#stuff is my favourite. sorry for uhhh All This I just <3 feel bad talking about liking academia. it works for my brain!! rote learning and

[oscartwofoxtrot]

[kicks down the door like the kool-aid man]: hi oscar talk to me about your favorite scene that you’ve written?

Sorry this took so long to answer, I was, apparently, writing an entire thesis. You Have Been Warned.

Oh my god uhhh. My favourite scene…okay, if I had to go with one, it’d probably be the scene from The Valiant Never Taste of Death I unofficially refer to as ‘Everybody’s dying bitch, let’s get you some peanut butter’. This comes about a quarter of the way through the second (proper) chapter, Requiem (NB: if we’re going by AO3 numbers then it’s Chapter 3, since there’s a Prologue chapter as well, but I don’t tend to count that numerically), and it’s the bit where Nate gently bullies Brad into sitting down and having a snack. And then uno reverse-cards him into talking about his childhood trauma. [Slaps scene] This bad boy can fit so many emotions in it!

For those unfamiliar with Halo 4 (which in all likelihood is most if not all of you), you should know that for the most part, I tend to hew fairly closely to the story and plot structure of the game when writing Valiant. But linear first person shooters don’t offer the characters a lot of opportunities to sit down and talk about their feelings, so this scene is an oscartwofoxtrot original! Sure, the action scenes can be fun, but there’s nothing I love more than getting to write Brad and Nate in their quiet moments, and I crowbarred this one in here to really dig into that Deep Halo Lore and hopefully use it to get at some of the complexities of their dynamic in this AU.

Speaking of complexities, you ask me anything at all about Valiant and I am not so much going to unpack the suitcase as start pulling hat stands and potted plants out of it Mary Poppins-style, so…this shit’s gonna need an itemised list.

1. Nate: [Basically refuses to acknowledge his own mortality, but you better believe he makes sure Brad remembers to eat and take a break every once in a while]. Also, Brad displaying just how whipped he really is. They may not have the same relationship dynamic as canon, but Brad pretty much lets Nate tell him what to do most of the time. tbh I think he likes it.

2. We get another hint at the circumstances surrounding Nate’s capture by the Gravemind. I alluded to this event in the prologue but have thus far avoided going into too much detail about it, so you’d better believe it’s a Surprise Tool That Will Help Us Later. One of the biggest challenges of writing an AU based on the fourth game in a series is finding the Goldilocks Zone of exposition – too much and you lose the current plot thread as well as the attention of literally everyone reading; not enough and the whole thing is virtually incomprehensible to normal people who don’t spend all their time on Halopedia. Trying to get that balance right is, shall we say, an ongoing struggle.

That said, I have been having way too much fun throwing out passing references to stuff like this – and this particular occurrence is a Big Deal in the world of Brad and Nate, because I think it may be the only time they’d been apart for more than like 24 hours since they started working together. (The backstory of their first meeting is a whole other essay in its own right, so I’ll just slap a sticker on this that says ‘Ask Me About My Canon Timeline In The Very Unlikely Event That You Are Interested’). Nate had become such a permanent fixture in Brad’s life, I doubt Brad understood what it would even feel like to miss him until he was gone.

And now that Nate’s life is in danger again, Brad has a very clear understanding of the stakes involved. Almost losing him the first time…it wasn’t The Moment of Realisation (more on that later), but it certainly did crystallise some deeper level of awareness on just how important Nate is to him. Of course, last time, the problem was one of distance – Brad was light-years away and couldn’t immediately get back to Nate, but there was a fortress to storm and a dragon to slay so he could save him. This time, Brad is right there, and he can see Nate suffering, and there is absolutely nothing he can do about it.

3. Couldn’t resist throwing in a version of the Peanut Butter MRE Temper Tantrum lol. I am at heart a giant sap and I do love writing them joking around and just being incredibly fond of each other. Because there’s no officer-enlisted divide here, it gives them more room to develop the casual familiarity and vaguely flirtatious banter we see hints of in the show. The spectre of Nate’s Rampancy does cast a pall over the whole thing, but it wouldn’t be Generation Kill without some serious mood whiplash. Speaking of which…

4. Hello and welcome to my impromptu TED Talk on the Insane Fucking Lore behind the SPARTAN-II program! (On all levels except physical I am this Brian David Gilbert Unraveled video). That’s right: the Spartan-IIs were kidnapped from their families at the age of six and, to avoid suspicion, replaced by clones implanted with their memories who would die within months due to congenital health issues caused by the cloning process. And as Nate points out, the UNSC didn’t even have the justification of the Covenant War, because that hadn’t started yet! They did this shit because various colony worlds wanted independence from the United Earth Government – but that would negatively affect the economy, so apparently the only two options available were ‘bloody civil war costing billions of human lives’ or ‘covert military operations to quash nascent insurrectionist uprisings, carried out by fucking child soldiers who we put through brutal training and experimental bio-augmentations that killed or permanently maimed like half of them’.

So, uh. That’s fucked! And what’s wild is that even though this has been a feature of the expanded universe since the beginning, it’s something that’s barely ever touched on in the games. Nate only knows about it because he went snooping for Brad’s unredacted file not long after they met for the first time (based on Cortana doing the same in the Halo prequel novel The Fall of Reach). For what it’s worth, Brad’s stated mindset is pretty typical of how the Spartans themselves feel about the whole thing: it’s been normalised for them because it’s the only life they know.

Nate, meanwhile, is understandably horrified, and it’s clear they both recognise the parallels between their experiences – the UNSC took away Nate’s autonomy too, by the very act of his creation. In between the Gravemind and the Rampancy, it’s something he’s been increasingly struggling with: that he was brought into being as a fully-formed person to serve a specific purpose, with the knowledge that he’d only have an operational lifespan of seven years before his systems started to decay irreparably. I can’t put it better than the Gravemind did (courtesy of the Halo short story Human Weakness by Karen Traviss): “Your creators made you separate. They placed a barrier between you and the beings that you would be encouraged to protect, a wall you could never breach. They even gave you a human to centre your existence upon, a human to care about, yet never considered how you might feel at never being able to simply touch him. Or how he might feel about outliving you.”

Damn are you guys seeing this shit? This is fucking crazy! Anyway I’m Rod Serling

5. Rule number one of Valiant: Brad does not know that he’s in love with Nate. Ya boi is pining without even realising that he’s pining. This isn’t a reflection of how I most commonly interpret canon – I look at show!Brad and I’m like ‘yeah, there’s a guy who’s 100% self-aware that he’s simping for his platoon commander’ – but in this AU, the Spartans’ lack of normal human socialisation has left him without any practical life experience of things like romance, so he’s just not quite able to put a name to those feelings. Yet, anyway.

As for Nate? I’ve been writing under the assumption that he is aware of his own feelings, but isn’t totally sure of Brad’s. I reckon he probably has a good enough read on Brad to at least suspect that Brad might reciprocate if made aware of the situation, but without any way to be certain, Nate’s unlikely to bring it up. Even I’m not fully decided on when Nate’s Moment of Realisation was. I do have a few ideas, but it’s not a detail that’s ever specifically relevant to the fic, so feel free to speculate.

In conclusion: …idk man, it’s been a year since I wrote this and I don’t completely hate it yet so. that’s probably a good sign, right? sorry for rambling it will happen again

[teeforhee]

okay so because of u know the whole ~pandemic~ thing, exams are being done differently this year and the way my specific mathematics teacher is doing it is by having us sit two full assessments and then taking the higher grade of the two and calling that our grade. so we've just got the estimated marks back for the first one, could go up or down by about 3~, a bit more than 3%, and the next one is in about a week and uhhhh. well. to out this plainly my overall score was 91% on the first assessment so. well. I'm wondering if I should ask my teacher to use the second assessment periods as study periods for my other classes where I'm getting way less or if I should be trying extra hard to reach 97% or something.

[angelplummie]

Okay so like for starterssssss, I love getting represented as a chubby gal 🥺🥺 so I love you for writing that last Oikawa imagineeeee 😩😩😩

Soooo, I was wondering if I could request a plus size reader that really likes Kuroo, (and he’s like a super cliché bad boy🤰🏽) but he’s too embarrassed to be seen with Y/n. So she starts to hit on his friend or try to make him jealous. (I want you to add your own little idea here! But likeee, make her a baddie 😘😘)

Thanks baby 😚

HE’S A SCUMBAG DON’T YOU KNOW

KUROO X CHUBBY F!READER

Angsty?? kinda, a pinch of suggestive stuff

masterlist

post girlboss was referring to

a/n:i decided to go for emo / anger issues / definitely has punched a hole in his wall kuroo, just cuz i love writing losers, and i love seeing grown men cry. reader is like 20/21 just like college age yk, kuroo is 23 as stated in fic. p.s where my artic monkey hoes at

warnings: swearing, mentions of sex n specific sexual acts, suggestive stuff, uhhh bad boy but he’s not a (bad boy) he’s just a (bad) (boy) he’s just no good, like no fr never date guys like this, he may SEEM COOL and give you the dick but girl you will be so embarrassed once u realised u gave up the kitty for a man that genuinely believes tame impala and mac demarco are unheard of and calls himself an empath even though he’s mean to his mum every time she comes over to help with the laundry and has manipulated every girl he’s ever been in the vicinity of but i digress! on with the story!

“Kuroo-!” you yelped in surprised, bed bouncing beneath you. The second he had thrown you down, he ripped off his shirt and made a noise of frustration when he couldn’t shed his skinny jeans fast enough. Brows furrowed, he began hopping furiously to yank them off.

You laughed, much to his annoyance.

“You’re gonna hurt yourself if you keep up with that. What’s the rush?”

He sighed, and carefully pulled them off his ankles. Standing up straight, he seemed to have composed himself, with that cocky smirk on his rugged face. Your eyes trailed down his lean, long body. It was all you could do not to scream, he was so gorgeous. He took a few sweeping steps to where you lay, and got right on top of you, hands either side of your head. His eyes bore into you, it made you squirm internally, not that you would ever admit it.

“Just want you so bad, kitten.”

You barked out a laugh as if your heart didn’t jolt at his stupid pet name. It was such a stupid name, but coming from him it made you melt. Again, not like you’d ever admit it.

“Ew, Tetsu don’t call me kitten, it’s cr-“

He cut you off by leaning down and kissing you, you could feel his snake bites against your bottom lip. He groaned softly, shoving his tongue down your throat. He tasted like his sour apple vape, and his hair was soft when you ran your fingers through it. You could barely contain your butterflies, eyes squeezed closed.

“Come on babe, you know you like it.”

No matter how many times you and Kuroo hung out, it always felt so fresh. Maybe it was because he was exciting, or because he was a little bit wild, you didn’t know.

He leaned down closer to you, getting on his elbows, deepening the kiss. He pulled away and smirked at your breathlessness. With a slender, ring adorned hand, he reached beneath your top and cupped your tits over your bra. He gave them a sharp squeeze and started placing chaste kisses on your neck. He was considerate like that, didn’t leave hickeys because he knew they’d be hard to cover for you. He groaned as he jiggled the fat of your boobs in his hands,

“God, you have the nicest tits, babe.”

You had been dating for nearly 3 months now, if that was what it was. To be honest, you weren’t really sure what you were. You hang out all the time at his or your place, there was rarely a time when you didn’t have an ache between your legs, one way or another. He didn’t really take you on ‘dates’ but chatting to him was fun in itself, you didn’t need to go out to do that. He didn’t necessarily say romantic stuff either... but he didn’t not say romantic stuff either? He beat up your ex at a party one time! That had to mean something right? He exactly wouldn’t tell you how he felt but he showed you, kissing your cheek or tilting your chin up to look at him or kissing your neck or feeling you up. But that usually led to sex, so you couldn’t be certain. It wasn’t like you only screwed though, you watched your favourite movies together... although the last couple times he just started fingering you. You showed him your playlists? No no, he showed you his playlists, his sex playlists. There seemed to be a common theme here. But... there were times, afterwards, when he would pull in you so tight, tell you how good you were for him, how well you did, how pretty you looked. Any doubts you had were gone after a few hushed words on his tobacco reeking rickety old bed. You’d never really had a relationship like this before, but you assumed it was just because Kuroo was so chill. You were probably boyfriend and girlfriend, he just didn’t feel the need to announce it, he was laidback like that. So what if you guys had a lot of sex? Weren’t you a new couple? Wasn’t this just the honeymoon stage were you can’t get your hands off each other? You didn’t want to seem high maintenance and nag, so you let it be. He was sweet enough to you, right now everything was good.

Until it wasn’t.

A clatter sounded downstairs, the door slamming open against the hallway wall.

“Kuroo! Hey man, I brought some California!”, a voice called from bellow.

Kuroo broke away immediately, spit trailing from your neck to his pink lips.

“Shit, shit, shit, shit,” Kuroo mumbled, pushing off the bed and scrambling the pick up his discarded clothes and shove them back on.

You sat up, disgruntled, rearranging your bra strap from were he’d kneaded at it.

“What’s wrong? Who is that?”

He shot you a glance before continuing to yank back on his jeans.

“Uh, so change of plan, I can’t do tonight. I need you to go home. Discreetly.”

What?

“What? Tetsu, I’m already here,” you scoffed.

What was going on?

Why was he acting like this?

You had never seen him so... frantic.

“I know babe, and I’m really sorry about that, but my friends are here early than I said.”

“So? Can’t I meet your friends?”

He didn’t reply for a moment, just let out an exasperated breath, zipping up his fly.

“Well, yeah you can meet them, just not with me. I don’t want them knowing that I-“

He cut himself off, but you had heard enough to understand.

There was a beat of silence, only disturbed by Kuroo’s friends calling for him.

Your mouth hung open, and you scoffed in shock.

You shouldn’t be surprised really. It’s so obvious now that you think about it. So that’s what this was. That explains everything. He didn’t really like you, he was just using you. That’s why he didn’t take you anywhere, or why he didn’t show you he cared. It was because he didn’t. He wasn’t “afraid of getting close to people” or “emotionally distant”, he was just upfront about not giving two shits about you aside from your vagina. I guess he didn’t want his friends to know he was furiously screwing a fat girl any chance he got. He was embarrassed of you. You were something to be ashamed of. Your stomach jerked as you got to your feet. You were pissed, but that didn’t mean it didn’t really hurt. You had liked him. A lot.

“What the fuck is that supposed to mean?”

You could see the panic in his eyes, it was quite funny actually. Of course you new what it meant, but it still made you feel a little better to watch his eyes widen like that, to hold a shred of power over him.

“I mean- well I didn’t- come on babe you know I didn’t mean it like that-“ he laughed nervously, not noticing the footsteps in the landing. You rolled your eyes. You may have been naive, but you certainly weren’t going to fall for his shit again. Whatever he spouted.

“Don’t give me that bullshit. Just say it, your embarrassed of me.”

“Y/N, please, don’t you think-“

Two men burst through the door, one with spiked grey hair and one with fluffy black hair.

