#tbh i am often still awkward i am just not sorry anymore if i'm not hurting ppl. 'confident and awkward' really throws 'em for a loop! XD

[giantkillerjack]

Ya know. I spent most of my life with horrible painful soul-crushing social anxiety.

And after about 25 years of continuous hard work, suddenly, people started pointing out - to my utter bafflement - that I had, in fact, achieved my lifelong dream of being charismatic. I'm 29 now; I feel comfortable in most social situations, and it is a very rare person whom I cannot make laugh.

I am, undoubtedly, finally, charismatic.

But do you know what I found?

I found that now that I have an understanding of which social rules serve which functions -- Now that I have an understanding of just how much damage my awkwardness was doing to people, well,

I found that, actually, my awkwardness never really hurt anyone at all. People were just judgmental dicks to me about it.

Now that I have the skill-level to (most of the time) creatively vocalize what is in my head as soon as I think it and without fear, I can confirm once and for all what I had always suspected:

I was worth talking to when I was quiet.

I was worth talking to when I was awkward, and when the words in my head took time and patience to hear, and when most of my jokes didn't land. I was worth talking to the whole time.

So I just... I hope that if you've ever wondered whether you are worth communicating with, the answer is yes. Absolutely yes. Each of us has a soul worth sharing - and if you and I were talking, I would happily wait for you to speak (or communicate in other ways) without condescending, and I would never shame you for that harmless awkwardness that so many people feel the need to violently stomp out.

You are worth talking to. You just are. And you deserve people who will speak to you with kindness, with patience, and with the basic immutable respect owed to all people.

(I talk about this with some frequency, both on tumblr and in real life. At some point, maybe I'll gather all my thoughts on the matter into one post. At some point, I wrote about my personal experience trying to build my social skill. But I felt the need to say at least a little bit tonight after seeing this other lovely post, and I'm glad I did. It will happen again.)

[musicrunsthroughmysoul]

Oh, I just found out the hard way that the keep-reading thingy doesn't work at the beginning of posts anymore as it used to. Haha, oops, sorry. This is horrifyingly awkward.

I just remembered the (at least two) times that my best friend told me that before they really met me they were interested in asking me out but that they assumed that I was already in a relationship.

I'm still, to this day (we've been friends for like seven years now, I think) trying to wrap my head around that idea.

Like...apparently my vibe is 'taken/in a relationship'???????????? HOW????????????????????????????

I have to wonder if it's possible to be so asexual that people just assume you're in a relationship/unavailable. Or if those things are connected. Because I don't understand otherwise how my vibe comes across that way. I've literally never worn symbolic* jewelry and tbh I already hate wearing jewelry beyond earrings, anyway, so I don't understand how people visually think that.

I guess it's fine if my vibe is 'unavailable' in general, though, because it means that people (especially cishet men) don't hit on me, which is good because I generally don't want to be hit on...

And now I don't know what the point of this post was anymore except to wonder, 'So...exactly how weird am I? And apparently this level of weird is a good thing [for me]?'

Although, while I'm thinking about it, I will add another TMI, and that is...sometimes in the back of my mind I wonder, 'Am I lonely? Would it be nice to be in a relationship? To be in love?' The thought just doesn't cross my mind that often, and when it does, my response to all of those questions is just, 'No.' I see what happens with other people in relationships, and most of the time to me relationships just seem so unnecessarily messy, not to mention rather difficult work (so kudos to those who DO make them work, and put in the effort to do so! Amazing job, all of you, and I am not being sarcastic in the slightest!), so I'm like...god, I'm just too lazy and eternally caught up in all of my own bullshit [to varying levels of self-awareness] that I just...can't be bothered to seek out a relationship to add all of that shit to, lol. Maybe when it comes to being self-aware, that's something that someone in a hypothetical relationship with me might appreciate, but at the same time, my passive-aggressive, 'still waters run deep' tendencies would not appeal to nor help a SINGLE GOD DAMN PERSON (much less me), and so, I might as well stay single to protect everyone else from my bullshit. Because in the end, anyway, change is difficult, no matter how self-aware a person is, and I just do not want to make anyone wait for me to change for the better. That's just too much wasted time, and maybe I should be sorry for being selfish, but I would rather waste my own time than anyone else's if I can help it.

