#takes place in abt 16 BBY

[translucent-sun]

So much had changed in the time they were forced to be apart, so much hurt and trauma cast upon them. Neither of them had been ready to talk about all of it – or any of it, really. They´d mostly avoided talking about the war at all, not knowing what they could mention without triggering unpleasant memories in the other.

But tonight, Cody felt brave. They´d spent the early morning walking, wandering until they´d found a particularly high dune that would usually block the first seconds of sunrise from their view, were they watching from home. They climbed it, sitting high up in the desert, waiting for the suns to wake.

“You know, I never even dared to think too much about anything like this,” Cody admitted quietly, almost whispering. He had a faint smile playing on his lips, his eyes diverted to the ground.

“What, us being together? A somewhat normal life?” Obi-Wan turned his head, watching Cody intently.

“All of that, yes. But mostly just a life post war.” Cody raised his eyes to look into his, his smile now pained.

“When you´re created for war, to kill and die on command, what would you even do without it? I never really allowed myself to think about what would happen after – if I even lived that long. And now to get a life after the war, and a somewhat normal one, and at your side… Sometimes I think I´m still lying on that battlefield and this is all a dream.” Obi-Wan was still watching him, and his own words echoed in Cody's mind. It seemingly took Obi-Wan a moment before he was able to speak.

“I would´ve gotten you out of there. After the war, I mean. If they´d – if they´d planned on discarding you back then, I would have gotten you and as many of your brothers as I could out of there. I would have left the Order if I had to. We would have run.”

Cody chuckled at the thought. He knew Obi-Wan was being serious, and knowing him, he would´ve managed to somehow pull it off too.

But Obi-Wan continued. “Sometimes I do wish I had left the Order and we had just disappeared,” he mused, smiling sadly. “Going on a mission in a faraway system and just never return.”

“You know what they did to deserters,” Cody reminded him. “It would have been a life on the run. In hiding. I wouldn´t have wanted to be the reason for that. It´s bad enough that I´m part of the reason why you´re in exile now. Why your Order doesn´t even exist anymore.”

Obi-Wan flinched beside him, but didn´t speak. Instead, he looked at Cody, waiting for him to continue. There was something in his face, as though he had something to say on his own but wanted to hear what Cody had to say first.

Maybe being brave wasn´t such a good idea, Cody thought. He hadn´t meant to start a conversation like this – about this. He knew they´d have to talk about all of it eventually, otherwise the pain would never go away. But he felt he wasn´t ready.

But then, would he ever be ready? He decided now would be a time as good as any.

“When – when that order was called out, when –” Cody stopped, choking on his words. “The order wasn´t ‘kill the Jedi’ or anything like that, it didn´t have to be clear like that. I´m sure you know about the inhibitor chips by now.” He waited for Obi-Wan to nod. “The only thing Palpatine had to say was ‘execute Order 66’, and everyone suddenly knew what that meant. I ordered my men to– to shoot you down. Something in my mind was telling me to do it myself, but I couldn´t. I couldn´t bring myself to hurt you. I was so relieved when they didn´t find your body. That sliver of hope. But when no one afterwards reported that they found you again, I assumed you must be dead afterall. That I killed you. And then when you found me instead and stood in front of me –”

Cody swallowed, his eyes darting to the sky, fighting back tears. “It was like I was facing a ghost. I wished it wasn´t real, I wished you weren’t really there, because the second I saw you, I knew I was going to hurt you. And you– god, you stubborn idiot, why didn´t you fight back?” he huffed a laugh through his tears, but there was nothing amused about it.

Obi-Wan reached his hand out, laying it on Cody´s neck. “Because I knew it wasn´t you. I couldn´t hurt you for something you weren’t doing, could I?” he asked gently.

“I could´ve killed you,” Cody said in an exhale, his voice not more than a whisper.

Obi-Wan smiled just barely. “You couldn´t. And even if you had, I wouldn´t have blamed you.”

“But I would have blamed me. I am blaming me for what happened,” Cody whispered. “If my mind had been stronger, I–” But Obi-Wan interrupted him.

“You were controlled by a chip inside your brain. You are not to blame, for anything.”

“You have no idea what I´ve done. What– what I´ve–” Cody couldn´t finish his sentence. He didn´t even dare to think it.

Obi-Wan squeezed gently. “You know you can talk to me, if you want to.”

Cody huffed. “I want to tell you everything. But I´m afraid if I did you wouldn’t be able to look at me the same. I

couldn´t –” he paused, then continued, whispering. “I couldn´t live with that.”

Obi-Wan cocked his head, leaning forward until Cody was forced to look into his eyes. There was so much unshakable love in them. “I would never look at you differently than I do now.” Cody averted his eyes, not daring to look at him for too long, afraid he´d make him believe him.

“You don´t know what I´ve done –” His voice broke. Deep down, he did want to tell him everything, down to every bloody detail he could remember. If someone else was as disgusted with him as he was himself, maybe the voice inside him stopped lying to him, stopped telling him that it wasn´t his fault. Another part of him needed Obi-Wan to know and it not changing a single thing. It needed him to tell Obi-Wan everything and for him to love him through all of it, shutting off the part that told him it was all his fault.

Obi-Wan was watching him intently, not saying a word for a long moment. He didn´t have to.

“I´ve hurt, killed people. Good people, people who were fighting for the right thing,” Cody whispered, still not looking at Obi-Wan. When he finally spoke, he did so with greatest care, seemingly considering every word twice.

“I know,” Obi-Wan whispered, reaching out to take Cody´s hand in his. “I knew you would, and I know you did. And I don´t love you any less for it. I never stopped loving you.” Then, gentle but more intend, he added, “because it was out of your control.”

The tears that had started to rise in Cody´s eyes were starting to spill over, trickling down his cheeks. Obi-Wan carefully wiped them away. Cody finally looked at him, his eyes red and burning from trying to keep new ones from falling.

“I´m not sure I´ll ever be ready to talk about it,” he muttered. Obi-Wan brought his hand to Cody´s neck, his thumb stroking the skin there.

“It´s alright, we´ll get there when we get there. Until then, small steps like this are good.” He smiled gently, bringing their foreheads together. Cody nodded against it, closing his eyes, bringing his hand up to cup Obi-Wan´s where it was still resting against his neck.

“Obi-Wan?” Cody whispered after a moment, slowly pulling back. He received a questioning hum in return.

“You´re not ready to talk about what happened to you either, are you?” Obi-Wan exhaled, a sound that answered all of Cody´s questions. Cody huffed. This really wasn´t a funny situation, but something about Obi-Wan´s stubbornness had a frustrating humor to it.

“You´re so good at caring about other people, and you always hope they´ll be so busy being cared for that they forget to ask you about your own feelings. You´ve always been like this.” The words sounded harsh, but Cody´s face was gentle.

