#t100 s5 spec fic

[oh-darlingheart]

O Captain, My Captain

Apparently Bellamy and Harper as bros who talk about feelings is my jam, so I wrote about it if anyone else also is here for their (imagined) friendship

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She finds him at the Chancellor’s window. She knew he’d be there, ever since that first day when he found ‘the Baton’ with Raven it’s become his place to think. After nearly three years that hasn’t changed.

“Still a swirling mess of ash and fire?” Harper asks coming and standing next to him.

“Yep.” He nods looking down at the earth.

“Did you guys need me for something?” He asks after a beat.

“No. As it has been for the last 30-something months, we’re all ok. Just hadn’t seen you much this week. Thought I’d check in.”

“Just a strange week.” He says with a shrug.

“Bellamy, we’re in space. Again. Every week is a strange week.” She laughs.

“You know we’re past the half way mark now. Now each month that passes we’re closer to going back to earth.”

“Yeah, I know. I thought we’d celebrate half way, you know, but I guess no one has been much in the mood for celebrating.”

The last few months on the ring haven’t been easy. She broke up with Monty, it was a long time coming, when they finally had time to stop and discover who they are without the threat of constant death it turned out they were just too different, but that knowledge didn’t make it any easier – nothing up in space is ever easier.

Two and half years has been long enough for alliances to shift, to break and mend, to change, for familiarity to breed contempt, for reality to become real.

“Maybe we should have. Acknowledged it in some way at least.” Bellamy sighs.

“Perhaps. But it’s not like any of us don’t know how long we’ve been up here.” Harper says, sitting down and leaning her arms against the ledge.

“Is it just me or is it starting to look less… you know.” She says looking out.

“Maybe. Raven still won’t give up any parts for the radio. I just wish we could talk to the bunker.” He replies heavily, sitting down next to her.

“Me too. I miss Miller, can you believe that of all people, I miss Nathan sodding Miller.”

Bellamy laughs and smiles at her with soft eyes.

“Me too. Even though he could be an ass. He was always there.”

“Yeah. He was constant.” She sighs. “It’s not like I don’t miss others too, but I wonder what it would be like if he was here. And Clarke, of course.”

It’s become easier to talk about Clarke, although they try not to do it too often. Easier is still too hard. After almost three years her sacrifice hasn’t become lighter for any of them to bear, least of all Bellamy.

“I miss so many people but god I wish I could talk to O. I know she had it in her to be great and I wish I could witness that.”

“You will. In two and a half years we’ll be back and you can tell her how proud you are.”

“If there’s anything to go back to.”

“There will be, because I am not living on Emori’s algae soup for the rest of my life. I will taste real food again if it is the last thing I do.” Harper says defiantly as she stands up.

She holds out her hand to Bellamy.

“Come on.”

“Where?” he asks taking her hand and standing up.

“We’re celebrating. We’ve made it half way. I know Monty has some almost finished moonshine somewhere, lets make the most of it.” She grins dropping his hand and turning away from the window.

They do celebrate. They get halfway drunk on almost ready moonshine. She talks to Monty again. They laugh and reminisce and cry, but they do celebrate that they’ve made it this far and that they’re still there.

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an interview with @changingthefairy-tale​

What are you working on right now? Right now, I’m focused on BellarkeFic-for-BLM (I just got an amazing canon prompt I’m really excited to finish). I’ve also been participating in this round of the Chopped Challenge, which has been fun and challenging. In between prompts, I’ve got two WIPs that I’m slowly cranking through. Shoutout to every single reader who’s been incredibly patient while I’ve been so slow on those updates — though, reminder that you can donate to a BLM organization (even a $3 donation works) and request an update to get those higher on my prio list while I’m focused on that initiative.

What’s something you’d like to write one day? My absolute dream job and the ultimate goal is to become a showrunner for a prime time TV show. I love TV shows — I love the way actors and directors and crew take a script and breath life into it, I love how you take a general idea for a story and mold it into something amazing as you go, I love how a series gives a story more time to be fleshed out and explored, I love the concept of a writers room and collaborating on a story. It’s a different ballgame from fic writing (which I do for fun) and travel writing (which I do for a living), but I’m determined to make it happen. JRoth, I’m coming for your job, babe. 😉

What is the fanwork you’re most proud of? I’m still really new to fic writing, especially compared to some of the powerhouse writers in this fandom. And I’m sure one of my WIPs (when finished) will probably supersede this. BUT, my one-shot about Madi calling Bellamy on The Ring (She called you for 2,199 days) is something I’m really proud of. I’m a long-winded writer, so one-shots have never come naturally to me. This one just…clicked. It’s got some good lines in there that I’m proud of, and based on the feedback I’ve gotten, it really made readers feel something and connect to the story. It’s not my longest story or my most thought-out. But it shows my growth as a writer these past few months, and I’m proud of that.

