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nightcolorz · 1 day ago

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i genuinely don't get why yall don't understand that some people don't like a character who's violently antiblack and directed a lynching. some people think lestat is not as bad because while he's also racist, his involvement in the trial was murkier and they heavily implied that lestat was there against his will. + at this point in the story lestat is more remorseful while armand tried to manipulate louis even when daniel exposed him. also just so you know lestat in the show is 34, not 37 lmfao

I thought u were talking about Santiago bcus he’s the racist guy who orchestrated the trial for like the first half of this and I was like why is this guy sending me this ask I don’t ever talk about Santiago nor do I even like him and then I realized that u were hallucinating a version of iwtv I didn’t see, so like, alrighty. There r so many reasons to hate Armand he’s like the most fucked up character in the series and bro chose “violent anti blackness” bcus apparently “Lestat is less racist than him” ?? Ur extremely stupid and I’m laughing.

I am trying to figure out how to argue with this but it’s kind of like arguing with someone who’s hallucinating a giant dragon. Like how can I prove the dragon is not there in a way that would make any sense to you, you are clearly past the point of no return here.

Right, Lestat, the explicitly racist white character who is constantly racist on screen, is less racist and bad then Armand, the brown former slave, because Armand took part in a fantastical vampire murder that was orchestrated by another explicitly racist white character for the stated reason that he was afraid to betray the institution he was forced into hundreds of years ago, because Lestat “was implied to feel bad” or smth. So true. Ur so right, clearly Armand, who didn’t even write the script for the trial, nor decide it’s aesthetic components, and only participated in it because he was going to be ripped to shreds by his coven if he didn’t, actually decided that he wanted the trial to be like a lynching, bcus Armand is extremely familiar with 19th century anti black violence in colonial America, a period he definitely experienced, and he made it like that on purpose bcus he hates black people so much, and he also decided to implement that racism onto the white girl who’s being tortured on stage too, cuz she’s also black to him, I don’t know. Armand may be an equal opportunity violent killer and torturer who shows literally no preference for who he violently kills and attacks, but he definitely hates black people, cuz the one girl he let die that one time at the hands of his theater coworkers was black, so he’s like, violently racist.

When I noticed the lynching allusions in the trial I assumed it was a thematic undertone meant to aesthetically highlight how traumatic this was for Louis, a character who actually has a connection to lynchings and would have narrative reason to frame the events in a way that mirrored one, and not like, meant to convey that Armand is anti black and is trying to recreate a lynching cuz he loves those things. That is an extremely literal and extremely stupid, unfounded way to view that. If anything, it would be implying that the theater is full of racists, which I think aligns more with the actual episode. Believe it or not, shows often have aesthetic allusions that aren’t meant to be extremely literal representations of what is actually happening.

The idea that Armand is anti black bcus he chose to not stop the vampire execution enacted per the vampire laws that he has been forcefully indebted to for over 200 years to persevere his safety in favor of preserving the life of someone he has known for a relatively short amount of time is insane. Like sure, he’s a horrible person, but I think u are vastly misinterpreting his motivations. Armand has been the victim of more racial trauma then literally every single iwtv character, he was an actual slave who was actually tortured and assaulted bcus he was brown. He was victimized since he was a little kid, he literally has never experienced a life at this point that is not survival of the fittest. His decision to fawn instead of fight in the face of the trial was not a reflection of “violent anti blackness”, and the assumption that it was is so incredibly dull and stupid. Also the complete removal of responsibility from the canonically white and racist characters like Santiago and lestat is insane. Trying to frame me as being tone death against racism while insisting that Armand (brown) is actually the racist one and not Santiago or lestat (white) is hilarious. I like Lestat but I don’t like Armand for doing the same things lestat has done bcus!! I’m anti racism!!! 🥰🥰-real anon logic. Like give me a break. If u actually cared at all about the racial themes of iwtv u would recognize that Armand is someone who has been so victimized and abused by racial oppression that he considers it normal and unable to be dismantled, and so refuses to fight against it to survive. He is not the oppressor, you dick head. Like yeah totally, the canonical former child slave is the racial oppressor here, ur so right. If that was meant to be the case, if Armand was actually written as being the primary perpetrator of racism who oppressors the others, that would be some dickhead writing.

Anyways, I actually don’t mind at all nor care if anyone hates Armand. My little post ur referring to was me lightheartedly complaining to my Armand-loving followers that I keep seeing Armand hate advertised to me on my social media and I don’t like having it shown to me, cuz I like him. That’s what I do instead of going into the inboxes or comments of the people I disagree with, bcus I’m mature, btw anon. But u can hate on Armand in ur corner of the internet all u like, it’s literally not that serious. I don’t care if u hate Armand cuz of the trial either, he does bad stuff, like yeah, sure, fair enough. He’s an anti hero in a vampire book series + show, it’s all fun and games here. The only reason I care is bcus why are u bringing it to me, known armand fan. Keep it to urself. Get out of my inbox, stupid troll. And also I’m never getting over Armand’s “violent anti blackness” like please get a life, holy shit.

In conclusion This take is literally insane and u need to actually watch iwtv or talk to a person who doesn’t know what tumblr is so that u can be saved from the actual six stages of hell internet brain rot that ur trapped in, bcus if u took one single step outside of ur rotting cave u would find out that nothing you have ever thought or said has ever made any sense to any normal person.

also 🤓☝️ just so you know! I said Lestat was 37 bcus Sam Reid is 37 in real life, and I thought it was a funny overstatement to describe Lestat as being Sam Reid’s real age. I know he’s fucking 34, but thank you so much for correcting me. You’re so smart. Also! 🤓☝️ if u are going to send me obnoxious anons, say “you” and not “y’all” I am one goddamn person, address me, not the fandom as a whole. We are having a conversation if you come into my inbox, I’m not your puppet-y vessel to vent ur moronic frustrations through. Anyways, die

#Armand #asks #the vampire armand #amc iwtv

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alexanderlightweight · 2 years ago

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Prompt if you like it! Living!John with platonic John, Lydia, Alec who everyone mistakes as in a group relationship. Bonus for moping Alec getting cuddles/sofa-squishes because the gorgeous warlock he keeps running into is giving mixed messages (because he thinks Alec is taken).

i hope you enjoy how this goes, it kind of didn't go the way intended because magnus wasn't about to risk alec getting swept away. thank you for the prompt

<3 lumine

“What’s wrong?”

John hears Lydia ask and whatever she hears makes her furious, her eyes are bright with a tightly contained anger and she stops undressing to instead tie her back and into a ponytail.

John sighs and gets up himself, knowing that while she won’t ask him to follow wherever she’s headed, that he doesn’t want to be anywhere else.

“Clave?” He asks, because that’s the most likely issue and could be why Lyds is so upset.

She shakes her head and scowls at the wall, hand rubbing her thigh where a sword normally would be.

“Alec.”

John doesn’t ask another question, instead he’s up and grabbing one of their joint go-bags.

“Okay, let’s go.” He says, about ten minutes later when he’s gathered everything, he thinks they’ll need. “If we want to crossover to New York as fast as possible, we’ll need to cut through the City of Bones.”

Lydia winces but nods, because to her — for both of them — the unpleasantness is worth it, if it means getting to Alec’s side when he needs it.

—

“You're getting an arranged marriage?” John asks again, shocked as he sits there and watches as Alec groans and curls further into Lydia’s lap.

He says something but it’s muffled by Lydia’s stomach, and she rolls her eyes, petting his hair slowly as she mouths ‘Maryse and Robert’ across to him.

John locks gazes with her and he knows, that whatever happens they'll not be letting Alec go through this.

Ever.

—

John watches as the warlock, Magnus Bane, sees Alec and immediately zeroes in. It’s as if the rest of the Institute doesn’t matter and while Alec is flustered, he’s not overwhelmed which means this has happened enough for him to get used to it.

“I do not like what I’m seeing.” Lydia mutters, glaring over at the troublesome group Alec’s trying to keep leashed.

“Alec being appreciated?” John teases back, but she doesn’t laugh, and her gaze isn’t on Alec or his admirer.

“They don’t seem surprised or interested in the fact that Bane’s hunting him down. They seem to expect it and Alec’s only here because Jace said he needed to talk to him.”

The implications hit John like a demon horn in the gut.

“They wouldn’t.” He breathes out, quiet as he can as he stops watching Alec and Bane and focuses instead on the other three.

“They would.” Lydia hisses, angry and vicious, “and Alec wouldn’t even realize. Bane probably doesn’t even know either, the way he’s so wrapped up in Alec, I doubt he’s paying attention.”

“Fuck—” John mutters and he knows Lyds hates mundane swears, but she just nods, a short, clipped agreement. “Okay, so you grab Alec and I—”

“No, you grab Alec. I’ll grab Bane.” When John sends her a questioning look, she just shrugs her shoulders with a smirk.

