#still figuring her out- but: Madison- Maddie- Mads are the names they use

[gin-draws]

Getting ready to start a 90’s high school themed campaign- so here’s some sketches 💖✨

Madison’s parents were not expecting a tiefling- so they monetize their daughter’s appearance to make themselves feel better about it.

My mean, vapid, popular girl… who is actually a divination wizard. I can’t wait ✨🔮💖✨

The bottom image is her disguise self (to sneak out to the arcade), her regular attire, and her actual gender and style goals.

[madzfm]

˛ ⠀ * ⠀ ★ ⠀  JESSICA ALEXANDER  .   CIS FEMALE  .  SHE / HER      ⧽ ⠀ have  you  seen  the  786  latest  post  ?  sources  say  they  have  some  serious  dirt  on  the  child  of  a  big  time   COUNTRY MUSIC STARS  .   they  haven’t  revealed  who  it was  yet  but  my  best  is  on  MADISON  DARLING  !  ever  since  that  last  update  about  how  she  ALLEGEDLY GOT CAUGHT SPORTING A BABY BUMP LAST YEAR BEFORE GHOSTING EVERYONE  i  don’t  put  anything  pass  them  .  i  mean  ,  these  celebrity  kids  are  just  out  of  control  .   they  do  whatever  they  want  ,  whenever  they  want  and  are  ungrateful  in  the  process  !!  i  mean  take  MADDIE  for  example  ,  they’re  a  TWENTY THREE  year ��old  DANCER  ,  and  what  did  they  do  to  get  there  ?  have  famous  parents  !  like  hello  ,  just  because  you HAVE BEEN IN MUSIC VIDEOS WITH A-LIST MUSICIANS doesn’t  mean  you  actually  deserved  it  .   i’m   glad   the   786   is   taking   them   down   a   notch   .   it’s   about   time   someone   does   .

             𝐆𝐎𝐎𝐆𝐋𝐄 𝐃𝐎𝐂  /  𝐏𝐈𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐓  / 𝐖𝐀𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐃 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐒

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hey ... hey ... how y’all doin’ ?  i’m sooo excited to be here , besties ! sorry i’m late with the intro , it’s been a looooong weekend for me but i’m eager to get the ball rolling . so here’s the rundown , the google doc has a full bio + more stats + headcanons but i don’t expect anyone to actually read all that nonsense so i’ve tried my best to sum it up below ( it’s still kinda long tho i’m sorry y’all i ramble too much ). i’m always down to talk plots & threw a few wanted connection ideas at the bottom , so feel free to hmu on discord any time <3 but yes okay let’s get into it

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━━     ˊ     *     𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬  . .

𝐟𝐮𝐥𝐥 𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞. madison dallas darling .   𝐧𝐢𝐜𝐤𝐧𝐚𝐦𝐞(𝐬). maddie , mads .   𝐝𝐨𝐛. april 14 , 1998 .   𝐚𝐠𝐞. twenty - three .   𝐳𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐚𝐜. aries sun , libra moon , leo asc .   𝐠𝐞𝐧𝐝𝐞𝐫. cis female .   𝐩𝐫𝐨𝐧𝐨��𝐧𝐬. she / her .   𝐬𝐞𝐱𝐮𝐚𝐥 𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. bisexual .  𝐛𝐢𝐫𝐭𝐡𝐩𝐥𝐚𝐜𝐞. nashville , tn .   𝐡𝐞𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭. 5ft 5in .  𝐞𝐝𝐮𝐜𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. high school diploma .   𝐨𝐜𝐜𝐮𝐩𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧. dancer / realty tv personality .   𝐟𝐚𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫𝐬. robert “robbie” darling - father . dixie darling - mother . delaney darling - sister .   𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐢𝐭𝐬. compassionate , imaginative , family-oriented  , devoted , generous , sympathetic , idealistic , self critical , naive , competitive , indecisive , impressionable , elusive , sensitive .

━━     ˊ     *     𝐛𝐢𝐨𝐠𝐫𝐚𝐩𝐡𝐲 . .

tw : things like shitty controlling parents , injury , & pregnancy are mentioned

   born & raised in nashville , tennessee , madison is the daughter of two country music icons ( basically blake shelton & miranda lambert ) & has only ever known a life in the spotlight . her parents were a widely adored it couple who shared their lives with millions of viewers across the world with their reality tv show . at 7pm cst you could tune in to watch robbie & dixie raise their two daughters - having some good ol’ wholesome family fun while juggling responsibilities that come with being famous artists . to any outsider looking in , they seemed like the perfect family . a loving father , a supportive mother , two prim & proper daughters that collected accolade after accolade in every pageant & talent competition they ever entered . but you shouldn’t believe everything you see on tv , even if it’s deceptively labeled as “reality” .

   when the cameras weren’t rolling , the darling sisters were left under their mother’s restrictive control . dixie darling treated her daughters more like dolls than living beings , madison & delaney were basically pretty little accessories . while robbie never dared to mistreat his daughters , he was around a lot less than the show made it seem - often touring the world rather than spending quality time with his girls . plus , dixie & robbie seemed to endlessly fight with one another - nearly every childhood memory madison has of her parents involves them yelling . if she wanted to see them looking happy & in love , she’d have to tune in to the fabricated reality on their own show to get a taste of what a happy , loving family looks like . 

   you can’t be a child of dixie darling without being exploited in some way . while delaney was pushed into the music scene , madison was shoved into the world of dance . she took every class that was offered & practiced for hours upon hours to perfect her craft . her sister had taken after their folks with the singing voice of an angel & the looks to rival that of miss universe , meanwhile maddie was good for two things : dance & doing whatever her mother said . so when dixie said to twirl , she twirled , when she said do a grand jeté, maddie asked how high & then over performed like the good little girl she was trained to be .

   it wasn’t until her parents got divorced & maddie moved to miami to be with her sister , her father , & her father’s new girlfriend that she sort of came out ( or more accruately described as dragged out ) of her timid , non - confrontational , subservient shell . with a longer leash , she had more freedom to roam far & wide . no one tried to tell her what to do or who to talk to & considering she was just a privileged teenager with endless funds & the status to get away with just about anything , you can imagine how badly that went . every mistake she made was broadcasted onto people’s televisions or headlined in tabloids . it was stressful , growing up & messing up all under the watchful gaze of millions of people who felt entitled to berate her for her poor life decisions . just because they watched her grow up on tv didn’t mean they actually knew anything about her . & yet so many people shared their unsolicited opinions on her & her life . it drove her insame .

   maddie wasn’t handling the stress of being well known very well . she wanted a break from it all , to just go somewhere far away where no one knew her name & just live by herself . it was a silly dream . nothing she’d ever actively pursue . but the universe has a funny way of giving us a taste of what we think we want just to teach us a lesson . 

   so over a year ago , maddie found out that she was pregnant . it was a shock to say the least . she kept it a close guarded secret from everyone but her sister for awhile . not only was it a life changing development , but it was one thing that she was determined not to share with the rest of the world . with the idea of running away in continuous loop in the back of her mind , she came up with a plan to buy herself some time . she faked a really bad injury during a performance & let the media run with saying she might not be able to walk , let alone dance ever again . pushing the cover story even further , she claimed to be in need of intense physical therapy & sought after it in a luxurious private lodge in new zealand . that’s where she stayed during her year away , letting no outsiders come visit while she figured out how she was going to move forward with this baby growing inside of her .

   so maddie finally got the break she was looking for even if it wasn’t under the circumstances that she would’ve liked . but she adapted to the situation . in her time away , she went through the entire pregnancy but it was basically decided for her by her parents that it was best to give the baby up for adoption . the little girl would be in good care by a couple that was a family friend of the darlings . better to bless someone who wanted a baby but couldn’t have one than for maddie to keep her daughter when she wasn’t in a place to take care of her . it broke her heart , honestly . she had grown quite attached to the baby & even entertained the idea of being a single mom even though she knew her own mom would never let that happen - it would go against the strict narrative that they try to put out there about the darling family .

   after a year away , maddie is back in miami without anyone knowing what really happened . she keeps using the “injury” as the excuse for her absence from the spotlight . anyone really close to her might be able to tell that something’s off , but she’s trying so hard to act like everything is fine & nothing has changed at all . she might even be able to get away with her lies - if it wasn’t for that damn 786 website threatening to spill the tea & make her life hell .

━━     ˊ     *     𝐩𝐞𝐫𝐬𝐨𝐧𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐭𝐲 & 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐝𝐜𝐚𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐬 . .

   a wannabe good girl gone bad but harbors a deep rooted fear of being a disappointment & a failure due to her mom’s strict parenting style . so like she wants to be rebellious & come across as carefree but internally she’s panic screaming always ( honestly relatable like same , girl )

   well - mannered in a sweet southern belle kind of way with her please’s & thank you’s & calling everyone ma’am & sir out of respect & what not

   biiiig mom friend energy . she just wants to make sure that everyone is taken care of . she can get very protective & a little helicopter parent-y with her friends . it probably has something to do with control issues that she doesn’t realize she has but we don’t have time to unpack that rn akjsdbk

   before her year away i want to say that she was a lot more people please-y / overly eager to please ?? like rarely said no to people that asked for favors , always agreed to any plans people invited her to out of courtesy , & what have you . but now i see her as being a little less patient than before & a little bit more unhinged & quick to shut down or snap

   guillable ! naive ! dumb as hell ! believes that everyone was raised with the same values as her & has a big of a heart like she does so she’s easily subjectable to getting her feelings hurt & i say let it happen !!

