#tbh I really don’t like how her and Akutagawa joined the mafia

[wow-an-unfunny-joke]

I feel like everyone forgets about Gin. Akutagawa’s younger sister. Gin akutagwaw. She’s super cool, we should talk about her!

[bethiewhimsy]

would i beat them in a fist fight, no abilities and no weapons: bsd edition

ive been seeing this on tiktok and i wanna join so,,, let’s go lolol

ARMED DETECTIVE AGENCY:

fukuzawa - hell to the nah,, he would CRUSH me and i’d say i’m sorry

kunikida - it’d be the lecture after he’d beat me up that would be so horrible

atsushi - i think it’d be a draw. just because I feel we’d go easy on each other,,, he wouldn’t really have a reason to fight me and thus wouldn’t really want to, and i don’t want to hurt him ever sooo,, yeah

ranpo - i would give him a little slap and call it good. i wanna stay in his good graces

naomi - hell yeah she’d be OBLITERATED

junichiro - if it’s after beating up naomi, i’m not making it out of this fight alive. it it’s before beating up naomi, i think it’d be a draw.

kenji - would not fight him (maybe a draw)

kyouka - also would not fight her (she would curb stomp me)

yosano - she would DESTROY me,, and i’d be okay with that

dazai - i would strategize before fighting this mf. i would definitely try flattery first and yk as a woman he’d probably be more susceptible maybe??? if that doesn’t work, i’ll pull the “sad backstory/emotional manipulation” tactic, yk the waterworks and all that fun stuff, maybe put my oda kinnie to good use. .......okay this is just a roundabout way to say that yes he would beat me but i don’t want to live with that humiliation

PORT MAFIA

mori - oh my goodness would i do my damndest, but no he would kill me

chuuya - NOPE I AM DEAD,, even without his ability and weapons i would be. he may only be like two inches taller than me but he holds much more rage then i do

akutagawa - listen listen,,,,,, everybody’s saying they could beat him because he’s like super weak without his ability. and i’m going to give him a good run, don’t get me wrong. but ultimately? no im a goner (and i’d give it to him)

gin - BETHIE HAS EXPIRED

higuchi - i think i could take her. or at least it’d be a fair fight

tachihara - i think it’d also be a fair fight. i’m gonna go with draw for this one

q - sooner fist fight myself than this child. mostly because i fear them,, but also why would i want to beat up a literal child??? they’ve already been through too much, i’ll take them out for some ice cream is what i’ll do

koyo - no i am deader than a doornail

kajii - im beating this guy UP,, nothing against him (i guess) he is just a face i could definitely punch

HUNTING DOGS

fukuchi - i would cheat in order to do my worst to this fucker. i would wear brass knuckles, i would bite and scratch and pull hair, i would sneak a knife, i would put poison in his water, i would do ANYTHING. in the end though? he’s putting me in a body bag

teruko - it’d be a fair fight, i’d say a draw. she ain’t special gouging out her own ear canal, i’ve done that too. mf bitch

jouno - will not fight him. unless he asks me to. anything for you babe <3

tecchou - omg he’s beating the SHIT out of me

DECAY OF ANGELS

bram - he literally can’t catch these hands

fyodor - i probably could tbh,, but i fear him too much so i’d let him win

nikolai - i am running from this fight. i am fleeing with my tail between my legs. he’d probably chase me and STILL kill me helppp

sigma - yeah he’s going down. i love him but there is no way he knows how to fist fight.

OTHER LADS

ango - yes

mushitarou - yes

poe - also yes

[dw-writes]

Headcanons for dazai chuuya atsushi and akutagawa maybe? Or for some of the guild?

Listen, Dazai is one of those "I was a Gifted Kid (tm) and now I'm tragically Normal (tm)" kind of guys. You may think "oh, but wait, he's like weirdly OP and can do all sorts of strange things" so can EVERYONE ELSE. Seriously, line his abilties up with the rest of the ADA and you'll see they're all a bunch of Ex-Gifted Kids.

Anyway.

Because of this, he struggles with mundane things - I mean, he was the Demon Prodigy. He had a lot riding on his shoulders. So, the little things are something that he really enjoys. Mostly, if you're close with him, he'll touch. Its almost non-existant at this point, and he doesnt even realize he does it anymore, neither does the rest of the ADA. He'll squeeze arms, hands, shoulders, touch heads, touch hands, touch backs. If you let him, he'll hold your hand for hours. He'll lean back against you if he's sitting behind you, or lean his shoulder on yours. He's been starved for any kind of affection for most of his life that a simple touch?

Well, it reminds him that he's still around.

Chuuya is another Ex-Gifted kid, but he fucking struggled. He was only really able to receive proper schooling once he joined the mafia (private tutors anyone? Mori can fucking afford it) and it was wild. He picked up languages, mathematics, physics like you wouldn't believe. But he didn't want to actually do anything with it, despite his tutors fucking begging him to. Instead, he applied it to his ability, and to his position in the mafia to move up.

It also became a game between him and Dazai on who could mastee the most languages. When Dazai left, he was ahead at 5 living languages and 2 dead ones. Currently, Chuuya knows 7 living languages and 3 dead ones. Dazai refuses to comment on his current tally, and that infuriates him.

Chuuya is ALSO touch starved, but he processes this a little differently than Dazai. If you're near him, he'll give you lingering touches: brush lint off your shoulder and his fingers will stay there, help you out of your chair and do the Darcy Hand Flex once he finally pulls his hand away because he wants to desperate remember your touch and the warmth of you through his gloves.

