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Trooper wallpapers for your enjoyment 🧡💙🩵
#commander Cody#arc trooper fives#captain Howzer#tcw cody#cody tcw#cody tbb#star wars arc trooper fives#fives tcw#tcw fives#Howzer tbb#tbb Howzer#Howzer#fives#cody#star wars#coldbrewarts#my art#artist#my artwork#art#my artwrok#the clone wars#the bad batch
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My episode pitches for Tales of the Clones:
(Mr. Filoni pls feel free to steal all of these I require no credit only more clone footage pls my good sir)
- how Cody got his scar
- Wolffe losing his eye
- What happened to Cody after he went AWOL
- Kix’s story from looking into the chips to waking up 50 years later
- why Emerie was created and how she got to be working for Hemlock
- Jango meeting some of the first clones
- how Gregor, Rex, and Wolffe ended up going into retirement together
- what Cody has been doing since he left the Empire
- how Cody and Rex met
- more of the 104th and Plo Koon
- how tf Gregor survived that explosion
- The Bad Batch as cadets
- Cody’s whereabouts after he defected
- Cut meeting Suu
- Bad Batch raising Omega on Pabu when she’s a teenager
- a look into what Cody has been up to since we last saw him
- Echo finding out about Fives
- where is Cody
- Captain Howzer during the Clone Wars
- C O D Y.
#WHERE IS CODY DAVE HUH#WHERE IS HE#WHAT HAPPENED TO HIM#TELL US#tbb#the bad batch#tcw#the clone wars#I have more ideas but I really needed to make this point about Cody#tcw commander cody#commander cody#commander wolffe#tcw commander wolffe#tcw captain rex#tcw fives#tcw Kix#captain Rex#tbb crosshair#tbb hunter#tbb tech#tbb omega#tbb wrecker#tbb echo#tcw echo#plo koon#captain howzer#tbb howzer#captain gregor
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Been a while since I last drew him ❦
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✨thigh holsters✨
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#repost cuz it didnt post to the tags *sigh*#tbb spoilers#tbbedit#swedit#star wars#tbb howzer#sw animation#captain howzer#clone troopers#the bad batch#prequelsnet#usermelanie#userbariss#swsource#starwarsblr#usernik#userelio#is this porn?#cuz these holsters got me in a chokehold...#myedits*
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What I wouldn't give for an animated "blooper reel" for Bad Batch:
- Hunter leaning up against a wall between takes, dozing off and almost falling over
- Tech looking down at his data pad while on the move through a forest set and walking straight into a tree
- Wrecker sitting down on the wrong chair and accidentally breaking it
- Echo flubbing his lines on purpose to make the others laugh while he keeps his own expression dead serious
- Crosshair not laughing when Echo flubs his lines, instead silently matching Echo's serious expression with the take ultimately turning into an intense staring contest
- Cut to Crosshair in his trailer loudly singing karaoke and playing air guitar with the prop rifle
- Omega is filming ALL of it
- Also Omega is the first to break character when anyone messes up a line
- Also Omega starting the cast conga line/dance party
- Rex, during his reveal in "The Clone Conspiracy," jokingly complaining that removing his cloak hood messes up his hair
- Several Howzer scenes needing to be reworked because donning/doffing his helmet actually messes up his hair cue Crosshair shouting from the sidelines "Just shave your head already"
- Gregor is... Gregor
- Phee being the pinnacle of professionalism while on camera while also being responsible for 99% of the pranks and shenanigans on set
#the bad batch#star wars the bad batch#blooper reels#also need one of these for clone wars#and rebels#tbb hunter#tbb tech#tbb echo#tbb wrecker#tbb crosshair#tbb omega#tbb rex#tbb howzer#tbb gregor#tbb phee
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✨Air Show✨
#just rewatched the ryloth episodes I really didn’t appreciate them when I first saw them#howzer really completes those episodes at the end it’s so nicely done#him being protective over Hera is so 🥺#my art#star wars#sw tbb#the bad batch#tbb#tbb howzer#captain howzer#hera syndulla#star wars rebels
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Star Wars + Text Posts & Headlines Star Wars: The Bad Batch (10/?)
#tbb s3 spoilers#tbb s3#the bad batch season 3#tbb#the bad batch#tbb omega#tbb crosshair#tbb wolffe#tbb howzer#tbb clone x#tbb gregor#i think its gregor?#sw tbb#star wars#tbb memes#TBB text post#star wars text post#mine
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random howzer sketch bc i felt like it
#star wars#the bad batch#tbb howzer#captain howzer#aviiart#i love him sm#me whenever i like a character: aight into the soup you go#my brain is like a glitchy roomba tonight istg
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Howzer moodboard🩵
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To the General
Pairing: Howzer x fem!Reader / Howzer x Jedi!Reader
Words: 14,310
Tags/Warnings: 18+ only! angst, hurt/comfort, themes of grief/death/mourning, some blood/gore, depression, hallucinations, unrequited feelings, mutual pining, smut, unprotected sex, dirty talk, fingering, oral (m and f receiving), some light dom/sub dynamics, a little cockwarming
Summary: It's been over a year since Howzer has lost his General, and yet, the ghost of your memory still haunts him. His guilt and grief threaten to swallow him whole, until Rex returns to the base with a surprise visitor.
A/N: Reposting because I forgot my taglist. 🤦♀️ No excuse for the word count I fear. I just love Jedi/Clone forbidden love with all my heart, and I love writing dramatic reunions even more.
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Howzer doesn’t remember how it happened.
Their arrival on Ryloth had come on the heels of an overdrawn battle on Bothawui. The entire battalion was teetering on the edge of exhaustion by the time they had boarded The Eclipse. Their hopes of an extended shore leave were quickly dashed as it was announced by order of the Jedi Council and the Chancellor himself that they would be sent to occupy Ryloth indefinitely.
The General had tried to make the most of it. She’d arranged for the mess to cook the finest meal they could get their hands on, which admittedly wasn’t more than some fresh meats and root vegetables, but the crew didn't complain. And if Howzer caught the smell of alcohol floating about when they walked to their stations, he didn't say anything about it.
Still, no amount of finery or good cheer could hide the truth: the crew was worn ragged and the battalion was ready to snap. The men resolved to keep pushing on for the sake of their General, who had taken their heavy losses the hardest. That night, she’d broken into tears over the new helmets lining their memorial wall, a wall that was nearly full.
Howzer had been with her, had stood with her and her tears. He had seen the General in every state of grief, of anger and pain. He'd also seen her at her very best. He'd seen her bright smile and heard her warm laugh. He'd been there for the moments of victory and the moments of defeat.
She was his General and his closest friend, his guiding star, and he would do anything for her.
Howzer doesn’t remember how it happened, but he does remember her. He remembers everything about her.
His first memory is her as a young commander, and the first time he saw her. It was on Kamino, and the first time she had visited. She'd been there with her Master, who had come to assess the cadets' progress. They had all lined up in neat rows for the inspection. Howzer remembers how tall she had looked in her uniform and cape despite how all the men towered over her.
Howzer can't remember what she said or did. But he can recall her eyes and the warmth in them as she walked past them. He had wanted her to look at him.
His second memory is the first time they met, months later. It was shortly after the start of the war, and the 318th was still in its infancy. The General had just arrived to pick her new battalion up, and as her new Captain, Howzer was part of the honor guard.
Howzer doesn’t remember the words they spoke, only that she was kind and her voice was warm, and when she smiled, the whole world seemed to brighten.
In the years that followed, he got to know her and became her aide. They were together almost every day. They spent time with their men and led them through the horrors of war. She was a natural leader, charismatic and inspiring, and it wasn't long before Howzer was completely devoted to her.
But the war continued, and so did the death. They had lost men and friends, and Howzer had to watch the General suffer each time. Her pain was his. How could it not be?
She was the best thing in his life, his bright light in the darkness, and he was in love with her.
Howzer doesn’t remember when he began thinking of her that way. He thinks he might’ve always loved her, always wanted her. Maybe from the moment he saw her in that corridor.
All he knew is that he'd loved her in every possible way a man could love a woman, just as he knew that his love would never be reciprocated.
But it didn't matter.
As long as he was with her, Howzer would pretend, and he was okay with that. He could live with loving her from afar and keeping his feelings in check. As her Captain, his job was to support her, and he would be the best damn Captain she'd ever had.
He could dream of a different reality where she returned his feelings, one where they were not at war, and maybe one where he was not her clone trooper. He would dream of a life where he could hold her and touch her, where he could kiss her and whisper how much he loved her.
But those were dreams, and nothing more.
And reality was very different now.
Now, the General is nothing more than a memory.
It’s been long enough that pieces of her are starting to fade from his mind, and he hates it. He wants to hang on to her as long as possible, but he knows that his memories are all he has left. He doesn’t have a holo or picture of her. He only has the images in his mind and the broken piece of nova crystal he kept tucked away in his pocket.
