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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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Saw that you're taking prompts and if you want, what about 22) "Did you just hiss at me?" with Fenris and Anders? ;) (loved the one you wrote for tearsofwinter!)

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First off, THANK YOU!!! Aaah @tearsofwinter was the first to prompt me so I feel like I didn’t do a good enough job on the first drabble. Like I was super rusty??? But I’m glad someone liked it enough to send me a prompt due to it!!! So thank you again!

Usual: “idk if this is what you’re looking for” (b/c I imagined it being funny before it…didn’t turn out funny) + “this is too long for a drabble”

No seriously, I kind of feel I should start posting these to AO3 at this rate.

Verse: Modern-AU with magic

Misc notes: Pre-fenders to potential fenders; mentions of tranquility (regarding Karl); Anders+insecurity issues/self-loathing/probs other things; Fenris gets beaten up by Pounce a few times (bites and scratches); everyone is an asshole (I’m watching someone play DA2 and I was kinda reminded that…everyone shits on Anders. A lot)

Link to ao3 chapter: here.

“I never hated you.”

All these years and the stupid mage decided to simply announce that tidbit of information (okay it wasn’t that simple but that would be another story)? Fenris found he was not only in disbelief but annoyed. All the wasted time spent hating on someone who did not even hate you in return! “Right, you never hated me.” He made sure to sound extra dry in his response.

“Believe whatever you wish. I already know the same can’t be said for you towards me.”

That part Fenris knew he could not argue with. The seething burning sensation he felt every time the mage spoke was proof enough. Except…

Maker, Anders did not seem so bad when you know he wasn’t hating you. Still annoying though. If Anders spoke the truth then everything that came out of his mouth sounded less like a personal attack.

What followed soon after for Fenris was guilt.

Why verbally attack someone who does not hate you? It suddenly seemed wrong to talk down to Anders when seeing the mage look away in hurt (along with anger), and retort with his own string of ugly words. Now the elf only felt like the bad guy. Say something mean and someone’s feelings gets hurt. Go figure. But it was how it always was. That’s just what they did. Why change it now?

Fenris sought comfort from the quips Anders received from the others. A little from Aveline, mostly regarding the amount of work Anders and other mages put on her and other cops with all the meet-ups and protests; and Isabela making light of said-protests. It didn’t make Fenris feel alone when he decided to give Anders a hard time. The guilt didn’t go away though. If anything it got worse and his friends, well, now they just seemed a little…too mean. Sure, Fenris knew no one here was an angel but you’re not supposed think everyone’s suddenly worse either. The look of shame and hurt on the mage’s face became hard not to notice every time someone took a jab at his plight. It was all in good fun wasn’t it? Anders took it too seriously anyway, and it only brought everyone’s mood down so they’re just changing topics…right? So Fenris didn’t stop. He’ll keep hating the mage like always (maybe with a little less intensity). It was better this way, to keep everything the same as it was.

Anders had confessed his feelings to Hawke. The news tightened something within Fenris, though the elf wasn’t sure what it was. A different tightening feeling occurred right after the first when it became evident Hawke did not return said-feelings. Everyone seemed to have understood that Anders needed some space and didn’t comment of his absence from game night.

That only seemed to apply for the first few times.

Now Anders needed to “get over it.” The mage missed so many nights since the whole thing with Hawke. It was only one excuse or another: “sorry, I have a rally to go to,” “sorry, I volunteered at the shelter,” “sorry, I volunteered at the downtown clinic,” “sorry I don’t have a lot of money right now.”

“I’ll go talk to him.” Hawke was either foolish or the only brave one here. But who could judge when no one opposed the decision?

Anders showed up to the next game night, and things seemingly went back to normal. Just as it should be, and just how Fenris liked it.

“My cousin’s in town for about a month,” Hawke announced one day in game night, after Anders left. “Probably won’t be seeing Anders for a bit.”

“What? And they don’t come to see little ol’ me?” Isabela feigned offense, “But I supposed they have always been fond of Anders. Oh well. I suppose that’s for the best though.”

“Mm? Why’s that, Izzy?” Merrill asked in curiosity.

“The two have always gotten along. Anders always seemed very happy around them. He seems…very down lately. He could use some cheering up.”

Fenris concluded there might’ve been some truth to that. He only met this Amell family member once, only for the sake of introductions. They were a mage though. It didn’t take long for them to show an obvious distaste for Fenris the moment he expressed his own strong opinions on mage matters. It was no wonder they got along with Anders. Whatever. It wasn’t his business. If anything, Fenris might feel his own form of distaste. This visit ruined the routine Fenris grew accustomed too. Game nights without Anders felt…different.

During the month’s stay, Fenris often saw Anders out at night with cousin-Amell in the streets of Hightown from his apartment window. Anders never goes to Hightown without good reason, and especially not doing so at night, while smiling and laughing as he walked. Hawke was never with them and no one seemed to see Anders at all during most of this month (alone at least). It was always a curious sight whenever Fenris caught Anders out and about during the busy night with someone that wasn’t part of their main group, looking as happy as he was. Has Anders never smile or laugh? Well of course he had! But it was…different here somehow. More joyous. More genuine…

The guilt still hasn’t left.The guilt also got worse (again) when Anders resumed his regular attendance to game night again, indicating Hawke’s cousin had left. Fenris never saw Anders smile and laugh like that since the last time he watched the pair pass his apartment window. Now every chuckle and grin Anders displayed only seemed to disconnect Fenris from the reality he was viewing. It seemed wrong. Was Anders not happy? Was he not having fun? After all, why bother coming at all if you’re so damn miserable?

Fenris could not bring himself to say anything when Anders showed up one night with a small cut on his forehead. Fenris knew he usually did say something, mostly along the lines of the mage being his usual foolish self. It wasn’t the first time, nor was it the last, that Anders would show up with minor injuries from his protests and rallies for mage rights, and sometimes even elf rights. Anders never seemed to have enough mana for himself. It seemed silly to ask, not that Fenris ever did, but if one was not healing yourself and you still run out of mana…then how much healing was required?

“You seem broodier than usual.”

Fenris sighed. Figured Varric would be the first to notice. At least the dwarf had some decency to bring it up after everyone left for the night. “Am I?”

“Sure. A bit quieter so it throws off your whole brooding thing a bit. Too depressing, not even charm. Did karma come around to bite you in the ass?”

Maybe. Perhaps. Fenris wasn’t sure. “It is just the mage. Why must he show up as rugged and disheveled as he is every time? If he is so tired he should just not come at all.”

“Well, you gotta remember he did not show up at all. You don’t just…not show up when Hawke prefers it.”

Ah. Right. Hawke dragged Anders back.

“Right…perhaps I am the tired one. I have had some difficulty sleeping recently.” Guilt apparently made it difficult to rest up well…

“Blondie may help you with that. Well, depends how professional you want of a diagnosis. I can give you sleeping pills if needed. Blondie just…advised I do not offer it as a first resort. But we all know how you are with him, so I just won’t mention this to him and let you get by without him breathing down your back over it. But just say the word and I can get you some!”

“Thank you, Varric. I will think about it.”

“Take it easy on him if you see him though. Blondie seems to be having it rough lately. Well, rougher, anyway.”

Fenris vaguely recalled where Anders lived. He never had a reason to really go see him (and that goes for all the places Anders frequented). Maker, it was disgusting. The streets were littered, the buildings looked old and worn, the roads were unfixed, and Fenris could’ve sworn there was a dead animal somewhere with every corner he turned. He had known this man for years and he could never fathom how Anders could stand living in this part of Kirkwall. Last he checked, Anders was a bloody doctor. What kind of doctor earned less money than…literally everyone else in the group? That guilt feeling started coming back again…

Fenris eventually spotted the mage standing next to a bus stop. No time like the present. He swiftly approached and touched Anders’s shoulder for his attention. Fenris swore he barely touched the man, but just from mere brush against the hoodie he heard a terribly threatening hiss, and withdrew his hand immediately. Anders turned slightly and took out an earbud.

“Did you just hiss at me?” Fenris questioned before Anders could say anything.

Anders only looked at him in confusion. “Did I what?” Anders looked down before even waiting for Fenris to repeat the question. “Oh Pounce, what’s the matter?”

As Anders lifted the bottom portion of his hoodie up, Fenris spotted an orange ball of fluff. That hoodie was already ugly when he first saw it, but Fenris wasn’t sure if the little built-in pouch holding a cat made it better or worse…

“Are you scared? It’s alright, I won’t let Fenris hurt you~” Fenris had never heard Anders us such a childish tone to talk. Nor had he ever seen Anders nuzzle and kiss a cat with such love and affection. “There, there. That’s it, Pounce. It’s alright. No need to feel scared.” Maker, this man adored his cat…

Upon calming the cat down (though Anders still cuddled him), Anders finally paid his attention to Fenris again. “Is there a reason you’re waiting on me?”

“Erm…yes. Varric recommended I go to you for suggestions. I have had some trouble sleeping as of late.”

“Oh, now you seek out a mage’s help? Tch…”

“As I’ve stated before: magic has its uses. Now will you make use of it?”

“Right, right…” Anders muttered without looking at Fenris. He sighed as he gestured down the street they were on. “Come on, my place isn’t that far from here.”

As they walked, Fenris saw the bus pass them. Anders didn’t say anything.

Anders placed a small jar on the counter that held oddly colored leaves inside. “Take this before you sleep. Stay off your phone though. After a couple of days, tell me how it is and if you have any allergic reactions to them. You don’t need to chew it. Just drink down a leaf with water. It doesn’t have a taste so it shouldn’t be difficult.”

Fenris looked curiously at the item. “That’s it?” and no magic?

“Yeah. It’s natural. Nothing like those over the counter stuff. Which I guess are fine for the short term, but not if you need to rely on them. Hopefully it’s just a passing thing, but might as well get used to this stuff if it works for you. Just in case.”

“I see…” Fenris picked up the jar. The leaves looked thin and loose enough to just drink down. “You are not going to ask questions on my change of sleep problems?”

“I would, but I figured you don’t like telling me anything. So I decided to not waste both of our time and just give you what you wanted.”

“Right…and what are you charging?”

“Just take it. I can always get more.”

The guilt came back. “I do not wish to owe a mage anything.” Okay, that may have came out wrong.

“Tch, fine. Just throw in a few sovereigns to the clinic or animal shelter. Or both.”

The guilt got worse. Fenris resisted pointing out the ripping wallpaper, the table with a wobbly leg, the dripping sink, and the too-easily-to-break door. He was afraid to sit down or lean on anything in fear of breaking it.

“I…shall then…” It was the only response he could think of.

“Alright. Well if that’s all there is. You can go. Pounce and I are taking a stroll to the grocery store.”

And what? Buy bread and feed it to the geese? Okay Anders might actually do that…

Anders looked around for the cat. Fenris saw the orange tabby on the floor on his side of the counter licking his paws. He reached down to retrieve him for Anders, just out as an act of being nice. The cat hissed and without warning, the claws came down on the hand that reached for him. Fenris yelped as he pulled his hand back.

“Pounce! No!” Anders quickly picked up the tabby. “Bad, Pounce! You do not attack people like that!” he used a scolding tone, though it was probably as ineffective as scolding a child. Anders sighed as he readjusted his grip on Pounce while approaching Fenris. “I’m sorry about Pounce. He…doesn’t like most people. Do you need something for that?”

Fenris could see the claw marks on his fingers. “No. It is nothing.” he tucked his hand into his pocket and resisted the urge to hiss himself as it the pressure stung. “So you are to say that beast is picky with his company?”

“Well I guess so…I’m not sure what it is. Pounce seems to hate everyone. Except the Amell family. Well, Carver’s the exception. Oh but he adores Hawke.” Anders chuckled as he nuzzled Pounce. It was the first time Fenris recalled seeing such a warm smile since Hawke’s cousin was over. Was a cat always this effective for Anders?

“Oh yeah, Anders loves his cat,” Hawke said when Fenris approached them the next day. “The cat loves him too from what I can tell of cats. Which isn’t much I guess.”

“I was informed this…Ser Pounce…is rather fond of you.”

“Oh yeah,” Hawke laughed in-between drinks, “It’s really funny. Maybe I’m just good with animals. Pounce likes Bethany too though, and myself of course. And um…my cousin, and their lover. Pounce absolutely hates Carver though…and others I assume. Anders says we’re the only ones he recalled Pounce liked. Us and Karl.”

“Karl?”

“Oh, you remember. Anders’s old lover. The one who got turned Tranquil despite passing his Harrowing. That big case a few years ago.” The case that the mages lost, and justice was never served. Fenris never really thought much about it, but being reminded of that case only made him feel…bad.

“…And you are saying you never had to change the cat’s opinion of you?” Fenris asked instead of delving further into the negative feelings.

“I mean I guess? Well, Pounce didn’t like me right away. Probably because I’m a stranger. But he warmed up to me. Sort of around the same time Anders did.”

Fenris blinked curiously. “Anders was swift to like you though.”

“Yeah, and so was Pounce!”

There was no way. It can’t be.

“I wish to see your cat.” Fenris announced to Anders as he stood before the man’s apartment door.

“…Why?” Anders put himself before the door frame, guarding the entrance.

“I’m interested in cats.“

There was a flicker of interest in Anders’s eyes. “I…suppose you can come see him. I guess it’s not a bad sign if you want to see him even after he attacked you.”

Anders let Fenris in and the elf searched for the orange tabby. Pounce was laying in the sunlight coming in through the window. Fenris only got a chance to kneel down beside him before Pounce woke and immediately got his claws into Fenris’s jeans. He immediately felt the sting in his knees…

Fenris came by again later that same week. This time he brought a cat treat for Pounce. He offered the food on the floor and tried to push the little treat closer. Pounce sniffed it for a moment but promptly ignored it.

“Strange. He usually eats anything you give him,” Anders noted out loud, watching from behind the elf. Fenris tried pushing the treat in front of Pounce’s path again but before he could pull his hand away, Pounce, well, pounced. Well…at least he can make up a story to why his knuckles bled…

Fenris came by again by the start of the next week. This time, he handed Anders a box of pizza. “I had some from work. Brought it in case you were interested.” Fenris didn’t say more as he went to scan for the cat. Pounce was on the couch this time and watched the strange exchange between Anders and Fenris.

“Um…thanks…?” despite the confusion, Anders didn’t want to complain about the free food and happily hummed as he started getting out a plate for himself. Fenris went over and knelt before Pounce who eyed the elf with intent. Carefully, Fenris slipped the treat before the cat. Pounce sniffed it before taking the treat into his mouth. After Pounce finished, Fenris offered his (bandaged up) hand to the cat. Pounce didn’t look aggressive. Taking that as a good sign, Fenris tried to pet the head like how Anders would do it. Before he even touched the fur, Pounce bit his finger.

Fenris stopped by once again. This time, he handed Anders a new box of bandaids and a new bottle of disinfection. Both acting as a replacement for taking up all the supplies from Anders. Fenris found he was able to pet Pounce’s head today, but only for a moment. Pounce bit him again when he felt he was being pet for too long.

Another day Fenris came by with nothing. But he did mention the silly cat shirt Anders wore was charmingly funny…in its own way. He caught a small smile from the mage, and Fenris found he was able to pet the cat’s head a bit longer than five seconds before he started hearing a growling sort of noise and he retreated his hand before he got attacked again.

And that’s how it went. Fenris visited at the rate that it would be considered ‘often’ to a lot people. He would bring over food for himself and Anders sometimes. Anders seemed to always be hungry. One time he brought a movie that he felt Anders might enjoy (he did. It involved cats). Otherwise, he offered some words. Nothing too out there. Just a nice compliment here and there. “Why is your hair not up today? No, it is fine. But perhaps you should wear your hair down more often-if that is something you like,” “You make good cookies. The children would like them,” “No, keep the movie if you like it so much.”

Slowly, Pounce seemed to accept his presence. Not completely, as even at Pounce’s most patient days, Fenris had walked out with a new scratch on his skin. Anders always apologized for them, even when there was nothing Fenris felt that needed to be apologized for.

Finally, by the end of the month, Fenris was able to get his hand to start from the top of Pounce’s head and down his back without being attacked.

“Hmm, wow, I think Pounce is warming up to you. Your effort is pulling through! I’m so happy that Pounce gets a new friend!” Anders sounded proud, as if Pounce was a child…

Fenris stood and went over to the kitchen counter were Anders was pouring tea for the two of them. “Did Hawke have as much trouble?”

“Not really,” Anders flushed slightly, “Hawke is…Hawke. They’re a bit irresistible…”

“…why Hawke?” Fenris dared to ask and Anders froze in mid-pouring. He stopped and put down the hot water as he eyed Fenris suspiciously.

“What do you mean?”

“You know what I mean. The cause of your temporary absence.”

Anders shrugged and went on to pour into the next cup. “What’s there to say? Hawke’s nice.”

“Nice…”

“Nice,” Anders stressed.

“…That’s it?”

“What else do I need?” Anders put down the water and took out the teabags.

Compassion, listening skills, supportive, probably at least likes cats, and appreciate each other’s interests, just to list a few.

“I assumed more than just…nice.” Fenris replied with instead.

Anders shrugged as he pushed a cup towards Fenris. “I can’t expect my lover to be perfect. No need to be picky. I don’t have much to offer anyway…and I know I’m annoying and such.”

Fenris swallowed, feeling more and more uncomfortable whenever Anders talked down on himself like that. “That is a dangerous mindset, Mage. Anyone can be nice. Many have for the sake of saving face.”

“Yeah but you can usually tell when they want something in return or not. You eventually start to pick up that stuff. Hawke…Hawke’s kind. They…really listen to me…”

Fenris felt his brow twitch. “Mage…has no one mentioned to you that you need to raise your standards?”

“Why would they tell me that?”

Fenris had to resist smacking himself in frustration. “That aside, Mage. If you are so good at telling when someone’s trying to trick you, then what is my purpose for feeding you?”

“You want to see Pounce, what else?” Anders gestured to the cat.

Fenris stared. “Why do you not assume I wish to see you?”

“Why would you want to see someone you hate?”

“…Maybe you are not so hatable.” Maker it shouldn’t have come out so easily. But it did become rather difficult to hate someone who eagerly wanted his cat, never mind himself, to make a new friend.

“Heh, right, sure. I’ll take that as a compliment.”

“…you do not believe me.” Fenris stated matter of factly.

Anders raised a brow. “You’re trying to convince me you do not hate me?”

“Should I try harder?”

“See!” Anders pointed with accusation, “You’re never serious with me! It’s always hatred or sarcasm!”

Fenris glanced over at Pounce. The cat looked like he was staring into his soul…

“I…did not mean offense. I apologize.”

“You…apologize…?” Anders looked away in discomfort. “I…that’s…nice of you…I guess…um…thanks…?”

Fenris just hoped that Anders (possibly) believed him. For now. Mostly because Fenris could not remember why he hated this man anymore.

Fenris wasn’t sure what to do. He had spent over a month seeing Anders and Pounce, most of that time spent trying to befriend the cat. It was meant to be an experiment, a way to put out the growing curiosity. He didn’t think Pounce would actually respond the way he did. Before he knew it, he got carried away with it.

But now Anders seemed almost content being in the elf’s presence, excited even, on some days. He expressed a similar shy smile that he used to have when around Hawke. Fenris froze in his thoughts. Oh no…

Fenris ran his hands through his hair. Okay, so maybe there is a possibility he accidentally made Anders have more-than-friendship-based-feelings for him now but…a part of him felt he should still be liked beyond just being nice! Did he even do anything especially nice? Sure he knew he fed Anders on some days. There was also the minor compliments of course. There was the time he brought over a used, but large, jacket for Anders upon noticing Anders’s current one was getting too worn down. Fenris could’ve sworn Anders used the same jacket during winter and he was fairly confident the one he owned was warmer. It got difficult to get Anders to (eventually) accept it.

Okay so that was one nice thing he went out of his way to do. ONE! Or maybe two if one counted the time he shared his wine with Anders one night at the Hanged Man.

This was trouble, and bad, and…probably something to be expected after all the acts he had done to appease Pounce. Or…appease Pounce for…Anders? Fenris wasn’t sure anymore.

If there was anything he was sure about now it was that Anders didn’t eat enough. The only time he’s ever caught Anders with food was when he was the one giving Anders the food! He also knew Anders didn’t splurge on many luxuries except for the cat. Pounce was spoiled rotten. It wasn’t hard to notice the soft cat bed looked a bit too new in comparison to Anders’s mattress that looked like it was sagging from the one time Fenris went into the mage’s bedroom. Fenris also knew Anders cared (too much in Fenris’s opinion). There was always someone to help, always something to fight for, and always some poor animal to save from the rain.

Just thinking about it felt like it was too much…But as Fenris felt his heart ache at the thought of Anders constantly moving through life like this, he knew he too cared a bit too much. Maybe he was more sure than he originally thought.