   wants to be mysterious so bad but there is very little known about her & her life that isn’t public knowledge . she could get shit on by a bird & it’ll probably become a twitter highlight idk she just wants to believe she’s imperceptible & acts all evasive in order to keep her private life private but that rarely ever has the desired effect

    one of those annoying rich & famous people that’s like “i wasn’t meant to be famous . i was meant to have a normal life & be a normal person” but like !! she is actually so out of touch with reality & probably couldn’t tell you how much milk is at the grocery store because she has people to do mundane day to day things for her . spoiled little privileged rich girl , let’s be real . her dad tried to keep her humble , idk what happened

   dance style / career is pretty much inspired by maddie ziegler but also not really bc i am very picky & choosey about which aspects of her career i’m pulling from

   boring on social media because she hardly ever posts & is very short with her captions & tweets when she does make an appearance online every blue moon 

   dodges questions about what she’s been up to while she was gone like she’s in the matrix or something . all that pr training her mom put her through when she was younger is coming in handy because she has not given a single honest , straight answer in the months she’s been back . would rather talk about anything else than herself right now so don’t be surprised if she pulls some random subject changes out of her ass if people get nosy . i’m sure the common conspiracy is that maddie was so embarrassed by the fall on stage that she went into hiding 

   delaney is the kim kardashian & britney spears of the family while madison is the kourtney & the jamie lynn xoxo

━━     ˊ     *     𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 . .

ride or die , bad influence , frenemies , family friends , good influence , confidant , rival , girl squad , non judging breakfast club , childhood friend , unlikely friend , exes on good terms , exes on bad terms , neighbors , pr friendship , pr enemy , social media mutuals , party buddies , secret friend , secret hook - up , crush , friends with benefits , adventure buddy , enemy with benefits , dance partners , mentors , mentees , sibling like relationship , will they won’t they , people suspicious of her & her supposed “injury” , father of her baby 👀 jk ..... unless

[ficklethcrns]

『 olivia holt. 25. cis woman. she/her. 』 oh heavens, is that MADISON “MADDIE” OWENS from SYCAMORE WAY i see roaming around mapleview? minnie may’s always calling them -STUBBORN & -SPOILT. i happen to think they’re not that bad! they’re a pretty cool WAITRESS at SUNRISE DINER and every time i’ve seen them, they’ve always been +BUBBLY & +QUICKWITTED. i hope i see them around again!

okay actually getting around to putting some words down for intros!! still fleshing these bbs out but here’s maddie! i’d very much love to plot so feel free to hmu anytime!

this is madison! or maddie, or maddiekins, or mads. she prefers any of the nicknames rather than her full name because that’s only used when shes in trooouble.

maddie’s parents are declan and elizabeth. her older brother is ryder and older sister is charlotte (@charlotteowens)

as the youngest of three, definitely doted on and spoilt; has a somewhat naive or bordering ignorant outlook because of it 

her parents had expectations a-plenty - wanted at least one of their kids to follow in one of their trades (lawyer & surgeon).  maddie felt like it was on her to follow at least one of those paths

she tried -- she went to college for about 3 years but didn’t complete any degree. she cared more about her freedom and being happy -- and what actually makes her happy & fulfilled, she’s yet to figure it out

so let’s call it a looooong sabbatical from her studies. her parents aren’t happy and she’s not thrilled that she’s disappointing her parents. at least it’s slightly less pressure.

currently working as a waitress at sunrise diner and living with her sister and niece. 

personality wise - happy go lucky, sunshine and bubbly, but with a bit of bark and bite if you mess with her! won’t hesitate to call things as she sees it. warms up easily if you offer her food!

wanted connections!!

friends [0/?]: could be any type, but definitely looking for old friends, childhood friends, ex friends, new friends, work friends, friends with benefits or anything else depending on what fits between characters and their lives

exes  [0/2?]: i don’t know that maddie has ever labelled herself or her preferences, but open to any past relationships, ending on good or bad terms. lingering feelings or just ending poorly that it’s now angsty, i’m game for anything!

family: i know there’s a wc for the owens brother, but i’m game for any other family connections like cousins or a distant something, just to flesh out the famjam a little more 

romantic..things? this might work better if it happened naturally, but i would love to write something adorable for maddie and have her be a happy nugget

fairy godmother: basically someone who helps maddie along in her trek to figure life out. maybe a mentor of sorts, could be a specific area of life. will have to put up with her shit though :) 

enemies: not everyone can get along so it’d be fun to have people maddie doesn’t get along with (goodness knows she can be difficult too) so whether they didn’t like each other growing up, or some other reason that they now butt heads! 

[farfallasunicas]

My Ocs

Let’s try this again Shall we!?

Kinsey Noelle

FC:   Melissa Benoist

Age: 24

Fandom:  Supernatural AU

 Pairings: N/A

Story:  Untiled

Link: https://www.fanfiction.net/s/13271863/1/An-Untitled-Supernatural-Story

A/n:  I haven’t written her in a while as I have no muse or inspiration for her at the moment.

Character Info:  Kinsey is the Nephilim   child of Mary Winchester and an unknown angel as well as the half-sister of Dean and Sam Winchester.   Due to her mother dying when she was born   she was adopted when she was a baby.   Her adopted Family named her Kinsey Noelle though her birth name was Noelle Rose Winchester.   Her adopted family kicked her out when she was 12 because they blamed her for not being able to protect her younger sister who got killed by a monster which Sam and Dean saved her from.  She then was raised by many hunters as she went into the life for revenge. When she is 24  her powers come into full power but  she has no idea what or who she is until Cass (spelling this was cause that’s how it is in the subtitles and Kripke said it’s that way so people wouldn’t think it was pronounce CAZZ)  tell her what she is. She then   moves into the Bunker and joins Sam and Dean in Hunting.

Madalyn Jaymes Winchester

a/n:  Madalyn will appear in stories at different ages as I was inspired for both so her info will show the same FC at different ages with different Bios!  There is no story for her right now but I’m working on some drabbles to see how people like her before writing more.  I’ll post my drabbles as soon as I can get to a computer as I have a hard time typing long things on mobile.

Younger

FC: Young Elle Fanning

Age: 5-8

Nicknames: Maddie or Mads

Fandom: Supernatural AU

Character info:   Madalyn is the half-sister of Sam and Dean.   Due to her reminding him so much of Mary, John took her in when her biological mother died.   She knows nothing of the Hunting life and thinks her Dad and brothers are just traveling mechanics or salesmen.    When Sam left for Stanford he wanted to take Maddie with him to give her a chance at a normal life and so she could go to good schools, however John refused.   Maddie and  Dean  secretly visit Sammy every  now and then and  Maddie often runs away  to Sam’s as she wants to stay with him when   her dad and  Dean are on a hunt instead of a hotel by herself or  with some random person John  knows.

Older

FC:  Present day Elle Fanning

Age: 17ish

Fandom: Supernatural AU

Story: TBA

Link: TBA

Pairing:  her and Jack  as best friends

Nicknames: same as younger

Character info:  Maddie now knows all about the hunting life and what her family does , but she doesn’t want to have any part of it, which Sam and Dean fully support.  She has been doing online school since she was 5 due to  moving around all the time, however when  they finally settled down in the Bunker as their home she finally convinced  Sam and Dean to let her go to public school. She was very close to Charlie when she was alive, considering her the older sister she always wanted. She is currently dating the most popular guy in school and is best friends with Jack though Dean is convinced that they have crushes on each other.

 Sarah Michele Puckerman

Fc: Bailee Madison

Age: 15-19

Fandom: Glee

Story title:  “A Thousands Cuts”

Link: TBA

Pairings: best friend/brother-sister relationship Blaine Anderson 

Friend: Kurt Hummel

Best friend in Wellwood: Kinsey  Rose (fc was Melissa Benoist in Glee)

Romantic relationship: Sebastian Smythe 

 Info: Sarah is honestly based on   a character I used to RP in @wellwoodrp with the URL of @saribearpuckerman (Still on as an archive if you want to read some of her interactions). This rp was an AU glee twin Rp that was a twist on the master/slave theme where characters like Sarah, Blaine, and Sebastian were residents and characters like Kurt, Kinsey and Joe were Residents.  I just loved her and couldn’t part with her even though I left the rp for personal reasons, especially the relationship she had with Blaine known as Blarah with @justbreatheblaine​.   At the time of the RP she was 15 but sticking to the time line she’d be about 19 right now. I’ll also post info from her bio from the rp as well.

 Character info: Sarah is from the small town of Wellwood.   She is the younger sister of Jake and Noah Puckerman and due to the fact that she doesn’t like the idea of servants she has a very strained relationship with her mother.    Sarah had to transfer to Crawford her sophomore year of high school due to bullying.    At Crawford she was in the glee club, even becoming the captain her senior year. She is dating Sebastian Smythe (who was bi in the rp) and is like a little sister to Blaine Anderson. His family is basically her 2nd family and she considers   Mrs. Anderson her 2nd   mom and refers to her as “Mama A” as she lived with them when her mother kicked her out. Blaine  was Sarah’s first crush (Before she knew he  preferred  princes to princesses as she put it) and   he was the first boy Sarah ever kissed ( Blaine has having a panic attack and Sarah didn’t know what to do so she kissed him like she saw in movies  hoping it’d calm him down).    People at Crawford and Dalton   assumed   that her and Blaine where biological siblings and often referred to her as Blaine's sister during introductions. The teachers would even address her as Miss Anderson. After a while Sarah just quit correcting them.    When she left Wellwood to go to College with the approval of Blaine and Mrs. Anderson after Blaine called her Miss Anderson when he wss getting on to her,she started using Anderson as her last name.

RP BIO for Reference

Sarah Puckerman was born Jan 1 and is 15 though she often acts mature for her age, though sometimes she acts like she is five years old.   Sarah is also a very sensitive person who hates disappointing people though she can sass you at any given moment she’s actually pretty shy until she gets to know you.  She is what’s known as a “girlie” tomboy.  She likes to dress up in girly clothes, but given the choice she would be out playing sports with her brothers or any of the other boys in the neighborhood or riding horses despite the fact that her mother would try to enter her into beauty pageants and threatened to put her in finishing school if she didn’t stop which has caused Sarah and her mother to have a very strained relationship.  Luckily for Sarah though neither one of her parents are around that much  and   a lot of times her Grandma Evie  is taking care of them who herself was a servant that married a resident and understands Sarah’s beliefs on  servants.