“Kuroo! What the hell are you doing up here we’ve been-“ the grey haired one, stopped when his eyes went from a shirtless Kuroo to you.

Your eyes flickered to Kuroo, he looked mortified.

“Ah. I see. Well, Akaashi, we better give these two some time, we can just-“

“Oh no, I was just leaving,” you grabbed your jacket from on top of his chest of drawers and turned back to the two men, putting on a big smile, adrenaline and fury spurring you on.

“I’m Y/N, by the way.”

Your eyes shot to Kuroo, who looking like get was about to shit himself.

“You probably haven’t heard of me, me and Kuroo have actually been having sex for three months. He kept it a secret because he’s embarrassed of me. We should hang out soon though!”

“Y/N-!” Kuroo yelled, exasperation clear in his tone, but you were already descending the stairs.

He came into the hall, hands rubbing his temples.

“Y/N just come talk for a second, I can-“

But he was cut off by the door slamming.

You got in your car parked outside and sped away.

The whir of the engine and the monotony of the roads cleared your mind a bit, a mist of anger still remaining.

You can’t believe you let yourself be tricked. you were a fully grown woman, but you had been reeled in hook, line and sinker. Not only had you been reeled in, you have been reeled in by a man that still had tik tok LED lights in his room and a fucking monster can collection at the age of 24 fucking years old. The more you thought about him, the more you realised how much of an emo loser he was. Of course you were still hurting, but it was more of the angry hurt you feel when it turns out your crush is homophobic or something (been there done that, don’t ask). He was a waste of oxygen, you had decided by the time you made it back to your apartment. A waste of perfectly good space that could most definitely not get the kitty anymore. You got inside your house, pulled on some comfies and got on facetime with your friends.You told them all about what happened, and they passionately bitched about him with you, confirming your suspicion that they never liked him in the first place. They also told you to forget about his existence, he wasn’t worth a slither of your brain power, he was dirt compared to you. All in all, you felt marginally better, saying goodbye to your friends while they still giggled about how stupid Kuroo’s hair was.

This was just a speed bump, you thought as you tucked yourself into bed, you would get over this.

Fast.

“Who’s Bokuto been talking to all night?” Yamamoto leaned over to ask Lev, shouting over the blaring music.

It was a week after you had thrown Kuroo to the curb, and he was out with a couple of volleyball friends, some from Nekoma, but there was also Bokuto with them.

“I’m not sure. I think it’s Y/N something? She’s in class. She’s pretty chill.”

Kuroo’s ears perked up, and he turned around to face his friends up against the bar.

“Bokuto’s talking to who?” he said through gritted teeth.

“Y/N. She goes to my-“

“I know who Y/N is,” kuroo snapped, taking a swig of the beer in his hand and scanning the dance floor for either one of you. He found bokuto first, shoulder against the wall, holding a drink as he leant down to have you whisper something in his ear. That’s when Kuroo paid attention to you. You looked... you looked gorgeous. He felt jealousy creep up inside him. How many times had you been out looking like that since you broke things off? How many guys had you slept with since? How dare Bokuto chat you up when he knew you two had been a thing? Wasn’t he meant to be Kuroo’s friend? As Kuroo wound himself up, you and bokuto continued your extremely pleasant conversation.

“I just wanna say, sorry about Kuroo. He’s a real bonehead, but we’ve been friends since high school so I can’t ditch him.”

You snorted into your cocktail.

“What?”

“Bonehead?”

He frowned and straightened up indignantly.

“Yeah, and? What’s wrong with bonehead?”

“No no, nothing, it’s just very Legally Blonde.”

He beamed down at you.

“I love Legally Blonde!”

“You do? Me too!”

This big beefy man was very cute, you had been talking for nearly three hours now, but you never ran out of things to say. And, aside from the obligatory introduction compliments, he had not made any move to try and get you into a wendy’s bathroom as quick as possible, which you couldn’t say of yours and kuroo’s first meeting.

He had dreamy eyes, you noted as he smiled for the nth time that night.

“Whose your favourite-?”

“What the fuck are you doing man?”

You glanced scathingly over to the familiar face of your old fling.

“What?” Bokuto asked back, clearly done with his friends bad boy shtick.

“Why are you talking to her when... when you know?”

“What’s there to know? I’m talking to her because I want to, and she wants to.”

He looked over to you for approval.

“Right?”

You nodded, a little nervous. You hated Kuroo’s guts, but you knew how weirdly possessive he was, you didn’t wanna cause trouble for Bokuto.

“See? Now I don’t think she wants to see you, right?”

He looked at you again. You nodded again.

“Ok? You guys are over, now are we done?”

Kuroo huffed. His eyes flitted from Bokuto to you, remembering you were there most likely, and he scowled.

“No, we aren’t done, what are you trying to pull anyway? Trying to piss me off by talking to someone I know? Are you really that petty? Well, your little plan is working, so just-just stop, ok?”

You felt like screaming. You had just come out here to have a nice time, not listen to Kuroo’s narcissistic whining.

“Can you just fuck off? Was I not clear enough or something? You’re dead to me, Kuroo. I’m just trying to have a nice night.”

Kuroo’s mouth gaped open. He had never been spoken to like that, never. He clenched his fists at his sides and his glare intensified.

“You’re lucky I gave you the time of day, fat ugly slut.”

He grabbed Bokuto’s shoulder roughly, turning him to face him completely.

“Hey man, thanks for clearing up my sloppy seconds, really good of you. Good to know I’ve got great friends like you.”

Those were the last things out of Kuroo’s mouth before bokuto landed a punch on his cheek, knocking him to the ground.

“You’re a fucking asshole man,” Bokuto grunted.

He stepped over where Kuroo lay, and held out a hand for you to step over too. You took it quietly and trailed along behind him to the door, fingers still locked. His hands were warm, and big. Kuroo’s face must hurt right now. The thought made you smile. He held the door open for you before sighing, resting his back against the wall. You stood in front of him, twiddling with your fingers.

“I am so sorry about that,” You apologised, embarrassed and shaken by the scene Kuroo had made, “I shouldn’t have wound him up, and I shouldn’t have talked to you after I knew you guys were friends, I promise I didn’t mean to start anything.”

“Don’t be, if anything I’m sorry for not making him leave right away. And either way,” he gently reached for your hand again, and you let him take it,”I’m glad you talked to me. I’d like it if you talked to me even more.”

DISCLAIMER FOR KUROO STANS!!!! I DONT THINK HIS HAIR IS STUPID!!! it’s just when ur bestie is going thru a break up or anything entailing a male you shit talk everything about him to high hell, doesn’t matter if he’s the most beautiful man you’ve ever seen. also i have no ill will towards kuroo nor any of the characters i write shit bag fan fics about i just like to complain any way i hope you enjoyed! reblogs and replies always appreciated!!!

[simonfarnabyslegs]

for the ask game: Julian, Captain and Humphrey! :)

julian

a song that reminds me of them: a cop out, since this one is canon. any time i hear "i'll make love to you," i think of him singing that at music club (and also mary going "i don't want him toooo" lol). i also feel like he would LOVE britney spears's music.

what they smell like: really expensive but really bad aftershave and too much cologne. also alcohol and sex. but the first thing you notice is the bad aftershave.

an otp: him and robin. there is no other acceptable pairing. i do think it would be funny if he and fanny had a thing though. or him and the captain (alison walks in on them doing something and the captain just yells "WE'RE JUST A COUPLE OF CHAPS IN THE LIBRARY" while julian isn't even trying to keep what they were just doing a secret).

a notp: uhhh him and kitty. she's the only one i would be mad about tbh.

favorite platonic/familial relationships: the way he's like a really awful, bad-influence uncle to alison.

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: i can't think of one. we all generally agree that he's a hilarious bastard man and come up with stuff accordingly.

the position they sleep in: he sleeps in the exact middle of the bed, or he starts out on one side, since he's used to sharing in life, but gradually spreads out, and if anyone else tried to sleep in the same bed as him they'd be really annoyed because he always manages to hog so much space and leave them barely hanging onto the edge.

a crossover au i'd love to see them in: very unoriginal, but i'd love to see a horrible histories stupid deaths segment with him.

my favorite outfit they've ever worn: we've seen a couple now actually, unlike some of the other ghosts. but i really do prefer the no trousers look and anything else is slightly unsettling if i'm honest.

the captain

a song that reminds me of them: i really can't think of one. the captain isn't one of my favourite characters so i don't really think a lot about him when i listen to music. sorry.

what they smell like: weirdly, i think he smells like nothing. like. unsettlingly so. you almost want him to smell like something, but he just. doesn't. he's very clean, but he doesn't even smell like soap. it's just. an empty air smell, if you can describe it as such. he smokes, too, so you'd expect a tobacco smell or a smoke smell, but even that isn't there. this man just smells like nothing.

an otp: i don't ship him with any of the other ghosts in the house. i do think him and julian hooking up exactly one (1) time could lead to multiple hilarious comedic possibilities, but i don't want them to be in a relationship.

a notp: i saw someone shipping him with fanny and just... no. that doesn't make any sense.

favorite platonic/familial relationships: i love how he's just got that Dad Instinct. he looked at kitty and alison and went "isn't anyone going to father these young ladies?" and didn't wait for an answer.

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: i don't like the patcaps ship.

the position they sleep in: series 1 cap slept board-straight in the bed, almost like he was standing at attention. series 3 cap probably sleeps curled up on his side, or on his stomach, or curled up all nice and comfy.

a crossover au i'd love to see them in: young wwi era cap in series 2 of downton abbey. i don't know if i'd like to see him turn up as a young man in the trenches or one of the patients at downton, or maybe as a medical officer like thomas barrow, in the lower ranks, helping out in the background.

my favorite outfit they've ever worn: *gestures* this?

humphrey

a song that reminds me of them: "blue caravan" by vienna teng. after all the "mr. cheese" stuff, i got to thinking about how he probably has a lot of time to imagine the different lives he could have had if circumstances had been different, and this song is about imagining the perfect supportive, caring partner, but realising that they're not real and it's just a foolish self delusion. or perhaps a lighter, more hopeful version of the same theme, "jackie and wilson" by hozier, where the narrator once again imagines a partner and an ideal life which they haven't achieved yet, but they're still holding out for.

what they smell like: okay so tudors only bathed like once every six to eight weeks or something like that. they believed baths were bad for them. not only that, wealthy tudors' diets were appalling. so unfortunately he probably doesn't smell great. (but luckily i've never had much of a sense of smell, so.....)

an otp: him and someone who actually likes him and wants to talk to him and spend time with him. so far we haven't seen that, so for now i'll keep making up random ocs to set him up with.

a notp: him and thomas, since thomas is so horrible to him.

favorite platonic/familial relationships: i'd love to see him be yet another dad to alison, or to kitty.

a headcanon that is popular in the fandom but that i disagree with: i don't like the whole humphrey and jemima thing because a lot of the stuff is either really fucking uncomfortable, or the people who write it make it weird by babying jemima. she's 11-12 years old and they treat her like she's four years old and that just feels really weird to me. obviously she's a kid and she should be treated like one, but there's also such a thing as age appropriate parenting. also i'm pretty sure jemima is meant to be one of john's kids who also died of the plague so like. acting like she's all alone and hasn't got any parents or anyone at all is so confusing to me because if she's one of john's kids, she's got like twenty parents. we just don't see her with the plague ghosts because like any kid, she probably goes off and plays away from her parents during the day. anyway.

the position they sleep in: when he was alive i feel like he would fall asleep in a normal position, on his back or on his side, but when his valet or whoever went to wake him up in the morning, he was always like, hanging off the bed or laying at a weird angle and they were always like "how the fuck did he even get like that." in death, like. his head just sleeps however it was set down or dropped. and i'm a fan of your headcanon that the body just collapses wherever it is when his head falls asleep.

a crossover au i'd love to see them in: forgive me for saying downton abbey again but i'm doing a rewatch with one of my friends. i'm gonna throw him into the edwardian era as some random gentleman cousin and he and lady edith are going to be poor, pitiful, unlucky-in-love besties who bond over all the ridiculously tragic shit that's happened to them and how they always get bullied or left out of things.

my favorite outfit they've ever worn: he technically only has one outfit (damn the bbc for putting the whole costuming budget into the georgian episode instead of the tudor one. /j), but i like the dressed down version where he's just in the white shirt and the breeches. he looks. very handsome. in that scene. ahem.

[starlesscitiess]

TALK ABOUT YOUR HYPERFIXATION PLEASE

 I LITERALLY LOVE YOU SO MUCH. Okay a couple disclaimers before I start: 1) I’m sorry, I would’ve answered this as soon as I got it but it was really late and then I had to go to school and blah blah blah whatever 2) this post is going to be l o n g ! What can I say? It’s my special interest. Anyway, if you can’t be bothered (which you probably can’t) just don’t read it lmao.  okay so I have done research on this and it is 100% possible to fixate on a celebrity/specific person which I wanted to make sure cause it’s like all I’ve done my whole life. With all that being said, let me explain to you my immense love for Patrick Stump. This man is my life. Okay, that sounds a bit stalker-y, what I mean is, he’s singlehandedly keeping me alive. Uhhh, that’s not much better but whatever. I do not know how exactly to explain to you the intensity of this, like actually. Okay. So. Since I’m always so tired and stressed out (and possibly have depression I’m not sure ? We don’t do self-diagnosis on this blog tho) I don’t tend to smile often. Every time I see a video/picture/whatever of him I smile like an idiot. That’s the extent of this. And since I’m not good at explaining emotions (oh the joys of autism(!)) it’s Random Information Time!!!!!

uh okay so imma just rate and explain my rating for every fall out boy album (excluding evening out w ur gf n stuff like that cause I’m still new) + soul punk n truant wave 

1) Take This To Your Grave — 10/10 I honestly have no complaints this album is gorgeous. Reminds me of walking home from school on a summer afternoon and staying awake till midnight so you’re too tired to care about anything at all. Favourite songs I’d have to say are Grand Theft Autumn (I’m still pissed that not many people use this title it’s the funniest thing in the world to me) and Calm Before The Storm which are the two songs on the record that epitomise those two feelings respectively. 

2) From Under The Cork Tree — 12/10 better than perfect. This album is my comfort during a rough night, my not-so-gentle reminder to stay alive when I’m struggling to find a reason (as I’m sure it is for so many others). Plus it has the added benefit of just slapping??? Absolutely incredible. Favourite songs areee Get Busy Living... and I’ve Got A Dark Alley... (the latter of which I’m actually getting a pin with song lyrics) because I just love Patrick’s half singing/screaming thing and I love being hurt.  3) Infinity On High — 12/10 pure nostalgia injected right into the veins. Reminds me of starry, restless nights, unrequited love, long car journeys, and the feeling of peace (which I really haven’t felt in a long time but with IOH I come close). Two favourite songs are The Take Over The Breaks Over and GINASFS; the former reminds me of staring out of a car window at midnight on a drive home, the latter of sitting on the roof of your house on a summer night trying simultaneously to remember and forget. 

