#tbf that's normal on tumblr right

[bakersgrief]

Forgetting real people can read what I reblog on their posts bc I'm so used to making my friends put up with my weird ass rps on their posts

[rhodesian-ridgefake]

Same tree, different and higher jumping up point, which meant I was scared for her wellbeing for a second there 😅

[daz4i]

every day on this site I'm like "does anyone wanna kiss". as if i have more than like 2 followers at a sensible age and within driving distance. girl just download a dating app ����

[bravo4iscool]

I was just reading ur tumblr post about some prick messaging you about hating cod men x plus-size!reader likeeee

If you don't like it, don't read it 🙄

Literally the same thing happened to me when i made a post about i wish there was fanfics about cod men(namely simon) getting a dad bod or just having a softer belly in general after they get a girlfriend and not even a hour later the person messaged me saying plus-size is gross. Like i wasn't even talking about plus-size so why are you bringing this negative energy?? I normally don't write for plus-size reader but my writing can usually be imagined for about anyone no matter the size, shape or color because i like my readers being comfortable and relate to what they're reading

I know i went on a tangent but i just wanted you to know ur not the only one and to keep writing whatever whats u happy!! Remember to drink some water and rest ♡ 

DAD BOD SIMON FOR PRESIDENT AHHHHQHSUQHABQUQ

and you’re so right omg😭. also they literally started stalking me to prove to me that i’m ugly and therefore every plus size person?? it was weird af lmao.

and tbf i also don’t write specifically plus size (even tho i am plus size) cuz i want my content to be as inclusive as it can be! that’s also why i don’t mention skin color and stuff like that.

thank you for your ask🫶🏼. it’s nice to know i’m not the only one out there confused by people like the one messaged you!

and if anyone has some dadbod!simon scenarios in mind, hmu🫣 (or anything in general lmao)

[thealogie]

tbf there is no point responding to the unhinged tumblrs because they block and/or accuse anyone who even vaguely disagrees of triggering them and being abusive/TERFy/[insert weaponized buzzword]. they see themselves as above reproach so it’s like trying to argue with an unfunny Statler and Waldorf.

Yeah you’re probably right but I just think we all need to periodically point and laugh and say out loud “this is not ok, this is not acceptable behavior.” Some of the shit I’ve seen them say? If I heard someone talking about another person like that irl I would say something. If I saw someone working for me say that stuff, I would fire them.

And I think way too many people who aren’t that extreme have gotten way too comfortable following along and cheering for that type of misogyny now because it’s normalized in their little space. So yeah. I think it’s important we don’t let it become normalized.

[milflewis]

Really sorry if this is a dumb question but how did dantteri become a thing? Is there some masterpost out there I could read? Thank you and sorry if this is stupid!

long story short is that dantteri became a thing bc daniel ricciardo is incapable of being normal about valtteri bottas. like. physically unable. the rest is under the cut.

here’s a brief rundown of their history by the great ag tumblr user @andreagrimes themselves. i will wait for you to read it. i will also wait for you to read this masterpiece of modern poetry by lo tumblr user @hungerpunch. both are mandatory reading btw!!!!!!!

they basically came up together and their rivalry when they were younger v much dictated where they ended up in formula one (daniel to redbull and valtteri to merc) but they were never friends! this is not pierresteban or brocedes. these two are Something Else

they just raced against each other. and then they’re in f1 (daniel first. valtteri a year later) and daniel’s career starts off more successful than valtteri’s. starting with him getting a race win first and ending with him jumping v quickly into redbull and beating four time wdc sebastian vettel while valtteri is in a williams (and tbf does quite well but like. it’s still a williams) and then goes into merc with lewis. and. ok. it’s lewis hamilton yk. and so he never beat lewis but i will fight anyone who says that valtteri didn’t do a fucking amazing job while in merc. that just anyone could've been put in the position and seat that he was put in and not only handled it that well but also performed to that high of a level. you don’t need to beat your teammate to have done good! esp when said teammate is lewis fucking seven eight time world champion yeah i have over 100 race wins what about it hamilton who says HIMSELF that valtteri pushed him. that valtteri was faster than him in some races. pls be serious!!!!!!!

and as ag says. while this is all happening daniel makes comments about valtteri’s position in merc and being a second driver. there’s an interview with max when he’s in redbull where he’s asked what was the best race he ever did or smth and he names the fucking formula renault race from 2008 where val dominates all weekend and then daniel overtakes him in the last lap and daniel says: thanks, valtteri, nothing has changed. bc he’s fucking insane. (not the interview but a clip of an article talking about that championship). he then LEAVES redbull bc HE doesn’t want to be a second driver. which. fair. and he goes to renault. gets paid a lot of money. gets a podium. dips. goes to mclaren. gets another podium. (which he shares with WHO???? you guessed it. valtteri bottas.) becomes what is essentially a second driver. that shitshow happens. you know the story.

AND DURING ALL OF THIS. smth seems to like. switch on in daniel? idk if it’s bc he seems to be trying to recreate this rivalry he had with val when they were younger and it’s just not there in f1. bc of their circumstances but also bc val does Not Care lmao. or if it’s bc he’s like. omg he’s like. cool i want him to like me. or if it’s both or smth else entirely but he gets Weird. with a capital w.

a v important detail to know is that shoeys are daniel’s thing in formula one. like. they are daniel ricciardo. it’s like seb and the finger. daniel gets everyone who is on the podium with him to do it. literally everyone. he got lando norris who is one of the most squeamish ppl i’ve ever seen on telly to do it. and yet. valtteri and daniel have shared a podium several times and every single time valtteri has dodged it. here is daniel finding out that valtteri has never done it. it’s pure gold.

