#tbh i'd rather fight them myself than them fighting my friends

[sleep-nurse]

too scared to show your face anon? come out here and fight like a real man <- is a socially anxious overthinking trainwreck of a girl

yuh who's this anon challenging you. reveal your face and the fight may begin

[puppy-phum]

tag game ✨

thanks for tagging me zey @thasorns ♥ i teared up at your addition about me, that is so sweet :( i miss our dff talks too! idk what you're into these days but would love to talk about some show with you again :')

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1. why did you choose your url?

bc am obsessed with one (1) man who belongs to another amazing guy ♥ (been thinking about an url change lately tho bc i'd like to put last twilight and the hurt it caused behind me but haven't found something else to tie myself to yet. maybe we are and phumpeem if the ending delivers?)

2. any sideblogs? if you have them name them and why you have them.

not really. the only side blog i have is my og url vishcount saved for nostalgia purposes but there's nothing on that blog

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

started on this hellsite (affectionate) on the lord's year 2013 and it shows

4. do you have a queue tag?

i don't use the queue much so no. you will only catch me reblogging like ten posts in a row when am online/in the mood and then going back to lurking again

5. why did you start your blog in the first place? 

i was into a bunch of animes and tumblr was filled with amazing fanart. i wanted to be able to look at them in peace

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

to show who my url is about ♥ mork my beloved

7. why did you choose your header?

wanted it to fit the theme. also i adore the last twilight rooftop kiss, it's one of the brightest spots of the show

8. what’s your post with the most notes? 

most likely this the untamed edit from 2020. i was truly living my peak back then :'D tbh i feel like the whole of tumblr was living its peak when the untamed was airing and when we all lost it together for the longest time after

9. how many mutuals do you have?

way too many and i adore all of them, tho i probably forget or cannot recognize most of them. especially if you've changed your url/main fandom OR i have, we might not even know each other anymore haha

10. how many followers do you have?

more than i deserve and idk what all of you are even doing here but i like feeling like i'm part of some type of crowd ♥

11. how many people do you follow?

quite recently i unfollowed some inactive blogs and blogs about things i don't really care for anymore so my follow count is a nice number of 205

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

uh. i don't really know? do some posts from my finnish tumblr (suomitumppu) era count? :'D

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

am chronically online and i open this app like a fridge

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

no, not really. am not really one to share strong opinions, especially negative opinions, publicly online which i think is the cause of most arguments ppl have here. i'd rather just keep my peace and be nice

15. how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ posts 

mostly i don't like doing things when am told to do them

16. do you like tag games?

yes! it always makes me happy to know that someone is thinking about me and i do find these a lot of fun to do ^^

17. do you like ask games?

also yes. i just don't often reblog those bc i don't really have a lot of interactions on this site. if i find an ask game with very interesting questions, i might forward it to kiddo @i-am-just-a-kiddo and we do it together privately to enjoy it like that ♥

18. which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

the first one that comes to mind is hanyi @ruanbaijie who i think deserves all the recognition for her absolutely amazing giffing skills ♥ she's also the sweetest so idk what's not to follow, make her even more famous if you can!

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

nope. idk if i function like that tbh. i have some huge friend crushes tho and want to be closer with some ppl a lot! not mentioning names bc am shy haha

but i want to say that monica @stormyoceans is very important to me these days. she brightens up my days and makes my whole fandom experience so much better by simply being her enthusiastic and authentic self ♥ never change!

and also jessi @oswlld who i still cannot believe is someone i can call my friend and bestie on this site. i am so happy we've gotten to share bad buddy, vice versa, and last twilight together! also happy to hear about your life at times and to just share silly things with you ♥

third one i want to mention is shannen @icouldhyperfixatehim who always manages to stand out in a positive way. we don't interact much but i cannot help but feel very giddy about their presence on my dash. they leave the best tags and every time they reblog any of my edits with their tags, they manage to make me feel like i've made it and my edit was worth the effort :'D so thank you!

20. tags?

want to tag at least @psychic-waffles @foxofninetales @hils79 @sherrymagic @srnileforme and @thitiponqs ♥ also the ones i mentioned before are free to join and anyone else who wants to do this!

[stormyoceans]

Sorry for ranting in your ask box idk if any of this will make sense but I've been thinking if jimmysea do get a series with jojo I really hope it's them as a standalone and not an ensemble. I don't hate other gmm actors (ik ppl want a hia gang drama tbh idrc about that) but seeing the mess during only friends, I don't want jimmysea being subjected to that same discourse especially when they've been bl fandoms punching bags before *war flashbacks of vvs era*.

Not to be confused with me fearing jimmysea will be overshadowed by others or their screentime will diminish when they can definitely hold their own but just for their protection from other fandoms (and for my sanity) I just don't want them in a ensemble but knowing jojo he loves a big ol' cast so we'll see.

i completely understand you on this, anon, we've truly been in the trenches with vice versa just fighting for our life begging people to at least be respectful to jimmysea in their own damn show that i feel like the moment we hear that someone - ANYONE - is gonna be in a show with them we immediately start to have flashbacks of war like you said and PANIC

and i get that only friends didn't really help to calm our worries because those few months were ROUGH. i feel like the only reason i was able to enjoy the show in any way is because i kept my opinions to myself and avoided getting too involved with it outside from reblogging some gifsets, which is kinda the opposite of what a fandom should be imho like. if i have to refrain from actively joining a particular fandom because im afraid the experience is gonna be so negative it will actually affect my personal enjoyment of the show, then that kinda defeats the point of fandom itself. but i digress ;;;;;;;

the thing is. i feel like discourse and disputes between fans can arise regardless of how big a cast is, and while im the first one to recognize i'd rather not have jimmysea share a show with certain actors not because of the actors themselves but because of a particular category of fans of said actors, i also wouldn't want to preclude them any possibility for growth. if that makes sense ;;;;;;

in the end despite all my worries and fears and personal preferences, the most important thing to me is that they're gonna have a new show together in the future. i'd definitely rather have them be the sole focus of it, but if it's gonna be an ensemble cast with multiple pairings then i will just hope for the best and focus all my energies on supporting jimmysea

IF WE GOT WHERE WE ARE WHEN IT WAS ONLY 50 OF US AND WITH THE MOST POPULAR FANDOM AT THE TIME AGAINST JIMMYSEA THEN BY GOD WE CAN WITHSTAND EVERYTHING AND COME OUT OF IT EVEN STRONGER THAN BEFORE

[cupidstwin333]

If matchups are still open can i request obey me and diabolic lovers romantic matchup?

I'm Female, she/her pronouns. I'm bisexual, biromantic.

I'm istp 5w4 548.

I'm ambivert,I'm very laid back and prefer to go with the flow of life but sometimes come off as ego-centric and domineering. I have to admit I’m a lazy person who prefers having a leisure more than anything else. But once i find my motivation I'm actually pretty hardworking, I won't stop or take breaks until i completely finish what I started. I mostly spends my time as a stoic and a calm person and i might even come off as apathetic towards the world around me [even tho I’m not]. I’m usually perceived as being insensitive because i generally prefer to deal with emotions in my own head rather than openly [and somehow I'm still well liked?!] tbh I often think I’m above others, yet I am always willing to acknowledge that I’m a total piece of shit [very rarely tho] Sometimes i have fantasies and ideals that I want to start creating or becoming but i give myself a reality check and let the dream fade away. I’m very innovative but still choose the practical route a lot. It’s easy for me to create goals and envision the end results but it’s ridiculously hard for me to remain committed to the process.

