#staying somewhat sane yk

[prentissluvr]

the only reason why i don't rb that many gif sets of sam or ruby or any of my girls is because they all make me feel so genuinely fucking insane that i just glitch and malfunction and scream and scream and scream until i can finally tear my eyes away and just scroll before i lose all control and throw my phone / laptop across the room

[bright-and-burning]

Hunger games au!! OMG would love this I love hunger games aus - what would your hunger game fic look like? Any ideas? Also your tattoo looks great on you it's lovely xoxo

idk if u saw the reblog w we must be killers: tales from district 2 but i am kind of obsessed w the behind the scenes systemic cyclical stuff that’s implied w the books but not really gone into in canon. traumatized teenagers growing into traumatized adults trying to keep traumatized teenagers alive (and getting retraumatized in the process), the kind of people who are stylists and games designers and such behind the scenes, that kind of thing… i’ve got no specific clue (and im also so unfamiliar w canon these days omg could not even tell you what district is what) really. it wouldn’t be In The Games, tho, if i did write it. (although landoscar mapped somewhat directly onto katniss and peeta Could be interesting.) sorry basically all the ideas below involve them being the (relative) good guys

games designer secret rebellion affiliate!oscar x cinna-esque stylist!lando could hit, for example. victors turned mentors trying to keep their respective charges alive? long before rebellion, yk. just two traumatized guys trying to stay sane and not let Their teenagers die. from different districts so they only see each other at shitty exploitative capitol events and then during the games which is just trauma central. (how did they get close? idk maybe their tributes the first time both were mentors were allies so they were collabing and then ever since they fuckin. latched onto each other). perhaps in a . 3rd book esque fashion of both working w the rebellion (was there a name for the rebellion other than . the rebellion. i’m literally workshopping off the top of my head as my sister gets her tattoo LOL) to get their respective tributes out but not KNOWING the other is involved so like falling in love (continuing a process that started years ago when oscar was first a mentor…) while both acting sus as hell and being sus of each other’s intent but feeling sooo conflicted abt it all… lando as a victor turned mentor is something so chewy to me actually it would be play into his Everything so well tbh… oscar such a contrast and . there’s a common idiom for this but i can’t remember it but it’s like. standing against running water and not changing anyways… something steady and basically unchanging despite the horrors of mentorship and surviving. he’s not gonna let anyone glitter him up too bad yk, not gonna get lost in the terrible glamor and seedy back room deals. or one of them being involved (in the rebellion i mean) but the other not… lots to consider!!!

and thank you!!! i love it sm, im a freak who put like maybe an hour tops of thought into what i was getting/where i was getting it/getting it in general (minus the general anxiety the last two days each time i remembered i was getting it) but i think it turned out all the better for not mega agonizing over it, going w my gut >>>

[leavetwn]

* KAYLEE BRYANT, CISWOMAN + SHE/HER  | you know SUZIE TANAKA, right? they’re TWENTY-ONE, and they’ve lived in irving for, like, EIGHTEEN YEARS? well, their spotify wrapped says they listened to VALENTINE BY HOPE TALA like, a million times this year, which makes sense ‘cause they’ve got that whole ROLLERSKATES SCUFFED FROM YEARS OF USE, STARTING A JOURNAL ENTRY TWO YEARS SINCE THE LAST ONE, A SIGH OF RELIEF ONCE YOU'RE FINALLY ALONE thing going on. i just checked and their birthday is NOVEMBER 28TH, so they’re a SAGGITARIUS, which is unsurprising, all things considered. ( claire, 22, est, she/her )

it’s me again ! bringing a character who i’ve played for a while now, just switched up & such for every rp, and now , i’m bringin her here. :^) i hope you enjoy her as much as i do! tw: mentions of mental illness (anxiety)

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐭𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐢𝐜𝐬 .

