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#sure id love to have sth like that myself but the fact that people are starting to come into my life! i’m so grateful
thoughtfulseason · 1 year
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i’m pretty excited for today!! i haven’t had friends for a while and i got my new-ish (we met in january for the first time)friend a real gift that is more than a drawing. im getting her a book, chocolate and a cute pen. it’s so nice making a person you like happy even if i don’t get it myself
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sizzlingpatrolfox · 3 years
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yoongi biased anon here ! yeah hahah im broke so i had to have that much roommates( i love it tbh it's a lot of fun) and it was surprising to me how all of us are queer lmaoo ( my 12th rommates just came out as bi-curious lol ) i guess queer people attract eachother in some ways ! but yeah jimin bd vlive is when i really paid attention to jkk and honestly if they werent idols and just regular people interating in front of me like that i'd straight up think they're a couple ; +
+ i already thought there was sth between them for sure after the hickey thing (bc during run bts i noticed they always gravitate to eachother and that was susto me but still ) but it was for me just friends fooling around like nothing serious :) until jms bd live when he was deadass acting like a schoolgirl with a crush i was like what the fuck lol, but yeah after that i watched gcfs for the first time and they just dropped my jaw to the floor! ++
++ bc i thought i was insane lmao i was in 1d years ago and i have always made fun of larries and shaded them all the time bc shipping for me was so weird ; i never thought id find myself in this situation but here we are hahah ( fun fact i showed my roommates a jkk compilation ( i had to know i wasnt delusional hahah) and they all think theres sth there so yeah ! )
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Hahhdhsh I get it, but at least it's a very great experience, I don't think there's anything more valuable than a healthy social life. It is surprising that you're all queer yeah, I'm still shocked ngl. I grew up surrounded by queer people but we didn't know it at the time lmao, it's people I've known since kindergarden or middle school and by the end of high school we were all gay. We definitely attract each other.
I personally love that there's so much talk on bisexuality (or people being bi-curious) these days. Back when I was discovering my sexuality like 15 years ago, bisexuality was almost a myth, especially in 3rd world countries. I knew I liked women when I was 11 years old (it wasn't sexual attraction, just fascination but it was different from the way my straight friends felt about girls), but it was only when I was 15 that I really came to know the word "bisexual" and what it meant.
-- if they werent idols and just regular people interating in front of me like that i'd straight up think they're a couple -- YES. It's the same for me. If I knew them as real people you know from everyday life, there would be absolutely no doubt for me. But since I don't know them, I feel more comfortable leaving open a window for doubt.
I'm on the side of Jimin-has-always-been-like-that-about-JK because I've always seen him as pretty transparent, but I know it was a surprise for a lot of people, yeah. I think it was really obvious during 2014 - 2018 and then it stopped being so obvious and now it is again so people are picking up on it lol.
I was a 1D fan too. Never consider myself a larrie because I never thought they were dating, but I really loved Harry and Louis relationship, I could talk about it for hours. It really was so special even if it lasted like two years 😬 poor men, seriously. I felt terribly bad for them. I couldn't even watch those interviews where people would ask them if they were together and I wasn't surprised when they stopped interacting publicly. Neither were ever comfortable with that.
You know, when GCFT dropped, a lot of people started talking about jikook as a couple, and the majority of the fandom was going around like "omg you're gonna ruin their relationship like larry stop shipping them" blah blah blah. It's funny because after a while everyone just stopped saying that to jikookers lmao. Because it clearly never happened. Their relationship was never ruined because of that.
Yeah I imagine that watching them must be like staring at a flashing sign for LGBTQ men lmao. Even if they're not in a relationship, there is something there, and that's something we can all agree on.