I have a very big ego but one word alone is enough to destroy it. i Will never admit my wrong, unless internally. I'm playful around people i like [friends, family, classmates] and if I believe I'm right I'll passive agressivly fight you to prove my point [even if I'm wrong]. Like i said i have hard time committing to something i loose interest, motivation and get bored rather easily. If I'm stressed about something i bottle everything up and worry about it alone. Not because I don't want to burden other or anything simply because my pride and ego is getting in my way. I'm not really a jealous person and even if i get jealous i keep it to myself and try my best to hide it. I care about what others think of me [more like what others think of my parents] so towards strangers and people that know my parents I'm very polite and despite my "intimidating" appearance i try to be welcoming and friendly to others [by others I don't mean everyone, i mean people who i would like to be friends with or I'm already friends with and people who know my parents]

I tend to get bored of things easily or i get insecure that I won't be able to complete it and overthinking things and give up on it so i try not to plan ahead. I notice negative traits in people [myself included] before good traits. I always try to be realistic but my overthinking turns me into negative person. I'm very future orientated person so i pick things depending on how useful it'll be for me in the future. Getting angry, yelling, insulting and being agressive in general is my defense mechanism when I'm sad or in an argument. I'm very prideful and stubborn person I actually like socializing but usually i can't find the topic to talk about with people. I LOVE talking about myself but I'd rather die than share my struggles, feelings and personal things similar to this. I'm taking them to grave. I'm pretty biased person. I hate when people insult me even when they don't mean it and they're jocking not even i insult myself. I'm better at socializing older people than people my age. I like to think that I'm a great listener but I'm insecure about my reactions to their stories. Even if i find it funny i find it hard to express it on my face. I like arguments [not with my loved ones]

Tbh i actually like to socialize and speak to people. I love to speaking especially on subjects such as what is moral or immoral, psychological and philosophical stuff, gender equality, crime stuff and etc.

I'm 5'10, i have medium length dark red hair [more like wine red] in a layered haircut [it almost looks like a wolfcut]. I have brown almond eyes, straight nose and lips I'm not unaware shape of but it's medium size, not big but not small either. I also have multiple beauty mark on my face, one on my chin, one on my nose, one on my right cheek but it's closer to my mouth and one on my left cheek closer to my eye.

I like horror genre [movies, books, analogue horror and etc], watching movies, listening to true. I love music especially indie and rock music. i like Researching and learning more about myself. I love reading greek mythology and Japanese urban legends. I'm interested in psychology and philosophy. I also find researching about demonology and ancient religions interesting. I love Victorian/romantic/vampire gothic aesthetic I'm also very in love with gothic novels. I wouldn't really consider this as a hobby cause i do it once or twice a year but i also play volleyball and piano. I also really love spicy food. Red is my favourite colour and cats and snakes are my favourite animals.

I may not be a religious person but i love Christinan themed paintings, sculptures and buildings. I also love interior designs of orthodox churches, it may look creepy but it also has it's allure and charm to it.

I hate very loud places but i also hate places that are very quiet. I dislike sweet food, dogs, romance movies[i love romance genre just not in movies], "Pinterest goth" aesthetic, sweating, heat, smell of mushrooms, math, my math teacher, losing.

My biggest fear is getting old.

As for my idea type I value honesty and loyalty, I'm more attracted [romantically or platonically] to people who are confident in themselves and their abilities. I also value partner/friend that isn't overprotective and allows me my independence and let's me do things my way. I don't think i have a specific type i just want my partner to keep me entertained as i tend to get bored rather easily.

My love language is act of service and quality time.

After a long time of thinking 💭 your match is…

Leviathan

How it started:

You never considered yourself one to meddle in the affairs of demons. After all, you were more comfortable researching ancient texts and hidden mysteries than engaging in the antics of any of the demons here . So when Leviathan, the avatar of Envy, suddenly barged through your door interrupting your research, you were slightly annoyed.

"Hey, I need your help leveling up in DevilCraft!" Leviathan exclaimed, his eyes looked at you desperately. DevilCraft is an enchanted game that takes you to the virtual world. Leviathan has been really obsessed with it recently.

You raised an eyebrow, unimpressed. "DevilCraft? Really, Leviathan?"

But Leviathan was persistent. He forced you to follow him to his room and he regaled you with tales of epic quests and rare in-game items. For a brief moment, your curiosity got the better of you, and you reluctantly agreed to join him in the virtual world. Why not? It seemed like it could be fun.

As you embarked on adventures in DevilCraft, you realized that Leviathan's obsession with gaming ran deep. He was a master strategist, always seeking the most efficient way to defeat virtual foes and conquer digital realms. Your laid-back nature contrasted sharply with his intense focus, but somehow, it worked. So much so that gaming with Leviathan became a regular activity for you.

One evening, as you both battled monsters and navigated treacherous dungeons, Leviathan turned to you, his avatar mimicking his earnest expression.

"You know… I've noticed you're not like most humans," he began, his voice tinged with curiosity. "You're so... different."

You shrugged, letting your guard down slightly. "What do you mean, Leviathan?"

He leaned closer, his virtual character mirroring the gesture. "You're not all loud and outgoing like others. You're... unique."

For the first time in a long while, you felt a twinge of vulnerability. Leviathan's genuine curiosity and admiration were unlike anything you had encountered before. So, you began to share, bit by bit, the thoughts and feelings you'd kept hidden behind your stoic facade.

Leviathan listened intently, his in-game character standing by your side. He didn't judge or push you to open up further. Instead, he simply let you be, offering silent support as you revealed the layers of your complex personality.

As your duo in DevilCraft continued to conquer challenges and level up, you and Leviathan grew closer. Your bond transcended your initial differences. You began to appreciate his unwavering loyalty and genuine care.

"Maybe I was wrong about humans," Leviathan mused one night as you both took a break from gaming.

You chuckled. "Maybe you were."

In that moment, under the glow of the virtual world, you realized that perhaps there was room in your life for more than just research and solitude. With Leviathan by your side, you discovered the beauty of embracing the unexpected, even in a digital realm, and opening your heart to a demon who saw beyond your ego and insecurities, and loved you for who you truly were.

General headcanons:

💘He's always been a fan of video game music, but your taste broadens his horizons.

💘He learns from you to embrace his own independence and become more confident in himself.

💘You introduce him to your favorite indie bands, and you often spend evenings together, headphones on, exploring new music and discussing your favorite tracks.

Other possible matches: Lucifer

And Reiji Sakamaki

How it started:

In the dimly lit library of a grand, gothic mansion, you sat alone, engrossed in a worn book of Japanese urban legends. The room was filled with the scent of old leather-bound tomes and the soft flicker of candlelight.

As you turned a page, your brown-almond eyes focused intently, a presence entered the room, silent yet undeniable. It was Reiji Sakamaki, one of the vampires that inhabited the mansion. With his aristocratic demeanor and love for the darker arts, he was drawn to the mysterious aura that surrounded you.

Reiji observed you from the shadows, intrigued by the way your lips curled into a thoughtful smile as you read about ghosts and spirits. You were the embodiment of a Victorian romantic, and he couldn't help but be drawn to your unconventional charm.

After a moment of hesitation, Reiji cleared his throat, announcing his presence. Your eyes flicked up from your book, and your lips parted in a small, involuntary smile. You recognized Reiji as one of the Sakamaki brothers living in the mansion but hadn't interacted with him much before.

"Indulging in your fascination with the supernatural, I see." Reiji spoke, his voice smooth and firm.

You closed the book and leaned back in your chair, your gaze locking with Reiji's. "Well, it's better than the dullness of everyday life, isn't it?" you replied, your voice calm and tinged with a hint of arrogance.

Reiji couldn't help but admire your confidence, a trait he found both intriguing and infuriating. He moved closer, the candlelight casting a flickering glow on his face. "Indeed," he replied, "The pursuit of knowledge, especially that which lies in the shadows, can be quite stimulating."

You raised an eyebrow, your curiosity piqued. "And what knowledge do you seek, Reiji Sakamaki?"

Reiji took a moment to consider his response, his prideful nature momentarily giving way to a desire to connect with you. "I have an interest in demonology and ancient religions," he admitted, "The dark arts have always fascinated me."

Your lips curled into a genuine smile, your eyes shining with a newfound interest. "Well, that's something we have in common," you said, surprising even yourself with your willingness to share your interests. "I've always been drawn to the same subjects."

