#srsly this is just me complaining abt shit

[gamesetmatch-me]

some personal stuff no one wants to hear:

i had a maths test today... i don't remember when the last time was that i was this bad in a test.

i didn't even get finished with everything and the others have even less finished. then i miscalculated every single thing i don't even know how bc i used a calculator what could possibly go wrong there??? (everything btw)

then i was too stupid to draw a silly parabola??

i am going to cry... i have had so good grades this year and atm i am ruining all of these bc my french test wasn't too good either??

little side information for anyone who wants to know. in my maths test the highest we could score is 27 points and i already have 4 points less bc i didn't get finished and then at least 6 points less bc of the other stuff. maybe even more.

if you read this far congratulations you wasted one minute of you life by listening to be complaining (but thank you if you really read this far <3)

[7habitsofhighlyeviceratedpeople]

the ppl in this fandom who r like “criticizing proshippers is stupid in a fandom like Outlast” are absolute weirdos and i do not trust them. just bc it’s darker subjects/media etc doesn’t mean it’s okay to be fetishizing peoples trauma or any sort of glorification of certain topics. i feel like serious critical thinking skills mixed w some light media literacy would srsly help here. i’m so glad a lot of y’all are normal but at the same time a lot of ppl act like they are better than others bc they don’t engage in “discourse” or “drama” bc their black and white mindsets (don’t come @ me i have autism AND bpd black and white mindset is my normal) doesn’t allow them to not take everything at face value and they refuse to see that things r srysly so varying and circumstantial, and applying a “this fandom is for a horror game filled w dark subjects therefore nobody should complain about anything and it should all be okay” like bro it’s not being hypocritical, please use common sense and stop speaking on shit like you are better than others just bc you’re totally fine with anything ppl do so long as “they know fiction from reality” and the rest of y’all’s stupid fucking POVs. like please see how dumb this is and how you are enabling weirdos! probably bc you are a weirdo yourself or just severely uneducated i mean half of y’all are kids and one mf i saw was almost 40 saying “leave proshippers alone” no? the fuck i won’t? it’s sick seeing my trauma be basically romanticized/glorified just bc it’s fiction. y’all just bc it’s fiction doesn’t make everything okay. there’s ethical dark fiction and unethical dark fiction, and many reasons why each one is the way it is. Outlast is so special to me because it’s not only just an amazing, interesting story filled with dynamic characters who are so memorable and unique. the care at which the subjects r approached is incredible and i feel like we as a fandom have a pretty good understanding of why certain things are just NOT okay. i mean the person who started this whole thing was like “if you are attracted to coyle you should treat him with the same treatment you give proshippers” and it just shows they have no clue what they are talking abt and why that doesn’t line up. like coyle or hate him he is an amazing character and it goes without saying that NOBODY not me, not red barrels, not Coyle Nation condones a goddamn thing he does. we don’t like him or Eddie or Trager for the problematic parts of them ? Y’all lack a vital understanding of the message and purpose behind the topics and character traits explored, and when i know i don’t understand smthn i look into it before speaking on it acting like i’m better than everyone and have some hot take. srsly some of y’all do not belong in this fandom. those of you who have brain cells left, ILY 😽

[dinosaursatemymom]

anti Nancy, like srsly

You're still here? Okay, but srsly this is very against Nancy wheeler, if you're still here I'm guessing you don't like her? If you do, it's very against her, my mind will not be changed jsyk. Just a warning bc of comments on my other anti post lol 🙃

Also before anyone says anything about me just not liking her because she gets in the way of my ship, I actually hate stdie and Hrringrve. Plus I don't like a lot of the characters storylines, Nancy's is just one that frustrates me the most.

Actual Anti Nancy post starting now

This basically started out as a convo between me and @felineincognito in the comments of one of my other anti Nancy posts but this is kinda a continuation of that ig.

Also I'm not gonna talk about the stuff the other characters have done wrong bc this isn't abt them, and just because other people have done bad stuff doesn't cancel out the stuff she's done🤪.

So in the first episode I didn't really like her that much, but yk, the whole point was that she wasnt acting like herself. So, I figured that as the season went on she would grow and start being more herself, and I guess she did change to an extent. But then s2 happened and she was just being a bad gf to Steve, let's be so fr, she was emotionally cheating on him. Pining for Jonathon while lying to Steve about who she's in love with is not okay. This was around when I started to reallyyy not like her. And she just didn't take accountability for her part in the failed relationship. Then s3 rolled around(my favv season frrr) and Nancy still hasn't grown, she still doesn't take accountability for her mistakes. And she was exactly the same in s4.

Okay let's break this down by season

S1- Nancy is dating Steve. Will goes missing and Nancy is incredibly annoyed because she can't see Steve and complains, she's does not care about will. She lies to her mother and goes to see Steve. She treats Barb like shit at the party, Barb goes missing, Nancy suddenly cares about will and is upset that no one will listen to her. She finds out about the pictures and goes to ask Jonathan about the demogorgan picture, they go hunting. They argue, and eventually Jon and Steve get in the fight. At the police station Nancy starts catching feelings for Jon and is told that he is in love with her. After the whole salt bath ordeal her and Jon go to his house to try and catch it, Steve shows up trying to apologize, they tell him to leave. Steve comes back to help, Nancy, Steve, and jon kill the demogorgan. Nancy's guns are not useful in this feat ( @thegreenmeadow had a great post about this here). A few months later and Nancy gives Jon a camera that Steve bought, she is back together with Steve after waiting for Jonathon for a month because he wasn't ready.

S2- Nancy is dating Steve again, but crushing on Jonathan, this is emotional cheating especially because she later goes to jon for comfort rather than talking it out with Steve. Nancy and Steve go to barbs parents house, Nancy is struggling with guilt and wants to tell barbs parents what really happened. Steve and Nancy get into a small argument, Steve convinces Nancy not to break the NDA and to go to a party and try to relax. They go to the party and Nancy gets extremely drunk, she calls Steve bullshit and yells at him. (Presumed break up but that's debatable) Jon takes Nancy home, the next morning Nancy doesn't remember the night before and she gets upset at Steve for not picking her up. Steve and Nancy get into an argument (this is kinda why I think they didn't really break up otherwise she wouldn't have cared about him not picking her up). Nancy leaves school with Jon to try and tell barbs parents, they go to the lab and get a recording. After they get the recording they go to see Murray. After figuring out the story, they sit down to have a drink. After deciding to spend the night, Murray tells them to just sleep together. Both Nancy and Jon acknowledge Steve in a way that makes it seem like they haven't broken up/Nancy still has feelings. They go back to Hawkins and Nancy has a talk with steve, he apologizes for being a bad boyfriend and tells Nancy to go with Jon to save will. Nancy doesn't acknowledge her part in the relationship failing. She goes with jon, they get the mindflayer out of will, Nancy did not need to be there for this. At the snoball her and Jon are helping out, they smile at each other from across the room and are now dating.

