#supreme fuckin oof!!!!!!!!

[capnhanbers]

screams YOU'LL BE BETTER AND YOU'LL BE SMARTER AND MORE GROWN UP AND A BETTER DAUGHTER

(art for chapter 116)

[dirt-grub]

o_o

[mathieubellamont]

A kind of partial goodbye -

TLDR:

made a new account and probably won't be back on more than maybe once a year if that, thank you for everything

Long version:

Oh oof so. I've really needed to remake my tumblr for a while and due to some personal reasons I caved and did, expecting to be able to join this blog on my new account as a member, like with my art blog. I. Apparently cannot! Now I won't be permanently gone, I don't intend to abandon this account but.... I won't be logging in again unless it's to post on this account and, I'll be honest, two main reasons are going to make this supremely rare. A) I already only rarely post on this account lmfaO, and B) for a few months now I've actually been completely avoiding TES games. I've promised I'm not going to play any TES games other than oblivion, morrowind, and ESO because Skyrim (and Dragon Age, and I'm betting any money the next TES game which I shouldn't be buying) are really bad for my connection to reality - the catch is I don't play morrowind, lost interest in ESO, and my oblivion, love of my life, is just..... broken even when redownloaded from fresh. I literally can't play it physically. Which means I'm not going to have much of a use for this blog, am I.

I actually have had a TES aesthetics blog for a while now that's been a wip so I haven't shared, but it's really the only thing I can take with me to the new blog (I'm still not up for linking personals on this blog) so I'll still be around there - @lakeilinalta - but that'll probably be about it, if I continue using it

Dunno how long it'll be til I post again so, you know, sad as fuck I may not get to see this blogs decade anniversary in... Two years? One year? And again it's not a permanent absolute leaving Deleting Bye but.... This blog already was barely used so oof.

So, teveryone who's followed me since around the beginning or recently alike, hey, thank you! Running this blog was literally the most positive social media experience I have ever had bar maybe only my formative years growing up on deviantart, making art and stories with friends and sharing memes and staying up all night on call when I was a baby teenager a decade ago, which was fan-fuckin-tastic and, as I said, formative to my existence so that'll have to come first... But honestly my years here were formative too, and even with barely being on this blog it's followed me growing up into adulthood and yall are a bigger part of the experience of running it than I an it ever could be, so sincerely, thank you.

To everyone who's never gotten a reply from me/to everyone who was the last to reply in a conversation: I'm so sorry, I do that to literally every single person, not a single instance of this was ever personal - serious when I say not a single person, I know who's in there and..... Its never been personal. To everyone I used to be friends with/otherwise here and drifted from (or didn't bloody reply to LMFAO), yall are cool AF, stay funky, sorry I had to leave yall hanging but none of you ever did anything wrong so remember that

Hopefully I'll be on in my usual Every Few Months manner but I really can't guarantee it BC I changed blogs before I started this one way back when, thinking it'd be temporary, and never looked back so..... Yall stay safe out there. Thanks for being such a positive force in my life ✌️

[thecarrieonokay]

Macgyver 5x13 Thoughts

Once again guys, I warn you that there is no discernible structure to this rant. These are just the things that stood out to me. Do I even need to warn you about my language at this point?!

Overall feeling of this one was like a tasty, cozy three course Italian meal. Then espresso for afters. Kudos to the creative team for the way they were genuinely able to make Georgia feel like the Italian countryside.

“I have thick hair.” Yes Mac. We know. Everyone has noticed. Your hair is, frankly, luscious. EVEN when it’s slicked back with oil. 

The airbags- Desi: “That’s not gonna work.” [*it works*] ”Never mind! Super cool!” --- Sweetie, you gotta know this shit USUALLY works. It’s sort of Mac’s thing. 

OF COURSE Mac knows his Bond. That makes me SUPREMELY happy. Listen, I am SUCH a Bond nerd that I got the Goldfinger reference immediately (did a little sqeeeee! I literally have a vintage Bond poster in my house) and it REALLY irrationally pissed me off that Desi didn’t get it. I mean… the DB5? CU’MON GURL!!

“Now you see me, now you don’t.” RUSS. This cracked me up. Seriously. He’s doing what all of them would be doing if they could and he’s only doing it because he can get away with it because HE’S THE BOSS! SUCH a child. But he’s also a child with power and money. Case in point: his conversation with Riley regarding her past. A lot of people have gone into this already so I’ll just say that Russ has a lesson to learn here and Riley’s gonna fucking TEACH. YOU EAT THAT FORMAGGIO GURL. WE’RE WITH YOU!

MAC and his hands. That moment he couldn’t release the oil (“There’s another corner. This is our LAST CHANCE!”: way to up the tension, writers!). The beautiful post oil-slick vignette shot. The lingering shot where he’s holding his hand behind his back in front of Desi. Asking Bozer to look into his Dad’s cancer symptoms--- THAT is confessing his worst fear. OOF. That hurts. He knows they rely on him. He KNOWS if he admits what’s going on everyone will freak out… and “so many people have died to save (him)”. And what’s more, he and Riley SHARE this fear. Their hands are how they “help people”. They’re scared for themselves AND for each other. 

1994 hunter green JEEP WRANGLER? Of course. He’s MACGYVER!!

