#tbh i've barely been on tumblr lately

[inkykeiji]

Hi, I'm sorry if this is weird or uncouth or whatever, but I just want to say I really enjoy your work and I really want to be your friend but I'm too nervous to message you directly!! I hope you have a lovely day. - (imagine I put a star emoji here, I don't have emojis ATM lmao)

hi hi!! nooo it's not weird at all!! i've had friend crushes too!! aww ahaha no i totally get you, it can be REALLY scary to reach out to new people and try to build a friendship; i think that nervousness is normal! i'm in the same boat as you—nearly every friend i've made online has messaged me first; i'm terrified to strike up conversations with people LMAO >.<

if you're a mutual, you are always more than welcome to send me a lil dm hehe :3 if you're not, then you won't be able to send me dms anyway (i have my settings set to only people i follow can direct message me) but you're always welcome to send an ask!! i can respond privately c: also!! thank you so much for your compliments oh my gosh!! i hope monday has been treating you kindly bb <33

[dumkana16]

i think I'm on Tumblr too LITTLE actually. not ENOUGH lately and my psyche is getting worse as my Tumblr screen time decreases.

as an update for basically only future me propably no one else :

I feel like I'm crying more easily. that's bad. let's hope it's briviact. actually maybe not maybe let's hope that it's the fact that I'm not on Tumblr enough.

kinda stopped taking pics of myself, only rarely and only for good reason or for vinted cause it made me kinda insane it made my body image waaay worse and Ive been in a body image crisis for a while now so I needed to do that. Thank God I only have two tiny mirrors these days and one is in a weird place so I don't remember I own it half the time.

Feel like being an anxious woman is BAD SIN BOOOO. but maybe it's more so misogyny. I feel like my alcoholic father is less judged about it than I am about anxiety and shit but maybe it's because he's a Man Who Can Pretend (is Can the right word. He's just a man who pretends)

trying to do more things concentrate better and maaaaybe that will be the Thing that will help my life get better and all. but also realising how insanely bad my concentration IS. like I tried putting on nature sounds instead of my regular playlist in the morning and now I get ready to leave faster so apparently if I put on nature sounds or piano (I Do have a whole folder on Spotify for piano Ive listened to that for years. Just not while Doing something usually when I'm tired or overthinking) when I get ready I can wake up a bit later. If I want to. Didn't work tho. And! Trying to do like a social media cleanse even tho I hate the word cleanse whatever. But I remember when I didn't really have a phone for over a year in like 2021? or something and I only checked things other than my emails like. once a month and I didn't feel bad about it at all lol it was pretty good for me but I don't wanna go on a whole tangent that could be another post but. it was good I should be minimal about it again I should be minimal about my skincare and shit too but. thats Another tangent.

What's the point in making scented toilet paper paper towels etc. Is it just to make me suffer. When I was at the worst shelter ever they only had fucking camomile scented toilet paper that gave me an allergic reaction (like all of this scented paper shit does) and I had to keep my own little secret roll of toilet paper hidden in the shared bathroom. And naturella is a crime against womankind kinda and by womankind I mean me personally but also im so sensitive I can't even use organic bio pads so :/

Am I regressing anxiety wise sometimes I think Yes absolutely sometimes I think no I'm a brave woman what is the truth?

[all-the-fish]

Oh, you know, just the usual internet browsing experience in the year of 2024

Some links and explanations since I figured it might be useful to some people, and writing down stuff is nice.

First of all, get Firefox. Yes, it has apps for Android/iOS too. It allows more extensions and customization (except the iOS version), it tracks less, the company has a less shitty attitude about things. Currently all the other alternatives are variations of Chromium, which means no matter how degoogled they supposedly are, Google has almost a monopoly on web browsing and that's not great. Basically they can introduce extremely user unfriendly updates and there's nothing forcing them to not do it, and nowhere for people to escape to. Current examples of their suggested updates are disabling/severly limiting adblocks in June 2024, and this great suggestion to force sites to verify "web environment integrity" ("oh you don't run a version of chromium we approve, such as the one that runs working adblocks? no web for you.").

uBlockOrigin - barely needs any explanation but yes, it works. You can whitelist whatever you want to support through displaying ads. You can also easily "adblock" site elements that annoy you. "Please log in" notice that won't go away? Important news tm sidebar that gives you sensory overload? Bye.

