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[foxglovefiction]

Tonight’s writing session is joined by this amazing candle from Suzanne Clay’s new Etsy store! The scent, raspberry and pine, is themed after their book, THE PRICE ON HER HEAD. I love it already!! #candles #books #bookstagram #suzanneclay #suzanneclaybooks #queerbooks #queerbookstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/ClchAAbpODM/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[bluewizardmagick]

Hello There!

I figured introductions were in order for the small handful of you lovely people who followed me recently, and for anyone who stumbles across this blog. My name is Al, and in addition to being an erotic artist I am also a fledgling chaos magician. I’m going to detail a little bit of the journey that lead me to beginning to dabble in magick below, as well as talk about what I hope to do with this blog.

If I were to be a guest on Rune Soup tomorrow, my answer to traditional question 1 would be a resounding “hell yeah I was a weird kid!” I role-played alone with my imagination and nothing else, talked to trees (I believed they housed ancient dragon spirits), grew a Jedi Padawan braid in addition to a rat tail (I wanted to be Obi-Wan), and trained in martial arts from age 10 (I also wanted to be Tommy Oliver.) I defiintely saw life through a mythical lens as a kid.

In my teens I became something of a Christian mystic thanks to C. S. Lewis and John Eldredge, though this came with a lot of Pharisiacal baggage, judgemental thinking and other problems that I later had to work to undo. Still, I learned a lot about seeking spirituallly, had some experiences with Beings that might have been angels and demons, and in general life was still enchanted. (I also learned basic pranic healing techniques and chakra meditation at this time through martial arts.)

This enchantment lasted until I discovered proper philosophy in college, which while it taught me important critical thinking skills had the unfortunate side effect of tipping me into reductionalist materialism as I made the leap from accepting the scientific method to accepting “scientific” dogma. This was a very dark time of my life, as it was also a time when my Bipolar II symptoms worsened. The two things combined to make me feel helpless and meaningless.

And then I read the Dresden Files. No, seriously. Reading that book series was what bought me a ticket onto the syncronicity express, because suddenly the theme of Magick started showing up everywhere in my life. The mythical part of me started piping up again, I started feeling like I was being Shown something, like I had in my Christian mystic days (though I abandoned Christianity I never fully abandoned the idea of God/Gods/Consciousness, as I couldn’t ignore the experiences I had.) Around that time my partner @suzanneclay expressed to me her interest in magick and all things witchy, and I took that as the final sync that this was something I should pay attention to.

So I started goofing off with sigils. And I got some results. So I started reading, listening to podcasts, meditating off and on, just trying to get a feel for it. And I felt the Eye of the Cosmos on me, started having more syncronicities, more moments of the Universe winking at me. And I knew I was on to something.

That pretty much brings us to the present. I’ve been doing quite a bit of reading and listening (I swear I’ve consumed most of the Rune Soup blog backlog, and most of the podcast episodes.) I have a long list of books queued up to keep reading. I’ve started an ancestor altar (made contact with my Great Grandma. Left me in tears.) But I still feel like I’ve barely scratched the surface, like I haven’t quite stepped off the diving board yet.

And that’s what this blog is for.

My intention is to jump off this diving board now and get to work. I want to develop my divination skills, cultivate regular introspection/meditation practice, develop my energy work, and start using practical enchantment to further my personal goals. This blog shall serve as a place for me to document, to share any useful tech I discover, and to communicate with my fellow magicians and diviners. I’m ready to start pursuing this in earnest.

So. I hope this proves interesting and entertaining at the least, ideally it may become inspiring and informative. If you’re a fellow weird kid and want to say hi, please do! Let’s get on this wacky adventure together. It is after all dangerous to go alone.