#spare soft jm feelings? spare some soft jm feelings anyone????

[kalgalen]

It feels strange, not to be on the road already. Like they're not where they should be. It's not like the situation can get any worse, though, and they might as well be properly prepared for what's to come.

So Martin is packing their bags while Jon stares out of the window, absently combing his fingers through his long hair. It's grown dramatically during his coma, and it's not like he'd have had the time to get it professionally cut afterwards. Martin thinks it's gorgeous, of course; black interlaced with strands of silver, silky and thick - he almost wants to stop what he's doing to reach out, replace Jon's fingers with his own.

And then he remembers he can now, so he does just that.

Jon blinks out of his reverie, and his eyes are severe when he turns them on Martin (ringed in that unsettling bright green, still) until he fully comes back to himself. Then he smiles and sighs, leans into the touch like a cat.

"Alright?" Martin asks softly.

"Hm," says Jon pensively. "You like my hair like it is, don't you?"

Martin nods. "I do, yes. You look very -" pretty "- regal with longer hair."

Jon's smile grows fonder in a way that lets Martin know he has Heard the unsaid word. Martin refuses to be embarrassed, but he still feels himself blush a little.

"Shut up," he mutters, and Jon chuckles, and for a blessed couple of seconds everything is right in the world.

Then Jon says: "I want to cut it."

"Cut it?"

"Mhm. If we're going to trek across the apocalypse, I should have a practical haircut. Will you take care of it?"

"Of course," Martin says.

Jon smiles warmly. "Thank you. I think I saw scissors in a kitchen drawer."

+

They decide to wash his hair first. Martin offers to do it - perhaps because Jon looks so tired, or maybe just - because he wants to. The shampoo smells like pear and chemicals; he rubs it in Jon's hair slowly after having dampened it with warm water, and Jon's eyes drift shut as his face relaxes.

"Good?" Martin asks quietly.

Jon hums. "Perfect."

It feels incredibly intimate: the two of them in the bathroom, bent over the tub, Martin's sleeves rolled up, Jon's glasses left on the edge of the sink, Martin's fingers carefully massaging Jon's scalp . The quiet is far from comfortable - the weight on their shoulders is too heavy for it to be - but it isn't exactly painful either; it's the calm before the storm, the last chance they have to experience a semblance of normalcy.

Jon sighs in contentment, and it's with regrets that Martin pulls away, grabbing once again the shower head to rinse off the suds.

+

There is indeed a pair of scissors in the kitchen. It looks old but sharp - of course Daisy would be keeping her blades in impeccable condition. Jon sits on one of the wooden chairs, a towel around his shoulders, and looks expectantly at Martin. Martin shuffles awkwardly on his feet, fiddling with the scissors.

"So," he grimaces, "is this a good time to tell you I've never given someone else a haircut?"

Jon laughs. "That's quite alright, Martin. I'm not asking for much anyway, just - cut it all off."

"All?"

Nod. "Yes."

He sounds so sure of himself, and for a moment Martin wonders if that's not his way to recover some amount of control over his life, no matter how small. Then he shrugs.

"That, I should be able to manage."

He gets to work, methodically clipping the long locks despite the tiny pinch in his heart every time he sees one fall to the floor. It's almost soothing, the snip-snip-snip of the scissors as he makes his way up and down Jon's head; again, he thinks of a better universe in which they get to do this in their own tiny London apartment, without the pressure of an ended world to keep them on their toes. It sounds cliché even to his own mind, but he wishes this moment could last forever.

But - as all good things do - it finally comes to an end. Jon's hair is short, shorter than Martin has ever seen it, but the smile on Jon's face as he runs a hand across his shorn head confirms that it's exactly what he wanted.

He gets up, shaking off the pieces of hair clinging to his clothes, and puts the towel on the back of his chair. Then he turns toward Martin, and throws his arms around his shoulders.

"Thank you," he murmurs in Martin's neck. "Thank you."

Martin hugs back, and holds him as if this is the last chance he has to do so.

"Of course. Anytime."