As the conversation between you and Reiji deepened, you found yourselves connecting on a level that neither of you had experienced before. Your discussions delved into the realms of psychology, philosophy, and the moral intricacies of the world. Your stoic demeanor began to crack, revealing a more vulnerable and passionate side.

Days turned into weeks, and you and Reiji spent countless hours in the library, exploring the depths of your shared interests. Your laid-back attitude was a stark contrast to Reiji's rigid upbringing, yet somehow, you complemented each other perfectly.

In the quiet moments between your discussions, Reiji found himself captivated by your beauty, from your wine-red hair to the beauty marks that adorned your face.

One evening, as the candles flickered low, Reiji reached out and brushed a strand of your hair behind your ear. You didn't pull away, instead leaning into his touch, your gaze locked onto his. In that moment, their egos and pride melted away, leaving behind a deep connection that neither could deny.

General headcanons:

💘Reiji exercises immense self-control, never giving in to his vampire instincts. He prioritized your emotional connection over his primal desires. (Reiji has a secret stash of synthetic blood substitutes in the mansion to satisfy his vampiric thirst without you ever suspecting.)

💘Reiji occasionally surprises you with unique, cryptic gifts that subtly allude to his vampiric nature, such as a vintage, antique mirror with no reflection.

💘On clear nights, you both escape to the mansion's rooftop to stargaze. You share your knowledge of constellations and mythology, while Reiji adds scientific insights.

I’d appreciate it if you’d reblog this, and I hope you enjoyed reading this <3

[elvenbeard]

I read your post about headcanons about Kerry's sexuality, and I totally agree with what you said about headcanons not taking away from representation, but I'm curious what your view are on mods that change a character's sexuality so anyone can romance them? I know there is, or at least used to be, quite a bit of debate around that. You don't have to answer if you don't want to, I'd hate to start any discourse drama on your blog. I'm just curious because I'm not even sure where I stand on the matter, and have been back and forth on it for a long time.

It's all good nonny! I have been asking myself that lately tbh, and I know I've been back and forth on it myself, too.

In this moment in time, I am completely indifferent on the existence of mods that do stuff like that. I don't condone or like them, but I'm not gonna do anything about them either. I know years ago in the Dragon Age fandom there was huge discourse and drama around a mod that made Dorian (canonically gay, his whole character arc revolves around that fact, just in case you're not into that series) available to be romanced by a female Inquisitor. And back then I was absolutely livid. Dorian was (and still is) one of my fave characters in the DA universe. And honestly, I couldn't even tell you now if anything ever came off of that whole drama (but I doubt it, cause it rarely does) - that's how pointless Internet drama really is. In the worst case, the person who made that mod got driven out of fandom entirely and now has negative associations with the queer community as a whole.

Do I think that mods that change a queer character's canon orientation are amazing? No, not really, and most of the time, especially in Dorian's case, they make no sense at all for the characters' arcs. I personally would never wanna play them and I'd also rather not know why some people make them.

(I'm completely biased here btw, because I do not feel as negatively about mods that change a canonically straight character's orientation to something queer. Simply because I'm queer and greedy for more representation, because there cannot be enough XD Does that make me a hypocrite to some people? Maybe, but honestly, I don't really care. And as I said in my post, and as you mentioned, even the "straight mods" do not take away from any queer representation that canonically exists.)

The thing is, me and others screaming and yelling about "straight mods" (or "bi mods" for characters that are explicitly gay/lesbian) is not gonna change a thing, mods like that are always gonna exist. Content I don't agree with is always something I can come across at random, and I keep finding new things that make me go "nope!" regularly. And even if I'm not screaming and yelling, and instead try to be reasonable, talk objectively with the mod makers as for xyz reasons their mod is not good in my eyes... I'm too old for that shit XD I'd rather use my energy and limited time to make a lot of gay stuff featuring my favourite queer blorbos instead of arguing with strangers why a straight!Dorian or bi!Judy or straight/bi!whoever mod is bad. Fandom should be a hobby, not activism, and you can go about fighting homophobia in a lot better ways than arguing about who certain pixel people would like to bone or not.

I wish there were - or maybe there are and I haven't figured it out yet - ways to filter stuff I don't wanna see on Nexus for example like there are on tumblr, ao3, any other social media site with a good tagging system and means to block tags or phrases or users. Curating your own experience and finding people who share your interests is so important and has really improved my time in fandom a lot over the last years. And it's good to have friends you can rant to about stupid things that upset you in private, definitely XD

So, on that note, ship whoever you wanna ship in this context, but tag it so that people who don't wanna see it can avoid it and don't get mad. Also sorry this got long and slightly off topic, I'm a chronic rambler.

(also, if anything's unclear, feel free to reach out again! sometimes I don't express myself as well as I think I do XD)

[praetorqueenreyna]

Hi!! It’s your Secret Santa again! Here with some questions to make your gift!

*Grabs pile of paperwork and dumps it on desk*

Alrighty, lets talk Tamcien!  

With these questions, I’m trying to get a general vibe for what a dream fic for you would be for Tamcien, feel free to be super specific, or as vague as you want with your answers!

-What are some of your favourite tropes when it comes to Tamlin and Lucien? 

-Do you prefer angst or fluff (alternative question, do you want me to try and break your heart or make it grow three times too big? I can do both at the same time as well)

-Are you okay with NSFW, or would you prefer SFW? And if you do want NSFW what is your favourite dynamic for Tamcien (Top/Switch/Bottom etc etc)? And would you like super hot, long smut scenes, or more of a romantic, soft fade to black situation?

-Do you prefer a slow burn or something quick to the romance?

-Would you prefer a fic with an already established romantic relationship or one where they develop a romantic relationship?

-Would you like a fic set in universe, or in a modern universe?

-Would you prefer a fic where they meet for the first time or down the line of their friendship? 

-What’s your favourite Tamcien headcanon? 

And finally, is there any specific scene you have in your head for these two that you just *wish* could have happened in the books, or you wish a fic existed with that scene?

This is all for now, I shall return later with more questions as I make your gift!! 

OMG PAPERWORK LOVE IT!!!!!

Favorite tropes: I love any trope where Tamlin and Lucien are already best friends and stupidly in love but they don't even realize it. Which I guess is basically "idiots to lovers." Also love some good mutual pining, where they know they're in love but think there's NO WAY that the other one loves them back. And with that, any situation where they're thrown together and have to be extra close: fake relationship, Only One Bed, Working Together On A Big Project, etc.

Angst or fluff: HONESTLY the best Tamcien fics have both so that's my answer!! I'm okay with angst as long as it has a happy ending though!! I guess I prefer fluff, if I had to choose one!

NSFW or SFW: HONESTLY IF YOU ARE WILLING TO WRITE NSFW I'LL TAKE IT!!! I don't want you to write anything you aren't comfortable with but IF YOU ARE OFFERING THEN YES!!! I will say I am STAUNCHLY in the camp that Lucien is a twink bottom and Tamlin is a top. How explicit the smut is is totally up to you! I'll read anything lmao. BUT I do prefer that smut be an integral part of the story, rather than interrupting the story, if that makes sense. Like, the smut should develop their characters and relationship and not just be there for the sake of being there. I WOULD LIKE TO FEEL SOMETHING.

Slow burn or quick: I tell myself I like slow burn but honestly tbh I am VERY IMPATIENT so probably quick to the romance, haha. I also feel like a slow burn could be a huge commitment for you, so just know I will be ECSTATIC with a shorter and faster fic!

established or develop a relationship: I think I'd prefer seeing their relationship develop!

in universe or modern universe: I COULD GO EITHER WAY!! I'm a sucker for a fun modern universe, but the canon-verse tamcien is SO FUCKING GOOD I really cannot choose! I do LOVE AUs so don't feel limited to just the canon verse!!

meet for the first time or down the line: I CANNOT CHOOSE I'M SORRY

favorite Tamcien headcanon: ugh I've spent SO LONG on this and I can't think of anything specific, they are just soulmates to me!!! they're best friends and they'll protect each other and fight for each other and love each other and give up everything for each other!!! that's my headcanon. They're stupid in love.

a specific scene: SIGH I just wish we had had more of Tamlin and Lucien being silly and having fun together in the books! they're such silly gooses and have such a fun grumpy one/sunshine one dynamic, I WANT MORE!!!