(also! i just found out from ag that apparently at the end of 2022 bc of daniel’s defending against seb in abu dhabi alfa romeo were able to win p6 in the constructors and so there were some alfa romeo mechanics doing shoeys in celebration. which. god. the layers there! valtteri refusing to do it even when faced with daniel right there but valtteri’s ppl being more than happy to despite daniel not being there….)

as ag reminded me the other day. april fools. 2022. valtteri said that he was going to be coming out with a wine brand. and then after was like. hahaha jokes! jokes! i would never be so cringe and basic 😌. but as we all know. daniel is the most basic of all basic white girlies (gn) and a few days later came out with his own wine and a shoey decanter. the tackiness levels were high and he was soooo delighted with himself.

at one point daniel did ask valtteri to try his wine which it’s like. just fucking ask him out this is getting tiring. and valtteri was like. it’s ok? and daniel apparently nearly swoons at the mere thought of val tasting it. let alone liking it.

jump scene. cue cut. back to 2021 and daniel guessing valtteri for his secret santa bc he was given a bottle of red wine and “i know he likes his red”. spoiler alert: it was not valtteri. and THEN. like a year later i think. valtteri guesses daniel bc and i quote. “someone with taste of, like, funky things, like…it could be daniel?” FUNKY THINGS . is this a compliment. is it an insult. either way i’m fairly sure daniel was buzzin after he heard.

omg and the bottass. so when dts came out in 2021 and valtteri showed his bare ass and balls on tv but netflix only let us see one of them. cheap cunts. daniel had A Moment on twitter. see below:

and then! when valtteri does that whole poster of his ass out in a river for charity thing in 2022? i think? daniel has another Moment but it’s when he’s asked what is smth unusual he wants to do and HE TALKS ABOUT VALTTERI AND HIS ASS PIC ? 🤨 ??? and to add insult to injury. valtteri never once acknowledges this in public but what he DOES do is make a show out of giving a poster to lewis while staring at him like he shits gold after lewis was asked about the poster in an interview and didn’t even know what they were talking about!!!!!! it is literally painful to watch for so many reasons.

you just know daniel was seething. lewis is a fake fan while daniel is a real one!!!!! daniel nearly half recreated the same photo but he’s not in the river and he’s fully clothed. coward. AND he gushed about the pic unprompted!!!! but lewis! who didn’t even KNOW it existed bc he doesn’t have valtteri’s notifs on 🙄 gets a signed copy???? AND A PERSONAL VISIT???? where he has the nerve to say not that he already doesn’t have stuff to remember vb by. all while valtteri is bright pink in the face. i tip my hat off to daniel for not committing vehicle manslaughter right there and then.

and for all that daniel has talked shit about valtteri in the past and more specifically valtteri in mercedes. he had nothing but praise for him going to alfa romeo??? while ppl were like. it’s a step down! what a waste. daniel is like. valtteri isn’t stupid. he knows what he wants and needs and he’s going for it. which!!!!!!! is what daniel tried to do!!!!!!! but it worked out sm better for valtteri than it did for him. which. actually is a running theme throughout their entire careers 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫 i need three to five business days to recover every time i think about it

and NOW. now. he doesn’t know what to do with that fact that valtteri seems to have adopted australia which has adopted him right back and has an australian gf and has a mullet and mustache and wears flip flops and tanks and is sooo australian but still doesn’t seem impressed by daniel who IS australian ????? his poor brain. bless.

he used to get sooo giggly last year whenever he’d put his camera in val’s face and take a snap. it was hard to watch. literally just go onto daniel's jpg instagram account. there's a few v v close up pictures of valtteri's face. daniel actually captions one with fanboying before - in how eye imagined it went - he chickens out and adds a few more pictures of other drivers to the post after the cover picture of val. disgraceful.

like.

wtf. why are you as a man being changed by another man's hairstyle.

i also need it to be known that for years daniel didn't follow valtteri on social media. despite talking about him A LOT (including the bottass tweets from earlier) until valtteri rocked up with a mullet and a 'what's cracking, australia' vibe and then he caved and followed him on insta. valtteri didn't follow him back.

in summary: daniel got a seat both in f1 and later in a top team and a race win before valtteri. tho valtteri ended up with more wins in the end. daniel joined said top team thinking he was going to be top dog and was pushed into second. valtteri always knew he was second driver before all else. daniel jumped from team to team to escape this before ending up in mclaren's shitbox and regulated to second. once again behind a younger driver. that went tits up so badly that he was left without a seat for the 2022 and had to go back to the top team that he left bc he didn't want to be second driver and signed to be their reserve. valtteri left mercedes with ten wins and the longest q3 consecutive streak ever with 103 weekends to join a team that welcomed him with open arms and gave him a multi year contract. they mirror each other as much as they contrast. what if i cried for a hundred years

[you-call-it-obsession]

Alrighty. My multichapter fic (Believe Me, Darling) is done. And I need to talk about it because I am excited.

First of all, I should've used Amnesia Was Her Name for all the chapter titles for this. I was listening to the song earlier (to check the lyrics for the final two chapters) and thinking Fuck. These lyrics work so much better. I did have those last two planned since the very beginning, but still. "C'est l'amour / et blessures" especially would've worked so well at some point.

The reason Jon loses his memories is partially from being undercooked (waking up too early) and partially from the Unknowing having Effects! I don't thiiink that was ever explicitly said.

-> Fun Fact I forgot the reason that Jon lost his memories and retconned it so it would fit with the timeline in the original pod. Might go back and change that now that it's all posted because that makes more sense. However the reason I did that was so that Lukas was settled in the Institute and had taken Martin properly, because I wanted him to have something Lonely to give Jon at the end there.

