#spoiler strangers from hell ig?

[starsarehere]

Bruh who told ro jonghyun to fucking act in strangers from hell he dies 😭😭😭that too brutally

[sweetlullabyebye]

Here is the list of all of Jongwoo's wounds, from episode 7 and 10, because... because (+ my thoughts on the ending and the whole 'is it real/is it not'):

Episode 7 (Jongwoo vs Teenagers):

Wound at the top of the left cheek

Wound in the mouth on the right side

Possible wound near the mouth (or just blood from the mouth)

Episode 8:

Confirmation of wound at the top of the left cheek/near the eye

Bruise to the jaw on the right side

The mouth wound has been sewed

Light bruises on the fingers (pProximal InterPhalangeal, according to internet)

Episode 9:

Bruises on those proximal thing fingers

Wound near the left eye

Bandaid on the index of the right hand

Bandaid on the side of the right hand

Bruise on the jaw

Episode 10 (first fight with Moonjo: at 10:46):

Forehead hits a table ×4

Side of the head hits a wall

Stabbed somewhere between shoulder and chest with a pencil

Hair grab

Side of the head (left side) repeatedly hit

Wound at the jaw on the right side (and possibly near the ear, or wound on the head made it bleed all the way past the ear)

Wound at the wrist

Area near the left eye has bruises and wounds

Wounds on the nose

Wound on the lower lip

Episode 10 (second fight with Moonjo: 35:55):

Before the fight:

Wound to the jaw on the right side

Bruised left eye area

During the fight:

Slammed against the wall/door ×2

Difficulties standing/moving ×2

Back of the head hits the floor

Hit with a (hatchet?) on the right side of the torso x6

Hair pulled

Fall on his butt/lower back

Punches to the face ×too many

Thrown onto a table and lands on the right side of his body

Thrown onto/hits the floor ×4

Kick to the torso

Back of the head hits a wall

Strangulation

Kick to the stomach ×2

Result

Bruised left eye area

Clutching at left side of the body

Wound to the lips

Episode 10 (ambulance + hospital):

Area around the left eye

Jaw on the right side

Right wrist

Lower lip

Fingers

Episode 10 (alternative: murder scene):

Wound above left eyebrow -all the way to the nose-

Wounds in the area around the left eye

Wound on the right wrist

Wound on the jaw on the right side

Wound on the down lip on the right side

Possible bandage on the side of the right hand

Possible wound to the head/near the ear

Episode 10 (alternative: altercation with Moonjo):

First picture: imaginary Moonjo:

Wound to the jaw on the right

Injured area around the left eye

Wound on the wrist

Second and third picture: Jongwoo having a crisis with Moonjo:

Wound to the jaw on the right side

Injured area around the left eye

Wound on the wrist

Bandaid on the hand

Injured lower lip?

So in conclusion:

Probably a concussion, wound to the jaw on the right side, wound on the lower lip, wound over the left eybrow, wound on the left cheek, bruising around the left eye, his back probably looks like a mess as would a lot of his body, wounds on the hands and on the right wrist.

Now for my opinion on the ending: obviously my pictures and the website I used are a shitty quality, so I could be mistaken, but if you compare Jongwoo at the start of the 10th episode (after his first fight with Moonjo)/Jongwoo during and after his second fight with Moonjo where he kills him/Jongwoo in the alternate reality, there is (1) or maybe (2) differences.

The first one is the jaw wound. First appears after the fight with teenagers, and then becomes more serious after the first fight with Moonjo. Then disappears through the second fight, after the initial moment where Jongwoo says he'll kill Moonjo, and reappears in the ambulance scene. In the alternate version of the final fight, whether it is the version where Jongwoo is having the internal crisis by himself or with Moonjo, Jongwoo has the jaw wound.

So this -in my opinion- establishes the continuity with episode 7-episode 9-first fight scene with moonjo-jongwoo having a crisis while moonjo is like 'congrats on your first murders!'-ambulance scene-hospital.

Now the 2nd difference is more vague because the quality of images is really shitty and the way the show is lit makes it difficult to see, but it's based on the bandage on Jongwoo's hand. In episode 9, the bandage is very easy to see. In the first fight with Moonjo, Jongwoo's hands don't really show so it's not easy to say whether it is here. In the fake fight, it might appear -I think I maybe saw it once-. In the murder scene, it is visible. In the discussion with Moonjo, it is very visible. In the version where Jongwoo is having his crisis by himself, there doesn't seem to be a bandage on his hand.

So I think that the way the show goes is really that Jongwoo fights some kids, get the first three injuries (cheek + fingers + jaw), beats up his colleague, has a bandaid on his wounded hand, gets into the first fight with Moonjo where he gets thrown around, gets the bruises on the area around the eye + the bleeding wound on the jaw + the wound on the wrist, then goes on his murderous rampage, and then meets Moonjo again and has his little conversation, with in total wounds/bruises to the jaw/mouth/around the eye/wrist/hand, and then he goes into the ambulance with all those wounds.

Idk if any of this made sense but now I have my list of total injuries that Jongwoo got, so 👍.

[ineffable-gallimaufry]

the hard part now of getting eatwd into the place where it needs to be is simply just. .. transposing the characters in tma into night vale. like they're literally so shaped by their specific relationships with the fears that to create a reality in which they don't live in that context creates essentially entirely different characters. pretty wacky

[neousfics]

Somewhere In Time is Literally Edwin/Charles, and here's why:

Just rewatched the movie Somewhere In Time because I thought it might work for a Paynland fic and holy fucking shit you guys it's perfect in every way. Charles is so Richard Collier coded and Edwin is so Elise McKenna coded it's not even funny. And the time periods are perfect???? Collier is literally from the late 70s/80s and time travels back to 1912???

Also William Robinson as the Cat King? Be still my beating heart.

(Spoilers for a movie from the 80s ig)

If you're unfamiliar with the plot, Somewhere In Time is about a playwright, Richard Collier, who, after being given a pocket watch by an old lady on the day of her death, begins to suspect that not only is it possibly to travel back in time, but he has already done it. He learns that the old lady used to be a beautiful young actress named Elise McKenna. He eventually manages to travel back in time, they fall in love only for him to accidentally get yanked back to the future just as they've begun to plan their life together. He dies from grief a week later and the two reunite in the afterlife.

Here are some scenes/dialogue that I think are so Edwin/Charles coded it hurts:

Collier (AKA Charles) decides to literally abandon his life and timeline after literally one (1) interaction with this lady + a pretty picture of her he saw in the museum section of a hotel and Charles would absolutely (and kinda did) do the same

McKenna (AKA Edwin) spent the rest of her life never giving up on finding Collier even though they were only together for a couple days. In her youth she's described as "quick and bright, fun, strong, and willful" but after he disappears she is described as "kind and thoughtful but too much within herself, like she was empty somehow" and you CANNOT tell me that does not sound like our favorite Edwardian boy

When Collier prepares to go to the past he picks out a time-appropriate suit, but when he gets there everyone keeps telling him its hella out of fashion and he is so offended 10/10, very Charles

I can practically hear Paynland saying this dialogue:

"Your occupation?"