Howzer doesn't remember how it happened.
But he knows it’s his fault.
Howzer is the one who let her down. He's the reason she died. He must be, even if he can't remember it, because he can't accept any other reality. He was her Captain and her right-hand man, her closest friend and her most devoted soldier. If she died, it was because he had failed her, and he will never forgive himself for it.
Maybe he deserves to forget.
That thought is worse than the one of her death.
There was a time when he had wondered if his love was a sickness, something to be ashamed of and hidden away. He didn't want his brothers to know and judge him, and he didn't want her to know, either. He'd never acted on his desires. He'd never told her, and maybe that's why this is so much worse.
Maybe this is a punishment, and one he deserves.
He knows he must have done something wrong, something terrible, because no man would be this cursed unless they deserved it. The nightmares, the guilt, the emptiness, it had to be some kind of retribution for his transgressions.
He's tried to forget. He's tried to move on. He's tried to be a better man, a better clone. He's tried to do everything that a good soldier should, but no matter what he does, no matter how hard he tries, his mind always drifts back to her. His thoughts always wander to his memories. He can't shake her. He doesn't know how to. He's never known how.
Every time he closes his eyes to sleep, he sees her. She's the same as the last time he saw her, with her armor and her hair up in its braid, and she is beautiful. Howzer is so happy to see her again, so relieved that she's not gone.
But she is, and he has to tell her.
He tries, but the words don't come out right. Or maybe it's just that he can't say them, that he still doesn't want to accept what had happened after all this time. But the words are stuck in his throat, and his eyes burn, and Howzer knows she's waiting for him to answer her.
And he can't.
She's waiting for him, and he can't.
She deserves to know the truth. She needs to know that she died, that he failed her, and that her death is on his hands.
Howzer can't look at her. He can't face her.
He closes his eyes and waits for her to turn away. He waits for her to leave him, because he doesn't deserve her.
She doesn’t.
Instead, she steps forward and takes his hands into hers. He flinches at her touch, because she shouldn’t be here. She isn't real. She's just another figment of his imagination, his punishment, and he wants her to stop. He can't do this anymore.
"Howzer," she says. "Howzer, look at me."
And he does. He can't help himself. Her face is starting to blur in his memory, he can't remember the exact shade of her eyes, and he doesn't want to forget. Not yet. He opens his eyes and looks at her, but he knows what he'll find.
Blood.
Her blood.
On his hands, on his face, on his chestplate.
There's so much of it, and he can't stop staring at it, at the way it coats her armor and drips onto the floor. He can't look away. He can't do anything.
"Look at me, Howzer," she says again.
But he can't. He can't do it.
He can't look at her, not like this. He can't stand the thought of seeing her face covered in blood, her lifeless eyes staring at him, her body cold and broken and gone.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry," he whispers. "It's all my fault."
"No," she says.
She doesn't say anything else, and Howzer wants to scream. He wants to cry. He wants her to yell at him and berate him, to curse him and hate him. But when he finally gains the courage to look her in the eye, there's nothing there. She's gone.
It's the worst thing he could've imagined.
He's alone.
Last night’s nightmare plays over and over again in his mind as he stands at the holotable, looking over the map and trying not to think of the General.
It's hard. It's always been hard, but it's gotten worse over the last few months. The dreams are more frequent, and the pain is more intense. He doesn't know how to stop them, or if they will ever stop.
He thought it would get better when he joined Rex's group, that he would find some semblance of peace with the other clones fighting the good fight, but he was wrong.
There is no peace for him, not after what he did.
The others are talking around him, but Howzer is only half listening. It's the usual stuff: what their next move will be, how many supplies they have, and the list goes on. Rex is expected to return from a meeting with Senator Chuchi any minute, and this meeting is more about making sure the captain is updated on what he missed.
But the details escape Howzer. He's distracted by his thoughts, and his guilt is eating at him. It's all he can think about, and he can't shake the feeling that he doesn't deserve to be here.
"Howzer."
The sound of his name brings him back to reality, and he realizes everyone is looking at him.
"Uh, sorry," he says. "What was the question?"
Echo studies him. His gaze is intense, and Howzer has the distinct impression that he's being read. It's a disconcerting feeling, one that he's felt more than a few times in the last couple months since his rescue, and it makes him feel transparent. Like his armor is gone and his emotions are on display.
But that can't be the case, because Howzer hasn't told him what happened.
No one knows the truth, not even the men. Howzer hasn't told anyone about his part in his General's death, and he's not planning to either. There's no point in dredging up the past. He knows he’s not the only clone with guilt about what happened to the Jedi, what they had done.
He’s just the only one who can’t seem to let it go.
"I asked if you were alright," Echo says. "You've seemed a little off the last few days.”
Howzer nods.
"Yeah, I'm fine," he says. "Just a little tired."
The lie slips off his tongue easily, and it's one he's told more than a few times before. He's not fine, and he hasn't been since that day, but there's no need to burden his brothers with his problems.
Echo doesn't look convinced, and he's about to open his mouth to ask another question when Rex finally arrives. The captain's entrance is followed by a chorus of greetings and welcomes, and the tension in the room dissipates. The men are happy to see him, and Howzer is thankful for the distraction.
The Captain greets the men, and then he turns to Howzer.
"Howzer," Rex says. "Do you mind if I speak to you privately?"
"Of course not, Captain," Howzer answers.
Rex leads Howzer out of the command center and down the corridor. The walk is silent, and Howzer can feel the tension building between them. Rex hasn't said a word, and he has no idea why he wants to talk to him. Maybe it's about his recent performance, or lack thereof. He hasn't been the most reliable or helpful lately.
Howzer is starting to worry in earnest when they turn, moving away from the section of the compound that holds Rex's makeshift office and toward the doors leading out to the landing zone. Walking slightly in front of him, Rex is tense, his shoulders stiff and his jaw set. Whatever he has to say, it must be serious.
Rex finally stops in front of the closed blast doors and turns to Howzer. His expression is neutral, and it's impossible to tell what's going on in his head.
"Rex," Howzer begins, unable to bear the silence any longer, "if this is about my work, I understand. I haven't been on top of things the last few days, and if you need to put someone else on comms, I—"
Rex puts his hand up.
"That's not why I asked you out here, Howzer," Rex says. "There's someone here you need to see."
Howzer raises an eyebrow, confused.
"I don't understand," he says. "Who's here?"
"Just follow me."
Rex punches in a code, and the doors slide open. The light from outside fills the hallway, and Howzer blinks at the sudden brightness. He steps out into the landing zone, following Rex into the sunlight. The air is warm and dry, and he can already feel the heat radiating from the cracked duracrete beneath his boots.
"What are we doing out here, Rex?" he asks.
Rex doesn't answer, just keeps walking across the landing zone toward the ship. The Remora stands alone on the platform, ramp already drawn. Howzer squints in an effort to see inside the darkness of the vessel, looking for a spot of white plastoid among the shadows.
But what steps forward isn’t a clone at all.
Howzer recognizes you instantly, and he suddenly feels like he’s about to faint.
His vision tunnels, and the world tilts on its axis. He can hear his heart pounding in his ears, and his breath is coming too fast, too hard. There's a roaring sound, like the sound of a rushing river, and it drowns out everything else. He feels sick, and his legs are shaking.
It can't be real. It can't be.
But it is.
There’s a loud clang, and he dimly realizes his helmet has fallen from his hands. It's lying on the ground now, at his feet, but he can't seem to find the strength to pick it up. All he can do is stare.
You descend the ramp slowly and place a hesitant foot onto the ground. The corners of your lips curl into an uncertain smile, while Howzer remains frozen, trapped in disbelief.
You take a step forward, and he still doesn't move. He's rooted to the spot, his heart racing, and he's afraid.
Howzer knows he's hallucinating. He's been here before. This isn't the first time you've appeared to him, not the first time you've looked at him with those warm eyes and called his name. But every time he reaches out, the mirage vanishes. He's tried. He's tried so hard to reach you.
He knows he's going to wake up, and you will be gone again.
It doesn't stop him from wanting to believe that it's real. That you're here.
Your smile falters when you notice his helmet on the ground, and Howzer watches your eyes search his. They're the same as they've always been, bright and kind, and full of concern. It's too much. It's always been too much.
"Howzer," you say. "Are you okay?"
"No," he says.
You step closer, and Howzer instinctively backs away. You stop. Your brows furrow, and your eyes fill with hurt, and it makes his stomach twist. He wants to go to you, to pull you close and hold you, but he doesn't. He can't.
This isn't real. None of it is real.
He has to tell you.
"What do you mean? What's wrong?" you ask.
You're still walking toward him, and Howzer has to force himself not to run. He has to stop this before it goes any further. He can't let himself fall prey to his delusions, not again.
"No, it's not real," he says.
You frown. "What's not real?"