S3- Nancy and Jon have been dating for a while and are currently interning at the Hawkins post. Nancy is upset about the other office workers being misogynistic and treating her poorly, she complains to Jonathan. One night while Nancy is cleaning the office she receives a call about some rats from mrs. Driscoll, she decides to pursue this herself the next day. She lies to her boss and barges in on Jonathan developing the photos, ruining whatever he was developing. Jon follows her out to the car and talks about how he's concerned about getting fired and thinks it's not a good idea. Nancy disregards his concerns and insists she's correct. They go to Mrs. Driscoll's house and find the rat. The next day Nancy brings up her case to her bosses, she is declined and told to stop pursuing the case. Nancy insists shes correct and again, barges in on Jonathan ruining his photos. Jon thinks it's a bad idea, she just says that she's going anyway, Jon reluctantly joins her. Jon again expresses concerns about losing his job, Nancy dismisses these concerns yet again. As they arrive at Mrs. Driscoll's house they find her having a seizure, the hospital is called. The next day Nancy and Jon lose their jobs. As Jon is driving them home, Nancy keeps talking about how she was correct and thinks tom is on drugs, Jon gets annoyed with her and says she should stop. Nancy compares him to the misogynistic newspaper managers, and calls him being upset because he needs his job the Oliver twist routine. Nancy gets a pep talk from her mom, and goes to the hospital. She finds mrs.driscoll having another seizure. The next morning she calls Jon about it. The kids meet up with Nancy and Jon, they discuss what's been going on, Nancy is passive aggressive towards Jon. They go to the hospital, Nancy half apologizes and Jon admits he was wrong about the rats, Nancy makes a comment about never doubting her again(imo this cancels out the apology). They fight the fleshflayer thingie. And go to the mall to try and save the scoops troop. Nancy makes a comment towards robin, that was later clearly written to be jealousy. They all fight the fleshflayer and stuff. Later we cut to Nancy and Jonathon having a talk, they're in love Jon moves away.

S4- Nancy is working at Hawkins post, her colleague Fred and her are discussing a spread, she is irritated with fred. After Chrissy dies, Nancy takes Fred to go report the story, she's irritated with fred. She lies to the police officer to get into the park, she then proceeds to go to every door and ask them questions. She then proceeds to talk to wayne Munson, pursuing her story. After speaking with him, she can't find fred, she goes around searching for him. The next morning we see her getting questioned by the police, she sees Steve's car and realizes something more is going on. Later, the gang is explaining vecna to her at the picnic table. As they all get ready to go to the school, Nancy starts to leave on her own. Robin goes with Nancy, they arrive at the library and Robin is talking through her thoughts and Nancy is extremely annoyed with her. Robin asks if she comes off as rude or condescending, Nancy says no. Robin proceeds to explain that she has trouble with social cues and filters. They go into the archives and begin searching. Robin clarifies that her relationship with Steve is purely platonic, Nancy gets more annoyed with her. Robin then finds the weekly watcher, they find out that Victor thought it was a demon. Nancy receives all the credit for this discovery. After the Mac has her first vision, Nancy and Robin proceed to come up with a plan to talk to Victor Creel. Nancy tells Robin to change clothes, they go to pennhurst. Robin ends up being the one to get them to see Victor, and figure out the music. They radio Dustin and tell him about the music. Nancy is the one to piece together Max's drawing. They proceed to go to the old creel house, Nancy helps Steve clean his hair. When they go through Watergate, Nancy helps to beat up the bats and fix Steve's wound. Nancy finds out the upside down is stuck on the day will went missing. Yadda yadda the finale happens jncy reunites, Steve confesses blah blah.(I'm sorry I got really tired just go watch if you care enough)

So um ion even remember where I was going with this but go check out the stuff @felineincognito said in the comments here because that was some great stuff. My point is that Nancy hasn't shown much growth, constantly screws up and makes things worse, is regularly rude, doesn't really do much for the plot itself, treats people poorly, expects everything and everyone to do everything for her, and yet is constantly treated as though she can do no wrong.

Also this isn't really a TV show thing, more of a fanbase thing. But if a character is just there to be a strong female women with no actual plot or arc, then she is not really a good character. I don't dislike Nancy because she is a woman, I dislike her because of how she has been written.

Nancy Stans who have made it this far, congrats! If you wanna shit on me or my takes, that's cool, but don't do it here, go to your own space with screenshots and/or copy and paste. Don't waste time harassing me, it doesn't hurt anyone if I don't like your favorite character, I'm not harassing you, I'm in my own space expressing my opinion. Please just scroll if you don't agree, this post is not for you. If you are really that pressed about anti Nancy takes, you can always block me or the tag. Please and thank you.

Love you all!

[honksapling]

"No no you don't understand he's using dteam for clout he's not really friends with them he's actually distancing himself from Dream and then going back on it because he wants to save face but also he wants the clout of being friends with them all his relationships are transactional and all his content sucks cuz you can see how fake it is he actually doesn't care about them outside the content (I don't think this about any other creator but TRUST ME with him OK I promise its true and real) he kisses his friends and doesn't even ask for consent cuz he's trying sooooo hard to push karlnap so he can have what dnf have but he's actually queerbaiting because he's not really queer" - how some Karl antis sound

Srsly it's fine to not like someone's vibe and complain abt it but some of these mfs will just b saying shit

no srsly karl antis are so hyprocritical cause he talks to his friends hes a clout chaser, he doesnt talk publicly to them he's moving away because of bad rep rn and is not thier real friend he shows affection he's a queerbaiter. its enough that he already gets hate from mrb34st fans that mcytfans also hate him for stupidest reasons

[waluijoe]

pple who date partners from rich families.. how do they do it. i have 2 loaded friends and i just get so mad at their values and thinking and the way they just Cling to their money like rats even tho they have sm of it. they have secondary rooms and secondary homes and they complain abt the moral energy it takes them when they have to say no to a friend who needs a room for a few months for work cause they dont wanna be bothered in their home with their little rich habits. unfair of me to be mad !!! but also like... man how are you gonna be complaining to ME abt "feeling a bit guilty for ur priviledge" but ultimately doing jack shit abt it and changing the topic in 2seconds w/o offering another form of help or compassion to that person... how tf can you just lay pple off from ur thoughts in 2seconds like that. as if THEY could lay off their fkcing basic needs for 2seconds. theres sm i would do w money. theres sm i would do w a second fkcing room. i hate you rich kids even through my love srsly god

