#tbh idk what else to tag this.. also do tell if the id needs fixing i dont really have a habit of writing those...

[srcepiksla]

finally posting this zine i made at a trans oriented art workshop thing, its abt identity and like transitional periods.

english translation in alt

(id w english translation under the cut)

[ID:

first image: a zine cover with the title made up of different sized magazine cutout letters, some black and some red, saying "inter-states"; and a subtitle saying "a museum of transition"

second image: first two pages of the zine. the page on the left has vertically aligned text that says "white dot; grey dot; black dot" with appropriately coloured circles next to each line of text. the page on the right has a magazine cutout of a white shirt scribbled over with red pen, the text in the top left says "bloody shirts" and has blood dripping drawn under it.

third image: the middle two pages of the zine. the page on the left has a collage with a photo a person in a yellow raincoat lying face-down surrounded by cartoon-style hands holding microphones, the text under the person says "how do you see the future?". the page on the right has a collage of two women in black and white, one has short hair, a coat and is looking behind her; while the other one has long hair, a tight dress and is holding a gun pointed in the first woman's direction. the title on that page says: "communism" in all caps, and under it are various magazine cutouts saying "is there communism here in the 21st century?", "yugoslavia 2.0", "communism", "renaissance", "old and new: life and the universe", "communism" (again), and "a secret life".

fourth image: the last two pages of the zine. the page on the left features a blue quarter circle of a painting in the left corner; under it two ancient greek female figures lounging, with a question mark next to the one on the left and the female and male symbols added next to the one on the right; in the right corner there is a guy in a suit with his arms crossed and a scribbled on mushroom cloud replacing his head, on the left hand side is a blue cartoonishly drawn woman with something dripping from her mouth and a vacant stare. the text on the page says "artists and muses", "creative solutions", and "kill the original". the page on the right has the text "accepting yourself" and "emotional landscape / here's an emotional landscape", under the text are three cutout figures falling down and in distress, the background is scribbled on with black fineliner and red crayon.

/end of ID.]

[ixiomdraws]

I was considering getting a furby sometime soon but I haven’t had one since I was a kid. What’s it like? Are there any bad sides?

whats it  like? depends entirely on the person. some ppl like to take their furby with them everywhere ect, some ppl prefer mostly keeping them on a shelf, id be the latter. i sometimes take one off the shelf and interact with it for a bit, but tbh theyre kinda limited in what they can do, so it can get repetitive and i only do it really if im feeling nostalgic or wanna be distracted. the main fun thing for me about having furbies is customizing them. its a great distraction and makes me feel better to have somethin to work on that i can look at and be like ‘i didnt completely fuck this up’. 

  if u mean whats it like as in the furby like, talkin and shit, theres tons of vids in the furby tag of ppl playing with them, so just go search furby in the video section and u should find plenty of examples(also a ton on youtube and even comparisons of the dif models)are there any bad sides? uhhhhhhh i guess some of what i said could be considered bad, like the repetitive thing. theres not much else i can think of thatd be bad about it, unless you end up thinking theyre creepy. i personally think theyre cute af, but thats me.

 i guess another downside is them not working properly, being a 20? year old toy, but from what i understand, the 1998-2005s are fairly easy to fix. out of the.. idk 20+ furbies of 1998 models i have, i think only a couple dont work, and i havnt yet attempted to fix them, but from what ive seen, it shouldnt be too hard(@ furbytech is a great resource for fixes)

 the 2012/booms and connects? not so much. i gutted a boom recently to see if i could make it work and lemme tell ya, its nothin like a 1998 in there. im pretty sure(and i seen other ppl say its a common issue with booms) that the motor died and would need to be replaced. i have zero idea how much a motor costs or where to find one bcuz at that point i decided it wasnt worth it. another bad thing is finding any resources on how to fix the booms, bcuz i couldnt find much of anything useful.the dif types of furby are the original, 1998-2001(?) (typically only called 1998s though), the 2005, the 2012, furby boom, and furby connect. they all have pros/cons, the 1998s pro is they have a ton of varying colors, the eyechips can be removed and customized, and easy to fix. cons..repetitive? though that can be said for all of them.

