#stop crying during the retreat bc i was too afraid 2 ask for help.. but i also forgot that had even happened Either Time and i had so many | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pepprs · 7 years ago

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tonight’s Big Emo Thought is: *spins wheel* the implications of *spins wheel* not talking abt *spins wheel* crying for two completely different reasons *spins wheel* at *spins wheel* The Retreat 5 months ago :-))))!!!!!

#purrs #NO BUT RLY im readin thru some old posts on my vent blog bc i like 2 Suffer and im reading stuff i wrote abt how i was bawling all day long #on that very first day i like literally cried for a whole hr @ one point and i would like hide in the br to cry a little bit bc i was so #scared and missed home so much. but then on the last day a few hrs after i got back home i started uncontrollably sobbing bc i realized how #much the retreat had changed me n how it was like a Bubble of happiness n awareness and Strength n i was back in the real world w all of my #problems ramming in2 me like a high speed train!!!! and the thing im pissed abt is that not Only did i tell Zero People abt how i couldnt #stop crying during the retreat bc i was too afraid 2 ask for help.. but i also forgot that had even happened Either Time and i had so many #opportunities /2 tell that meaningful story thrupught the semester 2 ppl who might have appreciated it i guess. but i didnt bc i... Forgot #and now im getting hot n bothered abt it again even tho its been like 5 months KDFBSKDBKSJDK.... yikes i gotta just go 2 sleep but i need 2 #rememebr 2 tell that story 2 the right ppl @ the right Time next semester bc... There Will Be A Rigt Time if im lucky. and by that i mean...#i kinda wanna b a coach next year and i gotta apply n stuff so i can talk abt that in my interview if i make it thaf far DKFNKBRKSJFFN im #rly ambitious but... i Want This so. yeah ok im gonna shut up now Googbye #retreat tag #its hust funny 2 me how i SOBBED on the first night wjen i was finally alone and could facetime my family like i deadass wept the whole time #but then like 2 hrs after we were Reunited i was crying bc i just wanted 2 go back KDFBAKBFAKJD....... iconic

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