#sucks that didnt work but oh well what can u do

[taniushka12]

laying in the ground crying.................................... when will *I* get to kiss a guy..........

[misayani]

— SQUID GAME WOMEN STRAP HCS

◜ featuring ... player 196 (bee girl), no eul (guard 011), se-mi (player 380), sae-byeok (s1 player 067) 

𔗨 author's note — didnt add junhee cos she preg and no hyunju bc i dont think she'll be comfortable w a male genitalia toy BUT LETS FUCKING GOoOO strap game hcs coming right up !! [lowercase intended]

p.s. thank u for all the reqs!! give me time and ill post my work one by one, i js have so many ideas in my mind its gonna explode

warning: smut [use of strap-on, taking pictures]

player 196 — 

- ! PINK STRAP PINK STRAP PINK STRAP !

- sweet talker during sex but her movements are definitely the opposite of sweet

- would DEFINITELY take pretty pictures of you while you drool over her strap

- has a special album for you with pink emojis on the side <33

- slows down right before you orgasm !!!

- she makes fun of your pathetic state :(( 

- you get even more turned on ofc

- mostly just her teasing you whenever she fucks you using her strap

- sometimes she'd add fun and use a vibrator on u alongside her strap!!

- one time she wanted to test the new mascara she bought if it was really waterproof like it said on the packaging

- .... guess what ....

- she applies it on your lashes, brings out the strap and fucks u non stop til u were literally crying

- lashes stayed bomb after sex though so she took note of that ! 

- loves to edge u COS LIKE I SAID SHE'S A TEAAAASE

- after a few edging rounds she'd finally let u cum

- she's not THAT mean to not let u !!

- LOVES hearing your moans !!! sometimes she'd get off herself by just that.

- AFTERCARE !! would make u feel like a princess and im talking about bubble baths, cuddles, and sometimes would even do your nails <3

"good girl, taking me in so well" 

no eul —

- doesnt rlly care abt strap colors but i can imagine her w the skin tone one 

- prepare to not be able to walk the next day

- ABSOLUTELY MERCILESS !!!!! 

- poor baby's stressed most of the time so fucking u with her strap serves as her stress reliever

- u wont complain though, her strap game has u crying out of pleasure

- though once you've had enough and said the safe word she'd stop w/o hesitation

- DOGGY STYLE?!?![[€=€{[€

- easier for her to hit the deepest areas inside u <3

- pulls ur hair while doing it 

- DARE I SAY she has an unnie kink...

- call her that = prepare yourself for the best fuck of your life

- DONT GET ME WRONG!! she may be rough but she fucks u like she loves you

- feels relieved after sex, she's glad to have someone like u :((

- i personally think u'd actually be the one giving her aftercare

- cause she deserves all the loooove and care

- <3 

"shit— just like that, just like that."

se mi — 

- BLACK. 6 INCHES. CURVED

- im sorry but if u think she'll go easy on u well you're so so wrong

- COWBOY 

- she loves u on top cos that means she'll get to see your pretty face

- AND ur boobs ;)

- explores ur body with her hands as u bounce on her strap

- if u dont know what ur doing, she'll guide you

- such a dirty talker

- would make u feel like a slut and a princess cos she'll degrade and praise u at the same time

- fucks you like she hates you

- BRAT TAMER !! HELLO

- another edger 

- she'll edge you until you're a crying mess begging for her to let u cum :(

- "se-mi please"

- "stop fucking complaining. you take what i give you."

- se-mi has a playful personality so it's no surprise if she teases u the whole time you're having sex

- loves to overstimulate u

- she'll make u suck it after 

- would literally pound into your mouth til you cry

- aftercare w her's the best though

- she's slight of different in and out of bed so expect her to be gentle right after fucking u so roughly

"oh did you think i was done with you? we're not stopping til you squirt on my cock."

sae byeok —

- NOW she'd be the one who's gentle during sex

- her cold and stoic persona vanishes the moment she fucks you

- you'd be surprised actually about the way she's gone so soft on you

- if you like it slow, she'll go slow. if you like it rough, she'll go rough

- she just wants to show you she loves you

- making out while she's pounding into you >>

- would feel satisfied when you finally orgasm

- doesn't really speak during sex but she'd let out small praises from time to time

- she'll eat you out right after

"i love you."

@misayani

[kroosluvr]

featherman seeker

as usual da cele notes under cut

had to get some food so thsi si late... i lterally gluedm yself to my chair to finish this LMAOAO

all of the not-dialogue is just straight up lines frm featherman seeker LMAOOO just rearranged

this takes place during 3rd semester (see: infiltration log on wall on 4th page, also their winter clothes strewn around akira's room) after drawing it i was rereading like oh u cld prob see this as like post-third semester but nah i intended it to be such BECAUSE

i rock w the canon that sumire has no clue abt akechi's past and black mask and the mental shutdowns and shido and the engine room she doesnt know hes supposed to be dead, that he sacrificed himself, etc. so ofc shes going thru the game like yayyy featherman yay and her sort of naivete Gets thru to goro. i imagine this is like idk a game he played in childhood bc he was a featherman fan but now revisiting it bc sumire wanted to try it, hes like. damn. this kinda. uh. well thats crazy how things line up. so i think it kinda grates at him but sumi's excitement and like. enjoyment! of it kinda helps him also enjoy it more

SO LIKE He knows he's going to die. He knows thats how grey pigeon's story ends. but he's happy here, and now, with the people he loves, so that makes it All right for now. it's a sad story but it's the good ending.

also i forgor how/where/when goro exactly Actualizes back into existence but can u imagine if he spawned right into the winter wonderland of shibuya square like (head in hands) smth so like. isolating abt it. in a crowd of ppl being excited over christmas and hes like what the hell im supposed to be Dead right now.

also "you are not alone" in the first panels very important..... right under hte panel w goro and sumi side by side :') yea

ryuji and ann holding akira back. YEA.

i really like the 3rd slide. the colors mmmm BUT YEAH so its goro/akira fighting/saving sumire, hanging out at jazz jin, last stand against adam kadmon, then goro holding sumi and akira's hands in the snow, then them smiling :') kinda like a procession of memories, or to-be memories or whatever

ANYWAY this is also like part of my whatever canon divergence where the royal trio section of 3rd sem is just longer for no reason . (aka: the thieves take longer to win over to their side, idk maruki gives u a longer time on the deal, etc etcetc.) just more royal trio time :3

sumibun akimeow and gorodog in 4th img... hidden.... also tennis rackets. ALSO THE LITTLE POLAROIDS Important. and all their clothes! i imagine they stay over at leblanc A Lot. akira prob convinces sojiro to Keep morgana at his house LOL and he handles the business and stuff just so they can have their safe haven while they struggle to try and win the thieves back and infiltrate the palace etc . (I kinda have a comic or something in the works for this)

more abt dialogue choices

"it's tough for a tutorial stage" - this means smth. i didnt think this thru 100% ASKJDHASDKJA but its to do w akechi's life and how everything was so fucking difficult for him as a kid when it shouldnt have been.

"is the second phase giving you trouble" - also smth to do w akechi. (As u can see these are all half baked metaphors) smth to do w his 'second life" aka: third semester being Difficult. because now he has sumire and akira and he doesn't want to leave them, so dying the 2nd time is gonna suck real bad.

i like shuakesumi btw

[gamblersdoll]

I think about Guts resting under a tree after a battle, and in the lake in front of him, a naked reader bathing in the lake’s water, So he can't help himself

nsfw, shy reader

I ♡ u 🤭

masturbation (m) , blowjobs, guts is a little feral in this so. guts point of view.

i have to lay down, somewhere, somehow.

maybe i did overdo it this time. i never realized how much swinging or effort it took to swing this sword around. yet, it feels like i accomplished something from it. yeah, i did— i protected her. i protected the love of my life. the strongest woman i knew– no, the woman who made me feel like i was worth something.

my eyes look up, finding a large tree. shit, thats a big ass fuckin’ tree. but it can work. i feel myself lay against it, my muscles finally getting the rest they probably deserve. i look to my missing arm, the bionic metal replacing it. fuck, ill have to fix it or some shit. my eyes can close, finally.

a rustle of water is heard, what the fuck was that? my eyes shot open, looking over and around the entirety of the landscape. not this shit again, i just sat the hell down and im still being bothered—

oh, its you—

the water ran down your body, fuck. you look too damn good right now. can i even stand? well shit, did you even know i was here? probably not.

did the water feel warm, beautiful? i hope it does, the way your body just relaxes into it. and the way you let the water run through your hair, you look like a goddess, beautiful. never seen anything like this, at least not for a long while.

fuck, now another muscle is aching. all because of you. first i protected you, now i want to fuck my fist just to see you wash your body.

and it seemed like the water had some type of effect on your skin, it looks like your own worries or ponders washed away when the water hit the curve of your back. please— please dont moan like that.

my arm moves on its own, pulling my cock– the cock i wanted inside of you out, slowly but tightly pumping the length. shit, i need you. needed you all the fucking time. dont you know that? probably not. sometimes you werent the brightest color of the flowers, yet you were still the most beautiful, and elegant one.

shit!—

“oh shit—“ you hurry to get your clothes, but i waved my hands, hoping you wouldnt. “im sorry, i didnt see you..” its okay, my beloved.

my lips crash to yours, hand and metal curving around your body as it feels too good to even pull away. your small hands, fuck were they soft and tiny, they curved around my neck. please, please keep touching me.

your smaller body kneeled to me. did you ever know how fucking attractive that is to a man? seeing the love of his life kneel to suck his cock? you women didnt know how much that can please a man. a man that loved you would know. fuck!

your lips wrapped around my cock, sucking around me as i gripped your hair. was this too tight, no, you wanted me to grip harder, thats what you told me with a mouthful of dick. shit, keep going. fuck, keep stroking me just like that, baby.

my balls are so fucking tight. you can probably feel them, the way you fumble with them in your hand. you will never know how good this shit feels. fuck, i wish i could repay you. fuck, thank you for this shit. keep going justlikefuckinthat, yes, oh god— shit yes!.

did i taste salty or bitter to you, my beautiful woman? i hope i didnt. i probably did, since i never did eat much. plus, i did just come back from fighting an apostle. what—

no way in hell you just swallowed my seed. shit.

my lips crashed onto you, my tastebuds curling up. shit, i wasnt bitter, yet i was salty. ill fix it for you, my sweet woman. our bodies, naked, feel the warmth of our own and the large body of water. i want to make you feel good yourself, without having to drop my cock into you. but god, was it hard to not do that.

[vampziry]

hot take about the void and loa because i saw someone doing this and i got the 💐urge💐

- i literally hate how we, as a community, ended up relying on complicated ways and methods to tap into the void when the basics of it are enough and way easier than most of the methods out there and im not even kidding. limiting beliefs have made such a blockage in people’s minds nowadays that they refuse to stick around with the basics and choose to overcomplicate their journey following methods for days when they can literally lay down and affirm for some minutes and thats it… bruh.

- thinking too much. yeah, its okay to think but bro you already know what loa is about. just live in the wish fulfilled and ur desire wont even take more than 3 days to be where u want it to be. why are u worrying bc u dont have that phone u always wanted? bitch u just bought it??? ur HOLDING IT. why u worrying about that car? u literally saw it parked in ur yard ohmygod.

- people relying on bloggers. big nuh uh for me, ofc we are meant to help y’all but you cant just sit down all day and expect them to do shit for u. every person has their separate journey and manifestation paths so get ur shit together and work on ur damn self.

- people doubting other people’s results just bc they still dont have theirs. bro im so done with people doubting success stories when they never manifested shit before and they come and say: oh they lied. yeah and u call urself a blogger and do the same shit and then u get exposed and deactivate, so funny.

- lies. YES I HAD TO MENTION THIS. if youre gonna drop a whole mfkin post talking about a beautiful success story PLEASE CLARIFY IF YOURE TALKING ABOUT UR REAL EXPERIENCE OR JUST HELPING URSELF GET INTO THE WISH FULFILLED STATE. ive seen a lot of success stories that ended up being fake js because the person wanted to convince their subconscious. convince ur subconscious of what?? bro.

- anons being rude. THERES NO FUCKING NEED TO BE RUDE AND FLOOD BLOGGERS ASKS WITH MONKEY BEHAVIOR MESSAGES. nah yall getting too far with this shit. if you cant get shit because you suck and ur routine and journey suck as well even tho u were seeking help AND HELP WAS GIVEN TO U AND U DIDNT DO A THING ABOUT IT, dont blame others for your own failure.