“I’m a playwright.”

“A playwright.” (mad bitchiness in this line delivery)

“No, no I’m not here because of that!”

“Hm. And you say you know everything about me?”

“Well, yes.”

“Which is patently absurd. You couldn’t possibly know everything about me. We’ve never met. You’re a complete stranger to me.

“But then why did you ask, 'Is it you?'” (she asked this when they met the first time)

“I don’t have to answer that.”

“I know you don’t. I wish you would, though.”

When Collier asks McKenna to call him by his first name she hits him with the "Why should I?" and this doe-eyed fool says "I don't know. I just hoped you would."

Collier is terrified of the idea that McKenna would be afraid of him which is just so Charles like damn

When Collier tries to shave his face with the old-fashioned razor he does an absolutely terrible job, gets a bunch of cuts, and leaves shaving cream on his face and McKenna takes one look at him and decides this idiot is the man she's going to love forever

Their first kiss is actually the sexiest shit ever in this show like damn why they pulling up so hard in some random movie 40 years ago. ANYway when Collier touches McKenna's face and slowly leans in to kiss her she says in this breathy, barely heard whisper "Oh my God. I don't know what's happening." Which is very Edwin to me

When McKenna's manager gets too pushy about her romantic decisions she says "I am involved with you as an actress, Mr. Robinson. Not a doormat. Do not attempt to wipe your boots on me." okay Edwin

When McKenna is performing in the play (which is a comedy) she goes off script and starts dramatically monologuing all her inner thoughts about loving Collier while looking at him in the audience which Mr. "I know were in hell but I need to tell you I'm in love with you" Payne would definitely do

This is the monologue btw:

“The man of my dreams is almost faded now. The one I have created in my mind. The sort of man each woman dreams of in the deepest most secret reaches of her heart. I can almost see him now before me. What would I say to him if he were really here? Forgive me. I’ve never known this feeling. I’ve lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder that I failed to recognize you? You brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way that I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know the sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say. I cannot find the words except for these: I love you.”

"Are you alright?" "Yes" "I thought I lost you." "Never. Never, never, never."

The morning after they have sex she hits him with the "You will marry me, won't you?" And makes him choke on his food then immediately goes "You won't?!?!" without even waiting for him to respond

"I want to be everything to you." "You are."

This dialogue:

“The first thing I intend to do for you–”

“You’ve already done.”

“Well, the second thing.”

“What?”

“Buy you a new suit.”

“I don’t understand. Nobody seems to like my suit.”

“Oh can you blame them?”

“I think my suit is terrific. So what if it’s 10 years old?”

“At least 15.”

Collier just up and dying as soon as he gets back because he's so distressed at the thought of living without her he goes into a dissociative fit and doesn't eat for a weak is so Charles

If you made it this far, I commend you because I'm pretty sure I sound like an insane person and I don't even know if any of you have seen this movie but for the love of God I had to tell someone

Who knows, maybe I'll write a Somewhere In Time AU Paynland fic, or perhaps I'll just sit here and desperately hope that someone else will do it

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Could you make a chapter 7 or a bonus part of the herobrine series (like a small writing, almost like a special episode of what happens – more of showing a small spoiler ig)? It was truly an interesting story and the way you write in different POV's is so good ❤️❤️ But if you have other priorities or rather not continue it then its fine !! You may skip this request of mine.

- anon💫

EVERYONE SAY THANK YOU TO THE ANON WHO JUST BROUGHT ME OUT OF MY HIATUS

(I am so sorry its been months i know but shit hit the fan so..)

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CHPATER 8 1/2? UNDER THE CUT!

In a perfect world, everything would be peaceful.

Hell was a strange place to sleep, though every place here was a strange place, considering the geography in this place was fucked, if I phrased it nicely.

At least the room was nice. The Nether was hot, but in this room, the fungi seemed to placate the heat. The small sources of light came from the thin windows, casting frantic shadows onto the floor.

At least the room was nice.

The bed was tucked into the corner, hidden among the wildlife inside the room. Though, could you call it wild if it were inside a room?

I digress.

The bed was soft and comfortable, and I wondered how Herobrine had gotten such nice linens in the Nether. Maybe he just called in a favor from someone?

And as I thought about Herobrine, my thoughts turned to Steve. His violet-purple eyes were entrancing, and I just...couldn't stop thinking about them. About Steve. About Herobrine. About this whole situation.

I wondered how Steve and Alex were doing. Did they think of me?

~~~

This Player was certainly interesting. They acted so much stranger than the normal Players he had been used to. As in, they didn't run screaming or take out weapons as he passed by, hoping to steal a loaf of fresh bread.

Herobrine missed those days, though he didn't miss being controlled. A loaf of bread, cake with icing, the sound of something that wasn't the sound of the Nether.

He felt almost mournful about the "good old days" though they weren't particularly good.

It was a shame, Herobrine thought, that Notch created him with a sense of remorse. But what he'd done had been done, and he couldn't take it back.

If only he could show Steve his book. The truth, and nothing but the truth.

He huffed under his breath, "Not like that would ever happen."

Herobrine shifted from the bed, stretching and getting up.

"After all, who'd trust a man in hell?"

In a perfect world, everything would be peaceful.

We will never find a perfect world.

~~~

HELLO EVERYONE IM STILL ALIVE I PROMISE

[cheapdates]

in which lee dong wook has had ENOUGH.

[achillesunly]

Characters review on Strangers From Hell: PART 2

(spoilers)

Min Ji Eun aka worst girl

Worst girlfriend. Over looking bfs fears, worries and everything he says as long as it's not happy, or even his role in life (with his boss etc) bonus point for not having cheated on him but still. Being cute serves u what if you're a bitch. I don't even know why they showed us your life I don't care we don't care u don't care u mom doesn't care nobody cares. I don't care if your boss bullies u. Girlboss we love it but u r not enough so we love U. If you goin for it go all the way. Ure just vain. You should have died. That's plothole. Or whatever this called. Missed opportunity, direction hole. Why did they show us your shitty life. If someone knows. This trash bag. Openly idgaf. Fuck away u bf gay.

