#still don’t have a good handle on the samgirl vs deangirl dynamics these days but back when i was in spn fandom

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hm. started thinking abt s8 and that was fun until i remembered the show never actually gave us the scene i used to constantly write and rewrite in my head involving sam finally sitting dean down and being like dean i thought you were dead and the last time you died i spent months getting myself addicted to demon blood bc i get such insane blinders on when i’m worried about you that that seemed like a logical idea, and this time i didn’t even know where you were, fuck yes i tried to get out of the life, based on our track record and mine in particular the alternative was finding yet another apocalypse to accidentally start

so now i’m just annoyed at canon for never letting sam actually explain that