#su*cideprevention

[loveyourlovelysoul]

#SU*CIDEPREVENTIONMONTH

I am sorry to have found this post only now.

As someone who has had thoughts about it in different times of my life and has known someone that ended their life, this is something I cannot let slide.

Sometimes things seem impossible to change, and we feel so annihilated by everything around and everyone. We do feel as if no one cares, as if life would be better without us in it, that we're just here to suffer... and that that can be our only way out of this incredible pain and void we feel deep inside, that we cannot fill in any way. It seems like this void/pain can eat us from the inside, and it gets worse when we act as if it is not there when we are with others.

I know it is hard to stop and to not listen to that voice inside... but we can try. Please just not keep that rot inside of you. Don't be scared to share your deepest feelings or scare others away. If you feel you cannot fight it alone, ask for help. You've given so much already, you deserve to get back.

What saved me was the fact that a bird kept singing for me everytime I had these thoughts. And a specific song chorus that was coincidentally released in my most recent worst day. I know it feels stupid, but... it felt like a message to keep trying. That things could go differently, and that I wasn't alone. That someone was waiting for me. That I needed to stay to see why.

What I want to ask you is to be open to the signs around you. Even the smallest ones. Cause I am sure it is plenty, but sometimes that voice speaks so loud we cannot really be aware of anything else.

I know it is very hard to focus on those signs, but please try. Give it some chances. Do not leave yet. We need you here. So why don't you stay a bit more?

To see how this serie you're in goes on, or if the new season is gonna really happen or not.

To watch a new movie or read that book that is waiting for you.

To check with us what other planets or stars will be discovered or if we're going to move to another planet (October 25th there's a solar eclipse, js).

To have the chance meet again that random person you helped, so that they can thank you again and give you back. Or to meet the love of your life or your next best friend.

To see if we can really change the world, or if someone will really be able to travel through time or use teletrasportation. Or any other cool scientific discovery.

To adopt or maybe save a kitty or a puppy. Or a kid. You'll be the only one in the right place at the right time.

To ride a horse. Maybe on the beach.

To learn more about yourself, about others too; to see things from different points of view.

To find your own purpose/reason. Talent. Cause you have it.

But most of all to experience all the love and joy you deserve and trust me they will come.

You are strong enough to wait a little more. I know you can. And remember, you don't have to do it alone. Talk about it. Be open about your emotions with others. And remember, more often than not, there is another solution, and talking can be of help in finding it.