Sarah is very close with her brothers as their father abandoned them when they were younger, and their mother was too busy going to as many social events as possible. It was left up to Noah and Jake to look out for her, and in a way raise her, though she feels closer to Jake than she does Noah.  Since Noah often took the place of a father figure to Jake and Sarah, she often sees Noah more like a father.  In fact when she was little she often called him “Daddy puck”.   Jake however is her   Jakey bear and she is his Sari bear… names that are only known to the two of them.  If Sarah slips and says it in public, Jake acts like he honestly hates that name.

Sarah is also one of the nicest Residents or so she’s told.   She refuses to let servants call her miss, preferring Sari as it is a nickname and distances her from her family or Sarah. She does not give her Servants too many things to do, or anything too hard and often chooses to go against her family’s wishes and do her chores herself, occasionally asking her servants to help her with homework, or to come to her room to talk to her about things she’s not comfortable talking to her brothers or parents about.  Sarah also has a habit of making her friends   such as Blaine, Kurt and Kinsey honorary siblings. The Puckermans are also considered one of the poorer resident families.

☆ KEY TRAITS:   Tomboy acts girlie for her mother’s benefit, shy, sassy, sweet, adorable, outspoken, independent, sensitive, and brave.

☆ FEARS:   Storms, disappointing people,   that people will hurt her or leave her like her father if she lets them in.

☆ FACE CLAIM: Bailee Madison

 ☆ FAVORITES 

 »COLOR:  green

 »SEASON: Autumn and Winter

 » FLOWERS:  White Roses, Peppermint and Marble Poinsettias.

 » GUILTY PLEASURE:  Sweets!

[survivetashirojima]

Episode #6: “LITTLE MISS MADISON said FUCK JACOB” -Kevin

*takes my numbers back and hisses at Stephen Vi and Timmy*

WHATS POPPING, this game thats whats popping ladies and gentlemen whew, to say the least that is. Considering my last confessional was like round 1, let me go ahead and fill you guys in on what you MISSED!! (from my perspective) We voted Tom, then Julia, then Kenny all unanimously which was meh, I liked Tom but he's very ruthless but I think I could've worked with him for a little but he just wasn't on so I couldn't do anything without risking my game, then theres Julia another person I liked and wanted to work with but her inactivity was gross and she made her own bed and she's kinda crazy so hopefully it was for the better, lastly in the string of unanimous votes we had KENNY I was ELATED to see him go, finally someone actually bad for my game left, we never talked and we did not have a good history so him staying would have sucked, then JG had to walk from the game which was.. something, personally for my situation that was great and while I hope everything is ok with him and his life I am not ashamed to say I was happy to have his presence in the game be gone, to be frank. THEN!!!!!!! things started to heat up! So going into the 4th tribal I was vulnerable for the FIRST time all game, and to make matters worse there was only 5 other people to choose from outside of myself, so that was really really shitty and I hated that feeling, luckily prior to the vote I found my way into 2 different alliances one being named the "fat five" consisting of myself, madeleine, jacob, ricky and andrew! this is a group i feel comfortable with for the time being and I trust, and then after that I was added to a chat with Joanna, Pat and Stephen which seems to be an alliance but is not properly named. I appreciate that my social ability has led me into 2 different completely non-overlapping alliances but it's also put me in the MIDDLE of those 2 alliances which seem to have different HOPES about where this game is going. So during the final 14 vote my name was brought up for what was told to me as a millisecond, a very short period of time that didn't really spark any fires in people to want to vote me out, I heard of this first through JOANNA, surprisingly she told me Stephen told her about it which was alarming to me because I liked Stephen and should he have heard my name I would have expected him to bring it to my attention, frankly he did NOT and in the midst of having a 1 in 6 shot of going home I was not going to rock the boat at all, so I bit my tongue and let the round play on and considered this something to be better addressed at a future time. So back to the actual VOTE the actual coming up of names I had no part in both Dylan and Brien were brought to me by the respective "sides" of the tribes if you will, with Dylan being Pat/Jo/Steves choice and Brien being Mad/And/Ric/Jac's choice both side were VERY intensely wanting their vote to go through (which is expected) but as everything unfolded I realized the kumbaya spirits that blessed the 3 tribals prior had seemingly left the building because me being vulnerable for the first time is a GREAT time to take a break, to put it quickly THE VOTE WAS SPLIT. With neither side budging despite my best efforts. After some investigative work I realized that outside of the fat five the brien vote was not widely wanted, and after taking myself out of the picture would have resulted in a 7-6 vote with Dylan leaving. So once i realized this and decided for myself that Dylan leaving was in fact the better move for my game, considering his challenge dominance and his close bonds to people who i considered my closest allies, he needed to be cut loose. In the final stretch before tribal I knew what was coming and what needed to be done so I had to lay the base work for what I was about to do which MEANT either flipping my alliance (fat five) or providing visible doubt within myself enough to prove that I was not LYING, I spoke to madeleine through most of this confessing concerns that we did not have the votes and perhaps it was best to just ride the dylan wave out as a unit like we had done up until that point, but there was no budging with her I expressed MULTIPLE concerns MULTIPLE times, and no movement. Then I went to jacob who was out of the loop as ever, he had no idea dylan was even an option and I told him that it was and it was likely to be the end result of the night with or without him, and I then tried to speak to andrew who was presumably at work but i really couldn't tell ya, I messaged him asking had he heard Dylans name at all, no response but the effort was there and I wasn't gonna call him just to give bad news, and lastly in the final moments I confessed to madeleine I "switched" my vote to Dylan to avoid a tie, which was true, and became my main selling point for WHY I did it which is fair, while there are revotes it's still half way to rocks and thats one hike i will NOT be taking, at least not this early and not over Dylan's ass lets make that clear. Then, the deed is done and the dust settles and im left to pick up the pieces of a devastated alliance, as I said i expose myself and admit to not wanting a tie and worrying for the safety of myself and ricky (who would've had a 50% chance of one of us going should it have gone to rocks) Im comforted by Madeleine and Ricky who understand the position I was in, Andrew was understandably and slightly upset but hey I DID try and talk to him, jacob pretty indifferent as always, I felt in the clear and I had nothing to do but move on. I will be doing the final 13 vote in a SEPARATE confessional, you're welcome  

BACK BACK BACK AGAIN, HALLELU! where were we? lets keep this going shall we, anyways SO FINAL 13, the challenge is remembering the cats trailer which I tried slightly after quite a long day at work so my brain wasn't fully there, I did do quite a bit of studying but my dumb ASS didn't think to remember the order of celebrities, or the featured names/works that were affiliated with the trailer, so I lost a lot of time in having to go back and watch those parts which scored me a mere 14 !! which was sadly not enough to win Immunity, instead Andrew and Stephen won! 1 person from each alliance, how poetic. The winners didn't really affect me or my gameplay this week it was quite a non factor. Which makes sense in a 14 person tribe, with now 12 people eligible to be voted out. The first half of the day was quite like every other vote, no names, no activity everyone waiting for the storm to flood in and sweep us away in the dark murky waters of tashirojima where somebody's gonna end up drowning. AND THEN IT HAPPENS!! suddenly there's names... LNGVO (Pat/Jo/Steve alliance) seems to be wary of Madeleine, who is quite the talker and a good social player considering her persistance with talking to people, it's impressive really. She won the social challenge by a landslide and that scared people and specifically scared Pat who threw her name out there first, pitching a pretty decent case in my opinion but Maddie trusts me so I don't really give into the pitch while Joanna agrees I subtly drop a message providing why her gameplay isn't all it's seemed to be and how she'll likely do herself in in due time, and we should probably just wait it out. While my tiny message likely had no impact Stephen did somewhat agree, he felt making another big move (was dylan that big of a move?) would set a domino effect into play and ultimately catch up to one of us which I agreed with. So while Pat and Joanna were still hung up on Maddie going home if at all possible we/they also recognized that her likability at this point in the game would make it hard to vote her out considering Jay/Timmy 2 MOTR players wouldn't write her name down was a game changer. So then the vote swapped to Jacob a less social and less likable player but also a key component to the unbeknownst to them alliance, the fat five, so I couldn't really have that happening BUT I did encourage the idea once it came up because while I wanted to pitch the idea of going Brien to this group but with the talk of "staying strong" as an "8" that voted together previously I knew it wouldn't be well received and I didn't want to risk looking sketchy that early in the day cause you never know how quick a vote can turn if given the right chance, so I sat back and agreed and made a small case for why jacob "SHOULD" be the vote and then they settled on Jacob because my assumptions were that if the vote was Jacob then Madison (who i assumed to be close to jacob) would not vote for him and would mean not necessarily a vote for the fat five but one less vote for LNGVO who by the mathematics of it, had the majority. BUT BOY WAS I WRONG, cause "we" settled on jacob and as it turns out LITTLE MISS MADISON said FUCK JACOB and voted for him !!! That was a shocker. But lets back up, before the votes were read I eventually brought up Brien's name AGAIN in the fat five, hoping we could stick on that, piss off less people and keep the sides more even so I don't give either side the upperhand WITHOUT needing little ol me, the middle position is only powerful if theres a middle to sit in. So if Brien went home I kept the balance, I appease the previously disappointed fat five and save the day with getting brien out just 1 round late. Without much fight they agree, it really does seem like the best decision so now I know where both sides are aiming I just need to figure out what their ammunition looks like. I knew where most of the votes were gonna be EXCEPT FOR Jay and Madison, both promised both sides their votes (which I know because I am somehow a part of both sides and thats why I hate my life) so without myself madison and Jay the votes looked like like 6-5 in the  LNGVO favor in eliminating Jacob, a close ally of mine, so now I had to secure 1 more vote to tip the scales in my favor, Jay had been on the fence all day from what he said, and so I went to talk to him like 10 minutes before tribal and he confessed to being on the fence and he told me while he promised his vote was going to go against jacob he didnt feel like he could follow through and i said SAME DUDE!!!! we're in the same boat, so i took this opportunity to relate and then make sure he felt confident in his decision because he was making it with me. And we locked on Brien, and he went on to later tell me that me agreeing with him and our conversation was the push he needed to lock that vote in, which im so grateful for. Now yet again I had to soften the blow to the side that I was voting against, while I knew Jay was flipping for about 20 minutes before I said anything (from 5:50 to about 6:10) I needed to find the perfect timing to tell LNGVO that I heard Jay was flipping and that Madison was also voting Brien (which wasn't true but I DID HEAR that she was from Madeleine and Andrew so I didn't lie) and with this I said I don't know if the votes are there anymore, and obviously Joanna not showing up until the last second was helpful too because that added to the sense of insecurity with that vote, and I also said I don't wanna vote Jacob if he's not gonna go home (again, true) and so with only 1 more person to be asked a question I dropped the bomb with little to no time to recover and have Stephen or Pat go and talk to jay to flip him back and no time to really figure out what was happening. Then the votes are read Brien goes home THANK U BABY JESUS and my plan worked out. Now I just need to continue to balance these 2 alliances as best as possible. In my next submission I will talk about the information and events that happened AFTER the votes were read. Thank you!

