#steph: there is a gay joke there but i’m too scared to find it

[ahfrickenfrick]

dick: i am tired of this, damian just give tim a simple compliment about ANYTHING

damain: drake, most of the time you smell like fresh water and day old fruit

tim: *eye twitches*

[bisexualoftheblade-old]

how many wips do you have? like what are they all, and not the number of wips in a fandom? what are all the names?

okay. fuck you. fuck you so much. fuck you.

i’m putting this under a read more cut no one else deserves to see this shit. a lot of these are requests, and for those i will just write out the request itself

Shadowhunters:

domestic polycule fluff with tem, jessa, and will because im not a coward

Supernatural

- hehe hoho i request destiel hehehe

- request 61/? cai cai cai cai i need you to rewrite the destiel scene but yk. GOOD. not like i'm in the know about the spn fandom or anything, it's been years for me. but DO IT

Bright Sessions

- caleb/adam grisha AU

- mark bryant vs. united states aka sue the AM

- caleb/adam college fluff

Umbrella Acaademy

- request 31/? i want a ben and klaus drabble please spare me some brotherly bickering

- AND SO BEGINS NIGHT 4 with request 13/? oooh oooh can i get a raymond and allison playlist??? i think their vibes together would SLAP

- hi there night 2 is technically morning 3 but who's counting not me anyway request 5/? can i get a ben moodboard? gotta rep my tua bb

Percy Jackson

- request 9/? can i get a percabeth moodboard or quote edit?? like god they're the og couple goals take me back to high school cai

- For the 100 follower things :D Jercy getting caught in the rain

- request 29/? a drabble about literally anything to do with pjo. i’ll be happy with anyone and anything i’m love these children

- *somersaults in like I’m a real fancy acrobat* hello ello ello may I request some camp half blood chaos possible involving *does a flip* ✨side characters✨ <3

Penumbra Podcast 

- request 52/? drabble about the penumbra podcast. this is for ren bc ren likes it and i don't actually know anything about it. juno? i think? that's the one ren likes. write it for ren

- Tpp ghost hunting / buzzfeed unsolved au

- sad juno smut

- final resting place fic go brrrr

Marvel

- request 6/? i'm going to my roots y'all can i get a spider-man playlist? if not a playlist then i'd honestly be happy with literally anything involving spider-man

- request 15/? i'm going crazy this is recorded evidence of me actually losing it ANYWAY can i get a quote edit for something from iron man? literally anything that man says is gold so cai's choice :D he deserved better in endgame i'm still bitter

- request 42/? do another spidey thing that differs from the other spidey thing

- request 73/? you have Opinions. rant about infinity way and/or endgame. go.

- request 74/? quote edit for deadpool!!

- spideytorch relationship character study

- peter parker as a tired grad student monitoring the young avengers (send help)

Six of Crows

- okay listen i wasn't going to request anything bc i worry about you but also? if you want to/have the time hit me with a playlist for our girl nina zenik

- request 43/? fuckin give me the ending anya should have had. she is alive and with her new son and having a great time

- request 45/? inej moodboard?

- request 47/? will you make literally any meme of your choosing for six of crows?

- request 48/? write a drabble for kaz, my favorite bastard

- okay so i don't actually like nina or mattias that much but i still wanna hear about your thoughts (and also see if you'll change my mind)

- kaz brekker turning 18 fic. birthday party, everyone singing, whole shebang. i need it stat

- religious trauma fic aka i started shipping kaz/alina/inej and i can’t stop

- kaz trauma soup (he has D.I.D. and you can’t prove me wrong)

- my two redacted fics for @grishaversebigbang​

- wesper fake dating

- six of crows bright sessions crossover: everyone gets therapy

TMA

- uhh... s1 gang having a nice time? melanie getting to have some Pride™️? some "fun" horror thing?

- request 7/? spare steph and jason bonding? please sir? spare some for a humble child such as myself?