So Jung Hwa aka best girl

Or GODDESS OF ENGINEERING! Yet another fuckING CUTIIIE. What's the uno reverse of malewife? That's her. Reliable. Relatable . +10 points to Gryffindor for working with such bitchass annoying useless fellow policemen. And 10 other points for having such a beautiful dentist. How come you don't have time to go? jeez. I would even if I had nothing wrong. A lill slow but stubborn and determined. But too nice with other officers (especially from the other department I would smack em hard). Go out with your junior btw he wouldn't 70% let u down. A really good human. I love her. She's cute and clever . If you gave this woman more power I swear the drama would have ended very differently ( so I'm thankful) Second only person I would trust , not daring enough, so second position. She wouldn't let me down if I was dying in a pit. She would 50% break her legs trying to get to me , and 50% go seeking help. That would be on our first date. I would happen to see her crazily good looking dentist in casual clothes walk by. We would have a chat. He would kill me bc I would have asked him to. Beautiful date 👉👈

Yoon Jong Woo aka Jong U re the one

Tired of this shit ×1000000000^π. I wouldn't have half his courage. My man walked in, saw a rutting pervert, pissing extrovert auntie, weirdass good looking button down, bully thug, the Joker and his non-drooling twin, and the lovechild of Adonis and Apollon offering staring and human flesh for lunch, and he really said everyone here is weird but I'll make it work. Amazing . Mastered the skill to look both disgusted and tired in any social situation which is a big flex. Shiny eyes when his real self. Kind of a dick. Really pisses me off sometimes. Genuinely. Short and short tempered. Example of how army isn't made for everyone (no offense meant), shitty life with shitty boss and shitty girlfriend and shitty flat. Kind of reminds me of Eddie edi Eddie eddy edy? from venom in his anger control. I wish he would snap sooner BC repressed too much and it's more fun when unfettered nd batshit crazy. Yeah walk up those gay stairs it'll change u. More flustered after talking with MoonJo in one 1 evening than with his girlfriend the entire series. Amazing. Also weirdass mom who gives off weirdass warnings heard from old shufu in the mountains random yet expect her son to not be in a constant state of mental breakdown. Love the way hes just like ok the second time he's called THE word like well aight mate go off ig. Paranoid. A tad bit too late. But strong ig. Sick strap btw bro. I really like the uh huh... Jewelry I guess... I .. yeah... Cool.

I wouldn't trust him cause Im so annoying he would kill me or have his bf do it. If we ever got along tho, we d be writing buddies and I'd tell MoonJo I'm gay so he doesn't have to worry or kill me. but anyways I know Yoon would just let me down whenever he'd have the chance to get D so. Cause he's the one ( rubber ducky ure th-) Yeah, he's really, I yeah.. it's um.. okay...hhuh .. um ... I'm foine I swear :(

Seo Moon Jo aka the only one I didn't have to look up the name

The dentist we all want . Cutie pie and I'm done pretending: HES AMAZING CLEVER PRETTY BEAUTIFUL DEEP CUTE CALM PASSIONNED TWIST MINDED AND HDVBSN AAIIIII

I THINK EVERYONE SHOULD KNOW HIM HES SO WHOLESOME AND HEHZHDNJ AND I HHHU EVERYONE SHOULD HAVE A SHRINE IN THEIR HOME DEDICATED TO HIM HES SO INTERESTING

He's the cutest bunny beauty smiley, his lill teeth, big eyes, crow hair, his stance, slender figure, his quirks, his flip of hair, his mind, the way he kills adorable. His love eyes, and the way he fights, how he holds Yoon s face when they were fighting, his voice HIS VOICE CHANGE IN EP 10 AROU-WAIT ILL GET IT:

WHINY TURNS METAL AND IM DEAD

He's so much . How can a character like THAT be created ??? ITS NOT LEGAL???? YOUVE BEEN TO STOP! There's just so much to say but yeah.. Seo Moon Jo ❤️❤️🦷🐀🔪

He's cute and rock and the way he tries to blend in (nice dentist, scaring off kids but that's just what we are all supposed to do, playing local when he kills the journalist/spits!/ /I know some of y'all sickfucks whish he spat in your mouth jeez )

I could just spend literals hours taking ab him but I think we should all get a conference day or sleepover and just write ff, draw fanarts and do theories, conspiracy on iphones, together. that would be cleverer.

He just makes the whole drama. Literally. He's amazing and a deep character and damn. Yeah. His loving shiny eyes. Whenever I remember them I feel the deepness of the character wash back over me again and hhhh. Yeah. Damn.

I wouldn't trust him either cause such a beauty would never stand being stared at for hours without wanting to kill me. + if I was dying ,depending on the context ofc if it's related to the residence then bye y'all but-, he sure would help but if he ever gets a call from bf he would just throw me on the road right away to get sum. So yeah. no. Cause you don't know if he feels like doing art on Tuesday. And id end up in the dirty dental chair. So.

Still I would give him warmth and family ( not in the sexual way Jesus he got Yoon for that ) but it would change him just a bit then no. Cause he's perfect the way he is and hh. I guess what I'm trying to say is:

So yeah I love him like that. Very much. More than words. His voice. The whole character is really something else. Never been done before, one of time character. One of a kind and that's wow . The whole drama is him actually. So in the end there's the word that will never have the same meaning again and I don't want to hear it from anywhere else or I'll fucking jugeo blro. He's a masterpiece himself.

I hadn't realised that I lowered my standards be4 seeing him and his love. Not in the extreme way but he's just dedicated and poetic. ....Yeah..... so .......❤️ Seo Moon Jo ❤️

+ he's not dead folks 🙃 he's a bad bitch so you can't kill him.

Finally great drama in the purer sense G R E A T

[clownmfxx]

*smol spoilers fur stranger things 4 ig*

So yk that 001 guy or the blond dude (that sounds gay as hell )well just from the first time I see him he gives off fucking Daniel from camp camp vibes😭

If you watched camp camp then you know 😂

[wheel-of-hyperfixation]

//stranger things 4 spoilers ahead ig ??

(skip to the bolded part at the end for my point)

so to start, i would like to say i’m a black woman. i’m mixed, dad’s white mum’s black, and i am very much so not white-passing

so maybe it was just a random rumor but back when casting was being done for st4 i remember reading something about how they were looking for a woc for robin’s love interest. i was so beyond excited— i’m black and queer and starved for representation of interracial couples, especially queer ones. the fact that we’ve got max+lucas is wonderful and i really do appreciate them but having only one of your leads be black isn’t being diverse. i get it, it’s middle-of-nowhere indiana but there are other poc background characters seen a lot so why not have more of your new characters be something other than white, especially if they’re going to be a love interest.

when i was a little, i barely saw black people in relationships on tv. we were not being cast as the leads or the love interest; we were in the background or at best the lead’s “quirky” best friend that was really only there to advance the stories of the white characters around us. i can’t even give you one example of an interracial couple i saw in these productions— i think i can count on one hand the ones ive seen in the last 5 years. this next part isn’t the media’s fault: my parents got divorced when i was really little, my dad married a whites woman and my mom went on to date several white guys who never treated her right. seeing the only white+black couple i knew not work out and not seeing that shown as some possibility in media has royally fucked me over.

if the thing i read from casting was just some bs rumor then fine whatever. i adore amy-beth (who was cast for robin’s love interest) and i’m sure as she’s already worked with netflix before she was a good candidate, but why could the casting department not have found a woman of color to fit their roll, because we sure as hell know the poc actresses are out there just not being given even the chance a lot of the time for these rolls.

