#sry i needed this u_u

[cryoriku]

the scions respond to finding out you self-harm

Estinien

estinien would not hide his staring as he tries to figure out if the marks on your wrist were made intentionally or not.

The thought of the azure dragoon figuring out you self-harm would be enough to make anyone's limbs turn to gelatin, expecting him to be critical and not understanding. however, when he sees the marks on your wrist, it is quite the opposite.

He tells you you your scars are no reason for shame

After all, he cannot pretend as though his own scars - caused by his conflict with dragons - were not borne out of the selfsame desire for vindication, or penance. is that not a form of self-harm in and of itself?

estinien is not going to tell you to stop. he knows that decision will have to be your own. but he will remind you of a principle in dragoonhood he learned the hard way: vengeance and justice cannot coexist.

in the meantime, he will support you, as your comrade.

if you are partners - he will find your scars attractive. of course he doesn't WANT you to cut, but the indication of your struggle and survival despite it... he will be a sucker for it.

Thancred

Let's be honest: thancred's first instinct to seeing you self-harm would NOT be pretty. given what's happened to him, he will immediately assume you've been possessed by an ascian and restrain you

"i suppose you'd like to tell me what the hell you're doing? answer quickly."

when it becomes clear you are yourself, big brother mode kicks in. he immediately apologizes and softens.

it's not that he couldn't imagine you or anyone intentionally wanting to hurt themselves. he is no stranger to suicidal thoughts, nor the desire to bury yourself in your own suffering through addictive impulses. he's been around the block. if anyone gets how you feel, thancred does.

comforting someone of these feelings is not his strong suit, though. because he cares about you, he will try. it may feel a bit like tough-love, but you know he is trying to help you in the way he finds most effective.

he'll give you space to breathe, but he'll still be more consciously aware of you and your signs, and check in on you now and again.

he knows what it's like to hit a mental rock bottom. he doesn't want that to happen to you. he won't carry you, you have to work at it too, but he will be there at your side.

Alisaie

Alisaie would not at all be shocked. she knows the hardships you face and while she admires the strength you show through it all, she also understands why it would cause you to break like this.

she is also well familiar with how this sort of thing goes. maybe she has had a friend from the studium who self-harmed or once considered it herself.

she will let you vent to her about how you are feeling. she is a very good listener and an honest and thoughtful responder.

if would be the type to handle it well, Alisaie may lightheartedly threaten you to never do it again.

in either case, on a more serious note, she will remind you as she gives you a strong hug that she will always be here for you as you have been for her. you can lean on each other. she loves you very much.

Alphinaud

Alphinaud, however, is shocked. he never would have guessed - but he is still incredibly understanding.

he will ensure you he does not think any less of you for needing to do this.

like alisaie, he is familiar with this topic. if you are open to receiving it, he would off ideas for alternatives he has heard worked for others.

otherwise, he will make the both of you hot tea or hot cocoa and talk it out together. you were a team, and he would help you find a way to overcome this challenge, too.

with alphinaud, you will never be without someone to check your rationality and encourage you to push forward.

if you are comfortable with it, he will ask to see your wrist and offer his healing magicks on you.

G'raha

this guy would definitely get emotional about it. he can't help but wear his heart on his sleeve, and it hurts to know that you have been struggling so much.

he can relate to your feelings of feeling inferior, or helpless, or the need to take on suffering to spare others. so much.

it would hypocritical of him to ask you to stop, so he doesn't, though he does suggest that you two can be each other's accountability for mental health progress.

learning this side of you causes you both to connect with one another more deeply. the way g'raha sees it, it is a chance for a stone to be turned. both of you are only human, and you are messy, and that's okay. you can be messy together and help each other grow.

you are special to g'raha, and your scars, self-inflicted or not, are beautiful to him. now let's cheer up, okay?

Urianger

While Urianger will not exactly understand it, that does not at all mean he lacks in compassion

so long as you are comfortable with it, he would draw you close to him, giving you tender strokes on your hair, your back, maybe even the unmarred parts of your arm.

he would speak softly to you. you can be transparent about your emotions, or, if not, he will comfortably sit with you in silence as you calm down.

regardless, he will offer words of wisdom and encouragement entangled in a story he tells - perhaps of his own personal struggles or a tale he knows.

"remember, thou needst but have faith."

Krile

This is definitely unfamiliar territory for Krile, but she takes it in stride.

if you want to share, she will ask you questions about self-harm, why you do it, and how it helps so that she can understand it and figure out how to best be there for you.

regardless, she feels direct action is the best course. she offers to go on a walk with you, to get a bite to eat or simply enjoy the weather and companionship. maybe tataru will want your help in her latest hobby. or she and alphinaud could help you take up painting if that is more your style. anything to knock you out of your spiraling state and cheer you up in these moments

she would encourage you to quit, expressing privately that she is proud of you when she sees that you are clean, but understand that this sort of thing can be turbulent and takes time. but your little big sister won't stand to have you suffering alone.

whatever you need, she'll be there. she cares for you, even when she teases you, and wants to see you continuing to push on, even if you relapse. she wants to see you smile.