[peachanonie]

here’s a little taehyun thought based on a personal experience for y’all 🤭

warning: tmi abt my sex life ahead lol

ok so a little while ago i was hooking up with this guy, super sweet and funny, very chill. he was kinda a switch but leaned more dom, and he was like.. beefy 🫣 he worked out a LOT. anyway, the first time we ever went out, it ended in us making out in the back of my van 🤭 nice music playing.. very cozy vibes. but as things progressed i ended up giving him head 😋 and THIS IS WHAT WE’RE TALKING ABT TODAY OKAY

like i said earlier, this guy was a switch leaning dom. so i’m going down on him and for a second i pull off to jerk him off a little and i run my thumb against his slit, now when i tell you he lost his mind I MEAN IT. he went from calling me a good girl to throwing his he’d back and calling me mommy in a SECOND. I DIDNT EVEN SAY ANYTHING. had him begging, saying he’s been a good boy within the blink of an eye.

now. taehyun. that’s it. IMAGINE THIS WITH TAE. IT IS SO HIM OH MY FUCKING GOD.

ok ok so like first date with tae, maybe a mutual friend set u up, or u met on a dating app. you meet somewhere for dinner and ice cream or smth and the whole date he’s so sweet and flirty <3 arm around your waist so casually, sitting in the same booth as u so he can fluster u even more, just trying to make u lose ur mind over him cus the second he saw u in person he wanted u under him 🤭 the date goes so well that u take him back to ur car a “late night drive” you know exactly what you’re doing.

you end up in a empty parking lot, soft music playing, straddling his lap in the back seat of your car while he leaves marks on ur pretty neck <3 things heat up and u ask if u can suck him off and OF COURSE he says yes cus it’s literally all he’s wanted to see the entire night. he’d be lying if he said he wasn’t imagining u on ur knees for him once ur twice during your conversations earlier. can you blame him tho? the top u wore leaving little to nothing to the imagination with how low cut it is.. pretty tits spilling over it, so soft and jiggly every time u giggle </3 god did he want u rn.

the second ur lips meet his pretty cock, his hands are in your hair, tugging gently, saying what a good girl u are for taking him so well. but when u replace ur mouth with ur hand as u come up for air and ur thumb runs over his tip, paying extra attention to his slit,,,, his mind goes blank. his grip on your hair loosens, his head gets thrown back, eyes squeezed shut and mouth hanging open in a silent groan before u give his tip a little peck and run ur thumb over it once more.

that’s it. he’s done. you haven’t even said a word since you started going down on him but in an INSTANT he’s whining and begging you fuck, please, i’ve been a good boy, which has ur eyes widening for a second before ur expression turns to a smirk oh yeah?

his eyes shut again, somehow tighter than before, as he lets out such a cute whiny groan mommy… and with that you’d be lying if u said ur panties weren’t ruined rn, stroking his cheek u coo at him shh.. let mommy take care of you pretty boy

[kuni-is-daddy]

WORKING OUT WITH GOJO SATORU. X GN READER.

Ft: Teasing, grinding.

1.1k words of gojo thirsting for u.

Gojo x Female reader smut

WARNING: NSFW CONTENT.

MINORS DO NOT INTERACT

At first gojo would ask you to come along just so you can watch him dead lift 200+lbs(pounds) or even be his "spotter" so he 'wouldnt get hurt', the spotter part was your idea. But just the thought of watching gojo sweat and breathe heavy gave you butterflies in your stomach. If you two would go to a public gym gojo would 100% FLEX HIS ASS OFF. Lift 200lbs? Nah gojo's going to 400lb. It doesnt matter if these other 'people' look more 'ripped' then him. He'll show them up without a problem. "Yeah you like that baby?" He'd grunt mid lift. "F-fuck..Its all for you love~" You'd scold him for pushing himself too hard but he'd suck his teeth, pick you up without warning and carry you bridal style out the gym. Laughing as you'd punch at him to put you down because it was 'embarrassing'

Gojo who would also send you pictures and videos of him lifting. Captioning how he can't wait to show you his progress. Up close. He'd sometimes even wear more revealing. Clothes during missions you two got paired up in. Turning off his infinity just so the wind can blow through his shirt and reveal his abs. Only for Utahime and Nobara to scold him.

If he's deadlifting sometimes gojo would joke around and act like the weight was too heavy for him or he got gradually tired, it could even be considered as a test of trust the first couple of times he invites you over. He'd smile and blush at how you tried so hard to hold it up for him after he made 'pained grunts.' even using cursed energy slightly because it was too heavy for you. (Gojo was completely fine holding up that much btw). He'd yank the weight off of him. trying to 'catch his breath' only to see you running around the gym that you've never been too before, asking people where you can buy water and cold towels for him. And that was another moment when gojo truly fell in love with you

One day Gojo finds you in the gym before he is. Wearing clothes lighter/thinner then your average attire as you sat on your phone waiting for him to arrive. "Hm? I see you got here before me baby~" He'd walk up to you with his gym bag. Wearing a black tank top, shorts and his iconic shades. Gojo is so tall~ (around 6'3) so even when his body isnt flexed out he towers over you so easily. "Well..I was thinking of joining you this time toru~" you smirk while looking him up and down, watching as he takes off his shades and his beautiful blue eyes glow, Now looking at you with an intimate gaze.

Gojo didnt have a problem with whatever you we're trying to achieve at the gym for any reason. Be it for your mental health, For him, Or just for the sake of being fit or trying something new. He loved the idea of you even doing something as far as exercise because it meant you we're getting stronger. Just.. 'Not as strong as him' he'd chuckle to himself while watching you do warm ups...Specifically squats.

He'd count out how much your doing, constantly telling you to push yourself and keep going 'just f' me' Until eventually it looks like gojo is enjoying himself a little TOO much. He's paying so much attention to your ass and how you'd recklessly bounce up and down from how tired you we're getting. Imagining how you'd bounce on his cock while pleading for him to let you cum "T-toru! oh fuck toru~ please..im so close daddy.." "Hah..Your so fucking good for me, Milking my cock just like that.. Dont stop.." Gojo gets caught out of his hard daze when you stop exercising and just stare at him with your hands on your hips because he somehow went from the number 14 to 69- while counting.

Gojo would pout and tug at your arm for you to keep exercising because you look so fucking hot. "Cmon baby..I promise i wont look...so much.. kay? You just..Do what your doing over there and ill be over here lifting-" he'd smile and give you a thumbs up while scooting over to the weights. "okay toru~ if you say so..." You'd constantly stop mid set to take a peek behind you to see if gojo was being a pervert, But everytime you would he'd just look 'normal'. When in reality gojo was talking glances at you, lifting with one hand and rubbing against his clothed length with the other. Mumbling how good you looked for him, How your sweat coated your body so well, watching as you perked up your lips when taking a sip of your water. "Yeah baby..thats what im talkin about' Dont stop.. your doin so well... fuck yeah..sweat for me~" You'd look at him dumfounded and ask if he was alright. "Yeah baby im great~ you keep exercising for me alright? get that heart healthy f' me~ you and that good form of yours. So fucking good" He'd take off his shirt, his chest glistening and pumping out through his sweaty body. You'd choke on your water while examining his body. "heh..Like what you see baby? Didnt get these over night~" he'd place the weight down and begin walking towards you, Flicking his hands through his hair. "How about I give you a treat baby? You've been so good f' me, working so fucking hard~ how about i help you out.."

You would shyly look away, calling gojo distracting because you we're trying to 'focus' but he loved that even more~ how dedicated you we're..how persisent you we're..All for him. He'd pull you into a sloppy kiss, picking you up and sitting on the bench. Your hands would begin to trail along his chest, Feeling his hot body against your own. "You can touch this body all you want baby~ its all yours." he pulled away from the kiss, trailing his mouth along the side of your neck, sending you chills down your body. "T-toru..we shouldnt do it here..What if someone comes in and see's.." You'd tug at his sweaty warm body. "mmm good then baby, let them see. Want everyone to be fucking jealous. So dam lucky to have you in my life, love you so dam much~" Gojo began to bite at your shoulder, tugging at your top. "shit..Wanna take you on right fucking now y/n. Cmon~ let daddy touch you, let me reward you~"

Your shivered at how touch gojo began to get, Not even trying to hide it anymore as he shifted his hands down to your waist, Moving your body over so you'd grind right against him. "T-toru...Toru.." youd moan out his name. holding onto his built arms while the intense heat of the gym ambushed your body as you could feel gojo's pent up length now grinding on your. "fuck...Yes baby?" "T-touch me..please..i want it~" "oh yeah baby~ know' you wanted more. Addicted to this cock yeah? say how much you want it~" he laid his head back against the bench, slapping your ass while you grinded against his length. "G-Gojo~ please...oh shit..please~ I cant, I wanna cum~ I wanna cum for you gojo~ I want you so bad daddy~" "Fuck yeah..thats what i wanted to hear baby~ beg for me more like a slut while daddy rewards you~"

[ideasarestuckinmyhead]

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Dinner Date?

{♡} requested

- what happened after boytoy in wonderland?

loud music

{♡} ask

- how tf is Boo not dead yet-

Sweaty love

{♡} personal

- hed so do this to fuck w u

Consequences

{♡} personal

- life is so strange.

More consequences

{♡} personal

- ah yes more of this strange life.

Incorrect Quotes:

sit on my face to rest

BETTLEJUICE BEETLEJUICE-

Consequences

{♡} personal

- well if it isnt the consequences of my own actions.

Incorrect Quotes:

do you think I give a fuck

Casper gets hospitalized.

{♡} requested

- Charlie is freaking out but hes being supportive the best he can

Charlie NSFW HCs

{♡} requested

- another one thank you

Love bites. (In more ways than one)

{♡} requested

- Chomping on him like a feral dog w a new chew toy

Incorrect Quotes:

the devil himself

First kiss

{♡} requested

- MY FIRST KISS WHEN A LIL LIKE THISS

Sunflower remembers!

{♡} ask

- When the yapping pays off (no but fr this is so cute)

Florist Sunflower

{♡} ask

- Betrayed by my lover /jk

My peace and lover

{♡} personal

- Finn got that effect on people

Incorrect Quotes:

you need sleep

A loving head bump.

{♡} requested

- oop almost got a concussion

Wedding in Bloom, along with panic

{♡} requested

- Rook is panicking and Auron is like okay but like dw I got this

Goth Rook

{♡} requested

- CORPORATE GOTH AURON W GOTH ROOK

Auron NSFW HCs

{♡} requested

- even more smut bc I'm a freak

Mr. Darcy PT2

{♡} ask

- God he'd do this I love hiimm

Two sides of fame. - Songfic

{♡} personal

- WHAT CHA LOOKING AT BABY IS A MF LEGEND IN THE MAKING

Consequences

{♡} personal

- oh fuck I forgor the consequences

....consequences?

{♡} personal

- god dammit can I do INE THING W/O THEM!?!?

Poetic Rizz

{♡} personal

- Lord help him he started being romantic (keep going tho)

monopoly

{♡} personal

- FUCK THIS WDYM U OWN THE BOARD!?!?

Incorrect Quotes:

might be cooked

licking hc

{♡} ask

- He's so do it

emoticons

{♡} personal

- he loves them and emojis

Ideas for Jack

{♡} personal

- I did write these I'm working on pt2

Blue cake

{♡} personal

- this would be so funny

All dolled up.

{♡} requested

- Bittersweet trio nsfw bc holy shit their horny

Panic attacks suck ass.

{♡} requested

- YO FUCK OLD PEOPLE WHO BE MEAN TO CUSTOMER SERVICE PEOPLE!! Bittersweet trio

Goth Listener HC

{♡} requested

- Alphone, Seth and Finn with a goth listener?

Quitting bad habits is hard.

{♡} requested

, Listener was a past drug addict with Alphonse, Seth and Charlie

Sugarboo killed Derek AU

{♡} requested

- oh shit of fuck Boo killed him and time didn't go back

death motif - Boo

{♡} ask

- when Boo was destined to kill him.

Protective older siblings - Mafia family Au

{♡} personal

- just overprotective sibling things

Swaying necks cannot hold a heavy crown. - Royal family Au

{♡} personal

- oh the heavey crown makes heads sway with uncertainty.

Bridgerton Au - All boys

{♡} personal

- I BINGED THE SHOW AND I LOVE IT

Consequences - Boo

{♡} personal

- God damn it boo why didt you tell them?!?!

Consequences - Rook

{♡} personal

- olay but to be fair Rook didnt know it would fuck w him

Rook compared to a succubus

{♡} personal

- this is just fucking funny bc Ayron and rook fuck like rabbits.

Twitter PT22 PT23 PT24 PT25 PT26 PT27

Incorrect Quotes:

the town goth

*start's tweaking*

in bed!

MAKE HASTE!!

titties

WHO'S THE BADDEST?

BREADBREADBREAD

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[kittencomicslol]

Gyutaro x reader requests :3

Requests are; Open!!

Hello hello hello!!! If u know me, u know I love Gyutaro (a concerning amount but hey we all have our struggles)

I most likely will not do full entire fanfictions but rather little headcannons/senarios. I’ve done these on my wattpad so for reference this is what I mean by that (no need to actually read this it’s just to show how i do my shit lol) but if you request something and I REALLLYY like the idea or if I’m pumped full of motivation, I might do a full one.

Edit; okay!! What the fart! The link won’t work ig no reference for yall

Here are some guidelines for what I will/wont write, and then under that I’ll set up a little master-List ^_^

Also sen I know you frequent tumblr and the ds tag aswell so helloo! Hello hello!! Ily!! :3

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What I will definitely write!! (If it’s not on here I can try, but this is stuff I definitely will do!!)

-Fluff, I love love LOVE toothrotting fluff

-Angst, depending on how mentally stable I currently am when writing

-Hurt comfort LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE hurt comfort

-Reader w disabilities

-Phobias

-Disorders

-Readers who have gone through past grooming/abuse (I feel u yall ❤️)

-Gore (it’s demon slayer like cmon it’s gonna happen at some point when it comes to something)

-Cannibalism (same sitch as gore, demons n stuff bro)

-Human reader

-Demon reader

-Yokai reader

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What I won’t/can’t do

-NSFW!! I am a minor :3 (ofc I can leave jokes or mentions of shit but I’m not gonna actually post nsfw as a minor)

-M! reader (sorry I just gen suck w it and I’m mostly writing these 4 me, I’m sorry 💔 this does not apply to mtf trans topics!! ❤️)

-Depictions of something unhealthy (grooming, gaslighting, abuse, manipulation, pedophilla, not cool stuff!! I can write this in hurt comfort/taking about trauma but I will NEVER make it something to actually do w the relationship)

-Yandere stuff (though I love this as a horror idea, a lot of ppl actually enjoy romanticizing yandere stuff which classifies as romanticizing abuse. That is totally not cool!! I hate writing that stuff bc it normalizes those topics to younger ppl reading which is dangerous!)