A couple of chapters into writing this I saw someone (unrelated to this fic) say "Every line Elias says has to be secretly shitty" or something along those lines and that changed how I wrote him, I think. I was being wayyy too nice too early on. He wasn't enough of a bastard! He can be nice once he's had character development, but to begin I need to want to put him in a blender

Elias sees Jon losing his memories as a great opportunity to manipulate him (and he's right tbf) and doesn't start by loving Jon. However, he catches feelings.

This does not change what Elias actually does, though, apart from taking moderately more care than he normally would have.

Elias vaguely forcefems Jon (and does other things like that) because he's possessive of Jon. He has control over Jon and he wants to show it; Jon is, of course, happy to oblige because he knows no different.

Jon was really hard to write for this reason and I'm not sure if I did him justice. He doesn't remember anything from during canon, which means he would be different from how we know him. He also has Elias' influence, telling him to act differently (and encouraging him to do things he wouldn't've done in canon, e.g. feeding)

It is a shame he didn't get to realise the horror/harm of feeding, there just wasn't time !! That would've been really fun to go in to

He is much more Eye-coded for this reason, willing to do what Elias tells him is right. Because it feels right to him, and he's being told it's right, so it must be, right?

He's also very afraid of Elias. He is essentially a stranger to Jon. He was literally in prison for murder when they first meet (which I completely forgot until right now. Probably should've addressed that tbh.) But the fear of what Elias could do to him motivates him to stay with him.

And what else could he possibly do in this situation? He doesn't know where his own home is -- he was told he lives with Elias -- and he's been told that everyone wants to hurt him (which is partially true tbf). So where else would he go?

This is vaguely addressed in the fic, but not to the extent I would've liked. Probably should've just given Jon a soliloquy at some point where he can just air his grievances, but that probably would've been dull to read and ooc.

One thing I've learned from this is that I should finish writing fics in their entirety before I start posting them, especially if they have a specific ending/plot

If it's just a sandbox then it's fine -- a less specific au would probably be alright because they're doing something different each week yk? There's no end point to work towards

but while writing this I kept forgetting little plot threads, which caused the story to become a little disjointed and confused

Fun fact #2: This fic was built around 3 plot points that I had in my head. 1- Jon going to Elias with no memories, and misunderstanding their relationship (as the Tumblr post this stemmed from said). 2- Jon enacting the ritual and the Assistants interrupting. This was supposed to be when they saw Jon for the first time post-coma. I forgot I planned this and did the whole Archives thing instead. Whoops. 3- Jon Remembering at the last moment, and not being able to take it back. I got this one right, thank God.

For a moment I was considering Jon being able to stop and ganging up against Elias w the Assistants, but decided I liked Bad Ending more. What can I say, I love tragedies.

Fun Fact #3: This whole story was originally thought of during Whumptober, and was going to be a smutty dubcon one-shot. Jon was going to be spat out from Michael's Corridors with no memory in Elias' office, and Elias was going to take advantage of this weakness. I found the draft after finishing the last chapter, dusted it off and finished it :)

Finally, I think I'm done talking about this. I've been working on it for 4 months, and now I will finally put it to rest. Good Lord. Goodnight.

[borom1r]

1-25 choose violence ask game ❤️

ALL OF THEM?????? you’re so real for this ty snfnsnbfns. doing LotR bc of course I am

1. the character everyone gets wrong

PIPPIN I HATE TO SAY IT BUT PIPPIN. all those incorrect quote polls that have been posted where pippin keeps fucking winning YALL REALIZE HES AN ACTUAL CHARACTER RIGHT?? with like depth?? and bonds?? and a personality. yall realize that right?????? right??? ik we all love 2 joke but he would not say half of those things

2. a compelling argument for why your fave would never top or bottom

ok I personally enjoy both for Boromir BUT if he IS topping. he is a service top. I will die on this hill

3. screenshot or description of the worst take you've seen on tumblr

I block ppl for these takes so no screenshots but everyone who thinks Boromir is a villain. if you think Boromir is a villain I will key your car.

4. what was the last straw that made you finally block that annoying person?

there is one singular straw and it is bad Boromir takes in the Boromir tag

5. worst discord server and why

I don’t join fandom discord servers bc I love myself too much for that 💗

6. which ship fans are the most annoying?

ummm idk? most of my lotr mutuals have different ships from me and it’s all chill. but tbf I’m very selective abt who I interact with now lmao.

7. what character did you begin to hate not because of canon but because how how the fandom acts about them?

no one yet thank fuck.

8. common fandom opinion that everyone is wrong about

Aragorn/Arwen isn’t actually romantic sorry I think it’s fucked up actually. the vibes are off there for SURE

9. worst part of canon

FARAMIR’S “yeah I’m gonna take you from your home and tame you. haha wdym. you don’t need a blade during times of peace.” SHTICK WITH ÉOWYN IN THE BOOKS. UNPACK YOUR BIASES YOU LITTLE FREAK!!!!!!!!

10. worst part of fanon

HM. I will stick with “people who horrifically misinterpret Boromir’s character”

11. number of fandom-related words you've filtered

at the moment I only have rings of power blocked but I’ve had that blocked since it came out bc if I look at the armor in that show I will commit crimes.