the 2005s have voice recognition, they can hear their name(hey furby) and be asked several dif phrases that they can respond to, including ‘tell a knock knock joke’. con is they dont seem to talk or do much otherwise(though that could just be the one i have) i also have a harder time understanding what theyre saying compared to the other models.i cant comment on 2012s as i have none, but the booms pro is the different personalities they have! its cool that they have dif personalities, but the con is they can change, sometimes without reason, to a dif one. another con is their fur patterns make them less customizable, as are their digital eyes. the connects pros: super fucking cute, very interactive, moves a lot, and you can actually pick their furby name with the app and theyll remember it. cons(imo) they make a ton of fart noises and fart jokes. it honestly seems like the only thing they talk about other than yelling about loving cats, but it was marketed at kids so i guess i understand. another con is that, while like all furbys, they can sense sound, they dont seem to know what youre saying(they reply with random and repetitive responses) and there are no phrases they react to(as far as i know), which is odd considering theyre the newest version.  they do however, react and dance to music, so thats pretty cool. 

those are all i can think of pro/con-wise off the top of my head, im sure im leavin out a bunch.also as a tip, for a regular furby from the first generations(id say 1-3 and some of 4), i wouldnt pay over 10$ for it. some of the limited ones are also pretty easy to find, that ive seen, so i wouldnt pay a ton for those either(for example, the graduation furby)  the connect i guess since theyre newer go for about 20 and up, but u can find them for 10-15 too sometimes.  the most expensive(in general) are the 2005s, typically around 40-50 bucks. you can find them cheaper sometimes, but they get bought pretty quick from what ive seen.obvs the more special and higher gen furbies are worth more, but another thing i personally like to keep in mind is: how different is it really? for example, the graduation furby is pretty much just a tuxedo furby from gen 1 with a hat on. ones like the juicy grape are also just tuxedos with the white colored different, and can be easily replicated(though i believe both examples do have a tail instead of a mane like the tux has).sorry for rambling about so much shit, and good luck whatever u decide

[leonbastralle]

I Feel Like I’ve Missed A Week - Replies

tumblr has been very hungry for comments again so I don’t know if I got them all :/

alfalfalegacy replied to your photoset  “newsflash: aureus miracle still sucks at video games”

Don't drag him like this 

he is my most precious tiger and I will absolutely drag him whenever I want to because I LOVE HIM

melien replied to your photoset

I look at him and I feel warm and fuzzy help

ashfmbaksjfbaksjfbaksjfbasasd AAAA I CAN’T HELP BUT THIS IS GREAT

melien replied to your photoset “Charlotte: Yes, sweetie, I did. You’re not all that plain, you know?...”

Connie: yo your one hot hot baby

I’m so proud of her she’s so good at this

melien replied to your photoset “S: Hey, buddy. What’s wrong? You seem bl…I mean, down today. G: It’s...”

Brooooooooomance

I love that this happened tbh...everyone else just always ends up insulting Shine? He’s the only one who rly gets along with him and it’s beautiful Shine deserves a good work buddy

melien replied to your post “I feel lost”

I'm late with starbucks as usual but if you still feel lost you can have a hug! And if you're feeling better you can still have a hug

THIS IS THE CUTEST THING EVER AAAAA ;_; yes I’d like a hug but I have a cold so you gotta be careful! Also you too deserve a huuuge hug for all that catching up ;_;

melien replied to your photoset “G: I felt the same way about Mel and Pathi at first. But let me tell...”

Can I tell you one thing? You always handle these Important Convos in the best possible way and I just need more of them in my life

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA????????? I’M

AHFBAJHSGFBAJSHGBAJSHBAJSHFASD

I hope I can cater to your needs friend ;_; I need to cherish this comment forever

melien replied to your photoset

Their hugs always melt my heart a little bit because they're so good and pure

;_; they’re great huggers there’s so much hugging in this household and just...everywhere this save never fails to warm my heart

amixofpixels replied to your photoset

He does have a wonderful face.

I know, I know ;)

twinsimskeletons replied to your photoset

this face

it does things to me

asfmhasnfjkansfgas are you ok auntie???

bouquet-of-scissors replied to your photoset “Shimmer: Hey, bro! What happened to your beard? Sparkle: I love it!...”

#flowerbeardforever <3

sadly not forever (it’s glitching on some work outfits so I didn’t keep it for too long) but it will certainly be back!

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “T: Good to see you in one piece, papa! A: Hah, yeah. I’m glad too....”

theyre so cute i die

add protective!trellis to anything to make it 10 times cuter also add stupid shiny ex president to anything to make it 50 times cuter add both to get a cutesplosion

sugarsimms replied to your photoset “It’s been too long.”

