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thunderbone · 10 months ago

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It's not really a birthday drawing, but this drawing is like a birthday present, you know. Furthermore, this drawing is dedicated to all autistic people in the world, as this drawing continues the series of autistic characters that I created. The first drawing in this themed series is a wonderful art that I won from my friend, Tururs, in a art raffle. So if you want to see this art, click here: https://www.tumblr.com/thunderbone/746660868952064000/english-happy-world-autism-awareness-day-this-is

Anyway, I decided to share with you a book that I've been planning to write for a while now. This book is a sequel to Alice in Wonderland, as well as being a "modern version" of the story. My story was inspired by Hook (1991) and Disney's live-action Alice in Wonderland.

This beautiful and wonderful drawing was made by Nicolai, also known as ahdortable on Instagram. In this drawing made by Nicolai, Alice was inspired by American McGee's Alice, while Jack was inspired by Tsaiko Tails, a grown-up version of Tails created by @tsaikonautz, also known as IndigoBeatss. Thank you very much for drawing Alice and Jack/Sunset Fox, the drawing was amazing 💖 If you want to see his drawings, click here: www.instagram.com/ahdortable/

The story revolves around Alice, a 20-year-old girl who lives with her older sister, Elizabeth, and her younger brother, Peter. Their parents died when Peter was 3 years old and Alice was 11 years old, so Elizabeth had to take care of her two brothers. Alice has Asperger's Syndrome, which is already a reason for Elizabeth to be super protective of her.

Because of her atypical mental and emotional condition, Alice is seen as childish and unreliable by her sister, who believes that she is not prepared to be independent and live her adult life because she does not understand anything about the outside world and its dangers, beyond the fact that she has great difficulty expressing her own emotions and recognizing or understanding the feelings and intentions of others.

Because of this, Alice tries to prove her worth to Elizabeth, believing that she can live without depending on her. Alice is very close to her younger brother, Peter, where he loves her very much and sees her as a mother figure, just like Elizabeth. One day, the 3 siblings were traveling on vacation, and headed to a nearby city. However, a deer appeared in the middle of the road, where Elizabeth tried to avoid it but the car ended up overturning.

After the accident, Alice ended up waking up inside a teapot, which, to her great surprise, had been shrunk by the Mad Hatter, who soon returned her to her normal size by giving her a cupcake. The Mad Hatter, the March Hare, the Sunset Fox, the Dormouse, the twin siblings Tweedledum and Tweedledee and the Cheshire Cat are reunited with Alice, which leaves her confused at first.

They explain that when she was a child, she once visited Wonderland, where she befriended them. Furthermore, she helped them defeat the Queen of Hearts, as everyone was already tired of her tyranny and her cruel, dictatorial kingdom. Alice remembers a little of this, but she thought everything that happened was just a dream. However, after Alice left and never returned to Wonderland, the Queen of Hearts devised her plan to get her throne back and take revenge on Alice for ending her reign of several years.

It was the queen who made Alice return to Wonderland with her siblings, where she captured them. Alice's old friends barely saved her before the arrival of the Queen of Hearts' subordinates. To make matters worse, Alice's friends are fugitives from the law, as the Queen also wants to take revenge on them at any cost. Knowing that Wonderland and her siblings are in great danger, Alice, with the help of her friends and the White Rabbit (who works for the Queen of Hearts but is secretly on the protagonists' side and is their informant), went to try stop the Queen's evil plans.

During the adventure, Alice gradually remembered her adventures in Wonderland as a child and her friendships with the Cheshire Cat, the Mad Hatter, the hare, the dormouse, the twins, the rabbit and the fox, the latter who soon becomes her best friend.

There are a few more details that I thought of for this idea, such as the fox. This character does not exist in the original Alice in Wonderland story, he was invented by me. His story is very sad, you know.

His name is Jack and he lived in a forest inhabited by anthropomorphic foxes. However, he has autism, which is a bit serious. I mean, he's not like people who have very severe autism, who are very aggressive, have difficulty speaking, learning, relating to people... He doesn't have this type of autism, which unfortunately is a stereotype , where people think autistic people are retarded.

Let's just say that he is very impulsive, allowing him to do things without thinking twice, in addition to being irritated very easily, and can be a little aggressive. Furthermore, every late afternoon and early evening, Jack became agitated and very anxious for no apparent reason, where he was unable to sleep several times, in addition to being extremely frustrated with his own confusion. Because of this and the fact that he was very different from other foxes (since he was autistic), he suffered a lot of prejudice, being called crazy by many, in addition to receiving the nickname Sunset Fox.

And the worst thing is that no one in Wonderland knows what autism and other types of mental disorders are, which only made the situation even worse. At one point, Jack is abandoned as a child by his parents, who did not accept him the way he is. That poor little fox lived alone for some time, in need. Until one day he was found by the Mad Hatter and his two best friends, the March Hare and the Dormouse. The Mad Hatter decided to adopt that fox, because he felt very sorry for him, saying he understood his pain.

However, the Mad Hatter didn't really understand what Jack was going through, because the Mad Hatter doesn't have autism and he thought Jack was crazy just like him, and having autism is very different from being crazy. In short, the Mad Hatter didn't know what it was like to suffer bullying and prejudice for being different, for being born with an atypical mental and emotional condition.

Despite this, the Mad Hatter went to help the boy. Jack then lived with his adoptive father and his uncle and aunt until then, drinking several cups of tea and living many surreal adventures. Jack loves the Mad Hatter very much and sees him as the father figure he always wanted, as he accepted him the way he is. Jack met Alice when he was 10, while she was 7. When Alice returned to Wonderland, Jack was very happy to see her again.

Throughout the story, Jack opened up to Alice about his atypical mental and emotional condition, and to his great surprise, she understands the prejudice he suffered for being different all these years, as she also has autism just like him. Yes, Jack finally met someone who is just like him and who knows what it's like to live with a mental illness that affects his life. But both will learn that it's okay being different, where both will have pride of their autism and will being positive about being different.

