#starrydilemma

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Here are my 9 favorite lgbtq+ characters! Thanks for tagging me @scienter

Willow Rosenberg - Buffy the Vampire Slayer

Cosima Niehaus - Orphan Black

James Flint - Black Sails (I literally could have listed the entire cast of Black Sails but I’ll limit it to one)

Amos Burton - The Expanse

Bess Marvin - Nancy Drew

Clarke Griffin - The 100

Klaus Hargreaves - Umbrella Academy

Black Beard - Our Flag Means Death (also could have listed pretty much all the characters. Love a good gay pirate tv show)

David Rose - Schitts Creek

Honourable mention to Cheery Littlebottom from the Discworld series who I’m not sure technically counts but definitely counts in spirit

Tagging: @flythesail @wanda-apologist @mother-nyx @starrydilemma @xxdivine-chaosxx and anyone else who wants to do this

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starrydilemma replied to your post “I feel like there is a nuance to Echo that is mostly dismissed because...”

Can’t remember Clarke killing unconcious people when it was completely unnecessary. Like, they undressed 3 people in 2.5 minutes and got dressed, ALL they needed to do was undress the other two/take the important gear and then leave them all behind with Orlando. By the time the Disciples were rescued so much time would have passed with the time dilation that Echo and crew’s rescue mission would have been well and truly completed. 🤷

I get what you mean and I can’t deny that there are better ways to deal with the situation, but I think it is important to note that we don’t actually know what Echo knows; that is to say, we don’t know if Echo knows that the helmets are how these people can navigate the Gate. On top of that, we don’t even know if that’s the only way for these people to navigate. For all we know, they memorize the symbols needed to get home in case of complications on various planets. If that was the case, the plan would have been done the minute they woke up.

And Clarke may not have killed unconscious people, but she did kill everyone in Mount Weather when it wasn’t necessary and in doing so betrayed the people who had helped the 48. At least Echo killed soldiers and not children.

[thelegendofclarke]

starrydilemma replied to your post

Technically, Jo knows from watching memories and from watching real life interactions so it's the same as Diyoza knowing just by observing. Clarke could still be completely oblivious especially because that's what self doubt does

historyofbellarke replied to your post 

Why would clarke know it? Josephine knows by his interactions with him and Clarke might just think Josephine is reading something that isnt there.

lol oh man. ok SO i basically figured out while i was writing this reply that this was one of those things where it was like: i totally knew what i meant when i said it but clearly had ZERO PLAN for actually articulating it because i had no idea how to explain what i was trying to say lol. so here is me basically just word vomitting and trying to sound out exactly what i meant by this even though i knew what i meant. also this got really long and rambly and might have diverged from the actual point so just, like, bear with me lol…

i could see the point about Clarke thinking Josephine was just seeing something that wasn’t really there or Jo knowing just by observation. BUT, technically, Jo isn’t really just an third party observer or an objective and unbiased watcher is she? or at least, she’s not an observer in the sense that she’s on the outside looking in. she is distinctly on the inside, literally inside Clarke’s mind. she’s also not watching Clarke’s interaction with Bellamy in real time. she is watching past actions and events, and gaining access to past emotions and feelings, all conveyed from Clarke’s pov. yes, Jo is acting completely based on her interpretation of Bellamy and Clarke’s relationship. but THAT interpretation is still completely based in and on the way that Clarke, and Clarke’s own subconscious and subjective memories, are conveying the information. we always present information with a bias, we are always creating a narrative, even if we aren’t conscious of it. and so everything Jo has been able to determine about Bellamy and Clarke’s relationship has come from the story that Clarke’s memories showed her.

there is this quote i really love by May Sarton: memory is merciless. and i would say that is definitely true for Clarke. we know for a fact from Clarke’s own projections that Clarke’s memories that Clarke does have a lot of self doubt. Clarke doesn’t do herself any favors, she doesn’t cast herself in any kind of overly positive light at all, and there are so many things she’s done that obviously still haunt her. and we know Clarke has some unresolved guilt about Bellamy specifically. we know both from actual!Clarke putting “leaving Bellamy in the fighting pits” as her sin in her lantern, and from mind space!Clarke and her interactions with projection!Bloodreina (“i thought you actually cared about Bellamy.”) also based on that conversation, we also know Clarke clearly has some doubts surrounding her relationship with Bellamy and whether or not he actually forgave her. it would be really easy, i think, for Clarke’s memories to paint a pretty harsh picture of her and Bellamy’s relationship and his opinion on her. but based on Jo’s actions towards Bellamy and the things she’s said to him, i don’t think that’s the case.