full name: suzie tanaka. nickname(s): su, anything your muse wants to call her tbh. age: twenty-one. date of birth: november 28th. zodiac sign: saggitarius. gender/pronouns: ciswoman, she/her. sexual orientation: bisexual. romantic orientation: biromantic. hometown: san francisco, californio. current residence: irving, north carolina. occupation: part time waitress at cutie pie’s thanks to her skills on skates. full time student at the local college in her junior year as a creative writing major. she minors in film pro eye color: brown. hair color/style: dark brown, upper-mid back length & she usually just wears it in a simple ponytail. it’s more manageable when she’s out. however, when she’s at home, she’ll leave it down. height : 5′3″. clothing style: you can’t really put suzie’s style into one category. it’s inspired by several different eras & many times she pieces it together. some might call it a bit tacky at times, but she thinks it looks cute. to her, that’s all that matters. tattoos: none. probably could never attempt to get one cause she’s seriously afraid of needles lol. piercings: her ears and that’s when she was fairly young. reference the tattoos portion for reasoning.

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐜𝐤 𝐡𝐢𝐬𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐲 .

when you were around six years old  , you first realized that you were lonely. it wasn’t like you weren’t around other people. it was just that those people were mostly your mom and dad. occasionally your cousins would come over sometimes, but they were all older than you by at least four years. your parents were kind of eccentric, and for that, they experienced how harsh other kids could be very early on. they decided they didn’t want you to experience the same things, so since both were felt they were prepared enough to do so, they homeschooled you to keep you sheltered from those types of things. 

you’re sure they had good intentions. that’s not something you questioned, but you wished they’d at least find another kid you could be friends with or have another kid. you found yourself bored by yourself, so you immersed yourself in things like books or whatever movies they had around the house. this is where your love of fairytales began, and you’d fantasize about living in one while you read or watched the stories unfold.

you lived in your head, and you still pretty much do. you’re an idealist, even though you haven’t seen much of the world. perhaps it’s the fact that you haven’t ventured very far from your home that makes you so, and while life could still be boring, you always had another book or movie to keep you company. you grew content being on your own, and the more that you were, the more you began to enjoy your own company.

that didn’t change the fact that you longed for friends. in all the stories you read or watched, the protagonist had one other person along with them for much of their journey. sure, you had people that you were friendly with, but it was never to the extent that you wanted. it was never a best friend or a close group  —  just someone you saw on few occasions. it also didn’t help how you felt when you were around others. the way you monitored every step you took, the way you crossed your legs, or going over the way you would speak to someone in your head over and over. you figured for the longest time it was because you were shy, but a diagnosis of anxiety gave you a lot more clarity and almost a sense of relief. those things started to make more sense.

being alone helped a lot when it came to academics. you spent a lot of your time studying or looking up random ass facts on the internet, and because of this, you’d call yourself fairly smart. you know your shit. it also helped a lot when getting into colleges. you didn’t aim too high though, not yet comfortable being all the way on your own. so, you chose the nearby university to attend. 

you move out. you’re excited, and your parents are nervous but prepared. they’re not oblivious to the fact that this day would come. you’re ready to go out and face the world, but most of all, you’re ready to make friends. you’re ready to go out and experience the world, every small step at a time. you’re convinced at college you’ll become a brand new person, find yourself, and make plenty of friends. 

it doesn’t go like that at first. of course it doesn’t. it’s a new environment, and it takes getting used to. but soon, people loosen up and warm up to you. you’re quick to make a couple of friends. it isn’t at all like the stories you’d read or watched when you were younger. it is happy and fun and joyous, but you realize that friendships take work. it’s a bit exhausting, as someone who had become such an introvert, but you manage and form close bonds. 

as of now, you are working on your degree and managing life one step at a time. you’re doing pretty well, and things are looking up. you keep your head in the clouds still to this day, imagining what the future will be like. you’re still idealistic and optimistic, not that that’s a bad thing.  