even with chrissy who we see have this really genuine connection with eddie for a bit. like i get that she mirrors jason in this very old-fashioned, typical popular “varsity sport bf+head cheerleader gf” dynamic. but hey maybe idk let eddie munson go for not the skinny girl with blonde hair and blue eyes.

and so maybe robin’s out for now, but imagine steve moving on from nancy (finally) at the end of next season and we see him nervous and getting help from robin as he gets ready for a date. we see him meeting up for a movie or something and see his date is a black woman rocking a natural fro (it’s the 80s it’s in style it’d fit so well). imagine the absolute power of this natural girl with steve “the hair” harrington— i mean come on pls they could conquer any hair issue in hawkins.

this post got really serious and then kinda light-hearted but genuinely there is still such a lack of poc representation in media. especially for these huge, successful productions that reach so many people, it really is their responsibility to cast more poc, and not just when a character’s race is the center of their character. let black women be the “it girl” in school. let them be the love interest. let them be in relationships with people outside their own race because skin tone should not be defining the people we’re allowed to love.

[totiredtowrite]

i uh qyxhhfhcg for the follower matchup event thing waszup, your blog is a godsend istg u are amazing. and i'd like a JJK matchup

three things abt myself:

- i play the drums

- all my friendships were started because of a third party, idk how to start conversations and make friends ✌️✌️

- i look hella bland and boring from a stranger's pov and at first meeting but my friend told me that i have added spice when they got to know me so-

the dynamic i want is like a strangers to friends to lovers ig? i never rlly thought abt it but yea

i want a partner that understands me well (but dont we all tho ahhxhf) and would be willing to put up with my bullshit through and through

i generally get along with more outgoing and extroverted people because someone needs to start the conversation, but i am willing to continue the conversation with whatever topic we have goin on yknow.

srry if this was too long, it's my first time sending an ask like this. i hope you had and have a great day and week and month, much luvs <33

-☁️

Your Match is

Megumi Fushiguro

Why?

Megumi, while not terribly extroverted, seems like someone who would fit well with you.

He can start conversations with you, and as long as you can keep them going he's fine.

He is actually rather calm, so putting up with you wouldn't be a problem for him.

While you can't make friends too well, he isn't very good at conveying how he feels. The two of you have some shared traits that can either make it extremely awkward or extremely comfortable between you two, and there isn't really an in between.

🂠🃑🃁🂱🂡

How You Met

Itadori introduced you guys. Being generally extroverted himself, he met you and thought, "Wow! He seems boring! Megumi might like him." (Not very sweet). Itadori was right though, you seemed very dry in his eyes.

Itadori left suddenly, claiming that Gojo was calling and he needed to answer, leaving you two alone.

Sitting there in awkward silence wasn't ideal for either of you, so when you said "This is kind of awkward, huh?" He agreed wholeheartedly.

"Not a thought behind his eyes," Megumi commented in regards to Yuuji. You laughed softly in agreement. Megumi extended his hand formally. "I'm Fushiguro. You are?"

"(L/n)," you took his hand.

That's right, you became friends over Yuuji slander.

🂠🃑🃁🂱🂡

The Crush Phase

Megumi with a crush, wow

I'd say he realized it when you two were just hanging out normally.

Megumi was on the floor, and you were at your drum set.

You weren't playing, just talking with Megumi because you two had gotten distracted.

And just out of nowhere he thinks "I'm in love with (y/n)"

At first he doesn't register what he just thought, but when he did he freaked the fuck out.

He jumped up, quickly said "I have to go," and ran out of your room like a bat out of hell.

He's actually rather normal with you after that though.

It's like he hadn't realized anything, until he remembers that he has a crush on you.

Then he gets pink and starts stuttering a bit.

He isn't a touchy friend in general, (like Yuuji), so any random touches you guys did were now extremely scarce.

He didn't want to accidentally out himself somehow, so he decided to distance.

Spoiler alert: It didn't go to well.

🂠🃑🃁🂱🂡

Confession

Megumi can handle others, but he can't handle his own emotions.

So, he chose to distance himself. It was a great idea right? He would just take a few steps back until his feelings died down, and then everything would go back to normal. No harm, no foul.

Well, full harm. He hadn't said anything to you, just slowly inching away. You used to hang out all the time, now you didn't spend more than 15 minutes together alone.

Finally, you decided to corner him. "Is something wrong Megumi?" He looked kind of flushed, and wouldn't make eye contact with you. "You've been avoiding me for like 2 weeks now! Did something happen?" Any nervous habits you had were starting to shine through now.

Megumi just opened and closed his mouth. What was he supposed to do? Just confess his love? Absolutely not. What if you said no or wanted to stop being friends with him? He doesn't think he could handle it if you never wanted to speak with him again.

"Don't just stand there megumi! Please, just tell–"

"I love you."

His mouth moved before he could stop it. The words were swimming around in his head, and the second he opened his mouth it's like they had to escape.

Well so much for his earlier hesitation.

You just stood there for a second before collapsing into him. "Glad I'm not the only one," you muttered into his neck. His face was covered in shock as he shaking wrapped his arms around you.

It was seriously that easy?

🂠🃑🃁🂱🂡

Honorable Mention

Yuuji Itadori

Note: I'll insert a page break later when I'm working from my computer.

[jj-lynn21]

THE DEVIL BE DAMNED

Notes: The Devil all the Time fanfic. This is a continuation to something better for our Willard. It is still sad, dark, death theme but our boy deserves a bit of good. I tried to provide that for him. A little spoiler Alert. So maybe if you have not scene the film don’t read until after watching. Warning this is set up like the movie so if you have triggers to anything the character does don’t read. aligns more with the book since I wrote this before seeing the movie.

Tagging: theskarsgardcult

Perfect Moodboard by flowers-in-your-hayr photo of Willard Russel posted by Haley Bennett on IG

The death of his wife left Willard cold inside and out. He felt no peace from the Pastor’s words. Even less from the grounds keeper that tried to comfort him. He pulled away from any comfort. He felt that death was always on his heels so now he might as well give in to follow it. If God did exist, he highly doubted it at this point, his love would be waiting for him on the other side.  

As the penknife ripped into his skin, he could have sworn he heard a woman’s voice warning, “Don’t do it Willard.” His eyes widened. At that point, it was too late to stop.  

The sun rose brightly in the East over the meadow, through the woods behind the Russel home. Or what use to be the Russel home. The early morning was quiet, other than the sounds of locusts hiding from site. Even that sounded more peaceful than usual to Willard.  

Willard had barely listened to a groundskeeper at the cemetery when he prattled on. “Death is either a long journey or a long sleep,” He was realizing now how enlighten the man’s words were even if the man himself didn’t truly believe them.

The stench of the area where he and his boy prayed no longer registered to his senses. The chill in the morning air did not send shivers over his skin as he stood. A thick layer of fog covering the grown. All he saw was that damn leaning cross. It seemed almost threatening him as it still hung over the scene of slaughter.