"You," he whispers. "You're not real. None of this is."
You stop, your eyes wide and worried. "Howzer, what are you talking about?"
He ignores you. He has to make you understand.
"You're dead," he says. His voice breaks on the last word, and it comes out as a choked sob.
The words hang between the two of you, and Howzer braces himself for the inevitable. He knows what will happen. You'll disappear. He's seen it happen enough times, and he can't bear to go through it again.
He closes his eyes and tries to focus, to steady his breathing and keep the tears at bay.
But when he opens his eyes, you're still there.
And then the impossible happens.
You move forward, and he doesn't stop you. He doesn't flinch or back away when you reach out and put your hands on his shoulders. He can't.
Your touch is solid. Real.
You're real.
His legs give way, forcing him to collapse heavily onto his knees. He can't bear the weight anymore. The grief, the guilt, the shame. It's too much.
“I failed you, General,” he says around the lump in his throat threatening to choke him. Howzer squeezes his burning eyes shut, willing the tears away, but they come regardless. He feels his body tremble, his shoulders shaking as he fights against the sob rising in his chest. He tries to take a deep breath, but his lungs won't cooperate, and all he manages is a choked gasp.
“I…I’m so sorry.”
"Howzer, Howzer, please look at me."
It's not a request.
Your voice is commanding, the way he remembers, and it's enough to coax him into opening his eyes. Looking at you directly is almost too painful to bear, like looking directly at Ryloth’s sun, but he does.
Tears are streaming down your face, but a gentle smile still curves your lips. The hand on his shoulder moves to cup his face, thumb tracing the marred skin of his cheek. Unbidden, the memory of you holding him when he received the wound years ago comes to mind. Howzer hadn't seen it then, but the affection is clear now.
"It's okay," you say, softly.
"It's not," he replies. "I shouldn't have let you go."
Your hand moves to his jaw, and you gently tilt his chin upwards. He wants to lean into the touch, to bask in the warmth of your skin, but he can't. He doesn't deserve this. Not after what he did.
"I should've known. I should've—"
"Stop," you cut him off.
Your voice is firm, but the hand on his jaw is soft and gentle, and your eyes are still kind. He wants so badly to believe that this is real, that you're really here, but the doubts linger. He can't let himself fall into the illusion. He can't let himself lose you again.
"You can't blame yourself for this, Howzer. It wasn't your fault."
"I failed you."
"No, Howzer," you say. "You didn't."
He doesn't know what to say. Your hand is still on his face. Your fingers are trembling.
“I forgive you," you whisper the words softly, and it's more than he deserves. "I forgave you long ago."
It's too much.
His composure breaks, and he wraps his arms around your hips, burying his face in your stomach. His tears are hot and wet, and they soak through the fabric of your shirt. His sobs are loud and broken, and he can barely breathe, but he can't stop, and you don't push him away. The hand on his cheek cups the back of his head, and your other arm wraps around his shoulders.
"I'm so sorry," he whispers.
He isn't sure if you hear him. He's not sure if he wants you to. But you must, because your grip tightens, and your hand runs through his hair.
He holds you, clinging to you like a lifeline, and lets the tears flow. He can't hold back the sobs, the pain, the anger. All of the emotions are coming to the surface, and they won't be held back any longer.
He cries for you, for the pain you endured. For the loss and the hurt. He cries for himself, for the guilt and the shame. He cries because it hurts, and because he's relieved, and because he can't believe this is real and he's so kriffing happy to see you again.
When his tears finally stop, you're still there, still holding him, and he's still kneeling in front of you. His shoulders are stiff, his muscles sore, but he can't find the strength to move.
He doesn't want to.
He wants to stay like this forever.
Eventually, you break the silence.
“Is there somewhere we can go to speak in private?” you ask quietly. Your fingers run through the buzzed hair at the back of his head and linger on the scar there, the one he doesn’t have a story for. A shiver runs down his spine before his brain catches up to your question.
Howzer nods and clears his throat.
"Yeah," he says, his voice hoarse. "My room. We can talk there."
You help him stand, and he takes a moment to collect himself, wiping his eyes. When he looks at you again, he feels a hot sting of embarrassment. It's been a long time since he's let himself fall apart like this, and he's not sure how to act, and he's grateful there's no one else around to witness it.
You don't seem bothered by his breakdown. You smile, and it's soft and warm, and his heart does a strange flip.
"Are you okay?" you ask, and your concern is so genuine that it almost brings fresh tears to his eyes. His emotions feel raw, like an open wound, and he's not sure how much more he can take before he's completely overwhelmed, but when he answers this time, he speaks the truth.
"I will be," he says as he kneels to collect his helmet.
You nod, and there's a hint of relief in your eyes, but the smile on your face never wavers as you step up to his side. He’s surprised to feel your hand threading through the crook of his elbow before he realizes it was he who had held out his arm for you. A force of habit he didn't know he still had, but one that was very welcome.
It had always been your way, before. To walk beside him instead of ahead.
He takes a deep breath and straightens his shoulders.
"Shall we?"
"Yes," you say, smiling.
As the two of you begin to make your way across the landing zone, Howzer can't help but marvel at how natural this feels. The familiarity of your presence at his side, the soft pressure of your hand against his arm, and the sound of your breathing.
All of it feels so right, and Howzer thinks it must be a dream, a hallucination, something, because this is too perfect. It can't be real. It's been far too long for it to be real.
But the weight of your arm on his and the sound of your footsteps at his side feel real, more real than anything he's ever experienced. He's never had a hallucination this vivid before. He hopes it's not just a dream, but he keeps his eyes on you just to make sure.
You look different. Older, maybe. But also more beautiful.
It's a silly thought, but it's the truth. There's a certain peace and calmness to your expression, and it suits you. You look content, like you've finally found what you were looking for, and Howzer feels a rush of joy.
You're alive.
He still can't quite believe it, and he finds himself staring openly at you. He knows the path to his room like the back of his hand, and he could probably make the trek with his eyes closed. But he doesn't.
Instead, he keeps his eyes on you, memorizing every detail, every curve of your face and every twitch of your mouth. He's desperate to fill in the gaps in his memory, the details he's lost and the moments that slipped away. He doesn't want to forget again.
Your head is on a swivel as you take in the equipment and clones bustling around the enclosed space inside the temple. It reminds him of your first day, and he can't help but smile. You haven't changed at all.
Echo and Rex are in the command center along with a handful of other clones. They watch as the two of you walk through, their faces showing a range of expressions from surprise to confusion to suspicion. But they say nothing, and Howzer is grateful. He knows how he looks, with his reddened eyes and blotchy cheeks. They’ll no doubt have questions later, but for now, they keep them to themselves.
“What you’ve built here is impressive,” you say as you give a friendly smile to Samson when you pass by. He does a double-take, his gaze moving from your face to your arm wrapped around Howzer's, and back to your face again.
Howzer smiles back and doesn't offer any explanation.
Samson isn't the only one looking. Several of the men stare, and Howzer can't help the small thrill of pride that courses through him at their wide-eyed looks.
It's a silly thought, he knows. He shouldn't feel good about being seen with you, not after everything that's happened. But he can't deny the satisfaction he feels at the thought that the men can see the two of you together again, and he wonders how many of them had guessed about his feelings.
Probably all of them.
"This is it," Howzer says as the two of you stop outside the door to the room he claimed as his own.
It's not much—a single bed, a locker, and a desk—but it's enough. It's a quiet place to escape to when the chaos of the galaxy around him becomes too much, though he hasn't spent much time in it since he arrived.
Howzer steps forward and places his hand on the panel, and the door slides open. He motions for you to enter first, and you do, letting go of his arm as you step into the room.
You take a moment to study your surroundings before your eyes land on the lone chair in the room. Howzer can tell what you're thinking. You're going to offer it to him, and he doesn't want it. He can't imagine sitting right now. His legs still feel like jelly and his whole body is still buzzing from the adrenaline of seeing you.
Instead, Howzer leans against the wall by the door and takes a deep breath, watching as you walk forward to examine his desk, your back to him.
The room is quiet, the only sound the faint buzzing of the lights above them. He can't hear the commotion outside. He can't even hear his own heartbeat. All he can hear is you, your soft, slow breathing and the gentle rustle of fabric as you move.
He hesitates to break the silence, but he has to know.
“How are you—how did you survive?” he asks. How are you alive, he wants to say. You shouldn’t be alive. The words stick in his throat.
You stiffen slightly, but you don't turn around. The latest report on their medical supplies is held loosely in your grasp, and Howzer watches the datapad tremble slightly.
“You truly don’t remember?” you ask softly, dropping the report back onto the desk. You pivot to face him, your back pressing into the metal edge, and he can't read your expression.
He swallows. His throat feels dry, and his heart is pounding in his ears.
No. He doesn’t remember. But he needs to.