At that moment, Jack started to fall in love with Alice, but he didn't want to admit his feelings to her or anyone else, because he knows that his love for Alice would never work, since she is a human and he is an anthro animal. As the story progressed, I imagined Alice and Jack having a lot of chemistry, where she would also fall in love with him. In the final stretch of the story, he confesses his love for her, but they don't stay together.

Another thing I thought about is that while the other characters have special powers or abilities, Alice is the only one who doesn't have any of these. However, she uses things from Wonderland to her advantage, such as sweets (cakes and cookies) and non-alcoholic drinks (juices and soft drinks) that have the ability to make her look giant or small.

She's like Mario when he eats specific mushrooms to become giant or have super powers, as well as picking up things like that little cape that turns into a superhero cape so he can fly. Another thing I thought about is the possibility of implementing a stalker villain who will make the protagonists' lives hell until the end. He would be like Nemesis from Resident Evil 3: Nemesis (1999), where he would be the biggest son of a bitch in history, second to the Queen of Hearts.

I imagined him being the Jabberwocky, a monster from a poem in the book Alice Through the Looking Glass (sequel of the original work, Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, also written by Lewis Caroll). In my version of this monster, he would be a type of dragon, just like his counterpart from Disney's live-action Alice in Wonderland (2010). He would probably be a monster created by the Queen of Hearts, being programmed to eliminate all the protagonists, including Alice. That's why he chases them until the final stretch of my story and he's definitely going to make everyone angry at him, lol

Furthermore, I also imagined Alice being a rocker/metalhead girl, like me XD That explains why she was wearing a punk leather jacket lol Anyway, what do you think of my story? What should I improve?

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Não é bem um desenho de aniversário, mas esse desenho é como um presente de aniversário, sabe. Além disso, esse desenho é dedicado à todas as pessoas autistas no mundo, pois esse desenho continua com a série de personagens autistas que eu criei. O primeiro desenho dessa série temática é uma arte maravilhosa que eu ganhei do sorteio do meu amigo, Tururs. Então caso queiram ver essa arte, cliquem aqui: https://www.tumblr.com/thunderbone/746660868952064000/english-happy-world-autism-awareness-day-this-is

Enfim, resolvi compartilhar com vocês um livro que estou planejando escrever já faz algum tempo. Esse livro é uma continuação de Alice no País das Maravilhas, além de ser uma "versão moderna" da história. A minha história foi inspirada no filme Hook: A Volta do Capitão Gancho (1991) e o live-action Alice no País das Maravilhas da Disney.

Esse desenho lindo e maravilhoso foi feito pelo Nicolai, também conhecido como ahdortable no Instagram. Nesse desenho feito pelo Nicolai, a Alice foi inspirada na Alice de American McGee, enquanto o Jack foi inspirado no Tsaiko Tails, uma versão crescida do Tails criado pela @tsaikonautz, também conhecida como IndigoBeatss. Muito obrigado por desenhar a Alice e o Jack/Raposa do pôr-do-sol, o desenho ficou incrível 💖 Caso queiram ver os desenhos dele, cliquem aqui: www.instagram.com/ahdortable/

A história gira em torno de Alice, uma garota de 20 anos que vive com a sua irmã mais velha, Elizabeth, e seu irmão mais novo, Peter. Os pais deles morreram quando Peter tinha 3 aninhos e Alice tinha 11 anos de idade, onde Elizabeth teve que cuidar de seus dois irmãos. Alice tem Síndrome de Asperger, o que já é um motivo pra Elizabeth ser super protetora em relação à ela.

Por causa de sua condição mental e emocional atípica, Alice é vista como infantil e não confiável por sua irmã, que acredita que ela não está preparada pra ser independente e viver sua vida adulta por não entender nada do mundo exterior e seus perigos, além do fato dela ter muita dificuldade em expressar suas próprias emoções e de reconhecer ou entender os sentimentos e intenções dos outros.

Por causa disso, Alice tenta provar o seu valor pra Elizabeth, acreditando que ela pode sim viver sem depender dela. Alice é muito próxima ao seu irmão caçula, Peter, onde ele a ama muito e a vê como uma figura materna, assim como Elizabeth. Um dia, os 3 irmãos estavam viajando de férias, do qual se dirigiam para uma cidade próxima. Porém, um cervo apareceu no meio da estrada, onde Elizabeth tentou desviar mas o carro acabou capotando.

Após o acidente, Alice acabou acordando dentro de um bule de chá, que para sua grande surpresa, ela havia sido encolhida pelo Chapeleiro Louco, que logo fez ela voltar ao seu tamanho normal dando à ela um bolinho. O Chapeleiro Louco, a Lebre de Março, a Raposa do Pôr-do-sol, a Arganaz, o casal de irmãos gêmeos Tweedledum e Tweedledee e o Gato Risonho se reencontram com Alice, o que a deixa confusa de início.

Eles explicam que quando ela era uma criança, ela já visitou o País das Maravilhas, onde ela fez amizade com eles. Além disso, ela os ajudou a derrotar a Rainha de Copas, pois todo mundo já estava cansado da tirania dela e do seu reino ditador e cruel. Alice se lembra um pouco disso, mas ela achava que tudo o que aconteceu era só um sonho. Porém, depois que Alice foi embora e nunca mais voltou ao País das Maravilhas, a Rainha de Copas arquitetou o seu plano de conseguir de volta o seu trono e se vingar da Alice por ter acabado com o seu reinado de vários anos.

Foi a rainha que fez Alice voltar para o País das Maravilhas com seus irmãos, onde ela capturou eles. Por pouco, os antigos amigos da Alice a salvaram antes da chegada dos subordinados da Rainha de Copas. Pra piorar a situação, os amigos da Alice são foragidos da lei, pois a Rainha também quer se vingar deles a qualquer custo. Sabendo que o País das Maravilhas e os seus irmãos correm um grande perigo, Alice, com a ajuda de seus amigos e do Coelho Branco (que trabalha pra Rainha de Copas mas secretamente está do lado dos protagonistas e é o informante deles), foram tentar impedir os planos malignos da Rainha.

