#syos heart condition

[fuckyeahkurusushou]

Uta-Pri Repeat: October {Cecils Route}

Controlled!Kaoru: What, Syo-chan? Are you planning on getting in my way...? Syo: (*gets scared for a moment but then tightens his hand into a fist and nods with conviction*) Syo: So, I'm going to try too. I'm going to try my best! I'm weak and I can't run fast like everybody else. I'm not good at fighting either... {But...} "Kaoru": Why are you always like this...? You've always been like this. You always work too hard for other people! "Kaoru": You're the one who keeps working so hard, and no matter how many times you keep falling down, you get back up... "Kaoru": You're not even strong enough to keep getting up that easily. Even though your body is much weaker than mine... "KAORU": Syo-chan, you should just let ME protect you!!-- SYO: (*quickly crosses arms in front of face and stops Kaorus punch from getting through TO*)-- Syo: I don't want to... just be protected. I'll fight. I want to fight! "KAORU": But {the enemy} promised that if you do as they say, they'll heal your illness! "K A O R U": You don't have to suffer anymore! Why do you resist? I just want you to get better! Syo: (*Withstanding the attacks to prevent "Kaoru" {the enemy} from getting near Haruka & Cecil, never answering "Kaoru" or the enemy*) ...!!

[koushirouizumi]

{Syo}+{Natsuki}+{Ren}+{Otoya} ~ "U.U.U.U"

{WARNING: VERY FLASHY Please turn down your brightness setting beforehand if you think you need it!!}

[glitchdecay]

brb gonna pretend that i'm dead because tumblr tags/filters don't work if the people who post the content i wanna avoid don't use the exact terms i use in the tag/filter menu ):

yes this also means my queue is dead

i am just focusing my energy on other things than being mad about people openly discussing jump leaks or gnsn chara skintone discourse 2: electric boogaloo

[anonzentimes]

That's not the only example. Some antis tried to use one line from Monaca in DR3 to push a theory that Nagito raped her as an Ultimate Despair. You can still find the theory on one of TVTropes' pages.

There are just some really blatant double standards in the way the fandom treats Nagito, compared with the rest of the cast. He alone gets singled out for speculation of having committed rape as an Ultimate Despair. He alone has people casting doubt on whether or not his illnesses are real, due to how they're depicted. You don't see people claiming that Toko fakes the Syo persona, or that Nekomaru's fight scenes mean his heart condition isn't real.

OH MY GOD IVE USUALLY BEEN WAITING UNTIL IM AT THE HOTEL (i am in the middle of Epcot <3) TO ANSWER THESE BUT I GENUINELY HAVE NEVER CRINGED HARDER WHAT IM SORRY WHAT LIKE I WAS SHOCKED MOUTH GAPE OPEN WHEN I READ THAT WHAT. WHAT DID THIS POOR MAN DO TO YALL TO DESERVE THIS TREATMENT GOOD GOD,,, A QUEER MAN WITH A DETERIORATING BRAIN EXISTS AND PEOPLE TRY TO ERASE HIS SEXUALITY, BE BOARDERLINE ABLEIST, TRY TO ERASE HIS DIAGNOSIS, AND MAKE UP THINGS ACCUSING HIM OF WHAAATTTTTTTTT AS A DESPAIR IM SO DONE NO. NO WAY. HE CANNOT CATCH A BREAK. EVERY ONCE IN A WHILE I REMEMBER WHY PEOPLE COMPLIMENT ME FOR JUST RAMBLING ABOUT HIM 😭😭😭😭

[asaka-lucy-dr-rc]

The series is not 100% clear on the matter. But a lot of fans have observed that there's a fair bit of evidence to suggest that Nagito wasn't lying about his illnesses, despite surviving his original prognosis. And that him insisting he was lying afterwards was just his attempt to keep Hajime from getting close to him.

There are multiple pieces of evidence in the various mangas showing his inner thoughts, that point to the stuff about his dead dog and the plane crash being truthful. And if he was being truthful about something as insane as a meteor hitting a plane at the exact moment it was being hijacked, the dementia + lymphoma claim isn't quite so unbelievable.

There's also his behavior throughout the series. People have pointed out that a lot of it is fairly consistent with symptoms of someone with fronto-temporal dementia. His tendency to ramble, impaired empathy, inappropriate social behavior, etc. His pale skin and hair, along with his skinny physique also suggests his body is quite sickly.

Sorry for dragging this out a bit. It's just that when it comes to Nagito's illnesses, a number of fans can treat him very hypocritically. To use Nekomaru for example, he frequently does strenuous physical activities that a person with a heart condition shouldn't be doing. Yet no one accuses him of lying about his illness. Nor do people claim that Toko fakes her split personality, even though Syo isn't a very accurate portrayal of dissociative identity disorder.

Oh, thanks for taking the time to message me! First of all, I want to say that I'm not specifically accusing him of lying, just that it can be interpreted as a lie because the math between the life expectancy he said and the actual time he lived after he was declared sick doesn't add up. I'm not sure about the EN fandom, but I think more people interpret it that way, at least in the JP fandom.

I also do not want to criticize anyone who thinks his illness is true. I was more wondering why there is a difference in interpretation between the JP fandom and the English fandom wiki. The Danganronpa Fandom Wiki says "While it is left ambiguous in the game, his illnesses and backstory as well as his school profile in Danganronpa 3". I don't have the official setting materials of the anime, so I'm not sure, but I did a search in Japanese to see if anyone mentioned anything like Nagito's illness was written in them, but I couldn't find any mention of it. So I just said that the source of that line is vague, but that's all. I mentioned that more people in the JP fandom have the interpretation that his illness was a lie, but of course there are various fanfic made under the assumption that the story of his illness is true! I am a fan who played DR2 almost immediately after it was released in Japan, and if I remember correctly, there was a mixture of both interpretations among those who finished the game at the beginning, and gradually fans accepted the one that the illness was probably a lie, because the life expectancy he talked about and the time when the school trip in NWP started did not match. (I guess a lot of fans just wanted Nagito to live).

Sorry for repeating almost the same sentence, but I know there are people in both the JP and EN fandoms who would interpret it as real, and I'm not trying to determine which is canon at all. In the post I commented on, the OP seemed to be considering which way to interpret it, so I thought telling about the interpretation in the JP fandom might be a kind of clue to the story. I don't want to criticize those who interpret his illness as true.

However, as for the information written on the fandom wiki, I want to know the source! If anyone knows where the information is written, please let me know!

I didn't mention some of the things you wrote, but I hope you understand that's because I don't want to be particularly critical or anything like that. (And since we were originally only talking about Nagito, I don't intend to expand the discussion to other characters.)

Again, thanks for taking the time to message me!

[shiningwonderland]

Syo Kurusu (Repeat)

Translator: Raz (Twitter: agnadance)

Editor: Snail (Twitter: herbert_snail)

True Love Ending ��� Harmony of Tears

Syo-kun sang a cute pop song with all his might.

To be honest, I think he wanted to sing a cooler sounding song.

He suggested that I should make a song that takes advantage of his appearance and voice.

The things you want to do and what you are actually good at are different.

He said that if he was going to compete, he should try to meet everyone's expectations.

That's why the song he's singing is very much like him.

It's cute, but at the same time, stylish.

Female Student A: What's this? It's such a cute song, but I'm starting to cry.

Female Student B: Yeah, me too… This is such an amazing song… I feel happy just listening to it. 

Male Student A: That guy's a shorty, but he's amazing… I'm nowhere near as good as him.

Syo-kun is using this performance to proclaim with all his might that this is who he is.

That he's this charming.

He doesn't let on that he has a heart condition. He grabs people's hearts with his energetic singing and doesn't let them go.

Then…

Kaoru Kurusu: Syo-chan… This is the first time I've ever seen him like this… He’s… become strong…

It seems that Syo-kun's feelings have reached Kaoru-kun.

Syo Kurusu: Haa, haa, haa… Thank you for watching!

Syo-kun screams out after he finishes singing, out of breath.

At that moment…

Yeeeah! Shouts of joy and applause ring out and continue for some time.

Syo-kun walks over to where the other contestants are in the corner of the stage.

Without hesitation, I run to the stage and stand by his side to hold him up.

He should be in so much pain that he could fall over at any moment… but Syo-kun's smile never fades. He keeps standing where he is.

For the graduation audition, nine judges, including the principal, and the audience vote on who wins.

The nine judges give a score up to ten points each.

The audience votes on which student they think was the best, and the student that gets the most votes from the audience gets another ten points. Second place gets nine points, and it goes down to tenth place.

The person who gets the most points overall gets first place, becomes a new idol in the Shining Agency, then aims to become the top idol.

For the students who don't win first place, anyone that gets more than 85 points can still join the Shining Agency.

Furthermore, there are people from other agencies that come to watch our audition…

Even if we don't get into the Shining Agency, there's a chance that another agency would ask us to join them.

