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A Ring and a Promise

Today's the first day of the Eight Nights of Mulder. We're starting with: gold.

I snuck in a 24 Days of X-Mas Files Challenge prompt: family heirloom

Summary: Mulder has a very special gift for Scully. (Fluff, set in season 7; wc: 1,097)

Tagging @today-in-fic @eightnightsofmulder

With the last snow melting and Spring tiptoeing in, Mulder decides it's time for a change in his life, too. For weeks, he's been trying to find the right moment. Seeing Scully lift her face to the sun, a small smile playing on her lips, he can't wait any longer.

"I have something for you," he says.

"What did you say?" Scully turns to him, shielding her eyes from the sun.

"A gift. For you. Maybe... consider it a very late or very early Christmas gift."

"Is that becoming a pattern with you?" He loves her teasing. Lately, she's been doing it more often. And she's smiling more. A sight Mulder can't get enough of. "Christmas was months ago. I've had a birthday since then." She gently nudges his side.

"My present wasn't ready then."

"I admit I'm curious," she admits. "Where is this present?"

"In my pocket." It's been there for months. A few years ago, he considered giving it to her for the first time, afraid he was going to lose her. This time he's not afraid. He's not going to lose her. This is just to show her that she's his choice. That no matter what, he wants to be by her side. Wants her with him. For always. His smile is as shaky as his hand as he reaches into his pocket to take out the small box. Scully looks at it, then back at him.

"Mulder, I'm not sure that-"

"Relax," he says, "I'm not asking you to marry me. Unless you want me to." His wink is met with an amused eye roll.

"But I want you to have this." He puts the small box into her palm and closes her fingers over it.

"Can I look?" she asks him.

"Of course." He waits, watches her as the box comes open with a soft squeak. Scully gasps and stares at him open-mouthed.

"This is a- I can't accept this."

"It's yours."

"Mulder, this is a ring."

"Oh, is it? I thought it was sunflower seeds."

"This isn't funny."

"No, it isn't. I- Scully, I meant what I said. I want you to have this ring. After last year and the whole thing with Diana, with us doing IVF and- I found this again after my mom's death. Have I ever told you about my grandmother?" Scully, still staring at the ring, shakes her head.

"Let's sit down on that bench over there." His hand lands on the small of her back and they walk the small distance together, the golden ring catching a ray of sunshine as they do.

"My grandmother on my mother's side was Jewish. She and my dad never got along and after Samantha... I didn't see her often. The last time I did was shortly before I went to Oxford. She was old by then and sick. I was too young, or too much in denial, to understand that she was dying. She gave me this ring, making me promise that I wouldn't sell it, and would never let my dad have it. I thought she was crazy." He chuckles softly.

"She said this ring has been in her family for ages. I wasn't listening. You know me. I just wanted to get away from everything, even her. She'd always been good to me but I was young and dumb. What I remember is that she wanted me to give it to someone special. Someone I consider my family. I took the ring with me that day, barely looking at it. I left it with my mom. She asked me once if I wanted it back."

"Diana?" Scully asks, reading between the lines.

"Yes," Mulder admits. "But I laughed it off. I never wanted Diana to have it. My mom gave it to me after her stroke. Said it was time. Said that maybe I'd need the ring soon. And I almost did." Tears shimmer Scully's eyes when he glances at her face.

"I almost gave it to you back then." His voice cracks. "I would stare at this ring, thinking I should give it to you. But I was scared, Scully. I wasn't ready to admit it. I wasn't ready to stop fighting. It seemed too final. I could have - maybe should have - given it to you after you beat your cancer. But I- I didn't. But it's time, isn't it?"

"You said this wasn't a proposal." Scully sniffs and he puts his arm around her, pulling her into his side.

"It isn't, it's... a promise." Scully laughs and when their eyes meet, all he sees is love. It's no surprise to him. They don't need to speak the words to know they both feel it. Though he has said it. Even if Scully never says them, and he never dares to repeat the sentiment, it's there in everything they do. And he wants her to have something tangible to remind her.

"A promise to never ditch me again?" There she is again, teasing him.

"A promise to always come back if I do?" he offers in return.

"If I wear this, people will notice," Scully says, taking the ring out of its box. "I still can't believe it, Mulder." When she tries it on, she gasps, realizing it fits perfectly.

"I had it fitted. But I don't expect you to wear it. I just want you to have it. No matter how we define this - us -, you're my best friend, Scully. You're my family. There's no one else I can imagine giving this to. I don't want to either. It's you." Forever, he adds in his mind.

"I did not expect this," she says. "But- I love it, Mulder. The ring is beautiful and I appreciate the thought."

"Do I hear a but?"

"No buts, Mulder," she says, observing the ring on her finger. He does, too. It looks good. More than that, it looks right. His grandmother was right. There was a special person waiting for him all along.

"Thank you." She touches the side of his face and presses a long, lingering kiss to his cheek.

"No kiss on the mouth for a ring?" he jokes, grinning.

"Not in public."

"Does that mean I'll get another one later when we're alone?"

She gets up, the ring still on her finger. She offers him her hand and he takes it. Neither lets go as they start walking.

"You'll get another thank you later," she promises him, and he can't wait. For later, for tomorrow, and for every day he gets to spend with her.

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Anahera

Auli’i Cravalho x fem! reader

Warnings: detailed descriptions of pregnancy symptoms, labor + delivery

Part 2 of ‘Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye’

“Hi, lovey.” Auli’i sighed, sitting down on the grass. It was slightly damp, but she didn’t care. “I’m back, third year in a row. Here’s a new Pua for you as promised, and a bouquet of sunflowers.”

The leaves rustled in the wind, some insect was chirping in the distance but neither of those mattered more than getting to be here with you.

“Happy birthday.” She added on, “I have…some news for ya.” She chuckled, sniffling. Auli’i was already feeling the tears brimming in her eyes. She still hates that this was all she had left of you. Buried six feet under, beneath the headstone. She exhaled slowly, but shakily trying to calm herself down. “Remember the thing we talked about before we got married?” She spoke while looking right at the stone, “We froze your embryos. And uh, recently, I talked to my parents and Lauren and my team about it…about how I’m ready to use it now to have— to have a baby.”

Tears rolled off her cheeks before she knew it so she stopped talking for a bit.

“I thought they were going to shoot me down immediately and call me insane, but they were really supportive.” Auli’i laughed slightly, wiping her tears away then playing with the ring on her finger. “I’m happy being alone now, it’s way better than getting together with someone else knowing that it would never mean anything to me. Never more than what our relationship means to me, anyway.”

She gets quiet again, looking around herself. “I’m never truly alone, you know? I have my people with me almost always. And you? Always. You’re always going to be living in my heart.”

“I hope you have the best day ever, hm?” She smiled, “I know I will, getting to spend some time with you always puts me in a better mood. I love you, sweet girl. I’ll be back to talk to you again soon when I have updates. Maybe not gonna see me here in L.A. so often from now…but I’ll definitely still be talking to you wherever.”

She left after that, in a better mood than when she first got here. She just had the feeling that you were around, one way or another. Well, you let her know sometimes.

She’s found the joy of being alone, but never lonely. A lot of thought went into this major decision of hers to become a single parent eventually if the IVF worked out. Auli’i says she hasn’t got anymore to lose, but this…having a mini you would be a beautiful gain. You would get to live on, and she’d get to fulfill both your dreams of not just making a house into a home, but starting a family.

Auli’i meets up with Lauren at a restaurant nearby for lunch, where she revealed, “I told her about it. You know…that plan. It really feels right, so I’m gonna go for it. I want that.”

“I’m excited for you. And I’ll be here every step of the way.” Lauren beamed.

“I know.” Auli’i smiled gratefully, grabbing the menu off the table to take a look at it before they ordered their food.

Her team knew first, then she told you. Of course, her job was the reason why you knew second…technically. Going through with this plan meant that she would be taking a hiatus. And even though she was nervous about the public knowing, it had to be done. She didn’t want any speculation about her break, neither did she want to just disappear from the spotlight. Both of which seemed way more nerve wracking than the truth.

An anonymous donor was used in the process, but she did go with the best option in her eyes. One that she knew you’d agree with, also the one that seemed like the best for the future baby. As long as the process felt, she found herself feeling so lucky to be surrounded by her loved ones. So lucky that she had a whole village to back her up and help her out.

On the morning of her appointment for the implantation, Lauren tagged along while her mom picked them up and drove them there. At this point, her publicist has not spoken a word about the situation as it had been agreed upon that they would only break the news of her hiatus once she was done with the procedure and was ready to tell the public. “How do you feel?”

“Um, I don’t know. I’m feeling a lot of things, it’s quite uncomfortable.” Auli’i took a deep breath, “Feels as though I’m pregnant already.” She scoffed, opening the car door and getting in as quick as she good.

“Take a good nap when we get back.” Her mom reminded, “Really. Just sleep.”

She sighed, “I’ll try, but I’m really not comfortable right now.”

“You look tired.”

“We all are.” She laughed, “Woke up so early.”

Lauren drove this time, and her Mom sat in the back with her. Then, Auli’i got silent and she dozed off without another word. Her mom wrapped her arm around her to make sure she didn't fall over.

“Should we get some lunch on the way back?”

“I’ll cook, it’s okay. You just keep her company.” Her Mom answered, “There’s already some stuff in the kitchen I could use, so we can just go home…let her sleep properly.”

“Okay, sure.” Lauren agreed.

The rest of the drive was no doubt quiet, since neither of them wanted to disturb her rest. Once home, Auli’i headed straight to her bed, not a care in the world. The fatigue was starting to hit her hard already, having an early start to the day was also a contributing factor, but…yeah, it was going to be a heck of a journey ahead.

As Auli’i got comfy and wrapped herself in a cocoon in her blanket, Rocco walked into the room and jumped into bed with her, curling up right by her side. They got home around three in the afternoon and Auli’i only woke up at dinnertime. It was a quiet affair. Lauren, and Auli’i’s mom simply matched her energy.

“Mom, this dinner is amazing. Thank you so much.”

“No big deal, honey. I’m glad you’re enjoying it.”

Dinner was a small spread of their favourite Hawaiian dishes: rice, poi and laulau. It was always really nice to get a taste of home while away from home.

“I’ll stay here as long as you need me to, okay?”

“Mommy, it’s fine. Lauren’s here, I don’t want to worry you.”

“Nice try, honey. Don’t you think I’d be more worried if I was all the way in Hawai’i?”

A few months after your passing, she made her Broadway debut in Cabaret. It had a successful run, but it was also why she’d been living in New York ever since— instead of Los Angeles. She had to make a difficult decision to let go of her old apartment there, and she cried about it so much because of all the memories made there with you. Ultimately, she was okay again. Knowing that no one would be able to take the memories away from her. That physical roof that was once over your heads was nothing more than a safe space for rest before your adventures. This slightly more luxurious apartment in New York was no different, you were still with her…just slightly different than before. But that was obvious.

Rocco entered the living area, stopping by the leg of Auli’i’s chair and meowing to get her attention, “Hi, Rocco.”

After dinner, Auli’i hung around on the couch to read a book to let the food digest before she headed in for a shower to wash off the sweaty, sticky feeling of the day. Lauren was cleaning up in the kitchen with Auli’i’s mom in the meantime, and Rocco? He was somehow just following Auli’i around, just laying down outside the closed bathroom door.

Lauren was ready with pretzels and chocolate for a little movie night to wind down, Auli’i smiled, “You know me, thank you~”

“Of course, girl. Enjoy the snacks, our favourite movie is queued up.”

—————

[DISNEY & BROADWAY STAR ANNOUNCES INDEFINITE HIATUS]

‘Last night, Cravalho posted a lengthy statement along with a video greeting on her Instagram page to announce her break from the spotlight. While the reason is unknown, fans have filled the star’s comment section with questions and concern.’

Well, that was the gist of it. They decided to keep the reason unknown to let Auli’i have more privacy for now. It’s been a week since the implantation appointment and her symptoms have…worsened. She was more fatigued, more nauseated, more in pain. Pelvic pain was a real bother for her ever since the appointment, but there was nothing worrisome so she was happy as she could be that things were looking good.

Social media apps have been deleted from her phone after posting the announcement. She didn’t want to have that distraction. Or the outside opinions coming into her head to affect her moods.

“One more week, then it’s time for the blood test.” Lauren squeezed her shoulder encouragingly.

Auli’i nodded, resting her chin on folded arms.

“Still not feeling some food?”

“Nope.” She sighed, “I’m gonna take a nap. I can barely keep my eyes open.”

“Alright, drink some water before you lay down, babes.”

“I will.” Yawning, Auli’i went into her bedroom. She sat in her bed, rolling her head to give it a stretch, then, her arms. Lastly, she drank some water from her bottle cautiously before laying down to get some shut-eye.

The next day, the three of them went out since they were all bored at home, and Auli’i was feeling quite energetic and not as sick as she’d been. But, the feeling of nausea did come and go. So she was honestly a little annoyed.

A simple Target run got turned into a whole thing. They weren’t expected to get papped but it happened, and Auli’i had to get out. They were rude and invasive and pushy, all the things that she was hoping very much to avoid.

‘Why’d you quit?’

‘Are you not going to come back to acting?’

‘Aren’t you gonna tell us more?’

Her patience was running so thin, her blood was boiling and she felt like crying. Auli’i grabbed onto her Mom’s hand, it was like a signal. She wanted out, and now.