Josephine has different strategies for when she simply wants to antagonize people vs. when she wants to manipulate them. and we know Jo has used romantic relationships specifically to manipulate others thus far...

with Abby, her trump card go-to’s were Kane and Jake, men Abby loved. one man she lost, and another man she was terrified of loosing.

she also did it to Clarke: “that’s why you always cry when you think of Lexa.”

additionally, looking back, not only do we know that this particular persuasive technique isn’t necessarily new to her; but also that it’s been used on her and she knows from personal experience that it works. in 6x06 (Memento Mori) Russel asks her “what the hell's the matter with you? have you become so callous to the feeling of others that you don't remember what it's like to lose someone you love?” at this point I think it’s relatively safe to say that he was talking about Gabriel, and that clearly had an effect on her.

if Jo’s goal was to just to get a rise out of Bellamy, there are soooo many other things that she could have brought up...

the estranged sister he couldn’t save.

the dead mother he got locked up.

participating in Pike’s nighttime attack on the Grounder army.

being locked up and tortured in mount weather.

the first and second Mount Weather massacres, both of which he feels somewhat responsible for.

And that would just be naming a few. There are even explicitly romantic relationships she could have used...

Gina- the ex GF whose death he feels responsible for. “too bad you were never that devoted to Gina.”

Ech0-the current gf who tried to kill his sister. hell he thought for a while that she DID kill his sister.  the woman who he trusted as an ally who then turned around and stabbed him (well his gf, but still) right in the back. the the traitor who he loves.

now obviously Jo doesn’t have access to Bellamy’s in depth memories the way she does Clarke’s. but she did tell him she knew a lot about him now, just based on being in Clarke’s head, and I think she would definitely know enough to be able to simply antagonize him. but that’s not what’s she’s trying to do, she wants to manipulate him. and hell, there could have been PLENTY of other things she could have brough up specifically for the purpose of manipulating him. plenty of other ways she could have made him emotional and torn his heart strings...

Monty and Harper: is this really what they would want? for you to start ANOTHER war?? is this really doing better??? is this the life they would have wanted for their son?!?

Gina: do you really want to be responsible for the death of another person you love? you want to be responsible for another woman’s painful death?? because if she doesn’t submit to Jo, Clarke’s death will be painful.

Madi: do you really want Madi to have to watch her mother die a prisoner (yes Clarke is more like a metaphorical prisoner, but she’s still a prisoner in her own body) just like you did.

Ech0: don’t you want an opportunity to just settle down with the woman you love? get married, have kids, build a life together. isn’t that what you’ve been fighting for?? aren’t you tired of fighting?!?

but she doesn’t. She clearly sees Clarke as at least one Bellamy’s significant Achilles heels, and she is basing that on information she has taken solely from Clarke. and there is plenty of other evidence that Josephine knows and understands the importance of their relationship: she literally told her father that if Bellamy found out Clarke was dead, he would tear sanctum down and burn it to the ground. she even knew that the sure fire way to get Clarke to give up was to tell her that Bellamy already gave up on her. she knew that Bellamy giving up on her would make Clarke give up on herself. (i would argue that that is one pretty straight up example that, somewhere in her subconscious, Clarke fucking knows how she feels about Bellamy.)