PART 3, THE FINALE, ARE YOU EXCITED? im excited, anyways. So Brien's gone hallelujah amen am i right. The LNGVO alliance seems understand when I express my concerns that the vote was too close to call and I couldn't really trust much of what anyone said like I mean come on, it was 7-6 for christs sake. They seem ok with it, understanding that this isn't the end of the world and theres still a bunch of game to be played and just hope to move forward stronger than before and hopefully still with the majority. And then I speak to Jay again, "baffled" at the fact that we were in the middle and the decision makers, making sure he knew it was both of our decision which leads him to propose that he would like to work with me, and I agree obviously! I really like Jay we share a love of pizza and pretzels and anything that combines pizza and pretzels. But also he's in the middle as well and he was another person to promise his vote one way and go back on it, similar to what I did, so I wont or shouldn't be taking heat alone which is always good. AND THEN the real kicker of the night, earlier on in the day I spoke to Stephen about hearing my name and not telling me, and gave him the chance to tell me his story, as vague as can be he tells me that it came up but wasn't truly considered, when asked specifically who said my name he dodged the question but did tell me it originated in a conversation with Madeleine, who I trusted and also didn't tell me about hearing my name but AFTER THE VOTE Maddie brought it up that Stephen in fact said my name on a call to HER not the other way around which jogged my memory and I confirmed and he in fact threw me out as an option for the vote, the same round he started an alliance with me! Ridiculous that guy. So now I know that Stephen has a thought in his mind that looks at me as a threat and someone that he ALREADY has considered targeting. While I initially felt bad having to let down LNGVO considering the alliance was created by Stephen I feel less bad now knowing that he is two-faced and is to not be trusted by me, despite how hard he wants to try and seem loyal to the alliance. People such as Andrew and Mad already see his sketchiness and the back and forth and I'm glad I want to capitalize on that and hopefully make something happen. But it's too soon to tell what I want to happen this round with 2 days for immunity and another for tribal really anything can happen and thats worrysome. but lets end on a positive note, Madeleine told me that I am her favorite person in this game and that she trusts me the most, which is AMAZING, she also brought up the idea of forming a final three of myself, her and Andrew to which I obviously agreed to but I think she may not know that Andrew has a pre-existing relationship to Ricky, and I have a pre-existing relationship to Jacob and Jacob and Ricky ALSO know each other well. But that may not even come into play but it's important to note that I am now officially a part of someones end game (for the time being) this is huge and I hope to become a part of more peoples end games as the game progresses. Good Luck Charlie!

I was scared I wasn’t coming across how I wanted to be in this season, turns out I am and I’m so freaking happy!!!

I was think about the challenge in class and looked at my coffee and my mind just screamed “Starbucks cat!” And then “MADDIE NO”

Madeleine is totally a backstabber but that's okay. I already knew that since tribal 2. I think I'm gonna switch to vote her off only bc now I have Jay and Pat talking to me. Thank gods Brien got voted off. He never talked to me besides setting up the alliance. I favor people who talk over people who doesn't so that's one less inactive person. I"M SO GLAD THAT THIS CHALLENGE IS AN ARTISTIC ONE. I can not wait to see how people react to what I drew. I think its hella nice. Even if I get voted off after this challenge, that's perfectly fine and I'm okay with that since this is my pride and joy of the season. Plus I won't be gone gone since we're all jurors anyways. It'll just be lonely for a few days until the next juror gets voted out. Or multiple. Lukas and Olivia seems to be hinting at more than one person can be voted out and idk man. Scary business right there

So this is how I'm pretty sure the votes went last time? - Andrew, Maddie, Ricky, Kevin, Jacob, Jay, Madison: voted out Brien - Stephen, Timmy, Vi, Joanna, Pat, Brien: voted out Jacob Unless I'm a buffoon......but I think Madison was the swing vote. I think. Idk. I had to convince Jay very very very very very VERY last second and then at the same time get people to convince Madison while I was also trying to talk to her. I wouldn't have been so adamant about NOT voting out Jacob had Stephen not been sketchy as all hell coming to me at like 8:30 being like "teehee wut if we did jacob uwu" cuz that was fucking stupid. He was like "well why does Jacob deserve to stay over Brien" and I was like why the fuck are you all of a sudden trying to keep Brien? For numbers? Yeah no. No Brien for you. He's gone now. So Stephen is high on my hit list. Also I just like do not have a connection to Vi, Timmy, Pat, and Joanna and like I've talked to Vi and Joanna but the convos are stale. I guess I can try messaging Pat. I might look like a doofus messaging Timmy this late in the game especially when I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me but I think I've decided I don't give a shit about social graces and might just message him anyway for funsies. The key word is might. For this vote though.......Maddie, Ricky, and Jacob are all vulnerable. Like at least Maddie puts in work but if I have to keep dragging Ricky and Jacob's lagging asses I'm gonna lose it. I'm love Ricky so much but like......please. Do smth.... I'm gonna break my back from carrying this alliance. Jay is also vulnerable btw. So that's 4 people I don't wanna target. Then there is Timmy and Madison. Will Madison vote out Timmy? Idk. That could be an issue. Because if she doesn't then I think it could end up being 6-6. Nnnnnn. So like if it's 6-6 that's gay because if it deadlocked then Timmy and whoever the other side voted would be safe. So like it would be a 1-4 chance that Madison goes over one of my allies. We need people to vote out Timmy. This is GAY. Or maybe we just scrap Jacob because he's useless. Who fuckin knows.

*spongebob timecard narrator voice* the next day: So apparently Madison voted Jacob? And Timmy voted Brien? I'm confused but idc lol maybe we can just get majority on Madison then

These people are so messy. So Jacob left my alliance with him and Madison but I’m messaging him (or at least trying to, he’s responding slowly but I think he’s at work so it’s all good) because I need him to know I didn’t vote for him. Madison did though and now I know she also voted Dylan and she thought I did too. I still want Madison in but like I don’t want to go to the end with her mainly bc I know she would be more likely than others to vote for me in the end. There’s plenty of reasons to get Madeleine out but she’s not winning immunities so the opportunity will be better with less people and these people are smart and will see that she is a social threat but yea she is easy to beat in immunity (although I haven’t been doing too well in immunities). I want Ricky gone bc I fucked up and never answered his message from a while ago so that is a dead relationship so he can go. Also I want Joanna gone sooner rather than later because I know she is smart.

so, gag of all gags, everyone in my core alliance is immune, woo. This means we dont have to be worried about a massive blindside, the only true ally i have thats vulnerable is Madison, but it seems the vote is aiming more at ricky, thank god. I like the guy but hes just one of the less-active people and I want to make sure we dont have an ftc full of goats who just drifted through. Kevin is the only one of my alliance im wary of, he has done great in challenges so far, and that can be dangerous the closer you get to FIC, so eventually he will lose immunity and ill have to betray him. Make it to f8, then the next time he loses hes gone.

https://youtu.be/qHZhhQIvOcU

CASUALTIES:

CAST ASSESSMENTS:

PART 1: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BF-qsugZ6RM&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=14

PART 2: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dF6SrpCKBrA&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=15

[shadeflare-sisters]

Plot & Story Meme

Ellie Shadeflare

(SPOILERS FOR EVENTUAL VILLAINS)

One Place

♦Ul’dah Ellie’s birthplace and home, and many of her most treasured memories. Ul’dah holds particular value to the Keeper, even with all of its flaws, bad tastes and internal politicking. Between her sister Madison Shadeflare’s service to the Immortal Flames and her apartment in the Goblet, there’s not much that could convince Ellie to abandon her home.

Two Villains

♦Auvax Sheapain, Insolens Dryadalis   Before the monster known simply as Insolens Dryadalis was born, he was merely a corrupt Duskwight merchant, selling Garlean wares to the highest bidder. Captured whilst smuggling his goods through Baelsar’s Wall, Gaius van Baelsar had him arrested and held for treason and theft of national secrets. Although Baelsar had plans for execution, a surprisingly violent solution for a reasonable Legatus, more pressing matters were at hand leading to his death in the Praetorium. Were that Baelsar’s execution to have been carried out, Sheapin would have been spared a fate worse than death as Baelsar’s successor as viceroy to Ala Mhigo, Zenos yae Galvus would authorize several inhumane treatments upon the Duskwight. Firstly, a Black Mage’s Soul Crystal was forcibly fused into his body, granting him untold potential for destruction. This potential would be tempered as all of his limbs were amputated and replaced with Magitek limbs, and his torso melded with steel, turning him into a walking Magitek engine of annihilation. Finally, like so many others placed under the knife by Aulus mal Asina, he was granted the power of Resonance, granting him not only disturbing prescience but also the memories of all he was commanded to slaughter, driving the man mad with a new bloodthirst.

