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Do we think the shadows make biscuits?
#still on my the shadows are just cats mindset#the shadows#azriel’s shadows#azriel shadowsinger#azriel acotar#acotar#acosf#acotar series#a court of silver flames
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i am SOOO unbelievably thrilled by your anthro au omg. do you have fashion ideas for the characters? like their favorite outfits, fabrics, etc? imo one of the best parts of anthro characters is deciding how they'd express themselves through their clothing :]
I HAVE A FEW ALREADY!!!! i dont have many specifics because theres so many characters ahd i havent drawn them all yet LOL but i'll share the ones i do have at least SOMETHING for
im also trying to keep these reasonable for the time period and location, as in my au the clan cats are mostly rural and in small towns set (mostly) before the 2000s so most may dress more modest and conservative (especially if theyre older and very religious)
squirrelflight - the best i can describe her sense of fashion is that it ranged from tomboy as a younger girl and is currently closer to a working class butch. im not sure if masc would be a more appropriate term since i dont hc her as a lesbian (shes bi) but she dresses "like a man" and owns a lot of jeans, slacks, and button-up shirts of all kinds of fabrics and patterns. she also enjoys bright colors as well, but as she got older her fashuon sense got a little more sensible and less "loud" like it was in the 60s and 70s. she also has glasses like her daddy once shes like 35 or so. she and firestar dressed very similarly, and a lot of her shirts and neckties are things she stole from his closet
feathertail - very feminine. hippie adjacent, lots of loose and flowing garments and jingly pieces. breatheable clothes and open toed shoes. her favorite swimsuit had some little frilly bits on it i think. often combines neutral earthy tones with blues and whites
crowfeather - lots of handmedowns from his father. clothes you can do farmwork in like jeans, overalls, hardy flannel/denim shirts and boots. never grew out of this and still dresses this way and he likes it
jayfeather - he looks like a modernized (as far as the 80s goes) version of his father - same hairstyle snd way of dress. he isnt too formal but does have some more preppiness to his clothing style (polo shirts and sweaters). he avoids full button downs since buttoning them himself jjust gets frustrating since he cant match them up every time. new wave band shirts. he also wears orange tinted glasses to protect his eyes (in this au i wrote that hes able to perceive shadows and light pretty okay, but not much else beyond that) And Kinda As A Fashion Statement cuz it goes well with his facial structure and hairstyle i think
lionblaze - hes like if the stereotypical jock and stereotypical 80s rock+metal enthusiast had a baby. muscle tees and bandanas, ripped jeans, those absurdly short shorts, crop tops, etc. he's a drummer i think if that matters LOL
ivypool - punk, also sorta like joan jett to an extent. very homemade, tho sometimes she gets lazy and doesnt really commit to the outfits all the way (but definitely has the mindset, dint get me wrong). one of those girls with a chest small enough to go braless 99% of the time; wears a lot of tank tops and sleeveless shirts LOL
bone/brick/scourge - just google "the outsiders movie" or "greaser" and you'll get the idea. tho i imagine these three in particular also have some kind of bare minimum formalwear scraped together from their escapades. theyre kinda like the jetts/sharks from west side story if that helps at all
daisy - she combines flowing, pretty dresses with a sunhat and work boots. she also teaches horseback riding and owns a few (its a business she runs w smokey and floss. i think its be funny if they were polyam ITS MY AU I CAN CHANGE WHAT I WANT) and she has horseback-appropriate clothing as well
poppyfrost - THEE preppy girl of the 80s. big hair, perm and all. dresses with pastel colors. her sisters cinderheart and honeyfern are pretty similar, tho i imagine honeyfern is a little more sporty and cinderheart takes inspiration from madonna once shes trying to court lionblaze
hazeltail - long haired country girl butch. enough said
spottedleaf snd cinderpelt are nuns lol
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Hi! so in a previous ask, you said that al didn't actually care for Annie at first but she eventually grew on him, I was wondering when that was? as in about how old she was? and if it was some specific event made him start to care?
Hmmm I'd say it was a gradual thing. Slow attachment for the first few months of Annie's life. His motivation was just to make Angel happy, so taking care of Annie was a given. But he generally saw her more of a "thing to make Angel happy" rather than his child.
Alastor assumed Annie was a spider doll through and through, with no trace of himself. An actual child (unless they are adopted or other circumstances) usually carries traits from both parents. Even if one pair of traits dominates the other, there's still SOME evidence of both parents. So at first Alastor didn't really register Annie as HIS child. Annie was Angel's child. He was just there to help and support Angel's wants and desires. But upon learning that when using her magic, she grew ears like his and could mess with shadows (to an extent), it was probably around then that Alastor's care for Annie started rising at an extremely fast rate. Because with that it hit him that yeah, she's his kid too. It's why Alastor is so delighted whenever he sees her ears and why he'll heckle her to get her to show them. And when she made herself little antlers he was over the moon and probably insufferable.
Tbh I think of Alastor as that one meme of "dad didn't want a cat. Dad and the cat now" and the cat is all cuddled up to the dad and the dad is cuddling the cat. That's my take on Alastor and his gradual affection growth for Annie. It wasn't till Annie was maybe almost a year old that Alastor could say he cared for her more than just surface level. But he was still shit at parenting her lmao. Full laissez faire mindset.
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Erwin is obsessed with eating you out. Can you handle it even when you’re flailing around from the overstimulation?
🔞 mdni | masterlist | 423 wc | afab!reader x Erwin
Warnings: smut; dark!; dubcon/inebriation, rough oral, biting, painful rough, dubcon/cnc/somnophilia, dubcon/ignoring soft stop request from overstimulation/cnc-kink territory (but brief), mating from multiple donors treated cuckingly anonymously, degradation/humiliation
AN: Repost from my old account. Original AN: Erwin gets a little deep in his thoughts about sharing your womb; im probably going to hell for this one too. It’s time to sin, babes.