- okay so this was meant for night 3 but i had midterm shit SO this is honorary night 3 let's DO THIS request 8/? i want a moodboard of extremely out of context magnus archives shit like i mean confuse the FUCK out of me i don't go here i know Nothing about it

- request 11/? OKAY so i need tim stoker meeting tim drake now i need my timmy to meet your tim plus i want to see character differences no i'm not trying to create a tim stoker in my head so i can read a's fic while NOT thinking of tim drake whaaaaaat you're crazy

- request 18(i think)/? i need a quote edit of every time within the first like. 15 eps of tam where jon is like “sounds fake but go off” thank u bb

- request 40/? i challenge you to write a tma drabble based only on the episodes i've heard. i'm currently halfway through episode 23

- Jon being lovingly bullied into taking a break. I'm aware this has been written a million times but it is one of my favorite things.

- spiral!sasha AU

- extinction martin go brrrrr

- high school era timsasha. they've both been friends for years, and everyone always asks when they will be a couple. they decide to fake date, to prove everyone wrong and show what a bad couple they would be. turns out that's a bit trickier than they thought

- after sasha comes back, tim is broken. he can't let go, scared that if he looks away for even a minute he'll lose her again. sasha suggests shibari as a way for him to give up control

- sasha pov mag 19 au, sacrificing herself to save the others, knows that if she gives herself up to the not!them it will let the others live

- this is the "tim finds a polaroid of sasha" trope

- early archives days,, long nights in research,,, clothes sharing,, somft. late nights and falling asleep at their desks warm and safe in the other's presence

- two parts: timsasha as kids, each picking a constellation that is "theirs". just soft kid antics. tim at sasha's grave glancing up to see their constellations

- continuing your job’s a joke (you’re broke)

DC Comics

- TIMSTEPH HADESTOWN AU,,,

- my redacted fic for @batfam-big-bang​

- request for you to get a decent amount of sleep? serious answer, dickkori, SAL's Venus

- request 4/? timsteph morning after 👀 mayhaps?

- a concept: nonbinary stephanie brown

- teehee hi mom, you don’t have to do this if you don’t want to, but can i request damian angst for your accomplishments 100 followers?

- hi you can ignore my first request if you want, or you can ignore this one. but bls possibly write some bikini ra’s? -the bikini bitch

- request 27/? jay is asking through me for a jondami playlist but tbh i also want it so win win yk?

- "I don't know how to help you but I can help you find someone who does" with bruce and jason? im just craving bruce being a good day to jason for once

- “I am putting you in time out because you need to understand the consequences of your actions.” with steph and jason as dumbass disaster bi best friends pretty please?

- request 32/? timsteph patrol date!!!

- request 33/? timsteph *gala* date? mayhaps??

- request 37/? tim drake drabble but make it Edgy cai

- request 39/? drabble of a prank war between tim and damian

- joyfire cuddly fluff please? or like just any outlaw fluff if joyfire isnt your thing (feel free to add every member of the outlaws, dont feel like u gotta stick with jason, kori, roy i love them all)

- barbara and robin! jason fluff? bonding over books or something?

- request 62/? i need a drabble about the chaotic trio jason, tim, and steph i'm love them ty

- request 63/? batfam x mcu crossover. batfam meets ironfam. give me ALL the cliches. ALL OF THEM

- request 64/? young justice x young avengers - jay cuz idk SHIT about the young avengers

- request 66/? jondami moodboard pls and ty

- request 67/? timsteph moodboard!!!!!!

- request 69/? HEHEHE kinky 😏 i would v much like a timsteph drabble of the almost first time. does that make sense? like i don't want you to go all the way NSFW cuz i know that's against the rules and i'm a rule follower. but like they *almost* go all the way. this could be fade to black or some shit i don't care just make it a lil steamy and have Fun

- i request damian angst! all of it

- hmm... maybe i request? jondami?

- mayhaps,,,,some batfam,,,,,committing crimes? ily be gay do crime <3 - lu

- How about a ficlet with Steph and Cass?