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01010010-posts · 6 years
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— my white sighs quietly melted with the stars above.
it all started with a simple ‘you’re a slowpoke??’ text and it should have ended there, really, but you got a reply immediately after. ‘I’m sorry, I think you have the wrong person’. absolutely no, you scoffed, as if you were going to be tricked again ‘bitch don’t play the wrong number card because you didn’t catch the bus’. he was amused by your obstinacy and lightly worried about the supposed receiver, who, it appeared, was very clumsy; ‘please, control the number you texted, I’m Connor.’ boy he sure was. not your pal, not someone else in your contact list, just.... Connor. ‘god, i apologize!! thank you for telling me! ps. didn’t mean to call you a bitch, connor’ and it should have ended there, really, but you got a reply. connor: shouldn’t you be in bed by now? you: but,,,, i wanted to chat with u a little more connor: as an android sleep is not required but you, as a human, need to rest. we can always continue talking tomorrow. you: :( what if you have a long case tomorrow?? mh?? what if?? what you’re gonna say in your defense then?? connor: don’t worry :) I’ll find time for you. you: ok you win goodnight ☆ connor: sweet dreams. goodnight, [name]. it’s been three months since you’ve first spoken with him. intimacy there but low, how obvious it is that the two of you are proceeding with caution. yet you can’t help but write to him every day, staying up late while waiting for an answer of his, often checking your mobile and getting unsettled when there’s no signal. it’s strange, your colleagues whisper, how can you be so attached to someone if you’ve never even seen him? of course, you know it. you don’t wish for a pretty face, you only wish for a pretty personality. with a heavy sigh and a loud poof you pull the white duvet up to your head, finding comfort by completely hiding inside the warm embrace. you tightly hug a pillow, pretending that it’s him, returning your affection and cuddling, maybe caressing you too inasmuch, as he said, ‘androids don’t need to sleep’. but is it bad to fantasise? you: I’m deeply sorry.... sweetheart: >:( you: [name], it’s the seventh text-made emoji you’ve sent me.... they expressed some sort of anger so I’d prefer if we discussed about whatever is bothering you. sweetheart: >:(( you: I’m begging you.... sweetheart: you’re grounded and your punishment is enduring the wrath of weird angery text-based emoji :< you: what did I do to deserve this? :’( sweetheart: i sent you a heart & you didn’t send it back to me you: gosh! how clumsy of me! could you ever forgive this fool? sweetheart: mhhh it depends. what are you willing to do to be pardoned? you: I’ll send you whatever heart I possess! 💕💖💗💖 sweetheart: THIS IS UNFAIR!!! he’s silently giggling all by himself, in the cold room lit by his blue led circling at a steady rhythm– no, it’s not the temperature, rather it’s the atmosphere; ‘cold’. he’s still grappling with emotions and developing tastes is– well, to put it simply, complicated. he’s heartened with the fact that you once said, at the sight of a photo of his bed and the corner within, that being minimalistic is a style too. though, possibly, his true self is one of a clutterer of knick-knacks. of course, he’d like you to help him pick what ornaments would suit him the best. you: wtf i dont believe it connor♡ : but it does! you: prove it MIKU HATSUNE connor♡ : listen here human it’s not my fault you haven’t got the chance to witness an android external fluid deactivating you: !!!!! are you bragging?? connor♡ : ahahaha I’m joking it’s sending a video right now you watch ecstatically as soon as the app downloads the file, your chest throbbing with pleasurable anxiety. how can it be? he’s kind, precious AND fucking handsome, skin or no skin. you bet bad things will happen to you today to balance this sheer luck. think it thoroughly, it’s actually the first time you see his face. you: u’r cute also how does your hair work man connor♡ : thank you :) it’s connected to my head so.... you: i get it cybernetic magic your secrets are safe with me connor♡ : ahahaha and I was concerning myself about disgusting you you: WHAT fuck no you’re done that way, ok, it’s cool ok? kept it in mind are you allowed to insert ♡ near his name and not tell him? you: I’m waiting!! :/ sweetheart: so needy you: come on, [name]! sweetheart: tru tho you: >audio file cooome ooooonn sweetheart: !!! im ready pick up idiot the monitor lits and here you are, gorgeous. he’s certain that his heart melted on the spot. such is the sensation you give him every time you send him a photo, his thirium pump skipping a beat and making him inevitably somewhat gasping for air, mouth barely closed. he’s not accustomed to all the new features deviancy brought but in this he’s confident, he’s head over