*Okay that might be a slight lie from *coughs* when I was in high school with my 'wife', but if that was 'symbolic' then it was also symbolic of BEING A JOKE on behalf of internalized homophobia. If you have no idea what this is about: COOL! You have not read that particular vent post where I mentioned the story behind that. If you do know what this is referring to: sorry, and, you get a cookie? idk

[avenger-hawk]

YEAH when it comes to Team Taka, he obviously selected them for their abilities and wants them to help him with his goal to kill Itachi BUT he was also completely cool with it if they didn't want to n never guilt trip them (i freed u u have a moral obligation to help me). 16yr old me n still now think its so fucking cool. one of the kindest gestures in the series n i think what makes it kind also is that Sasuke never makes it a big royal deal about it. He is refreshing and comfortable like that. Someone that I can sit next to n not feel pressured to make conversation. But when I started to navigate the fanfiction realm with those huge ass word counts (i thought maybe the character study would be better n more detailed) and straight pairings with Sasuke he's so domineering and sexually charged and top! I went from (?) to (?????????????) very fast, dont get me wrong, they write better than me anyday n i know no one's lens of a character is exactly the same, but it was pretty jarring to me. So many people thought along those lines, I actually felt really insecure, not easy to be the minority in such a big fandom (along with my other not so popular feelings), feeling a bit lonely as I read discourse, I wasnt great with tumblr back then awkward in finding 'mutuals', also seeing how people attack others with different opinions. even my friends who like Naruto believed that popular opinion. I wasn't the best analyst, and still isn't, I would often think 'am I the one feeling it wrong?' It's been a ride with the series, it is precious to me, but I find it more comfortable n easy to enjoy it now (also I'm better with tumblr lol) as the heat is not as flaming n that I'm older n not be as insecure about my stance on the series so frequently and intensely.

Yup Sasuke respects people and with Taka he showed that he appreciates their strength and values them, and he genuinely wanted to help them, and even though he needed them to find Itachi he was ok if they didn’t accept. He’s the most tolerant and less imposing character and yet ppl see him as an arrogant domineering top who’s also a pervert and incredibly jealous and possessive. it’s crazy how dumb fans can be if they see such oocness.

Tbh to me it’s also crazy how ppl can have problems not being able to speak out their opinion because the majority has another, especially when it’s so blatantly wrong. I’m glad you now feel less limited and I’m sorry for your insecurities from back then but as someone who is insecure on many things, and who never had friends irl to discuss the manga (my ex was a fan but he didn’t like ships and stuff so it was only canon discussion), and as someone who always had unpopular opinions, on one side I understand that it’s frustrating, but on the other side I find frustrating how you guys complain about this instead of not giving a f**k about ppl’s opinion and idk, do your thing? ignore those who are different? you don’t have to read discours actually, it’s not a duty. And you don’t have to interact with ppl necessarily, if you disagree with them.

Also, if you find those opinions so wrong, because they are, can’t you use your blog to show how wrong they are? Not shitting on them necessarily, not engaging in discussions with them, but taking canon moments and writing about them.

I find so many things ooc, not just the shitty characterizations but all this shisuixsakura in the shisui tag, all the fluff everywhere for a series that is canonically darker than you admit, and all those black Sasuke &co (I mean, they’re not. clearly. don’t get me wrong, I hate when artists draw characters as super ‘caucasian’ as they call them lol, sometimes I see pink skinned everyone and those northern chins and noses and I cringe lol...and I actually don’t like characters drawn in a ‘realistic’ way when some race prevails over another, cause I like them to be unclear, since you know they’re drawings...so I don’t have a problem with it btw because I know it’s self indulgent, I just have to mention it because it IS ooc) BUT one thing about all these things that I approve is how they like the thing and do it. Even if it’s not IC, or it doesn’t make sense. So I kinda like those black characters because they’re bold lol

edit: I remembered having discussed with a veeeery popular author for the Sas*ita fandom, her characterization influenced all SI stans basically. And she admitted that she was writing her own perception, based not on the whole story but on like the parts of the story she liked more. Basically she didn’t consider canon Edo Tensei Itachi, because it went against her ideas, and the brothers’ dynamics were not her thing either because Sasuke obeyed to him too easily. But that’s canon right? So, the author most liked by SI shippers admitted that she was writing her own fave dynamic, refusing canon parts she doesn’t like, and she didn’t give a damn about it. I’m not even criticizing her! I’m saying she does what she wants, she’s an author writing for her own pleasure first. But it’s funny that 1) SI stans took her ideas as better than canon and bashed IS for seeing things in a different way 2) she does what she wants even tho it’s clearly OOC and she’s seen as a great analyst while others who do the same are seen as wrong