OKAY BESTIE HAVE FUN WITH THIS!!! HUGS AND KISSES!!!

[llocalgoblinn]

got mad at my friends today because they play favorites and will go above and beyond for one friend but then not for others (me, in this specific scenario). like my other friend got a reduction in october after minimal struggle and everyone was more than happy to spend $40 and commute an hour out to go to the renfaire to celebrate her titties..... MEANWHILE I've been fighting for THREE YEARS to get literal gender affirming top surgery and I asked everyone to come out to a LOCAL EVENT with me that costs $10 to celebrate, and when i confirmed today who was coming everyone was like oh no sorry too tired or don't want to go (even tho it isn't happening until tomorrow, and tbh it's not really about YOU and what YOU want, it's about me wanting to celebrate this victory....).

so i said something like lol okay I'll just celebrate alone cool cool, which is passive aggressive of me but I'm also so sick of them pulling shit like this and ALWAYS for the same friend. everyone goes all out for her all the time. sick of it!!! told them not to bother coming and i think I'll go alone because I'd rather spend time with myself then people who i know don't actually give a single shit.

[csrnini]

23.01.14

i lowk intend on using this as kinda like a diary. mostly because i'm sick of using instagram and also bcs idk like no one uses tumblr really so i feel like it'd be more private. anyway yesterday was really funny. got to school and went straight to the rr to smoke and also just to chill. i've noticed that i'm by myself more than anything and i kinda like it that way.. i love being by myself but i mean it obv gets lonely sometimes but anyway i wasn't late to my first for once.. i think it's because i couldn't find who i normally hang with and then i was called to the office and my ass literally sank i was so scared.. but once i went into the office they were just talking to me about changing my schedule bcs i do not wanna do swim anymore.. like i only did it for one person and after her and i had that little falling out i was over it plus 3 girls in that class talk the most shit ab me so yea no im not tryna stay in there so yea now im not in swim anymore :3 i'm kinda upset tho bcs that was my free period but they were starting to take points off bcs people weren't swimming and i didn't wanna fail ANOTHER class..

okay anyway, uhm i honestly don't remember what i did during debate class.. i'm pretty sure i just sat there and looked at meaningless shit on my phone.. aileen and her friend were obviously either faking their high or actually high and they were laying on the carpet next to me. they weren't bothering me but like you don't talk to me normally why would you talk to me now yk? but anywho after that class during lunch i tried staying with londyn and sydney and them during lunch but idk tony was in there and i really just couldn't. it's not that i can't stand him but being around him just makes me feel sad and i don't like it. so i spent majority of lunch in the rr waiting for the lunch period to end. i couldn't find bree and i didn't feel like walking around to find her. so i went to the rr and just sat there for half an hour on my phone or listening to music. im surprised no admin came in and kicked me out. after that was history which i def should've skipped bcs i sat there stoned for 20 mins then passed out. and these white kids were laughing at me like im tired and stoned i honestly couldn't even tell where i was looking it was a great high but also terrifying. Anyway after that was alg 2 and i was not rolling up to that mans class high AGAIN plus the people in the period are so annoying so i totally skipped that class and sat outside. AND OFC tony and his fuckass friends were outside. i didn't really know anyone outside so i js sat there with naveah who was pissed asf cs some girl that she wanted her man and they wanted to fight each other but the guy wouldn't let nae idk smth like that and i was so stoned to the point where i could've even like make reading look normal i was so out of it and i vaguely remember don yelling at me and lelani laughing and i probs should've went outside the patio and sat on the school lawn but idk i didn't feel like moving at all i was comfy where i was at tbh anyway then i got on the bus and talked to this white girl and she told me all her problems and i honestly like rlly liked listening to her and then i got home and my gma was there to take me to her house bcs my mom went out of town. ok but like side rant, i hate whenever she just pawns me off to my gma instead of asking me if i'd want to go to my friends' houses or just stay by myself but every time she leaves i have to go with my gma which like i don't mind but i'd rather be with my friends yk? uhm so i got to her house and basically slept for a few hours and then i got up and made terrible ass pancakes like three times bcs i can't cook for shit much less cook high so yea no it was a disaster.

[summercreolefanfictioner]

the Sakamaki brothers as break-up or unrequited love songs (plus scenarios / headcanons)

A/N: Before I dove into the world of Dialovers, I actually wrote smut angst fics and I usually listen to sad songs (no, I am not brokenhearted and my love life is doing well). This made me picture scenarios that would fit these bastards (cause as always Yui deserve better)

WARNING: Contains violence and a bit of smut (NSFW in short)

SHUU SAKAMAKI

"So sad, so sad, I could never make you stay

Too bad, too bad, I could never walk away"

Hmm a brokenhearted Shuu is like a blank canvas whatever

He basically doesn't want to do anything with his broken heart

I picture him falling in love with a mortal so deep but at the same time he didn't want to indulge in those feelings

Cause the last time he got attached with a mortal, they died (Yuma is still alive but still)

So yeah he be just listening to some sad songs all week

"And now I know I will regret it,

I'd rather keep it all inside"

But in case he decides to pursue this mortal, I think she would be at arm's length

Like he wouldn't indulge deeper than what they have cause someday she will die and boy he has attachment issues

Hence the second song

REIJI SAKAMAKI

"I know I'm just a fool who's willing

To sit around and wait for you

But baby, can't you see there's nothing else for me to do?"

Hmm honestly Reiji was the hardest

And yes, I had @yourlocaltea to help me on this one

Because I can't see Reiji crying over someone tbh

I picture girls crying over him and this famous Olivia Newton-John song would really work

Cause we all know that Reiji has dated girls for the sake of image so maybe one of them really fell in love w/ him

Too bad, he only sees them for his family image

But if he does fall for them, the second song will fit

"I’m no longer alone when I’m by myself

I can feel you even when you’re not here"

If you have watched the ending of this Kdrama aka What Happened in Bali, you prob know what I mean

Let's say the girl left him and found another man

You might think Reiji is being Kanato here but this man won't let you betray him after all he did

He prob gonna murder you in his own Reiji way 💀💀💀

But if he doesn't go the yandere route, he just gonna give you up... hmm... hopefully

AYATO SAKAMAKI

"First you say you won't then you say you will

You keep me hangin' on and we're not movin' on"

I am excited for this one cause as you all know Ayato is my first main diaboy (even before my Kanato simping arc)

I have actually told this to @moonderly and @samsvenn about the possibility of Ayato having an ex who has the fickle heart of Jenny (as mentioned from the same song)

Like at first they're okay, then afterwards they fight over nothing

I even think she's gonna cheat on him w/o him knowing

Or perhaps he knows but decides to think like "oh you want to play then fine I'll play your game and win"

But he is a sore loser

Ayato would prob be the one doing the begging (w/c is unlikely him) and it's all bcos he believes the girl will call him Oresama afterwards

Too bad she doesn't

"Last year's wishes are this year's apologies every last time I come home

I take my last chance to burn a bridge or two

I only keep myself this sick in the head 'cause I know how the words get you off"

Another song that would fit him would be this one

Cause I swear Ayato can be a target of those girls who just like to have fun and dump boys

Ayato be spouting he's an Oresama but these girls would give no sht abt it

If Ayato decides to get a bit serious, it would also be the time they dump him

This fuckboy is a loser in a friends with benefits situation

KANATO SAKAMAKI

"Good for you, you're doing great out there without me, baby

God, I wish that I could do that

I've lost my mind, I've spent the night crying on the floor of my bathroom

But you're so unaffected, I really don't get it"

This one is also hard

Because I have so many scenarios for Kanato

But breakups and unrequited love don't end well for Kanato so he prob would add this poor being to his doll collection

He's actually sarcastic abt it... at first

"Wow, you're smiling now. How shameless of you."

And afterward, he says, "How dare you do that to me? It's unfair, you know? Why isn't it me? Why him?"