It may be his day off, but let it never be said that Erwin was ever in any kind of off position unless he was asleep ((even then, we all know just scooting into him as the little spoon has benefits a’fuckin’plenty in dragging this horndog out of a wet dream from you backing your ass up)).
In not knowing an “off” mindset, his “on” applies to a plethora of shades that can affect his mood in the bedroom. Sans a list that could never hope to capture the complexity of a man with a conscience and madness and sadness and boldness like Erwin anyway, examining him in the highest piques of his insanity is where his darkest secrets lay like forgotten shadows cast back from cresting dawn along craggy mountaintops. His love is full of blindingly dangerous caverns, cold shames, and the most beautiful nature you could ever hope to witness.
Marijuana for this man is the undoing of every safeguard between his cock and his mouth and anyone on the receiving end of this experience should say a prayer to whatever god deity or lucky rock they beg to before getting blindsided with the obsession that is Erwin. He will go down on your cunt until your grabbing hands try to shove his mouth away, but he keeps suckling the right spot to stammer your muscles into submission, driven to silence you with every inky desire that drips from his cock.
You simultaneously curse and bless the interruptions when he spits filth against your folds, for the breathy puffs of air are still assaultingly stimulating on your swollen labia and he pauses between moments of intense arousal by biting where it pleases him. But, fuck, what he says throws you for loops.
“I have half a mind to tie you down and keep you like this for hours. What do you say to that, kitten?”
“What if we got one of my friends over here, blindfolded you, and made you try to guess what cock you’re getting fucked with? Sounds like a fun game to me. We could get you so dickdrunk you can’t tell the difference when we switch back and forth. You could be such a pretty comeslut.”
“Wonder if we should even worry about keeping up with your birth control, honey. Let’s get you off that and then see which one of us could fuck a baby into you faster. I wouldn’t mind trying a few times with the right person. Oh, are you coming, you fucking broodslut?”
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sorry sorry i'm on a full on dotc ramble rn cause i'm properly reading the arc for the first time but i wanna know why this value was later overturned. it'll probably 'explain' later on in the arc but tall shadow correctly points out that your loved ones are most important and should never be cast aside for 'the greater good of the group', yet the modern clans have such a toxic opposing mindset
clear sky is very obviously painted in the wrong here so why is it his rhetoric that gets adopted and carried on through generations of cats?? “if you are not useful to the group, you are nothing to us”..... the rhetoric that tore so many cats apart and ruined lives. again the books will probably make up some lame excuse later on but i’m completely stumped here
also ofc i’m aware that the cruel ableism influencing clear sky’s decision here has been MOSTLY phased out (briarlight, cinderpelt, longtail and brightheart for example are still loved and accepted within their clan, though the 4 of them still struggles with issues of self worth and for a period of time, only feeling as though they are valued if they’re ‘useful’ to the clan, which is incredibly sad and often influenced by their clanmates’ behaviour, even if it’s sometimes unintentional), but this also extends to cats who have been forced to choose between their clans of the cat(s) they love - always frowned upon and shunned if they choose the latter. it’s the same thing i discussed in an earlier post regarding bluestar; how she’s forced to give up and forget every cat she’s loved and lost ‘to save her clan’ because according to goosefeather “her loss is small compared to the fate of her clan”. how this value is framed as an obvious catch by mapleshade as she manipulates crookedstar as he’s forced to watch everyone he loved die around him as he wails to take back his promise.
there are so many mixed messages regarding this value cause despite the agony it caused it was carried on through the clans for decades and is only *just* partially starting to get phased out with the code changes in asc. still baffles me tho. sorry might have gone a bit off tangent there but i had to get my thoughts out lol
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Animal that I've become...
I don't know if I fully understand what it means to be therian/otherkin/alterhuman/etc., but it's definitely something that's been a part of me my whole life.
I've been intrigued ever since I discovered otherkin cringe compilations on YouTube, and as much as half of me was, "heehee hoohoo cringey", I was also "this is so cool". I was 12 or 13 around the time I learned about it, and the friends I had liked to make fun, so I put myself in that box and made fun as well. I had 1 or 2 friends I could have probably talked to about it, but I was pretty locked in the mindset of judgement, so I didn't want to actually talk seriously about it with anyone.
Since then, it's always been in the back of my mind.
Growing up, the feeling of difference was apparent to me. I'd considered having adhd or autism. I haven't been tested and I don't think I ever will be; and I'm content with that.
I daydreamed a lot. A LOT. I dreamed about creatures, freedom from humanity, flight, anything that I couldn't have. So badly I wanted to just transform into an animal and run away into the woods. To grow a pair of feathered wings from my back and fly far above the clouds. I watched countless videos on YouTube about spells and tutorials on how to transform into a wolf/dog, how to shapeshift, and how to grow wings. Honestly, that was probably an earlier introduction to otherkin. I had to be like... 9? 10? Before that, I knew I wanted to be an animal. And that was certainly always.
I had my moments as a kid/teen, walking on fours, growling, listening in on noises and feeling my "ears" flicking and moving towards the sounds, a "tail" wagging behind me, laying with the dog like I was one, digging with my "paws" but being sad I didn't have the claws to really DIG. A multitude of things that I think of being normal kid things, but do all kids feel that way? Even so, do they still? I've pushed a lot of those thoughts and feelings aside, and I stopped acting like an animal when it would be obvious to people. I am very shy and embarrassed when it comes to this. I still have these feelings, but I'm just afraid to be open with them. The most I do is snarl when I'm touched sometimes. I also like to mimic the noises of creatures I come across; dogs, cats, birds, bugs, whatever, I like to respond and think they understand me in some weird way. I've also figured out hyena whoops, and am so happy inside when I do them. These things definitely get me thinking...
A couple years ago I started getting into psychedelics, and trying shrooms definitely opened a door for me. It was as if a barrier in my mind had fallen, and I could finally be myself: a creature. A creature that was so undoubtedly me, it was alive, rattling in my bones and biting at my flesh. A creature that slinks about in the shadows, piercing eyes glowing through the darkness. A creature that rolls around in the dirt and grass, covering itself in a layer of Earth. A creature that huffs, snarls, purrs, barks, caws, bleats, whoops, screeches, and howls. A creature that I am. I've only done them around someone else though, so in reality I'm only pawing at the floor and pouncing at one spot and making my noises. Not too out of the ordinary for a shroom trip I suppose. How silly.