And at the same time those who like things/dynamics/characterizations that are not ‘popular’ are afraid to express it, why? I said it over and over and I’m not gonna say it anymore cause I’m frustrated. those who don’t express what they think online because they are afraid are playing by the majority rules and they are harming the rest of the fandom, contributing to the silencing of unpopular opinions. You are just as guilty as those who attack others if you are too coward to speak out.

And since I had enough of all this and I’m pissed off by the lack of courage of so many ppl, it’s useless to seek my comprehension cause I’m not gonna give you any. I’m sick of tired of discourse over the same bullshit over and over, I’m sick and tired of ppl complaining about discourse but not doing anything cool instead, only complaining. As if the only thing ppl can do is watch others instead of being themselves not caring about them. You aren’t better than those you criticize, if the only thing you do is criticize them, not even in your blog, not even in their dumbass faces, but using someone else’s space, like my blog, in anon form, to complain.

Y’all like Sasuke, the one who told his former teammates that he’d gonna be Hokage and change the system. During a war. Even tho he was considered a criminal by all of them. And you are afraid of some dumbass online calling you wrong? Suit yourself, but not in my blog.

Hawk out.

[kkukkung]

it makes me happy that wonho gets to go to his mums cafe? it seems like he goes there a lot and i wouldn't really expect him to get that much freedom or free time? so i'm really happy ahhh +other idols going there! i hope the other members go sometimes toooo

jdjfienzhd you’re so pretty!!!! I love your hair! 😭me too!!!!!! tbh i’m still so surprised he gets to do that??? feel like generally monsta x has a lot more freedom than they did in 2015 + the first half of 2016, especially bc i’m p sure they have their phones and idk… just generally they seem to be so much more comfortable navigating the industry and it makes me happy :’>

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youre so beautiful i cry

omg… i…. thank you im sry im replying so so late (so late that… i forgot the context for it….) but rly… thank u… idk how to respond adequately to kind anons but rly i think ur all so so lovely for taking the time just to tell someone something nice like this tyvm i hope ur faring well anon and ur… v beautiful too i Know it… 💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕💕

Don’t look @ me but minhyuk in the kihyun cooking vlive was S*xy he was a lil dirty and mean and Real Boy™ it was……h*t anyways whns he gonna kick flip me outta this hemisphere

shut up fjfkhsggjk me too he’s like… such a dirty sock sometimes but he’s MY dirty sock u know… my favourite minhyuk is when he peels off his 50000 layers of fake personas and u see a glimmer of chaotic glee flit by in his alien countenance i love him sm sm sm when he’s a bit gross n mean n Filthy…. that’s my boy!!!!!!! that’s my boY!!!

tbh i never really thought Kihyun is perverted so i was a little suprised when it came up, and some people are saying now that they felt it (lol?), u said you also knew it, im sorry this so stupid but im really confused, like i dunno i always knew kihyun had an attitude but a perv ? lmao (not conplaining, just confused and a little lost, love ya) bye

omg lol sorry darling this isn’t stupid at all! i was 50% kidding 50% srs… he’s not… like actually ~perverted~ (none of them rly are??? but mb ck has the most Curiosity and he + mh make the most… dirty jokes… + wonho sometimes but he’s more happy in his softness ANYWAY) idk this is a bit irrelevant but just to explain, language-wise i always associate korean closer w chinese so even if im watching smth in eng sub i translate the subs into… chinese… kind of… to understand it better… and the word 변태 (byuntae) is the equivalent of 变态 (biantai) in chinese and while it means pervert/perverted it’s also just a general term for being strange/abnormal (in fact that’s its correct/real meaning + the former is more slang)… i think minhyuk was playing around with the connotations of it as well as just poking fun at kihyun bc he likes seeing kihyun look indignant! that said my 50% srsness in relation to this is… bc… um… i see kihyun as being… mb… into Some Things skjhfgkj but i won’t elaborate here!

