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http-peachjimin · 6 years ago

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Unrequited

7: Run

You woke up, a crick in your neck and soreness between your legs. You felt stiff as a board and everything seemed to hurt, including your head.

Although it was fall, you felt oddly warm. Why had you been outside anyway? You couldn't remember. Finally mustering the strength to sit up you realized you were naked and on the roof of your and Jimin's favourite hang out spot.

It didn't occur to you what had happened until Jimin sat up as well rubbing his sleepy eyes.

He was naked. You were naked.

No, it couldn't have been, this is impossible...

That's why your parts hurt...

Fuck.

FUCK!

"Ahhh!!!" You screamed, it all clicking to you.

"Y/N?! Why are you naked?!"

"Why are you naked!?" You retorted.

"Well 'cause I.... I can't remember."

You saw the gears in his head turn. Even though you had already figured it out it was too embarrassing to tell him.

"No. W-we didn't do this...right?" He asked confused.

You pointed to your still sticky stomach.

"Unfortunately...the evidence is still here." You cringed, not wanting to touch it.

"Well at least I know how to fucking pull out I guess. For fucks sake... This is bad. Really bad." He grumbled running a stressed hand through his brown hair.

"We have class! Shit what time is it?" You questioned rushing to put your clothes back on.

"Forget it. It's twelve thirty already. There's no point." Jimin stated.

"Do you know how bad this is gonna look?! They're gonna think we fucked!" You cried.

"Technically we did..." He mumbled.

"I know that Jimin! God what am I gonna do? Cheol-min will kill me." You stated.

"Why do you even care about him?" Jimin mumbled under his breath.

"The fuck do you mean?! I cheated on him!" You yelled at Jimin.

"I mean yeah but... You weren't happy with him anyway." He stated.

Had he lost his mind?!

"Jimin!!! I'm a fucking cheater! It doesn't matter that my boyfriend is an asshat! I'm still in the wrong! I'm- I can't, I gotta go get my underwear, I'll be back.

You walked down the old stairs and put on your underwear and pants finally being fully dressed.

Once that was done, you went back to Jimin.

"I'm sorry for speaking nonsense. This really is juat a big mess isn't it?" He chuckled awkwardly.

"It's okay let's just go so that-"

"Freeze!"

You both jumped, almost falling through the hole in the roof.

"You're on private property and you both are supposed to be in school!" The cop yelled at you both.

"We're sorry! We'll be down immediately!" You called.

You pulled Jimin through the hole and down the stairs.

"You kids are in big trouble. What made you think it was okay to skip school? You're Park Jimin and Y/N Y/L, right?"

You nodded and gulped.

"You're looking at... three days of suspension for the both of you." The officer threatened.

Jimin bit his lip and darted his eyes from the cop, to the outstreching road, to his silver vehicle.

Making his final decision, he took your hand and squeezed.

"RUN!!!!" He yelled.

You both bolted down the street and took off.

The cop tried to chase after you but by the time he'd gotten into his vehicle you had shuffled down an ally, making him loose your path.

You panted looking at Jimin.

"W-what the fuck was that for?"

"He can't prove it if he doesn't have us." The boy replied.

"Why would it even matter? We've been suspended before." You pointed out.

You and Jimin used to be a bit more wild in your sophomore days.

"If you wanna go to prom, you can't have any offenses, and I didn't pay 150 dollars for a dress to not fucking go." He grumbled.

What about Jiae? I thought he'd be going to her, not the money he spent on her dress.

Maybe you were over thinking it.

"Come on, we've been here for a solid half hour. I'm sure the cop is gone." He stated and tugged you with him back to his car.

The cop gave Jimin a ticket which he begrudgingly intended to pay and went on his merry way not wanting to deal with two rebel teens.

"I'll drop you at home." Jimin said breaking the silence that had been suffocating you two.

"No. I can't go. I cant go home he'll kill me for sure." You sighed.

"Well... You're welcome at my place, but I cant guarantee it'll be peaceful either."

You nodded.

"What are we gonna do? We either divise a plan or come clean..." You mumbled.

For you, coming clean was hardly even an option. No way in hell were you going to subject yourself to that demon you called your boyfriend.