I think I've yapped about this long enough. I made this account with the intention of freedom of expression, and this is included in that. I hope to explore this part of myself more and learn to be more open with it. Yippee
#yapping#therianthropy#therian#otherkin#alterhuman#no idea where i was going with this#this is so “animal i have become” by three days grace core
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SPOILERS FOR CHAPTER 70 PN BELOW Lets fucking go cap! ok it’s the weekend, I have my own writing block and I finally finished my fucking assignments and handed them in, I’m practically free forever!! (exams loom in the distance, i willfully ignore their shadow)
I’ve started by reading from chapter 67 just to bring myself back into the mindset (and because they are hype as all hell chapters), this is faster than starting my like 7th re-read.
I even made myself a cuppa to really settle in, the vibes are immaculate, I played Bizet Carmen while reading this time
The dichotomy of Juleka:
I don't want to hurt anyone!
Extreme violence is efficient.
The fact that we didn’t get ladybug trying to kiss rena when she was shot by dark cupid is tragic
This time i listened to shoot to thrill by ACDC, and Burn it down by awolnation for the badass parts
Anyway finally onto Fei, that only took me two hours (i briefly wrote shit so yknow, a good time!)
Fei’s tragic backstory be upsetting frfr, Like damn brother you watched your dad die in front of you? Do you need a blanket and a hug?
The tone change from “My life ended when my dad died.” to “summer was awesome!!” made me snort horrible it’s not funny- but it kind of is-
Oh my god Juleka got a break for weeks AND WE DIDN’T GET TO SEE IT??? Tragedy. (i’m kidding, so happy that she got a break <33)
Rose thirsting over Panthera in a crop top is too funny- you just know if it was anyone else Juleka would be pouting like “damn what do they have that I don’t?”
Oop her hands still kinda fucked, curiouser and curiouser. I wonder if she has tried to practice her secondary power. Which rq, it was SUCH bullshit that LB gets two and the cat miraculous gets one in canon, so happy you retconned it
OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD OK CAP I AM SO HYPE HYPE SHE GOT A MODELING INTERNSHIP?????? Like sure cause nepotism but i’ve been wanting to see Juleka try out modeling in a real environment for ages cause like thats something she is interested in yknow and i just-
Augh, hype as hell. And an excellent reason for her to be going to Shanghai, I applaud your problem solving to fit Juleka into the show's narrative! I applaud it always, but this one was more difficult than usual methinks
I have pizza now it is 8pm
Anyways; NOO GABEY BABY DON’T BE EVIL VIBES TO JULEKA SHE’S JUST A LITTLE THING
Oh my poor awkward Juleka… Gabriel wasn’t helping but this is so funny, dude you vowed to kill this girl like a month ago open your eyes
I NEED juleka’s modeling arc to be a thing. Idk how into detail you went but i’m hoping for some i’m rabid i’ve been waiting for this for like 3 years
Oh airports SUCK i feel her anxiety so much, poor thing… i forced my friend to share her location with me one time so we could stalk each other, we never turned it off its kinda funny
… why is Anarka banned from airports?? Being “a living weapon” is so vague.
Killing myself rose and juleka are so cute- and obsessed with each other- every hour is insane
I love Juleka instantly becoming a disaster on baby’s first flight
Juleka instantly being on high alert around gabriel is so real.
“Right,” Mr Agreste’s face didn’t twitch nor soften much in response, just nodded in understanding and turned back to stare forward. “The opening of this store is essential to the future of the Agreste Brand, you two. Opening it much sooner is very good news. There will be other fun times with your friends.”
Hardass, fuck off!!
Poker with literal chips made me laugh- adrien would be terrible at poker
Spiderman far from home? Nah, Panthera Noir far from home.
“Oh that building looked fun to climb.” please Juleka unhinged parkour arc when?? Like people turn away from her and then look back and she’s up a tree.
HELP “bye bye bag” is so real-
She’s so scary, but I wanna ask what her hair dye is. Do it. Please. I think you would factory reset Nathalie and she would answer on autopilot
Awkwardly playing chess is so real, also; yippee!! Adrien and Juleka bonding even more after the acting debacle!!
“Knights were cute. Little pony’s. Rose always wanted to move her knights cause they reminded her of unicorns.” please this is literally my strategy in chess, i just move them around and sometimes i win because i confuse people so badly
LB overthinking chess is hilarious.
Adrien POV???
YOU CAN LEARN MANY THINGS FROM JULEKA SUCH; HOW TO BE A CAT. sorry i just had the mad idea that Adrien might find out this chapter… i would go insane if that turned out to be right
“Knowing info about me is pretty easy when your Wikipedia is super detailed” that’s fucking depressing. Adrien baby that’s a terrible way to get to know someone and not the same experience at all-
Gaelic is a real language!! And a bitch to learn- I briefly tried with my dad and we both gave up, we’ll just stick with scots english
“Where do you disappear during akumas?” hard hitting question Adrien, ten points!
And is also making me high key suspicious about him finding out, the vibes are there
Nah, nah evil. Gabriel spend time with your son goddamnit
GET HIS ASS JULEKA YES GIRL I LOVE YOU
The fact that she thinks she isn’t brave sometimes infuriates me, like babe i get your insecure but your brave as hell.
QUEEN SHIT JUST WENT DOWN THERE
Juleka ripped him to shreds hell fucking yeah.
Wait. why did she give him the king? Hawkmoth called himself a king… cue the x-files music
Who the fuck is this asshole? Fei. Kick his ass, i command thee.
Oh curious, she has burn scars from the fire, i like this detail.
I feel like Fei and Juleka will get along, based on the ever present rage against one guy
She is being used augh
“Your father deserves to be avanged.”