But I'm sure that Syo-kun wouldn't be satisfied unless he's number 1…

Syo-kun shined so brightly just now, so I'm sure it'll be fine. We can win…

Ryuya Hyuga: We’re ready to announce the results… The winner of this year's graduation audition is Syo Kurusu!

When his name is called, Syo makes a wide grin and lets go of my hand.

He takes in a deep breath and slowly walks to the center of the stage.

Ryuya Hyuga: You did great. You really put in your 100% into that song. 

Syo Kurusu: I am honored! Thank you very much!

Syo takes the trophy into his hands with utmost confidence that it's what he’s deserved all along.

Ryuya Hyuga: You've really grown, kid. You're not the kid that needs to be protected by somebody. You're a grown man who can protect someone with that strong back of yours.

When Hyuga-sensei makes a satisfied grin, tears well up in Syo-kun's eyes.

He must be feeling emotional from being praised by his hero he looks up to.

Shining Saotome: Once your body becomes healthy, you'll be perfect! Get properly cured, you hear?

Syo Kurusu: Roger!

After that, we immediately go to the classroom that has been designated as a break room.

Syo Kurusu: … Haa, haa, haa… Damn it, this needs to calm down… Ha, haa, haa, haa…

Syo-kun's heart is at its limit. He didn't stop smiling on stage, but he must've been in extreme pain.

Haruka Nanami: Let's take a break, okay?

I hug Syo-kun tightly.

Syo Kurusu: … Ha, ha… I'm being so uncool… We won so… I wanted to hug you to celebrate…

Haruka Nanami: Syo-kun…

Kaoru Kurusu: Syo-chan! So you are having an attack… Here, take this. Also, take this and this.

Kaoru-kun takes out medicine and a bottle of water from his bag and makes Syo-kun drink it.

Kaoru Kurusu: My word, you always push yourself too far, Syo-chan… I felt like I was watching your life shorten. Nonetheless… your song was great.

Haruka Nanami: Kaoru…kun?

Kaoru Kurusu: You've become stronger, Syo-chan. You aren't just putting a front anymore. You really have become strong.

Your song proved that to me.

But… if you go overboard and collapse again, that'll all be for nothing.

You've been an idiot ever since we were kids… Your personality hasn't changed even if you've become stronger.

Syo Kurusu: … Haa… Idiot… It takes one… to know one…

Kaoru Kurusu: You're in that much pain and that's all you got to say? You really are stupid…

I can't keep up with you. Go to the States or wherever.

Haruka Nanami: Kaoru-kun…

Kaoru Kurusu: Then… once your stupidity and heart both get cured, sing me a song again.

I believe with the way you are now, you will definitely be cured.

Syo Kurusu: Yeah… You can count on me… It's a promise.

He grins and passes out in my arms with a sigh of relief.

Haruka Nanami: Are you… absolutely sure?

Kaoru Kurusu: Yes. Even if he were to never undergo surgery, it doesn't seem that he'll give up trying to become an idol.

Even if I were to try to stop him, he'll do whatever it takes to get his way. If he's just going to collapse from pain every time, I would rather want him to get cured right away.

I didn't believe him at first, but now I have no more doubt in my mind that Syo-chan will survive…

Haruka Nanami: Yes, I think so too.

Kaoru Kurusu: I wanted to cure him myself… but as long as Syo-chan becomes healthy, I'm fine with anything. 

As for you, are you fine with being left alone? You care about Syo-chan just about as much as me… no, even more than me…

Haruka Nanami: I'll be fine. I can wait because I believe in him.

Kaoru Kurusu: I see… You're strong. You must be the reason why Syo-chan became strong, too. I'm a little jealous.

I'm going now. Tell Syo-chan congratulations for me after he wakes up.

Haruka Nanami: Yes, I will.

Kaoru-kun has given Syo-kun permission to go to the States.

Thank you.

Today, Syo-kun flies to the States.

Syo Kurusu: … It's time… I have to go. Don't cry when I'm not around to keep you company, okay?

He pats my head twice.

Haruka Nanami: Yes… I'll do my best.

I feel like I'll burst into tears at any moment…

But I know that would just cause trouble for Syo-kun… I hold back my tears by clenching my hand into a fist.

Syo-kun grins and lets go of my hand.

No. I don't want him to go.

That thought almost leaves my lips but I keep it inside.

Haruka Nanami: U-Um… Here's a charm for you…

My hands trembling, I give Syo a small bag containing a crystal.

Syo Kurusu: A charm? That’s so like you. Here, have this.

Syo-kun takes off his hat and places it on my head. 

Haruka Nanami:  Huh…?

Syo Kurusu: Think of this as me. It's like a charm, I guess.

Haruka Nanami: Thank you…

I shouldn't cry, but… I feel like my tears are going to overflow at any moment. I need to hold them in.

I need to see him off with a smile. Tears, please listen to me, don't fall…

Syo Kurusu: Don't get the wrong idea. I'm only lending this to you, got it? Give it back to me once I return.

Haruka Nanami: Okay.

So this is really goodbye…

Syo Kurusu: Don't give me that miserable look. Smile! I'm about to go on a new journey!

Haruka Nanami: … Okay.

I hold in my tears and force a smile.

Syo-kun smiles and embraces me tightly.

Syo Kurusu: Good! You're a great partner! … Or rather, should I call you my girlfriend? I get a little embarrassed at the thought, though…

He grabs my shoulders and looks at me in the eyes.

Syo Kurusu: Now that I think about it, I haven’t acted much like a real boyfriend to you yet…

Syo-kun pauses to think and then kisses me on the forehead.

Haruka Nanami: Syo…kun?

Syo Kurusu: Once I get back, I'll give you a proper kiss on the lips! Pray that my surgery will go well!

Haruka Nanami: Of course!

I nod, then Syo-kun flashes a satisfied smile and runs towards the gate.

Natsuki Shinomiya: He left.

Kaoru Kurusu: … Yeah. Syo-chan never drops his guard, does he? Oh well, that's just him being him.

Haruka Nanami: Shinomiya-san, Kaoru-kun… If you came, why didn't you say anything?

Kaoru Kurusu: We thought it would be bad to interrupt.

Nanami-san, you did your very best. You can cry now.

Haruka Nanami: But Syo-kun told me not to cry…

Natsuki Shinomiya: Yes, that's why today, you should part with your tears.

When Shinomiya-san rubs my head, my tears overflow.

I begin to bawl.

Several months pass with no message from Syo-kun.

I have texted him several times, but he has never replied, and he wouldn't pick up his calls.

I have no idea if he's doing well, or when the surgery is, or if he has been cured…

I know nothing at all. I want to see him and hear his voice. I'm just so, so lonely.

I promised him that I wouldn't cry, but there have been many times when my tears would almost overflow.

It'll be okay, I'm sure of it. Syo-kun will come back better than ever.

It'll be okay…

I've told myself that repeatedly and endured my anxiety. The only thing I can do is believe and wait for him…

Haruka Nanami: A text? … Syo-kun?

This is the first text I got from Syo-kun ever since he went to the States…

"The surgery was a success! I'll be back soon!"

The text is brief, which is very much like him.

Haruka Nanami: He's… coming back…

I'm so happy that tears almost fall from my eyes.

Soon after…

… A phone call?

Haruka Nanami: Yes? Hello? Who is this?

Syo Kurusu: Hey, it's me. Did you see my text? Sorry, I didn't have much battery left, so I couldn't type more than that.

That's why I'm calling you now through a public phone. Um… ahh, I can't word! A-Anyway, I'll be back!

Haruka Nanami: Syo-kun!

I haven't heard his voice in such a long time.

Syo Kurusu: … Sorry that I've taken so long to reply. I knew if I heard your voice, I’d want to go home as soon as possible… so I decided to wait until I was fully recovered before contacting you, but it took so long.

I just realized that I could've just sent you a text, too… Sorry. I'm actually at the airport right now. I'm about to get on the plane.

Haruka Nanami: Huh…? You mean you're at the Los Angeles airport?

Syo Kurusu: Yeah, I'll arrive at Narita in twelve hours. … Do you want to see me as soon as possible?

Select The Phrase!

1) 会いたい。I want to see you.

Syo Kurusu: I see! I'll be back as soon as possible! There's a flight that arrives a little before five o' clock, so wait at Narita for me!

Haruka Nanami: Okay! I'll be there, so come back soon!

I'll get to see Syo-kun in half a day's time. He's finally coming back!

2) 無理しなくていいよ。Don't push yourself.

Syo Kurusu: Huh? Don't you want to see me as soon as possible?

Haruka Nanami: Of course I do, but if something happens if you rush, I…

Syo Kurusu: What do you mean by that? Anyway, I'll reserve a flight, so go to Narita! I'll arrive just a little before five o' clock. Wait at the airport for me!