Also. The CIA’s top neurologist is a woman of colour and not an old white guy and I can’t tell you how happy that casting makes me!!

MAC & DESI moving in? Keeping medical issues secret? Dumbing down Macsplaining lingo? DUAL character voiceovers (fuckin’ love the twist there!! Character development and progress!!)?! This has also been talked about but I’ll just add that the physical comedy between the two of them was funny as fuck throughout the whole episode. Also, the story is progressing nicely showing that though they may be incompatible as a couple, they have forged a love that will see them through as friends and professional partners in future. (FYI, I think this may be the first ep where one of them referred to the other as a “partner”?)

RILEY & MAC are always in sync with each other. Especially obvious in contrast to the way Desi couldn’t stop herself from asking ‘why’ every time Mac told her to do something when she was first getting used to ‘being his hands’. I don’t think Riley had ever asked ‘why’. She’s always just done it. 

DR. DOUBLE-0-BOZE! MVP as usual. Legend. And his ‘subjects’ really are cute. But do we need to talk about the NO ANIMAL TESTING RULE?! Ok, ok. Exceptional circumstances. I get it. Kind of. 

MATTY. “She can pop in like that whenever she wants”. She’s calling out dirty Italian cops OVER THE PHONE. She knows ALL about Riley and her team of former felon hackers. She was in full-on protective mamma mode. She feels responsible. She would “never let her emotions dictate Phoenix strategy”... until she does. And she broke my heart at the end- I don’t think we’ve ever seen her look so helpless as she watched the broker being murdered. 

AND her team are disobeying her. Guys. The team is slightly fractured here. And as we all know, the team only work well together if they’re a solid, TRUSTING unit. This is a big plot point. 

Still no scene between Riley and Desi. I’m waiting patiently guys! 

This Monica Macer era is shaping up exactly how I hoped it would. I’m trying REALLY hard not to be devastated by it. Whatever happens, I’m confident the next two episodes will be exceptional. <3

ALSO SHOUTOUT TO THE FANDOM IN GENERAL!! You guys are AWESOME! So much love. Trending. Cast sharing the love. Petition is growing FAST! Paperclips flying everywhere!! It makes me happy to see. Just know if I could be doing it live with you, I would be. <3 <3 <3

Now I’m off to meditate so I can concentrate on writing and not the Macgyver cancellation for a bit...

[moki-dokie]

Spiderman NWH initial thoughts

Spoilers, obviously!!!

happy and may breaking up hurted :( yeah they were weird but kinda cute together

its the shirt!!! the shirt tony got him!!!!

DUM-E!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mj is way more feminine in this which, i mean, its neat to see her develop as a character but also i really really liked the more tomboyish mj but its still neat to see the subtle changes

MATT. FUCKING. MURDOCH. MY BELOVEDDDDDDDDD. I FOR REAL DID NOT EXPECT THIS AND HOLY SHIIIIIIIIT ITS MY BOYYYY!!!!!!

i was REALLY hoping the sanctum was snowing because stephen was just being an Extra Bitch like that. alas.

wait. was that zelma?? ZELMA WAS THAT YOU SHOVELLING SNOW???????

stephen and wong bickering like they’ve been married for 75 years. classic.

that mug. i need it.

wong is sorcerer supreme!!!! HELL YEAH ITS WHAT HE DESERVES!! (but also oh no something is gonna happen to him bc we can’t not have strange be sorcerer supreme)

stephen strange is the most intellgent DUMBASS motherfucker in all the multiverse. we don’t adore him for making good decisions though.

peter why didn’t you just fucking ask to have mysterio erased from memory. like??? 

honestly stephen and peter might as well just share the same fucking brain cell. idiots.

“CALL ME SIR” i’ve never seen stephen so irritated 10/10 amazing

oh hey its doc ock

oh hey its green goblin

wait why did octavious react like that to seeing him. something lgbt is happening here.

so we’re catching bad guys like pokemon now. got it.

bruh i do not remember this sandman dude. either he was hella unimpressive or i just need to watch that movie again.

goddamn stephen just straight up sentencing everyone to death like my guy. my man. you yourself told the ancient one to her face that your doctoring comes first. why is this 18 year old boy having to remind you that people can be saved??? maybe they die anyway when they go back because that is indeed their fate but damn at least try.

the contained spell is definitely a call back to what-if. i like it.

lmao at peter still having spider reflexes while out of his body.

strange literally took on a whole ass dimensional god and a titan and you’re telling me he can’t catch and outsmart a kid. really. REALLY. cmon now.

“the mirror dimension is just geometry” I MEAN. EVERYTHING IS IF YOU THINK ABOUT IT. PETER.