[woonhakist]

i will literally do a nose dive off the top of the empire state this is the most pain ive been in since jay was announced p10 in boys planet like my chest is pulsating w pain rn the combination of haemin and minkkumaz angst is absolutely deadly and should be banned in a minimum of 20 countries

ugh to think that haemin going out more often couldve been something as positive and simple as him just coming out of his shell but all it was was him wanting to stay away from reader holy shit the idea of someone going against their normal behaviors to stay away from u is such a painful thought and since this is JUNG HAEMIN it burns like my heart was thrown on those hot coals ppl walk on and left there forever like an incredibly overcooked steak

then the slow transition from a happy loving relationship to something completely onesided is like the most excruciatingly painful process to imagine and having to read it abt the loml has me rocking back and forth … someone fucking detain me before i go clinically insane “‘bye’ and not ‘i love you more’” please id rather have an anvil drop on my head like im wile e coyote than have to go through that

god and haemin practically discarding reader like they were nothing when all they wanted to do was talk to their boyfriend that they missed … i felt like i got shot through the heart and someone (HAEMIN) twisted the arrow like a little bitch then reader just took it and accepted the blame … oh the PAIN

and then the argument right after that … i dont even know where to start like i was lowkey touched by haemin being like “ik u get agitated when ur in public for too long” then everything got thrown out the window and stomped on at everything else he said afterwards like “i just want to live without u bothering me constantly” but reader just wants to be w u DAWG WHYYYY then holy shit the “it means im having a hard time pretending like i havent fallen out of love w u” right after it srsly ran me over a minimum of 100 times then walked away like nothing ever happened like IT HURT SO FUCKIN BAD U DIDNT HAVE TO SAY IT LIKE THAT HAEMIN LET ME DOWN EASY

then haemin trying to tell reader they lied abt the things HE said and the promises HE couldnt keep and tried to turn the tables like “i cant be w someone who isnt mature enough to understand when i need time away” and it hurt even more when reader thought that obeying him would bring him back …. god it gave me flashbacks to how my dynamic was w [REDACTED] and it near killed me

god then the stalking of his social media and seeing how quickly he moved on but reader was no where near that srsly hit the bullseye and did circles around it UGH then reader seeing everything that used to be reserved for them now used for another bitch … haemin in his recycled hoe era like damn saving the environment but not readers feelings

bye and this isnt mentioned in the story at all but i can imagine haemin gossiping and complaining w kyungmin and the gang abt reader and that hurts like 100 times worse like haemin hating u is bad enough but the thought of his friends hating u too for sumn that isnt even ur fault is so very foul

i do really like readers journey on forgetting abt haemin and loving themself (reader realizing that theyre the star was so cute actually bye) but no ending is happy if haemin isnt in it sorry realistically id never be happy again knowing haemin fuckin hates me goodbye

this whole thing was so incredibly amazing and it seriously beat me the fuck up where it absolutely hurt like those tears and those ice cream sandwiches were no joke holy fuck u broke my heart w this one dawg u should literally be insanely proud of urself for this one my GOD

everything u wanted to get across was executed so well and attacked me like a thousand man army like sumn can hurt but it cant HURT as much as this did … lord bless rin for releasing that song cuz without it u wouldnt have released this godsent haemin fic this should be put in a tumblr museum or sumn (it shouldnt actually cuz i want to gatekeep this from the world like its rapunzel and im mother gothel)

and im not sure how to put into words how ecstatic i am that you wrote ANOTHER fic for me like dedicating prince sungho to me and writing glitter on our blushed cheeks for me was WAYYY more than enough but this … omfg … this was probably one of the last things i ever expected (props to u for keeping it a secret) but i could not be any more grateful than i am rn to have this written for me like u have to be an angel sent from heaven or sumn (did it hurt when u fell from heaven Lol) cuz this u r fuckin CRAZY for doing all of this for me 😢

welcome to another episode of “omi writes a gorgeous fic and jordan goes bananas over it” but its the “omi wrote it for jordan and jordan doesnt know what to do with herself” edition like god this isnt even JUST an omi banger … its something like a million times more intense … like idek a word for it but its kinda like a “i want this tattooed on my entire body” kind of thing 😢 but for lack of a better word CHEERS TO MY FAVORITE OMI BANGER TO EVER EXIST IN THE HISTORY OF MINKKUMAZVERSE EVER THIS ONE OVERWRITES EVERY PAST FAV OMI BANGER (im gonna say this abt so many of ur fics but that just goes to show how much i love ur writing) 🥂

YOU TAUGHT ME HOW TO FEEL UNLOVED

there used to be so much love there, just two people completely infatuated with one another. you've been through so much with haemin, and you thought maybe he'd fight for your relationship. but even after all this hurt part of you still loved him.

PAIRING jung haemin x fem!reader WC 2.0k TAGS lovers to exes. angst. growing apart. asshole haemin. somewhat a timeline of denial to acceptance. miscommunication. OMI NOTE another little something for my @woonhakist because i love writing for her. except unlike prince sungho it's actually angst. sorry sungho ur getting booted out of this. this has been in my drafts for about a month but now i'm motivated to get it done for u hehe. i hope you like. ^_^ (inspired by just me by rin)

the skys were clouded with pillows of dark gray. it had been rainy recently, the smell of wet pavement becoming more distinguishable as it continued. you wanted to assume that maybe it was his fault. the reason behind why your days were always so dark.

it was common to fear the unknown. being innocently unaware of what was going on behind the scenes was slowly eating at your insides; making you feel as if you were the dead carcass of a street animal, being fed on by rats.

things were different recently, he was different. haemin was going out more than usual, a breath of fresh air in comparison to the introverted persona you were used to. despite your worries, he convince you that you didn’t need to know where he was all the time.

“i’m just hanging out with kyungmin and a few other friends. do you have to be so worried?” he groaned.

“it’s not like that, haem! i just got curious…”

shouldn’t you be glad? that feeling of relief knowing he was blooming into a person that could celebrate with others. it was growth, but not in the way you expected. more or less, he was growing into someone unrecognizable.

phone dials were met with an empty line. and even when he did answer, he ended the call with a simple ‘bye’ and not ‘i love you more.’

still, you loved him to the moon and back. every couple went through a rough patch, you understood that when you agreed to be with him. though it was difficult to convince yourself you were content with how things were playing out.

often you took long walks to distract yourself from the unread text messages. it was this time at noon that was most gloomy. your umbrella collected droplets of water, dripping down the side to barely avoid you.

you saw couples on the streets, holding hands happily. they took photos together and shared hot drinks with eachother to battle the slight cold. you envied them.

because in your head, that position seemed almost unreachable. he was so far away from you, farther than you could even realize. what used to be something special between your heart and his wasn’t recognizable.

that day, you stopped going on walks. everything reminded you of the boy that was falling out of love. you came home quickly, trying to outrun your own thoughts. the bronze plate with your apartment number came into view as you dug through your bag to get the keys.

fumbling with the lock for a second, you finally open up to your home. immediately your gaze lands on an extra pair of shoes by the door, making your heart skip a beat slightly. tugging off your own, you set down your umbrella in a corner to dry.

when walking farther into the house, you see haemin sitting comfortably on the couch. he looked busy on his cell phone, paying almost no mind to your presence.

