#stucky sad

[rainbowsuitcase]

Thinking about Steve Rogers who gets out of the machine, healthy and cured, and terrified that the next time he sees Bucky, he will realize he doesn't love him anymore.

He knows - he thought he knew, that it's not a sickness, that at least that one part of him is not something to be fixed, but the fear is still there, because what if. What if they were right?

But when he sees Bucky in the factory - I love you, he wants to scream. I love you, I love you, I love you. The world is wrong and they always have been.

He regrets not saying it on the train and he sinks the Valkyrie with it on his lips.

It echoes in his mind on the bridge and it sits at the tip of his tongue on the helicarrier.

He wants to scream it again in Bucharest, beg Bucky with it to remember, to come home.

He gets to say it eventually. Not loud, like he'd always imagined, but quiet. He gets to wake up next to Bucky, already watching him, bathed in the morning light, cradle his face gently in his palms and whisper it to him between kisses.

And Bucky doesn't say anything, but with the way he kisses Steve, he doesn't need to.

[hurtcomforted]

When Steve loses Bucky, he thinks, What more could the universe take from me?

When he wakes up in New York, the universe answers. Everything.

[bromcommie]

Be with me always, take any form, drive me mad. Only do not leave me in this dark alone where I cannot find you.

[definitelynotbucky]

Steve: so even though i hate working with charcoal i spent like 30 hours on this piece for you

Bucky: um okay why do you hate charcoal so much

Steve: well

Steve: it gets everywhere and smudges really easily and it's just difficult to get it to blend nicely sometimes and did i mention how messy it gets like i cant even touch my face without getting dust on me and the spray varnish I have is really stinky and half the time the wind catches it and it ends up spraying on me instead and-

Bucky: so what are you saying here, that im messy and difficult to work with too?

Steve: nooooo :(

Steve: im saying im willing to suffer for my art and im willing to go through dusty charcoal hell and back for you :(

[stucky-headcanon-bot]

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[hainethehero]

Stucky headcanon- Steve & Bucky have a serious fight... major angst...

Steve accidentally stumbles upon footage of Bucky's torture under HYDRA on his laptop and watches the whole thing. Bucky comes home to a traumatized and shaken Steve who reveals what happened. He didn't mean to watch it but... it just happened. He couldn't stop even if he tried. Bucky gets angry and yells at Steve for invading his privacy like that, screaming that it was none of his business. Steve tries to apologize but Bucky storms out and leaves him in their apartment for weeks. No contact, no signals.

Steve falls apart while Bucky has to come to terms with the fact that he's ashamed of his past as the Winter soldier and not inherently upset at Steve. He just didn't want to be seen as that person anymore, especially not by Steve.

[strangeironaf]

Bucky: Steve, I'm sad. Steve, holds out arms for a hug: It’s going to be okay. Tony: Stephen, I'm sad. Stephen, nodding: mood.

[buckymilf]

it's 10 am and I'm longing for the stucky fandom era from 2014... i was i was there, it was such a huge fandon back then, it literally bursted the shipping bubble and even the big media was commenting about it... fics were being written like crazy, arts at every second, tumblr was literally all about steve rogers and bucky barnes metas... wish i had experienced that.

[stuckysimp]

40s Stucky brainrot is real (expect more 40s fics lol)

[ironspidersblog]

Thinking about how Steve dropped anything and everything to save Bucky. Like he’s in LOVE love

[romanestuffsposts]

Sorry to bother you

Could you maybe write a drabble about mafia stucky and their little where one of them gets frustrated and tells her to go away while he works cause he has real work to do. And she gets sad "I have a degree to ya know? I could do real work"

And they don't realize how bad it hurt until they find out she's been looking for a job and have to sit down with her to explain everything?

If not, that's okay. Thank you!

Hi there love! You don't bother me at all 💜

Thank you for the request! I hope you like how i turned it 💜

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Warnings : upset little reader, sad little reader, busy daddies, you want to make your daddies proud and look for a job,

Pairing : Mafia!Stucky ; Daddy!Bucky x Papa!Steve x Little!Reader

Summary : ⤴️⤴️

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You're happy. Everything this day can give will make you happy. It's one of those days where you are in a good mood and you want to show it to your daddies. They're always happy to see that you're in a good mood. There's time where you are more grumpy than another day, as it can happen to everyone but when it happen, it's easy for no one.