“ow” he says as the sling ring is ripped off his fragile hands. oof my heart. but also lol at how Done he is.

peter deadass just fuckin left him there with no escape without a clue about how long this little plan of his would take. kid has balls of absolute steel apparently.

love how peter is able to just. fix octavious. without any medical training at all. if ever there was a time he needed stephen’s medical advice it was then.

the baddies kind of making fun of how they got their powers. splendid.

may thinking octavious was part octopus was fuuuuucking hilarious. love that woman.

gee. didn’t see norman turning into green goblin again and sabotaging everything. not at all. couldn’t have been more of a twist. gasp.

oh my goD dafoe why are you LIKE THIS

THERES SOMETHING LGBT HAPPENING WITH THESE OLD MEN PLSSSSS

“HONEY” IM FUCKING DEAD

it only took them forever to finally use the iconic spiderman line, nice to see it switched up a bit.

aight marvel. we’re throwing some fucking hands now. first natasha, now may??? MAY??? jon favreau sacrifice your own goddamn useless character challenge fuck you. how tf is happy still alive. peter has been super close to happy over the years, it would have still given him motivation. especially after he just lost tony, you know. fuck. may didn’t have to die. anyway.

well hello there natural wizard ned. where did this come from

ANDREW GARFIELD BABEYYYYYYYYYYYY LETS GOOOOOOOO EVERYONE IS CHEERING HELL YEAH FUCK ALL YOU BITCHES THAT HATED ON HIS SPIDERMAN

LOOK AT HIM I LOVE HIM SO MUCH LMAO HE GOT THE COBWEB FOR LOLA BLESS

well damn tobey, age did you a favor didn’t it??? i love how his smile literally looks like :) 

both of them just immediately being concerned and protective for this peter despite not even meeting him yet. ugh.

peterrrrr :(((((((( babyyyyyy even in his grief and in need of medical attention he gets up to protect his friends from these two strangers.

honestly really appreciate this scene cause no one going through this heavy shit wants to hear anything remotely like “I know how you feel”. even if they do, you don’t want to hear it. but tobey!peter knowing what andrew!peter was trying to convey, and being the oldest just... tells our peter how it is. tells him about ben. gives andrew!peter the chance to tell him about gwen. both letting our peter know that they know how terrible loss feels without having to say it. 

god. fuck. andrew!peter really out here with the self-loathing and simply wanting our peter not to end up like that. that got me. get this man an oscar for that shit. it hurted.

our peter really should like. go to a hospital or something. this boy doesn’t stop.

i smell foreshadowing with ned actually becoming a villain

allllmost expected andrew!peter to mention a boyfriend when talking to tobey!peter. sad it didn’t happen. even just something like “yeah i’ve been seeing someone, he’s pretty great” and just move along. robbed, i tell you. marvel and sony let andrew be the bi spiderman we deserve goddammit.

ayyyyyy its The Meme!

LMAO the two peters being awstruck by the natural webbing

the statue of liberty getting caps shield is the dumbest fucking thing in ths history of this franchise

i could literally watch a 2 hour movie of JUST three spidermans doing normal things and having random ass conversations. i live for this shit. this is wholesome. this is funny. this is spiderman at his best.

oh my god our peter really just fucking implied tobey!peter shoots web out his dick and andrew!peter WENT RIGHT ALONG WITH IT. SIRS.

“WEBBLOCK” ARE YOU FUCKING ASLKGDHASLKdgha;skljdh KIDDING ME this is what they mean by boys will be boys

“i wanna fight an alien :(” andrew baby never change. also if sony is smart, you will very soon and it will be very gay.

i’m here for tobey basically being like BITCH SHUT UP YOURE AMAZING. and also ayyyy reference haha.

the two spidermans over 30 having back problems is hands down the single most relateable thing any superhero film has ever done

why do tobey and andrew have this chemistry what the fuck is happening right now aaaaNNNNDDD NOW THE BACK POPPING IS HAPPENING HELP????? thiS IS  NOT what i exPECTED christ

ok but our peter trying to sum up the last 10 years and like 25 films to explain who the avengers are and andrew!peter just like “ARE YOU IN A BAND???? :D” your honor i love him

but that begs the question of where tf is tony stark in their universes

love that andrew!peter continues to be genuinely nice to max after curing him and legit apologizes for not being black LOL what a goddamn sweetheart i can’t handle it. also, hellow foreshadowing for miles. spiderverse/amazing spiderman crossover pls????

there have been 2 buck ass nekkid dudes in this movie now. these peters are seeing a fair share of dick

“i’ve been falling over the grand canyon for 12 hours” hi loki would like a word with you, stephen. more of a laugh, really.

“did you just make a portal?” “yeah” “hm” same, stephen. my thoughts exactly.

for such a catastrophic spell you didn’t really secure it that well my man.

welp there goes the timeline. again. honestly stephen, this one is kinda on you.

cloak saving ned. nice. this boy is definitely gonna be a wizard.

andrew!peter catching mj and saving her and then him getting teary eyed when he realized what he did 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 my fucking heart. he spared our peter that pain. he probably relived that moment with gwen when it happened. bless his fucking heart. someone hold him.

d a m n our peter being murderous is kinda scary actually. but i also kinda love how the other peters just like, let hiim beat on norman for a while before intervening rofl

tobey!peter stopping him was sooooo goddamn symbolic. he could have just webbed the thing out of his hands or webbed him for that matter. but he put himself between them. he looked our peter in the eye and waited for him to make the choice to not kill. without a word. this peter will never have to live with the burden of taking a life because of that.

its not lost on me that our peter almost murdered norman on cap’s shield, and tobey!peter stopped him not even knowing what that shield means. hell yeah.

jesus again with this chemistry between andrew and tobey i cannot handle this pls help i’m shipping two of the peters

i need a still image of all the things coming through those fractures cause i was too busy CRYING to make anything out.

stephen getting choked up and saying “we” to include himself in the list of people who love peter broke me goddamn itttttt 

andrew!peter giving a peace sign before he goes back. what an icon.