Game night came once again, and Fenris waited outside the Hanged Man for Anders to arrive. He almost expected Anders to give a look of suspicion but…not as of late. If Pounce approved a person, it somehow spelled ‘good’ in Anders’s mind. When Anders arrived, he looked surprised, and then looked away with a tint of red on his face. Fenris felt the insides of his chest getting particularly warm as well. Maybe not enough things were said between them, but avoiding it now wouldn’t do.

“Um…is there a reason you’re out here…?” Anders looked ready to enter, but Fenris didn’t budge from the entrance.

“I was waiting for you.”

“…oh. Um…I’m here? What’s going on? Am I in trouble for being a big bad mage?”

Fenris sighed and closed the distance between them. Anders stiffened as the other got closer. Fenris felt his heart pound a bit too loud for his liking, but he had a feeling Anders might be feeling it just as a bad. Or worse. With a shake of his head, Fenris tried to meet with Anders’s gaze. Anders only persisted to not look at him. Not wanting to push his discomfort, Fenris stopped and let a moment’s pause pass before speaking. “…Do you wish to have coffee with me sometime?”

Anders’s head snapped up. “…What?”

“Do you wish to have coffee with me sometime?” he repeated patiently.

He could’ve sworn Anders’s face changed color as he tried to get out a response. “Wh-What?! Wait, a-are you inferring something? Wait, is this a joke? Because if it is, it’s not a very funny one you know!”

“It is not a joke.”

Anders only folded his arms in disbelief.

Fenris continued. “I…know I am not the most ideal-”

“What?!” Anders exclaimed, cutting in, “Fenris, you’re like one of the most desirable bachelors in all of Kirkwall!”

Fenris blinked. This was news to him. Never less… “It does not change my question for you.”

“…But you can do better than me!”

“I fail to see how that relates to what you want in regards to my question.”

Anders fell silent, looking rather torn.

Fenris sighed again as his heart started to ache once more. “As I said…I know I may not be the most…ideal person. I have treated you badly, and I do not know if I ever truly apologized for it. I would not hold it against you for saying no. I am…prepared for it. You deserve someone who will treat you well.”

“Not really…” Anders let out an empty laugh as his hand wiped at his eyes. “Heh…wh…what am I supposed to say to that, Fenris? I…I don’t know, I just…”

“Say whatever you fe-”

“It’s not that simple!” Anders suddenly exclaimed. “Of course I want to! I just…don’t want to disappoint you…Heh, I mean, I hear that I’m rather good at that! Disappointment. Being a mage does that you know. I often disappoint people without even having to open my mouth usually.”

“Well whoever suggested such a thing is wrong,” Fenris stated harshly. Anders dropped the forceful smile he just put on. “This is not about everyone else and they will think. It’s about you and your happiness, and whether or not you feel I am capable of helping in providing some of it. This is not about Kirkwall, or Hawke, or mages, or any of whatever you think has to do with who ‘deserves’ what! Just once, can you do that? For yourself?”

Fenris wasn’t sure what kind of look Anders was giving him. He had never seen it before. The mage looked confused, and something else. Maybe he was in thought as he tried to decipher what was said. Fenris couldn’t blame him. He wasn’t sure if many people expressed such a thing to Anders before this moment.

Anders fiddled with his hands, and looked away again. “I can…try.” Anders finally replied quietly.

“That is all I ask from you. Regardless of how you wish to answer me. Just know that there is more to me than just simple acts of kindness. Believe me when I say: I may disappoint you before you could ever disappoint me.”

“Never,” Anders shook his head. Fenris could see how much the mage genuinely believed that. “I think…one cup of coffee wouldn’t hurt.” And Fenris saw a small smile on the other’s face.

It was almost a relief to Fenris. He never really saw himself as nice, but it was a rather good trait. And he could always show he had other qualities to like, at least, he had hoped he did. Like Anders, Fenris decided he had to at least try to bring those good qualities out. If not for his own sake, then for Anders’s.

It was the least Fenris felt he could do for him.

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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Send me prompts!

@araglas1989: I could use something sweet. How about when Fenris sister comes, she brings fenris child with her (she doesn't betray him, danarius followed her) now fenris doesn't only have to care for a sister (a mage nonetheless) and a teenager.

I like the OC I ended up making. He’s pretty. Maybe I’ll draw him one day. And I tried to make this fluffy > 3<

Also, special thanks to this prompter for being the first to use my ko-fi button (located on both my blog+art blog!)!!! I’ll keep doing my best to deliver stories to the best of my ability! Thank you so much for your support!

Misc. notes: pre-fenders-but-everyone-knows-they-like-each-other-and-are-just-waiting-for-them-to-become-“official”-already (so it def ends “official” as fenders) / the term ‘abomination’ is used a few times for Anders in the beginning / no one here likes blood magic so minor (tho unified) lack of interest in Merrill

Link to ao3 chapter: here.

Fenris has learned that not many things go according to plan when living in Kirkwall. Everything from his adventures out with Hawke to...whatever his current interactions with the mage has become...

With that in mind, he knew things couldn’t go smoothly when he entered the Hanged Man the day he went to meet his supposed-sister (that turned out to be real), but he also didn’t expect...everything else that came after. Whatever this was.

Silence.

Nothing but the occasional sips he took from his bottle of wine, the clacking from utensils meeting a plate, and the complete and utter lack of conversation where constant chewing and drinking filled the air instead. Fenris always mused what it must feel like to have a family. To have the one thing Hawke has...or had. But when the Maker decided to be funny about it, Fenris found he wasn’t prepared for a family. This is considered a family right? His sister, Varania, was still a sister even if he had no clear memory of her. He learned he apparently fought for the sake of the people of his own blood. Even if the plan may have turned out for the worst for all of them, did that change their relationship? But now that he had a sister again, what does he do now?

“Please chew with your mouth closed,�� Varania scolded, being the first to break the silence at the dinner table. At least, that’s what Fenris assumed this was: A table. In the mansion’s kitchen. With people eating around it. That’s a dinner table right? Fenris found he never needed to have company over for a meal, just for cards.

The loud chewing stopped as the young elf sitting beside Varania closed his mouth, tucked his strawberry blond locks over an ear, and continued to chew silently. Fenris found he much preferred noise over the awkward silence in the air though. But the boy that Varania brought with didn’t speak much, not to Fenris at least. The boy has openly spoke to his saviors that day at the Hanged Man, and later spoke in Tevene to Orana. Then he’d pretend he doesn’t hear Fenris when being addressed by him (until Varania scolds him into responding).

“I’m sorry, Leto.” Varania apologized on the younger elf’s behalf.

“It is...fine...” Fenris awkwardly replied as he eyed the boy staring blankly at his plate while chewing. Brown eyes looked back at him occasionally but otherwise the young elf seemed to enjoy pretending Fenris wasn’t here. His long hair fell over his face again but this time he did not fix it.

“I’m going out.” the teenager announced before standing from his seat.

“Put that in the sink!” Varania immediately pointing at plate. Fenris watched as the younger elf did it without complaint. “Yes, Aunt Varania,” being the only thing he said, and it was without the dripping sarcasm Fenris knew the boy was capable of. The young elf didn’t say another word as he swiftly left the room. Silence continued on until the siblings heard the front door of the mansion open and close.

“I am sorry about Hati...”

She must’ve apologized for him hundreds of times by now. Fenris almost felt guilty that she still felt so guilty. “It is not your fault,” he stated, trying to ease whatever he could of the situation. He found comforting wasn’t his strong point over the last couple of weeks. “I...I shall keep trying to talk with him. I do not wish to push him either but I shall remain patient.”

“Thank you, Leto...”

Leto...Fenris found he also had to get used being called that too. There were simply too many things to get used to since they killed Danarius: His sister, the discovery of his own son, the loss of the boy’s mother, Alina, at birth - another memory that Fenris grieved in losing, and his own hesitance at the fact that he now lives with two mages.

Anders was putting out the lantern early. He had to get moving while light was still out or risk getting attacked while carrying heavy supplies. With the flames out, Anders readjusted the currently empty bag over his shoulder and turned only to catch a pair of brown eyes looking at him from behind a pile of crates. Anders blinked a couple of times as he stared back. Upon realizing that fact, the eyes descended to hide. Anders made sure to make obvious noise in his steps as he slowly approached the stacks of crates. Hugging his knees on the floor was Hati, glaring at the ground. Anders knelt before him, but made sure to keep appropriate distance. “Hi Hati. What are you doing here?” he asked with curiosity. It was a genuine question as Anders found the young elf stopping by the clinic more often than he used to. Ever since day one when Anders helped take down Danarius, with Justice, the boy and Varania didn’t seem to think highly of him. Exclamations of “It’s an abomination!” being the biggest hint. Justice wasn’t pleased to hear that but what could they do in this situation?

It was unfortunate as Anders found he could no longer visit Fenris in his mansion as often as he used to now that both Varania and Hati has also taken up residence in it and the last thing he wanted was to make them more uneasy. Not only that, he saw less of Fenris in general with the amount of time the warrior spent fixing up parts of his mansion and getting to know his...family.

Despite the initial avoidance, Anders had spotted Hati around the clinic, often watching him work. He had tried reaching out to the youngster but the elf never reciprocated the attempts, and so Anders didn’t expect much of a response right here either.

“...why are you locking up the clinic at this time?” he asked quietly, as if afraid people will hear what he had to say.

Anders was taken back with surprise. “Oh, um, I have to go meet up with some of my patients. I’ve been neglecting on keeping my clinic stocked on some supplies so I’m going to go around to see if any of them have empty bottles and sacks for me to bring back. That way I can make more potions for Hawke and the others as well as for other patients.” Anders hoped his explanation was what Hati was looking for.

“Why don’t you just buy more? Or send someone to do it for you?”

“Um...well, the clinic runs on donations. Any money I make with Hawke I use to buy things I can’t get anywhere else. But if I can save a little bit by reusing things then that will go a long way. And I would ask those of Darktown to help but they don’t know everyone I see. Otherwise I would,” Anders offered a smile and lowered his voice into a whisper, “Because it’s easier to give the young ones coin than to their parents.”

Hati didn’t seem fazed at the suggestion. Maybe he didn’t understand what Anders was implying. Giving up, and not wanting to push Hati into any forms of discomfort, Anders offered a friendly grin again as he stood up to start on his way.

“Can I come with?”

Anders looked to his side as Hati stood. “...Of course you can!” he replied happily. It was a bit immature, and Anders would admit it, but to be potentially accepted by someone who initially rejected him (especially someone related to Fenris), well, it was more than he ever thought he’d get.

Kirkwall was a strange place. The south in general, supposedly, was just like Kirkwall. Mages everywhere are locked up in the Circles and at the mercy of the Templars, even the humans. The people in power are the non-mage humans of all things. Maybe Kirkwall isn’t so bad in comparison to Tevinter. Except the only thing that didn’t seem to change was that elves were still treated poorly.

Hati knew he didn’t want to ever go into the Alienage. It reminded him of Tevinter. That, and the blood mage lived there. It confused him just by the mere fact an elf was a blood mage. Maybe it was a Dalish thing? She seemed so nice otherwise...

Then there was the abomination. He was the most confusing out of all of them. He was merged with a ‘spirit’ as he calls it, is a human, and helped defeat a Magister. He was powerful. So why does he not rule Kirkwall with an iron fist? It was an answer Hati wasn’t sure if he’ll ever find. It was suspicious that Anders was closing the clinic early tonight though. Was he up to something? Was he going to secretly perform blood magic rituals with Merrill? Despite the possibility, Hati had a hard time believing it. He could always check, and run as fast as he could if things get out of hand. He did know a good stun spell.

Instead, the pair stayed in Darktown. Anders greeted the various residents and stalls. He does not enter one’s home without being invited in. Nor does he raise his voice to threaten or demand. Anders knelt down to talk to any children. He kindly asked if anyone’s finished using his supplies. Some have, and some haven’t. He thanked them regardless and would continue on his way. Sometimes the mage gets offered gifts of thanks. Anders always refused them. Sometimes he would cave if they were persistent enough, or if the gifts were from small children. The gifts have ranged from a single flower picked off the dirt nearby, to a copper, to a newly sewn tunic. If he was offered food, Anders would only take a portion of it, never the whole thing. Sometimes, Anders spotted a small injury on someone. A cut or bruise mostly, nothing serious as far as Hati could see. Anders would offer to heal it, most of the time with magic but occasionally he’d pull out a bandage roll and health potion.

Before Hati knew it, they had a bag of empty bottles, and Hati found himself back at the clinic with Anders. They were alone. It was now or never to settle his dying curiosity of this strange abomination.

“...why do you not just kill the Templars?” Hati asked as Anders carefully placed his bag onto a cot that already had other supplies lying around on top of it. With how much Anders complained about it, Hati was surprised this man didn’t just kill Templars on sight.

Anders stared back in surprise at such a question. “Trust me. I’d like to. But not all Templars are bad people. It would not be right.”

“But I’ve head you say they are.”

Anders sighed. He started sorting the bottle sizes on the cot before continuing. “Not all Templars are bad people, but all Templars are a danger to me and all mages. There’s a difference.”

“I do not understand. You’re free here. Why won’t you all rise like the Magisters in Tevinter? Why do you not just GO to Tevinter?!” Hati didn’t mean to express impatience, but none of this made sense! There had to be a lie here! A trick! Fenris, a slave that ran from Tevinter, was clearly a little closer to a mage than one from his situation should be. The two weren’t exactly hiding how often they eye each other and sit or stand comfortably close to one another. Did the mage manipulate and control Fenris?

“...It’s different here,” Anders eventually answered. “And I admit, I’ve considered going to Tevinter. But I do not wish to hurt people if I don’t have to. There is no reason to become something like a Magister. I don’t want to rule over people, I just want to live life without having to worry about death and hiding who I am from others. Tevinter is not the answer.”

“But you will kill people?”

“If I have to.” Anders repeated, his tone hardened.

Silence filled the air, save for the occasional clanging from the bottles that Anders set down. “...how come you’re friends with...Fenris?” Hati prompted instead. He dared to move a bit closer to the cot. Just a step. Anders tossed the now-empty bag to the side and moved himself over to the pot accompanied by various small jars filled with ingredients.

“Well...we surprisingly have a lot in common. We just had to shut up and talk about it. And come now, don’t speak of your father by name like that.”

Hati frowned. “He is not my father!”

Anders froze for a moment, but continued working. “I apologize, Hati.”

The elf blinked in confusion. He has heard Merrill apologize numerous times for some of her clumsiness. He has also heard Aunt Varania apologize to Fenris a lot. For them: for being a burden, invading the mansion, being mages... And he had heard Fenris apologize for not being in his family’s life. Not that it meant anything. It didn’t matter. They don’t know each other. Regardless, it wasn’t the same. To hear an apology from a human mage left him a bit dumbstruck.

“I understand how you feel.” Anders added as he started dumping ingredients into the pot.

Hati folded his arms. “No you don’t...!” he spat. How could he?! He’s an apostate from the south! His father didn’t put him into extreme poverty, left his mother and grandmother to die, left his Aunt to raise him for all these years! Alone. No one, just to two of them. The feeling of hunger became numb to him...

Hati became startled when Anders put down the ingredients he was fumbling with and looked straight into the boy’s eyes. Should he stun the man and run now? Anders, however, didn’t move from where he stood but he relaxed his posture. Hati found himself mimicking the relaxed state. “I also have no father. At least...I’ve personally disowned him as a father. He’s probably still alive. I wouldn’t know. I don’t plan to see him anytime son. He stopped being my father the day he turned me over to the Templars. I was a bit younger than you are though when it happened. I guess I wasn’t mad about it right away. I think I had hoped he’d come get me. Or my mother would. Obviously, it never happened. I know it’s not the same thing at all. But I understand not seeing your birth father as your father, and you’re in the right to do so. Sharing the same blood doesn’t always equal family. I...I think Fenris is a good person, and to me things were out of his hands. But...I should’ve considered your feelings on the matter. And I apologize for not being more considerate on that when I should’ve understood how you felt.”

The mage seemed genuine in what he said. He even seemed nice a lot of time. Not all the time though, not with that demon thing inside him. But as Hati looked around the clinic, all he recalled seeing here were the poor from both humans and elves alike. This was all too confusing. How did he, a dirt poor elf, end up with more luxury than a human mage? He was fairly certain his own bed at the mansion was bigger than the space Anders slept inside of. But...Anders was still a powerful mage. He knew how to fight and kill a man, but he also knew how to put flesh back together. He wielded magic as if it was a child’s toy. Not even Aunt Varania seemed to understand magic the way this man does and never once had he seen Anders attempt blood magic. Maybe there was...something to him after all...

Hati slowly approached the cot and stood directly opposite of Anders. The man gave him his full attention, but didn’t say anything. Hati suddenly felt a sense of shame. Anders always seemed patient with him despite how he treated the man in return. Was it out of pity? Was it because he was still a kid in his eyes? But Anders wasn’t very condescending to him. Anders also seemed very experienced in life when he wasn’t making silly jokes. Hati sighed and looked up at the man. “I...know this might be strange to ask. And I know you might not like me very much...but can you train me in magic?”

What surprised him was the way Anders’s face lit up in excitement at the question before getting he got out an exclaimed “Yes!”

It was strange. Hati has run off multiple times but he usually came back, or was brought back, by this time of night. Fenris paid a visit to the Hanged Man, back to being bustling and filled with drunks as usual. Except the warrior found no one had seen his son. He next went to visit the Chantry. Sebastian found Hati there one time, but apparently not today. Fenris went up to Hawke’s estate only for Bohdan to tell him that Hati didn’t visit today. This was concerning...Fenris swiftly went to Darktown, skipping the Alienage and just hoped Hati was with Anders. Anders did mention Hati had visited at times, if only to watch. Even if Hati was not there, he hoped Anders would’ve at least seen him.

Fenris approached the clinic door and swiftly knocked. “It’s me!” The door was swift to unlock, and Fenris was rewarded with Anders opening the door with a bright smile on his face.

“Oh Love, I’m glad you’re here!”

Fenris couldn’t resist the grin from appear on his face. “’Love?’ he repeated.

Color briefly drained from Anders’s face before it was swiftly covered in feverish red. “Th-That just came out! Don’t you dare make fun of me for it!”

“Oh, why ever would you think I would do that?” Fenris asked only to get a playful shove from Anders.

“Oh shut it!” even with that, Anders tried to hide the laugh behind the comment. He let Fenris in and shut the door behind him. In the moment, Fenris temporarily forgot why he was here. He had spent so long trying to make conversation with Varania and Hati on top of adjusting to the overall changes of his living situation that he had missed just being with Anders. Sure, they have not had time lately to invite each other to bed, but even Fenris found himself missing nights where they share conversation over a nice meal or drink. Fenris had to resist a groan at the reminder that he wasn’t sure if Anders was eating much...

Before Fenris got to his question, he noticed Hati in the middle of the clinic. The boy was holding one of Anders’s staffs, observing its shape and design. He’d test the weight of it and tried swinging it around, though with far less grace than Anders had.

“Oh, that’s right,” Anders brought his voice down to a quieter tone. “Hati asked me to train him in magic!”

“Has he...?” That’s...good? Fenris wasn’t sure. Not to mention, he wasn’t sure if Varania would approve. Then again, does she have authority over him? This whole family thing is complicated. “How is he as a student?”

“Oh, well, we haven’t really started on anything. I’m letting him feel different staffs. I know Varania had one, but I don’t know if she ever had him use it. I wanted him to see if anything stood out to him; but no worries! I’ll teach him from the ground up!” Fenris saw Anders’s smile swiftly drain from his face. “Is it...weird?”

“Is what weird?” Fenris asked with a slightly raised brow.

“That...I’m teaching your son magic? I...know Tevinter brought you nothing but trauma and then two mages just moved into your place and now it’s topped off with me trying to help Hati hone his powers; it’s just...is this too much? Because...I feel like helping Hait would do some good. But Justice keeps nagging me that it might be unjust...to you. Someone who is intertwined with all of our lives, even just a little, and I didn’t even discuss it with you!”

Fenris noticed Hati had stopped twirling the staff and was eying them carefully now. He looked back to Anders. “I am fine with it. If I were to trust anyone to teach him magic I would entrust him to no one else.”

This brought a smile back to Anders’s face. Fenris couldn’t help but give one in return. “However, it is probably only right that we discuss the matter with Varania as well.” Fenris sighed upon saying that but continued to try and reassure the other. “Do not worry, Mage. If I can learn to understand Justice, then I think she has little room to complain. I’ll see to it that she understands.”

“You don’t have to...but just hearing that is really touching, Love. I mean-Fenris! Oh Andraste’s tits...!”

Fenris chuckled. He granted the mage some mercy as he resisted to tease him over it. “It is...unfortunately getting late. I feel I should bring Hati back to the mansion with me.”