When Willard charged through the overgrown brush to his home it all felt so different, yet the scenery was the same. It was really like he couldn’t feel his surroundings at all. The house was quiet and dark when he went inside. There was barely a sign of him and his family living there. The walls were bare. The furniture still there had an inch or more of dust on it.  

“Whut thuh fuck iz goin' on here?” He said out loud. An echo returned his sentiment.  

The door blew open banging against the rotting wood. When he ran out, Willard turned to look back only to see a pile of rubble where his wife’s dream home or as close to a dream home he could get, use to stand.

His reality seemed to be shattering. He turned away to find some remnants of the life he tried desperately to hold on to. Willard was in denial of what had happened after he left his boy to go pray to scream at God for not excepting all his sacrifices. He wondered into town thinking about the Wooden Spoon where he met his love.  

The streets were filled with more cars than Willard had ever remembered driving through town. The businesses looked different also. The town was never like one of those big shot cities but now it seemed even more run down than ever. He came to the bus station where he remembered riding into after the war.  

The bugs gathered around like they saw his thoughts. The thoughts of being there again. The thought of seeing what humans can do to another human in the name of war. The site of a skinned alive officer covered with insects feasting on what was left of the flesh was a scar on Willard’s mind as deep as the scar on his cheek.  

The driver opening the bus doors yelling, “Brake tame. If ya hav tuh use thuh restroom Ah suggest ya’all do it now.” snapped him out of his Hell on Earth. Willard looked across the street for that familiar diner The Wooden Spoon. He scrubbed his face and blink when the signage seemed to have changed but when he looked again it was just as he remembered it.

He ran across the street dodging cars that seemed not to notice him at all. The special of the day was meatloaf. His mind wonder to his Ma and boy. Had he already taken him to his Ma and come back? Would Arvin be fine in a new place with practically strangers? He should have taken his boy to visit his...

The thoughts evaporated from his mind once he stepped inside The Wooden Spoon with all the familiar look of yesterdays gone by too quickly. He sat at an all too familiar counter. Willard fiddled with the catsup bottle and caught his reflection in the silver of the napkin holder. It reflected a much younger man adorned with a crisp army uniform just back from war.

The waitress walked over. She set a coffee cup down and poured coffee into it. Willard looked up, surprise in his big green eyes.

“What took you so long to get here,” The waitress with the look of an Angel to Willard as she always had smiled. “I thought the Devil might have tried to drag you off.”

“The Devil be damned,” Willard stood. “Not evun death will evur take me away from ya Charlotte.”

They held each other, kissed each other, made love to each other for eternity.  

[twinkletwinkee]

EP 12 ramblings

I’m honestly really disappointed in this episode. I love 2gether but the last three episodes were really weird for me. Episode 10 and 11 seemed like fillers while Episode 12 is one hell of a ride.

EP 12 completely destroyed Wat’s character. Don’t get me wrong, I love the part where Wat tried to appease Tine’s insecurities but my god, not even a minute after Tine poured his heart out and told Wat how he fucking cried all night because of all the negative thoughts gnawing at his head, we have Wat defensively snatching a paper from Tine???? How realistic is that??? Did the writers honestly think we’ll eat that shit up?

Wat was really something else in this episode. In the part where he was introducting Pam to his band, his fucking bandmates knew that Tine was jealous! How can he miss that!!? And for the love of god, why did he not introduce Tine at all to Pam????????? HE FUCKING WANTED TO NAME HIS IG LOVETINE THEN SUDDENLY YOU’re TELLING ME HE’s ALL SHY AND EMBARRASSED WITH HIS HIGHSCHOOOL FRIEND??????????

And the last part oh my gOD. HOw can they not have Wat chase after Tine?????? Wtf was that??????????

AND HOW CAN WAT SLEEP WHILE TINE CRIED BESIDE HIM????? WHY DIDNT HE ASK TINE WHAT WAS WRONG? WHY ARE YOU NOT ASLEEP? WHY ARE YOU LISTENING TO MUSIC AT THIS HOUR?? WHATS BOTHERING YOU??? ASDFGHHKKL

Then we have this old trope in BL dramas demonizing women. I loved how 2gether tried to veer away from that with Pear and Earn. But they destroyed Pam. They made her a vile relationship wrecker. The show really made her go out of her way, transfer colleges, and change her entire fucking major just to chase after Wat??? Who she knew was in a relationship??? I mean, they really made her this one dimensional bitch who had the audacity to say outloud that she wanted Wat back because he found a new friend??

[NOVEL SPOILER] In the book, Pam was a sweet girl. She supported Wat and Tine. She was in the phone when Wat tried to re-assure Tine that nothing was going on between him and Pam. The two lovesick idiots even forgot that she was still on the phone!

With all these UNNECESSARY ANGST AND DRAMA, are you telling me that they could wrap it all up in one episode??? No no no no. We spent 10 episodes building up Tine and Wat’s relaitonship - from strangers to friends to lovers. How can they breakup and reconcile in just 1 episode? That would be unrealistic as hell.

We still have ManType to worry about. Are we not getting any character development from Type?? Who was the person in the polaroid photo he was holding while crying? Why was he attending so many personal growth/healing seminars??? Just because Man stopped chasing after him, he’ll do a 180???? I expected more from his character to be honest. From the way the show built him, he came off as someone coming out from a bad relationship with a lot of trust issues (like Tine).

I really have high hopes for 2gether. I thought it would at least be progressive in how it handles these problematic tropes in BL dramas.

[trenchcas]

8.22 Clip Show

Not me finally reviewing another episode because i’ve been so incredibly lazy the past few weeks-

Okay so I watched a bunch of episodes and I’m going to review them with obvious bias because I’m biased af. I’ll be focusing on Sam, Cas, and Crowley mainly. Spoilers ahead!

So to sum it up real quick, Clip Show was about Sam and Dean trying to figure out the third task. They kind of already knew but they had no idea how to “cure a demon”. In the meantime, Crowley is killing everybody the boys ever saved starting from season one (yes, I’m super biased towards Crowley because I love him okay). Also, Castiel meets Metatron.

Crowley, in this episode, kills Tommy from Wendigo, Jenny from Shut Up, Dr. Phil, and Sarah Blake from Provenance. Confession: when I first watched the episode, I didn’t recognize the first two victims just because they were boring ig? 

So the episode begins with Tommy’s death, which idgaf about sorry, and then moves to the Bunker. Dean and Cas are still bitter towards one another. I can understand Dean’s point of view, and I promise this isn’t my inner Cas girl speaking or anything, but Castiel really did think he was doing the right thing just like always. I suppose running away with the Angel Tablet wasn’t the best idea but Cas would have kept it away from Crowley and Heaven longer if it weren’t for that spy angel, I think. But I can understand both PoV’s here. Also, I think I should mention how Sam’s playing the middle here, like when he says “because it’s Cas”. Sam’s not angry because he wasn’t physically there in Goodbye, Stranger, I think.