Josephine really isn’t just an outsider looking in, she is an insider watching past actions and events specifically from Clarke’s perspective. she has special access to specific information that paints past events in a certain light. and because of that, i don’t really think you can make the inference that she would, all by herself, be able to get to the point of knowing that the best way to manipulate Bellamy was to use Clarke. and also, Jo is far more calculated than that. no matter how desperate she’s getting to get rid of Clarke, she’s not going to just, like, try throwing everything at the wall and hope something sticks; she doesn’t have time for that. i would even argue that because she’s getting more desperate to get rid of Clarke, Jo is going to try her goddamnedest to find whatever will work best and go with it real hard. she has more and more incentive to get rid of Clarke and, therefore, more and more incentive to figure out a way to manipulate Bellamy into helping her.

i do think it’s a valid argument that Jo is able to get way more information about Clarke’s feelings (as opposed to Bellamy’s) from Clarke’s subconscious and memories, that is relatively obvious. and i also think that Clarke is waaayyy more aware of her feelings for Bellamy than he is of his feelings for her (lord, his excuse to Ech0 about why he was worrying about Clarke while she was dancing with Mr. Hot Doctor Prime was laced with so much denial it was more potent than a pot brownie), OR that she is of his feelings for her for that matter, at this current juncture. but there also has to be something that told Jo that Clarke is just as important to Bellamy as she is to him. so unless Jo got herself some sick shipper goggles, i would argue that implies that somewhere in her subconscious Clarke knows that she and Bellamy’s relationship isn’t an ordinary one. and not just because of the circumstances under which they met, or everything they have been through together either, but because of the feelings they have for each other. not matter how smart, or observant, or sociopathic Jo is, there are things she just couldn’t have pulled out of thin air and come up with all by herself. they didn’t come from nowhere, they came from Clarke.

so, in conclusion…i would say that Clarke been knew.

(**i feel like i have to add the disclaimer that none of this is how i personally feel about Clarke or Bellamy. like, I obviously don’t think Bellamy got his mom killed. this is from a perspective of how Jo would use the information to antagonize or manipulate them.**)

[linctavia]

starrydilemma replied to your photoset “Octavia and Bellamy Reunions Throughout the Years”

Look I utterly adore this but you forgot their first reunion in the drop ship when he hadn't seen her in two years and that's my favorite

Hey @starrydilemma, thanks for the input! I actually can’t believe I forgot that scene! I updated the post now!

[fleimkepakosskairipa]

starrydilemma replied to your post “do you think Bellamy should share the blame for Murphy's banishment?”

Um um um my dudes the hanging is also definitely Bellamy's fault since he, you know HANGED HIM. He didn't not have a choice for crying out loud. Pressure was there, yes. But he still made his decision.

@starrydilemma

I meant more overall who’s mainly at the fault, not who’s solely at fault. I should have been more clear about that.

It’s Clarke’s fault because Bellamy told her what would happen and that they should wait until they knew for sure, but she still publicly accused Murphy knowing full well what would happen.

It’s most of The Delinquents - I’m not sure if everyone was there, and I don’t think Mbege would actively participate in it, so not every single one, but most - for becoming a lynch mob.

It’s Bellamy’s fault for giving into the pressure and kicking the crate.

It’s the adult’s fault for sending literal children down to a whole other planet and not expecting something like this to happen.

Everyone’s at fault for their actions, it was just Clarke that started it all.

[togetherkru]

🤩🤩🎄🎄 you're so talented WOW... i'm in awe (and totally unable to do such a thing !). I'm so glad you joined us ...!

Hi everyone!!! HAPPY TUESDAY!

I don’t have any new photos to show you, so I found this one I took in early 2021, and I think it’s pretty surreal. It’s an old volcano in central France, a place I like to go to in winter, but as you can see, there wasn’t much snow. And yes, the man in the picture is my husband :-).