Found Family Bingo Prompts

- no powers au

- tunnel

- first day

- join the club

- hurt/comfort

- experiment

- playing favorites

- hold on

- possession

- 10 o’clock

- singing

- road

- snitch

- curfew

- timer

- fantasy au

- zombie au

- dreams

- campfire

- are you okay

- movie night

- games

- scared

Miscellaneous

- a request: Write A Drabble, Coward

- is it too late to request a moodboard for me?

- request 20/? i’m going off book because i’m in a Chaotic Mood™️ can you just absolutely vibe check me like go off cai demolish me

- request 21/? i formally request that you pick a favorite cai. i don’t care what that favorite pertains to, just pick a favorite something

- request 23/? roast me

- request 24/? can i have a buzzfeed unsolved spoopy playlist but spoiler alert it’s not spoopy bc shane doesn’t believe does this make sense it has been a Day™️

- request 25/50 i want a jake and amy fic make it Soft cai i’m love them b99 is so good

- request 28/? i know nothing about the lord of the rings so make something that will confuse the shit out of me

- request 34/? malvie and jaylos moodboards 😈

- request 35/? a moodboard for the bbb mods!! perceive all of us!!!

- request 36/? moodboard for the tua mods too???? mayhaps??

- request 41/? doctor WHO? idk but i want a drabble of him and the one character i know from doctor who which is rose

- request 46/? make an alignment meme with our group, have fun!!!

- request 49/? i want you to kin assign me a character from every fandom you can/want to. go feral

- request 50!!!!/? this is a special request. the most special request. can you make a bastards tbh playlist? i want our vibes encapsulated. i want us in music form. i want to hear those songs and be like "that's me and cai" and smile.

- requests 51/? i know jack shit about good omens. explain it to me in the most confusing way possible. make me know less by the end than i know now

- request 53/? can you write a mel aesthetic? i'm Curious

- request 54/? give me a list of book recs cai i want some good book recs pls

- request 56/? edit a picture of US together too

- request 58/? oooh can i have a disney edit? like. hm. i just really love disney and i want anything to do with disney. like a quote or an aesthetic or an aesthetic edit i just want disney.

- request 59/? i would v much like a recipe for carbonara. i've never had it but it sounds fucking delicious

- request 60/? ooh hey can i get a makeup tutorial? i know you like makeup, i'm shit at doing makeup. teach me

- request 65/? i need the most emo playlist you can make that vibes with dear evan hansen thank you

- request 68/? i want a superwholock moodboard. this can be serious, with the actual fandoms in mind, or literally what the era felt like. the insanity. the horror.

- request 70/? ooh ooh ooh do you have a good bread recipe?? i wanna get that bread

- request 71/? i want a playlist with the vibes of summoning a demon. please don't ask questions. i don't have answers. and if i do, no i don't.

- For the requests, how about writing something based on a friend?

- request 75/? MMMM i want literally anything to do with natasha, pierre, and the great comet of 1812

- request 76/? i want some healthy recipes. help a girl out

- a feral bbb quote or two?

- you perceive my plant but now I dare thee to perceive mine own visage

- okay this is a two for one request. 1. you did the bee movie script so now we need a shrek two script edit 2. sleep please

- Pansexual mb for my lil queer soul?

- my (probably) final request is just for you to ramble about something, i don't really care what

- HI ILY CONGRATS AS WELL CAUSE IM LATE BUT CONGRATS. could i request a pirates of the caribbean (or just pirates) or whatever you what to do, free range.

- mood board for the beluga whales who got brought to the animal sanctuary in Iceland please?

- 100 follower request: Moodboard for my stuffed cow Oaky?