Two women have the Insolens Dryadalis’s ire in particular. Madison Shadeflare, whom he knew and enjoyed when he was a normal, Duskwight, and his bastard daughter, birthed by Madison’s mother, Elatus Shadeflare. The anger, pain and trickery that had caused so much financial hardship and stress that he was caught in his smuggling is the whitest flame in his core, as his Black Magitek weapon systems are constantly prepared for him to eliminate the stench of his most hated mistakes once and for all.

♦Glysoria Glysoria has been a constant threat to Ellie ever since she had ever set foot into the idea of adventuring. A Succubus-type voidsent, Glysoria at first tried to lead Ellie to her death, but failed. Eventually, she would choose to wait for Ellie’s death rather than trying to causing it. She’d begin her direct reign of terror when she possessed Ellie, began to control her life and instincts. Eventually, she was exorcised, but had left her touch upon Ellie, placing voidal siphons to absorb her aether... and would change her body.

Despite her removal from Ellie’s body, Glysoria kept eyeing Ellie’s body, even as another being took interest in Ellie as a host...

Three Relationships

♦Kira Shadeflare It would be a lie to say that Ellie’s romantic history has been anything but tumultuous. In fact, her original meeting with Kira was actually a result of her trying to court a friend of Kira’s, failing, but still trying to establish a friendship. In its stead, however, Ellie and Kira would begin to fall deeply in love, and would even have a child together.

♦V’danya Tykha Ellie’s second partner was met a good deal more casually, but said causality became intimate as Kira would facilitate a polygamous relationship between the three. V’danya and Ellie would hit it off, and became quite close when in absence of Kira, and remained close with her around. Ellie feels that the triumvirate of love is quite pure and the most positive experience she’s ever had.

♦Mara Ileres, formerly Lucia aan Aeolius The first ally Ellie had discovered whilst adventuring, Mara had been a constant force of encouragement to Ellie, even with her own inner turmoils and conflicts. In particular, Ellie believes that she owes Mara her life as the Midlander healed her from near fatal burns, which had the unfortunate side effect of allowing Glysoria into Ellie’s form... but neither Ellie nor Mara could have predicted this. The two have constantly been quick to each others’ side, and Ellie once had feelings for the woman which had faded as time went on.

As an ironic twist of fate, Ellie holds a particular hatred toward the soldier who sliced her sister’s eye into blindness. She does not know their name, nor their appearance but her hatred exists. That being said, it is Mara, then known as Lucia aan Aeolius, who had cut Madison’s eye, but the two had settled their differences, Madison not holding a grudge in the first place.

Four Items

♦Satchel of Soul Crystals Black Mage, White Mage, Scholar, Summoner, Astrologian and Red Mage. Each has their own history, and each are used by Ellie using her latent Echo to tap into their arts. Though it leads to damaged sanity, it’s still something she utilizes to enhance her fighting.

♦Infant Supplies  Though Ellie doesn’t always have these, she certainly does when she has Priscilla with her. Diapers, milk, adorable sets of tiny replicas of Ellie’s gear are a constant for the supplies she keeps in these bags.

♦Pouch of Glamour Crystals She constantly uses Glamour Crystals in order to change her outfits, and it’s unlikely to see her wearing the same outfit twice. Many of the outfits that she wears highly contrast from the last, and she seemingly has one for every occasion.

♦Painted Memories There are five, small paintings Ellie holds at all times. One, is of her, Maddie and their mother. Another is of her, Mara and her Contacts. The third is of Ellie, V’danya and Kira. The fourth is of her Free Company. The last image is of her infant daughter, with the caption of “Do it for her.”

Five Characters

♦Madison Shadeflare (Alt) Ellie’s trusted sister, and a paragon of virtue to Ellie... or so the younger Keeper believes.

♦Priscilla Shadeflare (NPC) Ellie’s beloved daughter, with white hair, crimson eyes and grey skin like her mother, but taking on aspects of Kira, her horns, tail, and scales resembling Kira, but with furred patches. Ellie loves her almost more than she loves her own life... even if Priscilla would grow quite distant and rude.

♦Kensei Hokuto Ellie’s (presumably former) adoptive mother, a woman she highly respected and looked up to. The Keeper wishes to see the Xaela again, but has a feeling she won’t.

♦Siovah Dawnhammer Ellie’s adoptive aunt, Ellie holds a large amount of trust towards the woman, and is a more consistent figure in the Keeper’s life.

♦Alyx Quintessence Alyx is a woman that Ellie wishes to learn more about, in particular for her skills with fencing so that she may learn Red Magic as efficiently as possible and also the knowledge her library holds. She also holds curiosity to the woman’s soulkin nature... even if it might be considered rude. 

Six Moments

♦ The Calamity At the age of ten, Ellie started hearing an eerie yet calming song wherever she went. Her mother tried to convince that it was nothing, until that fateful day the Dreadwyrm ascended over Carteneau. Though her sister who was serving in the Immortal Flames survived, she returned home with a slashed out eye, causing a deep seated resentment toward the Garleans.

♦ “Who Am I?” After swallowing a Glamour Crystal and falling off a cliff, she had taken the appearance of one Auvax Sheapin, but would keep her name. However, her memories were lost but she had a new focus to discover what she originally thought was to be her soulmate. This crush was due to the machinations of the Voidsent Glysoria, as she would soon find out once she regained her true form and eventually her memories.

♦ Possession At one point, on a rainy day in the Mist, Ellie smelled some sort of enticing aroma from a Valentione’s Day torch, and soon fell asleep inside of it. If it weren’t for her aether protecting her and the rain slowing the burn, Ellie would have died before she had the ability to request healing. In fact, she had briefly died whilst Mara was treating her... but as her soul reentered her body, so too did Glysoria, who would plague her life forever, even when she was exorcised.

♦ Meeting Kira Kanzaki After a failed attempt to court a woman of the C Tribe, and deciding to learn hunting with the woman’s sister, the three were camping in the woods and Kira eventually joined them. After teasing by the sisters, Ellie and Kira would eventually end the night cuddling together. Eventually they started dating. And soon became intimate after the two were certain Ellie could have her libido under control, and that she truly loved Kira.

♦ Assumed Betrayal, and Joining the Dragon Army As Ellie left her previous Free Company, she would soon find herself assaulted as she was gathering her possessions. In her desperation, she would drag herself to the headquarters of Dragon Army, and would be immediately interred into the infirmary to heal. Kira was a supportive presence in her life as she recovered.

♦ The birth of Priscilla Nine months after Ellie and Kira Eternally Bonded, Priscilla Shadeflare was born, being a mix of Ellie and Kira’s features, with Ellie’s hues, shades and fur and Kira’s Xaela form. Due to what Ellie called “the girl’s beauty”, she became more incensed to adventure, to form a better world for her daughter and other children, but also to obtain the gil to sustain the growing family.

Seven Quotes

♦ “I... I never thought I could trust myself to love again... but then I met you, Kira... I am yours...” -Paraphrased from Ellie and Kira’s Eternal Bond.

♦ “At the very least, to relieve myself of the guilt of being on your Company's  estate, eating your food, having medical attention on me... and frankly... it's always good to have someone or something to fight for. I have Miss Kensei, I have my friends, I have family, but... a cause is still something I desperately need above all else...  I know I don't look like much, and I'm almost worried that I may have deserved the attack on me... but I doubt you'll have a member more loyal than I... ” -Ellie as she joined Dragon Army. 

♦ "I love you both as well... You are so wonderful, and I'm lucky to have met you both..." -Ellie... constantly to Kira and V’danya.

♦ "I am Elatus Shadeflare, Jack of Magic... but you can call me Ellie!" -Ellie’s introduction.

♦ "This... is MY body. You don’t belong in MY body!" -Ellie versus Gylsoria.

♦ "...did I do a bad?" -Constantly Ellie due to her social awkwardness.

♦ "Mara, you saved me when I was nearly dead. There’s no way I can repay it, but I’ll try!" -Ellie to Mara, paraphrased.

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[itselbaka]

Love is hard - Chapter six

Pairing: Madison Joseph x reader (friends), Josh Dun x reader (friends, lovers?), Tyler Joseph x reader (friends), Jenna Joseph x reader (friends), other Joseph and Dun family members

Plot: You take a leap year abroad, where you meet Madison Joseph. You become best friends and move in with her family. You meet her brother Tyler and his best friend Josh, who you have a crush on. Will Josh and you become more than friends?

This chapter: You try to mend fences, but will all be okay?

Warnings: None

Word count: about 2500

Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5

A/n: Hope you love it :)

Dinner went as expected. Maddie and Ashley caught up, having known each other for years through their brothers, still occasionally laughing and joking about ‘your zoo-boy’, as they called Brandon. Jenna and Kelly were happily chatting with each other, while Tyler and his dad conversed, mostly about Tyler’s music. Josh sat furthest away from you, on purpose you suspected. He joined the conversation between Tyler and Chris from time to time, but mostly sat in silence. You were quieter than usual, getting annoyed by Maddie and Ashley’s jokes and feeling you screwed things up with Josh, even though it was in no way your intention or your fault. “Thanks for the lovely dinner. We should be going now, I’ll call you soon.” Tyler said to his mom after dinner and coffee. Jenna, Ashley and Josh got up as well, going around the table to say goodbye to everyone. You frantically tried to think of something to say to Josh before he left, thinking you had approximately 5 seconds to say something when he’d come over to hug you. He hugged Maddie, who sat next to you and turned to you. “Can I just…” you softly started, trying to look in his eyes. “Bye, y/n.” Josh simply said, ignoring your words completely, leaving without even looking at you. Ouch.