He shakes his head, the motion almost imperceptible. “No, I…I remember we were speaking in your quarters. I can’t remember what about. There was an incoming transmission, and then…nothing.”
Whatever he said, it must not have been the right thing. Your eyes close as if in pain, your fists clenching at your sides. You inhale a sharp, shaky breath. The sight is almost enough to make him drop the subject. But the need to know is greater than the guilt.
“Please." He says your name quietly, hating the desperation that creeps into his voice. "I need to know.”
He realizes that he’s never called you by your first name before, at least not to your face. It had always been General. He thinks he likes the sound of it, and the way it makes your eyes fly open, surprise and a little bit of warmth filling their depths.
The seconds drag on as he waits for your response, the tension palpable between you. The longer he stares at you, the more he notices. Your jaw is sharper now, your skin slightly more tan. Your hair is the same, and so are your eyes, but there's a new air of maturity to you that hadn't been there before. He's not sure how he feels about the changes, only that he wishes he had been there to see them happen.
When you finally speak, the words are careful and measured. “I can show you, if you let me.”
"Show me?"
"If I'm allowed, I could—"
"Yes," he says. He doesn’t hesitate. He trusts you, and he needs to know what happened.
"Okay," you say, taking a step toward him. "This may hurt."
A moment of silent understanding passes between you before Howzer nods, steeling himself for whatever revelation awaits. You reach out tentatively, pausing a few inches away, and he closes his eyes.
Your fingers press into his temple, and he’s suddenly thrust back into your quarters on Ryloth.
“You seem upset,” your voice says, wavering as if underwater until the haze of the memory begins to lift around you.
The blurry shape of you comes into sharper focus as you move to sit on your bunk. Your beige robes have been discarded, revealing the sleeveless wrap tunic you wear underneath. Another hot evening on Ryloth meant you'd forgone decorum again, loosening the top to allow airflow to your sweat-slicked skin. He remembers admiring the strong lines of your biceps and valley of your breasts revealed with the motion.
He’s in the memory but not entirely, watching himself from the outside like a specter in the shadows. Howzer watches as he forces himself to look away from your body to stare out the window. He can feel the same tension, the same anxiety that gripped him then. He remembers the argument you had that morning. Remembers the hurt, the pain, the guilt. Remembers wanting to reach out, to hold you, but stopping himself.
“What’s on your mind?”
“You,” he answers honestly, for once. It’s a half-truth that sticks to his tongue. “Is it true that this will all be over soon?”
“I’ve felt it coming for a while now,” you say.
Your eyes drift to your hands, and he turns to watch you lace your fingers together tightly in your lap. “Count Dooku is dead. Obi-Wan has moved to engage General Grievous. Saesee and General Windu are arresting the Chancellor as we speak. The war very well may be over now.”
“I see.”
A sense of fatigue washes over him, and he leans against the wall to prop himself up. He wants to leave, to soak the feeling in while in the silence of his own barracks, but something stronger urges him to stay.
“Permission to speak freely, sir.”
“You always have my permission, Howzer,” you say earnestly. It had taken some getting used to, being addressed so informally. The first few times, he'd had to force himself not to jump to attention every time you called him by name. He quickly started to enjoy the intimacy of it, and the way the sound of his name on your lips made him shiver.
He sighs, rubbing his eyes with the palms of his hands. He doesn't know where to begin. The last few months have been hard, harder than most, and it's left him feeling raw and exhausted. He's never felt so torn before. Part of him is thrilled that the war is ending, but the other part, the larger, selfish part, is terrified.
“What will happen to us?” he asks, turning to look at you.
Your face is neutral, but he can tell by the set of your jaw that you're tense. The memory of you takes a moment to collect yourself before speaking.
"What do you mean?"
"After the war," he says, trying and failing to keep the edge of panic out of his voice. "What will happen to us?"
“The clones have fought honorably for the Republic. It’s the least we can do to provide for your future,” you reply. “You’ll be given pensions and housing on Coruscant for as long as you all wish. I expect some will continue their roles in reserve, while the rest will be free to choose their own path.”
He nods appreciatively. He has no idea what he would do with such freedom, but he's grateful all the same. The thought of no longer having a purpose terrifies him, but not nearly as much as the thought of losing you.
He should leave it at that, he should thank you and walk away. Howzer is watching the internal battle he faced on that day and screams at himself to leave. He should leave you be, to enjoy the brief respite the two of you are allowed.
But he can't. Not when this could be the last chance he ever gets.
“Thank you. But I…I meant us, sir.” Howzer gestures between the two of you.
Your eyes widen almost imperceptibly, but he can see he’s stunned you. He forges ahead, moving to stare at the wall behind you so he can maintain his courage. “We’ve been together so long, I can barely remember a time without you. Without this. I don't want it to end."
There's a pregnant pause as you struggle for a response, and the fear in the pit of his stomach grows.
“What are you saying?” you ask slowly.
“I’m saying I want more,” he says. He meets your gaze and steps forward, and you rise to your feet at the same time, your tunic fluttering around you.
“Us clones try not to think about the future, but I can't help it. And the only future I want is one with you. That is, if you want that too, sir."
His cheeks are flushed, and his heart is pounding, and he's so nervous. This is the most he's ever confessed, and it feels like the world is crashing down around him, but he means every word.
“Howzer…” Your voice breaks, and it sends a hammer to his heart. “I…I don’t know what to say.”
“Say you feel the same,” he says quickly. Howzer’s hand reaches out to grasp your bicep, thumb caressing the bare skin underneath his glove. He moves closer, and your breath hitches as you lean back, but not away.
Your eyes close, head tilting down. He waits with bated breath for you to say something, anything.
When you look up, your eyes are filled with tears, and his stomach drops. Your voice is so quiet, he can barely hear you.
“I feel afraid.”
It's like the wind has been knocked out of him. He opens his mouth to speak, to question you further, but his vambrace begins to ping, the message marked urgent. Howzer watches himself let go of you and turn to receive the transmission, and he feels like he's drowning.
No! He screams at himself. Don't take the call. He can't breathe, can't think, can't do anything but watch. You can't let this go. If you lose this chance, you'll never have another.
He's frozen, helpless to watch his past play out. You move toward the window to look out at the setting sun as Howzer opens the encrypted message.
“Execute Order 66,” the hooded figure on the holo speaks, its voice graveled and dark. In his memory, Howzer stares down at the projection with wide, unseeing eyes, before he begins to shake. Something is taking over, something he isn’t strong enough to control.
He knows what he must do.
A cold, heavy weight settles in the pit of his stomach, and his mind feels foggy, sluggish. Howzer looks up from the holo, and the room seems to spin. His hands are trembling, and his heart is pounding in his ears. He blinks hard, once, twice, trying to clear the fog, but it won't go away. A wave of nausea hits him, and his head feels like it's about to explode.
"Howzer?"
Your voice is far away, barely a whisper. You turn, your lips parted, brow creased.
He barely has time to get the words out, to fight the fog for just a second. Just one more second.
"Run," he croaks. He watches his eyes glaze over, watches the last remnants of his control slip through his fingers as he turns, drawing his blaster and firing.
You ignite your lightsaber just in time to deflect the shot aimed at your head. Behind the teal blue glow of your blade, your eyes are wide and confused.
“Howzer?” you ask incredulously. Your arms are raised, holding your saber aloft. But your stance is hesitant, your knees bent as if ready to run.
The blaster is in his hand, and it's pointed at you. It's an impossible weight. A weapon made for killing, a weapon he can't use on you. His hand trembles, and he wills himself to throw it, to break it.
But the fog in his mind is too thick, the orders too loud, and his body moves without him. The trigger clicks under his finger again and again. You duck and roll as a bolt goes whizzing over your head, deflecting another into the ceiling. Plaster and dust rain down, clouding the air around you. You cough, covering your nose and mouth with the back of your free hand.
"Howzer, please, it's me!" you cry, raising the hilt of your saber. It's not meant to fight, only to protect. A shield against the bolts that won't stop coming.
He's screaming at you, screaming for you to move, to run away, but the words aren't leaving his mouth. The next bolt grazes your shoulder, tearing your tunic. The pain makes you cry out. Howzer can see the wound, red and angry against your skin.
He hears the sound of footsteps and voices getting closer outside the door, but he’s too occupied with the need to fire his blaster to acknowledge them. Howzer’s mind screams that he’s trapped alone with a traitor to the Republic, a burning hatred he’s never felt propelling him forward to attack.
The small voice inside him begging him not to hurt you is silenced for good when an unseen force rips the weapon from his hand. His arm is held aloft above his head, and he struggles like an animal in a trap to free it.
His eyes are wide and feral. Yours are nothing but pleading.
"Please," you beg. "You're stronger than this. I know you are. I can't hurt you."
"Traitor," he spits, struggling against the invisible bonds. "You'll die a traitor."