Atushi is an Above Average kid, but I wouldn't put him up there in the Gifted Kid category with Chuuya and Dazai. He's smart, don't get me wrong, but his intelligence doesn't expand to book smart. At the orphanage, he picked up a lot of survival skills and basic necessities that he doesn't really think about: how to build a proper fire, how best to keep yourself warm, rationing food, etc. A lot of Survivalist things that he had to learm quickly to survive. He does know English and Japanese, and is trying really hard to learn Chinese and Korean with Kyouya, but it's not that promising, tbh.

He's taken on a lot of traits that stem from his ability - i.e. he's a cuddler, but it's really not that obvious. If he's comfortable with you - and, lets be real a minute, that took QUITE an effort for both you - he'll sit shoulder to shoulder with you, or let you sprawl your legs in his lap while you two work. If you're able, he'll hold your hand and play with your fingers. Oftentime, when he's bare foot, you'll see him curling his toes against the floor, one foot after the other, like a kneading cat.

He'll also catch your hands and pull them back if you leave him too quickly. It's second nature, and really cute when you call him out on it.

Get this boy a therapist PLEASE! He has so many underlying issues that it's a little ridiculous, and he needs some help. Depression and PTSD are a big one, especially after the nightmare of "training" that Dazai inflicted on him back in his mafia days. He's an incredibly smart man, another Gifted Kid that has really used his intelligence to get him places, but he often falls back on his unhealthy coping mechanisms whenever he's faced with a difficult problem.

He's another one that has issues with touch. Gin was never a touchy-feely sister, so he's never had real, intimate, emotional physical contact before. He WILL flinch, or even withdraw at the first signs of it, but if you get close enough to him, he'll start to let his guard down. He'll sit near you just for comfort, or lie next to you in a bed, but it would take years of trust building before he'd even think about letting you touch him.

When he does, he's the first to make a move, and it'll be somethinf small, like brushing your hair back, or touching your back as you move, but it will hold a world of meaning.

My guild member is Lucy!! I love her to pieces!!

She's a real troubled girl. When he brought her into the guild, Francis made sure she had the best tutors come in to teach her, but forgot all about getting this girl some mental health (mostly because he doesn't believe in it, I mean, look at what he went through for his wife). She struggles a lot with trusting people, but when decides you've earned it, she becomes a Ride Or Die kind of girl.

When you first meet, she keeps her hands out of sight. She even makes sure to keep a distance from you. But as you grow in your relationship, she gets physically closer, until one day you just happen to find her taking your hand and leading you along.

It's really sweet. You hope that, one day, she'll trust you enough to even open up to you about everything that's happened to her.

I'm doing this on mobile, so I havent gone through and edited this properly!! I hope this is what you're looking for!! I have....SO MANY headcanons about the BSD gang its a little unreal. HMU for more!!!

[awkward-akutagawa]

Dino’s Questionaire

I did it!!! 

for once...

@awkwardbsd

What ability would you have in the BSD universe? (What would it be called? What’s its purpose? How does it work?)

I do have an OC although it’s not well developed. But I would like to have an ability I’ve named called A Wrinkle in Time. The simple explanation is a time travel ability, but I digress that it’s a lot more complicated. The user has to be aware of all possible altercations to a timeline and be able to figure out which events can’t be changed and which can. Changing the timeline is complicated stuff and I really haven’t thought the whole thing through yet, but I do think about it a lot so someday I might be able to explain it better.

If you could claim someone’s ability in BSD, whose ability would you want?

Actually… Mori’s would be cool. But I think I’d probably end up asking for Kunikida’ or Gogol’s ability.

What group/organization would you join? (ex. Guild, Port Mafia, Armed Detectives’ Agency, Rats, etc.)

Port Mafia…. For reasons…

Which BSD character do you identify with the most?

Ranpo! I’m a very loud person and I’m pretty confident, I’d say. I don’t really think things through so watching Ranpo do stuff agrees with me especially when he was leading the ADA

Who are your top five favourite BSD characters? (You can change the number)

1.Akutagawa Ryuunosuke

I have a type when it comes to characters, deep seated trauma, shocking connections to main characters so he was a natural fit for my favorites list. I really love his arc in the manga, watching him slowly change from asshole to slightly likable asshole is great.

2.Ranpo Edogawa

The character I relate to the most, teehee. He’s my favorite ADA member cause of his confident attitude and the way I can easily see myself making the same choices he does.

3.Kenji Miyazawa

The pleasantest boy! If there’s any characters I love more than the edgy ones with angst, it’s the happy go lucky badass. He’s a happy guy and he makes me feel good to see him on screen so.. he’s a fav.

4.Atsushi Nakajima

TBH, I hate it when people hate on him. He’s been through so much and I adore him. Keep going Atsushi! I believe in you!

5.Lucy Maud Montgomery

I’ll be honest, I found her so annoying at first. But, she’s really grown on me as her personality grows and I’m now happy to say that she is a favorite of mine!

Are there any authors that you’d want to bring into the BSD universe that hasn’t arrived yet? Or do you have OCs?

As I mentioned I have one OC named Madeline L’Engle after the author of A Wrinkle in Time. I don’t really have any other ones, sorry ..

Favourite Scene(s)?

-Oda and the Truck

-Atsushi and Akutagawa v Fitzgerald

-Kyouka speaks to Akutagawa on the Ship

-Akutagawa v Atsushi on the Ship

Favourite Quotes from the Authors/Characters?

I only know character quotes oof.

“You should forget about your debts. No one remembers you owe them” -Dazai Osamu

“Be it with a cow or a person. Be it in a village or a city, if your’e sincere, you can communicate with others” -Kenji Miyazawa

“The leader of an organization is at the pinnacle of that organization and at the same time, he is it’s slave.” -Mori Oguai

Who would you want to bring to life to be your best friend? Waifu/Husbando?

Kyouka. We’d judge people together and eat food and have a grand old time.

