#such a sad hopeful ending full of bittersweet aaaa

[kanene-yaaay]

Me: Bruh, you know what. Mob kind of reminds me of Sunny............................. It’s been such a time since I last listenned to The Final Duet from OMORI. I should 100% re-watch this extremely emotional, impactful, culmination of all the game’s struggles and conflicts scene. It def won’t absolutely BREAKS ME DOWN and left me emotional for the rest of the morning :)

asdfghjksdfghj guess I literally walked on this one xD

Anyway!! On a literal and totally unrelated note I finally  f i n a l l y got a new phone and hoooly gosh. It was really unexpected (I was thinking I only would get one in March maybe February) so it will take a bit to get used to it but!!! I can’t wait to start rb-ing a bunch of stuff again!!!!!! Y e s

[docholligay]

Hi Doc! So now that there's just one episode left (aaaa you're almost done what even??!!), two-part question for you! One, what do you dread the finale doing, what would be the worst possible outcome from this point that would leave you the most unsatisfied? Two, what do you hope the finale will do, what would be the best possible outcome from this point that would leave you the most satisfied?

I have so many complex feelings and emotions about the fact that Utena is coming to a close, you have no idea. I’m anxious to see what happens, I’m afraid to see what happens, I’ll miss a lot of the community that rose around and supported it. MOSTLY I”M TRYING NOT TO BE SAD. 

Okay, so, what do I dread it doing? 

I already know, or am fairly certain I know at this point, that it’s not going to play the “utena becomes a prince” thing straight. That would have been a concern I would have had earlier, that Utena is going to become a prince BUT LIKE A GOOD ONE OKAY but I think we’ve sufficiently broken down the idea that the prince is a good idea or something to be emulated. 

It could really ruin the ending for me if Utena and Anthy end up together and fine, I mean come on, literally the woman has just been stabbed in the back, and I will be so disappointed if they manage to make it all okay in 20 minutes. I trust the show a little more than that, but I admit to a touch of nervousness. I hate asspulls, and anime is full of them. 

I’ll be slightly disappointed if it doesn’t follow through on its seeming thesis statement of the prince being a bad idea in general. If Utena/ANthy/Akio/ChuChu becomes the new prince, I’m going to admit that I thought the point they were driving home wasn’t really served. 

I’ll be really disappointed if Akio’s intense criticism of womanhood goes unanswered, but I am also prepared for that not to happen anywhere but in RGU apologia in fandom. 

Now, what do I HOPE they will do?

I WANT AKIO AND ANTHY TO DUEL. I SERIOUSLY WANT THIS SO FUCKING BAD I CAN TASTE IT. I doubt it’ll happen, but oh my god, please, please please Jewish God, let me have this. 

The duel system stops. I need to somehow believe that everything we’ve been through as a collective audience has somehow been worth it. Everything these characters has been through is somehow worth it. That Anthy can somehow defeat Akio and break down the system, and free people from Ohtori. Again, I don’t know how likely this is, but that’s what I would like to see. 

I loved Madoka Magica, but my biggest problem with the end was that it didn’t change enough. She could have, should have, wished that there were no such things as magical girls, that the whole system was unmade. We still could have had Homura be the only one who remembered her, still had a bittersweet moment, but it would have seemed more meaningful ANYWAY NOT THE POINT. The point is, I want to see something meaningful come out of all this, I need some kind of closure. It doesn’t have to be “and then everyone was fine forever” and in fact that’d be a little eyerolly, but I need something. 

BRING!! BACK!!! WAKABA!!!

Please note, I have not seen anything beyond episode 38 and am watching spoiler free! Please don’t confirm, deny, or explain anything to me! Even if I should be able to figure it out based on past episodes! Even if it’s cultural! Even if there is no answer! It ruins it for everyone when I get spoiled!