Why did you first start writing fic? I started writing fic as a creative outlet for my writing. My day job is writing about travel and credit cards. And while I enjoy that, it’s just not as creative. My dream is to write for a TV show though, and I was craving a way to flex my creative writing muscles in a low-stress way. I started watching The 100 when it first came out, but I didn’t really get into the fandom until I came back to the show during the S5/6 hiatus. That’s when I started reading fics and reblogging stuff about the show on Tumblr. During the S6/7 hiatus, I had this idea for a Greys Anatomy AU, and my sister (who is also a major fan of the show) was like, “You literally write things for a living. If you want to write a Grey’s AU for t100, there is absolutely nothing stopping you.” I published my first chapter on that The Choices We Make in Dec. 2019, and the rest is history.

What frustrates you most about fic writing? For me, I think that the most frustrating thing isn’t even about fic writing itself; it’s the fact that it’s a side-hobby and not something I can dedicate my full attention to. When you write all day for your day job, then do some for your freelance gig, and then turn around and try to write for a few hours every night for fic… that gets hard sometimes — especially since starting quarantine where I’m not traveling, going out with friends, getting a break from it, etc. Fic writing is a creative release for me, and I absolutely love crafting and writing these stories that involve some of my favorite fictional characters. And I love interacting with other writers and fic readers, I love talking about ideas and exchanging headcanons and fangirling over my favorite writers’ works. But (because there’s always a but), sometimes I just don’t have the mental energy or capacity to write at the end of the day when I’ve turned in 3 deadlines for work. I’ve got all these ideas floating in my head, but only so much time and mental energy I can dedicate to it.

What are your top five songs right now? Oh boy. So I live alone, which means I’ve got either music or Netflix on in the background 24/7 because ya girl doesn’t like silence. I have a different playlist for different moods. I’ll share my fav song from each of those playlists. Lol Fvck Somebody by The Wrecks (On my “Summer state of mind” playlist for when I wanna dance it out in my kitchen like an idiot)

Don Quixote by Drapht (On @talistheintrovert​’s “My Good Bitch Murphy” playlist for when I’m feeling *edgy*)

that way by Tate McRae (On my “Pandemic Jams” playlist bc I like angsty music and this song is a Bellarke MOOD)

Washington on Your Side from Hamilton (On my “Feeding my Broadway Obsession” playlist for when I wanna sing show tunes and plot overthrowing the government)

Tea by Noah Davis (Shameless plug for Noah bc it’s a bop and I literally dated Noah’s older brother in junior high — so proud of this kid for making his dreams a reality)

What are your inspirations (books, songs, other fic, really good cake)? All of the above, except I like pie more than cake. lol But really, I kind of use everything around me for inspiration. “The Choices We Make” is inspired by my love of Grey’s Anatomy. “Intertwining your soul (with somebody else)” is inspired my the first draft of my YA novel (though the setting was adapted to a grounder canonverse AU). “The Day He Shut That Rocket Door” and “She called you for 2,199 days” were inspired by @historyofbellarke‘s headcanons that were brought up in S7 speccing conversations (shoutout to her for enabling my angsty ass). My most recent WIP “There are some things written in the stars” that I started as part of Chopped (but will continue because I’m obsessed with the idea) is inspired by my love of Timeless. And I have an entire Notion database filled with fic ideas — some one-shots and some multi-chapter fics — that are inspired by quotes, songs, conversations with friends, books I love, shows I adore, random HCs that pop into my head while I watch, my own life experiences, etc. I take inspiration in any form it decides to come in. 💕

What first attracted you to Bellarke? What attracts you now? I’m a ho for enemies to lovers — the idea that you can put your worst foot forward and show someone all the ugly parts of you… and that they’ll see that and somehow look past it to see the good stuff too, falling in love with your whole self instead of just the pretty parts. Yeah, it’s my favorite romance trope. And that tension is what originally drew me to Bellarke. Now, it’s a combination of things. I love each of these characters in their own right. I relate to Clarke in a lot of ways, and I aspire to be her level of badass. I straight adore Bellamy Blake (flaws, stupid decisions, and all) and would marry him in a heartbeat if he were real — I’m not even kidding. lol But I also love their dynamic. They are partners, best friends, perfect compliments to the other. They see each other in a way no one else does, and they are the one person the other constantly risks everything for. They are both so driven by their responsibilities to their people, yet that all typically goes out the window the moment the other is at risk. I don’t believe in soulmates in real life, but it’s nice to get to believe in this fictional world that they are just made for each other.

