#talk about [redacted] like i get connecting there too but im like. @__@ okay cant handle this cant handle this anymore

[tepparetai]

the entire latch cast GO (jk. just teppare... or just minato... :] )

HIIIIIII DEMI THANK YOU DEMI i'll do teppare because theyre my special guys... i had a whole essay typed but then i left my computer unattended for the weekend & it didn't save so im trying to write what i remember. (also im skipping the fav line ones because theres no english translation and im NOT trusting my memory when it comes to japanese hope thats okay)

UNDER THE CUT FOR RAMBLING

udaka

favorite thing about them: I LOVE PAPA he's always so calm and collected and everyone respects him but at the same time he just radiates warmth and kindness and seems so easily approachable. i would trust him with my life. also the fact that he's an ojisan idol we deserve more of those

least favorite thing about them: that being said he IS one of the more boring characters since he's so perfect i guess.... he needs a good character flaw

brOTP: teppare

OTP: him and his lovely wife of course. and old man yaoi when im insane. they could have an open marriage or something im not here to judge

nOTP: obviously wouldn't ship him with the youngest ones like 🍼 but nobody does. thank god

random headcanon: he doesnt have the heart to kill bugs in the house❤️ he catches them and releases them outside instead

unpopular opinion: he deserves to go apeshit at least once

song i associate with them: sir they are idols. are you asking for real (sunrise and peace)

favorite picture of them:

IM STILL NOT OVER THIS ONE NOT ENOUGH OF YOU LOOKED AT IT i want to put him in my pocket and carry him around with me everywhere i go

also i think he looks very dashing in his plain old station attendant uniform sprite too

minato

favorite thing about them: MY SILLY he's a bit weird but so kind and caring oniisan😫😫 he always puts others before himself and just wants everyone to be happy and get along. and i've talked about this before but i love the little smile lines under his eyes it's a charming detail and a reminder that hes a happy guy and also 35

least favorite thing about them: NOTHING he is perfect although i AM starting a gofundme to buy this man some socks since he doesnt seem to have any ever and once you notice it you cant unsee

brOTP: teppare

OTP: [REDACTED] also im passing him around like a blunt. dm me

nOTP: i can't stand ⏸️⚓ i don't mind them as friends but their dynamic is like a babysitter looking after a toddler. cant see whats romantic in that

random headcanon: he has beautiful blue eyes like the sea :) and since the monorail from haneda airport connects to tokyo through hamamatsucho station he is the best english speaker among teppare and also the designated tourist encounter handler

unpopular opinion: hes NOT an uwu softboy that man is SOME kind of freak i can feel it in my bones

song i associate with them: peace the most

favorite picture of them:

i have this one as my phone bg sometimes because it looks like hes giving you a hug ^_^ makes me happy

kita

favorite thing about them: AUUGGHH he's obviously meant to be a Funnyguy™ but it's so endearing how genuinely enthusiastic he is about sharing the thing he's passionate about with others..... he has SO MUCH love and appreciation for his friends and family and wants them to stay strong and healthy too and to me that comes from a place of caring he just cant always read the room

least favorite thing about them: i will NEVER stop complaining about his ekimen costume they reverse bimbofied my guy

brOTP: teppare

OTP: DM ME FOR THIS ALSO😑🚬 (<- me on a smoke break after cooking and no one coming to eat)

nOTP: he isn't very popular sooo💔 i've pretty much only seen him getting shipped with 🎤 but i don't even hate it i'm just indifferent

random headcanon: autistic as fuuuuuck but is that even random. like for real

unpopular opinion: This Is The Buffest Japanese Beauty Standards Can Handle Before They Start Getting Scared like how do you create a character whose entire deal is his muscles and then maybe draw him 0.2mm thicker than the other skinnyboys. although it would be funny if it was a running gag like with the personal trainer in dúmbbell nan kilo moteru ANYWAYS THEY SHOULD LET HIM BE BUFF PROPER

song i associate with them: for some reason i associate sunrise with him more than the other two idk why since its an udaka center too.... and egao de go because it was his recommendation in the little fliers u got from somewhere

favorite picture of them:

i looooove him in the first one hes so silly funny and >:D i have a magnet with this illust and its going on my fridge door so i can look at them everyday. and the other one because those are the guns he deserves this artist gets it

THATS THE END OF MY POWERPOINT PRESENTATION THANKS FOR WATCHING

[cloneslugs]

Like 8 m*jima posts in the top of the tag let's all just quit posting please *stabs my eyes out*

[clowngremlin]

this is really long so bare with me, it is a positive post though.

sometimes i go and read my old vent blog from when i was in high school.....i really was dealing with a lot of heavy shit and im really glad im not like that anymore and i got help? like it makes me feel......sort of sad to see how much pain i was in. i wish i could go back in time and tell 16-17 year old me that things will be okay.....that we’ll be okay. we break up with [redacted] and talk about what happened in therapy and finally tell our dad what happened and it wont hurt as much as we thought it would. we’ll get better self esteem and learn to manage our anger and stop self harming and find better ways to cope with things. that we actually get to like transition and not be miserable and stuck in a body that we hate and go into recovery for our ed and stop wasting away and that we reconnect with our friends that we were isolated from when we were dating [redacted] and that we get to go to art school and make even more friends and that we’re going to our dream school in the fall and that we’re making art that people really like and connect with and are excited about! that we’re also learning and growing as a person every day and that we’re seeing someone who doesn’t treat us like shit or manipulate and abuse us and who like.....actually genuinely cares about us and not when it’s just convenient to do so.....

reading the posts makes my chest ache in a way i cant explain and im just so glad that i figured myself out and got help with everything i was dealing with. a lot of the posts on the blog were really.....angry. angry and sad and there was a lot of self loathing and i just....i wish i could wrap my past self up in a blanket and tell them that we end up okay. i didnt deserve what happened to me. i never deserved what happened to me. it wasnt my fault. none of it was my fault at all. i dont think i’ve ever said that out loud before or typed it or anything like that. i’ve had people say that to me, but i’ve never said it myself. i really think i’ve done a lot of healing over the past 3 years. healing from a lot of different things. healing from what happened to me as a child, healing from the [redacted] situation. i told my therapist about seeing [redacted] at the supermarket a few weeks ago, and she asked how i handled it and i said i thought i handled it well. i bought my milk and calmly left the store. i didnt have a panic attack. i texted my best friend, did some breathing and ate some food because i was hungry. i didnt cry in the shower and try to scrub myself clean or throw up or hurt myself. my therapist said that he can’t ever hurt me. that he has no control over me and that it happened a long time ago. she’s right. what happened ended.....4 years ago, around july. that’s a long time. i’m able to listen to some of the songs i listened to when we were dating and not feel an intense urge to vomit or feel panicked. i smoked weed and didn’t have a panic attack over it. my therapist told me that the opposite of love isnt hate but indifference and i still hate [redacted] but i’m starting to feel less and less about what happened. it doesn’t bother me as much anymore and the only reason that i even went to go read the blog and write this post in the first place was because someone made an tasteless joke that kind of...upset me. it brought up a lot of things but i’m dealing with it. i’m healing. 

i’m gonna wrap this up because it’s getting long, but i’m really proud of where i am right now. i know i’ve been feeling a bit off lately, but i think i’m coming out of that. when i told my therapist about it, she said that i’m going to have rough times, and it’s how i deal with the rough times that matters. she said she thinks im dealing with it all pretty well. i think i am too. i’m looking forward to what my future holds.