[hiro-gari]

AAAA THANK YOU I'm so glad that you like the short dialogues and my potrayal for them!! Been trying to make Garou and Badd sounds IC enough because I tend to write them too OOC so I'm very happy that you thought it's good aaaah tysm 😭🙏💗💘💕

And yess same! 😆🙌 Ambiguous open ending sounds more interesting, because that way we can have unlimited possible endings as many as possible 👀✨

So what I've got in my mind about that Garou&Badd's dialogue endings are basically like these:

-Silly dumb route: I had older headcanon that they likes to chat random topics that often escalated into debate or making some stupid conspiracy theories ALL. NIGHT. LONG, lmao! Usually it was Garou who spout some random nonsenses first that Badd couldn't help but giving him responses, but occasionally Badd also suddenly bringing up some intriguing topics that pulling Garou's interest, lol! Let them being dumbass boyfriends who just likes to share silly interests with eachother 😆

-Heartwarming happy route: Y'know Badd is secretly a hopeless romantic who loves lovely idea of having soulmates that always find eachother no matter what? He was thinking that despite his first meeting moment with Garou wasn't perfect like what he imagined before (being enemies and not so lovey-dovey), but he loves Garou so much and sure that the wolfboy is his fated soulmate. And he wanted to know if Garou shared the same thought as him.. In which Garou reciprocated him, hence the sweet promise between them 😚

-Hurt/comfort route: I mentioned before that Badd's mom was the one who tell him about the soulmate concept, right? Badd missed his mom that night that's why he brings up the topic to Garou. He wasn't sure if soulmates are real or not. If the concept is real, he wanted to make sure Garou wont forget him in the next life. But ithe concept isn't real, he still wanted to be with Garou forever, spending time and living their life as best as they could.. :"") And Garou was here to comfort Badd and tried to get him sleeping soon, because they must go to work in the morning lol! 😂

-Angsty/sad route: This is actually the original ending before I scrapped off because I wasn't satisfied by it, lol. The dialogue was made when I was in my not-so-good days, and it was supposed to have one more line in the ending of their dialogues, something like "On the next morning, the rescue team found Garou and Badd died on eachother's arms" 😢💔

So the backstory, they both just finished their mission together, Badd was unfortunately fatally wounded before Garou could shielded him and he went berserk. Then to accompany Badd's last moment, Garou craddled him in his arms while exchanging convos just like they usually do when sleeping together. As Badd went to eternal sleep, Garou lost his will to live and died together with him. Hopefully Badd's story is true so they could meet eachother again. It was winter and the location was kinda difficult to reach, so the rescue team were too late to save them.

I scrapped off this idea because beside it was too sad, the plot was basically just like my Reincarnated Demon/Angel AU where Badd died, Garou went berserk and died too, before both get reincarnated as demon/angel (enemies again). Thus I decided to make it open ending with happier-leaning possibilities like on above examples 😅

BUT! After I read your interpretation in your tags: #so the second time I read it I thought maybe Badd has memories from a past life?? #possibly multiple liftetimes :’) #and every time garou forgets #but of course they find each other again #and badd tries to make sure he remembers this time around 😭

YASS THIS IS IT! Your idea is BRILLIANT, I personally love this way!! 👀😳👌💖🌟✨ Y'know I usually write stories where they both still can obtaining happy ending together despite experiencing angsty stuff throughout the story. And your interpretation is perfect for that situation! 😚👍

Tbh it reminds me of Madoka Magica story, where one of the protags has a controlling-time magic power which allowed her to go back in the past, just so she could save her bestfriend (or love interest). Even they have shared a promise that they wont forget eachother no matter what, which unfortunately the protags' bestfriend forget her everytime they meet again in different timelines. The anime looked so cute but actually very depressing (has nice OST and heart-touching sweet ending, though!).