minhyuk called wonho “hoseokie-hyung” once during fighter promotions if you didn’t know already 👀

me: *digging a 165cm long hole in the exact shape of my body* this is fine

Kihyun just wants to take up space .. as much as possible 💦😩

(this was in relation to when i called him out for manspreading…) maximum surface area for more efficient diffusion of his [redacted] [redacted]

Do you check out blogs?? hehe

yes sure jus like…. link me… jkfshg i tend to follow content creators/ppl who write interesting tags and i try not to follow anyone too much younger/older than me, that’s abt all! :>

minhyuk cuddling on jooheon during the no exist prologue was so 👌👌 sapping all of jooheon’s warmth while looking so soft and cute how does minhyuk do it 😩😩

it’s rly his Thing hm hm not to get… sappy but he’s so… full of love and jus wants to be physically close w everyone also when will he stop playing w his bottom lip… official minhyuk emoticon: >:3c

Annie your new mobile theme is so pink and pretty!!!!

tysm!!! sorry this is a late reply so it’s not… entirely relevant anymore jhsgfg but… i think i’m always going to have a pastel colour + bunny theme on this blog it’s my Branding now…. ty ty! 💖

“Reminds me of raw chicken” lmaooooo same 😂😂

(in relation to this post fjdkshg) i lov my uncooked chicken boy

U kno that clip of Michael Scott on the office where he yells “I’m gonna kill myself and it’s your fault” that’s me…. every time monsta x do something….. every time they change their hair colour….. I want death….I’m such a dramatic hoe

me!!!! too!!!! rly a lot more excited for monsta x’s new hair colours than i am… abt Most Things lol… happy w everyone’s hair colours except wonho’s ://// pls go darker

i legit think your tags are the best thing ever 

lov u! my tags are v messy and mostly whatever goes thru my mind in that given moment before i hit the rb tbh but i’m glad u enjoy them! 💖💖

What’s your favorite wonho pic?

currently:

Omg have u seen that mnet ep that had mx on right after their debut and it had hyorin and soyou on too and minhyuk was litrally. Losing his mind like they talked about his ideal type comment I think and soyou called him cute and then later he got put on soyou’s team for some game and he straight up lost his mind he was so excited dlfmgnk can he. Relax for one sec

jkdfshggkjsjdkfh i don’t remember this???? i feel like i probably watched smth like it a long time ago like i rmbr a few very awkward mx/sistar interactions after they just debuted. but this. i have to find this and watch it gjkshkjdfg. minhyuk has… no chill he’s not capable of being a normal human being… but also why is this me i would.. die if soyou looked @ me so umm……………lov my relatable man… my love rival… real talk it’s v cute that he likes her n i think generally lmh has a good people sense/knows what he wants from others

(the anon w the younger brother here!) he .. actually said wonho looked like a wolf???? im so ?????? abt that like where did it come from … also jooheon looks like a friend, changkyun just looks “overwhelmingly fed up” apparently????, and according to him hyungwon just has the （ ͡° _ゝ ͡° ） face ,,v interesting …

(part 1 of this!) omgggg this is still v cute i don’t see the ?? wolfiness of wonho (i am… after all… tumgler user bunnywonho…), but i can see how jooheon is shaped like a friend + ck is… finished… done… a lil bit dead inside-looking but not Really like that, n hyungwon… sjhfg i can… kinda see that too… ty for sharing this btw it’s v wholesome

♥️ sending you good vibes –an admirer

omg PLEASE “an admirer” ur too much… thank u though im sending good vibes back sweetheart 💕💕💕💕 got plenty of Good Feelings lately ily thank u thank u 💕

MINHYUK MAKES YOU THINK HE’S GOOD AND PURE. THEN HE BECOMES THIS EVIL LITTLE THING. LIKE A PUPPY CONSTANTLY BITING YOUR FEET

i feel like minhyuk stans are divided btwn… wanting to Love him intensely n lowkey wanting 2 smack him ??