4) Folie à Deux — ♾/10 absolute peak. The lyricism, the wit, the instrumentation, the feel, the fucking everything about this album is on point. Reminds me of revolution and escaping from a bad situation, of fresh starts and of the drum beating so loud it melts into your chest, your heart. My two favourite songs are... oh don’t make me pick it’s too hard.  5) Save Rock And Roll — 10/10 honestly after watching the Youngblood chronicles the whole thing has grown on me. I was initially gonna give it an 8 or 9. Reminds me of feeling alone at a party, of changing the world and always, always fighting. My favourite songs would have to be Just One Yesterday and Save Rock And Roll. 

6) American Beauty/American Psycho — 8/10 quite good tbh but some songs are just eh (the title song is one of those. Sorry...)I love how this is just Mikey Way Please Come Back, I Still Miss You, Love Pete (the sequel!) /hj. Okay but seriously. My favourite songs are Fourth Of July (duh) and The Kids Aren’t Alright. For the first, the lyrics just hit different when you’ve actually been rejected by someone, and the second, I mean Patrick’s vocals... unbelievable. Sounds fake. Liek if u die evertiem.  7) M A N I A — 7/10 y’know... on its own this album is not bad, not really. I like Patrick’s vocals and the lyrics and stuff are... fine. But knowing that Fall Out Boy can and have done better makes this album a little... well, a little disappointing. Still I do have two favourite songs (although I haven’t listened to them in a while) and those are Heaven’s Gate and HOLD ME TIGHT OR DONT. They’re just sweet and catchy, y’know?

Bonus: Soul Punk and Truant Wave

Soul Punk — 10/10 I love this album guys you don’t understand I love it so much it’s so so great. As always vocals are on point and the lyrics are awesome too. My favourite songs have to be Allie and Greed because like I said. VOCALS and LYRICS. very sexy I love

Truant Wave — 10/10 also very cool and sexy. My favourite songs are Love, Selfish Love and Porcelain, the first because it just... it hits different, I can’t explain, and the second because it’s just a huge mood. Also it makes a valid point. 

Thanks for reading this Huge Ass Rant (if you even read it lmao) and to close off I will just leave my favourite videos of Patrick right here:

https://youtu.be/1AHcgVz2Mpw https://youtu.be/PM3-OejoLk4  https://youtu.be/WqgyIha2JM0

Sooooooo... yeah! :D

[maxdoesbb]

Big Brother Tumblr Tag Game

So I was tagged by @vanessacries to take part in their Big Brother Tumblr Tag Game and here are my answers

Rules:

If you are tagged copy and paste the rules and all questions

Answer the questions

Tag 3-5 people to also complete the questions

Tagged by @vanessacries (legend)

About Me

1. Name or nickname? - My name is Max, but ya’ll already knew that

2. Age/Age Group? - 18, but there is an episode on my 19th birthday!

3. Zodiac Sign - Libra

4. Favorite Color? - Some days it’s orange, some days it’s purple

5. Favorite Animal? - I love love love LOVE Red Pandas...google them they’re so cute

6.  First Season of BB you remember watching? - In terms of BBUS, season 16. In terms of Big Brother as the franchise, BBUK Season 7

7. Would you ever want to go on BB, if so, what type of player would you be? - I Would love to, I would try and have like a Jun Song Floater game, but new school bb hates that so...i’d be out week one

8.  Are there other CBS shows you’d want to go on, and if so, why? - I would love to do the amazing race, but i’m from the UK so they won’t let me shshhs

9.  What other Reality shows do you watch? -  I watched The Only Way Is Essex up until 2017, I could also rewatch ANY season of Geordie Shore or BBUK

10.  All time favorite houseguest? - This is a hard one, Idk if it counts, but Nikki Grahame was on BBCAN and any house she’s in turns the season up to 11 for me, If I don’t count and has to be from BBUS, Vanessa from bb17

About the Show

1. What is your all time Favorite twist? - The Twin Twist, if the twins don’t tell anyone (which is sadly always going to happen) it feels so tense like sumn about two people having to act like one person is just iconic to me!

2. What is a twist that you like, but kind of flopped? - The MVP twist, In my eyes this flopped like the season, I think if they made it so you could only be the MVP once then it would have worked better in season 15, but they also could have flipped it so that the evictee picks who goes up, that would have been iconic watching everyone asking who put up the 3rd nominee, but it was actually the person they sent out the door the week before

3. If you were the new Grodner and had to remake the show, what would you keep the same? - The art team, I don’t think they get enough credit, Sure sometimes it’s a bit meh, but the den of temptation was just *chef’s kiss*

4. What would you change? Casting, that is all i have to say about that.

5. What’s your all time favorite comp? Generic answer, but OTEV is actually so iconic to me, the strategies, the fights, It also gave me one of my favourite Janelle moments ever

6. What’s your all time favorite competition? - idk if i’m being a clown, but this is basically the same as question 5 sksksk

7. All time favorite punishment? - To me all the punishments are kinda dull, like i feel like the producers do it more for comedy on the shows to shy away from the actual problematic stuff that happens every season.

8. If you could bring any houseguest back to be in the house (not to play the game) who would it be and why? - So they just like sit around and observe from inside? If I’m allowed, I’d say miss tea queen Angela Clancy from BBAU12 cause she is some good TV.

9. If you could bring any houseguest back to play, who would it be? - Jackie Ibarra, Hands down!

10.  What is your most memorable episode? - BBCAN5, Week 5′s Eviction episode a.k.a THAT double eviction!

11. If you could have any reality star from any other show on BB who would it be? She’s been on the UK version already, but Gemma Collins!!!!!

12. What’s your favorite BB series outside of normal BBUS (normal BBUS does not include CBBUS or BBOTT)  - BBUK cause I grew up with it (and thought it was the only version until bbus16 started)

13. Favorite Julie Chen sign off? - I prefer Arisa Cox’s “Someone is always watching” so Julie doesn’t speak in my mind sjsjsjsj

14. Is there anything from old BB that you would bring back, why or why not, and if yes, what would it be? - Casting, cause a lot of older seasons had a mixture of old and young players and they don’t have jobs like “Social Media influencer” or “Podcast maker” or “Jewellery Maker” they have jobs that they can apply to big brother and don’t have to worry about their social media reputation!

15. If you were in the BB house and you won HoH what album would be in your HoH basket and who would you want to receive a letter from? - I’m torn between LM5, Future Nostalgia, and Sweetner, In terms of letter, I’d say my best friend, I’ve known her for almost 10 years and we’ve spoken literally everyday since we met so uhhh sorry to my mother sksksks

16. Favorite Alliance - Danielle and Jason from bb3, that is what an Alliance should be, not the 10 mayo alliances they make in new big brother

17. Funniest BB moment  - (it’s not bbus, but it’s the only valid answer!)

18. Favorite first boot?  - JODI ROLLINS DESERVED BETTER!

19. Least favorite houseguest? - Frankie cause him being related to Ariana is the reason i watch this shit show...

This or That

1. Old School BB or New School BB

2. Julia or Liz Nolan

3. Vaness Rousso or Jun Song?

4. Cody Calafiore or Cody Nickson?  (Nickson was the face my sleep paralysis demon during bb19)

5. Swaggy or Bayleigh (I’ve seen more of Bayleigh then I have Swaggy)

6. Janelle or Kaysar? (Only because of her views)

7. Orwell or the rubber duck?

8. Hacker twist or Pandora’s Box?

9. Nicole A or Nicole F? (Both are bad, F gets -100 points for not shutting up about her damn wedding!)

10. Dan or Will?

11. Bathroom with Bathroom sand (BB18) or The Fidget Spinner Wall (BB20)?

12. The Hive or The Spy Grils

13. PB&J or Slop?

14. Nerdy Guy archetype or Quirky Girl archetype?

15. The cursed liztin gif or the Maven (BB19) cum rag?

Tag Questions

1. First Season you blogged - Lurking since BB17, started posting a bit BB20, but didn’t start posting fully until BB21

2. Favorite season to blog - Like 2 of you were there but Big Brother Australia 12

3. Favorite Bloggers? the list is too LONG! so top 3 in no particular order @stanningbb @charlchen-moonves @bathroom-sand

4. Favorite tag cryptid (i.e. djmrod, the confession accounts, the bayler stan account, stella) - Stella (could you say lin is kind of a cryptid?)

5. Build an ideal alliance with people from the tag - The trio from hell of course! ( @charlchen-moonves, @stanningbb and I)

6. Favorite content creator (gifs, videos, posts). - So far this season i gotta say @charlchen-moonves and her bob edits!!!

7. Person in the tag that you like but are too nervous to talk to? Literally EVERYONE like something just tells me ya’ll secretly hate me ssjsjs

8. Have you played in any tag games (like bbdiscords, orgs, etc.,) if so what was your favorite experience? - I’ve been in a couple of bbsims, when my account was maxat3am i actually won my first bbsim, forgot who hosted it sksksk

9. Favorite gate? - Selfiegate cause ya’ll are so cute and I just love the positive energy we create!

10. What opinions do you have that you feel would be unpopular in the tag? - I don’t really know if it’s that unpopular but Meg Maley from bb17 deserved better like she won no HoHs no Vetos like, I was rooting of her during bb17!

11. Have you thirst followed anyone after a selfiesgate? - whY would i Ever diSclose that

12. Whose someone in the tag that has stopped blogging bb that you miss? - Is it bad i haven’t noticed anyone leave...

13. Favorite holiday people have called Christmas? - I saw someone call her Toyotathon and i was wheezing for about 10 minutes

14. If you could steal any url whose would it be? I don’t know, I like my URL, however I do like @kidnappedbyacrow​‘s url so uhh hand it over sjsjsj (jk love you really!)

15. Favorite tag meme? (i.e. Paul;s mistake, victim noises, claling chr*stmas anything but her name, etc.,) Paul’s mistake made me wanna join the tag so uhh yeah that!

Tag 3-5 people (or more or less)

I tag @stanningbb​ @charlchen-moonves​ @bathroom-sand​ @kidnappedbyacrow​ and @peterbrownismydaddy​

[lizbotw]

YOUR REBLOG.....Ahhhhhhhh thank you so much! I wasn’t sure if I nailed his personality right but I’m glad you thought it was great! The tags make me so soft like every time...ALSO I know you’ve been getting hooked into a lot of other characters...😌 Interesting cause I want to see what other characters you’ll like besides Eren! (Cause he’s S Tier for you :D) Hehehe keep guessing my favourite character, I’m not gonna give you any hints! 😆 Thank you for all the descriptions and feedback, I really appreciate it too! 🥺😌 I hope you’re day is going well too and ilysm!! (I also have a tag for our discussions haha...also I forgot to mention this before but I DO have notifications on for you! Uhhh idk if you have them on for me but I’d be drowning in euphoria if you did) ALSO what’s you’re favourite OST? There are a LOT...my favs are Call of Silence, (I forgot the name of another one but it goes along the lines of the attack titan), Apple Seed, In this Beautiful, Cruel World, The Great Escape, (There’s also one called name of love? I think) and Call your name! Whew that was a lot, but you’ll wake up to this message once you’re done homework hopefully! :D

yeah, def! i was staring at reiner being all tall and intimating when he showed up during their missions and i was like i just KNOW this man is a huge softie, and you basically wrote him exactly how i imagined him to be! 🥰

AND OMG S-TIER??? like yeah, ur right but still 😭 starting to wonder if my obsession with him is getting out of hand 😳 (the answer is no, it will never be too much 😌)

once eren shows back up, it’s over for everyone else 🥰 so before i get tunnel vision and only focus on him again (😭 i’m sorry IDK HOW HE DOES THIS TO ME) i’ll tell you who i like so far! okay obviously jean 🥰 and then marco was talking with jean and stuff when they retook the supply building (idk what it’s called) and complimenting his leadership so that’s how i got to know marco better 😌 (he was also being supportive of jean before too but i especially liked their convo in the supply building <3) ANNIE and i are officially married! (subject to change when eren returns 😥) reiner is cool!!! he’s so tall and has broad shoulders so i like to just watch him when he’s standing there idk 😭 him and annie were constantly shown together lately (ik they were on the mission together but still) and they’re both blonde so i almost accidentally started to associate them with each other like ah yes it’s the blondes™️ 😭 wait i just realized i never said this but i love mikasa, armin, connie, and sasha sooo much, so i didn’t even think to add them to this list but they’re really high up there for me! 🥰 (if eren is S-tier, they’re like A-tier. wait, but now i feel bad bc the other characters also feel like A-tier to me? hmm okay eren is SS-tier, these four are S-tier, and the other ones i listed before are A-tier 🥰 that’s better!)

WAIT THE NOTIFICATIONS WHAT WHYYY i don’t post anything good half the time (all the time), ur too sweet omg i’m,,, so happy 😭 (this is just making me scream internally in happiness whattt! 😭 ilyyy) i actually do have them on for you! omg wait but don’t drown AAJDHSJ we still have more discussing to do! but tumblr sucks at giving notifications so i’m just 😠 i have to remember to check everything myself bc it never does a good job consistently telling me when ppl post 😭 it didn’t even give me a notification for this ask so at this point i’m just going to fight tumblr 💔

i haven’t rly listened to the osts, but whatever that fighting music is a bop! that is, until it’s replaced by everyone’s screams of terror 😭 rly kills the vibe yo 😭 i’m just kidding ajdjsjaja but the fighting music is really good! i’m going to go listen to all the ones you said soon and maybe a few others and hopefully i’ll have my own list of favorites soon too 🥰

[queer-starling]

Flower ask: also all of them. you get to suffer with me >:3€

oh darlin’ we’re in it now huh

Alisons: Sexuality?

homogay

Amaranth: Pronouns/Gender?

she/they | all gender will be shot on sight

Amaryllis: Birthday?

sept 23rd

Anemone: Favorite flower?

monkshood

Angelonia: Favorite t.v. show?

stranger things or ghost adventures

Arum-Lily: What’s the farthest you’d go for a stranger?

like? distance? a couple miles probably

Aster: What’s one of your favorite quotes?

“We are such stuff as dreams are made on, and our little lifeIs rounded with a sleep.” William Shakespeare, The Tempest

Aubrieta: Favorite drink?

wild cherry capri sun

Baby’s Breath: Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?

ima change that to ‘kiss the last person u thought abt kissing’ bc YES

Balsam Fir: Have you ever been in love?

*jenna marbles voice* hell yeah!!

Baneberries: Favorite song?

waiting for the end - linkin park 

Basket of Gold: Describe your family.

chaos

Beebalm: Do you have a best friend? Who is it?

i have too many to list !!! brandi, kasey, you, liz, ivy, nick , just to name a few!!

Begonia: Favorite color?

blue uwu

Bellflower: Favorite animal?

foxes !! and opossums

Bergenia: Are you a morning or night person?

night time babey

Black-Eyed Susan: If you could be any animal for a day, what would it be?

either a fox or an opossum or a raven, i think

Bloodroots: When you were a kid, what did you want to be when you grew up?

i wanted to be a vet !!!