“Ah, yes, of course...” Anders turned around and also finally saw Hati was (still) quietly observing the pair. “Fenris suggests that you both head back home. It is a bit late and that’s when everyone decides to be an asshole for the day. But you can come back anytime and I’ll try to train you. How does that sound?”

Hati nodded. He put the staff onto a cot before heading over to the pair who started opening the clinic door. “...Thank you, Ser Anders.” he said just above a whisper and headed out first without looking at Fenris.

As Fenris started exiting as well he ran his hand over the mage’s arm and held on until Anders looked at him. “For the record, Mage, I do not mind being called...that.”

“You....don’t?”

“No. I do not,” Fenris replied confidently. He looked to see Hati waiting for him by some stairs before looking back to Anders. “We...should have word. Alone. But you may still call me...whatever you’d like.”

Anders beamed. With hesitance, their hands held onto each other before Fenris had to part them. He didn’t look back as the temptation to just hold the mage in his arms again was too strong.

The walk back to the mansion held the same awkward silence Fenris found himself usually having back at home. “I am happy that Anders is helping you.” It was worth a shot to initiate a conversation. Silence only continued and Fenris sighed.

“Why do you like Ser Anders?” Hati asked after the initial pause. Fenris found himself startled that he was even asked a question but didn’t hesitate to grab onto the opportunity.

“He...well, we have discussed much of our lives. I am not sure what you rather hear. He is kind, rather humorous, very caring, and filled with...passion. I suppose that might be an alluring trait.”

“I agree.”

Fenris raised a brow, unsure if he wanted to question what part of his statement Hati was agreeing with.

“I...do not fully understand everything that Ser Anders says. Everything in Kirkwall is so different. Everything I knew of him is different. But...he is admirable.” Hati confessed. Fenris saw the boy’s face relax upon admitting his thoughts. “I feel like you aren’t so bad...if someone like him can like you.”

Fenris wasn’t sure if he was supposed to take that as a compliment or an insult.

Varania wasn’t pleased of the news of Hati running off almost every day to learn from Anders. In fact, she often ended up at the clinic herself just to ensure that no one started summoning demons and slicing their skins.

It was during this period that Fenris’s home routine started shifting. For one, Hati was more talkative. He showed off little tricks that Anders taught him, and talked about how Anders saved all those workers from the Bone Pit or that he helped a mother give birth. When he wasn’t speaking he was reading through notes that Anders gave him to study, even while at the dinner table. Well, Fenris later found Hati was looking at pictures. Varania didn’t have the chance to teach the boy to read. When Anders found out, he encouraged Fenris to help Hati in his studies; reminding him that everything in the notes were things Fenris already knew how to read. He was hesitant, but Fenris did just that and offered to help Hati. Now with more free time, Varania was also eager to assist in Hati’s learning. Hati started memorizing plants and their names, and went to Fenris to ask the names of said-plants if it became too hard for him (in which Fenris embarrassingly went to Varania when he also did not know how to read something...but they were longer words okay?). It was then, Fenris suggested to bring Hati along to Sundermont.

“Why? What if we’re attacked?” Hati questioned, his nose buried in the notebook a moment earlier.

Fenris picked up his sword that was leaning against the wall. “I will keep us protected. We shall help the mage gather some supplies. It might make it easier for you to memorize what to look for.”

What Fenris didn’t expect was the excitement and curiosity Hati expressed the moment he spotted his first elfroot. He’d open the book and looked between the eflroot in person and compared it to the sketchy illustration. He’d sit there and try to sound out words based on the letters and not from memory. When he finished he’d move on to the next thing he found.

The pair gathered an abundance of plants, herbs, and roots before returning to Kirkwall to seek out Anders. They both dropped off sacks of supplies before the mage. Upon seeing Anders’s surprised and grateful face was when Fenris saw Hati light up in pure glee. It the first time his son smiled in such a way since arriving to Kirkwall.

Between both reading and magic lessons, Fenris found Anders also was occasionally speaking about magic with Varania. While Hati laid on an unused cot to read through a new book, Fenris came upon Anders helping Varania on her postures and how to effectively use a staff. Fenris felt a strange warmth come up inside him. It was new, but a good kind of warmth.

It was family dinner time and Hati was retelling stories that Anders must’ve told him. Fenris found he already knew most of them, but it was a pleasant sight to see Hati be excited about Anders’s adventures. It was also pleasing to see Varania take an interest as well.

“That broodmother sounds absolutely vile...” Varania said with a shake of her head.

“Of course it was! That’s what made the fight so amazing!” Hati exclaimed, as if needing to defend Anders’s story.

“Oh I agree. I just pictured the broodmother as Hadriana.”

Fenris found himself chuckling at that. “And neither of you questioned about his cat bringing his companions back to life?”

“Well Ser Pounce was clearly a magic-cat!” Hati defended. “Or maybe it was Ser Anders’s own magic? Can he do that?”

“Oh I’m sure they weren’t really dead. He must’ve healed them swiftly enough in battle.” Varania pointed out. She turned to look at Fenris with a rather serious expression. He lifted his drink for a sip as he anticipated a question from her that he may need time to answer. “Leto, I understand you’ve been away from Tevinter for a long time, and I know the South must have some of their own traditions and cultures...But when are you going invite that man to live in your home?”

Fenris choked on his drink.

After a moment of coughing, Varania found he was fit enough for her to continue. “You cannot string him along like this. We’ve already burdened him with helping us. I was surprised to learn you never invited him to live with you. Even the poorest of those in Tevinter have made attempts to share burdens when courting and I have yet to see you put in such effort. Surely I do not need to remind you that he lives in a sewer!”

“Yeah!” Hati exclaimed in agreement. “I told him his passion was as bright as the sun itself. You know what he said to me? ‘Oh that’s a compliment if I’ve ever heard one. That is very sweet of you, Hati. Thank you.’”

Fenris glared. Hati smirked in response.

When Anders opened his clinic door, he knew it was Fenris on the other side. But he didn’t expect Fenris to be holding a handful of colorful flowers...flowers that Anders was pretty sure belonged in a garden from one of Hawke’s neighbors.

“Oh, well, this is a surprise.” Anders grinned and let the elf in before closing the doors behind him.

“I know it is late but...” Fenris didn’t finish the sentence and practically shoved the flowers into Anders’s hands.

The mage smiled. “They’re lovely, Fenris. Thank you. What did I do to earn such a lovely gift from my favorite elf?”

Anders noticed the flush that appeared on Fenris’s face as the warrior tensed up before he responded. “I...I am aware we have not spent as much time together since the incident with Danarius...” There was the complete and utter lack of sex for one. Okay, no, that was not the important part right now! “And...I wanted to ensure you that despite that, I do not want you to feel that I have neglected you.”

Anders felt fluttering in his chest, as if he was teenager all over again back in the Circle, and he knew his heart just melted. “Oh Love...that is-I...I’m touched. I’m very touched. Thank you! I felt I was the one neglecting you! And here you are, showing up on my doorstep with quite lovely, and expensive-looking, flowers. I do not know how to even match your gesture!”

“Youcouldlivewithme...”

“I’m sorry...what?” Anders leaned in a bit closer. Maybe it was the lack of lighting but Anders could’ve sworn the red only deepened on Fenris’s face.

“You could...live with me...”

“Oh...” Anders felt his own face get a smidge warmer than a moment ago.

“I...am fond of your company, Mage...Anders. I know that I do not have anyone to vouch for my experience as a parter nor can I say I know how to be one. Despite that, if you are willing, I wish to be yours if you wish to be mine.”

“Oh Maker...” Anders felt his eyes ready to tear up and he swiftly wiped them away. “Oh Love...I’m the one that always worried I can’t give you what you want and deserve. I have nothing to offer you. To hear you say those words to me...how can I say no? I would not blame you if you changed your mind but...how could I reject someone as considerate and understanding as you’ve been to me?”

“Do not be ridiculous, Mage...Anders. You have much to offer.”

“I hope that wasn’t a size joke,” Anders smirked.

“It could be.”

Anders let out a soft laugh, and felt more at ease when Fenris smiled in return. “In all seriousness, I...I’d love to live with you. Is...everyone else okay with it?”

Fenris sighed. “Varania gave me a lecture about how I’m rather poor at being someone suitable for courting. For one I should start using your name...” Fenris muttered the last part. “Hati then gave me a hard time about how I am not romantic enough........did he really say your passion was as bright as the sun?”

Anders had to resist letting out a laugh. “Um...yes, he did. It was rather sweet. Your son could probably write some amazing love letters. But don’t worry, Love. I think you’re perfect the way you are.”

“You flatter me, Mage...Anders. I am happy to hear you’d be willing to take up residence with me. However, I should remind that we will not be alone.”

“I think I’ll be fine, Love. I’ve had plenty of patients stay overnight here at the clinic and all those camping trips we’ve done when out with Hawke. And I like your family. They’re still adjusting, but...they seem like good people. Okay, I also appreciate that they seem to like me a little more than before.”

Fenris nodded, seemingly understanding. “As am I. Shall we leave then?”

“Wh-What? You mean starting now?!”

“Sooner the better. You do not need to move everything now of course. But you can share my bed again.”

Anders laughed again. “Love, is that really a good idea with your family there...?”

“If they complain, I will deal with it in the morning.”

“Fenris!” despite the initial protest, Anders had a hard time saying no to being wrapped up in Fenris’s arms, under his bedsheets, and falling asleep to soft kisses...

Despite attempts at being quiet, Anders had a feeling he might’ve been a bit too loud last night...

Varania wasn’t acting any different than usual, but didn’t seem surprised in the slightest that he showed up at breakfast the next morning. Unlike Hati, who was at least surprised when he saw the man. Then Anders overheard Varania saying something to Fenris about changing rooms. Oh Maker...

Anders felt a tug on his tunic as Hati scooted his chair closer to him. “Hey, Ser Anders, can you help me do my hair like yours? I can never do it right. I only know how to make my hair into a bun...but my bangs keep getting in the way regardless.”

Anders smiled and turned slightly to face him. “I can teach you, sure. But why don’t you just cut it? I can help with that too.”

“Maybe..."

“Have you ever had a braid?” Anders asked. Hati shook his head. Anders took out one of his hairbands from his wrist. “You should try it at least once. You have such long and gorgeous hair so it would look better on you than on someone like me. May I?”

Hati nodded and turned around. Anders did his best to straighten the hair with just his fingers before starting on a braid.

“Oh, Ser Anders, I remembered you like cats. Merrill mentioned something about a litter in the Alienage. You think you’ll get one?”

“Oh, well, nothing would please me more really. Though I don’t think Darktown’s a safe place for a cat. Why, are you thinking of picking one up?”

“Maybe...I heard Merrill was having trouble getting interests for them. I do want one though. I want to name them Skoll!”

Anders almost grimaced. “What? No, they need a more dignified name!” He heard Hati chuckle, as if that comment was a joke. Then again, he did the same thing when Anders told of Ser Pounce-a-lot. Guess not everyone will appreciate his names. Anders finished braiding and let the braid rest over the boy’s shoulder. “Still need to cut your bangs. But I kept the braid loose and tied it to more the right so it’ll hang more naturally. Let me know how they feels for you.”

Hati felt the hair in front of him before looking back at Anders. “Thank you! I will!”

Soon, breakfast was laid out by Fenris and Varania. Hati immediately asked if they can bring home some cats. ‘Because Anders made them sound cool’ being one of the reasons. Fenris wanted to refuse. After all, who would look after an animal with him and Anders occasionally running around with Hawke? Varania will soon pick up work as well and Hati was originally meant to stay at the Hawke estate when no one was home. Though Hati was rather used to responsibility...and cats could always get some of the rats that were running around the place...

They ended up with two cats: Skoll and Lady Mooneviere. Varania also was swift in moving to the furthest room possible from her brother’s room. Hati ended up keeping the braid hairstyle. Anders found himself coming home every night to people he’s grown to care for. Fenris felt the same, a routine he hoped to never give up.

Except now Varania was now giving her brother a hard time on when the official engagement announcement was going to happen - Fenris didn’t realize an expensive gift (the bloody cats) was practically the equivalent of an engagement ring...

#fenders #fenris #anders #dragonage fanfiction #prompt fill #araglas1989 #OC #syydrabble #syyprompted

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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Fenders, Anders is seriously injured and needs help getting around.

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Cue my usual: “idk if this is what you’re looking for but…” > ~

Misc. Notes: Hawke/Isabela mentions, pre-fenders to fenders, trauma/attack(s) implications but nothing described in detail, feelings of insecurity/self-hatred; also using game-mechanics to explain…you’ll see.

Link to Ao3 Chapter: here.

“This is simple. So simple. Why-oh why isn’t it working?! Why can’tI heal? Why can’t I do ANYTHING right?! I’m so weak and pathetic I can’t evendo the one thing I boast about being good at! Why can’t I heal?! Why am I souseless?! Why, why, why…it’s so dark…”

Anders gasped and his eyes snapped open. His gaze immediately went to theonly source of light he could find. There was a brightly lit fireplace on the right side of the room. Fromthere he slowly took in his surroundings: cobwebs, dust, a relatively comfybed…

Anders lookedbeside him and at the covers. It was a rather large bed. This wasn’t the AmellEstate though. Leandra and Bodahn would never let things get this bad. But the only otherbuilding Hightown he could have access to was…

He swallowed.Flashes of lyrium rushed by his memories. Templars.Or was it…Fenris? With a groan he rubbed his head, trying to remember the details, only then realizing hispounding headache. It didn’t stop him from trying to remember. He recalled they were in a cave. There was either a cave-in or an attack. He recalled using magic and feeling lyrium. Was there something that got burned? He kept pondering as he tried to heal away his headache. As he did, the door to the room opened up. Fenris stood there for a moment,noting Anders looking back, before coming in with the large bowl in hishands. “You areawake.”

“Evidently…”Anders mumbled before ceasing the spell. He groaned before attempting to pushhimself into a sitting position.

“Don’t!” Fenrislooked ready to drop the item in his hands as he immediately quickened hispace. Pain shot through Anders’s arm the moment he put weight on. It led to himfalling back on the pillows and wailing from the unexpected pain.

“Calm yourself,Mage.” Anders felt Fenris’s hands gently pressing down on the man’s upperarm to keep Anders from moving it. “You are injured. Do not pushyourself.”

Anders hissed, trying to still himself as he listened to the rather calming toneFenris was using. He looked down to his right arm and saw it thicker thanan arm should be and covered with a bag of - Anders guessed was -ice. “Wha…”

After Anders stopped attempted to move again, Fenris removed his touch. “Ah…Hawkethought ice would help. I do not know if they are correct but…none of us arereally knowledgeable in this area. I actually came to switch out the ice.”

While Fenris poke, Anders looked to the bowl on the stand beside the bed to see that it indeed held a block of ice.

“Your arm is broken. We…tried placing a caston it.” Fenris removed fabric to show the arm sloppily wrappedwith sticks and cloth.

“…I’ll um, I’ll fix it later.” Anders said, his tone coming off as if it was just like the time some of the children knock off some organized plants in his clinic. It was rather touching that his friends tried. As Anders stared at it, the more the reality slowly started to sink in: Hisarm was broken. Anders attempted to reach over without rolling onto hisinjury. His hand glowed and ran it over his arm. The magic stopped as Anderslaid flat on his back again with a huff. “Get Hawke!” He growled infrustration as he pressed his free hand to his face, trying to calm himself enough so that he doesn’t accidentally start tearing up. “Please.” He added,hoping it was enough for Fenris to listen to him without argument.

Fenris wasswift in leaving and retrieving the Champion. It gave Anders little time tocalm himself of the frustration but he tried to maintain his composure.

“Hey, how areyou feeling?” Hawke asked as they approached the bed.

“Peachy. Pleasetell me you were taught how to use Cleansing Aura.”

“…What?” theblank look on Hawke’s face gave away the answer but Anders still had to doublecheck. Maybe it was under a different name. Surely Malcolm would’ve taught animportant skill to his children. Assuming Malcolm even knew it to begin with…

“Can you healbones?” Anders asked instead.

“Uh…I can try?I mean, I did try but it wasn’tcoming together. And we figured we should get you safety first and foremost. Ican try again though if you can guide me though-”

Andersimmediately put his hand up when Hawke got closer. “No! Don’t attempt! If you don’t know how,don’t even try. You could make it worse.”

“Oh…Sorry.” Hawke immediately back away. “Can you…heal yourself then?”

Anders shook his head in frustration. “I would if I could.” He let out asigh. Silence fell in the room. The uncomfortable level started torise. “What happened?”

“Uh…stuff…”

Fenris steppedin front of Hawke, shushing him. “We do not need to discuss that. Youshould focus on resting and recovering. I can help you fix the cast if you needto.”

Anders mutteredto himself before looking up to his companions. “No, I’ll be fine. I needto help those at the clinic.”

“You shouldtake it easy. I mean, can you even stand yet?”

Fenris turned around to giveHawke a look. Anders saw Hawke give an inaudible ‘oh.’

“Why would youthink I can’t-” Anders didn’t finish his sentence when the aching in his legs, especially his right leg, became more obvious. After a moment’s pause he groaned. “…Is my anklesprained or broken?”

“I was hopingyou would know…” Hawke mumbled with regret, “We put a cast on that too though! Because we weren’t sure…”

Anders groanedeven louder.

Anders was visibly upset. How does one even confront a manwhen he is driven by strong emotions (well, stronger emotions)? Fenris left it at “you don’t.” Thefoolish mage often refused help even when he needed it the most. Even thenFenris found it difficult to hold it against him. He knew the feeling of beingstripped of your independence and lack of choice in a situation. He wishedAnders wouldn’t be so damn stubborn, but…who washe to judge?

He (and Hawke) had helped Anders make a better cast, only forhim to shoo them out right after to presumably sulk and adjust to his current dilemma. But that was hours ago. The mage surely mustbe hungry by now. If Fenris was lucky, maybe Anders was also calmer as well. Heentered the room with a small tray. Anders didn’t look to have changedpositions. He laid on his left, the ‘good,’ side, and faced away from the door.

“You should eat.” It was a recommendation, though he had afeeling Anders would not listen just out of spite.

“I’m not hungry.”

“You should still eat.” Fenris made obvious noise when he placedthe tray down on the side table drawer to indicate there was presence of food.

“Why am I in your mansion?” Anders asked instead and without moving.

“…we felt you would be safer here.” It wasn’t a complete lie.

“I see…what happened? I only remember…being in the cave…werethere Templars? I…can’t remember…”

“You do no need to.” Fenris admitted he may have spoken toohastily on that response.

“I feel like…you guys are hiding something.”

“There is nothing to hide. We can discuss it all you want as yourecover. Now, roll over so I can help you up. You need to eat.”

“I do not need your help.” Fenris had to resist rolling his eyesat the predictable response. He watched as Anders pushed himself on one arm, andused his one good leg to help him scoot until his back hit the headboard. “There,see? Perfectly capable!”

“I never said you weren’t.” Fenris stated as he pulled up achair to sit.

Anders mumbled something to himself and looked away awkwardly. The continued silence only increased the awkward feeling. When nothing else wassaid, Fenris passed over a plate from the tray. Just to avoid speaking, Anderspicked up the piece of bread.

“Do you wish to be left alone some more?”

“Yes!” Anders answered a bit too fast while chewing. “I mean uh…”he swallowed. “Yes…I would appreciate that.”

Fenris didn’t question it and stood up to leave. He could feelthe other eying him as he left.

Hawke came by the next day again. How was Anders doing, how ishe feeling, everything they knew the answer to but still felt the need to hearit.

“The mage was trying not to be angry at me as I helped him up.He does not like to be carried.” The morning was a fuss that Fenris wanted toforget.

“Really? I pegged him for the romantic type. Carried off by intothe sunset and all that!”

“Unfortunately for him there was no sunset. Just the bath.”

“That sucks. Is he moping right now? Cuz you’re evidently notinviting me up there,” Hawke pointed up, as the two still stood by the frontdoor.

“…I do not think I make him comfortable here.”

“Well, we could always move-”

“How do you make him so comfortable?” Fenris cut in. He foldedhis arms and watched as Hawke looked back curiously, and trying to decipher theseriousness of the question.

“Uh…I guess be his friend? Be nice?”

“I think I have been more than accommodating.”

“Yeah, but you also bitch at him more than any of us. He’s injured,but he doesn’t have amnesia ya know.”

“I suppose that is a fair point…” Fenris looked down in thought.He looked back to Hawke before they decided to wander off to see Anders. “How easy is itfor you and Isabela to…talk?”