How has Bungou Stray Dogs changed you as a person? Did you learn anything from it?

When I first joined the fandom, I was coming out of a really toxic experience in another fandom so I was very cautious. I made this awkward blog in an attempt to connect with others and I can’t believe that it’s now my most popular blog.

I know I’ve been kinda gone lately but I still miss posting here whenever I’m not here.

Thanks for sticking with me.

-MI

[10dreamt]

since i have a LOT of mutuals i never interact with but would like to, i’m gonna do something a little ??? weird and go through my muses in order of where they are in my icon folder to list 3 things: the best kind of plot to meet my muse, my most wanted plot for them, and what kind of shipping they’re open to! i have a ton of muses so this will be going under a read more!

keep in mind i am also willing to throw most of these muses into AUs if that’s easier!

a-qing: i’ll straight up say the most likely scenario is she tries to pickpocket your muse. my most wanted plot for her is someone taking her in and teaching her to fight in any verse! and she’s open for platonic and familial shipping ------ i heavily encourage both of those.

agatha: the most likely scenario is she approaches your muse to try and get them to join her organization IF there’s something your muse has that she might want. i really want any kind of plot with her and someone she manipulates. she’s open for romantic shipping, but it would be unhealthy: she would manipulate your muse and take advantage of your muse’s feelings for her.

akutagawa: it’s more than likely your muse would fight him. a plot i want is someone trying to get him to loosen up a little and most likely failing. he’s open to platonic ships and would be very difficult to ship with romantically, though that is an option as well. familial ships will be VERY SELECTIVE!

alibaba: it depends on where in the timeline you are tbh but the most likely way your muse would meet alibaba is if they really just.. came across eachother! to be totally honest! i don’t have a most wanted plot for him, but he’s open to all kinds of shipping!

all of love: the most likely way for him to meet any muse is if they have a reason to be around the alicein manor------he wanders its grounds nightly looking for homeless kids to help. a plot i really want for him is literally anything romantic. he’s open to mostly familial and romantic shipping!

ayatsuji: he’s easiest to meet when he’s sneaking out to go doll shopping. a plot i would love to have with him is someone being fascinated by his ability rather than horrified and him being perplexed about that. he’s open to platonic and romantic shipping!

belkia: you’re most likely to meet him doing magic tricks on the street. a plot i want for him is him meeting a human that intrigues him so much he doesn’t impale them! he’s kind of open to platonic shipping, but good luck achieving familial or romantic without being part of tsubaki’s subclasses.

dinkuron: actually, you’d be most likely to meet him at some kind of gaming convention or at college if you want to throw your muse at the college he goes to. a plot i really want for him is him making friends and introducing them to elder tale, which is his favorite game. he’s mostly open to platonic and romantic ships, but he’s also very picky about the people he likes!

dogra magra: not applicable. she’s exclusive to interactions with either port mafia members, people who are close to q, or q themselves.

freyja/the mother: you’re most likely to meet her if you’re fighting in a war--this is related to my most wanted plot. the plot i want most for her is her finding your muse almost dead on an abandoned battlefield and converting them to one of her subclasses. she’s open to platonic, familial, and romantic ships.

fukase: honestly, you’re most likely to run into him on accident. a plot i want with him is him making fun of humans for being Like That, because he honestly doesn’t understand them! he’s open to platonic shipping, mostly.

gear: you’re most likely to meet him by accidentally stumbling across the church he lives under. the plot i want most is exactly that------someone finding him and being curious enough to keep coming back! he’s open to platonic relationships and will only enter romantic relationships after a mutual trust is established.

genji: not applicable, he’s an EXTREMELY selective muse and i will only use him with close friends.

gentle: the easiest way to meet him is stumbling across him while he’s filming a video! a plot i REALLY, REALLY want more than anything i’ve ever wanted in my life is your muse watching his videos and becoming a follower of his the way la brava did! he’s open to all kinds of shipping.

gide: not applicable, he’s a very selective muse and i will only use him if he’s specifically requested.

gogol: your muse is most likely to meet him by being a victim of his bizarre murder and torture! a plot i crave is him dying a violent death by the hands of a very powerful muse. he’s open to all kinds of ships, but only if you can handle him.

jin zixuan: i’d have to throw him into a different au, i think.

kajii: the best way to meet him is by throwing your muse into the port mafia and needing to see him for something to be honest. a plot i want is someone’s muse being his lab assistant! he’s mostly open to platonic shipping but is selective with romantic ships!

katai: it’s very hard to meet him considering he never leaves his house, but a plot i would like to have with him is someone becoming his friend over the internet! he’s open to platonic and romantic ships.

kinjo: you’re most likely to meet him if you throw your muse into a log horizon au (wink wink, nudge nudge) and your muse takes up residence in akihabara. a plot i want with him is adventurers teaching him adventurer customs and him sharing lander customs in return. he’s open to platonic ships and is very selective with romance!

koumei: honestly? it’s very likely to see him fast asleep in any given spot. a plot i want with him is someone making him get a proper 8 hours of sleep at night. he’s selectively open to platonic and romantic ships.