Or "I gave you everything you want and now this is how you repay me?!"

"I won't let you betray me, NEVER AGAIN"

"And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone"

But once he comes down from his rage and intense emotions, that's when he really starts to cry and mourn

Kanato actually has nightmares of this person staying for a while, only to leave him crying

Like he would have an internal conflict where he wants you to go leave him, but he doesn't want you to belong to someone else

TANTRUMS GALORE

"This is all your fault! I'm suffering bcos you left me! (uhhh... you killed her???) 🤡🤡🤡

"You should've just dropped dead even before I loved you."

Anyway, she's a part of his doll collection now so she won't be going away anytime soon

LAITO SAKAMAKI

"The other woman will never have his love to keep

And as the years go by, the other woman

Will spend her life alone"

This song would actually be more about the girls he be toying with

Cause honestly loving Laito is like agreeing to be his plaything and there are many of you out there

In short, every single one of you is the other woman

Fvcking perv

Ofc what do you expect

This guy will never be serious and he would prob mess with your mind and heart until he throws you away

But if you manage to crawl deep in his heart and leave it wounded, then...

"You were the mermaid for me

Till one day, you found your feet

Leaving me in the God-awful bottle,

a model of heartache and grief"

I picture Laito drinking somewhere, prob a nearby pub or by himself at the manor

Like he would waste the night away because of a woman he can't mess with

For some reason, this reminds me a tiny bit of Helen and Laito's relationship (shoutout to @nutaella-kookie)

Like what if Helen broke up with Laito and she's like no turning back 💀💀💀

But what do you expect? Laito never believes in love anyway

SUBARU SAKAMAKI

"I should actually hate you

The more I embrace you, it hurts

Although when morning comes,

I will look for you again"

In relation to my headcanon abt Subaru falling in love w/ his teacher, this is actually a song that identifies his moving on stage

Like he probs like to tell this little lie that he'll move on but he actually doesn't

The type to do anything for a girl to stay even tho she can't give up her humanity for him

This guy gets waaaaaay attached emotionally

But unlike Kanato, he accepts his fate and takes all the blame

He's also actually like Shuu and would prob play sad songs on repeat

Most of them will be really sad, like how Scarlet Heart Ryeo made me cry

But in case he wants to switch things up, he'll prob play this one

"So what if I can't forget you?

I'll burn your name into my throat

I'll be the fire that'll catch you

And what's so good about picking up the pieces?

What if I don't even want to?"

Like ya know emo hardcore heartbreak ya know???

Actually, in my headcanon, Kanato sang Scarborough Fair to him and he cried at the lines "Remember me to the one who lives there. She once was a true love of mine."

YES SUBARU CRYING DUE TO HEARTBREAK LIVES RENT-FREE IN MY HEAD

[noroi1000]

Can i request jjk romantic matchup?

I'm female, my pronouns are she/her. I'm istp 5w4 548. My zodiac sign is leo.I don't really mind any gender gender. I'm fine with any gender.

I'm ambivert,I'm very laid back and prefer to go with the flow of life but sometimes come off as ego-centric and domineering. I have to admit I’m a lazy person who prefers having a leisure more than anything else. But once i find my motivation I'm actually pretty hardworking, I won't stop or take breaks until i completely finish what I started. I mostly spends my time as a stoic and a calm person and i might even come off as apathetic towards the world around me [even tho I’m not]. I’m usually perceived as being insensitive because i generally prefer to deal with emotions in my own head rather than openly [and somehow I'm still well liked?!] tbh I often think I’m above others, yet I am always willing to acknowledge that I’m a total piece of shit [very rarely tho] Sometimes i have fantasies and ideals that I want to start creating or becoming but i give myself a reality check and let the dream fade away. I’m very innovative but still choose the practical route a lot. It’s easy for me to create goals and envision the end results but it’s ridiculously hard for me to remain committed to the process. I have a very big ego but one word alone is enough to destroy it. i Will never admit my wrong, unless internally. I'm playful around people i like [friends, family, classmates] and if I believe I'm right I'll passive agressivly fight you to prove my point [even if I'm wrong]. Like i said i have hard time committing to something i loose interest, motivation and get bored rather easily. If I'm stressed about something i bottle everything up and worry about it alone. Not because I don't want to burden other or anything simply because my pride and ego is getting in my way. I'm not really a jealous person and even if i get jealous i keep it to myself and try my best to hide it. I care about what others think of me [more like what others think of my parents] so towards strangers and people that know my parents I'm very polite.

I tend to get bored of things easily or i get insecure that I won't be able to complete it and overthinking things and give up on it so i try not to plan ahead. I notice negative traits in people [myself included] before good traits. I always try to be realistic but my overthinking turns me into negative person. I'm very future orientated person so i pick things depending on how useful it'll be for me in the future. Getting angry, yelling, insulting and being agressive in general is my defense mechanism when I'm sad or in an argument. I'm very prideful and stubborn person I actually like socializing but usually i can't find the topic to talk about with people. I LOVE talking about myself but I'd rather die than share my struggles, feelings and personal things similar to this. I'm taking them to grave. I'm pretty biased person. I hate when people insult me even when they don't mean it and they're jocking not even i insult myself. I'm better at socializing older people than people my age. I like to think that I'm a great listener but I'm insecure about my reactions to their stories. Even if i find it funny i find it hard to express it on my face. I like arguments [not with my loved ones]

I like horror genre [movies, books, analogue horror and etc], watching movies, listening to true. I love music especially indie and rock music. i like Researching and learning more about myself. I love reading greek mythology and Japanese urban legends. I'm interested in psychology and philosophy. I also find researching about demonology and ancient religions interesting. I love Victorian/romantic/vampire gothic aesthetic I'm also very in love with gothic novels. I wouldn't really consider this as a hobby cause i do it once or twice a year but i also play volleyball and piano. I also really love spicy food. Red is my favourite colour and cats and snakes are my favourite animals.

As for my idea type I value honesty and loyalty, I'm more attracted [romantically or platonically] to people who are confident in themselves and their abilities. I also value partner/friend that isn't overprotective and allows me my independence and let's me do things my way. I don't think i have a specific type i just want my partner to keep me entertained as i tend to get bored rather easily.

My love language is act of service and quality time.

I think your Jujutsu kaisen matchup is

Nanami = a stoic person who is not always as calm as you might think. He doesn't show much emotions and deals mainly with his feelings in his head.

Despite his frequent calm and seriousness, he explodes easily.

He may be boring for some, but he hates certain activities and his job. That's what makes it seem like he Hates life. But he just doesn't like to work the way he works. Working for him is just shit.

Home and any place where he likes to spend time… He is then at the most relaxed.

Even though he has dreams for everything, he focuses more on what is now. If he has to do something now, even if it has nothing to do with what he wants, it is now and not the future. He'll do what he does now.

He produces an aura of firmness, seriousness and almost domination.

You could say he's kind of lazy. Even though he is also hardworking.

He never liked going to work.

He would like to stay home always.

Often he has some incentive to continue the work he is doing, but work is work. There is no chance that he will ever like and will love to leave the house in the morning and come home tired in the evening. At work, he does not take breaks, and just tries to do his best to finish something.

Basically, when he knows something has to do with him, he'll think it's his fault, even if it isn't. But he will always find something logical to confirm his mistake.

He is completely different among people close to him. Even though he doesn't smile with some of them, it doesn't mean that he won't do it with others. He will smile and laugh in front of the loved ones he likes best. With those who make him feel good.

Whenever he is right, he will try to prevent anyone from saying that he is wrong. Let them fight him, but if he knows that he is absolutely right, he will fight for it so that someone else will finally understand it.

He will do everything himself. Unless he has someone next to him who blows everything on him. Then he will give half of the work to that person anyway. After all, he will never take over the responsibilities of someone else. And he will say firmly no.

He will not burden his relatives and people whom he knows that they need rest. He will take care of everything that will make people close to him have better life. He takes responsibility for it.

Besides, everyone who gets to know him better notices that if he likes someone, he will be very polite.