“haem! i didn’t know you would be home, where were you?” you smile fondly, letting yourself sit next to him.

“oh. i was just out for a bit.” he barley acknowledged your existence, angling his phone slightly away from your view. you noticed this, but said nothing.

“did you have fun? it was pretty rainy out today so i hope you weren’t cold.”

“yeah, it was fine.”

“that’s good! did you eat while you were out? i can always make us something for dinner, though i do need to get some groceries–”

“are you done with your questions?” he said bitterly, setting down the device to look at you.

“i’m sorry haem, we just haven’t spoken in awhile and i wanted to see how your day was.” you said in a whisper.

“don’t be so clingy, y/n. we see eachother everyday.” he tells you.

“oh. you’re right, i don’t know why i was being so silly.”

“mhm.” he mumbles under his breath before getting up from his seat towards the bathroom. 

after the door shut behind him, the pit at the bottom of your stomach grew deeper. this wasn’t like him at all. the excitement that would underlie his stoic demeanor because all the love he had for you was overflowing disappeared. could you even call it love when you didn’t exactly know what it was?

every romantic word hes ever told you felt meaningless; what happened to ‘you’re so pretty, y/n. you’re so sweet?’

you could hear haemin’s muffled voice from down the hall, before movement of caps and containers echoed the bathroom walls. it sounded like he was on a call with somebody. he came out soon after, shaking the remaining drops of water off of his clean hands. 

“i’m going out.” he calls out to you before pulling his coat off the rack.

“wait! didn’t you just go out? i can go with you if you’d like!”

“no, i’ll be out late and i know you get agitated if you’re in public for too long.”

“can’t you just stay in for a little then? what about a movie night like we always used to have?” you rushed over to him, desperate to spend any sort of time together, “i just miss you haem..”

“did anything i say get into your head? you don’t need to so clingy, i’m just going out with a couple friends.”

“haemin…” you reached out to his hand, fingertips barely getting the chance to touch him before he was pulling away like you were the plague.

“god. i can’t do this anymore, y/n. i just want to live without you bothering me constantly!” he complains, sliding both of his shoes on forcefully.

“what is that supposed to mean?” you furrow your eyebrows worriedly.

“it means that i’m having a hard time pretending like i haven’t fallen out of love with you.” he sighs, “just give it a break, y/n. you knew were never going to last."

it felt like your world was collapsing around you. there was a confused look on his face as you stood there silently, trying not to cry. you wondered what it felt like to die, and if it felt anything like this.

they say your life flashes before your eyes, yet all that flashed was memories of what you and haemin used to be. you felt stupid to think that maybe it was salvageable, but the sorry truth hurt much more than this ill fantasy.

“but you promised me. you promised me that we would work through everything together, haem. was that a lie?” you choked.

“i wouldn’t make an empty promise like that, don’t twist my words.” he muttered.

“i’m not twisting anything! when you first confessed to me you said so many sweet things and promised to always–”

“i said give it up. that was almost a year ago, okay? you can’t expect me to keep a promise like that for so long.”

“are you serious right now haemin? after all that we’ve been through?” you uttered with a hurt tone.

“i cared about you, okay? but i can’t handle this anymore.”

“you’re my first boyfriend, i– i can’t let you go without at least talking first!” your words came out as a broken sob, but haemin only looked at you with disgust.

“and you were my worst.” he scoffed, “i can’t be with someone who isn’t mature enough to understand when i need time away.”

“but–”

“don’t even look at me right now, y/n.. i don’t want to hear you speak. i’ll come back and get my things later.” he leaves you with a bitter ending, before leaving out the door.

watching the love of your life leave you with no closure and not a second word was starting to physically pain you. you felt yourself drop to your knees as his sentences rung in your mind, stringing themselves into a sequence of utmost heartbreak.

cold hardwood floors comforted the red - hot heat that began to rise up your face like a wild fire. you were embarrassed of yourself, disappointed that you couldn’t grow enough for him to see you. see that you could change.

and while he was out with no doubt in his mind that he made the right decision, your world was shattering in the comfort of the home you used to share with him.

the only time he messaged you was him asking for you to pack up all of his stuff for an easier pickup. it was clear he didn’t want to see you anymore than he had to. would he see how mature you had become in the four hours he was gone if you obeyed him?

boxing up all of his things neatly, you stripped every memory the two of you ever shared together. your house feeling ever so empty from the lack of love, trapped in between cardboard walls. 

for what it was worth, you attempted to write a note to send off with him. however, your vision was too blurry with your tears, and you couldn’t keep them in. the smudged ink added for dramatic effect, but it was too much that it was impossible to read coherent words.

your head was scrambled everywhere, and for a second you thought he was right when he said you were immature. it felt like when you were back in highschool giving him silly love notes to hide in his backpack pocket. it reminded you of how he said that they were all still there, as he never bothered to clean them out.

why couldn’t things be the way that they used to? throwing away so much because there was a lack of communication. you wanted to see him, be with him. feel the pure touch of his lips sending shockwaves to your beating heart.

but since that day, you never saw him once. rushing to grab all of his things and get out of your life, barely escaping your desperate grasp. what was once a fond moment became a distant daydream.

you were so blinded by your infatuation for him, despite the fact he never thought of you like that. once again you failed to understand much.

and things only got harder from then on, your plush pillow absorbing your tears. the air in your room only grew heavier as time continued. 

at first days, then weeks, and months were going by that you gave him so much love from afar. a comfortable distance through your phone screen where he couldn’t spit such hurtful words to you again. it was difficult to bear with his selfish sense of care.

stalking him on social media didn’t get you anywhere really. he already moved on from you. though you were unsure whether your jealousy blossomed from the fact that she was beautiful, or that he moved on extremely fast. maybe it was both.

posts of his hand intertwined with hers, captioned with cheesy song lyrics that used to hold so much meaning to you. your music taste always tended to rub off on him. 

there were long paragraphs declaring how much she meant to him, and how she was such a breath of fresh air in comparison to his past relationships. these sacred words that used to be yours. and while you remembered what the two of you had together, he could only think of her.

still, you loved him.

but things got easier, even when you thought they wouldn’t. it took some time for you to realize that being alone was a lot easier on the heart. 

there was a big takeaway from this, being that the only thing he taught you what it was like to feel unloved. though everything that happened when things were okay, you’d never take for granted. 

the sky felt brighter, and you made your walks frequent again. you remembered thinking how dreary he’d make your days seem, but it felt like you were finally able to see the sun again. because throughout the multitude of stars in the galaxy, one always shone the brightest.

even when you were blinded by a haze, it was still there. maybe you were the star.