12. the unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them

MOVIE!FARAMIR MY SPECIALEST LITTLE GUY OOOOOOOOOO MOVIE!FARAMIR I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU he’s so handsome and special and I love him and you WILL all look at him and clap and cheer. it makes me insane that his temptation by the ring mirror’s Boromir’s and he’s actually fucking normal abt the Rohirrim AND I just love him very much :)

13. worst blorboficiation

ummm idk… maybe Frodo

14. that one thing you see in fics all the time

HMMM exposing myself but I basically only read Aragorn/Boromir fics lmao + since we’re Choosing Violence the most annoying thing is Boromir just being A Brute. like damn I love the surface level reading of the text maybe try engaging with it above a 1st grade analysis next time 💗

15. that one thing you see in fanart all the time

hmmmmm idk cuz again I don’t interact w a lot of fanartists so there’s nothing like. annoying. all th ✨motifs✨ I do see r very fun + I like them :)

16. you can't understand why so many people like this thing (characterization, trope, headcanon, etc)

ummm for Serious, portraying Pippin as Stupid. for Silly, uhhhh Trans Faramir is so real to me I completely forgot cis people both 1) exist in the real world and 2) probably interpret Fara as cis too. i don’t get it :(

17. there should be more of this type of fic/art

trans Faramir 🩵💗🤍

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

HM idk. trans Faramir again. also bc I love it, utilizing Old Norse culture for the Rohirrim teehee

19. you're mad/ashamed/horrified you actually kind of like...

OK IM MAD THAT FINNISH BOROMIR IS JUST ME. THATS ME. THATS AN OUTFIT I WEAR REGULARLY MINUS THE LONG HAIR. I DRESS LIKE THAT TO BUY GROCERIES. i love him for that tho. I’m also mad that MtG Boromir’s stupid pointy muttonchops have grown on me. freak behavior, keeping his facial hair trimmed in those stupid little points

20. part of canon you found tedious or boring

I’m fighting for my life reading the histories rn 😑 I find them very dry for the most part

21. part of canon you think is overhyped

idk? I think there is an appropriate level of hype. but idk if Rings of Power had a lot of hype. if it did, then Rings of Power is my answer

22. your favorite part of canon that everyone else ignores

idk if it’s IGNORED necessarily but the fact that Boromir carries a Rohirric shield in the films does actually genuinely make me insane 💞 I love that sm

23. ship you've unwillingly come around to

UNWILLINGLY?????? idk?? ummmm I think it’s all fine for the most part I’m just A Fag so I don’t write het ships. it’s like a moral thing. Éowyn/Faramir gets a pass conceptually bc they’re T4T to me tho

24. topic that brings up the most rancid discourse

idkkkkkkk I don’t engage w discourse bc I want this fandom to remain pleasanttttt

25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing

again idk.. I block on sight if I see a Bad Take + then I erase it from my memory so I can continue to live in a beautiful blissful world where I. forgor abt cis people ☺️

[yourlocaldisneyvillain]

Hi there! I’ve been lurking in the shadows for longer than I’d like to admit at this point, and I don't know if you'll ever read this, but I just want you to know I love your writing. Genuinely. You’ve influenced me in so many small and beautiful ways: I still listen to the songs you mentioned when you were writing “Inevitable,” I check your page like the news sometimes because I just enjoy knowing you’re out there and you’re all right, I smile whenever I see that you've said something new and interesting… I don’t actually know you, and you most certainly don’t know me, but thank you? I guess? Is what I’m trying to say?

I’m sorry I didn’t tell you anything sooner; I’m not the most outgoing person in the entire world and figured you’d have no need to hear how much I respect you, but after some pondering, anyone could benefit from knowing they’ve had an impact on another human life (even if it’s tiny. Tiny is still meaningful).

Your writing makes me feel, which is something not all writing can do, and I can’t thank you enough for sharing a sliver of your soul with the select few who will get to interpret and internalize it. I’m lucky enough to have witnessed your work in a wide world and in an unprecedented time, and that’s all. Thank you.

hi!!!! i have definitely read your message, and now i am responding to it!! i think any author would, tbf! i'm really grateful you decided to message me and let me know how you feel. i am the sort of person who would write no matter if anyone read it. it's just something personal i need to get out of my system to function as a normal human being, and it matters to me that it satisfies my personal standards, even if no one read it. *however!!!* i'd be lying if I said that messages like these don't brighten my day. i'm such a niche author and i write about such specific things that it's always so special to me when i see that my stuff resonates with people !

since you were honest with me and shared how you feel, i want to share something personal, for no particular reason besides I felt like it. your message and the vibe of it (this is ABSOLUTELY not me talking about you or your life, this is just me reminiscing about my personal experience in the past) reminded me of when i was younger and absolutely obsessed with an author that I met on tumblr. we were actually friends, or at least I believed so, and there were Romantic Vibes, and i thought every single thing she wrote was a piece of art. tbh i still love her stuff, years later. however, much like myself in some ways, she was a very volatile person, prone to appearing and disappearing from the internet, and also quite a bit older than me. i absolutely idolised her and I fell madly in love with her. it was in many ways a parasocial relationship. it was definitely unequal, bc i was a youngster that idolised her and searched for someone to fulfil the gaping void in my heart, and she was someone who was desperately lonely. she knew all about my life and i knew.... well a LOT about hers. i do believe i knew her to an extent, since for many years we literally talked every day. I could def doxx her if I wanted to lol. she always remained the tiniest bit elusive with certain things, but i could def locate her if i wanted to. not that i ever would. we are still friends on facebook lol. she is also still on tumblr and sometimes I just check if she's alive and doing well, and she seems to be doing much better than when we were talking, which is nice!

our relationship went on for basically about.... 5-ish years? we talked almost every day and i was, as i said, madly in love with her. however, one day she simply ghosted me and never responded to a single message again. this left me devastated. that experience has scarred me profoundly bc this happened in a really difficult period of my life (tbh i had a pretty tough youth, so you could argue that it doesn't matter when it happened lol) and it was just one more layer on top of the, as i like to call it, abandonment cake lol. i had a very rough time as a youth. won't go into detail but let's just say I was suicidal from age 12 to about 25. after that, things got incomparably better lol.