<3 <3

i knOWWWW MY FAVE ;_;

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “HAPPY TWO MONTHS SNOWDRIFTICUSVERSARY!!! I thought as a celebration...”

also dang snowdrift i too want a boyfriend face shirt

step 1: get a boyfriend with a good face

step 2: get an awesome friend with skills to surprise you with a shirt on your birthday so hard that you forget how to breathe

i hope this guide was helpful!!!

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “HAPPY TWO MONTHS SNOWDRIFTICUSVERSARY!!! I thought as a celebration...”

i know im a filthy but are u sure its not that????? not a lil bit of.......... ne ck....... st uff???

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “THIS IS NOT A DRILL!!! I REPEAT, THIS IS NOT A DRILL! FLAMEUS IS...”

!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :oo

;) !!!!!

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “G: I know you’ve been working a lot of overtime to fix up the...”

Why do I have a bad feeling about this..... You wouldn't do anything to them, would you?

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “G: I know you’ve been working a lot of overtime to fix up the...”

djsdhfdsfdhfdhsdfsfdhdfs WHATS GOING ON LAZURITE WHAT AR E U DOING

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “S: Hey buddy! Feeling better today? G: Uh, sure! What…happened to your...”

:o never trust an offer by a lazurite

guys i pROMISE THERE IS NO NEED TO WORRY ;_; these two will be safe i just wanted them out of the house (rude i know) and i thought why not make another dream come true for my soft flower boy?

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “?: Heeeeeeeeeeeeeey boss, since when are you so hot? S: It seems the...”

ew leave my son alone pls

i know i know theyre all crazy for him its terrible

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “A flowery scientist is on the loose! (and special thanks to...”

im SO IN LOVE IM CRYING THIS SOFT BOY

sAME

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Shine: Hey, I know you kinda hate me and the feeling is mutual, but my...”

ur gotdang right and im also crying kill him shine

im sorry but thats not happening thats not the murder plot

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Shine: Hey, I know you kinda hate me and the feeling is mutual, but my...”

(U CAN FALL IN LOVE WIT UR NEMESIS)

(I SURE LOV TO PUT BRACKETED HINTS IN TAGS)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “C: Good, thank you. T: How good exactly? You WERE out, after all, and...”

yeeeeeees IM SO READY FOR THIS IVE BEEN WAITING FOR FLOWERBEARD SHINE

GHNVAFJAHBSJKAHBSGJAHBSGJAHSASD I HOPE ITS ENOUGH MAN

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “T: Can you believe that? As if it was my fault they can’t afford good...”

i cant believe the amount of savagery in this family....... i lov them so much

me too man...idk where it came from but now that its there i lov it and wish id gone full murder plot just to explore the full extent of savagery

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Charlotte: Alright, Connie. Thank you for this afternoon, I had a...”

me too man me too

;)

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Charlotte: Hey, look! This cloud looks like a cowplant! Conifer: Ohhhh...”

SOFSDFJFD in portugal we say "só precisas de amor e uma cabana" which is more or less all u need is love and a cabin so are they gonna bangaroni there??

ok bUT HOW IS YOUR LANGUAGE SO GR8????? this is som wisdom i wholeheartedly agree with

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Charlotte: That must be tough. I can’t judge, I have no...”

chARLOTTES HONESTY IM CRYING THIS IS SO GOOD

THANK U THANK U THANK U

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Conifer: Anyway, now that you’ve gotten past the big reveal, I feel...”

makes sense shed b a nurse bc everytime i see charlotte im like hELLO NURSE

<.<

tbh all i can think of lately when i hear the word nurse is that one boss art video and it aint so pleasant

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset

charlottes :o face......... it totally gives me lyfe

did u mean: any charlotte face

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “Charlotte: Ahhhhhhh there is nothing quite like a sunny afternoon...”

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaAAA SO CUUUTE

I KNOW

pixeldemographics replied to your photoset “San Maraschino Meadows Tuesday, 2.56 pm”

charlotte is scoping dat ass *eye emoji*

dO SHE GOT DA BOOTY?

twinsimskeletons replied to your photoset “HAPPY TWO MONTHS SNOWDRIFTICUSVERSARY!!! I thought as a celebration...”

bat...fucking?

(please don’t freak out it doesn’t happen but yes this is a line this exists)

twinsimskeletons replied to your post “.”

why were you determined never to listen to them again??