“He does.” UMM GIRL YOUR DAD WOULD HATE THAT WEREN’T YOU THERE FOR THE FLASHBACK??
I want Cash to gtbnrvice this asshole is just using her desperation for information-
I want Juleka to scare him into telling them, as Panthera, i think she would be quite good at that.
Juleka is a feral beast who needs her outside time (i like how she wants to run on rooftops a lot its cute)
LORE LORE LORE LORE
Excited. The prodigious?? Tell me more silly cheese guy
Ummm. i need the prodigious to show up, i can’t remember if thats what Fei has or if this is future future foreshadowing, this is exciting
New arc unlocked: freeing the Kwami from their jewelery or the curse.
Also; yes sadistic plagg in the face of the guardians temple being destroyed, you go girl
Guardian temple? Swallowed whole? Sounds frightening. What a feast. HA
Model Juleka yippee!
Help- adrien your advice is trash-
Ok existential conversation, yes girl let me spiral-
No sick girl Nathalie let adrien speak i want to know what he thinks of the best girlies-
Plagg wanting to take him under his wing- Juleka saying he wants to replace her with Adrien- ITS ALL COMING TOGETHER.
Nah if you actually do have a reveal to Adrien i am going to go buckwild- cause either the vibes of the chapter got me but i think I guessed before any of the concrete foreshadowing
Ok sick girl nathalie actually has some sound advice and is being lovely to Juleka
Yes Juleka use your strength
FEI STEALING CAMERAS??
Get her ass Juleka, or- politely bite her arm juleka?!?
Juleka is just brawling in an alleyway- like damn sister- watch out for bruises you might not be allowed to model-
Oh god what if she took plagg during some of their scrapping- actually, that would be fine. Juleka would just go insane and fight her
Juleka; desperately grasping for something familiar and bantering with Fei
Fei: what the fuck is wrong with her?
Nicest mugger I’ve ever met real and true
Wait
NOO JULEKA THEY WON’T LET YOU MODEL LIKE THIS
YEAH KICK. HER. ASS.
Plagg stays with Juleka yippeee!!
Help their dynamic is so funny- exactly what i was wanting.
Juleka would want to learn how to disappear even better than she already does wouldn’t she
Nah not Fei thinking “well that was fucking weird” while juleka is like “Oh that was cool” Juleka is so weirdgirl core i love her
Oh shit she stole marinettes stuff Tiki is there-
Kick the asshole in the balls Fei, i command thee.
I am so happy Nathalie and Juleka have some sort of alliance, in my as to be written huge tragedy based on Nathalie Gabriel and Emily (which is extensively planned), I think Nathalie is more similar to Juleka as a teenager.
Adrien and Nathalie interaction- “yes we- we did it” agyuhtvrinjfeok love her.
Marinette blinked vacantly, standing in the back alley streets of Shanghai with a paling expression on her face and her entire inventory ghosted from her person.
WHERE THE HELL AM I!?
HELP SHE’S SO FUNNY- i love disaster marinette please-
and thats a wrap for Fei! i started this before five and it is now ten pm- i did other things though.
this was awesome cap, I look forward to the next chapters and I shall review them tomorrow!!!!!!
I hope you enjoyed <3
GLAD YOU ENJOYED!!!!!!
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—Time slips away!
Burn out, don’t fade!
Dance on my grave!
I will never be them!—
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Left 4 Dead 2: Ellis, Nick
Marvel: Nightcrawler*, Moon Knight*, Eddie Brock/Venom*
Monster High: River Styxx*, Operetta*, Frankie Stein*
The Nightmare Before Christmas: Jack Skellington*
Obey Me!: Lucifer, Mammon, Leviathan, Satan, Asmodeus, Beelzebub, Belphegor, Diavolo
Onmyoji: Yasha*, Hiromasa*, Susabi*
Pirates of the Caribbean: Captain Jack Sparrow*
Portal: GLaDOS
Red Dead Redemption: John Marston*, Arthur Morgan*
Rise of the Guardians: Jack Frost*
Skullgirls: Valentine
Stardew Valley: Shane*
Steven Universe: Garnet*, Ruby*, Sapphire*, Sunstone*, Sardonyx*, Rainbow Quartz 2.0*
Spiritfarer: Gwen*
Suicide Squad: Diablo
Undertale/Deltarune: Papyrus, Sans, Susie*
Until Dawn: Chris*
The Village: Ivy Walker
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Hi! I’m Alistair— you can call me that, or you can use my username for pretty much everywhere else, TheetyPie/Theety. I don’t mind either way.
I’m a trans guy, I use he/they pronouns. I’m panromantic/asexual, and I’m 27 years old.
I have 3 cats, they’re my babies. I also (as you can tell from above) have a lot of OCs, and the number is still growing. I want to turn my ideas into a bigger creation someday, still not sure exactly where I want to go with it.
I do more than write. I do art, I like video games, music, and just collecting stuff. Current obsessions are Monster High, Jojo’s Bizarre Adventure, makeup, crystals, and jewelry.
Rules
The most important: I do not RP smut. In the past I’ve used the fade-to-black method, but I’m not entirely comfortable with that with most of my muses.
In the same vein, DO NOT FORCE SHIPS. I love ships as much as the next guy, but I would prefer to discuss it first, or for us to agree on it. It’s cool if your muse has a crush, totally fine— mine get crushes all the time! But make sure if you want to ship, we discuss it first.
In a similar vein to that one as well, no god-modding/powerplaying. If your character is strong, an immortal being, or whatever, cool! I have some of those too. But there should always be a limit. Don’t say your character is moving mine unless we’ve talked about that. Attempt to move them. Usually I follow along as long as boundaries aren’t pushed.
Don’t kill or seriously injure my muse without permission. Fights happen, of course, but again: discussion. I’m up for threads where my canon muses are injured or killed, but not where it happens to my OCs, unless we’re getting into a backstory and another OC that’s already deceased dies. Non-serious injuries are alright to come out of nowhere with, but if it’s a first meeting, I’d prefer to plot it out.