I hope everyone is well, although I know it’s a tough time for some of us. I’ve had so much work to do in the last few weeks that I’m a bit exhausted and quite depressed too… You’re not alone, you know… Sometimes life is just… life. Next week i’ll show you my face, cause it will be Christmas soon 🎄 🎄 🎄

Tagging/Saying Hi to : @pendragaryen, @natassakar, @geekyogicheese, @immortalpramheda, @kizo2703, @lee-em-dee, @carrieeve, @igotbellarkeforthat, @infp-with-all-the-feelings, @bookwormforalways, @star-sky-earth, @ninappon, @kateemcintyre,@moreflowersthanweeds, @poppykru, @foolishnymeria, @otp-armada, @isweartobreathe, @julibernardo, @roguetwelve, @heartbellamy, @bellamyblake, @jeanie205, @broashwhat

[katkomskaikru]

Post your favorite TEN movies using GIFs only and then tag ten people to do it.

I was tagged by the incredibly awesome @starrydilemma.

I’ll tag @eatsnaek, @staceyisnthere, @geekyogicheese, @clo-heda, @flowerclarkes, @theatre-steph, @igotbellarkeforthat, @inmyshadowyouthrive, @musicisbetterwithyou, and @immortalpramheda.

It was hard to narrow it down to 10, so my list would probably be different on a different day.  No pressure to anyone I tagged, and if I didn’t tag you and you want to do this, consider yourself invited to participate!

[rings-of-power-realm]

for @starrydilemma​

[laura-mago-art-fanart]

Here is my last drawing, with many tears and a lot of grief.

I'll imagine them that way: together, with a future in front of them.

We need to think so. The reality is hard, dreams help us.

Thanks for this journey.

This didn't end the way I wanted it to but I will keep dreaming of a more beautiful ending.

Thanks to all of you ❤

@zuhraattv @sometimesrosy @starrydilemma @kizo2703 @bellamyblakedaily

[aspeckof-stardust]

Happy BFSN! Can y’all believe this is the last one ever?? I can’t. For the longest time I dreaded the day The 100 would be over, but right now I can’t help but feel relieved it’s all coming to an end and I can honestly say I won’t miss the show much (who am I kidding I’m gonna be a mess tonight I’ve already started drinking), but I will definitely miss BFSN, the live blogs, the reactions, the theories and, most importantly, every single one of you that made this fandom one of my favorites to be a part of.

To the content creators, y’all are blessings in disguise. Thank you all so damn much for creating and sharing and just bringing so much joy and entertainement to the fandom.

To my BFSN mutuals, I love every single one of you. Thank you thank you thank you for interacting with me and becoming my friends and being such lovely, genuine people and spreading so much positivity and light. Special shoutout/thank you to @stargirlkatara for tagging me on my first BFSN ever I don’t even know many years ago and thus truly bringing me into the fandom, ily Alyssa <3

to the ones that have long stopped watching the show, I’m gonna tag y’all tonight so I can send you all that have been with me for any part of this ride a lot of love and virtual hugs and well-wishes (I hope y’all don’t mind)

@moprocrastinates @she-who-the-river-could-not-hold @bellarkes-hope @captainmmarvel @the-most-beautiful-broom @galaxydanvers @carrieeve @hellyeahbellarkee @frecklessbellamy @bellammy @eternal-bellamy-blake @niylah @ravensluna @raven-reyes-of-sunshine @lameblake @nvermindiseeyou @starrydilemma @lunakom-floukru @thetravelerbewithyou @justalittlebluetiefling @adancergirl @smokyy-mountain-rain @immortalcockroach @fen-ha-fuck-you @loveroniii @waverlyshavght @ceaselesswatchboy @as-inevitable-as-morning @ijustlovher @johnmurphysass @charmanderdiyoza @starkdelinquents @dylanobrienisbatman @chants-de-lune @stardustly @softthor @viviansternwood @ghoulbrothers @kylie-in-the-sky @bookwormforalways @flowerclarkes​

[atimble]

Five Drinks To Get To Know Me

Thanks for the tag @scienter !

White Coffee - not only is it a necessity to function I just think it’s absolutely delicious

Water - I genuinely just feel so much better if I manage to drink the correct amount. Drinking enough water is probably the only healthy thing I do

White Wine - I wish I could find a really good low or no alcohol wine because I cannot handle wine to save my life but it tastes so good!

