#stupidusernamepolicy

[kasumingo]

People who are like, get medicated, get therapy, get help, as if its the easiest most effective thing ever boggle the mind. Like i know they cannot know unless theyve been in the system for any length of time but theres so much to unpack here. Theres LAYERS

Theres the fact that everyone should be aware of by now, that its often expensive and inaccessible to many as well, but thats entry level shit. It goes deeper.

The fields of psychology and ESPECIALY psychiatry are steeped in stigma and dogma and straight up bad info. Everything is depression until proven otherwise. Gender stigma is very very real with autism and ad(h)d and so is actual genuine oppression that can come with those diagnoses and anything "more serious". God help you if youre diagnosed with or suspect cluster A or B personality disorders or ANY psychotic ones. I dont have firsthand experience but ive heard enough to know that often those with ASPD and schizoaffective/schizophrenic get treated as subhuman. Not to mention how severe antipsychotics are as medication, theres good reasons people often dont take theirs.

But even if youve got one of the "easy" disorders, guess what? "Success" is still not guaranteed. Figuring out medication and dosage can be a long and exhausting process, a lot of them have significant drawbacks and restrictions.

And cognitive behavioral therapy can also have negative effects! Especially if ur misdiagnosed! Or do it while youre still in survival mode! Or have alexythimia like myself! Its not an one size fits all cure.

People are so ready to condescend to the mentally ill and say stuff like "get therapy" as if its the holy grail of mental care without a trace of irony. People lapse treatment and lick their own wounds the best they can for so many reasons, A LOT OF THEM RELATING TO HOW SHIT AND INEFFECTIVE THERAPY CAN BE, and instead of that being the focus the talk about it is so often boiled down to them being lazy or incapable of taking care of themselves.

I know this couldve been its own post but honestly with you posting abt it i feel better giving this here directly. It got kind of ranty but just, people who use "get therapy" as the ultimate gotcha BOIL MY BLOOD.

People think that therapist, psychologists, psychiatrist and similar are these unquestioned authorities that always have your best interest in mind and have the answer for anything.

While the truth is that the psych field is filled with incompetent bigots either entering the field for the power trip or having an incredible biased and misguided point of view at best.

I don't personally have the experience with BPD or ASPD myself either, but it's not hard to imagine how they treat individuals they don't even consider people… that the majority of society don't consider ones either and doesn't care what happens to them.

AND YES GOD IT'S INFURIATING.

Especially since in many cases it doesn't come from genuine care, but as a dismissal and denial that many people ARE broken, weird, strange, peculiar, different but they do NOT need fixing, CAN'T be fixed and certainly don't owe strangers recovery.

Modern attitudes I'm seeing in online spaces are only setting mental health of the societies back years if not decades and leads to mental health of all involved unnecessarily dipping even further, only adding to what's happening in the world as a whole lately.

It's frustrating and I only can hope that my yelling in the void brings someone peace or makes rethinking the attitudes they've been carrying up until this point.

[pinetreevillain]

dropping in once again to say ily comics sos o so much and am waiting with bated breath for each update 🥺 and also that the fixation fever on them lead to drawing some timothies if you'd like to see 👉👈 https://www.tumblr.com/slavhew/728019710599380992/having-a-normal-one-about-pinetreevillains?source=share

HEY I’M SORRY IT TOOK SO LONG FOR ME TO LOOK AT THESE THEY ARE WONDERFUL AND I AM ON MY HANDS AND KNEES CRYING FR

[pythonteeth]

materializes in ur inbox with a ∞

I got a crush for the freaky one! And nothing feels better than Machine Gun GoGO!