He tries to be nice to people around him, even if they irritate him. This is his good manners and gentleman behavior.

He often looks at the negative qualities in people, but he also knows the good ones, so it all levels out. It is important that someone will not run away from him immediately when he realizes that something is irritating for him.

Also a realist who has goals in life and dreams, but focuses on thinking about what he is going through right now.

If he has someone to love, he will focus very much on it ❤️

Headcanon:

• Talk to him about yourself. If you like it, he accepts it. Especially when you want to talk to him. Conversation is much better when getting to know each other, and that is a really important point in his life. If you couldn't get along, it would probably be worse between the two of you. It is definitely better to talk than to sit together in silence. After all, that's not what the nice atmosphere is about.

He will be eager to listen to you when you tell about what you like, some stories from your life or when you say your opinion. He will listen to you, and if you wish, he can add something about himself if necessary.

• Honestly, he never insulted you on purpose in his life. And he will never want to do that. For him, offending people close to him is the worst that can happen. It can hurt you. What he never really wanted.

He wants to take care of you and your well-being. Physical and emotional.

• But he is older than his age (newspapers, books, quiet mornings and evenings) so you get along very well. (Even if he's not that old)

• The perfect date for you (or just the perfect evening): watching some movie that is interesting for you. Just spending time together watching something. At home or at the cinema. Popcorn, drink. Spending time side by side, being focused on the screen where there is something interesting.

You can lie on his shoulder, grab his hand. Keep him close to you and you'll never have to let go.

• Just as he is eager to talk, he will also listen to interesting facts about what you have read. Mythologies, legends, religions. All of this has at least a hint of truth. These are all books that educate. And it's interesting. Therefore, he will also hear about it or read with you.

• Everything you like is accepted. For him, your style is interesting. Besides, he remembers what you like. All your favorite things are delivered to you as gifts.

• He never lies. He will always tell you the truth, even if it is very painful.

But he'll never have to say anything so painful that he doesn't love you.

Affection for you, love, loyalty. Everything for you. That's why he'll never leave you.

• He would like to take care of you to keep you safe. But he will understand and will even support independence.

• He would spend most of his time with you whenever he can. He would give you anything just to be happy. That you feel most loved. Everything for you.

"You are the most interesting woman I have ever met. I'll do anything for you, just tell me what. If you want, I'll be the best for you. "

[tales-of-cerano]

As 2022 comes to a close I'm starting to look back and reflect on the past few years, something I haven't really done much in the past. Now I will for anyone who is willing to listen. You don't know me, I probably don't know you very well, but I invite you to do the same.

2020: The Year of Pain

An edgy start I know but a lot happened in this year. Fear in many flavors, opportunities closed, regression we're all themes of the year. For me personally nothing terribly tragic happened. I most likely had COVID and gave it to my whole studio in the beginning of January before I even heard of it (parents friends who had a business trip to china got a weird illness and it just worked it's way as it does). A hiring freeze locked me out of an opportunity with a university conservatory that I was extremely excited for. I felt lonely without my friends. Besides COVID I was consistently stressed about future graduation and career choices. It's a year that went so slow yet now I forget most of it.

2021: The Year of Transition

I went through 3 major transitions in my life during this year: graduated college, started a salaried job, socially and medically transitioned. Way more than I expected and probably more than I could handle. It's weird now that I think about it how much actually happened. The imposter syndrome took a lot of the good out of those accomplishments at the time but now I am starting to see it. I also will flex here because it wasn't really recognized but I was valedictorian of my college. My class rank was 1 out of not just the major/department I was in but also the entirety of the NCState class of 2021. Like 1/6000 people. I don't tell that to anyone really cuz I don't want to be a bragging asshole but I worked really hard for it so I'll flex in front of internet strangers who don't know me.

2022: The Year of Change

Not a lot of "things" happened this year like last year but I finally had enough time to actually sit down and reflect on things because of things slowing down a bit. I worked with a therapist for a few sessions. I started listening to Healthy gamer gg stuff and started thinking about my mental health as something that was a part of me rather than something to solve. My outlook changed. I can safely say that I am 1000% better with being comfortable with myself than I was before. Anxiety attacks over things went from being dissociative and lasting for weeks to being something manageable. It's nothing I ever thought would ever happen. I think the biggest thing that kick-started my change was to give things the benefit of the doubt and try them. I used to fight meditation saying it was something that wouldn't work for me cuz I'm too in my head until I just said you know what let's try. What's gonna happen it won't work and I waste an hour. So I did and now its one of the most influential things of my life.

2023: The Year of Forgiveness

This upcoming year I'd like to focus on letting myself live with mistakes I've made in the past and let go of some deep shame I have. I was dumb and while I never did anything like commit a violent crime against anyone I still feel like I caused a lot of emotional damage like bullying people in middle school and being critical to my friends. It's all stuff that I've either worked though, became aware, and changed. Of course I don't want to just toss it aside like it didn't happen but I want to recognize that while it was something I did it's also something that I can forgive myself for and move past as a better person.

This might change and who knows it might be another year of pain. Could be anything tbh. I'm open to it.

I wish anyone who reads this an insightful new year. Thinking and analyzing the past can be helpful to some. Tho if you have issues with deep and intense trauma I recommend you talk to professionals first. Exploring the past can cause things I think and make things worse when there is trauma.

[mustardyellowsunshine]

Hello Friend!!!!

7, 13, 15 and 20!!

7. What animal do you look forward to seeing when you visit an aquarium?

Tbh I haven't been to an aquarium in probably 20 years, so this is all theoretical, but: if I were going to an aquarium tomorrow, I'd probably be most excited to see the jellyfish. Jellyfish are simultaneously so absurd (sentient squishies? jello with little string legs??) and so beautiful and elegant? Watching them on TV is hypnotizing, so I imagine watching them in reality is even better.

13. First thing you’re doing in the purge?

Blowing through every red light and stop sign I see on the road because I'm going 105mph and honestly who has time for stopping? 😎

15. Rank the methods of death: freezing, burning, drowning

In terms of which I'd rather experience if forced to choose? 1) Freezing, because there's always the chance you could fall asleep early in the process and just kinda drift off; 2) Drowning, because even though death by asphyxiation sounds horrifying, it's gotta be better than being set on fire, and that leads us to 3) Burning, because honestly it just sounds sub-optimal.

20. Favorite disney princess movie?

The Little Mermaid was MY JAM as a kid (I had Little Mermaid bed sheets, I had a Sebastian and a Flounder plushie, I had swag), and I still blame it for my never-ending desire to be a redhead. And yes, I'll fight people over the "bUt ShE gAvE uP hEr VoIcE fOr A mAn" thing. Lindsay Ellis did a great video on The Little Mermaid that people should watch. Anyway. If I'm being honest with myself, I miiiiiiight like Tangled a skosh more. I'll call it a tie between the two.

[samthesimpssss]

Hii can i request jujutsu kaisen matchup?

I'm female, she/her pronouns, Bisexual, my zodiac sign is leo and I'm istp 5w4 548

I'm ambivert, I'm very laid back and prefer to go with the flow of life but sometimes come off as ego-centric and domineering. I have to admit I’m a lazy person who prefers having a leisure more than anything else. But once i find my motivation I'm actually pretty hardworking, I won't stop or take breaks until i completely finish what I started. I mostly spends my time as a stoic and a calm person and i might even come off as apathetic towards the world around me [even tho I’m not]. I’m usually perceived as being insensitive because i generally prefer to deal with emotions in my own head rather than openly [and somehow I'm still well liked?!] tbh I often think I’m above others, yet I am always willing to acknowledge that I’m a total piece of shit [very rarely tho] Sometimes i have fantasies and ideals that I want to start creating or becoming but i give myself a reality check and let the dream fade away. I’m very innovative but still choose the practical route a lot. It’s easy for me to create goals and envision the end results but it’s ridiculously hard for me to remain committed to the process. I have a very big ego but one word alone is enough to destroy it. i Will never admit my wrong, unless internally. I'm playful around people i like [friends, family, classmates] and if I believe I'm right I'll passive agressivly fight you to prove my point [even if I'm wrong]. Like i said i have hard time committing to something i loose interest, motivation and get bored rather easily. If I'm stressed about something i bottle everything up and worry about it alone. Not because I don't want to burden other or anything simply because my pride and ego is getting in my way. I'm not really a jealous person and even if i get jealous i keep it to myself and try my best to hide it. I care about what others think of me [more like what others think of my parents] so towards strangers and people that know my parents I'm very polite.