-Incell shit. I’ve seen too many ppl on here go ‘oh Gyutaro is an incell’ ‘I fought the incell accusations and lost’ well I DIDNT. I don’t care about the plot at all, Gyutaro literally RAISED A GIRL. IN THE RED LIGHT DISTRICT. He literally taught her to defend herself against creepy men!! Like cmon guys use critical thinking and common sense pls 😭😭

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I do not know how frequently I will be able to post/write. My life is literally in limbo rn and I am prioritizing myself‼️‼️

If you wanna ask just send it in as a question for my blog, I can work w it that way. Idk if that’s how ppl usually do it or not I’m new to tumblr but fuck it we ball 🔥🔥

And I am posting this 10 minutes before new years, let’s kick 2024 off with scribbles about our favorite demon boy!! <3

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Masterlist!! (Hc / fanfiction / imagines)

!Human Gyu with an !upper moon reader

Random self indulgent fluff fanfiction

How Gyutaro would like to cuddle

Comforting him with snuggles n praise

Braids

Gyutaro with an !artist reader who has Gyutaro as their main muse

Playful banter

He loves snuggles

What he likes about the winter

[exhokai]

heyy if u write for the group iluna from nijisanji en, may i request an dom!aster x gn!reader where the reader is touch starved but aster is streaming so they ends up wearing smth (u can decide) and barges into asters streaming room and sits on his lap and tries to distract him while hes playing some sort of fps game or league and it makes him stop focusing?

AHAHAHA ASTER ARCADIA HEHEHEH

didnt have a photo sorry bookie

this was more of a switchy aster sorry

switch!aster (sub to top), slight grinding, facefucking, deepthroat, nearly getting caught, cum swallowing, enna breaking the 4th walk

a/n: it took me SO so long to work on this im SO sorry

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oh aster dearest aster. aster was playing his silly little games (i didnt know what to put) and actually playing with kyo, enna, and fulgur. well- more like kyo was listening and the others were playing BUT THATS BESIDES THE POINT

he was chillin vibing fuckin (hehe fuckin) around when you pop into his room. unnoticed. and wearing his sweater. no pants. just underwear. ya nasty- (gets bonked)

you waddle up to his chair and lay your head on his shoulder. he notices you and gives you a little ‘hello’ expression than whispers ‘im busy’. but you dear reader. dont give a shit. you slide down and get under his arm to than slide onto his lap. hes suprised (FLABBAGASTED) as 1.) you’re wearing his sweater. with only some underwear. thats all 2.) you put your arms around his neck to sit fully on his crotch. moving (purposefully may i add) to get more comfortable. he whispers a hurried “what are you doing?!”

kyo heard it. and so did enna. “yo aster you good?” kyo asked (MY LOVE UHHHGHHHHHVHHGGGG) “o-oh im fine” “are you sure my guy you sound a bit off” goddamnit enna. now your gonna make the narrator haunt you with what aster and the reader are doing-

wait. thats my job hehehe- anyways. fulgur takes notice and says “cmon aster even if theres a cute cat climbing in front of you, we need to win. cmon”

yeah. cat. sure. he looks at you. frustration and anger since he could loose his job. but that doesnt matter that you got food on yo table now does it 🤨. you start moving your hips side to side. slowly. slowly enough so its agonizing for aster. he grips you with one hand. signaling to stop. you dont. you kiss his neck moving down so you slide off his lap. he looks down and gives you a warning look to stop as you pull down his sweats

you pull his dick out of his boxers, fascinated even though you’ve sucked his dick before. you instantly put the head in your mouth as he gasps. you can hear the faint sound of fulgur laughing. “AHAHAHA MY BOY ASTER YOU OKAY?” he starts to speak so you suck on the head hard so it comes more as a strangled “i-im okay!!” hes ashamed as you everyone laughs at him. even chat. “you getting your dick sucked my guy” enna asks. you laugh slightly as you move your head down further on his dick “n-no!! just-“ he cuts himself off as he looks at the chat. sudden anger fills him as one of his hands is taken off of the keyboard and grabs your hair to shove you down his dick. a sound of surprise leaving you

“im fine” he says with sudden composure. he has one hand on the keyboard and one on your head loosing focus yet still playing while you gag so hard on his dick. he moves your head a bit and starts thrusting. quickly and hard as you make gagging noises, surprised at this sudden switch of energy in aster

he gives you a look of “dont move” as he shoves you to the base of his cock. tears well up in your eyes from the suddenness of his thrusting. you grip his thighs so your hands aren’t awkwardly sitting there in your lap. his abuse to your throat is painful yet if feels like your head is reeling from it.

“yo aster what the fuck why are you lacking so much” enna asks. he mutters out a sorry as he lets his hand off your hair and back to the game, letting your head fly around a bit without support.

a few minutes go buy. your throat is sore and his hand is back in your hair. and hes close. he looks down at you, and everyone saw it, his chat starts flying

“HELP IS HE GETTING HIS DICK SUCKED”

“ayo aster why you lookin down like that”

“my guy just looked at his crotch oh nahh 💀”

he panics and makes an excuse “sorry guys i felt something fall. lemme get it” he leans down completely as he pushes his chair back and gets on his hands and knees, still facefucking you. “in close. and you better take it. all”. you oblige. you start crying from the insane speed he has with his hips. god was he always like this? he starts whispering ‘im close im close’ till he presses your face against him. making you take his cum down your throat. he pulls out once hes finished

“dont do that again or it will be worse”

(and enna thinks to herself when she wakes up why she had to open her mouth during that collab. as the haunting image of her coworker fucking someones mouth stays branded because of me lmao)

[plutos134340]

hiii pluto :3 you wanna tell me about ur ocs sooo bad /nf (also is calling you pluto ok ?)

Ooooooh i feel like i wanna tell u about them soooo badly (and yes im ok with being called pluto, it technically isnt my name- that which is natalie, but i am chill with pluto as well)

Long text under the paragraph bc i dont feel like subjecting the random viewer to a long post:

Ok so some background for the way my aus work: i suck at making my own characters, but i can like give traits and personalities to existing characters that dont have much in canon, or just replacing a pre-existing characters personality, so thats what i do time and time again. Then i make random characters for funsies

First au concept and darias place in it: So basically i had made some cliche fnaf au where like none of the kids ever died- ig i wanted some happiness in life. And i then made Daria to go along with them and she was Henry's kid and an older sister to Charlie. They also had another younger brother but he is irrelevant. She is best friends with michael afton, and was also closest to fritz and jeremy (foxy and bonnie) She is like a random oc but does has a lot of my traits bc i found it easier to cope with myself through a character with fake friendships rather than actually think about myself and the people i know.

Traits (physical and personality-wise): She is white and has pale-ish skin, and shes got shoulder-length, curly, brown hair (like 2C); she is white, and she is pretty tall. She has hazel eyes (the green and brown being separate kind of hazel because i have that eye color and i like my eyes 💀). Shes queer, specifically being bisexual and ace-spec, and is a cis girl. She is pretty down-to-earth, and is mostly a realist. One thing that has stayed true throughout her many forms is that she often forms intimate relationships with people quickly but can end up starting fights with the same people quickly. Idk where that came from but thats her.

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And now the second au and all that jazz. I know you dont know much at all about cccc but basically there are these characters Heart, Mind and Soul, who are all technically personified parts of the singer's (chonny jash) brain. In this au they are all human and like half related to their original identities. They go by the names Juno, Keene and Atlas, respectively, with the collection of their names just coming from random sources in the songs (juno and atlas) and then i just picked a random name i saw for the last bc i didnt want to pick two similar names (it would have been Apollo if i did). Bc i love music oh so much, they are all basically in a band. I loooove cliche little tropes it just soothes my mind ig, idc how basic it is and its also just easier for me to imagine. Anywho, this brings Max and Lily into the picture, along with another girl i forgot originally bc i forgot that i created her (that being Terra). Terra is the creator of this band, and Max and Lily originally come from their school's regular band.

Max: He is mixed white/southeast asian, and has tan, freckled skin and short black hair. He is around 5'11. He has a pretty chill and kind personality, and can come off either quiet or loud/intense depending on where he is. He often pokes fun at people but never really crosses the line. In their little band he plays most woodwind instruments, mainly the saxophone. He is bisexual and a cis guy.

Lily (full name being Liliana): She is a Latina and is 5'2. She has long, wavy, black hair, tan skin, and dark brown eyes. She is very sweet and is very in-tune with her own and others' emotions, just overall very emotionally intelligent. She can be the life of the party and lively, but is often the first person to realize if someone else is having a bad time, but also wont jeopardize her own mental health in sake of someone else's just to please them. As said before she came from a general concert band before, and plays the trumpet and the flute mainly. She is straight and cis, but doesnt really put too much thought into her identity anyways.

Terra, who i somehow forgot when answering the ask: She is 5'11 as well, and is a Black woman. She has curly hair, which she keeps at around chin length, and it is black with dyed brown highlights. She was originally more reserved than the others, but has opened up to all of the group members and is pretty talkative. As mentioned before, she is the creator of this little band, and plays the drums. She is a trans girl.

Ok so yeah those are them. I kinda just picked a few categories (that being how they look and basic identity things, some personality stuff, and any sexual or gender orientations) to talk about for each and i hope i stuck to that setup well enough. The other three from the second one are like technically not ocs but i like hijacked their actual personalities and gave them new ones but i did not talk about them bc i do not need to ramble THAT much.

[pup-pee]

VENT POST

i just started typing & i accidentally worte an essay

dont click read more if ur not ready 2 scroll or if u dont want 2 read some random persons thoughts

whenever my mother has a manic or depressive episode every1 looks 2 me 2 help her

bc 4 sone reason im ghe only 1 who understands??? but slso fucking like i dont want 2 i e been trying 2 help her w/various shit since i was born man like literally y do I have 2 help when shes drunk, or hallucinating, or angry, weeping, bored, delusional ect ect

like y me mannn

i wouldnt mind hanging around her if she wasnt a huge source of trauma 4 me god damn

like the problem is i dont mind bing around her its just she has the biggest victim complex & i cannot bare 2 b tricked in2 apologizing 2 her again & again & again & reliving moments that hurt me so i can explain y her actions were not just another tuesday & then she just brushes it off or resays the original statement so i try 2 resay what i said

or when i try 2 calm her down so i let her hold me & sob & i am so uncomfortable bc i dont like bing held by her & she grips my hand & squeezes me when hugging & its like man i dont want 2 deal w/this pls

but when any1 else tries 2 b around her they just make her worse?? make her more upset angry fucking they just trigger her off 4 some reason & she cant b around family or friends bc they just feed in2 her delusions & make them more real 4 her SO IG THATS Y IM THE 1 WHO HAS 2 DO EVERYTHING

4 SOME FUCKING REASON im the 1 ppl listen 2 but then on a dime they will just go “oh but ur the toungest ur not an adult u dont understand it doesnt work that way!” IVE LIVED W/THIS WOMEN MY ENTIRE LIFE I THINK I UNDERSTAND HER BETTER THAN WHEN U KNEW HER AS A CHILD. SHES A FUCKING ADULT TREAT HER LIKE 1

TREAT ME LIKE 1 I GUESS BC U WOULDNT HELP ME AS A KID

dude holy fucking balls im so annoyed bc i cant do anything im just thinking about what ive been doing this week & god damn i h8 the holidays

i want so badly 4 ppl 2 listen & understand me but the bias just DOESNT LET THEM IT DOESNT & IT SUCKS IT SUCKS SO MUCH

bc i can understand what my mother is going through. the mood swings the paranoid/intrusive thoughts the sudden depression BC REAL ME 2 GIRLIE

whcih sidenote my mother told me she was suppossed 2 get diagnosed when she was younger but didnt bc the walk 2 the therapists office each time was way 2 much & just like goddamn that sucks ass. bc imagine if she was able 2 cope better instead of alcohol & cigs & impulse buying all the useless shit

anyways mayb thats y my mother is able 2 stand me more than the others. bc i can relate. which also makes me more easy 2 manipulate but i think ive gotten better @ standing my ground? i hope. man.