On the other hand Jimin already got enough yapping as it was. He couldn't stand to hear another jealous, venom coated, envious word come out of her mouth about you nor your relationship.

"So what's the plan?" He questioned, already knowing which route you had chosen.

"I don't know but all that alcohol on an empty stomach is making me-" You bolted out of Jimin's car and got sick in the grass.

"Making me sick. I was going to say making me sick." You complained, the killer headache overtaking you.

"That's it! You got sick!"

"Yeah asshole, as if you didn't just see me puke on an ant hill." You grumbled, making your way back to the carseat.

"No I mean, I'll say I arrived late to school and saw you running in the girl's bathroom and a wretching noise soon after. And since your parents don't live with you, I decided as your bestfriend to take care of you." He stated his well formulated plan.

"Okay, so what do we do right now?" You asked still burbbleing on the verge of vomiting once more.

"I get you to my place. You are sick after all. And I really would like you to not throw up in my car." He chuckled pulling out of his space.

Once there, Jimin carried you inside, grateful you didn't blow chuncks in his vehicle and safely put you on the couch, with a clean garbage bin of course.

Jimin, although it may not seem like it from his small stature, was really good at holding his alcohol, even if he drank to much.

You on the other hand wanted to be that one hard chick that could down 50 vodka shots and not be phased. But that wasn't the case. You were the queen of weak stomachs, always claiming you could handle more when you knew you'd regret it later.

"How ya doing sweetheart?" Jimin asked, coming to check on you after everything had been settled.

"Three words. Kill me now." You sighed.

"Well I have a couple pain killers for you. And some ginger ale. Hopefully that will pick you up." He offered.

You nodded as he guided you to sit up. You threw the two pills back and quickly drank the soda to wash them down.

The ginger helped soothe your stomach and you were soon back to chuckling at shows on Netflix, all while lying down of course. You didn't want to push your luck with the nausea.

Jimin had allowed you to borrow his spare charger and you phone had finally lit up.

15 text from Minnie

2 missed calls from Minnie

Holy shit were you in for it.

And the last two texts scared you.

You're over his house aren't you?

I'm coming, this is the last time I'll catch you cheating Y/N.

Tears sprung from your eyes. The way he typed that, you knew he was going to be ruthless and not just verbally any more. Most importantly, at least in your eyes, he was going to hurt Jimin. You were the target, he was the obsticle. You couldn't let that happen so you picked up you thing and bolted towards the door.

"Y/N? Where are you going?" He asked tenderly grabbing your sleeve.

"I can't stay here, he'll hurt you too! Don't follow me please!" You begged.

You dashed out the door, Jimin chasing after you. You weren't sure where you were going but you knew it had to be alone.

Let’s run run run again! I can’t stop running

Let’s run run run again! I can’t help running

Only thing I can do is run

Only thing I can do is love you

Jimin was worried sick, you'd turned a sharp corner and he couldn't find you anymore and that's when he began to panic. His house was now far away but it was getting dark and he had to find you before the nasty streets of Seoul did. With all the strength he still had he ran the other direction towards his residence. He'd left his phone and everything at home chasing after you.

Let’s run run run again! It’s ok to be injured

I am happy enough even though I can’t get you

Once he reached his front porch he caught his breath but not for long as he realized he didn't have much time.

He walked in, reached for his phone, and called the police.

They said it would take at least 30 minutes for them to round up a search party, which Jimin was less than pleased with. He wanted to see you. He wanted to know you were safe.

Run... Don’t tell me bye bye Run... You make me cry cry Run... Love is a lie lie Don’t tell me, don’t tell me Don’t tell me bye bye

please be okay

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flower-of-the-desert · 7 years ago

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2x04 Thoughts

This is me trying to keep my cool throughout this episode.

Because FUCK YOU, Aldertree

And fuck the Clave

And fuck every damn shadowhunter out there

And fuck Simon too and his constant whining and total lack of respect for the very people WHO ARE KEEPING HIM ALIVE AND TAKING HIM UNDER THEIR WING WHEN THEY REALLY DONT FUCKING HAVE TO (spoiler alert I’m not talking about Clary here)

Ok but really, these people have their own CREEPY TORTURE CHAMBER WHERE YOU CAN HEAR THE AGONIZED SCREAMS OF THEIR PRISONERS, they literally torture people to get what they want and call it “motivation”, they punish their own people for not BLINDING AND UNCONDITIONALLY OBEYING THE CLAVE, and then someone - either show or fandom or whoever else - has the balls to present them as anything resembling heroes??? Oh no, I am officially DONE with this bullshit.