“I almost want to say we don’t but that I would be a lie. I don’tknow, Fenris. It’s…hard.” Hawke found themselves mimicking Fenris’s pose. “We both got some baggage in our lives. She probablyhas more honestly. And sometimes we make light of it to cope but ya know how it is…whenit comes to serious talks it still can be hard. You don’t want to be vulnerableor weak. In the back of my mind I know she wouldn’t see me that way but…you stillget scared. Long story short: It’s not easy. But…I’m going to try looking past the pride if it can help make us work.”

Fenris nodded, seemingly understanding.

“Something you want to tell me?” Hawke asked. They sounded like they were going to put up a mischievous grin but when Fenris looked, Hawke only looked concerned.

“Perhaps later.”

“Alright, but I’m holding you to that!”

What was there to say though? Fenris replayed his conversation with Hawke multiple times throughout the day, especially when Anders was acting rather impatient with him while refusing help (not that it stopped him from getting the help he needed). He and Anders had a few scuffles in recent years, in the sexual kind, but there wasn’t anything that needed to be said to each other that they couldn’t say in the public eye. At least that was the idea, and Fenris was fairly certain Anders felt the same way. And yet even now, as Fenris would help Anders out of bed or bring him necessities, neither wanted to say anything they didn’t have to. Except…Fenris was fairly certain there were many unspoken things that needed to be said and neither wanted to make that first jump.

Fenris couldn’t help but feel that he was alone in that thought. Anders seemed persistent in keeping his thoughts to himself no matter how many not-so-secret glances they gave each other, or the lingering touches that long overstayed what a necessary touch should last. Fenris rather not make the first move but he knew Anders would never even dare to say a word about…more.

Anders dragged himself (mostly his one leg) across the room. His leg wasn’t completely better but it could handle some of his weight now. Maker how long has he been rotting away in here? Fenris opened the door to see Anders using the wall to lean on as he moved towards him. “Heh, see! Totally can stand and go clean myself up without your help! I can be ready to go to the clinic in no time!”

Fenris folded his arms over his chest and looked at him speculatively. “Mage, no one but your demon believes you are wasting time recovering. Stop pushing yourself and rest.”

“Oh shut up! He’s a spirit for the last time!” Anders kept sliding his leg across the floor until he was at the doorframe. “Also! It’s not Justice nagging me. I want to go back! I hate being confined to a bed doing nothing while people are suffering out there. I feel so…so useless. And let me tell you, that is not a fun feeling to have!”

Fenris didn’t respond and merely reached towards the mage’s chest to fix the sling that held his arm. “Why must you have such a martyr complex?”

“Call it what you want. You wouldn’t understand…”

Fenris stopped messing with the sling and looked up. “I want to understand. You owe them nothing. You owe us nothing. You speak of nothing but the mistreatment you have received in your life. So you can turn your back to the world and no one would fault you. I would not fault you. And instead you place trust in strangers that could harm you or abuse the use of your clinic. It is not logical and yet you persist in this.”

Anders looked away and eventually gave a light shrug. “What do you want me to say…? There is no…logic to it. It’s just…the right thing to do. I think about all the times people could’ve helped me and how it felt when no one was there. I don’t want others to feel that way when it can be avoided. And I don’t see how it’s wrong to be the one good thing in someone’s day or to help save someone’s life.”

No, there was nothing wrong with that. Fenris wondered if there would be anyone left in Darktown if it weren’t for Anders. But it came back to the obligation Anders didn’t need to give. However, he knew arguing for someone to stop helping people seemed to be a moot point. Fenris sighed. “If it means that much to you…I’ll discuss with the others to find a way to get the clinic up and running. However…” Ander’s face immediately dropped displeasure. “You are to remain here until you fully recover. I see you can stand and I can help you around the mansion; but unless there is an emergency in Darktown we all feel it is best for you to focus on your recovery.”

Anders let out a sigh in frustration. “You need magic to heal some injuries.”

“I think Hawke is rather capable of handling most that require a spell or two.”

“There are potions and supplies and-”

“I am sure the witch can figure some of it out. And Isabela and Varric can surely find ways to cover your inventory.”

“But you guys must have better things to do than to-”

“Than to what? Do the right thing?” Fenris threw the words back at Anders.

Anders fell silent.

Fenris waited for a response but when none came he continued on. “You realize they are your friends? You will not owe them for their services and they would never expect it from you.”

Anders only looked more defeated.

Fenris sighed. “I am not trying to berate you, Ma-…Anders.”

Anders shrugged, but didn’t respond or look back.

“…Let me ask you this then: Why do you think I offered to have you stay here?”

“You said…it was safer.”

“Yes. And?”

“I don’t know…? Did I save you back in that cave or something?”

Fenris sighed, seeing that going around the issue wasn’t going to work. He raised his arm and held it there beside Anders. Fenris waited for Anders to stare it long enough to understand he wanted the man to take it. Eventually Anders holds onto Fenris and leans into him as the elf slowly guided them back to the bed. “To answer your question, you did save me back in the cave.”

“Did I? Well you seem okay so I must’ve done an alright job!”

Fenris laughed softly. “You really did.”

“Well, if you can compliment me, then that certainly must’ve been something.”

“It was…something. Something I rather not happen again.” Fenris swallowed, his memories showing him the panic in Anders’s eyes and the words he murmured to himself. The mere look Anders was given when he saw the lyrium on Fenris’s skin made the warrior feel a discomfort he didn’t know he could feel. Anders had looked at Fenris in many ways, but never was it out of conditioned fear. That was never what he wanted Anders to feel, not from himself especially. He knew Anders wasn’t in his right mindset, but it didn’t ease his worries. Did Hawke know? Did any of their friends know what to do if Anders were to fall into a panicked state again?

When Anders looked at him with concern, Fenris realized his own tenseness. He shook the memory from his head and relaxed a bit before helping Anders down onto the bed. With a muttered consent from Anders, Fenris helped move the mage until his back was against the headboard and rested against the fluffy pillows.

“You feeling alright?” Anders finally asked after Fenris released him.

Sometimes Fenris hated hearing the seriousness in that question when it came from Anders. It gave the idea that Fenris needed help because he wasn’t alright at all. And it often came down to him not wanting Anders to be right so he would reject the genuine well-meaning question when they were asked. But maybe, sometimes, the mage was allowed to be right…because he often was…

“I am fine…” Fenris sat down on the bed. Anders only stared with concern and confusion, neither of them fully believing that answer. Finally, Fenris turned slightly to face Anders after a deep breah. “I know this is…probably the most inappropriate time…but I do not know when a good time would be anymore. So…” Another moment of silence passed as he took heavy breaths before continuing. “You are an insufferable mage sometimes.”

“Wow thanks for taking a minute to tell me that…”

“You are stubborn, idiotic, hypocritical at times, have terrible coping mechanism, and you hold unnecessarily long grudges.” Fenris watched Anders shake his head and looked away, seemingly heard all of this before. “But you are also kind, rather patient even, and an idealist to a fault. I know in doing so you bring people hope. You bring out the best in people that may lose that part of themselves for good. You believe in the good of people where no one would dare expect such a thing. Anyone who believes you are not worth the trouble to be with would be a fool. And so…I apologize for…all the times I have hurt you, even if I did not intend to. I know my own faults and I will do my best to work with you on them…if you would have me.”

As another pause came between them. Fenris can now say he has bragging rights for being able to silence Anders for an extended period of time. Anders could only stare back, trying to take in what was said to him and waiting for this cruel joke to end. But it never did.

“I…understand if you do not feel the same,” Fenris spoke again, knowing Anders was still having trouble sinking in the information out of pure disbelief, “I have already accepted that as a possibility. It…is ultimately selfish of me to do this to you. I just do not want you to believe that if you were to get hurt again, or worse, that you would think it would not matter. Because now…someone besides you will be hurt.”

“Heh…yeah, that…that’s a tad selfish…I mean…now I have to be more careful or risk feeling guilty all the time.” Anders felt the guilt rising in him now as they spoke.

“That is the plan.” Fenris kept the tone light, trying to coax Anders into lightening up if he could.

“How awful of you…” Anders almost laughed to himself. This was ridiculous. This had to be a joke! No one could ever be romantically attracted to him, let alone someone like Fenris. Fenris, who deserved more, and deserved better. “You know that…I have nothing to offer you right? Look at me, Fenris. I can’t even do the one thing I’m good at. I have no money or luxuries and my life is never going to be safe or fulfilling…”

“I am looking at you. I have looked at you for…longer than I originally believed. You offer more than you realize…” Fenris carefully reached up, and brushed aside the hair that Anders let loose to help hid his face the more he lowered his head. “As I have said…anyone who believes you are not worth the trouble to be with would be a fool.” As Fenris pulled his hand away, Anders’s reached up to grab ahold of it. He held on tightly, as if it’s a lifeline. His body tensed and he was unable to hold in the tears that finally spilled. Anders knew he couldn’t argue. How do you reject another’s view of yourself when the view isn’t your own?

Anders’s response screamed ‘I don’t deserve this.’ Fenris knew he couldn’t change the other’s mind nor make Anders see himself the way Fenris did. The warrior held on tightly in return, determined. He’ll tell Anders how much he meant to him, to their friends, and the people of Darktown. He won’t let the mage go another day believing there wasn’t someone out there that cared about him, even if it meant reminding him every single day.

#fenders #fenris #anders #prompt fill #da fanfic #sorry for the wait!#syyprompted #syydrabble #floranna2

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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pre-school/kindergarten AU? idk

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Every time I thought I finished this I end up adding something new to it. = ~= Also, it took me so long to realize Fenders wasn’t even attached to this prompt.

Verse: Modern-AU with magic (tho surprisingly I don’t think any magic was used in this)

Misc info: Pre-Fenders / implied some depression / OC Kid / long-term pining / (past) unhealthy expression of said-pining / I know with how our culture is it sounds like I’m trying to shoehorn a moral in. No, there is no moral. / I had this whole idea for “the other side” of the story from Fen’s POV. but that’ll only double the length of this.

It was ruined. Mother said to not bring it to school in case it got dirty. And now it laid there on the ground, covered in mud, and missing an arm. Poor Mr. Meow. The plush was kicked around and stepped on and Anders couldn’t do anything to stop it. The boy did the only thing he knew how to do and started crying.

He knew he had to be in trouble. This was all his fault. What if he couldn’t hold Mr. Meow anymore when he goes to sleep? He never should’ve brought his best friend to school. It was too late now.

Surprisingly, his mother wasn’t as angry as he thought she’d be. She promised “we’ll get you a new one” but that didn’t matter. It wasn’t going be Mr. Meow.

Anders couldn’t help but think about Mr. Meow for the rest of the week. Going to bed at night was scary, but his parents wouldn’t let him sleep in their bed anymore. He got apologies from the boys who hurt Mr. Meow but Anders knew they didn’t mean it. Everyone knew that adults just make you do it. It was difficult going through the school without Mr. Meow. He didn’t seem to have an appetite. Eating lunch wasn’t supposed to be difficult was it? Anders at least tried. He was told that trying was all that mattered.

Anders slammed his hand around until it eventually hit his target and the annoying blaring sound stopped. He groaned to himself before forcing himself to sit up. After rubbing his eyes he immediately smiled upon seeing Pounce curled up beside him. He gave his cat a light pat he started shifting to get himself out of bed. Anders immediately stepped onto a pizza box. Oh Maker, this apartment needed to be cleaned. It took one glance at the clock before Anders decided he’d have to pick up clothes and put away books another time.

Anders made sure to keep himself on a schedule. Well, as close as he could get to one after being woken up at 2:30 in the afternoon. Maybe he should take up on Hawke’s advice on sleeping like a ‘normal’ person……nah.

By 3:28 pm, Anders expertly parked his bike beside the medal fence, not bothering to lock it up (as no one would steal this squeaky piece of junk). He rushed into the building and pulled an apron off the hook by the entrance. By 3:30, his bag was shoved into a cubby hole, his apron on, and he stepped into the colorful playroom.

“Anders!” Merrill exclaimed from her seat with a book in her hands. The children all circled around her on the storytime mat. The children mimicked her hand waving and enthusiasm upon seeing him.

Anders waved back. “Hi everyone! Don’t mind me. Go back to the nice story!” After the initial hellos passed, everyone’s attention went back to Merrill. And so Anders started picking up some of the toys. Trucks, dolls, fake food and utensils, books, and he shoved anything smaller into his apron’s pockets. He took his time, but had become rather efficient at collecting items and moving them all back to the correct containers on a timely manner. Unfortunately, the work didn't stop him from yawning occasionally. Maker, maybe he should’ve stopped for some coffee on the way over.

3:45 and the day was over (for the kids anyway).

Parents and caretakers started coming in to pick up their children. Anders stayed by the large window as he put away the big building blocks into their (bigger) toy chest. The view let him see the people coming in and out of the building. He wished he didn’t have to do this, but he must, or risk a confrontation that he rather not have.

The Maker decided to be funny at that moment and that’s when it when it happened: He saw him. Hair was white as snow, markings that traveled all over the body, a handsome face, and perfect voice…oh how Anders hated how attractive he was to look at while simultaneously hating this man! The number of times this jerk of an elf made his days in school a living hell was a reason added to his regret for coming back to Kirkwal! Maybe he should return to school and get a Masters or something…

Still, if Anders was good at anything, it was avoiding this specific elf. Hawke still tried to get the pair to be in the same room as each other ever since Anders returned, but Anders has expertly avoided such a situation for months. He refused to cave no matter how much Hawke tried to paint the elf in a better light: “Just let him apologize to you, Anders,” “He really wants to get off on the right foot with you,” “Can you be willing to have an online conversation instead then?”, “Please give him a chance, Anders,” “Oh Makers breath Anders, you can’t avoid him forever!”

Maybe Hawke was right, mostly in the department of his ability to not avoid another person forever (especially if they’re in the same circle of friends). It already almost happened a few times ever since he got this job.

“Uh, Merrill, can you be here for another 10 more minutes?!” he swiftly rushed up to the elven woman as she was starting to leave the room.

“Oh, well, I don’t know if I can really-”

“Merrill, please! I’ll owe you! I swear!” he put his hands together and pleaded.

Merrill, unexpectedly, looked down in thought. Anders mentally cursed. He sensed an answer he didn’t want to hear coming…

“Oh, I suppose another 10 minutes shouldn’t-”

“N-No! It’s fine,” Anders cut her off and waved his hands in front of him. “I can handle this. I’m a grown up! You go do your thing.” She always covered for him whenever he asked in the past. Letting her go on time for once in her life was the least he should be doing to make up for all those past 10 minutes she helped him with.

With that response, Merrill beamed up at him. “Thank you, Anders!” she turned to skip away. At the door, she let out an audible. “Hello, Fenris!”

Anders froze and turned to look around the room. Was there anything new to clean up? Wait, there was no need to panic! He’s in a room with children! Surely even Fenris won’t make an ass of himself in front of children and passing adults would he? Okay, sure, Hawke has mentioned a lot how Fenris is not as tensed up or as snappy as he used to be about mages. But still! Hawke wasn’t the one that was picked on!

“Anders?” Fenris questioned upon walking in through the door.

Anders turned around, trying to pretend he definitely did not know the other was coming. “…Fenris.” he tried replying as casually as possible and leaned on the craft counter. Said-counter being the only thing between himself and Fenris. Luckily, Fenris didn’t make an attempt to go around it.

Fenris still raised a brow though. He looked away briefly towards the remaining children. “Hati!” he called out. A young elven boy with strawberry blond hair perked up from his puzzle. He got up to start collecting his belongings. Fenris returned his attention to Anders. “It must be my lucky day. I have always missed you whenever I come here.”

“Yeah, that’s some bad luck,” Anders replied as he folded his arms. “You know. Sometimes I’m late. Lucky me that Merrill doesn’t fire me but I try?”

With a backpack on, Hati only stared at Anders in confusion as he approached. “What? But I see you go into the toy closet sometimes when I leave.” Hati reminded as took Fenris’s hand.

“Oh? Mr. Anders likes to hide in closets?” Fenris questioned. Anders caught a light smirk when the question was asked.

“N-Not at all! I was just looking for things! Toys are everywhere you know?” Anders tried to wave off, hoping Fenris doesn’t bring up the inconsistency.

Fenris only blinked and continued staring with a straight face. Okay, so maybe he totally knows that Anders was avoiding him. “I suppose that is possible.” Fenris stated. Yeah. He, he totally knows. “Well Anders, I shall not keep you from your duties any longer. But now that I finally caught you during a shift…” Fenris dug around in his satchel briefly before pulling out a red apple and holding it out for Anders. “For Hati’s caretaker.”

Anders took the apple and looked at it curiously. “…Merrill?”

Fenris’s face scrunched up. “You!”

Oh. Anders wanted to ask why. He wasn’t even a teacher. He doesn’t handle the children for long periods of time (he was pretty sure he wasn’t even legally allowed to be by himself). Sure, maybe not everyone knew he wasn’t a teacher, but still. Why does he get an apple and not Merrill? While questioning it, Anders continued to inspect the item, wondering if Fenris somehow got a worm in there.

“…you do not remember.” Fenris stated quietly. Anders looked back at the other. He could’ve sworn Fenris sounded genuinely hurt by that.

“What am I supposed to remember?”

Fenris shook his head and offered a soft smile. “It is nothing. It…does not matter now.”

“What? Come on, you can’t just imply it means something and then not tell me.” Anders started to toss the apple up and down. It felt real at least. And it did look fresh.

“I could…or…”

Anders stopped his tossing and looked back at Fenris in worry. Oh no, can the apple explode or something?

“I could tell you next time I see you.”

Anders pouted. “Oh now you’re just up to something.” Well that’s disappointing. Though Fenris surprisingly didn’t sound very malicious about it for once.

“Yes. I am up to something,” Fenris replied dryly, “That something being I wish to see you next time. I, however, will have see whether or not you cease hiding in the toy closet.”

Anders wasn’t sure how to wiggle himself out of that. He could not tell if Fenris was giving a smile or a smirk though. But he didn’t stare long enough to tell.

“Come, Hati. I have taken up enough of Mr. Anders’s time.”

“Bye Mr. Anders,” Hati waved as Fenris gently led him out. Anders waved back with a smile. He immediately dropped his hand when Fenris looked back towards him.

When Hawke first informed Anders about Fenris wanting to see him again, Anders thought the whole thing would’ve been romantic (after all, who wouldn’t want to hear the hottest person in all of Kirkwall wanted to see you?) if their history throughout school wasn’t so damn awful. He didn’t expect Hawke to be persistent about it though. Usually, Hawke just let things be as they are.

Avoiding Fenris did have its downside though. It often left Anders to be a bit lonely as he would end up staying home alone with his video games and books. Well that’s not too bad. Though Anders reasoned it was better than facing Fenris.

Anders almost wanted to ask Hawke what was up with the apple he was given, but decided against it. He, begrudgingly, tried to dig up any memories in school that involved an apple. Did Fenris throw one at him once or something? A ball, mud, another ball, a stick…nope! No apples came to mind. Oh well.

After finishing up at the Day Care, Anders took a bite of the apple before getting on his bike. Tasted normal enough. Tasted really good actually. With a shrug, Anders went on to his next job, apple forgotten.

“Here Mr. Anders,” the young elf, Hati, went up to him the moment Anders walked in the next day. The boy held up a red apple. “It’s from Daddy.”

Anders froze in midst tying of his apron and stared. It wasn’t his business but he didn’t recall being told from anyone that Fenris was with child. Were they related or was Fenris just a father figure? He shook his head of those thoughts and knelt down to accept the gift.

“Well, that’s, um…very nice of him. Did he tell you why?”

“Oh, Daddy says-” Hati’s hands went up to his mouth in surprise, “I can’t! It’s a secret!” with that, Hati giggled to himself.

“Oh, is it a good secret?”

Hati nodded excitedly. “Daddy likes you! He says you are smart and you will find out all by yourself!” Anders wasn’t so sure about that. Were they both talking about Fenris here?

Anders let Hati return to storytime and he pocketed the apple in the apron.

Fenris arrived by 3:50. Anders didn’t even have time to go over to the window to watch for him. Ugh, maybe he should just get this whole thing over with; just hear what the elf had to say and just go back to your life. Simple as that.

Anders still rushed over to the craft counter though, still much preferred having something big and long between himself and the elf. For safety reasons. They still had social media, so Anders wasn’t going to pretend he didn’t know Fenris doesn’t go working out with Hawke every week (while Anders sits at home with boxes of pizza).

“Hello Anders.” Fenris greeted with a small nod his way.

“…Hi,” Anders replied, once again, leaning against the counter and awkwardly trying to find something on it to occupy his hands. He settled on trying to make something out of construction paper.

“Hati!” Fenris called out for the boy before turning his attention back to Anders. “You look more tired today.” Fenris noted out loud.

“Oh, you know. It was just…a rough night.” Yeah, anxious thoughts of why he was given an apple. Now he was going to go to bed wondering why he got another one from Hati, who apparently refers to Fenris as ‘Daddy’ and Anders was not sure what that entailed. “It’s fine! I can just…pick up coffee after work.”