[cheekynote]

Its Billys party, in a nice rented apt loft in downtown. It hasn’t been exactly project X, but everyone’s enjoying themselves. Most guys are around the ping pong table playing beer pong, another group is gathered on the couches playing a card game. I unhook myself from Dean’s arm around my shoulder and tell him ill be back. My face hot and feeling a good buzz I walk towards the drink bar in the kitchen to make myself another drink. I walk pass a group of people whose names I don’t remember, talking about politics. My surroundings are a little bit of a blur, but I’m feeling giggly with a little dance to my step. Tame impala is playing in the background. I reach the table of half-finished bottles of half liquor and i contemplate, what should i drink to keep this buzz? And then i hear the fridge open behind me, as i hear, “what are you getting?”. I turn around to see Steph, with her cute smile and big eyes. Her voice is a little high pitched and i can tell she’s pretty buzzed too. “Maybe a cider, like you”. She grabs two out of the fridge and hands me one. We step out of the kitchen together and find ourselves stopping in the hallway, with a view of the party, we stay there to chat, exactly like the 10 other times it has happened tonight. We talk, a usual banter, me teasing and her laughing. I’m better at talking when I’m tipsy, i can hold people’s attention really well and keep the conversation going. As 5 minutes pass, i think to myself we’d better make our way back to the party. I ask her if she wants to join us at the beer pong table, maybe play a game with me. She says sure, then looks around, and asks me “Wanna grab some air first?���, I say of course, grab my pack of cigs from my jacket and let Dean know I’ll be on the balcony with Steph. 

 We step outside with the nice breeze enjoying the view of the downtown. I light my cigarette and ask if she wants one “I’ll share this one with you”. We gladly do. There aren’t any seats, so we lean against the railings, of the side, where we can get a better view of the scenery. I on left, she on my right. We stand there right next to each other shoulders bumping occasionally. Stealing glances at each other as we pass the cigarette. We stay there in silence. And i say something first. As I always do as I’m a little awkward with girls. I’ve always been, especially with those that i am attracted to.  I’ve also been holding back talking to Steph, I’m not sure what to talk to her about. We’ve talked about a lot of things, but I still don’t know her well enough to know if she’s comfortable with me. I know she enjoys being around me. But I hesitate to go deeper. The worst is I question how important she thinks of me and if it’s the same as how i think of her. It’s a double-edged sword that prevents me from getting closer, out of fear of getting hurt, while pushing her away. I think of that sometimes. But tonight, I’m tipsy, the most we’ve ever been tipsy around each other.

 We’re telling stories of when we were younger right now. We’re so different yet we can understand where the other person is coming from. We’re laughing, teasing. I’m not afraid of offending her, and she doesn’t seem to mind me asking personal questions. We keep talking, until eventually she leans in a little too close to pass me the cigarette, sliding her arm across the railing bumping into me. “My bad” She says, but she stays there, the distance between us, now much closer. My shoulder now behind her, Her face closer to mine. She passes me the almost

butted cigarette. I take it with my left hand.   She’s a little clumsy, so I’m not sure if she did that on purpose or not, but she’s done this before, leaning on me and just staying there a little longer than needed until we finally have to move. She’s warm, and i like it when she does that. I would be way too sensitive and aware to initiate something like this. So when she does do it to me, I take is as a sign of comfort, and i stay there accepting her touch. Don’t get me wrong, I am still hyperaware of how close our bodies are right now. Closer than what purely platonic friends would normally do. My heart beats harder and i feel my face getting flustered a bit. I know that if i reach my arm behind her now, I can lock us into an embrace. I know. But I also don’t know if she’s aware of this too. I don’t know if girls always do this to each other. I’m learning and getting used to it. So i don’t mind learning with her, I don’t mind if we just stay like this. Friends, that like getting close to each other. Physically and emotionally. It’s just that the boundaries get blurred sometime which confuses me sometimes.  But tonight, I’m a little tipsy, tonight I’m feeling that dance in my step.

 I move my attention from us touching, and I focus on the music playing in the loft. Its Casio by Jungle, one of my favorite songs. I start humming the song, and swaying my hips to it. We’re so close that i keep leaning into her every time i sway in her direction. She starts swaying too, as if she just realized what i was doing. She stays close to me. Swaying at my same rhythm. Our bodies pressing onto each other even closer. “Can you light another one?” The cigarettes are on my right

pocket. I butt the one in my left hand. All while still swaying and humming, i reach with my right arm behind her and take out the pack. I pull it towards us, my arm coming across her body to mine, now completely embracing her. I take one out with my other hand. In this position it’s almost as if we are hugging. I would normally never get this close to anyone, other than my partner. But i hope she forgives me if she’s uncomfortable, I’m drunk tonight and i love this

song. 