Your Papa isn't here today, he is at the building dealing with some work while your Daddy works from his office. You were sad when you woke up to see that it was only your Daddy and you. Usually your Papa gives you a kiss before leaving even if you're sleeping. However this time, either he didn't kiss you or you just didn't felt it. In all case you weren't please at all.

But since then, your mood had got better and you wanted to tell your Daddy about it. And on top of that, you did math exercises all by yourself and you're proud of it! Just like your daddy will be. You quietly walk to the office of your Daddy, your paper in hands and your smile on your face

You know he is busy but he works hard and you want to change the frown who is surely on his face. You knock on his door and wait for his voice to tell you to come in

Bucky sighs. He didn't want to be disturb while he works. He never like being disturb while he works and everyone around him know it. So it better be an emergency

"Come in" he sighs. He lifts his head when he hears the door closing and nothing after. He expected an employee speaking but there's just silence

He quietly sighs when he sees you standing across the room. You shift on your feet as you wait for your Daddy to tell you to come to him. However, it won't happen.

"Not now, little one" he says before getting his eyes back on his work. You take a step forward "Loot Daddy" You say excited. You smile as you grab your paper with both of your hands

"Baby, I'm busy right now" He says more frustrated. His brain tries to concentrated on his folds infront of him but with your voice around it's impossible.

"But Daddy I did it" You say walking to his desk. You try to show him your work but he only groans and looks away "I said not now" He closes his eyes trying to concentrated on keeping his calm but when he opens them again he sees that you brought the paper just infront of his face

He snaps the paper off of your hands in a harsh movement making you flinch. Your eyes widen and you look up at him "What did I said ? I told you I was busy and i didn't had time to speak with you. I have work" He pauses to look for one second at your paper of exercices "I have real work to do" He finishes, breaking your heart. You gasp quietly and you can't help the tears who are forming in your eyes. He gives you the paper back but instead of taking it, you just stand there and watch with empty eyes your hard work

Bucky sighs and slams the paper on his desk. He grabs your arm harder than what he wanted and starts to drag you out the office. He turns you around once you're on the hallway and he finally lets go of your arm. You didn't made a noise. It hurt, so much. Your Daddy always forget his strengh with you when he is mad

He gives you one last glare before slamming the door to your face and get back to work

You don't want him to see your tears. You don’t want him to hear them. You don't want to see your exercices anymore either.

Bucky sighs and sats back down on his seat.

You run to your room and close the door behind you. You let yourself slipping more into little space than before after what he said and did. It's the only safe place you have right now

I have real work to do

That's not fair. You can do real work too. You have a degree and you are able to do it too. It's not hard, it's just work after all

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Steve comes home with a big smile on his face. He's happy to get back to you and his husband. He is happy to come back and to be welcomed by a little running monster who will jump in his arms. Even if work was hard, he keeps his smile on, just for you. He opens the door of his warming and welcoming house. The end of the afternoon is tapping inside the house through the windows making it more comfy

He closes the door behind him and waits to hear the noise of your little feet on the ground. He quickly frowns when the only thing who is heard is the silence, as if the house was empty for a while now. He removes his shoes and hangs his jacket on the wall beside the other ones and starts now to walk inside the quiet house.

He goes first in the living room, maybe you felt asleep on it ? Bucky was probably too much in his work to keep an eye on you the whole time so you probably missed your nap time. He knows you aren't in the kitchen because if you were he would have heard you when he was in the living room.

He decides to go check on Bucky, maybe you're with him or he knows where you are. Knwoing you, you probably went beside him at one point so maybe you're still with him. He knocks on the door causing once again Bucky to sigh in annoyance

"yeah" he sighs pinching his nose. When Steve enters the office, he sees Bucky with his eyes close and his deep frown on his face. "Hi, Buck" Steve smiles walking to him

Bucky opens his eyes and gives his husband an exhausting smile "Hi" He turns his seat so Steve can stands between his legs. Steve grabs Bucky's cheeks with his hands and benches over to kiss his sweet lips "How was your day ?" Bucky asks resting his back against his seat "Better than what I expected" Steve nods with a small smile "Yours ?"

Bucky sighs "Worst than what I expected" Steve peers down at his husband with soft eyes "what happened ?"