damn they really erased the whole world’s memory just to give peter a coffee shop au with mj didn’t they.

damn they really like, stripped peter of everything but in the process made him wholy spiderman. he’s now lost ben and may. he’s lost his mentor. he’s lost his best friend. he’s lost his girlfriend. he’s lost his tech. now it’s just peter all by himself in his underoos. at least he learned how to sew finally. sucks he’s gone through so much trauma so young, but i’m excited to see where this clean slate takes him

i’m guessing the spell worked by simply replacing his identity with spiderman cause otherwise none of this shit would make sense. so the avengers know they saved the world with spiderman, not peter. pepper knows tony was partially driven to invent time trival to save spiderman, not peter. mj and ned think they were involved with some shit with spiderman, not peter. yeah, that would have been way easier to just erase mysterio lmao

also lmao poor eddie and venom. wonder who is gonna be our venom now tho hm

[shat-posted]

2020 Wrapped!

 well, that is ‘cause this is the first time I am getting Wrapped. I only got Spotify this year. BUT WHEN WRITTEN THAT WAY IT LOOKS SO AMAZING. 

Like, “wow 185! One Hundered And Eighty Five! Big number!! You luster of genres”.

Anyway, moving on.

OOf i only started metal, like, what 3 months back?. cool.

Next!

NOW THAT CAME AS A BIG SURPRISE.

i can’t believe but yea, take a look yourself.

I just realised-

I haven’t even actively started listening to Fall Out Boy since that long. Like, May16? pfffft. 

Believe me, it felt like I’d been listening since I was 13!

But looky here

It got that honour so long back. I really can’t believe it. 

19 fuckin’ streams in one day !

The others are:

i-

This looks so basic. (i am not basic ;-;)

It also looks so pleasing. They alternate between MCR and FOB and I dunno, it’s just cool.

Now ze artizts ;>

STILL, CANNOT BELIEVE THEY ARE MY TOP ARTIST. Like, yea it does make sense when I think about it, but I wasn’t thinking,

 “Top artist? FOB perhaps”. Y’know?

But then again, it could not have been anybody else, ‘cause if I do think about it, I have been going bonkers about Fall Out Boy recently. 

*gasps* maybe i’ve found my favourite band!

Onwards we move,

Again, same thing! Big number gets me excited before I can even think how big or small it is or what context it’s in.

I present to you, that supreme. . .

The most astounding thing about this is that I only started listening to Palaye Royale like 3 months back!

 And they fucking reached my top five 0-0 

INSANE

 Also,        AFYCSO, P.O, V&V, TWTLTRTD SUPREMACY!

Now, (hope i’m not boring you) . . .

“ ThaT cAME aS sUch A sUrpRiSe ! Oh mY God! I cAn’t beLIeVe it! LikE, wHO WoULd hAve GuesSeD??!!?��’’

                                                       --------

I said this before and I will say this again.

I DON’T WANT ALL THIS. I WOULD HAVE BEEN MUCH BETTER IN THE 2000s. THEY ARE PERFECT FOR ME. PLEASE TAKE ME THERE BEFORE I GET TOO WORKED OVER IT AND START LISTING WHY IT’S THE BEST.

And also, listen to this song called 2004 by Anthony Amorim. It’s great and says what I want to.

MOVING ON!

I was proud of it at first. Then I saw a story on Instagram.

 THAT PERSON LISTENED TO 11 EPISODES IN ONE DAY!

WHAT? I- HOW DOES THAT HAPPEN? IS A DAY EVEN THAT LONG ENOUGH?

okay the end arrives

is that a lot? i dunno. 

do i want to be over with writing this post? pretty much.

-Jasper

[surveys-at-your-service]

Survey #282

“daddy’s flown across the ocean / leaving just a memory / a snapshot in the family album / daddy, what’d you leave behind for me?”