I’m semi-selective. I’m kind of particular about who I follow and who I thread with. I prefer us to be mutuals to thread, but you don’t have to be mutuals to send me things.
I’m very bad at keeping up with people. If you message me and I don’t respond, it’s usually bc I’m shy, I forgot, or I’m busy with work. It’s not you, I promise. Usually I don’t message first bc I’m nervous.
Back to shipping: I’m also multiship. Usually my ships are in different universes, unless discussed with all parties beforehand. The exception is a few of my OCs that are partnered together— ask about their availability. I love random ships, just talk to me about them!
I love duplicates of my muses. Whether it’s “x meets self” or I find someone I share a muse with, I love RPing with just about everyone. Please don’t hesitate to reach out if we have a muse in common!
One of my other most important statements, not really considered a rule, but it’s still important: if you want to know something about any muse, canon or OC, please tell me— ask or message me! I haven’t been able to write down a lot of info about any of them because I’m on mobile, but I will infodump for you if you need/want to know something. I love talking about my children, they’re precious to me.
If you send something in or make something for me when we haven’t even spoken, I might not feel comfortable responding. I’m very shy and nervous about not having any discussion beforehand. 😭
If there’s anything I left out or you need to know, just ask!
#cxdemistake#fjsjfjf this took a while#also look at all the muses#this is what happens when I consume tons of media on a break#I cling to 20000 fictional characters and need to write them#fhdjfj#also consider this my promo#pls reblog to help me find more active peeps#thx!#; promo
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Act 2 trainwreck
Nearing the end and let's get real, nothing is fine.
It's been screw ups after screw ups, admitedly sometimes on purpose, but still.
(They're unwell)
Starting off with the loss of Last Light Inn right off the bat!
Dammon and Consellor Florrick are part of the people you have to kill. Bad news for Wyll I'm pretty sure. Karlach didn't make it past Act 1 so Dammon only hurts my soul.
You don't fight Alfira, Rolan or anyone that's typically inside. But they still die.
Rolan leaves a disk behind with a message for his siblings...
"If you see this message it's because I died. Such is fate, life goes on."
(I'm mentally unwell)
Malus Thorm will make a comment about the Volo eye, which is super neat. I managed to kill the other two with only persuasion checks because Bard is hilarious.
Moving on to the Mausoleum, where the mistake starts with me entering Yurgir's room through the bottom (where the chest is), thus never talking with him.
But don't you worry, I still aggro'ed his kitty cat and, therefore, all his goddamn army. Except they were all on the top floor, and all my guys below them. Yes it was as awful as you can imagine.
Yurgir went to the House of Hope without sharing a word with us, but it's funny he still calls you "little rabbit" during the fight lol Is that a Devil thing??
One thing we did on purpose, was to kill Aylin because my friend wanted to see Dark Justiciar Shadowheart. To be honest I'm unsure we could have changed her mind anyway because we literally never used her and her approval was very low.
Turns out you can still lift the Shadow Curse without Light Last Inn, because you can just Speak with the dead with Art Cullagh, so that's at least one thing we could do right (and one thing I got out the Necromancy of Thay before I lost it forever lmao).
Probably because of the Isobel fiasco from earlier, everyone was hostile by default in Moonrise Towers. It was thus impossible to rescue Minthara (in jail, but hostile as well) though we did only knock her off...
We tried to infiltrate the Towers going through the exterior, but still aggroed Marcus and friends through the wall (??) and had to make a tactical retreat. At this point we said fuck it we ball and went through the main doors lol
We rescued Rolan's siblings and oh, isn't it cute how they have map conversation about him saving the day? :) :) (I had no dialog to tell them he's dead so we'll see their reaction in act 3 I guess)
I open a random door and surprise motherfucker, it's fucking KETHERIC THORM and all my guys are four turns behind me!
It went well
Then everything went to utter shit
No sign whatsoever of Isobel. Where the hell is she????
Gale is not suicidal anymore at the very least but I'm still afraid he'll try to take one for the team... Because his current mindset is pretty much "fuck Mystra and I don't want to die, but if she asked me to do this it's because there's literally no other way".
ngl I'm fine living with my mistakes but I will save scum if he kills himself. Mainly because I don't want a premature ending, but still. I feel wayyyy too bad for him. Also can we talk about how if you ask him to kiss you, he goes for the cheek??? Dork.
I'm still sure if we make it to act 3, Gale will obliterate me for the Raphael shenanigans I'm about to pull... But apparently it's possible to crownblock Raphael at the last minute? So I may try that.
Honestly I love Raphael but he's such an ass it's very difficult for me to commit to giving him the crown. He's got such a strong "I MUST humiliate this man" vibe to him that's hard to ignore. I just have this urge in me to go for the kneecaps (but I'm not killing him that's for sure).
Gameplay wise, I'm having a lot of fun. Bard's been scaling well on higher levels and I just learnt the beauty that is Banishing Smite. I'll probably do the last two levels as Fighter for the action surge and self heal.
People will have you believe Wizard is a nuke class, but it's mostly a jack-of-all-trades and I'm all here for that. I can imagine how good it is on higher difficulties for the versatility alone. But you kind of have to know what you'll fight beforehand to prepare. Gale can actually take some punishment with a good shield and the magical armor.