Dark Reader - a site you use has no dark mode? Now it has. Fairly customizable, also has some basic options for visually impaired people.

SponsorBlock for YouTube - highlights/skips (you choose) sponsored bits in the videos based on user submissions, and a few other things people often skip ("pls like and subscribe!"). A bit more controversial than normal adblock since the creators get some decent money from this, but also a lot of the big sponsors are kinda scummy and offer inferior product for superior price (or try to sell you a star jpg land ownership in Scotland to become a lord), so hearing an ad for that for the 20th time is kinda annoying. But also some creators make their sponsored segments hilarious.

Privacy Badger (and Ghostery I suppose) - I'm not actually sure how needed these are with uBlock and Firefox set to block any tracking it can, but that's basically what it does. Find someone more educated on this topic than me for more info.

Https Everywhere - I... can't actually find the extension anymore, also Firefox has this as an option in its settings now, so this is probably obsolete, whoops.

Facebook Container - also comes with Firefox by default I think. Keeps FB from snooping around outside of FB. It does that a lot, even if you don't have an account.

WebP / Avif image converter - have you ever saved an image and then discovered you can't view it, because it's WebP/Avif? You can now save it as a jpg.

YouTube Search Fixer - have you noticed that youtube search has been even worse than usual lately, with inserting all those unrelated videos into your search results? This fixes that. Also has an option to force shorts to play in the normal video window.

Consent-O-Matic - automatically rejects cookies/gdpr consent forms. While automated, you might still get a second or two of flashing popups being yeeted.

XKit Rewritten - current most up to date "variation "fork" of XKit I think? Has settings in extension settings instead of an extra tumblr button. As long as you get over the new dash layout current tumblr is kinda fine tbh, so this isn't as important as in the past, but still nice. I mostly use it to hide some visual bloat and mark posts on the dash I've already seen.

YouTube NonStop - do you want to punch youtube every time it pauses a video to check if you're still there? This saves your fists.

uBlacklist - blacklists sites from your search results. Obviously has a lot of different uses, but I use it to hide ai generated stuff from image search results. Here's a site list for that.

Redirect AMP to HTML - redirects links from their amp version to the normal version. Amp link is a version of a site made faster and more accessible for phones by Bing/Google. Good in theory, but lets search engines prefer some pages to others (that don't have an amp version), and afaik takes traffic from the original page too. Here's some more reading about why it's an issue, I don't think I can make a good tl;dr on this.

Also since I used this in the tags, here's some reading about enshittification and why the current mainstream internet/services kinda suck.

[melmedarda]

ngl when i finally sat down and watched arcane, i was blown away by the difference between how mel/meljay was in the show vs how the fandom made me assume they were

before i assumed mel was this manipulator with no huge depth, who didn't care for jayce, and banged him on purpose to keep him away from viktor, who was dying, and who she had poisoned too (i genuinly have no memory where i got the idea that she poisoned viktor, maybe i came across a tweet and misinterpreted it, and came to the conclusion she's the reason he was dying idk)

all fandoms have this problem where the fanon version of the canon gets treated as more canon than the actual canon, and arcane fandom isn't immune to it.

but going into fandom as a meljay fan, loving their relationship in the show, only to learn many don't give a damn about them (unless it's about meljayvik), touching the bare surface of what they have going on, was a big whiplash.

because excuse me but did everyone went to sleep everytime jayce shared a moment with mel??? why are we acting like they have nothing besides the sex scene???