[tylidae]

boo boo keys

[baishouqijia]

i can't wait for them to add pantalo.ne to the game with the tall male model and twink body like he's not 35+ with greying hair

[yuukei-yikes]

SHOW US ALL THE OG/FANMADE KAGEPRO MERCH YOU OWN!! (please) (with cherr y)

i own exactly 1 merch.

this kano keychain. my big sibling had an exhange student year in japan in 2015, and they brought him back! and i kept him! he's my little buddy hanging out next to my desk where i draw, with miku and that squishmellow keychain half my datefriend got me

i also own the third volume of the manga, but its packed somewhere (ive moved countless times and packing and unpacking books eventually gets... tiring)

erm. anyways. i dont have any merch because....i live in argentina!! which means i cant buy stuff outside the country without a ridiculously high tax and risking losing it in the mail anyway <- which happens even with purchases inside the country lol. all u can get here is basically the manga volumes. and for fan merch, im not saying it doesnt exist here but specifically in my city's little cons ive never stumbled across it... i follow an artist on ig who made some ene and shintaro stickers once (id link them but i honestly dont remember their @), but they're from buenos aires and i dont live there so i wasnt attending that con u_u but it does exist! i just havent gotten lucky...yet...

getting a lil personal, i was in switzerland for a year and i actually came home like 4 months ago, and while there i did consider buying the novels and even merch but augh packing and weight limit for suitcases...yknow, not the best idea to buy Books. so i didnt. and for merch, i Did look for some stuff online but i gotta say. im so paranoid abt losing stuff in the mail and losing money i didnt get the balls to buy anything that wasnt from neighbour countries. i BARELY bought stuff online in my time there LOLLL

back in early 2022 my buddy red (@/fightxer here on tumblr, @/redpksp on twitter) and i collabed on these

i made the sketch and he did... erm... everything else. color+lines, ordered, shipped them. lol. these pics are also from him, bc i dont actually own this charm in real life. they were gone by the time i went to switzerland so i didnt get one 😞

sry i kinda rambled abt my personal life ofc i dont need to justify why i dont own any merch but heh i felt like it.

[manasurge]

I’m finally playing around with the beta for the weapons thing, and I’m loving being able to use daggers on my mirage in my 2nd set of weapons. I get to keep my evasion hax, my clones, as well as throw daggers at range when I need to do single target stuff. Full ranged mesmer fun times for both aoe (greatsword) and single target (daggers, with aoe lite), lots o’ fun!  Of course I still have to see what the rifle will have in store for later :3c (might replace daggers, we’ll have to see). I just run power build, so the axe technically isn’t super set up for it (but I still like axe too and am using it). I just like not being hit that much cuz I’m kinda squishy, so I appreciate a second ranged weapon set. Although, I am using the pistol too for this beta, but I still love mesmer pistol bc of the pew pew sound haha. Gotta love magic bullets (not the blender kind). I just like lots of the weapons it seems u_u Chances are I will replace my axe for the daggers or the rifle for my main 2nd set later (although idk if I should replace the sword with the pistol, simply bc I’m using Caithe’s crystal bloom skin, so... I may not sentimental reasons, idk yet lol), but I do have a condi set where I can keep my axe on. I like having lots of options (I have 2 additional equipment templates on my main), even if I tend to mostly just use one, haha.

(lol sry just rambling about whatever cuz I’m very tired and wanted to try this out for a little bit before bed, so idk how coherent this all is)

[cherri-if]

Update: 6/6/2021

Play the demo HERE

Happy pride month! 🌈🌈🌈

Ch.1 What do they say about knife fights?  8.5k

Ch.2 Once upon a dream. 7.3k

Ch.3  Tailor these clothes to fit your guilt, what's your size? (K = 5k , Eros 5.8k)

Glossary added! 

Artwork added 👀

Edited some scenes for Shun & added some more options!

You get to meet  K! (and more Eros if you want!)

To Do:

Ch.4 - meet Yuu (or more shun!)

Ch.5 Why did you bring a knife to a gun fight?

Add a poly option for Yuu & Shun

More artwork probably? 

Random notes:

Wish converting the game from cside to dashingdon wasn’t so much of a trial and error process :cry: it should all be fixed tho! 

Images SHOULD all show up pls lemme know if it doesn’t

My glossary works fine in cside but totally wigs out in dashingdon so it’s the simplest version rn :pensive: 

12.8k new words! wow! so many-

[okcat]

😞😣😖😣😞😖😖😣😣

[randombubblegum]

the ghost club has a tiny baby fandom but their music fucks so if you are so inclined .

woah ive never heard of this band but their animated mv was rly cool?? i cant imagine thered be enough of a fandom there for me to dive into but i might start listening to them bc i like their sound lol ty!!

[umbled]

make sure 2 tag ur roblox

[thesuperthing]

ok good news mom Did actually have a photo scanner & it’s a pretty decent size! now i can finally (attempt to) upload pics to that damn wiki