 I put the pack back into my pocket and switch it out for my lighter, i light it in the same way i grabbed the cig, and bring her in closer. She giggles. I’m embracing her in an almost comical way. Pulling her in and squishing her as if she weren’t there. We have the same stature, but I’ve always been more athletic, so i play around with her a lot like this. Almost as if we were wrestling. Doing this also distracts me from my heavy heartbeat. The cigarette is now lit, I pass it to her, and bring the lighter to my right pocket, lowering my arm, loosening the embrace. She doesn’t pull back though, she stays close to me, no force pressing our bodies together but she stays close. I pull my arm back, enjoying our fun, but thinking “were just playing around”. She then looks at me and locks her eyes with me, she’s blushing. She leans in and presses her body against mine. I tease “aww you want a hug?” She plays along smiling and nodding. I hold her and lean my head against hers. “aww so cute” i say, still teasing her. We stay there for a few more seconds, I can feel her sinking in, and my gay panic creeping in. Like always, I’m the first one to pull away. I raise my head up to look at her because another topic of conversation came up to mind. That’s just an excuse though. I seem to this a lot, with anyone. I put up barriers by pulling back whenever i get too close. I overthink about it and i can’t seem to fully be capable to giving myself to a friend. I know she’s bisexual too, and I know you might be thinking that I’m letting all the hints and opportunities pass over my head, but I’m just nervous maybe scared too. 

 But It feels nice. Really nice. I’m not sure how i feel about her and i m not sure about how she feels about me. Heck we both have boyfriends, and i even if we had already talked about them letting us do what we want, i don’t know what page she’s on. Nevertheless, I may hesitate a lot with her, but she’s the only girl I’ve ever been this comfortable with. Whether it be a deep friendship or just physical attraction, I really like being around her.  So, I keep my arm around her shoulder. And i hold her close to me.

 We continue to talk, turning to face each other sometimes. But me always breaking eye contact to look at the view. I can’t help it; she does make me flustered because jfc she sure does know how to hold a strong eye contact.  I’m holding on to her and she’s leaning into me. My heartbeat slows down as my body relaxes onto hers and our hold feels natural.

 I like to make her laugh, so we do that a lot. On occasions she would nudge me jokingly as I tease her, and other times to grab my attention (as if my attention wasn’t already on her), she would tap my hand around her shoulder and let her touch linger on my fingers, My heart skips a beat every time and i could feel my face getting red. I think in some way i sabotage the mood by being my joking self, touching her in a friendly almost sisterly way. I know if i keep doing this, I’ll never know where this will end up. “It’s okay like this” - I think to myself, “this is okay”.

 We’ve been here for a few minutes, maybe 20, I’m not sure. Time seems to pass by quickly with Steph. “Maybe she wants to get back to the party”, i think to myself. I want to stay here with her, but my fear of unreciprocated wants and care always overcomes me. I slide my arm down. Finally unlocking my hold from her. I step back to face her “Do you want to head back in?” She looks at me, then looks away. I can barely makeup her facial expression, making it hard for me to read her. She starts saying: “Can I-”. Then she takes a step closer to me, my upper body leans back, I look at her up and down, and i ask “can you what?”. I ask her this question but I can feel the mood has shifted. With just a simple but direct step towards me, I know what’s about to happen. I can barely hear my own thoughts my heart is beating so fast; she slides both hands across my tight waist. She isn’t looking at me, she isn’t using that strong eye contact that would fluster me. She’s looking away. I can feel her hands entwine behind my back, and she brings her chest in, almost touching mine. She’s looking away. 

 Gay panic, nervousness, feeling my heart about to jump out of my chest. “It’s okay”, I tell myself, “It’s okay to do this.” I’ve wanted this for so long. I’m sorry for making you feel confused because I’m confused too. Just as she pauses, just as she hesitates, I tilt my head and i lean in to her. She turns to face me at the same time, and i catch a glimpse of her eyes before our lips touch. 