The Clave and the shadowhunters (INCLUDING THE ONES IN THE OPENING OF THE SHOW) are nothing more than a group of evil racist self-centered dickheads with a superiority complex the size of North America and if the show doesnt bloody address these things at some point, so help me God.

*deep breaths* more under the cut

Now that that’s out of the way, onto the rest of it. I think I’m gonna devide these reviews into three parts - things I liked, things I didnt like and things that flat out made no sense.

Things I liked include:

Magnus, of course (told you to get used to it); all of his scenes in this episode were very nicely done and emotionally-charged with the sprinkles of tragic backstory (though I do have some issues with that but onto it later). His conflict about whether or not to send Camille to Idris was also perfectly handled in my opinion as were their interactions. I loved the detail of him sending Raphael and Simon away so he could deal with her on his own. His bond with Raphael was also lovely to see and hopefully there will be more of it in the coming season.

Camille, however short her visit was, was also a delight. I really enjoy her as a villian, the way she’s not afraid to say what everyone else is too chicken to and the way she can quickly zero in on your weakness and play around with it.

The episode continues to build up my sympathy for Jace which I am very impressed by since I left s01 hating his guts for the most part. But damn if I dont want to give him a hug now. The poor kid tried to kill himself twice in this episode alone and tbh I am starting to understand some of his fans’ complains that this fandom just loves to hate/ignore him for the same things they adore Alec for.

Things I didnt like:

Magnus sharing his suicide story with fucking Simon of all people. WHY?? Just why with him when they barely know each other and Simon has been nothing but an ungrateful brat to him?? Why Simon when RAPHAEL is right there and you’ve just established that he and Magnus shared a very close bond??? I get the writers wanted to reveal this information to the audience but my god, there were so much better ways to do it than bloody Simon. And then they’re gonna try to tell me that Mmagnus sharing his past with Alec is a big deal when he apparently just goes around and tells random semi-strangers about it too? Please, spare me this nonsense.

Speaking of Simon, his constant whining is really getting on my nerves. I get that he’s having a hard time but come the freak on already! He’s being self-centered enough to qualify as a shadowhunter. And I’ll probably never forgive him for getting Raphael into that mess so there’s that.

The... m@lec scene? If you can call it that. What even was that? First Alec has absolutely no reaction to hearing Magnus will be punished for trying to help him and even has the audacity to joke about it and then he goes like oh, btw I tots felt you there with me and it made a difference. Excuse me, what? This is at best a retcon from the previous episode or at worst a lie from Alec in case Magnus doesnt want to sleep with him anymore. Because no, no, at NO point during the previous episode did the show give ANY indication that Alec felt Magnus’s presence and it affected him in any way. They even had the KISSING scene and that DIDNT BLOODY WORK. What nonsense is this now?? If the writers wanted to write in something to acknowledge Magnus’s efforts, fine but why write something that is blatantly not true, damnit???? just twinking the line a bit would have worked perfectly - like have Alec say Izzy told me you tried everything to save me and I’m grateful to you for your efforts or something! Still gets across the same idea but without turning your already assholish asshole into an even bigger asshole by having him blatantly lie to the guy he’s supposedly in love with and/or creating an unnecessary plothole.

Jocelyn not giving a crap about that other kid of hers who is currently locked in jail and suffering. Mother of the year, that one. And Clary not even once bringing up the fact that hey, maybe planning to leave for Idris and take only me is kind of a dickish move towards YOUR SON, REMEMBER HIM?

Luke being willing to leave his pack behind to go bang his shadowhunter girlfriend in Idris. Does... like does Luke remember he’s a werewolf now? An alpha at that? Who supposedly has responsibilities to his pack members and cant just up and abandon them cause he’s more interested in getting laid? If I didnt know any better I’d say he’s your typical shadowhunter. Which, you know, would have made for a very compelling story arc for Luke - having to adjust to a completely new way of life and having to shed all his previous prejudices and misconceptions about what DWs are like and what it means to be one and experiencing life on the other side of the devide, etc. But nooo, we just cant have nice things like that.