[dastardlydandelion]

i’ve seen quite a bit of meta floating around abt sam’s situation vs tory’s and how that enhances their rivalry but i’ve seen v little abt how how fighting itself means different things to them and how i personally think that rly shows itself in the school brawl so i’m going to babble on abt that for a min.

so to recap what most ppl already pinned down: tory and sam’s beef isn’t just about miguel. far from. tbvh i’d ever argue it’s mostly *not* about miguel but he factors into the situation so strongly bc miguel is the *one* thing tory had that (at the time) sam didn’t. it isn’t just abt him, it’s abt what he represents. it’s abt sam seemingly (re)staking her claim to one of the only good things in tory’s life. from tory’s perspective she has very little in contrast to sam. sam lives in wealthy encino, has her own car, a membership at a country club, and participates in karate bc she’s a legacy child and to do so is at her leisure. her dad has his own personal dojo she can practice in whenever she wants and oh yeah, her lessons are free bc her dad is her sensei. sam who could easily afford karate lessons doesn’t even have to, her dad actually jumps at the chance to give them to her.

tory has to work for everything that’s hers and then some, supporting a mother with frail health and taking care of her bby brother. tory’s life is more precarious and vulnerable than sam’s bc of her financial and living situation, and frankly, she needs self-defense skills more than sam does. remember when she’s at the store with aisha and describes to her how some perv tried to grab her, a move she then blocked? how she stabbed him in the face with her duster/bracelet??

i feel like the gravity of that is lost on most ppl bc in context, tory’s almost bragging abt it and showing off a lil bit. and why wouldn’t she?? she thinks aisha is a badass, she saw her breaking boards blindfolded!!! she thinks aisha is cool and she wants aisha to think she’s cool too, so she’s telling her smth abt herself that she correctly feels aisha would admire. but context aside, it’s v scary and sad that tory was in a situation where she had to do that.

tory had kickboxing training even before she joined cobra kai. going off some of her dialogue to miguel, abt how some ppl in this world have to fight for everything they have, i’m going to assume her safety applies here. given that her financial situation is so precarious, i don’t think tory would’ve taken kickboxing classes unless she felt like she had to. like— don’t get me wrong, tory clearly enjoys fighting. it’s prolly a good way to relieve all the stress she’s under, having head of household responsibilities at 16/17. but we see in s3 when her mom can’t rly work anymore and therefore she has to work even more herself, tory leaves the dojo specifically bc she can’t afford lessons. so that leads me to believe that even if tory enjoys fighting, she wouldn’t spend money on it unless doing so was of necessity to her.

tory does not live in a world of stability. her mother’s health is precarious and unstable. her financial situation is precarious and unstable. even working two jobs she didn’t have enough to cover rent. it was so, so heartbreaking but u could see it in her eyes that she was considering the landlord’s offer. she was considering sleeping with some gross ass adult man who berated and belittled her just to have the stability of a home. imho she would’ve done it if kreese didn’t handle the situation (and he definitely didn’t do so for selfless reasons, but that’s another matter entirely so i’m not gonna go into that).

sam, on the other hand, doesn’t just have stability, she has luxury. again, the big house, her own car, wealthy, supportive, healthy parents who have the time and the means to be there for her and provide her with whatever she wants, let alone needs. fighting is v different for sam. from sam’s perspective, karate is meditation. karate is a way to find balance, to center yourself and spiritually connect with your body. karate is recreation and sport, tournaments where rules ensure everyone’s safety at the end of the day and fighting with honor scores u points while fighting with dishonor gets u disqualified. where fighting with honor is “fair” and fighting without honor is “dirty.” 

now, i know sam *theoretically* understands karate from the self-defense perspective too. bc she’s heard daniel’s stories. bc she used it against kyler when he made her uncomfortable. bc she and robby got into it at the mall to come to demetri’s defense, thereby actively protecting another person. but sam does not have daniel’s lived experiences of struggling with poverty or being put into harm’s way as gravely as daniel was in his youth (at least not until the school brawl, i’m getting there). sam never had to stab a pervert in the face bc he predated upon her and grabbed her. sam did face bullying, yes, but as hurtful as being slut-shamed on the internet is, her safety was not threatened in that situation the way tory’s safety has been threatened, nor the way her father’s safety was threatened in his youth.

i definitely think the context of their situations influences how each thinks of fighting. tory intimately understands fighting for survival in a way sam does not, in a way sam simply cannot relate to. tory doesn’t adhere to the rules the way sam does bc rules have never done shit for her. actually, the rules themselves keep her down, her mother got fired from her job at the restaurant precisely bc she was bringing home leftovers to feed her hungry children. tory has no reason to distinguish between dishonorable fighting and honorable fighting bc at the end of the day, fighting is a necessity for tory in a way that it is not a necessity for sam. tory doesn’t fight to win points or to meditate, or to spiritually connect with her body. tory fights for self-preservation.

from sam’s perspective, tory fights “dirty.” from tory’s perspective, sam lives in a fantasy world where there’s some kind of manufactured distinction between fighting “fair” and “dirty” only for those who have the security and luxury to made that very distinction. to tory, fighting is fighting and that’s that. to sam, fighting is a discipline, an art, a tradition, and is meant to be practiced with a level of etiquette shown to your opponent. bc that’s what tory is to sam, an opponent. but sam isn’t an opponent to tory— she’s an enemy. these are not the same things.

i think the way tory and sam understand fighting really rears its head in the school brawl. tory’s had it with sam, she’s had beef with her since the moment sam accused her of stealing and it reaches its tipping point during the party bc first, sam beats her in the drinking competition, embarrassing her in front of everyone, and then she goes and kisses miguel. who isn’t just tory’s bf, but one of the only good things in her life at that moment.

on top of that, like, okay, tory is v aware miguel used to date sam. so when she’s dating miguel herself, i think she does take a kind of satisfaction in that, in knowing she’s “taken” miguel from the pretty, privileged princess who has everything else, pretty privileged princess who once accused her of stealing and would then go on to mock and ridicule her. i think it increases the sting for tory when sam follows up beating her in the contest with kissing miguel not just bc she’s hurt, but bc it’s an added slap in the face that sam “reclaimed” this one good thing tory thought she’d managed to “take” from her.

come the school brawl and sam is aware tory’s angry. tory announces on the damn loud speaker she’s coming for her, prolly to embarrass her in front of everyone the way sam embarrassed her the night before. fight ensues and they’re matching each other p well, i’d say tory mostly retains the upper hand bc she had the element of offense on her side while sam’s blows were primarily defensive…it’s slightly in tory’s favor but rly could go either way until the point where tory breaks out the spiked knuckle duster/bracelet.

if u look at sam’s face after tory puts it on, like…she’s shocked. she’s frightened. she was not anticipating that at all. tory on the other hand, has a mocking expression and from her tone, i kind of think she’s reveling in sam’s reaction. bc tory knows full well sam has never had to fight the way she has. sam’s never actually had her safety compromised so it’s like. utterly incomprehensible to her the moment it happens. 

tory is the first person who has ever actually threatened sam’s safety and tory knows that, and she relishes it. from tory’s perspective, sam is just as foolish as she is pampered, and she gets to be the one to snatch sam’s sense of security away from her the moment she introduces a weapon to the situation and shows sam; ‘no, this isn’t just a karate match. i actually want to hurt you, and i am going to use whatever i have to do that.’

and…i think she was just trying to hurt sam, personally. ik a lot of the ck fandom thinks tory wanted to kill sam. and i actually think sam herself thinks tory wanted to kill her bc of the visceral reaction she has to tory afterwards. sam has ptsd after the school brawl and it’s not just bc of tory, it’s clearly also bc of what happened to miguel. what robby did to miguel out of anger, anger not created by— but definitely inflamed by —the fact miguel and sam shared a smooch. but sam also has nightmares of tory trying to kill her and it’s tory’s voice that makes her freeze up during the fight at the laser tag place.

i think sam also inevitably associates tory with what happened to miguel, bc while robby, not tory kicked him over the railing, it was tory who started the brawl. and miguel went upstairs specifically bc he was trying to get tory off of sam. he followed them up there bc he was tryna calm tory down. so i think that’s also why sam is so shook by tory after, that inevitable association with miguel’s fall/coma. but i defo think bc tory was the first person who ever actually threatened sam’s safety for real, sam felt like tory was going to kill her. and to be fair, when tory gets sam on the floor and yanks her hair back, it appears that she’s doing so specifically to expose her face/throat area as she pulls her opposite arm back to stab.

sooo with that i 100% understand why so much of the ck fandom and sam herself would think tory was tryna kill her, but i personally don’t think that. i think she was trying to scar her face. i think tory might have specifically been aiming for the mouth bc she wanted to punish sam for the kiss. stabbing/slicing her mouth would be targeting a place on sam specifically associated with the incident that pushed tory’s anger over the edge.

i also think it’s entirely probable tory was just unleashing all of her built up stress on sam during that fight. tory was more aggressive not just bc she’s the one more pissed off but bc her nerves are fucking fried. she throws all of her negative emotions in the brawl and she has infinitely more of those than sam, created by her precarious and fraught living situation wherein she’s had to endure much more hardship than sam and she’s constantly on her guard, fully aware of how fragile any semblance of stability she manages to carve out for herself/her family is. while sam, on the other hand, gets to live in what must appear to tory as this soft, fuzzy fantasy world where mom and dad take care of all the important stuff and sam doesn’t have to worry abt a thing.

i maintain that i don’t believe tory was tryna kill sam, but i do believe she rly wanted to hurt her. and she did…sam is hospitalized after the fight. tory goes back to cobra kai to train for the next one. bc that’s what tory’s life is, one fight after the next. she doesn’t have the luxury of treating karate as a means for meditation or recreation like sam does. and i truly think that impacts that dynamic more than often given credit for.