BYE WHAT TH DOES “Die under kihyun” MEAN

(in relation to the tags on this post jkgfhsjkhf) IDK i think i just meant he isn’t as…. bullied w kihyun as the other members often are?? they operate on the same level… it wasn’t anything dirty if u were thinking it was…👀👀👀 im a pure stan w a bunny themed blog… 

So do you have a link to this sexuality analysis 👀

SORRY for the late reply it’s just here! don’t rly agree w some of it but other parts were insightful!

jdjfienzhd you’re so pretty!!!! I love your hair! 😭

hfddsjfkjsfjk thank u i’m jus…. a bean…. navigating the cosmos at the same time as monsta x…. and u, cutie……….. tysm my ego grows bigger w every nice msg i get… hope smth good happens to u today ily! 💓💓

that video of the guy ripping his pants n his dick flopping out is wonhos nightmare during every performance when he has to wear tight clothes

BE QUIET JKSHGSF I NEVER READ THIS ASK

is wonho turning 25 or 26?? im confused

he was born in 1993 officially (altho there is some speculation abt whether or not he was rly born in 92) but if we’re going by that then technically he’s turned 24, korean age 25 (bc ur 1 when ur born)… but he’s 26 by the lunar calendar… v confusing i know

Wow can’t believe youre a wonhoe anti 😕😕😕😖😖😖😧😧😧🤒🤒🤒🤒🤒

shh sdhjgkf but real talk i love wonho + minhyuk in v different… unquantifiable ways :’00

[ikonmenow]

hello I am new to ikon and I'm still getting to know the boys ! Can you do like a brief summary of what each of them are like (personality wise) and maybe their likes and dislikes ? I don't know if you these kinds of request but you are the only blog that seems easier to approach if u know what I mean ! ~~

hey there! omg welcome to the fandom c: sure sure, i will try my best to get you a small description of the boys, i hope you enjoy it. yeah, it’s totally fine to be honest and omg i’m glad to know that c: thanks for stopping by c: i apologize if this is very messy but i still hope you can get the main ideas out from this- let me just tell you that the original six members all have a mole on their neck- yes this information is very important...

hanbin / b.i.

hanbin is the leader of the group, he is not the elder of the group though and the other members have said that they are able to be where they are thanks to hanbin’s leadership. hanbin is however, very serious when it comes to work and he has stated before that out of the group, he’s the one who stays back later to work - he’s a workaholic; whenever he’s working he is pretty much strict with stuff to the point they call him tiger leader. apart from being the leader, he also works on the choreography, lyrics and what not- he has composed for other artists, other than his band (such as winner’s empty, together with bobby; he also took part on blackpink’s whistle, epik high’s born hater) i am not, under any circumstance saying that the songs are only hanbin’s creation though. he does write their songs but there are other people involved as well, either on the composing part or the lyrics. he’s also very dorkish and a bit shy sometimes. he has a huge passion for his little sister that has been present in the survivals he had been part of and the concerts as well. oh- he also has an obcession for mickey mouse haha and his favorite snack is probably pringles. he is called by his members gorilla / monkey and is a model for nona9on together with cl, bobby and blankpink’s lisa (i’m sorry if there’s anyone missing here).  i’m sorry, i almost forgot his love for dogs- i had to state this.

jiwon / bobby

he’s the other rapper in iKON although he can also sing; he has composed songs for his own and also for iKON as well as for other artists (as stated, winner’s empty, took part in epik high’s born hater, hisuhyun’s i’m different). he is the winner of show me the money 3. he also debuted under the subunit MOBB, together with winner’s song mino. he is, as stated before, a model for nona9on. he’s the mood maker who’s 99% of the time all hyper - for concerts he is the party itself. he’s very close to his family and let me just say he is very charming. jinhwan and bobby are the ones who have been with hanbin since the begining, them being the very original team that later on had four other guys joining them. he does get along with everyone pretty well. he has an older brother and used to live in virginia, i believe; his family moved back to korea when he won show me the money 3 as he had promised to buy a house for them. he’s good at basketball, by the way. and has an obcession with winnie the pooh-

junhwe / junhoe

he’s the sassiest out of them. and he’s awkward as hell, tho he is aware of that. and i’m sorry but i gotta say this - he is probably the silliest out of them. he’s part of the vocal line, as well as the maknae line. in all honesty, is vocals are probably the easiest to distinguish from the group. oh and he is loud as hell. he had participated in kpop star (not sure of the season, sorry) and well, he has an undying passion for michael jackson. he’s also very good at dancing. i believe he took part in composing at least one of the songs in their album, rhythm ta it is. other than this, he’s the one to tease the other members and atcually mock them because he has no shame. okay, i didn’t say this haha. he has an elder sister

