#still love dean very much

[kerryweaverlesbian]

Whenever fanfiction has Dean say he hates Cas’s coat or thinks it's stupid or ugly and he wants to see Cas out of it as soon as possible I simply must disagree. He kept that thing for a whole year full of rank water. He saw Cas back in his usual getup and gotar bonar. Dean loves cartoons. He loves costumes. He loves Cas’s coat.

[sammygender]

trans headcanons of the winchesters are always extremely fun to play around with and i can see most of them. but one that always rings slightly false to me, despite a love for it due to self-identification and the fact it’s definitely interesting, is transmasculine dean. simply because if you’re going according to canon this would require him to have transitioned at some point prior to johns death, probably much prior, probably as a youngish kid. and i genuinely do not think that ever could’ve happened. he values johns approval too much and is too scared of demanding too much of him.

like even aside from whether john is Actually transphobic (i doubt he’s like Cartoonishly transphobic he probably would be annoyed by it slash not care much, interpret ‘not caring’ however you want) just the whole Thing of coming out where you’re like. “Hey dad im actually a human person who has an internal sense of self and such that doesn’t happen to be You 2.0 and am not the gender you thought i was and i feel emotions to such an extent that i actually like need to transition”…….

no fucking way dean would ever be able to do that to john while he’s still alive. please. teenage transmasculine dean would be like Well yeah sure i want to be a guy but that’s not an option for me whatsofuckingever. and crucially he’d be like that even if he knew entirely about trans people. now this is why transfemme dean works so well. because you just know it would take her at least thirty years to even consider it for a singular second.

on the other hand transmasc sam works so well because you can picture teenage transmasculine sam realising he’s a boy and promptly making it part of the whole entirely justified and very cool and fun teen angst rebellion FUCK YOU DAD thing. he could let spite carry him to the point of coming out. dean? he is burying that shit deep.

[garbagequeer]

hate when i see a spn fic about What If after despair they could bring cas back but it was endverse cas. you dont care about normal castiel? you think normal castiel sould be in an empty nightmare dimension and never get out? we are kicking you out of destiel forever

[quietwingsinthesky]

Irks me a little bit whenever Dean torturing in Hell is positioned as his own fault, or even really his choice to do. We get given the solid number, 30 years of torture for him and 10 inflicting it on other people (which was also more torture for him because it’s Hell, the torture evolves, it doesn’t stop), and we get told that wasn’t long enough. That John held out longer. That angels were going to pull Dean out of Hell and if he’d just held on a few years more, the seal wouldn’t have been broken.

But that isn’t true, right? We know Heaven wanted the seal broken, ergo Dean wasn’t getting saved until it was. Until it, and he, we’re thoroughly broken and usable by Heaven to achieve their own ends (ie to make him into a good (obedient) Michael sword.) So, it wouldn’t have mattered how long he held out in Apocalyptic terms because the game (that he didn’t know he was playing) was rigged against him.

But more importantly for Dean, the amount of time he managed not to break literally does not matter. Because it was never going to be long enough. Thirty years, forty, a hundred, a thousand, it does not matter how long he held out because the breaking itself is the unforgivable part to him and the breaking was always inevitable.

Anyway. There’s my Dean meta for the year. Eat up, I guess.

[ananke-xiii]

Breaking my silence: Orpheus and Eurydice myth is more applicable to Sam and Cas' predicament in s6 rather than to Dean and Cas. Because it's a story about the retrieval of the soul.

I mean, there's definitely no romantic aspect to it but Cas fancy himself a bit of a demigod/son of Apollo, goes to Hell/Hades to rescue Sam/Eurydice/Soul, doesn't succeed, goes back to earth, fall in love with a guy who rejects him, goes crazy, rejects Dionysus as his god (!!!) and then he dies torn into pieces by the women who felt scorned because he only favored men.

I MEAN.

I MEEEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAN.

The myth is there so the👏people👏are👏right but I don't see it the same way as most people do. It's true that the myth is ancient and has many variations but, like, the basis are still the same, so it's not about Cas and Dean. Well, no, it's about them too actually!!! but not in the sense that Dean is Orpheus and Cas is Eurydice. But in the sense that Cas goes crazy for many reasons and Dean is the biggest one of them and he gets punished for it. I THINK.