Durante a aventura, aos poucos a Alice foi se lembrando de suas aventuras no país das Maravilhas quando criança e de sua amizade com o Gato Risonho, o Chapeleiro Louco, a lebre, a arganaz, os gêmeos, o coelho e a raposa, este último que logo se torna o seu melhor amigo.

Tem mais alguns detalhes que pensei pra essa ideia, como por exemplo a tal raposa. Esse personagem não existe na história original do Alice no País das Maravilhas, ele foi inventado por mim. A história dele é bem triste, sabe

Ele se chama Jack e vivia em uma floresta habitada por raposas antropomórficas. Porém, ele tem autismo, que é um pouco grave. Quer dizer, ele não é igual a pessoas que têm autismo bastante grave, que são muito agressivas, têm dificuldade na fala, no aprendizado, em se relacionar com as pessoas... Ele não tem esse tipo de autismo, que infelizmente é um estereótipo, onde pessoas pensam que autistas são retardados.

Digamos que ele é muito impulsivo, deixando-o fazer coisas sem pensar duas vezes, além de se irritar muito facilmente, podendo ser um pouco agressivo. Além disso, em todos os finais da tarde e início das noites, Jack ficava agitado e bastante ansioso sem motivo aparente, onde ele não conseguia dormir várias vezes, além de ficar extremamente frustrado com sua própria confusão. Por causa disso e do fato dele ser muito diferente das outras raposas (já que ele era autista), ele sofria muito preconceito, sendo chamado de louco por muitos, além de receber o apelido de Raposa do Pôr-do-sol.

E o pior é que ninguém no País das Maravilhas sabe o que é autismo e outros tipos de transtornos mentais, o que só piorou ainda mais a situação. Em um dado momento, Jack é abandonado ainda criança por seus pais, que não o aceitaram do jeito que é. Aquela pobre raposinha viveu sozinha por algum tempo, passando por necessidades. Até que um dia ele foi encontrado pelo Chapeleiro Louco e seus dois melhores amigos, a Lebre de Março e a Arganaz. O Chapeleiro Louco resolveu adotar aquela raposa, pois ele ficou com muita pena dele, dizendo que entendia a sua dor.

No entanto, o Chapeleiro Louco não entendia de fato o que Jack estava passando, pois o Chapeleiro Louco não tem autismo e ele achava que o Jack é louco assim como ele, sendo que ter autismo é muito diferente de ser louco. Resumidamente, o Chapeleiro Louco não sabia como é sofrer bullying e preconceito por ser diferente, por ter nascido com uma condição mental e emocional atípica.

Apesar disso, o Chapeleiro Louco foi ajudar o garoto. Jack então passou a viver com o seu pai adotivo e seus tios até então, tomando várias xícaras de chá e vivendo muitas aventuras surreais. Jack ama muito o Chapeleiro Louco e o vê como uma figura paterna que sempre quis, pois ele o aceitou do jeito que é. Jack conheceu a Alice quando tinha 10 anos, enquanto ela tinha 7. Quando Alice voltou ao País das Maravilhas, Jack ficou muito feliz em vê-la de novo.

Ao longo da história, Jack desabafou pra Alice sobre a sua condição mental e emocional atípica, e para sua grande surpresa, ela entende o preconceito que sofreu por ser diferente durante todos esses anos, pois ela também tem autismo assim como ele. Sim, Jack finalmente conheceu alguém que é igual à ele e que sabe como é viver com um transtorno mental que afeta sua vida. Mas ambos aprenderão que tá tudo bem ser diferente, onde ambos terão orgulho de seu autismo e serão positivos por serem diferentes.

Nesse momento, Jack começou a se apaixonar pela Alice, mas ele não queria admitir seus sentimentos pra ela e pra ninguém, pois ele sabe que o seu amor pela Alice nunca daria certo, já que ela é uma humana e ele um animal antropomórfico/furry. No decorrer da história, eu imaginei a Alice e o Jack tendo muita química, onde ela também se apaixonaria por ele. Na reta final da história, ele confessa o seu amor por ela, mas eles não ficam juntos.

Outra coisa que pensei é que enquanto os outros personagens tem poderes ou habilidades especiais, a Alice é a única que não tem nada disso. Porém, ela usa coisas do País das Maravilhas ao seu favor, como por exemplo os doces (bolos e biscoitos) e bebidas não alcoólicas (sucos e refrigerantes) que tem a capacidade de deixá-la gigante ou pequena.

É tipo o Mário quando come uns cogumelos específicos pra virar gigante ou ter super poderes, além de pegar coisas como aquela capinha que vira uma capa de super herói pra ele voar. Outra coisa que pensei é a possibilidade de implementar um vilão perseguidor que irá infernizar a vida dos protagonistas até o fim. Ele seria igual ao Nemesis do Resident Evil 3: Nemesis (1999), onde ele seria o grande filho da puta da história, ficando atrás da Rainha de Copas.

Eu o imaginei sendo o Jabberwocky, um monstro de um poema do livro Alice Através do Espelho (continuação da obra original, As Aventuras de Alice no País das Maravilhas, também escrito por Lewis Caroll). Na minha versão desse monstro, ele seria um tipo de dragão, assim como a contraparte dele do live-action do Alice no País das Maravilhas da Disney (2010). Provavelmente ele seria um monstro criado pela Rainha de Copas, sendo programado para eliminar todos os protagonistas, incluindo a Alice. Por isso ele os persegue até a reta final da minha história e com certeza ele vai deixar todo mundo com raiva dele, rsrs

Além disso, eu também imaginei a Alice sendo uma garota roqueira/metaleira, que nem eu XD Isso explica o motivo dela estar usando uma jaqueta de couro punk rsrs Mas enfim, o que acharam da minha história? No que devo melhorar?