I’m crying it was so dumb and I’m still really ashamed I don’t know Jan2017!Annie who is she

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “HAPPY TWO MONTHS SNOWDRIFTICUSVERSARY!!! I thought as a celebration...”

Kinky shit, the best thing in the list by far. XD

really?

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “HAPPY TWO MONTHS SNOWDRIFTICUSVERSARY!!! I thought as a celebration...” 

Cuties 

yes. yes yeS YES YES

simphonics replied to your photoset “A flowery scientist is on the loose! (and special thanks to...”

Ahhh what a cutie pie! 😍

it works so well ♥

bouquet-of-scissors replied to your photoset “Shine: Hey, I know you kinda hate me and the feeling is mutual, but my...”

It's poisoned

I will forever be known as that one simblr who keeps dragging Salim, won’t I? XD

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “S: Okay this is getting creepy…he won’t leave me alone.”

It's the beard, Shine, it's the beard.

certainly.

amixofpixels replied to your photoset “A flowery scientist is on the loose! (and special thanks to...”

Look at that little flower crown beard. It does confuse me on how it's staying up. Sims logic.

same, but I just REALLY had to use it it’s the most Shine beard I’ve ever seen

bouquet-of-scissors replied to your photoset “T: Can you believe that? As if it was my fault they can’t afford good...”

"Want me to freeze them?" ily shine xD

same

monets-pixels replied to your photoset  “Charlotte: Alright, Connie. Thank you for this afternoon, I had a...”

Taking a mini gaycation

I like that word :o tho depending on who you’d ask they would be more likely to either call it a pancation or a nothingwilleverhappenimsafecation

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “C: Good, thank you. T: How good exactly? You WERE out, after all, and...”

I'm ready

we are all ready ;) just my queue isn’t

monets-pixels replied to your photoset “T: Can you believe that? As if it was my fault they can’t afford good...”

Yes Connie how was your gay- I mean day

monets-pixels replied to your photoset

My babe ❤❤❤

♥

amixofpixels replied to your post “Flirtyplies & Seriousplies & Other”

Third, I was worried my booty comment was too inappropriate, so I'm glad you liked it.

I will always like inappropriate comments if they’re not hurtful ;)

amixofpixels replied to your post “Flirtyplies & Seriousplies & Other”

Second, which comment you say? The never listening to FOB contemplation. how dare...

is it bad that I had no idea YOU listened to them? :o

amixofpixels replied to your post  “Flirtyplies & Seriousplies & Other”

There are a few things I would like to say, first, there is no anger, but as stated I will not apologize for the spam.

you call this a spam? friend please we were both here for Robins gen 1 and know what really deserves to be called a spam

[aparoxysm]

Tag Game.

Tagged by @hvlliwells

Tagging... @dimpsandhoes @cathasmuse @snikklefritsrps  @tehkatieofrps  @midnight-howlings  basically everyone that sydney already tagged plus @rebeccabreeds , @eizawrites , @narrctives , @tobeephemeral , @sammrps , @angeliicaschvylers , @collateralxbeauty , @olivicmunn , @requicms ...