mayb i shoukd like talk 2 a therapist bc i want 2 tak about these things but everytime i went 2 a therpist((multiple)) it was always “oh it seems u have it all figured out”

did i get cps called or alerted from me multiple times then got scared in2 talking further in2 it? maybe

but literally cps does jack shit

dude the cops came 2 my house bc my mothers dramatic & she wouldnt let me talk 2 them ((bc i was a minor @ the time)) & they jsut went “ah yes normal behavior.” she drunkenly told them wrong information about our family like that i had a sister? do not. she tried 2 she them the injuries that my dad gave her ((she had none)) & then just refused 2 let me b alone. & oh holy fucking shit. when the reaosn was “well its 2 hot!” i said “they can come inside” she said no

then it was bc i was a minor which doesnt matter bc law

like i had 2 shove her back inside dude it was awful

then when i opened the door she was like right there oacing around like i can not i cant

she did get held 4 that night bc they took it that she was the main disturbance & HOLY SHIT THAT WAS 1 OF THE MOST OEACEFUL NIGHTS IN A WHILE

but ohhh my god she has not let that shit go 2 this day

“they arrested me 4 no reason!” “do yk how AWDUL it is in jail? ofc u dont!” “they had 2 search me!! it was so violating”“ur father LIED 2 them 2 get me.” “those police were lazy & racist” ((i mean ur not weong but also ur not right in that moment)) “yk who had 2 pick me up bc ur father wouldnt? yeah so & so” LIKE YES I GET IT U HAD 2 SPEND 5 HRS IN WHERE EVER U WERE

ohhh my god listen i can understand how treatment can b traumatic but HOLY SHIT the thing that bugs me is how she doesnt realize SHE PUT HERSELF IN THERE

she called the cops of my father then got arrested like girl PLS

she dismisses everything based on those reasons then used them against us

OHH MY GOD I JUST REMEMBERED she tried 2 tell a friends parent who we ran in2 about all of this & i had 2 pull her away like do u know how embarrassing that is? i was trying on the fly 2 correct her BC I DIDNT NEED ANOTHER OUTSIDE INFLUENCE FEEDING IN2 MY MOTHERS VERSION OF EVENTS

im so fucking tired man. & then my father tries 2 defend her & its like my good sir u r the victim but also u neglectful asshole take care of urself the way u never took care of my brother or i

like hes fucked up but hes not a terrible person. outside of the transphobia, racism & other things that i think hea grown past? listen he used 2 b way more homophobic but like my mother helped him w/that shit

but oh my god dude i remneber coming out 2 my family in 8th grade & he went 2 his lesbian friend talking abiut me bing trans which. rude honestly. i wouldve rather him ask me questions not some girlie i never heard of. & holy shit she fed him the worst advice. “when i was younger i thought i shouldve been a boy when i was just gay” GIRL STFU IM SRRY I WENT THROUGH THAT BUT U R NOT ME

she made him so much more surr of himself then he shouldve been & im still struggling 2 explain shit 2 him

dude hes oit here talking about trans women in sports when i dont even play sports like hhhh

my mother has this friend who is like a professor 4 brain shit & shes a proud supporter of lgbtq+ everything

& like shes been wonderful. she supports me even if im 2 scarex 2 say stuff 2 her or cant text her bc i dont have her number angmkre & i dont want 2 intrude on her life

but its the way none of my parents believed her or took her advice on anything

shes my fairy godmother man like they will trust her w/my life if they got died gone but they cant take her advice w/something she literally has a degree in

& it SUCKS bc she believed in my mothers words about my father abusing her WHICH IM JUST SO FRUSTRATED ABOIT

i havent been able 2 talk 2 her bc of it man it sucks… also bc i dont have her number anymore haha lol lol ahaha hhh

& dude its like mutual abuse. my fathers a lot easier 2 b around than my mother most of the time but it flips so easily.

they both r just elly hard ppl 2 b around

i think i takw back that precious statement. theyre both rlly hard 2 b around

explainign the concept of racism 2 my dad is so difficult. bc he cant understand y asian like no-no words r hurtful bc he has an asian wife BUT THE MOMENT U BEING UP THE N WORD HE JSUT CANT WAIT 2 SAY IT 2 PROVE ME WRONG

LIKE DO U NOT UNDERSTAND THE SHIT UR SAYING

& HE JUST WANTS 2 TURN EVERYTHING IN2 A DEBATE ITS SOOO TIRING

like @ least my mother wants 2 hear me talk about my interests instead of telling me 2 shut up

like ik she guilt trips me but @ least she actually likes my company i think

idk man

i just want 2 have a relationship w/them but its so hard & i feel like giving up

my brother basically alr has but he has like, friends n shit dhjdksk

i dont rlly have other ppl like that((mainly my own fault im a pussy)) & it sucks bc i love ppl & man y do i have 2 have a brain that h8s me as much as my parents do

i just want 2 exist in my body & like laugh & smile & eat food a normal amount y is it so hard

y is it so hard 2 just talk 2 some1 when thats all i want 2 do it sucks

but 2mr is another day these feelings will pass & hopefully i will get better or some shit even if ive only been getting worse

this headache is making me reflect on my life man

got me cryinf & shit

god & i just keep thinking about laying in the hospital bed & the nurse telling me not 2 kill myself & her sharing a story about her brother & how he tried but lived & how hos attempt was much worse than mine & now i cant help but compare everything i do or think bc theres always some1 off worse than me stfu

like i will not attempt again ((until??)) @ least donald fucking trump is dead bc i will live off my spite 4 him

but oh my god i hope i can fix myself b4 then

mayb ill just keep setting goals of ppl i need 2 outlive bc @ least im better than them nomatter how much i suck

like jk rowling

is that how u spell her name i dont give a shit. but like i should just keep doing that? idrc how dark it is i just know ppl dont eant me 2 die even if i want 2 so ig ill do it 4 them

oh i just remmebered bing in the hospital bed & my mother yelling @ me then running out XDD im not ok dude that moment sucked that hurt so much & no1 even asked if i was ok mannn like ok let me dissociate on the bed while watching history channel whatever ancient aliens? ok let me just giggle @ this

YK WHAT SUCKED

Omg i couldnt sleep every in both the hospital & the pych ward bc i cant sleep if ppl r watching me

like if some1s looking @ me my body wakes up bc of just this fear instilled in me i suppose?

i think it happened bc of my parents

a mixture of bing forced 2 sleep in their bed & also my mother taken numerous pictures of my father ((& by consequence me)) 2 use as ammo agaisnt him

“oh he sleeps so much” “he snores os loud” “hes passed out drunk” like girl u have over a 1000 pictures of my dad just sleeping calm tf down

anyways i cant sleep if some1s looking loke the moment some1 opens my door i shoot up. which was useful when school tbh but i couldnt sleep @ ALLLL during the hospital bc theres a nurse there 24/7 & in the ward i got a roomm8 yk & the door checks

like ughhhhh i dont sleep well or long anyways unless i dont sleep 4 a while then my body knocks me out((which is what happens/ed)) but holy mollyyyy

i think existing in this world would b a lot better if i didnt confine myself 2 this house. if i like, got out yk? if i left it all bhind

which goddamn i tried like me running away was not a joke idk how ppl took it as that but whatever im so tired of just existing in here

like althoguh im in my safe cave((my room)) im always terrified of the next knock on my door or attempt of conversation

srsly if u want 2 talk or hang out w/me dont complain that i dont shut up u signed up 4 this shit U WANTED 2 HANG OIT W/ME

do u want me here or do u just want this idea of me 2 b here?? i cannot get over it. which fine if its a “i want 2 hear what were watching” situation but 1. subtitles. but fine fine i get it u dont like those so ill shut up or just leave

but dont complain when i leave

& WORSE

DONT B A HYPOCRITE & YAP MORE THAN I DO

watching fightclub was a NIGHTMARE bing told 2 b quite then hearing them talk 2 eqchother ot try 2 talk 2 me then when i would try 2 start a conversation it was like “oh mo we got 2 pause the show bc THIS is goinf 2 go on & on”

like ok goddamn ill shut up ig

i mean @ least when my brother watches stuff w/me ((which is not often)) he KNOWS ill talk. which is y he doesnt watch stuff w/me!! & thats fine!! WE HANG OUT IN DIFFERENT WAYS. like when he asked me 2 stick around during an oil change or when i talk 2 him when hes making food 4 himself like IS IT THAT HARD??

my brother is not a shining example of some1 who completely understand or is purely good. i mean in the car he will constantly say “jokes” calling ppl a slur then bing like “but yk i dont mean that in a bad way” like ok man whatever u grew up w/ny father i understand y u say this

i asked 1nce what the joke was & i think he like actually stuttered. like his brain had 2 load in a response bc it was just “what was the punchline?” “a joke doesnt have 2 have a punchline” “not rlly but most jokes r jokes 4 a reason. so what was the funny bit about that?” “it was just funny” like i dont think thats how it worksss

sigh but @ least their better than my fathers jokes. & my mother oh my god. her humor is literally “haha gangers wear their pants so low u can see their underwear”

& OHH MY GOD when my father tries 2 say we have the same humor

no sir we do fucking not shut the hell up. ive laughed @ 1 joke hes ever said in his entire life istg

he constantly turns 2 me & goes “how r u not laughing this is hilarious!” ITS BC WE DONT HAVE THE SAME SENSE OF HUMOR IVE BEEN TELLING U THIS

or mayb none of them r funny bc i can make them laugh but they cant make me laugh & its getting me rlly insecure

& oh my god if some1 makes 1 more fatphobic ass comment im going 2 send them 2 the time out corner I CANNOT

got in an argument about societies influence on whats “right or weong” & beauty standards came up. yk bc fatness doesnt equal beautiful or some shit like ok whatever i think theyre hot af but surr push ur views on2 me

like DUUDDEEEE trying 2 explain that sexiness is a person fucking opinion & not a fact just goes over EVERY1S HEAD

like hi. im trying 2 explain a concept & trying 2 b patient bc im basically destroying how uve lived ur entire life but pls listen 2 meee

4 some reason my family love 2 compare me & themselves 2 eachother & im so tired of that

i am not like u i dont want 2 b like u bc u make me so depressed i want 2 hurt myself 4 bing aeound u

when my brother compares me 2 our parents its in an effort 2 “change myself 4 the better” but i dont think this criticism actually helps me. it just makes me feel more like shit bc now i feel like im the person that hurt me so i hurt others & UGHHH its awful

my mother has compared me 2 my father in order 2 try 2 get me on her side. things like “thats what ur father would say.” “ur father thinks the same way” ect ect along those lines & its stupid & annoying & i h8 it

MY FATHER THO IS THE WORSSTTT 1 OF THEM ALL

he compared me 2 himself when its a positive trait & my mother when its a negative trait

“oh i 4got ur phone in the kitchen? haha u got that from me” “u 4got what day it is? u r ur mothers child”

“see ur smart & dont care about others opinions. u remind me of myself” “ur so sensitive like ur mother.”

“reading books & preferring physical materials? loving the library? u r my.. daug-child” “creativity? yeah thats ur mothers side of u”

“i like that we can talk about hard hitting questions during shows that dint distract us & let us dig deeper in2 whatever or smth.” “u talk so much. just like ur mother”

LIKE UGHHHH

ive only “rlly got 2 know him” in the oast 2 yrs bc b4 that he was rlly uhmm… absent? not gone but i just. idk he was much more of an alcoholic & seemed 2 care more about work then me

apparently thr thing that snapped him out of that mindset was when i told him i didnt have many memories of him

which

i dont

bc i just dont. unless its him bing drunk n shit & arguing/fighting like isk what 2 tell u

& OHHH my god im still confused about this memory i have bc 2 me ifs as fresh as daisies but my mother told me smth about thag night that i dont remmeber

in trying 2 incriminate my father she said smth WILDLY uncomfortable & now i have no idea if its true or not bc im sure its jot but what if it was & holy mother of jesus that scares me

bc i dont trust her but i want 2 & ik she cares about me but what if shes just trying 2 get me on her side BUT WHAT IF ITS TRUE.

that night was scary enough i dont need 2 think sbout it more mannn

ugh i h8 family vacations

like just any family outting. we got a flat tire bc father wouldnt listen when we daid “hey dont drive on sharp rocks” & then every1 got pissed @ eachothrr & then @ ME WHEN I TRIED 2 B OPTIMISTIC. then when waiting 4 a pick up 2 help us they got blasted drunk & my dad started hitting me in the fucking truck & when we got bsck 2 town my brother picked only ME up bc he doesnt care 4 my parents & he said i was the victim in that? sure whatever

but when my parents came home they started a fucking fight w/them while ienas in the shower so i got out & started 2 record the aufio bc i coudlnt rlly,,, like get out? my father threatening 2 fight my brother pushing him in2 corners forcing him out the soor my mother “trying” 2 make “them” stop but just making it worse bc again. victim complex she needs 2 b in the middle of eveything

& my brother just wanted 2 help me i feel so so so bad

the time when we were out of state bc my brother was moving away((has since been manipulated back yay go mother)) & my father fucking left my mother & i there. took the car & just drove back home. it wasnt the worst we had a hotel room & had a car but it still sucked.

we didnt have many vacations when i was younger bc my father was always working so my mother would take us places & honestly it was better bc she would always put on a persona like how she does when she works yk?

bit when my father would join 4 things like birthdays it always ended up in drunk fights & threats. even if we were bringing friends w/us on trips 2((not the birthday 1s))

there r times when my mother has gotten oanic attacks in the car from the way my father drives & i get like 2nd hand panic from that bc, ofc i do. & my father just gets pissed off @ her?? also my mother & i get vry motion sick so the way he drives also triggers that like crazy. but he gets upset when we mention it or constantly tell him 2 calm down bc if he doesnt stop switching lanes & taking sharp turn 1 or both of us will b throwing up.