Bluemink: What are your thoughts on children?

theyre ok as long as theyre not screaming and/or mine

Blazing Stars: What are you afraid of? Is there a reason why?

i don’t liike vomit bc. nastey (trauma i think) and i don’t like old ppl well. i dunno why? they’re just so old and fragile and helpless and sometimes they’re really mean and idk i think it’s like something to do w death or something LMAO idk. also i just hate the idea of becoming old and having to rely on other people ?? hhh

Borage: Give a random fact about your childhood.

i was bullied a lot

Bugleherb: How would you spend your last day on Earth?  

realistically? probably playing dead by daylight with my girlfriend ADFSGRHYUTR

Buttercup: Relationship Status?

happily taken 

Camelia: If you could visit anywhere, where would you want to go?

ireland, scotland, alaska, greece

Candytufts: When do you feel most loved?

whenever my friends or family tells me they love me but esp when u text me goodmorning or when we say our goodnights sorry im gay haha

Canna: Do you have any tattoos?  

i have. uuuuhh 6

Canterbury Bells: Do you have any piercings?  

no!!! i want some tho :(

California Poppy: Height?  

i think im like. 5′5 or something? give or take an inch ?

Cardinal Flower: Do you believe in ghosts?

oh absolutely. my house is haunted as we speak

Carnation: What are you currently wearing?  

bmth hoodie and pajama pants w foxes all over them. i just woke up lol

Catnip: Have you ever slept with a nightlight?

yeah i always keep one on in the bathroom

Chives: Who was the last person you hugged?  

my sister bc she came home from college yesterday

Chrysanthemum: Who’s the last person you kissed?

ask me in like. a little over a month from now ;)

Cock’s Comb: Favorite font?

FONT??? the animal crossing font

Columbine: Are you tired?

oh absolutely

Common Boneset: What are you looking forward to?

thanksgiving, christmas, seeing my gf, magfest

Coneflower: Dream job?

idk if it’s a job but i just wanna own like. a ranch that takes in all sorts of animals and takes care of them

Crane’s-Bill: Introvert or extrovert?

introvert 

Crocus: Have you ever been in love?

ooooh yeah

Crown Imperial: What’s the farthest you would go for someone you care about?

i mean. depends on what they want/need. distance wise? i’d travel the known universe for u  

Cyclamen: Did you have a favorite stuffed animal as a child? What was it?

he was a plaid teddy bear his name was Stanley!!!! i miss him :( but now i have Little Moon God as my favourite stuffed animal 

Daffodil: What’s your zodiac sign?

Libro

Dahlia: Have you done anything worth remembering?

Working in Yellowstone is something I’ll never forget

Daisy: What do you feel is your greatest accomplishment?

well. hmm. i was gonna say flying to yellowstone but maybe driving to north carolina by myself bc driving long distances alone to places i haven’t been before gives me hella anxiety (i’m better now)

Daylily: What would you do if your parents didn’t like your partner(s)? 

i don’t pay rent in this house to listen to their opinions lmao. 

Dendrobium: Who is the last person that you said “I love you” to?

you, i think, when we said goodnight last night!!! EDIT: you this morning!!

False Goat’s Beard: What is something you are good at?

being bad at dead by daylight

Foxgloves: What’s something you’re bad at?

dead by daylight

Freesia: What are three good things that have happened in the past month?

(little over a month now but uhhh) GOT A UH ......GIRL.....FRIEND ...... GOT TO VISIT GIRLFRIEND ........ and got the windshield finally replaced in my car 

Garden Cosmos: How was your day today?

i dont know! so far ive laid in bed now im at my computer answering this. not too bad. my shift is only 4 hours today. 

Gardenia: Are you happy with where you’re at in your life?

for the most part, i’m pretty content, yeah

Gladiolus: What is something you hope to do in the next year or two?

MOVE OUT 

Glory-of-the-Snow: What are ten things that make you happy/you’re grateful to have in your life?

my friends, my mom, my sisters, my girlfriend, my bastard dog

Heliotropium: What helps you calm down when you feel stressed?

metal   

Hellebore: How do you show affection?

what does this mean. physically, i’m very affectionate, i just. don’t show it alot bc anxiety/i overthink. that and i constantly tell ppl i love them and what they mean to me 

Hoary Stock: What are you proudest of?

whoever is reading this

Hollyhock: Describe your ideal day.

wake up next 2 a cute girl. take way too long to get up. go climb mountain w cute girl. vibe on mountain w cute girl. go to waffle house 2gether. gome home and vibe. play video games or watch a movies/tv w cute girl.  

Hyacinth: What do you like to do in your free time?  

i like to make art or play bideo jame

Hydrangea: How long have you known your best friend? How did you meet them?

oh gosh i dunno. the ones i’ve known the longest are kasey and brandi, and i’ve known them both around/over a decade i think. we met in middle/highschool!

Irises: Who can you talk to about (almost) everything?

you, ivy, liz

Laceleaf: How many friends do you have?

so many 

Lantanas: What’s the best compliment you’ve ever received?

idk man but i remember when you said u had a crush on me and then i posted a selfie and u were like ‘OH NO SHE’S CUTE” and like ??? idk i think that was definitely the first compliment to ever shock me LMAO 

Larkspur: What do you think of yourself?

6.9/10

Lavender: What’s your favorite thing about yourself?

my tattoos

Leather Flower: What’s your least favorite thing about yourself? 

 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kGGViLwHEUk

Lilac: What’s something you liked to do as a child?

i liked to play zombies ate my neighbors on the sega genesis !!!!

Lily: Who was your best friend when you were a kid?

eliza !!!! we lost touch a few years after i moved away :(

Lily of the Incas: What is something you still feel guilty for?

ima be real everything makes me feel guilty

Lily of the Nile: What is something you feel guilty for that you shouldn’t feel guilty about?  

aaaaaa the whole abi/moon incident 

Lupine: What does your name mean? Why is that your name?

my name is fox. it means i like foxes

Marigold: Where did you grow up? Tell us about it.

northern virginia babey !!!! that place fucking sucks!!! but everyone who lives up there thinks they’re hot shit. 

Morning Glory: What was your bedroom like growing up?

i had a bunkbed and i think the walls were pink 

Mugworts: What was it like for you as a teenager? Did you enjoy your teenage years?  

😬 i’m just gonna say i’m much happier now and i’m coping with life and shit a lot better  

Norwegian Angelica: Tell us about your mom.

she’s sweet and funny and i love her so much!! she always does the Most for everyone, sometimes to the point where she isn’t concerned abt herself and i see where i get it from. but yeah my mom is great, my dad doesn’t deserve her 

Onions: Tell about your dad.  

source of a lot of trauma and why i have so many issues regarding men. i don’t wanna talk about him anymore LOL he doesn’t deserve the attention

Orchid: Tell about your grandparents.

my dad’s mom is becoming senile and i think she’s racist and queerphobic. my mom’s parents disowned her a few years ago so we don’t talk to them anymore 

Pansy: What was your most memorable birthday? What made it be so memorable?

i dunno. i don’t try to remember my birthdays. whenever i can go to busch gardens for my birthday i usually have a lot of fun there. 

Peony: What was your first job?

if you don’t wanna count working w my mom as a florist, target was my first job back in 2016. i found my name tag the other day , actually

Petunia: If you’re in a relationship, how did you meet your partner(s)? If you’re not in a relationship, how did you meet your crush/how do you hope to meet your future partner(s), if you want any?

WELL, i know you followed me on here first. and then twitter?? but we didn’t really start talking until stranger things 3 came out (thank u stranger things) PHYSICALLY, we didn’t meet until fursonacon (haha. i remember when u texted me that u got to the hotel and i came down to help n i saw u unloading yr car and it was then that my brain was like OH NOOOOOOOO and my heart was like OH YEEEEAAAAAAAH) 

Pincushion: How do you deal with pain?

physical, mental, or emotional? i play a video game or listen to loud music

Pink: Where is home?[

somewhere in appalachia i can feel it in my stupid soul 

Plantain Lilies: If you could go back in time, what is one thing you would stop/change? 

idk man i’m pretty content w where i’m at now so 

Prairie Gentian: Who is someone you look up to? Describe them.

chester bennington 

Primrose: Describe your ideal life.

i have a waife and we have many great pets and we live in a log cabin in the mountains or in a nice victorian in a small town or something IDK but we’re happy and that’s all that matters 

Rhodendron: What is something you used to believe in as a child?

God

Ricinus: Who’s the most important in your life?

my mom, me best friends, my girlfriend

Rose: What’s your favorite sound?

my girlfriend’s laugh because it’s THE cutest shit and then when she giggles??? oh my heart 

Rosemallows: What’s your favorite memory?

oct 23rd, 2005, we brought Fat Boy Zack home !!!!

Sage: What’s your least favorite memory?

July 22nd, 2016. i was 2200 miles away

Snapdragon: At this moment, what do you want?  

to be holding my girlfriend >:(

St. John’s Wort: Is it easy or difficult for you to express how you feel about things?

hhhhhhhhhheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Sunflower: What is something you don’t want to imagine life without?

those i hold dear

Sweet Pea: How much sleep did you get last night?

enough, i guess? 

Tickseed: What’s your main reason to get up every morning?

my girlfriend

Touch-Me-Not: How do you feel about your current job?

it’s fucking BORING and TOO EASY and they don’t pay me ENOUGH but i can get away with so much shit there so ima still go, ima still go 

Transvaal Daisy: What’s your favorite item of clothing?

all of the flannels currently in my possession

Tropical White Morning Glory: Describe your aesthetic.  

mountains, woods, forests, cabins, autumn, cryptic, occult, victorian, edwardian

Tulip: What would be the best present to get you?

if someone gets me a gift i’m legally required to execute them

Vervain: What’s stressing you out most right now?

this 40hr workweek i got coming up 

Wisteria: How many books have you read in the past few months? What were they called?

i have not read in So Long

Wolf’s Bane: Where do you want to be in life this time next year?

Moved out away from here lol, we’ll see

Yarrow: Do you know what vore is?

:/

Zinnia: Give a random fact about yourself.

i’m a furry

that was SO LONG im sorry i also put you through that but THANK YOU ENJOY READING ILU

[aefintyr]

a multi-muse survey

tagged by @ourpyrrhicvictory​​ <3

CANON MUSES

name of your favorite muse: Probably either Bellatrix or Mary. I’ve played Bellatrix for years, and actually RPed her on her own blog before making this one, so writing her comes naturally. She’s so awful and disturbing, but also fiercely independent and wild while still being dutiful and doing what is best for the family. A lot of people portray her as either one or the other, but the point of my portrayal of Bellatrix is that she can be both of these seemingly contradictory things and how she is both of these things at the same time. But Mary has quickly become a favourite of mine, because of her complexity and the darkness she grapples with and how just because she’s dealt with one form of trauma, doesn’t mean she’ll react the same to another form of trauma. But she’s still her, fundamentally, even if she can’t believe it, or wants to believe it.

name of your very first muse: On this blog? Alecto! For HP? Probably Bellatrix, in all honesty. I mean, I’m pretty certain; I mainly played her in group rpgs. My very first canon muse in general? Uhhh, I’m honestly not sure but it MIGHT’VE been Amara from TVD. I played her for a bit, back when i was still into TVD, along with Ayana. But tbh I don’t have a clue, I’ve been doing this thing for so long, I can’t remember.

name of your meanest muse: Alecto. Bellatrix is pretty fucking awful and is up there, and I almost answered with her but @ourpyrrhicvictory convinced me otherwise. Yes, Alecto doesn’t really hate Muggles all that much and anyone can feel the brunt of Bellatrix’s wrath but Alecto’s just... so malicious? They are both cruel. But Alecto directs a lot of her cruelty towards her half-brother and she’s just so... petty about it.

name of your nicest muse: Mate, I don’t know. There’s Étiennette, Katie, Lily, Charity... I guess I’ll pick Katie because she’s just so nice and sweet, but in a way that’s different to everyone else. Like she’s competitive, but outside of Quidditch, she’s harmless and she doesn’t like or want to hurt people.

name of your most troubled muse: Oh boy! It’s pretty close between Dorcas and Mary, but I still do think Mary easily wins out. She’s just been through a lot and goes through a lot. Losing her parents, then being raised in a Muggle orphanage for a time away from Scotland because her grandparents don’t want her, having to hide her magic. Then when she’s found a place in Hogwarts and friends who love her and she loves them, Mulciber comes in and ruins everything, and the trauma from that experience changes her and she grapples with a lot of inner-darkness and hatred and is pretty self-destructive. And then she loses basically everyone she loved and cared about. Survivor’s guilt is a bitch.

character you have the most muse for atm: Bellatrix, Mary, and Alecto always lmao But also Étiennette.

two of your muses that would never get along: Bellatrix and Alice, for very obvious reasons.

two of your muses that could be best friends: I’ll go with the obvious and say Lily and Mary because they love each other so much and are canonically best friends on my blog.

two of your muses that would make a cute couple: A cute couple? Uh... I guess Katie and Romilda would be pretty cute, once Romilda improves on her selfishness and stuff.

two of your muses that are most similar: Okay, so, I have insecurities over making my characters too similar and try to make them actual, flawed characters. But! Alecto and Bellatrix. As described before, they’re both pretty fucking terrible people and a lot of their cruelty comes from a place of anger and hatred. But they deal with it differently.

name of the muse you’d be best friends with irl: Honestly, maybe Lily! We have a similar protective streak of our friends and will punch someone for them.

name of the muse you’d probably hate irl: Bellatrix and Alecto without any hesitation. I mean, they’re fucking wizard Nazis. And they torture and murder a lot of people. Like, I would just hate them on principle alone, even if I didn’t know they fucking killed people.

a faceclaim you’ve been eager to use: Taylor Russell! Also James Rolleston, who I nominally have as Donaghan Tremlett but will probably be removing, since I haven’t done anything with him whatsoever. But Taylor Russell is just sooo pretty, holy shit. And Elodie Yung, because she’s awesome and beautiful.