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[gvmrot]

Idk why osa women complain abt men x1000 all day on tumblr but then talk abt their bf in 1000 posts. Their "misandry" is a flirting ritual 💀 & is fake. Several dudes already said thats why theh dont take misandrist women srsly bc those same women would be the ones approaching them to ask them out but osa women gor mad when they heard those dudes say that like cmon where's the common sense? Ofcourse thos men wouldnt take u srsly when u complain abt men x1000 but give them what they want

tbh i wouldn't really care, if they didn't call themselves radical feminists. the more i read the more i find radical feminism is very specific, and just because someone calls themselves a radical feminist doesn't make them one/or make them a good one.

i truly, honestly, 100% believe you cannot be radical, meaning to the ROOT, and sleep with/date men. they are literally the ROOT of our oppression. it becomes more clear that these women aren't radical in their feminism once the topic of separation comes up, they get angry and spiteful bc 'how dare you women separate from me while i'm FORCED to be with MEN'... like, no one is forcing you to be with men. no one is forcing you to be in partnerships with them. if you hate them so much/fear them, why. do. you. keep. going. back?????

but again, i only really give a shit if the woman is calling herself a radical feminist. women can do whatever they want, i mean you can't change your sexuality. crazy tho how there ARE straight women (and bi women) who give up men, live their lives single and child free, and are much happier than those partnered. I mean, we have studies to show it, it gets passed around here a bit. That's still not enough to convince these women that life would be better if they just dropped the men.

Instead it'll always come back to us, we're evil and mean for suggesting these poor women should have to live alone. boo fucking hoo. i think that shit is really weak tbh :/

[warriorlid14]

So going through the HG tags on Tumblr, I kept seeing people from both Team Gale and Team Peeta attack the other side like "omg Gale felt so entitled for Katniss' love and treated her like shit" and "Peeta is so whiny, stop complaining, she saved your life" and I was very confused cuz I remembered none of this in the books. But granted, I read them years ago, so I'm reading CF again and... no???? That doesn't happen???

On Gale's side:

One (1) kiss

Immediately going back to just being friends, business as usual for months. A little more strained, sure, because ya know. Implied unrequited love, Katniss just went through a traumatic life changing event and is trying to cope, Gale spends most of his time in a horrible work life that killed his dad, they see each other much less because 12 hr mining shifts. But he still spends his only free day hanging out with her!

One (1) argument where he's rejected by the girl he loves and is disappointed because duh (but funnily enough, the actual argument is more abt Katniss wanting to flee instead of helping the rebellion than it is abt their love lives)

A traumatic event that leads to Katniss staying and kiiiiinda choosing Gale. So it's like "I think she chose me?? But might have to marry Peeta??? Whelp, there's too much going on to deal with this. Time to focus on the increasing oppression and also helping her stay alive"

No, srsly, there's no talk abt romance from Gale after that, just helping her AND PEETA train

Cannot stress enough how little Gale actually shows up on page (cuz the poor guy is stuck working in the mines 12 hrs a day 6-7 out of the week. Even when injured!!) so idk when he'd have the time to be super toxic and constantly bugging her abt a relationship. And I'm talking about a full year here (although half of the year is off-screen, but even then) and only a few mentions of romance

Peeta

After being told that the girl he loves was only pretending to be in love with him, he is understandably very hurt

Admittedly, he does ice her out for a few months (cause you know, broken heart and all) BUT then sincerely apologizes because she was only trying to save his life

Is nothing but supportive through the rest of the book

No, srsly, even when he thinks he has no chance with her and it causes him pain, he's being a great friend

Literally puts his life on the line for her (again)

Most of the romantic tension actually comes from Katniss' own narration going "Gale is my best friend and is home and I trust him. But Peeta is so great and can he come hug me now?? Whatever. I'll deal with this later. I don't even want to get married anyway. I'm going to go like, not die right now." Which, 100% fair.

Unfortunately, this means that, because I love all three of them, any time romance causes any of my favorite dystopian children pain, I am also very sad.

(Admittedly, I still need to read Mockingjay. But if I recall correctly, there's even less romantic tension for obvious reasons. But if anyone in Team Gale says one bad thing about Peeta in Mockingjay, I will scream. Only Gale is fair game, but I seem to recall him spending most of this book looking out for Katniss anyway, so.)

[tonyglowheart]

srsly tho, like as a twt dual citizen (yeah that one person coined the phrase and I suddenly decided it was apt), I feel like tumb ppl don't really know the mass amounts of shit fan tlers have gone thru/probably still go thru.

Like for example reposting of the tgcf tl was a HUGE problem, it seemed like every little bit of time some new repost popped up on wattpad. And that was hugely stressful for the tlers to have to deal with, in addition to their day jobs and translating their various projects etc.

And then there was a while when it became popular to publicly shit on ExR, and a bunch of ppl announced they were gonna tl mdzs, some even going so far as to say they were "saving you from the fujos." And that's why I cast a sort of suspicious eye to new unlicensed tls popping up. Bc there was a period of like, mdzs tl fast fashion, where ppl were hopping on it for clout it seemed, and the quality wasn't great (one person even bragged on their twt about translating a chap in 4 hours 8) ), and these tended to fizzle out after maybe up to a dozen or so chaps when ppl realized how much work translating is.

And ppl complain all the time about tl speed and asking for/demanding more chaps. There was this prolific translator lianyin who was tling Nan Chan and a bunch of others, and they were putting out new chaps like... every few days or something? And people were still complaining to them about being slow. For context, ExR was putting out a chap a week of mdzs back in the day, and that's already been acknowledged as being quite fast. (I feel like I remember seeing some discussion somewhere where someone said yeah quality suffered a bit bc of speed, but it may have been a third party discussion not something said by K)

Like, I think a lot of ppl on tumb don't really know this, bc they just see the text the tler puts out, and maaybe their reactions to something if it gets big enough and someone crossposts 8). But being on twt and following tlers, it does strike me just how much crap they put up with on the backend, on top of everything else.

Like, think of ppl in fandom who prioritize readers over authors in their attitudes and such. As much as some ppl will treat authors like they should be outputting machines, ppl are at least as bad, if not worse, to tlers. And with the whole edited machine tl thing, it also added to some ppl's ideas that translating "isnt that hard" or "shouldn't take that long," or even people putting down human translators saying the edited mtl is just as good, etc. A lot of ppl seem to treat it like it's some kind of subscription service, where they can threaten the tler with no longer reading their stuff bc the edited mtl is faster. And like, yes fan tling is about love of the source material. But similarly like with fan authors, you also share it bc you wanna SHARE that love, and to be treated like the way Karens treat retail workers would in fact be incredibly disheartening, discouraging, frustrating, etc.

And I can only imagine that what ends up getting shared on twt is only a fraction of the shit your average fan tlers goes thru. Some ppl, like lianyin, it's not even themselves sharing or venting abt it, I think, I think it was like comments they got on their chaps or their tweets or ppl complaining in general & ppl reacting (bc.. yeah).

And like... at the end of the day, I do think there is an entitlement issue in the greater fandoms. Similar attitudes to the way ppl treat fanfic authors, with the prioritization of reader needs at the expense of the author/tler.