"I had much more work than I expected and I was here all day. I didn't take a break at all and I'm exhausted" he sighs again looking around his desk

Steve follows Bucky's gaze and sees all the folds on the desk open. Steve's hand find its way on the side of the desk. He grabs a crumpled paper "what is it ?" he asks looking around the paper

Bucky breathes through his nose "She came while I was working to show me this" He says keeping the subject short knowing what he did.

Steve's eyes light up as he gazes the answers "those are really good. She gets better at it every time she tries to" he smiles proudly "I'm so proud of her" He mumbles to himself

Bucky feels more and more guilty as the second pass by. He had time to think about what he did while he was working. He had a hard time getting back to work, he still sees your face, your trembling lips, your teary and scared eyes. All of that will haunting him for a long time.

Steve looks down at Bucky and his smile disappears as he sees the expression of your Daddy. "Buck ?" he frowns lowering his arms "Buck, I can tell something happened. She isn't downstairs and she didn't came to greet me like she always does. I see it on your face too. Tell me what happened"

Bucky sighs looking up a Steve "I messed up, Steve. She came to tell me how proud she was of her work and she wanted me to praise her about it. She probably felt lonely too so she came and I yelled at her"

Steve nods "You know Buck, It happened that we yell at her, you know how she get when we raise our voice at her, she just need time but she probably already forget what happened" He says trying to reassure his lover

Bucky shakes his head "No, I didn't just raised my voice at her, Steve. I yelled at her" He clarify, trying to make it more clear to Steve "I scared her Steve" His voice shakes "You should've seen the look on her face, the way she was looking up at me. I never wanted to see that and now that it happened, I never want to feel that again"

Steve takes his husband’s hands in his ‘’you aren’t a bad guy, Bucky. She loves you and she’ll understand. You just have to apologise to her about what you did’’ Bucky nods, he kisses Steve's hands before standing up

He walks to the door of the office and open it "Buck" he turns around, lifting an eyebrow. Steve walks to Bucky with the paper "Take it with you" He says giving him the paper full of your answers.

Bucky thanks him and takes the paper from him. They both walk down the hallway to your door. Bucky grabs the paper hard, as if his anxiety can get out from the squeeze. Steve rests a reassuring hand on Bucky's back as he leads the way

Bucky stops walking infont of your bedroom door. He takes a breathe and peers down at the paper in his hands "it's gonna be okay, Buck. I can stay with you if you want to" Steve quietly says

Steve knows that Bucky is scared, he's scared that you're zfraid of him, he's scared he was too harsh with you, he's scared he hurt you in any way someone can get hurt

Bucky grabs the door handle and turns it slowly. When he walks inside, he sees you sit down against your bed, a phone in your hand and a paper in the other. "Baby ?"

You look up toward the door "What ?" You watch your daddies walking in the room and sitting beside you. Steve takes the paper from your hand and frowns "what is it, sweetness ?" He asks resting a hand on your thigh. You take the paper from him and move your leg away from his hand "Notin" you mumble as you look through the phone

Steve had time to see what it was. Your degree

"Baby, can we talk ?" Bucky asks looking down at you. You shake your head as your frown got deeper. Bucky sighs and looks up at Steve who nods at him. Bucky looks back down at you "baby, please. I just want to apologise" he says watching you

You shake your head again "I buty" You say. Steve looks up at Bucky who was already looking at him with pain in his eyes. He grabs his hand and squeeze it before nodding his head "Alright, sweetie. We'll call you when dinner is ready" Steve says. Before leaving, Bucky puts the paper you brought him beside you. He want to kiss your forehead so badly. He never leaves without kissing a part of your face.

It took him everything to just walk away

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'I goot news" You say after swallowing a bite of your food. Steve looks up at you with curious eyes "what is it, sweetie ?" Your Daddy never looked away from you the whole time, since you sat down on this chair until now.

You take a sip of your drink before continuing "I have a job" You say slowly to be sure to say all the words correctly. Steve frowns as he nods his head while Bucky's eyes widen "what ?" he says looking at Steve to see if he's as shocked as he is

"I have a job" You repeat with the exact same way "sweetie, Daddy heard you the first time but- baby what are you talking about ?" Steve says resting his fork beside his plate "Why did you looked for a job ?"