[prentissluvr]

just saw someone saying that jared's acting in spn was bad... gonna commit heinous crimes

[prettyflyshyguy]

............................................. I'm regretfully writing a fanfic.

It's not gonna be big, but dialogue has been running in my head 24/7 and if I don't write it down I'll explode. Writing is a fun break from drawing besides and I genuinely feel like slowly dissecting other characters is helping me revisit my original stories, and dissect my own characters and bring more continuity and subtlety into them.

[sharky-teeth]

i'm sorry but romantic wincest will NEVER do it for me

[wizardnuke]

I MISS MY BOYFRIEND AAAAAAH! AHHH!! horrors of having the most fucked up college and work schedules and cursed w health problems the both of us

[zmediaoutlet]

hello! happy wincest weds! can you name a wincest fic you read that really just STUCK to you, and tell us why? one of those stories that just burrowed into your brain. you think about it during your quiet moments, haunted.

hi, hallo, happy wincest wednesday --

can i

cAN I?

yeah, a few, and I'm just gonna kind of ramble:

Moths on the Mirror by fleshflutter -- pretty much the only amnesia fic I need for this fandom. First of all I think it has my favorite non-con scene ever, which is great, but also I just really love how the management of information is done through Dean's super drugged POV -- how much we know what's happening around him, or not -- how much he clearly yearns for Sam's presence even if he can't quite -- fix on why. Dr Harrison smiling at Dean just -- has a special place in my heart.

also by fleshflutter, this bit of porn: No one loves me (not like you do) which seems like it's just porn qua porn, and it gets in and out of the situation with a minimum of fuss (but a maximum of jizz), but the 'twist' (such as it is) really hits. It doesn't need to be more believable than that because it's <2k but boy, does it do the job.

On the other side of the door from squishy done-unto Dean flesh!porn we've got another doozy that really sticks in my brain: in this change sought our bliss, by denugis. It's too bad about what happened after s9, because this very specific vibe of Sam and Dean just really -- makes my heart sing. He gives Sam his glitter dick. What could compare?

Relatedly, a very clever and somewhat surprising entry from the same author, Two Part Invention. I think this is the first time I saw a fic author admit that actually it was Sam who would have the harder time quitting hunting -- this is something that feels obvious to me at this point, but this fic draws out a great scenario for how it'd go. Something about Dean miserably behind the bar -- Sam skulking in and pretending like he's not desperate (oh, the things Sam wants and the things Sam wants to want) -- really put this in my top 25 fics of all time.

[laniidae-passerine]

Honestly I think Dean Highbottom has some shit to answer to as well. The mockery, the derision, the outright admittance that he was hoping Coriolanus would fail and the Snow family would continue to suffer. How someone who loathed the Games still treated a young man with cruelty because of the past, because of social divides that would be so easy to tear down. In the end, it wasn’t just Gaul who shaped Snow into the man he became. So bitter and hateful. So incapable of compassion and forgiveness. Just like his father. Just like his Dean.

[sammygender]

so many people can’t conceptualise emotional neglect as anything other than ‘my parents were cold and distant and never talked about feelings with me’, and this, while being just a general awful problem of course, is also what leads to so much john winchester mischaracterisation. in this essay i will

[bisaster-energy]

i do get making cas essentially human i understand that he can adjust to it and actually enjoy life like that. but um. i just think he can be just as fulfilled as a full blown angel

[theangiediary]

what if i say bunker era sam listens to ✨💋 Straight Girl 💅🍷 relationship podcasts with such hot tips as "he doesn't load the dishwasher? leaves his socks everywhere? Withhold sex that'll get him! 🤣" "ugh ladies don't you hate that he still smiles at the young waitress at the diner! He says he's 'just being friendly' but we know, we know don't we girls?" 🥴

[castielsprostate]

they are actively making jensen ackles worse. keep going

[explainslowly]

My understanding from dash osmosis is that demon Dean's main activities were:

1. Being super mean to the guy who's in love with him

2. Having what I can only assume is Really bad sex with some waitress

3. Seeing how cyrrhotic you can get a liver when your body won't die