It’s always less dangerous to not know what she’s planning and so John goes along with it. Alec is just as entranced as Bane is and John wonders if he’s going to be able to snap him out of it. However, Lyds has a plan and John is a dutiful, obedient husband “Alec, I need to steal you away for a second.”

John winks at Lydia, not noticing how Bane’s face shutters and goes cold, or how the gleam in his eyes flares when he follows John’s gaze to Lydia.

Instead, John focuses on his task, and he wraps an arm around Alec’s shoulder, pulling him along before he can protest. It only works because Alec is so tongue-tied in front of Bane and while John and Alec don’t agree on aesthetics, he can see the appeal.

Bane is clearly, very powerful and very dangerous.

It’s not a surprise that Alec would be attracted to him.

“What?” Alec asks, sharp and cold and probably irritated but trying to hide it.

“Lydia has something she needs to discuss with you and Bane, but we need to not be obvious about it.”

Alec looks over his shoulder, at where Lydia is approaching Bane and for a moment, John watches as Bane and Alec’s eyes lock. There’s a shiver of danger, an instinct of imminent threat that raises the hair on his neck when he tightens his grip and pulls Alec faster.

—

Magnus is surprised that he’s not breathing actual flames with how furious he is. It’s taken time and patience and so much effort to get the little bit of

And then, out of nowhere two nephilim show up, hoarding his boy to themselves and touching him like Magnus still isn’t allowed to.

Magnus is reminding himself that he can’t smite visiting guests to Alexander’s Institute when he’s approached by the second one. She smiles, all political charm and bright enthusiasm, making small talk that Magnus isn’t in the mood for.

“Actually, I have some of my grandfather’s old notes. I’d love to show you.”

It’s only because Magnus is looking for a reason to cut out her tongue that he picks up on her body language. She’s not as relaxed as she’s pretending and she wants Magnus to follow her, desperately. It’s with fierce amusement that Magnus follows her, mentally hoping she dares to try and trap him.

It would be a lovely excuse to splatter her brain matter across the Institute walls.

Instead, he’s led to a private room and when he opens it, he stares, and he wonders if this was the torture she wanted to inflict on him.

Alexander is sitting on the floor, back resting against a loveseat and another man’s fingers are running through his hair. Alexander makes a soft grunt and then lets his head flop further back, practically in the other nephilim lap.

“How little has he been sleeping?” The blonde shadowhunter asks, concern creasing her face and she ignores Magnus to shut the door and then she’s stepping out of her heels and crossing the room. She bends, pressing a casual kiss to Alexander’s forehead and then she’s leaning over him and kissing the man holding him.

Magnus wonders if he’s about to explode when there is a hoarse, “oh gross. Lyds, you’re not supposed to kiss this close to me. I can hear your tongues.”

There’s a snort, a bitten off laugh that turns into a cough and the blonde is covering her mouth with her hand.

“Sorry Alec,” she murmurs, and she pats his head again. This time, Magnus watches and pushes down the anger, seeing how Alec leans into it, like a cat seeking affection from its humans.

“Yeah buddy,” the male still holding Magnus’ boy says. “I forgot you were there.”

“That doesn’t make it better—” Alexander grumbles and his eyes are still shut; he hasn’t noticed Magnus. “Fuck, John why didn’t you convince Lydia to come train in New York?”

“Because John wanted to try cliff-diving for demons.” Lydia, as Magnus now bothers to remember mocks. “Now listen up, cherub-cheeks. You and Bane need to know something.”

At his name, Alexander startles, eyes wide and pink creeping over his cheeks.

“Alec—” John, Lydia’s husband, starts slowly. “You’re being taken advantage of.” Magnus hisses insulted and starts to draw himself up when he’s sent a panicked glance. “Not you, you’re not the one! Actually, they might also be taking advantage of you.”

“Wait, what are you talking about?” Alexander asks, confused and concerned, “how?”

“Have you noticed a lack of receipts for Bane’s service? For all of Fray's requests and services?”

“They said they had it taken care of. That Magnus accepted the payment.”

“I accepted a necklace, as a onetime payment.” Magnus interjects, not wanting to be spoken for when he’s in the room, especially by people who aren't even in the room. “Nothing more, nothing less.”

“Then why are you helping so much? Sorry, I mean. I’m glad you’re, fuck—”

“He means, why are you helping without payment. You’re the High Warlock of Brooklyn, you should be overcharging, not working pro-bono.”

Magnus blinks, then raises an eyebrow because while she’s not wrong, she’s also clearly missing the point.

“I wanted to see Alexander.”

There’s silence and then Alexander is blushing and turning into Lydia’s husbands’ knee, but Magnus is amused by it this time, rather than furious. Even if he is confused as to why Alexander is acting like this is new.

“Which is up to you. Except where his siblings and Fray lied to him about it. They’ve been using him to get you to practically run errands for them and while I don’t care how you conduct your own affairs, it’s pretty ripe with insubordination. Especially, when he was unaware.”

“Are you suggesting,” Magnus bites out. “That everyone but Alexander was aware of why I’ve been so generous with my time and talents?”

There’s a soft groan and finally, his boy is looking at him with serious, hazel eyes.

“You would have seen me regardless of if you were paid, Magnus. I didnt—” Alexander shrugs and his lashes flutter as his gaze lowers. “It never occurred to me that was why we always saw each other,” and he shrugs.

Lydia and her husband match gaze over Alexander’s head, something fierce and protective between them. A reason for why they are so careful of Alexander, why they want to keep him safe.

“Well, perhaps I can take Alexander out for lunch without interruptions, for once.” Magnus gives Lydia a droll look, knowing she’ll understand immediately.

“Oh, we can definitely make sure there aren’t any more interruptions.” Blue eyes glint dangerously, “I am a liaison of the clave. I’m sure Clarissa Fairchild’s evaluations will take several hours, probably even all day.”

Magnus holds out a hand and Alexander takes it, a confidence to the gesture that makes Magnus’ breath catch. He summons a portal, ignoring that he’s in the middle of the Institute and he smirks at the surprise in Lydia and her husband’s eyes.

“I’ll have him back before the demon strikes.” Magnus taunts, because he’s been more than polite, and it’s been a very trying day. Next to him, Alexander snorts and when he looks over, there’s a soft smile being sent his way.

If this is how Alexander is when he’s not being bothered by his siblings and Clarissa, then Magnus suddenly has a reason to deal with them.

#writing wednesday #writing wednesdays #lumine writes #my fics #my fanfics #my ficlets #shadowhunters #malec #magnus bane #alec lightwood #lumine is tired

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just-1-scorpio · 9 days ago

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Reading Asterion by Alessa Thron, so you don't have to. Chapter 10 and 11.

This is a joined review, made by me, and @wordsmithic

So this time we have a positive.

There were some little bit funny lines. That's it.

So the chapter starts with Asterion interigating Ariadne.

Ariadne tells him everything. With Asterion wanting to kiss her, as if she didn't literally tryd to kill him. And Ariadne is suprisingly fine with Asterion being the Minotaur. We also learn that she is a high priesstes for some reason. And the two come to the conclusion that there is a mole among Asterion's men.

wordsmithic: Isn't it a little early for him to want to kiss the woman who tried to kill him?? I get that she's hot but he shouldn't be THAT relieved to see her

wordsmithic: Ariadne is "The High Priestess"?? I feel like this is a mockery... Has their institution *anything* to do with priests and gods, or are they calling each other "the high priestess" for the aesthetic?? I need answers

scorpio: I was asking that veary same question. So far the temple just seems to be a fency place where Minos lives, and assasins are traind at. But then why are they called priestesess, and why is the place called a temple?

wordsmithic: I have no idea :o still it's not clear to me 🤷‍♀️

wordsmithic: Why doesn't Ariadne care about him being non-Human? It comes down to the worldbuilding again. Are Monsters established to exist in this universe? We read about Medusa in previous chapters but we are not shown if she's a Monster or not.

wordsmithic: And, in any case, shouldn't Ariadne have SOME reaction that Asterion is not who she thought he was? Also, why are these creatures called Magical and not Mythical? They were not born of magic

Then after this, the chapter ends with the begining of a shooting.

Then chapter 11 starts.

So the chapter starts with a gunfight. They hide in the kitchen, and wait till they attackers have to reload. The gun fair stops, and two men get in the kitchen. Asterion quickly kills them, then Ariadne get's a gun. The two then go out, and hurry into the car, and get away from the screen.

wordsmithic: A gunfight follows and the tone is all over the place. Ariadne and Asterion are trying to fight the way out, while half the time thinking how the other one is hot. Exhibit A:

Then they go back to Asterion's place. Him and Theseus have a little argument about Ariadne being locked up in a cell, or staying in a room. It ends with Ariadne getting a room. Asterion's men oviously not like her. We also learn that she probably doas not have the best hold over his workers, but this might not be intentional from Alessa's part.

wordsmithic: This is said by Asterion. Great hold you have over your men, my guy

wordsmithic: This sentence doesn't make sense in general, because Asterion wants Ariadne alive so of course he should tell them NOT to try and kill her??