[kimjoongs-main]

50 questions tag

tagged by: @jenuminous (ty bby ily)

tagging: @kimyeongues @linosgf @cheonsajaemin @hyuckiebabyy @bitchendery @moonblssm

1. what takes up too much of your time?

—hmmm probably sleeping, facetiming my friends, writing, reading webtoons, watching stuff on youtube etc

2. what makes your day better?

—that thing parents do when they cut up fruit for you and give you some :( my dad always cuta up watermelon for me whenever i’m stressed out

3. what’s the best thing that happened to you today?

—my cousin and i went out and had a girl’s day, we went to the mall, got our nails done, and just had a great time

4. what fictional place would you like to go to ?

—any place that gives you powers basically, so like bnha for example, or this webtoon i started reading called unordinary

5. are you good at giving advice ?

—it depends on the situation but generally i...guess so??

6. do you have a mental illness?

—hah

7. have you ever experienced sleep paralysis ?

—nope and *knocks on wood* i hope i never have to

8. what musician inspires you the most?

—cl, i just...love her

9. have you ever fallen in love ?

—yes

10. what’s your dream date?

—stargazing hands down

11. what do others notice about you ?

—the first thing people usually point out is my height sjdjdjs :’)) i’m tiny tiny

12. what’s an annoying habit you have?

—i tend to comb my hair back when i’m stressed out or nervous and it makes my hair all tangled

13. do you still talk to your first love ?

—yupyup

14. how many exes do you have?

—none

15. how many songs are in your playlist ?

—i have so many playlists for different moods shdjd, but the number of songs on my phone is around 200

16. what instruments can you play?

—i used to be able to play the violin but i stopped

17. what do you have the most pictures of ?

—my three friends, jaemin heh, and as of right now my godson

18. where would you like to go before you die?

—thailand

19. what’s your zodiac ?

—cap sun, pisces moon/rising

20. do you relate to it?

—i relate to cap sun and pisces moon sometimes, not so much my rising tho

21. what’s happiness to you?

—feeling nothing but joy, having a hard time keeping a smile off my face

22. are you going through anything right now ?

—well.....

23. what’s the worst decision you ever made?

—taking ap chem JSJDJDJS

24. what’s your favorite store?

—ooohooohho there’s this cute store i found in the mall at the philippines, i forgot the name but it was something like papemelroti?? but it had these cute little trinkets and stuff for scrapbooking and omg i fell in love

25. what’s your opinion about abortion ?

—woman’s body -> her choice, that’s all i’m saying abt this

26. do you keep a bucket list ?

—i used to when i was 10, but nah

27. do you have a favorite album?

—any album by journey

28. what do you want for your birthday ?

—ummmm money ig?? or maybe a new backpack bc they always break halfway thru the year

29. what are people’s first impressions of you?

—people usually say i’m rlly quiet when they first meet me, and they’re not wrong

30. what age do you seem according to most people ?

—it depends, someone thought i was in college when i was like 16, and someone else thought i was a hs freshman when i was a senior lol

31. where do you keep your phone while you’re sleeping?

—charging on the desk next to my bed

32. what word do you say the most ?

—what, oh, or just keyboard smashes

33. what’s the oldest age you would date?

—19

34. what’s the youngest you would date ?

—idk if i would???

35. what job/career would most people say suit you?

—a teacher, but as much as i love kids i don’t think i could handle teaching them

36. what’s your favorite music genre ?

—mmm i’ve been really into indie lately

37. if you could live in any country in the world, where would it be?

—not sure, but probably the philippines since i’m from there and i know the language well enough

38. what is your current favorite song ?

—symmetry by jt roach and emily warren, it’s so calming

39. how long have you had this blog for?

—a little over a year now, but i’ve been on tumblr for around 3-4 years

40. what are you excited for ?

—my fam and i are going to a resort tmr and i looked it up and it’s so pretty:((

41. are you a better talker or listener?

—depends on the person, there’s some people who i talk w more, and there’s some people who i just sit and listen to more

42. what was the last productive thing you did ?

—i did the laundry this morning, sweeped the apartment

43. what do you want for Christmas?

—again probably money or a new backpack

44. what class do you get the best grades in ?

—math and bio

45. on a scale of 1-10, how are you feeling right now?

—8.5

46. what can you see yourself doing in ten years ?

—probably being a nurse or traveling

47. when did you get your first heartbreak?

—when my fav teacher revealed to our class abt what she was going thru, it really hurt me to see her so upset

48. what age do you want to get married ?

—in my 30s maybe

49. what career did you want to have as a child?

—i really wanted to be a photographer at one point, but other than that it’s always been a nurse

50. what do you crave right now ?

—sushi, there’s a sushi place a mile from my apartment and im debating whether or not i should go skfkd

[rosyerim]

fwb↠ lovers!yukhei

warnings; obvi sexual stuff, some cursing, 16++!!!

listen i am a HOE for lucas

but lbr so are u 

who isn’t like have you SEEN that man GOD

anywho letzgetit

lucas aka wong yukhei was one of your friends ever since u two got paired up for a presentation in college

super cocky when u approached him first 

u were like

“hi so will we go to yours ?”

he was like

“( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°) oh we’re goin to mine huh? that fast u must want me bad( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)“

u just rolled ur eyes and was like

“listen here u damn TREE i meant so we could work on the presentation!!”

he’s like “yea sure whatever u say babe”

so u just rolled ur eyes again and was abt to leave before he grabbed ur hand and was like im jk!! gimme ur number so we can sort out a day

so u do bc i mean who wouldnt give lucas their number

when u get home u already have a message from him

“hey it’s lucas :)”

“lemme know what day suits u, im p much free all week!”

he actually wasn’t free all week but would have cancelled any plans for u in a heartbEAT 

little do u know, homeboy been lowkey crushin’ on you ever since he saw u strut into the same lecture room as him

then u tripped but thats BESIDes tHe poInT

u text back and are like

“i’m free tommorow if that suits u?”

you didn’t expect a text back so quick

you put your phone down for 00.02 seconds before

WHA-PING

its ya boi lucas double texting u

“yeah i’m free haha said i was free all week :)”

“that came off as kinda passive aggressive im sorry thats not what i meant??”

hehehe u just smile to ur self what a cutie

you set up to meet at the campus cafe the next day at like 2pm bc god knows ur ass won’t be up before 1pm

again once u put ur phone down thinking the convo was over

WHA-PING-DING

its lucas again 

“so..what are u doin rn? i’m just workin out haha :)”

wong yukhei rlly out here bein all fuckboyish and shit but u bein ur good, sin free self ignore the DEVILS calling and go do ur own things around the house

ignoring the WHA-PINGS

next day rolls around 

you’re at the cafe like 10 mins early because u didn’t want to b late 

and woahh whose already sitting inside at the corner table w two chairs??

and two steaming cups of coffee??

yeah u guessed it lucASS

looking fine as heLL in literally just a white hoodie??