I'm so sorry you had to experience that, lovely, it feels like a rite of passage for Meljay stans tbh. But honestly, I've very glad you've come into it so late! Early days were terrible! We were in the trenches on twitter, tumblr, etc. Even now, Meljay is still considered to be a rarepair, and there is significantly less amount of fanart, though they have been canon for years now.

I've seen some delusional takes on the Meljay relationship (cost me several braincells), and I'm telling you, everything the fandom has to say on them needs to be like water off a ducks back for you, okay? Take everything with a grain of salt. Because most takes on Meljay, and Mel as a character, are rancid. Let them go in one ear and out the other. Even better, cultivate a small circle of Meljay understanders, as I have.

I wish I could tell you it gets better? But its gotten worse after S2, so I'm sending you all my love <3

[sleepymccoy]

2024 fics

I didn't realise how many I'd posted this year! I'd've thought it was two lol. So, have a list. They're all spones <3

An Intimacy, A Surprise

This follows a FWB relationship that morphs into proper dating and then marriage. Very TOS compliant. Skips along through time with each chapter being one scene that either moves the plot forward, or that I just wanted to write. The chapters end when they kiss, but I still managed to sneak some sex scenes in (sometimes they argue instead of kissing lol)

A long, complicated path

This is a direct follow on from the previous fic. That one ends with Bones following Spock to the aos universe, so then I was like, well, how would the aos guys handle that. Well, I think one person commented asking that and I was like... oh no now I have to think about it and write it! And the answer is by weaponising a marraige certificate that has their names, and then falling for each other. My main memory in writing this one is that I was finishing my masters in the same month and this was a total stress relief fic that I can barely recall lol. I should read it some time, it's probably quite good

Nice and Vague

Very short a cute fic to get me writing. Established married spones with Spock using McCoy to further his diplomatic work. Ends with long distance phone sex fade to black

Two Thirds of a Whole

I completely forgot this fic exists, but now that I've reread the summary omg I spent so much energy on it. This was in response to a lot of people on tumblr who talk about Bones like he's third wheel that doesn't really matter to Spock and Kirk, which rankles me. So I wrote Bones going to a parallel universe where he never joined the Enterprise. I think the main point of the fic kinda got away from me halfway through tho and it really just ends up being a spones fic, with parallel Spock hitting on him, then Bones going back home and hitting on his Spock. But yeah, I think if I did this again I'd pay more attention to the Bones is important message

Oh Commander Mine

This one is all fun. Intended to be a dubcon fic, but I ended up shying from that a little. There's still some dubconny elements, so read the tags and feel free to ask me specifics if you're concerned but wanna try reading. Bones has to be Spock's vulcan sex slave, and he kinda gets into it in a way he didn't expect. They get together afterwards, with some bad communication skills, but overall it's a healthy sorta ending. It was me trying to write my kinks without shame, but unfortunately I did pull my punches a bit. Maybe I'll write my kinks properly in 2025!

On that, writing aims in 2025

I'm iffy on the trying my kinks again really, but I do have a vague nugget of an idea so if that fills out in a way I find interesting I will. I think writing dubcon is really hard to do honestly without the story getting overwhelmed with shame, which I don't feel about my kinks! So, it's hard to write a solid, genuine story that actually reflects what I wanna read. Commander Mine is a pretty good approximation really

I really wanna redo An Even Number of Souls. It's a great premise but I wrote myself into a bit of a corner and didn't know where to go so it's sitting there unfinished. But I think the story is really strong and I wanna do it. I've restructured and rewritten some scenes, so it's got a good chance. Just need to get the buzz for it again and really settle back into it. Unfortunately for Souls, tis the season of plot bunnies for me rn and I keep having new ideas that are so fun to write instead

I won't have too much trouble writing and posting the odd fic here and there. I've got three active wips rn, one is Spock getting bullied, one is mcspirk, one is a christmas fic I'm probably gonna let stay unfinished tbh. However, I am keen to write some more og fiction than I have been lately. I've got some great stuff in the works!!