“That is unfortunate.”

“Oh yeah, very…” Anders ended up with a paper airplane in his hands. Oh Maker, just end this moment before they get an awkward silence.

“Did you by chance remembered anything…about the apple…?”

Anders looked over to Fenris, who surprisingly was looking away from him, almost like he was…embarrassed? Shy? Anders wasn’t sure if he could pinpoint it. He doesn’t often see Fenris in either embarrassed or shy to know for sure. He saw Hati come up to them and took Fenris’s hand again.

“Um…no. I…haven’t. I’m sorry.”

Fenris sighed. “It is alright…” Before Anders could say any more, perhaps suggest that he should just be told, but Fenris finally lifted his head again. It was a strange moment for him…Anders wondered if he ever really looked back into the other’s eyes. “Anders. I know we…have not had the greatest relationship…in the past.”

Anders had to resist scoffing.

“I have no excuse, and I know it might be…years too late. Regardless…” Anders blinked back a look of surprise when he watched Fenris’s hand tighten around Hati’s. “So…I apologize for everything. You do not need to forgive me. But…it would mean a lot to me if we could…talk again.”

Anders found he could only stare dumbfounded. There was so much he could dismiss, so many questions he could ask only for nothing to come out. As if understanding exactly what he needed right now, Fenris and Hati said a swift goodbye and promptly left.

Anders went about the rest of the day in thought. Unsure if it mattered that Fenris apologized, or if it mattered if they could be on talking terms…well, of course it mattered. If it didn’t, the apology wouldn’t have thrown his entire world upside-down.

Maker, when was the last time they even spoke (minus yesterday)? Anders hated that actually remembered: It was the summer after graduation, on Facebook of all places. They had a fight: Mage this, mage that; Tranquil this and that. Anders never went back online after that. At least, not until he was safely away from Kirkwall.

He went to Ferelden for furthering his education, and in less than a week away from home, he suddenly had reasons to go back online. There were parties to plan with Sigrun, homework to discuss with Nate, and relationship talks with Hawke’s own cousin. Anders still stayed in touch with his Kirkwall friends - most of them any way. He and Fenris never spoke. Though Anders also never removed the other from his friends list. No, he just hid the other from the feed. He wondered if Fenris did the same. But the way Fenris looked at him the last couple of days only made Anders wondered if Fenris saw something different in him. Did he see everything Anders posted about on his social media? The relationship status changes, the rallies he had gone to, the photos he took, photos taken of him, him getting Ser Pounce, the rants, and all the times he’d post something and then delete it later. How much of all that has Fenris seen?

No, this was ridiculous. This was all just anxious thinking. Anders knew he didn’t have the most exciting life. Unless you found the fight for mage rights or relationship statuses changing being a form of entertainment. Maybe it was simply that Fenris changed.

But none of this explained the apples.

This led to Anders sitting at home, on his laptop, at 3 am in the morning. He stared at Facebook and wondered if he should start stalking Fenris’s page.

No. That’s wrong. This is none of his business.

Despite telling himself that for the past 10 minutes, Anders still hasn’t budged from the site.

“Just the last few days” he reasoned. Okay, just a little bit then.

Fenris’s profile photo was really cute. Dammit. Hati’s smiling face took up most of the photo, but Anders could see Fenris’s arm around the boy. His cover photo was of a nice graphical image of a wolf. He wondered if Fenris designed it himself…

Anders sighed and started scrolling through the page. Fenris didn’t seem to post very much as all the activity seemed to mostly be from the past couple of days.

Fenris: Hati says he wants a cat and name him Skoll. I would assume this was the mage’s influence if it was any other name but Skoll.

Hawke: GET HIM A DOG! :DD

Fenris: No.

Anders chuckled. He admitted he has spoken about cats a lot to the kids. Out of all the kids, Hati seemed one of the most interested in hearing about his amazing Ser Pounce-a-lot!

Isabela: I heard you finally saw Anders ;)

Fenris: I have.

Isabela: And??? >:[

Fenris: And what?

Isabela: You know what! >:U What happened?!

Fenris: I gave him a gift. He was working. I was was not planning to take up his time. Unlike some, I am not that rude.

Hawke: Why don’t you ever give me a gift when I return from trips?

Fenris: You don’t need them.

Hawke: :( meanieface

Anders only stared in confusion. What was that supposed to mean? Did he need an apple? Or was that just a simple jab at Hawke?

The next post down made Anders’s heart stop. There was a photo…of an old looking, worn, cat plush…with one of its arms sloppily sewn back on. Hati was in the photo too. He laid on the floor, having a staring contest with the old toy.

Fenris didn’t include a comment with the photo.

Anders wanted to go hide back in the toy closet again. He didn’t want to confront Fenris about it, nor Hati. Though it must be a bit immature to act like this over it. These past couple of days have been ridiculous! Sure, life wasn’t perfect. Living with a cat in a crappy apartment with inconsistent sleep and lack of social life kind of sucked. But at least he got used to it! Fenris just had to come in and throw a wrench in that routine!

So when Fenris walked in, Anders found himself behind the craft counter again. For protections sake. “Why do you have my old toy?” Anders blurted out before he could stop himself. Oh Maker, why?!

Fenris, however, didn’t seem fazed at the question. “I…held onto it. Well, I held onto it, then forgot I did until I found it again.”

“…Okay but why hold onto it to begin with?” It was old. Dirty. Broken. If he wanted to give it to Hati, surely Fenris could probably have found a toy for cheap and still be better looking and in better condition than that old thing.

Fenris rubbed his neck in discomfort. “I…originally meant to fix it and return it. Then I considered getting a replacement. But…you do not just simply find an old toy anywhere. When I found it again you also were not…here. So I could not ask what you wanted.”

“I…see…” Maker, was that really the only thing he could get out from his throat!? Anders could not believe it. He had practically forgotten most of his youth and just like that, it all came flooding back to him.

The apple. Anders blinked a few times. Was his memory deceiving him?

In mid-thought, Anders watched as Fenris presented a new apple for him. “I…apologize for keeping this information from you. I did not wish to ruin our conversation with…painful reminders. I did not think it would make for a good impression.”

Anders stared at the fruit. For some reason he felt he didn’t deserve it, while feeling a want to have it. It was a gift. It was his. Fenris remembered and thought of him. Fenris may even know him better than Anders knew himself. It only made Anders feel a bit awful about the whole ordeal. After all, he knew nothing about Fenris. Nothing. Despite that, Fenris still wanted to reach out to him and mend wounds that he caused years ago. Mending that Anders wasn’t even sure he really deserved.

Maybe…maybe he could try. Maybe they could get to know each other again. Maybe they’ve simply misunderstood each other all this time…

He wanted to keep thinking about it. There were a lot of factors to consider after all. But he found his body moving despite that. Anders put his hands over the apple with a whispered. “It’s okay…I forgive you.”

Anders found he still could not finish some of his lunch. A couple of days he even ‘forgets’ to bring it. Nothing was appetizing when you didn’t have something to make you feel protected. He didn’t speak to the kids at his lunch table, as they seemingly grew bored of him from being sad too long.

Anders blinked in surprise when a juicy red apple was placed before him. He looked up to see the gifter running off to the hallway. At least, Anders guessed it was the gifter. Not many other kids were running off like that, especially during lunchtime. Anders picked up the apple and followed. He didn’t need to go far as just from standing by the door he easily spotted one kid sitting down on the floor against the wall. Anders slowly went down the corridor to him.

It hasn’t been long since school started, and he wasn’t familiar with everyone’s names yet. He still recognized this kid, an elf, as one of the boys who picked on Mr. Meow. So why was he given an apple by him? Maybe it was a mistake. “I think you dropped this.” Anders held the apple before him until the other boy looked up. He didn’t look long as his gaze went back back down to the ground, as if ashamed.

“…its for you…” he muttered quietly, still not looking at Anders.

Anders only stared back in confusion. Why was he given food? Out of all the kids in his class, even he can see the elf boy before him didn’t have a lot of it. He’s seen other kids sometimes even share their own lunch.

“…I’m not hungry,” Anders eventually answered. He had a feeling maybe the elf boy was though.

“I can’t take it.” the other boy replied matter of factly.

“Why not?”

“It’s a gift. So it’s yours now.”

Anders looked at the apple, again, confused. But what if he didn’t want it? Can you give gifts back? “It’s a gift…?” he asked. It wasn’t his birthday after all.

The other boy went quiet again and returned to staring at the floor. Anders didn’t say anything but he sat before the other. The elf didn’t seem to like it when you looked down at him. Anders tried to present the apple again but the attention wasn’t given to it.

Finally, the other boy started speaking again. “I’m sorry about your toy…”

Anders froze up. This was about Mr. Meow?

“I didn’t mean to make you sad. I wanted you to stop being sad…”

For some reason, Anders felt something good inside him. He didn’t know what it meant but it was a good feeling and that was all that mattered.

Anders offered the apple again. “Can we share it?”

The look Anders got was of surprise, but even he could see the eager yes in those green eyes before the words were even said.

He never got a new Mr. Meow, but things seemed okay now even without him.

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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@noirearrowshoot prompted: “Take your medicine.” Fenders, Fenris taking care of a stubborn Anders?

Verse: Modern-AU with Magic!

Random Notes: some nsfw text/implications. So rated PG? XD

Link to Ao3 chapter: here.

I hope this is to your liking! You know I think I’m missing the point of dabbles, b/c I keep making these longer than intended…

When Fenris found himself in a more romantic relationship with the mage, well, it was something he could admit as one of the best choices he’s ever made. Given, he’s only had a few years of making his own choices but of all things to fuck up on, it surprisingly wasn’t his love life. Maker, those movies made it look like it would be harder than it would be to accomplish! Okay to be fair, Fenris didn’t know if half of the couples he watched in movies even lasted more than a month after the movie ended. At least he and Anders passed that. It was a few months, half a year, then a full year. By a year and a half, they finally got around to moving in together. That year and a half was apparently ignorant bliss. Dating someone was one thing, but living with them was a completely different story.

Anders worked. A lot. It was easy to text and call each other around (or during) work hours, say something nice, and carry on your day. Sure they’ve spent the night at each other’s often, but it was still not the same as…living together.

Now there are fights over who gets access to the bathroom first, who was supposed to do dishes, who cleans what around the place, ‘that is mine’ that never even gets resolved half the time, who’s turn is it to do the dishes, who makes dinner today, and who was doing the dishes! Make up sex improved at least.

After their lease ended they found another place that had two bathrooms. The pair vouched their relationship improved. Less make-up sex and more sex. Neither still liked doing the dishes though. Otherwise, Fenris noted it’s been three years and they’re still going strong. Fenris has heard far too many statements on when relationships start changing around when, one of the being the three year mark. But with a lack of experience…well, he found he could ride through it and see what happens. Sure life got a bit routinely but it wasn’t so bad. In fact, it came with perks!

For one, living with Anders meant he got to make sure Anders slept. Or at least…more sleep than the mage used to. Fenris also got into the habit of laying out Anders’s medication for him every day on the kitchen counter. Anders used to miss them a lot as he often dashed out the door in a hurry. But upon being made aware of them, he rarely missed taking his pills. Fenris also found himself making sure Anders ate. The medication started being placed next to a sandwich or bagel.

In a strange twist, Fenris found he didn’t mind taking care of the mage. Someone had to. Maker knows Anders doesn’t. In fact, he rather enjoyed it. He waited for the first person to even attempt to tease him over it as it wasn’t a teasing matter: the choice to care for your loved one. If Fenris could find anything to pride himself in, it was that. Anders overall seemed to be improving in his health. He’d like to think that the comments and questions from their friends regarding the mage was a good sign. “He looks like he’s filled out his clothes!” “ Maker the bags under his eyes look a shade lighter.”

Anders’s health became a favorite thing to subtly gloat about at times. Then Anders sneezed. And coughed. Lots of coughing actually. Oh Maker…

Fenris didn’t hesitate to pull out medicine from their cabinet but Anders just waved it off. “I’m not getting sick, it’s just allergies! It’s spring!”

Fenris didn’t wish to doubt him. After all, Anders rarely gets sick (being a spirit mage helped in that area) and no one would know their own body as well as the individual that owns it, right? Fenris himself rarely got sick as well (dating a spirit mage helped in this area), but he knew he’s become bedridden a couple of times in the past. Anders somehow always dodged the bedridden part when he got sick. A passing cold, nothing a couple of days of soup couldn’t fix, and the man just never stopped moving.

Except Anders kept sneezing and coughing this time and it’s been three days now. He looked worn and acted as if he was tipsy with the way he tried to put his hand on the counter only to miss somehow. He used it to lean on while Fenris pressed his hand to his lover’s forehead.

“…You have a fever,” Fenris stated dryly.

“What, I do not,” Anders waved off but Fenris was already going to medicine cabinet. “Love, I’m not-ACHOO! Ugh…I’m not…I meant to say that you can’t tell with just the hand…!” Anders felt his throat. He put his hand down when Fenris returned with a small box in his hand. The elf reached up to feel Anders’s neck and pulled him down to touch his own forehead against the other’s. He released him before putting the container on the counter. “You’re not going to work today.”

“Love, I was called in,” Anders ignored the the obvious medicine on the kitchen counter and reached for the nearby tissue box instead to wipe his nose.

“Well call them back!”

“I ca-ACHOO! Ack…can’t…”

“Fine, then I shall call.” Fenris didn’t wait for a response or even tried to argue against the stubborn mage.

Anders barley registered what was said before he realized Fenris was on the phone. Fenris kept knocking his lover’s hands away as he spoke. He further noticed Anders moving sluggishly with the way he barely kept up with Fenris’s swift turns around just the kitchen area. With a click on his phone, Fenris turned to Anders coughing into his arm again. “It is done. Now bed.” Fenris commanded.

“Wh-ACHOO! What…about you? Don’t you have work?” Anders started into another string of coughs. Fenris folded his arms, waiting for Anders to just concede already.

“You forget, Mage: Working from home means I have my own schedule. And I’m officially off as of this moment. Now bed.”

Anders pouted as his arms dropped to his side. “Normally I like it when you command me to bed…”

Fenris didn’t look amused and just pointed down their narrow hallway. Anders groaned before finally giving up and doing what he was told.

“I don’t have an appetite…” Anders announced from the bed, though his back faced the entrance of their bedroom. Fenris only shook his head as he approached and put down a tray on the nearby desk.

“That is fine. I brought tea. And some medicine. I will also restock the minifridge in here with some water so you will have better access to them.”

Anders rolled over only to glare at the medicine box. “If I’m sick, I want to just heal naturally.”

Fenris rolled his eyes. “Not if you are sick, you are sick. And unfortunately for you, I do not wish to take that chance. So you will take it.”

“I hate the taste.”

“As we all. You’ll live.”

Anders pouted again and rolled away. He pulled the blankets around himself and up close to his face. “You can’t make me.”

“Mage…” Fenris rubbed his temple, “Just take the medicine.”

“No.”

“Take your medicine.”

“We can do this all day you know.”

“I am aware. And if our bed activities says anything, I think we both know which of us has more willpower.”

“What?!” Anders exclaimed and flung the blanket around just to roll back around. “That does no-ACHOO!” Anders sniffed only to immediately go into a short series of coughs again.

“That’s your body telling you to stop arguing with me.”

“Stupid body…it likes you too much,” Anders grumbled and his body fell limp. He groaned in pain as he laid unmoving.

“Just your body?” Fenris questioned as he fixed the covers and laid it over Anders again.

“Mmm…the rest of me does too. My head. My heart.” Anders smiled, slowly closing his eyes.

“As does mine for you.” Fenris sat at the edge, just within arms reach of the desk. “Now be brave for me and drink the medicine. Just chug this water bottle right after.”

Anders groaned but remained unmoving until he had to. “Fine, I’ll take the stupid medicine. But if I’m sick, that means you’re doing the dishes this week.”

It was Fenris’s turn to groan.

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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For the prompt thing, something with Anders, Fenris, and Zevran, based around "I was mistaken, it seems. I was under the impression you were... Close"?

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This turned a bit longer than intended…Idk if this is what you were looking for but here we go!

Link to Ao3 Chapter: here.

Misc notes: Pre-Fenders, feelings of jealousy, Zevran/Warden mentions

Stupid, ignorant elf who thinks he knows so much! Ugh!

“Anders…!” The man didn’t stop walking or respond to his name. In fact, he hurried more in his steps. No, this day was over. He planned to go home, clean up, take a 5 minute nap before Justice kicks him back to work, and no more of…everything else! With all those days they spent in Sundermont Anders was just surprised he and Fenris didn’t snap at each other sooner. Guess it was too soon to hope that they’d make a trip out and back without feelings getting hurt…

Anders just reached the lift to Darktown when he heard his name again. He entered the lift and turned around just as Hawke approached. He could see Fenris and Varric taking their time in the distance.

“I’m not apologizing!” Anders snapped before Hawke could open their mouth. Anders activated the lift without waiting for the others, not that Fenris would want to be near him anyway.

“I’m not asking you to apologize. I’m…apologizing on behalf of Fenris,” Hawke muttered the second half as the lift made a loud creak and started moving.

“You’ve apologized for him enough!” Anders argued in frustration.

“Mage!”

“Heads up you two!”

Their attention snapped to their companions who were running towards them. A shadowy figure swooped in from the top and through the narrow space above before they were underground. An unfamiliar thud was heard above them but the mages paid it no mind as they both reached for their staffs. The magic in their hands sizzled when the figure swiftly removed his black hood. “Peace my friends! It is only I, the harmless Zevr-AH!”

The lift stopped without warning, catching them all off guard and sending the mages off balance as they hit the ground.

“…That was not part of my plan before you either of you decide to blame ol’ Zevran,” the elf stated when everything grew quiet.

“Andraste’s Knickerweasels, did this stop moving?!” Anders looked up and patted the wall. There was barely any light coming into the lift. They were surrounded by the metal most of the ride was made out of as well as the earth mixed in with decaying wood. Anders always did figure some of this had to be replaced at some point before they lose an entrance - but not this soon!

“Maker, you didn’t have to scare us like that,” Hawke stated, finally addressing Zevran after standing up.

“I got bored waiting. I had a delivery to make in-person; and I traveled all this way back to Kirkwall only to find who I was looking for was out with the Champion. I figured I might as well make a memorable entrance when the time came. Not exactly like this of course. I believe your friends may have mistaken me as an enemy.”

“I wonder why…” Hawke replied sarcastically, noting Zevran covered in all black with light armor. Though Hawke couldn’t help but give a tilt in confusion upon noticing a small basket covered with fabric dangling from the assassin’s arm. Was Zevran delivering a picnic basket to (Hawke assumed was) Anders?

Zevran only replied with a laugh, “That is fair. You have loyal friends, Champion. The dwarf almost shot me…but no harm done. To me anyway.” Despite the playful tone, Hawke could see Zevran’s eyes travel, examining their little boxed in situation. He eventually focused in at edge of the ceiling, where the little cracks of light from above barely came in. Hawke followed the other’s line of sight and saw a small dent at the roof of the lift.

“Oh for Maker’s sake. Is that a bolt from Bianca?!”

“Bianca’s one strong woman.”

“Don’t tell Varric that. He’ll never stop reminding us then.” Hawke immediately warned.

“Mage! Hawke!”

“Fenris! Varric!” Hawke shouted back. Their barely lit space showed movement with constant moving shadows before it stilled again and Hawke could barely make out the silhouettes of their friends through the tiny gap.

“Are you two hurt?” Varric shouted.

“We’re fine! You gotta remove the bolt! We’re stuck!”

“And the enemy?” Fenris asked.

“It’s just Zevran!”

“Just? You could not throw in a bit of flair?”

“On it! You guys sit tight!” The silhouettes started moving again and Hawke looked back towards Zevran once they heard some creaking above them.

“I guess they’ll finish with that soon. You know, if you were looking for Isabela, I’m pretty sure she’s still hanging around the Hanged Man. No pun intended.”

“I shall pay her a visit before I leave, naturally. However, I was sent here to see Mi Amor’s old friend, Warden Anders…” Zevran’s amused face dropped as his eyes glanced towards the mage in question. Hawke turned around to find Anders curled up in the corner.

“Hey…Anders!” Hawke immediately dropped to their knees and reached out, gently touching Anders’s shoulder.

“I’mfine,” Anders muttered quickly between heavy breaths, his face buried in his knees. Anders flinched when they heard another loud creak and the lift dropped for a moment. “I’m…fine,” he repeated when everything stilled again. “It’ll over soon…right? It…it’s only a moment before we go down far enough to Darktown…”

Hawke was ready to smack themselves upon realizing their surroundings a tad too late. They immediately summoned fire in one hand and their other hand softly caressed Anders’s back. “That’s right. They’ll get this moving soon, and we’ll be in Darktown. You’ll see.” Hawke had to resist rolling their eyes at the irony of seeking light in Darktown.

