#successful bc i learned A LOT

[baladric]

set out to write a nice simple cast backstory sampler, bullet points and broad strokes, for my friend who's just signed on to be a person i yell at about my book—and then 7 hours passed and the easy jaunt of a breakdown became a 15-page timeline of four different characters' literal entire lives up to the point the book picks up, so. ??????

[curiosity-killed]

*crawls out of 2 yrs’ silence on mdzs* in a modern au Lan Wangji’s reliance on structure and rules could closely mirror the way some students advance immediately from bachelors to masters to phd without taking breaks because it is a “safe” route that allows them to fulfill family and societal expectations of success and intellect in a relatively familiar environment without the perceived higher risk and greater volatility of success in the workforce, particularly where there is a family business in which such education is not necessary but still rewarded. His protection of Wei Wuxian could similarly play out as him dropping out of his studies before being pulled back by his family, and his growth across the 13 yrs supported by completing his degree but shifting his dissertation focus or concentration to a less theoretical and more highly applied vein of the same field. In this AU, I—

[13thdoodle]

bunch of Phantasy AU doodles n wip from earlier this year

Basically I just found out this year that ball-jointed dolls actually have strings in them and not just... magically attached by the ball joints themselves? And 31 in this AU is a ball jointed doll that were made out of Danny's energy so here we are :3c

I've been watching a lot of doll customization since earlier this year and found out from dollightful's video that no they are all connected by elastic strings inside so that's where the idea came from

...i was looking on google to find a good example to put here and clearly I'm not exactly paying attention to how the main body strings are actually.. pinned to?

the video I've been watching the most is dollightful n moonlight jewel and they have their bjd usually only to the bottom of the doll head instead of all the way to the top on the skull pin like the diagram above

Which is why 31 has his strings all connected to the 'heart' in the middle instead of the head kasjdnkasjnd

But yeah uhhh specifics aside...

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Those ball jointed dolls made me think of 31, and then thinking about the clones in Phantasy AU and like.. the logistic of it

for 31, the idea is that during the circus gothica arc for this AU, Danny actually got kidnapped all the whole way into another universe/plane in which he met Valeska (Enn's oc) who unalive what his face the circus leader n break Danny's hypnosis

and now that Danny is essentially stuck in a whole other plane/realm/or sth he just following Valeska hoping she'll help him find his way back.

In one such trip, Danny got kidnapped (again) by another group/cult who wanted to use his power/energy as a gate keeper to the ghost zone to make their own gate keeper so they can open portals to ghost zones and maybe other realms too

31 is part of the experiments. He's a doll made with part of Danny's energy as his core.

And then it's.. uhh.. sth sth Valeska finally found out where they kept Danny and devour everyone there safe from Danny n 31 who helped him escape so now the three of them travel together~

The last pict is me thinking about clones and kingdom hearts :tm: so dramatic about Danny being the soul separated from the main body and 31 a clone made from part of the soul too and all that Not sure where I'm going with that but it do sound cool

And there's also Danielle but I'm not exactly sure.. how she would fit in? but it would be interesting if she was made from Danny's body somehow

so 31 made from part of teh soul and Dani from part of the body sounds poetic somehow

[simplyghosting]

“No one needs a computer anymore.”

Wrong.

>right-click

>inspect element

>delete annoying script housing this opinion

[pocket-size-cthulhu]

It's getting to the point where instead of being encouraged, I just get pissed when people tell me their friends' success stories with getting jobs as software devs without formal education.

Everyone is like "oh yeah my friend did it without a degree, you can too!" And I'm like ok how did they get past the auto rejectors that won't even look at you if you don't have a degree? How good were they before they were hired, and who supported them while they educated themselves? Or who agreed to take them under the wing and give them a chance even though they were green?

I know people are trying to be encouraging but it's starting to feel less like "I believe you can do it" and more like "if you haven't done it yet, what's wrong with you?" They'll be like "you don't need a degree to succeed, just a willingness to learn" and I'm like, I know that as well as anyone, but to the people responsible for making budget decisions, I'm too much of a risk. What do I have to show for myself to them?

Like at the end of the day it just feels like either these folks were super lucky or I'm super unlucky and either way, hearing their stories doesn't usually help or encourage me. I'm fighting an uphill battle here trying to convince folks who think we're in an economic downtown, that a US-based junior developer is a good investment. Yuck. If you don't have anything helpful to say then at this point just don't say anything 😭

[oidheadh-con-culainn]

also i confused sgéalta rómánsuíochta and eachtra na gcuradh in conversation earlier (said something was SR but it's EnC) with one of the only people who could theoretically call me out on that and they didn't but what if they were thinking it. they'd JUST been saying they thought my Irish was good enough to tackle something they recommended to me. now they're going to know it's not and i'm a fraud. fuck. I only hope their memory of the convo is vague enough that as and when they come to look it up they assume I actually said EnC all along

[desperatepleasures]

spent a LOT of today thinking about how good my kansumi headcanons are I literally became this image

[quarklynx]

Wip Wsaturday!

I wanted to try my hand at designing Hanfu for one of my favorite Genshin Blorbos! I’ve never seen a design that looked enough like his original outfit for my liking, so I thought i’d take matters into my own hands.

[opens-up-4-nobody]

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[darkwood-hollows]

i have such a love/hate relationship with writing forums like on one hand they can be extremely helpful to people but i always end up feeling that on the other hand 85% of questions asked would be better served by just...picking up a book and reading it.