BESIDES Bellarke, what character or pairing do you like best on t100? My favorite character besides Bellarke is John Murphy. His arc has been BY FAR the best on this show, going from that little shit in S1 to this “asshole we love” in the middle to now a true hero in this final season. And through it all Richard Harmon has been amazing to watch on screen.

My favorite pairing besides Bellarke is Linctavia. Yes, that ship is problematic in a lot of ways, but I still loved their dynamic. Lincoln helped Octavia navigate this new world that she was so desperate to be apart of while being mindful of her safety. And I thought they were a good match — he helped tame her fire without putting it out, and she helped challenge the way he was raised. Given time, I think they could have become one of the most stable and loving relationships on t100. Of course, that couldn’t happen because Jason needed Bell’s actions in 3A to have heartbreaking consequences, O to spiral for her own character journey, and whatever mess happened off-screen between Ricky and him. But they still remain my favorite ship aside from Bellarke.

Why did you decide to start writing for bellarkefic-for-blm? The second I saw that Sam was planning on doing this, I reached out to ask how I could help/write/be involved. The BLM movement is so important, and this is an amazing way for me to contribute while pursuing my passions. It’s a way for the fandom to get involved and do something good. And ultimately, this helps organizations that need donations. Shameless plug for everyone to please go check out the Bellarke Fic for BLM page — check out the many amazing writers and artists we have participating, and send in prompts. Most of us are allowing WIP chapter update requests, and there are a number of us (myself included) who are matching donations made! No donation is too small, and you’ll be supporting a movement that is a necessity in the U.S. and beyond.

What’s your writing process like? My mind is literal chaos, so I plan and outline like hell in order to make sense of everything. When I get an idea for a fic, it goes on my Notion database. Within Notion, I write down my inspiration for the idea, and a pretty in-depth summary of where I want the fic to go — dialogue ideas, any feelings/emotions I want to invoke, literally just a brain dump of all my ideas. From there, I’ll arrange that brain dumb into an outline. If it’s a one-shot, I’ll generally write the whole thing in the Notion doc. But multi-chapter fics will get a checklist within Notion for me to keep track of progress, and I’ll actually write the fic in Google Docs. I generally start writing from the beginning of a story, but if I get stuck or have an idea for a later scene, the fact that I’ve outlined heavily allows me to jump around as ideas come to me. I’ll read each one-shot or chapter after I’m done to make sure it flows before publishing. I post chapters for my WIPs as I write them, which I should really stop doing. lol For my readers’ sakes, I should work ahead and publish on a schedule rather than making them wait for my slow ass to finish chapter to chapter. But right now, that’s my process!

What are some things you’d like to recommend? Oh goodness, too many fics to possibly name. Instead, I’ll link to my AO3 rec bookmarks (which isn’t all-inclusive of the amazing fics I’ve read in this fandom, but it’s got some good favs in there) and shout out all of our awesome Bellarke Fic for BLM writers. Y’all should check out their work (and send in prompts)!

Where’s the best place to find you (twitter? tumblr?) I’m @changingthefairy-tale on Tumblr and @changingthefairy_tale on AO3! My ask box is always open for anyone who wants to scream about the show, ask about specs, talk about my fics, etc. Come say hey!

[stupidspaceseven]

A Memori Fic Rec

Hi Friends! In the spirit of celebrating memori engagement week I’ve decided to celebrate some of my favorite fics! Under the cut are a range of fics in different genres and ratings, divided between canon fics and AUs. It’s long but by no means exhaustive. All these fics are completed ;) Happy reading!

Canon Compliant Fics

How All This, And Love Too, Will Ruin Us by biextroverts

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Found Family/Angst

Emori finds a family and loses a lover on the Ring.

A great Ring fic that covers the six years in space. I’ve only read it once because it made me That Sad, which is really a testament to how well writting and IC it is, so if you’re a sucker for angst and raven&emori friendship definitely give this a read. 

The Lotus Eaters by maelidify: @maelidpoetree​

Rating: M (no smut), One shot; Genre: Fluff, Character Study

“I don’t like this place, John,” she said. “We’re not safe here.”

Am I partial to this fic because it was a gift to me? Yes, but I firmly believe that more people need to read it and that the author deserves more recognition in general! This pre 4.08 science island fic is sweet and romantic but explores inner conflicts of nature in such a beautiful way (with some awesome anecdotes and metaphors). All her writing is beautiful and poetic and it’s worth your while to go through her memori tag to find/read the stuff she hasn’t posted on AO3.

