#stop encouraging my rambling or will start writing and publishing novels in their names x

[ungraceds]

it'd   be   hypocritical   for   him   to   psychoanalyze   the   other   ,   especially   with   his   messy   track   record   ,   but   can't   help   the   way   he   tries   to   pick   him   apart   piece   by   delicious   piece   .   wanting   nothing   more   than   to   dive   into   that   pretty   head   of   his   and   see   how   deep   the   waters   go   .   "   seems   like   you   have   a   knack   for   chasing   things   that   aren't   good   for   you   ,   "   hums   in   consideration   ,   "   your   feet   ever   get   tired   ?   "   as   if   he   isn't   the   worst   thing   for   him   .   for   anybody   .   but   even   that   knowledge   does   nothing   to   satiate   the   beast   roaring   its   ugly   head   at   the   notion   that   he's   leaving   on   the   arm   of   anybody   else   here   .   gaze   sparks   at   his   bullshit   response   ,   "   half   -   price   drinks   ,   huh   ..   "   palm   flies   up   without   warning   to   grasp   the   back   of   his   neck   and   yanks   his   head   back   until   it's   tilted   perfectly   for   him   .   if   only   he   were   always   this   pliant   .   leans   in   close   ,   their   noses   brushing   as   he   inhales   deeply   and   a   big   ,   wolf   -   like   grin   stretches   across   his   lips   .   "   then   why   don't   i   smell   any   liquor   on   your   breath   ?   "   their   eyes   lock   and   he'll   hold   him   there   just   like   that   ,   for   a   few   inappropriate   beats   ,   before   slowly   releasing   him   .   "   your   world   may   not   revolve   around   me   ,   but   i   know   i'm   in   your   head   and   i   bet   it   drives   you   fuckin'   crazy   .   "   gaze   falters   to   the   delicate   bob   of   his   throat   and   teeth   clench   with   the   urge   to   sink   in   ,   and   bite   .   claim   him   as   his   own   when   he's   far   from   it   .   always   so   eager   to   remind   him   of   it   ,   too   .   like   now   ,   when   he's   spouting   out   at   the   mouth   about   being   on   his   knees   for   somebody   else   .   like   he   wouldn't   burn   the   whole   place   to   the   ground   just   to   prove   a   point   .   drops   his   head   again   ,   lips   ghosting   over   his   ear   as   a   large   palm   boldly   settles   on   his   hip   ,   "   keep   talking   like   that   and   i'll   bury   him   six   feet   under   with   my   bare   hands   .   him   ,   and   whoever   else   you're referring   to   .   is   that   what   you   want   ,   baby   ?   because   i'm   happy   to   deliver   .   "

cruz can't even bring himself to be offended. it is something he should work on, but that would require a little too much self-reflection and he's not quite ready to dive into that mess. thinks if he was to even dare crack the floodgates open an inch then he'd drown. " maybe, " he shrugs, like it's oh so casual. like standing here talking to kash doesn't make him second guess everything. " but i don't think i'll work on that tonight, or anytime soon. " he's clinging to it — or he's trying to at the very least — the composure that seems to be slipping from his white knuckled grip with every passing second. he fears that the other can see right through him, that despite everything he's trying to conceal, his eyes give it all away. " half-price drinks, " he's quick to respond, though the truth is he isn't even a big drinker, has always preferred the feeling of getting high than getting wasted, " too good of a deal to pass up. hard as it might be to get through your head, my world doesn't actually revolve around you. " in this moment it feels like it might, however. every other voice drowned out, focus entirely on kash and no matter how much he wills it, he can't tear his doe-eyed stare away. caught in a trap, just like he always seems to be. chest to chest and now there's a lump in his throat, swallows it down a little too noticeably. threatens to spread goosebumps across his skin and kash hasn't even touched him properly yet. he might feel pathetic if there wasn't such a rush at the mere thought of it. " yeah, " he exhales, smoke filling the space between offering him a moment of reprieve, " a lot of people prefer me like that. i'm sure he won't be an exception. " but he doesn't really want to leave with him, does he ? not now. not when it's so clear that part of him still belongs elsewhere.