[akookminsupporter]

I asked my siblings who don’t know anything about BTS aside from a chorus of a song or two, some Jikook questions, and they both ended with: Yes. — To my 23yo brother I asked: “If you had two friends you thought were dating but weren’t really sure, and one got the others initials tatted on his hand yet never confirmed it, even though people call that friend by his initials often, would you feel like it’s a confirmation anyway?” His answer, “Yeah, I’d think they were fu*king.” 1/5

I then asked my 28yo married sister: “If you had a friend who took you on a birthday trip somewhere you really wanted to go, filmed it, and then made a video to an objectively romantic song that showcases only you in the video smiling and enjoying your time, would you think they were in love with you?” Her answer: “Yes, I’d think they liked as me more than a friend.” I also asked the same sister about Rosebowl. 2/5

I said, “If your friend was sad, would you comfort them by sucking on their ear?” Her answer: “Uh... not ear sucking (awkward face emoji.)” — Of course none of this proves anything, and as I am Western our social norms will be slightly different, but romantic/questionable actions are pretty much universal. I even told my siblings who I was talking about (As in told them the guys in question are super famous) and their answers didn’t change. 3/5

Apologies for this being so many parts as well. I simply wanted to point out that if “anti” fans took away the blinders, Jimin and Jungkook’s actions don’t necessarily scream platonic when you add up multiple situations. Again, outside opinions do not equal fact, but it’s crazy how much people would rather brush it all away as delusions or fan service, when if we weren’t discussing famous people or two men, the assumption would be clear. 4/5

And before anyone says anything, I do believe men should be able to be soft and even mushy with their male friends. They should be able to give grand gesture gifts and so on, but JM and JK don’t really seem to fall into “just friends.” In contrast the other members often do sweet things for each other, but those moments don’t hold the same weight. Even their reactions to Jikook differ from how they look at and talk to/about one another. Jikook’s behavior isn’t isolated, it’s overarching. 5/5

“Jikook’s behavior isn’t isolated, it’s overarching.”

I did this same exercise with my sister-in-law and several of my friends. I basically read them this list I made of things that Jimin and Jungkook have done together or for each other in their spare time. Then I told them some things that they have done or said during"working hours" as I like to call them. The difference is that I didn't tell them that these were famous people. I told them they were hypothetical cases. The conclusions they came to were the same as your siblings. They are a couple o want to be a couple.

I asked my friend if she wouldn't be able to do all that for her friend (me), her best friend! Her answer: Rosie, I love you, but not that much💀😂.

My sister-in-law told me that she wasn't even sure if she would do some of those things for my brother💀💀💀😭

[kookmin1913]

Questions Asked and Answered

So I stated a couple of days ago that I was sent several questions in my DM, and I would work on getting responses to them.  Well here is that post.  This may end up being a long post.  Please bare with me and keep in mind, that the answers to some of these questions are strictly my thoughts and opinions.  Let’s get started.

1. How old are you?  

I am over the age of 30

2. Where are you from?  

Texas

3. How long have you been Army?  

May 2018

4. Will you strictly be a Jikook blog?  

Yes most content and blog related posts will be Jikook.  I will probably still share OT7 videos or pictures, but mainly Jikook or Kookmin, whichever you prefer to go by.

5. Who is your bias and why?  

Jimin.  At first he stood out to me because of his dancing  watching the MV’s, when I originally started following and learning about BTS.  As a person with a dance background, I always noticed that about him first.  He is such a powerful performer.  As i continued to learn more about him through the eyes of the members and himself, I just fell in love with what he seemed to be as a person. Beyond him being a talented singer and dancer, he just appeared to be a genuinely nice guy.  He was always smiling and laughing with the members and being very supportive of everything they did.  You don’t find many people who are as nice as JM seemed, but the members have all talked about how JM is one of the nicest people to everyone, and that he is the member they can lean on the most when things get hard and how he is such a great listener.  This is just a little bit of why I love him as my bias. 