Lauren saw the panic and shift in her best friend’s demeanour. She ran back inside to get help, hoping they got leave through the back instead. After a few minutes, and a furious exclamation from Auli’i to the paparazzi to leave her alone and respect her privacy for her personal life, they finally let the three of them through. A worker apologised, and obviously felt bad…even though it wasn’t anyone else’s fault but the media’s.

Auli’i was agitated for the remainder of the day, also in a foul mood. Understandably so, but they were also worried for the obvious reason. “Honey, it’s gonna be okay, just…take a minute, take some deep breaths and keep calm, alright?”

“I know, Mom. I just—” Auli’i huffed, slamming her fist into a pillow. “I know, I decided to continue acting after that first movie, but I’m not an object that they can just judge or control. If I don’t say anything, I’m rude. If I stand up for myself because they’re making me uncomfortable and invading my personal space, I’m being a bitch. I don’t know how y/n did it, so much nasty things were talked about online about her. I tried to protect her from them, but I know she saw some of it. We were just lucky I wasn’t at this level of recognition back then.”

“Honey, what you’re feeling? Totally valid. But don’t hold onto it and affect your whole day, your body and your mind. Let it go into the universe, you’re doing your best and you’ve been doing your best. Some people just don’t have the heart. They’re not worth the energy.”

“I’m trying, but it’s not really working is it?” Auli’i chuckled wryly, placing Rocco in her lap once he jumped into bed.

“You got this.” Her Mom planted a kiss on her head, “Okay? You got this. We got you, everything will be fine. Feel what you need to feel, but let it go after. Move forward, you have a lot to look forward to.”

“Thanks, Mom. Guess I just needed a reminder to snap me out of the mood.”

Her Mom smiled, relieved, “Want anything specific for dinner?”

“Ooh, chicken soup sounds good.”

“Chicken soup it is.” Her Mom chuckled, “Okay, I’m gonna leave you to it. You need anything?”

“Nope, I’m good. Thanks, though.”

Closing the door softly, Auli’i was now alone. With Rocco laid in her lap, she stroked his head tenderly then gave him head scratches. “At least you’re sweet.” She laughed, “Thanks for being here for me all the time, bubs.” He meows, snuggling closer. “I wonder if you miss y/n as much as I do.” She mumbled to herself. He meowed again, like he was answering. “Me too, buddy.” Auli’i sighed, cuddling him closer. He doesn’t resist and just let it happen which was slightly unlike him, maybe he knew she needed it.

Auli’i wound up taking a short nap, with nothing better to do. She also wound up dreaming of you, so maybe she was missing you a little extra lately.

‘I know what happened today was crazy, but you’ll be okay. I’ll make sure of it.’

‘y/n, I…’

‘I know, some people are disgusting. But never blame yourself for living your own life. Getting groceries, getting food, going shopping. That’s daily life stuff. You’re human, you deserve to live a life you want. Not just coop yourself up at home. Don’t let them bring you down. You’re doing amazing.”

She immediately tackled you in a hug, holding you so tightly.

‘You got this, Li’i. I will be with you every step of the way.’

‘I miss you.’

‘I know, honey. I see you. I miss you too. I’m so proud of you. Please keep going, continue living this inspiring life that you’ve made for yourself. And now for the baby too.’

‘What? You mean—’

‘The implantation was successful. You’re pregnant.’

She then jolted awake right after she kissed you goodbye to the sound of something getting knocked off of her desk. Rocco kicked the tissue box off it. Auli’i relaxed when she realised what it was, then jokingly chided him for scaring her. He ended up laying on her chair just staring at her. Auli’i walked up to the chair, picked him out and walked outside to the living area to get him a treat. She was now calm again, and happy. Thanks to that little dream she had.

“Hi, you.” Lauren greeted with a little laugh, “Want some chocolate?” She held out the bag of M&M’s in front of her, Auli’i grabs a few pieces and put them in her mouth, “Thanks. I’m uh, feeling better. So…don’t worry.”

“Ah, it’s normal that we worry sometimes. But I know, you’re okay. Even if you aren’t, that’s okay too because we’re right here with you. Just like you’ve been here for us, you know?”

—————

Like you had told her, she was indeed pregnant. She was overjoyed, but also in shock. She couldn’t believe it, but she knew deep down it was going to happen. The dream you gave her was like a reassurance, but seeing and hearing the blood tests results were like cold hard truth slapping her in the face.

From that point on, biweekly appointments began. So did morning sickness which was a pain in the ass, as she would say. But that was merely the beginning of a whole new chapter that would be as daunting as it was rewarding. Some days were so hard symptom-wise, she was sobbing herself to sleep. Other nights, she just missed you and got emotional — she didn’t tell anyone though. It was a lot, but she’d always feel better after crying.

10 weeks in, and it has already been a rollercoaster of emotions. Her birthday was coming up, and the first thing she thought of doing was going to visit you. Unlike her usual plans of going with either her Mom or Lauren, she chose to go alone, with sunglasses on and everything. She only took them off when she was sure she was alone. Having to fly to Los Angeles every time she felt like visiting you was tough, but she didn’t mind it.

“So…you were right. And honestly, this is going to be the best birthday present I’ve ever had.” She chuckled sadly, “It’s been…feeling like the days are so long because I’m like— nauseous all day but I know it’s going to be so worth it. Nothing special going on, I just wanted to talk to you for a bit because I miss you, so— I don’t care, I just want to sit with you for awhile. But um, everything’s well with the baby so far. Just went for a check up yesterday. How are you, sweet girl?” She asked, looking up at the sky, it was clear but not scorching. “Having a pretty strong feeling that it’ll be a girl. What do you think?”

“You know, it’s funny— Rocco’s been following me everywhere at home since I went for the very first appointment. It’s like he’s trying to protect me, or he knew earlier than I knows? Maybe you’ve been talking to him, huh?” She joked. “I trust you’re doing well, baby. Thanks for uh, giving me that little dream the other day. It was good to see you, even if just for a bit.”

It was still…easy for her to be out and about at this stage since she wasn’t exactly showing. So, more comfy attire usually did the trick. This day, she decided to visit both your usual haunts in the city. The first stop would be your favourite bagel shop— she hasn’t been back here in awhile, but the staff still recognised her on account that you used to come here with her all the time. She got her food and ate in a quiet corner of the shop, away from the crowd. Setting her sunglasses down, she cracked open a can of Fanta, taking a sip of the crisp, cold beverage. Taking in the calm amidst the chaos, she was at ease, enjoying her lunch in this homey spot before she carried on to her next destination. Pushing her shades on, she discarded the foil in a trash can as she left the shop, the door shutting behind her as she got engulfed in the slight warmth of the upcoming summer season.

It was a quick weekend trip, so she was back in New York soon enough. Living in this city allowed her to walk pretty much everywhere, so she decided to just…walk and see where her feet would take her. Being on a hiatus has given her a lot of free time, so she was in no rush to get home. She even winded through Times Square and got inside the Disney Store, which instantly reminded her of you. You loved coming here and would always want to leave with a new purchase. Even if you didn’t say it, she’d still get you something. After roaming the first floor, she stepped onto the Tangled-inspired escalators to get upstairs. “Maybe I could start getting some things for the baby.” She muttered under her breath, fingers feeling the material of the array of plushies on the shelves before her. A kid stopped next to her, excited to pick our his new toy, then he looked at her. She looked back, admittedly a little nervous about being recognised. But he only smiled and focused on the toys again. Relieved, she clutched onto the Simba plushie she picked out and made a beeline for the checkout.

Next, she hopped on the subway then walked home, glad to be able to rest her feet. “Mom, I’m home.” Auli’i went up to her and gave her a hug. “Hi, dear. Seems like you had a pretty good day, huh.”

“I got the baby something. I dunno, just felt like it.”

“As you should, honey.”

“Is it too early to start buying things for the baby?”

“It’s up to you, honey. Do it bit by bit, no rush with that, you know?”

“I just, I mean, it’s not…guaranteed.”

“Oh, you’ll be just fine.” Her mom hugged her, “I know it. Everything’s going as expected, so don’t worry.”

Auli’i smiled, “Thanks, Mom. I’m gonna go take a shower.”

“Alright, I’ll be right here if you need anything.”

Since Lauren was on a trip to Connecticut with her friends from school for a week, it was just Auli’i and her Mom for the remaining five days. So, while the peace was nice, the apartment was quite quiet…too quiet, in fact. Rocco greeted her by circling her legs once and snuggling up against it. “Hi, bubs.” Auli’i bent down, picked him up and put him on her bed. “You’re gonna be waiting right here for me, aren’t ya? I’ll be right out.”

As always, Rocco was right there waiting, asleep. But still, waiting. The two of them then curled up in bed together, scrolling through Pinterest and various other sites on the internet so she could figure out how to design the baby’s nursery.

“Wanna help me pick a colour for the walls, bud?” She laughed, he just meowed, displeased/ So, she scratched his head, “Kidding.”

She soon moved on to looking at names. Even though it was technically too early to tell, Auli’i knew she was going to be right. The baby was going to be a girl, and well, mainly thanks to quite the vivid dreams she’s been having lately of her, you and a baby girl. Right now, she was trying to recall the names mentioned in those dreams. She remembers loving a particular one a lot.

“What was that name?” She asked no one in particular as she sighed, still giving Rocco head scratches. Auli’i even got to the point of looking up Hawaiian girl names on Google, but that wasn’t it. And before she got too annoyed, she decided to stop looking for it. It was bound to come back to her, right? If it was meant to be the name, it would come back. Setting her laptop aside, she went to the kitchen for a drink of water and of course, apparently so did Rocco.

“What are you up to?”

“Not much, just looking at some nursery design inspiration, then I was trying to remember this one name that was revealed to me in a dream I had.”

“Aw, it’ll come back to you. Don’t sweat it, that’s how I got your name.” Her mom answered with a chuckle, peeling her focus away from the TV.

“I know.” Auli’i smiled, sitting down next to her. “Mom, can I ask you something?’

“Yeah, of course.” She clicked pause on the movie, “What is it?”

“Why are you okay with this?”

“Because…I trust you. You know what you want and when you want it. You have done more than enough thinking and preparation for it. Family’s where the love is, doesn’t matter if she has just you…or more caretakers. What matters is you’re willing to go all-in and love and care for her, no matter what the circumstances are. She’s not going to be any less loved if raised by a single mother.” She winked.

“Got you, Mom. You could do it, and so can I.” Auli’i laughed, sniffling, “Plus, she’s gonna have a whole bunch of uncles and aunties, anyway. Here, back home, in L.A..”

Her Mom nodded.

“Oh, my God. Anahera. That’s the name.” She gasped softly.

“That means…that means angel in Maori.”

“Oh.” Her mouth remained slightly agape, in surprise. “Wow.”

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“So, I’m back here again. Baby girl’s growing well, keeps kicking me though. Also settled on a name, you’d love it. Anahera.” Auli’i stood leaning against a tree right by your resting spot. “I’m announcing the pregnancy tonight since I can barely hide it anymore and I want to beat the press to it.”

“Thought I might find you here.”

“Lauren.” She gasped, turning around, “Didn’t know you were gonna come here.”

“Have some free time, so I thought I should come here and say hi. I don’t fly here often, so I might as well.”

Auli’i nodded, standing closer to her and resting her head on Lauren’s shoulder. “Sometimes I feel like I should move back here. Flying to and fro to see her feels kind of…much. You know her parents suggested a cremation? So we could have her at home…with us but I pushed for a burial so she could have a resting place.”

“I mean, it’s really up to you and where you can see yourself raising Anahera.” Lauren pointed out, “She’d be closer to her y/n here, physically- but New York’s where you two really loved to go and wanted to live in.”

“She never got to see me on Broadway.” Auli’i mentioned, “I wish she could’ve.”

“Trust me, I believe she did. She’s everywhere with you.”

Auli’i smiled, mumbling a sad thank-you. “I know, but I just— I wanted to see her in the crowd, you know? I wanted her to meet me backstage, at the stage door, go home together after a long night and just cuddle. Now all of that’s in my imagination.”

Lauren rubbed her back, the snaked an arm around her waist. “God, I’m gonna cry.”

“That’s okay, babe.” Lauren assured, “let it out.”

“There was so much she wanted to do but couldn’t. We had to prioritise her bucket list.” She exhaled shakily, “I hope I did it right by her.”

“You did, Auli’i. You did. Blaming yourself is the last thing she wanted you to be doing. You gave her everything you could, everything she wanted. She fought her hardest and enjoyed as much as she could. She wants us to take care of each other and be happy. That’s what we’ve been doing, and she’s been resting, free, not in pain. And now…you’re gonna meet Anahera in a few months. She’s…part you, and part her. She lives on this way, too, you know.”

“Yeah.” Auli’i sniffed, “That’s why I decided to go forward with the plan. I want a child that’s like— a mini her. We planned to do that anyway, I feel ready. But some days I just feel awful because of hormones. I’m good, let’s go back to the hotel.”

“Alrighty, should we get some italian ice on the way back?”

“Mhm, sounds great.”

————

[AULI’I CRAVALHO ANNOUNCES PREGNANCY WITH LATE GIRLFRIEND’S CHILD]

Scoff.

[ON BEING A SINGLE MOTHER—

She didn’t even finish reading that headline. She didn’t even mention these words in her post.