But I believe despite being reborn, meeting again, then separated again by death, Garou and Badd still have the best happy life in each lifetimes! And even though Garou always ended up forgets about their past life, he never fails to find Badd just like what they have promised before, aww.. 😍😚💕 It gives Badd hopes that at least in the deepest Garou's mind, he never actually forgets their vow. It's like, the vow has already stamped on Garou's soul :"")💕

So in the end, Garou and Badd will always find happiness in their perfectly-imperfect life together as destined soulmates. They deserved happy ending throughout the whole hardship 👍💖💝

Waah sorry I was rambling too much again! I love it when discussing something with people, and your amazing takes or headcanons always make me go "OH YEAH I'M IN! 👀😳✨👏👏".

And I'm so sorry that you've been in bad day, gotta sending you support hugs, love, cozy blanket and hot cocoa on your way! I hope everything will getting much better soon for you~ 😤😚💕💞💖💝🌸🌺🌼🍀🍀🍀🍀🌻🌻🌻🌻🌷🌷💐☕🍪🍫

Also don't worry it's okay you can write whenever you feel like it, because your well-being is the most important thing. Please take your time as much as you need! 😉👍💖 We will still waiting patiently for your next works, so please don't give up, we believe in you! AAA I LOVE YOU TOO~ 😘❤💜💙💚💛🌼🌻🌼🌹🌹

P.S.: I will be right back on bringing my other silly headcanons that definitely much more happier than this one, 100% angst-free guaranteed (100% dumbassery guaranteed, though, lmao)! 😁😆 Maybe I will submit it to you on next week, hopefully it could liften up your spirit 😊🌸

-Little1993lamb-

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Omg of course!! Gotta leave you some Reviews™️ too, even though you’re the master of them 😉 Sorry I sometimes struggle with articulating specifically what I love about your submissions and there’s always a whole lotta keyboard smashing :”)

LMFAO @ the thought of them staying up all night talking about completely nonsensical things just because 😂😂 (or maybe it’s not nonsensical, the OPM verse do be kinda crazy sometimes 🤷🏻‍♀️) But neither of them seem to have many friends their own age, so they’ve probably got years of socializing to catch up on, some fantastical stuff’s bound to be brought up

I love all the different routes this could take: lovey dovey Badd yes!! It’s canon as far as I’m concerned 💕 this guy bought like 100+ roses for his sister’s piano recital, I refuse to believe he’s not absolutely full of love! And for the hurt/comfort one asjdkslsk *clutches chest* Badd probably struggles with just coming out and saying he’s missing his mom, but surely Garou’s realized by now how important family is to Badd, and he knows to give him all his love and comfort whenever he mentions her awww 🥺

Ack I definitely feel ya on the angst 💔 I too have a lot of scrapped angsty fics T~T in a weird way, it’s therapeutic though. And definitely don’t hesitate to post or publish it, because making readers Feel Things is what we do 😉 Even if it makes them mad at us 😭😭 Maaan I kinda thought that’s what you were angling towards, but now with the additional background story I’m- *holding back the tears* hnnnnnnn~ It’s bittersweet, but beautiful nonetheless 💕

AHH yey I’m so glad you liked my little interpretation 🙈💕 I imagine Badd just running into Garou again, getting attacked like he does every time, and being like “ah shit, here we go again, he’s clueless as ever” 🤦🏻‍♀️ But also he’s kind of excited to meet him all over again, and to see what kind of adventurous mischief they’re going to experience together 💖

I’m looking up Madoka Magica rn 👀 it looks excellent 👌 (I mean, you had me at “nice OST”) Ahhhhhh early 2010’s anime just hits differently, I’m definitely gonna check it out, thank you!

Thank you for always supporting me 😘💕💖 *lots of hugs to you* I’m just in a funky kinda headspace, work’s been kind of kicking my ass and it makes me sad that I don’t have the time or energy to do the things I wanna do waaa 😩 Thank you for always being patient with me 🥺💗💞💝 I’m so looking forward to reading more of your work (YAAAAS FLUFF TIME!!!), you do these lovable dorks so much justice, thank you for all that you do 😚🥰