6. Who is your bias wrecker and why?  

Jungkook.  I pretty much noticed him the same way I started with JM with the dancing and performance and then his voice stood out of course.  As I started following them more, started to feel like JK is a little like me.  I can appear cold to be people at first, because I can be quite shy initially getting to know you and I can have a hard time opening up.  But in my own time, I slowly drop my walls to let people into my world, and they find that i can be the sweetest person in the world.  I felt that JK was a lot like that.  He finds it hard to let you in, but once he does, he goes all in.

7. What made you start shipping Jikook? 

Let me first say that I don’t ship them, I support them, as I believe they are in a romantic relationship with each other.  GCF Tokyo is what made me start supporting them.  As I mentioned in my “New Kookmin Blogger” post, I was introduced to shipping first through Taekook.  I watched quite a few videos of them, but I honestly never saw anything romantic or sexual in nature with their interaction as the analysis videos always tried to imply.  I was being told by TK shippers that I should stick with this ship and that JK actually hates JM.

So one day, the GCF Tokyo video popped up in my YouTube recommendations to watch, so I clicked on it and watched.  By the end of the video, i was sitting there looking with big wide eyes at what i just watched, slightly misty eyed and smiling ear to ear all at the same time. I thought to myself at that point, who in the world makes a video like that for someone they supposedly hate?  I know I wouldn’t do it.  Then I found out that JK actually PLANNED and PAID for trip as an actual birthday gift for JM.  At that moment I was like, this is NOT how you treat someone you hate. So I started searching for Jikook content and it lead me to seeing several things that I hadn’t seen from the other ship videos that I had been shown.

The subtle looks between the two: I know that all the members have looked at each other before, however, there was certainly a different vibe I felt when JK looked at JM and vice versa.  For JM, there always seemed to be a fondness in his eye for JK, like he just wanted to wrap him in arms and give JK all the hugs, cuddles, and kisses he could muster.  For JK, his eyes literally light up when looking at JM, whether he’s intently listening to JM talk during ending ments at concerts or just generally being silly, JK seems to melt into a puddle of love goo.  LOL!  They both smile and laugh at anything the other does, even when it’s not a moment they should.  Their eyes are always searching for the other.  It doesn’t matter if they are sitting side by side or far apart from each other, it’s almost as if they crave looking at each other like it brings them peace or calmness.  

Both JK and JM’s submission/softness for each other: I’m not talking in a physical/sexual sense.  The members have all stated how both JM and JK can be stubborn and strong willed.  JK himself has stated, that he could be very selfish.  What’s mine is mine and what’s yours in mine. They are both extremely competitive by nature, but when it comes to each other, they both seem to toss all of that out of the door and flush it down a drain somewhere, because JK will do just about anything that JM ask of him without much fuss, compared to what we see sometimes with the other members.  In addition, JM may be older, but he willingly relinquishes some control over to JK as well by expressing how much he feels protected by JK, which I think allows JK to not feel like the “baby” in the relationship.  We all know JM is quite capable of protecting himself, but by showing that vulnerable side to JK, it allows some of JK’s natural protectiveness to shine.  JK and JM can be quite loud and boisterous when talking to the other member, they both get this quiet softness in their tone of voice when they are speaking to each other, like they don’t want anyone else to invade the conversation meant for just them.  

How the members react to the Jikook:  They always seem to be monitoring what they will do or say around each other.  They seem paranoid sometimes or literally end up just separating them by giving a look, or a tap on the shoulder, etc. for them to not cross some imaginary line we can’t see.  The members facial reactions during interviews and concerts. They literally have the “please don’t say that” or “here we go again” faces.  It’s also how the members defer to JM or JK when it comes to the other.  For instance Burn the Stage when JK was on the verge of exhaustion and JM was the only who stayed in the room with medical staff or recently from the behind scenes Paris DVD, it was JM yet again with JK getting his stitches removed by medical staff. Of course, this doesn’t mean the other members don’t care, because we know they do.  It just appears to me that members seem to naturally let JM and JK take care of each other in these types of moments.