After this, they go in Asterion's room. Ariadne goas to take a shower, and it's comformed that Asterion is centuries old.

wordsmithic: Aaaaand he's centuries old.. If we are talking about THE Minotaur he should be at least 2.500 years old. From the Minoic age and such

After this, they both get into the shower, Asterion trys to pull out sharpnel out of her and they end up having sex. Okey. I gues. At least the ending of this chapter is funny.

Can I talk about the worldbuilding agein? I have still a lot of questions. What is the temple, and why is it called that? Is it a temple for Phonos? But agein, there were more then one, and are more like a personified spirits (daimones) of murder, and killing out side of the battlefield, so probably not. Do Ariadne and the other assasins have to perform any type of duty out side of killing people for money? Is Minos a priest?

Trying to figuring out anything about the world building of this book at this point feels like this:

#asterion #greek mythology #ancient greek mythology #greek mythology retelling #Review

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disco-elysium-via-polls · 11 months ago

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🎵 Instrument of Surrender

There is something down there...

The musty smell of a potato cellar in spring emanates from the air vent.

We're going to stop by Siileng on our way.

Changing into the White Satin Shirt triggers a new thought.

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Why does art inspire you so much?

It does, yes -- but what *is* art?

No, art is for arrogant blowhards. Why am I getting this?

[Discard thought.]

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Excellent question. Art is a diverse range of visual, literary, auditory, and performative creativity! It's an expression of imagination and technical skill. Additionally, it's history, criticism and pure enjoyment...

In short, art is the highest form of human communication -- representation, narrative, emotion and agency intertwined.

Would I fit into the art world? I mean...

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Have you looked in the mirror lately? You have the exact features of a savage art critic, with that beard and those clothes! Dishevelled and *prophetic*. Perhaps you should try to critique architecture too!

Hold on, is architecture also art?

I guess I *have* been feeling critical lately.

That's stupid. Architecture is stupid.

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Of course not, it's autism. Box-drawing. Masturbation with a ruler and a sextant or whatever they use. You should demean and criticize the genteel institution of architecture. While extolling the virtues of the *pure* arts.

Wait, what about music? Is it art?

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Only the most experimental kind.

I guess I *have* been feeling critical lately.

That's stupid. Architecture is stupid. Music is stupid.

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Yes! You seek substance. No vapid representations and reproductions of social mores, as made manifest in stuffy biennials, we're talking real *living art* here. Become the Art Cop. Half art critic -- half cop.

Wait, but don't I have to be 100% cop -- to get the case finished and all that?

Okay. If 50% art critic is what's needed to free me from rote repetition, so be it. (Opt in.)

No. I cannot risk another copo-diversion at this point. Go away! (Opt out.)

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Quit being so indecisive. What are you going for here? Some kind of indecisive and *camp* aesthetic now? Strike a bold shape here. Go art or go home.

2. Okay. If 50% art critic is what's needed to free me from rote repetition, so be it. (Opt in.)

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Exactly. It's not *only* your duty to only catch the criminals of the street, you must also apprehend criminals of the printing press and the gallery -- the trite and derivative artists and writers of the world!

Thought Gained: Actual Art Degree

Go ahead and provide savage criticisms, Art Cop. The world is yours to rip to pieces and reassemble!

ACTUAL ART DEGREE

Temporary research bonus: -1 Perception: Can't even look at this shit Research time: 1h 30m

Yeah, it's another copotype -- the worst one. The most savage and brutal. The Art Cop. Nothing is good enough for him. Everything is *shit*. You have to employ an armada of adjectives to depict and demean the mediocrity of the works and visual institutions around you. Really *flex* that critical muscle. Until the vocabulary for PUNISHING mediocrity becomes second nature. Here we go...

SIILENG - The shine on these sunglasses lasts a lifetime, officer! One hundred percent guaranteed!"

3. [Conceptualization - Formidable 13] Try again, maybe you can find *some* interesting sunglasses in the box.

CONCEPTUALIZATION - Ah, I see... A pair of waterblue shades. The writing on the left temple says: "Sub-Insulindic Rendezvous." The frame appears to be hand-carved out of bone.

SIILENG - "Oh, very interesting choice, officer, very *high-culture*..." For the first time the street vendor's voice trails off, as he watches you inspect the glasses.

Try them on.

CONCEPTUALIZATION - This is how a sea monster sees the world. You've become a sea monster, Harry -- giant, hidden and... strangely tender at heart. All is blue.

PERCEPTION (SIGHT) [Medium: Success] - Alright, but these actually make your vision worse. It's like literally being under water.

INLAND EMPIRE [Easy: Success] - Yes, but they also make your soul quiver like jello. So deep.

SIILENG - "Wow, officer, you look so cool," the street vendor has picked up his pace again, as you observe the world through deep sea-tinted lenses.

"And they can be yours for a mere three reál. My regular customers have passed them all up because they've got no taste, but *you* found them..."

"Kim, what about these?"

Put them back.

KIM KITSURAGI - The lieutenant tilts his head and steps back, eyes narrowed in a thorough examination. It's a case to him.

"You look like a musician," he declares, eyes still squinted behind his own glasses. "Like a *blind* musician. But you could do worse. Take them if you want."

The Sunglasses "Sub-Insulindic Rendezvous" gives +1 Inland Empire and -1 Perception. Not too useful with our already high Psyche. They also put the entire game under a blue filter.

Ok, we're actually here.

WATER LOCK CONTROL PANEL - A rusting control panel with loose wires dangling out from the hole where an indicator light used to be, and a mechanical lever sitting in the middle.

Pull the lever -- again.

WATER LOCK CONTROL PANEL - You grab the handle and pull the lever up. As soon as the metal connects against the contact pins you hear a loud *clunk*, then...

The water lock starts moving...

Task complete: Close the water lock on Wednesday

+10 XP

KIM KITSURAGI - "Okay..." The lieutenant looks across the canal. "If we ever need to get to the coast, then this is the way. But please, contain your *wanderlust* for now. I don't want us to get sidetracked. Not with everything that's going on."

ESPRIT DE CORPS [Easy: Success] - Focus on one thing, achieve it, then the next... he thinks. That's the task chain.

I prefer to take a more *holistic* approach to detective work.

The radio relay hums with electricity.

Traffic beyond the gate. More abandoned motor lorries.

The sign says "No Entry." Someone's scribbled an inverted star on it.

Prying this panel open with the crowbar, we discover a pair of sunglasses.

JAMROCK BIKER-COP SUNNIES

+1 Empathy: Feel the streets -1 Logic: Leave the reason behind

For taking your Harmel-Rioux Supersonique out for a ride -- on the streets of Jamrock, where your heart is buried.

🎵 Disco Elysium Pt. 1

Someone has broken down the fence *and* the barbed wire.

The swing is missing -- no one's been here for a long time.

INLAND EMPIRE - Rust peels off the bent iron posts of the swing. The wind whistles through the skeleton of the small house behind you. There's desolation... everywhere.

EMPATHY [Medium: Success] - Yet someone used to live here. Laugh here. Thought it was a good idea to build a *swing* even...

"What happened here?"

[Discard thought.]

KIM KITSURAGI - "In this yard?" The lieutenant looks at the small building. A flock of grey swallows takes off in the distance.

VISUAL CALCULUS [Easy: Success] - He's assessing the situation. How long ago was it abandoned.

KIM KITSURAGI - "Someone thought they could have a summer house in a *bloc obscur*. For cheap. It didn't work out. They abandoned it about a decade ago."

"Wait, what's a *bloc obscur*?"

"So this part of the coast is a *bloc obscur*?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "A black bloc, a part of the city left unrenovated after the war. Or one that has fallen to gang violence. Or has become inhospitable in some other way."

"So this part of the coast is a *bloc obscur*?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "Practically. It's not an official term in any way, but..." he spreads his arms, "look around -- no sewage, broken power lines, crime, drunks... Life is tough in the blocs. It's no place to build a summer house."

"Maybe they left something useful behind?"

"You're right -- it's no place. Let's go." [Finish]

KIM KITSURAGI - "Yes -- for you to pick up as part of the Jamrock shuffle." He gives you a weary smile.

ESPRIT DE CORPS [Trivial: Success] - It's not meant as nagging, just an observation.

KIM KITSURAGI - "We should move. I don't think we will solve the murder with forays into the urban hinterland. At least in this phase of the investigation."

"Glory," says the graffito, "to the ghosts of us!"

Someone has left their music collection beneath the tarpaulin.