OC  MUSES

name of your favorite muse: Honestly? Leta. They were a passion project, with me taking like a couple details from a deleted canon character and running away with it. They sat on the back-burner for quite a bit, before I finally made this blog and included them on it. They’re all about adaptability and fluidity and identity, and how that ties together. You can thank Filthy Rich for inspiring me - with a dash of Inej from SOC.

name of your very first muse: Written on this multimuse? Grisha. First HP OC, period? I honestly couldn’t tell you, probably some self-insert or some shit. My very first OC I roleplayed just in general? A winged ice wolf named Glace. Do not judge me, I was pretty hard into the whole wolf/Warrior Cats forum rps when I was younger.

name of your meanest muse: Mafalda. She’s just very bratty, arrogant, and rude; even if her arrogance is somewhat justified by her academics. She’s capable of playing nice if she considers you an “equal”, Hermione being a bit of an exception, but she’s just quite a lot to deal with. She’s not on the level of like Bellatrix or Alecto and she’s not a blood purist or anything like that - the exact opposite considering the fact that her parents are a Muggle and a Squib, meaning she’s a half-blood - it’s just that she’s... very mean lmao

name of your nicest muse: Grisha! God, Grisha is just... so nice and friendly man, and I mean that’s part of the reason why she gets fucked over, but yeah, she’s like pretty sociable and easy to get along with. It doesn’t mean she’s perfect by any means, she’s a Gryffindor through-and-through, both the good and the bad. But why be a dick when you can just be generally nice to people and treat them well for free?

name of your most troubled muse: Leta without a doubt. You don’t have the kind of backstory that they have and go through the shit they have without coming out of it at least a little bit troubled. And Leta has a lot of shit to deal with.

character you have the most muse for atm: Leta, but that’s no surprise.

two of your muses that would never get along: Man, I honestly don’t know. I feel like any one of them would maybe clash initially but then eventually come to work out their differences and shit and come to an understanding. But for the sake of it, maybe Grisha and Mafalda? She’d just be like “why can’t you just be kinder to people?” and Mafalda would wallow in teenage angst, or something.

two of your muses that could be best friends: Leta and Grisha? They’re both pretty different people but opposites attract and all of that. Plus they could bond over their pretty drastic but mutual experiences with Voldemort/Tom. And Grisha would definitely feel sorry for Leta and their unfortunate circumstance. Yeah, I do feel like they’d get along.

two of your muses that would make a cute couple: On the same topic, Leta and Grisha? Then again, it’s also more of the fact that Leta and Grisha are closer in age than either of them with Mafalda lmao But yeah, for the same reasons that I stated above.

two of your muses that are most similar: Leta and Malalda? They both had to grapple with issues concerning their identities and place expectations on themselves in different ways.

name of the muse you’d be best friends with irl: Grisha, probably. I’ve already talked about how nice she is and stuff, but also IRL I’ve just often gotten along and become friends with people way more extroverted. So you know, that’s just how it goes lmao

name of the muse you’d probably hate irl: Mafalda, I guess? If we were both in highschool at the same time, at least. I mean, I’ve met a few girls similar to Mafalda when I was in highschool, and I wasn’t exactly their biggest fans. Hate is a strong word, tho.

a faceclaim you’ve been eager to use: Holly Earl is a big one, fell in love with her as Erica Mason in the 2019 FMV video game Erica. She’s super pretty in it. Also whichever one I eventually choose for my Squib Slughorn journalist, because I have a lot of them lined up for her.

Tagging:  anyone who wants to!

[des-det-fo]

Tag Game - Senpai Noticed Me

Rules: 15 questions, 15 mutuals

Tagged by: @inazuma-art​ and @lunastarward​! Thank you both dudes

1.Are you named after someone?

I was named after a girl my mom took care of when she was younger... Cheesy. Fun fact: my parents first wanted to name me Demeter which is super extra.

2.When was the last time you cried?

Two days ago! Record. 

3.Do you have kids?

Um I’m 16

4.Do you use sarcasm a lot?

A LOT in real life, never on the internet. I hate when you can’t see and hear the other person’s voice and i always can’t understand is someone’s sarcastic or not, so i just avoid using it.

5.What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Their style! And also their politeness. Man polite people are a blessing. 

6.What’s your eye color?

Hazelish green?? Depends on the light. Mostly green tho.

7.Scary movie or happy ending?

I used to be really into horror (Mostly because i was an edgy metalhead lmao) but now i prefer happy endings (mostly cartoons)

8.Any special talents?

Um i can move my left foot’s pinky? Also remember lots of dreams, compared to my friends

9.Where are you from?

Italy! Man i love my country... sadly it’s not organised but i won’t talk about politics and stuff here, it doesn’t seem like the right place and i’m pretty confident you don’t care ahaha

10.What are your hobbies?

Drawing, playing some instruments (bass, guitar, ukulele), i started doing teathre last year, d&d and just being a nerd haha. Also i love to chill at the park with my dudes.

11.Do you have pets?

I had a cat, but right now i don’t.

12.What sports do you play/have played?

I tried soo many sports, even just for two lessons... Tho i really liked softball, soccer and volleyball, which i’ve played the most (6 years). Right now i don’t do any sports.

13.How tall are you?

150cm haha 

14.What’s your favourite subject in school?

Hmm i really like science but it’s mostly for my teacher, also italian literature, but again it was because i had an amazing teacher. I liked art and music in middle school tho, sadly we don’t do them anymore (I do geometry art and, once a year, freehand drawing but the projects always suck)

15.Dream job?

Haha i have NO idea. I have to choose university soon (even tho in Italy university starts way after some other countries) and i’m not prepared. Lately I’ve been thinking that being a elementary school teacher wouldn’t be so bad after all. But I’m still not sure. Also art definetly isn’t my choice since it’s really difficut to earn money and i would have to first start by doing things i don’t really enjoy drawing (Like... I prefer drawing whatever i like. I’d never be able to draw BOTH for myself and for school.)

I Tag: Uhhh i’m sorry but i won’t tag people, feel free to do this tho! 

[nagichi-boop]

🐌, 🌼 and 🐛. I know these questions are in a row but they're what I'm most curious about!

SJKSJSKS THANKS FOR THE ASK!!

Uhh this ended up super long sooo it’s all answered in the read more.

🐌 - What’s your favourite holiday episode?

Uhhh great question. Probably Luna Eclipsed? I don’t really have a strong affection for the holiday episodes but Luna Eclipsed is fun. :)

🌼 - What’s your favourite MLP song?

Huh, great question…imma list a bunch. (These aren’t in order btw)

1. Ballad if the Crystal Ponies - Idk if this song is actually good, but I started MLP just before season 3 aired, so I remember this song making me excited for the new season when I was younger.

2. Babs Seed - Bad episode but CATCHY SONG WITH CATCHY VIDEO!!

3. Hearts as Strong as Horses - Another catchy song. My critiques are boring sorry

4. Glass of Water - So chaotic and fun. <3

5. Goof Off - This song is so upbeat, chaotic and catchy. Seeing real life footage was weird and then Cheese Sandwich stealing Pinkie’s song? So good. Rip Rainbow Dash tho.

6. Light of Your Cutie Mark - Another episode I didn’t really like but I love the harmonies at the end. Especially when the CMC say “there’s another way”, like it sounds so good to me.

7. A Changling Can Change - Tfw tiny dragon stands up against a group of soldiers, two alicorns and two powerful unicorns to tell them to stop being r*cist. (Okay but like Spike is softly begging a room of adults not to kill his friend. Spike is a champ.)

8. I’m the Friend You Need - I never watched the movie but I’ve seen enough clips that I’ve basically watched. Anyways, cat man is so smooooth. I’d trust him- /hj

9. A Kirin Tale - I love Autumn Blaze. She’s so chaotic. Idk, I just think this song is neat.

10. Welcome to the Show - Honestly I love all of the Dazzling’s songs. They’re all so amazing. I’m sort of indifferent to the mane six’s part.

(This was a good excuse to just listen to a bunch of songs. I like a lot more of them like the BBBFF Reprise and Play Your Part, but I tried not to list them all cuz like…that would be so much stuff to read lol.)

🐛 - Who’s your favourite villain?

The Dazzlings!! I loved how creepy they were and how they almost defeated the mane 6. They managed to actually get them to argue. If it wasn’t for Sunset, the Dazzlings would’ve been able to win. And even when they rallied together, they still pretty much won. It was only because Sunset stepped up that they failed in the end. (I didn’t rly like them when they appeared in some of the animated shorts but oh well.)

From the actual series, I really liked Discord, mostly when he reappeared the second time. Him messing with the mane 6 and making everyone question his intentions was great. And then he kept making everyone question whether he was actually on their side.

I also liked Chrysalis the first time she appeared but I think they ruined her. She was quite an interesting villain cuz her motives were about providing for her subjects. Plus I watched a theory video that I thought was cool about she could’ve been a jerk on purpose to isolate Twilight and get rid of her as a threat, that she only failed in the end cuz she didn’t realise that Cadence and Shining Armor could use love. Everyone was tied down and the Elements of Harmony weren’t there, so it was reasonable to assume she’d won.

Sorry if I wrote too much. I don’t get to talk about mlp. Feel free to send more questions. But if not, I definitely enjoyed the distraction and now I’m just listening to mlp songs lol.

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Rules: answer these questions then tag 20 blogs you’d like to know better (i’m sorry i’m too awk to tag, if you wanna do this just say I tagged you !! I was tagged by Ellie over at @goopfacts​ )

Nickname(s): Jack, Jackie, Sprout, Milk

Zodiac: fcking homestuck I’m a cappy

Height: 5′ 6″

Time: 11:22 (took a break and returned at 15:48)

Favorite band/artist: I listen to YouTube instead of like, real music ppl, but atm, I like ONE OK ROCK, Eliza Rickman, and the Persona (3) Soundtrack LOL

Song stuck in my head: Uhhhh some guys drove down my street last night blasting “I want it that way” sooooo

Last movie I saw: Last night I watched Persona 3 : Midsummer Knights Dream w/ @fantasticalscholar​, @pnutb​, and @frahoshoujo​

Last thing I googled: What if i used BING, i mean i don’t but like, what if?? Uhhh I was looking if you could get the app Snapseed on your computer lololol

Other blogs: @warmmarmalade​ my art blog (not that I don’t post art here lol)

Do I get asks: Not really, and that’s chill -- i have the social skills of a dead animal and i get too anxious to talk to ppl so i leave you on read for 9 months and then wanna kms LOLOLOL

Why’d I choose my username?: My initials are JMLK, and even though i have zero connection to myself (?? lol does that make sense probs not) when I was little I used to say my initials were “jay-mulk” which became jmilk ?? i’m poop at talking LOLOL

Following: 227, most of them are dead accounts and that’s chill

Average amount of sleep: school : 4-6 hrs, holiday : 4-10 hours

Lucky number: uhh idk, my fave numbers are 0 and 13 tho (13 cause ya boi here is still angsty goth tween)

What I’m wearing: shorts and a giant shirt that says “Holy Crepe” given to me by @aestheticcannibal​ lol

Dream job: idk, i’d love to be in game design but that’s a pipe dream probs, i’d also like to be an editor for novels and series and stuff, idk, something about reading unpublished work makes me so happy (like fanfic, i read about 15k of fanfic a day i’m sick lmao) and i enjoy finding little things to fix and work around in their work (tho i keep it to myself cause hello i’m awk) idk, i’d love to publish my own work, but my english prof likes my ability to critique work much more..

Dream trip: I’m going to Japan to visit my brother and sister ^^ so that’s my dream trip

Favorite food: i...idk, i love the pho salad bowls a lot, but pad see ew with egg and tofu gets me GOING

Play any instruments?: nah, i played the trumpet when i was younger cause my brother played the trumpet, but i have the coordination of a sad sea sponge 

Eye color: green ~~ just like my brothers !! (with a blue and brown eyed parent, that’s a looooooooow chance so i’m happy) tho!! Brown eyes are my favvvvvv i love love love them

Hair color: uhh this is rough, mostly dark brown, but i have red / black / blonde hair too cause my parents’ genes could not decide lmoa

Languages you can speak: english, german, and limited ASL (and G(erman)SL) and french if i really concentrate on what I have to say

Most iconic song?: i...i don’t know i’m so bad with music okay how about most iconic movie?? cause atm that’s Memories of Murder (2003), a South-Korean crime drama that is my brother’s favourite film atm and he showed me it and i have FEELINGS

Random fact: uhh i sleep w/ like, at least 5 stuffed animals and they all have names and my fav is Big Dog but don’t tell the others

Describe yourself as aesthetic things: student by day, ghost by night, and a for hire cryptid in the spaces between day and night

[angelixii]

1-140 (anything you haven't answered already) - Felix

Oh, hello! Thanks for the ask!! 💕

3 fears - Spiders (I get frightened when I think about them) heights (slightly) and the public (anything like murder, kidnapped, ya know stupid people)

 3 Things I love - Music, Idols, and animals

 2 Turns on - ig Hats (like snapbacks) and glasses

 2 Turns off - oof I don’t really know.. ig self absorbed or a fudge boy

 My best friend - C: @straykids-sk (wuv you)

 How tall am I - 5′2

 What do I miss right now - My cat that passed away :c (her name was P.J)

 Favourite color - Blue, red, and sometimes green

 Do I have a crush - no not really

 Favourite place - my home

 What am I listening to right now - theres a website called asoftmurmur.com and it has noises like rain or waves and stuff like that

 Shoe size - pretty sure 10 in US womens

 Eye color - brown

 Hair color - light-ish brown

 Meaning behind my URL - I chose Felix cause hes my bias wrecker and hes angelic C:

 Favourite song - Theres like a million but 5SOS’s She Looks So Perfect wil always be a favorite (idk why)

 Favourite band - Ill just chose Stray Kids cause I don’t wanna write them all out

 How I feel right now - kinda tired but ig ok

 Someone I love - Ill say my best fren Georgia (@straykids-sk) cause i wuv her

 My current relationship status - single and i kinda wanna stay that way for a while

  My relationship with my parents - We all live in the same house and its just us (I have one other sister but she moved out. But shes here a lot tho) and we all get along well

 Favorite season - probably Spring c:

 Tattoos and piercing I have - none and I don’t really want any

 Tattoos and piercing I want - ^^^

The reasons I joined Tumblr - Georgia wanted me to and I thought it would be fun (I was right c:)

 Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts? - no :/

 Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? - oh heel no she my best fren I would never

 How long does it take me to get ready in the morning? - when I have school like 20 minutes at max

 Have you shaved your legs in the past three days? - I did today

 Where am I right now? - at my house on my laptop c:

 Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level? - reasonable level cause I’ve always had ear problems and they are sensitive (even tho I always have my earbuds in)

 Do I live with my Mom and Dad? - yup

 Am I excited for anything? - not that I can think of no

 Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to? - nope :/

 How often do I wear a fake smile? - not THAT often

 If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be? - oooof I don’t think I could answer that question

 What do I think about most? - probably k-pop

 Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? - Definitely behind

 What was the last lie I told? - It was kinda a joke but “i’ll do it because im the good child”

 Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online? - Eh depends on who it is but facetiming/video chatting

 Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens? - ghosts kinda and aliens, I mean sure we’ve barely discovered space, who knows whats out there

 Do I believe in magic? - sometimes yeah

 Do I believe in luck? - I mean yeah

 What’s the weather like right now?- theres nothing really going on

 What was the last book I’ve read? - uhhhhhh fully on my own (not in class)? The Maze Runner Scorch Trials

 Do I have any nicknames? - Kassadoodle, Kassidilla, Kassy

 Do I spend money or save it? - I’m trying to save as much as I can rn in my little money jar c:

 Can I touch my nose with a tounge? - nah

 Favourite animal? - Lions and Fennec Foxes

 What was I doing last night at 12 AM? - uhhh im pretty sure saying goodbye to Georgia on video chat

 What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? - oo um I cant really think of one rn :/

 What is my favorite word? - yeet

 My top 5 blogs on tumblr (not in any order)

@honeylixs

@zoxsu

@tinyfigureskater

@stray-kids-dork

@straykidsmate

 If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? - I probably wouldn’t say anything cause im shy and afraid people would judge me on what I say c:

 Do I have any relatives in jail? -not that I know of

What is my current desktop picture? - a pic of Bts

Had sex? Bought condoms? Gotten pregnant? Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? Had job? Smoked weed? Smoked cigarettes? Drank alcohol?

no to ALL those questions C:

Am I a vegetarian/vegan? - nope don’t think I could ever

Been overweight? - …

Been underweight? - no.