i won't share the fandom this happened in, bc it was also very very niche and anyone who was a part of it they would probably know, if not who I was, then def who she was lol. I went by a different username back then and was a bit tumblr famous, had about 3000 followers. I didn't write back then bc I thought my writing was shit and could never compare to hers, so why bother? she wouldn't read things i sent her and i think she thought they were really bad, and maybe compared to hers, they were. i only started writing for real once she left my life, so in a way it was a blessing haha. i do love writing. i wrote before her, as a tween, and now, after her. i still think she's a fascinating person, but i think she is also a coward. i don't know how I would act in her situation though, dealing with a lot of my own stuff while this person much younger than me was practically imprinting on me like a duckling. maybe the only solution was for her to ghost me bc a 20 yo me for probably wouldn't truly hear or understand what she meant if she told me to leave her alone -- and in the end, it is her right to be left alone. i truly wish her the best. she's a weird one, which is partially why I liked her haha. I learned a LOT from her, so i am grateful for that. i also think she's a selfish bitch, but i can sorta respect that lol. for some reason this individual managed to bring out the most stalker-y, horrible parts of me to the surface, just bc I liked her so much and would do anything to be close to her, at least that was the case before i grew up, grew a spine and found some self-respect haha. i was truly a troubled youth with no self-respect of any kind when I was younger, and part of why i called my blog disneyvillain and why I joke so much about being a villain is bc that sort of framing of my coming of age journey was much easier for me to digest. i was terrified of being a horrible person, to the point that i wanted to kill myself for breathing air when i was at my worst, until one day i gave myself permission to not be perfect and to think and say mean things if that means protecting my own peace, and that doesn't mean the world will end or that I am a bad person to my core. i am allowed to exist in this world and take up space, and storybook villains are often all about that! morals were always a very interesting topic to me, very on brand. started being obsessed with villains when i was very very young haha. it's funny that this person wrote a lot about good and evil and morals, it was an underlying motif in a lot of her stories. damn, i really am a different person nowadays. i don't think I could care abt anyone like that anymore and get so attached and obsessed ahahahah. i do still love people very deeply, but the level of abandon i had when I was a youth was insane. i would have died for the people i loved, but today..... ain't nobody that special lol. this bitch got herself to think about. it's actually the only way you can truly help people actually -- take care of yourself. can't pour from an empty cup. ugh so many things to say! and i am very tired from working all day and very scattered lol.

so, not to go on and on -- thank you so much for sending me this message! it really made me reminisce, as you can probably tell lol. the cautionary tale i preach is basically, don't get attached to strangers on the internet. you never know who they are. but also stay open to a bit of wonder bc tumblr is also how i met my wife lol and many other lovely lovely people I consider good friends. so uh.... the moral is then... uh do what you want idk ahahah fuck around and find out. don't be afraid to be hurt, bc it is possible to heal from any pain, and you will likely learn a lot if you do not let the suffering make you jaded!

[toomuchsky]

got a new car. having a lot of feelings abt it that i’m journaling abt on tumblr instead of processing internally. (lots of very privileged Big Money Feelings fair warning) but also look at him. momo. 🥹🥹🥹

basically after the insane amt of car troubles the last car gave me and the extra 4k it was asking from me in repairs, my dad finally was like “can you let me help you” and offered to help me buy out the loan on appa. one contingency was that i had to buy a new car, not anything used. so my car payment basically more than doubled, but i do have a car now that can take me from point a to point b and will hopefully ! not break down on me anytime soon. (with my luck tho who knows). i also still have the credit card debt from the engine but he was like “do your best to pay it off but if there is a difference at the end of the 0% apr period well see what i can help with”

i’m having! weird feelings abt it! lots of shame around having to accept money from my parents, lots of guilt around having parents that can afford to do this, also a lot of like. relief right?? i have a car that works! and he’s cute!

but also new cars freak me out dude. cars should all be dumber in my opinion. why is there an ipad on a vehicle that i can also drive at 90mph??? why is it yelling at me to brake leave me alone let me brake on my own terms!!! and every single thing is electronics. and they break so often and are so expensive to fix!! and everything these days is built to break!!! it makes me so mad and angry!!!!

but also on the other hand! i feel like i understand every single rich person neuroses now. every single speck of dust on this car is tantamount to a dent on another car. if i even scratch this car i’ll be so sad bc it’s NEW! she has 10 MILES ON HER. and there’s too many features!!! how am i supposed to learn them all!! feeling very old man yells at cloud abt it all!!! like normally i am also very generous with my car! i’ll let people drive it i don’t care etc but with this one i’m feeling extremely like don’t even breathe on him actually please don’t even look in his direction. like i’m feeling insane. u know that monopoly study they do where people become more stingy the richer they get. that’s how i’m feeling.

also having some feelings about what a new car like this looks like to people idk. like what will people perceive me as???? like this wasn’t my choice!!! tbf the car market is still insane and even a slightly used car would be abt the same price tbh but. feeling like i need to process these feelings with everyone so that no one judges me for having a new car or feels weird abt my parents having the ability and willingness to help me out here. like i understand this is mostly projection bc IM feeling weird about it and wealth (lol at the thought of wealth. i’m like 40k in debt not including student loans at 29 which feels insane.) and all that but.

he’s smaller than a lot of the suv’s i’ve had before but honestly probably enough size!!!! also the car payment is so much and idk how i’m gonna afford it for 6 years. i love him so much i can’t wait to go on a million road trips now that i can trust my car won’t break down on me in the middle of the road AGAIN. i also wanna throw up whenever i look at him. i love feeling safe and cozy and playing with all the new features. if it gives me a lane warning again i’ll blow it up myself.

dualities man. here we are.