[neonstatic]

how you gon complain abt your not-serious date, tell me abt how she’s a racist and a transphobe and a shit person overall, lowkey flirt w me and not just imply but straight up say that you’ll break up w her to date me (bc you’ve been dancing on the line of srsly flirting w me but oh no it’s all jokes haha for a year now)... AND THEN post on your ig story abt how you’re “so lucky to know this girl.” i thought we both agreed that the racism and transphobia were dealbreakers by default? or does it not matter to you that your date doesn’t respect some of your friends? like me, for instance??? the audacity of flirting w me on top of that... like sure we both gays we can pretend all along that it’s gal pal shit but let’s not act stupid....... i just don’t understand this. i don’t. 

[jadeninja12a]

1. Amazing but not perfect

2.my nephew

3.Way to much can't even count

4.Especially abt my body/face u can tell me beauty doesn't matter and shit but ye

5. Always single had a srs crush was both fun and painful

6.I don't really care how but no one whobi care abt shd feel hurt becuz I died

7.gobi

8. I played a lot of cricket and volleyball but I played manyyy sport with my society friends

9. A LOT :)

10. 4-5 months ago

11. Yes 🥲

12.nah max 36 hrs

13 Myself/my life but srsly this one guy in my school

14.Yes 😭

15 yes:)

16. Actually have no idea why am I living feels useless and like a burden to others. Living cuz don't want to hurt my parents atleast

17. Didn't even get a kiss bro...

18. See if spider's legs are thin no but thick legged spiders are scarry

19 YESSSS I WANT TO FKING RESTART MY LIFE

20.like I told I'm like the truest virgin alive all I got are hugs

21. Tutions get back on track as I kinda lost track with my nephew as he is living with me

22. Like not really but if I hve 2 ik ppl complain abt their sisters/brothers but being a single child is boringggggg and lonely as f

23.No piercings

24.Computer/ AI Maths physics chemisty I'm that dream baccha of every indian parent

25.Actually not rlly

26.Love like friendship love included

27.well never was in a relationship

28.Bro like not even one relationship 😭😭

29.I FKING NEVER WAS IN A RELATIONSHIP WHY U MKE ME SAD

30. right now these relationship ka questions 🤣 but in general like the uselessness for living

I need some one that I can live for and parents are not enough I need someone of my age doesn't need to be relationship wala like can be a bestie

31. Like my parents and hopefully my friends ig

32.RED

33.not actually but like behind the scenes I'm like can I trust them but I still trust them

34. Me living in an alternative world where MyLife is how I want it to be in my head

35. Bro I cried so much recently but I cn tell a few ppl my nephew my mom and one friend of mine

36.yes totally

37.forgive

38. No fking way

39. No first kiss yet alrdy almost 16 see parents don't count and me kissing someone else as a 2 yr old baby or thg doesn't count

40 nahh

Btw 10 q missing

51 chicken biryani and pizza

52 no

53 talking to my nephew

54 If u wanna take revenge and they like deserve it but 99% of the time no

55 I feel I may have been mean at times and regret it a lot but mostly hopefully I'm kind

56. Like as a child manyyyy but like after getting little old maybe 5

57. Yes 🥲

58. Hmm clear skies good amt sunlight but cool weather

59.Yass

60.Hmmmm depends if I find some one

61.like Mostly it's soo cringe but like uk once in a while if called prprly itsssss soooo sweeeeeettt

62 quality time with friends those midnight talks.... Those trips those moments in school/ apt

63 Nah not rlly

64 like the last person I kissed is my mom and it's gonna be easy to kiss my mom 🤣 as I told no kisss in "that" Way

65. Like I'll listen her out wht she exactly feels and even though I might not feel like that fr her I'll just spend some time with her seeing if anything is possible and if I can catch feelings fr her if I do like all is well but even after spending that time I feel ntg I'll try to console and tell her cuz ik how it feels to hve a crush on a close friend it's sad..

66.Hmm yesssss I can say many friends like there were some incidents that are like holding me back a little frm sme friends but ok becuz like the besties are also like sooo close that I can't act normally cuz I overthink like the close friends of opposite sex who aren't so far yet so close I cn be Myself

67. My apt friend. If chatting counts my nephews best friend (I was socializing)

68 my nephew

69 Yes kinda.

70 Many pplss :)

Btw fr the ppl who are confused my nephew is only one yr younger than me and more like a cousin 🤣

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[danielnelsen]

finally everything ive ordered in the last few months has actually been shipped

[abcdosaka]

lately ive been thinking abt stuff that i can control and cant and i think thats why ive been feeling stressed. bc i have lack of control over some stuff and it gives me anxiety knowing that. like earlier i was thinking of something problematic that a celeb i liked did and how ppl reacted to that and it was just giving me stress bc ppl were saying this and that and how the apology wasnt good enough and whatever and yea there was an issue on how it was delivered but honestly.....and this is a phrase ive been using quite a bit..........the.fuck am i gonna do about it?

talking abt me personally bc i literally have no platform online and i never interact with fandom ppl. what the fuck do i got to do with this? im not responsible for this person and i dont want to defend them either so the fuck should i even say? im disappointed? who does that help? what they did didn’t personally offend me bc i wasn’t the target who WOULD be offended. im disappointed but its not like i feel particularly hurt mostly bc there’s bigger issues in the world rn and ppl focusing on this is just annoying to me...

anyways im just talking about me personally. ppl who have a lot of followers or whatever defending the celeb are fr annoying to me and i blocked a lot of them...but ppl who aren’t even directly affected (just like me) talking shit about them and complaining and all that...why do u amplify your own voice so much? this didnt hurt you so why are you talking about it like it did? why not rt or rb or whatever from ppl who were actually hurt...

i think from this pt fwd one of my goals is to focus on what i can control......focus on who i listen to and who i dont and when to speak and when to stfu... which nobody on this goddamn website or twitter seems to understand

im not tryin to sound all stuck up either but srsly ppl just say shit and i dont get how theyre so un self aware. call shit out if its wrong but sometimes its best to just mind ur business damn. like i saw a white person saying abt a celeb donating to blm “this is bare minimum they owe everything to black culture” like white ppl dont? ur not wrong but dont speak for black ppl like that ... its embarassing acting like ur woke

[earthdeep]