heels in love with you. you: what?? you’ve already seen the movie?? love♡ : yeah! I went with Hank! it was very nice, you should see it too you: WELL id kill to (please don’t arrest me detective) but nobody wants,,,, love♡ : why is that? (I won’t arrest you if you behave) you: something along the lines of not their genre or some shit uff (seems sketchy) love♡ : what about going alone? (it isn’t!!) you: it would be too sad :’(  love♡ : I’m sorry to hear that, if I could be there I’d accompany you and wouldn’t mind seeing it a second time. you: yes i know.... what is it? six months? more? you hardly remember, having so many messages in here, it would be too difficult to keep track, though you’re positive, that if you asked him he’d tell you in an instant, since he’s so attentive with that little brain-computer of his. you close your lids, tapping your fingers on the desk, it’s wearing, you must admit. you like him, a lot at this point, but being so far and out of reach.... what can come out of this? friends don’t support you either, ignoring this blatant crush, trying to make you hook-up with people met at a bar, getting annoyed at you constantly texting, preaching that a long distance relationship is not worth your time and your effort, and it’s not even a relationship, isn’t it? you’re not on that level. you’re just weirdos keeping themselves company. bummed out a bit, you decide that maybe avoiding him for a couple of days might be a proper solution. will he feel your absence? will he miss you? you: is everything all right? sweetheart: yes. you: are you sure? sweetheart: yep im,,,, swamped with work, the drill you: that I understand but perhaps I did something wrong? sweetheart: ?? you: you’ve been acting kinda cold lately, and if I’m the cause of that I’m sorry. being a deviant is good sometimes, and sometimes is not. it was great until a while ago so why now.... now....? he feels so lost. it’s understandable to have a job and a life outside this bond but– but is it really? is it okay for you to be without him? you’d manage fine. mhh no– the real question is: is it okay for him to be without you? can he be without sending you a text at least once a day? can he be without hearing your voice at least once a week? can he be without your usual video calls at least twice a month? can he be without seeing you, over a screen, cooking your dinner and singing? can he be? can he exist without you? he’s.... starting to doubt that. sweetheart: no i’m i’m the one whos sorry, okay? we can call tomorrow you: I don’t want to press you into anything you don’t want to sweetheart: you’re not! i’ll make up for not having been so present! you sigh, suffocating yourself on the pillow, how can you be this dense? this stupid? this utter moronic?? unequivocally he was going to worry. you made him worry. fuck. you’re going to trust your guts, no dumb jokes, it’s obvious that you both care about the other and can’t stay apart for too long. you: i know it’s 3AM and you told me to not be awake but i cant i cant okay? im thinking of you and me and you and it began because im a mess so it shouldnt be a surprise i havent gotten better this past year has been.... the best. yeah i fucked up and tried to be distant, to see if sth would change but it didnt i love waking up and finding a text from you, i love the sound of your voice trying to lull me goodnight when im being a spoiled child, i love how you’re so gentle & how you always forgive me and mostly i love you not as a friend, definitely as more, definitely like a lover and i know that you’re so caring that you’ll probably still want to talk with me even if the affection’s not mutual you lock your phone’s screen and place it on the nightstand. the orange light from the streets seeping through the curtains and soaking your covers, and now that your eyes are free to roam, it’s easier to notice the soft feathers’ filling making tiny shadows on your face. poor poor geese. your fingertips slightly touch the stitches, your heartbeat pacing furiously from the strong emotions, both trepidation and fear running your veins. what if he doesn’t feel the same? what if he’s been polite this whole time and you overstepped his boundaries? what if? love♡ is typing.... ping! love♡ : I love you too, honey. but please, don’t scare me again, I think I lost four biocomponents when you suddenly stopped replying to me. also you should sleep. you: im pouring my heart out ugly crying and!!!! you’re too casual nooo it’s no big deal baby we just fucking love each other it’s totally ok incoming call from love ♡ “hey....” his tone slow and almost drowsy “i thought it was clear enough.” words rolling off his tongue, the same that he’d tenderly run across you, kissing, tasting, worshipping your body “i hate you.” you sniffle and there’s a chuckle on the different end “i love you.” you smile, wiping off the tears wetting your cheeks with the back of your right hand “i love you too.”