Cataclysmic by maelidify; @maelidpoetree​

Rating: E (by author request don’t read if you’re not 18+) One-shot, Genre: Angst

She’s looking up at him, half angry, half looking for permission for something. For what—?

Oh.

More breakup angst!! This remains the best Murphy POV I’ve read, it’s messy and angry and sad and the fic tears me up a little every time. I’d even recommend this to people who don’t like/read smut because, while present, it’s tasteful and really this fic is about all the emotions. If the two fics in a row haven’t clued you in just read everything Liz writes, because I don’t have space to talk about all her fics but they are all worth your time!!

First Impressions by interlude; @bombshellsandbluebells

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Drama

John Murphy comes back to Arkadia with an unfamiliar grounder woman. The Arkadians and former delinquents react.

(Or: Memori seen from different points of view. Takes places between 4x03 and 4x04.)

Personally I’m a big sucker for outsider POV fics, and the author does a great job with keeping all those outsiders in character and addressing their most pressing motivations while keeping memori in the spotlight of the fic. The story has all the urgency present in s4 and fills in some of the gaps nicely!

The Wild by Debate; @stupidspaceseven

Rated: M, Multichapter; Genre: Fluff

When Emori points up at the sky, it’s with a pointer finger twice the width of his own. He locks away the knowledge that she trusts him deep inside his chest.

[Post Wanheda 2, detailing Murphy and Emori's early season 3 adventures as they grow to mean the world to each other.]

This one is a shameless self-promotion, but I’m recommending it because I think it’s really good!! Fun shenanigans, theft, first kisses, angsty backstory reveals, smut, this fic basically has the works, and I’m like, 98% sure it’s the longest memori canon complaint fic out there. (I have a host of other memori fics, canon compliant and otherwise if you want to check those out too, but this one’s my personal favorite).

Canon Divergent AUs

Her What If List by the_most_beautiful_broom; @the-most-beautiful-broom​

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Meet Cute/Ugly

Memori Appreciation Week: Day One: Canon Divergence

Emori and Otan's latest robbery goes awry when the mark ends up being very much awake, but all's well that end's well, and an unexpected connection is made in the middle of the desert.

And she wonders if his eyes weren’t just sad, that they were just asleep. Because maybe it’s the fire, or the fading adrenaline, but now Emori can swear his eyes are sparkling. Which is a stupid thing to think. She’s in the middle of the dead zone, with a gun that isn’t a gun, and a man who could be conning her just like she’s trying to con him.

A really imaginative AU with Grounder!Murphy. This puts our characters in a familiar situation but makes it new and unique. Emori’s POV is both critical and vulnerable and the memori banter is amazing!

home is what the heart protects by emperor_bell

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Family/Friendship

"John Murphy had lived a hundred lifetimes in his year on the ground and yet still, somehow, after a year of living in space again, nineteen year old John Murphy hears the word “dad” and his first thought is 'I’m too young.'"

I'm obsessed with the thought of Emori having a baby in space, and I set out to write Memori parents. Instead I wrote 2k words of John Murphy feelings. Enjoy.

More messy feelings! The dialogue here and what characters (mostly Murphy) do versus what they think and say is really interesting and makes for an engaging read. Plus a look at how complicated memori as parents would be and a super angsty sequel if that’s the kind of thing you’re into!

Taking A Village by Zaffie

Rated: M, Multichapter; Genre: Found Family/Survival

Once they get it all sorted, the technical aspect of living on the Ring turns out to be the easy part. It's the rest which is hard. Everyone's got their personal demons to face - except when you're seven people trapped together for five-plus years, "personal" is easier said than done.

This one is much less memori-centric than spacekru-centric, but it’s probably my favorite Ring fic, and the AU aspects just make it better. Both Murphy and Emori are incredibly in character and their chapter is beautiful and sad. If you happen to also be a big Spacekru or Raven fan this fic is a must. Also there’s a great sequel in the works!

I know the sound of your heart by dylanobrienisbatman; @dylanobrienisbatman

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Fluff

Bellamy fought hard, and got them the 80 acres on the edge of the valley. They built a house, big enough for all of them, they had a farm, they were happy and safe. Emori should be happy, she should feel like it was enough, but it wasn't. She and John were still apart, and their history made her scared to try.

But as time went on, she watched as John became part of the group. She kept waiting for the other shoe to drop, but the longer she waited, the more it seemed like he was really better.

Was it time to give him another chance?

The soft spacekru feels in this one are almost as great as the memori ones which feature reconciliation and addressing their s5 issues in a healthy way. The lead up to them getting back together is as good the second go around as in the first.

eat, drink, and be merry by flowermasters

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Fluff

Murphy and Emori do what they can to improve morale.