[josephtrohman]

i saw you were pissed off by hate and i have to say even when i havent been going there that often these days, your joetrick is always a joy to engage with! you ask the (very reasonable) ''dont come at me with hostility'' and do no hostility in return and it makes it so easy and pleasant to fall back further in love with the ship. and your opinions on them are always very correct shdfghsdsh

so i hope you know youre a beloved member of foblr and i wanted to share youre the joetrick warrior of all time* to me <3 *except when theyre in the middle of playing sugar or saying things like ''of course patrick was the only one who read my book'', that brings you down to number 3 for a moment, i hope you understand

(i mean all of this genuinely and with love. idk if i was able to express it right but i hope so)

anon this is such a sweet message to receive 😭💘 i rambled so much cuz im sleep deprived so im editing to put under a cut but main point i love u

to give The Thing i was mad at some grace or whatever, it was like. more indirect in the sense of someone reblogging something negative and then right after coming into MY HOUSE and reblogging my post made with joetrick intent (puppy joe post…lolol). BE SERIOUS...and tbf when i saw the negative post i was already in a volatile state and then the negative post itself just pissed me off too cuz why make a post like that about a ship no one gaf about anyway...like what it'd ever do to u that u need to Take A Stand?? it's one thing to not like joetrick cuz idgaf about that cuz IT'S NORMAL and also im used to it lol but why feel compelled to post...like i dont really like ******* [<-small ish ship as well. for the record. before anyone attacks me and assumes it's something else] but i would NEVER make a public post about it. like talk about yucking someone's yum. anyways sorry im rambling, i acknowledge it's not that deep but also at my core i am a volatile person and kind of a hater etc like girl calm downnnnnn (me talking to myself). but at the same time i didnt choose to be born a fire sign so really like is it my fault.../j

also OUTSIDE of the annoying thing, thank you for this message, im happy that u agree with my opinions on them and also thee way i love joetrick helps u fall further in love with them in some small ways <3 once again i'll never be upset if it's not someone's thing bc that is normal it's not gonna be everyone's cup of tea lol, but i appreciate that i can help u love them :3 and genuinely means a lot about the "beloved foblr member" cuz im like MAN i make myself mad here like almost every day and sometimes that deactivate button be looking absolutely delicious (outside of this particular incident btw there are some insane ppl with insane takes)........but uh anyways thank you calling me the joetrick warrior too 😭❤️ it's a title i wear proudly so tysm!!!!! (i also am sleep deprived as hell and a lil slow so i assume you mean im third in those two situations cuz they themselves are #1 and #2??? maybe. but either way even if i was third to any other beloved moots it'd still mean so much to me 🫡)

and yes the love came thru don't worry!!! i find it so very sweet you would leave this message, it's a reminder that tumblr is always not a cesspool of things that make me maddddd 😭❤️ and i send you many smooches sweet angel i hope u have a lovely day💘

[jupitercl0uds-art]

anyway 2024 art summary!!!

14th january - surgamy hug (there are 3 versions but tumblr doesnt like when i put them all together for some reason, so here's the most normal one)

oh surgamy,,, ohhhhh,,, surgamy,,,,,,,,, surge,,,, and amy,,,,, ohhhhh

5th february - pov silver comes out to you

honestly i think silver looks really weird here but it was kinda the point. shame about the rainbow because everything else is really nice

22nd march - espilver dekuyama redraw

in retrospect the apple looks really goofy in proportion to everything else but whatever i had fun with it. i love my silver gijinka so much ughhhhhh

24th april - chaotix coloured sketch

goddddd i love the chaotix... this is one of my favourite drawings of them ive ever done and alas this was prior to becoming a can user vector truther

18th may - glitch the rat's one true love

from my glitch the rat daily blog, the first full illustration i did with my dip pen!!! glitch im so sorry i messed up. my darling creation i will hopefully try again in 2025 and likely fail because im pretty sure i have mocks around your birthday. also i love this because if i made this now the textures would have vastly improved now that im more comfortable with my dip pen

17th june - team chaotix doodles

they're detectives you want on your side! once again UGH i love these... i think this was 3 days after i finished high school for good. i was so happy and i'd basically just draw all the time cause i didnt have to do anything. thankfully sixth form holidays start earlier than high school holidays so i get this again for the next 2 years!!!

5th july - visions

there was SO MUCH art from july that it was kinda difficult to pick but i think this is one of the hardest pieces ive ever made (tbf it was my twitter pfp for several months). i love drawing in this slightly flatter art style because i actually finish my pieces

10th august - glitch ps2

there's loads of art from august that i just didnt post because well. i did A LOT of art in august and i was also on the move a lot so it was inconvenient. the funny thing about this is its off model. i forgot its sleeves :( but hey i still love this one

23rd september - tiger and moonlight w/ water soluble fineliner

september was the complete opposite. i didnt quite burn out, i DID do a lot of art, but a lot of that was for a level (which i cant post online yet) and i was just exhausted. like i would literally fall over from walking too much and i redeveloped my athsma. thankfully im back into the swing of things now lol. ANYWAY!!! tiger and moonlight are so beloved to me... im always shy to enter poll brackets and this was my first one so i was extra shy but god i wouldnt have it any other way... whole entire canon of an au edited because i love someone else's fankid so much. in that sense i feel kinda bad that i didnt really do much for blake because she was really cool but alas.