Haruka Nanami: Okay! I'll start preparing right now! I'll go as soon as possible!

I can finally see him… He'll be recovered and well!

I come to the airport two hours before Syo-kun's flight is about to arrive.

I couldn't wait any longer.

I'm so happy that I'll get to see Syo-kun today… I feel like I'm going to cry.

If I end up sobbing when he arrives, he'll surely berate me for crying…

Syo-kun… I want to see you soon.

As I watch the arrival gate, the people around me make an uproar. 

Haruka Nanami: What happened?

I become inexplicably anxious.

My gut instinct turns out to be right.

There is news that the plane that Syo-kun took crashed into the Pacific Ocean.

Haruka Nanami: No… Why? That can't be.

Why? The surgery went well…

We were going to spend so much time together…

And yet… there was a crash? This must be a mistake.

There's no way. Syo-kun, you must be okay, right?

I ask Syo-kun, wherever he is, as I tightly hug the hat he lent me.

…

No matter how many times I look at the news, the plane that crashed is still the same plane that Syo-kun boarded.

Even the follow-up news did not update that information.

There is no report whether or not there are survivors.

Even so, I kept praying. Please, save Syo-kun.

Please let me see him at least one more time.

He has tried so hard to get a chance at happiness. Don't let his life end here.

Haruka Nanami: It's because I told him that I want to see him as soon as possible…

If I just told him that he could take his time, or that he could board the next day, this wouldn't have happened…

Haruka Nanami: I'm so sorry…

The tears I have been holding back fall one by one, until they all start overflowing.

I promised him that I wouldn't cry.

And yet…

My tears soak his hat that I'm holding in my arms.

Haruka Nanami: Syo-kun…

Syo Kurusu: Did you call me?

Haruka Nanami: Huh…?

I raise my head and see Syo-kun before me.

Haruka Nanami: How…? Syo-kun, is that really you…?

I doubt what I'm seeing and for a moment, and think it's a dream.

Syo Kurusu: Of course it's me. I'm standing right here! Also, why are you crying? I forbade you from doing that.

Haruka Nanami: But your plane… It crashed… Why are you here?

Syo Kurusu: You told me to come as soon as possible! Someone canceled their seat on an earlier flight, so I switched over to that.

Haruka Nanami: … So you really are Syo-kun? You're not a ghost, right?

I reach out and touch his cheek.

He's warm. He really is alive.

He's alive and right in front of me.

Syo Kurusu: Don't kill me off! Also, stop crying! I won't go die and leave you behind!

He embraces me tightly.

Haruka Nanami: Okay.

Syo Kurusu: I told you that I'll protect you. You're such a crybaby. Have you started crying more easily when I haven't been around?

Haruka Nanami: Yes, that might be true… I've been very lonely. I wanted to see you as soon as possible.

Syo Kurusu: I wanted to see you too. I wanted to hug you this whole time. I felt like I was going to go crazy when I wasn't with you.

I've come to realize that I want and need you so badly. I'll keep holding onto you. I won't let anyone else touch you.

You're mine for the rest of your life! I'll be with you forever, and I want you to keep smiling beside me.

Haruka Nanami: Yes!

I smile and Syo-kun smiles back.

Syo Kurusu: Thank you, Haruka! I love you!

Haruka Nanami: Ah…

Syo's lips brush mine for a brief moment.

Syo Kurusu: Ah, hold on– I wasn't thinking! Redo! Give me one more chance! Haruka, I'm in love with you! I will make you happy, so be with me forever…

Haruka Nanami: Yes. I love you too, Syo-kun.

Syo-kun grins and leans in.

Syo Kurusu: Mm…

Haruka Nanami: Mm…

Unlike the kiss from a moment ago, this one is passionate.

Syo Kurusu: I love you. I'll be with you always!

We hug tightly once more.

After that, I work hard to support Syo-kun to achieve good results.

The principal gives us a pass and allows us to date each other as long as we keep our relationship a secret.

Now with a more physically resilient body, Syo-kun begins to incorporate more dancing while singing.

We still can't tell everyone that we're dating, but…

I'm happy just holding onto his warm, steadfast hand…

I want to be by his side as his partner for the rest of my life, forever and ever… for all of eternity…

I LOVE YOU!

Thank you for playing.

Fin.

[syokurususwife]

TW/// Health talk below

I think about how Syo Sama made me comfortable and subconsciously told me that it's okay to like the things that I like. "I can't fall for a guy who paints his nails..." It was negative thinking because I was miserable... But he explained why he likes to paint his nails. And why he likes fashion. And why he likes pink... And it felt like... It really is okay to be yourself...

Syo Sama would like it best if I wasn't so mean to myself... I had a dream where I argued with him. "Stop pretending that you know me! Leave me alone! I can do as I please! I didn't ask for you to babysit me!" I hate when others try to pretend they understand. I struggle opening up about my health issues and SH. But his response... Felt very real in my dream. "I wish you would take me seriously when I say these things to you! I have to take care of myself because I was going to die if I didn't! " It suddenly felt like selfishness. I was angry at him nagging me for not worrying about my health.

I actually have a history of heart problems. The woman who gave birth to me and my sister has an irregular heart beat. She corrects it with medicine, but my younger sister recently has been having issues. And so have I. And it's scary. But I went to sleep thinking "Oh if I die does it even matter? Of course not." And suddenly, he's upset with my lack of drive.

Me and Syo Sama have different health conditions. But it's still scary. He is asking me to focus on it and he is scolding me for brushing his worries off. I always assume its just to be polite. But then I remember; he really is the only 'person' I've met who cares about me.

[kiiriiwrites]

The longer it took him to find Syo, the more concerned he got. He was more worried about Syo than he was about his surroundings. Of course, he kept jumping and getting scared by the attraction but it was nothing compared to his worry. Maybe coming to a haunted house with the other's heart condition wasn't a good idea. "Syo-chan!" He called out, picking up his pace slightly. Where was he? He gasped when someone bumped into him, knocking his glasses off.

"Lost in a haunted house Natsuki? Really?" The shadow spoke, looking around and realizing that Syo wasn't with him. No way Natsuki would come to one of these alone. He started to retrace Natsuki's steps, able to think a lot clearer than Natsuki was able to in such a space. It was time to find that brat and make sure he was okay.

Welp, looks like he got himself lost. He didn't even notice he wasn't with Syo-chan until he turned to look for the other. "Syo-chan?" He called out, looking around.

"Well, this isn't good...." He mumbled to himself. He really was unlucky to get lost in a haunted house. Natsuki began looking for the shorter blonde, his heart already racing.

Continued from here

@ask-kurusu-syo

[syosquad]

[shiningparty]

Which utapri boys could i beat in a fight?

ok so i was heavily inspired by @grydyne-ze who made a similar post about the starish boys so it got me to thinking about who in the cast i could beat up and the answer is surprisingly sad

(for reference i’m 5′5 and 118 lbs)

Otoya: my immediate answer is i wouldn’t fight him because best boy but if i had to: i’d absolutely fucking lose. he literally plays all sports...i’ve never played a sport a day in my life...also he has fangs he’s ripping out my fucking jugular. also also he’s lived on the street before, he’s gonna grab me by my adult edges and fucking drag me through the concrete. (and i’d let him tbh)

Masato: masato??? hijirikawa masato??? richboy hijirikawa masato???? richboy hijirikawa masato that punched the shit out of ren in season one and had my boy stumbling???? ren is literally 6 foot something and i’m 5′5, if punching ren got him to stumble, masato punching me would literally send me to the fucking floor. that is if his fucking servants don’t shoot me down first. i don’t even think he’d wanna fight me to begin with, but as soon as i lift up a fist i’m as good as dead

Natsuki: first of all, in what world would i actually fight natsuki??? he’s a literal ray of sunshine like fighting this boy is illegal. and, even if i did swing? my bones are getting broken. my back is gonna get snapped in half like a kitkat cause that boy’s gonna hug me to calm down and squeeze me like a fucking stressball. let’s not even address satsuki

Tokiya: ichinose tokiya is not gonna fucking swing. alright, i said it. he’s gonna be a bitch and say he “fights with his words,” and then as soon as i hit him he’s calling the cops. there’s no fight because i’m getting arrested, there is no way this man could actually bring himself low enough to swing at someone.

Ren: i think ren has the capacity to fight but would be an annoying frat boy about it and be like “ahaha, i don’t fight ladies; i’m a feminist.” knowing damn well that when i go for the swing, his butler george is gonna jump out from the bushes and merc me. even if we’re ignoring his family trying to kill me, ren has told haruka to shut up before. i think he can hit a girl if he’s provoked enough

Syo: now my immediate thought is are we talking syo with a heart condition or syo without heart condition? cause either way i’m getting my ass beat but at least with the heart condition i know that i can slow him down a little by scaring him. then again, dude fought ryuya while still having his heart condition so like yeah i’m probably still getting tossed. he’s a fucking black belt there was no hope for me

Cecil: i don’t fight children. like...my boy is 15 if i fought him that’s just bullying. if we’re ignoring that, he’s still like...THE PRINCE OF AGNA???? pretty sure someone from his family is gonna get me killed and they won’t find my body...like there’s definitely gonna be a hit out on me for trying to attack a foreign prince. venti shiningparty is gonna go missing and no one will suspect a thing.

