#tbh i dont wanna tag anyone im unsure who would wanna help me But if you wanna steal this pls be my guest

[chocochococoffee]

WIP Tag Game

Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. Let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them and then post a little snippet or tell them something about it! Tag as many people as you have WIPs!

was tagged by @falloutcoys even though i dont really see the @ anywhere but figures!

Pokemon

adult hapu and lillie fucking all day (should retake this one)

pokemon SV but without the mc (not that they dont exist they rent to bluberry academy earlier)

mystery dungeon au with my oc and friends

Red Valley

Incomplete magic AU that i had a big brain idea one day and couldn't complete (should retake this one)

Red Valley but with Warren being a ghost

TMA fusion where Gerry's body haunts Red Valley

Osomatsu-san

The follow up to the infamous gangbang tentacle eggpreg porn fanfic that I started but never continued

A whole storyline about Calming detective Osomatsu and the Phantom Thieves AU (unrelated to P5 btw it's a hesokuri lupin spoof mostly lmao)

Disco Elysium

That idea I had about the Sunday Friend comedy? Yes I also started it. Never continued it due to lack of braincells.

Digimon Cyber Sleuth Hackers Memory

Yuugo Kamishiro and Fei after the end of the game, Fei sent by the spy group she worked in the game start to get info outta Yuugo, Yuugo being paraplegic and having the knowledge of n^n universes and just wanting to be normal again.

Yu Nogi recovering obsessive memories over Keisuke and having to learn to manage himself again.

More Keisuke pinning over the ones who left him.

SVSSS

Digimon AU that never continued because I feel I might hafta rewrite it ww

SQH eating out SQQ

a long list of cumplane porn i guesssssssss (unfinished)

Touhou

More about letty Whiterock (this one is so old gdi wwww)

[septicemic-main]

you say you werent enough for me and youll never be, but you always were and more. you were good to me and i didnt do you right, and thats my fault. ive owned my mistakes many times but it seems like whenever i own it, you tell me to get over it. but here’s the funny thing; i dont have a tag for you anymore. i have gotten over you. im not mad at you. i mean, kinda, because sometimes some of the things you say just kinda irk me (but everything irks me), but i do care about you and you always were enough for me. you were always there for me. you were more than what i could ask for. and i respect you for being such a good person to many people (the both of you). you’re open minded but strict on this rule of keeping your own personal morals and thats the most respectable. n, i tried to be you. i really did. i 100% failed but i tried. 

however, i really dislike when people, not wyatt just so were clear (talking abt st;;ao0000lk’’’’’’’er), send me screenshots of you guys saying “i hope you choke,” “i hope you burn in hell,” “youre a dumbass,” etc. because its just? excessively aggressive. and i was highkey suicidal mostly from those comments alone. i mean the dumbass part is true, but combined with the other two it just kinda hurts more.

i am sorry about what happened, and i do wanna say sorry, and i do want to respond to that letter, but to be real...for most of it, i cant say anything because i dont even know what i was thinking either. i mean, i could say sorry, which according to you is enough? but not...because its not enough for me. and thats what i was missing. thats why i did you guys wrong, because i wasnt doing things for myself. i was putting others before myself and that was wrong. i wasnt thinking about what i was saying, i was thinking of what others were saying. i wasnt thinking about what i was doing, i was thinking of doing what others were doing. i wasnt trying to help myself because i wanted to help others. thats why i hated when people tried to help me too much, because i wasnt letting myself be myself. and im working on it. im doing what i want now. im not singing now because thats what other pretty girls do, im rapping because its what i want to do. im not playing minecraft and animating because others want me to, its because i want to do those things. and i hurt other people because i felt like others would hurt me first. i didnt trust myself so i trusted someone else.

and on another note, i never manipulated anyone as of recently. it was all in elementary and up until halfway (i think?) of 6th grade. the thing i posted was a manic episode and i feel gross for admitting to that, but also relieved because now that its in the open i can continue looking back on it and fixing it as i grow and progress. and yes, i am fixing myself. i am working on myself. do i need “hard to swallow pills” to fix myself? no. am i making behavioral changes? yes, slowly, but its getting better. there have been bumps and twists and turns, but im getting better. im learning to accept myself more, not my body, but my mind and personality. 

as for environmental changes,,,hah. yeah, thatll be a while. i cant move out of my house any time soon since im on 6 month parental probation. well, about 5 months now. i think. asdhfuu, but as for my friends? dropped allen, thank god, dropped delta, thank fucking god, ellie is getting better but i still highkey dont really like audrey but thats never gonna change and tbh thats on ellie not me, and ive dropped so many other toxic people in my life now and i just? i feel like i am better now. i have good friends and an even better best friend. so im doing fine. but i am gonna say now, and this is gonna be hella aggressive probably, but you dont know me anymore. you know parts of me, parts of the old me, but you dont know whats happening right now. you dont know the new parts of me that are starting to bud, and you dont know the things ive done to get them. you know part of it, not all of it.

im still working on myself, im a work in progress, but really i always will be, because i will be changing everyday as many things do. i am constantly growing and learning things, and in more than just academic ways. ive opened up completely to strangers, im not ashamed or embarrassed being a furry or agender, im not ashamed of being kin or therian or alternative or being unsure of my sexuality. im finally secure with all of that, and i can accept myself for who i am rather than what the internet or society wants me to be or thinks i should be. 

and im even less concerned about what you think of who i am. i know me, you dont. i never really opened up to you, and i still havent now. there are so many things i was ashamed of that i kept from you, and probably for the better. we are strangers, and we’ve never met. i dont know you anymore. and you never knew me. you can protest this all you want, but im not going to fight you anymore. im waving my white flag. you win. i was a dirtbag, i was a cunt, a bitch, and i made mistakes. but you can never claim you know me, and you can never claim we were friends. because we werent. you were friends with someone im trying to forget. you were friends with a toxic, shit person who hid themself because they couldnt express themself. but not me.

i hope you have a good rest of your whatever tho, night, day, year, etc. *also, i do not want the gsa shirt since i wasted my remaining money on other things :L max asked me abt it and i didnt know if he told you already or not but since im assuming youre seeing this i thought id mention it Ldgusfolashaigf,,,