donghyuk

he’s a very smart, loving and sweet guy. has been part of jyp entertainment before joining yg entertainmend and team b. his father passed away when he was eight. he was part of the DEF company (just in case you wanna see him dancing, which you should because he’s life). he has a younger sister. omg lemme say that this cutie patootie hurt his beautiful foot on the last episode of mix and match. and he’s the paparazzi (dongparazzi) of the group. he also plays the piano and his voice is sweet like an angle’s- don’t try to deny it, fight me if you do- he’s a cutie and probably gets teased often. he offered his debut album to his late father as he promised he would when he visited him. and you gotta know that his laugh is life- lemme just- on bobby’s holl up, there’s donghyuk laughing and i feel like my life is complete. he also speaks english as he had studied overseas, in america, i think? i’m not totally sure about this-

yunhyeong

he has a huge passion for the nivea lipbam which got him to participate on a commercial. i had to start by here... he’s the closest to hanbin and junhwe (as he had stated he joined when junhwe did). he also has a sister that’s a model or something like that and a dog. out of everyone, he cooks the best as his family owns a restaurant. he is one of the most underrated members and he tends to keep his feelings to himself especially if he’s sad because he doesn’t want to worry the others tho he is always looking out for the group, making sure they’re alright. oh and he looks alike chanwoo...or better, chanwoo looks alike him so they are the monster twins- yunhyeong also likes pranking the others and he is pretty clueless when he is pranked- cue in that one time jiwon pulled a prank on him and yunhyeong was real lost. he’s mostly smiling as well, because that’s just how bright he actually is

chanwoo

he was the last one to join the original group. he is the maknae and a very kind person who hates crying in front of other people. he had improved a lot, both dancing wise and singing wise after the show and even though he was real closed and probably even akward, he is now more carefree to the point he goes around mocking the eldest, especially bobby (you gotta know they are natural enemies). he’s one of the tallest out of the group, together with junhwe but this kid- damn. he has an older brother and he was an actor and joined ikon to follow his dream. he had participated in tvxq’s balloons mv (i believe) when he was a kid, together with astro’s moonbin who’s his childhood friend. we need actor chanwoo tbh- he is the satan of the group the evil maknae

jinhwan

he’s the eldest and a very sensitive person who doesn’t like people fighting. he has a sister, not sure if younger or older. he participated on mari and i with b.i., a show where he roasted the living hell out of hanbin where he played with dogs and animals in general. he’s the shortest out of the group and gets teased about it, our little 13cm fairy- he has an heart shaped mole under his eye ermg- so cute tbh. also, he’s trustworthy and he was born in jeju so he loves the ocean and whenever they go there, they have to swim or he’ll nag at the members because coming to jeju and not going for a swim is like a sin- his vocals are very sentimental as well, he can easily express his feelings through the song and he is very funny too- he likes teasing his members a lot but then gets roasted and just yeah- poor him-

well, i know that there’s so much left to say but my brain right now is just not working anymore hahah. i hope you enjoyed it and feel free to stop by the ask box again if you have any question.

[todokori-kun]

THANK YOU SO MUCH, I’m ugly crying on the inside right now. I’m really so glad you liked the art, seriously this means a lot to me TYSM <3

I like how Hisoka turned out too :D I have a hard time looking at him though because WOW that’s way too much trash for once piece of paper

Be glad that I sent you the sassy Saiko, because I also drew a crying Saiko calling for Maman. I decided not to be a troll for once though ^^

I couldn’t do justice to OG Musical Maria though. She’s gorgeous…

That picture of Roy will be my legacy.

(as for the tiny dab, that is also Saiko in case the pic was too small for you to tell XD funny thing is that I wasn’t even intending to have that slip in when I took the picture. I drew a tiny, mouth-and-nose-less ‘I am not impressed’ Urie face next to it too but guess that didn’t make it in haha LOL

I'm actually sorta obsessed with drawing tiny, dabbing figures right now because I just discovered an easy way to draw dabs and…well. It’s fun?)