[syos-princess]

♡~Camping Love~♡

Pairing: Syo Kurusu x Jules Kurusu (Me)

Word Count: 1600+

Taglist: @of-comfort-and-love @winterbl0ss0m

TW: None, but there are Spoilers for the newly released Special!

Info: I could watch the Special thanks to a sweet friend and I loved it so much! It was sooo good! I got so inspired by one specific scene with Syo that I just had to write a Shortcakes story based on it… 👉🏻👈🏻

One beautiful, sunny day…

“Babe? Was it really a good idea to bring me with you on your guys’ vacation?”

Syo and the rest of STARISH got a more than deserved vacation as a reward for working so hard. They chose to go glamping…and my husband decided to bring me along. The trip to our destination was very eventful, if I may say so myself. From funny stories and many pictures to looking for two lost children’s parents. (Don’t worry, the story has a good ending!) We arrived here a little bit ago, though, and now I was watching Syo preparing some firewood for a campfire later in the evening. My blonde man swung the axe and split another log before wiping his forehead with his hand. He turned to me with a smile.

“Of course, it was a good idea! The guys were very excited to have you here! Besides, you ARE a part of STARISH in your own way! You deserved a vacation after you’ve worked so hard, too.”, he answered.

I shook my head, amused, but couldn’t keep a light chuckle in. Syo came over to me where I was sitting on a bunch of other wooden logs. I knew what he wanted, we had been doing that for a while on repeat after all, so I took a few of them and then placed them in my husband’s arms. He leaned down to kiss my cheek.

“My utmost thanks, my Princess~!”

“Hihi! You’re very welcome, my Prince~!”

Syo went back to his previous place and continued with his work. There wasn’t much I could do with my condition but at least I could help my husband a little with his task. And later, I knew that I got put in charge of preparing some side dishes for our dinner. Syo told me that it was quickly decided that I would be on “kitchen duty”, when it was sure that I’d come with them.

“They love your food, Princess, and so do I!”, he told me.

It warmed my heart that they liked my cooking so much. But the most important compliments for me always came from Syo.

I watched on as my blonde husband split log after log and my eyes slowly wandered to his exposed muscular biceps. Years of training and working out really showed here. I knew that I won’t ever get used to this sight.

*He is so strong and handsome…and MY husband…woah…*

Suddenly, I felt like someone was watching me. I turned my head and saw Ren, who was lying in a hammock not too far from us, looking at me.

*Seriously?! I thought he was asleep?!*

Ren’s lips formed into a sly smile, then he looked at Syo and back at me again while wiggling his eyebrows. My light blue eyes widened in shock and embarrassment. I got caught red-handed! I felt my cheeks flush into probably the deepest red known to humanity and hid my face in my hands. The metal of my wedding ring felt cold against my heavily heated skin. I could almost hear Ren’s teasing chuckle ringing in my ears.

*Please, God, make the earth swallow me whole…*

“Princess? Are you okay?”, I heard Syo ask.

I slowly looked up and saw Syo as he just crouched down to my eye level. There was a worried glint in his blue eyes. I nodded my head.

“Y-yes, I’m fine! Uh, I think it’s the heat! It’s pretty hot today, y’know?”, I answered quickly.

My husband took one of his protective gloves off and gently touched my red cheeks and then my forehead. I relaxed a little under his cool touch.

“Yeah, you’re pretty flushed. Do you wanna go inside? I know you’re very sensitive. I don’t want you to get a heat stroke or something...”

*Gosh, he’s so sweet. I don’t deserve him.*

“N-no, really! I’m fine! I’ll drink lots of water to stay cool! Don’t worry, babe!”

Syo nodded slightly, not fully convinced, and took something next to us. He put his purple hat onto my head. It fit me perfectly which put a warm feeling inside my chest.

“If you’re really sure. Just, please keep the hat on for the rest of the time you’re outside, okay? And if you’re starting to feel sick or dizzy, please tell me, Princess! Promise?”

I smiled at my husband. Always looking out for me since we met all those years ago. I was truly grateful.

“Promise.”, I said.

Syo nodded again and kissed my forehead before he took a few more logs and went back to work. I turned towards Ren again but his eyes were closed. I knew from that lingering smile on his face that he wasn’t really asleep, though. I shook my head. Even though he teased me or us both greatly, I also knew how big of a supporter he is of Syo and I. We could always count on him. I was really thankful for that.

*Thank you for everything, Orange Rhapsody…*

Soon the rest of the logs were all split into smaller pieces. Ren was kind enough to take the first batch to the campfire site, but not before secretly winking at me for one last time.

Syo and I each picked up the remaining wood pieces with him carrying most of it. The way over to the campfire, well, soon to be campfire, was pretty nice. I loved camping. Syo and I had already done that a lot in the past. Even though glamping wasn’t exactly the same experience, I enjoyed myself.

After my husband and I reached the site, we put the split wood next to Ren’s batch. The ginger wasn’t anywhere near in sight. The wind suddenly picked up a little and I closed my eyes. I could smell the flowers and heard the birds nearby. It was so serene.

When I opened my eyes again, I saw my blonde man looking at me with a loving grin on his face. I blushed.

“I-is everything alright, babe?”, I asked curiously.

“Yes, everything’s okay. Sorry, just, you look really beautiful right now. You always do...”

Syo came closer and wrapped his arms around my waist. I put mine on his chest. My husband’s blue eyes looked even more gorgeous. I could lose myself in them every time.

“…And I’m glad that you’re enjoying yourself. You really look at peace here.”, Syo continued.

“That’s because I am! Thank you…”

“Of course, Princess! You’re very welcome.”

I looked down at my wrist watch to check the time. It was almost time for me to start cooking. Oh, how much I wished for that moment to never end.

“Well, soon it’s dinner time~! I have to check in with Masato before, though.”, I said to my husband.

“Ah, I can’t wait to eat your food again, Princess! It’s been like a whole DAY without it. Can you give me a little hint on what you’ll make…~?”

“Hm…well, ‘pasta salad with bacon’ is one part of it~!”

Syo’s eyes widened and a big grin appeared. Haha, bullseye.

“Omg, my favorite?! You’re the best wife ever, you know that!? I love you, Princess!”, he exclaimed before pressing his lips to mine.

I couldn’t help but to smile into the kiss. I was so happy that HE was happy. We stayed like this for a little while, neither of us wanted it to end.

After we broke the kiss, I heard rustling from nearby. Syo seemed to notice it, too. Before we even had the chance to look at what it was, a young redhead fell through the bush and landed only a few meters in front of us. Otoya. And after him came Cecil.

“What…? Were you guys spying on us?”, asked Syo pretty confused.

I was so embarrassed that I got caught AGAIN and just hid my face in my husband's chest. He wrapped his arms tighter around me.

“Well, Ren said we should give you a little privacy!”, answered Cecil.

*Ren?*

I could hear more rustling and Syo’s “Ren!” confirmed my suspicion of who it was. Were they here the whole time? Omg, so embarrassing…

“Now, now. Let me explain, Ochibi-chan~!”, I heard Ren say.

“We were here, yes, but it’s true what Cesshi said. I said to these two that we should give you, the married couple, a little time alone. But you came here sooner than expected so we had to think fast. I’m truly sorry.”

“We actually wanted to leave just now but I lost my footing and fell. I’m sorry, we really didn’t mean to spy!”, explained Otoya.

“I’m really sorry, too!”, added Cecil.

There was a moment of silence. Then I heard my husband’s voice.

“I-It’s okay, guys. You didn’t mean any harm. But I think you spooked my wife…”

“Are you okay, Little Jewels?”, asked Ren.

I looked up and met Ren’s gaze. I nodded. I really was okay. Nobody needed to feel guilty.

“Yes, I’m okay! Just a little embarrassed, honestly…”

“Don’t worry~! Your Prince will protect you, I’m sure.”

That actually made me giggle.

“O-okay, enough with the teasing, Ren!”, said Syo finally.

Ren just threw his hands up in a lighthearted defeat while everyone was laughing. Moments like these really made me happy. Not only did I win a wonderful husband with Syo but a whole family with the rest of STARISH.

I looked over to Syo and he looked back smiling. When he gave me another peck on my cheek, I felt again how lucky I was.

“I love you, Princess…”, he whispered into my ear.

“I love you too, babe…”

[writer-akihiko]

Chapter 8 - Pasts [STARISH]

This chapter is tagged [#spoilers for days] due to some content containing spoilers from the Utapri games.