What is your favorite type of dance? I like modern dances, especially those unusual or creepy with unique music. They’re the dances I look forward to watching in dance competitions. Do you find making scenes in public fun? Oh fuck no. Lemonade or pink lemonade? Pink is Supreme in so many ways. Where do you feel safest? At home, especially if Mom is here. Have you ever been to a gay pride parade? No, but I’d love to. Would you take your dream job if it were out of the country? No. I don’t want to move to Africa. What do you like to do when you're home alone? HAHA okay so I almost exclusively watch Unus Annus when Mom isn’t home because I will almost without a doubt cackle at least once, and… explaining why I’d be laughing would be WILD. UA is a fucking gift & I’mma miss it when it’s gone. What kind of music calms you down? My best bet is nostalgic music that I hold very close, like Ozzy. The soundtracks to SotC and SH2 are also magical when it comes to soothing me. Who did you last go to a park with? Uhhhh… probably not since I took family pictures for someone. Got some nice ones. Have you ever been robbed? Thankfully, no. Are you working, a student, both, or neither? Neither, and at nearly 25, it’s fucking humiliating. I��m thinking of appealing my disability case (you very rarely get it the first time), but of course self-doubt and anxiety just slaps me across the face again and again by asking, “Do you really need it?” That shit is agonizing. Very highly regarded people in my life agree that it’s realistic for me, at least at this moment, while I sort out my mental health. I don’t plan on being on it forever, fuck no. But right now I am, no matter what anyone says, a leech in my home. What's your favorite holiday? Christmas. I prefer Halloween’s “vibe,” of course, but I am much more excited and just thankful at Christmastime, especially now as an aunt with children who *understand* the holiday. Their joy and excitement is enough of a gift to me. It’s always really hard on Mom because she’s convinced she doesn’t do enough (she cries at least once like… every year), but my sisters and I always reassure her. It’s also a nice opportunity to see Dad and my stepmom, also with my sister’s family, and once again we get to see the kids so happy. But enough about them; what I love most about Christmas is I generally am able to put my troubles into perspective and take the time to remember I am, in the big picture, lucky to have what and who I do. And SNOW!!!!! If you can’t tell I’m stoked for Christmas. Do you prefer male or female friends? Both are great, but I’m more relaxed with female friends because of the whole “scared of men” ordeal. What's your favorite dessert? Biiiiihhhhh lemme get my hands on ice cream. Do you ever go on chatroulette or omegle? Noooo, I never did. That shit creeps me out. Besides, I’m shy. What kind of tea do you drink? None. Do you know anyone in a gang? Not to my knowledge… What color is your fridge? White. We decided to use the fridge already in this house versus our old one. Is your phone mostly on vibrate, silent, or ringtone? It’s just about always on vibrate. Do you own black sunglasses? I don’t own any sunglasses. Are you currently looking for a job? Fuck if I know. Not actively, but if something suitable magically popped up, I’d definitely pursue it. Do you watch MTV? No. Do you like to tell people who you like? Historically, I tend to keep my mouth shut about it to people who know that love interest unless explicitly asked, and even then, it depends on if I think they’ll keep their mouth shut. How often do you braid your hair? It’s too short to be braided. I very rarely had it braided beforehand. What color is your microwave? Black. Do you wash your face in the morning when you wake up? If I remember, especially if I’m groggy. Are you interested in the ocean? No more or no less than the average person. What's a big turn on for you? Keeping physical stuff outta this, I’m just such a fuckin sucker for being authentically romantic lmao. Have you ever thought about being a teacher? Heeeeeelllllll no. What's the first thing you do when you turn your computer on? Close out of the stuff that automatically pops up after it starts. Do you drink Gatorade? Ugh, ew, no. Do you hate when people replace 0's with O's? EX: 9:OO AM. Lol no, it’s honestly aesthetically pleasing in some formats. Did you hate riding the bus? Some of my best school memories are the long bus rides home w/ Jason so uh- Do you ever use XOXO in texts, letters etc..? Nah. Has anyone ever told you they liked you to your face? Yeah. Have you ever touched an elephant? No. Reading or writing? Writing. Do you have a childhood nickname? Mom called (and sometimes still does lakjdf;alkwe) me “Twinkie.” She gave sweets-oriented nicknames to all her kids. Have you ever had a Moon Pie? UGH they’re gross. I have this faint memory as a kid of a sweetheart babysitter my sisters and I had always offering us banana moon pies as a snack or dessert, idr. I’ve always hated anything banana-flavored. Has your car ever had troubles? N/A What's your birthstone? Amethyst. Would you join the navy? I want nothing to do with anything remotely related to war. What's your favorite board game? Battleship. Do you like chess? I’ve never played it nor even know the rules. If you’ve ever tried drugs or alcohol, what was your reason for first trying it? I was absolutely parched after a long, sweaty walk and was offered it to “try” by my mom without me knowing it was alcohol… the “WAIT NO STOP” from everyone was so quick lmao. It was just hard lemonade, so nothing super serious. Do you think you could ever have an abortion if you unexpectantly turned up pregnant right this second? I probably would. There is no fucking way I can emotionally handle carrying a baby right now. But I’d feel like absolute shit, even though I’m pro-choice. I just don’t want to picture myself in that situation. Is there a situation where you caved into peer pressure and regretted it? Probably. Although generally, I’m very resilient to peer pressure when it comes to something I really don’t want to do. What is your favorite video game console? Why? PS2, of course. I think the best games came from that era, many ahead of their time. Example, the original Shadow of the Colossus graphics massively pressured the limits of the software, and it still to this day blows me away. Sure, you have some lag in return, but the end result was just magnificent. I seriously, seriously, seriously hope I’m able to play the remake one day. When you lost your virginity, were you sober? I was. As of this minute, what is going through your mind? How I need a change and purpose in life so motherfucking badly. Where’s the last place you went? I was riding around with Mom, doing some errands. Are both of your blood parents still in your