" 'cause I can do weal work too" You say gazing now your Daddy. He takes a breathe before sighing "Baby, i'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean to-" you cut him off "is oki. I just want to pwove you I can work too"

"We know you can work. You're good at everything you do so we know you can be the best if you have a job but, you don't need one. You never asked for one, you never talked about getting a job so we just want to understand what made you want one so suddenly ?" Steve says as his eyes look around your face. Something is wrong, he can see it but he doesn't know what it is

You sigh and rest your back against your seat "I wanted job, i get one" You cross your arms and look down at your laps "why you don't happy fow me ?" you mumble. Bucky gets up from the table and kneels beside your chair "we are so proud of you, babydoll for getting this job on your own but we just want to understand. Is it-" he swallows "is it because of what i said ?"

Steve's head change from you to Bucky. His frown is forming on his face as he looks at Bucky who doesn't leave you "what did you said ?" Steve asks from across the table. You shake your head and press your lips together. Maybe if you squeeze them against each other they won't tremble ?

You close your eyes when a warm hand is resting on your thigh. This hand starts stroking your thigh as you let out a tear "is it because of this ?" your Daddy asks again but once again, you shake your head

"I know I hurt you, badly. Nothing I can say or do will make it better because it's deep in you now. I made a mistake and I had to have a better control over myself earlier and i'm so sorry for that" he says wiping away a tear "what you did was- I'm so proud of you, as is Papa. You had almost all the right answers and I had to see this when you came to show it to me. I had to be there for you. I'm here for you and always will be" he kisses your forehead

You open your eyes back "just wanted you be pwoud of me" you say with a shaky voice "I pwoud of me"

Bucky gives you a warm smile "as you should. You should be proud of you just like we are. We are the proudest daddies in the world. You worked hard to succeed with that and you made it. It may had taken times but you didn't gave up. You made it and we are so madly proud of you, baby" he caresses your cheek "I know that’s what I should've said to you in the office, and i'm sorry i didn't because that’s what i felt and that's what I still feel. You make us proud everyday because every days you make something or do something you weren't able to the day before"

You smile down at him "so i real wok ?" you ask sniffing and Bucky chuckles while nodding his head "every work you do is more real than ours. Don't let anyone make you think otherwise. Not even us" You giggle softly at the last phrase before nodding your head "otay"

You look up at your Papa who was still glaring at Bucky "I keep job ?" you ask looking between your daddies. Steve breaks his gaze to look at you. His face soften "We don't want you to feel overwhelmed by the job but if you feel like you can do it then you can keep it. We'll make sure to make it as comfortable as we can for you but you have to feel capable of doing it, it's important. And if you decide to keep it, we will support you, as we always do"

[winterspiderpurrs]

I Don't Want To Set The World On Fire

Bucky and Sam were watching the crowd move around the room. It was for a charity event, meant to help fundraiser for local schools in need across New York. Whether its for supplies, building repairs and general maintenance, create safe places for kids before/after school and for affordable lunches.

So of course the Avengers were there.

" He was nervous all morning."

Bucky said to Sam before he took a sip of his vodka he had the waiter bring over to him.

" But he attends these all the time? Why now?"

Sam frowns a little and starts searching the crowd for Steve.

Bucky smirks and lean over to him,

"You know those dance lessons Tony got him for Christmas? Well he went. Mainly to prove a point but still."

" No shit? So he gonna dance with Nat tonight? Or Tony?"

Sam and Bucky both get a laugh out of that before, Bucky shakes his head.

" No but - listen here- he asked his TEACHER to come as his DATE tonight"

"No! Hot for Teacher Steve?"

"Who would of guessed right?"

They both turn to start looking for Steve in the crowd of people.

" Yeah he even went to Pepper for some reason, worried it could turn into a PR nightmare."

"Really? Well Sure it will be in the papers, but having a date isn't gonna shake up to much, even if he IS Captain America"

There seems to be a commotion amongst the crowd, people looking at their phones then looking around. They could already how the bright flashes of lights started going off like crazy outside of the doors. Looking at each other, they downed their drinks and stood up. Someone is gonna have to see whats going on and if Steve is involved then they need to be there to help him whether he needed it or not.

They didn't get far before the crowd separates a bit and in walks Steve, a nervous smile on his face, before he looks back and offers his hand out to the person behind him. Stepping around him was a young twenty something year old guy. Dressed in a suit, smiling brightly back at Steve, taking his hand and pressing close. The tension in Steve's shoulders melt a little, and his smile softens.