TAPE "SMALLEST CHURCH IN SAINT SAËNS

The tape you found from a shack on the coast. The A-side has Smallest Church in Saint-Saëns written on it, while the B-side is supposed to contain the instrumental version. Requires a boombox to play.

>INTERACT

There's no way to listen to the tape without a working tape player or porta-reel at hand.

INLAND EMPIRE [Easy: Success] - But even just holding the tape makes you feel a little sad...

REACTION SPEED [Easy: Success] - A pawnshop -- a pawnshop would have a tape player...

Birds in the birch tree -- barely audible coos from above.

There are tyre tracks in the sand here. As we approach them, Harry begins to slow down.

A breaker box to power the radio pylon above you. Maybe there's something inside?

Ahead: decades old concrete defences. Children play on them now.

All that's inside the box is 90 centims. I've been picking up some other loose change and medicine here and there.

A creaking ahead -- a broken axle grinding.

A bottle, drained of all its booze, is frozen to the ice.

BANGED-UP FUEL CANISTER

A dented stainless steel canister for transporting and storing heavy fuel oil. A logo on its side has been partially stripped over years of use. The government-issued red-dyed fuel oil inside looks like paint -- though it smells much, much worse.

LOGIC - This is it -- the scene of the party. The fire pit, cigarettes, and empty bottles all evidence it.

Hold up -- don't you mean scene of the crime?

Yeah. Sure does look like a lot of folks partied here.

(Dismiss thought.)

LOGIC - Not as such. I'm talking about what came after -- the party scene.

Yeah. Sure does look like a lot of folks partied here.

LOGIC - Looks like they were here a while, judging from all the bottles. The sunken motor carriage provided them a focal point -- like a goose ice-sculpture or a chocolate fountain.

"Hey, Kim. Looks like we've had a couple of party-goers here."

Guess I'll be on my way. (Finish thought.)

KIM KITSURAGI - "Looks like it."

"Looks like they had a great time laughing here."

"This was some kind of theatre to them. A circus production by a great clown."

"Was this party against the law? On the ice like this -- it was probably a public danger."

KIM KITSURAGI - "Hey -- let's keep moving, detective." The lieutenant adjusts his glasses.

EMPATHY [Easy: Success] - Somehow he doesn't want to dwell on it...

The ice just off the coast cracks, shifting.

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - A banged up motor carriage lies half-submerged in the icy water, slowly sinking into the Insulindian ocean. Only the cabin top, rear wheels and the engine remain visible.

EMPATHY [Easy: Success] - It must be cold and lonely down there, in the icy water.

VISUAL CALCULUS [Easy: Success] - Remember the tyre tracks in Martinaise? This is where they were leading.

"So this is where all the tracks were leading to!"

KIM KITSURAGI - "It appears to be so." The lieutenant has a peculiar look in his eyes as he inspects the wreckage.

"Let's investigate."

"We don't have time for traffic hooliganism right now." [Leave.]

KIM KITSURAGI - "I agree," the lieutenant replies, his eyes never leave the sunken vehicle. "We should definitely investigate."

INLAND EMPIRE [Trivial: Success] - You get a sudden sinking feeling. Stomach acid comes up as you look at the motor carriage in the deep, dark, cold water.

VOLITION [Easy: Success] - Why the doom and gloom? It's just a sunken motor carriage. Some motor carriages are bound to end up in the sea.

Run your hand over the cold metal.

What is the make of this MC? Can I see a logo?

"How long has it been here?"

"Well, well, well. Looks like Jacob Irw's journey came to an abrupt end here."

"What should we do?"

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - The motor carriage is properly stuck in the ice. Getting it out would require a team of specialists.

2. What is the make of this MC? Can I see a logo?

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - The logo is too deep in the murky water -- you can't make it out. But you *do* see a monkfish float by.

3. "How long has it been here?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "The ice hasn't closed around the vehicle yet..." He leans forward to peek into the cold water. "My guess is it's been here since last Saturday or Sunday."

VISUAL CALCULUS [Medium: Success] - The estimate is correct. The incident probably occurred on Sunday evening.

4. "Well, well, well. Looks like Jacob Irw's journey came to an abrupt end here."

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - Your mocking tone finds no response but the motion of the waves.

"Did you say something, lieutenant?"

"Yes, yes..." (Rub your chin.) "Crazy recklessness."

"Yet another case of the engine displacement triumphing over the driver's IQ."

"Enough gloating. This is serious."

KIM KITSURAGI - "Yes. Quite." The lieutenant seems to be inspecting you more closely than the motor carriage.

5. "What should we do?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "Let's wait for the low tide and see what's inside."

LOGIC [Medium: Success] - Great idea! Then we can get the things inside. The joyrider must have left something good inside. Guns? Papers? Maybe a cool jacket? A joyrider jacket?

ESPRIT DE CORPS [Easy: Success] - A joyrider jacket? You feel a strange connection to this joyrider. Maybe he's from some kind of Joyriders district and likes blue and white racing livery? Like a cop would.

"How long will it take for the low tide to come in?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "I don't know. An hour or two tops."

6. Sit on the swing and wait for the tide to recede.

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - As you sit down in the old, rusty playground, the world around you becomes very silent.

PERCEPTION (HEARING) - The hinges creak under your weight -- dangerously so.

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - Nothing but the sound of seagulls, high above in the sky, echoing like distant laughter. Ice cracks around the blue motor carriage in the sea.

"Hold on, it looks very blue." (Point to the sunken vehicle.)

[Drama - Medium 10] Whistle a tune.

Wait in silence.

KIM KITSURAGI - "Yes, yes, it does."

2. "What's your favourite blue thing?"

KIM KITSURAGI - "Hmm..." The lieutenant is staring at the wreck. "Let me think about it..."

2. [Drama - Medium 10] Whistle a tune.

+1 Art cop.

DRAMA [Medium: Success] - The tune on your lips forms a strange, yet undeniably beautiful contrast with the surrounding bleakness.

KIM KITSURAGI - The lieutenant gives you a quick glance. Then, still looking straight ahead, he joins you with a higher-pitched and slightly more melodic trill.

+1 Morale

+1 Reputation

+5 XP

CONCEPTUALIZATION [Medium: Success] - Two birds on a wire, whistling by the seaside. Looking at the water. And a sunken car.

SUNKEN MOTOR CARRIAGE - The clouds pass in the sky and the shadow of the swing moves like the hour hand on a time piece... Thirty minutes have passed.

RHETORIC [Easy: Success] - Looks like this might take a while. Time to present a good topic for discussion.

#disco elysium #kim kitsuragi #siileng

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impostorsshow · 8 months ago

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I'm thinking about my 7 year old oc again

My "little" rant is below the read more so I don't clog up your feed and there's descriptions for the art with a bit more information in the alt text thingy. I add alt text with personal comments to most of my posts but I saw a post somewhere saying most people don't even realize the feature exists, so I'm just. I'm stating it here it exists I use it

While Jessica was experimented on by an entire institute, there was one main person overseeing the experiment, and that was the guy up there. The original experiment was to see what happened when you combined animal DNA with human DNA, since in this fake world genetic science is a bit farther than ours today, and this particular facility had successfully given animals different attributes, such as a rat gills and and chicken a tail like that of a cat. Despite both those creatures dying within hours, this corrupt motherfucker decided to try and get a human subject, and Jessica's family needed the money. Thankfully, not only did the test of giving her dog dna [idfk I'm a cat person give me a break on the breeds] worked, it turned out she was much harder to kill, and had not grown as expected from a 14 year old girl who's going through puberty and in turn growth spurts.

Anyway yada yada she broke out find out she's immortal whatever. Other notes :

She has a brother. I forgot his name but he did have a name, and was later submitted to the facility before her family found out she was missing at the age of 19 and survived, but he gained a compromised immune system and I might give him mobility aids. His color scheme is mainly green and yellow and I always think of those aesthetic pictures of the shoreline when I think of him. Jessica meeting her brother [now technically 23] is a very big help to her recovery, and while her brother is accepted and loved in their home town, Jessica can't bring herself to come back and usually asks him to visit her on the edge of town or at her house, usually bringing along friends. Eventually the main scientist dies by her hands and she covers it up ["cmon gromit, we have to hide the body! There's not cheese and crackers in hell, gromit!" /ref], and a few years later the facility is shut down due to malpractice and Jessica slowly starts to actually visit the town and her parents. They never have the same relationship they used to, but her parents are just happy she's safe and sound and being taken care of.

Jessica will eventually outlive Flora and inherit her belongings, as Flora lived alone her entire life, her photography career and later Jessica being more than enough to make her happy. Jess would start managing her social media when she got older, and never had the heart to delete anything, inviting her distant family to the funeral and arranging for her to be buried in the woods near her home. She's still visibly 14, and would simply live later with her brother in Floras old home and take care of it the best she could. Her story is about moving forward, and as such, you could say she has an infinite epilogue, rather than my other ocs who never get an ending, and the ones that do are frozen at the very end of it, not meant to go any further.