I've got a poly story about a cyborg, a doctor, and an engineer. It's kind of about ownership of your own body. It's also about being trans. It's about showing the difference between aromantic and asexual people. It's mostly about writing insanely kinky sex, though. Cyborg guy is gonna get a bluetooth connected detachable dick eventually!

Also got a great story that's always on my mind, it's got two swapping povs. The world is very catholic, set far in the future. One of the povs is a plumber on a spaceship who start to secretly fuck a priest (secret gay style, secret cos it's catholic). The other is a cop on an asteroid investigating the murder of an important church guy. She loses her job around halfway, which is when you realise the priest the plumber is fucking is definitely the murderer. She then jumps in a lil ship with some guy willing to give her the lift, to try and arrest the murderer and get her job back, but instead is just stuck in a tin can with a hot guy (who turns out to be trans) and wants to fuck him (but she has to drop her bigotry before she can)(cos he's trans and has a vagina, theres literally no other barrier for her). At that point the plumber's pov picks up the murder mystery story. So it's kinda like there's two stories, one romance and one murder investigation, and they swap half way who is living which. The characters are very fucked up and fun to write. The murder, btw, is morally okay imo. The gays get a happy ending. Not sure the cop will, we'll see if she's willing to let go of her expectations in the second half of the book. I've written like 2/3s of the first half already!

Anyway that's me on my stories. I'm procrastinating writing the Spock getting bullied story rn by posting this post! So maybe feel free to ask me questions and I can respond instead of writing lol

[baby-prince-oppa]

So the Langfield shippers have spoken!

According to this poll, out of 20 votes, 30% wants to start a Discord group chat and 70% wants to start a Tumblr Community!

Granted, I've never ran a Tumblr community before but there's a first for everything, right?

...However, throughout the week, I've become more concerned about how active would the group even be in the long run, because I've been noticing the #Langfield and #VinhLang tags had been drying up of new posts as of late. Compare to other more popular LIS tags, it's barely a trickle. Most of the posts that feature Vinh has a very low count of notes, barely breaking 50 notes if lucky.

Like...damn our favorite boy is really not that popular, is he? 🥲

In any case, to gauge interest more accurately this time, sound off in the replies with a 👋 only if you think you can somehow contribute to keep things buzzing for a while.

There's nothing wrong with being a lurker but if only a few of us can make content or starting discussions like, once in a blue moon, then everything is just gonna fizzle out so starting a niche group would just end up being...kinda pointless tbh. We're already a tiny minority of the LIS fandom after all.

If there are at least 10 replies, I'll get started on putting together a PFP and banner for our little Community. Feel free to spread the word on other platforms if you'd like. ☺️

[hongthoven]

Not that my absence will be noticed, but for the few people I interact with, I'm just letting you know that I will be going on a hiatus for a bit. I've been lacking both motivation and inspiration lately and I feel like tumblr isn't giving me the same thrill it used to have a while ago. I'm barely reading anything on here either since I'm looking for longer fics/works and atm, one-shots just aren't doing it for me.

Writing has become difficult as well with the lack of actual/genuine feedbacks and the way fanfiction is being consumed and I'm afraid it has taken its toll on my motivation.

To anyone who has submitted requests, I am sorry. I really thought it would give me a purpose and help with my current slump but it sadly did not.

I'm still writing for myself and if anything turns into something I consider decent, I might just post on ao3.

Or maybe I'll be back here. Idk.

For now, tumblr doesn't feel like home and it's making me a bit sad tbh.

I'll probably still be around to simp over Hongjoong, cause my love for him surely isn't going anywhere.