Chapter 9 →

Otoya Ittoki

He had brought you to a special place as a symbol of your first date. The building looked like some sort of kindergarten, with the many children playing outside.

"Otoyan!" A little girl called. The children looked at your boyfriend, all having wide eyes of joy.

"Hey guys!" Otoya did a childish pose for them. He brought your hand in his, introducing you to the children.

"This is my darling YN! Everyone, please be nice with her!" He said, hugging you.

"Otoyan was supposed to marry me!" A girl with pigtails said.

Another little boy took her hand. "You can marry me instead!"

"Alright!"

You giggled at the cuteness.

Once the children dispersed, Otoya told you about the place, "This orphanage was where I grew up in. It's a special place to me..."

"Otoya..."

"And now, you're the special one in my life."

Masato Hijirikawa

You carried your duffel bag on your shoulder, walking to Masato's room. The crack in door shone the light in, but Masato's voice from the room was not comforting.

He was speaking in a low tone, sounding almost fierce. You've heard stern in games, but this was deathly fierce.

"YN?" Masato put his phone down, seeing you at the crack of his door. "Did... Did you overhear me?"

You walked in, setting your bag down. "I didn't pay attention... You were kinda fierce..."

He held his head down. "It's..."

You motioned him to sit on his bed next to you. You held him, letting his head lean on your shoulders. "Now you can tell me."

"It's my father," He said. "He pressures me. I wasn't supposed to be an idol. He laid out my life for me as a businessman. We made a deal... I would stay here for a year and then take over his business..."

You jolted up, forcing Masato's body to fall into your lap. "You... You're kidding right?"

"What?" He got up in confusion.

You hugged Masato, laughing. "Who knew we'd be in the same situation?!"

"Wait... so youー"

"Mama always wanted me to take charge of her bridal company," You explained. "My Papa didn't care; he taught me basketball. I made a deal that if I win the nationals, then I could stay in the Academy."

He brushed your hair with his fingers, bringing you in closer. "Looks like we're in this together..." He smiled, his eyes poignant in thought. "Has your mother ever gone to one of your games?"

"Nope. Your dad?"

"Never."

Natsuki Shinomiya

After an eventful baking 'class' ー which consisted of throwing flour at each other ー you cleaned up the bowls and spatulas. You set the timer on the oven, hanging your favourite apron up.

As you were wiping the counter, you noticed that Natsuki's glasses were on the counter. Did he leave them when he was washing his face? You did throw a handful of flour on his face...

You wanted to go check up on Natsuki just in case he needed his glasses.

Eh?

Why was the door locked?

"Natsuki?"

BAM!

"H-Hey... What's going on?"

The door swung open. There Natsuki stood, looking truly pissed.

"Natsuー"

"Stop calling me that! The name's Satsuki. And you..." He panted. "Have to break up with Natsuki."

"What?!"

"Oh honey... He didn't tell you?" He cooed, stepping closer to you. "I'm the beast living inside of him. You thought he was all innocent and sweet. Oh no darling... there's two sides of a coin."

"Why should that matter?!" You said in outrage.

"What?"

You repeated yourself. "Why does having another side of him make any difference? I still love him the way that he is!"

He scoffed, cornering you. In general Natsuki was soft with you but now 'Satsuki' was intimidating you.

"You're just after his talent. A gold digger, aren't you? Dating an idol sure makes youー Hmph!"

You killed him full on the face, wrapping your arms around his neck. You brought him in deeper, bringing your face closer. You sneakily slipped his glasses on at the sly movement of your wrist.

Natsuki now pulled away.

"YN... you taste sweet..."

You turned red. "Natsuki! Stop!"

"Didn't YN-chan kiss me first?" He smiled.

You shook off the embarrassment and asked Natsuki. "Natsuki... Can you explain what Satsuki meant by 'just after his talent'?"

His expression fell. He hugged you tightly to his chest. "I liked my former teacher so much that I made a song her. Then she became famous because of that song. Satsuki just thinks you're trying use me... but... I love you YN... Don't break up with me..."

"You know what he says?"

He nods. "Ever since I dated you, we could hear each other at times... YN, did I scare you?"

You kissed his cheek tenderly. "I could never and will never."

Ren Jinguji

He had invited you over to your next date at his house, since he claimed he 'wanted to show you his charismatic side'. When you entered the house, the main butler had told you that Ren was not back from his modelling appointment.

You decided to explore Ren's home by yourself. You walked around silently until you came across a family portrait of the Jinguji family. In the centre was a supposed younger Ren on his mother's lap as his two brothers stood by his mother, one on each side. His father stood proudly, holding the shoulder of his wife.

"It looks like my fairy decided to magically appear in my humble abode," Ren whispered into your ear.

"Ren!" You pushed his body away only for him to trap you in his arms.

He smiled and let you go. He then turned to the painting of the wall and his expression stiffened. "YN... Who took you here?"

"I wandered on my own," You replied curtly, uneasy about how forward he was. Sure, you are often frank but for Ren to do so is a little strange.

"Let's go to the gardens," Ren took you by the hand. "It was rude of me to leave you alone and to come late to our date as well."

You shrugged it off. "I did not mind... I was examining the regal decor of your home."

He tighten his hand slightly. "Were you intrigued by the family portrait?"

"Yes."

"I'll tell you of it in the garden."

~○~

You and Ren had tea together at the gazebo in the gardens. You gave time for Ren to muster up his courage, not pressing on the matter.

"You must be wondering where the lady of the house is," He said. You nodded, your eyes sparkling in curiosity.

"Well she's sitting across from me with such magical eyes..." He winked. You simply gave him a hard stare at his comment.

He chuckled, then took your hand in his. "The lady of the house ー my mother ー passed away. As well as my father," He explained. "When my mother passed away, my father got rid of anything related to her... My brother finally put up the one family portrait we had after his passing."

"Your mother is incredibly beautiful... I wish I had met mine..." You earnestly told him. "My birth mother passed away after I was born."

He took your hand and kissed it. "She would be proud to have a daughter like you."

Cecil Aijima

The two had nothing much behind your pasts that would shock the other in all honesty. It didn't surprise you that he was a prince, especially with the way he acts.

The main reason was Cecil being so honest with you. You had mentioned one thing to Cecil which you think he didn't understand. It was the fact your family was a yakuza group.

You were inspired to pursue theatre by your cousin, who currently is doing acting in Mankai Theatre.

Cecil unfortunately found out when bodyguards tailing you two nabbed him and interrogated him. Much less to say, there was nothing tragic in the past to harm your relationship. Well... with the exception of your cousin.

Syo Kurusu

He confessed his past in an... unexpected way. Your family called him to confess his past ー with several spears at his neck ー which he complied with.

"I have a twin brother, mother and father. My mother is an orchestra conductor and my father is a stylist. I was born with a heart condition andー" He panicked as the blade reached closer. "I will give YN no harm; please let me go." He pleaded.

"Grandpa, please let him go. He does no harm..." You said, on your knees. "Syo even swore to wait for me."

"Release him."

After comforting Syo, he swore to never break his promise. "I won't let them kill you," You told him.

Tokiya Ichinose

You had asked Tokiya to assist you in cleaning your room since you were moving dorms. As you cleaned through your closet, Tokiya took off the photos that hung on your wall. One particular photo was of you sitting in the middle of many men.

"Are these your relatives?" He asked.

"My brothers..." You said. "There's 10 of them."

He seemed surprised. "I hope I meet them someday... How did your mother manage that?"

You shook your head. "They're my foster brothers. Actually, we're all adopted. My dads adopted all of us from the streets separately."

"I'm sorry to say..." He said. "Please stop me if I'm getting too deep. Did you know your parents?"

You shook your head again. "I'm a dumpster baby. I was probably the product of some one-night stand gone wrong."

Seeing you solemn, he expressed his own thoughts. "I know how it feels to not be wanted to say the least. My parents divorced and they never supported my idol career."

You were shocked. "You're pretty good though at the whole idol thing." You remembered those times watching Tokiya practice.

"You're a pretty good mangaka yourself," He said. "I hope I meet the respectful men who raised you."

You smiled. "Alright! These boxes won't move themselves!"

Chapter 9 →

[koushirouizumi]

{Syo} ~ [Rai Rai All * R i g h t]

[glitchdecay]

Natsuki Is So Much More Than His Ditzy Behavior: Part 4

A recurring... theory? Idea? Idea! That comes up whenever Natsuki (and Satsuki) is concerned is that the trigger for Satsuki's appearance is Natsuki's glasses being taken off in some way.

THIS IS NOT TRUE.

The true trigger for Satsuki's appearance, despite what the other characters (and basically everyone following UtaPri) think, is Natsuki being in danger. This is actually in line with real life accounts of Dissociative Identity Disorder (DID), aka what people used to call Split Personality Disorder or Multiple Personality Disorder, aka what the first season of the anime and the song オリオンでSHOUT OUT calls "Gemini Syndrome."