Gotten my heart broken? - nah

Been to prom? - nope

Been in airplane? - nope and I never want to really

Learned another language? - I take required (cause im one of the more intelligent kids in school. I know shocker right?) Spanish classes in school but im on summer break so I dont remember any c:

Wore make up?- nope

Dyed my hair? - nope

Had a surgery? - plenty of ear surgery and had my tonsils removed

Met someone famous? - nope

Stalked someone on a social network? - nope

Been fishing? - no but my dad has always wanted to take me and it sounds kinda fun

Been rejected by a crush? - nope never really had one and if I did I would never have the guts

What do I want for birthday? - ooo idk but i have to wait till next year anyway cause its already passed

Do I like my handwriting? - sometimes when my hand cooperates

Where do I want to live when older? - with my girl Georgia

Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? - nope ima good child (yeah ok suuureee)

What I’m really bad at - running :/

What my greatest achievments are - managing to keep straight A’s and I dont even study cause im online so

The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me - “u bird cage” - Georgia c;

What I’d do if I won in a lottery - ooooooooof idk

What do I like about myself - uhhhhh heh ig my hair or eyes/eyelashes

My closest Tumblr friend - Georgia (yes I do know her irl but shes honestly the closet tumblr friend I have so)

Any question you’d like? - hmm idk

Are you outgoing or shy? - definitely shy, unless with people im close to then quite crazy

What kind of people are you attracted to? - funny, cute and nice people

Do you think you’ll be in a relationship two months from now? - hA no

Does talking about sex make you uncomfortable? - kinda

Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with? - oof idk

What does the most recent text that you sent say? “ohhhh no XDD” (sent to Georgia)

What are your 5 favorite songs right now? - (I already answered this question and don’t wanna answer again)

Do you like it when people play with your hair? - yes I love when freinds at school did (once we were watching a movie in Spanish and my friend next to me was playing with my hair and I almost fell asleep heh)

Do you think there is life on other planets? - totally

Do you like bubble baths? - I haven’t had one in forever

Do you like your neighbors? - only one cause I think im related to them somehow or they are to like my uncle

Where would you like to travel? - out of this hell hole country c:

Favorite part of your daily routine? - checking my tumblr and stanning talent

What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with? - stomach

What do you do when you wake up? - check my notifications on my phone

Do you wish your skin was lighter or darker? - I wish it was more tan than it is (im quite pale)

Do you ever want to get married? - yeah

If your hair long enough for a pony tail? - yes but I hate pony tails so I never do it (I used to all the time as a kid)

Would you rather live without TV or music? - I rarely watch t.v anymore and listen to music almost all day so

Have you ever liked someone and never told them? - I mean yeah

What are your favorite stores to shop in? - I dont really have one for clothes but I do like Walmart

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance? - I mean sometimes

Do you smile at strangers? - If the smile at me first yeah

Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about? - not that I can remember no

Ever wished you were someone else? - no (as much as I hate myself no)

Favorite makeup brand? - son;t wear any so I dont got one

Last thing you ate? - a Reese cup

Ever won a competition? For what? - not a big one I can remeber no

Ever been in love? - c:

Facebook or Twitter? - dont have a fb and i barely use twitter anymore but twitter

Twitter or Tumblr? - DEFINITELy tumblr

Are you watching tv right now? - i mean its always on for bg noise and light so ig so

What color are your towels? - all kinds of colors

Favorite ice cream flavor? - either Strawberry with out the strawberries or cookie dough

First person you talked to today? - my mom

Last person you talked to today? - Georgia

Name a person you hate? - C: theres too many

Name a person you love? - once again, theres too many

Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now? - C: theres too many

Do you tan a lot? - I barely go outside so thats a no

Have any pets? - too many

Do you type fast? - I mean kinda yeah

Do you regret anything from your past? - everything XD

Ever broken someone’s heart? - I highly doubt it

Have you ever liked someone so much it hurt? - C:

Is cheating ever okay? - hell no

Do you believe in true love? - I mean sure

What your zodiac sign? - Pisces

Do you believe in ghosts? - why is this question on here twice?

Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? (via catscuddlingandyou) - “…but not at all overwhelming, the balance of the different fragrances was subtle and flawless.” Twilight - Breaking Dawn (Do NOt ask me why thats the closest book its not mine and ive never read it and i NEVER plan on it)

oof that took like two hours heh.. its now currently 2:18am. and im very tired

but thanks for the ask anyway love! Im sorry for the wait! I was busy today. But im probably going to go to bed now

[autisticmob]

tagged by uhh nobody but allie @pundeserving kinda left it open and im swoocing in because its fun. you cant fuckng stop me.

Rules: Choose any three fandoms (in any order), answer the questions and tag 10 people you want to get to know better

I choose…

1. homed Stuck

2. mob psycho

3. fma

The first character you loved!

1. ARADIA like ok first panel she was in i saw her and i was like “telekinesis? kinda spooky?? oh shit my TYPE” and that was it. it helps that she turned out to be objectively the best homestuck character as well.

2. MOB HES SUCH A GOOD BOY!! like, he’s the first character you’re exposed to and he’s so good, I don’t think you can avoid loving him first.

3. i mean. it’s gotta be alphonse. like... what a sweet boy? all the bad shit happened to him and he deserved NONE of it, my poor fucking SON.

The character you never expected to love so much!

1. ok in all honesty, sollux. sollux is tied with aradia for my all time favorite homestuck character, but the only reason i ever paid any attention to him was because i happened to have some weird 3D sunglasses, and that meant he was the first character I was able to cosplay easily. but obviously if you pay enough attention to him you realize hes a fantastic boy. like hes a fatalistic douche and a massive weenie but he cares about his friends so much?? like to the point of repeated, kinda horrifying self-sacrifice? and he was 13!!! its so fucked up but he just is love his friends THAT MUCH and now I’m sobbing.

2. shou. it’s 100% because i watched the anime first, and he’s barely in it at all, so it’s hard to get a read on him from that. but obviously after reading the manga im like oh hes just a young chaos gay. a sweet baby boy who doesnt know shit except how to exploit psychic powers for fun and profit (and also revolution against his shitty dad.)

3. ed tbh? hes such a shit boy. like tbh i found him kind of annoying and unlikable at first? but he’s the protag, so you KNOW he’s gotta get that good good character development throughout the series, and he does! hes a lot more complex than he seems at first and even if he’s largely STUPID about his interpersonal relationships, that’s just because he’s, y’know, a literal child, and doesn’t mean he doesn’t care a whole fucking lot about his family/friends.

The character you relate to most!

1. dave. there is an ever-expanding running tally of outside sources which have pointed him out as my government-assigned homestuck kin and at this point it would be foolish to argue. rose is a CLOSE second.

2. mob. i have a whole post about why he’s so relatable to me but tl;dr he’s got mad issues with expressing emotions outwardly, but that doesnt mean he doesnt love his friends more than fucking ANYTHING and thats a mood

3. winry. special interest hell, no time for bullshit.

The character you’d slap!

1. andrew hussie the man himself... (among a number of other characters. it would take a lot to list all of them but just know orangeman is at the top of that list)

2. touchy hoe is the obvious answer, I think.

3. envy. the nonbinary representation i deserve and you’re coming in here with that hair?? that fucking crop top monstrosity?? get the fuck out.

Three favourite characters (in order of preference)!

1. aradia, sollux, dave

2. mob, shou, serizawa

3. alphonse, riza hawkeye, olivier armstrong. im gay, what do u want from me.

A character you liked at first but don’t anymore!

1. i had a phase toward the beginning of my time in the fandom where i really really liked eridan. i don’t like... DISLIKE him now or anything, but i just... don’t really care about him all that much anymore?

2. this is hard because my love for most mp100 characters has only grown over time. i guess mezato? again i dont DISLIKE her, i kinda thought she’d have more to her character than just manipulating mob for her own interests, but then she just... didn’t, really? which was disappointing, i thought there was more potential there.

3. most of the homunculi? tbh? they all seemed really interesting and honestly opening with greed’s arc the way they did I thought they’d all get more development than they did. like... envy got some, sort of, and pride/wrath kinda did too, but like. not enough to be satisfying. and then lust gluttony and sloth were just kinda... there? idk i understand WHY they didn’t all get individual arcs because like thatd be a mess but the fact that they didnt is why my interest in them kind of dwindled off over time. (aside from greed who was Very good the whole time.)

A character you did not like at first but do now!

1. She Who Must Not Be Discoursed. like at first i was like aight shes bitchy and terrible whatever im not interested but then as time went on i was like oh shes bitchy and terrible AND interesting. idk. still have mixed feelings about vriska and i absolutely will Not get into discourse about her but yeah shes Neat if nothing else.

2. teru... honey im sorry but before i watched mp100 everyone was like “wow i love teru!” and when i first saw him i was like “... okay why tho...” but I KNOW NOW. teru did a lot of things wrong, in his life, i know this and i love him.

3. roy mustang. literally didn’t give a shit about him for like... a lot of the time? toward the end i started warming up to him tho.

Three OTPs!

1. aradia<3sollux, sollux<>terezi, dave<3karkat. like... these are just some kids who genuinely care a lot about each other, and i like to cry about that sometimes.

2. teru/mob/takenaka is a good one. teru and takenaka both like mob because he likes them regardless of the fact that they are passive aggressive dicks. they continue to be passive aggressive dicks to Each Other for a while until they like, idk, actually talk to each other like real people and realize that they have shit in common and are actually capable of being decent. After this point they Will kill or die for each other (and mob still.)  serirei is of course a classic tale of two disaster gays. and then ritshou is VERY good. like. its SO fucked up how quickly they go from like one-sided crush, one-sided Mortal Enemy Status to just. Real Chill Bros in canon it makes no sense and my only explanation is that they were both so goddamn desperate for a meaningful connection with somebody their own age that they just. Settled for each other?? at which point they got VERY lucky because they both turned out to be genuinely good and sweet boys underneath all the trauma and questionable life choices.

3. ok ed and winry are okay and all, i get the appeal and stuff but like. WHY DO PEOPLE FORGET ABOUT ALL OF WINRY’S EXCELLENT GIRLFRIENDS? paninya?? an incredible option, 10/10 cyborg gf. sciezka? cryptid live-in gal pal. LET WINRY HAVE A TON OF GIRLFRIENDS, ITS WHAT SHE DESERVES!!

gonna tag...... uh. @whentvsfly @imhereformysciencefriends @margoslxix and i think most of the other people i wouldve tagged have already BEEN tagged so uhhh mutuals all of u DO it

[your-enchantingfacecollecto-blog]

Hambot Au

(A/N: So this is a thing I wrote for @robot-anon and @hamburger-anon, partially because they’re a vv cute couple, but also because they’re so kind and really they deserve all the good things. Uhh I wish this was of better quality, but it was the best I could churn out after not writing in so very long. That being said, I hope y’all enjoy this unedited trainwreck!)

Summary: Georgia is an agent working with the Government to stop ultra-bad-crime-stuffs, Mackenzie is the leader of a gang named The Crimson Syndicate. Georgia’s mission is to go undercover, and seduce the Syndicate’s leader in hopes of gaining new information. What could go wrong?

Words: 5000+ (whoops)

Part 1

Mac’s favourite coffee shop was the Lava Java Joint. It sat on the edge of town, in the opposite direction of the city. Of course this meant going out of her way before heading to work everyday, but it was worth it. The building was made of bricks, moss grew in the mortar, and a layer of grime covered the windows, almost juxtaposing the inside. It was warm and clean inside, the scent of coffee sitting in the air. A bell above the door chimed as she entered.

She walked briskly to the counter with a smile on her lips. The barista, a new girl named Georgia, had recently became her favourite part of the cafe. The brunette girl had stuttered her way through their very first introduction, and taken to writing pick up lines on Mac’s take out cup, easily making the whole experience of the cafe that much more enjoyable.

Georgia lit up when she looked up from her phone so see Mac, and Mac felt fluttery.

“You’re early.” She giggled, putting down her cup. “I usually have time to finish my tea before you show up.”

“Maybe I just wanted to spend more time with my favourite barista.” Mac said smoothly, and Georgia’s cheeks flushed red. “I’ll have my usual, thank you.”

Mac’s favourite seat used to be beside the window. Mostly for strategic purposes. You don’t get to her position without making a few enemies. She’d need to be able to see if people were coming and if she’d need to make a quick escape out the back. But recently she’d moved closer to the counter. She’d argue that it was so someone walking by the window wouldn’t have a chance to recognise her through the glass (and if you were to reassure her no one could see anything through that muck, seriously someone should really wash those windows, she’d just scoff. Were you the leader of the city’s most formidable gang? No? She didn’t think so). And she most definitely didn’t move closer so she could have a better view of Georgia while the girl made her drink. Mac just, uhhh chose this table because the lava lamp at the center was prettier than the one at her other table. Yeah. Yeah.

“Mac? Mac? You’re drink is ready.“

“Oh! Right, yeah, whoops. Sorry.”

“Something on your mind?” Georgia smiled kindly. Mac’s heart pounded against her ribcage. “If you ever want to talk, remember I’m here.”

“Thanks,” Mac said, walking over to the counter, she pressed the money for the coffee, plus a generous tip into Georgia’s hand. “We should hang out sometime, you seem really cool.”

“Oh, I’m no-” Georgia tried to counter but Mac was already walking away. The bell chimed as Mac pulled the door open. Once she climbed into her car she pressed her hand to her racing heart.

She shouldn’t be feeling this was about a person she’d known for less than a month. She pushed the thought to the back of her mind. There was no point dwelling on it now, she’d get over her little schoolgirl crush soon enough. Mac shoved her key into the car’s ignition and started the car. And anyway she had work to do.

Part 2

Georgia had been undercover for three months now. Things were going splendidly. She’d been steadily growing closer to her target over the months. They texted each other everyday, and she saw Mac every other day as she worked her shifts as Lava Java.

It had been a surprise to Georgia to find a slip of paper with Mac’s number on it amidst her tip just a week into her mission. Mac definitely wasn’t like any gang leader Georgia had ever encountered. She was kind and funny and trusting. Georgia tried not ponder what a person like her would have had to do to rise to such a position of power in a gang as formidable as The Crimson Syndicate.

Her phone buzzed. It was Mac.

where are you?

i’m almost there, she responded, don’t worry

Mac had invited her to a club in the city with the supposed intention of helping Georgia’s "pitiful” love life. No amount of protest on Georgia’s part could convince her that it would be a better use of their time to stay in an marathon some movies. She climbed out of her car, locked it, and shoved her phone and keys into her pockets.