[HIDDEN PREGNANCY: AULI’I—

Yep, that’s enough internet for the day.

Rocco rubbed his head against her leg to get her attention. Auli’i snapped out of her mood and looked at him, she smiled, “Hi~ Hi buddy.”

Rocco laid down in her lap, snuggling up against her forming bump. The baby kicked a little, startling Rocco but making Auli’i chuckle. “That’d be the baby, bud.”

He didn't react to that and just laid there comfortably, enjoying the head scratches that Auli’i would give him every time he laid down near her.

“You want room service or should I drive out to get some food?” Asked Lauren.

“Chicken nuggets?” She asked hopefully.

Lauren snickered, “Would’ve guessed that too. With ranch and spicy mustard?”

“Swap the ranch with sweet and sour sauce.”

“Alrighty, you wanna come with?”

“No, not really.”

“That’s fine, hun. I’ll be back soon. Stay here, okay?”

“Not going anywhere, my friend.” She laughed humorouslessly.

Their time in L.A. was soon over, she was back home in New York with Lauren and her mom, a day away from her next appointment with her doctor. The second she stepped out into the arrival hall with Lauren? Pure chaos. Yelling and shoving, obscenities spewed from paparazzi’s mouths when Auli’i chose to keep quiet and avoid the cameras with a large oversized hoodie and sunglasses.

The two friends clung onto each other for dear life and squeezed their way through the crazy mob of people. So yeah, it was damn hard not to get affected by it all. Angourie picked them up outside and successfully drove them away from the overstimulating, flashy mess. But it was too late, a panic attack quickly unfolded before their eyes.

“Can I hug you?” Lauren asked quietly. Auli’i had her eyes screwed shut but she did agree to that physical touch. Because she knew it’d help her calm down, but right now. She felt like her heart was going a hundred miles an hour, her head hurt and her arms and legs felt all tingly…she felt terrified of all this especially when she remembered that she was pregnant. And how distressing this could be for the baby. Well, that only made her start crying.

“Auli’i, deep breaths. Please.” Lauren said, soft but firm, “Deep breaths, in and out. Honey, come on— follow me. In…and out. In and out, that’s it. Look at me.”

She does, she slowly looked up and at her best friend, trying so hard to find her breath again. “Look at me, and breathe. You got it, okay? You’re okay, you’re safe here. We’re going home, and I’m going to be right here with you.”

“I don’t want this life for Anahera. I don’t want her to be watched like a hawk everywhere she goes. But I don’t know what to do. Even if I quit the business, they’ll still find me.”

“I hear you, but for now, one day at a time.” Lauren hugged her tighter, “We’ll figure something out, move to a gated community, fly private, delete all socials…anything is possible. When there’s a will, there’s a way.”

“I’d still need a job.” Auli’i scoffed, “So we’ll open up a bookstore, a bakery, a coffee shop. Anything.”

“You always humour me.” Auli’i managed a laugh, “Thanks, Laur.”

“Hey, you’re my bestie.” Lauren replied, “Of course.”

“I feel better.” She swallowed thickly, “I do have to throw up though.”

“There’s sick bags in the seat pocket right in front of you.” Angourie told them quickly. Auli’i was so unfazed by the act of being sick, but still felt awful afterwards with tears stinging her eyes. “Do you want some mints?”

Auli’i inhaled sharply, “Do you have gum or something?”

“I do, yeah.” They stopped at a red light, Angourie rummaged through the glove compartment and found two types of gum, handing both to Auli’i to let her take her pick.

“Thanks.” Auli’i gave her a crooked smile, “Looks like it might be awhile, mind if I take a nap?”

“Not at all, rest up.”

Rocco was in the empty seat next to Lauren, who picked him up after Auli’i got settled. Angourie took the sick bag and quickly ran out to dispose of it in a trash can since the traffic was stagnant at this hour.

They got home over an hour later, and Auli’i was desperate for a nice shower. “Stay for dinner.” Auli’i told the Australian, “I insist. As a thank-you for picking us up and the puke.”

“Well, I get it, so don’t worry about it. And I will stay for dinner, that sounds nice. Be careful in the shower.”

“I will be right back to get dinner started. And Lauren, I’m serious. Let me handle dinner tonight, I wanna do something.”

“Kitchen’s all yours.” Lauren answered comically.

Over dinner, Auli’i’s mood got better. She’d forgotten about the whole debacle at the airport and was simply happy to be home and safe. Angourie had to leave after a chat since she had an early day on set the next day. The two best friends bid her goodbye and carried on with their usual night routine.

Auli’i gave Rocco his dinner then relaxed in bed just watching him eat in his corner of the room. With a hand caressing her bump, her eyes focused on the SVU reruns on TV that she somehow chanced upon. She never really watched it unless you were, and she’d only watch it with you because it was one of your favourites.

And then…she got a middle for Anahera. Once she stopped on the channel with the reruns, she heard, ‘Olivia Margaret Benson’ uttered by one of the actors. Margaret sounded nice, and it’d be a little nod to one of your role models. Maybe you wanted her to hear that and consider it. Either way, Auli’i was contented.

————

“You said you wanted a home birth?”

“Yeah, if it’s possible, that’s what I want to go for.”

“All your checkups have been perfect, you don’t have any risk factors that would have me advising against what you want.”

“That’s great.” Auli’i beamed.

Dr. Rivera smiled, “I always urge moms to go for what they want and what feels right. Unless there are risk factors involved that would require me to advise them otherwise. Do you have any questions before you leave?”

“No, actually.”

“Alright then, keep doing what you’re doing. You’re doing amazingly. Nothing to worry about. I will see you again in two weeks.”

“Thank you, see you then, doc.” Auli’i takes the printout of the ultrasound photo from the doctor with a smile and briskly left the consultation room.

She was in a good mood, even being papped didn’t bring her down. What she could control was how she reacted and responded. She had sunglasses on and comfy clothes, kept herself and the baby safe. Even if they had questions, her answer would be a default, ‘No comment’, then she would quickly move away from whoever it was.

Auli’i even spent some time in a crowded FAO Schwarz and had a blast. She got Anahera her first teddy bear. ‘Two stuffed animals would suffice for now’, She thought to herself as she proceeded to make her way home. Subway, then a walk, as usual. The chilly weather was nice, so she was really taking it all in.

Apart from her now somewhat disrupted sleep at night due to having to pee so much, she felt lucky that she was having it this easy. She wasn’t in too much pain, even when the final trimester started to approach. Auli’i just felt excited to be so close to meeting her baby. All her anxiety and nerves were dying away too as her excitement took over. When month seven started, that’s when she started building furniture and decorating the nursery with Lauren and her mom. Seeing all the things come together and filling up the once empty space, reality hit her for awhile and she teared up thanks to the raging hormones…but they were happy tears. “We’re all set.” Her mom declared after three days of work. Three walls were painted a light cream colour while one by the crib was kept white but had tiny little rainbows scattered all over it. A nursing chair was right next to the crib, and a changing table was right up against the wall by the door. It was simple, but they all loved the final product and couldn’t be more happy with it. Shutting the door, Auli’i joined her best friend and mother in the living room to have takeout for dinner before retreating to her room early. The fatigue was prevalent and they just let her do whatever she needed. Lauren followed her inside her room, though. “Hey, what’s up?” Auli’i obviously saw her.

“Nothing, just wanna spend some time with you.” Lauren sat down, Rocco walked in, wanting to join. So, Lauren picked him up and put him onto the bed. He settled down next to Auli’i, she gave him head scratches. He purred happily.

“How ya feeling?”

“Tired, but excited. I can’t wait, really. It’s starting to feel like it’s taking forever.”

“I know, but you’re so close.” Lauren patted her knee. “You mind if I feel?”

“No, not at all.” Auli’i giggled softly, “Go ahead.”

Lauren grinned excitedly and gently caressed the bump, “Hi, little one. It’s your auntie Lauren.” Took a second, but Anahera kicked in response, quite a few times, it was like she was excited. “This is how I know I’m close.” Auli’i joked, “The kicks are starting to get a little bit uncomfortable.”

“Girlie’s probably running out of room a little, huh.” Lauren continued, and she got another kick. “That’d be a yes?”

“Yes.” Auli’i agreed, “I’m quite uncomfortable, baby girl. But it’s okay, that means you’re growing really strong and healthy. And I cannot wait to meet you.”

“Only eight more weeks.”

“Gonna be a long eight weeks.” Auli’i sighed.

Lauren slept in Auli’i’s bed that night, but they talked for hours before Auli’i fell asleep first.

————

About a month before her due date, there was a small, intimate baby shower where her family and yours were guests…along with some of her closest friends from work. She was a little achy and thus not in the best mood for the later half of the gathering. But, she pushed through and remained civil, mingled, chatted, laughed…until she couldn’t. Thankfully, some guests started to leave already since they had a bit of a commute back home or to their hotels.

It was past nine-thirty, Lauren was washing dishes, Auli’i’s mom was vacuuming. And Auli’i? She was taking a warm shower, hoping to relax her sore back before she went to bed for the night. While drying off and getting dressed in her pyjamas, she noticed in her reflection in the mirror that her bump seemed lower now. And walking did seem more uncomfortable than before…she was really feeling the pelvic discomfort. Well, pain, honestly. And it was nothing like she’s ever felt before— obviously.

The next morning, she woke up feeling worse than ever. Her stomach was upset, her back hurt…not to mention she could barely walk thanks to the baby’s drop. She had all the signs that pointed to labour being in the near future. True to how she was feeling, labour officially started when she timed her pains and found them to be regular for the last two hours. Still, she was calm. And she hadn’t told anyone yet. Well, except her doctor. Doctor Rivera was first to know. And Auli’i got the all clear to just chill and keep timing the contractions. She decided to get up and go to the kitchen to get a snack and fill up her water bottle.

“Oh, fuck.” She mumbled feeling another wave of pain wrap around her abdomen.

“Sweetheart, what’s wrong?”

“I’m okay, Mom.”

“Are you sure? Maybe you should sit—”

“I don’t wanna sit.” She answered curtly, “It’s — It’s uncomfortable.”

“Are you…sure you’re not in labour?”

“What? I am.” Auli’i answered calmly, “I already texted Rivera about this.”

“Oh, my God.” Her mom gasped, flashing a smile of excitement.

“Relax, Mom. All’s good, still very far apart. Fifteen minutes.” Auli’i managed a small laugh as she ripped open the mini pack of pretzels to snack on. “Fuck, why do I gotta puke again?” She groaned, swallowing the sick rising up in her throat to no avail. She threw up in the trashcan nearby and just nonchalantly rinsed out her mouth then proceeded to walk around the apartment.

“How long has it been since it started?”

“About two hours.” She said, ending her sentence with a quiet ‘shit’ muttered under her breath.

“You mentioned she said you could eat until you get into the active stage, right?”

Auli’i nodded, hiding her face in folded arms on the kitchen countertop.

“You wanna eat a proper meal? I can make you something real quick.”

“No.” She grunted, “Feel sick, don’t wanna throw up more. Maybe later?”

“Alright. How can I help?”

“I’m good, Mom. Just need to do my own thing I guess?”

“How about I help you do your hair, to keep it out of the way?”

Auli’i stood up straight, “That’d be really nice, Mom. Sure.”

It didn’t take long, though they did chat the whole time to keep Auli’i distracted from the discomfort. “Thank you.” Auli’i smiled. “Not a problem.” Her Mom gave her a hug then went to put the hairbrush and hairties away, “Want a popsicle?”

“Ooh, yes please.” Auli’i gasped softly, “Wait, what time is it?”

“Few minutes past 1pm. 1:04.” Her Mom said, “Okay, here you go. A popsicle.”

“Thanks, Mom.” She happily unwrapped it and took her time enjoying the treat while watching some TV, all while logging in a contraction and its duration everytime she felt one.

“So this has been going on since what, 11am and you didn’t make a peep?” Her Mom asked, feigning offence.

“I’m okay, mom. You’re right here, anyway.” She said through laughter.

“Well, true. But my God.”

Things progressed a little on the slower side, but again, was expected for a first time. Auli’i even peacefully slept for two hours until Lauren got home from work and heard the news from her Mom. “What?”

“Been about four hours. She’s just…chilling.” Her Mom laughed, “It’s impressive.”

“I wanna sleeeeep.” She called out from the room, “Let me sleeep.” She whined.

“Sorry, I just got home.” Lauren apologised with a sheepish smile. “How are you doing?”

“Sick and tired.” She answered bluntly, “Will you get out of me soon, pretty please?”

“How are you not in any pain?”

“Oh, trust me. I’m starting to feel it.” She scoffed, “How was work?”

“Easy.” Lauren shrugged.

“Oh, good. Hey, you’re gonna stay in the room with me right? Later?”

“Yeah.” Lauren squinted at her, amused, “I already agreed to that.”

“I know, just making sure.”

“When’s your doctor coming?”

“Don’t know yet, contractions are still not close enough together. Need to be five to seven minutes apart before anything happens. Can you pass me my water bottle please?”

“Yeah, here.”

Auli’i took some sips and quickly told her thank-you. “I take it back.” She groaned, “It’s getting bad.” Reaching for her phone, she opted for a call instead of texting. “Oh, my back is killing me.”

“How far apart are they now?”

“Like— nine minutes?” She gulped, recalling the number in her notes.