MACHINEGUN GoGo - Panzer AG

choosing one line from this was Very Difficult i'd like to post the entire thing BUT I will choose the part that gets stuck in my head constantly

[isabelguerra]

Every time i come to ur blog im hit by such a fierce "missing isabel and johnny" sensation its unreal

its a thankless job and it doesn’t pay much but its my duty

[meirimerens]

∞∞ lets go for a two-fer

two (2) of them you say...?

you get well. Want You Gone from Portal 2.

chuckle-worthy lines.

round 2!!!!

you get Gazelle Twin - I am Shell I am Bone

the song is pretty short & compact lyrics-wise but the whole thing is really impacting. (voice of a guy who's nuts) this is such a clara song. this is also a herb brides song. this is also a Primordial Mother Goddess type of beat.

[heartfeasts]

Im on mobile but im sending 2 infinity symbols !! ♾️♾️ gimme a twofer

Ok well. I have to apologize in advance because my music taste isn't particularly like. 💕 Meaningful 💕 LOL I like songs that make me laugh or are fun to listen to. SO. Buckle in 🫡

SONG ONE :

South Miami hootenany

LITERALLY my favorite part of the song I fuck it UP 🐬🐋🐬🐋🐬🐋🐬

SONG TWO, well. I'll let the lyrics speak for themselves 💀

[slavhew]

do you ever get reminded of a ship, remember a piece of fanart of it that you loved, then after a day long search realize that you just imagined it? and then try to draw it yourself?

prllb btbtt ALT VERISONS

[loppiopio]

i've been sitting on this post for a few days now and it's literally just, me making assumptions about kudos i've noticed on fics lately (particularly aci since i've been checking that fic every week for book club these past few months) and this'll make me seem more insane than i already come off but by this point. how much lower can i go?

just going from top to down as of today.

[ShibaLee] i know you from your art on here!! tumblr user shibaleeart i'm happy to see more people in potentially enjoying the stories this fandom has to offer :>

[reiscm] shizuchansmilk?? what are youuu doing here? i didn't know you read shizaya fic tbh and i was surprised to see you here suddenly, relatively recently too. does that mean you just started the fic then?? after at least a year of being in the fandom right? maybe this wasn't from your first time reading it (same) but at the very least it shows you visited it not too long ago… i may be delusional in thinking i could be a contributing factor there because, why now? it's not like i'm the only aci advocate out there but i've probably been the most vocal about it around this time soo… well whatever it is, hope you had fun with it! i'm so curious what drrr comedian shizuchansmilk thinks about hit fanfiction a cheap imitation 👁️

i'm also recognising some of the other names around here like [anonymooose] and [durarasaiki] even though i haven't the faintest idea who they might be. i've just been seeing them lately across different shizaya fics which probably means these are the people doing their shizaya fic dive around this time. i have nothing more to add there i just, think it's cool noticing the same names across fics like yeah, we all feasting on the shizaya tag rn.

[ya_boi_twink] it took me a second to recall where i'd recognised your name from and then it hit me. i knoooow you! tumblr user yaboitwink in my notifs… i appreciate you, and i'm glad you liked the things i made for it c:

[bun_o_ween] oh i know you're here because of mr crapo. i hope you guys had fun with it! i wanna take the chance to also admit that like. the moment i found out you were that sebastian writer i experienced the wildest sense of deja vu. because. i had seen your name on ao3 before. but when i checked your fics there was no way i'd read a fic from you?? so then i realised i must have recognised you... through other kudos on other fics??? dude. i must sound crazy, i have no way of proving this because i actually don't remember what fics these were i just vaguely remember it was either bsd or tgcf? that i was looking at fics for, trying to find something to sate my hunger at the time. and i just remember, noticing your name across like a few of these fics in a row and thinking "heh someone else has been going down the same rabbit hole" AND NOW I SEE YOU AND CRAPO OF SHIZAYA FANDOM HITTING IT OFF it was surreal. like. my awareness of you had zero to do with black butler, i could not have predicted that you would have been the random ao3 user i'd seen apparently enjoying some of the same fics i was not too long ago. wow.

there are like two separate flamingo related names around here [niceflamingo] and [flamingoo] which doesn't mean anything but for some reason they are standing out enough for me to want to mention them. i feel like i've seen ao3 user flamingoo in the kudos of some other fic before but idk.