KR: the most likely way to meet him is over the internet, considering he’s a very active presence and can speak to a lot of people considering he’s fluent in 4 languages and is learning several more! a plot i want to have with him is him geeking out over games & shows with someone. he’s open to any kind of ship!

lan wangji: not applicable because he’s a very selective muse. i would love some wangxian though.

lovecraft: you’re most likely to find him in the ocean! a plot i want for him is anyone from any time period summoning him to make a contract. he’s very selective but is open to all ships. there has to be a lot of development though.

lucy: the most likely way to meet her is by going to the cafe under the armed detective agency, because she works there! a plot i want to have with her is her needing to use her ability to save someone from a dangerous scenario. she’s open to all kinds of shipping!

manga: hmm, your muse is most likely to meet him if they go to UA! a plot i want with him is him interning under a pro hero. and he’s open to all kinds of shipping but is very hesitant about romantic ships.

margaret: you’re most likely to meet her if your muse has a higher status because she comes from a wealthy family. a plot i want with her is someone ballroom dancing with her! she’s open to all kinds of shipping.

maryelle: the best way to meet her is by having your muse play elder tale! a plot i’d love to have with her is her teaching a younger player how to play. she’s open to all ships, but unless you specify you want a romantic ship with her, she’ll default to crushing on naotsugu.

minami: the most likely meeting for any muse with him is at an ice rink! a plot i want with him is him befriending other people his age who aren’t necessarily skaters and making them go skating. he’s open to all kinds of ships!

mo xuanyu: not really applicable to muses outside of mdzs canon but i’m willing to put him into aus.

momiji: i don’t really have a most likely way to meet her! a plot i want with her is anyone having drinks with her because she is basically a vodka aunt. she’s open to all kinds of ships but will be selective with familial as she already has found family she’s comfortable with.

mushi: the most likely way to meet him? need his ability for something. i want a plot where someone helps him move on from all the things he’s done and the people (yokomizo) that he’s lost. he’s open to all ships but is a big fucking tsundere.

natsume: you’re more likely to meet him as a cat than anything, because he spends the most time in cat form. a plot i want with him is him being a guardian figure to someone and setting them on the right path! he’s open to mostly platonic and familial ships, but wouldn’t complain about romance either.

niccolo: the best way to meet him is if your muse has some interest in the carpediem family! a plot i want to have with him is him allying himself with another group to take down a common foe. he’s open to platonic ships and very selective about romance.

nie mingjue: the best thing for interactions with him would honestly probably be to put him in some kind of modern verse, haha.

ochi: it’s most likely you’ll meet him if your muse has connections to the government or military! a plot i want with him is another muse being a new recruit for the hunting dogs and him training them. he’s open for all kinds of ships.

pixie-bob: the best way to meet her is honestly by approaching her on patrol, she’s very friendly! a plot i want with her is her finding someone to fall in love with. she’s open to all kinds of ships but mostly wants something romantic!

ranpo: it’d be easiest to meet him if your muse needs something from the armed detective agency! a plot i want with him is him making another muse uncomfortable on accident by sharing every little detail he can deduce about them. he’s open to all ships but is very VERY picky with who he considers family.

ray: the best way to meet him is finding him wandering at night with gil! a plot i guess i’d like with him is literally him just talking about how wonderful and perfect his boyfriend is because he has so many thoughts about gil. he’s open to platonic and familial interactions but he is firmly singleship with kit’s gil.

rieze: she’s easiest to meet--as is the case with most of my LH muses--if your muse plays elder tale. a plot i really want with her is her making some girl friends! she’s open to every kind of ship.

roland: interactions with roland are easy if your muse is a vampire, because he’s fascinated by them. i would love a plot with muses who are chasseurs (canon, oc, or crossover) finding out about his newfound love for vampires! he’s open to all kinds of shipping.

seung-gil: the best way for a muse to meet seung-gil would be through dog pics. a plot i want is him actually getting close enough to someone to consider them a friend. he’s open to all kinds of shipping, but is very picky.

shibusawa: i’ll be honest, i don’t really use him unless he’s requested.

shiroe: oh boy another log horizon muse! the best way to meet him is actually probably by approaching him on the elder tale forums (he’s a member with huge contributions, maybe ask him about the shiroe log). a plot i want with him is him being a gay disaster. i’m open to all kinds of ships with him!

souji: again, play video games if you want to interact since he’s a LH muse and he has an unhealthy gaming addiction (lol). a plot i want is him accidentally adopting a lower leveled elder tale player. he’s open for all kinds of ships!

steinbeck: you’re most likely to meet him while he’s on a mission. a plot i want for steinbeck would be him recruiting your muse into the remnants of the guild! he’s open for all kinds of ships.

tatara: you’re most likely to meet her if your muse has a LH verse and they want to buy a sword because she runs a sword shop. a plot i want with her is someone joining her craftsmanship guild amenoma. she’s open to platonic and romantic ships!

tetcho: it’s easiest to meet him while he’s on a mission because the hunting dog uniform is very distinctive. a plot i want with him is him working with another muse to pursue a common foe! he’s open to all kinds of ships.

tetsu: an easy meeting would be to go to his family’s onsen. a plot i want with him is him making friends at school! he’s open to all kinds of ships.

topaz/karma: a very easy way to meet him is if your muse is in the port mafia. a plot i ALWAYS want with him is someone rescuing him from ace. i crave platonic and familial ships with him but it’s a strict no on romantic ships.

tracer: hmmm it’s easiest to meet her if your muse is affiliated with or looks up to overwatch! a plot i would love with her is her talking to some younger kids who admire her. she’s open to all ships but i’m very selective with romance as she already has a girlfriend in canon (emily).

tsurugi: the quickest and easiest tsurugi plot is meeting him because your muse has joined c3. a plot i want is a muse offering him money to do literally anything. he’s very very selective with all ships due to his own personal issues and the situation with touma.

twain: he is by far THE EASIEST muse to interact with and/or get along with! the easiest plot is definitely being dragged along into the trouble he creates on his adventures. a plot i really want with him is letting him talk to more marksman muses or more chaotic good/neutral muses. he’s VERY open to every kind of ship.

widowmaker: she’s a selective muse and i’ll only use her if she’s requested.

yuzu: easiest way to interact: be a part of the sheep! a plot i want with yuzu is her tricking someone into giving her food or money. she’s open to platonic and familial ships and i’ll only do romantic ships with muns i trust.