“Are you alone?”

“No.”

“Good, have someone put pressure on your lower back to counter the pain.”

“I’m on it.” Lauren spoke up and immediately helped.

“Oh fuck. I spoke too soon, didn’t I?”

“It’s alright, you’re doing great. I’ll be there soon, just keep me posted.”

“Great, can’t wait.” She answered sarcastically. Lauren bit back a laugh. “What.”

“Nothing. Is this good, should I go harder?”

“That’s fine.” She answered in a strained tone, “Thanks. How nice of you to stay here while on all fours like an animal.”

“Hey, if it helps, who am I to judge? You got this.”

“Of course.” She scoffed, “Damn—”

“What is it?”

“Nothing, just feeling some sweet, sweet leg cramps.”

“Oh, how lovely.” Lauren played along, Auli’i laughed. “Sorry.”

“It’s getting you through hell of a lot of pain, so I am not complaining.” Lauren assured, “Still good?”

“Mm—” She wanted to reply but all that came out was a pained moan as her fist balled up. “Mhm, yep. That was the worst one. Why is it taking so longggg.”

“I actually think you’re progressing pretty fast.” Her best friend disagreed.

“I know.” She huffed, “My god, I don’t think I can do th—”

“Yes, you can.” Lauren interjected, “Babe, this is the biggest plan you’ve ever had with y/n. And you’re so close, you’re going to be a Mom soon.”

“You’re right.” She laughed, almost deliriously, “I’m going to be a Mom soon. What the fuck, I can’t believe — oh shit that one hurt.”

“You know your camera’s up and running right?”

“Yeah.” Auli’i said, “Why do you think I’m facing this way instead?”

“Good point, alright. Breathe through it, come on.”

“I’m tryingggg.”

Her phone buzzed and lit up, ‘Dr Rivera: On my way over now.’

By the time the sun had set, she was confirmed to be in active labour by her doctor. In other words, hour eight. Which was slightly fast, but not unheard of. “Seven centimetres.” Rivera declared, “Okay from now, stick to clear liquids only.”

“Yeah, that’s fine— god, why do I feel like going onto the floor?”

“That’s alright, go ahead.” Rivera nudged, Lauren laid a towel on the floor, and an absorbency sheet. It was as if Auli’i’s primal instinct took over and her body just followed the urge. “My back feels like it’s broken.”

“I assure you, it’s not. You’re alright, deep breaths.” Rivera caught a peek of what was going on below, and decided to conduct another check, “Eight now.”

“Good.” She exhaled harshly, “I’m so tired.”

“I know honey, you’re so close.” Lauren encouraged.

“I’m so tired.” She repeated, on the brink of tears.

“If it helps, close your eyes and imagine I’m y/n.” Lauren suggested, “Picture that she’s right here with you. Okay, hun? You got this. Hold my hand.”

She nodded, squeezing Lauren’s hand as if it was on cue. Another contraction coursed through her body and she nearly sobbed, “Oh my God.” She mumbled, trying to swallow the tears as she heeded Lauren’s advice. It worked wonders, actually. She thought of you, thought of you holding onto her hand…talking her through it, pressing sweet, tender kisses to her forehead or her lips. She was always going to miss you, she was always going to have that whole in her heart. But…the pain of the loss of you just faded more and more over time.

“I’m sorry.” She rambled, “That must hurt your hand.”

“I’m okay, I’m okay. Squeeze however hard you need.” Lauren promised.

“I need to push.” She broke the silence after a few minutes, trying so hard to keep it together until Rivera said it was okay to go ahead. “Can I push yet— oh— my God—”

“Yes.” Rivera confirmed, “Go ahead on the next one.”

“Oh, thank God.” She let out a pained whimper at the end, “Oh, my fucking God, it burns.”

“That’s normal, you’re alright. Keep going, stop when the contraction ends.”

She did as she was told, even though she was admittedly feeling extra vulnerable right now. She couldn’t really care with the pain being so overwhelming, and the contractions so intense and so close together. She was crying without even realising it.

“Breathe, remember to breathe. Rest in between the pushes, you’re doing so good.” Rivera reminded, “Hey, I need you to breathe, okay? Mama, look at me.”

Auli’i struggled slightly to focus on her doctor’s words at this point in time, but she forced herself to focus.

“Breathe. Deep breaths, slowly. You’re okay, you’re in good hands.”

“Okay.” Auli’i nodded firmly, tears running down her cheeks, “Okay— ow, fuck.” She sobbed.

“You’re okay, shh.” Lauren coaxed, “You’re okay, you got it. She’s almost here.”

“You wanna feel her hair?”

“What?” She asked, a little shocked, “I can—”

“Yeah, of course.” Rivera chuckled, “Give me your hand.”

Lauren let go so Auli’i had a hand to keep herself stable while she got to feel Anahera’s hair with her free hand. “Oh, my God.” She mumbled, laughing a little in sheer disbelief. Then it was like she got a whole new wave of motivation. “Lotta hair.” Rivera remarked, “Like you.”

“Heck yeah.” Auli’i laughed, the slightly more intense emotions dying away. “I feel another one—”

“Push.” Rivera instructed, so she did. Probably the strongest urge she’s ever gotten since she started pushing about forty minutes ago. “Few more pushed and her head will be out.”

“You hear that?” Lauren stroked Auli’i’s hair, “Come on, you’re getting closer, hun.”

As anticipated, Anahera’s head was out four pushes later. But the worst pain of all, her shoulders. She actually yelled. Once those were out? Relief. Relief. The pain disappeared completely and ear-piercing cries filled the enclosed space in the next second. Rivera quickly suctioned off the newborn and handed her to Auli’i once she sat down instead of kneeling.

“Oh.” She laughed tearfully, “Hi~ hi, baby. Oh, my God, you’re perfect.”

“She is so adorable.” Lauren looked at the baby in awe, “Hi, little one.”

“Well, she’s not that small.” Auli’i realised, “But goodness she is precious.”

Once the baby was properly checked over, the placenta was safely delivered too before Auli’i was similarly given a clean bill of health. “We will get everything cleaned and washed or disposed. Then I’ll guide you on feeding. But for now, hard work’s done. Enjoy the bonding time.”

“Thanks.” Auli’i smiled, happy and grateful.

“Got a name?”

“I do, yeah.”

“Paperwork’s here, but take your time.” Rivera motioned to the piece of paper on the nightstand.

“Okay.” Auli’i nodded. While Rivera began the clean up, Lauren asked if Auli’i wanted her mom in here now. “Yeah, she can come in.” She confirmed, shifting a little uncomfortable in her spot in bed. Yeah, she was back in bed now.

Her Mom quietly entered, “Hi, sweetie. Oh, congratulations, I’m so proud of you.”

“Thank you.” Tears welled up in her eyes again, “Mom, this is…Anahera. Anahera Margaret.”

“She’s perfect. So cute.” Her mom cooed.

“Where’s Rocco?” She suddenly asked.

“Living room. He was pretty worried hearing you in pain.”

“Oops.” Auli’i laughed. And as though he could hear this conversation, they hear the tinkling of the bell on his collar. “How did he get a feather— you know what? I’m exhausted. He’s happy, I’m happy. I don’t care.”

“Hey, you know that saying, ‘when feathers appear, angels are near.”

At first, she was confused after many hours without sleep, but the realisation hit. It was you, you were around. Like you promised you would be. Lauren picked up the feather and set it down on the nightstand.

“You did it.” Her mom smooched her on the head.

She beamed, “I did. I actually did it. Oh, thank you. I love you.”

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Not sure how many Mulder and Scully shippers have seen the movie The Switch starring Jennifer Aniston and Jason Bateman, but occasionally I like to imagine an X-Files AU fic along the lines of that movie, even though it means separating Mulder and Scully for a few years

She decides to do IVF, finds an anonymous donor, through a weird series of events, Mulder drunkenly replaces the sample with his own, unknowingly fathering her child, and she leaves to move somewhere safer and quieter and closer to family at his urging.

Then some 5 years later, they reunite. She's moving back to DC, and introduces him to her son, who is... a little odd, but adorable, and she loves him.

"Mommy, I think my new kindergarten teacher is a kraken."

"What? William, you know there's no such thing as kraken. Now, why would you say that?"

"No, hold on, Scully, let's hear him out."

And then Mulder starts noticing these similarities they share. Hair color. Mannerisms. A love of sunflower seeds. Proclivity to get picked on at school.

And eventually it all comes back to him, and he realizes William is his son.

Basically, I just wanna see one of my favorite off-the-rails romcoms mashed up with X-Files

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Diet Advice for Improving Female Fertility

A healthy diet plays a pivotal role in boosting fertility for women, whether they are trying to conceive naturally or through assisted reproductive methods like IVF. The foods you consume can have a direct impact on hormone levels, egg quality, and overall reproductive health. Here is a comprehensive guide on diet recommendations to help improve female fertility.

1. Incorporate Antioxidant-Rich Foods

Antioxidants such as vitamins C and E, folate, and beta-carotene help to combat oxidative stress, which can damage eggs and reduce fertility. Including antioxidant-rich foods in your diet can support reproductive health by protecting cells and improving ovulation. Some excellent choices include:

Berries (blueberries, raspberries, strawberries)

Leafy greens (spinach, kale)

Nuts and seeds (almonds, sunflower seeds)

Dark chocolate (in moderation)

2. Prioritize Complex Carbohydrates

Complex carbohydrates are essential for maintaining stable blood sugar levels, which is crucial for hormonal balance and regular ovulation. Refined carbs, such as white bread and sugary snacks, can lead to insulin resistance, which may negatively impact fertility, especially in women with conditions like polycystic ovary syndrome (PCOS). Instead, opt for:

Whole grains (quinoa, brown rice, whole wheat bread)

Vegetables (sweet potatoes, broccoli)

Legumes (beans, lentils)

3. Incorporate Healthy Fats

Healthy fats are essential for hormone production, which plays a vital role in regulating fertility. Omega-3 fatty acids support reproductive health by reducing inflammation and promoting blood flow to reproductive organs. Include these healthy fat sources in your diet:

Fatty fish (salmon, sardines)

Avocados

Olive oil

Chia seeds and flaxseeds

4. Choose Plant-Based Protein

Studies have shown that plant-based protein sources may support fertility more effectively than animal-based proteins. Plant-based options are lower in unhealthy fats and provide vital nutrients that enhance reproductive health. Some great sources include:

Beans and lentils

Tofu and tempeh

Nuts and seeds

Quinoa

While lean animal proteins like chicken and turkey are fine in moderation, adding plant proteins can offer a more balanced approach to fertility-focused nutrition.

5. Focus on Micronutrients

Certain vitamins and minerals are essential for optimizing fertility. These micronutrients ensure healthy ovulation and support a successful pregnancy. Key fertility-boosting nutrients include:

Folic acid: Important for fetal development and preventing birth defects. Foods rich in folate include leafy greens, oranges, and fortified cereals.

Vitamin D: Promotes healthy hormone production and supports egg quality. Sunlight exposure and foods like fortified dairy products, fatty fish, and eggs are excellent sources.

Iron: Ensures proper ovulation and prevents anemia. Incorporate iron-rich foods like spinach, lentils, and lean red meat.

6. Limit Caffeine and Alcohol

High caffeine and alcohol consumption can negatively impact fertility. Women trying to conceive should limit caffeine intake to 200 milligrams per day (equivalent to one cup of coffee) and avoid excessive alcohol, which can interfere with hormonal balance.

7. Stay Hydrated

Proper hydration is essential for overall health and reproductive function. Drinking plenty of water supports cervical mucus production, which is necessary for sperm transportation and fertilization. Aim for at least 8 glasses of water per day to ensure adequate hydration.

8. Maintain a Healthy Weight

Weight plays a crucial role in fertility, as both underweight and overweight women may experience hormonal imbalances that disrupt ovulation. A diet focused on whole foods, healthy fats, and balanced nutrition can help maintain a healthy body weight, optimizing the chances of conception.

Final Thoughts

Improving fertility through diet involves making nutrient-rich food choices that support reproductive health. Incorporating antioxidant-rich foods, complex carbohydrates, healthy fats, and plant-based proteins can significantly improve your chances of conception. By adopting these dietary habits, women can create a fertile environment for successful pregnancy.

For more tailored advice, consult with your dietician or an IVF specialist doctor who can guide you through personalized dietary recommendations to optimize fertility based on your specific health needs.

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How to Boost Your Immunity Naturally: Tips from Preethi Hospitals, Madurai

If you need the Best IVF Treatment in Madurai then Preethi Hospitals is the perfect choice. Maintaining a robust immune system is essential for overall health, especially in today's fast-paced world where exposure to various pathogens is common. Preethi Hospitals, Madurai, offers practical and natural methods to enhance your immunity and keep illnesses at bay.

Understanding the Immune System

To protect the body from dangerous intruders like viruses and bacteria, the immune system is an intricate network of cells, tissues, and organs. A healthy immune system can effectively recognize and neutralize these threats, ensuring you stay healthy.

Why Choose Natural Immunity Boosters?