Then they find the film they’re looking for and they see Josie Sands (who is an interesting character) and the priests performing an exorcism. The nervous MoL kid kind of got me wondering the age limits for the Men of Letters. If this kid’s nervous should they really let him do this kind of stuff? 

Okay moving on, I was kind of surprised at how the trio took watching someone get tortured, especially since they were tortured as well at some point. I think the show could do a much better job at handling trauma. 

Dean is still mad at Cas so Cas goes to buy food + other stuff that Dean likes in order to please him. Then Metatron appears and they go off on their own. I was kind of annoyed at Cas because he’s still so trusting. I’m not saying this is a bad thing or anything, I just think after a few seasons of trusting I’m surprised he hasn’t learned to be a little bit more cautious. He barely knows Metatron.

Then Dean and Sam watch the Father Priest dude perform the exorcism and decide that they’re going to resurrect Abaddon, a Knight of Hell, just to test out something they’d never done before. Abaddon, who had wiped out the entire Men of Letters previously. Real smart, guys. 

In the meantime Cas and Metatron are sitting in a cafe, where they’re greeted by the nephilim/waiter. I found it kinda weird how she basically just flirted with her,, uncle?? Also wouldn’t the angels have known if a nephilim was born? It’s probably a pretty big deal, regardless of whether it’s an archangel or not. 

Then they’re interrupted by Crowley, who says some stupid things. Abaddon recollects her body and leaves, big surprise. They go to Indiana where they find Jenny dead.

Now they go to Indiana where they find Sarah Blake who I miss and love. It changes to Cas and Metatron, and the nephilim reveals that she knows who they are. (Kinda wanna know who her parents were, I’ve seen some theories that it was Gabriel but that would have been a big thing in the supernatural world so I don’t think it was). Cas kills the nephilim which was sad.

Sarah Blake dies, Crowley kills her, they return to the bunker. We explore Sam’s grief a little bit, but it’s not touched on in later episodes which I found kind of disappointing. Sam considers giving in, which I found pretty alarming because Sam’s the one with faith. He’s the one that tries to keep going even when all seems lost, so here you can see how Sarah + Jenny + Tommy’s deaths have affected him. Dean insists they soldier on.

So overall I thought this was a pretty good episode leading up to the season finale, especially with the whole curing demons thing. The only problem I had was how stupid Abaddon’s revival was. Yeah I mean it was necessary for the next season, but it was just stupid to me. I remember the first time I watched s8′s finale I didn’t remember where Abaddon had come from because I hadn’t really watched Clip Show all that well but it makes sense now. 

I’d give this episode a 7.5/10 with points off for Abaddon being stupid. 

[morinokunikara]

“Can I get a photo?” with yuuki meeting akechi? Or hifumi? Any persona celebrity ig.

Anon i am so sorry this took so damn long and also sorry that what was going to be a little drabble turned into 2.5k words, i just got carried away 

there are spoilers here!!! 

“Can I get a photo?”

That’s how it all started. A chance meeting with a fan at the train station. Typically - at least this early in the morning - it was a request Goro would reject and move on, but something about the boy standing in front of him that day made him impossible to decline. The hopeful look on his face was too good to say no to. If Goro was being honest, the guy was kind of cute. He was always kind of picky when it came to attraction, but this particular fan was certainly something. A little short, blue hair the perfect length for ruffling, grey eyes that seemed so gentle, kind, and full of wonder - no, not bad at all. He wondered about the bruises and bandages all over him though. What could have caused so many injuries...? “Alright, only since you asked so nicely,” he said with a charming smile. 

Yuuki felt his heart pick up a little just from seeing the other smile. He was a bit of an Akechi fanboy, admittedly. Who wouldn’t be? The way those brown locks just fall perfectly on his face... those enchanting brown eyes... so tall and confident... and his smile...! No, he was not about to go into fanboy mode. Not now. Save it for later when you’re looking at this picture again, and again, and again... Focus on right now! He moved so the two could pose together for a selfie. He smiled just slightly, trying hard to not look as excited as he was, but the spark in his eyes gave him away. He looked at the picture afterwards and...wow, he looked so boring in comparison. A handsome Prince Charming, and the lowly peasant just grasping at the chance to meet him. He started to feel a bit of his self-loathing kick in, but shoved it aside to smile at Akechi again. “Thank you so much!” He said, and then ran off before he could embarrass himself. 

Goro sighed a bit as he watched the stranger run off. “How strange,” He whispered. He’d never felt so happy to have someone ask for a photo. Usually he didn’t even have time, so he’d have to turn down the offer but this boy... He found himself thinking more about him. All he could gather for the time being was that he was a Shujin student, and that he looked pretty beat up. He worried a lot about the latter. Who or what could cause so many injuries to such a lovely face? And why did he care so damn much? Sure, he was a little cute, but in the end he was just another fan. Right?

Yuuki couldn’t focus on school that day. He got a picture from Akechi! He changed the wallpaper on his phone as soon as he had the chance, so he could always be reminded of that day. Sure, Akechi was a billion times more attractive than him. Sure, he looked like a boring stale potato chip next to Akechi. But it was a real actual picture with Detective Prince Goro Akechi. He wanted to be able to look at it every chance he got. 

Following that day, there were a few more chance encounters at that train station. Goro found the courage to approach his handsome fan each of these times, and learned a bit more about him. His name was Yuuki Mishima. He was a second year at Shujin. He was on the volleyball team. Wait, the one with the super famous gold medalist as a coach? Maybe he could catch a game sometime. They both liked Featherman, and showed off their keychain collections to each other. The more they met, the stranger the feelings inside Goro’s chest got. Before long, their chance encounters were less of chance encounters, and more of knowing the other will be at the station and waiting. It became an unspoken promise that they would meet and talk before school. But Goro started wanting more than just a few minutes before school. Would it be too much to ask for just...lunch together one weekend? Would that be weird? It wouldn’t hurt to try, right?

Yuuki nearly burst right in the middle of the train station. Goro Akechi wanted to go to lunch with him. Akechi just asked him to hang out. The Detective Prince wants to spend time with a nobody like me. He was more excited than he had ever been all week. Sunday couldn’t come soon enough. When it finally came, Yuuki spent hours beforehand looking at outfit after outfit after outfit trying to find the perfect look. He wanted to look good. He was going to be hanging out with Akechi, so he had to look his best. He had to look perfect. He found a nice blue sweater with gold stars on it, and his best pair of jeans. He picked his cutest binder as well, the one with the one with rainbow hearts. No one would see it, of course, but it somehow made him feel a bit more confident. Alright, he would do this. It’s just one short lunch. 