À bientôt ♡

[taylortruther]

I'm late to your discourse discussion, but I want to add...almost ALL discourse in the fandom now LOL. Although I've been a fan since debut, I didn't get on tumblr until mid Rep era. When I think of the fun I had on here over the years! Since Midnights/Eras explosion of popularity, I've noticed almost all my swiftie spaces have become... way less fun. I completely got off Reddit. I only have about three tumblr blogs I visit anymore. Many of the people I loved following on here have stopped posting around the same time. It seems there is a lack of light heartedness here, and so many more people are policing things. Even that anon you just got about Joe! Like...it's so unnecessarily rude, especially since we barely talk about stuff like that here. idk. It makes me sad because I have a feeling many of the people I loved to follow most will also lessen talking about Taylor soon, and I don't blame them tbh. Too many policiers now over dumb stuff.

yeah, the amount of policing, vagueing, and weird-ass parasocial anons people get (if you can get beyond the policing and vagueing) makes it deeply unpleasant to be here sometimes. and the other places to be a fan are just horrific in their own ways. it's like every post you make has to be perfect, you can't ever misspeak or be too general, you have to overexplain your politics, you can't be super casual all the time because someone will demand you explain every human emotion you or taylor has with a psychological text, everyone seems to hold everyone else to really ill-conceived standards (ie, "you're not a real fan if you don't gossip about travis" or "if you aren't speaking up on your blog about X issue it means you don't care and thus we can drag you through the mud for it and ruin your reputation") that make no fucking difference in the real world. it's just frustrating!

[theha1rarch]

Send ✏ (or "PENCIL") for mun to write about a muse they thought about trying to roleplay or one they are already roleplaying outside Tumblr RPC.

( since gwen already sent the whole meme in the ask & i'm lazy af & don't feel like retyping i'm just linking here lmao )

i'm just using her icon from my halloween blog but ... max mayfield! i do technically currently (just not actively) write her on disco.rd & she is on my on hiatus halloween blog ... but i've been thinking about her a lot lately. tbh she's kind of always rattling around in the back of my mind, she's probably third highest in my muse for my st muses (behind steve & robin) & i lowkey have thought abt giving her a sideblog to this one as well but - with the fact that robin's blog has barely been touched, & missy's is barely off the ground ... probably not right now. but maybe in the future! i do love her a lot <3

[eileen-crys]

Are you doing alright? Are you still working on your art? It's completely fine if you don't feel like drawing right now. Mental health matters most.

Thank you for the concern anon 🥺💕🫂

Tbh I'm not really alright, barely there- I am still working on my art though, and lately I've been doing a couple of private commissions (thankfully), on some Genshin Impact fanarts and fanzines (so I can't share WIPs) and I'm a bit more active on Instagram. I don't really like to post on tumblr that much anymore because if I post Queen art it barely gets noticed bc the fandom is small, if I post non-Queen art it's as if I didn't post it at all, and that makes me unhappy. I'm also a bit stuck irl, I can't find a job and I really think I should get checked for ADHD because "I'm going slightly mad". Sooo yeah this is the update and I'm really sorry if you miss my art 🙏🏻💕 I'm trying my best right now even if my best is not that much 😅

[mbbsgf]

MIGHT BE TRIGGERING FOR SOME !