Opting for natural methods to boost your immunity is beneficial because they are safe and come with additional health advantages. Unlike synthetic supplements, natural boosters support overall well-being without adverse effects. Here are some effective ways to naturally enhance your immune system:

Eat a Balanced Diet

A balanced diet forms the cornerstone of a strong immune system. Your daily meals should contain a range of fruits, vegetables, whole grains, lean proteins, and healthy fats. Nutrient-rich foods, especially those high in vitamins and minerals like vitamin C, vitamin D, zinc, and antioxidants, are vital for boosting immunity. Some immunity-boosting foods include:

Citrus fruits (oranges, lemons, grapefruits)

Leafy greens (spinach, kale)

Nuts and seeds (almonds, sunflower seeds)

Yogurt and fermented foods (kimchi, sauerkraut)

Garlic and ginger

Stay Hydrated

Staying hydrated is essential for immune system support and general health maintenance. Water keeps cells functioning at their best and aids in the removal of toxins from the body. Make it a daily goal to consume 8–10 glasses of water. Drinking fresh fruit juices and herbal teas can also help you stay hydrated.

Engage in Regular Exercise

Regular physical activity benefits both your body and your immune system. Exercise improves cardiovascular health, lowers blood pressure, and helps control body weight. It also promotes good circulation, allowing immune cells to move freely and function effectively. Strive for at least 30 minutes of moderate exercise, such as walking, cycling, or yoga, on most days.

Prioritize Sleep

Adequate sleep is essential for a healthy immune system. During sleep, the body repairs and regenerates cells, including immune cells. Insufficient sleep can weaken your immune response and increase susceptibility to infections. Aim for 7-9 hours of quality sleep each night. Establishing a regular sleep routine and creating a restful environment can improve sleep quality.

Manage Stress

Chronic stress negatively impacts the immune system by releasing hormones that suppress immune function. Include stress-relieving activities in your everyday routine, such deep breathing exercises, meditation, and time spent in nature. Effective stress management is essential to having a robust immune system. 

Maintain Good Hygiene

Good hygiene practices prevent the spread of infections and keep your immune system strong. Wash your hands regularly with soap and water, especially before eating and after using the restroom. Avoid touching your face, and cover your mouth and nose when coughing or sneezing. Keeping your surroundings clean also plays a significant role in infection prevention.

Consider Natural Supplements

While a balanced diet typically provides necessary nutrients, certain supplements can give your immune system an extra boost. Consult with healthcare professionals at Preethi Hospitals before starting any supplements. Commonly recommended supplements include vitamin C, vitamin D, zinc, and probiotics.

Conclusion

Boosting your immunity naturally involves a holistic approach that includes a balanced diet, regular exercise, adequate sleep, stress management, and good hygiene practices. By adopting these healthy habits, you can strengthen your immune system and enhance your overall health. Preethi Hospitals, Madurai, is committed to promoting wellness and offers comprehensive healthcare services to help you stay healthy. Start making these positive changes today and enjoy a stronger, more resilient immune system.

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10 Foods to Boost Fertility before IVF

You might have many queries regarding the best diet to enhance the success rate of your IVF. You can get some good suggestions regarding the diet for a fertility boost from the best IVF centre in India. This will help you to understand which food to consume and which to avoid before, during and after the IVF procedure. 

You will want to boost your pregnancy rate with the IVF process. This can be achieved to some extent by following the best dietary plan. Food creates a significant impact on the body especially after the embryo transfer thus boosting or reducing the chances of pregnancy. 

Many studies have shown that the Mediterranean diet is the best for IVF. Even in some cases, it is seen that more embryos can be retrieved from women who follow the Mediterranean diet. 

This diet follows the cuisines of countries such as Greece, Spain and Italy bordering the Mediterranean Sea. 

This diet plan focuses mainly on whole food items such as fresh vegetables, abundant fruits, poultry, fish, avocado, eggs, seeds, whole grains, nuts and healthy oils. You can make some adjustments to this diet plan if you have some food sensitivity. 

Your unique need might also require some modification in your diet plan based on your health conditions, allergies or hormonal conditions. You will not have to make some drastic changes in your diet such as suddenly starting to consume gluten-free food items unless you are gluten intolerant.

 Opting for a meal filled with a variety of colours that can give you enough nutrition will give you much help. The sperm count also increases with a Mediterranean diet.

Best food to boost fertility

Some of the top food items that should be consumed during the IVF procedure recommended by the best IVF centre to increase your chances of pregnancy by boosting your fertility are-

 Fruits- Berries and fruits are those food items which are rich in antioxidants. They have high amounts of folic acid and vitamin C which helps in the growth of the fetus during conception. 

Anti-inflammatory phytonutrients and Natural antioxidants are present in strawberries, blueberries and raspberries. These two components play a very crucial role in the fertility of both women and men. 

Beans and lentils- They have a high amount of protein and fibre present in them which plays a great role in the improvement of ovulation. In many cases, it is seen that taking plant based protein rather than animal-based protein has reduced ovulatory infertility to a great extent. 

These legumes also serve as a brilliant source of certain vital components aiding with the process of conception and legumes help in the process of healthy development of the embryo. 

Sunflower seeds- The proper level of sperm can be maintained by consuming sunflower seeds. The kernels of sunflower which are unsalted and roasted have a good amount of Vitamin E present in them, which is a good component for sperm motility and increase. 

Some potent fertility nutrients such as folic acid, selenium and zinc are also present in these seeds which have stellar benefits. 

Avocados- Potassium, folate and Vitamin K are present in the Avocadoes which help the body in the absorption of the vitamin, regulating the blood pressure and so on. Lots of folic acid and dietary fibres can also be achieved from the avocados as they have healthy fats or monounsaturated fat present in them which is important for the early pregnancy stage.

Salmon-You can get a sufficient amount of omega-3 and protein from the salmons to pile up your healthy fat level. By consuming this food item it will help in the process of fetal development during pregnancy. They are rich in Vitamin D which plays a crucial role in raising the level of the semen and enhancing its overall quality. 

To avoid the high quantity of mercury which can be present in the salmon, it is advised to always consume those which are wild-caught. Consuming too much mercury can be dangerous during pregnancy. You can limit your consumption to two times a week to remain safe. 

Asparagus-This is a powerhouse food for people hoping to get pregnant. By consuming a single cup of boiled asparagus you will be able to strengthen your reproductive health. You can also achieve 60% of your recommended folic acid amount, vitamin K and 20% of vitamins A, B and C from Asparagus. 

Walnuts- Omega-6s and Omega-3s present in Walnuts help in the regulation of hormones and maintain proper brain function. It is seen in many cases that men get improved semen health and better quantity, morphology and motility after consuming walnuts regularly.

Egg Yolks- You might want to avoid the egg yolks while consuming eggs to check on your calorie intake. However, egg yolks are rich in Omega-3s and Vitamin B which are beneficial during pregnancy. The folic acid present here helps in creating red blood cells to improve embryo development during pregnancy. 

Whole grains- They are rich in complex carbohydrates which help the body to achieve sustained energy. A good amount of fibre is also present in this food item which will help you in feeling full and thus prevent constipation. 

Quinoa-This amazing whole grain is carb-free. It is rich in zinc, folic acid and protein which help in prenatal protection. You can also achieve healthy fetal growth after conception with this food item. 

If you are a vegetarian you do not have to adapt to take animal-based food during pregnancy as Quinoa has all the essential amino acids that can be present in any meat-based product.

Becoming a parent is the dream of many individuals which can sometimes be disrupted due to many medical and other conditions. If you are suffering from some issues and are not able to conceive you can visit the best IVF Center in India and consult with them about your chances. While undergoing the process you must also follow a strict healthy diet recommended by your specialist to boost your fertility rate and increase your chances of pregnancy.

[nectarplus]

Top Surrogacy Centers in Surat with Affordable Costs

Surrogacy has become a beacon of hope for many couples facing infertility. In Surat, several top-notch surrogacy centers offer world-class services at affordable costs. Here's a comprehensive guide to the leading surrogacy centers in Surat that combine expertise with affordability.

1. Nectarplus Health

Nectarplus Health stands out as a premier surrogacy center in Surat, known for its state-of-the-art facilities and a team of experienced professionals. The center provides a wide range of fertility treatments, including IVF, IUI, and surrogacy, ensuring personalized care for every patient. Nectar Plus Health offers comprehensive surrogacy packages that are transparent and surrogacy at an affordable cost. These packages cover all essential aspects of the surrogacy process, including medical procedures, legal formalities, and surrogate care.

2. Bliss IVF Fertility and Andrology Institute

Bliss IVF Fertility and Andrology Institute is another leading surrogacy center in Surat, renowned for its high success rates and compassionate care. The institute boasts advanced reproductive technologies and a dedicated team of specialists. Bliss IVF offers cost-effective surrogacy plans that cater to the financial constraints of couples while ensuring quality medical care. They provide detailed financial counseling to help prospective parents understand the costs involved.

3. Sunflower Hospital

Sunflower Hospital is a trusted name in the field of reproductive medicine in Surat. With a strong focus on patient-centered care, the hospital provides a range of fertility treatments, including surrogacy, at competitive prices. Sunflower Hospital offers tailored surrogacy packages designed to meet the needs of various patients. Their pricing structure is transparent, with no hidden costs, making it easier for couples to plan their finances.

4. Bavishi Fertility Institute

Bavishi Fertility Institute is well-regarded for its comprehensive fertility services and high ethical standards. The institute offers personalized surrogacy plans and leverages advanced technology to maximize success rates.Bavishi Fertility Institute provides affordable surrogacy packages that include all necessary medical and legal services. They also offer flexible payment options to ease the financial burden on couples.

Conclusion

Surat is home to several top-tier surrogacy centers that offer affordable and high-quality fertility treatments. Nectarplus Health, Bliss IVF, Sunflower Hospital, and Bavishi Fertility Institute are leading the way with their advanced medical services and compassionate care. These centers provide a ray of hope for many couples aspiring to start a family, making surrogacy a viable and affordable option.

For more information on surrogacy options and detailed cost breakdowns, it's advisable to contact these centers directly and schedule a consultation.

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Fertility-Friendly Recipes and Nutrition Tips

Nutrition plays a pivotal role in optimizing fertility, and adopting a fertility-friendly diet can enhance the chances of successful conception, especially for those undergoing fertility treatments. In this guide, we explore nutritious recipes and provide valuable nutrition tips to support your fertility journey, considering the importance of overall well-being and factoring in considerations such as IVF treatment cost in Indore.

**1. Balanced Nutrition for Fertility:

Essential Nutrients: A well-balanced diet provides essential nutrients such as folic acid, iron, omega-3 fatty acids, and antioxidants crucial for reproductive health.

Holistic Approach: Nutrition impacts both male and female fertility, influencing factors like egg quality, sperm health, and hormonal balance.

**2. Fertility-Friendly Foods:

a. Leafy Greens:

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- *Spinach, Kale, and Swiss Chard:* Rich in folate and iron, these greens support healthy ovulation and egg quality.

b. Berries:

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- *Blueberries and Strawberries:* Packed with antioxidants, berries help combat oxidative stress and promote reproductive health.

c. Fatty Fish:

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- *Salmon and Mackerel:* Omega-3 fatty acids in fatty fish contribute to improved egg and sperm health.

d. Whole Grains:

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- *Quinoa and Brown Rice:* High in fiber and essential nutrients, whole grains stabilize blood sugar levels and support hormonal balance.

e. Nuts and Seeds:

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- *Almonds and Sunflower Seeds:* Provide healthy fats, zinc, and vitamin E, benefiting both male and female fertility.

**3. Recipes for Fertility:

a. Fertility-Boosting Smoothie:

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- *Ingredients:* Mixed berries, spinach, Greek yogurt, and a teaspoon of flaxseed. - *Instructions:* Blend ingredients for a nutrient-rich smoothie supporting overall fertility.

b. Quinoa Salad:

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- *Ingredients:* Cooked quinoa, mixed vegetables, olive oil, lemon juice, and feta cheese. - *Instructions:* Toss ingredients for a wholesome salad rich in fertility-friendly nutrients.

c. Grilled Salmon with Avocado Salsa:

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- *Ingredients:* Grilled salmon fillet and salsa made with avocados, tomatoes, onions, and cilantro. - *Instructions:* Combine grilled salmon with avocado salsa for a delicious and fertility-boosting meal.

**4. Hydration and Fertility:

Importance of Water: Staying well-hydrated supports overall health, including reproductive health.

Herbal Teas: Non-caffeinated herbal teas like peppermint or chamomile can be a hydrating and fertility-friendly choice.

**5. Supplements and IVF Treatment Cost in Indore:

Folic Acid: Folic acid is crucial for preventing neural tube defects and supporting early fetal development.

Vitamin D: Adequate vitamin D levels are associated with improved fertility outcomes.

Consultation with Healthcare Provider: Discussing the need for supplements with a healthcare provider is essential, considering individual requirements and IVF treatment cost in Indore.

**6. Meal Planning and Portion Control:

Regular, Balanced Meals: Eating regular, balanced meals helps maintain stable blood sugar levels.

Portion Control: Moderation in portion sizes contributes to weight management, a factor impacting fertility.

**7. Limiting Processed Foods and Sugar:

Processed Foods: Limiting processed foods reduces exposure to additives and preservatives that may impact reproductive health.

Refined Sugar: High sugar intake can contribute to inflammation and hormonal imbalances, affecting fertility.

**8. Cooking Methods:

Grilling and Baking: Opting for grilling or baking over frying preserves the nutritional value of foods.

Healthy Oils: Using olive oil or avocado oil in cooking provides healthy fats beneficial for fertility.

