#stupid brain let me rambleee

[selfspinninglies]

Ive been talking about alex a lot lately but I'm also incredibly ill about erika's character so expect some sort of ramble later

[klavery]

OK now that ive eaten and calmed down and definitely not still having a major freak out after pacing laps around my room shaking trembling hand fidgeting letting my food get cold in the microwave. i will rambleee ❤

ok so this might be shocking knowing me buuut... this was a day ive been eagerly anticipating for the past 4 years... not! ive actually been silently praying all this time that they would never get into masters. i was hoping the pokemon company would always ignore them and forget about them forever and ever, letting them fade into the distance.... so i wouldnt have 2 deal with emotional freak outs like this!

my thing with masters is that i looove the characters from pokemon a lot (admittedly mayne a little less now than i did half a decade ago.. but if youve seen my old art from my au ud have an idea❤) and when i found out they were finallygetting the attention from tpc that they deserved, all in a brand new game, a game i discovered i couldnt play, even on my new phone that i specifically bought so i could potentially play it.... i was so so so heartbroken. so after that, i ended up completely ignoring masters because it made me sooo sad. theres a lot of lore going on in that game that i dont know about, because i pretended it didnt exist. especially since ive had it blacklisted this entire time.. it just made me so upset!!

so now they are finally adding my favoritest guys E V E R with new lore and interactions and outfits and the fan art and ships that come with it- i dont know how to cope! waaaa!!! new content of MY scrimblies!! what if they TALK. TO EACH OTHER. OMG! its sooo overwhelming... i get so information overloaded and, idk if it was obvious, but i can get.. a littlee bit emotional over things that i like hehe <3 isnt it weird that someone WOULDNT want new content of their favorite thing?? idk. probably has somerhing to do with my anxiety, tbh.

to be honest, ive needed a new phone 4 a while. this is the same phone ive had since that half decade ago. maybe i will really get 2 play this time around, with my stupid sillieheads... swoon.... i just feel like theres so much to get caught up on, again with my easily overloaded brain >_<* they made a game perfect 4 me and bound it 2 a stupid fucking mobile app bro..... THEY PUT MY BLORBOS IN A APP........ an app with gameplay that, ill be honest, is very unsuited for me personally. which makes it worse! game really isnt my thing at all..... but i want 2 have my beloveds soooo bad...... am i truly the worlds biggest klavery enjoyer if i dont?? 🙊

so ya, im having the shakes rn, teehee (slash dubious) idk what ill do, but im kiiinda scared! gonna b making more posts the next few days FOR SURE...