okay, so this is a way more detailed version of the paragraph i just wrote (i'm probably gonna get emotional, i apologize in advance). 2023 was one tough year itself. i don't think i'll mention some of the things that happened because it's too personal bug i'll "try my best" i guess. i hate how life treated me this year. i'm so for real, it has been so mean to me. it just kept punching me in my weak spots. and it punched hard. really hard. i honestly don't know how i survived 2023, i guess i stayed strong for my future even though it gives me bad anxiety. i didn't wanna be a "failed teenager", i didn't wanna see my mom cry, i didn't wanna give up. well, i did but i decided not to. it's pointless to give up. you're in pain so you think ending your life will help but it doesn't. your pain is just temporary. you have your whole life ahead of you. it gets better. i know it's easy to say but i used to not believe it either but i'm getting better. i've been in this insufferable pain since 2021 and trust me, it wasn't easy at all and it wasn't easy at all to get better either but it took me 2 years to start getting better. you just have to wait, i promise you gets better. trust the process, stay healthy and hydrated and everything will be fine. you guys text me if you need to talk or anything else. i promise you i'll always be here. you're never alone. ever. there's always people that care and will listen to what we you have to say. i care and will listen to you. don't ever invalidate your feelings, babies. ever, it's such a disgusting thing to do to yourself. you deserve to share your feelings with someone trusted, if not me then one of your friends. just talk to someone if you ever feel like you're not okay. you should suffer in silence just because you think you're gonna annoy the person you're talking to or because you think it doesn't matter. it does matter. you matter. don't ever forget that you are loved and cared for. you deserve to speak up and to tell your stories. mental health isn't something that should be joked about. if you aren't okay, reach out for help but please don't joke it out or anything. i used (and still do tbh) to joke about my traumas as a coping mechanism. it's stupid, yes. i'm aware but i genuinely don't know how to communicate. i'm working on it but it's hard as someone who barely opens up. well, looks like this turned out to be more of a mental health late session talk, i really hope you guys are okay and if you're not that you'll reach out for help. you know, i'm only a dm away. i'll always answer except if i'm sleeping but tumblr is the first app i open in the morning so i will see your messages if you send some. you can dm me or even do anons to share your stories with other people and me. it can be anonymous or not. it depends on you. anyway, it's starting to get late. i hope i helped even if it's just a little bit. i love you guys so much and you matter. 🩷

-marie

[puppyoftindalos]

How are you? I hope you’re doing well! Miss you!

Yayyy I'm back! Sorry I disappeared for a really long period of time.... Tbh I'm just extra busy lately, for I have tons of school work to deal with and barely have time to open Tumblr at all😭... Another reason for not posting anything is that I've been practicing drawing techniques in the past few weeks lol

Anyway I'll be back in action pretty soon! Thank u for all the concern! You are my angel🥺🌹🌹🌹

[allthebestcowgirls]

Baby May... I am late. I had your birthday put on my calendar and still, I am late. I have no excuse except that I'm not very good at being a human these days and social media's freaking me out!!! It's no excuse and I am sorry. I hope you celebrated well and that you ate yummy food and that your birthday was well spent, and I hope you're doing well in general 💗💗💗

noooooooo!!! you have nothing to apologize for!! thank you so much for the birthday wishes u don't know how much i appreciate them :')🩷🩷🩷 yes i've been doing celebratory things! tonight im going out w my friends 😇😋 i hope that you're okay🫂 ive barely been using tumblr lately tbh just has felt weird being on here. but im sending u sooooo much love you're so dear to me🫂🩷😽❤️🥹

[shdwtouch]

alrighty ! :,D I got all the messages sent out <3 I apologize for the length (I rambled, to no ones surprise) and just want to say that a response is not expected or required. I just... wanted to say some nice things to some of the people I care about in the rpc, that have made me feel cared about, that's all. uwu

I am either going to write a general message to send to folks over tumblr IMs, or make a post to tag folks in, for the folks I didn't send messages to but still want to acknowledge ! cuz I don't want anyone to feel left out tbh. there are so many people that mean a lot to me and have positively impacted my rp experience and/or my life in general, and its that season where I want to make sure they know it.

I've really been struggling with apathy and feeling bothersome, wondering what the point is. owo;; like, leave it to me to overthink doing a nice thing until I feel weird / bad about it haha but I genuinely hope the messages and my intentions find people well, otherwise I apologize for being a bother / if I made folks feel uncomfy or weird ?

also just. want to restate what I posted yesterday: I feel like my autism and/or adhd has made it hard for me to quantify relationships, so I just kinda say everyone that I care about is my friend. and I know that isn't always truthful of what the relationships actually is, or how the other person sees it, so… I do apologize if I overstep or make people feel awkward by calling them my friend. if it does make you feel uncomfortable please just say so ! I can't say that I won't feel hurt, but again, I recognize that I may be… assuming more than is true.