life? Yes. When was the last time you went apple picking? Never. Do you have a good relationship with your cousins? We don’t really… have a relationship. We don’t talk, we just kinda “exist” knowing we’re related. What was the last kids movie you saw? I watched some of Hotel Transylvania 3 with my niece and nephew. Do you know anyone who was born in Africa? When I was still in college, there was at least one guy in my class who was. Tutored me in math. Patience of a saint, haha. Have you ever been to an internet cafe? I actually have zero clue what that is. Has the year gone quickly for you so far? I’ve barely discerned 2018-2020, if I’m being honest with you. It’s just a lump of time where I’ve done jack-all. I mean yeah, school fits in there somewhere, but mentally I wasn’t in a wonderful place and haven’t been “happy” for a long time. My mental state has been the same for a few years. How many siblings does your significant other have? N/A Are you one of those people who can drink vodka straight? Oh, I hiiiighly doubt it. I loathe the taste of alcohol. Do you share a middle name with any of your friends? I legitimately have one of the most basic white bitch middle names in America, I know tons. How many pairs of jeans do you own? None. Do you know the name of the pharmacist at your local drug store? One, yes, considering Mom worked there before the cancer and is still in touch with this pharmacist. What flavor is your toothpaste? Mint. Are you sleepy right now? I think I’m permanently sleepy. Do you like crime films and tv shows? Not especially. Are you bitter about anything? Many things. What was the first online account you remember having? Neopets. My older sister helped me set it up when I was somewhere around eight. Do you use emojis? More than I used to. I’m gradually converting from emoticons to emojis, oof. What was the last type of soda you drank? Mountain Dew. Do you remember much from high school? I probably remember too much from high school, if I’m being honest. I remember far too much in far too much detail during the almost four years I dated Jason. Where would you go for the ultimate honeymoon? Probably the Bahamas, mostly for the pink beaches, aha. It would also be an incredible photography opportunity. Do you know anyone who has a strong accent that is hard to understand? My former best friend’s dad was so southern that yes, I could barely understand him whatsoever. If you had to get a tattoo tomorrow, what would you get? If you mean a fresh, new one and not a glow-up on the Mark tribute tat I’ve mentioned five thousand times, a tribute to Teddy featuring his portrait, pawprint, and the Powerwolf lyrics “and we’ll meet where the wild wolves have gone.” I’m going to be picky as a motherfucker about the design itself, though, so realistically it probably wouldn’t be tomorrow since I’d probably commission people to draw in varying styles. Ugh, I need that tattoo gun, my man. What was the last podcast you listened to? Do you listen to it regularly? That would be 4 Peens in a Pod (it’s… not a porn I swear, it’s Fischfuck and the boys lmao). I’m waaaaaaaaaaay behind on it, though. I watch so many different things now that I’m behind on like… everything I watch/listen to. Are you on a first-name basis with your boss? (or last boss if unemployed) I think I was with all of them? What was the last thing you wrote in a Word document? This survey. Because I combine short ones into Big Boys that I usually don’t finish in one go, I save my progress on it. Who do you miss and what do you miss about them? I miss a number of people and would rather not retrospect on them. What were the best and worst costumes you’ve ever worn? *shrug* Do you know anybody who is gay and married? I think so. What did you last take painkillers for? A headache. Are there any hobbies you want to get back into? Ugh. A whole fucking lot. I’ve thought quite a bit recently on how I miss video editing, but I just don’t have the motivation and dedication for that anymore. Have you ever shared a home with a friend? Yes. What’s the craziest or weirdest place you’ve ever slept? Nowhere that strange at all… Probably just like, the floor, but even then with blankets and stuff. What did you have for lunch today and who made it? I haven't had lunch yet. Are you allergic to anything? How did you find out? Pollen is pretty obvious, while serious discoloring and itching let me know I was allergic to silver. Have you ever been on a date with someone you met online? How was it? Yeah, I was visiting her for a couple weeks. It was nice. Who was the last very physically attractive person you saw? In ~real life~, probably some friend on Facebook. Do you know anyone who is deaf? We recently found out actually that my youngest niece is deaf in her left ear due to a massive buildup of fluid in it. I’m so ready to hear about her reaction to hearing normally once it’s taken care of. Has there ever been a person you regret ever being friends with? Probably at some point. “Ever” makes this question difficult. Do you think you have a good understanding on love? Yes. What do you think of your parent(s)? I love them both immensely while acknowledging their flaws. What celebrity do you think should of never become famous? I don’t care enough to think on this honestly haha. Did you ever get into the Twilight saga craze? What about the Harry Potter craze? Neither. What's your opinion about Katy Perry's song "I Kissed a Girl"? It was bold for its time, for sure. I’ve never minded it. Actually since coming out as bi I’ve known that this song has to be included in the recession dances of my wedding if my partner is female lmao. Do you believe in heaven? If so, what's it like? If not, why? I hope there’s some sort of total bliss after death if you’re deserving of such, but I don’t know. I definitely don’t know how I actually picture it. Even if there’s not, well, I’m assuming I just won’t exist anymore, so I wouldn’t be able to care anyway. Sometimes I hope that's the case. What email service do you use for your main (or only) email account? Hotmail. Did you ever believe in the Tooth Fairy? Yeah. I remember there was one time where “she” didn’t trade my tooth for munz and I was so mad lmao. Mom apparently forgot and slipped something under the pillow while I was getting ready for school. How I fell for it, who knows man, kids are wild. How do you feel about Taco Bell? I’m not a Mexican food fan, really, but I do love their cheese (with or without chicken) quite a bit. The cinnamon bite things are bomb as FUCK, too. I’m still mad tilted they took potato products off their menu tho because I used to destroy the fiesta potatoes. How often do you go on to YouTube? I’m like… always on it. Not focusing on it at all times, but something’s in the background. Back when Spongebob Squarepants was famous, were you