[Luzki] omg hey!! twitter artist vi_138_ woah hiii funny seeing you here :0 especially like. not so long ago? since i'd imagined you would've been aware of the fandom for a while since you seem more invested in the alts than shizuo and izaya in particular? well it was cool seeing that you'd read this one, i hope ya had fun!

[frogsarefriends] right under that is artist hallucxnating >:O i know they've read the fic already but it was cool to actually recognise their kudo down here, especially since it's like. not recognisable just from the name alone, but you've shared links to this ao3 as your writing so now i know it's you. my impression is that you came into the fandom through slavhew since, i'd connected the dots at some point that you two were friends which. made a lot of sense since i noticed you both started being active around here at the same time lol. but hey!! welcome to the club :D

[7FlyingPancakes7] this is one of the ones i'd noticed earlier on during book club, i distinctly remember checking a chapter while walking home one night (because i do that i guess) then BAM what the hell?? i just see tumblr user mari-lair's ao3 appear down there, totally out of nowhere for me. for context this was a writer from the tpn fandom i recognise from like 4 years ago? idk it's been a while, i didn't talk to them much but they were active in the fandom at the time so i'm familiar with their name. i haven't been keeping up with them but last i'd seen they seemed to be into tbhk with no indication as far as i was aware that they'd shown any interest in shizaya. nothing wrong with that it was just unexpected, so i was just like woah!! how did you get here? i am so curious how they may have come across this fic, was it some rec from a friend? how familiar are they with shizaya? how invested were they in the story and characters? enough to go down more of shizaya's greatest hits? anyways, that was just a fun little small world moment for me.

[psych0tastic] hey isn't this…. axietoh? like, the artist who used to draw shizaya like 5 years ago? what are they doing here so high up the list? 🤔 i have no clue lol i still follow them because i really like their art style but i hadn't noticed their interest in shizaya resurfacing... i suppose they just haven't been too active on these socials in general. anyways their name stood out to me and i was like, wait….. well it's a shocker seeing their name so high up here, were they reading this fic for the first time there or were they revisiting it and happened to have not kudo'd it until then? well anyways, it's nice to see they've revisted the fic within the last two years at least :0 that's cool to me.

[MiyukiWynter] dude i was feeling crazy just now trying to figure out where i'd recognised this name from because i'd swwooooorn i'd seen it from somewhere like as someone on twitter?? i think i was mixing them up in my mind with unrelated (as far as i'm aware) twitter user miiyankhr but turns out they're someone who's fics i've seen in the tags before. i haven't read them myself but apparently they just posted a new one two days ago so that's crazy.

[Dodomka] heyyy it's dodo from twitter, hellooo 👋 they've been the biggest supporter for my deep in the sauce fic tweets and for that i appreciate them very much :3 didn't expect to see them here tbh i wasn't aware of when they'd first read the fic but as i was expanding the list a few times to write up this post i noticed their name here and just thought that was neat. shout-out to them!

[mochi010] there's a user named mochi that has shown up in my twitter notifs somewhat regularly and they have nothing on their account so i have zero clue what they might be like outside from that they've been liking my shizuo and izaya retweets. their handle isn't even mochi so i have very little reason to believe this could be them but idk, maybe? no conclusion has been made here. well i already spent time writing and cleaning up the paragraph, guess i'm leaving it in.

shout-out to [ouiouipussay] and [ramenflavorpacketsnorter420] just for having some names that stand out lol. i don't recognise you from anywhere but, i guess now i will if i ever come across those names again.