[detortum]

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For every 👍 I get, I will recommend a blog

|| 19? Dear lord, nonnie, you like keeping me busy, don’t you? Here are the recommendations though, since there are enough cuties to mention: 

@skullcrxsher Kae has an amazing Akutagawa and is one of my closest friends in this fandom~ 

@canisnxcto bless Kui?? Such a sweet mun and an amazing portrayal of Rashomon! 

@nakxhara lovely shipping partner who I’ve written with and talked so much and it’s amazing how she always puts up with my impulsiveness and sometimes slow replies haha 

@demonprodigydazai this blessing’s mafia!dazai is so nice, i cry ;-;-; No, I mean it, the way they thought of how Dazai returns to the mafia and confronts my Dazai about certain aspects is so interesting to explore! 

@yasashiijinko Ramen is the purest bean tbh?? She’s always nice and friendly~ She’s new and has yet to really become active, I can promise you’ll enjoy writing with her ^^ 

@tigerborne lettie easily falls prey to #feels, so beware of a lot of angst, but a very lovely and accurate portrayal of Atsushi. She’s sweet and even though she’s been part of the fandom for a short time only, she’s already part of the fam~

@rcmcdium oc’s are not an easy feat alright, I have a fandomless oc myself, which is easier in a way because you are part of the fandomless rp community, but an oc within a fandom? people always have my respect then, because fitting your own character into an existing world is a challenge~

@furitsumoru good shit right here!! a lovely tanizaki and a nice mun ^^ 

@cicindelinae the third Atsushi! let them all come and this one (recently joined and only just started rp’ing with them) is just as nice and lovely to rp with ^^ 

@sclbstmord this one loves nothing more than to talk about dazai and other real life authors characters are based on, sweet mun with own intake on dazai and it’s wonderful~! 

@farouches another new’ish blog!! and definitely welcome~

@consumedbygrief KIT IS GOING TO JOIN US SOMETIME SOON, i promise. he just likes hoarding 100+ drafts it seems, just kidding. a good writer, amazing mun and definitely recommended to follow! ^^ (blog still needs to be finished and all, but yk, gotta promote friendos) 

@suicxedere memelord, fun to talk to and your local mun who occasionally provides the dazapocalypse ^^ 

@kaitbusu & @museobsession two multi-muses I haven’t gotten to rp much with yet, but also have bsd muses, so check ‘em out ^^ 

I’m... afraid I don’t have 19 blogs to recommend, nonnie ;o I’m most likely forgetting people, but the bsd fandom is kind of small’ish compared to a few months ago, I suppose?? and there are definitely more worthy people to recommend, but these people I know a little so.. ^^ 

[harukatomoe]

Caregiver (Akutagawa x Reader)

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Caregiver

Many files were piled up onto your flooded desk of work, there was no room for any of your personal belongings, not like you kept any at work though. You let out a heavy sigh, pinching the bridge of your nose as your forehead touched your desk, eyes closed. You finally had peace and quiet after a long conversation with the boss, discussing what dress he should give Elise.

❣  A few hours earlier  ❣

"Which one do you like better, Elise-chan? The pink or the navy blue?" Mori questioned, holding up the two pretty little dresses. Elise turned away, her arms crossed against her chest. "I don't wanna pick! I want (Last Name)-san to pick."

"E-Elise-chan, I p-picked these just for you-"

"I want (Last Name)-san to pick!"

"Alright..Which one to you prefer, (First Name)-kun?" You sat there, trapped with Elise on your lap. You were practically sweating bricks from the pressure; Elise and Mori's pressure on dresses. You gazed at the two dresses, thinking to yourself: Which one would look best? The pink one is cute, but the navy blue kind of matches her eyes.

"I-I think the n-navy blue one is cuter...it has more..f-frills." In hope to finally escape, Mori looked at the navy blue one as well, as if he was rethinking it.

"Hmm...I don't like that one." Elise commented bluntly.

It irked you how her mind changed quickly.

"Then the pink one it is!"

"I don't like that one either."

❣  Present  ❣

Your peace and quiet didn't last long, as three firm knocks came from your door. You let out another tired sigh, pushing yourself off of your messy desk. Another three knocks came. "I'm coming!" You announced as you opened the door of your office. Surprisingly enough, there stood one of the higher-ups, bloody.

"What happened?" He didn't answer as he sat down on the check-up chairs. "Akutagawa-kun?" His nose was bleeding, there were minor cuts and bruises on his face and hands.

"Just fix me." he said.

You didn't mind his response, getting to it. This was the usual, you fixing him up after whatever beating he got. It was often that you would come back from a lunch break and find him sitting there on that chair, or being called by Hirotsu in the middle of the night to patch him up. You were the only person he would allow to help him, a little. Every other doctor or nurse in the mafia were terrified of him, or were annoying to him; you however, just got the job done, no further comment.

You placed your hand under his chin, raising it to examine his face for any fresh cuts. Whilst doing so, you grabbed the warm cloth from the bowl of water and squeezed out the extra liquid. Gently, you wiped the blood coming from his nose, moving his chin in different angles to help.

Akutagawa grabbed the dampened towel from your hand and started wiping his own face, allowing you to take a look at his other injuries. You poked all over his body, searching for any particular place that hurt; in response, he yanked his body away, trying to tell you there was no other place that hurt than his cuts.

Grabbing a few small bandages strips, you peeled off the wrapping and stickers, carefully placing it over the disinfected wound Akutagawa had wiped. During the process, he closed his eyes, feeling every little bandage you gingerly placed on his face. You smiled a little, finally seeing the calm side of him.