This part will have two sub-parts, each with a scene that demonstrates the trigger condition. Before this point in Natsuki's route in Repeat/Repeat LOVE, however, we are aware that Satsuki can manifest as a dark aura around Natsuki — this has happened in May, when he went toe-to-toe against Shining Saotome; and in July, when his glasses were knocked off in a game of water polo at the school pool.

The first sub-part comes in October, when Natsuki brings MC-chan to the school roof so they could watch the school festival fireworks together.

Note: The default name 七海��歌 (Nanami Haruka) will be used for the main character. I transcribed the Japanese manually from the Switch port, but I’m only human. All translations are my own.

―Japanese―

どーんッ！ 花火が上がり、屋上が明るく照らし出す。 【七海春歌】:「あっ」 四ノ宮さんが眼鏡を外していた。 【四ノ宮那月】:「今は名前で……那月って呼んで」 四ノ宮さんの瞳がまっすぐわたしを見つめていた。いつもの笑顔とは違う。真剣な顔……。 目を逸らせなくなる……。 【七海春歌】:「……那月くん……」 自然と口からそうこぼれた。 那月くんはふっと微笑んで、わたしの額にキスをする。 【四ノ宮那月】:「僕はずっと、あなたのことが好きだった。……でも、それは恋とは違うものだと思っていたんです」 【四ノ宮那月】:「小鳥さんたちや、翔ちゃんを好きな気持ちとおんなじなんだって。だけど……気づいてしまった」 【四ノ宮那月】:「これは恋なんだって……翔ちゃんを好きな気持ちとあなたを思うこの気持ちは別物なのだと……」 【四ノ宮那月】:「あなたはずっと僕を見ていてくれた。僕の支えになってくれた……」 【四ノ宮那月】:「そんなあなたを、僕はずっと前から好きになっていたんです。ただ、それに気づかなかっただけ」 ドーーーンッ！ 再び花火が上がる。 かしゃんっ。 那月くんが私の肩を掴んだ瞬間、わたしの背中が屋上の金網にぶつかった。 【七海春歌】:「ん……！」 ドキドキが止まらなくて今にも倒れてしまいそうで、わたしは金網にもたれかかった。 【四ノ宮那月】:「…………はぁ。んっ」 そんなわたしを追い詰めるかのように、那月くんが金網に手をかける。 【四ノ宮那月】:「……っ。春歌……本当の僕を見て……！」 次第に、那月くんの顔が近づいてくる。 【七海春歌】:「……………………」 動けなかった。それどころか、目を逸らすことさえ……。 わたしは那月くんの瞳に吸い込まれそうになっていた。 でも……。 どーーーんッ！！！！ その時、わたしの目に飛び込んできた花火。それは、学園長先生をかたどったものだった。 その瞬間、脳裏に浮かんだのは『恋愛禁止』の四文字。 【七海春歌】:「！！！！やっぱり駄目ですぅぅぅ！」 気づくとわたしは那月くんを突き飛ばしていた。 パキッ！ 【七海春歌】:「………………あ」 眼鏡が…………。 突き飛ばされた拍子に、那月くんは眼鏡を落とし、それを踏んで壊してしまった。 【七海春歌】:「あ、あの、ごめんなさいっ。あの……わたし……」 【四ノ宮那月？】:「やってくれたな……」 【七海春歌】:「え……あ、あの……す、すみません」 ……那月……くん？なんだろう、全然違う人みたい……。 まるであのプール開きの時の……。もうひとつの人格みたいな……。 【四ノ宮那月？】:「あやまれば……許してもらえるとでも？」 やっぱり、違う。那月くんじゃ……ない。 【七海春歌】:「あ、あの……ほ、本当に四ノ宮……さん？」 【四ノ宮砂月】:「ああ、俺は四ノ宮だぜ。ただし、那月じゃない……。俺の名前は四ノ宮砂月」 砂月……くん？もうひとつの人格にも名前が！？ 【七海春歌】:「あの……那月……くんは……どこへ？」 【四ノ宮砂月】:「さぁな？お前が拒絶したんだろ。もう、帰ってこないかもしれないな」 【七海春歌】:「そん……な……。ごめ……ごめんなさい……。那月……くん。那月くんは今、どこでどうして……」 【四ノ宮砂月】:「……自分から突き放しておいて今更、那月の心配か？」

―English―

Bang! The fireworks went off, lighting up the school roof. Nanami Haruka: Ah. Shinomiya-san removed his glasses. Shinomiya Natsuki: Say my name... Call me Natsuki. Shinomiya-san's eyes looked straight at me. He's not smiling as usual. He looked serious... I couldn't look away... Haruka: ... Natsuki-kun... The words slipped out of my mouth. Natsuki huffed a smile, kissing me on the forehead. Natsuki: I've always loved you. ... But I thought it wasn't the romantic kind of love. Natsuki: I thought I loved you the same way I loved little birds or Syo-chan. But... I realize now... Natsuki: That this is romantic love. That how I feel about you is different from the way I feel about Syo-chan. Natsuki: You've always looked at me. You've supported me... Natsuki: That's who I've been in love with for a while now. I just never realized it before. Ba—ng! Another firework went up into the sky. Crash. No sooner did Natsuki-kun grab my shoulders than I crashed into the iron fence around the roof. Haruka: Ngh...! My heart beat so hard I thought I'd faint any second. I grabbed onto the iron fence behind me. Natsuki: ... Ah. Mmh. Natsuki-kun held his hand against the fence as if to push me up against it. Natsuki: ... Haruka. Look at me... the real me! Natsuki-kun's face slowly closed in on mine. Haruka: ............ I couldn't move. I couldn't even avert my gaze. It felt like I was being sucked into Natsuki-kun's eyes. But... Ba—ng! The firework that appeared was in the shape of the school principal. At that moment, the words "romance is forbidden" floated to the back of my mind. Haruka: !!! I just can't do this! I noticed I'd just pushed Natsuki-kun away. Snap! Haruka: ......... Ah. His glasses...... The moment Natsuki was pushed away, his glasses dropped to the ground and broke from his step. Haruka: I— I'm— I'm sorry— I didn't mean... Shinomiya Natsuki[?]: You've done it now. Haruka: Uh... I— I'm sorry. Natsuki... -kun? He seems like a different person altogether. It was the same as the time we were at the pool... Like he had another personality... Natsuki[?]: Did you think... You'd be forgiven? He's not the same. Not... Natsuki-kun. Haruka: Are you... Are you really— Shinomiya-san? Shinomiya Satsuki: Yeah, I'm Shinomiya all right. But I ain't Natsuki... My name's Shinomiya Satsuki. Satsuki... -kun? The other personality had a name too? Haruka: So... Where'd... Natsuki... -kun... go? Satsuki: Who knows? You're the one who rejected him. Might not even come back. Haruka: No... I'm— I'm sorry... Natsuki... -kun. Where is he? How is he...? Satsuki: You were the one who forced him away... Worried about him now?

Natsuki first removed his glasses on his own. It was only when MC-chan pushed him away that Satsuki took over (after having experienced perceived rejection). The glasses breaking didn't do anything, as the next chapter establishes that fixing the glasses and putting them back onto him didn't make Natsuki take over again.

Natsuki and Satsuki also speak differently — the former uses polite language, the non-threatening 僕 boku, and the more formal あなた anata; while the latter speaks more roughly and uses the assertive 俺 ore/the informal お前 omae. I tried to slip some of this by making Satsuki say "ain't," but it doesn't come across as clearly in English.

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The second sub-part is from November, when Syo recounted a brush with danger (read: Satsuki).