Peach ice tea - this reminds me of being on holiday when I was a kid and it always makes me smile

Starbucks eggnog latte - I know it’s technically a coffee but the amount I am obsessed with this particular drink warrants it having its own place on this list. It tastes how Christmas feels

Tagging: @flythesail @wanda-apologist @kaylorfails @mother-nyx @starrydilemma @xxdivine-chaosxx

[kal-rants]

starrydilemma replied to your post “There is something that kinda bugged me about the episode and it was...”

I’m a little confused as to how a line mean’s nothing, particularly if you’re saying it has no real context then it means that the writers really WANTED to put it in to get that reaction and to add to the story and particularly to show is how characters feel? So like, really important for all intents and purposes and also a canon part of the show.

When I say it adds nothing, I mean that you could take that line and scene out of the episode and it doesn’t change anything. Hope wasn’t short with Echo before that scene and she wasn’t after either (other than when Echo finds Octavia’s note, which could just as easily have been her not wanting anyone to see something that Octavia clearly meant for only Bellamy’s eyes). That’s why it doesn’t feel like it was really showing how Hope felt. If she showed more hostility toward Echo before she finally came out and said that line, then it would have done more to allow the viewers to understand where she is coming from. It’s because she seemed to be on neutral ground with Echo before that that makes the call out seem superficial at best. 

It’s not just the line itself, but where the writers decided to put it. It makes no sense why Hope would mention this when Echo was only asking about who taught her how to track. If the line was better integrated into the episode, then it wouldn’t be a big deal but the way the writers lazily just added it in makes it so much flatter. Like you said, the writers wanted the line in there but they didn’t care enough to make it make sense for Hope’s character. Which is why she says it randomly on their hike through the woods instead of earlier when Echo and Hope were actually talking about killing people. 

And that is ultimately my issue. The writers wanted the line to give that loud fan base something to scream about. But they didn’t care to organically place it into the story. Yes it’s canon, but when it comes down to it, that line won’t have any effect on Hope or Echo. It’s like in a sitcom where there is a problem in one episode and by the end of that same episode everything is magically okay. Except this isn’t a sitcom and this weak attempt at conflict is literally gone by the next scene they have together.

[historyofshipping]

Happy BFSN, everyone. I have been reading the BFSNs I’m tagged in and I’m legitimately over here sobbing. 

(Also, Ren turned 6 months today. I’ve been with the fandom since before we were even thinking about kids so it only seems fitting to end with pictures of him too.)

I didn’t enter the fandom until sometime around season 5. I had successfully stopped watching the show until I happened to catch the “She is” scene and damnit if I wasn’t sucked back in. 

I didn’t really start writing metas until late in s6 and I’ve truly had an amazing time doing them. I thought I’d be upset about putting so much effort into them after what happened with s7, but I’m not. I had SO much fun writing them and theorizing with everyone that I really don’t regret a thing. 

I also do at some point plan on turning some of them into fanfics - if there’s demand for it. As I’ve said before, fiction writing is difficult for me but I’m more than willing to try as a way of giving back to everything the fandom has given me.  

I’m not sad about the season ending - or honestly, even the show at this point. I’m sad about what’s going to happen to the fandom when it’s over. 

I truly care deeply about so many of you and the thought of never interacting with you guys again. tears a little hole in my heart.

I will be here. I’ve been MIA the last two weeks because I’ve had deadline after deadline. I have about 2 more weeks and then I will be back doing fandom stuff again. 

I love you all. Cheers to the finale. 