you know THIS look

that whole ass look

okay stop staring at his beautiful self and go i n s i d e

bby boy does a lil jump of surprise when u walk up he was so immersed in his phone

he was not looking up “how to get someone to like u” fucjakjks

he’s all smiley and is like

“ (✿◠‿◠) i didn’t know what drink u liked so i just got u a coffee, hope its okay(✿◠‿◠)“

ssjdhsjd ofc its okay baby!!

u just nod and say you’ll pay next time

he gets a lil blushy bc your both gone meet up again aw

so you both start working, he has ideas so do you, so you both compromise and wow u two make a great team

at some point the convo turns from school to sharing drunk stories of ur friends

a few coffees & lots of laughing later u suddenly realize its gotten rlly late bc of how dark it is outside!!

cue lucas using this as an opportunity to be all suave & gentlemanly 

“wow it’s gotten late, i’ll walk you home!!” 

so ur both on course to ur apartment 

he tries to be that boy and put his jumper on u because he saw u shiver for 00.001 second

but ur like lol no thanks im not cold

the tips of ears go red & poor bby is embarrassed  so he goes all pouty :((

then u feel bad bc homeboy was jus tryna be nice :((

so u end up wrappin yourself up in it and now hes all :))

now ur all :))) too

when u get to ur apt he kinda awkwardly shuffles outside so u invite him inside so he can “warm up” before he leaves

and whooo did u two “warm up”

he takes a seat on ur sofa & is kinda mindlessly babbling as u put on some music and bring him over a warm drink 

so ur both just sittin there bbq sauce on ya titties

and then its like some sort of sudden tension arises??

he stops babbling and just stares at u 

u stare back, slowly putting down ur drink

then ur leaning in oh so s l o w l y

he places his big ass hand on the side of ur face, eyes hovering from ur lips to ur eyes, asking for permission 

you give him a lil nod and he s w o o p s the fuck in

his plump lips are soft, a lil chapped and the first kiss is tender, he pulls away after a few seconds

he looks at you thru half lidded eyes and oop you pulled him back to ya lips hehe

from there it escalates 

he leans back onto the sofa and pulls you ontop of him, in a straddling position

one of his hands moves from your face down to your waist holding u tightly against while the other is rubbing circles on the exposed skin below your shirt

his tongue pushes past your lips, to meet yours and you thread your fingers through his hair, tugging lightly at the ends

this elicits a deep ass groan outta him and he pulls back suddenly, tilting his head up towards you

you’re slightly panting as you take note of his swollen lips and slight blush dusting his cheeks

he notices the same things about you and smirks before your face back towards him

to ur slight disappointment it’s not as heated as before, just a lil soft kiss and hes pulling away again

ur like 

“<(｀^´)> why’d u stopp <(｀^´)>“

he just chuckles w his deeper than the ocean voice pinches ur cheek lightly

“because as much as i’d like to keep goin, it’s a bit too fast paced don’t you think?”

you flush again as u didn’t even think about what he was feeling and nodded, burying your face into the crook of his neck

but the hypocrisy of this bOY

the next time u two meet up to “work on the project” u end up goin to his place and oop hes got u beneath him on his bed, both of ur shirts on the floor 

his mouth is set on marking your neck, collarbones while his hips are lightly grinding down on you, you feeling his bulge from beneath his tracksuit pants

you wrap you legs around him, pulling him even closer before flipping him over somehow

he’s a lil surprised as you take ur turn to pepper his neck and collarbones w love bites but he’s not complaining as u can tell from his quiet moans beneath you

you make your way lower on his body, stopping just before the waistband of his pants, looking up at him

“can i?”

u ask him first because consent is important kids

he nods so fast ur afraid his head is gona pop off 

you pull his pants & underwear down and wha-ping there he is

you grasp him at the base and lucas throws his head back, almost banging it off his headboard but does he care? nope.

so after ya know, suck the soul out of him

homeboy needs a phat minute to get his breath back

but ur pulling ur top back on, ready to go bc u felt like he woulda kicked u out but nOPE

the second he catches u ready to leave, he grabs u and pulls u back down onto the bed w him

ur like??? but in a good way

he ends up peppering ur face w lots of kisses and u gigglin bc aw

but then the kisses end up getting more heated as he makes his way down ur body, ur shirt leaving u once again, as well as ur pants and oops ur underwear too??

he ends up giving back what he received :)))

after that night, you both agree to keep it casual

basically friends w benefits

lucas loves the idea 

at first

like the thought of him bein’ able to text you whenever he was horny and not block him? great. gettin’ the occasional nude from you during his classes and ending up hard for an hour? not the best, but he’ll take it.

bUT the sight of you coming down off your high that he gave you while still panting his name softly??? 100000% HERE for it

wearing his shirt as you tumble around his bedroom, your neck covered in lovebites from him leaves him 97% soft and 3% sorta kinda horny

but he wants to be able to text you abt how your day was or what you’re doing for the day him or just listen to you rant!! not just when he pops a boner or you’re in the mood

he also wants to experience holding you in his arms, filled with love and not lust, kisses that are just innocent instead of heated 

to wake up to your sleeping face, no matter how funny looking, in the morning instead of an cold, empty space in his bed

but lucas knows you won’t return his feelings so he does his best to hide them (read: fails miserably at hiding his feelings for you)

then you begin to notice subtle changes in his behavior 

he goes from choking you out w a dark look in his eyes to caressing your cheeks w heart eyes in 000.02 seconds

he gives you his shirt to keep even after you leave his apartment and insists on driving you home

he texts you pictures of cute puppies he saw on his way to college instead of his usual boxer pics 

safe to say, u knew wtf was up

but u didn’t want to sound conceited abt knowing lucas liked you, so you didn’t say anything

and you both kept up the facade of hiding your feelings for the other behind by taking your frustration out on each other, sexually

and it stays that way for a while, but lucas was becoming more agitated each night you left and vice versa

until he broke the unspoken rule

neither of you had stayed overnight at the others for fear of having to deal with the truth of your emotions in the morning

but that night as you lay beside him, breathing heavily, the thin covers barely covering your naked bodies, he slipped his hand into yours and pulled you close

and you both lay there for a while, content in each other embraces, listening to each others heartbeats

then, you shifted to move away, to leave another night of unspoken feelings for another day

but he pulled you back and whispered, “stay”

you knew what that meant, you thought it over in your head

if you stayed, you would wake up and finally face the music, finally talk about how much you’ve fallen for him

how much you want to give him kisses all over his face to make him laugh

how you want to go on cute little cafe dates and study dates and dinner dates and basically every kind of date with him

how you want to introduce him to your family as not just your friend, but your boyfriend, your lover

a few moments passed

lucas’ forehead creased slightly in worry

he placed a tender kiss on your knuckles

mumbled a soft “please”

you took a deep breath 

and relaxed against him, letting your eyelids flutter shut as you let sleep overcome you

missing how lucas’ eyes literally shone as he looked down on you

“finally” he whispered against the crown of your head as he placed a kiss there, his grin almost splitting his face in half

he sent a bunch of keyboard smashes into the nct gc later bc he was so happy sjdksjd

and thats how you and wong yukhei fell in love

he also still gets butterflies every time he sees you and screams internally every time u kiss him fucjskjd <33

le fin♡ 

this is my first bullet scenario, hope it was okay (〃▽〃)

[peachyteabuck]

talking body

summary: sexting with bucky while he’s out with the boys

pairing: bucky barnes x reader

words: 943

trigger warnings: lots of talk of sexy times

notes/other: reader is gender neutral in this case, I believe. also, this seriously made me think long and hard about the politics of reader inserts and nsfw gifs. enjoy!

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You were alone, with bad television and a lot of junk food to keep you company. It’s isolation by your own design, so you should have no one to blame but yourself, but still, you can’t help but wallow in self pity as the “Next season starts in 5...4….” thing shows up on your laptop screen.