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lordkingsmith · 4 months ago

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📚 What are some books that have influenced your style? 🖇 What subjects or themes recur in your works?

How wonderful~ I just found a couple of the ones I didn’t remember the names of. Perfect timing~

Diadem series mixes magic and science fiction. My mom uh. Didn’t like it. so I would often crouch in the back of the library reading it as fast as possible and hope I could get two books done in the two-four hours we were at the library for various extracurricular. But magic mixing with science and alternate realities and world hopping and planet sized eggs that the creature inside would feed on nightmares and fears of any poor schmuck who landed on the shell.

Reincarnation as a body horror idea because what if you were born in the same reality as some great deceased warlock and you have a lot of similarities to them and oh come to find out you’re their reincarnation. They died and they made sure there was a reincarnation cycle so the past life ghost could forcibly take your body. And what if later after you think you defeated them one of them manages to come back and steal the body of your best friend who is also part of this cycle.

Read these along with animorphs. I can’t remember the reasoning but these were banned and animorphs weren’t. I can’t deny reading them in tandem together, one series solely in the library and one at home, massively shaped my sense of politics and storytelling lol. I don’t think it shaped my later Realizations but I do recall reading a lot of books where one of the themes was identity and the right to be yourself whatever that meant, without having to lie or compromise or let someone else’s ideas of you get in the way.

Also lowkey, I didn’t see these three as a love triangle and got mad when the writer tried to push it. In my head, they were all sharing one bed if you get me.

Wizard’s Hall. Magic as an addictive force, magic as a painful but exhilarating force, magic as a patchwork monster…destinies, prophesies, magic schools. It came out before Harry Potter, I read it beside the fourth one if I remember correctly. In all honestly I remembered this one better than the fourth and had to reread the goblet of fire. Even then I’d have rather reread wizard’s hall. Can’t reccommend it enough, I haven’t picked it up since that year and I still remember whole passages.

I borrowed this book from a teacher’s personal library and I had to give it back. So I bought myself a copy. Carried this around reading and rereading. It has disability rep! That little girl holding her hand? She’s a savior of the world from…I think it was eldritch type fae sort of evil. And she can’t use one of her arms after a sickness rendered it withered. She can barely move it, barely use it. But she’s got other skills and her siblings to help her defeat the evils. It is. So so good. Not one of the first stories with a disabled person I ever read, but certainly one that lodged itself in my brain. It’s not a story where the girl is used as a moral. Or as a perfect person. She’s often moody and stubborn and has to be reasoned with. And her sheer stubbornness is part of how she wins. She was so moody and I loved that. She was allowed to be angry and surly and y’know. A kid. Not just a disabled child.

It’s Alice in wonderland but in Paris and has ghosts and sentient reflections and riddles and alternate realities and I think you’d love it. I love it. Found it in a second hand bookstore and went “oh. That is how to write a story” and have been trying to emulate the writing style since. Utterly melancholic humor. Beautiful, and gut punching in the best way.

As for subjects and themes… disability and still being capable and strong, but also just allowed to have flaws. Being the oldest son with eldest daughter syndrome. Cleverness and some amount of secrecy is better than brute force. Life is not fair and will try to force you into a cookie cutter to make a shape you don’t want and you are allowed to kick the cookie cutter to a better shape that fits more. Or break the cookie cutter altogether. Monsters aren’t inherently bad, or good. Our actions are the only things that define us. Not anything else. Not even our family’s legacy. Living a life not for yourself but for people who take advantage of you is worse than death. Parents aren’t perfect.

There’s more, I’m sure. But I know these at least are in all my works in some shape or form lol.

Thank you for the ask~

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grandhotelabyss · 7 months ago

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Thoughts on Lewis Carroll?

Not sure—will have to revisit. I never quite understood what he was doing, except in some very broad literary-historical sense: exposing the myth of Victorian childhood and helping to create modernist adolescence, deconstructing realism to pave the way for the likes of Kafka and Borges in fiction itself and poststructuralist theories of language and representation, etc. I've also heard rumors there's something mathematical happening in those texts, which would really be unfortunate from my non-mathematical point of view. And the less said about those photographs, the better. I think I only read the first Alice book, to be honest, and as an undergraduate.

Of my usual go-to critics, I believe only Nancy Armstrong has treated his work at any length. I quote from "Sexuality in the Age of Racism: Hungry Alice" in Fiction in the Age of Photography: The Legacy of British Realism (1999), where Armstrong puts the matter in dystopic Foucauldian terms of the kind that make academics say things like "only middle-class white people exercise self-restraint" and think they're being anti-racist, but it's nonetheless a fascinating lens on the novel that puts it rather in something like the Great Tradition:

Childhood according to Carroll turns out to be the condition of lacking the very kind of power that subjects exercise over objects, the power to classify, to evaluate, to consume with discrimination. The acquisition of literacy is what empowers subjects to keep objects in their place. If Alice fails to distinguish herself from working-class and native women whenever she gives way to appetite, then she reestablishes that distinction in a more decisive way as she begins to crave this power more than she craves objects themselves. In bringing us to this conclusion, however, Alice’s misadventures bring us to the very heart of a contradiction. We must recall that objects in the story tend to come engraved with the invitation to consume them. “Eat me” or “drink me,” they say. Her compulsive response to a marmalade label indicates that writing in fact creates the appetite that Alice must control through reading and recitation. How, then, can appetite originate inside her body if it originates in writing? Alice’s Adventures in Wonderland defines the heroine’s development as the acquisition of a peculiar kind of literacy that embraces this self-contradiction. Put another way, Alice herself embodies the fantasmagorical spiral of desire and restraint that women would soon experience in relation to a world made of enticing objects. Alice’s tumble down the rabbit hole reveals an appetite for marmalade. Because she has the literacy of the ruling class, however, Alice has acquired an appetite for rules well before her adventures begin. And even though something that seems more like an aversion to books prompts her adventures in Wonderland, Alice’s story is ultimately a struggle to possess the kind of taste that comes with literacy.

