddie asks him late at night why Steve always lays on his chest, he'll tell him his heartbeat is better than any song ever written and that's all that needs to be said.

[stiffyck]

Hmm

[morickkk]

I never actually finished yhs lmao i only know when grian became taurtis

[alekksdlk]

So tired of acting like scar doesn't occupy 80% of my brain all the time

[nando161mando]

BREAKING| After only 4 days of student protests, Trinity College Dublin (TCD) vows to pull its investments in Israeli companies that feature on a UN blacklist, and set up a taskforce to explore engagement with Israeli institutions.

[applestruda]

Blame stiff and their brainrot

[aresonist]

[darkenedbun]

Some silly doodles

[tibby-art]

GTWScartober Day 5 - Zombie

TCD Scar, of course <3