Bonus: my smitten Tav so at least one thing is good in this world (the convo destroyed me though)
MFW "Practised tongue"
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as a mercurial person, when I do have my bad moments, I can always rely on someone like my sister to call me tf out. she’s an Ashlesha girlie, and I think she’s amazing, despite her own flaws. we both believe being direct shows we care. calling out bullshit is our love language. we bicker a lot, which includes a lot of cussing. at first, it was hard accepting the truth because I get really defensive (that explains the stream of swear words lol). she gets more defensive, though—she reminds me of a cat hissing at others for intruding upon her space. I tease her about it cus I find it cute. despite our intense arguments, we still love each other immensely. we are each other’s biggest supporters! I am the oldest child, she’s the middle child. all her life, I’ve been very protective of her because she somehow is surrounded by negative energy. we grew up in a tense environment away from our community, so we also felt we didn’t fit in with our new surroundings growing up as we both experienced feelings of isolation. she has her Ashlesha placements in the 12th house, and I have my Jyeshta placements in the 12th house. I think our shared experience strengthened our bond as the years went on. she went through so much, same as I. when I read your post that mentioned Ashlesha Naks and their life struggles, it mirrored my sister’s origin and upbringing. I couldn’t fathom why the people she meets in every phase of her life would take advantage of her and/or project their misery onto her. that wasn’t until I learned about Ashlesha Naks, I fear. ig her relationship with our mom helps explain why, too… anyways, I may be protective of my sister but I also encourage her to go after her goals and fight for what she wants. and she knows this, too, and would encourage the same for me. she doesn’t hold back, and I don’t either. I know it’s good to have that kind of person in my life to rein me in AND to let loose with. however, I know I can’t rely only on her to save me from my flaws, of course. to my fellow mercury folks- let’s not deny that we are far from perfect. hell, I know I’m not perfect myself. I acknowledge that I have intense energy that’s similar to a repellent. life experience and being raised by a distrustful immigrant father assisted in helping me build this wall that surrounds my soul as a safety measure. I’ve been ostracized and bullied when I was a little girl. I was a sweet kid, but those experiences molded me into a person that feared the world, and as I grew up, I resented it for its restrictions. I was jealous of my peers and remained a recluse. it took me a long time to realize I was in control of the outcome of my own nature. I am in control of learning to outgrow my negative mindset and to be open to understanding. what started my growth was my spiritual inclinations that lead me to learning about astrology and such, and they unraveled the truth I’ve been blinded to for so long (besides my sister’s call-outs lmao). Vedic astrology helped me understand what it meant to be a Jyeshta Nak person. I’m not proud of my flaws, but they are there; I just have to learn how to remedy them and grow for the better. I will forever be on that journey. I just pray I don’t reverse the self evolution with self sabotage. I rather not be a wannabe Trump… no thank you 🙏 people are complex, so why paint ourselves as saints when we are not? what makes y’all think we’re the divine exception to the laws of nature? we are here to live this life and to learn from it. and if you make mistakes? own up to them. it’s easier said than done, but it’s much more rewarding to find ways to transform yourself into a more evolved human being. see your own shadow for what it is. you can’t suppress it because it will only shroud you with its darkness. once you start harming others, you are only digging a deeper hole for yourself. living in delusion and in denial is not healthy. and if you refuse to acknowledge that, then I wish you good luck in trying to crawl yourself out from your self made abyss of a grave 🫡
thanks for sharing your experiences 💛💛
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12, 21, 23, and 25?
12. The unpopular character that you actually like and why more people should like them
I don't think I need to say this to you cause I've blabbed about it for a while but Heathertail!! I've always been pretty fond of her, she's a very interesting character and I don't think people give her nearly enough credit for what we've seen of her when you remove her from the Heatherbreeze ship. I think her friendship with Lionpaw before All That Happened was really sweet and I thought it was nice to see an example of a forbidden relationship that was just... two children with a crush on each other that quickly realized it wouldn't work out. But she's also a person who, while she holds personal grudges (for justified reasons imo but-) she will still break the rules for that person to do the right thing. Like, it was against the law to give Lionblaze their medicine, and she justifiably hates this guy and makes sure to point that out... but she's not going to let cats get hurt if she can avoid it. And I haven't read Crowfeather's Trial but that combined with how she acts around Breezepelt is... idk it's interesting! Especially now that she's retconned to be Onestar's kid (which I have conflicting feelings on but yknow still it's interesting)
There's also Dovewing but I feel like more and more people are coming around to her. Thank you Moonkitti. Another I can think of is Onestar, or at least pre AVoS Onestar (which honestly I'm disregarding in my brain cause like... god he was just SUCH a random choice for Darktail's father that I'm halfway convinced that they changed their minds on who it was in between The Apprentice's Quest and Thunder and Shadow) I like a character who gets negative development actually. He starts off as perfectly pleasant and a nice friend for Fireheart in WindClan, but forced leadership and an assassination attempt twisted him to become more bitter and cut Firestar off. And that's just the surface, there's an undercurrent in Winds of Change that Onewhisker is a doormat who is actually being told what to do by Firestar- like it's not something Firestar is deliberately and knowingly exploiting or anything, but what Firestar says, Onewhisker will do because "Well, I DO owe it to him, and it wouldn't KILL me". So seeing his experiences yank him out of that mindset and into someone who becomes more conservative, backfiring on Tallstar cause he changed his deputy in the worst way possible, is actually really compelling to me. I wish they did more with it tbh.
21. Part of canon you think is overhyped
Disclaimer that this bars anything Arc 6 and up cause I haven't read that far.
Mmm tbh... not totally sure what to point at specifically? Cause like, there's a lot I could point to cause like... tbh I think we all collectively remember a lot of WC scenes to be so much cooler than they actually were cause of all the MAPs.
Is it cheating to say most of DOTC? I actually do think the first three books are solid, at least from what I remember of them. But the entire arc is held up as a must read. Which is pretty sad cause I don't see people talk about... actual plot points in DotC all that often. Which I feel is pretty telling.
23. Ship you've unwillingly come around to
Hmmm another hard one cause I don't really have a ton of ships. Or any that I've been "unwilling" on...
I guess Heatherbreeze? I mildly enjoy it in concept but I don't really like how people just reduce Heathertail to "Breezepelt's happy ending". idk.