& its usally me saying it bc im the only 1 who has the fucking balls apparently bc I DONT WANT 2 PUKE. & my mother cries so easily from him but she also abuses him & UGHHH ITS SO ANNOYINGLY COMPLICATIED

oh its also awful when my mother drives tho bc she drives drunk if were hanging out. like only if its me & her & omg i let her get away w/it way 2 much.

trying 2 convince her 2 pull over bc shes having a panic attack while shes drunk is not fun. on the interstate. its not fun.

like thats not all its just oh so tiring mann ughh woe is me i suppose

theres many times also when my father will just abandon 1 of us on the street. like ONLY if its only 1 of us in the car tho bc if theres another person they would prolly protest

ive been l8 2 school((& lost)) multiple times & man i got so many detentions bc i just couldnt wake him up which fair on that but god god god fucking damnit

just the power move of trying 2 get the other person 2 shut up bc ur having an argument by threatening 2 leave them on the side of the road or 2 not drive them somewhere or not pick them up is smth my dad consistently does 2 this day. not 2 me much anymore bc ive “learned my lesson” & i can usually talk my way out of it but he did do it 2 my mother like 2 weeks ago bc of such dumb reasons

it was so frustrating trying 2 express myself about trans shit & then getting like told he would force me out if i kept getting upset @ him so i just shut up about anything gender related until i was 18 bc that was the rule

& its useless bc i dont even have a say 4 myself still so who gives a shit i h8 everyhting it makes me so sad like y did i just let myself do that? y did i let myself intentionally get hrut?? bc i was scared?? i fucking guess. bc i wanted 2 prove myself? i had false hope. like its so frustrating

its apparently normal 4 families 2 fight but i dont like it. “ofc u would prefer ur friend u dont fight” like i think thats how its supposed 2 work?

then getting told “oh thats just how our family is. no1 would get us were unique were not like the other sheep families” like FUCK THAT i want 2 eat DINNER W/U

shout out 2 never eating dinner 2gether so when i did @ friends places i was scared & awkward

haha. fun. shout out 2 explaining im scared of helling but telling my friend im not when they do it then them telling me “thats not normal” i said yeah it is

i think about that a lot. bc i think thats when i rlly started 2 realize how not normal my family is. back in like elementary school.

my brother telling us his friends dont like them((our parents)) bc theyve been scared of them. like huh. when u dont grow up in a toxic environment ur able 2 tell when somethings toxic! go figure

& its rlly frustrating bc IK my parents r not inherently bad ppl. they care 4 us in their own fucked up way. they tried their best. they want the best 4 us & vowed 2 not let us grow up like them.

which, in a roundabout way actually did make is grow up like them but in like a different font.

my father has talked about not wanting us 2 b afraid of him bc he was afraid of his dad bc he would beat his ass. he didnt want us 2 worry about money.

but in a weird way that like, did make me incredibly afraid of him.

bc he worked all the time 2 get money, he was stressing himself out((& it wasnt just 4 my brother & i it was also bc my mother was pressuring tf iut of him & berating him about it)) but BC he was always working i never saw him. so when i did see him he was tired but he has insomnia & cant sleep 4 shit so he would drink 2 go 2 sleep

but he would drink a lot

but the drinking made him drunk of fucking course so he would argue w/mother & so eventually all i came 2 know him as was some1 who only yelled & fought

& that makes me scared of him.

hes forceful. hes self righteous. hes aggressive & if u dont think of him as right he will make u.

& he still is all of these things its just toned down bc hes stopped drinking as much. which has raised more probelms but i cannot b bothered 2 type them out hell no

but hes often told me that he fucked up more than his father. bc of the memory thing yk? when i told him i rlly dont have any good memories of him he broke down bc while he was scared of his dad, he still loved him & admired him. he had memories of his dad teaching him 2 fish & things like that

& i can tell hes improved as a dad i think. i mean im trying 2 b more supportive about it then my brother

giving him space when he finally gets sleep like,,, normal etiquette & also letting him vent 2 me or ask me uncomfortable questions. i try 2 answer them so he understands yk

i also try 2 push him 2 think himself tho bc he rlly just cant think outside of his bubble. like its extremely annoying. he will talk about how smart he is then say how the media is all liberal so he watches fox news 2 combat that like i get it i just want ppl 2 approve ur fucked up world view holy shit

but i can see him realizing like, what it is not 2 b such a hard person bc when i hugged him when he came back from a trip, he like, remembered

he was tired((3 days no sleep)) & just drove back but when he came home i gave him a hug bc idk, im a physical affection person & it kills me 2 b uncomfortable w/affection so ive been working on that. but also it just looked like he needed it

but he told me the next day about how much it meant 2 him so mayb hell understand?? sonething?? that i dont h8 him exactly,,, i think. but that i treat him the way i do bc of how hes treated me? & when hes less of a shit bag im less allergic 2 him?

idk that feels like how my mother treats him which puts a fowl taste in my mouth but i swear on my life its different. like i swear im not trying 2 manipulate him in2 doing what i want

which he seems 2 think i do try 2 do that? mostly in ways like of trying 2 make him think differently

which i will not deny. i would rather him not b transphobic & racist & whatever but hotdog its hard

this seems 2 b a common trait among all my family tho. when i try 2 explain a concept & then them telling me i got brainwashed by the media?? like mayb but also im not a h8ful person just bc of some1 existing so i think thats alright

its like the 1 point i can talk w/my mother tho. like its the only time she will listen. ALSO WHEN MY BROTHER SAID HE UNDERSTOOD THEY/THEM PRONLUNS?!?!? HOLY SHIT!!! i mean i dont use them BUT THE FACT HE ACKNOWLEDGES THEM MAKES ME SO HAPPY BC IT MEANS HE HAS BASIC HUMAN RESPECT

i mean did he out me 2 my fathers side of the family & now im scared 2 talk 2 them? yeah

but thats just bc i havent talked 2 them since i was in diapers & then when i did it was strange bc they were so normal ((minus the slight racism but they just,,, r white & live in utah. like seriously i like tea bc its good nor bc im asian & my hair is a natural color its not dyed. no u cant touch it???? no i dont speak asian wtf)) snyways but they did grow up mormon so hahah afriad

y r u as a man a mormon? u want more men? huh? is that it?

no but anyways yeah im scared of them. which is strange bc theyre rlly nice

but i think i just cant accept ppl in my family bing nice & accepting 2 me bc its rlly scary. like. i have cousins. i have fucking cousins & theyre younger than me & im scared of them

even on my mothers side im scared of my family

& its not just that but ive convicned myself that i feel alienated from them bc im also half asian so i just dont “fit in”

i dont. look like them. i dont have sinilar intrests im weird y am i crying

fuck y is it so hard 2 make human connection 4 me mannn like its rlly annoying i just want 2 b hapoy & talk 2 ppl but ive convinced myself every1 h8s me & my existence & that im annoying & irritating & have nothing if value 2 contribute 2 every so y would i bother them or any1 & i h8 myself 4 it so much

like no fucking wonder i like that fucked up fox boy sm r u shitting me. this shot stinksss mannn

& it also hurts bc my brother called me dumb 4 thinking like this bc hes never ever thought of it b4. which

fair enough ig

he doesnt care much 4 things like that.

but ig i just do

i think it all stemmed from my mother always pointing out im HALF asian like ALWAYS correcting me. & it just spiraled from there bc when i was younger i never even noticed i was asian yk what i mean? childhood innocence “i didnt see color” lol

but whenever i started 2 grow up & say smth like “its so strnage that ive noticed ppl dont eat rice 4 ever meal! bc as some1 whos asian-“ then she would cut me off & say “HALF asian”

& honestly it fucked me up 4 no goddamn reason.

like literally who cares. i say. as im crying tears. like i rlly dont understand y i care sm but it jsut hurts

like i dont feel whole. i dont belong in 1 or the other & its stupid ik but my brain still convinces me its true.

that bing said its always strange bc ppl consider me just asian. like i never had 2 clarify so it makes me wonder y my mother feels so vindictive 2 do so

like in 7th grade we were doing this gene thing. & guess what, the 2 asian kids were paired 2gether. so we basically just asked about facial features & based on the score we got we would b put in2 a certian number group

which makes sense ok its like basic understanding of how genetics works 4 beginners

but when calling the numbers, we both stood up 4 like number 13

& ONLY US

every1 turned 2 look @ us when a kid went “woah & its the inly asians” like ok lmao

but it just kinda makes me think about how no1 fucking cares that im wasian. im just asian & white. im both.

i am not a percentage of 1 that will tell me if im more white or asian it doesnt rlly work like that. u cant split me in half & say this is the white side & this is the asian side.

logically.

emptionally all that shit gets thrown out the middle bc of fuckign course ur half & half u twinkie bitch

i feel like ive lost the point of whatever im typing

it was noce 2 just kinda vent about it whicj i do way 2 often lol

will i post this? mayb mayb not. it is noce 2 post these tho bc 1, this is my blog its me. 2, it makes them feel lore real

like less imagination i suppose?

idk. wheneve i share these thoughts or recount these memories 2 my family it always gets pushed aside so i just kinda, want them here. ig

i mean ok i havent actually shared some of these thoguhts 2 them. like i mostly avoid talking about my od bc they dont want 2 hear about how they make me h8 myself way more than i alr do & when i even slightly hint @ that shit they press me more like “what did i dooo” like ok let me go down the list again

then jts the whole “prove it” like shit alright i have some recordinfd from thr last 2 hrs but thats it do u want those? no? u dont? bc they make u upset? ok

i got a christmas card from my grandma & grandpa & my grandma wrote about how she was interested in my like etsy store & wanted 2 hear morr about my adventures

which is crazy bc i havent talked 2 them since,,, shit like the last time i talked 2 them lol uhhh b4 they moved away. like way b4

but the fact that she remmebered is insane 2 me

its the same way i feel when my mother remmebers my favorite color is pink or when she knows i like tmnt

like when j started getting in2 comics & talk her about the last ronin & how i wanted 2 read it bc uhm guess who my fav turtle bro is. but i didnt expect he 2 remmeber snything or b interested @ all but she got me the whole fucking book

off of like amazing yk. but she saw that & got me it & thats insane 2 me

my mother often tries 2 buy back my affection which unfortunately works bc she actually lsitens 2 me

like 4 christmas she got me a new keyboard thats quieter bc ig she remembered whne i told her that my brither conplains that my keyboard is 2 loud @ night so i wanted a new 1 so i didnt wake him

& just

its things like that when ik she genuinely cares about me. like, how i remmeber her when i was younger, b4 she put on some sort of persona all the time

not that she buys me shit btw bc i rlly wished she stopped doing that but the fact she listens 2 me. like woah.

like she KNOWS i like flash & superman!! LIKE SHE KNOWS I LIKE THEM BETTER THAN BATMAN!! SHE KNOWS THIS!! i mean she cant rlly recall my favorite characters but i dont expect her 2 im honestly just super impressed he cared that much about my interests @ all

it makes me like glad. in a say like how my friends would remember my favorite characters. like when ie wtched toilet bound hanokokun i like tsukasa aka his brother fav character right there & MY BESTIE WAS ABLE 2 TELL THE DIFFERENCE BTWEEN THE BROTHERS BC THEY PAID ATTENTION 2 ME??

like they knew i love tohru from dragon maid & that i live snufkin so dearly they got me a silly gay ass moomins hoodie 4 my birthday

or that i called myself a dogboy as a silyl bht semi yk real bc haha cope cope cope & THEY GOT ME DOG EARS & I JUST

i regret so much bcoming scared of them

like i fear how bad of a friend that i am that i distanced myself from them bc im convinced they h8 me

but when i remmeber these things im like no obviously they cared enough 2 listen 2 u & also share interests w/u & hang out w/u on fucking skype & play ur games cause u played theirs & its so stupid im so stupid

im such an idiot i want 2 talk w/them again

theyve been my best friend since 4th grade ive known them since i was in 1st & they were the 1st person i came out 2 & when i thought i was about 2 b h8ed & casted aside they said no u idiot i care 4 u holy shit im an idiot

y am i so scared of them y do i not thijk im worthy of their time theyre my best friend i miss them

so much

i love them sk much & ive neve tild them bc ive been scared 2 say it 4 so long till this yr bc i genuinely love ppl & i want them 2 know i regret it so much

ive always been afraid of being close 2 them like sitting in the same bed or couch 2 watch a show bc ive always been sfraid o how bad i smell cause ive been told my entire life that i smell like shit bc i fucking do bc im 2 fucking broken 2 take shwoers ir properly take care of myself

but they wanted me 2 they wanted me 2 & i dont undertsnd & i feel so bad 4 not letting myself get closer bc when i ddi 2 another frind & they told me i dont smell like shit i dont know i dont knoww

i miss them so much ive hugged them like once & i want 2 do it again but i definitely dont deserve it after distancing myself like this

& it sucks bc this is exactly what my parents want man

they h8 their family & them bc they “changed me”

which rllt just means they made me more comfortable bing myself but whatever. they made me “loud” they made me “trans” ((even tho i came out 1st 2 them???” they r manipulating me & THEY STILL BRING THEM UP DISPITE ME NOT TALKING 2 THEM IN LIKE 7 MONTHS,, & that was just over text

i rlly miss them i miss all mybfriends but i dont think they should deal w/the baggage that is whatever the fuck i am mannn

i just rlly hope they dont think of me bc it will bring on bad feelings & i dont want 4 them

im sobbing way 2 much i started making sound

yk i was just quietly sobbing b4 but i started thinking about mt best friend & i just couldnt hold it back in this sucks

every since i considered them a friend my parents have been telling me how theyre awful & manipulate me

& how they dont like them or their family & i think its a pile of horse shit bc if anything were the manipulative bastards like tf & its partly my parents fuslt that i dont interact w/them bc i just cannot take my parents bing awful shit bags 2 them & their family 4 litterly just existing

i can take transphobia directed @ me whatever but the instant any of them being up them i lose it. i scream i yell i push away

like its so fucking aggravating.

i dont think theyre perfect. they dont think theyre perfect ik that. but the fact that my parents theink they & i do is SO ANNOYING

stop basing everything u belive in on fucking fiction, i dont live in ur imagination

i sm real. they r real. were ppl mot concepts u can play around w/& i cannot wrap my head around how that doesnt make sense

i miss my best friend

i miss bing a kid, but in the way i was hapoy bc i ddint understand or care 4 these things

now i can grasp them slightly better & my brain turns them agaisnt me & hurts me 4 no fucking reason so now i i want 2 just disappear & woopsie daisy fuck me blehhh

did yk i cant play muliplayer games bc they make me cry? i get so scared of playing w/other ppl that i start panicking & crying

but i played w/my friends bc they like multiplayers & they would accommodate 4 me & hype me up & i fucking miss positivity so much

bc like i would play like idv right? my im so insecure anout my skill & my friedn was higher rank so they used an alt account 2 pkay w/me even tho they said i was good enough 2 play w/their main

like its such a nice thing that i dont think theh noticed they said or did they were just. functioning as they normally did as a nice fucking considerate person & i crying iver it

im fucking crying

& i stopped talking 2 them bc im as asshole. & when i told them y i want them 2 stay away they said but ur not. but ur not ur just a dick sometimes & i want 2 cry bc wtf is the difference mann ejfjk what is the dofference

im so scared 2 reach out despite constantly crying out a call. ill work up 2 it i want 2 i need 2 i just rlly want 2. i just panic so fucking much i start crying like literally whats wrong w/me

whats the difference btween talking on tumblr & talkiing on discord/msgers?? what is it??? i dont know

my headaches gone down slightly now so im going 2 make food 4 myself

& prolly cry some more anyways

[makahimetenshi]

Dependence - Jotakak fanfic

When Jotaro fist hear about Kakyoin was in some rumors about a pricy but well looking omega who was a dream to everyone who pays to get their cocks sucked

It was so gay and non masculine to talk about the scort you payed to suck your dick specially if it was a man but damn the guy seemed to know what he was doing if everybody was talking so good about him, he didnt need to invert in adveritising at all if everyone of his friends already got a bit of it, and it wasnt cheap.