You’re about halfway through the next episode when your phone dings, indicating you got a text.

It’s from Bucky, checking in on you.

bucky bby - 11:56 am - read

hey babygirl, you good?

You smile a little. You’ve been feeling sort of out of it lately, with it culminating in your deciding to stay inside instead of working out and getting lunch with the guys. You’re not…”depressed” per say, but you are drained. Tired. Defeated. Ruined. Overthrown. Rejected.

What were you talking about again?

me - 11:57 am - sending

yeah, i’m good. a lil lonely tho

The text was supposed to be innocent (even if teetered on borderline sad), but Bucky never liked to stay innocent. Never.

He’s a flirty little shit.

bucky bby - 11:58 am - read

what kinda lonely?

was this morning’s shower session not enough for you?

You decide to play along, needing something else to do beside watch people murder other people in more and more ridiculous and messed up ways. What’s up with you and crime shows, anyway? Why not shake it up with a comedy special? Or HGTV?

Plus, you love him, and you love teasing him, and you love getting fucked by him. So you text back quickly.

me - 12:00 pm - sending

i’m alllll good buck

but i think you still want more

Your heart is racing. All you’re wearing is some comfy high-waisted cotton panties and a cropped sweatshirt.

It’s the perfect outfit for moping around your apartment, but very poor attire for sexting your boyfriend. But you’re confident in your ability to make it work. You’re up for the challenge.

bucky bby - 12:02 pm - read

damn

send me a photo

wanna see you

Oh, fuck. You’re nervous as hell. But why?

You’ve had sex with Bucky before. Lots of very good sex. Lots and lots of very, very good sex.

Why was your heart racing so badly? Why was this so different?

You attempt to pose, trying to remember that photography class you had to take in college and everything Tyra has ever told any woman (or man) that has ever competed on America’s Next Top Model. You check lighting, angles, palette. Should you change into a lighter sweatshirt? Some nicer panties? Open more blinds? Buy new blinds?

You take your dark blue comforter and bundle it, making something you can pose around. You give him a side shot, showing off your lack of pants and skimpy top. Just a sneak peak of what’s to come.

You bite your lip, too. Just for good measure. With your ass on display, you choose to send the picture with the peach emoji.

Are you overthinking this? Maybe.

Do you care? Not at all. If you’re going to do this, you’re going to do this right.

bucky bby - 12:10 pm - read

fuck

I love you so much

you’re so sexy

sad i can’t send you anything

still out w the guys

You text back, show now completely forgotten. The sound of someone getting their limbs ripped apart acts as a surprisingly good soundtrack to your mischievous photoshoot.

me - 12:12 pm - sending

oh?

so what happens if i send you something better?

You can practically hear him growl when the little check mark indicates the message was read.

bucky bby - 12:14 pm - read

you’ll be in deep trouble baby

You’re unsure of what to reply.

me - 12:16 pm - sending

oh, i like trouble

You send a picture of one your hands raising your sweatshirt just above your breast. Not enough to show nipple, but enough just to let him know that’s you’re sexy, you know it, and he’s missing out on a lot.

bucky bby - 12:20 pm - read

that’s it?

that’s all you can give me?

You snort.

me - 12:23 pm - sending

really james?

you’re being ungrateful

while i’m sending you nudes?

bucky bby - 12:26 pm - read

not ungrateful baby

you i love you so fucking much

wanna worship you

wanna make love to you

me - 12:31 pm - sending

how abt you prove it

You add a few eggplant emojis for good measure.  

The notification for his next message comes some time later, the grey block indicated it’s a picture.

bucky bby - 12:40 pm - read

something like this?

The photo is of him grabbing his dick through his sweaty gym shorts. It’s obvious he’s seriously hard, and it probably aches.

Good.

The more you eye his thick cock, the more your mouth salivates .

You want to wrap your lips around it, suck at the head, run your tongue across every vein, cup his balls, let him grab the back of your head and thrust into your throat…

You snap yourself out of your haze, focusing back on the task at hand.  

me - 12:44 pm - sending

mm

wanna wrap my lips around it

suck at the head

run my tongue across every vein

cup your balls

let you fuck my throat

bucky bby - 12:46 pm - sending

alright

i’m coming home right now

You smile, pushing your laptop under your bed and grabbing a condom from the box in the bathroom.

When you place it by your bedside table, you decide to grab another one. You have a feeling this isn’t going to be a one-condom kinda fuck session.

//

tags: @nerdyandproud9​

[fxrris]

hello my friends it is i, ur friendly neighbourhood canadian moose !! i’m 20, use she/her pronouns, and i’m a virgo sun, pisces moon & scorpio rising. also a future vet but we don’t like to talk abt school because yikes !! i’m rly excited for this y’all don’t even know. this is my bby ferris & she’s a bit of a nut buT i hope u like her anyway ?? i’m a thirsty hoe and i wanna plot w all of u so HMU or just LIKE THIS and i’ll come to you !! u can also peep her pinterest board HERE for a lil more vibes but more info abt her under the cut !!

holy shit! did you see that? oh wait, that’s just ferris mcelroy, the local madelaine petsch lookalike. apparently, she’s been in Moon Valley for twenty-one whole years! they’re very enthralling, but also pretty reticent, which is why: a bouquet of wilted flowers, dirt caked under chipped fingernails, smudged eyeliner, and moths surrounding a flickering light describes their vibe effortlessly. I wonder what this 21 year old hopes to discover in good ol’ Moon Valley.

she’s v inspired by jennifer from the movie phenomena and a lil bit of luna lovegood !!!

so ferris was born & raised in moon valley and has lived there her entire life !! 

she’s always been a bit of an unusual gal ig ?? a quiet girl who kept to herself while her identical twin sister, piper was like...the more outgoing & friendly & popular one. but the two were still best friends & ferris didn’t really care that ppl didnt like her as much

she actually preferred it that way bc she’s always really liked being alone. she very very rarely spoke up as a child and ppl and teaches especially thought she was just dumb but she is actually v intelligent

1000000% nature hoe !!! she grew up always being outside and playing with bugs and in the trees. always walkin around barefoot and trying to talk to and befriend the plants and animals

she very much believes that she has a deep spiritual like......paranormal connection to nature?? fully believes that she can communicate with and understand plants, animals & insects and sense how they’re feeling and vice versa. she is very in Tune with the world around her

so she’s quite sensitive and her mood / attitude / emotions are also v heavily affected by like....nature and the weather and stuff u know. but she’s happy when it rains.

tw: missing person / death !! her twin sister piper went missing shortly after their 17th birthday and her whereabouts are still unknown. no one knows what happened to her and her mom still hasn’t given up the search. it was such a tragedy and it rly tore the family apart as u can imagine??? about a year after, ferris’ parents split up and her dad moved away bc he couldn’t rly take it and her mom is.....still pretty shook up about it. she refuses to stop trying to find piper and bc of that people think she’s a bit nutty ???? but what else is she supposed to do u know thats her babY. and she lowkey.....resents ferris bc she is just a constant reminder of their once picture perfect family and her mom always lowkey liked piper more rip

even tho no one knows where piper is or what happened, ferris fully believes 1000000% that she’s dead and the two of the can communicate. she was really devastated when she first disappeared as u can imagine but after speaking to her sister she is no longer upset about it bc she believes that her sister is at peace now and in a better place. she claims that her sister speaks to her in her dreams and also that she can communicate with her spirit. 

is it real ???? is it just her way of coping?????????? we will never know for Sure.

lots of people think she is just like.....out of her mind & full of it but she doesn’t rly care ??? like....these are her experiences and if u dont believe her oh well !!! join the club !!!!!

she has major insomnia that only got worse after her sister disappeared. she’s basically the queen of the no sleep club and she’s always tired but.....the bitch can’t sleep !!!!