1: Are you named after someone? well. embarrassingly, yeah. my dad already had 3 kids when he had me so he was kind of over the whole creating & naming shindig so he was lazy when i was born he was like “if its a boy, name it ned and if it’s a girl, name it kelly” (if you’re australian or just super buffed up on your history, you might get the joke) and my mom (especially being american, i think) was super offended and was all !!! LIKE HELL-- oh damn she actually kind of looks like a kelly, well fuck okay if you get to pick the name, i get to ruin her life and choose an unconventional spelling~ that is exactly how it went down, mhm, i know i was there. 2: When was the last time you cried? literally about an hour ago. a character death in a tv show that i already knew was coming hit me right in both eyes anyway. 3: Do you like your handwriting? yeah. i mean, it looks like a shitty no-name brand version of my mum’s. but hers is super cool so if i try really hard or have lines to at least fucking write straight, then it can look nice. 4: What is your favorite lunch meat? ham i guess, but like the shitty plastic kind you get for like $2 at coles. and my bread rolls are always 80% mayonnaise anyway so does it even count really. 5: Do you have kids? nope. 6: If you were another person, would you be friends with you? probably not. 7: Do you use sarcasm? the dark, rude, crude or sometimes all three kind. and it usually makes people uncomfortable if anything. jokes on them tho. it’s how i sus out my Tru Friends™ . 8: Do you still have your tonsils? yeah my mum never let the docs steal them from me. 9: Would you bungee jump? id literally rather do anything else 10: What is your favorite kind of cereal? cap’n crunch which we dont (really) get in australia. or like. well there’s no way i am paying an arm and a leg and probably uni fees to buy it from one of those “quirky foreign food stores” either. i dont love it that much. i hate cereal otherwise. 11: Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? no and i kno i am going to hell for it okay leave me alone 12: Do you think you’re a strong person? too strong. it turns me to steel sometimes. 13: What is your favorite ice cream? cookies & cream. 14: What is the first thing you notice about people? lipstick if they’re wearing it, or their... idk, ~vibe, and whether i can instantly tell if they’re intro or extrovert. this is v important to me. 16: What is the least favorite physical thing you like about yourself? my piece of shit immune system. 17: What color pants and shoes are you wearing now? black underwear, no shoes. 20: If you were a crayon, what color would you be? brown. 21: Favorite smell? my jasmine soy wax candles. or probably jasmine scented anything. or a cologne that my boyfriend only ever wears evey 84 years because he hates me and doesn’t want me to have nice things ((((: 22: Who was the last person you spoke to on the phone? my mum probably. 23: Favorite sport to watch? notps in tv shows becoming otps.  24: Hair color? red. and if i had a dollar for every time someones ever commented on how nice my hair is i could probably own x500 more useless things than i do already own now. i also have mermaid teal streaks sometimes. rn, theyre blonde because im lazy. 25: Eye color? brown. 26: Do you wear contacts? no i just suffer and pretend im not blind sometimes 27: Favorite food to eat? mexican. a burrito will literally fix any crisis happening in my life at any given time given its got guacamole. otherwise --- my dad’s special laksa. 10/10. 28: Scary movies or comedy? both. but probably more on the comedy side for me. weirdly i am only very good with horror video games, movies scare me too much. please explain that, dr phil. 29: Last movie you watched? legally blonde #nostalgia 30: What color shirt are you wearing? white sleeveless run dmc top 31: Summer or winter? winter, i thrive in the cold 32: Hugs or kisses? neither tbh. but when i am in the mood; probably hugs. 33: What book are you currently reading? none. i am still greiving the end of my last book. 34: Who do you miss right now? an old friend who came out of the woodworks to catch up with me yesterday, who i havent seen or really spoken to in a year because apparently i said something super mean to her one night that stuck with her. i dont remember it, but im very sorry about it, and we’re both super glad that we can put it behind us and be friends again. she is literally such a gem. i feel like a jerk. 35: What is on your mouse pad? a mouse? 36: What is the last tv program you watched? i paused skam & the walking dead to do this. i am alternating between episodes. i do not know why (except that i super need to finish them both IMMEDIATELY). 37: What is the best sound? the kind of break in music that i literally cannot describe to you except that it makes me think of wide open spaces, stars in the night sky, and the nerves under your skin buzzing something electric whenever you touch something. that sound gets me. 38: Rolling Stones or The Beatles? beatles. 39: What is the furthest you have ever traveled? germany. 40: Do you have a special talent? i can tie just about any noodle-esque thing into a knot in my mouth with my tongue?? i also am super spectacular at forgetting things. 41: Where were you born? hell. i mean, sydney, australia.

[survivorcordillerablanca]

Episode 6 Confessionals

I mean I didn't make the idol play. But um #LUKEDIDTHAT. Love he did that. But Lexi self voting??? Ruining Luke's plan of getting someone out? ICONIC!! Poor Lexi is prob going to go home lol. But I'm happy the idol I found did something but sad that its now gone and a new one? might be able to be found for those  4 remaining.

One more fake swap / fake merge and I'm going to vote myself off this island.

So iconically, Luke idolled, which i'm happy about. I'm NOT happy about Ryan being voted out considering I was kind of wanting to play a game with him. It also doesn't make sense considering... he's tried in every challenge, and has helped out the tribe greatly imo, but then again - we don't know the social dynamics and tribe outlook on their tribe. Carson told me he found an idol, and i'm superbly excited. Will he use it on me? Likely not. But it's still good to know we have it in OUR possession, and i'm not planning on leaking a word. The fact that he told me is satisfying though, and I do truly feel as if he's my #1 in the game right now. The challenge? Pass. It's something... logic puzzles are... awful (yet a little fun at times, sure). The cup thing... whomst... and the counting? I'm fairly triggered. I'm going to likely sit out because i'm busy today and I just couldn't care or want to do ANY of that. also why is there no SWAP!