Tags/tagged under cut (I know I’m missing people but my tagged posts have gotten buried in notifications lol)

@krstnrhodes @bellamy-blorke@itsafangirlthing@katersann@starrydilemma@junebugninja@starboybellamy@talistheintrovert @platonic-oxymoron @a-bit-old-school@bellamy-is-a-cupcake-in-love@boalphacat@ohshipit@natassakar @buttered-rice1@nvermindiseeyou@4rm4n1ja@jmbelles @fresalita @i-dont-know-how-to-quit-you@iishallbelieve @outlawsandcircles@hostagetakerandhistraitor@yourereallyhere@little-oxford-st@youleftme-clarke @100bellarkefeels @sometimesrosy@kylie-in-the-sky@softbxllarke@geekyogicheese@theatre-steph@snc655@snowysansastark@staceyisnthere@sassybooks@sallysimpsons@crowned-natblida@bellarkhugs@biconicclarkegriffin@fen-ha-fuck-you@bellamyfknblake@ruggedmurphy@pendragaryen@ztfangirl@ladyoldstones@pineapplebellarke@justbecauseyoubelievesomething@angstybleuskies@buttered-rice1@wolfheartgirl@ztfangirl@ruggedmurphy@itsafangirlthing@sparklyfairymira@kylie-in-the-sky @edgelessness @divineships @bellamys11thfreckle @carrieeve @hellyeahbellarkee @bloodysteel @ruggedmurphy @poppykru @nvermindiseeyou @wankadi @yourereallyhere @krstnrhodes @pendragaryen @natassakar @probably-voldemort @alexmaanes @geekyogicheese and anyone else who wants to participate!

[flowerangels]

flowerclarkes -> flowerangels

url change!! I’m going to tag some people I interact with regularly below and I’ll probably reblog this a few times but yes I’ve moved URLs but its still bridget fear not

@cyrenid @bellarkes-hope @starrydilemma @aspeckof-stardust @vulcanblake @willowdeandickson @frecklessbellamy @clarkegriffintitties @sebsluckycoin

[justalittlebluetiefling]

Happy BFSN, you beautiful people! I haven’t participated in a while, so this is what I’ve been up to. Wearing mask, being sat on by cats, and learning that the curly girl hair method actually Does Things for people with wavy hair. (Also my hair is getting out of control long, which was my original intention, but I’m seriously considering chopping half of it off.)

I’m stoked for the episode tonight and not-so-stoked for another mini-hiatus, but at least it drags out the ending of the season, because I’m not ready to say goodbye. At least it will give me some time to focus on getting AT LEAST the season 5 Bellarke essay out.

I would write a longer post but I’m sleepy, so here is my face.

@thetravelerbewithyou @bees-for-the-wildmother @nvermindiseeyou @hostagetakerandhistraitor @carrieeve @poppykru @starrydilemma @justbecauseyoubelievesomething @pendragaryen @griffndors @adancergirl @kylie-in-the-sky @angstybleuskies

@thetravelerbewithyou @bees-for-the-wildmother @nvermindiseeyou @hostagetakerandhistraitor @tonystarkys @carrieeve @wolfheartgirl @starrydilemma @justbecauseyoubelievesomething @pendragaryen @griffndors @adancergirl @kylie-in-the-sky @angstybleuskies

[thelittlestneverland]

Happy BFSN lovelies!

So I have been super MIA this last season and well, that’s because I am A. Super busy and B. Super behind on episodes! I think for me this season has been a bit hard for me because I’m not ready for it to end? And so I haven’t been watching regularly or catching up like I usually would (sorry @bellarkes-hope for being such a flake with our weekly watching session)

Apart from being crazy busy and relatively unemployed, thanks COVID, things have been good! I’m working my butt off for my podcast, learning to be a social media manager, streaming as much as possible AND starring my own business!

Overall things are a mess but in the best way! I miss you all so much but I hope you’re all staying happy, safe and healthy 💕

Thank you so so much to the ever stunning @flowerclarkes for the tag ✨

So some of these may be outdated now and if you wanna be added or removed let me know BUT I’m tagging some of my favourite Little Nightbloods to show some much deserved love and appreciation: @bellarkes-hope @tabatharich @the-most-beautiful-broom @bellamyfuckingblake @octannibal-blake @madisgriffin @starboybellamy @asroarke @llysandra @atlasbellamy @flowerclarkes @traitorwhoyoulove @nvermindiseeyou @clarke-iamdone-griffin @clarke-kom-eden @starrydilemma @swordsinspace @raven-reyes-of-sunshine @gardenofstories @ashleyinwondrland

May we meet again ✨