#stem to persue art much to the confusion of those around you leaving them also questioning what youre doing is immensely less fun | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

noblest-roman-of-them-all · 3 months ago

Text

C!Thomas is stronger than I am because if the Embodiment of my Logic told me my current life path was a mistake while I was already spiraling I would have had a complete break down and contemplated sticking a fork in the electrical socket.

#i have not had a good day #you know usually it's kind of fun to find out you have something in common with a fave character or comforting to find a way in which you #relate to that character #questioing your lifes choices because you dropped out of stem to persue art is not a fun thing to relate to #growing up in church being closeest queer for a portion of that and deconstructing your beliefs while questioning your choice to drop out of #stem to persue art much to the confusion of those around you leaving them also questioning what youre doing is immensely less fun #all of that plus tryint to figure out who you actually are as a person makes it so much worse #i dont feel like i know who i am because im not who everyone expected and/or wanted me to be because im not who they told me id become #i dont really know how to figure it out either #i dont know how to figure it out because i dont actually have the support of my family because while i can be out to a select few irl #it wont ever really be an option with my family so im still hiding from them i wont ever really be supported as an artist by them either #i will never be me to them #its safer to just not be anyone at all so i dont disappoint them so they wont be upset at me so they wont try to convince me to be who they #want and expect me to be #i feel like its too late for me to be able to figure out who i am like i missed the time frame for it and i dont really know how to anyway #im so tired #if i had a nickle for every time relating to a character broke my heart a little id have two nickles #which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice

3 notes · View notes