#sphihnxxii talkin

[5thfauxsphihnxx]

Sometimes the poems are so quiet under the yearning that they are whispers even to me.

They were never loud until offered at least another pair of ears.

I want to froth and rave on my own. Why must I crave an audience? I can live with being horny but this? It's a bit much. Just a bit. But softcore hell is just the VIP section of the same old club. This is torture. This is in its own, insignificant way kinda gratuitous.

I wonder what sick fuck is watching.

I am mad enough to bite God.

Howling at both illuminaries like a mad lycanthrop. Hopped up on coke and brain swiss cheesed by some form of novel prion and circadian rhythms and common sense all but obliterated. Completely annihilated.

And yet I am undying. I DO still howl, still hunt...i am still a wolf despite every attempt to dog me. But IS that good?

I don't know.

Can you tell me?

[sphihnxxii]

AYE

WHO WAS GONNA INFORM ME THAT JOJI AND FILTHY FRANK ARE THE SAME FUCKER?

WHY WAS I NOT TOLD?

[sphihnxxii]

Combine the two! Dress yourself in riddles. Choose motifs and colors that correspond with concepts you believe you embody! Analyse yourself to decide these elements and to develop and change them accordingly. You'll never get it perfect. So embrace that. Evolve. choose what you'll twist, improve, change, or embrace and augment. Engage with metaphors, riddles, and symbolism directly!!!

The conceptual and the concrete need not always be separate! Design your image. create yourself. Imagine the possibilities.

[5thfauxsphihnxx]

watching House of 1000 Corpses. I have some thoughts an opinions

[5thfauxsphihnxx]

I'm a fraud

these aren't really poems these are songs

But im too damn embarrassed to get on with it

I feel counterfeit

can't seem too commit

But refuse to quit

man I suck

[5thfauxsphihnxx]

okay so what if there was a show and it's kinda like power rangers but it's aimed at adults and instead of their suits being colorful gimpwear they're literally just fur suits but the fur suits give them the abilities of the animal or made up creature they are.

[sphihnxxii]

My twilight phase was listening to critics tear it apart while not fly caring, (except) loving the goofy actual teenager in the background that was Eric from the first movie, and scratching my head at the fact that my dad, a black man who consumed mostly action and gangster movies and grew up in LA in the 80sish time frame bought ALL 4 MOVIES and like... im glad he's consuming lots of different media and finding new ways to entertain himself as an adult but like.....i still want answers....who is your favorite character father? What made you even pic this up?? Sir....enlighten me plz...

why everybody be tryna act like they didn’t have a twilight phase

[5thfauxsphihnxx]

I want to travel

I want to just pack my car and GO

Where are the sandhill cranes this time of year?

I want to see cranes

To see herons

To stretch my wings as they stretch theirs

I want to see Sacramento again

I want to chase the sunset and visit my aunt briefly by dusk

I want to bathe in the glow of the streetlight that once told me when I better be home

I want to catch up with the trees in the yards and parks that I whispered my good mornings and childhood secrets to

I want to stomp around on long walks and laugh loud with my old friends

I just want to lay on top of my car for a few minutes and stare at the sky from those exact places for a little while

It will be different

But it will help me remember

It will preserve and keep lit the important parts

I don't know where home is now

But I want to visit where home was

I need to always remember what I am looking for

[5thfauxsphihnxx]

I may or may not be moving to fucking hawaii

Wtf

[sphihnxxii]

When are cherries in season? I've never really thought about cherries at length but for a few days noenive had a mighty need and I can't find not nary one! Where the cherries?

[sphihnxxii]

.....yo I would be mad uncomfortable if the model wasn't black???

Is this just me???

Does anyone else see this tshirt????

Nobody Cares Keep Working T-Shirt

[sphihnxxii]

I think Death Grips is part of my self care routine now aparently.

[sphihnxxii]

The same bee just tried to fly up my skirt 3 times.....

[sphihnxxii]

It's my burfday

https://www.instagram.com/p/B4t6ygmAKny/

[sphihnxxii]

Im hella mad nobody told me about Body Count as a kid!!!! WTF!!!!

Ice T was in a band.

It's good.

This was exactly the fucking vibe I was on for years.

And no body told me!

[sphihnxxii]

Are there any other black girls who are as into Deftones, cooking, and music theory as I am i need a girlfriend