[seriouslysam8]

For the ask game, would you please answer questions numbered 2, 8, 14 (all of your titles have such cool names), 18 (I hope Abditory isn't one of them as that story rocks), 21, 24, 29, 30, 33, 34, 44, 51, 62, 76, 82, 85, 88, 90, and 98.

Sorry for asking so many, but I love your work! Entombed gave me so many feels! I found your stories because author Breanie said to read them in her author's notes. Best rec ever! Thank you for answering.

Wow, that is a lot of asks! Thank you so much for wanting to know so much about little ole me. I think I hit them all in this and my apologies if I missed one. Let me know if I missed one. @breaniebree is awesome and my writing BFF. She is amazing, and I love her.

2) What fandoms do you write for and do you have a particular favourite if you write for more than one?

So, I’ve written for The X-Files, Supernatural, and Harry Potter. I currently only write for Harry Potter. I would say Harry Potter has always been the most fun.

8) Where do you take your inspiration from?

Random shit. Brontide came to me because I was browsing the HPFanfiction subreddit looking for a story suggestion and someone asked for a story where Harry was addicted to Felix. Only one unfinished dimensional time travel story was listed. It idea sparked me to write my own version. Entombed came to me because I was rewatching Buffy the Vampire Slayer where Buffy was buried alive. I knew I wanted to bury Ginny alive. As I stated in the author’s notes of last Kalopsia chapter, I drew inspiration from the Djinn storyline in Supernatural. I write about things I know, too. I have young kids at home so I like writing the Potter children as young because I can mimic their mannerisms in my writing. I’ve even asked my kids to say certain words to emulate their speech pattern in my writing if I’m writing that age group.

14) How did you come up with the title for the XXX? You can ask about multiple stories.

I HATE coming up with titles. My newest trend has been to literally Google “unique words”. There are a ton of Pinterest accounts who make fancy word and definition pictures. I scroll through all these little unique words and pick out ones I think fit a story. Sometimes I Google a unique word for BLANK and see if I can get a cool version of that name. @breaniebree actually helped me with Entombed.

18) Do you have any abandoned WIP’s? What made you abandon them?

Sadly, I would put Abditory in this category. Never say never though. I think about it from time to time. Honestly, I abandoned it due to such a negative response I was receiving and the lack of positive response. I became discouraged. It wasn’t even negative response due to my writing, it was literally a bunch of “why would you waste your time writing a story about the biggest plot hole in the books? JKR butchered the whole SK storyline and it’s unbearable to read.” So, basically, my reviews and PMs were filled with JKR hate over that plot point in the books. They heavily outweighed the positive reviews I received. Honestly, I think that’s why a bulk of stories get abandoned - lack of positive reviews or enthusiasm for a story. If I didn’t get so many great reviews for my stories, I don’t know if I’d be able to finish them or continuing writing new ones. Fanfiction is free, (as it should be) but it’s a lot of time and hard work. A little appreciation goes a LONG way. So, my advice, review everything you love reading and encourage writers to keep writing. I always say in my authors notes that reviews make me want to write and inspire me. That’s the truth. The moment I stop getting reviews will probably be the time I take a writing break again.

21) Tell me about another writer(s) who you admire? What is it about them that you admire?

@breaniebree. I mean she’s dedicated years to a single story with so many plot lines and characters that I’m amazed she did it. She’s a fantastic writer, and I definitely consider her my writing BFF. I feel like I’ve learned a lot from her and enjoy talking about writing with her so much. I’m so glad we’ve become friends.

24) How do you feel about writing smutty scenes?

Horrified. Anytime I get a little steamy in my stories, it goes immediately to @breaniebree who usually adds way too much smut and then I cut it down to still be somewhat PG-13 in order to appeal to a wider audience.

29) Do you have a story that you feel doesn’t get as much love as you’d like?