[Stupidusernamepolicy] i struggled to find you amidst all these names for the writing of this post 💀 had to ctrl+f that shit. but i remember seeing your name here while i was going through the list some days before and being like "oh hey!! it's slavhew :)" but okay there's actually a tangent i've been wanting to go on from here.

outside of aci i've actually been noticing you and hallucxnating double duo'ing under some fics together, like after the story era which i'd reread after hallu reminded me of its existence in a reply, and also sacramental which i had reread because of your reply, lol. i find this quite funny, just like. this visual representation of you two reading and recommending fics with each other. then you talk about it on twitter and more people like me are visiting this fic too. chain reaction of sharing stories :)

ALSO [anonymooose] and [durarasaiki] spotted down here in some of these kudos too!! that's craazy. wow. i tell you guys i'm recognising these names i'm not just crazy 😭

[NotElectricT] this took me a second to dig up again since it's quite buried down that list at this point but the plan i'd had in mind for this post was to end on this one since i saw them kudo it right in front of me (through the vc stream) and i didn't think this post would get as long as it did but... well i already wrote it 😬 but yeah, this is my good friend note! check out this art they made for, still one of their favourite chapters, sharks fly. it's sandwiched in between some squid game au they made for a gift exchange for me..... it's a long story i don't wanna talk about it (embarrassing......)

but what i do wanna talk about!! is how note (referred to as "patient zero" regarding aci book club by the only other patient lol) just decided to read this fic completely of their own volition?? i didn't tell them to do that and for sure didn't expect them of all people to try reading it, ever (they're not really a fic reader) but they just did that, two years ago. and that was like, insane to me at the time because it's seriously so out of their depth guys they don't do enemies to lovers.... they still don't lol. but i was insane about this fic back then with no one to really be insane about it to so i just yelled about it to these friends out of context and i guess???? that was convincing enough to get this one to start the longest fic they'd ever read 💀

i had much fun having someone experience the fic i'd been insane over..... like i'm smiling about it rn thinking about the time i did a live reading of the chainsaw man (as i like to call him) chapter which was so fun i kinda forgot i had a hamilton musical i was supposed to watch that evening... that was awkward. and other chats we exchanged regarding the fic (they were reading chapters whenever they felt like it which i enjoyed because i like pacing these things out) but for some reason (i think things just happened around the time that disrupted the momentum) they never made it past chapter 26 😔 which was tragic to me but oh well....

well i'm am even more insane about this fic now because of this convoluted chain of events that gradually built and cascaded me towards whatever the fuck i'm doing now!! god. i've never made so much, anything, like ever. until now. because both note and rosa (who has not kudo'd this fic as far as i'm aware lol) made the decision beyond my expectations to commit to, a book club. which i organised. and i've been having a lot of fun! so much fun, there's all this wild "marketing" stuff i've been churning out in record fucking time by my standards. i've never felt so creatively fulfilled dude, never finished a thing in my life until these past few months. so that's awesome, and it's in large part because of note having committed to this fic again. so that's some of the story behind that one kudo haha.

and now we're at chapter 49, we're supposed to be talking about it tomorrow, which is today by now since it's 1 am but uhhhhhhh writing is so hard. i was supposed to just be cleaning up this draft i'd written like 5 days ago? i am now very hungry. there's actually more i'd drafted up from here just from more names i recognised as i kept expanding the kudo list that day buuuut i'm fuckeeeen cutting this off right here. i need to stop. the end.

[hamsterdads]

Ive been sending stuff on anon tonight but since that isnt an option an i dont thuink ive filled my quota: hi i hope you have a wondrous week ahead and i really realy like ur art and interpretations of the characters physicalities and also ur got me johndavekat pilled. That is all baaaiyyeee

hiiiii beloved stupidusernamepolicy!! thank you for your kind words hehe<3 im sooo glad that you are johndavekatpilled as well i feel insane about them. anyway here is a speedy doodle for you. enjoy ^^

[hallucxnating]

Happy belated Valentine's day to Shizuo 💕

Here's something i drew to pair up with my friend's @stupidusernamepolicy shizaya valentine's fic! Go read it !!!

[kasumingo]

Can i crash on ur couch and followup question can i count on you to shoo away formulas when they start floating above my head

yes and no worries i have a bug screen, no formulas floating in

[pinetreevillain]

Hi hi hi i just got here although ive had an eye on you and your phenomenal turtle comics for a long time! And as such Im sorry if youve been asked this before, but i was wondering why certain points on the masterpost are struck through?