Last tribal was fun with my idol play but Lexi made it less iconic with the self vote but that was completely understandable since she has a lot going on personally and I hope she's okay <3 It worked well in the sense that Jordan and Jay can still convince Lexi that they just had to do what they had to do with the tie and they saved her over Ryan. I compleTELY FUCKED UP THE COUNTING PART OF THE CHALLENGE WHICH I WAS ALREADY EH ABOUT DOING SINCE IT'S THE WORST BUT EUUURGH I MESSED UP. I'm hoping that we can win but if we don't then I hope I can trust Jay and Jordan enough to keep our 3 alliance strong and just vote our Lexi unanimously providing she doesn't have an idol or anything like that. I'll make an update after results...

Can you believe we win again? If we merge, it's gonna be 7-3. What a time to be alive!!! 

WHEWWWW i searched Mancos for the idol bc of my idol clue i got and i fucking found the idol and wow... i decided to tell Zach because I definitiely wanna nurture a relationship with him (love him so much) and we're a dynamic duo for sure!! i only talk to hi9m though and i def gotta fix that. playing this game AND another game at once is just a bit much but im still doing my best.

OKAY IM SCREAMING HOW DID I EVEN GET ANOTHER REWARD?? Idk how many rewards there have been in total bc I forgot but I've gotten 3 and didn't do 1 bc it was too risky but like what the heck how is this even happening?? I'm shook 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W5g0x_0uPJo

WE WON IMMUNITY YESSS!!! going into the final 10 7-3 is definitiely amazing and im assuming luke goes on the other tribe. im fine with that bc it seems like everyone on my tribe is close to luke, so theyll be closer to me if hes gone!! im definitiely enjoying this tribe but like.. where does everyone stand?? who knows. we havent gone to a tribal since eric combusted and i dont know where i stand. i trust zach and i kinda trust bryce even if we dont talk strategy but idk where everyone else stands. katie truists me i think, but idk if i talk to her enough for it to be a FULL trust between us?? shes probably the one i trust the most after the other 2. charlotte is... whew?? she hates zach im pretty sure so like... idk about that personally. shes a good player and also like... idk i just dont talk to her as much as the other returnees. willow is cool and shes super nice but we NEVER talk strategy and also she like gave tons of info to eric allegedly then voted him out so idk if i can trust that rlly but like  thats a bit hypocritical bc i kinda used him too. i need to try talking more strategy with her. and chris... we talk and they're pleasant conversations but like willow, i dont talk strategy enough with him. plus hes a good game player from what ive seen in this game?? i know hes busy so i just gotta start getting a bit more out of him. my social game has def been slipping and if i dont get it up, im looking at a merge boot status bc tbh? i think im a pretty big threat. ideally, jordan pines is merge boot, then we can use lexi/jay to possibly get out some of our tribe, maybe charlotte?? on second thought i could use jordan for that too but like.. i dont trust jordan lmao. IDEALLY, id like a boot order of... f10: jordan f9: charlotte f8: lexi f7: willow f6: chris f5: jay f4: bryce f3: katie/zach, depends on who i think i can win easier against?? then ideally a final 2 of me winning. but survivor is always changing, so nothing is for sure. thats just how id LIKE it to happen, but nothing is gonna happen exactly so ill just pray!!

We lost immunity...again...shocker! Jay approached me earlier to potentially blindside Jordan and get him out since he's a huge threat at the upcoming merge but ultimately decided that using his connection with Katie and his reputation as a meat shield would be to our advantage since we're both winners and that is enough to get people to target us. It feels weird working this closely with Jay. If we merge next then plan to get Katie using Jordan, Carson using Jay and Zach using myself and then add Charlotte into the group and we should have a strong group. I also want to find out who gave me the immunity idol so I can first of all thank them, second of all ask them why and third if all work with them. I just hope I'm not being screwed by Jay the same way he was trying to screw Pines. 

Confessional #1 this round: Fuck ulta, i hate this tribe, i want to leave, ryan palmer let me go home

I accidently self voted last round and it tied between me and ryan because luke used an idol. so they voted ry out and i cried alittle. thats about all. 