Anders could only nod in reply. The lift jostled again and the only noise for a moment were of Varric and Fenris above them.

“Meow…”

Anders lifted his head. Was that…a hallucination?

“Mew~” Soft fur, cute paws, and beautiful eyes. Zevran was knelt before Anders, holding out the basket he had. Underneath the small blanket was a cat staring curiously at Anders. Blocking out the world around him Anders reached out and lifted the cat and swiftly shifted himself to gain a better hold on the magnificent creature.

“Am I dreaming? Pounce, is that you?!” Anders gave the tabby a scratch on his stomach, and Pounce curled into the touch like he always did. Anders let out laugh and suddenly felt some tears about to run down his face. “Oh Pounce! It is you! Pounce…My little warrior! Who is the bravest cat in all of Thedas?~” Anders brought the cat to his chest and he could hear the soft purrs as Pounce rubbed against his face.

The lift shook again before going into a brief drop followed by more creaking. But this time it moved at a regular pace, annoying screeches and all. Before long, light fluttered in as they finally reached Darktown, much to Anders’s relief.

Fenris tapped the wall impatiently. By the time this lift goes down and back up, he could walk over to another entrance and probably still find his friends before he would get down there waiting on this entrance.

“Calm yourself now, ya Broody Elf. You heard it was just that flirtatious assassin down with them. They’re fine. Isabela knows him, remember?” Varric reassured but it only had Fenris tapping faster.

“It is dark in there. And regardless if this Zevran is friends with Isabela or not, he is still an assassin.”

“I suppose that could be something worry about,” Varric rubbed his chin in thought, “But at least we’ll know who to kill if worst comes to worst.”

Fenris grumbled to himself.

The lift eventually came back up and the two made their way to Darktown only to find none of their companions were waiting for them at the bottom.

“Rude,” Varric stated as he started walking. Fenris didn’t have to be told as the two hurried towards the clinic.

The lantern was out, but it didn’t stop the two as they continued until they pushed on the door. It opened easily and the two stepped inside before shutting it behind him. Fenris glared as he immediately spotted Zevran snooping around Anders’s desk - and Hawke stood by letting him do it! Sure, he wasn’t moving anything, but the nimble fingers were still touching and poking things!

“I cannot believe you guys just left us! You realize were going to come right down didn’t you?” Varric was the first to speak as he walked up to the pair with Fenris silently behind him.

“Sorry, we wanted to get Anders back to the clinic as soon as possible. The dark,” Hawke gestured vaguely at the clinic entrance and Varric gave an ‘ah’ in understanding. Fenris took that as a reason to check up on the mage. Without word he took a step towards the back of the clinic but Hawke’s hand reached out in front of him. “I think we should let him be for a bit.”

Fenris stared, partially confused, but was quick to look away. He didn’t argue but his gaze dropped to the floor as a feeling of helplessness washed over him.

Zevran turned to face the rest of the group, curious to what just occurred. He couldn’t, shouldn’t, but his lack of a guilty conscious regarding this particular situation didn’t cease the amusement he was feeling as he leaned back on the desk to watch how it will unfold.

“Anders is fine, don’t worry. If you were worried I mean. I can’t tell sometimes.” Hawke stated, mostly for reassurance. Fenris only folded his arms but didn’t answer and continued to glare at the ground. “If it helps, I did get to telling him that I said sorry on your behalf before the whole thing went down!”

“I do not need you apologizing on my behalf, Hawke…” Fenris had to force himself to speak slower, if for the sake not to sound angry.

What is this? Has something occurred since the last time Zevran was in Kirkwall? He couldn’t help but do some more poking. Surely this something involved Anders, and when it involved Anders, it involved his dear Warden. That is reason enough to investigate the matter! He stopped leaning on the desk and started pacing around as he spoke. “Do not worry, my friend. Your favorite mage will be fine now that he has his favorite loved one in his arms again.” Zevran eyes didn’t miss the small twitch on the other elf’s face.

“…What.” He could hear the shift in the pitch and saw the tenseness go up in the warrior. The dwarf must’ve noticed too with him pulling back from the group in silence while scribbling on a parchment.

“Yeah, I suppose his cat is a loved one with the way he always talked about Pounce,” Hawke stated while scratching their head. “Oh yeah! Zevran here brought back Anders’s old cat! The one with the cute name? Ser Pounce-a-lot! Ah how do I even top that?”

The tenseness in Fenris significantly decreased. Zevran watched the way Fenris tried to regain control of his breathing to avoid letting out a sigh of relief - an obvious sign that even Hawke could pick up on if it had occurred.

“Champion, perhaps we should leave. Fenris here clearly wishes to spend time with his own Amor.” There was a look of confusion on Fenris. That won’t do. So Zevran continued: “Amor. It comes in many names. My dove. My swan. My sun. Lover.”

Hawke snickered, “Oh, yeah, because Anders means so much to Fenris.” Oh dear Champion. If only you knew.

Fenris’s eyes widened and his body froze over. Those mere moments of vulnerability felt like ages to Fenris when finally, he regained control and shook his head furiously. “Do not be ridiculous and insinuate such a thing!”

Zevran could only shrug in response. He could see how Fenris didn’t like how the grin never left. “Oh? My apologies then, my friend. I was mistaken, it seems. I was under the impression you were…Close? Perhaps it was someone else that Warden Anders spoke of in his letters to his former Commander.”

Zevran felt he had to be rewarded for not laughing right then and there. In just seconds he watched Fenris try to silently decipher what was just said. The warrior’s emotions would then jump all the over the place. Zevran could pick up a hint of hurt and confusion in the other, and then Fenris would try to get his body to act as neutral as possible to the untrained eye.

“Are you guys talking behind my back again?” Everyone’s attention drifted to the back of the clinic where Anders pushed aside the fabric that blocked the entrance to his ‘room’ and started approaching. Anders still cuddled Pounce in his arms.

“Not at all,” Zevran waved off, “I simply mentioned you still spoke with Mi Amor.”

“Ah, well, we do-” Anders didn’t even get to finish when Fenris swiftly walked up to him and grabbed one of the man’s arm. He effectively stopped Anders in his tracks and attempted to turn him around to pull him back to the room but Anders stubbornly refused to move (not unless Fenris wanted to start dragging him). Fenris stopped pulling and looked back to Anders who was effectively glaring him down.

“I need word,” Fenris stated as if that was enough to convince Anders.

“Yeah and? I’m still pissed at you.” Anders pulled his hand back and properly cuddled his cat closer.

Fenris sighed. “I apologize for my behavior earlier. I wish to properly mend what happened with you if you let me. But I still need word with you. Alone.”

Anders looked back to the others in confusion. Varric seemed keen to keep writing on his parchment while sitting on a cot. Hawke just shrugged, looking as confused as Anders was.

“Go on, we shall be right here. No harm, yes?” Zevran encouraged, trying to wave the two off.

“Alright but if I die, you guys all know the culprit right?” with that agreement, Anders followed Fenris back to his room while snuggling his cat to his face. “It’s okay, Pounce. I won’t let meanie-Fenris treat you badly. If Daddy dies, you run though, okay?”

“Meow?” Anders’s soft laugh was the last thing heard before he and Fenris disappeared behind the cloth.

Zevran clasped his hands together to give himself a feeling of accomplishment. He swiftly started heading towards the door and putting on his headgear while doing so. Hawke seemed to follow his example as they picked up their staff.

“What, you’re both leaving? Not going to stay for the show?” Varric gestured to the back of the clinic. Hawke only blinked in confusion.

“The what? I mean if you want to make sure they don’t kill each other, that would be great. I need to get home and see if my dog’s okay! He’s been alone for days!”

“Alright, but if you pass Isabela, send her down here. You staying?” Varric asked Zevran as he fixed up his cloak.

“I regretfully cannot,” Zevran answered. “I will stop by again to see you though, Champion. I seem to have misplaced a letter in my robe somewhere…I shall find it, no worries. I will keep an eye on Isabela if I pass her. For now, I have other matters to attend to.” One of them being to escape from here before Fenris learns that Anders hasn’t spoken of any lover in his letters to his former Commander.

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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Got this idea listening to a song: AU where elves are long-lived beings who are rather solitary in their home in their realm They are also very mischievous and are attracted to pretty things including people Fenris is strolling along the border of the two realms (Fae and human) which is made of an ancient sentient mist that keeps humans out of Fae (save those the fae allow in) but allows the fae to come and go as they please He sees Anders through the fog and takes a liking...

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All the children in this village grew up with the stories of the scary manbeasts that reside in the the Brecilian Forest. You must never enter it for you may be taken by one. They especially liked bad children. If you get taken during a storm you may never return, because when a strange light appears after a storm ends. That means the manbeasts have crossed between our world and theirs and no human could stand a chance to return.

It is far too dangerous to go into the forest. But if you must, you cannot go alone. You will never see the sun once you step foot into this land of trees, for it has never had a day without fog. You may also get attacked by a manbeast that roams! Even the most innocent animal you find could secretly be a manbeast as they are magical shapeshifters - you must never trust your eyes in this dangerous and magical forest…

No one enters the Brecilian Forest, and no one supposedly ever comes out. It was the perfect place to run to and hide, possibly forever. And so one day, a young human did. It was quiet, too quiet for the his liking. Birds did not sing and animals did not scurry around. There was no wind and the water he finds are still. But it did not deter him from continuing forward. The young human felt hunger and stumbled upon an odd tree that grew strangely colored apples. They looked so fresh, shiny, and (hopefully) juicy that they were begging to be bitten into. As if the the Maker willed it, an apple dropped from its branch, effectively hitting the poor human square on the head. Annoyed, but food has now became readily available to him and he swiftly knelt to pick up the purple apple. It was only a moment of admiration before he took a bite. Oh it was delectable! So sweet, so full of tasty apple juice, and perfectly crisp at the bite! As he neared the end of his snack, a soft thud caught his attention. Beside him another apple had fallen. Another thud. Another apple. Another thud and the young man fell over.

When he next woke, the human found himself on the path outside the forest along with a bruise on his head. He was swiftly found by his family before he had the chance to act on his need to return within the trees, for he had lost his golden earring.

The eyes in the forest soon saw the young man again when he returned with a basket. The man showed no hesitance when he entered. It took a bit of wandering but soon he found his way back to the odd apple tree. With a few jumping and stone throwing to get some apples to fall, his basket became filled and he left the forest on his own. Maybe the forest will have more visitors now that a human has come here not once, but twice. But they never did. It was the same visitor and never more. He’d come with a basket, fill it up with colorful apples, and leave.

It seemed the human enjoyed humming. The forest didn’t have such…sounds. This filled the nothingness with soft tunes. The human often scanned the ground in search of something. But as time went by, the human stopped. Instead, he brought other materials besides a basket.

He touched the tree, drew in front of it, and observed the growth of this tree and its apples during the changing seasons until he learned the best times to pick from it. He made his own pattern, and often showed up when the apples were the ripest and just about ready to be picked from or had fallen. He started coming here less, but he spent more time there when he did visit.

The human has fallen asleep at the base of the trunk. It has been so long since he remained still like this…

When the man awoke, he was laying atop of a bed of flower pedals. The smell was breathtaking. It reminded him of the perfume his mother used to wear. He saw he was not far from the tree at all, but these pedals surely were not here before, even with the thickness of the mist here. The man discovered a flower crown on top of his head, and smiled at the thought of bringing home something that reminded him of his mother. Days passed before he realized he was missing his bracelet.

The leaves were falling. They died a lot of faster in this forest, the air was significantly cooler than it was outside, and the fog was thicker. The human didn’t seem to mind. Bundled up under a feathered cloak he made his way to the tree again. The human has grown significantly taller over the years and no longer needed to go about knocking down apples when he had to get the ones that haven’t fallen. Today he only picked up the orange colored apples. When the grass no longer held his preferred color of the day, he started jumping up to grab the orange ones from the lowest branches. While scanning for more his foot accidentally kicked his basket and the apples came tumbling out. Some didn’t get far, but others rolled away and dipped into the water nearby. The human sometimes rested by this mysterious still-watered river, but never stayed for long, often mumbling about it being “too cold” and “weird that it never moves.” He followed the trail of his runaway apples before kneeling beside the water. With an outreached hand he was able to nab one from that stopped floating too far away. But there were still that kept moving away from him until they disappeared into the thick fog. The human stared in hopelessness. Before he could get up to return to finding more from the tree, he heard the water splash. He froze in confusion and soon saw a few apples drifting his way until it touched his side of land.

“Is someone there?” He found himself asking, trying to see if there was something to be seen. It was hard to make out anything through the fog but he could could see moving shadows on the other side of the waters. “Hey, um, thank you!” he lifted the fruits from the water to place in his basket but did not hear a response when he finished. A part of him wanted to let it be, as one should not question what goes on in this forest. Though he could not resist staying as curiosity got the better of him. “Hmm…I could’ve sworn there was one more…!”

Splash!

Another apple came drifting his way from the fog. He could not help but let out a soft laugh as he picked up the fruit. He stopped when a brand new voice was heard, for a moment, laughing along with him.

“Hello…?” the man leaned forward, still eyeing the shadowy figure on the other side.

“Hello.”

The man gasped when a response actually came. “H-Hi! Who are you?”

“Is it not rude in your culture to ask for another’s name without giving your own?” the voice was deep, and oh so wondrous. Never has he recalled a simple question ever sounding so smooth and rich to his ears.

“Oh? I suppose…” he shivered under his cloak as he sat himself down on the dirt, wanting to converse with this stranger. “I’m…um, sorry, you can just call me…Anders. And you?”

“Anders.” the stranger repeated.

The human flushed, not expecting to like how that sounded with this stranger’s voice.

“I have different names as well. You may call me Fenris.” The figure shifted again, but seemingly settled as Anders was.

“Fenris…like a wolf? Oh, excuse my rudeness, but are you maybe one of those ‘manbeasts’ from our stories?” impossible! Even though he very much knew anything might be possible in this strange forest.

“Perhaps. My people have been given many names by yours over the years. Most of them not kind. I would not know what the current stories of us are. Most of us do not tread far beyond these trees.”

“Oh…Well, I um…I wouldn’t really blame you. I like it here myself. I mean…it was kind of scary at first - too quiet, and a little dark. But it’s not so bad.”

“I am aware. You are amusing to watch.”

“Wh-What?! You knew of me being here?!” Anders could see Fenris give a slight head tilt, as if in confusion at the outburst.

“Yes. You are not very quiet. But you are an interesting to watch, and you leave nice gifts some days.”

“What? I do not leave…” his voice trailed off as he thought back to things he has lost over the years: his jewelry, his trinkets, some flowers a village girl gave him once, and even snacks! “Those…weren’t gifts though.”

“But they were very pretty.”

“I’m glad you think so, I thought they were pretty too, but…I was not even aware there was another person here to even gift them to…” Any anger that rose was swiftly diminished as this stranger seemed genuinely confused about the ordeal. He rather did miss his things, but at least he finally knew he wasn’t losing them.

“…I see.”

Anders wasn’t sure what he heard in the other’s tone. It sounded like disappointment, but he could not pinpoint why.

The strange continued after a moment’s thought. “That was disrespectful of me, Anders. And I apologize. You’re…tch…a human. I know that is not an excuse, but you do not fit the description of humans from what I was taught and from what I have seen. You act more intelligent than most.”

Anders almost nodded in understanding. So they are different in someway. Anders knew of other species besides humans. There were the dwarves and the qunari, and surely others he never met before. Humans must’ve drove away this stranger’s people in the past. In each other’s absence, it seemed the creations of ‘lowly, stupid, humans’ and ‘manbeasts’ have taken shape in each other’s history. Not that Anders could really blame them…he was not one to vow for the intelligence of his own species.

“It’s alright…I mean, no harm done right? And I know humans can be, well, bad. They try to hide it, but our history shows it. I’m a bit weirded out but…I guess I can understand why you did what you did…”

“I thank you for your understanding, Anders. My people come into this world for things we do not have access to back home. We rarely see humans due to our enchantment of this forest. However, you kept coming back…”

Anders had so many questions he didn’t know where to start. It wasn’t just a separation of people, but worlds?

“Oh Maker, this all sounds so fascinating! I must be dreaming…”

“It is not dream. I can confirm that.”

Anders softly laughed to himself. Maybe that’s a question to ask another time, but perhaps he did not want to know.

“Alright, Fenris. I believe you. I um…rather you do not watch me in secret from now on though. Can you…come out from the fog?”

“…We should not identify ourselves to humans. You may think me as monstrous as your stories.”

Anders felt the urge to exclaim that he would never, but he went back to think about their history and lack of documentation of the ‘manbeasts’ that roam forests all over. True or not, it was still his people that painted them as such. Maybe it really is better this way…

“I…understand,” he forced himself to say. “Can we…still talk? You don’t have to show yourself.”

“What would we discuss?”

“Anything! We…can ask some questions and learn about each other.”

“Ask questions…such as: what do you do with the…apples?”

“Yes!” Anders replied excitedly, “Questions like that! Um…I bake them into sweets. Like apple pies.”

“Apple pies…” the stranger repeated, as if testing the phrase.

“You never had apple pies?” the short silence that followed confirmed that the stranger had not. Anders was flabbergasted. How did the stranger never once smell his apple pies that surely drifted from his farm’s window? “I shall bring one next time! And we can share it!”

“That sounds…wonderful. Do you create food for your people?”

“Well, sort of? I’m human and even I get tired of other humans. It can get lonely though…But see, I live on a farm. Well it used to be a farm. I own a lot of the land but I don’t utilize most of it now. It’s a bit harder nowadays. People pay me to make them certain foods, but I’ve been using my space to save some animals! Do you like cats…?”

“Cats…yes. I prefer the white striped beasts.”

Anders chuckled. “Maybe not those kinds of cats. I cannot keep big beasts in my home. Like…um, here.” Anders’s hands moved around under his cloak. After a moment, a furry head popped out under his cloak, “This is Miss Sweety-Hearty-Pie. She’s shy.” The reddish tinted cat looked around briefly before ducking her head back under the warmth of Anders’s cloak. He chuckled as his hands moved around to tuck the cat somewhere warm again.

“That is a tiny creature.” Fenris noted out loud.

“Yeah, most cats are. In comparison to the beasts you described at least. But I like them small. You get to hold and cuddle them.”

“And that pleases you?”

“Very. Do you not cuddle pets?”

“We have many magnificent and beautiful creatures in our land, but I suppose not many of us…cuddle them.”

“Well that is why I love cats! They’re one of the rare creatures you can hold in your arms- Brr…” Anders shivered upon finishing his statement. He noted he could see his own breath in the cold. Maker, how long has he been in here? “Sorry…I um…I may need to head back. I’m not usually in here for this long around this season.”

“I see…”

Anders could hear the disappointment in the other’s voice. “I’ll be back!” he quickly added.

“You do not come as often during this season, or the next. The apples are not as ripe.”

“Well…I can come back and just talk with you?”

“You would return? Just for conversation?”

“Is that sad? I mean I sort of know it is…but if you’re okay with that, I would like to?”

The moment’s pause from Fenris worried Anders, but finally Fenris replied. “That sounds…rather pleasant. I would like that very much.”

Anders smiled. He was about to stand but paused as an idea entered his mind. He swiftly removed his hair tie and plucked some of the feathers off his cloak. With a bit of quick handiwork he attached some of the feathers to his band. From the ground he picked up a small rock and wrapped his hairtie around it. “I’ll give you a real gift. Can you catch?” Anders saw a vague outline of movement and possibly a pair of arms stick out. He carefully tossed the rock over and deemed it a success when there was not a splash. “I know it is not much…and I don’t even know what you look like so you might not even have hair! But…you can hold onto it or put it somewhere. And every time I come back, I can give you a new feather!”

“That…Thank you, Anders. I shall wait here for then. I look forward to your return.”

Anders’s face felt warm again, though this time he wasn’t sure from what. He gave a smile before he stood to leave.

Fenris shifted through the trees, hidden behind the fog that cloaked him so thoroughly from the human eye. He was swift as he followed Anders until the edge of the forest. Fenris stayed, watching from a high branch. Anders would travel down the path, alone, until he reached the little house in the distance. Fenris remembered seeing more humans around the home over the years. Then one day he realized it was only Anders that went in and out the house. Fenris leaned against the tree as he wondered what it was like beyond this forest. The sight before him was beautiful: The sun fell perfectly behind the house, and at night the moon would shine above it. Sometimes he could see smoke coming from the roof at the top of the home and light from the windows that brought out Anders’s outline. Despite the seemingly beautiful world, Anders kept leaving the beautiful imagery Fenris saw to this enchanted forest that was meant to keep travelers out.