Your movements slowed down for a moment, shortly continuing with your actions from before. You placed a hand on his shoulder, pressing down lightly on his chest, checking again. His chest was okay, no sign of any injuries, so you moved down his torso. The second you pushed onto his abdomen, a hiss came as you felt something sharp at your throat.

You attempted to gulp down a dry lump in your throat, breathing heavily afterwards. Your heart pounded heavily against your chest, almost as if it was about to burst out; your life depended on it. Your eyes became desperate as you tried to read him.

"A..." you whispered, clenching your teeth shakily. "Aku-Akutagawa-kun, c-could you p-pl-please..." taking another nervous pause, you screwed your eyes shut. "Y-You're hur-hurting m-me..." you winced at the pain around your wrists, torso and throat. Only a dry raspy, breath managed to escape your lips afterwards.

Akutagawa's Rashōmon worked on its own, defending their user.

It took only a few second for the sharp feeling everywhere to go away. You didn't waste any time to drop to your knees and hold your throat, massaging it lightly after the tight feeling of being choked went away. Painful coughs erupted from you as Akutagawa sat there, inexperienced on what to do next. You shook your head, slowly getting back up, using as much leverage as you could possible to get back on your own two feet.

"I-I'm-" you stopped yourself from finishing, you weren't okay.

So, instead you decided to change the subject, "H-Have you b-been-" you coughed, "-taking the medicine I g-gave you?" You rasped, only looking at him through half-lidded eyes. Did you really just ignore what he did to you? Did you really just ignore that he hurt you? He, himself, was surprised- shocked- appalled. Did you withstand him just now?

You didn't care as much as he did, you understood his reasons. It didn't matter that you were just checking for injuries, you knew you shouldn't have continued.

There he sat though, in full confusion. Why weren't you running? Why weren't you yelling? Screaming? Why weren't you attacking him? Defending yourself? Why did you change the subject?

"I'm...okay. Really." You reassured, just as you were about to pat his shoulder, you hesitated. Don't hesitate, you thought. Then doing so.

"You're stupid." He spat harshly, no warning whatsoever and he was out of your office, just like that- in a blink of an eye.

❣  A few weeks later  ❣

You laid in your cozy, comfy mattress as you prepared for slumber until the very next day. You pulled the sheets over your chest and laid on your side, a quick yawn then taking place. You then closed your eyes, ready to fall asleep.

Until, your phone started ringing. You sighed deeply and grabbed the electronic device: Hirotsu. You read.

You knew exactly what he was calling for, but picked up anyways.

"Good evening, Hirotsu-san."

"Hello, Ms. (Last Name). I'm sorry to call so late in the night, I know you must be extremely tired and you must be getting ready for bed already."

"...I was about to fall asleep."

"Then I must apologize again. I'm truly sorry."

"It's fine.."

"You must already know what I'm calling for." There was a brief silence before Hirotsu started speaking again, "This time I do advise to hurry though, Akutagawa is quite hurt. He is bleeding a lot. He may even-" you suddenly sat up from your bed, full of concern.

"I-Isn't anyone trying to stop the bleeding?!" You raised your voice quite a bit, not intending it at all.

"Ms. (Last Name), he won't let anyone near him. When we asked if he'd like you to come, he refused profusely. But, you have dealt with him in the past, so please come." During Hirotsu's explanation, you had already slipped on a quick jacket and shoes, locking your home.

"I'm on my way."

❣  A few minutes later  ❣

You ran down the large, dim hallway, eyeing the room where your injured patient was residing. You could barely breath from the amount of running you did, almost feeling like you could faint any second. Though, you didn't let that stop you, you had to help him. You were in charge of caring for him after all.

You remembered when you first joined the mafia as a doctor, assisting them in every way possible. You were one of the best. So when Mori assigned you to a boy, you didn't think it'd be too bad. Until you heard stories of him from the other medics. When you first met Akutagawa Ryūnosuke, it was undeniably scary, up until the point he it was over and he didn't do anything bad to you; except maybe gave you a few dirty looks while you helped him.

Please don't be dead...please don't be dead. [tbh irl situation he'd probs be dead by now-]

You bursted through the door. Instantly, the metallic scent of blood filling your nose as you noticed the pool of thick, dark red liquid spreading out and away from underneath the injured man. You wasted no time to run by his side, on your way to him, you grabbed a clean cloth. You had already spotted the wound and applied pressure.

He hissed at the pain, then resting to a staggered expression, why were you here?

"H-Hey, its gonna be okay."

He surely did feel light-headed as he did feel the pain.

"You're going to be alright. I'm right here..."

❣  A few days later  ❣

You found yourself unable to stop thinking about what happened a few days before, the way he kept looking at you with the greatest confusion he's ever had. Of course with the natural reaction of pain was in there as well, but he managed too mutter, "Why did you come?" Remembering you didn't respond as you just kept on helping him, whispering words of comfort.

Kicking small stones in your path, you sighed to yourself. You did know that he wasn't social, that he was distant; it just frustrated you how that when you tried to help him, he questioned you.

What does he mean "Why"?

You heard a small branch snap, your guard instantly raising as you felt certain strong presences near you. You could see out of the corner of your eye, a shadow slightly bigger than you coming out from the darkness. As the other side as well. Slowly, one of the three came closer.

Once you felt a grip on your arm, you jabbed him in the throat a scalpel you had up your sleeve, knocking him down instantly. You knew the dangers of being in the mafia, so that's why you always were prepared for the worst case scenario. You twisted around to kick another in the face, him falling to the ground as well. You stood strong, your defence unwavering under their intimidating aura.

Suddenly, another came from behind, holding a cloth with a known scent to it, choke-holding you. You struggled, muffled screaming was barely audible in an empty park.

Shit... you cursed to yourself. Curse walking home late at night. Curse the empty park. Curse my job. Curse..myself... there was no one to blame but yourself.