Goro arrived early. He put a bit more effort into his appearance today, though he wasn’t really sure why. It was just a meeting with a fan. A friend? Were he and Mishima friends? Even if they were, why did he want to look so nice for him? How long had he been waiting? Had Mishima changed his mind? Was he going to cancel? Why the hell was he overthinking things so hard? He got so lost in his mind, he almost didn’t notice when Mishima sat down across from him. Wow. He looked even cuter than before - wait what.

“Sorry I’m late!” Yuuki was a bit embarrassed that he got so caught up in his own appearance that he showed up a bit later than planned, but Akechi didn’t seem to mind. He just smiled that bright princely smile that made Yuuki’s heart flutter a bit. Wait, why did it flutter so much just from one small smile?

The lunch went well, almost too well in Goro’s mind. How could he be sure this guy didn’t have ulterior motives? He was almost too nice. Goro had spent so much time being used and manipulated by others, it was so hard for him to trust Mishima. But at the same time, he wanted to trust him. He wanted to believe that Mishima was different. He seemed so kind and genuine. His smile was so radiant, his voice was like the most soothing music... Why was Goro so caught up in this guy? He wanted to get to know him better; he wanted to know his dreams, his secrets, what made him smile. He wanted to make him smile. He wanted to be close. What is wrong with him? It was a risk, but maybe they could keep in touch? If it was leaked, he could always change numbers. He’d done that a few times already. 

Holy. Shit. Did Akechi just trade contact info with Yuuki?! Did Goro Akechi really want to keep in touch with some zero like him?! Was this real?! Yuuki tried to control himself. He couldn’t seem too eager. He had to play it cool, like the advice articles all said. He waited until after school Monday to text back, and then sent his text.

“Hey! Sorry it took me so long to send this, I was super busy.” Just like the articles said. 

Between school and work, Goro found himself unable to look at his phone until he got home. God he was so exhausted. He wanted to curl up in his blankets and sleep for a month at least. But checking his phone did bring a smile to his face. Mishima had texted him! That was all the energy he needed to get through his paperwork and homework. They could talk while he worked. It’d be a good idea to keep him awake and alive through all this boring stuff. 

“It’s fine. I had school and work all day. I’m free now, though! If you want to talk of course.” 

He texted back! Oh my god he texted back he texted me back Goro Akechi texted me back oh my god. Nope, can’t be too excited. Can’t let him think you’re just another dorky fanboy. Have to play it cool. Cool. Just stay cool, wait a few minutes to text back. Take it easy. You got this. 

The two texted well into the night, sharing jokes, pictures of cats, Featherman headcanons, anything that came to mind. They spent many more nights like that, met up many more times, became closer and closer. Everything was going so well. Rumors began to spread. Rumors about the plain-looking Shujin student that seemed to spend every weekend with Akechi. A friend? A lover? Someone shady? Both knew about the rumors. Both agreed that it would be best to ignore them, and keep doing their thing as best they could. 

The new Featherman movie was an absolute must for them to see together as soon as they possibly could. Watching it with a friend made the experience that much better for them both. Both wore bright smiles on their faces as they walked out. “That was so awesome! Way better than the last one.” Yuuki said before striking a pose to match one from the movie. “We have brought an end to your crimes, Dark Knight! Surrender immediately!” 

Goro laughed. Wow, Mishima was cute all excited like this. “They are pretty cool, aren’t they?” He sighed. “To be honest, I always kind of wanted to be like them.”

“Like the Feathermen? I’d say you’re already a lot like them!”

“How so?” Goro asked, tilting his head. He was admittedly curious as to how Mishima saw him. Why did that matter so much?

“Well, you’ve got a strong set of values you stick by, you put your life on the line to protect others, and if I’m being totally honest, you’re really cool.” Yuuki rubbed the back of his neck. That was kind of embarrassing to admit. “I’d venture to say you’re hero material, just like any Featherman!” 

The words struck Goro like a lightning bolt. Hero material? Mishima saw him as a hero? It made him feel like his heart might just fly away. He would love to hear that from anyone but for some reason, it meant even more coming from Mishima. What were these feelings? He managed a slightly blushy smile, one that completely downplayed how overjoyed he felt in the moment. “How sweet of you to say.” He could go on to say how wonderful it felt, how it made him want to just grab Mishima right there and- Wait what? 

Oh my god that smile I want to capture it forever and keep it close he’s so pretty! Yuuki smiled back, a mere fraction of the smile that was in his heart. “Well, I’m not just saying it to be sweet. I really mean it.” He looked at his phone and sighed. It was a Sunday, but he had obligations at home. Damn his past self for agreeing to help with dinner the same day as the movie. “Well, I better get home. Thanks for today, Akechi. I had fun!” He smiled again. 

The same bright, radiant smile that made Goro’s heart smile right back. “A shame. Well, we can always spend more time together later.” He wanted to make another move. Take a chance. Do something to show his friendship. Right. They were friends. This would be fine. “See you around, Yuuki.” 

Did he really just- Hearing Akechi say his name made his whole face almost glow red. “R-right uh- yeah! See you later Ake- Goro.” He turned around and booked it before he could say something stupid or embarassing. Are we really on a first name basis with Goro Akechi now?! He thought about it for the rest of the night, nearly screwing up cooking, unable to focus on homework, staying up just thinking about the way Goro said his name, with that lovely smile and sweet voice. Why did his heart race so much? Why did he feel so warm? Was this what it felt like to- Don’t even finish that thought. This is nothing like that. He’s your friend. Nothing more than that. 

Their friendship grew from there, from lunches and movies and quiet walks, to sleepovers and Yuuki’s house (Goro wasn’t exactly comfortable inviting Yuuki to his own place) where they would stay up all night playing video games. They learned a bit more about each other, their hopes and dreams, their favorite things, even a few secrets (though nothing too serious, just silly things like Goro’s fear of heights and Yuuki’s plushie collection). They were friends, and they acknowledged that much. But there was a certain aching to their friendship. 

A feeling that sprouted when one of them looked at the other for too long. A certain tension after they shared a good laugh together. The way their skin burned if they accidentally touched. The way they hesitated before parting ways. They both knew what the feeling was. Each knew how he felt, but refused to admit it, even to himself. They were friends. That was all they were and all they’d ever be. Nothing more. 

Nothing would change that. 

Nothing, except things changing. 

Goro should have seen this coming. The injuries, the way Yuuki never seemed to want to talk about practice... Of course the coach was abusing his students. But the way it came forward... These Phantom Thieves... They were a bump in his plans, a thorn in his side... But Yuuki was of course completely enthralled. And he made sure Goro knew it. In return, Goro let Yuuki know how much he disliked them. They were dangerous criminals with unknown methods. They needed to be stopped, not celebrated. 

Just like that, things changed.

What were once fun, enjoyable outings turned into hushed arguments and a tense awkwardness. Sleepovers turned into shouting matches that ended in Goro stomping home. Before long, the sleepovers stopped. Then the outings. Then messages and meeting at the station. The Phantom Thieves but a rift between the two of them. Just another reason for Goro to despise everything about them. They ruined everything. He was supposed to be Yuuki’s hero, not them. Yuuki was supposed to admire him and treasure him and-

And love him.