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worldsendgirlfriend · 3 years
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work was annoyingly long for no real reason so i left after 6 which was kinda irritating but rn im on a little adderall and i just feel happy and energetic from it which is nice. i also got a fic just under 5k written mostly around 7-9pm yesterday but i finished it up at like 3:45 am during a little break i took after getting bagels done since i was like already at the end i just had a few more paragraphs i wanted to add to tie it up and do a quick skim for flow errors and i posted it around 4 when i was done. i was like rly embarrassed abt it tho even tho it was a lot of fun to write bc it was for a pairing thats like, Not at all popular nor have i even seen people mention it ever (but given its a qi ye ship so like any pairing other than xiyuan doesnt really get talked about at all lol, im sure someones considered this one before tho its not that obscure/far-fetched) so i was like feeling silly and had to fight myself a bit to not post it anonymously. but then i popped an addy right before my lyft came to take me home and when i got home itd already boosted my mood from like a mild 20 to a 95 and i was like you know what. only god can judge me. [makes ficpost for it on twitter]. and id alluded to writing sth for this ship before but had never explicitly stated what ship it was, in fact i had purposely Not said what is was bc again i was embarrassed and thought id be clowned on. which tbf wouldve been like, normal, and it wouldve only been in friendly jest but idk i was still like uuuu abt it. but i made my post and my oomfs that i talk a lot with on the tl were all like “bwaha i was actually thinking that this was the pairing u were talking abt!!” but nobody bullied me at all even in just a silly teasing way and it made me very happy actually even tho its like. kind of silly to have been even vaguely legitimately worried abt that at all to begin with but idk im still feeling good abt it. esp since i had a lot of fun wriitng it bc even tho it was like, at its core just kinky porn i am never not injecting elaborate and vivid descriptions of emotions and atmosphere and whatever characters’ emotional hangups and baggages may be bc its just sth i take a lot of pleasure in exploring no matter what rating the piece may be. and now i am just chillin and im gonna bite the bullet and really work on my coursework in a second here bc ive been procrastinating hardcore since being reminded of college is stressing me out a lot since i didnt do as well on my midterms as i wanted to and that kind of made me spiral a bit re: school so ive been like fjughhfd whenever i try to get myself to do my work. but i feel motivated and calm rn so im going to give it my best effort even if i have to take a lot of breaks bc i want to get it all turned in since both my classes’ assignments for the week are due today at midnight.
its very obvious im on adderall rn bc i already cant ever shut up bc im schizo but when you add stimulants to that i just straight up talk for hours without even taking time to breathe im sorry. anyway. how is everyone else doing on this lovely sunday morning.