Things that didnt make sense:

Izzy suddenly having some sort of resentment towards Alec and thinking he’s the favourite child while she’s living in his shadow? What?

Raj continuing to be a dickhead for no apparent reason?

Clary killing the demon WITH A SINGLE LOUSY SLICE of her sword???

Demons not normally having cloaking abilities? Why? That’s like saying tigers dont have teeth or something.

#my SHS02 posts

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punkscowardschampions · 6 years ago

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Indie & Rio

Indie: what the fuck Rio: he's told you Indie: why didnt you? i gotta hear it from drew when hes casing for you Rio: i hoped he wouldn't, not to save my skin but 'cos you don't need to know, or have that weird on you anymore than you do how drew has been behaving of late esp Rio: i'm sorry Indie: youre gonna try and step to me like this is his wrong Indie: nah youre only sorry he caught you innit Rio: he didnt't need to tell you Rio: it doesn't help you in any way Rio: i'm really not Indie: you know everything about me Indie: everything i do or dont Indie: i thought we had each each other Rio: we do Rio: i was trying to protect you Rio: there was no reason for you to know Indie: nah youve got mckenna & you trying to keep that Indie: i respect it but do i trust it or anything youre saying at me rn Indie: nah Rio: it ain't like that Rio: this doesn't change anything between us, it doesn't have to Indie: how it be then? Indie: how you dont love playing him & drew off against Indie: everybody wanting you Rio: no Rio: i don't love it and i didn't Rio: is that how he's framing it or is that just what you think Indie: thats how hes telling and hes the only one who is Indie: least to me Indie: allow it yeah? just stop Rio: nah because it's not fucking true Rio: why are you suddenly believing him Rio: what, i keep one thing to myself to keep you from the headfuck i'm in and suddenly i'm more unreliable than drew Rio: fuck that Indie: i cant hold this okay Indie: its too heavy Indie: its a madness Indie: i dont know Rio: I know Rio: it's why I didn't say anything Rio: swear on my life Indie: i need to be away from here Indie: if drews gonna be coming around for you then i cant Rio: he shouldn't be, i'll tell him to stop, i never asked him to, believe me Rio: i'll stay away from the flat too, its yours Rio: but if you go away, go to or with your friends, be safe please Indie: and go where mckennas mansion? Indie: is it? Rio: Indie Rio: I'll be with the fam, if you want to find me Indie: safe that you got that like Indie: you know Rio: please stop Rio: you do too Indie: i didn't fucking start did i Indie: never is Indie: im going along Rio: what do you want? Rio: really Indie: allow it man Indie: choices ain't for me Rio: tell me Indie: for? Indie: i cant make him be for me Indie: hes not gonna try and be fam to any least me grown Rio: i know Indie: but he don't lie to me Indie: thats you Rio: i never lied to you Rio: keeping you from hurtful things and uncomfortable shit is what a parent is meant to do Rio: not wallow in his own truth and the inadaquecy in it all and make you pay for it Indie: you arent my ma rio even if thats how he wants you for now Indie: how are you gonna be my sister & not tell me anything of how you are & what you do Rio: i know i'm not Rio: it's just one thing Rio: nothing else has changed, i've still been here Indie: i cant chat on this no more Indie: i have to go Rio: i'm sorry, indie Indie: everyones sorry for me Indie: leave it Rio: nah Rio: shut up Indie: you gonna make me now Indie: is that how its gonna be Rio: if i had any control over that, would've started and ended with drew, alright Rio: you aren't that though, never have been Rio: no charity, just love Rio: so don't be chatting that it's nonsense Indie: i feel it from you Indie: all the love like Rio: you should Rio: cos i do Rio: i'll do better Indie: but i cant Indie: i dont know how to make this better for you Indie: or drew better for anyone Rio: that ain't your job Rio: either of them Indie: it is tho cos hes from me & of me & thats that Rio: he's your dad, and a grown man Rio: also his own person and if he don't wanna fix himself or accept help, then he won't Rio: that's never your fault Indie: nah he aint neither & hes never been Rio: don't take on the responsibility he's