"How do i do *insert craft question here*". Hmmm maybe see how your favorite authors are doing it. maybe see how popular authors are doing it, maybe see how "bad" writing does it, maybe see how "good" writing does it. maybe you need to read.

[louisironson]

I feel like the only reason people make Greg half-Jewish is because of his last name tbh

i’m embarrassed bc i didn’t even think of that….. i’ve headcanoned characters as jewish for less so if that’s your reasoning that’s valid (although a lot of stereotypically jewish last names are also had by german/german-descended gentiles, and hirsch is german, but also tv characters are fake and someone made them up)

however sometimes i get the vibe that people introducing a minority status to greg to make him more sympathetic/less connected to the roy bullshit (on a related note i think it would be super interesting to explore anti-catholic sentiments in the us throughout the 20th century and how they relate to logan’s identity as a Self-Made Man but that’s another post). on one hand giving further reasons for greg to be as othered as he is from the rest of his family is interesting, but on the other hand there are already existing reasons in canon (logan/ewan feud, physical proximity, age difference, etc) and sometimes i just get an icky feeling since greg gets woobified so often by the fandom, especially in favor of shipping him with tom, and the actual canon elements of his character are replaced by fanon that becomes basically original fiction so i feel justified in holding a little bit of skepticism towards jewish greg as a jew myself

so one side of me is saying i’m right and i’m smart and cool but if you think greg’s jewish and you want me to go fuck myself. cool ig you go do that

[doitinanotherlanguage]

Non-Anglo Movies You Should Watch 14/∞: Munich – The Edge of War (2020), dir. Christian Schwochow

Country: United Kingdom, Germany

Language: English, German

Genre: Period Spy Thriller

Summary: At the tense 1938 Munich Conference, former friends who now work for opposing governments become reluctant spies racing to expose a Nazi secret in the run-up to World War II.

[vociferans]

i have successfully converted my friend into a holostars fan mweheheheh

[earlyspringtranscendence]

being normal about audiobooks again. prommy. but whyyyyy why why why why why why dont audiobook narrators following in other narrator’s footsteps within the same series (ESPECIALLY FANTASY) just . quickly have a listen to the prev person’s pronunciation of words. i wish it wasnt this hard and yet.

[kethabali]

teachers who take it as a personal offense when you need an extension need to quit because its not fucking about YOUUUU

ME NEEDING AN EXTENSION BECAUSE MY WORKING CAPACITIES IS NOT LINING UP WITH YOUR FUCKING CURRICULUM GOT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU AND EVERYTHING TO DO WITH MEEE

WHY ARE YOU DENYING ME AN EXTENSION BECAUSE IT'S "NOT FAIR TO THE OTHER STUDENTS" WHAT THE FUCK DOES THAT MEANNNNN WHAT DO YOU MEAN BY THAT

this logic is why i never asked for help in high school bc well everyone is doing it so i should be able to do it too right..? no fuck that school is not the most important thing in the world and i will not jeopardize my health to finish your stupid fucking paper and isnt it ironic reading and writing about racism colonialism and capitalism while being plagued by them and receiving no help for it? it really is just theory to you stupid academics huh? yall wanna talk about how bad racial capitalism is but when a poor brown student asks for help fuck them i guess

and back on the "not fair" IF I NEED TWO BURGERS TO FEEL FULL BUT YOU NEED THREE IM NOT GONNA TELL U TO EAT 2 BC IM EATING TWO. IF U NEED THREE BURGERS THEN EAT THREE BURGERS TF???

and dont even start with the "theres not enough to go around" there is ALWAYS and i mean ALWAYS enough scarcity is an ILLUSION and if giving me an extension means u cant finish grading then what youre assigning is not only unsustainable for me as a student but also you bc u cant keep up with your own work so consider changing how you teach bc something is clearly not working when half the class doesnt show up and those who do did none of the work.. clearly the students are not the problem YOU ARE

talking about "you need to do the readings assigned to you" no i dont NEED to do shit esp if it means losing sleep not eating enough or taking care of my basic needs go fuck yourself academia and work in general acts like me not sacrificng myself for you is the greatest personal offense and im actually completely over it. i am not overexerting myself no matter how upset you get. idc im always gonna eat and sleep enough to the best extent i can and im gonna take time to clean myself and my house and to sit with my feelings bc life is gonna keep living and im not spending all my time worrying ab ur stupid fucking paper

[weltonreject]

i mean i haven't read any of your original work but based just on what you've posted for fandoms you Are a good writer. you're actually one of my favourite writers and i revisit your work all the time. maybe that doesn't mean anything because i'm just a stranger on the internet but don't judge yourself on one little piece of writing you don't really remember working on. you have a lot more to give !!! and you work hard for it !!!

this is gonna sound so sappy and like, idk, taking this blog from undergrad "too seriously" or whatever but i was shouting into the 2AM insomnia Vast last night and to take my first break at work and see this? like goddammit maybe i deserve a smidgen of kindness. a little dash here and there. a little self belief because i want it. so thank you for reminding me in that belief. and that whatever i am i afraid i never had (or worst, lost entirely) is still in there, in me. bc it's joy and it's excitement and it's just silly ideas to put theo decker in situations lol. and that's it. in the best, most freeing way, that's it that's all. 💌