Jessica isnt meant to be aroace, but I heavily imply it because her never aging causes complications, and this isn't really a vampire example. She and her brother are the only one of their kind, and her brother is still destined to fall at some point, aging slowed dramatically rather than completely stopped. I used to consider giving her a love interest for hours on end, but eventually her being 14 would interrupt it and I just gave up. Flora however, is aroace, sex adverse and is the reason she chose the lifestyle she did.

Speaking of Flora, dispite living in the middle of nowhere in the woods, she's quite the extrovert. She loves nature, and used to be a wildlife ranger before her photography career took off, and often travels around the world to capture wildlife. When she found Jessica and found out she had run away from home, and didn't ask any questions after until they had more trust built up between them, simply providing shelter and care that eventually became a permanent roommate situation. She slowly worked up to taking jobs around the world again, but now that Flora had someone to come back home to, she booked her flights to make sure she could be home as much as possible. I think if Jessica was a normal girl and somehow found her way to Flora, they would spend weeks in Paris and Britain together, Flora never leaving Jessica behind on her trips. Unfortunately, werewolf science experiments would never get past TSA.

I don't know if I've ever said this but hey I'll say it again she used to have actual wolf dna, hence werewolf, hence Jessica Winterwolf, but I learned to draw wolf ears from gacha life and I genuinely didn't know what to do about it and couldn't think of another way of drawing them without them looking like cat ears, so I just made them floppy like a pug. Also Winterwolf is because winter is Jessica's favorite season.

Similarly with Jessica's ears originally being gacha life, I actually conceptualized her fully for the first time with a designed I liked in there, and one of the bits that stuck was the fact that she has crescent shaped pupils that are a lavender shade.

Her existence was heavily inspired by a series named "Harrowed Past" which has now been taken down by the creator, but the characters still live on, you can probably find it if you search up "pip and twitch thedragonhat" which I think is who made it?? Oh well I'll edit the post later if I'm wrong. Twitch was actually the first piece of art/fanart I ever made with the purpose of getting better at art, and I really wish i still had it, but I can't even find a picture i took of it or anything. Unfortunately, the character is really hard to find since his name is shared with the giant streaming site Twitch. I haven't watched the guys stuff in a long while but I think he uses twitch as his main vtuber for streaming nowadays which is cool.

#auegh i forgot the tags i use for jessica #oc art #original ranch dip #art #talk talks #im aware the alt text is for screenreaders but i find it useful to add extra notes in there #its like a little extra secret that not everyone will care to look at but the ones that do get a little reward #and all of my art posts would be like 100 words longer if i didnt use it #i know most people literally do not care and that im actively discouraging people from caring about my oc my making such long posts but #i dont care i love her and i need to talk about her #the tips of jessicas ears as well as her tail used to be purple too but i scrapped it when i changed them from wolf to pug #also i forgot her tail in the bottom image in arguably. the one angle that you could actually see it but im not retaking that picture #that took so long to get correct i dont want to do it again. her tail is also like a pugs though it used to be super long and fluffy and now #its usually curled up against her back or hidden in her skirt which makes it easier to hide #her lab coat in her alt design was how she used to hide it though

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winterarts · 2 years ago

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The Nahda Kingdom Overview

Ah, the great Nahda Kingdom. My home nation. Oh, what a wonderful place it is. Yes, I am a bit biased over this subject, but I’ll try to be as objective as I can. With that settled, let’s begin.

The Nahda Kingdom is ruled over by the God of Soil and the Earth, Khaled Ma’at, as well as the 3 Deital Pharaohs. The God of Soil is known here as the Great Ozymendian or King of Kings. The Ozymendian does not have a direct role in governing the kingdom. That job goes to the 3 Deital Pharaohs: Kemet, Tester of Knowledge, Hedjet, Protector of Knowledge, and Deshret, Judge of Knowledge. Each rule a sector of the kingdom. Pharaoh Kemet rules over Kemet, Pharaoh Hedjet rules over Hedjet, and Pharaoh Deshret rules over Deshret. I know it may be confusing to most why the Deities and the land they govern have the same name. But it is not because the Deities named the land after themselves, instead it is the other way around. As many know, the Great Ozymendian is one of the Elder Gods of Creation, comprised by his 2 other siblings, the Goddess of Nature and the God of Rock. In honor and love of his siblings, Khaled Ma’at turned the land in accordance to each of them. The land closest to the Goddess of Nature was turned into black, fertile dirt, which he later named Kemet. The land in the middle where he mostly resides was left as is, a silvery, grainy soil named Hedjet. Lastly, the land furthest to the east was turned into red sand, named Deshret. It is highly believed that each of the Deital Pharaohs were made using the grain of the soil of each land, and they later on took on the name.

The Nahda Kingdom is the second most technologically advanced nation, only beaten by Chromystal, as well as being the second nation ever formed. Unlike Chromystal’s futuristic aesthetic and hive-like structure, the Nahda Kingdom went more for mix of traditional and modernity. Many of the same structures made thousands of years ago are still being made, but with the twist of being more technologically advanced. It is a blended harmony of the old and the new, making it all the more special. But that is not this kingdom’s specialty, knowledge is.

The Nahda Kingdom is called the Nation of Knowledge for good reason. It has the most prestigious academies, the largest libraries, and the one of the best if not the best education system in the world. Many of the best academies are located here, such as the Ahdaf University, College of Alexandria, and, the highest of them all, the Akademiya of Henbel. As for libraries, the libraries here are mostly part of a system, in other words, it’s all the same library but for different subjects. That’s how large the library here is. Each system is both independent and in tandem with the others. The library as a whole is name the Grand Library of Seshat. The main library is name the Library of Thoth, and a secret compartment of this library is called the Library of Chisisi. This system of libraries contains grand majority of the information in the entirety of the world. It contains books, documents, and writings of culture, astronomy, biology, archeology, history, technology, anything really. But there is one more system of institutions that I have not talked about, and that is the Courts of Ma’at. The main job of these courts is to judge the information that is sent to the libraries and taught at the academies. This way no wrongful information is taught. Although, I’ve heard some rumors that their actual main job is to protect everyone from certain knowledge that can lead someone to madness. Some have even called it Forbidden Knowledge. If these rumors are true , then I wonder what kind of information can make someone mad just by reading it. I will stop here. This was a quick overview of the nation. I will go further in detail later.

Ahmad Ur, out

#worldbuilding notes #world buliding #fantasy world #worldbuilding #fantasy #fantasy worldbuilding #writing fantasy #writing original #creative writing

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krytox205g0 · 6 days ago

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The Netflix Gundam is bad. While I'm generally on-board with more sympathetic representations of Zeon, even Fukui's Zeon that revised neo-Zeon remnants into a postcolonial struggle against a white supremacist Earth Federation stopped short of saying Zeon was a progressive force for good. Gundam Unicorn's primary antagonist were the people trying to bring back the space Nazis who want an order based on spacenoid supremacy and genocide. There is not a moral equivalence between the Earth Federation and Zeon, especially in the era that Requiem chose to re-write. 0079's morality might not be hardline or fanatic, but it wants its audience to denounce fascism. When we watch Gihren Zabi's speech, we're supposed to think, yeah this man is Hitler. Even Gihren's dad straight up says, damn son, you're just like that man Hitler from the history books. The Federation isn't made up of angels fighting evil, we see its soldiers being dishonorable, oppressing civilians and of course, making random children fight in its war (to be honest I think Bandai just wanted teenaged protagonists so that its target audience can identify with/be more likely to buy the toys, this is a long toy advertisement), but they ain't out here fighting disenfranchise people who live in space, they're mostly fighting for their lives dude.

And like, how are these guys worse at writing women than Tomino? Say what you will about the rando lines that are like "boys feel things more deeply than girls" or "she could have been like a mother to me" but they're all infinitely more interesting than the Requiem protag who fights hard "because I'm a mother and want to make the world a safe place for children." Tomino's mommy issues are all about being emotionally distant from others and struggling with vulnerability amidst a cruel adult world steeped in political scheming and backstabbing.

The way Netflix handles the tragedy of Newtypes is offensive to the whole concept. Newtypes ideology is like Space Hegelianism steeped in the aesthetics of 1970s counter-culture and the very real and deadly operations by the state to coopt and contain political radicals. What Netflix showed was some horrible center-right interpretation without any the historical or political context that made characters like Lalah, Char and Amuro fascinating.