I was never exposed to his work in childhood. It's strange, considering his enormous influence on those Dark Age British Invasion comics I read so avidly: Morrison's Arkham Asylum with its Mad Hatter exposing the whole story as a dream of Batman's, Miracleman with its "Red King Syndrome" doing something similar for that early work of Moore's. Then there was the kid-lit pornotopia of Moore's Lost Girls, which I dislike, but that came later. I conclude with a disturbing page, perhaps the most disturbing page, from Morrison and McKean's Arkham. Unlike Alice's Adventures in Wonderland, I first read this at the age of seven:

#lewis carroll #children's literature #literary criticism #literary theory #nancy armstrong #grant morrison #victorian literature

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hewwobrine · 3 years ago

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yes occasionally im able to produce oc art

this is alice, shes a spirit fueled by nothing but madness and the need for revenge

#eldritch arts #oc #original character #alice #alice liddell #story: the mad girl / wonderland syndrome

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rpghorrorfan · 5 years ago

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https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PL-g-AzHPQYdpiuQElx1hGiBg9CnZWi0N9

I made a (big) playlist compilation of various indie horror (including both RPG maker and other stuff) creepy moments/music/gameplay. The first half covers RPG maker, the second other engines. It does contains spoilers for various games (listed below in order) and all content warnings apply due to the nature of these games. Please enjoy and if you’re interested please check out these games because they’re made by extremely talented people and are weird/interesting/scary!

RPG maker/Wolf RPG Editor Games:

The Witch’s House

Blank Dream

Corpse Party Blood Covered / Rebuilt (not rpg maker-Book of Shadows, Blood Drive, 2U)

Ao Oni / Aqua Oni / Nira Oni / Mura Oni (fangames and original)

Yume Nikki / .flow (not rpg maker-Dream Diary)

OFF

Toilet in Wonderland

Misao (Remake and original) / Mad Father

Headless Prisoner

Paranormal Syndrome 1

Akemi Tan / Sukutte Save Me / Pilgrim

Rust and Blood / It Moves / Skinwalker

Creepypasta Land (original)

00.15 / It’s...just a dream

Oyadori No Ko

Killer Bear

Oni Asobi

Hello? Hell...o?

Akai Kaidan

Siryou no Yasiki ~ The Cursed House

Lisa The First

The Dark Side of Red Riding Hood / Mix Ore / Yanderella /Bokko Youchien / Mikoto Nikki (not rpg maker- Menherafflesia/Vanilla: Garden of Judgement/Cradle of Ruin)

Dear Mariko (original)

Shiro no Noroi

Forest of Drizzling Rain

Substitute Sacrifice Girl

Paranoiac (original and remake) / Insanity (original and remake) / The Crooked Man / The Sandman / The Boogie Man / The Hanged Man / Mermaid Swamp (original and remake)

Re:kinder

Time traveler

Midnight Puppeteer

Underworld Capital Incident

Re;member

Fantasy Maiden’s Odd Hideout / Chloe’s Requiem

Bevel’s Painting

Patty and Mr Miles

Leave

Dreamfarer

Memento

Friendship

June Bride Nightmare

b*x

Amayado Bus Stop

Purgatory

Detective Inaba no 3

Mouth Sweet

Turtle Head

Nightmare of the Snow

Pom gets WiFi

Toraware no Shoujo (original)

Hide and Seek (Story of Dorothy)

Nightmare of Melanie

Ghost School

Last Week

Red Wolf

Momoka

Lavender

Wolf and Rabbit

Birthday Kid

Libretta

Dreaming Mary

Mogeko Castle / Wadanohara / The Gray Garden

1bitheart / Lieat / Alice mare

End Roll / Farethere City/ Walking on a Star Unknown

Nightmare Traveller

Trick and Treat

A Figment of Discord

Imaginary Friends

Dolorific: A House

Sabrina

Memento Mori

A Cliche Birthday

Urma

Traumerei

Prom Dreams/Turovero: The Celestial Tower

Your Turn to Die/Your Time to Shine

Witch’s Heart

Hansel

At Home Alone

Close Your Eyes/Red Haze/Found Horror Game 11.exe

The Dreams of Melody Moonlight (sequel)

Pocket Mirror

Aria’s Story

Dream of Gluttony

From Next Door

Grimm’s Hollow

Nui goes to Town

No Delivery

Stitched

Lucie

Easter

Hello Charlotte

Stray Cat Crossing

Oneshot

Purple

Crystal Confines

Other:

Kio’s Adventure

Clock Tower SNES

Spooky’s Jumpscare Mansion

Cuphead

Doki Doki Literature Club

Undertale

FNAF 1 / FNAF Pizzeria Simulator / FNAF World / One Night At Flumpty’s / Five Night’s At Treasure Island

Sally Face

Hatoful Boyfriend

Demonophobia

Grappi

Irisu Syndrome / Ai to Yuuki to Kashiwamochi

Feast

Confess My Love

Super Surprise Party

Eversion

Imscared

Baldi’s Basics 64 (mod of original)

Innyume

Yomawari series

Yuppie Psycho

Various .exe games

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kittyanonymity · 5 years ago

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Song List!! :D Some of these are super sad, ngl guys. I put warnings next to a couple songs just cause I know some of the lyrics or subject matter could be alarming, so watch out for that! I’ve been listening to this playlist non stop for like 2 weeks, just using it to get inspired for my daminette fic I started lol

Maybe you guys’ll like it too! <3 The genres are pretty mixed, so be ready for a bit of everything lmao