So this is the wedding fic that everybody needs in these hours. There’s a healthy dose of spacekru to make it all the ore sweeter and Murphy and Emori are adorably in love while trying to maintain their aloof and uncaring reputations. This fic did so much to heal my soul while in the depth of the s5 angst. 

In This Valley by Kats_watermelon; @katswatermelon​

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Angst/Fluff/Kidfic

written for day 1 of memori week, prompt: canon divergence 

This is mostly a really fun spec fic if God Complex went worse and Murphy and Emori got six years alone on Earth. There are big shifts in tone from the start to the end of the fic, but they feel earned and memori have a cure kid in addition to Madi and you get to see them square up with Diyoza asap. Something for everyone!

Life After the Mountain by Ghelik; @ghelikblack 

Rating: T, Series of One-shots; Genre: Hurt/Comfort

The Mountain falls and the grounders keep their distance, because the Sky-People are soldiers that have earned their respect and the lands of the Mountain that they have conquered. Which is good, because skaikru might need a break.

Series of one-shots in an AU where season 3 kind of didn't happen, but elements of it might be borrowed from.

This one is a little different because it’s a series of one shots and not all of them deal with memori but the fair majority of them do, and it’s a great what-if of how Murphy and Emori learn to function in society in a (sort of) kinder world. There’s lots of angst and vulnerability and feelings of inadequacy as well as fluff and healing. The fics span genres so there’s probably something for everybody!

Burn brighter than we ever have before by Zoadgo; @jonnmurphy

Rating: G, One-shot; Genre: Drama

Murphy flees an unknown threat in the Promised Land, running right back to the desert that almost killed him the first time he crossed it. It seems intent on fixing its past failures, and Murphy isn't strong enough to fight it on his own, this time. But someone from his past offers him a chance to survive, and even to prosper in the Dead Zone. That is, if he can bring himself to trust someone who has already betrayed him once.

Another great Murphy POV with additional cool (or hot, rather) desert descriptions and personal conflict. It’s a cool what-if and explores how things could have gone down if t100 didn’t go full scifi. Most of all Murphy and Emori’s understandings of each other/immediate connection shine through. 

Show Them the Mercy They Won’t Find on Earth by berxnica

Rating: NA (no smut), One-shot; Genre: Drama

she just showed up swollen and scared, eyes so impossibly big that they left no room for a smile. she pulled murphy aside and removed the blanket that she previously was clutching to her stomach. and there it was, her stomach, swollen and full and round with the promise of life.

Another memori becoming parents fic, but in a different era. The character understanding shines through in the prose here. Our faves are suspicious and afraid and angry while still being soft with one another. If kidfic is your thing at all it’s def worth your time!

Earth Skills: Reap What You Sow by BeaRyan

Rating: E, Multichapter; Genre: Crack/Smut

That week everyone got high on mutant corn and John Murphy realized juvenile prison might not have taught him everything he needed to know about how to please a woman. Canon adjacent.

This is a Memori story from John Murphy's snark-tastic POV and as such contains minor whomp of everyone. Complete.

This story contains a multitude of side pairings, but it is really good for a laugh, and despite being cracky Murphy and Emori’s feelings are very real and present and sweet. A grand ‘ole fic.  

AUs

Litany by infernalandmortal; @infernalandmortal

Rating: T, Mulichapter; Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

After leaving an abusive relationship, Murphy moves into his best friend's house. He's fine, really. Their new roommate comes with more than enough baggage of her own.

(A Memori college AU)

If you read memori fic chances are you’ve read this, but it’s definitely worth reiterating! Great writing really brings forth raw emotions from both Murphy and Emori’s POVs and a lot of reading this fic is like getting sucker punched in the best way. There’s also a nice side helping of found family feels, and you get it all in Amanda’s lovely prose (her setting descriptions? kill me) truly a must read.

Little Beast by infernalandmortal: @infernalandmortal

Rating: T, Multichapter

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort

John meets her eyes from across the room. What are you running from? his eyes ask.

Nothing, she blinks back. Everything.

“Will I see you again?” His eyes are trying not to be earnest. They are a strange shade of blue-green in the flickering yellow street light outside her house. They are uncomfortably difficult to read.

“Maybe.” It’s all she can give. She’s supposed to fear boys like this. “I’d like to.”

(A Memori-centric small-town AU. Title and opening excerpts from Little Beast by Richard Siken.)