interested in it? Well of course, man. What's your dream pet? Ugggghhhh a sunset morph ball python, probably. Buuut I’ve seen some over $2k with their rarity. More realistically, I really, really want a Brazilian Black tarantula. And an arctic morph hognose. I want a lot of pets. ;_; Who's been your favorite teacher growing up, and why? God, I have a lot, honestly. All things considered, the answer is probably Miss Tobey, who was my physical science teacher in high school. She’s an extremely close family friend now involved regularly in my family’s lives. She can be… difficult and says shit before thinking, but we love her nevertheless. What's your favorite fairy tale? Fuck outta here if you say Shrek isn’t one. Do you have a favorite pen? Uh, no… I barely ever use pens anyway. Has a child ever asked you a question you found difficult to answer? Yeah; it happens sometimes with my niece and nephew. Name five books you've read in the past year. I think I’ve read the first three Wings of Fire book within the same year, and I’m currently on the forth. Other than those, I started The Testaments by Margaret Atwood, but only got through the prologue I think before my focus shifted onto WoF. I still plan on reading it at some point, though. ^Are any of those books your favorite? No. The prequel to The Testaments, The Handmaid’s Tale, is very high up there, though. Are you a person that enjoys re-reading books? Not at all. Once I read it once, I’m done. There are VERY few books I’ve reread, and most of those were children’s books from when I was little. Do you have a favorite talk show host? Don’t watch any. Which sounds the most refreshing: a hot shower or a cold one? I prefer hot showers unless I seeeeeriously need to cool down. Have you ever made your own soap? No. Can you sleep with socks on? UGH NO. When was the last time you were pissed beyond belief and why? Ummm good question. I don’t know about *that* mad. Maybe when Ashley’s mother-in-law shared a massively homophobic article that condoned conversion therapy on Facebook that resulted in me removing her from my friends and RAGING to my mom about it. That was forever ago, though. Do you have a favorite candle brand? No. What is your opinion on taxidermy? I have… very mixed feelings. If the animal was hunted for sport, then it’s fuckin disgusting; you literally killed an animal with the intention to show off the fact you’re a goddamn murderer. On the other hand, taxidermy of naturally-deceased animals can be educational, and even… artistic sometimes? I don’t know. I can’t really pick one stance over the other. Would you ever want to own a body part in a jar? Actually, yes, particularly of fetal animals (that WERE NOT killed for the sake of displaying), but for the same reasons above, I’m not sure if I would *really* do it. They are incredibly interesting to me, more so than taxidermy probably, but yeah, I still question the morality of it. What is the worst thing you have ever done to your own hair? I don’t think I’ve ever really done a “bad” thing to my hair. What qualities of yours do you think could potentially harm a relationship? I’m very clingy and, in the beginning, very paranoid that you’re going to leave. Have any of your childhood habits carried over into adolescence/adulthood? I had AWFUL separation anxiety from my mom for a very long time as a kid, and I guess that evolved into my extreme inability to handle loss well, maybe. I’d say they’re at least somewhat related. What is the first band that comes to mind when I say 'dark'? Cradle of Filth popped up first. As far as relationships go, what are your biggest deal-breakers? Abuse, arrogance, and distrust probably top the list. Be honest: do looks really matter to you? Nah. It’s nice to be physically attracted to my partner, but it’s not a must. Have you ever done something simply because you were of age? No. Do you think it's worth it to tell someone you had feelings for them when you don't have them anymore? I mean, what’s the situation? Are you hanging out, talking about relationships casually? I’d say it’s fine then if it’s relevant to the conversation. I don’t think it’s worth going out of your way to tell someone you liked them if you don’t anymore, though. Have you ever done something you once thought you'd be too chicken to do? Y’know that ride at fairs where you go up really high on a circular thing with other people and then drop abruptly? That. I screamed like a mf lmao. I had to put a lot of effort into not yelling “SHIIIIIIIIIIIT” lmao. What's a food you love but don't get to eat very often? Stuff involving shrimp, ig. What's your favorite mythical being? Dragons! Have you ever felt a baby kick? I don’t think so, and I don’t want to, considering it’s fucking terrifying to me. I can’t even see a baby move without screaming and wanting to hurl. When is the last time you did something truly fun, and what was it? Who the fuck knows… What is the worst thing you've ever done when you were really angry? Said things I shouldn’t have. Are there any pills you take on a daily basis? If so, what? A lot. I can’t be bothered to go through all of them. At what age do you first remember feeling butterflies in your stomach around someone? I’m not sure. Do you feel that way around anyone now? I don’t think so. What is your main heritage? German or Irish, idr which is more prominent. What is a song that you hate to admit you like? “Bitches” by Hollywood Undead came to me first lmao. What inspires you to get off your bum and do something productive? More than anything, watching inspirational YouTube videos. What part of your body have you had the most problems with in your life? I suppose maybe my ears? I had tubes put in as a kid, I had an absolutely agonizing ear infection once, I had earwax adhered to my eardrum, and they've always been STUPID dry and flaky. Are you watching your weight? Like a hawk, but it doesn’t seem to matter anyway. :^) Have you ever become really good friends with someone you found online? Most of my closest friends I’ve met online. What is the coolest tattoo you've ever seen? You’re asking the wroooong person, lol. I’ve just seen way too many… Have you ever created anything artistic that you're proud of? If so, what? Lots of things; drawings, some writing, photographs, video edits… What do you like on your hotdogs, if you eat hotdogs? Just ketchup and mustard. What is a subject that makes you uncomfortable? Sex. What is a subject you can talk on and on about and not get sick of it? MEERKATS and MARK What is the worst thing someone could do to you emotionally? Tell me I’m weak. Or that my mental illnesses truly do make me unlovable. Just essentially do fucking not make me feel what Jason did. What is the worst thing you've ever done to someone emotionally? Said some extremely mean and potentially scarring shit.