In total, four men. Two on the ground, and two by you. You didn't know what they wanted, maybe something to do with the mafia, you were never informed due to the fact of your position.

One held your struggling legs, as the other held the cloth over your mouth and nose; disabling your ability to breathe.

"Is she asleep yet?" One spoke.

"Al...st." slowly, some of their words became inaudible to hear.

Through your half-lidded eyes that were desperately trying to keep open, everything was a blur.

The man in front of you was a blur.

Blood bursting from his chest was a blur.

The red electricity that ran from his coat to the fabric impaling the man was a blur.

The killer ability that passed you, into the man behind you was a blur.

A familiar man that was holding you, calling your name, was a blur.

❣  Some time later  ❣

"Do you think she'll wake soon?"

"Like we said before, we're not sure, bu-"

"I don't need an opinion, I need an answer!"

Slowly, you slid your eyes open, breathing heavily you noticed a few of your co-workers standing there, along with Akutagawa. The atmosphere was tense between them, mostly it came from Akutagawa but, you didn't know why.

"A-Akutagawa, p-ple-please, you must understand-"

"Enou-!"

"H-Hey there..." you rasped, calling out to reassure everything. Your co-worker placed a hand on their chest, sighing in relief. As Akutagawa stood there absolutely shocked. His eyes followed down from yours, to your hand that was grasping onto his.

"I'm sorry..." you apologized as you pulled your hand away, looking elsewhere to hide from his weirded expression. Not too soon after, his rough hands grabbed them back, but you weren't expecting this reaction to follow:

"What were you thinking? Taking on four of those obnoxious, feeble men-"

"If they're so weak and useless, what does that make me?" You snapped. This wasn't your usual self you admit, but you just had enough of it. You didn't want him to treat you like the others, not after all that you've done for him. All you wanted was just a little kindness...but, if you could recall, he did save you. You couldn't exactly see it, but you could tell.

Akutagawa stood dumbfounded at your bark. You were always so understanding to him. So nice to him.

Even though you felt the anger welling-up inside of you, you remembered being told how Akutagawa grew up. "I-I'm sorry, I d-didn't mean to, Aku-"

"No, you're right.." Wh-What?

He stood quietly, his head hung low. He hated being wrong, he hated admitting that others were right. Absolutely hated it. There was no one that could make him admit it. But then, there was you. He didn't like the idea of having a personal caregiver, to tend to him every once in a while. He disliked it with a passion in the very beginning. As time went on, he got used to you tending to him. So well that he didn't mind you with his eyes closed. Up until a few weeks ago when he hurt you. There was regret afterwards, but not to mention fear. He feared that if you got to take advantage of him, that you would one day hurt him; take advantage of him. But then, there was that day where you went well out of your way to help him, even after the fact that he hurt you. You weren't afraid of him. You recognized him as a person, not the heartless dog that the Port Mafia mentioned him to be.

Akutagawa felt his upper body in a warm embrace, shocked, his eyes shot wide open.

You were hugging him.

You were hugging the Akutagawa Ryūnosuke.

"No, I'm not...but, I forgive you. And thank you, for saving me, Akutagawa-kun." You smiled into his hair, grasping his shirt a little tighter. He didn't know what the feeling was, that he felt. He liked it though. He felt you press your lips against the top his head for a few seconds before being released. He instinctively wrapped his arms around you as well. Almost feeling the tears well in his eyes, he shook his head to stop them. He was just glad you were okay.

Soon enough, you pulled away with a genuine-hearted smile, your hand still caressing his cheek sweetly. His hands rested on the sheet of your bed, relaxing at your touch. Then, there was the sudden feeling of his forehead against yours. He liked the feeling of being close to you.

You weren't sure what this meant, but you were sure that you two would get along really well, and soon.

End

Bonus

"Akutagawa-kun, why are you biting my hand?"

"...I'm not biting, I-I'm kissing.."

"Sweetie. You're biting me."

[selfship-sideblog]

Self insert

So I think it's time I make a proper self insert, or at least try to. I didn't want to make a post for her from the beginning because I hadn't settled on many things and changing stuff up constantly. But now I think I'm mostly decided on everything. I'll update this post if I feel like I want to change her appearance or story more, but that's unlikely to be anytime soon.

Now let's get into it!

🦄 In general about her:

Her clothes may change depending on the show (or my mood tbh lol) but again, it's unlikely. Her personality isn't really set in stone and depending on the source it will be a little different, but this is to get a feel for it.

She also usually has a shoulder bag with her, but I kind of forgot about it.

She’s very similar to me and that’s why sometimes I use “I” for her.

(Under the cut for details for each source because this got a little long lol)

🦄 For specific sources:

💜 Ninjago

She is a college student (18yr old) in Ninjago city and is also a fanfic writer. She mainly writes for the Starfarer comic series. There’s one reader that always likes and comments on her fics and so they’ve gotten rather close over the internet. They meet at a convention irl and then she finds out he's Lloyd Garmadon, the green ninja. Later the ninja get thrown out of the monestary by Sensei Wu to "get a feel for a normal life". With nowhere to stay Lloyd asks his new friend for help. She let's them crash at her place for a while until they manage to get an apartment and jobs.

Mostly funny shenanigans from there on, nothing much happening lol.

This takes place after season two with minor adjustments like their age (although there are no official ones and I always felt like they never grew, like they stayed teenagers throughout the years lol) making them all around 17 or 18. As much as I love the canon I can't properly fit Diana in there so it will mostly go through it's own path, although I may keep some things from canon. And I may or may not make her a ninja later (a non-elemental one).

I also have an AU for this and it’s completely different from canon. It’s sort of a Youtuber AU or something like that. Like a group of young adults living in the same house and may or may not share a channel where they post all kinds of silly videos and stuff. Idk it just sounds so fun!