Fenris looked in his hand, examining the gift. He slipped it onto his wrist, letting it rest with the bangle he took from Anders once before. Perhaps these previous items really were not gifts then. Everything from the earring he wore on his pointed ears to a simple necklace around his neck. They did not feel as important anymore, not as important as the one he had just received from Anders.

When Fenris saw Anders’s small silhouette enter the house, followed by light in the windows, he deemed Anders was safe. Fenris returned deep into the Brecilian Forest, into his own home in another realm. He found he never stayed too long, not as much as he should. Fenris often returned to his new favorite tree whenever the human - no- Anders paid a visit.

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shadowyin-yang · 8 years ago

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@tearsofwinter who prompted: Fenders- “You can’t banish me! This is my bed too!”

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Verse: Modern-AU

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Fenris found himself with an empty apartment when he got home. Empty except for Ser Pounce who came running up to him in hopes for food. Odd. Normally Anders would be back by now to feed the cat. Pounce impatiently waited and meowed as Fenris went to the kitchen to find the food. The cat followed, still hollering. Fenris started moving slower out of spite. Anders probably overfed and spoiled the cat anyway. Pounce can wait five more minutes.

As he slowly found the food and started to prepare it, he couldn’t help but go back to wondering where Anders was. Okay fine. They had a fight earlier today. But usually, Anders would be on the couch, waiting, and being bitter about the fight. They may or may not fight some more. Hawke sometimes would intervenes with a few phone calls or wall banging. Then they would talk about their feelings and make up, and then go to bed together afterwards. They couldn’t exactly finish the process if Anders wasn’t here!

Fenris put the bowl to the ground. Pounce swiftly stopped meowing to go for his delayed meal. With a sigh, Fenris took out his phone started towards the bedroom. Hmm, no calls or texts either. Usually Anders would be pestering him at least a little bit, openly expressing his anger and distraught whenever they fought. Fenris was quick to worry and would’ve initiated contact if it weren’t for him seeing a lump on the bed upon entering the room. He slowly approached, wondering if Anders actually just fell asleep. The man laid on his side, eyes closed, his phone by his hands, and didn’t bother to have the covers over him or change clothes before laying down. Fenris sighed. Maybe the make-up part had to wait. Maker-knows this man needed sleep all the time and Fenris didn’t want to be the one to wake him. Fenris went to their closet, and mumbled about Anders putting everything he needed at the top. From the top of the closet, after getting a chair, Fenris pulled out a blanket and returned to the bed to toss it over Anders. The elf climbed onto the bed and laid beside his lover. Unfortunately, Anders was a bit closer to the middle of the bed than he thought. Fenris found himself closer to the wall than usual but after a sigh he decided to just let it be. He picked up Anders’s phone and reached over him to place it on the side-table drawer before laying back down and started looking through his own phone until he got tired.

“What are you doing in the bed?”

Fenris froze for a moment before he glanced over to see Anders staring back...with a frown.

“Resting.” was the elf’s reply before going back to looking at his phone.

Anders looked down and saw the blanket toss over him. “You can’t be nice to me! We’re fighting!”

Fenris turned his head slightly and gave a small raise in his brow. “Oh, my apologies. I didn’t realize our disputes effected my acts of basic human decency.”

“Shut up! And leave, I’m still mad at you.” Anders shifted until he turned his back to Fenris. Without warning he felt a hand on his back was shoved off. “What the hell?!” he exclaimed after wrestling himself out of the blanket. Fenris peered over as Anders tossed the blanket aside.

“I thought I was no longer showing human decency. So I am banishing you from my bed. We’re fighting.”

“You can’t banish me! This is my bed too!” Anders stood and started pulling on the actual bed covers that laid under Fenris.

“I bought it,” Fenris reminded, and remained unmoving, “So I consider this more mine than yours.”

“Oh we’re laying claims on things now?”

“If that is what you want.”

Anders gave a final tug, only to pull off part of the bedsheet and shifted the bed. One more and Fenris could come tumbling down but Anders let it go and threw his arms up in the air in frustration. “No! That’s not what I want! And stop being like that, we’re fighting.”

“Am I supposed to act a certain way?”

“Yes! Angry! Unreasonable! Something other than...this!” with a huff, Anders started leaving the bedroom. “Keep your bed I guess! Whatever. I don’t care.”

Fenris sighed and slowly rolled out of the bed. He folded up the discarded blanket and placed it back in the closet before going to find Anders. The lights were still on and he soon heard audio. He found Anders huddled on the couch with Pounce as he unenthusiastically watched videos on the laptop. Fenris was tempted to make some hot chocolate for the other, only to remember that they’re fighting and Anders wasn’t going to just simply accept acts of kindness now. With that in mind, Fenris sat himself beside Anders who made no comment but moved away slightly. Not liking the movement, Pounce left his owner’s lap and found himself with Fenris instead.

“Traitor...” Anders mumbled after Pounce settled on the new lap.

“Anders,” Fenris spoke softly, trying to approach carefully, “Is this really how you want to go to bed? You do not wish to talk? What was it you said to me when we first moved in? We do not go to bed angry?”

Anders shrugged, ignoring the light tone Fenris was using to try and stay upset. His eyes remained glued to the screen with no interest. “I don’t know...” he eventually replied.

“I know you are looking for an apology. So I apologize for hurting your feelings.”

“Oh come on. You can’t say that and then apologize! Then I know you don’t mean it!”

“I do mean it,” Fenris stressed, “I just...do not always felt the need to state it if I show that my feelings for you have not changed. Words do not always mean anything. They’re easy to abuse and give false promises. But...I suppose I may have forgotten that words mean a lot to you. I am not angry at you, Anders. I’ve already accepted what happened as a misunderstanding and moved on. And...I should not have assumed you did the same.”

Anders felt the tenseness leave him upon hearing the apology. He hated that the anger he held onto was leaving too fast for his liking but let it go. Anders sighed. He rubbed his eyes and ran his hands through his hair. “I’m sorry too, for...everything. I know I probably drive you up the wall I just...I appreciate the apology. Thank you. I...I know it was probably wrong of me to react immaturely about it but I just...didn’t know what to do. I’m...sorry.”

“Well...I think this is an accomplishment on it’s own,” Fenris removed Pounce, despite the cat’s protest, and placed him to the floor as he stood up. “I think it says something when Hawke hasn’t called us or banged on the walls to tell us to ‘shut up and make up’ or something along those lines.”

“Heh...yeah I suppose that is...” Anders bit down a grin, but the small curve of his lips didn’t escape Fenris as he held out a hand for his lover. With a sigh, Anders closed the laptop and took the hand.

Seeing Anders's lack of content, possibly towards himself, Fenris pulled him into a stand and didn’t hesitate to bring their bodies close together into a hug. Anders swiftly reciprocated, holding the other tightly.

“...Am I welcomed back into your bed?” Anders asked, his voice muffled from his face being pressed into Fenris’s hair.

“You are always welcome into our bed.”

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hi, little funny promt. Anders got hit by a spell and seemingly vanishes, but infact he is just trapped in a twilight zone and the only person who can see and hear him is fenris, when his markings are activated ;)

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Anders was agitated.

His head was aching. That was the first pain he felt as he fluttered his eyes open. The mage knew he passed out from an attack he was hit with, but upon waking up he could see something was off. The world around him was completely desaturated and for a moment he thought his vision was impaired in some way by the magic he was hit with. But upon looking at himself, he looked as he normally would in natural lighting (or as natural as he could make out with a desaturated sun - though the effects of light seem to be in-tact as Anders was nearly blinded upon looking at it). He saw the battle was still going on around him and immediately reached for his staff. Except his hand went right through it. Frozen briefly, he could only stare at what just happened before him. Anders went to feeling the ground. He couldn’t move the dirt or pick up pebbles. In panic he tried summoning his magic. To his relief he could still use it as fire appeared at his fingertips.

“We are still connected to the Fade.” Justice stated, and for once, Anders felt pure relief to feel Justice still with him. “But we seem to be removed from their reality. I no longer sense the suffering around Kirkwall.”

“And I can hear you rather clearly for once. At least I know I’m not imagining this.”

“We should try getting our friends’ attention. I am afraid I do not know what we were attacked with.”

Anders tried crying for help to his companions when the battle seemingly ended but they didn’t respond. He tried everything: Screaming, jumping on the spot where he ‘disappeared,’ waving, fireballing Hawke, touching only to go right through them…

His companions looked between each other, all waiting for someone to speak up on what just occurred. All the enemies were defeated, Isabela just finished scouting the area for any more lingering around, and the group could only stare at the scorched ground where Anders was blasted earlier in battle. Except there was no Anders in sight.

“Hawke, can’t you, I don’t know, use your magic and…sense what happened?” Isabela suggested.

“How does she think magic even works?” Anders asked out loud, not that she showed any indication of hearing.

“Perhaps the same way she thinks card-playing is meant to be played: incorrectly.”

“Yes, let me just…wave my hand around,” Hawke’s hand glowed and followed the action of their words, “Oh what do you know? I found absolutely nothing.”

Anders practically dove towards Hawke in attempt to try and touch, in hopes, to cause a reaction to Hawke’s magic. Either he just missed it or it did absolutely nothing.

Aveline was rubbing her temple, “I’m amazed you two aren’t jumping to the worst case scenario of what just occurred.”

“Oh I’m sure Sparklefingers is fine. There are no scattered body parts after all. Maybe he just…got transported somewhere?” Isabela shrugged.

“Wow thanks for your optimism, Isabela…”

“Can you not be morbid about one of my friends potentially being blown up?” Hawke shook the possibility out of their mind. They knelt down and picked up Anders’s staff. “Did anyone see how it happened? I heard him after he got hit by the mage but I didn’t see what happened after.”

The two women only shook their heads.

“How did NONE of you see what happened to me?!” Anders exclaimed in disbelief.

“Either way, I am NOT going to be the one telling our favorite brood about this,” Isabela stated.

“We shouldn’t tell him at all!” Hawke exclaimed, “We need to find Anders!”

“Oh Maker,” Anders’s hands flew into his hair upon realization, “Fenris! What are we doing to do about Fenris?!”

“Calm, Anders. We should have faith in our companions. They will find a way to reverse the effect.”

“Hawke, I can’t stay out here all day. I need to be on patrol later.”

“Maybe we can visit dear old Xenon? Surely he may have an idea of how to find missing mages. You and I can go see if he’s got some magical trinkets and Aveline can go…do her job I suppose.”

“I guess it’s better than nothing. Do you think Fenris will be suspicious if we just all hide for a day and come back tomorrow to find Anders?” Hawke suggested.

“I retract my earlier statement.”

Xenon was useless.

Okay to give the old geezer some credit, neither Hawke or Isabela knew exactly what happened or what kind of spell it was to give an accurate description. Anders knew he wasn’t any more sure than they were.

“I wonder if we can reach their dreams.” Anders wondered as he continued to follow his friends.

“That is a possibility. We can try when night falls.”

“We should go see Fenris first. If…he even sleeps. I’m worried what he’ll do when he finds out…”

Anders continuously tried to gain his companions’ attentions, or make some sort of impact with the world around him to no avail. Isabela and Hawke have been standing outside the abandoned mansion playing rock, paper, scissors but Anders had no luck trying to make them do anything else.

“Okay best out of five!” Hawke urged.

Isabela shook her head. “You lost fair and square!”

Hawke gave her a pleading look but she only gave a grin. The Champion looked to the door and back at Isabela. “Can we just…lie and say Anders is working late?”

“We could. I’m not the one telling him either way.” Isabela shoved her friend towards the door.

“Um…can we have Aveline do it instead? I think Fenris likes her more.”

“You should’ve thought of that before you let her go back to work.”

Hawke groaned before forcing themselves to enter the mansion. Isabela followed but stayed close to the exit. Anders walked right through the door when it was closing on him.

Before Hawke could call out to see if Fenris was even home, the warrior appeared at the top of stairs. Isabela had to resist finding amusement in the way Fenris’s face expressed surprise to confusion to worry and back to stern in a matter of a seconds.

“Where is the mage?” he asked before Hawke could even get an opening statement out.

“Ah…he…wait! What makes you think this was about Anders?”

“You are carrying his staff…” Fenris replied dryly.

“Oh…uh…” Hawke looked back to Isabela for help but watched her fold her arms over her chest and shook her head. They looked back to see Fenris has started descending the stairs. “He…we’re, um, not exactly…sure…”

“That’s the worst opening they could’ve said,” Anders shook his head.

“The Champion tries their best. Do not shame your own friend. That is unjust.”

“I’m not!”

Fenris’s eyes widened and he froze in his walk.

“He’s not dead! I think…he’s….just kinda…vanished. Somewhere?” Hawke stuttered out. “Not dead though! I swear! I’m…mostly sure at least. Thought you should know before you wonder why he hasn’t returned…today…”

“I retract my earlier statement.”

Fenris didn’t hesitate to send a glare as he reached the floor and stomped right up to Hawke who started backing away.

“Explain what you mean by that.” they could hear the impatience in the tone as Fenris slowly folded his arms after Hawke’s back hit the wall.

“He…is kinda hot when angrily-worried…” Anders found himself smiling, “And don’t judge me okay. I’m trying to find a silver lining here.”

“How shallow of you.”

“Let me have this, Justice!”

“He got hit with a magical attack and…we don’t know where he went!” Hawke’s explanation didn’t help with the way Fenris’s hand made a tighter fist.

“Hawke…” he growled impatiently, “You are telling me…the mage was attacked, no one saw where he went, and the smartest thing you thought to do was return to my mansion with nothing but his staff?!” The exclamation of the last part of his sentence was accompanied by the activation of his markings. Anders saw color. His mouth gaped as he stared in awe at his lover.

Seeing something from the corner of his eye that wasn’t there before, Fenris turned his head and met eyes with Anders. The warrior stumbled back with a look of shock and his markings dimmed.

“He saw me…!” Anders exclaimed and rushed up to Fenris, but the elf was staring past him again and his color returned to being desaturated.

“So it is true that love blinds the common man.”

“Shut up, Justice! I swear that he saw me!”

“Anders…?” Fenris whispered, staring at empty space. Isabela looked beside her in confusion, trying to follow the warrior’s line of sight.

“There, see!” Anders tried waving in front of his lover’s face but Fenris’s eyes didn’t follow. “Dammit…come on. Fenris! Love, I’m right here!”

Fenris didn’t respond to the confused looks from his friends, but he lit his brands again. Just like that, Anders appeared clearly before him. When their gaze met again, Anders let out a breath of relief and his eyes started visibly watering up. “Anders…” Fenris found himself repeating and lifting his hands up to touch.

The mage leapt towards him, throwing his arms around the elf and Anders felt his emotion well up. “I can touch you! Maker, I can touch you!” he held on tighter upon the realization, not planning to let go. A mere moment passed before he realized what he was doing, and Anders forced himself to pull back. “The markings! Y-You can only see and feel me when you light them! Oh Maker, how are we going to-”

Fenris didn’t let him finish his worries and pulled the mage back into his embrace. “We shall figure out what is wrong later…you are right here, safe, that is all that matters. Stay right here…”

Hesitantly, Anders carefully returned the hug, doing his best to avoid touching where it would hurt his lover. “I won’t be going anywhere…”

“…I retract my earlier statement.”

#fenders #dragon age fanfic #dragon age fanfiction #anders #fenris #syyprompted #syydrabble #araglas1989

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Zestiria-AU Chronicles (5)

Day 5 (January 11th) - Anders and Hawke

Was your Hawke romance to Anders or just his friend? This day is dedicated to Hawke and Anders. (only mage positive Hawkes and Anders friendly Hawkes will be included for this)

Please go read at least the explanation in Day 1.

Notes: Literally the only reason Garrett got first dibs/is the Hawke for this prompt’s choice is because he’s the Shepherd. It’s nothing on Marian. Armatization=think fusions from Steven Universe

Day 1 ||| Day 6

After a best out of three rock, paper, scissors game, Garrett won the dibs to Armatize with Anders first, save for extreme emergencies at least. Marian pouted, gave Garrett a punch in the arm, and advised him to at least give them a great show once they fuse.

So the next time the group found themselves in battle, the two exchanged a glance and armatized. Garrett felt a surge of warmth flow through his body. His hair turned bright yellow his clothes turned white. A ponytail grew out and attached to the band were firey red feathers. Streaks of red and hints of gold finished forming his clothes. Anders’s divine artifact enlarged and multiplied and became covered in flames. The sharp feathers came together and formed wings sporting from his back.

Garrett let out a hearty laugh as he looked at his new appearance.

“This...is amazing...!” he exclaimed, Anders’s own voice intermixed with his. from the tip of fingers, Garrett could feel it: the power of fire. He could feel the ability to tap into it, and he could feel the mere movement of the flames on his back, as well as how much the heat no longer bothered him. With a smirk, he leapt head first into battle, leading the charge.

With each strike, he could feel it. Anders, right there. They’d only just met but Garrett couldn’t believe how easy it was to be so in sync. Even with Fenris and Isabela, they’d have moments of hesitance. A disagreement in their actions or movements, even if brief.

When the battle ended, the two separated. Garrett let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. He looked to Anders who was already looking back. Without warning the two burst out laughing, seemingly finding humor in something that the others couldn’t, as if they have been friends forever.

#wow this might be my shortest #januanders #anders #garrett hawke #dragon age drabble #syydrabble #zestiria au

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Zestiria-AU Chronicles (2)

Day 2 (January 8th) - Anders and Cats

Ser pounce a lot, Mr. Wiggums, you name it, Anders and cats. He loves those furry creatures.

Please go read at least the explanation in Day 1.

Warnings: animal death mention+animal revival. Minor Kanders angst? And Pounce talks in this.

Day 1 ||| Day 3

The group was in the area. No one could bring themselves to object, as anyone could tell it meant so much to Anders. So begrudgingly, the group made their way up the volcano, with Anders sprinting ahead. When they got to the top, Anders peered around a boulder. He smiled and continued on, which only told the rest that frickin dragon he was keeping had to have been asleep. The lack of roaring and earth shaking helped too. Even then, everyone took a moment to check that the dragon past the clearing was snoozing before going off to the side to join up with Anders. He knelt before Ser Pounce-a-lot, immediately chattering away about the journey. It was a sight Fenris found he wanted to remember. Has it been so long as he saw that joyous smile?

Garrett and Marian also approached and offered some tribute to the cat. With a thanks, all the seraphim could feel the domain around them strengthen just a little. Anders continued catching up with Pounce, who continued to lay lazily on a rock. While hesitant, no one wanted to rush Anders either. So no one spoke a word and carefully set themselves up for rest, at least for a little bit and as far away from the sleeping dragon age as possible.

“You know Pounce right?” Marian asked, scooting her way over to Fenris.

“Only through Anders,” he muttered and shoved a sandwich in his mouth.

“Yeah, but what’s Pounce like? How does a cat become a seraphim? Or are they like you guys? Like can a cat seraph and a human seraph...make seraph babies since you’re all of the same...race?”

“Oh, we seraphims do not have parents,” Merrill corrected. Garrett choked on his sandwich from surprise. Merrill continued as Isabela gave the man a few pats and he chugged down the water she provided. “Oh but I have I recently spoken with Anders about Ser Pounce! It seems Anders knew him when he was just a normal cat, living amongst the humans! This was some time ago when humans still believed in us. Pounce didn’t belong to anyone but the two were quite close. Then...something happened, and Anders couldn’t save him. Unexpectedly, Ser Pounce was reborn as a seraph! They’ve been together ever since! Well, not all the time, of course, that would be silly. After all, Ser Pounce had a brand new life to live! But he and Anders became friends all over again and now they’re the best of friends!”

“Was he the third wheel of...you know,” Isabela smirked as she gestured to Fenris, who proceeded to send her a glare.

“Oh, I believe he wasn’t there for most of...that,” Merrill answered, though he eyes darted around, unsure how to form words without lying. “But Anders did say Pounce has always liked Fenris!”

That was a compliment Fenris found he could tuck away. He liked Pounce in return. Because of that, he did feel embarrassed every time he has to address the cat by name. How do you call anyone Ser Pounce-a-lot (even if it’s just Ser Pounce!) with a straight face?

When a couple of hours passed since their arrival, the group felt it was about time to continue their journey. Evil never rests after all and they still had days of travel left before their next destination. Not to mention...the longer they stayed the harder it would be to get Anders to leave. The group looked at each other, wondering who wants to be the one to break Anders out of his personal time with Pounce. With a sigh, and feeling he was the one with actual past relationships with both, Fenris begrudgingly strolled over to the pair.

Anders looked up from where he sat, and immediately, Fenris saw the happiness drain from his face upon realizing it was time to move on. He swiftly tried to cover it up with a forced a grin. “Hello Fenris.”