There are tears streaming down your face now, and he can see the agony in your eyes. The anguish and pain. But also a strength, a determination he's seen many times.
Fists are pounding on the door, and it tears your attention away from him for a moment too long. Howzer’s arm frees itself, and he wastes no time reaching for the blaster carbine on his back. Your eyes snap back to him, and you quickly hold out both hands to push him back into the wall.
Even during training, you were remarkably gentle with your use of the Force. Howzer had seen you throw boulders and pull tanks with your command of the unseen energy field, but he’d never felt more than a soft touch until that day.
But in this memory, you hurl him across the room with the force of a landslide, knocking the breath clear from his lungs, his head slamming hard enough to crack the duracrete.
He tries to stand, but he can't.
His arms won't work, and his legs are leaden, refusing to respond. He's helpless as he watches you raise your arm, your eyes filled with sorrow. He's powerless as you reach out and touch your fingers to his temple.
A warmth emanates from your fingertips, and Howzer feels the pressure in his skull building, building, until—
The memory vanishes, and Howzer finds himself back in his own quarters, slumped against the wall. You're still there, standing a few steps away. You have your arms crossed tightly, your jaw clenched.
Howzer can feel his head pounding, a throbbing phantom pain where it had struck the wall. He raises his fingers to rub his temples.
It's quiet. There's no pounding on the door, no gunfire. Just the two of you.
"So it's true. I almost killed you."
You flinch. It's so subtle, he wouldn't have noticed it if he hadn't been looking for it.
"You didn't," you say.
He shakes his head. "I didn't? It looked pretty fucking close. You did that—" He motions vaguely toward the door. "—to stop me."
"To stop myself," you correct. "You didn't have a choice. I couldn't hurt you."
Howzer's jaw clenches, and his throat feels tight. The memory is still fresh in his mind, and the feelings it elicited are not ones he'd like to relive. The shame, the fear, the guilt.
"But I did," he says. His voice is low, and his tone is grave. "I'm so sorry."
"I'm sorry, too," you whisper, your voice barely audible. You look away from him, and your shoulders droop. "I didn't know. If I'd known the clones had been reprogrammed, I would have tried to find a way to reverse it. To bring you back. All of you."
You sniff, wiping your eyes, and Howzer feels his chest ache. You're blaming yourself. Of course you are.
"Howzer, if there's anything I can do—"
"Don't apologize," he says. His voice is stronger now, and he's glad. He's tired of being weak. Having you here is a reminder of everything he's done wrong, but also of what he could have. What he wants. He straightens, pulling himself away from the wall and standing upright.
"You saved my life. You didn't know what was going to happen. No one did. And even if you had, it would have been too late."
Your brows knit together, and you look back at him. Your lower lip trembles. "How can you forgive me?"
Howzer doesn't know how to answer that. He's not sure there is an answer. Instead, he walks forward, slowly, as if approaching a skittish animal. You look so small, so vulnerable, and he hates it. He can see the worry in your eyes, the guilt. It's the same worry and guilt he's seen in the mirror every day since the war ended.
He's only a step away when he stops, leaving enough space between the two of you that you could walk away if you wanted. But you don't, and the look in your eyes is enough to make him reach out. He wipes a tear from your cheek, and the corner of your mouth twitches.
"How can you forgive me?" he asks instead.
"Because you were doing your duty. Because I care about you. Because I missed you," you say.
"I missed you, too."
You're so close, close enough to touch, and Howzer can't resist the urge. He wraps his arms around you and pulls you into a hug, letting the tension ease from his body. You lean into his embrace, and he rests his chin on top of your head, closing his eyes and savoring the feeling of having you back.
He's not sure how long the two of you stand there, lost in the embrace, but eventually, you pull away. Howzer reluctantly lets go, dropping his arms back to his sides. You look up at him, and the smile on your face makes his stomach flip.
"What you said," you start, swallowing. "That night. Did you mean it?"
He doesn't have to think.
"Yes."
Your breath hitches, and your eyes search his, seeking something. He knows what it is, and it scares him. The last time he laid his heart bare for you, he’d lost everything. But he's spent too much time living in the past. Too much time wishing things were different, regretting the choices he made.
He doesn't want to do that anymore.
"I meant it then, and I still mean it now."
"Really?"
"I do."
He reaches out and takes your hand, lifting it to his lips.
You bite your lip. He can tell you're nervous, and he feels the same. His stomach is fluttering, and his heart is racing. The moment seems surreal, too good to be true.
But he can feel the warmth of your palm in his, can feel the softness of your skin.
"I missed you," he says softly.
"I missed you, too."
Your words are barely a whisper, but they echo in his mind. He can't resist any longer.
"I want to kiss you,” he admits, his voice low. He runs his thumb over the back of your hand, and your skin tingles beneath his touch. "Can I kiss you?"
"Yes," you whisper.
He leans down, pressing his forehead against yours. Your eyes flutter shut, and your breath tickles his lips. He can't resist any longer.
Howzer tilts his head and closes the gap between you.
It's slow, tentative, and he's terrified. But when you melt into him, and your lips part against his, all of his fears and doubts are forgotten.
You're real. You're here, with him.
Your hand grips his armor as you kiss him back, and the world falls away. All that matters is you, and him, and this moment.
He feels whole.
The kiss is long and lingering. It's slow, and sweet, and everything he could have ever hoped for. Your hand finds its way to the back of his neck, and your fingers play with the short hair there. His own hands roam over your waist and back, mapping out the lines of your body.
He feels you shift onto your toes, pressing against him and pulling him closer, and his heart soars. He can't imagine wanting anything more than this, than the taste of your lips on his, the feel of your body pressed against his.
When the two of you finally part, his lips are tingling, and he can't help but chase yours for another quick peck before he pulls back. You're breathless, and your cheeks are flushed, and he feels his chest swell, his hands tightening around your waist.
He never wants to let go.
"I love you," he whispers, his voice cracking. He doesn't want to ruin the moment, but he needs you to know. He needs you to hear the words, the sincerity behind them. "I think I always have."
"I love you, too," you say, and it's like the sun coming out after a storm. "I didn't realize until it was too late, but I love you. I don't think I've ever stopped."
His heart swells at the words. He can't believe his ears, can't believe he's hearing you say them. His throat is thick, and his eyes burn, and he blinks back the tears.
Howzer pulls you close, burying his face in your hair and breathing in deeply as his arms wrap around you. He holds you tightly, and you cling to him just as fiercely.
"Stay," he murmurs into your hair, the words barely audible. "Please."
He can feel the way your muscles tense. You pull back, just enough to look at him. "What?"
"Stay," he repeats, looking into your eyes. "With us. With me."
He watches you blink, the surprise evident on your face. He realizes what he's asking of you. How much of a risk it is. You could be killed or taken prisoner by the Empire, and he's asking you to put your life in the hands of the very people who tried to kill you.
But he has to try.
"Howzer, I—I can't. It's too dangerous. If I'm caught—"
"I won't let anything happen to you. I promise." He reaches up and cradles your face in his hand, brushing his thumb across your cheek. "Please. I've lost you once. I can't lose you again."
Your eyes search his, and he can see the doubt, the fear. He's never begged anyone for anything before, but he'll beg for you. He'll do whatever it takes.
"Please," he says, his voice cracking. "I need you."
"Howzer," you say, but he can tell you're weakening. Your eyes are watery, and your brow is furrowed.
"I can't do this without you. I can't—I don't want to do this without you."
Your shoulders drop, and your head tilts slightly into his touch. You cover his hand with yours, squeezing gently. You sigh, and his heart sinks. He’s prepared to hear a no. To lose you once more, only this time, willingly. He watches as you take a deep breath, steadying yourself.
"Okay," you say softly.
He's speechless. For a moment, the word doesn't register. He's too afraid to hope.
"Okay?"
You nod. "I'll stay. If you'll have me."
He can't help the broad grin that spreads across his face, and he pulls you close, his arms wrapping around you and lifting you off the ground. You squeak, but you laugh, and the sound fills him with joy. He spins, hugging you tight as you giggle into his neck.
He's elated, and he can't hold back the laugh that bubbles up from his chest. He feels light, like a weight has been lifted from his shoulders. As soon as your feet touch the ground he's kissing you again, cupping your face and tasting the smile on your lips.
He loves you. You love him. You're staying.
The thought is so incredible, so wonderful, that he can't stop kissing you, and you don't seem to mind. He pours all his emotions, all his love, into each brush of his lips, hoping that you can feel everything he's feeling, hoping that you understand how much this means to him.
He thinks you must.
Your arms wrap around his shoulders, pulling him close. His hands drift down to your waist, and his thumbs brush against the skin where your tunic has ridden up. He kisses you deeper, and the moan that escapes your lips sends a bolt of heat straight through him.
His heart is pounding, and he can't get enough of you. His tongue brushes against your bottom lip, and you part your lips for him, letting him taste you. The kiss grows deeper, hungrier, and his grip on you tightens, drawing you flush against him.