Gonna want a read more, I think lol

Stay - The Score

Natural - Imagine Dragons

Hero - Skillet

Black and Blue - Long Hawke

Monster - Starset

I Walk the Line - Halsey

Me Against The World - Superchick

Blue Eyes - Within Temptation

Centuries - Fall Out Boy

Walking on Air - Kerli

Decode - Paramore

Red Stars - The Birthday Massacre

Love Goes On and On (feat. Amy Lee) - Lindsey Stirling

Dance With the Devil - Breaking Benjamin

I Don’t Wanna Die - Hollywood Undead

Devour - Disturbed

Lips Like Morphine - Kill Hannah

Death of Me - PVRIS

Not Strong Enough (feat. Brent Smith) - Apocalyptica

Warriors - Imagine Dragons

Rise - Katy Perry

Welcome Home - Cohered and Cambria

Wicked World - Cold

You’re Mine - Disturbed

Cold (But I’m Still Here) - Evans Blue

Think Twice - Eve 6

Cirice - Ghost

Gasoline - Halsey

Angel - Theory of a Deadman

A Thousand Years - Christina Perri

Champion - Fall Out Boy

Rock What You Got (Fight Underdog Fight! Mix) - Superchick

All I Ever Wanted - Basshunter

Summertime Sadness - Within Temptation

Take a Bow - Rihanna

Undisclosed Desires - Muse

you should see me in a crown - Billie Eilish

Set Me on Fire - Flyleaf

Satisfy - Nero

Running Up That Hill - Meg Myers

Phoenix - League of Legends (Song slaps, don’t judge me)

Strange Boy - Kerli

Roar - Katy Perry

The Mystic - Adam Jensen

S.C.A.V.A. - Hollywood undead

Misery Business - Paramore

Wanna Be Missed - Hayley Kiyoko

Bound to You - Christina Aguilera

Anthem for the Broken - MISSIO

Taking Over Me - Evanescence

Memories - Within Temptation

Funhouse - P!nk

Mirror - Barlow Girl

The Last Night - Skillet

Unfamiliar - The Birthday Massacre

Hey Hey (Vampires vs. Cheerleaders Mix) - Superchick

I Bet My Life - Imagine Dragons

Your Betrayal - Bullet for My Valentine

New Day - Hollywood undead

Broken Pieces (feat. Lacey) - Apocalyptica

I Don’t Care (feat. Adam Gontier) - Apocalyptica

Already Over - Red

Together Again - Evanescence

Mad Hatter - Melanie Martinez

Shatter Me (feat Lzzy Hale) - Lindsey Stirling

Miss Murder - AFI

Forevermore (feat. Broken Iris) - Aroth

Passion - AWOLNATION

You Call Me a Bitch Like It’s a Bad Thing - Halestorm

Shapeshifter (feat. Styles of Beyond) - Celldweller

Whatever It Takes - Hollywood undead

I Will Possess Your Heart - Death Cab for Cutie

It’s the Fear - Within Temptation

Can I Exist - MISSIO

I Can’t Do This - Plumb

One Step at a Time - Jordin Sparks

Only Girl (In the World) - Rihanna

That’s What You Get - Paramore

Never Say Die - CHVRCHES

Devil’s Backbone - The Civil Wars

Kill the Lights - The Birthday Massacre

Still Here - Digital Daggers

Immortals - Fall Out Boy

No Light, No Light - Florence + The Machine

Castle - Halsey

Hearts a Mess - Gotye

Where Did the Beat Go? - P!nk

NFWMB - Hozier (it’s the pitched lesbian version though)

Next to Me - Imagine Dragons

Blood in the Cut - K.Flay

Love is Dead - Kerli

Crazy Angel - Kill Hannah

Dark Paradise - Lana Del Rey

How to be a Heartbreaker - Marina and The Diamonds

You Don’t Belong - Daughtry

What You Want - Evanescence

Tag, You’re It - Melanie Martinez (potential TW for this song)

Bottom of the Deep Blue Sea - MISSIO

Had Enough - Breaking Benjamin

Ricochet - Starset

Young - Hollywood Undead

Stockholm Syndrome - Muse

High Hopes - Panic! At the Disco

Crushcrushcrush - Paramore

What’s Wrong - PVRIS

Rock This World - Hilary Duff

In the Dark - The Birthday Massacre

My Girl’s Ex-Boyfriend - Relient k

Pretty Girl (The Way) - Sugarcult

Heathens - twenty one pilots

The Bird and The Worm - The Used

Only One - Yellowcard

Now You’re Gone - Basshunter

Bad Boy - Cascada

Something Just Like This - The Chainsmokers & Coldplay

Live For The Night - Krewella

I Am Woman - Jordin Sparks

Secret Door - Evanescence

Defeated - Breaking Benjamin

U Don’t Know (feat. Wayne Coyne) - Alison Wonderland

Black Dahlia - Hollywood Undead

Someone Who Cares - Three Days Grace

Bewitched (feat. Lady Nogrady) - Blood on the Dance Floor (don’t judge me, it’s a fun song)

Hold On (feat. Brave) - Arman Cekin

Sever The Ties (feat. Esther Sparkles) - Arman Cekin

Memories of a Girl I Haven’t Met - Celldweller

Paris - M.O.O.N.

Guilt - Nero

Love Me (feat. Jacob Banks) - Wide Awake

Daughters of Darkness - Halestorm

Never Alone - Barlow Girl

Anthem - Superchick

Burn Away - The Birthday Massacre

God is a woman - Arian Grande

I Did It for Love (feat Sean Garrett) - BoA

Beautiful Liar - Beyonce & Shakira

Angel With a Shotgun - The Cab

Anthem of the Angels - Breaking Benjamin

Everytime - Britney Spears

Haters - Hilary Duff

I Look So Good (Without You) - Jessie James

Battlefield - Jordin Sparks

Weight of the World - Evanescence

Wide Awake - Katy Perry

Cannonball - Kiesza

I Need to Know - Marc Anthony

Problem - Natalia Kills

Rude Boy - Rihanna

Counting Stars - OneRepublic

According to You - Orianthi

The Truth About Love - P!nk

I Hate This Part - The Pussycat Dolls

Eternity - Rachel Taylor

Towards the Sun - Rihanna

Ready to Fight - Roby Fayer & Tom Gefen

Brave - Sara Bareilles

Good For You (feat. A$AP Rocky) - Selena Gomez

Invisible - Skylar Grey (potential TW here)

This Love - The Veronicas

Beautiful - Akon

Too Little, Too Late - JoJo

Knock You Down - Keri Hilson

Bang - Armchair Cynics

Shut Your Mouth - Attack Attack!