Oh and ps. I LOVE your artstyle. Really making me want to put more oomph and effort behind my own art again :]

Hello! As stated in the masterpost, titles that have strikes through their names are all comics that are currently only available on my Patreon and ko-fi, or are currently in production!

[caleblandrybones]

got tagged by @night-ambit and @bwaah but the post was getting toooo long so @stupidusernamepolicy @hwalter-hwite @johnmeowston @dogrocks @yaoifag @watasemasaru @nostalgic-shamefest @themadknightuniverse @degenerate-otaku THINK FAST

[its-me-ej]

@stupidusernamepolicy was blessed with my creation first so the rest of mando girlies get to see it

[mindshelter]

questions by @stupidusernamepolicy! i'll answer these one by one.

Q: do carcinogens cause a specific mutation, or bring about random harm to the genome of a tissue that they're in close contact with?

A: a bit of both! in the context of the entire genome (def: all the DNA in a given cell), any part of it can sustain damage that produces errors. a carcinogen doesn't hone in on a specific gene and introduce mistakes, but it might only target specific nucleotides (def: DNA building blocks). UV radiation, for example, will hit the nucleotides thymine and cytosine, but not guanine and adenine.

another important thing to note is that while human DNA is linear, it's crumpled in this big harmonious mess in the cell nucleus so that everything can fit. i've noted elsewhere that a given cell has no need to access for all of its genes at a single moment. if we can think of our genome as a library, the books we are actively borrowing (loosely packed DNA that is being read) are at the biggest risk of being lost, damaged, etc. anything on the shelf (densely packed DNA) isn't impervious, but the likelihood that something will go wrong is somewhat lower.

therefore:

depending on the carcinogen, it is more likely to affect specific components of the genetic code.

however, it is not picky about where this component is. it is not trying to hit a specific gene.

that being said, DNA damage across the entire genome is not uniform. one reason among several is how densely a piece of DNA is packed in the cell.

Q: does that vary by carcinogen? like does asbestos just to whatever to DNA of lung tissue and fuck it up

A: yes, it varies! for this question, we should consider that there are two types of carcinogens from a biochemical perspective: direct and indirect. an example of a direct carcinogen is UV radiation—it hits the DNA itself. asbestos is indirect. it does not actually interact with DNA.

asbestos is, however, made out of long, microscopic fibres that can physically embed into the respiratory tract when inhaled. think millions of tiny needles. naturally, the lungs get irritated, and its tissue becomes inflamed. inflammation tends to produce reactive oxygen species (def: highly unstable oxygen-containing molecules) that then "attack" DNA.

Q: is a specific part of the genetic code more vulnerable to specific carcinogenic compounds in cigarette tar than others?

A: cigarette tar is a mixture of several carcinogens. some induce irritation (such as acrylonitrile), and therefore the formation of reactive oxygen species that can hit DNA. others are processed by the body into another, more dangerous form that can directly bind and damage DNA, like acrylamide.

like stated before, yup! some parts of the genetic code are more prone to sustaining damage than others, and this isn't a phenomenon restricted to a specific carcinogen. the actual distribution of how the genome gets hit is an active area of study. how the DNA is packed/where it is physically in the nucleus will influence how vulnerable it is, and this will vary by cell type.

the cell expects that its DNA will be damaged, and has cleanup teams that catch mistakes as they happen. these cleanup proteins are really, really good at their jobs! but when they're stretched thin with a lot of things to fix, they might prioritize things that are more important to cell function at a given moment. again, what's important will vary by cell type. (and i do wanna stress that this is still not entirely understood, so if this answer becomes contradictory to new evidence... well. that's science!)

[themadknightuniverse]

Tutorial : Old looking pic effect

Sure thing @stupidusernamepolicy ! Here is a tutorial for turning your drawings or pics into old looking pics! [Don't hesitate to open the images, I made them big so you can zoom in if needed.]

Note: every images are different and you may need to adjust more or less things than I showed here. This is how I basically go about it, but there are probably many other ways.