One of your hands moves to his chest, the other threading through his hair. Your touch sets him on fire, and he can feel himself straining against the confines of his armor. He doesn't know how far this is going, but he can't stop, can't bring himself to pull away.
Not when your teeth sink into his lower lip, or your nails scrape against his scalp. Not when you arch into him, your soft chest pressing into his chestplate. Not when his hands explore your body, mapping out every curve and dip, every muscle and bone.
His tongue brushes against yours, and he moans. He wants more, so much more. He's lost in you, and he doesn't want to find his way back.
"Tell me to stop," he says, his voice rough. His lips move to your jaw, and he trails kisses down your neck, the taste of you intoxicating.
The room spins, and Howzer finds himself pressed against the wall, the cold duracrete sending a shiver down his spine. Your hands are gripping the edge of his chest plate, and your lips are hot and demanding. You bite his lower lip, tugging at it, and his eyes flutter shut.
"No." Your voice is husky, and the sound goes straight to his cock. "Don't stop."
His heart leaps into his throat, and his hands grip your waist, pulling you closer. "I want you."
"I'm yours."
The words are a balm on his soul, healing wounds he didn't know he had. He can't get enough, can't stop kissing you. He nearly whines when you break away from his mouth, but the disappointment is short-lived when your lips move to his neck. He gasps, the sensation of your hot mouth and wet tongue overwhelming.
Your hands trail down his body, and his fingers dig into your hips.
"I love you," he moans. His head falls back, and his eyes flutter shut. His entire body is on fire, and the sound of your lips smacking against his neck only adds fuel to the flames. "Fuck, I love you."
You hum against his skin, and he bites back a groan.
"I love you," you whisper, the words ghosting over his neck. "I need you.”
It's all he can take.
His hands reach under your ass and lift, and you wrap your legs around his waist. The kiss is sloppy and uncoordinated, and his teeth clack against yours as he spins and presses you against the wall. You grind against his codpiece, and he breaks the kiss, hissing.
"You're so kriffing beautiful," he groans, his voice ragged. "You drive me crazy."
You're panting, and your cheeks are flushed, and he feels his cock twitch at the sight.
"I missed you," you say again. "I needed you."
He doesn't want to admit how close to home those words hit.
"I'm here now." His voice is rough, and his hands are gripping your hips tightly. "I'm not going anywhere."
"Good," you say, before pulling him back into another kiss.
It's hard and messy and desperate. You're both clinging to each other like your lives depend on it, and it's almost painful, the need that's taken root inside him. He's wanted you for so long, and now that he's here, with you in his arms, he can't get enough. He can't stop.
You pull back, and his head tilts up to chase your lips. He's dizzy with lust and want, his breathing shallow.
"Howzer, can we—" Your voice is breathless, and your eyes are wild.
He nods, understanding immediately.
He kisses you hard, and he can feel your hands fumbling for the clasps on his chestplate. He doesn't want to let go, doesn't want to lose the contact between the two of you, but he does, if only to help you.
It's not long before the heavy plastoid is removed, tossed haphazardly onto the floor. You waste no time, moving on to his greaves. You're so close, your scent clouding his mind, and his skin prickles beneath the intensity of your gaze. If he wasn’t so dizzy with want, he’d be amused at how focused you are, the way your brows are furrowed and your bottom lip caught between your teeth. But he can't think straight, can barely even breathe.
The pieces fall to the floor, and the sound echoes through the quiet room. By the time his bracers are removed, he's already shaking. He can't help it. It's been so long, and the desire coursing through his veins is threatening to overwhelm him.
He pulls at the laces on your tunic, loosening them enough that he can tug the material down. He leans down, trailing kisses down the newly exposed skin. Your breath hitches, and his name is a sigh on your lips. He smiles against your collarbone, nipping lightly before he sucks a mark into the flesh.
"Kriff," you gasp, your hips jerking forward. "Howzer."
The sound of his name sends a jolt of electricity down his spine, and he moans. He pulls back to lift your tunic over your head, discarding it somewhere behind him. You're bare except for your breastband, and his eyes rake over your body, taking in the sight of you, mapping the scars and curves and dips. Most of them he's seen before, the few times you were injured during the war, but the new ones, the ones he doesn't know, they're more than he can handle.
He reaches out, tentatively running his fingers over a blaster burn on your stomach, and the skin jumps underneath his touch.
"Is this okay?" he asks.
"Yes," you say, nodding.
He runs his palm over the scar, tracing its edges. The flesh is puckered and pink, and he knows it's a wound that could have killed you. It’s one he should have been there to prevent.
"Does it hurt?" he asks, his voice barely a whisper.
You shake your head. "Not anymore."
He traces the scar, committing it to memory. There are others, some fresher, some older, and his eyes follow his fingers, touching each and every one.
When he's done, he meets your gaze. Your eyes are wide, and your lips are parted, and he feels his chest tighten. You're so beautiful. So perfect. And you're here, with him.
"Are you okay?" you ask.
"I'm fine," he says, shaking his head. "Better than fine. You?”
"Me too."
His hands move to your back, finding the clasp of your breastband and releasing it. He holds his breath as the band comes loose, and his eyes drop down to take in the sight of your bare chest. His cock twitches in his pants, and he has to stifle a groan.
"Beautiful," he murmurs, reaching out and brushing his fingers against your breast. "Absolutely perfect."
His calloused thumb scrapes against your nipple, and it hardens instantly. Your breath hitches, and he feels his pulse quicken. He wants to hear the sounds you make, wants to know what his touch does to you.
He leans down, and his lips replace his fingers. His mouth closes around your nipple, his tongue flicking against the stiff peak. You gasp, and he feels a surge of satisfaction. His free hand squeezes your other breast, rolling the nipple between his thumb and forefinger. Your body arches into him, and your breathy sighs turn into moans.
He's intoxicated by the sounds you're making, by the way your body responds to his touch. He can’t get enough, and he sucks harder, teasing your nipple with his tongue. Your hands are gripping his shoulders, and your hips are bucking into his, searching for friction.
You're so sensitive, and his head is spinning. He doesn't know how long he spends teasing and torturing you, but it's not long enough. When he finally releases your breast with a pop, you're panting, and your skin is flushed.
“Armor off,” you growl, and he chuckles.
"Yes, sir," he says, unable to hide the amusement in his voice. He reaches down and tugs at his boot, and you slide down the wall. The look in your eyes makes him shiver.
"I'm not your General anymore."
"No, but I'm still your loyal soldier," he says. It’s meant to be a joke, but it comes out more serious than he intended.
You smirk, and the expression sends a jolt of heat straight to his cock.
"Then get to it, soldier."
He raises an eyebrow, and if he wasn’t so turned on, he might be embarrassed by how fast he rips off his remaining armor, his fingers fumbling at the clasps. When he's finished, you're grinning, and his heart skips a beat. He whips the top half of his blacks off, tossing it onto the floor, and before he can register what's happening, you've wrapped your arms around his neck and pulled him into a deep, passionate kiss.
The feeling of your bare chest against his sends a bolt of heat through him, and his hands find their way back to your waist, pulling you closer. You moan into his mouth, and his cock throbs.
He's so distracted by the feeling of your lips and tongue and hands that he barely registers the tugging on his waistband. Not until his blacks are sliding down his hips, exposing his hard length to the cool air of the room.
"Kriff," he hisses, breaking the kiss. "You're gonna be the death of me."
"Hopefully not," you murmur, nipping his lower lip.
"Well, you're sure making it hard."
You look down, and your lips curl into a wicked grin. He feels his cock twitch, and a drop of precome beads at the tip.
"Hard?" you ask innocently.
He groans, leaning his head against yours. "You're awful."
"I know." You reach down and take his cock in your hand, stroking it gently. He can't help but moan. "But I think you like it."
"Kriff," he curses, biting back another groan. "I love it."
He closes his eyes, and your thumb brushes over the head, spreading the slickness around. His breath hitches, and he can feel the pleasure coiling low in his belly. You're so good at this, and he's already so close, and when you sink to your knees and look up at him through those long lashes, his brain short-circuits.
You grip his cock firmly, and he sucks in a sharp breath, bracing his forearm against the wall. You lean in, and your lips brush against his stomach, kissing the soft skin just below his navel. He trembles.
"Relax," you whisper, pressing another kiss to his abdomen.
“Fuck," he groans. "Don't tell me to relax."
He's so wound up, so on edge, his whole body is tingling. Your tongue darts out, and you lick a hot stripe up his cock, and his hips buck involuntarily. You smile, and his eyes flutter shut, his chest heaving.
Your mouth is warm and wet, and you wrap your lips around the head, swirling your tongue over the slit. His eyes squeeze shut, and his breathing grows ragged.