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asakurahaos · 5 years
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hi! 19,20 and 21
19: A fact about your personality
i come off as a pretty laid back person but im waaaaaaaay more stubborn, angry and anxious than people think i am. like, every single person i told about my depression and anxiety was surprised, my parents included. only a few people actually experienced my stubbornness, and even less people my anger. im pretty sure that no people outside of my immediate family have even heard me raise my voice in annoyance, which is sth that im actually proud of myself for achieving, since its an emotion i feel very strongly and its not easy for me to control
20: What I hate most about myself
i hate that i procrastinate on everything. eating, sleeping, talking to my friends, watching shows, reading, going to the toilet, drawing, writing, playing games. literally everything. if i stopped procrastinating on like, 3 things on this list alone, id have a much better quality of life and my mental health too, probably
21: What I love most about myself
i love how open minded and accepting i am, and that the only reason for me to judge someone would be if theyre hurting someone else. i didnt see this as much of a positive thing until fairly recently, bc whats so special about not judging others? but then i thought about it and how ive seen people treat others in my country, how ive seen others treat each other online just bc of stupidly simple and insignificant reasons, i realized open mindedness is not something everyone is capable of and is actually quite a nice thing to be
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im answering this here bc ive received it multiple times and i cant reply to any of them, so im guessing tumblr is gliching? lol
2: Shoe size
i wear either 39 or 40 (european), depending on the brand, but i fit size 39 in most cases. ftr eur size 39 is us size 8&1/2, uk size 6 or 25.5cm, according to my latest sneakers xD
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strawbnie · 7 years
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so marsipan @whensunscollide​ tagged me in this !!! ILY MARS so im just gonna leave this under the cut and i tag anyone who wants 2 do this no pressure lov u all but also i tag all the groupchat pls Do This im thirsty!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
a - age: 17
b - biggest fear: mars said this before (mars i’m so sorry i’m stealing ur answer alkdfjkaljaf) but it’s definitely true for me, and that’d be being completely alone in the universe, which is always why when ppl ask me if id rather be immortal or not i’m like “nah i’ll pass” bc i am Not about to outlive the fuckening universe, and also, i’m pretty afraid of staplers when they’re being used by people who are not me, near me
c - current time: 20:58
d - drink you last had: i can’t remember if it was water or sour cherry juice  👌
e - every day starts with: existential dread
i’m kidding i wouldn’t even say that ironically i love being positive
e - every day starts with: me stretching until all my bones crack and a glass of water
f - favourite song: this is a very unfair question but lkdjfajdf probably blow your mind - dua lipa or put your records on - corinne bailey rae
OH!!! also agosto - alvaro soler and anything nelly furtado has ever touched
g - ghosts, are they real?: they sold me weed behind an arby’s how else would u explain it
h - hometown: athens 
i - in love with: if y’all don’t already know the answer to that then i’m doing something very wrong
j - jealous of: a lot of things !!!! it’s my weak point, but i’m working on it
k - killed someone: only by accident
l - last time u cried: oh god i cry all the time on the CONSTANT, probably this morning????? i teared up over a HAIM video or sth im ridiculous
m - middle name: sofia and harikleia after my two grandmothers
n - number of siblings: 0 but i have a weird story abt this which i’ll divulge in the tags
o - one wish: being able to grant true, genuine happiness and contentment like glitter; easy to spread, impossible to get off - to others and to myself
p - person u last called/texted: ooh man it’s jari @etoile-kid​
q - question you’re always asked: it’s usually food-related bc my grandma’s culture revolves entirely around her asking everyone what they wanna eat every 5 minutes she’s a sweetheart, or it’s gotta to do with the fact that i don’t eat meat like i get asked something about this almost daily it’s Making Me Done
r - reason to smile: freedom, books, flowers, and the moon
(also my friends and dippin’ dots)
s - song last sang: dream a little dream - doris day
t - time u woke up: around 10 but then i fell asleep until 1 screaming
v - vacation destination: i desperately wanna visit prague, or rome, but apart from that i just wanna spontaneously show up at all my friends’ doorsteps like whassup man haven’t seen u Ever 
w - worst habit: encouraging myself to fall into a pit of self doubt
x - x-rays you’ve had: i’m pretty sure i’ve had some of my head done but i don’t remember those bc i was TEENY but other than that My Foot
y - your favourite foods: tabbouleh salad, sushi, chocolate chip cookies, pickles, bell peppers
z - zodiac sign: virgo sun, aquarius moon, cancer ascendant
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