Before anyone says "why you making this political?" do you remember Char's Counterattack? Amuro and Char have like, a 20 minute philosophical shouting match where they're lobbing grenades and shooting bazookas. If there were never any sequels to the original show and it ended where its at, we could optimistically read the ending as the beginning of a psychic awakening where people begin to abandon broader political institutions that divide and separate us from ourselves and each other, and enter into the warm embrace of communities of care. The visuals of Amuro, having abandoned the Gundam, floating in space and embracing Fraw Bow and the rest of the White Base cruel doing their best to hold on to each other against the cold backdrop of space could be that Newtype moment Zeon Deikum predicted would happen and all wars would end. But look at all the sequels, the pessimism, the cooption, the state-run initiatives to create Emo empath psychics who are made into killers to maintain state monopoly on violence. Just as Zeonism got coopted by the Zabi family, neoliberalism really has its day. Requiem for Vengeance has none of that. Netflix really took all the gay parts out of Gundam and made it into some Let's Play of a poorly written videogame.

Normies will not win that this Gundam is "not that bad." I did not write a Gundam based plan-inclusive counterplan in quarterfinals of CEDA to let Americans dilute this what is a genuinely beautiful work of art made from an advertisement to sell toys. Yes, the Japanese left's retreat into the culture industry playing with signs as resistance was another instance of capitalist cooption, but like, that's not inconsistent with representations of Asian liberation within the text I'm yapping about right now.

I can say I like the Requiem's robot designs and I like how they depict the Gundam as the white devil but like, that's about it. I think it's fine to say it's enjoyable, but like, it's dangerous and quite frankly disrespectful. The bad Canadian live-action had better political philosophy than this.

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interiorspune · 2 months ago

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Best Interior Designers in Chakan, Pune

Chakan, a developing industrial and residential area in Pune, is now looking to engage professional interior designers for customized and space-saving designs. An interior designer in Chakan works essentially on homes, offices, or commercial institutions, proposing new ideas that include space and shape for beauty as well as use.

What is Offered: The full range of services provided by interior designers in Chakan includes conceptual planning, space optimization, and personal custom furniture design plus the policy of decor selection that will surely enhance any aesthetic aspect of the area. One service area special to them is the programming of modular kitchens and false ceilings and effective lighting solutions. At the same time, designers introduce eco-friendly designs and industrial themes, rather than combine modern appearance with practical design features.

Budget: Apparently the interior designer cost in Chakan will levy generally range from ₹7,700 to ₹19,500 per square meter, contingent upon how huge or how well-crafted the project will get since the materials used and the designs involved will make a big difference. Sometimes renovation projects call for the addition of structural modifications and luxury finishes, which can have other expenses beyond the base price.

Being Inspired by Renovation: Renovation works usually hinge on the attainment of more efficient layouts, bulking up storage, and trying to inject some modern touches into the spaces. Thus it is be it a spruced-up living room or a completely new style for the office, they sure would run such jobs beautifully.

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#interior design #interior decorating #home decorating #architecture #interior designers #Cost #Chakan #Pune

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choicesmc · 22 days ago

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What has your MC been doing since book two? Any specific HCs?

Yea! Va’or has been home hunting. Un only went on the bk1 adventure because Kade was in danger. That was supposed to be it. Once all that was said and done, un was looking forward to going back to Riverbend and tending to un’s garden while figuring out how to make things with Imtura work. Unfortunately, book 2 kind of… happened to unk. Everything just kinda left unk tired and homesick.

But Riverbend isn’t the same place anymore. It’s not the village by the river. It’s the home of the Hero of Riverbend where they throw grand celebrations on un’s birthday where un’s home is a museum for strangers to peek through. So, Va’or’s been trying to find somewhere new to stay while handling the effects of collapsing the realms together 👍

Oh, and trying to figure out what to do with these new feelings for Mal?

How does your MC feel about religion (any kind: Light, old gods, new gods, orcish—nature, something else)?

If pressed, Va’or would probably say un relates to orcish religions the most but that’s not quite true. Va’or simply wants to disappear after death. No afterlife. No joining into the Elements. Simply stop existing.

Honestly, all the other religions make Va’or tired. Generally, Va’or concerns unkself with the material, practical world in a way that leaves un’s spirituality sorely lacking. And… Va’or is not impressed with any of the major religions.

Elves go on and on about justice and balancing one’s debt and the commonhood of the Elf. Va’or, being wheelchair bound, can’t wander around Undermount on un’s own. The elves, for all their talk, don’t believe in ramps apparently. Probably not aesthetic enough.

The Temple, an institution un was largely detached from, keep expressing remorse over not being able to fix unk. It’s not even something unk wants.

The Elements haven’t committed any major offenses tbf, but becoming part of the world after death is both terrifying and tiring. Va’or doesn’t want to exist past death. Death should be it!! Un’s soul should be permanently gone!! In book 2, un wanted to be cremated so no part of un’s body lingers around. Joining the chorus of the world after death sounds so much worse.

How does your MC feel about death and the afterlife?

For a lot (if not the whole) of Book 2, Va’or felt like un was living past death. The day un gained consciousness and escaped was the day un was resurrected. As in, Va’or holds the private belief that in hadn’t been unconscious, un was just dead. And un only came back to life because the Watcher willed it so. The same way Va’or willed Nia back to life in book 1.

It’s not that Va’or doesn’t know un is alive. Far from it, but being alive no longer feels real. There’s a disassociation between unkself and life that didn’t exist in book 1. And it’s so hard being there for the rest of the group when un is slowly losing the will to keep going. Frankly, Va’or was just going through the motions —no different from an actor in a play.

At the end of Book 2, Va’or had resolved in unkself to take a break and focus on feeling alive again!! But, refer back to question one, un hadn’t had the chance for that to happen yet. Between dealing with the after effects of collapsing the realms and trying to make things with Imtura work and going home hunting for somewhere quiet, there wasn’t time to take things slow.

And then Va’or dies. Like, really dies. And, un is not quite sure what to think.

Get to know our Blades MCs: Week One

What has your MC been doing since book two? Any specific HCs?

How does your MC feel about religion (any kind: Light, old gods, new gods, orcish—nature, something else)?

How does your MC feel about death and the afterlife?

[Blades of Light & Shadow 3 Book Club]

#tiny tidbits #va’or #blades of light and shadow #there’s been a little dev since then #but I think this covers where Va’or is at the start of bk3

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hanzi83 · 2 years ago

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Wrestling Racism Discourse

Whenever I think maybe for a week I can stop doing a blog because I got my thoughts out plus I am doing it often on the podcast, and whenever I tell myself I am not going to be sucked into the wrestling discourse, you know I always end up giving in because they can manage to have so much thrown at you and if you are online consuming it and other promoted mental illness, someone like me who has mental illness, starts feeling really vitriolic to the system that helps organize and gimmick the discourse where we still don’t want to admit we are basically playing characters online who are trying to act like human beings and I feel I am one of few who is trying to break through from this real life kayfabed shit, and because this discourse is planned out, even if the lawsuit goes nowhere, the fact that is has become cannon online, is basically the system playing with people’s emotions, having their shills set more fires as the world is burning, we need to add more comedy to the situation because apparently we don’t have enough of that in our world. In the last decade, they promoted more diversity and inclusion even if it was still limited, I thought we were going in a more revolutionary direction, but it feels like so much as imploded, that we are now pushing back against the system that is racist, and people who used to claim to be truth tellers are now making excuses for larger racist issues, but will call out the most transparent and cartoonish, over the top shit, like people complain about forced diversity when it seems like a liberal agenda but I never remember a time where the ideology of white supremacy has now a diversity headcount, normally people like that go off on forced liberal minded shit but when people realistically call out the system for the racism, then all of a sudden the people who shit on the diversity head count then use it as a badge of honor when bigger issues get brought up. Like even this situation with the writer who is suing the company, there has to be this fucking doubt about if she can prove this matter, but hasn’t there been enough obvious racism and corruption to kill any benefit of the doubt for this company. If I put this specific situation to the side, in my personal opinion, these entertainment institutions have always had their hand in fundamentalist level shit and it is obvious by who they are aligned with politically, how this alleged mafia world can destroy people’s lives for exploitation so there can be a future documentary about the fall of that person, because once you are a public figure, especially these days, everything is for sale. I know people online want to act like that is not realistic, while they continuously get worked by planted online narratives, and having to cling on to a kayfabed reality of WWE being pure because they momentarily got rid of Vince so you could prolong your unhealthy obsession for this fandom. This isn’t one of those “You people” type of rants, because I feel bad for the brainwashed, and I have empathy for people who used to be human but now reduce themselves to be uncharismatic cookie cutter regressive edge lords, because the system is gonna destroy them. You can get mad at what I say as you and your group chats secretly analyze and make elitist jokes, you can keep doubling down, but the more and more you cross the line in the secretive way you do, it will eventually seep it into your mind, some people can make break free from there but some of these people enjoy this way too much, it feels like you could very well be broken for a very long time, and if it is not there mentally, your nice aesthetic could crumble down. That is how exploitative and mentally ill I perceive the system, even if you don’t buy into my “conspiratorial narratives” I can at least look at the patterns of stuff in the political and entertainment world. There has to be a reason why there seems to be some kind of far right wing pipeline from pro wrestling and since we are headed into a world where we are sports entertaining ourselves into fascism, it becomes scary to see what kind of mindset and regressive shit influential people are doing.