The man was turning straighst and gays up just by blowjobs.

But Jotaro wasnt interested on it, he wasnt interested on sex at all, he wasnt interested on get an STD , plus he wasnt interested on spend that amount of money just for a blowjob, he had good hands.

The problem was when he was innocently hanging out with one of his class mates and in a moment he dissapeared on the campus, Jotaro searched him until he found in one of the man bathroom the voice of his classmate moaning and whining in one of the boxes. Maybe it was with a girl he sluddenly meet? Idk he didnt care he just wanted to go where they agreeded, so he waited outside knowing that the kid wasnt exactly someone that would last long.

But Jojo didnt expect to be so enchanted and curious about the cherry smell the man was emanating of exitment just by...sucking a cock

That wasnt his friend common smell, it was from the other person sucking.

With a notorious erection that he had to hide with his backpack, he waited outside, unable to control himself to smell that scent, he was a pretty strong type of alpha so he was pretty perceptive to that kinda of things

Deep in his mind, he wanted to meet that omega, put a face to the smell that would be his fantasy wet dream tonight.

Jojo didnt care about the voice of his classmate reaching the edge or the climax, he can ignore it and just wait for them to leave the bathroom

It didnt take long after apparently the man came and finished, because 5 minutes later both mans came off the bathroom laughting with their cheeks reds like they were sharing a secret

For one side, it was a secret for noone, and in the other side, it wasnt a secret for him.

Classmate freezed in his place at seeing Jotaro standing in front of the door, laugting nerviously like he had nothing to say.

-Sorry i needed to go to the bathroom –yeah? A cumtoilet?

-i could have leave and go home, at least say something –while he was concentrated in moving his tongue properly to speak, his eyes were focused on the redhead standing next to the guy, asian purple eyes with a very nice tone of skin. Still he wasnt that inmature to reply angry to his classmate, he just wanted that little consideration of at least being told to go home or not.

It was true he was goodlooking.

He liked the way that his chest looked big, not exactly sure if it was because he had a long pair of shoulders of because how small was his waist but it sure looked good.

Maybe good enought to claw his theets in his shoulders

Jotaro blushed at thinking that, he had that kind of unneceptable kink.

But the man had his neck well hidded under a turtle neck, something smart considering his work...

Work...

The redhead eventually noticed his eyes on him, making Jojo blush his cheeks ashemed of being so obvious...

He wasnt exactly a virgin to act like that tho, less with a cum toilet.

-Oh my –the redhead laughted moving his hand to his mouth to hide a smile, he slowly walked until they were stading one in front of the other and Tenmei inspected Jotaro with his eyes head to toes, analazying him, looking closely –if u keep looking this cute next time we meet i have no problem in giving u a free pass! –Jotaro didnt understand that but he see that the redhead was clearly exited and funny about him, did he have something on his face? What was he laughting? About what?

-Free pass? -he asked confused, and Tenmei give him a little smile to keep walking on his way, and leave the two guys alone

-Lucky motherfucker –his classmate sissed, he never looked for him and he still got the opportunity to have a free pass, just because he was handsome...Jojo looked at him claiming for some answers, but the guy turned his face to the side offended, clearly resented because he was a normal beta and well...there wasnt any comparation to make.

In the night, Jotaro found himself thinking in the omega words, he may not fully understand what he meaned for free pass but he was sure he wanted to meet him again...he was cute...

But he surely didnt want to meet him again paying

He wanted to make a fake meet all the week but the guy wasnt easy to find in the university, he didnt know which carreer he was making or really anything about his persona, he was non suspiciously asking some people about that guy or how to contact him but...he didnt want to pass like he wanted his services either, so taking info that way was hard.

Eventually Jotaro would forget about it in the university and he would continue his classes and carrer in a normal way without any romantic interest.

There was a time where there was a party, the alpha goes without problem because he was invited by his classmates and he knew he had to socialize in order to make contacts, i mean it was part of university life right? Even if they all were twenty kids with family records and nothing more else under they arms.

Well nothing more else than beers and whine bottles but it was something, and he liked drinking so a change for a night wasnt all bad.

The party was in a night club, the type of night club that was dark, with iridesent lights, led lamps, laser lights, gas and loud music that makes everyone unable to talk to each other and drink more and more because it was the only easy thing to do. Jotaro decided to take a break with a can of beer at half in his hand, sitting in one of the couches contemplating the beer, he had been with his friends laughting and drinking all the hour but the loud music had him stupid and aturded, he wanted to take a break and just sit quiet and chill.

There was a lot of people in the couches of the wall, people drinking, people screaming at each other in one attempt to talk, people watching their celphones, people tired just like him, horny people touching and kissing...in the dark part there was couple doing it for he wasnt against it, he didnt mind at all, it was that kinda of place.

But he just wanted to rest five, rest five and then go back to chill with his friends.

He mutted his mind just looking at the can, sluddenly everything seemed more quiet and he was able to hear his own voice in his mind, he can isolate that way, but he cant isolate from his arounds and the touch feeling, someone just sitted next to him making the sit go down in weight, thats okay, he can with that, it wasnt that bad, the couch was for everyone.

But a few moments later he see from the side of his eyes that the person who sitted next to him was doing the exactly same, open legs holding a can looking directly at it with a sleppy and tired face, yawining time by time.

That break a little his concentration, looking at the guy next to him, it was really a surprise seeing a ginger because they were really rare but it was more strange picking up with the same guy he lost track a few months ago.

Tenmei?

He looked good as the last time they see.

White pants were doing nice job on his knees , it looked refreshing to him among all the darkness of the club, making a small violet color from the light that convined with his eyes.

Apparently he wasnt aware that he was looking at him at all, he was too inserted in looking at his beer can.

The green tshirt looked well too, damn, he even nice arms.

Jotaro crossed his arms, leaving the can next to his feets in the ground to specifically look at him, since he wasnt aware of his presence even staying at his side. Oh well, more for him, he was really beautifull even looking so down.

The moment break when a couple sit next to the redhead, breaking his concentration and jumping surprised in the seat almost trowing the can in his hands, taking him out of his trance and making realize about his arounds, first, he see a couple euphorically kissing and putting their hands all around in their bodys, okay, he can stand that, he wasnt a pussy, he didnt mind tho.

Second, at the other side there was a guy straight looking at him, making Kakyoin raise an eyebrow curious until he remember that face –Oh you are... –before anything out of nothing the man of the couple next to him hitted Kakyoin in the back clearly telling him to leave some space and privacity, Kakyoin was going to kick that asshole in the face but his beer can splited on his white pants by the surprise, and totally fearless of having a yellow mark on them being new he jumped out the couch like the asshole wanted.

Not without grabbing Jotaro by the wrist taking him at the bathroom too, the alpha just let himself being carried away by the handsome omega who robbed his attention several minutes ago.

They both ended in the bathroom, Kakyoin taking his pants down without any decency or shame about the guys around pissing or talking in there, it wasnt a bad bathroom despite at all, the club have an expensive entrance ticket so it was...decent...a little of water there and there but nothing really gross.

And there was soap on the dispensers, so while Kakyoin dealed with the dispenser to work and realease some soap, Jotaro take de pants and started brushing it under the water, surprising Noriaki by the good intention.

-Hey, u catch it fast –Kakyoin say once his hands were soaped, ignoring the laughts of the guys back him who were moffing at the surreal situation.

-i dont get why u brought me here –said Jotaro leaving the clothes so the redhead can take care of his own pants

-well im not dissapointed at all –he laughted, looking at his confused face –its been a while since the last time we saw each other right? –he started bruishing the pants now soaped, seeing how the fabric was turning white again, obviously wet in the leg were the beer was

In that moment Jotaro was aware that the guy with violet eyes recognized him

-you want to say hi or anything? –if it wasnt because he had an atraction for him, it would be strange that a guy which had only shared a few words moths ago would take him to have a chat. He wanted to be suspicious about the situation but he was watching at the nice hips the omega had, underwear all and everything, rounded and skinny but very muscle.

He was being hipnotized, and a little angry that everyonelse in that bathroom were having that show too, it was his moment with the omega.

-i just sit by casuality next to u –said the redhead a little down, not so sure what he expected of the situation now he thinked it clearly, maybe the guy was right- sorry, i guess you can go, i bring u here without reason just because i knewed you –maybe he wanted someone he knewed to talk about the incident, he feeled ashemed of being so impulsive now.

-its okay –Jotaro noticed how he sounded a little rude, his sad face was killing him, and he was ashemed at the point he feeled he hasnt the right to say anything more, but still had to do something to confort him a little after being so rude.

And taking that guys out of the bathroom to at least make him feel less exposed sounded like a good idea in his head.

Jotaro was an alpha with a really heavy presence, he was tall, thought, heavy and very muscle, the type of guy you fear to make angry with that big pair of fist. But when he wanted to make people unconfortable, he just had to screed an espese wave of pheromones in the air directly from his skin, specially pointing at someone who make him angry, like the face of the idiot who keeps next to the boxes laughting with his friends looking at the redhead ass.

It didnt take long for the other males in the bathroom to notice there was an angry alpha wanting to kick their asses, because of how strong the smell of that hormones was in the closed air.

In five minutes, all the uncomfortable, scared and threatened betas and alphas were out, one by one, not wanting to be close at such a scaring presence. Letting them alone in an almost silence bathroom, if it wasnt for the music outside

When he looked back at the redhead he was still there, his legs pants were now clean under the water with soap but there was something strange with him, his body was shaking and his head was down, eyes on the water.

Until Jotaro smelled something different than normal, an smell he smelled before, he realized what it was in the moment that the redhead looked at him with watery eyes and red cheeks, taking his pants out of the water and putting it on his shoulder.

-i...told u that next time we see each other i can give u a free pass right? –oh...no...or yes, it was the smell of an exited omega. But Jotaro didnt see it bad, despite of using his hormones unconsiusly on him, he slightly open the door of one of the boxes moving the top of the toilet down.

Kakyoin catched the message and puushed the alpha inside, almost jumping on him to wrap his arms on his neck and go directly to kiss him, Jotaro closing the door behind them to not be bothered.

Now he thinked on it, he was kissing a guy who didnt really know his name, he knewed the guys called him Tenmei, but it was a fake name he used for security.

It didnt mind tho. The guy kissed like heaven, tongue wrapping and sucking around his with such passion and exitement, he had a completly exited omega on his arms.

Kakyoin was so turned on about such a perfect example of an alpha male, he had the perfect essent to charm him and turn his head crazy , he had the perfect smell he was looking on a male.

It didnt take long for Kakyoin to surpass the kisses before he noticed something pocking on his stomach, and it wasnt only his own bonner, it was from Jojo, their mouths separate with strings of saliva when the redhead was unable to contain some dignity and started watering about the idea.

Without any shame he started to touch it, on top of the pants, looking down feeling his underwear wet in slick at just thinking on such a hard and big cock inside him.

Jotaro looked down, hipnotized because such a beautifull muse was doing all kinda of things on him.

His slender and long fingers had the strenght to press and grab firmly his cock even in his tight pants, making the alpha moan at the nice feeling, Kakyoin looked at him practically with hearts in his eyes, that sounded beautifull, so mainly and atractive,god that alpha deserved a price, he wanted to be his slut.

He had no pants to wet with water on the dirty floor so without thinking in anything alse he kneeded on the floor, taking Jotaros belt off with such an entusiasms that Jotaro almost thinked they were going too fast, but he forget about that in the moment that the redhead put it on his mouth, moaning loudy at how wet and hot was inside, the perfect tongue that before was eating his lips were now making him see the sky, with such an intensity and passion, the redhead was really hungry for his cock, he was taking the most he can of it even in his throath.

Jotaro had never seen something like that, nobody has been this hungry and enchanted with him ever, and he loved it, he loved how they seemed to have a perfect chemistry, at least that was what his mind allowed him to think for how good the guy was passing it. He moved his hips slowly, in motions on the redhead mouth, and he open his violet eyes to look at him directly grabbing his cock, masturbating from the base taking out his tongue to let the head precum on it, hypnotized of how the waist of the alpha moved, not wanting to loose a second of it.

Jojo was huffing and moaning, breathing deep by the nose, fearing of closing his eyes and loosing a second of how beautifull the omega looked, and it wasnt only the view, the entire space around them was contaminated of hormones and pheromones, the omega had such a intoxicating and strong scent that was moving his head away from there. His face went to grab his cheeks by the side where his curl was, feeling how soft and clean was his hair at the touch, red and shiny hair.