“I’m sorry we teased you about that Brandon guy so much.” Maddie said that night when you were in bed. “It’s okay, I know you’re just joking around.” You answered, unable to stay mad at Maddie. “Can I ask you something?” she replied. “Sure, as long as it’s not about Brandon.” You both giggled. “No. Well, he has a little to do with it.” “Okay, go ahead.” You answered, getting a little anxious about the upcoming question. “I think… well, I noticed that after the whole Brandon thing, you were like, you know, kinda trying to talk with Josh and like, looking at him the entire time. And I was just thinking… uhm… Are you, like, into Josh or something?” Maddie stammered. You couldn’t see her in the dark room, but you were sure Maddie was looking towards you, probably just as anxious as you were. You stayed silent for a few moments, wondering what to answer. “To be honest, I think I might be kinda into him. He’s just really… funny and sweet and friendly and interesting.” You blurted out. “And hot.” Maddie added. “And hot. Definitely hot.” You laughed, relieved Maddie didn’t seem to be mad. “Look, I’m going to be honest with you. I get it, really, Josh is a nice guy. But truthfully, I don’t think he’s ready for something serious. And with his traveling schedule and your plans for university, I’m not sure it’s a good idea to start something…unpractical.” Maddie said. “Oh.” You said, flabbergasted. You’d been afraid she wouldn’t like your crush on her almost-brother, but her words still shook you. “Well, there’s no sense in this talk anyway. You probably saw what happened today, and I clearly messed up.” You added, sadly. “Maybe it’s for the best. Don’t worry, you’ll find someone nice. Maybe you should try and find Brandon online!” Maddie said, laughing, trying to lighten the mood. “Goodnight.”

You barely saw Madison that weekend. She made plans with her ‘old’ friends from high school and didn’t bother to invite you along. Both of you sensed something changed after your late night talk about Josh. You were disappointed she didn’t consider your feelings and clearly disapproved, and she was probably disappointed in you too, or mad. Or both. You texted Josh on Saturday, just saying hi and asking if he had any plans for the weekend. He didn’t respond. You had heard Jenna and Tyler were away for the weekend, so you didn’t bother texting either of them, not wanting to disturb them. You even texted Ashley to check if she wanted to meet up. She clearly wasn’t your first choice, but you didn’t want to spend the whole weekend alone in a, still, new town. She didn’t respond either, making you wonder if she spoke with Maddie and was mad at you too now. Not wanting to sit at home alone all day, you got dressed and walked to the mall. After an hour of window-shopping, you went to the top floor Starbucks for some much needed coffee. The place was really crowded and standing in a long line, you glanced around the shop, already looking for a place to sit later. Your heart started pounding when you saw Josh and Ashley sitting in the far corner, drinking coffee and talking. They hadn’t seen you yet and while waiting on your order you tried to make up your mind; were you going to leave before they saw you, sit somewhere and pretend you didn’t see them, or walk over and say hi? You remembered your unanswered texts, and not wanting to embarrass yourself or make it awkward, you opted to get your coffee and leave.

Grabbing your coffee tightly, you attempted to make your way out of the busy shop. “Y/n!” You looked around, trying to find the person who shouted your name. “Over here, in line!” The voice said. You quickly scanned the people in line to figure out who was calling you. Soon, you spotted Jay, Tyler’s brother, and manoeuvred to him. “How are you?” You both asked, hugging. “I’m fine. Are you here alone?” He asked. “Yes. I was just shopping and needed some caffeine. You?” “Yeah, me too. I need new shoes, but hate shopping, so decided I needed some coffee first. So how are you? Adjusting well?” You stayed in line with Jay, catching up since you hadn’t seen him in a while. “Let’s try and get a seat somewhere, or are you busy?” Jay asked you after he ordered. “Not busy at all. I’m not sure there are any seats left though.” You responded, once again looking around the shop. Suddenly you remembered Josh and Ashley, quickly looking to the corner, seeing they were still there. “O, look. It’s Josh and Ash. We can join them!” Jay said happily, grabbing his coffee and leading you there before you were able to make up an excuse.

“Hey guys! Mind if we join you?” Jay said, greeting the pair and sitting down. You stood waiting for someone to say something, unsure of how to act. “Hey Y/n, out shopping with Jay? Where’s Maddie?” Ashley greeted, hugging you. “No, we ran into each other just now. Maddie’s out with her friends, so I just went shopping.” You replied, questioning whether Ash had been in contact with Maddie or not. “Hey Josh. How are you?” You smiled at him, not knowing his mood towards you. “Good. You?” he half-smiled. Well, at least he isn’t ignoring me completely, you thought. You sat down across Josh and listened to Jay and Ash talking. Your phone rang, and you saw Kelly’s name on the screen. “Excuse me. It’s your mom” you said to Jay. Kelly asked where you were and if you’d be home for dinner. You told her you’d arrange some dinner for yourself, thinking you might hang out in the mall longer than expected. “Oh, Ash, you still have my phone.” Josh said as you hung up. “Yes, here you go.” She said, as she fished the phone out of her bag and handed it to him. “We just got out of the cinema, and I hate people playing with their phones in there, so he had to hand it over.” Ashley explained to you, grabbing her own phone too. “O Y/n, I’m sorry. I’m just seeing your message now!” Ash said after looking on her phone. “Yeah, I’m just seeing it now too. Sorry.” Josh added. “If we knew Maddie wasn’t with you, we would’ve invited you to come with us. Sorry.” Ash said. You didn’t know what feeling was worse. Your previous impression that everybody was ignoring you, or the current suspicion that they felt pity for you, having only Maddie as a friend. “No problem. I just haven’t had time to meet new people yet, so I figured I might hang with you guys.” You responded, a bit embarrassed. “You could’ve called Brandon.” Josh said softly so only you could hear him. “Since I’m not interested in him and we did not exchange phone numbers; no, I couldn’t.” You answered him in the same hushed tone.

After a while Jay stood up. “I’m sorry guys, but I really need to buy shoes before all stores close. Are you staying here? I won’t take long, maybe we can get something to eat together?” he said, gathering his stuff. “I’ll go with you, I’ll take any excuse to go shopping.” Ashley said enthusiastically. “Let’s meet up outside Five Guys across the street at 6, ok?” She looked at you and Josh. Were you really going to be alone with Josh for over an hour? “Sure, have fun.” Josh answered. You watched them leave, thoughts racing about what to say to Josh. Josh was looking at his phone, doing who-knows-what and probably just as ill at ease as you felt. “Look Josh, I’m not sure what’s exactly going on, but I feel something’s changed since the day at the zoo.” You bravely started. Josh looked at you. “So I just wanted to say… repeat actually, that I’m not at all interested in that guy, if that’s what bothering you.” You continued, unable to see a reaction in Josh’s face. “And I really enjoyed hanging out with you and it would be nice if we can keep on doing that.” You softly added, unintentionally holding your breath waiting for his response. “I know, me too. I’m sorry. I have been kinda off lately. A little stressed maybe. I didn’t mean to act so… you know.” Josh said, looking you straight in your eyes, making you blush once again. “Maybe we can go for a coffee sometimes.” You blurted out, your courage on a high. “We’re already having coffee.” Josh answered dryly, still looking in your eyes. You started mumbling incoherently trying to save face, when Josh started chuckling which soon turned into a fit of laughter from you both. Luckily, that cleared the air and you sat and chatted for nearly an hour, avoiding any topics related to zoos. Or dates for that matter. You met up with Ash and Jay at the restaurant at 6 and had a simple burger and milkshake. Jay left after dinner, meeting up with friends somewhere. “I really need to get home and unpack my bags.” Ashley said, holding seven bags from various stores. “And I’m not walking home with all this weight.” She smiled, already looking around for a cab. “Yeah, I should probably head home too.” You said. “I’ll walk with you. I have to pick something up from Ty’s house, so I have to go in that direction anyway.” Josh said. Ashley got in a cab which quickly drove off, Josh and you started walking in the opposite direction.

“So, I was thinking, maybe we can, you know, have dinner somewhere.” Josh suddenly said when you were one block away from home. “Are you still hungry? We just had dinner!” You answered, unaware of his intention. Josh grinned, cheeks reddening. “No, I didn’t mean that. I was trying to ask you out to dinner sometime.” “O. I… Yes, I’d like that.” You answered, trying not to think about Maddie. “Ok, so I’ll call you tomorrow to pick a date?” Josh asked. “Sure. Thanks for walking me home. See you soon.” You hugged Josh, having arrived home. You suppressed the need to cheer loudly when you entered the house, though you couldn’t stop smiling. After a short talk with Kelly and Chris, you got ready for bed, seeing Maddie wasn’t home yet.

You hadn’t seen Maddie nearly all weekend. She came home Sunday evening while you were in bed, not sleeping yet. “Hey Mads, are we still going to campus tomorrow?” You asked, not sure what her attitude towards you was going to be. “Yes, sure. We’ll leave at 9am, my dad’s taking us. Goodnight.” Maddie replied, letting you know all was not good between you. You woke up the next morning and got ready, excited to finally see the campus and school. You were still looking forward to studying there, eventhough Maddie and you might not be as close as before anymore. You decided not to tell her about what happened Saturday, not wanting to stir up anything. The campus was huge, and the university was even bigger than you imagined. At the end of the day, your bag was loaded with flyers and booklets of information about the school and the different courses they offered. Maddie and you managed to get through the day without fighting, actually having fun some moments. You were dining together in the school’s dining hall while Chris ate somewhere else with friends, when her phone bleeped. She read the message and typed something back. You could feel the atmosphere change before she said anything. “So someone just texted me saying you and Josh are going on a date tomorrow.” She said, looking at you with fiery eyes. Josh had called you the day before to set the date and you felt there was no point in denying it. “Yes. He asked me out and I said yes. I know you’re not really happy about it, but I’d like to see if and where this might go.” You answered, trying to keep calm. “You can do whatever you want. But I’ve already told you it’s a stupid idea. So don’t come crying to me when it doesn’t work out, okay.” Maddie said angrily, leaving the table.