I have a special place in my hateful little heart for ppl who complain abt how haaaaard fanartists have it on tumblr bc of all the ruuuuuules that ppl make uuup and attack u for with no warniiing1!!1!2 like, would u like me to detail that ~incredibly long and complicated~ ruleset that ppl are just SO overreacting to? 1) do not draw a darkskinned character lightskinned (bonus mega minus points if this is also under the guise of making them ~prettier~. whitewashing takes away already hard to find representation from poc, and has the historical context of poc constantly refused from avenues like film even when telling THEIR STORIES. don't fucking contribute to this shit.) 2) do not draw a fat character thin (if ur art style only allows thin ppl and isn't also some horrifying cubist nightmare, ur art style is objectively bad and u need to fix it. again, erasing a character's fatness takes away a poorly represented group's ability to see themselves represented, and generally makes them feel like shit for no one wanting to acknowledge there are actually fat ppl in the world. don't fucking be a dick.) 3) yes, genderbends are transphobic, and a whole other bunch of nasty shit to boot (associating gender with outward appearance, clothes, body type, etc all have their roots in cissexism, weird gender role bs, and only using m/f swaps has the added bonus of erasing nb identities. if ur so desperate to call a character a different pronoun, have them come out as a different gender and leave it there. if u want to draw ur fave dude in a dress just go ahead and do it without spouting weird backwards views of what u have to look like to wear feminine clothes. use some critical fucking though before u draw smth.) 4) don't make ship art of a canonically gay character in a m/f ship (fucking srsly have u ever heard of conversion therapy?! yes actually plenty of ppl out there would love to force us to appear straight! why the fuck would u ever want to align urself with those ppl on a public fucking platform?! don't do it! just don't!) 5) don't sexualise minors (do I have to explain this?! ok, for other minors' sake, this is an american website. by american law child porn includes any drawn porn of under 18s. it doesn't matter if u and the character are both 16 and that's the age of consent in ur country. on an american website u are subject to american law and can face having ur account terminated. don't risk it by drawing panty shots of teenagers. and if ur an adult who wants to see sexy kids... feel free to terminate ur own account and hand urself into the authorities.) and... uh... I can't even think of any more. that's how simple the ruuuules are. go forth, artists, and don't be a dick abt it.

[protectmarkjin]

I know Mark confirmed that they'll have a comeback after JJP's but it rly upsets me to know that they won't have extensive rest this year. I mean, I'm glad that they're busy and will be putting out new material but srsly, they've been at it nonstop, may it be promos or shows. You can actually see how tired Jinyoung is, esp in yesterday's Music Bank photo op :(

i kno like… idk where jjp get a break this year tbh bc theyre going from 1 comeback into another n esp jinyoung bc he has his acting as well like idk i feel bad but i hope they drop his mc job tbh like even tho i was so happy he got it n it couldve been such a big deal for him he can never make it??? hes always got other obligations n they keep filling in for him w other random ppl like just give his position 2 someone else permanently which sucks bc he couldve cemented himself as an mc n the 3 of them couldve become like a memorable trio idk i still get upset abt this lmao but yea he’s got so much going on n jackson’s doing his solo work as well n then will have the group comeback its a lot n i feel shit even complaining abt it bc theres literally nothing i can do??? no matter how much we go on abt our worries for their health nothing gets changed it just feels futile idk :-/

[youwontcatchmealive]

The Fitnessgram Pacer Test™

jksdgjhsgfhjsdhgf\sj so i rly just wanna get this off my fuckin system but i can’t put it all on my twitter bc 140 characters limitation and yeah, i rly just have to let this out, idc i feel like this is an emotional fart i’ve been holding in for too long, so

these are some of my thoughts abt Supergirl, the show not the character, not only on 209 but Supergirl in general (tho it’s mostly abt 209)

i’VE MISSED SUPERGIRL SM i’d be lying if i say i didn’t

tho i never got too stoked for the next episodes bc i know there’s gonna be lots of scenes with mon hell with it

speaking of mon hell

who tf wrote his characterization and storyline

why does he act like that, being so quirky for what, for humorous purposes? ain’t nothing funny about whatever he does, he literally contributes nothing, everything he does is either boring or annoying i jUST

(i love chris wood tho, i’ve nothing but respect for him, he’s a great person)

it’s just mon hell is a very annoying and overrated character at this point

when he first arrived he was in a fucking coma (he should’ve stayed that way) and the first thing he did when he woke up was to choke Kara and give her a hard time in the next episodes by being such a pain in the ass to her

(all of these while the message the show wants to give is that mon hell is just misunderstood, he’s trying so hard to fit in, his attempts at fitting in is supposed to be funny) (it’s not, it’s annoying)

and now we’ve seen his actions (read: disastrous bs) in 209; he started working at the bar (where m’gann used to work, honestly where the fuck is m’gann, just give her like 10 minutes of screentime locked up that’d be better than mon hell doing stuff) like hOW TF DID HE EVEN LAND THE JOB HOW TF DID HE BECOME A BARTENDER WHEN HE DOESN’T EVEN KNOW WHAT THE FUCK A CLUB SODA IS?/ ???? SERIOUSLY WHAT TO H*CK

he follows Kara around like an annoying puppy (he’s not a puppy, it’s just for emphasis) he doesn’t even listen to Kara and he thinks that Kara can’t do anything without him when the reason they got trapped together to another planet was bc he didn’t listen to Kara

he bosses Kara around, like dude pipe tf down, Kara’s been around saving the world for Rao knows how long, who tf are u again?? ????

hE’S SO FUCKING USELESS

exhibit a: he followed Kara to another planet in hopes of saving her, in the end he couldn’t do a thing bc of the red sun

exhibit b:hE GOT HIS GOT DAMN FEET CAUGHT IN SOME TRAP SERIOUSLY HOW FUCKING USELESS CAN U GET I AM APPALLED

exhibit c: he keeps on telling Kara to just escape and leave the kidnapped people behind since he and Kara can’t do anything and when the aliens electrocuted Kara hE JUST FUCKING WATCHED THERE LIKE “YOU’RE DOING GREAT HONEY” FUCKING H*CK MON HELL YOU NEVER FAIL TO DISAPPOINT

(like at this point i’m laughing everytime he’s onscreen not bc of his “funny antics” but bc he’s so fucking stupid)

exhibit d: in the end, it was Kara who saved the day, with the help of Izzy and the DEO agents, he just kind of went along with Kara’s plans since all he ever thinks of is himself

and now he wants to be a fucking hero, like Izzy is a much better hero than he is, even James who has his own flaws and has no superpowers is doing what he can in his own way to save people

literally everyone on the show is a hero in their own way, except for mon hell. he’s just strong, nothing more. he doesn’t even have the heart of a hero, he’s so selfish and i’m pretty sure he just wants to be a hero to impress Kara, to prove that he’s “good enough” for her oh pls i’ve read way too many heterosexual YA novels with the same exact plot i’m tiredt

(bet he just said he wants to be a hero so he could spend more time with Kara euhughguhgughghgh)

(apparently i hate mon hell too much)

(moving on)

i was relieved that Kara was in a funk bc she thinks stopping jewelry heist is such a mundane thing, and not bc of what happened between her and mon hell last episode