she is basically in her own little dream world at all times and can be p disconnected from reality ????? like....she’s always got her head in the clouds

she lowkey ruins everything good in her life and is consistently fucking up. she has a tendency to push ppl away ?? just because like......idK she just doesn’t rly think people would like her if they rly got to know her so it’s better to keep people at a distance to start with rather than get attached and have them fuck off???? she’s never had good luck w relationships so it’s kind of sketchy to her

but she feels everything so deeply like.....she’s an incredibly sensitive person she feels everything sO MUCH

her house is an bug zOO. like, she has pet tarantulas and stick bugs and giant millipedes and ant farms and probably cockroaches and shit too like.....it’s GROSS but she thinks they’re rly cool and she likes to talk to them

she’s worked at the amusement park since she was 16!!!! she sells cotton candy :’)

her sexuality is v fluid and she identities as queer !!! she doesn’t rly think abt it too much ig ??? she just......likes whoever she likes and it’s not some big deal to her u know

did i mention that she luvs bugs bc..........................she luvs bugs

smokes a lot of weed probably mostly to help her sleep but also bc.....why Not. when she’s high she’ll just talk about shit forever man which is wild bc she barely talks when she’s sober ???

as for wanted connections i literally want...........everythinG but here is a lil list of ideas !!

a best friend !! probably since they were v young like,.......the one person who rly knows her inside & out and she can trust with anything

a drug dealer !!!!! i imagine she would be like kind of friends w them ?? since she is prob blowing up their phone a lot lmao. also just ppl she can get high with would b cool as well

an ex !!! she probably got scared and pushed them tf away and ran for her LIFE bc she just.......has Issues and it’s hard for her to connect w people

her sister’s friends !!!! this is something i REALLLYYYY want bc piper was v popular and well-loved so it would be interesting ??? they could like....resent her or think she’s a total freak or remind them of piper and they want to be her friend or literally anything i just Want it

maybe some hookups or somethin

someone who like....deadass just thinks she’s a fucking weirdo

also !!!! someone she has a big crush on but.....she is like too nervous to talk to them or like act on it or anything

some friends maybe

literally anything

[hundredsunny]

op oc #3: APRIL

im baaaaaaack

u are about to read about my prime DAUGHTER april. the rogue princess. a real pokemon! hahahhahaha she nabbed herself the AURA AURA FRUIT yo this is wild so get ready to learn about ol’ blue eyes!!!!!!!!!!

NAME: april (i dont have a surname for her i cant think of anything and ive had her for 8 years im sorry) EPITHET: “aura shooter” ooOOoOOoOoo AGE: 18 (pre) 20 (post) BIRTHDAY: april (incredible would u have ever guessed) 5th!!!  BIRTHPLACE: nimbasa island in the south blue SEX: female HEIGHT: 5′6″ WEIGHT: 122lbs HAIR COLOR: sandy brown EYE COLOR: blue APPEARANCE: before she escaped her home, she wore an icy blue dress underneath a navy blue cloak and her hair down with a CROWN of course but she hated wearing it a lot. her hair when worn down reaches the middle of her biceps. after she escaped she ONLY wore her hair in a ponytail and she always wore a red bandanna with a white arch atop her head at all times!! it was a gift from her mamma the QUEEN herself. she also wore a white t-shirt with red triangles bordering the collar and the ends of her sleeves. does that make sense? i sure hope. she wore a red sash around her waist and then she popped on some black pants and boots. real piratey. also some of her hair kinda pops out in the front so theres a good chunk that sometimes covers her left side. look at u go princess. AFTER the timeskip she cut her hair so it reaches just above her shoulders, and instead of wearing her hair up and with the bandanna, she wears it down but with a black headband. her bandanna is tied around her left bicep (fashion inspo: zoro). she wears a green sleeveless crop top, and theres a scar that reaches from the back of her shoulder to the end of her collarbone. she earned that shit from her wild timeskip training. oof. shes ok. she wears light-washed pants and some addidas-lookin shoes lmao she also wears a rly loose belt too. also she has gold earrings and thas about it. her eyes are round and just v pretty and blue. her nose turns up at the end just a tad bit and it’s so cute she’s so cute. she has a dimple on the right side of her mouth. her mommas face :’) shes fairly skinny but after the timeskip she gained some muscles made 4 punching douchecanoes  REPRESENTATIVE SMELL: vanilla FAVE FOOD: pasta FAVE DRINK: lemonade  FAVE SEASON: fall REPRESENTATIVE NATIONALITY: australian BOUNTY: initial bounty was 60,000,000 (for being runaway royalty) but after dressrosa she SKRTED up to 155,000,000 DEVIL FRUIT: aura aura fruit a paramecia type. the fruit allows the user to manipulate their energy. with the aura aura fruit, users are able to detect the aura of others, repel the aura of others, and project their own. the power of aura is mood-sensitive and can change a lot. can u believe april is lucario 6 forms of aura: red is physical nature, orange is intelligence, yellow is sheer willpower, green is healing, blue is emotion, vioilet(i THINK) is mental communication. i forgot what i wrote down for the aura types lmaoooo the biggest drawback of this fruit is that the user can only use a limited amount at one time. another drawback is that they cant manipulate other people’s aura??? it’s rly hard to explain this but trust me it makes sense when it’s put into action i promise SKILLS SET: most of her attacks are used with red aura since it relates to physical nature. wild. “aura bullet” is just shootin aura goodbye. i love pokemon. lmao. uh “aura detect” is when she can see what someone else’s aura looks like, so basically she can determine if someone is a bastard or not before they even open their mouth. “aura clone” clones herself with aura and that takes a LOT of effort to pull this one off especially when she wants to use multiple clones. “aura bomb” yo this one is wild she uses it for diversions and escaping since it kinda acts as a smoke bomb but when she uses this thing in battle OOOOH BOY. “starstorm” ok this is like the “im going to die after i do this move” kinda thing. it combines all the damn types of aura and it just RAINS down on ppl. goodbye april. anyways there are more basic moves but i dont rly wanna get too into that rn im sorry PROFESSION: runaway princess lol CREW: straw hat pirates  PERSONALITY: an easygoing girl. v mellow for the most part but there are times where she can get pretty goofy (thanks jack). if the wrong buttons are pushed, she becomes a HURRICANE. she does have confidence issues but since she met luffy, she’s really started to overcome them. shes got a horrible habit of being sarcastic and also she asks a LOT of questions holy SHIT honey. she is TERRIFIED of heights so when franky lays down a good ol coup de burst, her soul leaves her body. g o o d b y e. she was very cold when she first met luffy and the gang bc she lived with the person who killed her mom AND jack left sooooo she was a little bitter. eventually she learned to rly live with the mugiwaras. when she first joined the crew, she was very shy and timid and tried hard to fit in. she was SO intimidated by zoro like he genuinely scared the fuck out of her so she always tried hard to not be a Fool around him but once she got comfortable with everyone she just had a good ol time. “hey grassy ass!! :))” “can u fucking not call me that”. she has the CUTEST laugh oh me oh my. honestly just a rly passionate gal, she just wants to be strong and be able to protect her pals. refuses outside help. bros out with luffy and usopp and chopper sometimes but also judges them from afar like nami does. it all just depends on the day. truly. i once wrote a series of one-shots where each one was an adventure that april had with one other straw hat. luffy was the first one, and THAT was wild. zoro’s was fucking baller. so on and so forth. rly shows off her dynamic with each member. april? shes honestly just a good person and im proud of her bc she works so hard  LIKES: training, traveling, every single animal ever, reading DISLIKES: heights, the marines, the heat, people who walk horrifically slow in crowded places WEAPON(S): aside from her devil fruit shes got a dagger she sometimes uses. jack gave one to her right before he left HISTORY: OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO king jed and queen serena had a baby girl. APRIL. that made her the princess. anyways she grew up as any princess would--spoiled. however the spoiling never got to her head bc serena was so good about teaching her things like that. serena was a goddess i love her pls come back. serena was wildly popular with the citizens of the kingdom bc of her caring and friendly personality. she would always take april into the kingdom every day and pay visits to the citizens. out of all the citizens they paid visits to, the most common faces she saw were those of the solo family. cain was jed’s most talented and trusted knight. he and his wife celeste had 2 kids: jack and sho YO. jack was 7 yrs older than sho and 3 yrs older than april. april and jack became fast friends and often explored the kingdom together. regular kid stuff u know. jack’s mom was always like “jack NO u CANNOT take the PRINCESS to the farms thats FILTY” hahahah but they went anyway.  jed? a dark man. idk who hurt him or what made him so murderous. but. he was tired of serena treating the citizens like equals. he believed that royalty should be viewed as gods.  when april was 8 jed killed serena oh god there it is theres the tragic anime mom death. as soon as serena died, the dynamic of the kingdom instantly changed. soon after jed took total control, people began leaving the island. eventually, the island became so empty that only a handful of families remained. jed did not allow april to leave the castle at all, and with that rule, it damaged the friendship that she and jack had. ofc around that time jack’s dad ran off as well so he stopped tryin to visit her for a bit. but then once he got back into his groove hed sneak all about, avoiding the night patrols, and hed just sit outside of april’s window and talk to her.  when april was 11 she discovered a devil fruit hidden away in the trashed artifacts that belonged to her mother. she ate the devil fruit and was like “now im strong, fight me JED” but lol she got her ass whooped poor bby when april was 16 jack left the island, leaving her completely and utterly alone. the exposure to such loneliness began to change april into a more reserved, bitter person.  2 yrs later the STRAW HATS stumbled upon the island. at that time april had started a habit of sneaking out of the castle to roam the empty streets of nimbasa, but during one of her strolls, she encountered robin, franky, and brook. she ended up knocking them unconscious bc she felt threatened. the second group she met consisted of zoro, chopper, and sanji. they had been captured by guards and were brought into the throne room to be interrogated by jed. april was required to be there as well so she kinda sat in her throne and looked mad the entire time. sanji was like “NO WHY DOES SHE LOOK SO MAD SHE NEEDS TO BE HAPPY” and zoro was like “ive never seen someone so happy to see my face” and chopper was just having a crisis bc they were abt to be tossed into the shadow realm at the hands of the king. zoro got mouthy and jed didnt have none of that shit so he told april to kill zoro but she just knocked him out instead. that pissed jed off. THE NEXT person she met was luffy. she only met luffy bc he infiltrated a banquet thing by sitting underneath a cart. classic luffy. she didnt meet nami and usopp until WAAAAY later. yadda yadda yadda shit goes down (i wrote a whole arc for this. it’s called the princess and the pirates lmao original but yes i wrote an entire arc for her recruitment and it’s A Lot) ANYWAYS luffy asked her to join the crew but she declined at first bc she thought pirates were just like her father: power-hungry and murderous. however that obv changed when she was exposed to the straw hats more when luffy defeated jed who ate the ___ ___ fruit (tbh i forgot what fruit he ate im sorry) she KNEW she belonged with the straw hats. :’) she still be sailin with the legends. shes had some wild times obv. her arc comes a bit after thriller bark. woopie!!!!!!! like always, lemme know if u wanna know more about her!!!