You begin to bob your head, slowly taking him deeper and deeper with each pass. When he hits the back of your throat, you hum, and his knees nearly give out.
"Fucking hell," Howzer moans, his voice cracking. His head falls forward, and his forehead rests against his forearm. His eyes are closed, and his mouth is open, and he's trying desperately to hold back the embarrassing sounds that threaten to escape.
You pull back, and the cold air against his saliva-slick cock makes him shiver. Your hand is still working him, pumping his shaft, and his balls tighten. He can feel his orgasm building, his whole body tensing, and it's too soon, much too soon, and he needs to slow down.
"Stop, stop, stop," he chants, pulling away from you. He's so close, so painfully close, and he can't stand the thought of finishing before he even gets inside you.
You pull away, looking up at him with confusion. "Why?"
"Because if you don't, I'm going to come," he manages, his voice hoarse.
You smile wickedly. "Is that so?"
"Yes."
"And what if I want you to?" You hum, your fingers teasing the tip of his cock. It’s the lightest touch, but it makes him jump. He closes his eyes, trying to compose himself. He's never been this close to losing control so fast, and he doesn't want to embarrass himself.
"Please," he begs, his voice a choked whisper. "Not like this. Not yet."
The teasing expression on your face melts into something softer, and you rise to your feet, wrapping your arms around his neck and kissing him. He tastes himself on your tongue, and it only turns him on more.
"Alright," you murmur against his lips, your breath hot. "How do you want me?"
He feels the question like a punch to the gut, and his mouth goes dry. "I—um—"
"Howzer," you say softly, nipping his bottom lip. "Don't make me order you."
His eyes fly open, and his cock twitches. The image of you ordering him around, telling him what to do, how to fuck you—
"Howzer."
He's so fucked.
"Bed," he says, his voice a low growl. "Now."
The corner of your mouth quirks, and you raise an eyebrow. "That's not an answer."
He swallows and reaches down, trailing his fingers along the seam of your trousers. Your eyes flutter shut, and a breathy sigh escapes your lips. He watches you, and he can see the way your chest is heaving, the flush that creeps down your neck. It gives him the confidence to continue.
"I want you to take these off," he breathes. “And I want you on your back.”
"Yes, sir," you say, a teasing smile on your lips.
His heart lurches. "Oh, now you listen to me."
"Maybe I like when you're in charge," you purr.
He can't help the groan that escapes him.
Your hands slide down his chest, and you walk away, turning your back to him as you loosen the ties to your trousers. You make a show of sliding them down your legs, bending at the waist, and he nearly chokes when your underwear slides off, too.
"Kriff," he mumbles, his eyes glued to your ass.
You straighten and toss him a coy look over your shoulder, and he's helpless, completely and utterly enraptured.
"Like what you see?"
"Always," he replies, his voice low.
He can't stop himself from reaching out, his hand running up the smooth skin of your thigh. But you dance out of his grasp, laughing.
"Not so fast," you tease.
He growls, a sound that rumbles in his chest. "Don't be a tease."
"What's the matter, Captain?" you ask, stepping towards the bed. "Getting impatient?"
Howzer lets out a laugh of disbelief. He's beyond frustrated, he's already the most desperate he's ever been. Usually he’d play along with your games, but right now, he needs you, and he can't stand the thought of waiting another minute.
"Yes," he says, his voice rough. "Now get on the fucking bed."
You raise an eyebrow, a small smile playing at the corners of your lips. "Yes, sir."
You move, and in one fluid motion, you're laying down on the bed. You spread your legs, inviting him, and he nearly passes out. You look like every fantasy he's ever had, laid out for him, waiting for him.
"Like this?"
"Yes," he groans, his voice cracking.
"Come here, then," you say, your tone seductive.
He can see how wet you are, how ready you are for him. It makes his head spin, his heart race. He wants to taste you, to bury his face between your legs. But the ache in his cock is too strong, the need to feel you overwhelming. He has to take a deep breath before he approaches, afraid his legs won't work.
"What are you waiting for?" you ask.
"Just...taking in the view,” he replies, his voice low and rough. He tries to meet your eyes, but he can't stop staring at the apex of your thighs, at your glistening pussy, begging for him.
You giggle, a sound he's never heard from you before, and he decides right then and there that it's his new favorite sound.
"So poetic," you tease.
"I can be," he retorts, trying to play along even though all his blood is currently rushing south.
"Come on," you say. "Don't make me wait any longer."
He's never been able to deny you.
Howzer steps forward, and before you can register his movements, he's kneeling on the bed between your legs, his hands gripping your thighs. He's not gentle as he pushes them further apart, baring you to him.
"Oh," you gasp.
He smirks, and his eyes rake over your body as he settles himself between your legs. He takes a moment to memorize the sight of you, your hair splayed out on the pillow, your flushed skin, the way your chest rises and falls with every breath.
"Fuck," he mutters, his voice barely a whisper. "I'm going to enjoy this."
"Please," you whimper, your hips bucking. The sound of it wakes him from his stupor, and he grips your thighs tighter, his thumbs pressing into the sensitive flesh.
"What was that?"
You bite your lip and look away, but he can see the heat in your cheeks, the way your breathing is heavy.
"I said please," you repeat, turning your gaze back to him.
His smirk widens. "I couldn't quite hear you," he teases, his fingertips grazing the outside of your folds. He can feel how wet you are, how hot, and it makes his head spin.
You whine, and your hips buck against his hand. "Please, Howzer."
The sound of his name on your lips is like music, and he can't resist any longer.
Howzer leans down and presses a hot, wet kiss to your inner thigh. You gasp, and he sucks a mark into the skin, his tongue flicking out to soothe the sting. He repeats the process on the other leg, leaving a matching mark, and your body writhes beneath him. He pulls back, admiring his handiwork.
"You look good like this," he says, his voice a low rumble.
"You're a menace," you huff.
He chuckles and runs a finger along the length of your folds, gathering the slick that's pooled there. "That's not a very nice thing to say."
"You're not being very ni—ah!" Your words turn into a gasp when he dips his head, his tongue dragging through your folds, the taste of you coating his tongue. He feels you tremble, and your hand tangles in his hair. He loves the way you grip him, and the soft sound of his name spurs him on.
Howzer moves to your clit, his tongue circling the sensitive bundle of nerves. Your hips arch off the bed, and he has to use his forearm to keep you down, his hand splayed across your stomach. He slides two fingers inside you, curling them and rubbing the spot he knows will make you moan.
He's rewarded by the sound of his name, your breathy cries filling the room. He works you hard and fast, his tongue and fingers relentless. You're soaking wet, and he can't believe how hot and tight you are around his fingers.
"I've dreamed of this," he growls, his lips brushing against your clit.
"Really?"
He nods, and the movement causes his stubble to scrape against your skin. "Mhm. Ever since we first met.”
You let out a laugh, but it quickly turns into a moan when his fingers hit the right spot. "I-is that so?"
"Yes," he says, curling his fingers and pressing hard. "All those years fighting beside you, and I could barely control myself. It was torture."
You keen, your pussy clenching around his fingers, and he can't help but chuckle.
"I used to think about all the things I'd do if I ever got the chance."
"I thought about it too," you pant.
He looks up, surprised. The motions of his hand stutter, but he regains his composure, picking up the pace and making you gasp. "You did?"
You nod, and he watches your face, your eyes closed, your brows furrowed.
"What did you think about?"
"This," you breathe. "How you'd feel, how you'd taste, how you'd make me come."
The admission sends a jolt through him, and he moans against your clit, the vibrations making you writhe. He doubles his efforts, and his tongue draws patterns across your sensitive flesh. Your thighs tense around his head, and he feels the way you tighten around his fingers.
"I thought about you fucking me," you continue, and his eyes flutter shut. "About you filling me up and making me scream."
He can't help the noise he makes, a low, desperate groan. His cock throbs, aching for relief, and he knows he can't wait much longer. He needs you to come, needs to feel you come undone beneath him.
He can feel you getting closer, the way your breathing gets shallower, the way your muscles begin to tense. You're panting his name, and your hips are rolling, and he can tell you're close, so close.
“I’ll do whatever you want, sweetheart," he growls, the words muffled against your skin. "Just let go. Come for me."
The pet name seems to do the trick, and a string of curses spills from your lips as your body convulses, your cunt clenching and spasming around his fingers. Your hands grip his hair, tugging painfully at the roots, and he can't find it in himself to care. He keeps pumping, drawing out your orgasm until you're writhing, begging for mercy.
When you're finally spent, he pulls back, resting his cheek on your inner thigh. He can't stop looking at you, can't stop drinking in the sight of you, flushed and satisfied. You're the most beautiful thing he's ever seen, and his chest feels so full, so complete.
"Well?" he asks.
"What?"
"Was it everything you imagined?"
Your face breaks into a smile, and you shake your head, laughing. "It was better."