I tend to get bored of things easily or i get insecure that I won't be able to complete it and overthinking things and give up on it so i try not to plan ahead. I notice negative traits in people [myself included] before good traits. I always try to be realistic but my overthinking turns me into negative person. I'm very future orientated person so i pick things depending on how useful it'll be for me in the future. Getting angry, yelling, insulting and being agressive in general is my defense mechanism when I'm sad or in an argument. I'm very prideful and stubborn person I actually like socializing but usually i can't find the topic to talk about with people. I LOVE talking about myself but I'd rather die than share my struggles, feelings and personal things similar to this. I'm taking them to grave. I'm pretty biased person. I hate when people insult me even when they don't mean it and they're jocking not even i insult myself. I'm better at socializing older people than people my age. I like to think that I'm a great listener but I'm insecure about my reactions to their stories. Even if i find it funny i find it hard to express it on my face. I like arguments [not with my loved ones]

I like horror genre [movies, books, analogue horror and etc], watching movies, listening to true. I love music especially indie and rock music. i like Researching and learning more about myself. I love reading greek mythology and Japanese urban legends. I'm interested in psychology and philosophy. I also find researching about demonology and ancient religions interesting. I love Victorian/romantic/vampire gothic aesthetic I'm also very in love with gothic novels. I wouldn't really consider this as a hobby cause i do it once or twice a year but i also play volleyball and piano. I also really love spicy food. Red is my favourite colour and cats and snakes are my favourite animals.

I dislike sweet food, sweating and heat, dogs, people making chewing or any similar annoying noises, when people baby talk or "pout", being interrupted, i hate smell of mushrooms and my math teacher. I can't stand too quiet places but i also can't stand too loud places either. I don't like romance movies [i like romance genre i just don't like romance movies]

As for my idea type I value honesty and loyalty, I'm more attracted [romantically or platonically] to people who are confident in themselves and their abilities. I also value partner/friend that isn't overprotective and allows me my independence and let's me do things my way. I don't think i have a specific type i just want my partner to keep me entertained as i tend to get bored rather easily.

My love language is act of service and quality time.

I have match you up with…

Kento Nanami!

- to be honest, he understands what it’s like to be hardworking and get stuff done right away without stopping, but with that being said he will make sure you’re taking care of yourself

- You find comfort with one another that sometimes the both of you would confide one another with your struggles even though you usually don’t but then again you built that trust within your relationship and you genuinely care for each other

- he’s the type of person who will support you in anyways that he can, because in the end he cares about your success and want a fruitful life for your own good so when you lose motivation or if you get bored of doing something he’ll be there to push and motivate you through it :)

- let’s be honest here though, the both of you would mostly have your dates at home 😅

- if you are jealous even when you don’t show it Nanami is the kind of guy who can read you and he will always reassure you that you are the only person for him.

“Don’t worry my love, I won’t be going anywhere I will be by your side till the day I die *kiss* I love you”

[genshin-hours]

Hello dear! May I please have a Hunter and Survivor match-up please? Also if you'd like i'd be more than happy to match you with a hunter and survivor as well! Anyways, I love your blog and your writing! I hope you have a wonderful day/night!

Zodiac sign: Leo sun, Aries moon, Leo rising

Personality Type: ENTP

Pronouns: She/her

Sexuality: Straight (For now might be bi but i'm going with straight)

I'm 5'4 and I have a very tiny body frame so i'm extremely petite and pretty small. I'm not very curvy and I literally have the body of a cereal box...lol but its fine because I have nice hips and thighs. I have thick brown hair that goes down to my back and it gets tangled pretty easily but its kinda fluffy. I have brown eyes and tiny freckles all over my face and body. I also have a very strong grunge style, like Flannels, band t-shirts, combat boots, leather jackets etc. But i'd also always enjoy a nice oversized sweatshirt or hoodie with a pair of skinny, ripped jeans and some converses or something along those lines.

For my personality.....this is where things get interesting. At first people find me very intimidating due to my resting bitch face and cold exterior but I promise i'm not like that ALL the time. When you get to know me, i'm goofy and about everything that comes out of my mouth is sarcasm or some dry humored joke. I'm also that one friend in a group where they literally will do the stupidest shit ever like for an example one time it was super dark outside and my other friend was there, while I was trying to climb a tree and I failed and fell out of the tree, and landed on my back. I got straight up after that somehow it didn't hurt.....like at all? But yeah i'm super reckless and sometimes people have to save me from myself if you get what I mean. I also have a very strong "I don't give a fuck" attitude and I will not hesitate to stick up for myself or my friends....like i'm the type of person where if someone glares at me, i'll glare right back.

I have bad anxiety and I can be very self destructive. This is where my feisty, stubborn, hardheaded side comes in. If I want something then i'll fight for it even if it hurts me and i'll get into a bad cycle of putting myself down and trying to do better even if I did great the first time but I always push myself too far and other people have to stop me because I usually can't see it when its happening. I also cover my emotions up and I have a lot of trouble talking about whats bothering me or what problems i'm having emotionally so I put up a wall and I act tough, or happy and sometimes i'll be the exact opposite but I try to hide it.Weird things about me: I've grown up in the south all my life so sometimes when I talk a few words they'll come out sounding WAYYY more country and southern then I wanted, I don't have an accent but sometimes my words just come out that way. Sometimes in the middle of the night you can find me just staring at a wall or something because I can't go to sleep.....I have trouble sleeping.....

Things I like: I love swimming (I was on a swim team for about 9 years), I love horror movies, I like rain and the sounds of thunderstorms because its calming to me, I also love the smell of rain, I like cloudy days, cooking, listening to 80's and 90's rock but mainly 90's because 90's is the best, My favorite bands are Bush, Audioslave, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Linkoln Park, Pearl jam but i'm pretty open to anything.

Things I dislike: Spiders.......I will scream if I see a spider.

hello! tysm for requesting, love! and you can of course :) ty for the offer btw, that would be lovely! also I hope you have a wonderful day/night as well <3 hopefully you enjoy all these hcs, dear ♡

I ship you with....

joseph desaulnier

so, I think joseph would really like you :>

joseph is one of the shorter hunters, so you being very small makes him lowkey excited

he loves letting you rest in his lap. he marvels at how small you are and how cute you look!!!

joseph gets the whole resting bitch face thing. he is told quite often that he has a bad case of rbf lmao

he also thinks your hair is really pretty, and if you're alright with it, he will offer to help brush/comb it for you or even style it. he is surprisingly good with hair. his hair isn't just fluffy and silky on its own, you know.

also joseph is pretty good at keeping you from doing like absolutely crazy stuff. he will make sure you don't get hurt, but the second he think you might he's gonna be yelling at you in french to stop or running to try and protect you from falling

and if you do get hurt, he is the first to provide you first aid. the whole time he is blushing and cursing under his breath. he is surprised by how bold and reckless you can be.

he loves your spirit and enthusiasm, but for the love of god, please be more careful

also, joseph loves your dry humor. he laughs at all your jokes. even if you're in matches and he is supposed to be serious

joseph also has a pretty "idgaf" attitude, so you guys will get along well. he is willing to fight for something he believes in too.

joseph isn't the best with emotions either, but this gives you both an opportunity to work together at it.

you both agree to come together and share what you're comfortable with to try and figure things out. tbh he is more likely to provide you with advice rather than consolation.

he thinks your accent is really cute, and teases you for it sometimes. but he actually thinks it's adorable.

also he will help you fall asleep by stroking your hair, reading to you, laying by you, etc. he is very comforting surprisingly

joseph is also probably scared of spiders but he will toughen up to get rid of them if you need him to.