Conclusion:

Embracing fertility-friendly recipes and nutrition tips is a proactive step towards optimizing reproductive health. At the best IVF center in Indore, we recognize the significance of nutrition in the fertility journey. Our team of experienced fertility specialists, along with nutrition experts, collaborates to provide comprehensive care, considering individual needs and IVF treatment cost in Indore. By integrating a fertility-friendly diet into your lifestyle, you contribute to creating an environment conducive to successful conception and a healthy pregnancy.

[randomfoggytiger]

X-Files Collector's Edition:  The Fics That Started It All

Sometime into quarantine, I ran across The X-Files while watching YouTube reacts. Frustrated by the vague clips and loose connective tissues these vids gave, I pulled up Wikipedia and decided to venture forth on my own. My first solo episode was either Ice or Squeeze, can’t remember which. From there, I raced through the seasons at breakneck speed, but stopped cold turkey after Existence (and refused to finish the rest.) It was either a Reddit link or a Google link that brought me to Tumblr for fill-ins after S8-- and from there, magic. 

The First Three (in loose order): 

 skuls/@ghostbustermelanieking

ghostbustermelanieking writes the best short and punchy fics; in fact, it was through perusing her Tumblr that I came to the radical realization that I love shorter fics over larger ones. Her AUs are probably her best work, period, especially if you like to-the-point stories that speak pages of meaning through a handful of words. I have (probably) all of skuls’s fics saved, but my favorites are her tiny fics on Tumblr. I fear everyday they shall be nuked into the void. (Updated: I copy-pasted them all into Google Docs, so I’m prepared for the apocalypse. >:) )

IVF Christmas is that fic that will get me goofy smiling every. single. time. Can’t help myself-- must include quote and summary: 

“...But when she gets back, she finds Maggie and Mulder engaged in polite conversation, probably spurred on by the fact that he’s been in an incredibly good mood since some time this morning. He keeps catching her eyes over Maggie’s shoulder and grinning dopily. Scully smiles back.”

Scully and Mulder have just celebrated positive IVF news; and Scully, due to fly out to Cali that morning with Maggie, cannot leave Mulder behind. What follows are poignant one-off moments throughout their trip. The dialogue is stupendous. skuls is blessed with the ability to use every. tiny. detail. to flesh out her characters into fully formed, realistic people.  This fic is tiny in size, but mighty in content. Many a longer fic has paled in comparison to this giant.

@baronessblixen (Ao3) 

I cannot remember if I found skuls or Baroness Blixen first; but they were the anchors that locked me into this wonderfully varied world of stories. I DO know Baroness (or Anika) is the sweetest responder to anons, and got me interested in opening my own blog. I have no idea which of her fics I read first (except that it was either IVF or S8); so there’s nothing specific to link. Her fics cover all fic genres, all XF eras, all possible ins and outs. To pick just one is a crime; but I had to settle on Five Minutes (Ao3)--

“It’s time.

“I took one five minutes ago.”

“Oh,” he says. Then, once realization kicks in, his eyes grow wide. “Oh!”” 

--because it’s the perfect pair to skul’s above IVF fic. 

(Also: if I remember correctly, this is her favorite fic: a perfect blend of complex, unavoidable pain and happy endings for Mulder, Scully, and Will on the run.) 

@wexleresque/hllsteeth 

I can’t remember how or when I found hllsteeth’s fics; but she has Mulder’s special brand of snark and Scully’s subtle duality down to a science. My heart immediately knit itself onto her stars fic; and I had a mini heart attack when I lost it briefly-- but LO AND BEHOLD, I have recovered it! (She’s currently writing an AU for Requiem that captures S1 Mulder and Scully to a T. Highly recommend.)

““You said you’d take him for the next two weeks,” his mother hisses into the phone from the kitchen, hardly making an effort to conceal her voice. “What am I supposed to do now, Bill?”

Fox plays with the frayed edge of his t-shirt as he sits on the stairs and listens. Upstairs, his well-worn suitcase is stuffed full of the necessities for two weeks at his father’s Vineyard house. He should be on his way there by now, listening to the sound of his father spitting sunflower seeds out the window as they carve through the New England roads. According to his mother, there’d been a hold up, something about his father’s job and a meeting with the Secretary of State. Thinking back to the feeble explanation, Fox snorts and shakes his head. He’s heard that particular line half a dozen times by now.”

This is brilliant. Mulder’s intelligence and miserable affectation in the face of his parents’ bitter back-and-forth is incredibly well-depicted. Bill’s and Tena’s emotional neglect of their son is more powerful than other fics I’ve read, which are peppered with overt physical abuse. This speaks to that cold vein of an upper-crust, older generation, where disapproval is a defter weapon than a fist. Mulder going through the motions for his father’s sake is so poignant that it hooked me forever on fanfic. (Lost this once and was immediately heartsick.) 

These authors are the ride-or-die for me. Every piece they’ve written is nuanced and worth its weight in gold. But, more importantly, without them I would never have ventured into fic as entertainment, or spent a year elbows-deep into the guts of Ao3, Gossamer, and Tumblr mini-fics. May they live forever.

This was long-winded-- rest assured, from here on out my posts will be far tidier and far less rambly.

Enjoy! 

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Roommates – Part Fourteen

Pairing: Cillian Murphy x Reader

Words: 1,580

Warning: Fluff

Note: This plays in 2020. It’s all fiction and not based on Cillian’s real life and family.

It has been a week since Cillian found out about Laura’s lie and, as expected, it took him some time to come to terms with it. Whilst, on one hand, he was relieved that she wasn’t pregnant after all he had been through with her, he was also somewhat disappointed by it. After all, he had been looking forward to finally becoming a father after him and his ex-wife Lindsay went through IVF for many years unsuccessfully.  

Luckily for him, you knew that he was struggling and you were there to pick up the pieces and support him through this horrible initial week after he had found out.

Unfortunately for you, Laura had also since found out that you were involved with Cillian and ceased the opportunity to seek revenge which, for some reason, she still thought she was entitled to. Her friendship with most of your mutual friends had been destroyed after it was found out what she did. But this wasn’t your fault you thought. It was hers alone.

After sending you at least ten text messages, telling you how you were the most horrible person who had ever walked this earth, she informed James and most of your other friends and Cillian’s family about your relationship with Cillian in order to get them to turn on you instead of her.

As a result, James kept calling, messaging and emailing you constantly and you ran out of options on how to block him after he obtained several new phone numbers and email addresses so that he could harass you, thinking that you had been involved with Cillian for years.

As for your family and friends, you found it difficult to explain to them that there was only some truth to what Laura was saying. You tried hard to make clear to them that you were not in a relationship with Cillian and it was Cillian’s mother herself who didn’t take your and her son’s explanations serious.

‘I think my mother is set on the idea that we are together’ Cillian chuckled as he handed you the invitation to her 70th birthday which specifically mentioned you as his plus one.

‘She told me about it already. She also enquires about your wellbeing on a daily basis, darling. Apparently, you aren’t very forthcoming to her about your feelings. Luckily, her birthday not until after Christmas’ you laughed.

You had always gotten along well with Cillian’s mother since you met her almost ten years ago.

‘I am not sure if I should be more amused by the fact that my mother talks to you more often than to me or that she thinks that we will be out of lockdown by January next year’ Cillian then said, smiling before offering you a cup of tea.

‘Well, you know your mum and I get on like a house on fire, sweetheart’ you then joked before approaching Cillian and kissing him gently.

You didn’t usually kiss. Kissing was only to initiate sex which you have had plenty off over the past week even while Cillian was feeling rather depressed about what happened.

You knew that sex would get his mind of the pain Laura had caused him and you were more than willing to distract him from all the madness in his life.

In turn, sex led to you sharing a bed and, since you had sex every night and sometimes even during the day, you pretty much slept in the same room continuously for weeks on end. Sometimes you would stay in Cillian’s room while, on other nights, he would come to yours. It was almost like musical chairs.

But tonight, this was all about to change as, in the morning, you had just gotten your first period since you started being intimate with each other.

As such, you quickly apologised for the kiss you had just given him to ensure that he wouldn’t get the wrong idea about your intentions.

‘Shit, sorry. I didn’t mean to initiate anything. I was just sneaking in a cheeky little kiss’ you said somewhat embarrassed as you quickly pulled away from the kiss.

‘No period sex then I suppose?’ Cillian joked, knowing very well that this was off the table for you even though he had explained to you that it wouldn’t bother him.

‘Absolutely not Cillian’ you giggled before reaching for some more of the pain killers on the kitchen counter.

‘Well, if you change your mind tonight, you know where my bedroom is’ Cillian winked and you couldn’t help but shake your head in disgust.

‘Trust me Cilly, I won’t’ you chuckled.

‘Alright then. No sex tonight. Got it’ Cillian chuckled before offering you to fill up your hot water bottle. ‘How about I fill this up for you, we have some wine, order some pizza and watch a movie?’ Cillian suggested as he took the hot water bottle from you.

‘That would be nice’ you said, smiling and wanting to kiss him again, but refraining from doing so for obvious reasons. You reminded yourself that you weren’t more than friends with benefits, regardless of the rumours out there which Laura had spread.

***

Half an hour later, you finally settled in the living room with your hot water bottle and two glasses of red wine.

Being so close to Cillian and unable to be intimate with him bothered you and you could see that it bothered him too as he tried hard to keep his hands to himself.

Occasionally, you felt his hand brush over the top of your cotton pants and then move away quickly as if he was a shy little school boy who was doing something naughty and who thought you wouldn’t notice.

It was strange, the fact that you both only ever showed affection towards each other while, before or after you were having sex. But then again, of course, it was normal considering your arrangement. You were friends and, if kissing wouldn’t turn you both on so incredibly much, you probably wouldn’t even be doing that in the bedroom.

But even just in that moment, where he was sitting next to you and was watching a movie with you, you wanted to kiss him desperately and a kiss was all you wanted.

You felt the urge to snuggle up against him and rest your head against his chest but you thought that this also would be inappropriate you restrained yourself from it for the remainder of the evening.

***

At around 10 o’clock, you finally called it a night. You were tired and exhausted and needed a good nights’ sleep.

Unfortunately for you, sleep was something you struggled with and it was when you lay in your bed for an hour, tossing and turning with your eyes wide open, that you realised what was missing.

It was the warmth which would normally radiate from Cillian’s body when you cuddled up against him and it was the scent of his skin you breathed in when laying in his arms.

Even if you couldn’t be intimate with him, you wanted to be near him, kiss him and cuddle him and feeling this way about him wasn’t something you were prepared for.

***

Little did you know that you weren’t the only one craving this kind of closeness and non-sexual intimacy. Cillian also was laying on his bed, restless and unable to sleep, realising that something was missing.

He adored the smell of your hair and the softness of your skin pressed against his. He loved spooning against you while you held his arms tight as he wrapped them around you.

He also loved the little sounds you were making in your dreams when there was clearly something pleasurable on your mind.

He soon realised that his efforts to simply fall asleep like this on his own were going to be futile and he decided to get himself another glass of water from the kitchen and settle with a book until he would be tired enough to go back to bed and try again.

***

‘Still up?’ Cillian asked as he walked into the kitchen and saw you filling up your hot water bottle again.

‘I can’t sleep’ you pouted while moving aside and allowing Cillian to fill up his glass.

‘Me neither’ Cillian then said before making a suggestion which could possibly change that.

‘Do you…uhm…want company…in bed?’ Cillian then shuddered somewhat reluctantly.

‘Cillian, I am not going to have sex with you, I told you that’ you said somewhat amused by the fact that he was still trying to convince you otherwise.

‘I didn’t mean for us to have sex Y/N’ Cillian then explained and your eyes widened immediately.

‘So, you mean just us sharing a bed to sleep?’ you asked confused, causing Cillian to nod.

‘Just to sleep and maybe kiss…if you want to’ Cillian said almost shyly.

‘Just kissing?’ you asked again, unsure about his motives.

‘Just kissing’ Cillian confirmed.

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[enigmaticxbee]

✖️✖️✖️ 8x16 Three Words

The one where... poor traumatized Mulder is trying to figure out where he fits in now that he’s back from the undead.

Best: Scully’s on the verge of tears Mulder after he distantly congratulates her on the pregnancy conveys so much about what she’s holding back because he’s not ready to deal with it.

Worst: It’s not that Mulder’s reaction doesn’t make sense, that he wouldn’t be having a little trouble... processing... everything (everything encompassing his abduction, torture, death, missing 6 months, Scully’s miraculous pregnancy), and that Scully (also coming off a traumatic 6 months and the death of her partner and baby’s father) wouldn’t emotionally retreat to give him space to process. It’s that as viewers we spent almost a year waiting for this reunion and to see Mulder’s reaction to finding out about the baby and it’s frustrating as hell that because they want to play coy about the paternity and draw this out to the end of the season we get these stilted interactions without the subsequent emotional catharsis we’ve been waiting for.

❌ Flashlights

❌ Woods/Desert

❌ Slideshow

❌ Autopsy

✔️ Evidence Disappears

❌ Scully Misses It

❌ Mulder Ditch

❌ Sunflower Seeds

❌ Voiceover

❌ Catch Phrase

❌ Scully is a Medical Doctor

❌ Mulder is Spooky

✔️ Scuuullllaaaaayy!