"Good," he says, kissing the inside of your thigh. He slowly withdraws his fingers, and his lips find your clit again, sucking gently and licking up the fresh wave of slick.
You moan, and your hands fall from his hair to the sheets, clutching at them. He can't get enough, can't stop tasting you. He could spend hours between your thighs, and it wouldn't be enough.
"Howzer," you sigh.
"You taste good," he mumbles, not bothering to pull his lips away from your cunt.
"Come here," you plead. "I want you."
"I am here."
"No," you laugh. "I want you inside me."
"Is that an order?" he asks, teasingly.
"It is," you reply.
"Then I better follow it."
Howzer is on top of you in an instant, his lips finding yours. You moan at the taste of yourself on his tongue, and he groans, his hips bucking against yours. His cock is pressed against your slit, and you're so wet, and it would be so easy to slip inside. He can't stand the thought of waiting any longer.
He reaches between your bodies, and you feel him lining up, the blunt head of his cock teasing your entrance. He pulls back, breaking the kiss and resting his forehead against yours.
"Ready?" he asks.
"Always."
The word fills his heart with warmth, and he can't stop the smile that spreads across his face.
He's still smiling when he pushes inside, and his grin only grows wider at the feeling of your tight, wet heat around him. He has to fight the urge to come right then and there, and his hands grip your hips hard enough to bruise.
"Kriff," he gasps.
"Don't stop," you pant, your eyes screwed shut.
"Wouldn't dream of it."
He thrusts in deeper, sinking another inch, and the noise that escapes your lips is the hottest thing he's ever heard. He does it again, and again, and before he knows it, he's fully sheathed inside you, his cock stretching you open, his hips flush against yours.
"Sweetheart," he breathes, the nickname coming out almost unbidden. "You feel so good."
Your hands are wrapped around his neck, and your eyes are screwed shut. Your brow is furrowed, and your mouth is hanging open, and he can't tear his eyes away.
"I—" he starts, but the words die in his throat. He can't find the right ones, can't articulate the depth of his feelings for you. So instead, he presses a soft kiss to your forehead, and then another, to the tip of your nose.
You look up at him, and the expression in your eyes is so tender, so full of affection, that his heart skips a beat.
"I love you," he whispers, the words escaping him without thought.
"I love you, too."
His heart soars, and he can't help but lean down and kiss you, his lips crashing into yours. It's a messy, passionate kiss, full of heat and need and love. You cling to him, and he loses himself in the feeling of you, of your arms and legs and mouth. He sets a slow pace, his hips moving in shallow, lazy thrusts.
You break the kiss, gasping for air, and he takes the opportunity to hooks his hands underneath your knees, bringing them up and bending you in half.
"What—" you start, but your question is cut off by a moan as he thrusts deeper, the angle changing and his cock hitting that sweet spot inside you.
"Oh," you gasp.
"You like that?"
You nod, your eyes closing, and he grins. His movements are languid, and you're so wet, and it's the best thing he's ever felt, the feeling of your tight cunt wrapped around his cock.
"So do I," he says, leaning forward to press a kiss to the side of your knee. "Feels so good, sweetheart. So kriffing good."
"Howzer," you murmur, the word a sigh.
He hums in response, and the feeling of it vibrates through his chest, his mouth still pressed against your knee. You shiver.
"You feel amazing," he says, his voice low and husky. "I can't believe how good you feel."
"Howzer," you groan, your hips bucking, the movement causing him to slide in even deeper on each thrust. "Harder."
"You want me to fuck you harder?"
"Please," you beg, your voice a whine.
"Fuck," he swears. "Yes, sir."
He pulls back and sets a new, punishing pace. He can't stop the noises that escape him, and his balls slap against your ass as he fucks you, the sound obscene. He's so close, but he needs you to come again, needs to feel you squeeze his cock, hear his name fall from your lips as you climax.
"Look at me," he orders.
You do, and the sight of your eyes, wild and dark with desire, is almost enough to push him over the edge. But he holds back, determined to make you come.
He wedges a hand between your thighs, his thumb finding your clit and rubbing tight circles. Your breath catches, and your cunt clenches around him, the rhythmic tightening sending him spiraling closer to the edge.
"Come for me," he groans, and he can't believe he's begging, but he is, and he doesn't care. "Please, sweetheart, come for me."
The pressure of his fingers and the sound of his voice are enough, and you shudder, crying out his name as your cunt spasms around him.
It's too much. He's been on edge for so long, and it's impossible to resist any longer. Before he can stop himself, he's coming, his hips stuttering as he spills inside you, his cock pulsing as his balls empty themselves, coating your walls. He can feel his release dripping out, leaking down his shaft, and the thought of it is so filthy, so hot, that he nearly blacks out.
"Fuck," he gasps, his head falling forward. He's shaking, his body wracked with the force of his release. It feels like every single nerve in his body is on fire, and his vision is blurred, and the only thing keeping him tethered to reality is the feeling of your hands in his hair, gently massaging his scalp.
When his body finally stops trembling, he opens his eyes, and you're looking up at him, a smile playing on your lips.
"Hi," you say softly.
"Hey," he replies, his voice hoarse. He looks down and sees the mess between your thighs, his cock and your folds coated in his release. He groans. "Sorry, I—I should have asked if you were okay with that."
"It's fine," you reassure him, your hand stroking his hair. "It was good. Really good."
"I'll pull out," he mumbles, leaning down and kissing you.
"Wait," you say, and the sound is muffled against his lips. "Not yet."
"Okay," he whispers, pulling back.
"I just want to feel you for a little longer."
The words make his heart ache, and he leans down to capture your lips in another kiss, softer this time. Your legs fall from his shoulders, and they wrap around his waist, keeping him close.
"How's that?" he asks, his voice barely a whisper.
"Perfect," you murmur, running your hands down his back.
He presses his forehead against yours, and he closes his eyes, focusing on the feeling of you. The two of you stay like that for a few moments, neither of you wanting to move.
Finally, he pulls away, and the soft, disappointed noise you make sends a jolt through him.
"It's alright, sweetheart," he soothes. "Just trying to find something to clean us up."
You groan and bury your face in the pillow, and the sight is so endearing, he can't help but lean down and kiss the corner of your mouth.
"I'll be right back," he says, reluctantly untangling himself from your limbs.
"Fine," you huff, and the pout on your lips is adorable.
He climbs off the bed and walks to the 'fresher, and when he returns, you're propped up on one elbow, watching him. Your gaze is focused on his softening cock, and his cheeks heat up.
"Like what you see?" he asks, echoing your words from earlier.
You raise an eyebrow and smirk. "Always."
The blush deepens, and he clears his throat. He makes his way back to the bed, and he cleans up the mess that's leaking out of you, wiping up his spend. When he's finished cleaning both of you, he tosses the cloth to the floor and climbs into the bed, pulling the blankets up and tucking the two of you in.
"That's better," you sigh, curling up next to him.
Howzer wraps his arm around your shoulder, and you nestle into the crook of his arm. He rests his cheek on the top of your head, and the two of you lie in silence, enjoying each other's presence.
"I love you," you say softly, after a few minutes.
"I love you, too."
Your hand rests on his chest, and your fingers trace the planes of his muscles. He shivers, and he can't suppress the grin that spreads across his face. He feels like his heart might burst.
"So," you say, after a while. "How long have you been holding onto that?"
He snorts, and his arm tightens around you. "How long ago was that day on Kamino?"
"What?" you ask, surprise evident in your voice. You sit up and look at him, and he's pleased to see the blush that stains your cheeks. "You're kidding."
He shakes his head, his gaze fixed on the ceiling. "Nope. That's when I knew."
"Howzer!"
"What?"
"That was...that was ages ago," you stammer, and the way you can't seem to get your words out makes him chuckle.
"Yeah, well," he shrugs. "What can I say? I'm a romantic."
"Well, I'm sorry it took me so long," you murmur, laying your head back on his chest.
"It's alright," he says, his hand finding yours and lacing his fingers through yours. "You're worth the wait."
"So are you."
He closes his eyes and presses a kiss to the top of your head. He can feel his eyelids getting heavy, and the weight of your body is comforting. The steady rhythm of your breathing is soothing, and before long, his consciousness begins to slip away.
The last thing he hears is the sound of your voice, sleepy and content.
"I love you, Howzer."
"I love you, too, sweetheart."
He drifts off to sleep, and the last thing he feels is the press of your lips against his chest, just above his heart.
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Sir Howzer, the Haunted.
Rex: Howzer, how many mags are you gonna carry? Howzer: YES
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idk why but i was immediately brought here watching the tension between them all.
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Online shopping time 🛒 Echo realized that an extra hand can come in handy for disguise 😅 and if Crosshair’s getting one anyways and they are on sale… well why not 😎
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goodmorning to the finest men in star wars🗣️‼️‼️
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realized these two have the same haircut, but we know who pulled it off better
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