Once he had the control of his face Kakyoin liked the head with the precum, tasting it, moaning at how good it was, not leaving his eyes from Jotaros ones. With his other hand the alpha grabbed his dick and started moving it all around the omega face, lips, nose, cheeks and chin, making the guy take his tongue out to slip again his cock in his mouth.

The slow game was killing Kakyoin, he defitnetly had a good chemistry with this guy, they were in a sensual and slow game that had his legs wet in fluids and slick.

It was normal for him get exited when he sucked cock of the guys who payed for his services if the guy was nice looking or at least normal but this was beyond any experience he had before, he feeled his entire body in fire for that perfect male, he deserved it, he was beautifull and perfect, they matched.

He noticed how the work was almost done when the cock of the alpha started twithching in his hand, making him split saliva exited, licking from the base to the head with a smile directly to him.

-My name is Noriaki...-he said almost without thinking it, he wanted that man to remember his name, make him remember who was the man seducing him. If their conection was real after this, with that data on his hands Jotaro wasnt going to loose time in looking for him.

Despite how much he wished it and his body was claiming for it, he didnt bring condoms that night, and he wasnt going to risk himself in a public bathroom, hell just have to get satisfied with that.

-Im...-he feeled a hot wave of heat invading his body as soon he heared that name, his fantasys now had name and that was process –Im...Jojo...Jotaro –he answer grabing the back of his head, fingers tangled on his neck, moving his head guiding him on eating his cock, he wanted to cum down his throat so the omega can know how hot he was for him...

Despite of wanting to have his face full of cum and taste it finger pher finger he was good with Jotaro idea, he wanted to do it too, he wanted his hot seed.

With the alpha moving his head Noriaki started to suck harder and move faster, wanting to milk the alpha, feeling the mans breath go lighter and faster as his ansious for coming while he flavour once his cock all long.

When Jotaros cummed Kakyoin made his best to not look like an amateur and swallow perfectly, containing his breath to not choke and keep swallowing by the hot milk of the alpha goes down his throath, contaminating his mouth with that adictive man smell. They didnt break eye contact even when Jotaro was cumming, Kakyoin loved to see his chest going up and down, knowing that he was the one accelerating his breath, and Jotaro was hipnotized by that beautifull face,specially for those violet eyes.

After that, while Jotaro was enyoing his orgamns, Kakyoin put his pants on with his legs totally soaked on his on fluids and run away the bathroom, he didnt want to puush more their limits and ending up doing something that might go wrong, even if he wished it.

If they connected in something, Jotaro would look for him.

And they did, because by the morning, just before he would enter to the shower after masturbating like crazy all night in his bed with the smell of the alpha still on his body and the exitement all over his butt, someone knocked at his door.

He breathed inside almost with his heart stopping when he see the alpha on the door of his appartment.

That was fast

And convenient

And perfect.

They ended up doing it all noon non stopping.

Jotaro, who promised to keep Noriakis name in secret for his safety, discovered that the man didnt really work of sucking dick, sure it help him with some debts and ordinary pays like cherry frappes but most of the money he win sucking dick was saves, he didnt have an extraordinary expensive lifestyle, he just do that because it was easy and no one really complain about his prices because he had a good advertisement.

They ended up being really good sex friends...and friends also because they had a good relationship, Noriaki didnt really make him pay more than a drink or something to eat after they fucked, because he was the type of man who was hungry after doing it, he had free passes to do whatever he wanted to on him.

And he was so enchanted on having such an perfect example of parthner next to him, Jojo was handsome, tall, muscle,had a nice dick and his breath smelled good, he liked having next to his side at the most perfect man in all university, chicks would go crazy if they knewed that Jotaro also eats his dick for breakfast.

And Jojo was such a perfect male also, his strong alpha scent messes with his body everytime he was close to him, he wanted to grab his arm and never let him go away again.

Kakyoin cant stop having stupid smiles when he was at Jotaros side, it was his omega nature being satisficed from having a parthner

Things started to get weird between them when they become more closer to each other, expending more time together more than fucking or sneaking in the bathrooms to suck each other dick because they were good friends and really similar types or person, also studying or hanging out together. The principal problem that Jotaro feeled very jelous of Noriakis “work”, he stopped accepting it like it was nothing or something without relevance when he discover that the guy didnt really do it for money, he feeled very posesive and angry of the redhead when he discovered he was sucking another guys cock, money or not in the middle.

First, Jotaro started to look for Kakyoin in everyplace on the university despite that the fact they have different schedules and different carrers, skipping his own clases to look were the redhead was, almost sticking to him like bublegum in the shoe, and Noriaki didnt have a problem with that, he enyojed his company despite of the fact that he was worried of his carreer, but the man knows what he was doing, he allowed it, because he liked Jojo a lot.

Second, when Jotaro discovered that Noriaki was working with someother guy, he would sit in the toilet next to the box where he was and would start emanting pheromones enought to scare away from fear the guy that was with his omega. Noriaki didnt mind, he loved Jotaros scent and he loved being protected by him, he didnt mind the lost money, he appreciatted Jotaros company more than that, also that always exited him and make him look for Jotaro in the next box to fuck him.

By the third point, it was something knewed that the omega was surely claimed by Jotaro, the strong and tall alpha in Marine Biology, and the fact that he was allowing it, it was obvious they were something by how they walked holding hands and lunched together everyday. Nobody wanted to look for the omega anymore with such a treath around, it was well know that the alpha didnt like his job and better not fuck with that man, because he had the fame of being a delincuent in the center of the city when he was young.

Kakyoin didnt mind it, he loved his alpha

-Hey i wanted to ask you something –Kakyoin said in a moment they were lunching sushi before they classed would start. They were under a three, Jotaro resting on Noriakis legs while he feeded him, the redhead feeled so complete caring for his alpha.

They have a good communication and they were very open to each other, so Noriaki wasnt afraid to ask.

-Mmm? –asked the other one eating from the chopsticks.

-Well u and i know each other for...some months...and its been good months –he blushed, remembering all the noons playing videogames on his house or just hanging out in the city with a smile–and i havent been with another guy in some time –Jotaro take care of that, but Noriaki didnt care and he was happy about it –would you be my boyfriend?

Jotaro raised his head, looking at him with a satified smile, raising his hand to touch his cheek, blushing Kakyoin even more, he looked nice, he had a perfect omega parthner, his alpha persona feeled kinda complete with the situation –yes, of course.

As boyfriend, he was very posesive, following Kakyoin everywhere he goes and always being at his side with everyone he talked, the redhead taking advantage to grab his hand or rest his head on his shoulder, just because he was obsesed with his alpha at everyminute they were together.

Some friends tried to alarm Kakyoin about the situation being weird when the alpha started to hug him when he was talking to someoneelse or growling low to everyone that contacted Kakyoin somehow, but the redhead wouldnt listen despite of knowing it was bad, he loved his alpha, and he allowed it because he loved him.

Why would he move away the most beautifull man in all the university? He was just for him, he winned the most valued price!

Kakyoin never loose any of his life style, because when Jojo insisted in moving together to Kakyoins department he discovered that the guy was actually from a rich family, so money for cherry frappes was never out, the alpha was actually a a good provider, none of them needed to work because the money their parents send them was more than enought, so they just study and were together.

In fact, they were so pure alpha and omega couple, that primitive behaviors didnt take long to appear, like doing a nest to sleep together, Jotaro licking Kakyoin to clean him, and that always ended up in sex most of the times because the omega thinked that he had a gorgeous tongue, Jotaro growling at everything he didnt liked...The only thing they didnt do yet was the bite, but for no particular reason

-Hey im someone you would present to you parents? –asked Kakyoin while they were buying the dinner at the market, Jotaros hand always in his waist

-mmm yeah? Why not?

-i dont know, we dont reach even the year together...-he said grabbing some porkchop to examine the quality.

-We can go if u want, but i dont see my parents very often, vacations are near i suppose –maybe for chrismast holidays it would be a good time, taking a boyfriend for the first time in 22 years.

They were such a perfect and coordinated couple, that their heat weeks ended up in the same week, Jotaro planeed it to be perfect so he reserved an entire week in one love motel to have all the privacy they needed, so nooneelse can smell Kakyoin strong pheromones around the place, and the omega buyed food for all the week so they didnt need nothing else that each other, closed in their love bubble.

It was a lucky that holiday vacations where a time of cold weather, so all the scratches, bruises and marks of that week were well hidden under the winter clothes, for both of them to know the Joestar family.

But a month after that, Kakyoin discover that no matter how much protection methods they used for their heats, their conection was just too strong, and Kakyoin ended up pregnant.

Jotaro had a mix of emotions, he reatched another important point of his alpha nature, impregnating an omega parthner and make it have his baby, in some way he was happy and satisfied, it was just his savage and alpha nature speaking for him and for the other part he wasnt so sure what feel about it...

Kakyoin in the other side was happy, so happy, theiy werent a bonded couple yet but this baby surely bonded him with the most awsome and handsome alpha he will ever meet ever, it was Jotaros baby, it was the baby from the most beautifull man in existence, the baby from a perfect alpha, it was going to be a beautifull and healthy baby, and he was the one carrying it. Such an honor as an omega carry the children of such a big alpha like his parthner.

None of them leaved the university in that time, in fact they were more close than ever, sex was great because pregnant omegas were a soup of pheromones and Jotaro needed to be ready at any moment to satisfy his horny omega, to satisfy the father of his child and make him want to stay at his side forever without the need of the bond mark.

For some classmates it was such a shame to see what the cumtoilet of the university had become, but Kakyoin looked happy caressing his growing belly.

There was something particular about it that had Jotaro mad and angry when he was doing it with the redhead, from his belly his skin emanates a soft smell to dishwasher, that was going to be obviously the scent of their baby, and he hated it, he hated the scent of someoneelse on his parthner, but he cant really do anything about it more than just let it pass until the baby was with them

When birth time was coming, Jotaro commited something extremly dangerous, making Kakyoin give birth at home, because he didnt one anyone close to his parthner even in such a dangerous procidement, he prepared himself a lot for weeks to be ready and fully prepared, just because he was so posesive of his pregnant parthner that he didnt want anyone next to him than him

Oh by the way, their pregnancy was a secret from their parents, they just know they were together and keep studying normally with good grades.

Baby come good, born nice, he had black hair and green eyes just like his dad and just like Kakyoin thinked it was handsome and good looking, it was a nice baby and he was in love with him despite of having a birth a little problematic, but Jojo also did good in taking care on both of them.

For Jotaro things were nice on the first days, he was happy, super happy that his newborn was an exactly copy of who he was as a child, that he and Kakyoin had a bond for life, his son was beautifull and a nice baby, both of them could carry it to university in a front backpack and he would just sleep and stay there without making any noise or disturbing.

But with the time for him, it started to became a bother.

Because it was another person near his precious omega, it was someoneelse robbing and taking his attention from him.

He hated how Kakyoin would get up in the nights to feed him, how he would interrups his chats to change the baby diappers, how the eyes of the redhead were on the baby all the time, how they cant hug each other without the baby in the middle

It was annyoying, he hated not being the only one for the omega.

-Dont get like that, theres a lot for u too! –Kakyoin laughted, Jotaro was being funny, jelous of a baby, his own baby, always he was milking Jouta his father would start to grolw jelous of how the hell he was letting someoneelse drink from his tittie.

During his pregnancy he was the only enjoing his lactating big tits, because Noriaki grew up a beautifull mature body that had him crazy to posses and fuck everytime he could, he also loved the flavour of his milk, and now he had to share.

-i know –he growled back, he noticed how his son trembled when he was annyoyed next to him, recognizing him as the alpha male in the house, and how he should respect him for his own good, still, Jojo feeled uncomfortable.

-You can get your own portion when Jouta is sleeping, dont worry too much –the redhead loved the chilling feeling when he was around his baby, doing his primary purpose in life, taking care of the child of his alpha, more than that he loved being close to that fragile little thing and know that he was his caretaker.

-i can get my portion whenever i want –he missed the times when Kakyoin and him would sneak on the bathrooms so Jotaro can sit him on his legs and start sucking when he feeled the urge of an cherry milkshake, because it was an strange flavour but he can swear that as same as his smell, his milk had the flavour of cherry milkshake.

-Yeah but you dont cry when i dont please you...well...not loud...-he laughted again, it was actually funny how he was jelous of a baby, but Jotaro was jelous of everyone so it wasnt that strange.

Things scalated bad when Jotaro feeled he was being left to one side, Kakyoin that day bought clothes for the baby and he was changing and playing with him like it was some kinda of doll, taking pictures and laughting at how funny he looked, hours and hours passed with the omega close on his bubble with his son, with Jotaro looking annyoyed from the outside, annyoying that someone else was robbing the attention that it was his before.

After that, when they were off clothes to keep trying, Kakyoin picked Jouta up with a green suit and layed on the nest, resting with a yellow pijama, until the baby climbed his chest and started punching on his titties, making Kakyoin laught.

-You are as demanding as your dad –and speaking of the king of Rome, Jotaro sitted next to him, claiming a little of the attention he didnt get in all the noon –oh, wait a second, Jouta wants to eat first, ill be with you in seconds –Kakyoin raise up his tshirt, leaving the place for Jouta who started to suck and eat from the nipple, making the wet sounds he liked so much from him, picking the kid to not let him fall with a smile –now you can tell me

-i dont like how you are acting –Kakyoin looked at him with a confused face, not understanding –you are not paying any attention to me.

-Well im bussy with the baby, he is so little and cant stand for his own, you can serve your own milk from the fridge –he didnt understand his logic, and that make Jojo more angry, growling as he talked.