So these pitches were so over the top and I am not saying they are not problematic at all but I feel since everything becomes material for online narratives, it feels a way for the attitude era reboot online to amplify the racist shit and kind of in an “ironic” way try to amplify the ideas because they want that reality and they constantly will advocate for it but if they have to see someone who is out of the closet and using their identity as part of their character, you have to see people like that cry about it because they might accidentally get an erection because they are self hating closeted people who have embraced sensationalist anti LGBTQ shit and that isn’t people who “don’t give a fuck” they have to make it seem like that so it feels like it is the early 2000’s again and like most bigots they rather be problematic as the cool straight guy rather than doing it because there is self hatred there. No one who is am employed social climber online politicking for a gig can be taken seriously about their takes on these limited guise of racism, when you have reduced and dumbed down Vince McMahon to an America’s dumbest criminal level villain who randomly calls every other black employee Shelton, because if we make up a narrative that is spread online so we can embrace made up shit and think we are owning Vince. People who got their gigs have tried to discredit everyone who called out a racist system, and didn’t have a mental breakdown the appropriate way. I don’t forget. AEW shills don’t have a leg to stand on when a lot of people piled on Big Swole for not even saying anything too offensive, but valid criticism, she could’ve even gone deeper I feel, but even that tamed down criticism had to push a bunch of racists to call her all kinds of names, and then a bunch of the mentally ill shills, not the over the top mentally ill shills, but the ones who create chaos so they can act out them being the “Jim from the Office” role, those mentally ill shills then suddenly had problems with the company and they could only do it so we facilitate the fucking ego of someone who has already been vindicated in CM Punk. Not saying I don’t empathize with the guy and understand being in an abusive and mafia system it will fuck you up, but sometimes it feels like he has been so into this system that he is creating his own problematic cult and it only matters when he fucking gets screwed over but because someone like Swole is not a big star, it is okay to pile on her and throw her away. Sorry that shit is not acceptable. I will always bring it up. People also owe ACH a fucking apology, and a bunch of these fake ass shit head mental health advocates online saying “Just because you are mentally ill, or have a break down, doesn’t men you can be an asshole” I am not saying if someone crosses the line you don’t prevent it from getting worse, but dealing with a racist system and it goes deeper than just a racist shirt, already dealing with enough of pressure that comes from being a minority in this world, especially a mafia industry that has had some of the worst racism, mental and physical abuse, and corruption, and people gave him a more aggressive exile because he didn’t mentally ill the right away and these people don’t actually care about mental illness because they don’t disclose what drives mental illness to be fueled and they don’t talk about the layers upon layers that could break someone down.

I am just saying we will look back at racism and past ignorance and denounce it and pat ourselves on the back because it isn’t like how it was back then, but the systemic shit has never fully been explained in this mafia world, and you don’t know how much this shit has advanced and we have paid social climbers to keep up a limited narrative and a lot of times it has lead to going more to the regressive side. This is why people take wrestling seriously because this has seemingly been the playground for other fields and industries have taken from to put out in the atmosphere to manufacture consent. Like when people had an issue with the Apollo Crews character, people online were told that it is racist to not give this shit a chance and it made me second guess myself, because maybe it would be used to mock racism from society and WWE has done that before in 2005 when the Mexi Cools debut, their initial promo was about how this is how America sees them and sarcastically encouraged them to mock them and then proceeded to call the crowd gringos, and then it never got mentioned again and it went on to just be the standard stereotype and this is what Apollo Crews’ gimmick turned out to be. It feels because someday there will be a documentary correlating past shit with current controversies that are real but they are presented gimmicked, this is why they keep throwing repeated documentaries and introducing them back into the public sphere because there will be more twists and turns. If you accept that this might be the reality then it would expose how exploited cogs in the system turn out to be fucked up mentally and some will just go into major depression or others become more successful even if they become more mentally ill, but now they will use their mental illness to use resources where you can fund social experiments and causing more chaos into the world. It feels between the 9/11 character, telling Bianca to talk more “ghetto”, Shane Thorne being a guy who hunts people and one of the people pitched was Reggie, which is not good aesthetic, it feels like it is just another way for WWE to further cement themselves as villains because they have been going that way in general, and when their political affiliates will regain whatever power, they will double down on creating a more regressive product. Like it is easier for the fandom and maybe some of the analysts for this to exist so we can keep denouncing this, but no one is gonna politic for more progressive characters, like when Muhammed Hassan appeared, normally I would get mad that some Italian gets to play the Muslim and for a reduced stereotype, but because I felt his promos in the beginning for inclusive for Muslims to feel like they had a valid gripe against the racism, I felt like I was included, it seems like they will make sure to put effort that there is nothing radical about any character. You can’t even have characters acknowledge in kayfabe there has been racist behavior normalized. MCU just finally started doing that shit, and even in a limited way people will shit on it but they are okay with the regressive shit existing because they can pretentiously denounce it but actually wanting that discourse to exist. We have become parodies in that regard. You would think some of the progressively minded people in the industry would advocate for that, since by default regressive shit is the right wing status quo. People gained credibility for calling out another cog in the system in Hogan who I feel has been designed to be this scandal like figure because that is where the entertainment storylines were going, but what gave it away that it was gimmicked for Hogan mainly, people were ignoring other racists like Flair and we waited until sexual harassment claims to “cancel him” but is he really canceled or was this another way for another celebrity to make this right wing pivot. Again everything I am saying might have some truth, but these are my opinions. Remember you who decided I was to be irrelevant and discredited have weaponized my mental illness, so I am not allowed to use my mental illness to put out theories since I am not important to the masses anyways.

So this woman will probably have to deal with harassment and people downplaying her claims and they will have trolls look up shit she ever posted and discredit her so they can knock another minority down a notch like you did for that other woman writer who WWE hired and then suddenly the radio shows like Busted Open and other shitty system shills, ones who claim they don’t even watch WWE, suddenly were invested in destroying this women’s life, making fun of her comedy even though their online boosted humor is not that enthralling and I have seen it done by better people. Like even with Mercedes leaving right, I feel like because WWE has systemic control of the entire industry because they are that powerful in my opinion, I feel like when people leave and go onto shine somewhere else, they still orchestrate the booking so Mercedes is supposed to do better outside WWE because they never properly utilized her in kayfabe despite having a loyal following and because Noami is not on Mercedes’s level as far as internet credibility etc, people think they know what her limitations are and make her seem like she is irrelevant and not as talented because she may have not have had the best storylines in the WWE, like WWE doesn’t do a good job limiting people’s full potential, but besides being really athletic, in 2015 before Becky/Charlotte/Sasha aka Mercedes debuted, Naomi was killing it on the mic, she didn’t flat out called out racism, but her promos had that tone of her not getting as many opportunities etc and it was really compelling and people forget that and even though I liked Team BAD, it felt like it kind of didn’t ride out the momentum of what Naomi’s character could’ve been, and I saw potential, and despite her booking she has gotten cosigned by Beyonce and people are into her, but even in the “outside the WWE” narrative, you have a bunch of paid social climbers always doing subtle racist shit and rooting for her to fail and acting like she can’t be anything bigger and a lot of it is fueled in racism. This shit is normalized and this isn’t just random crazy assholes, these people in my opinion are funded by the system to constantly put that out there. So this racism is beyond this over the top scandal that is leaking out and it won’t get any better, it will just create more limited conversations that will always end up bargaining with the right wing side so they can always sneak in their fucking bigotry and ignorance while people are not allowed to have revolutionary characters, they want the regressive nature of bra and panties matches, but they are scared to have another Nation of Domination, or another Muhammed Hassan. We have to give this industry the benefit of the doubt constantly and present it like a mom and pop shop and compare Vince to whatever cartoonish boss from your favorite fucking television show.