refused his whole life, since before you or edie or any of this shit Rio: you can't carry that for him, but it's okay if it gets left where it is, you will be alright, we all will Indie: what else is he about to give me if not that Rio: i know Rio: shit is better than nothing, yeah? Indie: you dont be in the know how he talks to me Indie: what he chats about my ma or yours Indie: id take nothing over it Indie: the mans got jokes, you know Indie: real funny all of it Rio: that's all he's got Rio: why do you think he's with poor fucking ro? Rio: searching for something he reckons he lost but never had, when he's got a fucking kid and that's everything he should be giving anything and everything spare to you Rio: he's the joke Rio: and it ain't funny Indie: he shouldnt get to do her like that or any of them but whos stopping it Rio: I don't know, babe Indie: hes got more than one kid Indie: if your ma cant sort it what are the rest of us looking to do Rio: There's nothing we can do Indie: i cant have it like that when its my life Indie: my mas gone from me & hes looking to take you too Rio: that's never going to happen Rio: not if we don't let it Rio: there's nothing he could do or say to me that's going to change how much i love you Indie: its out there Indie: i dont get one sister already cos of how he be living Rio: He took her from all of us Rio: from herself Rio: and all we can do is feel helpless about it Rio: but we have to stick together, the rest of us Rio: and try for her Indie: i dont know Indie: i dont feel like anything is sticking rn Rio: if you need to go for a bit, literal and mental Rio: do it but i won't let you get lost too Rio: but sometimes its all you can do when its too much, its alright Rio: protect yourself first, that's all i wanted from the off Indie: you reckon you can save me but who will you Indie: mckenna aint the type Rio: I've got me Indie: and you trying to play that you dont lie to me Indie: okay babe Rio: I've got me enough to have you, yeah? Indie: when you slipping as much as me Indie: dont tell me yous down for any of drews ways Indie: all he say but i kno like Indie: he's tripping you Rio: I said Rio: I'll do better Rio: okay Indie: why you gotta be the only one tho Indie: thats what im saying Indie: it's dred on you Rio: 'cos if we're waiting on drew then it ain't happening Indie: youre level & we shouldnt need you to get higher Indie: i shouldnt be asking everything of you cos i cant of him Indie: its not chill Rio: it ain't just me, like you said, ain't your ma Rio: not like there ain't the rest of 'em Rio: we're family, it's what we do Indie: but you are Rio: babe Indie: ive got so much love for you & i want happy for you Indie: but thats not gonna be if i keep bringing him around Indie: so keep distant from me yeah Rio: If it's a choice of you or no you, I'm picking you, no matter who or what comes with that Rio: it isn't a choice to me, or a question Indie: but i dont want it Indie: thats my choice Rio: yeah Rio: okay Indie: ill go there with him and my step ma make it be something and just Rio: you know how i feel and where i stand, the rest is down to you Rio: if that's what you want Indie: its what needs Indie: a thing thats gotta least try to happen Rio: you don't owe him anything Indie: its not for him Rio: you owe me less Rio: all i want is you to be alright Indie: nah Indie: & theres gonna be a fam a younger for me Indie: i gotta do them how you have me Indie: make them alright Indie: its all going on baby Rio: okay Rio: do what you gotta do inds Indie: spy you out & round like Indie: when im not running from the feds thru new ends Rio: yeah, 'course Rio: stay safe and sane Indie: kiss mckenna for me Indie: boy so pretty id risk more Rio: yeah, don't push it, like Indie: only saying baby dont get elevated Rio: as if Indie: gotta live through your risks cos there aint gonna be none for me living under her roof Indie: so dry Rio: that's what you get when you get too elevated Rio: can't beat the 24 Indie: kids need boundaries tho innit my sib gonna be thriving Rio: yeah babe Rio: bet she's read every book about it, gonna ace mumming Indie: like you can go school for it Indie: staying sane gonna be a real stretch i feel Rio: the flat is always gonna be here when you need a break Indie: laters then hoe Rio: in a bit rudegal

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