-Oh really? –he said feeling his head hot and dizzy of anger, opening Kakyoin legs with his first roughtly and setting between them taking his pants down his legs ups–Then ill serve my own –his hands open his thights and asscheeks, looking up for Kakyoin confused and panicked face not understanding what was happening with his partner.

-Wait Jojo! Not now! Later! Im with the baby now! –Jouta wasnt understanding anything, he just feeled moved and uncomfortable to keep eating, doing his best to keep sucking at the nipple and milk his father.

Kakyoin didnt want that, he can deal with Jotaro horny attacks but not with the baby! Not with him on his arms! His privacy time with the baby was more important than anything! But...how he can be against the love and the urges of the most handsome alpha he has ever seen? The redhead cheeks were red and his eyes were watering desesperated, he didnt want that now but he didnt want to say stop, he can say no to anything that Jotaro wanted from him.

-You are mine –Jotaro said, posicionating his face over his butt, looking directly at his desesperates eyes, challenging the baby that was taking the attention of his parthner

-Im but...-Kakyoin responded before feeling a hot tongue over his hole, paralizying completly, making his heart stop of surprise, how dare Jojo to do that in front of Jouta! No! He didnt want that! Not now! He can deal with that later but not with the baby on! He didnt want lactate his son with his parthner licking his ass!

And Jotaro didnt want to stop, Kakyoin can tell that by the rythm of his breathing, he was getting exited by it.

-No one is more important than me –said Jojo biting the insides of his thights, making Kakyoin moan, he loved to be bited and cant help it.

-I know but...you dont need to compite...-the omega can feel the tears going down his cheeks, he didnt want that at that moment, he didnt want his alpha to think that –is you son...-he feeled uncomfortable, it wasnt good, it was horrible, he feeled like a horrible parent to his baby doing that even if he didnt understand what was happening, Jouta in his inocency just keeped eating from his chest.

-Im the winner- Jotaro said giving a last lick, standing up between his legs to get in front of Kakyoin face looking at that pair of violet eyes, alarming him because he was crushing the baby by the weight of his chest, baby that moved unconfortable wanting to get out, not understanding what his papa was doing –and im the only one, ever

Kakyoin looked with fear at his green eyes, feeling a darkness on his shoulders for a moment, a terrible fear making his body shimmer for him and the sake of his son but...he quickly summit to his green eyes, like the good omega he was, making name at the conection they both had, loosing all need to confront Jojo... even with the baby moving to get free under them.

-Sorry Jojo...-Jotaro grabbed Kakyoin by the cheeks, giving him a heavy look using his pheromones to make him feel guilty and sad for being bad, instantly feeling the shoulders of the omega go light an not wanting to make a fight anymore, it was instinctive for him, to act like that by the orders of his alpha and it wasnt fair from Jotaro to do that but well, he had the tool avalible.

The hands on his cheeks were down, moving the turtle neck of the pijama down, caressing the zone making Kakyoin close his eyes relaxed by how nice the caressings feeled.

But as soon Jouta falled from his chest down by moving trying to get out of them and started crying by the hit on the sheets, Kakyoin alarmed again, and before he can respond to pick up the baby Jotaro bited him hard on the neck, by surprise, without warning, nailing his canines on his neck veins deeply.

Kakyoin paralized, getting still and unable to move, not even hearing the crys of his baby in the background, just feeling the canines of his now really now his alpha going down on his neck breaking the skin and muscles.

They were bonded now, Jotaros pheremones were invading his blood track, making him totally dependent of him.

If Jotaro died he would die by sadness, because he needed the hormones of the man around him. As tears were invading his face and his breath was accelerating in fear, he also feeled complete and satisfied as an omega.

The body of the alpha was still, hard, keeping all his attention on efforts on doing right the proccedure to make the omega his forever, feeling a big heat invading from toes to front, not sure it he was turned on or angry. Closing around his theets around his neck, harder, feeling the flavour of the blood on his tongue, and the heat of it on his chin, Kakyoin neck full in blood from the wound

Kakyoin feeled so passive and sumited towards jotaro, like he cant never be againsts him in nothing anymore, feeled completly dependant and needed of his presence at that moment, unable to move unless he orders him.

The crys and screams from Jouta didnt reach his ears until Jotaro decided that the bond was finally finished and started to lick and clean around the wound, licking the hot blood going down his collar bone and shoulders, his pijama completly stained in red blood. He looked down at Jouta because the screams were making him deaf, taking his little hand with a little little little little of shame of what he was doing, with a feeling of being sleepy and drunk at the same time while Jotaro was still treating it...he feeled bad for the abandoned baby down them...

But...but...

They were finally mates...

He was Jotaros propierty forever, and Jotaro was also his.

They were closed in this relationship forever.

And Jotaro make sure to make their bond more deep than ever.

[j-crow]

how've you been lately dawg 🤔🤔

in the trenches /j

yapping you didnt ask for incoming:

surprising from what you might think of me but ive been really good lately!!

i love the retj fandom but that shit got so miserable and overwhelming and convoluted that i just. gave up on trying to go back. im much happier staying off discord :D

actually i needed a reason to rant about this but oh my god??? i literally NEVER used to be that upset all the time pre-retj discord server. like the version of me in your head is probably SO inaccurate to how i actually am because i am NEVER that upset all the time

like yeah i get really upset sometimes but when i had discord??? WHY WAS I SO SUICIDAL?????

so the conclusion that ive come up with is that discord literally gave me mental illnesses and like. yeah that makes sense actually 😭😭

besides that ive been good besides the constant appearance of a wlw situationship in my life 😞😞

also dont if you ever noticed but i had a crush on your ex 💀💀 (tbf there were some EXTREMELY mixed signals imo) we’re not talking anymore tho

uhhh ive gotten new interests (house md my beloved <33 stupid fucking gay doctors) and read a terrifying amount of fanfiction (probably over 100 fics read the past 2 months not including the 100k+ one im reading rn???? dont bully me pls i know im chronically online 💔💔)

ive been trying to draw more as well but i suck ass at human anatomy and have ultimately decided to just draw animals for the rest of my life atp

also ive been playing the new pokemon tcg game and my entire coding class is literally obsessed with it 😭😭 (me flexing)

also been playing pokerogue!! its fun but i get unreasonably angry when my pokemon die 😭😭

ANYWAYS HOUSE MD!!!!!!!! medical malpractice show 10/10 would recommend watching‼️‼️ ive gotten so many spoilers because my short attention span cant handle more than two episodes a day and im stuck on season one 😭😭

WILSON!!!!!! my definitely gay husband who looks way too fondly at his best friend of ten years to be straight and has had three divorces (canon btw) exploding him with my mind 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

still obsessed with birds as you might be able to tell 😭😭 blog name actually comes from a piece of art your ex gave to me (gatekeeping sorry) it said “the c in jc stands for crow” and i ran with it

thats u btw /j (thats an australasian swamphen chick also known as a pukeko chick!!! look them up theyre terrifying)

personally one of my favorite photos of them

anyways i still like hamilton and epic the musical surprisingly and i think i can almost recite the entirety of nonstop and the room where it happens (so impressive i know)

and retj my beloved and beloathed </33 so terribly detrimental for my health but im glad i went through that shit tbh

also crazy that its almost christmas??? its christmas eve wtf i forgot

im also working on a 3d animation project with some friends!!! its due sometime in february and im praying i get into nationals for the competition 🙏🙏 i have a backup if the animation fails horribly but my friends dont so!!!! gotta work hard so we all can go to florida and do some tomfoolery

thats about it i think???? unless you want to hear about my school life for whatever reason (im happy to yap about coding but dont ask me about anything else 😭😭)

hope you’ve been well dude!! :D

found this deep in my camera roll 😭😭

[conanssummerchild]

im pissed and im petty and bitter so here are my ex best friends red flags bcs fuck her and now that we're not friends i can stop pretending she was perfect

1. she had such a fucking superiority complex

i swear to god she always thought what she was doing was better or right, for example im really bad at school and she was little miss straight a's, which is fine, until she made it my business too. one time i was talking about struggling in maths and she gave me some advice and i said i did it differently and she said like "well who's in the low maths class?" i never talked to her about academics again. and thats only one example of so many

2. she complained so goddamn much

i swear to god every fucking hour she was venting about something, and it was really uncomfortable ngl bcs i never ever talk about my feelings and i wasnt used to someone being so open, which yeah i know my way isnt healthy either but i swear she had to make everything become about her feelings, like shut your fucking mouth

3. speaking of, she said like that it was weird for her when i talked to her about my dad

like i said i dont talk about my feelings but since she was so open i tried to be more open for her, but i guess i shouldve just kept my mouth shut, bcs i never ever complained abt her venting but when i did it it was too much aparently also i asked her this:

and she never bothered answering. hypocritical if u ask me

4. she reminded me too much of my sister

this isnt a flaw of her own and more of a me problem, but she was too much like my sister and i shouldve identified that as the issue it was earlier on (if ur not familiar with me, me and my sister have a really bad relationship) maybe then i wouldve been able to work through it and it wouldnt have been a problem

5. she was lowkey kinda patronising

she used this fucking voice at me sometimes (usually in autism related issues) and i tried to convince myself it was sweet and comforting but really it felt like she was speaking to a child (i do not fucking like being infantilised.) in fact a lot of the ways she treated me made me feel like a child and it fucking. sucked.

6. everytime i was struggling she would tell me how hard it was for her

I GET IT OH MY GOD SHUT UP. like the first time i didnt mind it, because i knew it was true, but like was it really necessary to say it every. fucking. time? i dont talk about my feelings normally. if she knew i was feeling bad it was only because i was feeling so bad i couldnt hold it together anymore or i was nonverbal. i understand im difficult to deal with like that but telling me how bad it makes you feel just makes me feel more like shit. not everything is about you and your feelings dude

7. she was really gatekeepy over this one youtuber i started watching

ok so theres this youtuber zara beth who one day i discovered on yt and i rlly liked her and so i told my ex bsf and she was like oh yeah i bet u only watched her videos on autism 😒 and she was being like so passive agressive the whole conversation like GIRL, CHILL. even if i did only watch her videos on autism whats wrong with that (and like i didnt even, i watched all of them on 2x speed and binged her entire account)

THE THREE DOTS??? 💀

8. several of the few times i would tell her abt smth that i was upset over she would just straight up change the subject 😭

9. she liked physical contact too much

ik this isnt a red flag really but im not comfortable with so much physical contact so we weren't compatible in this way

10. she liked video calls too much

again, not really a red flag but video calls and just phone calls in general make me so uncomfortable and exhausted and honestly its even kinda overstimulating and she always wanted to call

11. she said she didnt feel like anything was going on in the aftermath of us having had a disagreement, but it built up so much that we havent talked since. so i would say maybe we shouldve talked about it (like i suggested). ('my face was grey but you wouldnt admit that we were sick' vibes)

theres more red flags, but there was also so much good, it wasnt all bad, which makes it hurt more, she truly showed me what it felt like to love and i miss her painfully every day.

[stimulated-radiation-emission]

tagged by my wonderful friend @zombf !! sorry for being so late with these hehe ;w;

ill refrain from @'ing anyone since i just @'ed ppl with the last one but again if anyone who sees this wants to do it as well pls feel free to ^__^

Get to know me tag game:

Do you make your bed? - i wishhhhhhh lol

What's your favorite number? - i feel like 8 is my go-to when i have to exaggerate things w a random number. like Oh this will give u 800 errors. itll screw you over for 8 million dollars. that kind of hyperbole. i think i do the same w 7 too, no other notable numbers tho

What is your job? - CUSTOMER SERVICE/CASHEIR[sic] AT CVS BABYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY it sucksssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss im cross-trained in the pharmacy too but barely get shifts back there. my 7-3s make me want to k*ll myself but its ok ^__^

If you could go back to school, would you? - yeah but tfw east coast fucking sucks. we have all these ivy leagues and universities and colleges between all these huge cities and none of them offer anything worth fucking taking. laser technology? Nah gotta be midwest or west coast. Sustainability? NAH GOTTA BE MIDWEST OR EAST COAST. id be an electrician but everyone is also like "Yea u need a car and all ur own equipment to do that tho lol" so im like OKay fuck me i guess. im going to lie down in front of a train

Can you parallel park? - what the fuck is a car

A job you had that would surprise people? - (barista) (cashier) (barista again) (cashier again) .....a pushover? wait no the question was "surprise" Fuck. Shit

Do you think aliens are real? - why not

Can you drive a manual car? - what like stick shift? i mean Imagine having ur license in the first place but if i did then idve learned on a stick.

What's your guilty pleasure? - sometimes i drink alcohol

Tattoos? - mew angel. nge seele. dishonored: death of the outsider eyeless. DRHDR OST cover

Favorite color? - purple red black Seafoam!

Favorite type of music? - i know that "i will listen to anything" is the cop-out stupid answer but i literally will listen to fucking anything. I fuck with hard basslines the most tho

Do you like puzzles? - YESSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS video game puzzles and sudoku. Yayayayay

Any phobias? - HEIGHTS LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO sometimes ill be at the top of a staircase and start freaking out. like Shut up

Favorite childhood sport? - i didnt do sports as a kid i did P.E. and ran around my neighborhood. i liked roller blading the most thruout school tho

Do you talk to yourself? - o yea. especially at work

What movies do you adore? - METROPOLIS (OSAMU TEZUKA). PAPRIKA. REBUILD OF EVANGELION 3.33. AKIRA. sorry for being a weeb. TOKYO GODFATHERS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FUCK

Coffee or Tea? - uuuuu prob coffee. i dont get tea as often. im particular abt both tho x__x

First thing you wanted to be when you grew up? - GEOLOGIST/MINERALOGIST !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^______^