Steve leads them to the dance floor, and after a nod at the maestro of the band, music starts up. The sway and slow dance to the music, just staring deeply into each others eyes before, the younger of the two lays their head on Steve's chest as the continue to slow dance.

After the initial shock, the crowd has gone back to what they were doing before, some dancing, some just mingling amongst each other. Sure people were still talking about it.

" I'll be damned."

Sam and Bucky look back at each other before they make their way back to their spot at the bar.

"So… Did you know about this? Or…is this new?"

Bucky tilted his head and stared out at the two on the dance floor and smirked.

" Oh I knew. But Stevie…. was always very much in the closet. "

He waves the bar tender down and gets another drink. His smirk turns into a small soft smile.

" I'm glad he found someone worth coming out for."

Sam looks at Bucky, then back out to the dance floor at the couple then back at Bucky.

" Do you two ever… I mean"

Bucky shakes his head

" Nah, Could have at some point but we weren't there yet. Things were different then. And now too much has changed. We never acknowledged it then so no point in it now."

Shaking his head Sam sighs

" It's just a date… don't mean they are married. You could still have a chance if you wanted to that is."

Sipping his drink, Bucky smiles a little and shakes his head.

" No. With a song like that? This is serious"

Same frowns " Its just music? Whats the song?"

" I Don't Want To Set The World On Fire"

Sam gets his phone out and starts researching for the lyrics, his eyes widen.

"Wow…"

"Yeah.."

Hours later Bucky is flipping through his phone, he already did his reach on the dance teacher that Steve brought to the event. Peter Parker. Dance instructor- only gives private lessons now. Co-owners the school with his childhood best friend Michelle Jones. He also is an independent researcher under contract for SI. Probably how Tony knew about the dancing.

He was about to set his phone down but a notification went off. It was Parker's Instagram, there was a shot of Steve sleeping. He stares at it for a moment, gives a small smile before he turns the phone off and sets it aside.

[agentkikirogers]

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[baconsoapp]

Stevie Rogers and Gender Dysphoria

if you're unfamiliar with my trans Stevie Rogers head canon, check out this post here. Anyways, more under the cut.

So, I’ve been thinking a lot about this post and how others perceive Stevie.

Like stated in the linked post, Stevie has always dealt with people not finding her body acceptable. Both in the purely aesthetic sense and the medical sense. After the serum, she has to grapple with the opposite side of the spectrum. So many people view her as a specimen, as a sex object and the paragon of man.

I think it would be interesting to view this in a trans lense. Stevie's hyperawareness to how she fits in along with others. How others behave around her and treat her.

Pre-serum, a lot of her gender dysphoria was physically-centered. Stevie wished she was fuller and smoother all over, like the typical woman seen in all the pin-up paintings she was told not to look at.

Post-serum, the same physical thoughts remained. Frequently, she wished that she could be softer around the edges and over all her new muscles. But now, the majority of the thoughts were socially-centered. She wished people still treated her with fragility and care, like a distressed dame ready to fall over at any moment.

When she comes out of the ice, the socially-centered thoughts only get worse. Now the rest of the world had the rest of a century and then some to catch up on Captain America, and how competent and masculine and assertive "he" is.

Stevie knows this is often a conflation between Captain America, the Figure, and Stevie Rogers, the person. But she can't help but balk at the expectations set for her. Maybe it's just because she has the world on her shoulders at all times, but maybe it's also because the gender roles are amplified and applied to her. That's what everyone expects of Captain America, anyway.

I just love the idea of Stevie completely rejecting gender roles and societies standards, especially after Civil War when she's already an enemy of the state lol (^^;

[stucky-headcanon-bot]

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[hainethehero]

Steve Rogers as the unknown artist headcanon...

I always have this headcanon that no one knew about Steve's love for art or his talent for painting and drawing. So when they keep finding amazing portraits and paintings of themselves in their purest forms - not their superhero counterparts- but them doing the most mundane things in regular clothing, they get sort of wary that it's some art-themed villain who took the joke too far.

But then one day a stupid villain crashes the Tower through Steve's room and they all burst in ready for a fight, only to see that Steve's already got the guy wrapped in rope and secured to the floor while he grumbles softly, covered in paint, trying to gather what's left of his art supplies.

And Tony almost goes to make a sarcastic quip but Bucky and Natasha stop him when they see Steve's sad little pout as he picks up his broken easel.