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐦𝐢𝐬𝐜𝐞𝐥𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐞𝐨𝐮𝐬 .

i was being exaggerative with the ‘being at home’ stuff rip. i mean, she did spend a lot of time at home, but she wasn’t always there. her dad would take her out to rockin’ and rollin’, and i mean, she fuckin rocks when it comes to skating. it was kind of freeing to her as a child. she def got a pair of rollerblades as a christmas present, and she probably was the kid skating down her neighborhood road and shit from sunrise until her mom told her to take her ass inside. 

maybe seems like she’s ditzy and she’s probably somewhat naive, but she’s definitely not stupid. she’s also a fast learner. she is, however, too nice for her own good. she’ll learn eventually, but she’s hopeful and an optimist at heart 💔

loves her dad but tells her mom everything. she doesn’t recognize it, but her mom was probably her first best friend lmaoo. they have a really good relationship. she has a good relationship with her dad too. he’s a bit more closed off than her mom, and she recognizes that but understands.

has an irrational fear that everyone’s like,,, staring at her & thinking she’s weird. really wants everyone to like her but she’s not sure how to make that happen (news flash, it won’t)

her fam is actually from san francisco but when she was 3, her dad got a better offer in irving so that’s how they ended up here. she knows this & she wonders what life woulda been like if she stayed back in san fran. probably wouldn’t have changed but she literally lives in her head and imagines shit like that’s her job at this point so yehhh 

dreams of being a screenwriter and maybe even a director one day. she saw how film and books influenced her life as a kid & she wants to have the same impact, yk? v cute to me i love that. maybe she’ll write a book one day too who knows

i’m feelin like she has a ton of online friends cause she was seeking connection /w people so it makes sense. shout out to all her online pals who kept her sane & shit, but it wasn’t enough for her cause she really wanted those kinds of things irl.

is a hopeless romantic rip to her. just wants someone to sweep her up off her feet and give her butterflies but this aint no damn fairytale so let’s make it chaotic

character parallels: lily (dash & lily, 2020) , amélie poulain (amélie, 2001) , belle in some ways lmao (beauty and the beast, 1991) more to be added.

𝐈. ━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐜𝐨𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐜𝐭𝐢𝐨𝐧𝐬 .

*  friends, best friends, etc.  — literally any friends at all. this is the connection she craves the most tbh. platonic over romantic periodt ! she just wants people to braid her hair and have deep, personal convos with about literally anything while legally blonde is on the television. 

* a bad influence  —  i mean, she stayed inside mostly & is kind of an introvert. didn’t have tons of friends either, so she didn’t really have time to go to parties, etc. BE A BAD INFLUENCE SHE NEEDS TO LET LOOSE LMAOO. it’ll prolly take a lot to get her out but hey 

* good influence  — someone she’s a good influence on & who she helps in some way. i could see it happenin’. if you see it happening, i mean... hmu you know where i am mwah 💖

* crush  — someone she’s head over heels with. i mean, it probably wouldn’t take a lot. in my head she be catching feelings way too fast. it’s just a thing, but yeah, it could go either way. maybe your character is into her too or she’ll end up getting her heart broken which is lmao bound to happen one day. could also be someone who’s crushing on her but she’s way to busy focusing all her romantic attention on someone else to notice? idk i’m just here for all the plots.

* annoyance  — someone who finds her ass annoying/does not like her. she wants everyone to like her so it would be so confusing and upsetting and she would be like wtf did i do but i want it cause i love angst. sorry to all my muses out there luv yall but i’m just bein real

* again, anything at all  — if you have an idea that you love, pls don’t hesitate to hmu and lemme know. i promise i will 99.9% of the time be down. the same goes for any wanted connection doodads that i reblog like if u see it and ur like omg i luv that... PLEASE hmu i luv u all already & just wanna have plots and write with you srsly

[peachybun-bun]

Yk that thing that SuperM and 127 did? Where they made the playlist of their lives? Why don’t you guys also do it, i think that’d be fun. S picks 3 songs and M picks 3 songs. Have fun ! (But i am aware of how busy you guys are so feel free to ignore this ! The reason i’m telling you guys to do it is because i feel like, making a nice playlist together would be somewhat calming and therapeutic for you. But!! If its just annoying and you don’t feel like making one, then don’t. Pls don’t add to your stress and do stuff you don’t wanna. Okay???? Okay.)

M: Sweet anon you are too kind to us. This is very sweet.

My three songs are going to be just three songs that are important to me and I'll tell you why.