6th october - murders

effectively this was my first time making a composition after actually learning about what makes a good composition and. oh wow. i was so right. i do think i rendered amy a bit weird but at the same time i kinda like it that way??? and i dont care because the framing and colours... just too good. also yeah this piece is called murders in my files because it was based on the miracle musical song i just never called it that online (which was really annoying when looking for it)

3rd november - but we stay silly

incredibly personal piece despite the fact it doesn't look like it. for anyone who cant be bothered to find out (or can't remember if you actually did see it) this was about overcoming trauma relating to my sexual assault, hence the reason they're in school uniform and silver's hair is cut. also hence the panromantic pride pin despite the fact i think silver is gay

5th december - 'tis the season

1,000,000/10. my magnum opus. incredible. amazing.

thanks to everyone who's been here this year!!! i think, once again, ive really grown as an artist after how stagnant late 2021-mid 2023 was. im really starting to get Serious with it now, seeing as im in my a level years and will (hopefully) be going to art school soon. hopefully 2025 will be even better!

[zumpietoo]

Silly's Weak Return....

With the lamest, most heelarious reason for disappearing....(and a similarly sad reason to be excited for Peepster "content" again)

Pretty sure this is Silly, herself to begin with or, you know, janASS, buuutt.....

Umm....moar like it took you THIS fucking long to come up with something, Silly? And you then proceed to fill your tumblr with all sorts of "nuh-uuuhhhhh".....

Dude.....how absolutely amaaaazzinnnggg you met your twu wuv right at Turkey Day, so that it occupied you endlessly, just as all your obsessive dreems of a Cabana Pee Thanksgiving disappeared....

Also....Silly, sex doesn't take all that long/can only be done but so many times (called "shagged out") and I don't think fapping furiously to the Peepster's poster counts, Sweatie....

And did you ditch YOUR loving, clearance slipper giving fam-fam for your new vibrator? You know, inside PP's ass?

I believe Reese Witherspoon says "y'all like it's normal".....didn't realice SHE was a hillbilly, especially given how she presents that aspirational southern lifestyle you're obsessed with pretending to....

Again, not upset in the least (but do keep insisting to feel better, Sweatie).....and gee, IDK.....I didn't realice

Buying new appliances

Fixing Thanksgiving with old

Working 2 jobs

Giving notice/arranging ending shit at one

Visiting my mom

Xmas decorating

Preparing for 3 days of various deliveries (we're at day 2, for those keeping score)

Finding shit/shopping

Looking after Claudia, cuz sick

Having a teensie flu, myself

And everything else I do

Equals "nothing else", but what do I know?

And yet here you guys are, all over this like white on rice....having failed in sending hate obsessively over that time period, too (oh yeah, I forgot about listing that!).

You seem back already.....plus shouldn't you be prepping for finals and shit...but yeah, good to see we've already reached the "I'm too good for this" excuse.....

Whelp, the rest of us will be watching....

TBF, this IS likely, buuuut....so? Plus wasn't she supposed to be at the Gotham awards?

There's a ton of nu-janASS reassuring herself, thusly, but this one is particularly heelarious....

Cuzzz.....PP hates her family, did acknowledge she was there (and ran off to "kill time" alone in her room). She knew there was no need to post anything about it, because they posted no shortage of pics of her looking pained, awkward and supremely embarrassed. Over the course of an entire 3/4 days.....

Sooo.....I guess you're now saying PP finds Jack vile, is embarrassed to be associated with him, avoids him even during visits, etc???? Cuz that works, too.

Again, fact is, up thru Halloween, Peepster was endlessly breadcrumbing, Power Coupling and calling the paps. Since then, neither has posted anything of the other in any way. Cabana Boi's gone nearly ded silent (unlike him), PP's endlessly posting random bullshit for attention, but nothing of Sweatboi....

Do the math....

[vtori73]

What I don't get is why people follow someone then just refuse to interact with anything you share or post, like... WHY bother? Why are you there?

Maybe I'm asking for too much but I hate it when people do that, at worst it makes me anxious because it makes me get paranoid and wonder why you're even HERE to begin with and at the very least just annoy/ticks me off. Someone who I used to have as a follower defended these types of people saying they don't use Tumblr to interact with others and just watch which I get to an extent but WHY is it that 99% of the time anyone who decides to follow ME is the type to NEVER interact with anything I share or post... make it make sense. Like, seriously because hardly anyone ever follows me I check out people who do try to follow me and normally these are people who use Tumblr the normal way, they share and post stuff regularly so... why follow me? Why? Do most people just follow people and never interact with them? What's the point of doing that though???

Like, I could share cute animals and they wouldn't interact, video game stuff, nothing, political stuff nada, personal stuff, oh you better believe they ignore that so like... why? Am I just a person people LOVE to ignore? It feels like this happens outside of social media too, I guess it's just me, I guess I'm just really boring or something or just THAT bad at using social media which... I don't know how that's possible I don't do anything THAT weird/different but I guess it is enough to make me uncool, boring, annoying or whatever to everyone else.

Maybe I take it too seriously but I like curating my experience here on Tumblr and for a while I let people who never interact follow like anyone else but I had enough one day and now I kick off new followers pretty quickly. Maybe I should give them time but tbf and honest... I don't give A SINGLE shit! And I'm allowed to, no one has a right to follow me, if I don't want you here, I'm allowed to fuckin kick you out of my space.