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I’ve been super busy this summer (been having to practice driving every day) but I just wanted to tell you I LOVE LOVE LOVE all your latest fics!! I just saw fat from home & they mention Tony a good bit so I’m still pretty oofed but your fics never fail to brighten up my spirits! Language lesson was especially cute & sweet! I love seeing flustered Steve & how he couldn’t say it in English! I haven’t gotten the chance to read dtr 12 yet(don’t wanna read while in my mom’s company)but I can’t wait!

& trapped was so good!! Your fics are literally god tier, & you reign supreme! Stony fuckin owns my heart & you’re the best at writing them!

ooh.. driving... good luck with that!

AAAH I AM SEEING FAR AWAY FROM HOME THIS WEEKEND

thank you for all the sweet words, but I am pretty content with my queen status, no need to call me a god ;D

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My TLJ Pros and cons review (spoilers)

WOOT! i saw tlj!!!

PROS:

REYLOOOOOOOO! We are blessed my brethren!! Force bond, “you’re not alone”, sexual tension, badass fighting power couple, it’s all canon baby!!

Force bond. It was fucking perfection. I cant believe we called it.

Gorgeous visuals. Fuckin beautiful. Especially crait, that red and white, oof!

Curmudgeonly hermit Luke nope-ing the fuck out of his own legacy. Totally slamming fanboy devotion to him by rejecting his own legendary status.  Brilliant, and hilarious.

Poe and Hux have characters now! Im still not crazy about either, but they don’t annoy me anymore! happy day.

Poor put upon frog nuns

Fuckin puppet porgs. I love that they used puppets. Even when they were obviously fake it was still cute and funny.

Crystal foxes! On the subject of puppet creatures the foxes were beautiful and actually served a purpose! Cool!

Rose! She’s a cute patoot. Her first scene with Finn is their best scene.

BB8 is a bamf yo.

Snoke is fuckin dead. I didn’t know I wanted this but I like it. Fuck Snoke, my boi Kylo fucked u up good

KYLO KILLING HIS ABUSER. Fuck yeah. I love my son so much. Kill your true enemy. Fuck him up, the arrogant prick. You’re nobody’s puppet.

DJ. He’s cool.

Supremacy fight!!! Praetorian guards eat shit! Otp fighting back to back, best action sequence, best power couple fuckin shit up

Holdo’s light speed cruiser bullet just totally wrecking the FO hot damn

Luke’s astral projection. Cool, brilliant, a good twist. A perfect sendoff for luke.

YODA YOU LIL SHIT.

FINNREY REUNION HUG!!! LOOKIT THE PEANUTS SNUGGLING!

Rey Random is canon!!!! My dreams come true.

Kylo is literally Mr Darcy. smh.

THE FORCE BOND IS STILL THERE. SNOKE DIDN’T DO THAT SHIT, LYING FUCKER. THIS IS THE WILL OF THE FORCE.

Hux is everybody’s punching bag, but I think he’s about had enough. Cant wait for him to usurp the supreme leadership and be the final big bad.

CONS:

Sadly, Finn kind of did get the shaft in this film. Not much development, rushed plot. His character could have been handled better

Finn and Rose’s b plot felt clumsy and rushed. Mostly i think canto bight was a mistake. Too much hijinks and spectacle, not enough characterization, they had chemistry but I didn’t feel their connection. (the kiss was still sweet though, I think Rose has a crush on Finn and he doesn’t quite reciprocate, but he will )

A few moments that would have hit harder without the comedy one-liners.

Writing was a little blunt at times. Could have been more subtle.

I wish we got to see more of the force bond. The change in reylo’s dynamic did happen kind of fast. I can understand someone thinking it came out of nowhere if they’d never considered reylo before. If we just had a little more time with them...

DJ. he’s cool...but he kind of comes out of nowhere.

Maz. why was she in this movie? It would have been smoother to just skip her cameo and find the “master code breaker” without her input.

The constant use of the phrase “master code breaker.” Kind of cringey.

Overall pacing had a few hiccups. Not too bad but noticeable. Flipping between Rey and Finn’s stories got a little confusing cuz of the time frame disparity.

Verdict: i am pleased. very fun movie. very thought provoking. very reylo. much star. so wars. wow.

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I saw Cowboy Bebop trending on twitter and found out some pretty concerning news. How do you feel about a live action US adaptation, as a #1 CB fan?

god i hadn’t heard about that and honestly i hope it doesn’t fuckin happen.  like i know sunrise is in on it but like.......after the shitshow that death note became i just.......oof god i am not excited in the least. i also feel like cowboy bebop’s vibe will not translate well at all into live action.  has any live action remake of a japanese animated anything ever done well.....the answer is no.

and honestly in my mind cowboy bebop is like......untouchable.  plus the fact that shinichiro watanabe (the original director) isn’t in on it has me supremely worried.  and if yoko kanno’s music isn’t in it?  it’s gonna be shit awful i’m not even gonna spare the energy to be optimistic about it