―Japanese―

【来栖翔】:「俺……砂月は嫌いだ」 【七海春歌】:「…………？翔くん、砂月くんのこと知ってるの？」 【来栖翔】:「…………昔。ちょっとだけ会ったことがある」 【渋谷友千香】:「ちょっと翔ちゃん、その話詳しくっ！」 【来栖翔】:「会ったっつーか、すれ違っただけっつーか。子供の頃、ヴァイオリンの演奏会でさ。俺と那月は楽屋が一緒だったんだ。」 【来栖翔】:「本番直前になっても、あいつ、楽屋でうたた寝してたから、起こしやったんだよ」 【来栖翔】:「そしたら、いきなり睨まれて。『お前じゃ、俺には絶対勝てない』なんてぬかしやがった」 【来栖翔】:「俺がキレたら、那月の奴、もっかい寝ちまってさ。起きた時には、普通に戻っていやがった」 【来栖翔】:「たぶん、あの時出てきたのが『砂月』なんだと思う」 【来栖翔】:「……あの頃、那月は天才ヴァイオリニストだ　なんだってもてはやされてて、俺はそれが悔しくてさ」 【来栖翔】:「『絶対お前を越してやる』なんて、啖呵切ったりしてたんだよな」 【来栖翔】:「にしても、『絶対勝てない』はないよなぁ。子供心にグラっと来たぜ」 【渋谷友千香】:「で？一度でも勝てたことあるの？」 【来栖翔】:「聞くな！」 【渋谷友千香】:要するに勝てなかったのね」 【来栖翔】:「うぐっ！」 【七海春歌】:「と、トモちゃん……」

―English―

Kurusu Syo: I... hate Satsuki. Nanami Haruka: ......? Syo, do you know Satsuki? Syo: ...... A long time ago. I met him once. Shibuya Tomochika: Hold up Syo-chan, tell us more! Syo: I didn't really meet him, it was more like I passed him by. There was a violin competition when I was a kid. Natsuki and me were in the same waiting room. Syo: He was still asleep even though it was going to be his turn next, so I tried to wake him up. Syo: But I got glared at. "You're never gonna win against me," he said. Syo: I got mad, but he went back to sleep. But when he woke up, he was back to his regular self. Syo: I think Satsuki was the one who appeared at that time. Syo: ... Natsuki was a genius violinist back then. He mastered everything so quickly that it was frustrating to me. Syo: So I got mad at him and said, "I'll get better than you for sure!" Syo: You wouldn't say, "You're never gonna win," huh? It's shocking to a kid. Tomochika: So? Did you ever win against him? Syo: Don't ask! Tomochika: You never did, then. Syo: Geh! Haruka: Tomo-chan...

It's interesting that Satsuki appeared here. Of course, one could make the argument that Satsuki's "in charge" when Natsuki is sleeping, but you have to remember: you're defenseless when you're asleep.

Besides, a previous conversation with Syo and Natsuki (see Part 2) indicates Natsuki's memories of that time were a blur, implying a degree of dissociative amnesia from Satsuki taking the figurative wheel of their system (which is also shown in the anime).

[utapriyanderes]

Blog Masterlist

~Story:

Their Yandere Types (ST☆RISH)

Their Yandere Type (QUARTET NIGHT)

Their Yandere Type (HE★VENS)

Ringo Tsukimiya & Ryuya Hyuga Type

Satsuki (Shinomiya) Type

Haruka Nanami Type

Tomochika Shibuya Type

Seiichiro Jinguji Type (Possessive & Manipulative Type)

Shining (Mitsuo) Saotome Type (Old ver.)

When You First Meet -

Otoya Ittoki

Masato Hijirikawa

Natsuki Shinomiya

Tokiya Ichinose

AUs:

Fairytale AU -

Teaser

Otoya Ittoki (Beginnings/Chapter 1)

Masato Hijirikawa (Beginnings/Chapter 1)

Natsuki Shinomiya (Beginnings/Chapter 1)

Tokiya Ichinose (Beginnings/Chapter 1)

Yandere Shining Live AU -

Syo & Ranmaru (You getting trapped inside.)

Natsuki, Ren, & Cecil (You getting trapped inside.)

Ren & Ai (Switching them to another.)

Exploring inside Shining Live with Natsuki and asking to see the others.

Fantasy AU - 

Yamato Hyuga Scenario.

Eiichi, Kira, and Eiji Scenarios

Vampire Eiichi Scenario

Harem AU -

ST☆RISH Path (Intro)

QUARTET NIGHT Path (Intro)

HE★VENS Path (Intro)

Robots (Ai) Takes Over The World AU -

Scenario

Non-Ask Scenarios (That could be story):

~ Ai Scenario

~ Masato x Reader x Ren Scenario

~ Ranmaru Scenario

~ Camus x Reader x Eiji Scenario

~ Ringo Tsukimiya Scenario

Choose Your Own Adventure Story:

Part One (No choice)

Part Two (choice split)

Oneshot “BLOOD SPLATTER PARTY-☆!”

Fanart Work:

~ Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Syo)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Ranmaru)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Ranmaru)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Ren)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Otoya)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Otoya)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Nagi)

~  Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Syo)

~ Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Tokiya)

~ Scenario Comic (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay) (w/ Camus)

~ Fairytale AU Otoya Ittoki (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay)

~ Shining Live AU Natsuki Shinomiya (by @fwaffer0vv0)

~ Shining Live AU Ai Mikaze (by @superkidiffical /Kenjay)

~ Shining Live AU Natsuki Shinomiya (by @fwaffer0vv0)

General Questions/Talks:

~  Is there any scenario where Natsuki would have to use violence? Or is his other side the one who always does that?

~  In this AU would Syo still have the heart problems he has?

~ Me on writing Utapri ships.

~ What would QN think of having a male s/o?

~  Who is most to least likely to take advantage of if their darling has a chronic condition like babying them, telling them that they need them around, etc.

~ Otome games.

~ Favorite Idol

~ Do you play Shining Live? If so, do you have a favorite UR card?

~  Favorite supernatural creature and/or legendary creature?

~  Do you think Cecil would consider cursing you via magic if you just kept refusing to stay with him or if you broke up with him or something like that?

~  What would the members think if you fought against them, but then by some "accident," came down with amnesia? Who would be most likely to take advantage of it?

~  Would be people that would Masato let it or would it be more tolerant to the touch? Like parents, the doctor or his sister?

~ Favorite event stories in Shining Live?

~  Is there an AU that you wanted to write for the boys, but never got the chance to?

~ Tears of Themis 1

~ Tears of Themis 2

~ Tears of Themis 3

~ Tears of Themis 4

~  What sort of case would you like to see if the Tears of Themis characters and Utapri characters ended up crossing over?

~  Would Quartet Night be able to share a S/O?

~  Out of all of the boys in the yandere verse, who would be the ones that might be able to evade capture by the authorities if suspicion were placed on them?

~ Out of Starish, who would break an extremely combative and stubborn S/O the quickest in this AU?

~ Harem AU 1

~ Harem AU 2

~ Harem AU 3

~ Harem AU 4

~ Court of Darkness

~ Camus

~ Court of Darkness & Utapri Boys

~ (Not an ask) 2021 Year in Review

Blog Chain Event:

Information

The Beginning

One

Two

Asks:

~ How would they react if their s/o is a female idol with a male majority fan base and if it was a meet and greet with handshakes and pictures that were cheekies.

~  Starish reacting to their senpai in QN trying to steal their s/o, and how far they’d go to keep s/o from being taken.

~ QN reacting to their s/o being stalked.

~  QN & ST☆RISH stalking their S/O.

~  STARISH and QN with jealous of a friend of your s/o.

~  STARISH and QN reacting to your s / o trying to end the relationship.

~ HE★VENS stalking their s/o.

~  QN, Tokiya and Ren if they found out their possessive behavior ended up putting their s/o into danger?

~  The s/o is also a yandere! How do QN & Starish react to it?

~ Being with Masato on a daily basis.

~  QN and STARISH if your s/o could escape from where they had locked them up.

~  Haruka when she notices QN taking an interest in her s/o.

~  In a relationship with Yamato, Natsuki, and Reiji? (All separately)

~  The reactions of the QN, STARISH and HEAVENS at the first meeting with reader.

~  "Hot" headcanons for the boys of STARISH. (NSFW-ish)

~ HE★VENS if your s/o could escape from where they had locked them up.

~ In a relationship with Eiichi and Eiji. (Both separately)

~ QN stained with blood.

~ Cecil with a S/O like in Yandere Simulator.

~  Could I request a short first date for QN and them discovering or realizing they really like their s/o?

~  May I ask about how our STARISH boys would react to a rascal s/o that does everything to push their buttons and test their limit?

~  Risque headcanons for HEAVENS. (NSFW-ish)

~  QN react to their s/o trying trying to kill them.

~ STARISH stained with blood.

~ How do you think STARISH would react to their s/o hurting themselves?

~  How Tokiya will react to his s/o being a comprehensive lover?

~  A class + Ai how they would treat you if they had you locked up.

~  What if Ranmaru's s/o noticed his strange ''extremely jealous'' behavior and started flirting with other guys just to tease him?

~  QN’s s/o being a rebel.

~  S/O finds Otoya and Natsuki actually killed someone.

~  Hi, what would a relationship be like with Otoya and Ai?

~  HEAVENS S/O attempting to murder them and whether they succeeded or not.

~  A NSFW (sexy) scenario with Yandere Masato. (NSFW-ish)

~  How would Ren, Ranmaru, Syo, Otoya and Ai react to their S/O's over-baring parent(s)?

~  A reader who's in a relationship with both Yandere Eiichi and Yandere Kira.

~  HCs for yandere QN and Haruka realizing the target of their affection is falling in love with a fellow female idol.

~  HCs for QN's isolation techniques and the ways they separate their darlings from the world.

~  What would the A class Starish boys do if they noticed you falling for S Starish class boys?

~  Satsuki and Natsuki working together due to a female darling.

~  How would QN kidnap the reader? And where would they hide them?