(if the spider is scary enough though, you'll be hearing swearing in french and seeing another hunter coming to deal with it lmao)

I also ship you with luca balsa!

luca and you would be cute together!

he thinks your height is adorable, and he likes how small you are when you stand together

you're not too much shorter than him (only 3 inches or so) but it's really cute to him that he can lift you up and stuff or you can sit in front of him and he can lean on you.

he likes to be alone usually when working, though he wouldn't mind if you were to lay on his bed or sit on his lap while he works, but he needs you to stay safe so you're wearing a heavy coat and safety gear lmao

he thinks your style and rbf are adorable. you're not intimidating to him, so he thinks it's funny

luca also enjoys your humor, and he finds it relatable. he always laughs at your jokes, even if you make them at bad times

luca has similar habits to you though, which makes it easy for him to spot them in you and stop you quickly before things get bad

he himself is pretty reckless at times, but, he will admit, he is a hypocrite and panics when you do something dangerous, but turns around and works with dangerous equipment

you're both not the best with emotions, but he does his best to help you. he might not be the best at consoling you, but he will do what he can to make you feel better in his own way

he might tinker with stuff to improve it for you, or try to give you helpful advice

luca would think horror movies are super neat, but he analyzes them fast, and knows all the twists and turns. he still jumps though

he likes your accent and thinks it's pretty cool! he doesn't hear many southern accents, so he finds yours very neat and soothing to listen to

luca will take the time to help you fall asleep if you can't. he has some trouble falling asleep too, so don't be surprised if he accidentally passes out on top of you once you're asleep.

he isn't a fan of lightning and thunder, but some gentle rain and pretty clouds are lovely in his opinion :)

luca is also an entp, so you two would have plenty of lively debates lmao

[rkrispyt]

Let me just get up on my soapbox for a second...

*ahem* Some advice for Portwell fans that no one asked for from a little old lady fangirl: do not engage with those seeking to drag you down to their level.

Let me first disclaim that this is me pausing in my morning routine to vent, so I apologize if this feels a bit all over the place or my thoughts aren't as organized as they could be. That being said...

I see fans of a certain ship (that has decided it automatically makes one anti-Portwell but I digress) desperately trying to engage Portwell shippers and I beg of you, for your own self-respect and sanity, pay them no mind.

It is so disheartening to now see on both Tumblr and Twitter some Portwell fans who are sinking to their level.

My old ass has been sucked into fangirling so many things over the years and one thing I wish I'd realized long before I did was that it's nearly impossible to change someone's mind on this kinda stuff. And also that it's not worth it (or, tbh, even fair) to attempt to.

The point of all this is that it's something you enjoy. Why let someone in who's only trying to turn it into something negative and insult it?

I cannot recommend enough that you live and let live/ship and let ship/stan and let stan. It is such a better use of your precious time and energy to focus on what you enjoy, rather than defending it to someone who is entitled to prefer something different and honestly is never going to come around because that's not how preferences work.

You don't owe anyone an explanation. You don't need to convert anyone or make them see what you see. You absolutely don't owe it to them to show up to a 'debate' that no one asked for. Especially not when they post repeatedly "sign up, we don't bite, it's going to be a safe space" and posts during/after indicate it the work was not done to keep it a safe space, on either side. No ma'am.

Let them all stew in their efforts to get our attention and validation of relevance. If they wanna believe their ship is superior, let them, who cares? I'm not wasting any of my time explaining to them why I switched from their ship to Portwell, I'd rather just enjoy Portwell while we're getting it.

As with any story being told, we never know what it will eventually bring. For now though, they are giving us an abundance of Portwell goodness. That can’t last forever. I don't want to miss a moment of experiencing that and celebrating it with all of you by giving certain shippers any of my attention. Cause who knows what the next few episodes or season(s) could bring. Everything could change and then look at what I'd have missed.

As someone who was a Glee ‘fan’ (iykyk) as it aired, I will never forget (or honestly forgive) the 'Samchel' shippers who were so upset that the ship I loved was getting some screentime and attention that they were determined to ruin it for us. We spent more time fighting them than enjoying all the wonderful things the show was giving us, and then it all went away out of nowhere and didn’t come back like we were so sure it would in the end. I took it for granted. I will not make that mistake ever again.

I don't owe them any of my time or attention to answer their demands to explain myself or consider their ship.

And maybe it's petty but nothing would make me happier than seeing a bunch of tweets or posts from them trying to engage us that are all completely ignored by us while we just gush over what we love about what we're currently getting.

So I'm just gonna be over here on my Portwell bullshit, if anyone wants to join me.

Also tumblrsaviour is your friend to avoid the nonsense posts.

Thank you for coming to my Ted Talk.

...um, can someone help my old ass down from this soapbox please?

[cassiaratheslytherpuff]

Drarry Tag Game

Thank you so much for the tag @pineau-noir! This looks so fun!

When did you get into Drarry and why?

It was around 2010 I think? One of my favourite Rarry writers at the time posted a Drarry fic and I trusted their writing enough to give it a go even though I was originally very unsure about the pairing.

Which Drarry fic hooked you?

The first Drarry fic I can actually remember reading is Reparations by Saras_girl. I'd read a few before that, but that's the fic that really sold me on them.

Top three favorite Drarry fics:

I have way more than three favorites, and I can't rank them because some fics are perfect when I'm feeling sad, others when I'm anxious and others when I'm in a heavy need of fluff. I'll list three of my faves I've re-read most recently; What We Pretend We Can't See by gyzym, The Beauty of Thestrals and Other Unseen Things and Little Compton Street by Writcraft

Why can't you quit them?

I think it's mostly because of the sheer variety of fic. If i'm in the mood for friends to lovers, enemies to lovers, coffeshop AUs, vampire AUs, mysteries, YA fluff fics or heartbreaking angst there's a Drarry fic that's got it. And it's mostly the same when I'm writing, I see Draco and Harry in so many different ways that I never run out of stories to write for them – and I can always write them in a way that fits the mood of the story I want to write.

Who breaks your heart more often?

Usually it's Harry, but I think it's mostly because I feel like I know him better. I read the HP books again and again as a kid and they're from his POV so I got attached. But lately I've been thinking more and more about Draco and the whole 'trying so hard to be what someone else wants you to be that you never realise who you are' thing and it's hurting my heart a lot.

Ideal career for Harry? For Draco?

I can never decide on one, but I have a thing for the ones where Harry realises he HATES being an Auror and spontaneously quits to do something completely different.

Favorite non-Drarry HP character?

Ron. I just love him so much.

If you had to pick one, enemies to lovers or (enemies to) friends to lovers?

(Enemies to) friends to lovers, although I'm a sucker for enemies to lovers to friends too.

Would you rather read a fic that made you laugh or one that made you cry?

I'm saying both because sometimes I need to let off some pressure and cry and other times I just really need to be cheered up.

Three songs that scream Drarry to you (feel free to include the Drarry-est lyrics!):

I'm so not good at this buuut I'll give it a shot (for some reason these are all pretty angsty)

Tears ricochet by Taylor Swift

I didn't have it in myself to go with grace / 'Cause when I'd fight, you used to tell me I was brave / And if I'm dead to you, why are you at the wake? / Cursing my name, wishing I stayed / Look at how my tears ricochet

Gone by Bebe Rexha

And I know I can't take back all the things I did / But if I had one wish / I would wish for one more chance / Somewhere our fear took all control / That's when I turned cold / Won't you give me one more chance?

What the Water Gave Me by Florence and the Machine

And oh, poor Atlas / The world's a beast of a burden / You've been holding on a long time

Favorite authors outside of fic?

Casey McQuiston, Rainbow Rowell, Alice Oseman & Suzanne Collins are the first that came to mind. I've been reading mostly fic for the past few years tbh.

I'm late doing this and tagging people make me anxious 😅 so I'll just say whoever wants to do this can consider themselves tagged by me 👏