Kara being so happy for Alex is so pure (´༎ຶ ͜ʖ ༎ຶ `)♡ like all her life Alex has watched out for Kara, and i know Kara wants the best for Alex, she wants what’s best for her sister but she knows she can’t do it alone, add the fact that she’s Supergirl, she’s got so much things in her hands, and now that there’s another person who actually makes Alex happy, she’s happy as well

i love the Danvers sisters relationship so much

i mean Kara’s even giddy when Alex told her Maggie slept over in her apartment, theY’RE JUST SO PURE? /? ??? I LO V E

sanvers saved 209 for me

srsly that domestic shit omggggggggggg

that sanvers scene in the kitchen is lit straight outta fanfic don’t fight me on this

also it really reminds me of the music video for Accidentally In Love hAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and i’m glad they somehow worked things out in the end, Alex is so fragile she needs lots of Maggie hugs

shoutout to detective Maggie Sawyer for actually detecting that Kara is Supergirl

she smart as h*ck

i’m so proud of Winn omg, he has overcome his fear and self doubt, like he always thinks he’s so weak, that he can only help thru his IT skills but thanks to Alex, he’s finally seen his own worth

Winn Schott is the Armin Arlert of Supergirl (Alex is Mikasa to him oh my gdo i’m so sorry this is a terrible comparison @snk i’m over you bihh)

i’m so sad that James, Winn, and Kara’s friendship is down to 2 now, since James is keeping his Guardian identity to Kara and Kara has been busy abt other things

i miss the times when the three of them would save the day together =(((( their friendship was so pure, i wish i’d see more of their trio in the next episodes

James is my hot chocolate son

i’m kinda ‘uuuuhhhhh’ to him this season bc he feels so unsatisfied with himself (i blame the karolsen breakup [the writers’ fault, not that characters’]) he doesn’t feel happy with the position Cat gave him, the position that Cat has worked so hard to achieve, and even tho i’m so proud of him for being the Guardian it still won’t do justice since he still has minimal screentime

like there goes James saving the day, and they focus on mon hell being a big baby fratboy i’m *clenches fist*

James seems like a completely different person this season, and i’m not quite fine with it

but i still love him, he’s a pure man

Izzy inspired Kara so much <33333 and vice versa, but omg i love her sm, she definitely helped Kara at some point

i fucking hate Snapper man, i fucking hate his bald head and his permanent frown and the way he acts so grumpy like Cat and he ain’t even shit

tho i’m glad that he’s finally coming around to Kara, i still hate him

also

wHERE IS MY DAUGHTER LENA

HAVE YOU SEEN LENA

THEY MIGHT AS WELL CHANGE THE SHOW’S TITLE TO FINDING LENA

I’M SO SALTY ABT THIS LIKE

the way she and Kara ended things is so tragic

they never really talked after Lena pulled a huge ‘sike’ to Lillian

and now they completely forgot about her in 209

like i only saw her during Kara’s monologue in the beginning aND DAS NOT ENOUGH =(((( I WANT MY DAUGHTER BACK WHERE IS SHE

she basically just saved the entire alien population in National City and no one remembered it?/ ?????

not to mention that Kara was right that Lillian is behind project Cadmus and Lena doubted her to the point that she drove Kara away but she didn’t let her feelings for Kara (read: broken friendship) get between her decision to do the right thing

and all her life Lillian was so cold around her and Lillian tried to give her a chance to prove her worth by killing the aliens, bUT NO, LENA CHOSE THE RIGHT THING, LENA SAVED EVERYONE, LENA IS A HERO, I’M ON THE VERGE OF SOBBING BC NO ONE DESERVES HER AT THIS POINT, MY DAUGHTER LENA HAS BEEN THROUGH SO MUCH EMOTIONAL TURMOIL BUT SHE’S STILL SO PURE IN HEART I’M SO FUCKIG

(why did i use an eat bulaga pic HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA VEA R U SEEING THIS)

and the project Cadmus arc was such an important arc, like most of the previous episodes revolved around Cadmus, why end it abruptly? ? ?? no explanation at all? ????

we don’t even know what Lillian is doing at this point, what my daughter Lena is doing at this point

(i know i’m bitching too early since we’re only 9 episodes thru the season and i know we’ll see more of them again in the upcoming episodes but the way they treated the whole arc like nothing happened i just *clenches fist again*)

i know Lena is a minor character, car of melt stans actually attacked me with that argument when i complained why i see less of Lena and more of mon hell but lesbi honest, Lena has actually contributed more to the show than mon hell did

Lena: inspired Kara to be a reporter, trusts Kara so much, trusts Supergirl so much as well, (included potstickers as the main course in her gala so Kara can stuff her face with them) felt bad abt Kara when she thought Kara stereotyped her for being a Luthor but it didn’t stop her from saving the aliens and turning back on her mom, has a good heart and never gives up despite the people stereotyping her for being a Luthor

mon: el

jk

mon hell: kicked Kara around, annoyed Kara, tries so hard but still falls way too short, takes too much screentime with his annoying antics, kissed Kara when he was fucking dying and not remember a single thing when he woke up, etc

Lena has did way too fucking many in her little screentime i’m so proud of her

i want Lena where tf is she

where is M’gann, pls give her lots of screentime as well

aND WHERE TF IS LUCY AND AGENT VASQUEZ, WHY DID THEY DISAPPEAR ALL OF A SUDDEN

i mean i understand Cat has her reasons why she left, bUT LUCY FUCKIGN HELL

SHE JUST GOT A POSITION IN THE DEO AND NOW WHERE TF IS SHE BIIIIIITCHHHH

like i spent my time hating on her while bing watching s1 bc she was so mean to Kara bUT SHE CAME AROUND MAN, SHE AND KARA ARE FINALLY FRIENDS, AND NOW SHE’S GONE FOR REASONS WE’LL NEVER KNOW

does anyone even remember Cat Grant at this point

Supergirl will never be Supergirl if not for Cat, i’m kinda salty no one ever talks about her anymore

she was such a vital character to the show, i miss her, i miss how she dragged men with her fire one-liners, i missed how she acted so cold and bossy when deep inside she actually has a heart of gold, i miss how she inspired Kara so much, i fucking miss her man =(((

i can’t believe they sacrificed the badass women in the show in exchange for a soggy piece of bread

((mon hell wants a superhero name, just name him soggy, at least he can wear the S crest on his chest as well, with a totally different meaning hAHAHAH))

bring Cat Grant back. bring Lucy back. bring agent Vasquez back.

give Lena and M’gann the proper screentime they deserve

s1 was wayyyyyyyyy better than s2 (tho i love Lena and sanvers so much, it’s the truth)

why is the cw butchering the show

ok i’m sorry i’ve complained a lot but yeah this was a huge, long, stinky fart and i’ve let it out, i’m so relieved

anyway das all, i’m so glad i farted this out, imma go to sleep now, deuces

p.s. Melissa has been so active lately i’m so fucking curedt, you go Mel-Mel, a hero in TV and in real life oh myg do i love you sm