Georgia was dressed in a pair of jeans and a sparkley top whose neckline dropped rather low, her hair was done nice, and she’d even managed some makeup. Georgia smoothed out her shirt and took a deep breath. She could easily just not drink anything. And she’d be out of the club soon enough.

Her breath caught in her throat when she saw Mac. She looked gorgeous, makeup and hair done nicely, accompanied by a red form-fitting dress. And when Mac smiled Georgia felt the tension she’d been holding in her body release. She felt calm and happy.

The pair embraced briefly. “You look so good!”

“Not as good as you!”

“Geor-”

“I’m sorry for keeping you waiting, there was just more traffic than I anticipated.” Georgia grimaced. She was usually a lot more punctual. She gestured to the door of the club. “Shall we?”

And then Mac put her hand on Georgia’s lower back and smiled, “We shall.”

Instead of leading Georgia to the end of the line, as she’d expected, Mac walked over to the gate-keeper guy. She didn’t even have to say anything, the velvet rope was pulled back and the pair were in the club.

Georgia’s insides churned, anxiety making an appearance. She’d never been one for clubs. Feeling a bit lightheaded, she leaned into Mac. She felt warm.

“Let’s get a drink, yeah? And then we can scope the crowd for someone you might like.” Mac yelled over the music.

“Okay!” Georgia gripped the hem of her shirt, reminding herself that it was best for her mission if she just went along with it. She couldn’t risk alienating herself from Mac. That would mean all the time she spent building trust between them would be for nought.

Mac paid for their drinks, and the pair sat at the bar drinking and bantering.

“Okay, okay,” Mac laughed, fidgeting in her chair, “What about that guy?”

“Ew no!” Georgia squealed. She stuck out her tongue, “He’s to old!”

“Well if you aren’t gonna talk him, I will.” Mac decided, she passed her drink over, “Here, you can have this.”

Georgia watched as Mac waltzed over to the man, a frown wiping out the feeling of joy that had been flowing through her just moments before. She didn’t know why but she didn’t like the thought of Mac with that guy. Even just for a conversation. The flashing lights and pounding bass didn’t help her head. Her head was spinning as she clambered from her seat.

Someone was yelling and, and why was she wet? Georgia blinked slowly looking down at her clothes. Wha-what? She just wanted Mac. Where was Mac? If she found Mac then they could go home. She thought she caught a flash of Mac’s hair but she was being pulled in the other direction. Who was touching her? What the hell?

“Let me help you outta those clothes, miss.” A slurred voice pushed warm breath against her ear. “I promise to repay ya for ruining those nice clothes of yours.”

Georgia struggled against his grip. She should be able to free herself! Even if she was drunk, she knew how to go about this. But her head was foggy and she couldn’t keep her thoughts straight long enough to-

“Let her go.” Mac’s voice was firm and fierce. Georgia’s body filled with warmth different from the drunken warmth the alcohol had provided her with. She felt the stranger tense.

“Boss! Boss, I didn’t realise yous were together! It was an honest mistake.”

Mac’s arm was warm around Georgia’s shoulders. “Get out of here.”

“Yes, ma'am.”

And the man scurried away, face pale. But Georgia was busy staring at Mac. She was ethereal. Lights danced over her skin and she stared down at Georgia with such soft kindness, despite the fear she’d commanded into that man just moments prior.

Their faces were so close together, Georgia could feel Mac’s breath fan out over her face. She thought maybe Mac would kiss her. And something inside her told her that really wouldn’t be such a bad thing.

Instead Mac’s lips were moving, she was saying something about going home. Georgia nodded and something that tasted an awful lot like disappointment gathered in the back of her throat. She was  tired.

Georgia leaned into the warmth of Mac, and she was lead from the club to a car that wasn’t hers. Someone else sat in the drivers seat. Mac helped Georgia into the backseat. Georgia wanted to ask about her own car but suddenly she was cuddled into Mac, and she was warm and she smelt nice (despite spending the night in a club) and so Georgia cuddled closer and gave into the pull of sleep.

Part 3

Mac tensed as Georgia asked the question she’d been dreading.

"Why don’t you ever talk about your work?”

The pair had been spending more and more time together since that night at the club a few weeks ago. Mac was beginning to think that her crush would never leave. And of course spending all this time with the very girl she was interested in wasn’t helping her case at all. But at the end of the day she couldn’t bring herself to stop seeking out Georgia.

She was just beautiful and funny and hardworking and so innocent. It was a good change of pace from her work. To come back from a day dealing with people who’d been hardened by life.

Today Georgia had came over to watch Newsies with Mac. Considering her line of work Mac hardly had time to bother with things like musicals but Georgia swooped in with her love for the things and dragged her down the rabbit hole. They’d both already seen the movie together a few times over.

Mac looked up at Georgia, she had been laying with her head in the girl’s thighs. Of course this wasn’t the best angle to look at someone from, but her friend was just so beautiful it honestly didn’t matter.

“What? I talk about work all the time.” Mac answered calmly. turning back to the musical.

“Yeah, but it’s never anything specific. I don’t even know what you do!” Georgia pouted and if Mac wasn’t trying to think of a believable lie she would’ve noted how cute she looked.

Before she could counter Georgia, Mac’s phone dinged. She sighed and sat up to check it. “I’ve got to go. There’s some shit going down at work-”

“Wait-”

“You’re welcome to stay until the movie’s over. Just make sure you lock the door behind you on your way out.”

“Mac-”

“I’ll see you tomorrow, Georgia.”

As Mac shut the door behind her guilt seeped into her veins and clawed its way up her throat. She didn’t want to leave Georgia but the shitheads she worked with couldn’t do a simple trade off. Honestly, she’d told them exactly what to do, how the fuck did they manage to screw it up? Mac thought about the upset look on Georgia’s face and clenched her fists. There would be hell to pay if they’d interrupted her time with Georgia over something that could be remedied without her cutting in.

* * *

Georgia waited until the sound of Mac’s car speeding off faded and peeled herself off the couch. She was disappointed that Mac had just left like that. She was enjoying cuddling with her. She worried that asking about her job had pushed to far. She already knew that Mac was the leader of The Crimson Syndicate, but she figured that if she didn’t she would already be suspicious of Mac’s work and therefore the normal progression from that would be to ask.

Georgia reached over to the back of the couch, where she’d deposited her bag upon arriving, retrieved her phone from within and opened to a gps tracking app. She’d put a gps in Mac’s phone in hopes of being able to find where some of the gangs bases were located. The app was set up so it would take screenshots whenever Mac lingered in one area for a set amount of time. She watched as the red dot that represented her target- her friend -travelled into the city. She placed her phone on the coffee table and then got up from the couch. She stretched until her back clicked and then walked around the black leather couch and through the kitchen.

This was the first time she’d been left alone in Mac’s apartment. And though she doubted there would be any incriminating evidence kept here, she still wanted to look around quickly.

There was one particular room she wanted to look in, it was the only room that had the door shut when Mac showed her around. She didn’t even mention it, something which stood out as a red flag for her.

She’d have to be quick, she didn’t know when Mac would return and to be caught snooping could ruin any chance of her ever returning to this building and it may even make Mac hate her. At that risk alone Georgia almost turned back. Alas she had a job to do.

And so Georgia turned left, down the hallway that extended off the kitchen until she stood in front of the mystery room. The door opened silently. Georgia held her breath.

The afternoon sun poured in through the window illuminating the room well. It seemed to be a spare bedroom. The bed, pushed against the far wall, was made cleanly, at the foot of the bed, a dresser had been wedged, leaving no room to open the drawers or what looked to be the closet door behind it. Georgia stared at it for a second before deciding that it was unlikely she’d have time to pull it out, search their contents and then put the dresser back. Next time, hopefully. Half a metre from the bed was a desk with papers strewn on top of it and what looked to be a diary. Perfect.

Georgia quickly glanced over each of the pages, trying to find anything that would pertain to just about anything The Syndicate was up to or doing. Most of the pages were messily written, with sentences and words scribbled out. A few looked to have been crumbled and then smoothed out.

She sighed. It didn’t seem like there was anything here. She looked to the diary, turning through the pages quickly, scanning for keywords. Upon finding nothing, she carefully placed it back in it spot.

The waste bin under the desk held more crumbled pieces of paper. Most of the words on them had been scribbled out but one of them… It had been written in very steady font and… and it appeared to be a letter addressed to her?

“Georgia,” she read aloud. “You are worth the world, sun, moon and stars to me. I know we’ve only known each other for a short time but I like you. I’ve like you since we meet…”

Georgia stared helplessly at the crumpled paper. That can’t be right. Mac can’t like her! They’re just friends. And they’re both girls! And Georgia is pretty sure she’s straight so she… they would never work out anyway.

Georgia smoothed out the paper and carefully folded it up. She wanted to read the rest later. Preferrably when she isn’t doing something completely time sensitive.

She pulled the desk drawer open and looked through it until she came across a small notepad at the very bottom. It was clearly written in code. She pocketed the letter and the notebook and closed the drawer.

She left the room, trying to ignore her racing heart. The door slide shut quietly behind her and she walked briskly back to the living room. She grabbed her bag and then her phone off the table. Newsies had ended and the credits were rolling. She switched off the TV.

Georgia grabbed the spare housekey from the bowl on the table beside the door. Her hands were shaking. She felt the sting of tears collecting in her eyes. Mac liking her was never apart of the plan. It’s so ludicrous to think that she did! Georgia couldn’t face her again. Because if Georgia was with Mac all she would do is think about how Mac likes her and how Mac was going to give her a heartfelt letter about how much she liked her and obviously she wanted it to be perfect because there were so many drafts on that desk and what if all Georgia can think about next time they’re together is how pretty Mac is or how kissable her lips are or or or- a click cuts off Georgia’s panicked thoughts. She’d managed to lock the door. She slides the key under the door and then gives into her urge to run.

She could call her boss, tell them she fucked up. This wasn’t supposed to happen and feelings jeopardising the mission was not okay. Even though she definitely didn’t return those feelings. She’d gotten a few locations and a coded notebook from the months spent here, that had to be enough. And they could send out a different agent and have him actually join the Syndicate. That’s so much smarter than just befriending the goddamned leader. Honestly, she was going to chew out the motherfuck-

She shrieked as Georgia collided with someone. She’d managed to get out into the street and, now she was laying on top of a winded Mac.

“Are you okay?” She whispered, trying not to think about their position, and how even though Mac was completely breathless she was still beautiful. And her lip was bleeding. “I’m sorry I wasn’t watching where-”

“Why are you crying, angel?” Mac asked, raising her hand to wipe away Georgia’s tears.

And Georgia’s heart stuttered. “The-the musical. I cr-cry everytime. You know that.”

“Okay, but why were you running?”

“I-I…” Georgia tightly shut her eyes. “I’m late. I need to get-”

And suddenly Mac’s lips were pressed against hers. And Georgia became entirely too aware of how their bodies were pressed up against each other. And Mac was so warm. The taste of blood invaded Georgia mouth, but she was caught up in how close she was to Mac and how they were kissing. And the strange feeling of warmth and joy that bloomed in her chest was just so nice. And everything about this was nice.

But it shouldn’t have been.

Georgia didn’t like girls.

She shouldn’t have missed Mac’s lips when they pulled away.

She shouldn’t have wanted to kiss her again.

“I’m sorry,” Mac apologised, voice breathy. “You’re just so beautiful, I couldn’t help myself.”

“I shouldn’t keep you any longer.”

And then Georgia stood up and walked to her car and drove home. And her heart was racing. And her thoughts were racing. And she didn’t know what to do.

Her fingers ghosted over her lips.

What was she going to do?

Part 4

Over the course of the next few days, Georgia’s team back at HQ confirmed the locations she’d collected as probable hideouts for the gang, and they’d worked steadily at decoding the notebook, learning a fair about about past trades between the Syndicate and other gangs and criminals in the area.

Georgia hadn’t seen or heard from Mac since they kissed. She didn’t know if Mac was avoiding her or just busy but she was worried. She took longer shifts at the cafe in hopes of seeing Mac and lingered around her apartment building more often than not. She sent texts as well, but none of them had been returned.

She wondered if Mac had noticed that her notebook was missing, and if maybe her cover was blown. Georgia hoped not. And not for the sake of the mission, more because she missed Mac. And yeah it’d been only four days, but she really really missed her. (And maybe Georgia really wanted to kiss Mac again but that wasn’t important). Georgia understood that maybe Mac needed her space, but they needed to talk.

She figured it was probably about time to call Mac. Maybe she’d pick up? If not she could leave a message. Georgia just had to wait to get home after this shift.

Lava Java was really quiet. There was next to no business between eleven am and two pm and right now there was no one. Georgia pulled out the letter she’d nabbed from Mac’s place, and reread it. The loving words caused affection for her friend to bloom in her chest.

She really hoped Mac was okay.

Nearing the end of her shift, a sense of uneasiness settled in Georgia’s stomach. And it had nothing to do with how nervous she got before making phone calls. It felt like something was terribly wrong.

She served the last customer with a tight smile, foot tapping quickly against the wood floor. Georgia quickly cleaned the counter, and tables, swept the floor and switched off the machines, doing a half-assed job. She wanted to get home quickly so she could call Mac and make sure she was alright.

She locked the door behind her and nearly ran to her car. She may have been driving slightly over the speed limit but it didn’t faze her, she drummed her fingers against the steering wheel. After what felt like forever she pulled up beside the house she was staying in and found another agent standing on her doorstep.

She hesitantly climbed out of the car and made her way over to him.

"Agent Robo?” The man asked calmly.

“That’s me.”

“I’m here to inform you that you can officially stop being undercover now. We’d like to thank you for all the time you contributed to this case. If I could please have the car and house keys back.” He held his hand out expectantly.

“Wait… What?”

“Did you not receive a phone call?”

“No? Why am I being taken off the case? I can still do more work! I can- I can get more information for you. It doesn’t make sense to take me off now.” A note of hysteria crept into Georgia’s voice, despite her efforts.

The agent sighed, exasperated, and dropped his hand. “Can’t even trust HQ to keep its field agents in the loop with what’s going on.” He muttered. “Look, Robo,  you’re being taken off the case because it’s over. Today, we infiltrated four bases belonging to The Crimson Syndicate and have taken into custody those which we know to be powerful players within the Syndicate, including your target. The cleaners have already been through the house and cleared everything out. I’m here to take you back to HQ. You have a lot of paperwork due.”

“Wah- Bu- No.”

“No one likes paperwork, Agent, but it needs to be done.”

And so the agent escourted her to a sleek black car and opened the passenger door for her. Georgia climbed in, feeling a great sense of guilt boiling in the pit of her stomach. This was always going to happen. But Mac…

She forgot that Mac would be locked away.

Did Mac hate her? Georgia wondered. She wouldn’t blame her. It was likely Mac would be locked away for a long time. Her life would be ruined. It would be Georgia’s fault.