I feel like Kalopsia isn’t getting as much love as my other stories. I’m way behind in my normal review count per chapter. I wonder if it’s just the confusing storyline or if it’s just not as fun to read? But I was definitely worried it wouldn’t get the love I thought it deserved when I started writing it and it’s lived up to that expectation.

30) In contrast to 29, is there a story which gets lots of love which you kinda eye roll at?

Cronus Rising. People still recommend it occasionally and I still get random reviews. I’m like, “why????” Its horribly written and a stupid plot line. I literally was getting back into writing after not writing for a good five years, so it’s abysmal. I’ve often wanted to rage delete it.

33) What’s the biggest compliment you’ve gotten?

When someone tells me I should write an original novel and they’d buy the hell out of it. I do have some original novel ideas floating around (one I’ve been writing since I was like 15), but crippling fear of rejection from publishers have stopped me from ever actually finish an original novel.

34) What’s the harshest criticism you’ve gotten?

I got some criticism in Brontide for having drama for drama’s sake with no real purpose or goal for said drama. I felt my drama served a purpose, drove the story along, and I add a lot of fluffy and cute family moments. I feel like in real life, when you to your loved one is going through sometime, it feels like nonstop drama and bad news and like a dark cloud just follows you. I wanted to emulate that in real life. So Harry’s POV was often drab because HE was the one going through something horrific and it was all doom and gloom for him.

44) What is the last line you wrote?

“You never think I listen to your ramblings, but it’s kind of hard to block out, mate.”

51) From one to five stars, how would you rate your writing? (No downplaying yourself!)

Um... I’d say a 3. I think I have some good and unique plots for stories but sometimes I struggle on how to execute those on paper effectively. I struggle with descriptions, action, and showing rather than telling. But I do think I’m good at dialogue and capturing a character’s personality. So, 3.

62) Tell us about a WIP you’re excited about.

A lot! I have a Teddy/Victoire stalker story in the works that I’m excited about. I have (this is going to sound weird) but an outsider rom-com planned where Ron/Hermione breakup right before Hinny’s wedding and Hinny struggles to get them back together before the big day. I have a Potter family vacation fluff/comedy story planned. I have a game night one-shot planned. I have a short story about Luna’s wedding. So many that I want to write and don’t know which one to write first!!

76) Is there anything you’ve wanted to write, but you’ve been too scared to try?

I’d say no. I’ve always tried to write my ideas down. Some I’ve never finished because inspiration peters off and some I plan on finishing once my newest big project is done.

82) Summarize a random fic of yours in 10 words or less.

Harry goes through some shit, and Ginny is his soulmate.

85) Ramble about any fic-related thing you want!

I don’t understand why people don’t ship Harry/Ginny more. I don’t understand the Harry/Daphne obsessions (like just why???) or the Harry/Hermione ship at all. I always see people asking for story recommendation and they specific say “no Harry/Ginny”. They are literally perfect for one another and they are soulmates.

88) If you could ask one other fanfic author three questions about their writing, writing process, or works, what would they be and who would you ask?

@breaniebree .

1.) How do you organize all your charts? Send me the ALL the charts. Because I don’t understand how you keep everything straight!

2.) How do you write so much? You’re like a little writing machine in a cute little package.

3.) Where do all the ideas come from? In a dream? Just thinking? Driving? Do you write everything out in your head like meeee? Can I have some of your writing mojo?

90) How do you process and deal with negative reviews?

I obsess over them. I analyze them. I may get bummed out and not write for a few days. If you don’t like what I write, then don’t read or review. It’s a hobby. I do this for free. I’m not asking you to critique me. Give me a nice review or ask me a question, but don’t be cruel or mean because you can hide behind a keyboard and be a bully to make yourself feel superior.

98) If you had to give up either snacks and drinks during writing sessions, or music, which would you find more difficult to say goodbye to and why?

Music. I grew up with three older brothers. My house was always rowdy and loud and obnoxious. I need it to be loud. I can’t stand the silence or focus when it’s silent. I need music to help me think and write. When I’m home alone, I always turn on the TV or music, because I can’t stand when it’s silent. I think I’d go insane.