“Anders. Pounce,” he greeted and folded his arms, “I’m afraid the Shepherd feels it is time for us to press on.”

“Heh...I figured as much.” Anders played with his hands before forcing himself into a stand, “You’ll...hold down the fort for a bit longer?”

Ser Pounce has already bought himself to a sitting position, looking up intently at the pair. “Of course, Anders.”

“No...trouble at all...?” Anders asked in worry.

“None at all. I’ll continue taking care of Karl. I promise,” Pounce said reassuringly with a nod.

“...Alright. Thank you, Pounce. I’ll um...I’lll see you again soon!” with a weak smile and a wave Anders spared a quick glance to the dragon before swiftly turning to join the rest of the group. Fenris could hear him trying to casually usher them off the volcano as soon as possible.

“Fenris,” Pounce called out to the wind seraph as he was turning to leave as well. “About Karl...”

Fenris felt the back of his neck in discomfort, “I don’t know...” he answered before the question was even asked.

He heard Pounce let out a sigh. “I understand...” Pounce was worried. Of course he was. There was no doubt he cared about Anders above all else, as it always was for all these years they spent together.

“I just...” the words got caught up in Fenris’s throat. He peered over his shoulder, seeing the resting black dragon. The sole reason Anders contained himself on this volcano for all these years. While being a healer at heart, Fenris knew Anders also saw the worst of deaths. What kind of being would be if he had to take another life from Anders? Even if in reality, Karl was already gone.

#januanders #fenders #ser pounce a lot #dragon age drabble #da drabbles #zestiria au #syydrabble

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Zestiria-AU Chronicles (6)

Day 6 (January 12th) - Anders and Fenris

What could Anders and Fenris be? What do you dislike about their relationship? Fanon or Canon? This day is dedicated to Fenris and Anders.

Please go read at least the explanation in Day 1.

Notes: Takes place in “main story” so technically pre-fenders. Everything is basically pre-fenders in this universe.

Day 1 ||| Day 7

Garrett pulled Anders off the side, hiding in the corner of their inn’s room and away from the door and windows. Anders raised a brow at the action but otherwise let the man drag him until they both were a bit...too close.

“Okay...” Garrett pressed fingers to his lips, as he stepped around nervously in place. “I need your advice,” Garrett announced while looking around to make sure they were alone.

“Sounds...serious.”

“Well...it’s not. I mean, it is. But nothing life-threatening. Sorry, you looked worried.”

Anders let out a breath he didn’t know he was holding. Well it didn’t make it easier to NOT be worried but maybe he could ease Garrett just a little so he flashed a smile as best he could. “I’m not worried.”

“Okay I’ll just come out with it. Has um...has there ever been seraphim that become romantically involved with...humans?”

Anders blinked in surprise at such a question. “I...I’m sure there has. Probably didn’t end the best. Just...putting that out there.”

Garrett sighed, as if disappointed. “Someone caught your eye?” Anders probed, though he couldn’t resist a smirk, “I’m flattered you want to go to me for advice though. Or are you just going from seraph to seraph?”

“Ha! Well,” Garrett scratched the back of his head, “Um...Fenris doesn’t talk about his personal life much. Isabela seems the least interested in the idea of committed relationships. You’ve mentioned you at least had some. Relationships that...lasted a very long time. You just sound like you got the most experience.”

Anders shrugged, “I mean...yeah...I suppose that’s possible. They don’t particularly end well though. If my, well, .relationship with Fenris said anything.”

Garrett grinned in amusement, “You two are getting along now from what I’ve seen.”

Anders looked taken back. He blushed slightly and looked away as his hand felt the back of his neck. “He’s...mellowed out...and stuff...”

“What did you like about him to begin with?”

Anders laughed, turning around completely as he felt his skin heat up a bit too fast for his liking. “Umm...well...I was a bit younger when we...met. He is um...he’s quite funny I think.”

Garrett appeared within Anders’s line of sight again. “Fenris is funny?”

Anders looked off again, trying to dodge the other’s gaze. He crossed his arms, trying not to look at the amusement Garrett had in his eyes. “Y-Yeah...of course he is. He really is funny. And um...he is pretty strong. You know...nice muscles...being nice to look at in general helps too. I know, really shallow reasons.”

Garrett offered a shrug. “I would agree, but...people don’t normally stay together as long as you two did if it was only based on shallow reasons. I assume so at least.”

Anders scoffed, “Being seraphim help. That aside he’s...really caring and affectionate. I know he seems cold at times, but he’s a really considerate person. He...understands. There’s a lot about my past that not everyone will probably understand, but he does. And that means more to me than anything else. Ah, sorry, we were talking about...you? Right?”

Garrett tried to look casually, “Ah! No, please, go on~”

“...I think I’ll stop for now. And you will not speak of this to Fenris!”

“Oh, yeah, totally. You can trust me with that~”

Garrett sat by Fenris the next time they had to camp out for the night.

“Well, you were right,” Garrett announced.

“About?” Fenris replied, pulling on his robe’s sleeve that was falling apart.

“That Anders is totally a romantic.”

“So he has helped your problem with Merrill?” Fenris questioned and rolled his sleeves up to his shoulder in hopes it’ll stay.

“No, I totally forgot to ask.”

Fenris turned his attention to Garrett with a raised brow.

“But uh...Anders is...nice too. You...must’ve had some fun times with him.”

“...Yes...” Fenris forced himself to agree. “Are you trying to ask me something? If so, get it out of your system or we’re ceasing the discussion.”

“Alright, alright. What is the favorite thing that Anders, or anyone that you’ve seen in your past, has done for you? You know, something I can keep in mind for a potential...relationship...”

Fenris frowned. He took in a breath and slowly let it out. “I suppose I can answer that. Whenever Anders and I had to separate for a bit, he brings me some apples upon his return. If not that, he brings me something most of the time. I don’t ask for them, but he is very considerate with what he brings me. It’s always something I could use...why are you grinning like that?”

“No reason,” Garrett looked away and swallowed his smile.

“You will not speak a word of this to the fire seraph.”

“Oh yeah, totally. I won’t say a word.”

Fenris shook his head in disbelief but figured there was no point in fighting about it. He already spent too many years wasting his time over feelings of denial. At least if Garrett decided to say anything, it can almost be an honor to have the Shepherd of all people deliver news of your affections.

#fenders #ish #januanders #dragon age drabble #zestiria au #syydrabble

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Zestiria-AU Chronicles (3)

Day 3 (January 9th) - Anders and Justice

Both fated to meet in Black Marsh, combined to save Anders’ life. This day is dedicated to Justice and Anders.

Please go read at least the explanation in Day 1.

Notes: Takes place when Fenris and Anders were still seeing each other/prior to anything I’ve written already in this AU. Also, featuring Cat-Justice

Day 1 ||| Day 4

Fenris has heard of the ominous Seraph that resides in the Blackmarsh, a supposed powerful Seraph that guards their home. It was, however, strange that Fenris doesn’t have the most consistent news regarding them. Fenris has heard everything from how they rip travelers to shreds (in which he suspects this seraph has turned into a dragon) to how it guides weary travels that need to cross the Marsh. He had no reason to ever pay this seraph’s existence any mind, and for all he knew it was all made up. Humans can have wild imaginations after all and seraphs can be quite the gossips at times.

Then Anders came forth claiming he knew said-seraph. Fenris immediately didn’t believe him.

“Fenris! I want you to meet him!” Anders announced after mentioning his friendship with this mysterious seraph of the Blackmarsh.

“You want me to…meet him?” Fenris repeated, frowning at the thought. Was meeting someone supposed to be an important event?

“Yes!”

“Why?”

“Because!” Anders flushed slightly, twiddling his thumbs as he tore his gaze from Fenris, “You know…we’ve been…seeing each other for some time. You’re…an important part of him life. And…I really want Justice to know you.”

“Justice…?”

“That’s the seraph of the Blackmarsh.”

Fenris only gave a hesitant nod, to which Anders took as a ‘yes!’ instead of a silent acknowledgment of understanding.

So they’re doing this? Their relationship has progressed to this? They’re traveling across the lands to meet this mysterious seraph because Anders happens to know who it is and he felt it was important for them to meet because…

Fenris felt heat rise to his face. Maybe there was some flattery to all this. Anders felt Fenris was important enough in his life to introduce him to other people that Anders found important. Maybe this won’t be so bad.

The pair made their way across the lands to meet this seraph. On the way, Anders felt the need to give his lover the life story of Justice. Fenris wished he could tune the whole thing out…

“I met Justice when I was aiding the humans one time.”

“How specific…” Fenris replied dryly as they walked.

“Oh you know! Um…oh what was the name…Er, regardless! I was younger, more carefree. He helped whip me into shape.”

“He did a wonderful job,” Fenris replied sarcastically.

“Oh shut it!” Anders bumped him lightly in their walk. “Anyway, unlike us when we first met, Justice and I had a lot in common. He fights for the same reasons as I do. If anything…he gave me more reasons to fight for what I believe in…Er, anyway, he taught me a lot. He’s…a really good friend so I hope you guys at least tolerate each other.”

Fenris resisted letting out a sigh. It sounded like Justice was as much as a silly human-lover as Anders was, if not more. He repeated told himself to behave, at least for Anders’s sake.

Fenris hated marshes in general. He had no reason to ever be near them. And this…well, it wasn’t called the Blackmarsh for nothing. It was too dark for his liking, everything in it seemed dead, and the smell was awful (probably because something is actually dead!). As he walked, the ground would shift at times because of the soft dirt, and he could’ve sworn that he was getting bitten by insects. Why would anyone want to reside here? He’ll give credit where it’s due though: Upon walking in, he could feel the strength of a seraph’s domain. So at least there is an actual seraph here and not a dragon.

Anders led him to an eerie looking courtyard and equally creepy looking mansion.

“Justice!” Anders called out. If this place wasn’t protected by a powerful seraph domain, Fenris would worry Anders would end up attracting monsters. Fenris was about to question anyone living in such ugly place, but figured he couldn’t really criticize in terms of living in abandon mansions…

“Hey! Justice! It’s me!” Anders cupped his hands together and shouted again. Anders was going to try once more but the pair noticed one of the windows of the building light up. The light traveled from one end and passed a couple of windows before it reached the balcony. The light source turned out to be fire, and it dimmed slightly as a white cat leapt onto the ledge. Fenris could make out streaks of red over the body and the remaining bits of flames eventually diminished around it. The cat jumped down and approached. Anders knelt down with open arms and the cat leapt into the hug.

“Oh Justice you’re as cute as I remember!” Anders stood as he held onto the cat tightly. Fenris saw Justice’s face scrunch up in annoyance.

“I have repeatedly stated to not call me ‘cute.’ Is it not rude to deny me of such a request?!”

Fenris almost flinched. That commanding deep voice should not be coming out a tiny cat.

“I know but…you can call me scruffy in return or something. I wouldn’t mind~”

“You also have brought a guest and you did not introduce them to me? Anders, where are you manners? Release me, Anders. I shall prepare a place for rest.”

Justice leapt off and started scurrying into the mansion with the other two following. Fenris jumped back in surprised upon seeing the insides being fully furnished and perfectly clean, lacking all sense of it being abandoned. Maker, he could’ve sworn a human’s reflection can appear on the table they passed. They entered a nearby room surrounded by nothing by books and a fireplace. Justice breathed fire onto the wood and leapt up onto a couch that faced the warm flames.

Anders didn’t hesitate to plop down beside him, with Fenris joining beside Anders.

“I guess I’ll just start. Justice, this is Fenris. Fenris, here is one of my closest friends in the world: Justice!”

Fenris nodded and gave a small bow.

“Greetings, Seraph of the Wind. I am Justice! Protector of this marsh! I thank you for keeping my friend company. After all, not many can handle everything that comes out of his mouth.”

“HEY!”

Fenris snickered.

“I’ll have you know, Fenris very much likes my mouth.”

“Anders!” Fenris shoved his lover, and it became Anders’s turn to snicker.

“That does not make sense. Your lips are always chapped, and you always smell of smoke and burnt wood. Why would anyone want to go near your mouth?”

Fenris raised a brow, unsure if that was supposed to be sarcastic or if this seraph really missed the implication.

Anders sighed, “Because, Justice! Fenris is my lover! It’s been what? 20 years perhaps? I think it’s safe for us to see each other more…officially. So I wanted you two to meet! And-”

The cat’s eyes widened, and stood on all fours. “What is the meaning of this?! Is this another one of your short term companions? Did you pick up another one when you go on your human saving ventures? Why do you not seek my permission?”

Anders practically gasped. “I happened to meet him in other circumstances thank you very much! And we’ve been over this. I don’t need your permission of all things!”

“I disagree. Your partner must be worthy of you, and I have yet to see worthiness!”

“Well it has only been a few minutes since we met…” Fenris muttered.

“Disrespectful,” Justice turned up his head in disapproval, “This is unjust.”

“Justice! You can’t call every person I see as unworthy!”

“I certainly can. I stand for justice!”

Anders’s hands met his face with a groan.

“First thing you must consider: can this wind seraph protect you if needed? He must be strong in battle.”

Before Fenris could even offer a response, Justice only continued. “He must also know the basics of preparing a meal and healing. If he is to join you on your journey to help humans, he must know how to properly assist in small ways for humans.”

Fenris once again opens his mouth, but seemingly knowing, Justice spoke louder with his next statement.

“NOT ONLY THAT! To prove his strength, he must best me in battle!”

“No, Justice don’t,” Anders groaned.

“I accept!” Fenris shot up from his seat and glared irritably.

“Fenris!” Anders exclaimed and gave a look of disapproval.

“No one shall decide my worth except for me!” Fenris ignored Anders and sent a glare towards Justice.

Fenris could admit, maybe he rushed into that decision a bit too quickly that day. It wasn’t about getting Justice’s approval so much as his pride as a skillful warrior. The fire cat even had an elemental advantage but it didn’t worry him.

20 minutes later, Fenris ended having to listen to an annoyed Anders as he healed up Fenris and scolded about the whole thing. That stupid cat seraph still doesn’t get to tell him what to do anyway so Fenris just ignored Justice’s disapproving looks and preaching of worthiness. He did silently pray that no one outside of this room would tell others that he lost in a fight to a small white cat.

#januanders #fenders #zestiria au #justice da #spirit of justice #syydrabble

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Zestiria-AU Chronicles (1)

Day 1 (January 7th) - Anders and Healing

How has Anders being the healer affected you? Anders is the healer, meaning he has the bloodiest hands, how do you perceive this? Anders heals the sick and injured for free in all of DA2, what do you think of the martyr who gives of himself for everyone else?

If you need world exposition dump go read the first couple of paragraphs here. Basically a random event takes place in this AU but no specification to where and when.

Notes: Fenris and Anders are exes, but the entire AU is basically pre-fenders

Day 1 (here!) ||| Day 2

Fenris hissed to himself as the battle ended. He swiftly applied his magic, healing the light scrape on his shoulder. Isabela and Merrill doing the same for themselves. Garrett and Marian whined loudly about the soreness of the whole ordeal. How much harder it is being humans, blah, blah, blah. Though a part of Fenris felt they’re only whining for attention. They’ve certainly traveled enough for them to be used to this by now. Attention was what they got when Anders pressed his hand against Garrett’s hand and a comforting warmth followed.

“So much better, Anders! Thank you! You know, I also got a scratch. Somewhere. I haven’t decided where it is yet.”

Anders rolled his eyes. “You can handle a scratch. You too,” he directed his sight to Marian who pouted. “But...I still get to be healed too right? You can’t just give it to this oaf and not me!” she still asked with hope.

Anders glanced over to the other seraphs, hoping one of them would intervene. As if reading his thoughts, Marian only held out her hand. “See! Look! I’m blistered! And yours feel the best! No offense guys.”

“I do not see how the feel is any different than the actual effect of the magic,” Fenris didn’t mean to sound annoyed, not that he was - totally was not...but still! They were wasting time here!

“Of course there’s a difference!” Garret exclaimed as if it was obvious, “Yours is...prickly. I don’t like it...”

Fenris huffed.

“Merrill’s is fine, but it feels so forceful. Like I’m going to get punched by it and I feel left on my guard because the feeling was so brief! Isabela’s just feels gross. Like I’m reaching my hand and touching one of those goo monsters and that is the most uncomfortable feeling depending on where she’s healing.”

Isabela only snickered in response.

“Anders, his is...warm. Soothing.”

“Well I’ll take that as a compliment I suppose,” with a shrug, Anders swiftly healed up the blister that surprisingly existed. Feeling he did his duty, Anders turned into a speck of light to return within Garrett.

“We should make haste,” Fenris announced and followed suit, along with Merrill and Isabela. Marian complained they could use a break but otherwise the twins continued their journey. They could use a break, as they weren’t in as much as a hurry as they could be. Fenris can attest to that. The world wasn’t ending any faster and they’ve made significant progress on this journey to purify the world. But Anders wanted to hurry. He had something...someone? Whatever that was, to return home to after all. But Fenris knew Anders wouldn’t push for it, so...somehow...the elven wind seraph thought he’d do it for the other.

It’s always been that way. It can be important to Anders, but if it’s not important to others, Anders wouldn’t put himself first. Fenris knew he had to reason to egg on Garrett and Marian to press forward to their destination, but it eased Anders, just a little.

When night fell, they had just reached an inn. With food in their bellies, the twins collapsed into bed. Fenris transported himself onto the building’s roof, wanting the air, needing to feel his element again and away from the burning warmth that was Anders.

Time escaped from him before he felt the uncomfortable presence of force approach him. He gripped his weapon, only out of habit, but let go when he heard a stumble.

“Oh dear, this feels nothing like the architecture at home!” Merrill continued talking to herself as she continued her walk across the slanted roof. She carefully sat herself beside Fenris, looking at him curiously as she twirled her parasol. Fenris resisted not to look annoyed. Merrill was always a weird one. She approached him without care or worry, despite him having an elemental advantage if they were did battle. No, that is not how companions should think of each other...

“Are you worried for your friend? Although, I would be worried too if I found out my friend has been living with a dragon for all these years! Oh dear, it’s quite horrifying. Ah! That is right, I just remembered! Your feelings were not hurt from earlier was it? I am sure Garrett did not mean that. Your healing isn’t prickly. Although you apply healing so harshly-”

“Did you need me for something?” Fenris cut in, finally sparing her a glance.

“Hmm? Oh! Well, I wish to get to know Anders! You two were friends yes? But he seems so closed off, I can’t help but worry. Do I say something wrong? He always seem to be in a hurry. Does he ever stop to take a breather? That is good for you, you know!”

“Heh...” Fenris shrugged. There wasn’t harm to talking, though he rather not. On the other hand...if the others befriend Anders, maybe it’ll take his mind of...

Fenris cleared his throat. “He’s a healer at heart. The stupid man would work himself too hard before taking a ‘breather.’ Always has, as far as I knew him.”

“Truly?” Merrill blinked and leaned in closer with interest, “What did he do before he lived on the volcano? Well, I would like to tell him about my time guarding the celestial weapon, though that cannot be as interesting. What did a roaming fire seraph like Anders do? Did he not work with humans? Shall I talk to him about humans?”

Fenris wasn’t sure how to answer that. He paused for a moment before answering. “He...did. Back when most humans could see us...he used to assist in villages and towns whenever he passes. He also foolishly involves himself with human affairs. He has done many battles because of this. Though he also has saved many lives as well. However...I do not know what has happened since we...separated. I feel as if humans have become a sensitive topic to bring up now.”

“Oh? That is unfortunate! I wish to hear his tales! Perhaps that is how he got so good with his healing magic! Humans are quite sensitive you know? He must’ve learned how to make them feel the most comfort. That is most interesting, thank you Fenris! Oh dear, I still do not know what to talk to him about. As the Prime Lord, I wish to make him feel welcome within our group. After all, the closer we all are, the better we can do battle tog-”

“Cats,” Fenris cut in again, “Talk to him about cats.”

“Cats? Oh of course! I shall try your suggestion! I thank you again, Fenris!” Fenris shrugged, feeling this would benefit him as much as it would Merrill and not worthy of thanks. He would like to tell Merrill more about the humans and the work Anders has done, they did make wonderful tales. He was positive that it was Anders being involved with human affairs is what started some wars and revolutions across history...though he was also certain that lives of many humans has improved because of this. Tales of a fire deity became stories for the generation that came after the humans he’s helped, when the existence of seraphim faded from history books. It was something Fenris felt Anders would’ve taken pride in. To be remembered after multiple generations. Yet...something about humans haunted Anders. Fenris knew he had no right to say anything now, and Anders clearly didn’t wish to talk about it. Still, Fenris couldn’t help but wonder why Anders stuck himself on a volcano for 300 years when the man was notorious for traveling the world and helping anyone in need on the way. That’s just the kind of seraph Anders always was, and that kind of love for others was the one thing Fenris missed most about him.

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