25. common fandom complaint that you're sick of hearing
Oh anytime the fandom complains about characters besides the protagonists being angry at said protagonists for understandable reasons, to the point of calling those characters stupid idiots even when it's literally "the protagonist got this person's friend killed". Like when people literally portrayed ShadowClan in Night Whispers as petty and mean and dumb for.... being mad at Lionblaze for literally murdering their deputy. And saying Russetfur deserved to die anyways cause she was old and fighting Firestar (who led an attack on her camp btw). Or when Dawnpelt was called an overreacting insane bitch when she blamed Jayfeather for Flametail's death (despite Flametail doing the same thing and worse cause he tried to kill Jayfeather in return but yknow. It's only bad if girls do it) Like... yes she was wrong to do that especially when Jayfeather was innocent and he was totally justified to just save himself in the end. but she was grieving and grief can be messy. Y'know? Also when people got mad at Tigerheart when he threatened Ivypool when the Dark Forest tried to make her attack Flametail's spirit. Yes Ivypool was being manipulated but he's allowed to be pissed in the moment dude!
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Okay I saw Owlpaw/claw and had to throw a little idea I like.
So both him and Harepaw show up out of the blue at the start of PO3. Neither have any connections, and very similar descriptions. My idea was that as a kit him and his brother were found between Wind and Shadow. But because both the leaders at this time were wildly protective and quick to start arguments the two twins were separated and kept away from each other to avoid straight up war.
Now we see Harepaw, he’s shy and kinda a baby while Owlpaw makes quite a few uhhh nasty comments about cats from other clans. I think Owlpaw was made into this close minded cat because of the cats and mindsets around him. While his brother tried to hide away from all the rude stares Owlpaw tried to get into their view and show them he’s not a little abandoned baby.
This is all totally unfounded and just taken from descriptions but I just love these two twins who go down such different paths. Even if it’s so not canon and they never even interact (sorry for the random rant lol I just love this idea so much)
ooooh, that's a neat headcannon... I quite like that, it would make an interesting parallel to Violetshine/Twigbranch too. Owlclaw could make an interesting mentor if I decided that Dawnpelt wouldn't cut it for some reason-- or maybe a combination with one of Violet's fosters, Spikefur or Pinenose?
Wind and Shadow don't share any border though... but they could be split between half-Clan parents.
We do also have a suggestion about Harespring though, where he's actually the brother of Kestrelflight. I was considering making them both the sons of Tornear or Mudclaw, being born after he died. (I was hesitating because I don't want to dead-end the lineage again in case Harespring never has kits of his own... though I would still be able to use him as an honor-sire if need be.)
I'll put a pin in it was a hard maybe, after AvoS is more solidified we'll see if it would be relevant to Violetshine.
#Bonefall Rewrite#Kestrelflight#Owlclaw#Violetshine#Harespring#Harespring is everyone's brother#Harespring is YOUR brother
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Lost/Found notes pt. 3. 3/6/20 You only get to know people when they stop telling you who they are. 10/6/20 I'm going insane. All my toxic stuff, rearing it's head. When is my boyfriend coming home / is he my boyfriend / what happened the other night / don't ask questions you don't want answered / how come he was online three minutes ago, because it sure wasn't to respond / I guess it's over, my fault. My brain just hurts. I feel ugly and unwanted, lonely and sad and I don't have friends to drink with at bars and he'll stay out all the time until he disappears for good one day while I'm at the laundry washing his shit. I smelled his shirt when he came home and touched myself while he was in the bathroom, picturing him doing the same thing. 11/6/20 I don't want my most sincere prayer to be during crisis. I don't want all my longing for you to be during your absence. We were in the living room and you said seeing is believing, it's harder to have faith in something you can't envision. So I envision us. And I have faith. 9/6/20 The hard emotions hit much harder at 763, there was something about that house. It felt like a direct line to heartache. Like the shadows cast upon every wall had somehow sunken in. It was all too recent, I can't believe I lived there yet I still feel the weight of my body lugging up the stairs. You don't really look at me, don't kiss me and you're angry when I call. We are so unhappy and so unlike ourselves. We didn't do ourselves proud. 20/6/20 If you wont reveal every angle of a current manifestation of self - in understanding of its ephemeral nature, it strengthens in private, like a fungus in the fertile ground of that allocated dark corner of both souls. Have you ever considered ripping the tangle of roots straight outta your soul soil with one hand, salting the earth with the other before waving that festering weed of anxieties around mid-dinner at the next gathering so no one can turn away anymore? and so that which lives in the dark is collapsed in the light, all of us walk away a little more honest. I mean community. We don't heal alone. 4/6/20 I said I get turned on by ideas and that wasn't a good enough answer, but not only that, I never answer anything, ever? He can't get to know me because I am potentially purposely hiding my true responses? 18/8/20 He's been coming to bed before the sun comes up the last few nights, and reaching over to hold me. I couldn't enjoy his embrace this morning, becoming incensed with frustration over it all. He thinks I have little faith in him, but didn't tell me about bills and will not send them to me even though I've been asking for three days. He seemed to take it personally, "what, do you think I'm lying about the amount?" I woke up and anger flowed through my body because he still hadn't sent them, he'll sleep in 'til late and I wont have a chance to approach the issue before heading to work. 19/8/20 Always stuck in the mindset like 'I'll be happy if - or I'll be happy when - 11/9/20 Pro: taking baths without worrying someone may walk in and see my fleshy belly floating above the surface after eating too much Rice. The cat's undivided affection. 12/9/20 Feelings I'm sitting with and attempting not to engage too intimately: Unworthiness, failure, ugliness. Fear. Big fear. Big, Loud, Capital F. Fear. When I'm in a room by myself I feel like I don't exist. 13/9/20 "Go write about it." A message or a threat. Catharsis, communication or retribution. A means to an end, a route, an alternate place. The mother ink in my veins, the body sliced in two. Just an attempt to let the medium flow through. 24/9/20 My boss yelling in my face today over NOTHING didn't bother me at all, didn't even stress me out when I lost my fucking keys and had to literally destroy my locker to get in so I could text you, but knowing you wouldn't believe me then you Not Believing Me bothered me, but didn't surprise me.
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Since it's Drac season I'll tell a very on-brand story from my college days.