Blackbird - The Beatles When I was little my mom would sing this song to me to help me sleep. I have always loved The Beatles because of her. Now that she is gone it's even more important to me. She was my rock and played mom and dad so things that remind me of her are always special. I just hope that I am a bit more like her than I wanted to be growing up. You learn really quickly after losing your parent how much they actually taught you and how much you will miss learning from them. I wish I could call her all the time and just ask her stupid questions. Sorry this got deep.

Angel - Exo This is my ult group and I have learned over the time I have been listening to kpop that this is my favorite song. I never skip it. Sometimes it makes me smile, sometimes it makes me cry. This song is so special, especially when you watch a live stage of it. I hope I am lucky enough to see them perform it live. Just to watch the sweet dance they do along with the song along with seeing the group of amazing men who have literally made me smile since the moment that S and I decided to really dive into kpop and give it a try. If it wasn't for them we seriously wouldn't be here and we wouldn't get sweet message from sweet people like you.

From Home - NCT U NCT is my second favorite kpop group. I adore all 23 completely. This song is so special because the members of the sub unit got to sing in their own language on their verse. So you have Haechan, Doyoung, and Taeil singing in Korean, Yuta singing in Japanese, Kun, Renjun, and Chenle singing in Chinese. Then they all come together and ugh it's so beautiful as they sing about how NCT is there home and they aren't alone. The video I linked is a live version from MAMA 2020 where the other members Mark, WinWin, Hendery, Shotaro, Johnny, Lucas, Ten, YangYang, and Xiaojun join in and it will literally bring tears to my eyes every single time. I can't even explain how many emotions it brings me.

s: So, there are too many songs I like. Here are three that I thought about all day... heh

Wave - Ateez: This song never fails to make me feel better. It’s so bright and happy and honestly, it’s just a great song. I think it’s my go to song that cheers me up.

Sunday Morning - Maroon 5: Favorite Maroon 5 song. It brings back some good memories for me. It’s a song that I’ll never skip, and will always sing along to.

Heart Upon My Sleeve - Avicii: I listened to this Avicii album CONSTANTLY when I was deployed. I’d put the whole album on here, but that would be cheating. This is the last song on the album, and is just... so good. The strings included in this song are so good. He’s an artist that I was upset about his death, because his album kinda just... helped me stay sane when deployed.

[butterflybaby568]

the rules i have been trying to follow :

- 500 cals (sometimes i go over to 700 if i’m with my parents or something but that’s okay bc it’s like 2 times a week)

- 10,000 steps (i try to walk this much if not more everyday however if i do something else like a cardio then i don’t have to hit 10k steps)

- only egg whites (this is a food fear of mine bc of the saturated acids and calories but idk)

- rice cakes w mustard and water when i want to binge (ik this sounds repulsive and it is it just gets me to stop eating with the satisfaction of food and it’s 20 calories so)

- weigh ins are once a day (this keeps me somewhat sane and i put it in another room that’s far so i’m not tempted to jump on it every few minutes)

- no trauma dumping (a lot of my friends struggle w ed as well and some are in recovery so it’s just not cute yk)

- reminding myself that some weight is water weight being retained from grains and literally the gallons of water i think this whole community drinks

- fruit tea (this helps w my cravings and some of them are rly yummy and it’s 0 cals)

- espresso shots in the morning (pls don’t do this but i’ll have 4-5 sometimes bc the effect it has on ur metabolism and how it gets u buzzed, but only after i have eaten something bc i don’t wanna get stomach ulcers :) )

- sit ups before bed (this is of course if i don’t pass out from exhaustion)

- remember that sometimes the perception of myself is not accurate to reality (dysmorphia is obviously a huge part of this)

- eat when family is eating (helps me stay on track and in my deficit)

- dates (i have the biggest sweet tooth literally ever and this helps if i’m craving chocolate and they are 20 cals each)

- small individually wrapped chocolates (20 cals each and it’s dark)

- try to avoid avocados and nuts (high in cals)

but yeah ! that’s all i can think of for now. lmk if u have more and dm me ! i love mutuals on here <3