~  QN with their crush loving singing/music by another idol who is noticeably less skilled than they are.

~  Ren and Camus sharing a darling.

~  How Quartet Night would deal with their s/o having depression and anxiety episodes from too much social isolation when QN's been at work for too long.

~  How would QN react to one of their kohais trying to steal their special someone from them?

~  Otoya and Ren fighting over the same love interest.

~ Headcannons for Yandere Yamato.

~  Poly relationship with Yandere Masato and Natsuki seeing someone flirt their fem s/o in front of them.

~  Reiji & Ai sharing an S/O.

~  Poly Ranmaru and Ai and their dynamic with a fem! darling.

~  Eiichi/Reader scenario but the Reader is also kinda yandere and otherwise into Eiichi's creepy behavior.

~  How a Yandere Tokiya would handle one of his anti-fans harassing and stalking his S/O.

~ How would Yamato kill someone.

~ Reacting to a ballerina s/o (Otoya, Masato, & Tokiya)

~ Masato and Tokiya sharing a s/o.

~  What would happen if the reader ends up with an unusual supernatural creature bite on a botched escape attempt and transform after your human yandere captor re-confine you?

~ S/o knocks out their captor out of self-defense and runs away only for them to come back and recapture them. (Eiichi, Kira, Van, & Yamato)

~  Ren and his brother Seiichiro both having their eyes on the same s/o.

~  Headcanons of Quartet Night with a world famous female figure skater.

[hatsukoi-heartbeat]

OLD SCAR

Pairing: yollie (self-ship) 

Word count: 1.5k

Key words: hurt/comfort, scar, kissing, skinship

Tw: mentions surgery

A/n: In canon, Syo is never said or shown to have a post-surgery scar on his chest. I just thought it’d be an interesting alteration of canon to explore yollie’s dynamics in.

Originally posted on October 4, 2021.

Summer nights were hotter than I was used to, being a coastal kid who moved to the city to pursue law studies. The only saving grace of leaving behind the sea breeze was, aside from the lively atmosphere and the electric excitement of being in the Big City, the fact I could spend more time with my boyfriend Syo whose job required him also to live here. 

My silk camisole and shorts did little to keep out the sweltering heat and Syo definitely wasn’t helping me cool down by deciding to spend our night together shirtless. However, under the veil of his T-shirt as he lifted it over his head, I took note of something that sent a slight chill down my spine. It was a faint, discoloured line that travelled right down the middle of his chest, paler than his already ivory skin as if it was chalked on mere moments ago. Despite having seen him shirtless in the middle of changing clothes as well as in plenty of commercials and beach pictures related to his idol job, I never mustered the courage to ask him about this peculiarity.

“What’s that?” As Syo settled beside me in bed, I squinted to study the thin mark and came to the shocking conclusion that it had to be a scar. “Is that from your…?” The missing word was caught in my throat and unable to make it past my lips in fear of being the culprit of opening an old wound.

“Oh, this? Yeah, it’s from my surgery.” Syo answered casually, rubbing his palm along the faded tear in his skin. Discomfort contorted his face for a moment but it disappeared as quickly as it happened behind a gentle smile. His black-polished fingertips reached out to stroke my hair in a way that immediately drew me within his soothing touch. “It’s just an old scar now, though. Nothing for you to worry about.”

As much as I wanted to give in to his comforting words and tender distraction, I just couldn’t brush off the flicker of emotion I had seen on his face. So I untangled myself from the linen sheets wrapped around my legs in favour of nestling close against his body, intimately skin-to-skin. 

His breath hitched under my index finger as I lightly traced the scar. Carefully, even though the days of suffering were long behind him. It cut through his skin like a fault in the Earth’s surface… but I'd never come to think of it as such, a fault. Even little imperfections like this only made his beauty seem more obvious. 

“It must’ve been a harsh surgery for it to leave a scar like this…” My voice trailed with regret about the trials he’d been put through. His battle with his heart condition happened years before the day we met in that Peter Pan musical production, before my presence in his life was able to support him as his partner. If only I could’ve been there to hold his hand all the way through his hardships just to be able to lift a bit of the burden on his shoulders… 

“You're right about that. I mean, the odds weren’t exactly in my favour.” At the anxious look I shot up at him, Syo realised he had said too much and quickly continued in a cheery voice: “But hey, look! I’m right here, alive and kicking and stronger than ever! Nothing’s going to take my life away from me now.”

Saying that the implication of his words left me shocked was an understatement. Syo always brushed off his surgery as a simple operation, as if it was a mere incision, while in reality… I involuntarily choked up, clasping my hands around his arm. “No, wait… Syo, you never told me that you could’ve…?”

“Hey… Hey, don’t cry, now…” Syo cupped my tearful face in his hands, smiling a warm smile that meant to melt away my worries. “It’s all in the past, Ellie. What could've happened doesn't matter. I’m totally fine now." As he leaned into my face, I closed my eyes by instinct. What followed were two feather-light brushes of his lips against each of my eyelids. If a kiss makes your tears stop, I’ll kiss you over and over again. The words he once told me echoed in my head like a charm, loosening the anxious knot in my stomach. Waves of calm settled there then with every stroke of his gentle hand on my head.

"Do you..." He began, hesitantly. "Do you wanna hear it for yourself?”

His offer caught me by surprise but I accepted it eagerly. Syo lifted his right arm, creating a comfortable space for me in the nook of his arm. Gingerly, I placed the flat of my hand flush against his chest and searched for his heart with my ear, at the same time feverishly aware of the touch of his well-developed muscle, his velvety smooth skin. The heat of his body that enveloped my face gradually dyed my cheeks a flustered shade of red. 

Thump thump. Thump thump. A steady rhythm came from within his chest, soothing me like a lullaby. I found myself almost lulled to sleep to the sound of his heartbeat. Syo’s expression glowed with deep love when I tilted back my head. At this very moment, with the warmth of the golden nightlight smouldering in his eyes, I understood just how cherished I was. 

“It’s strong,” I reaffirmed before nestling my cheek against his chest once more and closing my eyes to relish in the delightful sound of his beating heart, of his life, pulsing right beneath my fingertips. I wished I could listen to this miraculous sound forever.

“Yeah, it is.” Syo replied with audible satisfaction in his voice. “I’m so used to always being in top shape now, I almost forget that it hasn’t always been like this. Well, that old scar is something I won't forget, I guess.”

It was the suddenly disappointed tone that drew my attention. I straightened up just in time to catch a crestfallen droop in his blue sapphire eyes. He covered it up with a smile so expertly, I almost thought I had imagined it. It saddened me to see the strongest and bravest person in my life being eaten away by insecurities he so desperately tried to lock away in his heart.

On a whim, my lips brushed against his skin, leaving a kiss right on his chest with a light smack.

“H-hey, what was that for?” His flustered sputters made me blush as they made me aware of the ambiguity of my actions. Me, lightly pressing my chest against his torso and etching kisses on his bare skin. Despite how flustering it might’ve been, I was driven by my unstoppable desire to show him that a scar, not even a thousand scars, nothing could ever make him any less than perfect to me.

“I just think your battle scar deserves some love too,” I replied shyly.

"My battle scar…?" Syo gave me an incredulous look that swiftly melted into that toothy smile I adored so much. "I like the sound of that. It's a token of my survival!"

He raised his fist in triumph, and with that, the tension had subsided. More slow kisses between his pecs followed, each one eliciting a trembling sigh from his lips. "I'm so glad that you're here." My breath sealed the whisper in his skin that gradually flushed under the fervour of my affection. Soon, Syo’s hands found their way into combing through my blond locks.

Just like an angel worshipping her saviour, I continued down my trail of kisses until the entire length of his scar had had a taste of my adoration for him. In the hopes that a little bit of a loving touch would be enough to erase every ounce of his self-doubt and insecurities.

“Thanks.” I was stopped when Syo finally cradled my cheeks in his hands and smiled down at me. An almost wet gleam varnished his eyes like a big, blue and beautiful ocean of gratitude. “You’re really something else. I can’t be more grateful for being alive, if only it means that I get to be with you, Ellie.”

Along with the heart-warming joy that his words brought, his sturdy arms closed around me and I willingly tucked my head in the crook of his neck. "I would've never made it this far without you. Don't forget that I love you, okay?" I spoke in a mumbling voice as the haze of sleep and Syo's comforting touch won me over. "Like, every single part of you." 

"I won't ‘cause it's the same for me, y'know. I don’t know what I’d do without you." His whisper was a hypnotising spell. A heavy kind of fatigue washed over my limbs, my eyelids and even my head as it lolled against his shoulder.

"Heh. I love you, sleepy Princess." His sweetest good-night kiss on my hair sent me off to the blissful Kingdom of Dreams. Even when old scars from the past resurfaced, my tender care would be there to take out the pain and fill its seam with love as boundless and strong as the love Syo always showed me.

Written by me, for my Prince ♡