For reasons I don't fully understand to this day, in my youth I was always the friend that my friends wanted to play matchmaker with. This held true through multiple friend groups over several years. I've never outright asked any of them why; I assume it's kind of like how your cat likes to bring you dead mice and birds because it never sees you hunt properly, or something. Anyway.
In college I joined a folk-fusion garage band (as you do) and my bandmates became my main social circle. One of the band leader's friends (we'll call him V.) came by to hang out and listen to us practice every now and then; I thought he was cute and he seemed nice but I was still deep in that mindset of Nobody Could Possibly Think I Was Worth Dating Ever and I had absolutely no plans to ask him out.
I don't know if V. said something to one of the band members about being interested in me, or what, but we both just so happened to be invited on a group outing to see the double-feature Friday night screening of Nosferatu and Shadow of the Vampire in the chemistry lecture hall and we both just so happened to be the only two people in the group who were single. My bandmates tried to play it cool like they weren't trying to set us up but they failed that stealth check pretty hard. You... you can't just seat me next to a guy I think is kinda cute and then subject me to three hours of vampire media and expect the evening to end completely platonically. Afterwards the rest of them made some lousy excuse for staying on campus because they definitely had A Thing to attend to and oh hey V. could you please walk Marve home? Under the stars on a lovely warm spring evening? After they've been stewing in their seat for three hours watching vampire movies?
And that is how I met my college boyfriend.
Because I played fiddle and we both liked vampires.
Like I said. Painfully on-brand.
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i read awhile ago that ppl who laugh everyday live a lot longer than ppl who don't. although the correlation was a bit misleading, i can still draw the conclusion that orange cat owners are pretty much guaranteed a daily laugh. those of you who know a bit abt me will be like "op, what did your sibling's orange cat do this time?" i'll get right to that :)
so there is a woven wicker laundry basket with a woven wicker lid. orange boi loves to lounge on there and sometimes even just stand on it and although it protests a bit under his weight, it supports him.
so today, he naturally jumped up to stand on it again but failed to realize that the lid was up this time. Which means that burned into my brain is the image of a massive fluffy boy, legs splayed out to correct for his inaccurate landing, eyes big and round with the most indignant look of betrayal on his fave. he's a bit fat and very fluffy, especially his pants and tail. i still wish i had a camera because the look on his face after he jumped back out was priceless. no one who witnessed this blunder could stop from laughing, which he looked incredibly offended at. he was very embarrassed and tried to act cool but he didn't even get to lick his fur awkwardly because he was scooped up and shown to the "mirror cat" for extra judgement.
i don't know what his mindset was. did he think we replaced his familiar "lawnchair" with a bad "lawnchair" that has a broken seat? does he even know what a lid is and how it works????? i do not know. this is the question i'd spend my hypothetical one and only chance to read minds on.
then he started chasing shadows. he spent a good 15-20 minutes trying to catch the shadow of my bangs on the floor, and he only stopped when he was trying to eat torn-up pieces of carpet (he is not Allowed to do that as it is Not Food!!!) he started purring loudly out of frustration at not catching the elusive shadow. i have no idea what kind of funky dance i was doing taunting him with my hair's shadow during that time, but i know i'd do it again. orange boi's paws are slightly bigger than that of a normal cat (which i'd consider a domestic shorthair), but compared to the rest of his body they are tiny and polite. anyways he used his tiny paws to try and murder my shadow and even went "potato mode" where he crouches, resembling somewhat a potato (at least to me anyways).
so there you have it, the antics of orange boi and his obsession with being 1. on high places and B. chasing shadows. you just Know if he ever visited the cave of metaphor that he'd be trapped in there for all of eternity.
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Struggle to write
Witnessed courtesy the following poetic sight especially when dark shadows foretell edge of night twilight zone expanding into outer limits of width and height obscuring webbed wide world subsequently where black tentacles alight. This poetic prologue feeble exercise to encapsulate commonplace frustration experienced by fledgling author evidenced by spurious poem dredged up below decks foregoing full sentences, which will resume reflections being hobbled to cobble words together, when yours truly tries his darndest to re-captcha fleeting idea or sentiment. Minimal productiveness as hands of time issue silent tick tock resultant rhyme without reason mere schlock conceding intelligence on par with rock consanguinity quite evident versus key difference when affliction named agraphia doth lock stock and barrel creative juices resounding, resonating, and resolving
into echo chamber with hollowness when upon noggin of scapegoat bully doth knock impossible mission to fend off badass jock whereby yours truly envisions fanciful day dream lazing a boat on the dock carefree mindset disallows watching clock repudiating, spurning, and thwarting thee dilemma of writer's block deliberating calling ghost writer ad hoc
One former bohemian rhapsodizes (and a young bare cub at Antioch to boot), now prosaically expounds courtesy lengthy epistemological expressing difficulty to craft complex literary edifice applying building blocks of English language in a fitting manner that does justice to said lingua franca giving liberty to leaping lizard thoughts that dart to and fro, hither and yon within the windmills of my mind.
Rather than censor or edit, I pour out at rapid fire rate, the notions (ala kingly brainstorm) that flit thru me noggin when first staring at the black and white screen, sometimes eyes remain closed to help initiate the process to summon forth this, that, or another just barely perceptible concept; the task less difficult when the topic provided, which preconceived subject narrows focus into figurative box.
When provided specific issue to write about
the effort still arduous to gather plethora of disparate points aware near infinite number of directions discourse in question
could take this, that or another route, whereby any path could lead to a dead end
with impulse to yank inkwell and spill spout
all over manuscript,
a Rorschach work of art to tout.
Countless trials and errors entail exploration
to the near state of physical exhaustion where each logical conclusion finds pensive
fellow inextricably entangled within his own
thicket of unprintable verbiage.
Would you dear reader believe a/or accept
eureka moments arise stealthily as cats crept unexpectedly and inconveniently when I get situated on toilet and whole paragraphs
tumble into consciousness pell mell faster than bowels expelling bodily waste matter
from derrière except
Macbook Pro in other room kept safe and sound against accidents if mishap occurred resident Kuni Lemel
would be convulsing with grief as he wept.
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