“Why wouldn’t it work out? What is your problem?” You followed Maddie outside, trying to make her stop walking. “You don’t know what you’re getting into. Maybe you think Josh is single because his previous dates were bad girls. But let me tell you, he’s not all you think you is. He has problems, you don’t even know. And after what happened to him before, he won’t trust you, or anyone for that matter. It’s all fun and rosy now, but once it gets serious, if it even gets that far, you’ll run and leave him. I’ve seen it before. And let me tell you, I will always, no matter what, choose him. Do you really want to risk your friendship with him, Ty, Jenna, Ash, my whole family for a date? And what about our friendship? Think about that, okay.” Maddie nearly yelled out, teary eyed. She stomped off towards the parking lot, you following her shocked.

Maybe I didn’t think this through. What if it doesn’t work out? I’ll lose the fragile new life I’ve just started. He’s nice and cute, but I barely even know him. Do I want to risk it all?

[team-adults-blog]

4.03 The Four Horsemen

A Reaction: Apologizing for the map upfront. Not as funny or with as good of an analysis aspect as 4.02, but my reactions to kabby will always be prime. 

NYKOOOOOO I love him so much. Dang they 40+ on the way.

Lol Abby is either the only sensible one or overly dramatic because she’s the only one who covers her face before approaching.

All the animals are dyinggggg noooooooooo

Hold up. When did Octavia get a kick-ass sholder tat? This is definitely a major step in her assimilation into grounder culture. It’s more than just Indra accepting her now- maybe it’s only trikru at the moment and she gets the tattoo from them, but it’s still a big step from last season when she’s still getting hate from them. Sure she’s always going to get hate for being an outsider, but probs more from killing everybody now. Kudos. It’s rad.

Indra “I’m so proud” Roan one death to save thousands, it’s good politics. Indra has the warrior daughter she’s always wanted, but has it gone too far?

Dr. Squad all with crossed arms. What a posse. So happy for Sachin. His promotion shots on instagram made me even happier. 

These like 6 people are all that’s left of Luna’s people… So fish are not friends. Or food.

Yo check out this groovy map of the mid-Atlantic. Here’s the fun part where I waste way too much time trying to pinpoint where these places are using google maps. 

[Skip if you don’t have time right now or are just rude]

Polis=Baltimore/ Dc, looks a little above DC based on the Bay. It makes sense for Polis not be in DC because Trikru is. Tondc/ Ton DC was like “Washington DC” on a road sign and Lincoln got his name from the Lincoln memorial, which we get a glimpse of in S1.

Mount Weather= Looks to be around Luray area- which is really interesting to me because the cave/ tunnels would check out. A caving plug: Luray and Grand Caverns have really great features, but they’re dead. Railings and steps and lights have been put in everywhere to make it more accessible for folks, but more importantly to bring in a ton of money. To see Living caves in the valley, my brother is a cool dude who takes his students- and more importantly me- to see neat things without harming the cave like some punk ass bitch yanking stalactites off the ceiling.  

Arkadia= Looks to be around Culpeper… but if it was slightly more south (because the map Raven has is shit, but I’ll get to that) I could argue it’s between Charlottesville (!!!) and Culpeper, although more towards Culpeper. Like Orange/Madison counties. Literally no one cares about this but me because that is my homeland. Also TJ, Monroe (the president, not the dead character from this show that I should get back to…), and J Maddy-Mads. Zach-attack (this also works because he was a major general, not just for the rhyme) Is actually the closest to Arkadia- his house is in barboursville which puts him 25 min closer to Culpeper than TJ and Monroe. GW is up by Ton DC. Wilson is southwest of Arkadia. I don’t know/care enough about where Tyler and William Henry Harrison were from and I’m not going to look it up. This history/ geography lesson was brought to you by the Mother of Presidents, and viewers like you. Thank you.

Luna’s Rig= Somewhere off of DE/NJ coast. They might go back there, but otherwise I honestly don’t care where exactly the rig is. Like. Nyko just said that 40 people died on their way to Arkadia and Luna’s like this is all that’s left of my people. Soooooo… sorrynotsorry

Becca’s Island- I struggled figuring out what that said. I’m leaning towards it being a fictional island because the only thing I can think of it being is Sandy Hook. However, there seems to be land in the bay, soooo Sandy Hook would be part of the continental land mass instead of an island. If the picture wasn’t so wonky the only argument would be for Sandy Hook. I believe it’s only listed here because it will become plot relevant later this season when the tech team decided they need to access Becca/ A.L.I.E.’s drone or something to monitor radiation.

Note: The coastlines don’t match up perfectly. At first I was excited they’d taken rising sea levels with climate change into account, but that should make the bay larger and thus the gap between eastern Maryland/ Delaware and DC larger. So some of the Virginia coast looks good, but the east coast is on a passive margin (I took Geology guys can you tell), which means that it’s not colliding into another plate and thus being squished in on itself or mountain building (this is happening in the middle of the Atlantic) like on the U.S. west coast. But at the end of the day, I don’t think they really considered this when creating that map because 1) some areas are larger than they are now (like Long Island is now a peninsula instead of an island), indicating receding seas while 2) some coasts are cut off indicating rising sea levels. Basically. They would have been fine using a regular map from the internet. Not sure why they decided to render this shitty one or what purpose making their own serves. Maybe they don’t have rights to steal from the internet…?

You, the reader are now thinking, “who the fuck cares? That map was visible for under 30 seconds. all we were supposed to recognize is that it’s the VA/DC/MD area. Let’s move this train along I want to hear about things that actually matter.” And to this I say, you are not wrong. Let’s go. This 15 sec clip took me an hour to analyze and I’m not proud.

[Resume reading non-geography post here if you skipped. There were some jokes in there... not good ones]

Bellamy’s face at “choosing who lives or dies is your specialty” Ouch. Clarke can’t get a break. First Jasper, now Raven. Good thing he’s always on her side.

Someone’s taking the rover. My gut thought: is it fucking Jaha? Oh wait. Jasper’s problematic too and would pull that. Nope. Fucking Jaha. Your gut is always right. 

Naturally, radical Jaha who went off to find the city of light is not encouraging a trip to go find a doomsday bunker by a religious fanatic. Raven is the skeptic voice of ME. Like hey guys, remember when he did this last time? If it’s not real Clarkiepoo gonna make that list. I like

DOOMSDAY CULT MAN SAYS “there is a way out of the darkness. I can show it to you. You can be saved. Join me…” okokokokokok. Abby stays behind in Arkadia to show them the way out of the darkness. Then she is forced to take the chip and gets the rest of the camp to join her in the CoL. Coincidence? I THINK NOT.

DAD AND NATE ON GUARD DUTY TOGETHER. MY HEART. DAD MILLER IS GREAT. I like Miller Sr.

Raven x Abby

Alright. Time to defend mom. Raven’s position of wanting to save the pills- because it’s too late for them to work on Luna’s people- is understandable. Abby’s desire to save people is also understandable. I happen to love Raven x Abby scenes because they’re both so stubborn and both usually have equally strong, but different arguments. Dr. Abby probs should not have told her eldest daughter she’s killing this child. Howeverrrrr my mother, Abby, and even I, with my son VPJB, understand the power guilt has over your children. My son tried to attack a shadow for 45min today so I’m still choosing my battles. Back to the show- the emotion they bring as actors is fantastic. I’d like to pull their history out of the back of your head. Abby and Raven meet because they both have someone who went down in the dropship they desperately want to see. They bond. They trust each other and sass each other and Abby tells Raven to go down without her. Raven tells Clarke how great her mom is at a time when Clarke thinks floating Jake is still 100% her mom’s fault. Raven gets shot, Abby frickin saves her life and she only has one lame leg instead of being paralyzed from the waist down. Kudos Dr. Abby. BUT. Raven hurts, and chronic pain is rough on people, so you’ll lash out. Raven calls Abby out for being a crappy chancellor and doctor. Abby hits her. She’s instantly sorry she lost her temper and they’re distant but not terrible. Despite some heated moments, they’re fam. Abby adopts everyone she sees, and Raven, with only Finn in S1 becomes family. Then Finn dies. Then her mentor Sinclair (who I really really really really really liked and wish got more developing prior to THAT episode [sidenote: I hate when secondary/ tertiary characters get developed just so they the audience feels some emotional investment that turns into pain. Especially within the same episode. Except they’re only there for that one episode to drive another character’s development as in the dying child (Adrian) Luna brought.], so now Abby and her friends are all she has. There’s love there, which doesn’t make talking to each other ok, but I’m confident they’ll forgive each other.  It hurts more because of the love.

Murphy steals medicine to help a sick kid. Important because his father got floated for stealing him medicine when he was a sick child, and the medicine ended up not working. Abby knows better than to ask where he got it. She’s broken the law to save people before. Yay Jackson being sweet with this child. I frickin love Nyko too. He’s one cool dude.