He-

He just wanted Yuuki to love him.

The Phantom Thieves took everything from him. 

He would see to their end. 

Yuuki sighed as he flipped through his phone’s gallery. He used up all his space on gacha games and music, so it was time to do a photo cleanup. A picture of notes for a long past test, a video he had no recollection of recording, some selfies that were rather embarrassing... And one that made him freeze completely. The selfie that started what ended up being a painful friendship. 

He stared for a bit. Goro’s handsome princely smile he put on for his fans was one thing, but the genuine smile he had when watching Featherman, or laughing at one of Yuuki’s jokes, that stuck in his mind more than the one in the image in front of him. He still didn’t understand so much about how their friendship ended. How could he call the Phantom Thieves a threat? How could he not see how much happier Yuuki was without that bastard of a coach around to ruin his life? Did he expect Yuuki to just put up with that treatment until high school was over? He didn’t understand it at all. And yet somehow, he couldn’t bring himself to be completely hate Goro. In fact, a part of him still- 

He still- 

He still adored Goro.

He looked at the picture again and sighed. 

Delete image?

>Yes / No

[quinnie666]

Stranger Things (spoilers!)

Imagine (pt.2)

All the adults witnwssing Jane for the first time, watching her beat Henry's ass in a final battle I want to happen, Mr. Clark remembering her face from a few years ago. "Wheeler? How did your second niece get telekinesis?" And Karen being SO CONFUSED like "no we don't have a second niece. I'm an only child." And then Clark realising that he's been lied to by his fav kids and omg I wanna see this so badly

Mr. Clark being VERY interested in Jane's life, diet and powers because he found out that she has more powers than just telekinesis, asking her a lot more questions than Argyle did when he was intrigued

All the religious people in Hawkins (most of them ig. It's a small community and population. It only makes sense) thinking that Jane is a goddess that has been "sent down from God himself", and Jane asking "Who tf is God?" "Oh you don't know him? You're not a goddess?" "What the hell is a goddess?" And them realising that Jane's powers may be godlike, but she's nothing more or less than a (literally) powerful human

You know the way Vecna can make you see things just so he can taunt you until he kills you? Imagine Jane doing the same thing, except she's not trying to taunt or kill anyone, and uses it instead to make them witness right in front of them Jane's life, and how she was "raised" at the lab, the massacre, how Vecna was created, etc.

[viiridiangreen]

idk who or what we pissed off but my bf found a Goddamn Kissing Bug (the one that uhh can give u chagas) in the kitchen last night & i just went into the bathroom w/o glasses or shoes on (which i never do except the  aforementioned Encounter resulted in a Freakout-À Deux-During-The-Wee-Hours & i woke up more zombie-like than usual) & found + killed a scorpion while retaining it within the depth of field in which i can Sorta See Stuff which is like?? ~1m

so like PLS Fucking Reveal Yrself, Entity. What The Fuck Do You Want From Us??????

fucking uhhh,, cw abuse & suicide ideation ig??

SPOILER ALERT the ‘entity’ is prolly just crapitalism lol

like i fucking LOVE how this place went from ‘uncomfy. cold all the fucking time. nonoptional to wear thee warmest clothing i own at all times indoors. the gas installation might fucking kill us & the electricity is frankenstein’d into our neighbour’s circuitry which means we have to coordinate our microwave use so as to not blow a fuse every time we go to make some instant ramen’ to ‘oh shit. the unreal saturation of dust in the air from the unsealed walls + floor + ceiling might be triggering bf’s debilitating eye problem which has prevented him from doing Any paid work or housework for nearly three goddamn years!’ (which has meant eating thru any semblance of savings & relying on my comical ass “””income””” from commissions which i’m working on revamping so i can have some remote hope of continuing to make Some money while i study when i go back to uni in january.... but realistically bf needs to be functional enough to go wait tables so we can still afford to eat & keep the lights on) which would make sense bc he started suffering from this when we lived at his dad’s which is  a Similarly shoddily built / unfinished place....... (bc proto-fil directed the construction of his house & revamped this appt out of a space Not Intended For Habitation in the building his dad had made... which he inhabited when it was Shittier By Several Orders Of Magnitude.... Somehow).... and continued during the year we spent in a drafty ass house with a garden around it / field beside it which would mean Hella Pollen........ and is at its absolute worst now that we’re in Dustnado 3: Oh Hell No

& NOW... within 24 hrs of his tentative dust allergy diagnosis.... we’re at ‘lol. lmao. there’s a nonzero chance we’ve contracted or are in danger of contracting a life-altering disease bc of how objectively crap the living conditions are here. but there’s a ZERO chance of explaining this to the man responsible bc we don’t pay him enough or have a contract which would require him to take this remotely seriously. & we can’t Flee Screaming bc of poverty derived from the aforementioned bf’s disability which followed a solid year & a half of us working our asses off just to hand the entirety of our earnings over as Rent for the single room within proto-FIL’s house we occupied as a way to get me out of my abusive ass family which had me fearing for my physical safety. which we couldn’t explain bc the man in question suffered child abuse & dealt with it by beating his own kid & denying the existence of domestic abuse entirely while actively recounting horrific instances of it as Funny Anecdotes That Are OK To Tell At Dinner & Totally Won’t Trigger The Shit Out Of Both Traumatised Young Adults Whomst I’m Forcing To Sit And Do Emotional Labour For Me As Part Of The Compensation I Extort Out Of Them For Housing.... One Of Whom I Directly Traumatised... Which Is OK Bc I Have FORGIVEN MYSELF For It’

& like again. we agreed to pay a Very reduced rate for this place & Haven’t paid directly bc we’ve been putting money into the house Indirectly via getting bf’s mom (who’s Extremely divorced from his dad since bf was a toddler) & her side of the family to put money into de-shittifying the place a little bit............

but like. the man’s INTENT was to rent this absolute shithole out Commercially, to Strangers, for a goddamn Premium price of CATORCE MIL PESOS MEXICANOS which is uhhh like $700. Which is like what slightly smaller but much better equipped much newer much SAFER apartments cost in Nice Neighbourhoods downtown while this is a veritable fucking Death Trap in the boondocks....................................

if this were the US we’d sue the man for all he’s ‘worth’

but bc we’re poor in the 3rd world we’re gonna have to be content with like. a blood test for Chagas Disease™ and a mosquito net for the bed

& it’s bonkers bc by some metrics we’re still Absolutely lucky & privileged but like. i’m still exhausted & scared shitless & slightly fucking Enraged :)

if i had any brains at all i’d have gotten it thru my thick skull by now that poverty & the bullshit associated w/ it is fucking inescapable & would just.... accept bf’s suggestions to sid & nancy out of this. but i’m an idiot & want to keep trying for some incomprehensible nonsense reason :)))))