AWW tysm! Tbh though I get the struggle. I hated all paints for the longest time because I also had no idea how to use brushes and control the amount of water I used and ended up with shapeless blobs or super runny pics (also I’ve never actually learned how to paint or draw…a couple of short lessons when I was really little, a month(?) of lessons around last year or the year before, that’s pretty much it. So idk how to do things really lol). But I sorta-recently got obsessed with watercolor paintings (SO PRETTY) and that’s why I started ‘practicing’ (AKA watching/reading a bunch of tutorials and trying my best to remember the few things I actually learned XD). I still can’t draw stuff just with watercolors though, I need to do a light pencil sketch and then color with paint.

OK that sounds so cool but problem: My phone is a super old flip phone that I’ve had since I was eight(?), so mobile games are a no XD and my parents probably wouldn’t buy me anything that costs money (they let me play simple free RP games and dating games on the internet since those are usually fairly innocent (I mean, it’s plot/character-based stuff, almost like a manga) but not anything too 'big’ you know? If I was old enough to buy games like that with my own money I don’t think they’d care tho, as long as I didn’t get obsessed with games or anything.)

Also just realized that I’m stupid and apparently forgot that I don’t have Steam. I was going to install it but can I ask you exactly what it is/how it works, first? I’m just kinda worried about randomly installing this since I don’t quite get it yet ^^;; (sorry I can be really, really stupid when it comes to stuff like this)

THAT’S SO CUTE. Let me recommend you a game too- a free RPG/Dating game called Ascension by ImpQueen! No download, you just go to ImpQueen and play it. There are three(?) chapters. The first chapter might not be that interesting compared to other games, but the game and the story keep getting more complex as you go on :D you also get new dateable characters every chapter and the MC, Aida, is AWESOME. Also, in chapter two and three you can actually customize the main cast’s appearances, like you’d do in a dress-up game! Another cool thing is that you get different 'personality points' depending on the things you say/do, and the amount of points you have for a certain personality can change the outcomes of certain situations.

It’s also really fun because other than the romance, the plot and Aida’s journey is super interesting too.

Do you know I’ve been reading some Ishida tweets lately and look at this (yes these are all real)

Fan: Excuse me, is it ok if I ask what major you chose at university?

Ishida: I have studied worthless knowledge in University.

Fan: Please take good care of yourself and eat well! (I think that’s what they said? It was in Japanese so)

Ishida: I ate some tomatoes!

Fan: How do you draw Arima, sensei? It’s so hard to draw him ;-;

Ishida: Sadistic & Massive. I keep that in my mind.

Fan: I love you please marry me

Ishida: Sure! When is convenient for you?

Fan: Be sure to rest when you need to, sensei…

Ishida: I don’t wanna rest

Fan: HOW DID AMON’S EYEBROWS GET LIKE THAT PLEASE I MUST KNOW SENSEI

Ishida: It’s natural, you know.

Fan with a picture of a cartoon skeleton for their profile pic: Will we ever learn what happened to Hide, sensei? Also, thank you for the sequel :) I love TG

Ishida: Well, I’m not sure…by the way, you are so skinny. Thank you!

Also, dude reads Shoujo manga. He tortures us with Touken, Kanae, Tsukiyama/Kaneki, Saiko/Urie…and then he goes and posts fanart he drew of a Shoujo manga he was reading and says that he’s sad it’s over omg

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I’d probably never want to leave that flask HOW COULD A TINY INSIGNIFICANT HUMAN DEFEAT ME SO EASILY NOOO

*sigh* I didn’t raise you to be like this…

(I just got the funniest/weirdest idea though: So Evans is like Luna’s mom in this relationship, Riza is Roy’s mom. Imagine what would happen when Roy/Luna got to the 'meeting the parents’ stage in their relationship)

Mei’s version of subtle-

Mei: Mr. Scar, Evans thinks you have pretty eyes.

Scar: 

Scar: What

(basically catastrophe. And I would never have actually said that…Luna probably told Mei to say that I said something nice about him and that’s what the kid came up with OTL)

Well, he became a criminal in Civil War so not a big surprise really ;-;

For a second I thought that pic was you

Wow, that’s great! Bet it looks amazing on the queen <3333

Funny thing is I thought I liked physical contact (like cuddling, hugging, hand-holding) but turns out that’s not the case XD I get super awkward when anyone who’s not my mom, dad, or my little sister/younger cousin touches me. Tbh the only person I feel comfortable with cuddling anytime, anywhere is my little sister because she’s still smol LOL

It’s definitely weird when people who aren’t that close with you try to hug you though. The only thing that can make it worse is if they gush about what a good, sweet child you are while doing it XD

(btw, I sent you a message about the TG Re Volume 12 omake; did it get eaten?)