Octavia x Indra x Gaia

Mom saves her daughter. Octavia is like oh nooo here let me help you up, my b. Another mother daughter conflict. But this time really related. Indra: My daughter was meant to lead armies. My daughter was meant to lead our people. Me and Gaia: looks like you got that after all. This scene was great. A parent who cannot understand their child. So common and yet this is the best portrayal of that I’ve seen, mainly because it wasn’t “But basketball’s your dream!” “No, Dad. basketball is your dream, not mine!” Octavia comes up with a plan to save the flame and Indra’s daughter. Loyal to Indra over Roan. I love that. Ilian’s sledgehammer was entirely too dramatic. Should have spent the money used on that effect for Raven’s map. I’ve got a bone to pick with Kirk Douglas or Michael Cliett- whomever was in charge of that. Not bitter. Omg Gaia is so sweet and lovely. I love her. I want her to stick around. Don’t let the radiation get her!

Bellamy + Clarke  x  Jaha

Leadership is lonely, it’s good she has you. You keep her centered. Obviously Jaha sees Clarke as the leader and Bellamy as her sidekick/ compass more than an equal? I feel like they co-lead well Together. Wink. You’ve got it backwards. Nice. But Jaha is giving Bell some questionable advice here- he’s saying stop blaming yourself for the massacre, you were doing what you though was best for your people, and as long as that’s true, you don’t need redemption. Sort of, Jaha. You may think you’re right, but someone is yelling at you that you’re wrong (i.e. Abby x Kane S1 culling, Kane x Boris S3 massacre), so you actually might need some redemption, maybe for your people to accept you, maybe for your soul. Kane goes off in search of redemption and atonement after he realizes the way of life on the Ark doesn’t have to be how life on Earth is. Bellamy, realizes slaughtering a village of non-militant grounders is wrong as he’s taking part in it. That’s why he convinces Pike to let Indra live. Yes, they both think they’re right, but when they realize, even in hindsight how wrong they were, they feel guilty. Jaha on the other hand is very set in this “That’s what I thought at the time and I won’t let the present change how I see my past actions.” He’s much more cold and cognitive than emotional, even with himself. Jaha’s all like, dude get over it, how many people do you have to save before you forgive yourself.

I’d say Jaha has been distant enough in that he’s been off by himself for most of the plot, or at least separated from the core group, to merit his comment on the state of Bellamy and Clarke’s relationship seriously. He has plenty of background with Clarke- his son was her best friend, their families were close pre-S1. Anyone can see Bellarke works well together, but Jaha’s outsider-insightfulness that everyone else may be too close to see (or too close to tell one of them) is that they center each other.

The List

First, can we talk about the Kabby couch parallel? Abby is snoozin at the start of S3 so peacefully and Kane glances over before going back to his sector mapping. ON THAT SAME COUCH is a peacefully sleeping Bellamy for Clarke to glance over at. He makes the list. I wonder if Riley did. Is Clarke reserving spots for grounders too or just sky people/ people in Arkadia? Bellamy gets spot 99. Good. Awe. He writes her name for her. Good job. Bellarke fans are screaming. Now we put it away... Y’all did a bang up job of that. Fold it once and put it in the OPEN CUBBY of the desk? No one will ever find it there. Snooping Jasper and Monty looking for their long lost weed never will. Oh wait. 

Funny how we’ve got another group of “100.” It’s always good to remember your roots.

End Thoughts Me: SHE’S A NIGHT BLOOD YOU DON’T HAVE TO RUN TESTS ABBY (and also you could have said “I’d like to run tests” slightly less creepily to a person who’s not the biggest fan of technology.) Abby and Clarke 20 seconds later- yeah there’s another variable here. yeah she a nightblood. Very happy Jackson got so many lines, even if they were tiny and sometimes in the background, he was in the conversation.

Noteworthy Absences and How I Feel About Them

Marcus Kane- I knew it was coming. I’m sure something big is happening with Octavia in the next episode. I thought the balance between Polis’ Octavia x Indra plot was well balanced with the Arkadia and Jaha x Bellarke plots. They were all satisfactorily interesting, a relief after Jaha’s 2B/3A plotlines. Adding a diplomatic Kane plot would be too much. He would have crowded Indra and her daughters’ scenes too. I’m good, but he was missed.

Harper McIntypre- She could have been standing guard with the Millers? Nate and Harper are besties. I like it. But then I want her to develop, so I’d rather her sit this one out and have meaningful airtime in another (or the next) episode.

Bryan- Also could have been on guard with the Millers. I actually would be really interested in seeing Bryan and Sergeant David Miller interact. Then again, He and Nate just had a fight last episode over fundamentally different beliefs, so they need air. In this case I do NOT want to have Miller Sr. interacting with them. He’s already had enough awkward interrupting couple-moments. I think he needed to be absent. There were already three plot lines and Briller drama would have pulled the show in too many directions, as with Kane. I’m cool with that.

Monty Green/ Jasper Jordan- This was a mother-daughter conflict episode with a splash of following Jaha’s whims. They didn’t fit. I’m cool with that. They’re going to find that letter Clarke should have hid in her pillowcase next week.

Echo- I’m bitter. She should have yelled at someone. What a badass.

Riley- Who is this dude. I just looked on IMDb and he’s in 6 episodes. Everyone seems to know him. I need to be part of that.

I felt we needed a refresher on full names…or lack there of...

I have no life and am very lonely. But it’s my own fault. so that’s just a nice explanation of why I have time to do this...

[survivetashirojima]

Episode #2- “I really try-harded that challenge“ -Vi

Night 4 vibes (I’m so lazy to do people so here we are) That moment when the vote was unanimous and extremely sketchy, but you in 3 alliance chats so you feel kinda good. Ahshahabeuebsk

okay I didn’t confess the whole first round but: HELLO ok this is probably the org where I know the most people going into it, so I’m trying to be chiller rather than rush around to introduce myself to everyone. Maddy has gone farther than me in every game I’ve played with her so I’m gonna try to break that tradition also I have a bad history with being betrayed by people who’ve previously hosted me [jay, Drew, Anna Jane,] so the fact that there are TWO of my previous hosts [stephen & andrew] that is so sketchy also Julia is in this game which is so funny because we’re both in ILM [i literallu just got eliminated in that but still] Anyway, I randomly won immunity the first round which was hilarious because I literally was just fucking around and putting random answers half of the time

Okay, I was paranoid that like it was basically a unanimous vote, because it seemed impossible to me to have 18 people in a tribe and only have one name going around. I'm still terrified that we are going to unmerge and all of a sudden be thrown back into a tribal game. Personally, I think that Julia is probably going to be an easy vote next round if she continues her inactive streak. Parts of me though thinks that maybe we should keep her around because if she is going to be inactive she is going to be easier to beat in the later game. I brought this up to Pat (bc he's the one I trust the most right now and the one that I really feel like I need to/really want to work with) and we kinda both agreed that its too early to make a big move. There are 17 of us left and I don't really want to stand out in the crowd. As long as I can stay social and keep my steady middle position of activity, I think I will be okay for a little bit longer, and then maybe I can start thinking about big moves. Besides, if we went with my plan last round it would have been Stephen going, and I really didn't want him to go. So I'll just pretend to have no original ideas for now and kinda just go along with majority. Then I'll figure out my time to strike, and hopefully it doesn't get me voted out.

Well that was anticlimactic. The entire tribe was hella quiet. However, Pat, Madeleine and I were added to an alliance with Brien so we kinda decided to vote out Tom just bc Brien was like jg mentioned tom then all of us were like "Good enough for me" and then voted. My paper was real cute. I drew a goose on it. Somehow I fucked up with Stephen. That was smth. Idk what I did a year ago but OoPs. I also really like Jay. He's pretty cool to talk to. He also voted Tom with us I assume. :D Yeah first tribal didn't solidify many alliances I guess. It was very quiet. I'm also trying to not go with my old peeps. I'm actually trying to annoy them enough that they vote me. Idk if it's working tho *eye squint

IM FREEEE. I really try-harded that challenge. I used words as specific as possible from different countries in hopes that no one else would know it so I can do my homework and so if the tribal is hella quiet again, I don’t have to have anxiety of being voted out DX. Thank the lords. Rip the 5 that didn’t make it. Not really with Julia Bc she abstained

you know honestly not that mad about losing. nobody can say i’m a challenge threat. i’m consistently participating but consistently not doing well, could possibly work out for me. tbh just upset that someone else did mauve. i like that color a lot. who the fuck thinks of mauve besides me?? i didn’t even google that shit i went oohh! mauve. i like that color and then someone STOLE IT IM LOOKING AT YOU MADISON (unless it wasn’t her then i apologize)

I don't feel extremely confident not being safe, but if the trend of voting out inactives continues, Julia should be going next. For now, I'm just trying to like stay social and not get voted out.

right now Pat is my number one. I enjoy talking to Kevin but he seems kinda clueless, Jay and I have talked strategy, Stephen and I have talked strategy and Brien and I have talked strategy but all that strategic talk was based around last vote so this vote could possible shake lots of things up.

This season... idk what to make of it. On one hand tons of people makes it easier to blend in. On the other hand it makes it harder to tell what people are thinking. I think though im getting most of the truth. I’m sure there are alliance out there I dont know about, it would be silly to pretend there arent. However, im confident in my social connections to keep my name out of talks. And the further we go the less people are needed for majority, so if I keep building bridges with people like Pat, Kevin, and even Ricky, I should be able to slot into majority alliances when they’re made... ideally I wont have to make one myself though, i dont need that target.

Just realized that I have yet to make a confessional this round. Last vote was boring...Tom voted me but it was unanimous. I have immunity this round with 11 other people and Julia is really inactive so I'm pretty sure it's her. Honestly, it can't be me so if for some reason she doesn't go I don't care as much. With that, she will just strike out next round anyways and I know Madison was saying yesterday that she would love a two for one deal. I still think it'll be Julia though. Bye witch.

CASUALTIES:

CAST ASSESSMENT:

PART 1- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V3DMOSl6JjI&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=6

PART 2- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ix5K_wVfRP0&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=7

PART 3- https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kVST7_CECi4&list=PLB-4yJ0EHce-bxHQVmQVdrV6tx36_6Jly&index=8