Less angsty than Litany, but no less emotional, this fic is *chef’s kiss*. The fic features Murphy and Emori growing together and becoming family with one another while trying to manage their pasts. The growth the characters have through the fic is amazing and the ending make me feel all kinds of Soft. There are also bonus drabbles in the same ‘verse. And after you read those you might as well read everything else by this author because her stories are numerous and amazing. 

Don’t be surprised if I love you (for all that you are) by not_a_total_basket_case; @raven-reyes-of-sunshine​

Rating: G, One-shot

Genre: Fluff

Emori doens't want to find her soulmate, she wants to make that choice herself.

Who doesn’t like a good soulmate AU? The mechanics of soulmates in this AU are really unique and structured in a way to make the payoff at the end all the better. It’s a great friends to lovers story, and the supporting cast is lovely too, this fic make you feel all warm inside. 

Tired of Yourself and All of Your Creations by Chash

Rating: T, One-shot

Genre: Fluff/Drama

Murphy didn't ask to be successful and relatively wealthy and friends with people in good standing in society. It just sort of happened, and now there are all these families who apparently think he'd be a good match for their daughters. Being a respectable member of society is a pain, really.

I certainly didn’t know I needed a memori Regancy!AU until I read this, but the characterizations were picture perfect and the plot quick and smart without getting pulled down by the type of dialogue common in regency writing. A very fun AU!

Quiet Thought Come Floating Down and Settle by LayALioness

Rating: T, One-shot; Genre: Drama/Fluff

When Murphy meets the girl, it’s not under the best circumstances.

A great example of canon transferred to modern AU well with prickly Murphy and mysterious Emori. The story is fast paced and all of Murphy’s inner musings and snark are highly amusing. 

traitors never win by Kats_watermelon; @katswatermelon​

Rating: T, Multichapter; Genre: Crime/Drama

Murphy's been kicked out of his crew. Emori's been alone for a while now. They both have a knack for robbery and dreams bigger than their pasts, and they're willing to steal from anyone and everyone to prove it.

If you like the high drama this is for you, a very edge of your seat read with a great payoff at the end. Lovely dialogue as well and a combo of both Murphy’s and Emori’s POVs.

Golden by frikdreina;

Rating: E, One-shot; Genre: Smut/Fluff

It was their two years anniversary and Emori had planned this for weeks. Murphy would be at her place after seven and Emori skipped her last period so she could get everything done before he got there. Her heart was pounding as she unlocked the door to her apartment, the thrill of anticipation taking over her. It was like if electricity was running through her veins and she couldn’t get enough of it, with her mind drifting to the way he kissed her and how his touch had always felt right on her skin.

If you’re just looking for some hot and sweet memori smut this is the fic for you! Doesn’t get into anything too kinky and remains intimate throughout with great descriptions. 

she’s the tear in my heart by flowermasters

Rating: M, One-shot; Genre: Fluff/Drama

Murphy is in love with the girl he's sleeping with, and is incredibly bad at handling it.

Oh man This Fic. The banter is amazing and full of little call backs and tie ins, the descriptions speak to Murphy and Emori so well and transfer to a modern AU so easily. The fic is lovely and if you want something where Murphy and Emori are just dumb about their feelings than this is for you. Another author to keep your eye on if you like memori (or becho) fics. 

[oh-darlingheart]

I was gonna wait for you, but now I’ve waited too long

I wrote an angsty bellarke drabble+ because mood this week. It’s set post 5x05 and is canon compliant until the exact opposite happens in actual canon.

Title from Wait by Amy Vachal because it is peak Bellarke and I hate thinking of titles

“You’re leaving?” His voice, although only a whisper, echoes through the alleyway, “Really.”

Clarke turns to face him, his face half visible in the darkness, the moon not providing much illumination here. She can see from his expression, face closed jaw set and the way he’s standing that it wasn’t a question – he’s found out her plan.

“Who told you?” She sighs.

“Does it matter?” He snaps back.

“Bellamy-” she starts, but he steps up to her and cuts her off by pushing her softly against the wall into the darkness.

His body is caging her against the wall and she can’t see around him. This close she can see the pulse in his jaw ticking, feel his breath on her hair as he looks down. She’s about to ask what’s going on when she hears footsteps go past the end of the alleyway. One of the Wonkru patrols that Octavia set up when they returned to Polis three weeks ago.

“In here.” He whispers gruffly, pulling at her arm and pushing her into an empty shell of a room.

“I can’t. I have to get to Madi.” She huffs, when they’re inside. Clarke takes a step towards the door but Bellamy blocks it. He’s bigger than he was and she knows to really get past him she’d have to fight, but that’s not what she wants. She just wants to get Madi and go.

“Madi’s why I’m here.”

“What?” Clarke exclaims frantically, “what do you mean?”