Leaving Tonight - The Birthday Massacre

Breaking the Silence - Breaking Benjamin

Beautiful Girl - Broken Iris

All These Things I Hate (Revolve Around Me) - Bullet for My Valentine

Stupid Girl - Cold

Traitor - Daughtry

Love and Tragedy - Digital Summer

Haunted - Evanescence

Iris - Goo Goo Dolls

Beautiful With You - Halestorm

My Name is Human - Highly Suspect

Can’t Love Me - It’s Alive

Gone - My Darkest Days

How Did You Love - Shinedown

It’s Not Me It’s You - Skillet

Halo - Starset

Until the Day I Die - Story of the Year

Bitter Taste - Three Days Grace

Always Find Me Here - Transit

Liar Liar (Burn in Hell) - The Used

The Heart of Everything - Within Temptation

I Want Out - Young Guns

World So Cold - 12 Stones

#song list #maribat #daminette #mlb x dc #A Ladybug in Gotham #that's the name of the fic I'm gonna post #once I'm done proofreading and editing lmao

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toxikbubblegum · 6 years ago

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April Reading Review

April was a big month for me. After not reading for a long time, this month I've fallen back in love with it. So I've decided to log all the books I read from now on. To track and remember what I've read throughout the year. Sorry if I shit on your favorite book.

Eragon by Christopher Paolini

The only book I DNF'd. I've tried to read this series 3 times since it came out and I just cant. I quit about half way through everytime. It's just extremely slow and I cant seem to get invested. The characters are bland and dont intrest me at all. Just didn't care for it in the slightest.

Need by Carrie Jones

Oh, was this a trip. And not a good one. Being completely honest I dont remember any of the characters names and I dont care enough about this title to look them up. I will refer to them by their stereotypes that were so fuckinh prevalent in this novel. 🙃 So the story is about this girl, your typical "look how quirky and plain I am" ya heroine for these B list supernatural romances, is sent to this little town in I want to say North Carolina, but dont quote me there. She moves in with her Grandma, who is 100% the best character in the book, after he dad mysterious drops dead on the kitchen floor. So, right off the bat we end up in the first day of school trope. Main character is in the office and here we meet a boy and a girl WHO ARE CLEARLY THE ANTAGONISTS OF BOOK. This may just be a me problem but I absolutely hate when I can unravel the entire book in the first few chapters. It feels like the author was lazy and didnt put enough effort into concealing the intent and weaving a mystery. I digress, the two main villains and the main love interest are all introduced within the first 3 chapters and like, it's made clear who these characters are meant to be. It honestly felt like the writer looked at a list of stereotype tropes and started checking them off. So yeah, weird shit starts happening and the main character is convinced someone in trying to kill her. Oh, theres also this overarching theme of high school boys wandering into the woods and disappearing. Conclusion: FAIRIES! Or pixies rather which arent really pixies but have the name forcefully sewn onto them in this novel. And shapeshifters are the towns only hope! Just ugh. I don't want to talk about this book anymore. It was awful and I wont be continuing the trilogy. I rated it 2 stars out of 5 right after I read it but I almost dont feel it deserves that now. Looking back on it, Need was just a dumpster fire.

The Dark Descent of Elizabeth Frankenstein by Kiersten White

This book was fantastic. No if, ands, or buts about it. It was one of the best books I've read this month. I'm usually not a big fan of horror retellings or historical fiction so I went in expecting to hate it and that absolutely wasnt the case. The book follows the story of Elizabeth Lavenza, the future wife of Victor Frankenstein, and her adventures prior to her marriage. I dont want to spoil too much because I think anyone who is a fan of suspense will love this novel. The side characters are usually my biggest critique in YA but the author worked magic with them. Justine and Mary were both angels and I loved them so much. It was just an all around good read that had me captivated from start to finish. 4.5/5 stars. Deducted a half point because I'm salty about the fate of my favorite character. Is that petty?

Hex Hall by Rachel Hawkins

Again, another title I kind of expected to have issues with but didnt. The book definitely suffers from a lot of YA tropes but they are presented in a more interesting way than in Need. The story follows a budding witch named Sophia who is being sent to a magical reform school called Hecate Hall. But it's not your typical "I got sent to boarding school" story. The year before a witch had died under mysterious circumstances, her body completely drained of blood. Everyone thought it was Sophie's vampire roommate Jenna who did it but there was never enough evidence. And now its happening again. The story is great and while the cast suffered a bit from trope syndrome, the twists in the plot really made up for it. I would definitely give the trilogy a read if supernatural school settings are your thing. 4/5 stars.

Demonglass by Rachel Hawkins

The sequel to Hex Hall. The continuation was really good and had an ending I absolutely didnt see coming. Actually liked this entry better than the first in the series. I plan to continue the trilogy as well as the spin off novels. 4.5/5 Deducted half a point for the infuriatingly ambiguous ending cliffhanger.

Sweep by Cate Tiernan

This book was meh at best. It was a tiny book about a girl who becomes a witch. She gets super into wicca and because of a pagan boy at school. It wasnt great but it was semi accurate to the religion. I dont honestly even remember much about the book. It went in one ear and out theother. Solid 3/5.