The thought made her want to cry.

“Do you think I could see who you have in custody?” She suddenly blurted out. Shifting nervously Georgia tried to explain. “See my target talked about who she worked with, I just want to make sure they got everyone!”

“That can be arranged.” The agent said, turning down an off-ramp.

Part 5

Mac sat on the thin matress that served as a bed in her holding cell. She could see a guard standing just outside her cell. She took deep breaths, trying to keep herself calm.

She’d been informed that Georgia was a undercover agent. And Georgia had turned her in. Mac’s chest ached with sorrow. She couldn’t cry now. She wouldn’t give anyone that satisfaction.

She’d just thought the Georgia had been genuine with her, but now she wasn’t so sure. She couldn’t trust that anything that Georgia had told her was true. Mac was just a case to her, obviously. And so all their late night conversations, their movie marathons, their friendly teasing, and that kiss… they meant nothing. It was all nothing.

And Mac wished that was true. She wished she wasn’t aching at the thought. She wished she didn’t still cherish every conversation they’d had. She wished she didn’t enjoy kissing Georgia. She wished she didn’t miss it. Or the days they spent curled up together, watching movies and snacking on popcorn.  And she wished she wasn’t still waiting for Georgia to somehow tell her that she hadn’t done any of it. That she was genuinely there to be her friend and maybe, eventually, they would get together.

Obviously none of it mattered to Georgia though.

A few traitorous tears made there way down Mac’s cheeks.

A few of her goons had given her shit for being so soft and trusting. And Mac didn’t want to admit that they were right. She didn’t want it to be weak for her to like a girl. Was it so wrong for her to be interested in someone? Well they were all about to be carted off to prison, so that’s that question answered.

And so the hours ticked on. And Mac spent the time trying to convert the sadness of her betrayal into anger. It didn’t happen though. She tried to stop her feelings for Georgia but then she saw the girl’s eyes shining bright with excitement, holding the joy she so obviously felt as she talked about her favourite characters, and the her laugh, and then she was thinking about the kiss they shared and the times they ended up cuddled into each other and goddamn she just loved Georgia so so much, she couldn’t stop if she tried.

Eventually the lights dimmed and she figured that sleep would help. If she could escape her sorrow for a few hours before the hell of her reality descended that’d be great.

* * *

"Mac!” A voice greeted her as she was shaken from her sleep. “Mac, wake up.”

And there was Georgia, looking angelic as ever. It took Mac a few seconds to recognise that she hadn’t fallen asleep watching movies with her crush. No, she was in a holding cell.

“What are you doing here?” She asked, pulling away.

Georgia looked momentarily hurt, but explained in a quiet voice. “I’m getting you out of here! You have to be quiet, the guard is sleeping right there.”

“I don’t want your help.” Mac said, standing up from the bed. “You’ve done enough.”

“Look, I’m sorry you ended up in here, and I want to make it right. And this might be your only chance to get out, especially with where they’re sending-”

“And who’s fault is that?”

Georgia huffed. “I didn’t force you to break the law! You did that on your own.”

Mac took a step toward Georgia, who in turn took a step back. The hurt Mac felt was written across her face, but she still managed to look menacing, standing tall with fire in her eyes.

“Everything was fine until you showed up!” Mac snapped, walking forward “You with your cheesy pick up lines, and your smile, and you’re fucking enchanting ways! If you’d never arrived I’d be fine! Everything would be fine!”

And Mac hadn’t meant a word of it. She was just upset and lashing out. It hurt more to see Georgia cry than anything else. The girl’s hand was clamped over her mouth to muffle the sobs. The words had hurt her.

“You know I didn’t get to choose my assignment. They just gave it to me! I was just doing my job! And- and just because you caught feelings for me doesn’t mean that I’m at fault! You’re the bad one. You’re the criminal! Gah, I can’t believe I actually let myself like you.”

“You like me?” Mac eyes were wide, she couldn’t comprehend it. Maybe she was dreaming? That would make the most sense.

Georgia grumbled, “Doesn’t matter. You’ve made it clear you’d rather rot away in prison than accept my help anyway.”

And then Mac’s lips were on hers again. And this time she could taste the salt of her own tears and some snot. It was actually very gross. But Mac was still warm and soft and a good kisser.

“Well how do you expect to help me escape? There’s got to be guards all over this place.”

Georgia smiled. She had a plan, and maybe it wasn’t very well thought out, but they’d get out. And then they had a date to go on.

Part 6 (Epilogue-Thingy)

A new location, two new identities, a new dog. That's all it took. And they were happy. So, so, so, so happy.

Mac laid in bed beside her girlfriend, and marvelled at the way the morning sun lit up her sleeping face. There was an overwhelming sense of joy that collected in her chest. She was so in love. And she couldn't keep the smile off her face.

Their pet dog, a beautiful fluffball and the bestest boy, was cuddled between them. He'd be awake soon and begging for breakfast. But for now he slept. Him and her baby. Her angels, so calm and at peace and safe.

This was a moment she'd be content to live in forever.

Georgia's eyes fluttered open. She looked up to make, eyes filled with love and admiration. She smiled happily and stretched. Today was going to be a good day, she could feel it in her bones. She leant up and pressed her lips to Mac.

"I love you so, so much."

"I love you, too."

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 3. Who are you looking forward to seeing?Tom Holland onscreen as Peter Parker in Infinity War. But also my friends who are going with me to infinity war.10. Who was the last person you had a deep conversation with?Probably Nick12. What are your 5 favorite songs right now?Boy Pablo - EverytimeGinger Root - Call It HomeWild Child - Crazy BirdBusty and The Bass - Melodies and MemoriesAlice Francis - Shoot Him Down 13. Do you like it when people play with your hair?Yes, its really soothing. I mean, ask first, but yeah generally it kinda instantly puts me in a good mood. 14. Do you believe in luck and miracles?I guess I believe in luck kinda, I mean, I definitely know some people who seem luckier than others.15. What good thing happened this summer?It’s not yet summer so I guess it means last summer, which is lots, went swimming, made new friends, had fun. 17. Do you think there is life on other planets?Yeah, whether its intelligent hasn’t been determined but life definitely exists on other planets. Plus, the universe is too big for intelligent life to not exist somewhere so I think it probably does.19. Do you like bubble baths?Yeah, I can’t remember the last time I had one though. ;-;20. Do you like your neighbors?not really to the one on our left, but the one on our right is a cool guy, he drives a santa truck. The one across the street seems like a good guy.21. What are your bad habits?Second guessing myself, not paying attention, not showing up to stuff22. Where would you like to travel?Japan and Europe, also Canada23. Do you have trust issues?yeah24. Favorite part of your daily routine?petting the cats25. What part of your body are you most uncomfortable with?I guess my stomach26. What do you do when you wake up?Lie in bed for a while28. Who are you most comfortable around?My parents, some of my friends (nick, enrique, emily, david and robin all come to mind) 29. Have any of your ex’s told you they regret breaking up?Nah, I lost contact with one of them, and then I’m just bad at keeping in touch when it comes with others. I kinda wish I didn’t lose contact with a lot of people, not just exes, I’m kinda unintentionally bridge burn-y 30. Do you ever want to get married?fufufufu is this a proposal?!~ So forward, my my. I’ll consider it! ohohohohoho!33. Spell your name with your chin.daNIKEWLK ;L;LDE ;LASN GBEDLKIKNA34. Do you play sports? What sports?sport sport sport sport sport35. Would you rather live without TV or music?TV, I don’t really watch it anyway36. Have you ever liked someone and never told them?Yes, many times! Often!37. What do you say during awkward silences?I dunno, I don’t really mind silences, I guess sometimes I’ll make a funny noise or clicky my tongue, very rarely I enjoy trying to make them purposefully awkward, but I have to be in a shenanigans mood for that. 39. What are your favorite stores to shop in?I like stores that have neat stuff, like antique stores or thrift stores.41. Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?More or less42. If your being extremely quiet what does it mean?Usually I’ve got something on my mind, but sometimes I just don’t have energy. Also sometimes it means I wish someone where talking to me. Sometimes in relation to me having something on my mind I wanna talk about.43. Do you smile at strangers?Sometimes44. Trip to outer space or bottom of the ocean?Space I guess45. What makes you get out of bed in the morning?I dont know if I have an answer for that right now46. What are you paranoid about?I dunno, strangers, I just always have an eye out, I got mugged one time and now my brain won’t let me not hyperfocus on what strangers around me are doing.47. Have you ever been high?A couple times 49. Have you done anything recently that you hope nobody finds out about?I dunno probably50. What was the colour of the last hoodie you wore?Purple I think51. Ever wished you were someone else?Yeah kinda, I guess I’ve mostly just wished I was me in someone elses situation or something52. One thing you wish you could change about yourself?Things about my appearance, I’m working on it. 54. Favourite store?I don’t know55. Favourite blog?Mine56. Favourite colour?Somewhere in the realm of blue57. Favourite food? I’m not really hungry right now so its hard for me to have an answer for. Uhh, probably sushi though. 58. Last thing you ate?I had some burger king 59. First thing you ate this morning?probably the aforementioned burger king65. Are you hungry right now?no67. Facebook or Twitter?I guess I use facebook more68. Twitter or Tumblr?Tumblr probably69. Are you watching tv right now?nope70. Names of your bestfriends? Michael, Emily, Nick, Enrique, Ally, come to mind71. Craving something? What?human intimacy or something72. What colour are your towels?There’s purple ones and green ones and a couple of blue ones72. How many pillows do you sleep with?3 exactly73. Do you sleep with stuffed animals?I do not

74. How many stuffed animals do you think you have?I dunno, probably a couple, somewhere around here

75. Favourite animal?Cat77. Chocolate or Vanilla?chocolate78. Favourite ice cream flavour?Cookie Dough or something79. What colour shirt are you wearing?Blue

80. What colour pants?Black81. Favourite tv show?I dunno I have lots, My Hero Academia, Fullmetal Alchemist Brotherhood, Doctor Who, etc82. Favourite movie?This is also hard, I still really liked spiderman homecoming, most of the marvel movies really, uhh, Kung Fu Hustle, Baby Driver, Scott Pilgrim, etc86. Favourite character from Finding Nemo?I dunno, Crush?87. First person you talked to today?Nick I think, hard not to when he lives in the same room as me88. Last person you talked to today?Either my dad or nick, I can’t remember if I said anything to nick when I entered the room a second ago91. Is there anyone you want to punch in the face right now?Sure92. In a fight with someone?Kinda, I’m not on the best terms with a couple people93. How many sweatpants do you have?2 pairs probably? 94. How many sweaters/hoodies do you have?Unsure, several95. Last movie you watched?I just watched Baby Driver and Thor Ragnarok with my family96. Favourite actress?I don’t knooooooowwwwwww, favorites are haaaaaaaard. 97. Favourite actor?haaaaaaaaaaaaaaard.100. How are you feeling?

I’m feeling ok

101. Do you type fast?very

102. Do you regret anything from your past?yeah kinda, I have made mistakes that I probably would change if I could, at the very least I wish I could make them right. I do think they attribute to where I am and that changing any of them would mean changing my whole life so I don’t know that I regret them104. Do you miss anyone from your past?Yeah, there’s a few people that I don’t talk to anymore (rather, they don’t uh, talk to me anymore) because I was… I dunno, kinda crazy. I really wish I could’ve had the foresight to keep those people in my life somehow.105. Ever been to a bonfire party?Kinda? I mean, sure, I guess so106. Ever broken someone’s heart?Yeah, I’d probably change that too. I dunno, I at least hope the people I’ve hurt know I’m sorry.107. Have you ever been on a horse?a what109. Is something irritating you right now?Not right this second but I do have things that are problems on a general scale, I’m just not currently upset about them111. Do you have trust issues?again, yeah112. Who was the last person you cried in front of?I don’t remember, I don’t remember the last time I really cried113. What was your childhood nickname?Pooh, like Winnie-The, its because my middle name is Oso, which is spanish for bear, so I got called Pooh-Bear a lot, and often it was just shortened to Pooh.115. Do you play the Wii?This is a very old person sounding question. “Hey sonny, do you like the eck bawk?” yeah I guess I’ve played the wii, I think Nick has one116. Are you listening to music right now?Not right this second but I can hear the background music from a game nick is playing, which would be this song117. Do you like chicken noodle soup?Sure118. Do you like Chinese food?Yeah hella119. Favourite book?favourites are haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaard. I like The Dresden Files a lot, the Haruhi Suzumiya books are really good, Scott Pilgrim is fantastic, Interview With A Vampire is pretty solid120. Are you afraid of the dark?Not like, exceptionally, i mean, sometimes?123. Can you keep white shoes clean?I mean, sure, I don’t really own a pair of white shoes but I’m sure I could do it if I wanted to124. Do you believe in love at first sight?Kinda, I mean, I believe that you can get a crush on someone based on observation of appearance125. Do you believe in true love?uhhh, as much as experience tells me I shouldn’t, I guess so, I mean, I think its about dedication on both sides, love is partially a choice, or rather, a dedication126. Are you currently bored?yeah I mean, kinda, generally, but answering questions is entertaining.127. What makes you happy?Doing fun stuff with people I enjoy128. Would you change your name?In some situations sure.130. Do you like subway?yeah its good131. Your bestfriend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do?I’d probably give it a try, one date/hangout with a romantic connotation just to see couldn’t hurt probably? I dunno, I think about things in a pretty exploratory manner, so I tend to be open to experiences to see whether or not something works.132. Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with?Probably Nick? 133. Favourite lyrics right now?I already did this in a previous one so I’ll go for some different ones this time “I was a green eyed monsterCould you tell I was afraid?I sat myself down and shot my fear in the face”Garbage - Man On A Wire I just really like the delivery in that song, and I’ve been listening to it lately  135. Dumbest lie you ever told?I try not to just lie about stuff now but when I was a little kid I had some pretty good ones, I once convinced a friend that by law they had to have a black guy in every commercial. I also convinced him that japanese or something was just english backwards.136. Do you sleep with your doors open or closed?uh, closed, given that the door to this room goes to the outside141. Night or Day?normally I’d say night but I’ve found myself getting depressed with nightfall lately142. Favourite month?December144. Dark, milk or white chocolate?milk 147. Mars or Snickers?Mars148. What’s your favourite quote?  “The power of one man doesn’t amount to much. But, with whatever little strength I’m capable of… I’ll do everything humanly possible to protect the people I love, and in turn they’ll protect the ones they love. It seems like the least we tiny humans can do for each other.“  - Roy Mustang, Fullmetal Alchemist“We evolve, beyond the person that we were a minute before. Little by little, we advance with each turn. That’s how a drill works!” - Simon, Gurren Lagann149. Do you believe in ghosts?I don’t know what I believe right now150. Get the closest book next to you, open it to page 42, what’s the first line on that page? How could things                                                    Have                                                    gone                                                       so                                                    wrong?Thanks for the ask! Lemme know if I missed anything