((EDIT AFTER NEW CHAP OF TG: WHAT THE FUUUUUUUUUU NO URIE NO N O)) Feel free to send more art anytime! I’ll always be glad to see it ^^

Is he really that bad? I mean, I’ve seen some memes, but didn’t think he was that trashy XD

Oh wow, thank you for that :P Who knows, maybe I would’ve broken my computer screen, because end the suffering already.

Dabbing Saiko, best Saiko. I assumed it was her because of the hair, but wasn’t 100% sure. Isn’t that Urie’s default face, tho. I mean, when is that man impressed? He does show emotion when he’s  trying to comfort someone, but that doesn’t happen very often.  *stares at that paragraph* *dabs aggressively* 

Ah, that’s what makes it even more impressive! I mean, we had art in elementary school, but it was mostly the ‘learn stuff yourself’ kind of art. Needles to say, I didn’t learn a lot. But watercolours really are a nice way of painting, since they can have really vibrant colours, yet be serene at the same time. Most people I know who draw, watercolour or not, use sketches and references, so I don’t see anything wrong with that ^^ Just take your time to learn what you want ^^

Oh, I see! So, free, computer games for you… Well, right now, CP is the only one I can think of, but I’ll discover more in the future and share them with you when I do ^^ The only paid games I play are on my phone, since I’m too shy to ask my parents to but me otome games… I have 0 problems playing them on my own, but not a lot of people know that I play them. 

Right, steam.  It’s a gaming platform. Technically, it’s an app for the computer on which you can download games that are available in the steam store. Some are free, some are paid. 

This is how the page looks. The little green button in the upper left corner is to download the app itself, and you’ll also need to create an account.  You’ll need to give an email, but it’s only for account verification and to send you bills if you decide to buy anything. However, if you don’t buy anything, the email will mostly be useless after the verification. I mean, I don’t remember getting a spam email from them at all.  After that, just go to the search bar, type Cinderella Phenomenon. And press play the game! It should automatically download the game to the steam app and you’re good to play ^^  No worries about asking questions! It’s actually admirable how you’re so careful around the internet ^^

Oh, I’ve actually played that before! I could never finish chapter 3, though… For some reason, it keeps glitching at one scene making me unable to continue further =3= It was quite fun to play! I just don’t remember most of it anymore, since it’s been a while since i’ve played ^^;;;

Ishida summarised my high school experience so far in a single tweet, only it’s about University XD

Wow. That’s so mean of him XD Seriously Ishida, why you gotta torture us so much??? (I just noticed my computer stopped auto-correcting Ishida, I think it finally learned I wanted to type it) 

Muhahahahaha I’ve contained the legendary dwarf!!! Now she won’t be able to convince a whole nation to commit collective suicide because their leader is a naive idiot!!

The two of you just talk about how randomly childish the two of us can get at times XD I think you’d get along pretty well with Riza, though. I mean, she’s a nice person, who knows what it’s like to be scared, so she’d be fine with taking lead of the conversation. 

Scar isn’t sure if it’s Mei’s idea of a prank or not, but he’d be slightly disappointed if it was cause he kindawantedEvanstothinkhiseyesarenice but nope he’s in denial.

From that day on, Luna learns that if she wants to get the two awkward dorks together, she’ll have to take things into her own hands. Probably goes something like this:

Luna: Evans, are you free at 5pm this Friday? Evans: Yeah, why? Luna: Scar, are you free at 5pm this Friday? Scar: Aha Luna: Great, because I’m not! Have fun you two!

My sweet sunshine child cap T^T

Aah, no, my hair i shorter than that ^^;;; Also, I look younger than I am OTL

I think it’s more of the ‘I like physical contact if I know the person and am close enough to them’ thingy. I mean, I have a few acquaintances who love hugs and I always shrink away from them, but with close friends, U’m sometimes the one who starts hugs. But you might also dislike contact in general, which is also fine, everyone has their own preferences ^^

I did, but I only noticed after I answered your message OTL Well, that’s certainly an interesting ship… Now I slightly ship it…