I've been thinking about this a lot lately, worrying that the people I consider friends don't see me in the same way. that I'm assuming more about our relationship than is true and making them feel awkward and/or uncomfortable in the process. which is obviously not my intention. I'm genuinely just. trying to be... friendly, kind, supportive, caring. I'm trying to foster the ideals of friendship. and worrying, in the meantime, that I'm not a very good friend because I'm slow and awkward and shy / insecure and tend to overthink quite a bit. so... I am very thankful for the friends I have, if they consider me as such, and sorry if I make people feel weird when we aren't really friends.

anyway. sorry for the ramble / baring of the soul. sending the dash & everyone lots of love and good vibes ! gonna take a lil break then I'll start on the gift asks.

[sehtoast]

Writer Tag

Thanks for the tag @venus-haze <3

How many works do you have on AO3? 29

What's your total AO3 word count? 230k

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Tender Threads

Satisfy Me

One Big Wet Spot

Say Please

The Hand That Feeds

(All Homelander fics) ^

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not? Most of the time, but lately I haven't had the energy or the time. My social battery is pretty fucked, but I do read every single one of them and love them

What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending? So it's technically unpublished, but it basically ends with Ben (my oc) sentencing himself to die pretty painfully alongside Homelander with that thing that got revealed in Gen V. If you know you know

What’s the fic you've written with the happiest ending? Honestly, Envy.

Do you write crossovers? I've done an AU crossover for the same fandom, but not really

Have you ever received hate on a fic? Most of the hate I get is in my tumblr inbox. I haven't really done/said anything about it bc no one really wants to see or hear about it tbh, but I've gotten a fair amount of shit for pairing homie with a guy and then also more for pairing him with a trans guy. I think the only ao3 hate i ever got was barely even hate, more like someone bitching that my tender threads formatting wasn't to their liking bc it's Y/n formatted

Do you write smut? If so, what kind? Yessir yessir. Honestly just whatever i'm vibin with

Have you ever had a fic stolen? not that i'm aware although i don't think i've written anything steal-worthy

Have you ever had a fic translated? no, but @anon-nee has been my personal jesus christ in helping me make sure my english to german translations in tender threads has been accurate. love you nonnums <3

Have you ever co-written a fic before? technically no, but @homelanderbutbig did a collab with me and made this to pair with a fic i wrote, which i feel like is co-creation so i'm gonna say yes anyway. love you HBB <3

What's your all-time favorite ship? honestly i don't really have one, unless i can count my ocxcanon ship in which case it's benlander

What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will? i have a depowered homelander fic where ben answers the door one day and ryan, now in his late teens, is there to finally see homie again after all those years went by. i adore the concept but i'm like NEVER in the mindset i need to actually write something like that

What are your writing strengths? yall got strengths?

What are your writing weaknesses? all of them

What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic? i think it's fine so long as there's clarification shortly after for the readers who may not understand, and also that you've somehow gotten it cross checked by someone who actually speaks the langauge so ensure you're not just saying some wild shit. but ultimately do whatever makes you happy idk bro i don't make the rules

What was the first fandom you wrote for? Prometheus! i was am down so bad for david omg

What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to? astarion/tav. i wanna write something sooooo bad but i just can't get in the headspace for it

What's your favorite fic you've written? probably satisfy me because the role swap was incredibly fun and it's REALLY fucking cool to unbind homelander from his own behavioral patterns and manifest them into a reader's concept. like, of everything i've written, i could most clearly imagine everything that happened in that fic and i'd find myself grinning like a sick fuck while writing about literally eviscerating a man's chest cavity lmao

No pressure tags: @blindmagdalena @hom3landr @irenadel @slasher-smasher and anyone else who wants to participate

[xheartpages]

Everytime I think my mood is decent again, it dips down severely. 2023 has just been ... terrible emotionally tbh; hence why I've barely been here for any of it.

But I'm lingering around tumblr more often, which must be a good sign. And I miss interacting with people here!

A bit of a house keeping thing, but if you know I have a reply I owe you from awhile ago, like this if you're cool with it being responded to extremely late. I have a bunch of drafts, but if no one wants to continue it and would rather start on a cleaner slate, I'd rather now before trying to pick at them eventually.