Talking about one another in interviews: I always find it interesting they always seem to bring the other up during an interview. Always talking about the infamous GCF Tokyo trip, or answering questions with each other’s names. They never seem to be far from the other’s mind which i love seeing.  In the recent Japanese interview, it was asked, “What’s the moment you feel connected to a member”, and JK literally said, “When my eyes naturally connect with JM’s” he feels connected, like WTF? JM saying in an interview once, how he tends to hold everything internally, but that if it wasn’t for JK noticing this and always coming to do something to make him laugh, he would just hold it until he probably explodes.  

Whole host of other reasons that I won’t discuss in this post because this is already hella long and i haven’t gotten through all the questions. 

7. Do you hate Taekook?  

No. I hate toxic TK shippers.  I hate those shippers who like to make JM the evil person who is supposedly coming in between Tae and JK, or when they make JK the vile person who is always hurting Tae trying to make him jealous by hanging out with JM, which then leaves Tae as this sad person who’s miserable all the time.  These boys all love each other. I also dislike toxic Jikook shippers as well. Like I’ve said before, you can feel free to ship who you want to ship, but you don’t have the right to spew hatred to other members in support of it.

8.  Why don’t you believe Taekook is real? They have touchy moments, plus a lot of off cam content.  

I think Tae and JK are close friends.  I don’t see any romantic attraction or feelings between the two. All the boys are touchy with each other, especially Tae in my opinion.  He appears to be someone who shows affection to whoever is near him. He’s an affectionate guy which we love.  The off cam thing I truly don’t understand because ANY moment we get to see of the boys is literally on cam.  If it’s off cam how do you know what the boys do in their spare time, unless they post it or tell us themselves later on. The only off cam stuff we get is when they are caught out in public by fans, like the Jikook “dates”, when they hung out in L.A, Paris, went ice skating, dinner, etc. those are considered off cam moments.  

9.  Why does BH hide Taekook with Jikook?

I REALLY DON’T UNDERSTAND this line of thinking.  So BH is hiding one gay relationship with another gay relationship? That’s not hiding anything, because there are still two people being exposed with JK as the common denominator between the two ships. So JK and JM expose themselves as the gay couple to hide Tae and JK’s gay relationship.  Somebody please make this make sense. So in my opinion NO, BH isnt’ pursuing some Jikook agenda to hide TK contrary to what most TK shippers would like to believe.  If JK and JM are together all the time, it is because they CHOOSE to be with each other.  End of story!

Well that was all the questions i received.  Thanks to those who messaged me.  I hope i was able to convey my thoughts decently.  As I stated before, these are my opinions and you do not have to agree, but please be respectful.

That’s it for now.  Please feel free to send asks to my inbox.  

[itsthebeckyzone]

"No, thank you, op."

It feels strange, not to be on the road already. Like they’re not where they should be. It’s not like the situation can get any worse, though, and they might as well be properly prepared for what’s to come.

So Martin is packing their bags while Jon stares out of the window, absently combing his fingers through his long hair. It’s grown dramatically during his coma, and it’s not like he’d have had the time to get it professionally cut afterwards. Martin thinks it’s gorgeous, of course; black interlaced with strands of silver, silky and thick - he almost wants to stop what he’s doing to reach out, replace Jon’s fingers with his own.

And then he remembers he can now, so he does just that.

Jon blinks out of his reverie, and his eyes are severe when he turns them on Martin (ringed in that unsettling bright green, still) until he fully comes back to himself. Then he smiles and sighs, leans into the touch like a cat.

“Alright?” Martin asks softly.

“Hm,” says Jon pensively. “You like my hair like it is, don’t you?”

Martin nods. “I do, yes. You look very -” pretty “- regal with longer hair.”

Jon’s smile grows fonder in a way that lets Martin know he has Heard the unsaid word. Martin refuses to be embarrassed, but he still feels himself blush a little.

“Shut up,” he mutters, and Jon chuckles, and for a blessed couple of seconds everything is right in the world.

Then Jon says: “I want to cut it.”

“Cut it?”

“Mhm. If we’re going to trek across the apocalypse, I should have a practical haircut. Will you take care of it?”

“Of course,” Martin says.

Jon smiles warmly. “Thank you. I think I saw scissors in a kitchen drawer.”

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