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a short ink sans character essay—

a short ink sans character essay (? can i even call it that i barely scratched the surface)

( Ink is made by @comyet, here is the faq i will be referencing often; https://comyet.tumblr.com/post/132998265968/i-n-k-t-a-l-e — and here is this whole thing crossposted on ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/49854430 )

His soulessness—

hes soulless yes and he uses his vials to feel, comyet had mentioned he pretended to have a soul— not to have feelings. He feels things even if he needs his vials to do so they're still his emotions. Ink vomits when he feels too much, that doesnt sound very emotionless does it? Ink technically isn't emotionless. He cant understand emotions, yes, but he feels them. He cant go off his vials without kind of, dying/ going comatose. Comyet said he became a lifeless husk without them— not emotionless.

Ink is a bit of a jerk, that will obviously happen if someone doesnt have a good grasp on feelings or social ques— yes im bringing up social ques now.

Social ques, are usually hand in hand with emotions, they're connected. Okay, expanding on this— lets say, someone is sad the thing someone would do is comfort them, judge the situation yes? but its so much more complicated than that, you have to read ques wether they want to talk about it, you cant ask " do you want to talk about it?" because they might not want you to point it out— or maybe they want you to point it out and end up getting mad when you dont, youre trapped all because you cant read what that person wants with their body langauge becaus people are so unpredictable.

I got a little carried away there but you get the point yeah?

I mean, ink's gonna be a jerk, purposefully or not either way cause he doesnt have a good grasp on emotions thats how his character is, him being soulless or insensitive doesnt make him an evil character, hes complex thats how people in real life are.

I just hate when people automatically think soulless= evil, cause thats not true, maybe in canon undertale it is— but undertale aus arent canon thats why that doesnt apply, also ink is different from flowey because of his vials, flowey is alive because of determination that landed on his dust and the flowers near it, there wasnt any dt in inks case (that we know of) — and flowey pretends to have feelings, ink doesnt.

In inks faq, comyet mentions ink being emotional more than once, when mentioning his rainbow freckles he has when hes positivly emotional, and vomiting ink when hes emotionly shaken.

point being—Ink isnt emotionless he feels too much, hes not evil hes not exactly well behaved but he isnt downright evil. Everyone is morally grey, real life and fiction thats what makes it realistic and intresting, everyone has different perspectivs, opinons etc and that makes people morally grey.

"He is an insecure, self-centered character with abandonment issues who has a hard time trusting his emotions." again the word emotions pop up, and not just emotions his emotions. Those are inks flaws, and that gives perspective on his worldview, it makes sense, that he views other aus as just characters, he sees so many of them its better to disconnect himself right? The thing with abandonment issues is that it causes a feeling that everyone will leave you so its better you leave them— or disconnect youself from them, before they leave you.

Okay, lets talk about his past now, he was stuck in an abandoned au, he hated it so much and it was so blank that he didnt see any other way out than killing himself. He ripped his soul apart. He felt such great despair and hopelessness that he took his very being in tore into it, dusting instantly— and smiled as he dusted. It was worded as he "broke free", in a sense he did, but Ink didnt know he would be granted another chance, i dont think thats what it meant by broke free, because right after that it says he was given another chance. Ink didn't know what would happen after he died, in his mind death was better than being alone, being forgotten. I have a feeling that Ink not remembering his past, isnt just his regular spotty memory, i have a feeling it was a repressed memory— because some of it still carries over to him, like his fear of blank spaces, and being forgotten. Its somewhat similar to anniversary reactions, where someone doesnt even have to remember it, their subconcoius and body remember enough for feelings to peak through. Its not exactly aniversary reactions for Ink because there was no time in his au— point is his feeling still carry over even if he doesnt remember his actions. Ink is traumatized. Its so clear in his personality, quirks — everything. I hate when people completly brush over his past even if he doesnt remember it because in real life people block out traumatic events too!!! it still happend!!

his abandonment issues, insecurities, fears and overall flaws reflect that.

Ink isnt evil, comyet literally said he was a chaotic neutral.

basically im sick of people overlooking Ink— esp when people overlook is faq and past.

(i might add more to this later/someday idk cuz it is a little on the short side [alot on the short side] and i only coverd a quarter of what i wanted.)

update (9/13/23); okay, when i wrote this my thoughts were kinda everywhere despite how much i tried to organize this, its messy and i did not cover alot.

here i am coming to drop more info onto this, ok.

basically on ao3, someone had mentioned that the better wording for inks memory regarding the negatives of his past can be described better with dissociative amnesia, which supports my claim about ink being traumatized. (I assume that it would be nearly impossible for an emotionless person to have trauma, once again proving he does have emotions) But of course, if someone wants to write/portray ink as an evil character i am not the boss of you, i just hate when people think ink being an emotionless evil guy is canon when its not, he is traumatized. Trauma and abandonment issues can make people seem rude, act rude and we see that in inks character, and personally i think thats what makes him awesome. Ink is relatable and realistic, trauma does not carve a perfect angel of a person, trauma is ugly and rough, though i am not saying that every person with trauma is going to be rude of course, but no one is perfect.

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ink sans is so anti-hero coded

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ivw drawn 3naked skeletons this month,,,huh

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elaborating on this;;;

i dont mean hes anti-hero coded because of the lyrics "its me hi, im the problem its me" no not really because thats only a small peak in the song when i say ink sans is so anti-hero coded i mean, he is anti-hero coded. the whole song.

"One day I'll watch as you're leaving

'Cause you got tired of my scheming

(For the last time)"

those lyrics speak to me and say abandonment issues, okay so what im getting from this is, watching someone leave, someone who got tired of you, got bored of you and your atitude. (isnt one of inks fears of being forgotten??? someone becoming bored, leaving getting tired of you is uncomfortably close to being forgotten, they both equal as being discareded, like a broken toy.)

"I'll stare directly at the sun but never in the mirror"

maybe this is just me projecting i dont know but to me this verse means so much, its such a simple sentence but to me its so important. to me it comes off as not wanting to face yourself, staring at the 'sun' is much more apealing, maybe staring directly at the sun as in you would rather be blind to what you truly are, or maybe only focusing on lighter parts, either way not seeing the full picture. not wanting to face yourself. this relates to ink, because in a way he kind of chose his path??? not really but in an odd way he is his own creation, like he had torn his soul apart, gifted a brand new start, after his scape he had been gifted with his paints. his paints had no manuals, he had no guidance, nothing. ink had chose his clothes, he chose to aid creators in their creations, no one told him to, he had no boxes to fit into, no full set of morals.

"Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy baby

And I'm a monster on the hill

Too big to hang out, slowly lurching toward your favorite city

Pierced through the heart, but never killed"

ok, ink is different from everyone, in the way of his disconnection of feelings, his soullesness and his 'job' all of those things make him stand out like a sore thumb, (not to forget his giant paintbrush dubbed broomie. ) but those lyrics just stick out to me as something so ink, hes just such and odd lad, i cant elaborate more than that.

"Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism

Like some kind of congressman? (Tale as old as time)"

ok, i really like this verse aswell- shit i love this whole song. but thise verse just ties the song together, because the song is so contridicting, discussing self loathing then talking about narcissism- i love it. the flip floppiness between the two is so ink (and so me coughcough) because ink is literally described as "insecure , self-centered character with abandoment issues who has a hard time trusting his emotions"--- insecure and self-centered, self loathing and narcissism. i rest my case.

ink sans is so anti-hero coded