“Cooper caught her trying to sneak out.”

Clarke stumbles back against a table that’s miraculously still standing.

“Oh my god. Is she ok? Where is she?”

“Safe in the bunker. She’s with Monty and the others.” Bellamy says watching Clarke carefully.

“How?”

Clarke’s hand is on her chest, as she tries to steady her breathing. Out of all of Octavia’s disciples Kara Cooper is the one she trusts least and fears most. Her only loyalty appears to be to Octavia and Clarke knows from bitter experience how dangerous a loyalty like that can be.

“Miller intercepted them. Told Cooper that Madi was just playing and that if she bothered Blodreina with children’s games it would be her funeral,” Bellamy grimaces at the word Blodreina but continues, “Cooper believed him. And Miller brought Madi to me.”

“Why you?”

“He thought you’d be with me.” Bellamy shrugs awkwardly, not meeting her eye.

Clarke ignores that.

“But she’s safe? Madi?”

Bellamy nods.

“And Miller, he’s with you now? Not Wonkru?” Even after three weeks she still stumbles over the word, and reality, of Wonkru.

Bellamy sighs and rubs his hand over his beard, the beard she’s still not used to seeing.

“Not exactly. He’s still Wonkru but I don’t know how much of what happened down there he agreed with and how much he did because he had to.”

“Who we are and who we need to be to survive are very different things, right?” She says.

They’re words from a lifetime ago but she knows by the look on his face that he remembers them too.

“Something like that.”

They’re silent for a beat, no noise is coming in from outside. The room is dark the moonlight coming in from the window is the only light. Clarke glances around the room trying to work out what it was before Primfaya and if she ever came here when it was Polis. But she can make out nothing but shadows.

“Were you really just going to leave?” Bellamy says softly.

“Yes.”

“What about our people?” He sighs.

“I was doing this for my people, for Madi.”

“And what about me and the others, we’re not your people?” He snaps.

Clarke doesn’t say anything to that, the answer is too big, too exposing, so she just shrugs.

“Really Clarke, you won’t even give me an explanation?”

“What do you want from me.” She huffs, tiredness seeping through her.

She’d forgotten how exhausting constant fear is. Three weeks of living in the bunker, of the lingering smell of blood and death surrounding them. Three weeks of strategising when Octavia couldn’t hear. She was tired.

“I don’t want you to go,” he admits after a beat. “I want you to stay with us.”

“It’s not safe here.”

“It is with us. We’re you’re people Clarke, we’ll protect each other, that’s what we do.”

Clarke isn’t sure if the sound she makes is closer to a laugh or a sob, but it hurts.

“I’m not your people any more. We want different things.”

“That’s ridiculous-“

Clarke cuts him off.

“No it’s not. You want to stay, want to reason with your sister. I want to get Madi the hell away from her.”

“Ok, well then let’s talk to the others.”

“You still don’t get it do you. They’re not my people Bellamy, they’re loyal to you. Emori, Echo, they were never mine why would they care what I need to do and Monty, Harper they look to you even more now.”

“That’s not true. Monty and Harper, Murphy, all of them would listen to you. We could discuss this.”

“There’s nothing to discuss.”

“What about Raven?”

“She’s not here and if she was who knows, but she���s not. She’s with my mom and Kane. She’s where I’m going.”

“You can’t just go alone.” He grumbles, his hands on his hips.

“It’s been six years.” She sighs sadly, softly, “I’m used to making my own decisions.”

“So what, you coped by yourself and now you don’t need us.” He snaps.

There’s something about his expression that jolts Clarke and makes her say the words she swore she would never say.

“No, I don’t need you now. I needed you and you left me.”

Bellamy recoils as if he’s been slapped.

“I’m sorry, I didn’t mean-” she starts.

“You did mean it though. And why not, it’s true. I left you behind to die.” He says, not meeting her eyes.

“But I didn’t die.” She pleads guiltily, willing him look at her.

He carries on as if he hasn’t heard her, “but I thought you did. And it was my fault.”

“Bellamy it was no ones fault.” She tries moving closer to him.

“I left you all alone.”

“I wasn’t alone.” She tries.

“Yeah, I know you had Madi. A child.” He scoffs.

“Bellamy-” She tries, but he carries on.

“But she was just a child.”

“Yes, she was but-” she tries again, but he’s still going.

“And I know you love her but you forget I know precisely how lonely looking after someone else can be. I remember what it was like when Octavia was small and how alone I was.”

He still won't look at her and she's furious that he won't just listen.

“I wasn’t alone because I had you!” She shouts.