❌ Fox/Dana

❌ Inappropriate Touching (that I am here for)

✔️ Casual Scully

✔️ Casual Mulder

❌ Trench Coats

❌ Bad Tie Watch

❌ Glasses Watch

✔️ Taking! It! Personally!:Mulder

50 States: DC x80 (42/50)

Investigate: Together & Apart

Solve Rate: 69%

❌ Bechdel Test: No other women in this episode 😐

MSR: 🐝🐝🐝

Goriness: 👽👽

Creepiness: 👽👽

Humor: 👽👽

Rewatch Thoughts:

Doggett check-in: He’s a good egg this episode. Not that Mulder’s there to see it but Doggett is very defensive of Mulder’s right to the X-Files with Kersh. And then he’s so pleased to see Mulder when he walks into Skinner’s office and Mulder just shoves him and accuses him of stealing the X-Files to cover up the truth. He still goes after Mulder at the census bureau, not just for Scully’s sake, but because he unwittingly played a part in setting Mulder up and he has to try to save him, no matter how resistant he is to Doggett’s help.

Pregnancy check-in: Lotssss of awkward who’s the daddy stuff 🙄. I don’t think Mulder thinks he’s not the father - just that he’s not ready to deal with it, plus I’m absolutely sure they never discussed what his role would be if the IVF worked so he’s unsure of what she wants now. And she doesn’t want to put pressure on him when he told her he’s not ready and is dealing with his trauma by being distant and glib.

You can tell that GA has actual experience being pregnant - unlike a lot of actresses with fake baby bumps she walks and sits like it’s realistically changing her center of gravity.

First of all: the episode title is a giant troll - evoking “I love you” but then frustrating the hell out of shippers; actually referring to the title of txf movie 🙄

It’s wild how they don’t even try to come up with an explanation for Mulder’s apartment still being there, let alone still fully furnished exactly how he left it 3 months after his death (fanfic has certainly tried)

A Harry Potter reference 🤔 - logically I know HP and txf overlapped in time but somehow they don’t in my mind

Scully is very anxious to get Mulder back on the X-Files 🥺

Kersh’s assessment of Scully and Doggett’s success rate (by my calculations 73% after 6 months) vs Scully and Mulder’s (62% after 7 years) is technically correct but pretty unfair to Mulder - their season 7 solve rate for example was also 73%.

Ahh, falling right back into old patterns. Mulder: Come on Scully, break the rules with me. Scully: Reminds Mulder of the consequences of breaking the rules. Mulder: We better not get caught then. Scully: Shuts the door and helps him.

I like this as new motivation for Mulder: Look, Scully, I need to make sense of what happened to me. So that I can stop it. Because if I can’t stop it, it could happen to anyone. It could happen to you.

Frohike’s reunion with Mulder 🥰

Where was Scully going after the scene with the Lone Gunmen? That scene took place at her apartment and then as far as I can tell she was about to leave in a taxi when Doggett finds her. And then she goes back up to her apartment where Mulder is sitting alone in the dark and he asks why she’s back at her own apartment? 🤔 I feel like I’m missing something.

Scully calling the Lone Gunmen Gunmen 🥺

If Super Soldiers are identifiable by those bumps on their necks you’d think they’d make a little more effort to conceal them...

Episode-Related Fanfic Recs:

Slow Returns by @o6666666 - helps make sense of Scully’s behavior in this episode especially that awkward scene in Mulder’s apt (because she is not fine) and then fixes it. The post TINH part though, oof, rip out my heart why don’t you.

Untitled drabble post-Three Little Words/pre-Empedocles by @wtfmulder - What happened between Three Words and Empedocles to change Mulder’s detached response to Scully and the baby.

The Long Way Home by Blackwood - missing scenes, Mulder working through his shit. (On Gossamer so if the link doesn’t work you can search for it there.

Home Run by @kittenscully - in which John gets involved in something that is none of his business. I like this Doggett.

[freckleslikestars]

The Road to Family

(named by GillianG86 on AO3)

Mid-season 5 start of the IVF-arc. A discussion in a car about menstruation and sperm.

1800 words, read here on AO3

‘I need to use the bathroom at the next rest stop,’ Scully said absently as she scanned through the casefile on her lap.

‘Sure, no problem. We should probably fill up, anyway: we’re heading into the wilds.’

Eye-rolls abound, ‘it’s Tennessee, Mulder, not Outer Mongolia. There will be gas stations and civilisation in close proximity should we run out – we’ve been to more cut off places in our time.’

They settle into their usual amiable silence, the occasional snick of a sunflower seed husk or the turning of a page their background music until Mulder pulls into the gas station. ‘You need anything?’ he calls as she disappears around the back to the bathrooms, purse slung over her shoulder. She shakes her head, as she always does. She’s Scully; always prepared, always packed well in advance. She never needs more than what she’s got with her because when she’s packing she’s thinking about packing, rather than thinking about aliens.

She was back in the car by the time he was done paying, knocking back two Advil with a bottle of water.

‘You good?’

‘Yeah. Only three more hours of driving left,’ she sighs, dropping her head back and closing her eyes.

‘You love it really,’ he murmurs as he pulls back onto the highway, glancing across at her as her brow furrowed, expecting a sarcastic comment and receiving a pensive silence.

He wasn’t stupid - well, okay, not entirely stupid – he knew she only asked for a bathroom break when she was on her period, knew she only took her bag to the bathroom with her when she needed tampons. She fidgeted more, too, when she was on her period, never able to find a comfortable position whether she was sat in a car or at a desk. But that didn’t normally prevent her from quipping back. He blindly reaches a hand into his pocket and pulled out a double Snickers, tearing the wrapper and removing one with his teeth before proffering the other to her, ‘I ownwy wan’ wawn.’

‘Thanks,’ she smiles as she takes the candy, knowing that he brought it for her but didn’t want to say anything, worried she’d reject him. He did this every time, his MO.

‘Can I ask you something, Scully?’

She looks over at him, cautious as she chews the chocolate; Mulder never asked to ask, ‘sure…doesn’t mean I’ll answer, but go ahead.’

‘Why do you still get your period?’ her eyebrows raised, and before she could squeak out an indignant excuse me? around caramel and nougat glued teeth, he was hurrying on with an explanation, ‘I mean, since they took your eggs, surely there’s no reason for your body to go through this every month…?’

Her indignation fades slowly as she thinks about her answer, taking the last bite of her chocolate whilst figuring out how to explain. ‘Just because there isn’t an egg, doesn’t mean there aren’t still the hormones that regulate menstruation. As far as my body is concerned, it still thinks there are eggs to release each month, still thinks my uterus needs preparing to take that egg and fertilise it, and so still needs to shed the lining every month. Technically, I don’t menstruate – it’s called an anovulatory cycle. It’s why I didn’t-’ she pauses, staring down at her lap, the piece of skin she’s tearing at around her thumb ‘-it’s why I didn’t notice, after I was returned. Not until I was having my check-ups after remission.’

‘They don’t…you can’t tell at all? They don’t feel any different?’

A slow headshake, ‘no. They’re slightly more irregular now, but not so much that it was a concern.’

‘Can’t you stop them? I mean, if you can’t, you know, get pregnant, can’t you just stop them?’

‘My doctor suggested various forms of birth control, but none of them is without their side effects, so I don’t see the point,’ she shrugs then looks over at him, a small smile touching her lips, ‘besides, I uh, I’m looking into IVF.’

He stares at her. So many thoughts flash through his head he barely has time to grasp onto them. Some of them he misses altogether.

Her eyes are widening and her arm is reaching across him to pull the steering wheel just as a horn blares, ‘Jesus, Mulder, are you trying to get us killed?!’

‘I…I…shit,’ he pulls onto the shoulder and drops his head to the steering wheel, trying to slow his heart down. ‘You need to leave the X-files.’

That…probably wasn’t the right thing to say. Not judging by her open mouth and the hurt expression plastered across her face. ‘I tell you some of the best news I had in the past few years and you tell me I need to leave the X-files? Fuck you, Mulder. This is my quest just as much as it is yours now. It’s my body they screwed with, my ova they stole, lest you forget. I’m not leaving just because you think I’m lesser, just because you don’t value family, just because I’m a woman and I want a child-‘

‘Scully, stop. Stop. I just-‘ he heaves a sigh as he tries to order his racing thoughts ‘-I meant that you can’t be doing this, travelling across country, driving for hours on end, running through forests and bullet fire, whilst trying for a baby. And when you get your baby, you need to spend all of your time being a mom – a great mom. Just…I’d have said the same if you’d been able to keep Emily, too. I don’t think you’re lesser, or weak. I just want to protect you, because you’re my family. Okay? That’s all I meant,’ he reaches a hand over and takes hers, ‘I promise. It’s really great news, Scully.’

She nods, slowly, the smile that had brushed across her lips blooming fully, ‘thank you.’

‘No problem,’ he smiles, pulling away again. ‘So, you, uh, you get to choose a guy, like out of a catalogue? Sort of like buying a couch?’ he’d meant it as a joke, but the images of Scully and a little boy, a thatch of blond curls and her startling blue eyes, some other man’s DNA mingling with hers, betrayed him with bitter, jealous thoughts, letting the humour fall flat.

A frown crosses her previously happy face, ‘well, I think there are a few more things to consider than when one buys a couch, but yes, that is essentially how it works. But there are other options, too. I can ask someone I know, someone I trust.’

‘And that would be your preferred choice?’

‘Yes, I think so. If I can’t do it the old fashioned way, I would like to at least try to have a child with someone I already have a connection with. Just to make it a little more personal, a little less like a science experiment.’

‘You got someone in mind? I’m sure Skinner would jump at the chance,’ another joke that never even got off the ground.

‘I don’t think asking my boss for his sperm is a particularly good idea. It would probably make budget meetings uncomfortable.’

That elicits a snort from him, and he thinks that maybe she’s okay with joking about this after all, ‘what about Byers? He’s smart, likeable. And not unattractive in a certain light.’

She laughs, ‘I’ll tell him you said that. But alas, I think perhaps Frohike would be jealous.’

‘You could always get all three of the Gunmen to, you know, all into the same…and then it would be kind of like a pot lu-‘

‘Mulder!’ a horrified look is on her face when he glances over at her with a smirk, ‘you’re disgusting. Truly, truly disgusting. Ugh, I’m never going to be able to go into their office again now, you know that right?’ she was shaking her head, but her scowl couldn’t hide the grin she was attempting to stifle.

He lets the subject drop whilst she’s happy, not wanting to actually know who he’d have to accept as the father of her child. He couldn’t think of many more men she knew, though that wasn’t to say she didn’t know other people outside of work she’d never bothered to tell him about. She didn’t really talk about her life away from him; what little time there was for that to commence. He only got dribs and drabs about her family. The occasional mention of old school friends, few and far between. For all he knew, she was seeing someone and she’d never told him, never introduced them. Perhaps she was too ashamed of her spooky work partner. Perhaps she didn’t want him to feel bad about all the times he dragged her away for work. She probably went home to this guy and bitched about him each night. It would explain why she was thinking about having a child, and why she wasn’t just using an anonymous donor.

‘Actually,’ she breaks him from his thoughts with a soft, quiet voice – if he didn’t know her better, he would have said she sounded shy – ‘I was going to ask you.’

The breaks squeal as they burn rubber into the tarmac, one of Scully’s arms automatically reaching across to brace him as her other lands on the dash. They’re both breathing heavily as the second blast of a horn echos around them. ‘Scully,’ he says, voice forced into a quiet, calm, controlled tone, ‘please repeat what you just said.’

‘I said that I was going to ask you about being my donor.’

‘Okay. Okay, that’s what I thought you said,’ and with that he was turning the engine back on as he put the car into reverse, swinging it back and pulling round to head back in the direction they came from.

‘Mulder, what the hell are you doing?’

‘Going home. We’re going back home and we’re going to sit down with tea or coffee or vodka or whatever we need and we are going to discuss this. Not in a layby or a motel. We’re going to talk all of this through.’

‘Mulder, we’re on a case! We’ve just driven five hours and now you want to drive five hours back without even meeting with the local PD?’

‘Scully, I will not be able to concentrate on anything until we’ve talked about this. And I don’t want to have that talk somewhere we’re both not comfortable with. So we’re going home. We can go to your place or mine, but we’re going home and we’re going to think about this. Okay?’

‘Okay. Well, what do you want to know?’

He shakes his head, ‘we’re not talking about it in the car.’

Ten miles later, he looks over as she stares pensively out of the window. ‘Why me, Scully?’

‘Because,’ she says, reaching over to take his hand, ‘you’re my family.’

[megalony]

Growing soft

This is a Ben Hardy mini-series I am going to be working on, based off of a request from the lovely @storiesfrommirkwood​ I hope you all like it.

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Ben Hardy masterlist

Part 2

Summary: Ben has always been set on the idea of not having kids, but when (Y/n) becomes a surrogate for Gwilym and his wife, Ben wonders if he really is sure about no kids after all.

Enjoy.

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"Are you sure you want to do this?" Despite the apprehension and concern in his voice, there was no denying the small surge of anticipation and excitement that could be heard in Gwilym's voice. He was trying very hard not to let that excitement get the better of him in case this didn't end up going in the direction they were hoping for, but he couldn't dull it down completely.

His hand tightened around the glass resting on the table but it did nothing to stop the way his whole frame was beginning to jitter from nerves. They had never gotten this close before, they'd never reached this point in all the other times they had tried and somehow it just seemed too good to be true.