[chaosbisexual]

1-92 mofo

FUCK RIGHT OFF MATE OK 

(lov u)

i took off the ones abt sex except for 1 bc i can 

1. Would you have sex with the last person you text messaged?

on tumblr…. it was u babe so take that how u like 

on imessage… no my dude 

2. You talked to an ex today, correct?

NOPE MY EX IS ON DRUGS 

4. Is trust a big issue for you?

ehhhhh idk possibly 

5. Did you hang out with the person you like recently?

no but like he’s in my classes?

6. What are you excited for?

yr 10 formal and finished for the year 

7. What happened tonight?

i made fajitas watched youtube and read fic,,, but it’s only 7pm 

8. Do you think it’s disgusting when girls get really wasted?

no do what u want… i just get annoyed when straight girls are suddenly making out with every other girl in sight BC BITCH Y CAN’T THE GAY GIRL GET SOME

9. Is confidence cute?

y e s self love is super hot 

10. What is the last beverage you had?

tea11. How many people of the opposite sex do you fully trust?

like one or two? 

12. Do you own a pair of skinny jeans?

three actually THEY MAKE MY BUTT LOOK GOOD

13. What are you gonna do Saturday night?

refer to 7 

14. What are you going to spend money on next?

bus fare 

15. Are you going out with the last person you kissed?

what kiss 

16. Do you think you’ll change in the next 3 months?

yes what the hell 

17. Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?

uhhhhhhhh like leah, the space gals, and my pal steph 

18. The last time you felt broken?

probs yesterday 

20. Are you starting to realize anything?

i can’t study and i hate having feelings for people 

21. Are you in a good mood?

eh im in neutral u made it better tho lmao 

22. Would you ever want to swim with sharks?

yea y not 

23. Are your eyes the same color as your dad’s?

no i am harry potter in which i have my Mother’s eyes

24. What do you want right this second?

more fajitas 

25. What would you say if the person you love/like kissed another girl/boy?

…huh 

26. Is your current hair color your natural hair color?

yes but i think due to the sun it’s a bit lighter than usual 

27. Would you be able to date someone who doesn’t make you laugh?

no omg humour is important

28. What was the last thing that made you laugh?

the vid u sent me 

29. Do you really, truly miss someone right now?

yep my mother 

30. Does everyone deserve a second chance?

i think so but there’s a line between 2 chances and 50 and if you have to give someone more than like 2 extra chances drop them lol 

31. Honestly, do you hate the last boy you were talking to?

no he’s a butt but he’s ok and he helped me make fajitas 

32. Does the person you have feelings for right now, know you do?

look i honestly don’t know but if he doesn’t then H O W 

33. Are you one of those people who never drinks soda?

lmao no i wish 

34. Listening to?

africa by toto, next in the queue is paint by the paper kites

35. Do you ever write in pencil anymore?

yes my last test was in pencil 

36. Do you know where the last person you kissed is?

again w the whole NO ONE HAS KISSED ME THING 

37. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no love is not purely based on appearance lol 

38. Who did you last call?

the guy who i’m doing my psych pres with

39. Who was the last person you danced with?

my pal nat in a stationary shop 

40. Why did you kiss the last person you kissed?

HMMM AGAIN WHY ARE YOU DOING THIS TO ME

41. When was the last time you ate a cupcake?

props like the last time my history teacher brought them to class

42. Did you hug/kiss one of your parents today?

nope lol 

43. Ever embarrass yourself in front of a crush?

YES CONSTANTLY 

44. Do you tan in the nude?

whats tanning dont know her 

45. If you could, would you take back your last kiss?

IF THIS HAPPENS ONE M O R E TIME 

46. Did you talk to someone until you fell asleep last night?

nope i wish tho 

47. Who was the last person to call you?

my dad

48. Do you sing in the shower?

hell yea i do 

49. Do you dance in the car?

hell yea i do 

50. Ever used a bow and arrow?

yea twice 

51. Last time you got a portrait taken by a photographer?

like 3 weeks ago for a school thing but the angle was gross 

52. Do you think musicals are cheesy?

NO THEY ARE MY LIFE AND SOUL 

53. Is Christmas stressful?

YES I LOVE SHOPPING BUT NEVER HAVE ENOUGH MONEY FOR EVERYONE 

ok i can’t be bothered to do the the format like that anymore rip nice structure

54. Ever eat a pierogi?

a wot

55. Favorite type of fruit pie?

apple and blueberry 

56. Occupations you wanted to be when you were a kid?

vet or journalist, still wanna write to some degree lol 

57. Do you believe in ghosts?

i think there is something beyond what we see but idk 

58. Ever have a Deja-vu feeling?

yes omg sometimes before i travel to somewhere new i dream abt the place and then i get there and im LIKE I HAVENT BEEN HERE BEFORE WHY DO I KNOW IT and it’s bc i dreamt abt it