And, even for the few people who did interact with me, the few who actually seemed like friends they would eventually stop, had more important people come into their lives so they would eventually, pretty quickly, get tired of me and stop mostly interacting with me so I would leave and soft block them so they weren't following me anymore. Not necessarily malicious, there was one time in which I just felt we weren't compatible people anymore (politics basically), but regardless I would leave and maybe that hurts people but tbh why does it matter? They barely knew me, and maybe I do it too quickly now as a coping mechanism, reject people before they reject because that's all people ever do to me, I'm allowed that though, it's not like things are much different from back when I didn't do this sort of thing. And, maybe I also rationalize it at times, once one person seemed really happy with their new life so I exited because I didn't really seem like I fit into it and just figured they would still be happy with my presence/that I would mean much if I left/I wanted to give them space for their new life. But again, I was probably just rationalizing my actions. I just have grown tired of being rejected...

Also... these people were usually the ones who interacted with ME first, then like clockwork they would lose interest in me but for the people I interacted with first... they never seemed to want to be my friend. I respect that, I respect their boundaries but... I'm not going to sit here and lie that it doesn't hurt being rejected like that. Also no, I don't LITERALLY ask if we can be friends, I know that's not how that works.

...oh well, just time and time again God or faith or the universe or WHATEVER prove to me I'm only really meant for loneliness. At least I'm more used to it now.

[vesperaink]

That's awesome.

I started off a hermitcraft main myself, from all the way back in season 4 through one Mumbo Jumbo and have been watching since. I did watch some evo too, through Netty, although I never rly mained it. I followed the hermits into the traffic series and poked my face into a littol bit of empires through pearl. Dsmp i poked my head into through Techno and various fan content (i'm looking at you, Deadpoint), although this was way way way after the finales, and I feel like I fell through into an active archeological dig site. I'm on the same page as you for the qsmp, really. I mostly have only watched Wilbur's streams tho and gain most of the rest of my knowledge through tumblr dash clips. Very much so a fly on the wall.

Anyway. Tango In The Hole is one of the most entertaining things ever tbf even tho i catch most streams on vod replay but tbh that's almost better cause I can listen to the Tango Noises as much as I want hahahah.

Oh wow!! Thats so cool you've been watching since s4! I didn't get into it at the time but I liked Mumbo's redstone tutorials and briefly watched a bit of a hermitcraft ep during s5 to see what it was and thought it was just a regular MC Lets Play. Now i know theyre so Not Normal and I'm right back here with a different redstone blorbo lol. Funny how the universe works that way

really I've only been in mcyt fandom for like over a year now? so very much feel you on watching the backlog! dsmp has so much content, that during its hype I didn't want to get into it, so I can only imagine how it felt getting into it after it was done o7 I like seeing its fan content tho (Which I DID READ DEADPOINT BTW IT WAS VERY COOL AND IM A LITTLE OBSESSED-) we can hold hands on the qsmp wall lol I like catching Tango live for the chat but vod replays are always fun to go back and play the noises again so you're so real for that :D

[oozywoozycon]

okay so like shen yuan absolutely thinks of himself as a feminist or at least as not sexist bare minimum not misogynistic BUT he also thinks he’s a ‘very straight man with absolutely no feelings about gender no way i’m so cool and normal about all of these things as a normal man and everyone knows normal men like women and since i am both normal and a man obviously i do too what do you mean what is my definition of normal? normal is normal i’m normal no i’m so normal ask me anything i’ll be soooo normal about it’ and all that to say he’s delusional BUT

he’s well meaning mostly

but even looking past his protagonist/binghe blinders, his interpretations of female behavior are wildly sexist over half the time. ALSO I LOVE SY AND MOST OF HIS INTERPRETATIONS STAY IN HIS THOUGHTS AND IN THE END ARE MORE ABOUT HIS EXTREME INTERNALIZED HOMOPHOBIA THAN THEY ARE ABOUT WOMEN BUT JUST BC THESE THOUGHTS ARE COMING FROM A PLACE OF SELF DENIAL DOES NOT MEAN THESE THOUGHTS DO NOT OCCUR

why am i having so many feelings ab this rn

i am too high and too tired to pull out text examples but just like the ways he interprets nyy’s behavior and also the way he thinks of almost every female character as ‘for binghe’, as his wives, as narrative side plot s and tbf he thinks of most things in this world as being created solely for binghe and also he’s a legendarily unreliable narrator even when it comes to his actual real thoughts but he struggles to conceptualize women as smth not secondary to a man

now this largely is likely to make up for the fact that sy is not actually attracted to women but wants to think he is so he plays these little mind games where he’s like well obviously i’m into women bc i can imagine a man and woman together and as a man that means i’m the man which means i like women even tho the woman in this scenario is actually him and he’s staring down this other man’s pecs okay i’m too tired to continue this man has so much to him and if i reread any of this i would likely disagree w myself, delete it all, and rewrite an oppositional argument where i would once again decide my minds changed after completing and so i will rewrite… etc etc (also source re: i’m straight i can imagine sex bt man and woman is me bc i’m gay and use to think bc i watched porn i had to like dick at least a little bc i would only ever watch porn where you could really only see the dick of the man and i did not examine further the fact that my preference was due to that meaning the woman was in more / most / all of the shot and the man nearly invisible / nothing but a dick and the focus was all on the woman. lmaooooooo i was like ‘yeah i’m just imagining myself as the woman!!!!!!! imagining her boobs and the way she feels and the sounds she makes and OBVIOUSLY IM TALKING AB MYSELF IN HER POSITION WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT’ anyways this memory just hit me so hard and that delusion just feels so quintessentially shen yuan to me that in my brain now that is also his process (tho prob his main defense is that meme of ‘i respect women so much i would never fuck one that’s how much respect i have’ but also this is absolutely one line of defense i’m so right)

jfc why are tumblrs paragraph breaks so large and inconsistent

glanced back and realized i never actually really got to my point that’s fine