Splintered by A.G. Howard

This. Book. Is. Wonderful. It's a retelling sort of thing of Alice in Wonderland. It follows a girl named Alyssa, who is the descendant of Alice Liddel, as she tries to break her family's curse of madness. It infects only the women of the line and will eventually drive them insane, as it has Alyssa's mom. The one blight on an otherwise perfect book is Jebidiah, Alyssa's crush. He is a trash character and I hate him. I have so many problems with him that it would take far to long to list. My biggest one is that he is mildly abusive and extremely controlling. Just in the first part of the story he intentionally ruins Alyssa's education opportunity to study abroad purely for selfish reasons, forces his way into her home when he was asked to leave, goes through her belongings after being told not to, gives off major stalker vibes, and consistently treats her like his property. His presence was such a fucking stain on an otherwise lovely romp. Honestly, Morpheus and the twisted world building were what saved the book for me. Howard did such a brilliant job weaving together a demented version of an already dark land. 4.5/5. Gotta take a half point for the oozing, cancerous sore that is Jebidiah Holt.

#bookblr #young adult #fiction #books #reading #review #splintered #elizabeth frankenstein #frankenstein #sweep #eragon

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faithandfairies · 7 years ago

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About Emma being Owen, i think its right, also he was the person what grow up to torture Regina together with Tamara, in the process of the magic is unholy(this is what happened to Emma), its about abuse and religious things, i think when Regina is Evil, like being bad, she doesnt represents herself but the Emma's ID, so the ID killed the father, the inversion thing, the father was the bad one, and the ID killed him to save the child, what can be Henry or the pure part of the mind. Maybe both?

I agree, I do think that the conversion therapy is what happened to Emma. I’m on the fence on whether it actually happened to Regina as well.

Part of me thinks that both Greg and Tamara are actually Emma. They represent different parts of her or her story . The only part to Tamara’s story line we really got is that she had a grandmother she’d loved. I think that connects to Ruby and Granny which I think is another part of Emma’s story. I think aside from a father she knew and loved she probably also had a grandmother at one point. And possibly a mother given Ruby’s story with her mother.

I also think it’s possible that Emma somehow forgot a large chunk of her past due to some kind of trauma (i.e. car accident and subsequent amnesia or the actual loss of her parents like Dory) and that the story of her being left at the side of the road as a baby might not be true. It’s possible Emma actually only lost her parents at age 10, not as a baby. And that she had loving parents up to that point. I also think it’s possible that Regina might be the only person alive who still knows Emma’s true story aside from it being somewhere in Emma’s mind. Which might also be part of what Regina being the song in Emma’s heart means. She may be the only person who can unlock Emma’s past and help her remember that she at one point as a child had people that loved her very much. (Of course, I think one of those people was and still is Regina herself.)

Part of me also thinks that Emma at some point ended up with a church or a religious cult of some sort which I think is where Rumple, Blue and Tinkerbell come in. Blue, who in Storybrooke is Mother Superior, a nun, along with Tink. And that is probably where the conversion therapy happened. I think Rumple may have been a priest, a corrupt one, with the same cult/church. His Dark One Vault carries a symbol that reminds of the Catholic Church. There’s also other stuff, like the fact that Blue supposedly condemns all evil, but did always help Dark One Rumple. I also think that Rumple and Regina’s story, the fact that he mentored her and the underlying themes of that relationship don’t bode well for her story with him either. And I think that Emma and Regina may also be connected through Rumple somehow.

As for the Evil Queen/ID thing, Shady has said that as well. The thing is that psychodynamic psychology which is where I think that falls isn’t my strong suit. So I know of it and I agree that maybe Emma projected part of herself onto Regina, and with the whole Snow being Emma’s Superego thing but other than that I don’t really have a psychological opinion on that.

I do agree that Emma most likely killed someone.

I go back and forth between it being her birth father and her foster father. Did she know her birth father? Was he a good person or was he the one who hurt her? Or was it a mentor? Not so much a father, but a father figure?

I go back and forth. Sometimes I think Emma had a loving birth or adoptive father who never hurt her but that she somehow lost. Owen’s father who might also be Henry Sr.

And then looking at Regina’s story with Rumple I think Rumple is the “bad father”. (Priests are coincidentally also actually called “Father”). And that he definitely hurt Regina. And it’s not much of a stretch to think he could have history with Emma too, where he hurt her.

What drives this home for me is that I’ve connected Rumple to Jefferson, the Mad Hatter.

And an important aspect of Jefferson’s story line is him kidnapping Emma and Snow, tricking Emma into thinking he has a limp so she’ll put herself in a vulnerable position meaning to help him. Rumple is the only character on the show with a limp, one that is also capable of disappearing. I also think Snow is young Regina. So I think Rumple hurt both of them. This story also connects Belle’s story and the whole Wonderland bit, since Emma drinks Jefferson’s tea and when she does, it puts her to sleep. And just before she falls asleep she drops the teacup, which could have led to the chip in the cup. The constant reminder that what Belle and Rumple ended up building wasn’t real. Just a girl believing she’s in love with her captor and both forgetting that she didn’t want to be there in the first place (Stockholm Syndrome). So that would make Emma Belle. Or Belle Emma. In the season 4 AU when Belle drops the cup and it chips it’s a reminder to Rumple that what he has with Belle there isn’t real and can’t be made real. That he isn’t a hero and never was even though Belle believes him to be one. They also have a baby in that reality.

And it makes me wonder if Henry isn’t possibly Rumple’s/Gold’s biological son. Also because they had Neal, Henry’s supposed father, and Gold merge at one point where they couldn’t tell who was whom. So maybe they’re one and the same and that is the reason Gold seems to be the only character on the show without a first name. Because his first name is actually Neal.

It would also explain Snow’s second child being named after Neal. A nod to his parentage. Since if Snow is Regina and Regina adopted Henry, well then Henry would be Neal Jr.

It also fits with Robin Jr. being named after her father, Robin. And the fact that a lack of real consent was also a part of her conception. It even fits with Emma and Regina promising Zelena to raise Robin alongside Henry together were anything ever to happen to her. Possibly paralleling Robin Jr. with Henry (Neal Jr.) in every way.

Then there’s the fact that Neal is dead and Rumple has also died. And the only reason Rumple is alive now is because Neal took his place in death. And the first time Rumple almost died it was through poison at the hands of Hook, one of the many parent killers on this show and possibly another representation of Emma and Regina.

Of course, I could be wrong about all of this.

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