 Its a soft kiss, i can feel her lips press against mine. I can feel the wetness of the inside of her mouth as we hold it longer. I move my arms up and rest them on her shoulders. She pulls in and i pull her in. Our bodies are pressing on each other, and our hold feels so warm. Without letting go i feel her tongue start to slip in.  I feel a shot confidence, and I admit, horniness too, urging me for more, I pull back the kiss on the lips before her tongue fully enters my mouth.  And i take in her bottom lip with mines, occasionally letting my tongue graze her lips. I can feel her breath. Its quivering, its excited. I want to tease her even now. Her hand travels all over my back as she lets me take the lead. I keep making out with her lips, soft kisses, licking ever so slightly to let her have a taste of my tongue. Our tongues touch ever so slightly making me want her more. And then i finally pull in. I hold her face with one hand and her waist with another and i reach with my tongue inside to reach hers, a long sensual lick, my body moving with it, grinding on her. She moans. I don’t care anymore; I’m giving her my “let’s fuck” kisses without caring where this will go. I’m a great kisser, and I want to show her that.  

 Just as I was going to slow down the tempo, she pulls away, puts her hands on my shoulders and pushes me against brick wall. She comes in closer, and rests her lips on my collar bone and kisses me softly. It’s electrifying, and I’m going crazy, breathing heavy, my heart about to beat out of my chest. Then her hands fall to my waist, then one of them caresses my butt, and she slowly travels to under my thigh. Holding me there, her lips trace my neck and she starts biting, and then sucking me. “Oh.. my.. g..god” - I whisper faintly i move my hips as she sucks, one hand on her butt pushing her pelvis against mine, another one making its way under her shirt, I grab her back, my cold fingers gliding over her warm back and moan and grind with my leg in between her thighs, letting her know i want to take our physicality further. 

 She pulls back from her hickey and we lock eyes for a few seconds, catching our breath Were still holding on to each other tightly. She looks like she wants to say something, her eyes a little watery. I hold her face and i tell her “it’s okay” with a smile. I may not know why exactly she looks at me this way, or how she really feels about me, but right now, I want her to know that there’s nothing to worry about, i want this only if she wants this. I tell her “If you don’t-”, She shakes her head in denial, “No I do, do you?”. “Fuck yea” I say, teasing her as she says this often too. We both laugh, and mid-laugh i pull her closer and kiss her again. 

 I can feel it too though, the uncertainty of where this is going. But I don’t want to think anymore. It’s gotten in the way of my happiness so many times that i want to forget about thinking just for tonight.  We keep kissing softer this time. Deeper but slowly this time, because our hands are kept busy pleasing one another. I reach under her shirt again, this time climbing up to her breasts, feeling them over her bra, then slipping my hand under to play with her nipples. I pinch them and rub them between my thumb and index. My mouth and tongue ready to take in the tits. She reaches for my pussy through my pants, and uses 3 fingers to rub. She caresses slowly, rubbing her fingers to reach my clit. I moan and moan like I’m being fucked. And she likes that and I’m getting so wet. I can’t tell who’s dominant between the both of us. I reach under her shirt and my lips make my way from her lips, neck, then to her breasts. “You like giving hickies? What if i gave you one on your tits?” I take them in my mouth pushing her nipple with my tongue, and my hands gliding under her skirt, down to her ass and caressing her inner thighs slowly making my way to her pussy. I graze it through her panties, and she’s so fucking wet. She pushes my head and tells me “Eat me out”. I go down on my knees, and pull her panties down to her legs. I kiss her inner thighs and squeeze her ass. Just as i reach her pussy. I hear *click* *click*. Oh shit- We pull back right away and i get up. We turn to see a couple of people drunkenly trying to pry it open. I look at Steph and laugh. We fix ourselves up catching glances at each other to check if the other is alright.  We open the door for the drunkies of the party. They come in; we tell them jokingly to be careful as we step back into the party. We give each other one last look as, and we smile and head towards the beer pong table.