You have to understand how the entertainment we consume daily and has been part of our lives have helped encourage this manic behavior. I was on Stern Show, i don’t know if any of you reading knew about that, it is not like I ever mention it or anything but when his fandom, the regressive types missed his 90’s persona of ignorance because they viewed him going politically correct, so to appease that fandom I felt I needed to say the craziest and most shock jock level thinking even if Howard Stern officially says he doesn’t support that, he will say if you are interesting he will ride with your call, but if you try to act normal he will get rid of you and only when he sense some instability in your head he will amplify you up and laugh at the regressive shit so you feel kind of pressured to do that shit but officially I can’t really put it on Howard, even though you have a feeling someone of his stature wants that kind of shit, so when people think that this shit in WWE is so random and over the top, what kind of culture has that company fostered where people think this is the stuff that would get approved. We have to continuously give these entertainment institutions and corporations the benefit of the doubt. Don’t think because I don’t get my face punched in, that people with power will use their power to amplify more shit to fuck with me, or make my life more uncomfortable. Everyone can be touched, I don’t ever think nothing won’t happen to me, I know I have their attention with my blogs, that is why there has to be extra effort to drive me crazy by having more more ignored and not acknowledged but they miscalculated because they figure I would just explode and go away but me giving my opinions about how this could play out or how this might be playing out, they do get nervous and they have to align with the trolls who have harassed me over the last decade, they have been on the low right now, but when they are on the low that is when I feel the real planning is going on. And anyone who tries to speak about about shit in various ways other than the kayfabed and limited shit, people get fucked with, but I just lose my mind when I see calculated racism being used while we try to create other gimmicked ways for this to be presented. I am supposed to take people’s concerns about physical health seriously when people love to amplify situations where people’s lives are more in chaos and you are making their followers worse mentally since everyone is now kind of part of a cult. Instead of talking about how this mafia industry could possibly have their initiations and sacrifices to the system where injuries are supposed to happen, trust me if they didn’t want injuries to happen, they could easily fix shit to prevent shit in this day and age. Again my personal opinion, like what MJF said which was in real life kayfabe because he mentioned the pay window and winning the match but I hate when these people tweet and delete and then the company’s shills can lie about the responses it got that they swear were so vitriolic, not saying there isn’t that but generalizing the fans when the system is the one who trains these people to accept this. Ever since the Benoit/Eddie situations, people read the riot acts of how it needs to be more safe and it took a while to getting used to because of the attitude era made us immune to thinking it was a big deal, so now you had a generation give a shit about what these people face, and now we are undoing it more and people can’t just change it so now injuries become subject of discourse. So if MJF really gave a shit, he would call out the bosses that want that kind of shit to happen, in fact people will think WWE is too clean cut on some level, but I feel they advocate for it to happen in other organizations because to me it is part of the initiation process, and maybe someday it can change. Also the way these athletes are this day and age, nothing makes sense, I don’t believe it is just good exercise and healthy living, I will be fully conspiratorial right now and think that there is like a fucking super serum these mother fuckers are taking, maybe they can even afford an illuminati clone, who fucking knows. It is impossible for someone like Bobby Lashley to look 20 times younger than he was 20 years ago. This is why I say these celebs are not like regular people, doesn’t mean they don’t deal with some serious shit but they have to make shit relatable, but I don’t disagree with MJF’s sentiment of not trying to kill yourself, and these companies constantly promoting it while pretending they take the health seriously, if I am judging it by the basic rules you are applying, then it just shows me how exploitative the entire thing is. Maybe that is why I cling on to these shitty conspiracy theories because I wouldn’t want to believe people are this fucking soulless that they even have to practice how to emote human vulnerability on queue. So when sports entertainers shills start generalizing the entire community it gets fucking annoying and as much vitriol as I have for other cogs in the system, my main anger is and will always be this shitty system that creates this hell hole yet we continuously give free passes to it and we love to have these heel turns take place, you know John Mulane is going heel, he planted his seeds by first having people hate him for the parasocial shit of him breaking up with his girlfriend, I don’t care about that shit because most of these celebs are in open or fake relationships, part of their storyline arc now is their relationships, then they gimmick his whole appeal about his drug addiction so now it gets used so it can create art, but on tour he brought out Chappelle unadvertised and not being considerate to people who maybe wouldn’t have gone if they knew he was there, and now the John Cena Hollywood hairdo, it is signs of someone going to be used to being a fucking heel since everyone is becoming one these days. These political analysts will reduce and dumb shit down so we are in this right wing vortex of Candace Owens and Steve Crowder so even though they are both pieces of shit, we have to love one side for a little bit, because again everything has to be levitated with comedy and we just continue to water down that more. And you wonder why I just watch Sopranos rewatches, because nowadays I think humor is at its most useless. I am not saying there isn’t anything funny but it feels like everything has to have humor latched onto it and when we keep doing that, we are watering this shit down, haven’t you gotten sick of that already? Does everyone have to be a fucking comedian? This world is going to shit and every day they are normalizing more shitty laws and continued oppression of marginalized groups only for us to represent the issue by what a celebrity is going through but then we have to sports entertain that too, where we are not getting to root causes of some of the repeated behavior in this world. And for what? More documentaries, more social climbers to aspire to be the main character in this discourse. This is how unwell our entire society is and I know, I know, you will get more mad at me rather than getting mad at the people who helped create this and help fund it. Everyone has to devalue everyone and I am not fucking different, I don’t like getting all irrational and lash out because I feel people are selling their soul and to make shit worse and become status quo type of people, why would I want to root for people to get more success so they can become more awful, because the system tries to make you that, some people are not completely gone and they try to counter the propaganda to some degree, I don’t want to be nihilistic, just because I don’t have desire to be in this world as it continues to crumble, doesn’t mean I don’t want other people to be happy in the future and maybe they can be free from this shit on some level. So you might not like my fucking message, but maybe on some level I am sabotaging myself from getting a gig because if I do, then I will have to become a soulless hypocrite who is being lured into the dark side, I can get myself canceled and then blame the wokeness for it and because these people who get canceled want to hang on to relevancy, the right wing are the only ones saving them, and I know I am not likeable, maybe I would be a better committed heel, it sure as hell easier than trying to be the good guy, but I want to maintain not being a full piece of shit where I fucking trivialize people who have a right to be angry at the system for the shit they do to people, the constant trauma, I am supposed to join that side and become an elitist so I can put people down because I can’t lash out at the real powers that are making me this miserable person. I might never find peace, and I have accepted that, but I don’t want to end up being regressive, I don’t want to be the guy who becomes more conservative the older I fucking get. Maybe being irrelevant and being able to express my irrational thoughts has made it a bit easier not to fall into regressive habits, because anyone who tries to collaborate with me, seems like they are sent to be the voice of the system narrative and keep an eye on shit I am saying. Again if this is not true, again chalk it up to my mental illness and reduce me to a guinea pig and parody that you mock because I don’t want to be an elitist type of person, I don’t even want to be around that kind of shit. If these people wanted to make this industry more exciting, they would let real inclusion to get a voice instead of a diversity headcount, you want everything else back from the shitty and overhyped attitude era, but you don’t want any progressive shit and since we live in an era where it is post BLM protests of 2020, it feels like it is like how it was 20 years ago, where they pushed back against social consciousness and we marketed fake anti establishment people like an Eminem, or Steve Austin, or a fucking Tony Soprano, and we are doing that now, where the person who is “anti establishment against wokeness” gets more traction than someone who wants some more revolutionary change and someone claiming shit is racist, they have now pushed back against it because they might use sensationalist examples of people who had agendas or shadiness behind them to discredit their entire point. So yeah it sucks, and I know me being sad about this going this way is music to people’s ears but trust me, as much as you hate me for going about it the way I am, one day you will be faced with having to deal with these thoughts and the more you double down it will keep getting worse but maybe you are in a mind state where you don’t need to worry because being protected by the system you don’t have to be accountable. I have to be accountable, I have to put disclaimers because I can’t technically prove every theory I have and I don’t expect people to believe me 100 percent and that is fine, I have to accept it. But you have to accept that not everyone has to go down the regressive lane and get a bag to help make the world worse, because when I was dumbed down, me putting energy into shit that I didn’t know was destructive, is bad enough for me and I always tried to look at all angles because even the conspiracy world has even limited people’s thinking and they are the ones who think they are critical thinkers.

Anyways per usual, this blog gets out of control, but every day the wrestling world knows how to fucking get me to react to this nonstop discourse over and over. I look like the biggest hypocrite who can’t separate from this shit, I really wish it was not this way. I hope there is some progressive revolutionary shit but chances are we are not ever getting that, the more people who buy into the system, they will then have their propaganda that they will be okay with even if it means you can kind of be forward thinking to some degree. Who fucking knows. I clearly don’t have the solutions because look at me, I am irrelevant and my aesthetic is all the wrong things with this fucking world apparently but you guys are good looking and have suits and are going to important events etc, so clearly you are the better person because there hasn’t been a fucked up person who has a nice aesthetic before, but you have the propaganda machine creating villains to match the aesthetic so when they discover my blogs and podcasts, you can lump me in with the worst, and I accept people will assume the worst, but as long as I know I am not the biggest piece of shit on this planet, I will sleep as comfortable as I can be. But whenever this discourse gets propped up, this is what the system wants, mentally ill behavior where we are at each other's throats. So maybe you didn’t like how I put this shit out there, but I am sick of the same repeated discourse over identity politics when there is not gonna be a real solution presented, it is just designed to push back so people can say that political correctness and wokeness is what is driving this world crazy and not the normalized fundamentalism within the guise of entertainment taking us into a more fascist future. Congratulations I guess.

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