59. Take a vitamin daily?

HHAHAHAHAHAH

60. Wear slippers?

no BAREFOOT BBY 

61. Wear a bath robe?

nah dressing gown tho 

62. What do you wear to bed?

t shirt dress or men’s shirt 

63. First concert?

taylor swift im sorry 

64. Wal-Mart, Target or Kmart?

K MART BITCH 

65. Nike or Adidas?

nike but i dont wear either 

66. Cheetos Or Fritos?

CHEETOS WE DONT HAVE FRITOS IN AUS 

67. Peanuts or Sunflower seeds?

peanuts dude

68. Favorite Taylor Swift song?

currently sparks fly or the live back to december 

69. Ever take dance lessons?

NO I GOT FRIENDS WHO DANCE THO

70. Is there a profession you picture your future spouse doing?

lowkey want to marry a painter or a designer 71. Can you curl your tongue?

yeee boii 72. Ever won a spelling bee?

nahh 73. Have you ever cried because you were so happy?

YE at my sister’s wedding and at the disco last year lmao 

74. What is your favorite book?

hp, trc, or i’ll give you the sun 

75. Do you study better with or without music?

wWITH 

76. Regularly burn incense?

nah got a wax burner

77. Ever been in love?

ppffft i wish 

78. Who would you like to see in concert?

hozier, arctic monkeys, the lumineers, dua lipa, lorde, hippo campus, the weeknd

79. What was the last concert you saw?

taylor swift but i’ve been to like festivals since then? 

80. Hot tea or cold tea?

hot but since summer is a comin 

81. Tea or coffee?

tea

82. Favorite type of cookie?

white choc macadamia 

83. Can you swim well?

i could before i got boobs

84. Can you hold your breath without holding your nose?

yes 

85. Are you patient?

NOPE 

86. DJ or band, at a wedding?

baND (mostly bc last time i went to a wedding w band the singer was HOT and she could sing like beyonce) 

87. Ever won a contest?

uhhh i think so?

88. Ever have plastic surgery?

nope lol 

89. Which are better black or green olives?

don’t eat either!

91. Best room for a fireplace?

LIVING ROOM OR BEDROOM GUY 

92. Do you want to get married? 

i think so but also i cannot understand why anyone would want to marry me 

ok i lov u more than i love steve harrington have a good night lad ! this was v long i hope ur happy 

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92 Questions! ((aka time to learn about j9))

tagged by @sunshine-knox aka the bomb dot com. praying the HTML works since I wrote all this out on mobile LMAO THE LAST: 1. Drink: can of crush 2. Phone call: the bf™ 3. Text message: also the bf™ 4. Song you listened to: whatever the theme to Freaks and Geeks is. been watching that all day. 5. Time you cried: burned my hand on the oven at work the other day 6. Dated someone twice: yeah 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: some guy I dated the summer between 8th and 9th grade. he's gross. 8. Been cheated on: nah 9. Lost someone special: my lifelong kitty companion died in December. 10. Been depressed: try right now 11. Got drunk and threw up: nah THREE FAVORITE COLORS: 12-14. impossible. too many colors. e: all of the above???? IN THE LAST YEAR, HAVE YOU: 15. Made new friends: ofc! 16. Fallen out of love: nahnahnah 17. Laughed until you cried: probably like 300 times yeah 18. Found out someone was talking about you: earlier this year and it was a huge debacle 19. Met someone who changed you: I mean maybe? idk man 20. Found out who your friends are: yeah.... see # 18 21. Kissed someone in your Facebook list: I mean. bf™ GENERAL: 22.How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: most of them, if not all of them 23.Do you have any pets: fuck yeah I do. three cats, one dog, a hamster, and about to adopt two more hams 24.Do you want to change your name: my last name, yeah. I want it to be the same as my father's (it's currently my estranged mother's) 25.What did you do for your last birthday: went to my favorite place to eat (khan's mongolian) with a WHOLE TON of family 26.What time did you wake up: like 5 am to with the bf™ a good day at work since he started at 6 today 27.What were you doing at midnight last night: awake on my bed, working on some art on my computer 28.Name something you can't wait for: adopting my hamster bbys 29.When was the last time you saw your mom: step mother: this morning. birth mother: about a month ago. work mother: during my shift yesterday. 30.What are you listening to right now: Freaks and Geeks is on in the background rn. 31.Have you ever spoken to someone named Tom: um maybe? idr tbh 32.Something that is getting on your nerves: my mom won't schedule my fucking driving test so I can get my license aAAAAA :( 33.Most visited website: probably mweor okay a number got skipped in the post I'm looking at and 35-37 don't exist so....... 38.Hair color: natural: chestnut brown current: fading from black to brown 39.Long or short hair: it was long when I was younger but it's been short for abt 4 years now 40.Do you have a crush on someone: nah 41.What do you like about yourself: what even is liking yourself 42.Piercings: used to have my ears pierced when I was 11. kinda wanna get my septum pierced at some point? idk 43.Blood type: AB.......? not sure lmao 44.Nickname: nina / fulm / j9 / j9k9 45.Relationship status: taken 46.Zodiac: pisces 47.Pronouns: she/they 48.Favorite tv show: I have many. I really love brooklyn 99, parks and rec, modern family, 30 rock, portlandia, arrested development..... the list goes on 49.Tattoos: none 50.Right or left handed: depends on what I'm doing. when I'm writing/drawing it's right. 51.Surgery: never 52.Piercings: ok this is q 42 53.Sport: nah 54.Vacation: what exactly is this asking? lmaooo another number got skipped so the next part starts at 57 ok? ok MORE GENERAL: 57.Eating: take 5 candy bar ✌️ 58.Drinking: still have that orange crush 59.I'm about to: go to Petco!!! 60.Waiting for: my dad to get home so I can gO TO PETCO 61.Want: TO GO TO PETCO 62.Want to get married: I mean. maybe when I'm like 7-9 years older 63.Career: I currently work at a caribou coffee, I'd eventually like to work in environmental science another skipped number aaaaa next starts at 65 WHICH IS BETTER: 65.Hugs or kisses: both lmao 66.Lips or eyes: still both,,,,,, 67.Short or tall: idc. that doesn't matter much to me at all. 68.Older or younger: if it's to any sort of extreme, neither. 69.Nice arms or nice stomach: again, I don't really care much about that 70.Hook up or relationship: relationship probably 71.Are you hesitant or a troublemaker: I'm definitely not a troublemaker so I'm hesitant I guess more numbers got skipped lmao. next starts at 74 HAVE YOU EVER: 74.Kissed a stranger: nah 75.Drank hard liquor: probably not 76.Lost glasses/contacts: actually.... no! I've never lost my glasses 77.Turned someone down: yep 78.Had sex on a first date: nah nah 79.Broken someone's heart: probably.... 80.Had your heart broken: for sure 81.Been arrested: hell nah 82.Cried when someone died: absolutely. like. tons of times. 83.Fallen for a friend: yeah and it was horrible. never do that. DO YOU BELIEVE IN: 84.Yourself: nope LMAO 85.Miracles: I mean. idk. maybe. 86.Love at first sight: I never really thought about that before 87.Santa: nah 88.Kissing on first date: I guess it depends 89.Ghosts: short answer is maybe. ** 89 was angels but I like ghosts better. bite me. OTHER: 90.Current best friend's name: I have so many. Kosaa, Tay, Briana are my closest. 91.Eye color: hazel 92.Favorite movie: I really cannot pick one. I've seen to many. okay time to tag people. @none-regerts @cutestdeath @luzonmfjel @steamyswords are the first people who come to mind. was gonna tag Kosaa but her url won't show up?