Confessional #2- Rip Lexi, this is wrong, how the fuck are we gonna be at 3 players, after this wtf they have an entire tribe waiting to fight us

Im so happy we won again to be able to go into a merge with 7-3 majority maybe and a 4 person group into the 10 person game! Things are going well

Wish I can find the idol and hope luke doesnt go out either here

bye lexi! honestly like... idk. all newbies on their tribe are gone, it's so funny. im anticipating merge! or a swap.. or something. its 7v3 for crying out loud! im not sure what my move is going forward, but i think im confident. just kidding, i'm likely leaving. this is a bs conf but i may make one tomorrow hehe

haha I beat Jay

wow can't believe I'm this seasons challenge beast

We're really that tribe that's completely decimating everything.

I've been out all day and I see that they voted out Lexi. Every tribal that Jordan pines makes it through makes me even more nervous about getting to a merge with him around. We didn't have a good history in our last game but I'm hoping that there are more people around with bad blood with him so I can kinda just get by without getting any shots fired at me. I just want to go into a merge already. None of this potential "tribe swap" to make things even for one more round. I usually get fucked in a swap and I'd rather not have history repeat itself.

Over the course of the past week or so, i've been attempting to mend things with Charlotte. She's the only person that I feel like would be dead set on getting rid of me, so to weaken that desire would be sufficient. I also want to work on Katie and Chris a bit more so that the newbies (since i'm already decent with Willow, I believe) would be more loyal to me. I need opportunities! As for the pending upcoming merge or swap, i'm not ready. I would hope the 7 Ulta stay together for a BIT or something, like vote out Jordan. I'm semi-close with Jay and Luke, so would I want to vote them out right away? Well, in the wise words of Jay - absolutely not. But I would if I had to. I'd be more lenient with voting Jay since i'm now developing a friendship with Luke (because of another ORG) and I really like him, he's a cool kid. Him and I have NEVER worked together in past ORGs so if we manage to survive and make it on a tribe together, it'll be something refreshing. Carson's still my favourite though. He's a social god and it's scary. The kid has school from like 7-3pm and still finds more time to message me somehow or someway. It's... wildt. I trust him to an extent and him and I both have agreed that like we'll go far but obviously we are bale to betray one another if essential to our own game. I likely won't make it that far though RIP. I told him i'd be his lapdog, despite the tag of the season o.O Bryce. I didn't mention him yet. He's cool, him and I rarely talk but I think he's overall a great person. I'd like to talk to him more but our last conversation felt dull and I can't force a convo (not his fault, communication is indeed a two way street.) Nonetheless, it's something I may have to work on for my game. Also lowkey it's so funny because two tribals ago, you provoked the question regarding returnees and newbies, and here are some facts: - Ryan asked you to stop shoving it down his throat. He got voted out consequently. Iconic, right? - All newbies on their side are eliminated - All the boots in the game in general are newbies (with the exception of my Bahamas representative Willa...RIP good soul. The good die young!) So basically a returnee will win this game. It might be slightly worrying to Katie/Willow/Chris and they may want to extend and form bonds with OG Copa so that they have backup, because obviously there's a trend with voting out the newbies. Anyway, this is my third confessional this round... more than expected hehe hope you enjoy! P.S look at this rude ass message: On 2017-09-14, at 6:36 PM, carson wrote: > Use the Golden Rope to hang urself please HSDGNISDGNDS It was so funny I choked bye now

I seriously thought I was being screwed this round because I didn't think Jay would flip on Lexi but he did and I'm still here! 5 votes against me and I'm still here which is great!! There are only 3 of us left on Copa and we're an alliance so if we don't swap/merge and lose immunity then....it's going to suck. I think maybe I'd be in the middle? But equally Jordan and Jay have known each other a lot longer than they've known me so they might see me as disposable and get rid of me which I hope isn't the case. I really wanna merge and go work with Zach, Charlotte and Carson who I know and think I could work well with. Also Bryce, a newbie from last season, someone who I'd be interested in hooking up with in this game and working with!

So I got another advantage which is lit, I guess all these advantages are making up for kvaloya, anyway who knows how I'm gonna be able to explain the randomized vote?

Okay so like I just realized I'm in another game with Eric. And I kinda led the charge to get him voted out so I'm trying to win immunity otherwise he is totally killing me so sorry this is a terrible confessional but I'm STRESSING. 

If we don't merge I'm so incredibly fucked