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kinda sucks gen 4 people dont get redesigns at all bc the gen 4 character designs really need it

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i have a terrible complex about being "too obsessed" with things aka hyperfixation. i have gotten hyperfixations my whole life (pokemon being The One for nearly 15 years) and id always just call them obsessions bc obviously i didnt know and thats what my parents called it. because thats what it is. and it sucks bc my whole life ive just been told im annoying or to shut up or to stop or i get ignored. and it literally hasnt changed. i literally have not changed. my thought patterns are the exact same as if i were still fucking 9. my room looks like it belongs to a 9 year old, too. im like a (wo)manchild and its 🙃 hmmm.

honestly a really Specific Problem with this that i hate so much is that, people im around a lot who know me, there are times where they just assume im obsessed with something because i mentioned it more than once. for example, i made a reference to a song to my brother. weeks later, the song came on when we were in the car. i pointed it out. and he asked me "why are you obsessed with this song". i mentioned the damn song twice and suddenly im obsessed with it??

this happens Very Often to me with several different people (it comes from everyone?? family? close friends?? doesnt matter. theyve ALL said things like that to me) and i Hate it because its like god, if people get annoyed with me for mentioning something twice or maybe 3 times imagine how theyd react if they saw me actually hyperfixated on something.

ive also had my dad (and his side of the family) and every kid in elementary criticize my interests as if it was their job to make me a miserable child for liking things, ya know, made for children.

but now that im older its worse bc i dont have an excuse. and it sucks.

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igi or whatever idk i dont watch it

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so im a fool and have this habit where im like no this ship wouldnt want kids its not in character im totally not making fankids for them right now as we speak or anything but thats exactly what i end up doing every single time without fail bc i cant be normal but i was like ok i am CERTAIN this time around i Will Not Be Giving These People Children because it is absolutely NOT something they would want and i was SO good at keeping my word until the stress induced by a string of about a bajillion dentist appointments right around this time last year forced my hand. how DESPERATE i become to launch myself out of a situation when enough pressure is placed on me and the escapism fantasies that are conjured up because of it is astounding. and the thing is i literally havent thought about it once ever since. so no i dont have art and no i dont wish to talk about it any further. i dont even remember their names. i am posting this at 1 am.

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must... make it my goal... to take over google images... just like i did with dragonheart....

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bengas birthday is supposed to be this month but i havent decided on a day so happy birthday all month to benga

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GDIHDKLHD

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i dont draw 90% of things i wanna draw cuz i have to design outfits first and i cant

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ITS 1 AM BUT BRO

MASTERS JUST?? CASUALLY CONFIRMING BLACKS FURSONA I MADE LIKE 2 YEARS AGO

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this might as well happen

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I want to hug that zoroark (N)!

n prefers not to hug... so he waves at you instead!

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for everyone in pokemon without blue eyes there is someone with blue eyes.

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hey that was actually my 2000th post

ok ill talk later im so tired

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actually i didnt put names on it cuz i couldnt come up w a name for that sona in particular tbh i feel like riley fits better for the jolteon than the sylveon so idk i MIGHT change it but im not sure.

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