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Everybody wants to rule the world

Anyone in the mood for an introspective s5 spec oneshot, because I have you covered...

Clarke tucks the rifle into her shoulder and looks down the scope. It’s second nature, still after all this time.

It’s been six years since she’s needed to use her rifle as a weapon, longer than that if she really thinks about it. When the others were here she was rarely on sniper duty, that was Harper, Miller, Bellamy.

And over the last few years, she hasn’t needed to use it in defence. There are no animals large enough to shoot and other than teaching Madi the basics she hasn’t needed to use it for anything other than scouting.

But that changes today. Because there’s a ship, that is not from the Ark, and there’s a woman in armour stepping down from it.

Clarke has her in the crosshairs. She’s not the best shot but she could definitely make this one. She hesitates, for less than a second, but it’s enough. The woman is surrounded by others – men, mostly – all looking as angry as she does.

They don’t look awed, which Clarke would expect. They’re on the only patch of living land, they should be amazed. But they’re not, which means they knew it was here.

Do they know she is here?

Madi is safe, hidden away with the Rover. Clarke needs to go too, but she doesn’t want to leave her home. She was left with nothing once before and the memory of it still burns in her chest.

It’s that memory that makes her pause. That sends her back to her home to collect a few mementoes; drawings, her journal.

She was sentimental before they first landed on the earth and then she stopped. She can’t remember why she stopped, but with Madi, in their home, it came back. She never considered why she’d forgotten that part of her life.

As the electric shock rings through her body, jolting every nerve, Clarke remembers why she stopped being sentimental – she was trying too hard to stay alive.

*

When Octavia was little and hiding to stay alive she’d make up games to stop feeling scared. She made the darkness a friend – the brightness was scary, the dark was familiar, a comfort.

She didn’t think she’d have to embrace the dark again. When they landed on earth, the sky bright and shining around them, she thought the darkness was gone.

She was wrong. Octavia tried to embrace the light – she tried for all of them. But she knows now, she belongs in the darkness. She triumphs in the darkness.

She didn’t want this – had told Bellamy as much – but he believed in her ability to lead. And he wasn’t wrong. She is a leader, one forged in blood and death, but no one told her how to lead. They just said she had to.

*

The first time Bellamy came to the ground he was scared but had to pretend he was strong – people won’t follow weakness.

This time he doesn’t have to pretend, his people will follow him anywhere. But he’s not scared this time. He’s weary. He’s resigned. Part of him, the smallest deepest part, is hopeful that he’ll see his sister again. But mostly, he’s ready. He knows Earth now. Knows it will be a constant fight. Knows he always has to be prepared for anything. And he is.

Until he isn’t.

Until a small dark-haired girl that reminds him so much of Octavia asks him to help get Clarke.

Clarke who died. Who he mourned and grieved over for six years.

Bellamy is ready for earth. But he’s not ready for this.

He helps her because he can’t not. This girl that looks like Octavia and sounds like Clarke. Bellamy is as powerless to refuse her as he once was to refuse them.

And right now, he doesn’t have them.

The girl, Madi, is determined. She wants to go, to move now. It reminds him of someone he used to know – the man he used to be – and it shakes him. People die when you charge in without a plan. People get left behind. He won’t do that now.

He tells her as much and she sulks. But that doesn’t bother him. He’s used to sulking. Octavia used to do it. And Murphy spent a year sulking on the ring.

That should have been the first warning sign.

Madi goes to Murphy behind his back. Murphy who embedded with Eligius on his orders, Raven’s too, but Bellamy was the final vote. As always.

She persuades him that the bunker is their best way of getting Clarke back, of getting rid of Eligius and surviving. Bellamy knows that surviving is the plea that makes it through to Murphy, but it doesn’t matter what did it because suddenly everyone is going to the bunker.

“They have an army in there.” Echo tells him. “Your sister is the general.”

He doesn’t reply. Bellamy has learnt when to keep his mouth shut – it took him six years but he knows how to now.

He also knows Clarke won’t be in the bunker, which is why he holds back under the guise of talking to Harper.

“You’re going for Clarke?” She whispers.

“I’m going for Clarke.” He confirms.

“Take Echo,” Monty mutters on the other side of him.

“No, she needs to be at the bunker. She’s our best fighter.”

“Then take me,” Emori says. “John will be more likely to stay alive if I’m not there.”

They’re not the same people that went into space, that’s clear, but Murphy and Emori still have a bond Bellamy recognises.

“Wait as long as you can before sounding the alarm,” Bellamy tells Harper and Monty.

They both nod.

“May we meet again,” Emori smiles at them.

Trigedasleng and fighting weren’t the only things that were shared on the ring.

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