It's mostly slowburn and oblivious mutual pining between Diana and Lloyd. My selfship with him is pretty simple, fluffy and fun all around, just doing stuff, geeks being geeks and all. I don't want to add angst here because this is more of a comfort ship because it all started with him and it just reminds me of happy times when I first started selfshipping.

💜 Voltron:

I wanted to make two s/is for Voltron, one human and one Galra, however I couldn't design Demira (the Galra one) and so for now it's just an insight about her personality and relationship with Keith and other characters. When I do manage to properly make her I'll update this post to add the image.

Keith:

Demira is a half-Galra, a member of the Blades of Marmora. She got recruited shortly after her younger brother's death. Her missions are usually infiltration. Keith is often partnered up with her at the beginning. Their interactions start of a little awkward but they both start getting interest in the other's culture and soon start getting along. Demira with some of the other blade members are like their own small family and Keith slowly starts feeling like he belongs with them.

Their meeting is in season 3 I believe, when Keith officially joined the Blades, and their relationship develops until Keith leaves for the mission to find Krolia. It gets kind of complicated after this because he was gone for a long while and then the journey back to Earth. (I don't know how anything played out during seasons 7 & 8 so until I understand that part will be overlooked).

This pairing is more angsty since both of them are dealing with personal demons but is still wholesome.

(Also if you couldn’t tell I love the Dads of Mamora trope in voltron fics so I had to include it lol).

Lotor:

Diana is a young adult (idk how old, idc at this point lol), who has a stable job as a software developer. Life’s pretty normal. Until a space shuttle drops from the sky in the forest near her house. Obviously she goes to check it out and what does she find? A crashed space ship. What comes out of the crashed space ship? A tall, drop dead gorgeous purple alien! Unfortunately he is injured so she decides to help him. The only thing she can do tho is watch as he patches himself up because he refused to let unknown substances touch him. But he has no other choice but to trust the girl who found him. He starts learning about Earth and tries to blend in with humans.

This is set in an au without Voltron. Lotor is still the Prince of the Galra, but nothing else of canon is here. I imagine him being a curious guy and wanting to explore which brings him to Earth. I’m kind of unsure how I’d want everything to go from there, but I just wanted a normal alien/human romance if that makes sense.

💜 Death Note:

Diana is a college dropout this time, but has quite a lot of knowledge about technology and coding. She tries a lot of things and goes in different places. For some time she was very interested in true crime stories and of course found out about L. Somehow she managed to hack into his computer and decides to mess with him by suddenly closing his programs, misplacing his documents, annoying but harmless stuff. Ofc if anything L has tape on his camera, so she still doesn't know how he looks like. One time she wants to talk to him and she does through the notepad program. Most of their pre-relationship interactions are through Notepad and talking about unimportant stuff. When a difficult case comes up involving a computer virus L decides that he needs to take precautionary measures, aka secure his computer. And who better is for a job like that than the person who managed to hack into it in the first place. He only reveals himself to her really late when he decides he can trust her.

That was a little long lol.

Honestly this probably doesn't even make sense, but I don't care. I'm not much for mysteries and the stuff, I just want a nonsensical plot and a good time with L.

I just see them as really opposite but in a way that they have the thing the other lacks. Diana is more carefree and energetic, bringing L with her for different activities she is trying out, trying to make him experience life differently. L on the other hand is more serious and secretive, making Diana grounded on the matter at hand and become more cautious. I just see them developing a little while having fun. Sure, that fun is sometimes late night car rider and sometimes running for their lives from the killer.

This is obviously pre-canon and once we get into the canon timeline things will get more serious and sad but we're not talking about that.

💜 Bungou Stary Dogs:

Diana is best friends with Chuuya. They got close during their time with the Sheep and when Diana refused to betray Chuuya the way the others did they've stuck with each other ever since. Ofc that means she also got in the Port Mafia because of her ties with Chuuya and having an ability didn't hurt either (even if it was a little weak compared to the rest). She has the ability to control light, but she has to have a source from where the light is coming from. However she can use the heat from certain sources like sunlight, fire, candles, but the more damadge she wants to do the more energy she uses up. She is with the Black Lizard and is somewhat an assassin like Gin, and is friends with them. Even though she knows of Dazai and Akutagawa she isn't friends with them, but instead knows of the former from Chuuya (they are partners after all) and the latter from Gin. After Dazai left, Akutagawa starts training under Chuuya. They become friends and from that Akutagawa becomes friends with Diana. They become a somewhat weird trio but they are very tight and wouldn't trade it for a thing.

Honestly I love thinking of this ship mostly during post Dark Era but pre-canon. It just has the time to develop better. Once the canon timeline starts it kind of becomes a mess with some complications and ofc angst, but it still works out in the end.

Something like Gin, Diana has a different outfit for when she’s on the job, darker colors and all, but otherwise she has a softer style (sometimes looking like a mom lol)

The reason for her non-Japanese name is that both her parents are from Europe, but live in Japan.

(Pls help, I still don't have a tag for this ship)

💜 Harry Potter:

I’m kind of all over the place with this one tbh lol. At first I wanted a sweet Hufflepuff girl, maybe a half-blood, but then I got an idea for a squib s/i and I haven’t been able lot go of it. So for now I’m not going to give any details (because frankly there aren’t any lol), but if I ever need to answer an ask or to explain things about this ship I’m going with whatever background I feel like atm.

💜 Bakugan Battle Planet:

Also kind of unsure about this one, especially since idk if Magnus is a platonic or romantic f/o (kind of leaning towards platonic as of now tho). I haven’t caught up with the show either so when I do, I’ll probably make an insert then.