"I'm sure."

Those two little words made Gwilym's heart feel like it was rising into his throat and caused a huge swarm of butterflies to erupt in his chest like his body was being pumped full of helium and he was rising to the ceiling. He knew there was still a long way to go and things could happen and go wrong along that journey, but the fact was this journey was finally taking off. They were no longer planning and daydreaming about this, it was actually happening. All because of (Y/n).

Lifting her eyes from her glass that her fingers very lightly tracing around, (Y/n) couldn't help the way she began to shake from the bubbling excitement inside of her like she was about to explode. A grin slowly but surely took over her features and a laugh escaped her lips when she looked at two of her closest friends sitting opposite her at the table.

The pure joy she could see in Amy's eyes was nothing like she had ever seen before and her smile widened as she watched Amy's arms wrap around Gwilym's bicep and she shook his arm like she was desperate for his attention.

"We're having a baby." Amy whispered the words in ecstasy to the man sitting beside her before her eyes darted over to (Y/n). Without even thinking, she reached across the table and took (Y/n)'s hand very tightly in her own to the point she was cutting off her circulation to show her just how happy and thankful she was for what (Y/n) was about to do for them.

Amy and Gwilym had tried for a year after getting married to have a baby before switching to IVF but every effort had either been dashed or ended in heartache. Needless to say, it had been a harsh blow to the stomach when they had to come to the conclusion that having a baby of their own wasn't going to happen naturally. But they just couldn't think about adopting until they'd explored every possibility and their last effort was a surrogate.

Having someone else go through the pregnancy for them wasn't what Amy had initially wanted, she wanted to be the one to experience the scans and the kicks and the labour. But this was the only way she and Gwilym were going to get a child of their own.

They'd talked with three other people before (Y/n) had offered to help and now it seemed like they were going to get their wish.

"What about Ben? Is he gonna be okay with all of this?" Gwilym's smile dimmed down just a little when his friend suddenly came to the front of his mind. Gwilym knew Ben well, he knew he could be both laid back and passionate and involved in everything at the same time and he knew Ben had different views and opinions and was broad minded. But he had no clue how Ben would react to this kind of situation, after all it was his wife who would be having a baby for someone else.

"We've talked about it and he's completely fine with this, I swear. He even said he'd come to the scans, so..." (Y/n) trailed off with a shrug of her shoulders and a small but gentle smile on her lips.

She knew what she was walking into here and everything that would come with this.

She would be going through nine months of changes and then labour, all to end up without a baby, but that was okay with her. (Y/n) also knew it was going to be in the media a lot when people eventually found out she was pregnant but then realised after the birth she wouldn't be walking around with a baby at the end of things. It would be awkward for Ben too if he had interviews during the pregnancy and ended up telling people it wasn't really his or (Y/n)'s baby.

But (Y/n) wanted this, badly.

Ben didn't want kids. He didn't feel he would be a bad father, he actually liked kids and was great with his niece and nephews and he knew he would be a good dad. But it simply wasn't what he saw for his future, at first he put it off because he wanted to focus on his career but now it just wasn't what he wanted. Ben liked things as they were, he liked being married to (Y/n) without kids in the mix and he liked travelling and working a lot, kids didn't come into the dynamic at the moment and he wanted to keep it that way. He had no need or craving for kids like his friends all did.

(Y/n) knew from the beginning that kids wasn't likely to happen for her and Ben and that was okay. She and Ben were busy, they had work and they did a lot of travelling together and it was nice, just the two of them so she tried her best not to think too much about not having kids.

But (Y/n) couldn't deny to herself that she wanted a baby someday, and giving Gwilym and Amy a child was the perfect situation. Ben didn't have to worry about changes or think about kids because the baby wasn't theirs and (Y/n) knew things would be the same after the baby was born. She could experience a pregnancy like she always wanted and give herself a small taste of motherhood as well as the satisfaction that she had helped her closest friends in the best way she possibly could.

It was a win win situation for everybody.

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"Baby, you okay?" A soft smile formed on Ben's lips when his eyes found (Y/n) standing in the doorway to the kitchen. Ben placed his cup down on the counter he was leaning against before he straightened up instead of being slouched over the counter.

(Y/n) didn't look upset or confused or hurt but she did look a little off, like there was something playing on her mind and she felt she had to talk about it. The smallest, kindest of smiles pulled at her lips and it made Ben's heart both melt and jump at the same time. He couldn't tell if her smile meant she was okay or if there was actually something wrong she was trying to dull down or ignore. His eyes watched her contently as she leaned her head against the door frame and crossed one leg over the other in a manner that always managed to capture his full attention without meaning to. A few seconds passed without any words before (Y/n) sighed and moved one of her arms that had previously been held behind her back.

"It worked." (Y/n)'s smile turned to one of both worry and nerves as she placed the positive pregnancy test on the counter for Ben to see.

(Y/n) had been more than surprised when she first brought up the subject to Ben and he seemed almost absolutely fine with it. He admitted it was going to be weird if (Y/n) decided to go through with it but he was by no means opposed to the idea. It was her body and her decision and Ben thought it was one of the most generous things for (Y/n) to do for Gwilym and Amy.

The smile that formed on Ben's lips relieved a weight that was beginning to press down on (Y/n)'s chest and when he motioned for her to come over to him, she obliged immediately. Walking the small distance over to where he was standing, (Y/n) pushed her head into his chest as her arms bound around his torso. Shivers ran down her spine when his arms wrapped around her and she felt him kissing her temple but he was smiling into the kiss.

In all honesty, (Y/n) hadn't expected to get pregnant the first time around, they had all been told that it had a probability of not working on the first go. But she was relieved that it had worked, she didn't fancy having to try again and again until the embryo finally started to form. The quicker this whole process went the better it would be. (Y/n) knew there was still a long way to go since she was only two months pregnant and there could be any number of complications or she could lose the baby. But she was going to relish in the relief and delight she was feeling right now.

She couldn't wait to see Gwilym and Amy and tell them the good news.

"Are you sure you're okay with all this? It's not going to be easy or very fun..." (Y/n) tilted her head up until she could rest her chin on Ben's chest in order to look at him properly.

"Sweetheart, I promise you that this is okay with me. I may not want kids of my own, but this isn't our baby, I've got nothing against you doing this." At the end of the day, Ben couldn't tell (Y/n) what she could or couldn't do with her body, he would never dream of doing that. He knew she was giving him a lot of say in this decision because it involved him and they were married, but it didn't affect Ben.

Ben may not want kids himself but he had nothing against kids or babies in general, he was very good with the children in their family. He thought t was admirable to have a baby considering all of the things it would put a woman's body through. It just wasn't something he could see for himself.

This wasn't their baby and he didn't think of it as if it was their child. They didn't have to get anything prepared or buy and baby clothes or change their lives for this, it was just nine months of a few moderate changes. Ben thought it was both admirable and brave of (Y/n) to put herself through this all for someone else so they could be happy. There were far too many people who wouldn't even consider being a surrogate to help others out.

Leaning up on her toes, (Y/n) moved her arms that were previously around Ben's waist so she could cup his face and press her lips to his own. She had known from the beginning that Ben wouldn't be angry or annoyed or downright refuse her doing this, but it made her heart explode knowing just how easygoing he was about this and how caring he was. Ben wasn't the slightest bit uncomfortable or resentful or put off about this and that was more than she could ever ask of him in this situation.

After all, he was going through this process with her, Ben was going to see his wife have a baby for someone else and that wasn't exactly normal or an everyday occurrence.

"Thank you." (Y/n)'s voice was quiet and gentle and a genuine smile formed on her lips when they pulled back. She brushed her thumb over his cheek as she felt his hands moving to hold her hips. They stayed like that for a few minutes in a peaceful silence until (Y/n) pressed another kiss to his lips before eventually pulling away so she could go and get a drink.

Ben turned around and leaned his back against the counter before he picked up his coffee, his eyes following (Y/n) as she headed over to the fridge.

"I'll have to book the twelve week scan soon." (Y/n) mused quietly whilst she grabbed the juice and got a cup from the cupboard on her left. Thinking about the scans really made it sink in that this was happening but (Y/n) didn't quite know how to feel about this. Growing up she had always told herself she didn't want kids but that had changed when she got older. When she married Ben she was fine with not having kids and now she could have the experience just once, even if she wouldn't get a baby at the end of it.

It was going to be weird going to scans and having to remember it wasn't really her baby she was having. It shared none of her DNA and none of Ben's either, it was Gwilym and Amy's baby that they had longed for since they first got together.

"Do you want me to come with you?" Ben noticed the way (Y/n)'s hand tightened around her glass like she thought it was about to slip through her fingers before she spun round on her heels to face him.

When they had first discussed this and Ben had said it was fine with him, he had offered to go along to any scans or checkups so (Y/n) wasn't doing it alone. (Y/n) had already talked about this kind of thing with Gwilym and Amy and they had agreed when (Y/n) asked if she could go to the scans alone. She would obviously tell them all the updates and give them the scan photos and such, but she wanted to do it on her own. It would feel too awkward with them there and they had said that it was perfectly fine because this was (Y/n)'s experience too and they didn't want to make it uncomfortable for her.

But when Ben first offered to come along, (Y/n) didn't think he was serious or that he would actually go through with it. She thought he was trying to be supportive but when the time came, he might feel too awkward to actually come along.

When (Y/n) turned around to face him, she saw the genuine look in his eyes and the almost cheeky smile on his lips showed he wasn't messing her around or asking out of nervousness or because he thought he should. He genuinely wanted to if she wanted him there.

"Really?"

"I can't have you going alone, what will the doctor think?"

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"Alright, if you'd like to take a seat we can take a look at your little one." The slightly aged but very bright midwife moved her hand to gesture to the bed she wanted (Y/n) to lie on before she moved to set up the monitor.

Both (Y/n) and Ben shared a silent but knowing look between them before they walked over to go and sit down. It had already been agreed between the couple that if the midwife or doctors didn't know about this being a surrogate pregnancy, they wouldn't correct them. It would waste too much time and be too annoying to have to explain that this wasn't their baby, it was actually their friend's baby they were just 'looking after' temporarily.

(Y/n) knew it was going to be so much easier to just turn up to scans and checkups with Ben and just pretend this was their baby. It saved a lot of hassle and awkwardness.

Moving over to the bed, (Y/n) sat up and stretched her legs out whilst Ben sat down on the seat next to her. When she turned to look at him, (Y/n) could see the curiosity in his eyes that were flitting between her and the monitor. He'd never been in this position before and he never imagined that he would be, but he couldn't deny that it made his stomach burst with adrenaline.

Ben watched (Y/n) roll her shirt up but when he noticed her dragging her nails across the bed she was lying on, he reached over and took her hand. He could see the nervousness rattling through her whole body to the point she was almost shaking and he knew why.

Gwilym and Amy had been waiting for this moment for years and they truly didn't think this would ever happen. Ben could see how nervous (Y/n) was in case the midwife told her that there was a problem or she'd lost the baby or had had a phantom pregnancy. She didn't want to upset or let her friends down and it was making her panic when she had no reason to.

(Y/n) barely felt the cold gel pressing onto her stomach, her eyes simply zoomed in on the monitor and waited for the black and grey picture to become as clear as it would to her untrained eyes. This had to of worked, she didn't want to go back to the hospital to try again, she didn't want to feel the disappointment or grief and she certainly didn't want to see her friends heartbroken at her failure.

"There's your baby."

Ben couldn't feel his chest moving or any breaths leaving his lips when those three little words hit his ears. They felt so odd in his mind because this wasn't his baby, it wasn't even (Y/n)'s baby despite her carrying it. But those words made his heart clench so tightly he thought for a brief moment that he was having some kind of heart attack.

This wasn't their baby... but what if it was?

What if they had been sitting here waiting for their baby to come on the screen, what if they were actually seeing their own baby on that screen?

Ben had never thought about it like this before, he'd always just had a feeling or a knowing sense that he didn't want kids. He loved (Y/n) to the ends of the Earth and he didn't feel a yearning for a baby, he just liked it being the two of them. But there was something about the small little blip on the screen that was tugging at his heartstrings. He couldn't help but wonder what this would all be like if they weren't here solely for Gwilym and Amy.

It never escaped Ben's notice that (Y/n) was in two minds about children. He could always see how on some occasions she looked at kids and it just didn't click in her mind, she didn't feel anything. But then other times, on small occasions, he could see that yearning in her eyes that he'd never felt before... until now.

Why was that one little blip on the screen making Ben question something he thought he knew for certain?

[notthe-latte-hottay]

Sunflower for the ask game

Sunflower: Is there a mystery from your life that you still haven't figured out? Do you have any theories?

Ok, this might not be as strange as I think it is but I couldn't think of anything else.

I'm a product of IVF. To make it sound cooler than it is, I was made in a lab rather than the *cough* usual method. But I don't go round telling people that, it's just not particularly interesting to me.

So in my senior year of high school I'm walking to class when a guy called Josh pushes through the crowd of students to reach me. He stops me and says, "Were you an IVF baby?!" I say I was, and ask him how he knew that. He says, "It doesn't matter. I just know." And he walked away. I asked my friends if they mentioned it to him, but most of them didn't know themselves, and the one that did had never spoken to Josh.

Idk maybe "test tube babies" as my friend puts it, can sense each other except me 😂